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3 Persuasion
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8 Jane Austen
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10 (1818)
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15 Chapter 1
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18 Sir Walter Elliot, of Kellynch Hall, in Somersetshire, was a man who,
19 for his own amusement, never took up any book but the Baronetage; there
20 he found occupation for an idle hour, and consolation in a distressed
21 one; there his faculties were roused into admiration and respect, by
22 contemplating the limited remnant of the earliest patents; there any
23 unwelcome sensations, arising from domestic affairs changed naturally
24 into pity and contempt as he turned over the almost endless creations
25 of the last century; and there, if every other leaf were powerless, he
26 could read his own history with an interest which never failed. This
27 was the page at which the favourite volume always opened:
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29 "ELLIOT OF KELLYNCH HALL.
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31 "Walter Elliot, born March 1, 1760, married, July 15, 1784, Elizabeth,
32 daughter of James Stevenson, Esq. of South Park, in the county of
33 Gloucester, by which lady (who died 1800) he has issue Elizabeth, born
34 June 1, 1785; Anne, born August 9, 1787; a still-born son, November 5,
35 1789; Mary, born November 20, 1791."
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37 Precisely such had the paragraph originally stood from the printer's
38 hands; but Sir Walter had improved it by adding, for the information of
39 himself and his family, these words, after the date of Mary's birth--
40 "Married, December 16, 1810, Charles, son and heir of Charles Musgrove,
41 Esq. of Uppercross, in the county of Somerset," and by inserting most
42 accurately the day of the month on which he had lost his wife.
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44 Then followed the history and rise of the ancient and respectable
45 family, in the usual terms; how it had been first settled in Cheshire;
46 how mentioned in Dugdale, serving the office of high sheriff,
47 representing a borough in three successive parliaments, exertions of
48 loyalty, and dignity of baronet, in the first year of Charles II, with
49 all the Marys and Elizabeths they had married; forming altogether two
50 handsome duodecimo pages, and concluding with the arms and
51 motto:--"Principal seat, Kellynch Hall, in the county of Somerset," and
52 Sir Walter's handwriting again in this finale:--
53
54 "Heir presumptive, William Walter Elliot, Esq., great grandson of the
55 second Sir Walter."
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57 Vanity was the beginning and the end of Sir Walter Elliot's character;
58 vanity of person and of situation. He had been remarkably handsome in
59 his youth; and, at fifty-four, was still a very fine man. Few women
60 could think more of their personal appearance than he did, nor could
61 the valet of any new made lord be more delighted with the place he held
62 in society. He considered the blessing of beauty as inferior only to
63 the blessing of a baronetcy; and the Sir Walter Elliot, who united
64 these gifts, was the constant object of his warmest respect and
65 devotion.
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67 His good looks and his rank had one fair claim on his attachment; since
68 to them he must have owed a wife of very superior character to any
69 thing deserved by his own. Lady Elliot had been an excellent woman,
70 sensible and amiable; whose judgement and conduct, if they might be
71 pardoned the youthful infatuation which made her Lady Elliot, had never
72 required indulgence afterwards.--She had humoured, or softened, or
73 concealed his failings, and promoted his real respectability for
74 seventeen years; and though not the very happiest being in the world
75 herself, had found enough in her duties, her friends, and her children,
76 to attach her to life, and make it no matter of indifference to her
77 when she was called on to quit them.--Three girls, the two eldest
78 sixteen and fourteen, was an awful legacy for a mother to bequeath, an
79 awful charge rather, to confide to the authority and guidance of a
80 conceited, silly father. She had, however, one very intimate friend, a
81 sensible, deserving woman, who had been brought, by strong attachment
82 to herself, to settle close by her, in the village of Kellynch; and on
83 her kindness and advice, Lady Elliot mainly relied for the best help
84 and maintenance of the good principles and instruction which she had
85 been anxiously giving her daughters.
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87 This friend, and Sir Walter, did not marry, whatever might have been
88 anticipated on that head by their acquaintance. Thirteen years had
89 passed away since Lady Elliot's death, and they were still near
90 neighbours and intimate friends, and one remained a widower, the other
91 a widow.
