"\"i can't believe he left like that. after everything we said, after everything we agreed. but he has gone, and i can't find him, and this is too big to deal with alone. i can't blame him more than me, we were both blind to what was happening and we are both guilty, but together we might have started to fix it. i can't see how i can do that alone, here, now. so i don't have an option. it has to end. i have to end it.\\n\""
]
},
"\"i can't believe he left like that. after everything we said, after everything we agreed. but he has gone, and i can't find him, and this is too big to deal with alone. i can't blame him more than me, we were both blind to what was happening and we are both guilty, but together we might have started to fix it. i can't see how i can do that alone, here, now. so i don't have an option. it has to end. i have to end it.\\n\""
]
},