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93 That Lady Russell, of steady age and character, and extremely well
94 provided for, should have no thought of a second marriage, needs no
95 apology to the public, which is rather apt to be unreasonably
96 discontented when a woman does marry again, than when she does not; but
97 Sir Walter's continuing in singleness requires explanation. Be it
98 known then, that Sir Walter, like a good father, (having met with one
99 or two private disappointments in very unreasonable applications),
100 prided himself on remaining single for his dear daughters' sake. For
101 one daughter, his eldest, he would really have given up any thing,
102 which he had not been very much tempted to do. Elizabeth had
103 succeeded, at sixteen, to all that was possible, of her mother's rights
104 and consequence; and being very handsome, and very like himself, her
105 influence had always been great, and they had gone on together most
106 happily. His two other children were of very inferior value. Mary had
107 acquired a little artificial importance, by becoming Mrs Charles
108 Musgrove; but Anne, with an elegance of mind and sweetness of
109 character, which must have placed her high with any people of real
110 understanding, was nobody with either father or sister; her word had no
111 weight, her convenience was always to give way--she was only Anne.
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113 To Lady Russell, indeed, she was a most dear and highly valued
114 god-daughter, favourite, and friend. Lady Russell loved them all; but
115 it was only in Anne that she could fancy the mother to revive again.
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117 A few years before, Anne Elliot had been a very pretty girl, but her
118 bloom had vanished early; and as even in its height, her father had
119 found little to admire in her, (so totally different were her delicate
120 features and mild dark eyes from his own), there could be nothing in
121 them, now that she was faded and thin, to excite his esteem. He had
122 never indulged much hope, he had now none, of ever reading her name in
123 any other page of his favourite work. All equality of alliance must
124 rest with Elizabeth, for Mary had merely connected herself with an old
125 country family of respectability and large fortune, and had therefore
126 given all the honour and received none: Elizabeth would, one day or
127 other, marry suitably.
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129 It sometimes happens that a woman is handsomer at twenty-nine than she
130 was ten years before; and, generally speaking, if there has been
131 neither ill health nor anxiety, it is a time of life at which scarcely
132 any charm is lost. It was so with Elizabeth, still the same handsome
133 Miss Elliot that she had begun to be thirteen years ago, and Sir Walter
134 might be excused, therefore, in forgetting her age, or, at least, be
135 deemed only half a fool, for thinking himself and Elizabeth as blooming
136 as ever, amidst the wreck of the good looks of everybody else; for he
137 could plainly see how old all the rest of his family and acquaintance
138 were growing. Anne haggard, Mary coarse, every face in the
139 neighbourhood worsting, and the rapid increase of the crow's foot about
140 Lady Russell's temples had long been a distress to him.
141
142 Elizabeth did not quite equal her father in personal contentment.
143 Thirteen years had seen her mistress of Kellynch Hall, presiding and
144 directing with a self-possession and decision which could never have
145 given the idea of her being younger than she was. For thirteen years
146 had she been doing the honours, and laying down the domestic law at
147 home, and leading the way to the chaise and four, and walking
148 immediately after Lady Russell out of all the drawing-rooms and
149 dining-rooms in the country. Thirteen winters' revolving frosts had
150 seen her opening every ball of credit which a scanty neighbourhood
151 afforded, and thirteen springs shewn their blossoms, as she travelled
152 up to London with her father, for a few weeks' annual enjoyment of the
153 great world. She had the remembrance of all this, she had the
154 consciousness of being nine-and-twenty to give her some regrets and
155 some apprehensions; she was fully satisfied of being still quite as
156 handsome as ever, but she felt her approach to the years of danger, and
157 would have rejoiced to be certain of being properly solicited by
158 baronet-blood within the next twelvemonth or two. Then might she again
159 take up the book of books with as much enjoyment as in her early youth,
160 but now she liked it not. Always to be presented with the date of her
161 own birth and see no marriage follow but that of a youngest sister,
162 made the book an evil; and more than once, when her father had left it
163 open on the table near her, had she closed it, with averted eyes, and
164 pushed it away.
165
166 She had had a disappointment, moreover, which that book, and especially
167 the history of her own family, must ever present the remembrance of.
168 The heir presumptive, the very William Walter Elliot, Esq., whose
169 rights had been so generously supported by her father, had disappointed
170 her.
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172 She had, while a very young girl, as soon as she had known him to be,
173 in the event of her having no brother, the future baronet, meant to
174 marry him, and her father had always meant that she should. He had not
175 been known to them as a boy; but soon after Lady Elliot's death, Sir
176 Walter had sought the acquaintance, and though his overtures had not
177 been met with any warmth, he had persevered in seeking it, making
178 allowance for the modest drawing-back of youth; and, in one of their
179 spring excursions to London, when Elizabeth was in her first bloom, Mr
180 Elliot had been forced into the introduction.
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182 He was at that time a very young man, just engaged in the study of the
183 law; and Elizabeth found him extremely agreeable, and every plan in his
184 favour was confirmed. He was invited to Kellynch Hall; he was talked
185 of and expected all the rest of the year; but he never came. The
186 following spring he was seen again in town, found equally agreeable,
187 again encouraged, invited, and expected, and again he did not come; and
188 the next tidings were that he was married. Instead of pushing his
189 fortune in the line marked out for the heir of the house of Elliot, he
190 had purchased independence by uniting himself to a rich woman of
191 inferior birth.
192
193 Sir Walter had resented it. As the head of the house, he felt that he
194 ought to have been consulted, especially after taking the young man so
195 publicly by the hand; "For they must have been seen together," he
196 observed, "once at Tattersall's, and twice in the lobby of the House of
197 Commons." His disapprobation was expressed, but apparently very little
198 regarded. Mr Elliot had attempted no apology, and shewn himself as
199 unsolicitous of being longer noticed by the family, as Sir Walter
200 considered him unworthy of it: all acquaintance between them had
201 ceased.
202
203 This very awkward history of Mr Elliot was still, after an interval of
204 several years, felt with anger by Elizabeth, who had liked the man for
205 himself, and still more for being her father's heir, and whose strong
206 family pride could see only in him a proper match for Sir Walter
207 Elliot's eldest daughter. There was not a baronet from A to Z whom her
208 feelings could have so willingly acknowledged as an equal. Yet so
209 miserably had he conducted himself, that though she was at this present
210 time (the summer of 1814) wearing black ribbons for his wife, she could
211 not admit him to be worth thinking of again. The disgrace of his first
212 marriage might, perhaps, as there was no reason to suppose it
213 perpetuated by offspring, have been got over, had he not done worse;
214 but he had, as by the accustomary intervention of kind friends, they
215 had been informed, spoken most disrespectfully of them all, most
216 slightingly and contemptuously of the very blood he belonged to, and
217 the honours which were hereafter to be his own. This could not be
218 pardoned.
219
220 Such were Elizabeth Elliot's sentiments and sensations; such the cares
221 to alloy, the agitations to vary, the sameness and the elegance, the
222 prosperity and the nothingness of her scene of life; such the feelings
223 to give interest to a long, uneventful residence in one country circle,
224 to fill the vacancies which there were no habits of utility abroad, no
225 talents or accomplishments for home, to occupy.
226
227 But now, another occupation and solicitude of mind was beginning to be
228 added to these. Her father was growing distressed for money. She
229 knew, that when he now took up the Baronetage, it was to drive the
230 heavy bills of his tradespeople, and the unwelcome hints of Mr
231 Shepherd, his agent, from his thoughts. The Kellynch property was
232 good, but not equal to Sir Walter's apprehension of the state required
233 in its possessor. While Lady Elliot lived, there had been method,
234 moderation, and economy, which had just kept him within his income; but
235 with her had died all such right-mindedness, and from that period he
236 had been constantly exceeding it. It had not been possible for him to
237 spend less; he had done nothing but what Sir Walter Elliot was
238 imperiously called on to do; but blameless as he was, he was not only
239 growing dreadfully in debt, but was hearing of it so often, that it
240 became vain to attempt concealing it longer, even partially, from his
241 daughter. He had given her some hints of it the last spring in town;
242 he had gone so far even as to say, "Can we retrench? Does it occur to
243 you that there is any one article in which we can retrench?" and
244 Elizabeth, to do her justice, had, in the first ardour of female alarm,
245 set seriously to think what could be done, and had finally proposed
246 these two branches of economy, to cut off some unnecessary charities,
247 and to refrain from new furnishing the drawing-room; to which
248 expedients she afterwards added the happy thought of their taking no
249 present down to Anne, as had been the usual yearly custom. But these
250 measures, however good in themselves, were insufficient for the real
251 extent of the evil, the whole of which Sir Walter found himself obliged
252 to confess to her soon afterwards. Elizabeth had nothing to propose of
253 deeper efficacy. She felt herself ill-used and unfortunate, as did her
254 father; and they were neither of them able to devise any means of
255 lessening their expenses without compromising their dignity, or
256 relinquishing their comforts in a way not to be borne.
257
258 There was only a small part of his estate that Sir Walter could dispose
259 of; but had every acre been alienable, it would have made no
260 difference. He had condescended to mortgage as far as he had the
261 power, but he would never condescend to sell. No; he would never
262 disgrace his name so far. The Kellynch estate should be transmitted
263 whole and entire, as he had received it.
264
265 Their two confidential friends, Mr Shepherd, who lived in the
266 neighbouring market town, and Lady Russell, were called to advise them;
267 and both father and daughter seemed to expect that something should be
268 struck out by one or the other to remove their embarrassments and
269 reduce their expenditure, without involving the loss of any indulgence
270 of taste or pride.
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274 Chapter 2
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277 Mr Shepherd, a civil, cautious lawyer, who, whatever might be his hold
278 or his views on Sir Walter, would rather have the disagreeable prompted
279 by anybody else, excused himself from offering the slightest hint, and
280 only begged leave to recommend an implicit reference to the excellent
281 judgement of Lady Russell, from whose known good sense he fully
282 expected to have just such resolute measures advised as he meant to see
283 finally adopted.
284
285 Lady Russell was most anxiously zealous on the subject, and gave it
286 much serious consideration. She was a woman rather of sound than of
287 quick abilities, whose difficulties in coming to any decision in this
288 instance were great, from the opposition of two leading principles.
289 She was of strict integrity herself, with a delicate sense of honour;
290 but she was as desirous of saving Sir Walter's feelings, as solicitous
291 for the credit of the family, as aristocratic in her ideas of what was
292 due to them, as anybody of sense and honesty could well be. She was a
293 benevolent, charitable, good woman, and capable of strong attachments,
294 most correct in her conduct, strict in her notions of decorum, and with
295 manners that were held a standard of good-breeding. She had a
296 cultivated mind, and was, generally speaking, rational and consistent;
297 but she had prejudices on the side of ancestry; she had a value for
298 rank and consequence, which blinded her a little to the faults of those
299 who possessed them. Herself the widow of only a knight, she gave the
300 dignity of a baronet all its due; and Sir Walter, independent of his
301 claims as an old acquaintance, an attentive neighbour, an obliging
302 landlord, the husband of her very dear friend, the father of Anne and
303 her sisters, was, as being Sir Walter, in her apprehension, entitled to
304 a great deal of compassion and consideration under his present
305 difficulties.
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307 They must retrench; that did not admit of a doubt. But she was very
308 anxious to have it done with the least possible pain to him and
309 Elizabeth. She drew up plans of economy, she made exact calculations,
310 and she did what nobody else thought of doing: she consulted Anne, who
311 never seemed considered by the others as having any interest in the
312 question. She consulted, and in a degree was influenced by her in
313 marking out the scheme of retrenchment which was at last submitted to
314 Sir Walter. Every emendation of Anne's had been on the side of honesty
315 against importance. She wanted more vigorous measures, a more complete
316 reformation, a quicker release from debt, a much higher tone of
317 indifference for everything but justice and equity.
318
319 "If we can persuade your father to all this," said Lady Russell,
320 looking over her paper, "much may be done. If he will adopt these
321 regulations, in seven years he will be clear; and I hope we may be able
322 to convince him and Elizabeth, that Kellynch Hall has a respectability
323 in itself which cannot be affected by these reductions; and that the
324 true dignity of Sir Walter Elliot will be very far from lessened in the
325 eyes of sensible people, by acting like a man of principle. What will
326 he be doing, in fact, but what very many of our first families have
327 done, or ought to do? There will be nothing singular in his case; and
328 it is singularity which often makes the worst part of our suffering, as
329 it always does of our conduct. I have great hope of prevailing. We
330 must be serious and decided; for after all, the person who has
331 contracted debts must pay them; and though a great deal is due to the
332 feelings of the gentleman, and the head of a house, like your father,
333 there is still more due to the character of an honest man."
334
335 This was the principle on which Anne wanted her father to be
336 proceeding, his friends to be urging him. She considered it as an act
337 of indispensable duty to clear away the claims of creditors with all
338 the expedition which the most comprehensive retrenchments could secure,
339 and saw no dignity in anything short of it. She wanted it to be
340 prescribed, and felt as a duty. She rated Lady Russell's influence
341 highly; and as to the severe degree of self-denial which her own
342 conscience prompted, she believed there might be little more difficulty
343 in persuading them to a complete, than to half a reformation. Her
344 knowledge of her father and Elizabeth inclined her to think that the
345 sacrifice of one pair of horses would be hardly less painful than of
346 both, and so on, through the whole list of Lady Russell's too gentle
347 reductions.
348
349 How Anne's more rigid requisitions might have been taken is of little
350 consequence. Lady Russell's had no success at all: could not be put up
351 with, were not to be borne. "What! every comfort of life knocked off!
352 Journeys, London, servants, horses, table--contractions and
353 restrictions every where! To live no longer with the decencies even of
354 a private gentleman! No, he would sooner quit Kellynch Hall at once,
355 than remain in it on such disgraceful terms."
356
357 "Quit Kellynch Hall." The hint was immediately taken up by Mr
358 Shepherd, whose interest was involved in the reality of Sir Walter's
359 retrenching, and who was perfectly persuaded that nothing would be done
360 without a change of abode. "Since the idea had been started in the
361 very quarter which ought to dictate, he had no scruple," he said, "in
362 confessing his judgement to be entirely on that side. It did not
363 appear to him that Sir Walter could materially alter his style of
364 living in a house which had such a character of hospitality and ancient
365 dignity to support. In any other place Sir Walter might judge for
366 himself; and would be looked up to, as regulating the modes of life in
367 whatever way he might choose to model his household."
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369 Sir Walter would quit Kellynch Hall; and after a very few days more of
370 doubt and indecision, the great question of whither he should go was
371 settled, and the first outline of this important change made out.
372
373 There had been three alternatives, London, Bath, or another house in
374 the country. All Anne's wishes had been for the latter. A small house
375 in their own neighbourhood, where they might still have Lady Russell's
376 society, still be near Mary, and still have the pleasure of sometimes
377 seeing the lawns and groves of Kellynch, was the object of her
378 ambition. But the usual fate of Anne attended her, in having something
379 very opposite from her inclination fixed on. She disliked Bath, and
380 did not think it agreed with her; and Bath was to be her home.
381
382 Sir Walter had at first thought more of London; but Mr Shepherd felt
383 that he could not be trusted in London, and had been skilful enough to
384 dissuade him from it, and make Bath preferred. It was a much safer
385 place for a gentleman in his predicament: he might there be important
386 at comparatively little expense. Two material advantages of Bath over
387 London had of course been given all their weight: its more convenient
388 distance from Kellynch, only fifty miles, and Lady Russell's spending
389 some part of every winter there; and to the very great satisfaction of
390 Lady Russell, whose first views on the projected change had been for
391 Bath, Sir Walter and Elizabeth were induced to believe that they should
392 lose neither consequence nor enjoyment by settling there.
393
394 Lady Russell felt obliged to oppose her dear Anne's known wishes. It
395 would be too much to expect Sir Walter to descend into a small house in
396 his own neighbourhood. Anne herself would have found the
397 mortifications of it more than she foresaw, and to Sir Walter's
398 feelings they must have been dreadful. And with regard to Anne's
399 dislike of Bath, she considered it as a prejudice and mistake arising,
400 first, from the circumstance of her having been three years at school
401 there, after her mother's death; and secondly, from her happening to be
402 not in perfectly good spirits the only winter which she had afterwards
403 spent there with herself.
404
405 Lady Russell was fond of Bath, in short, and disposed to think it must
406 suit them all; and as to her young friend's health, by passing all the
407 warm months with her at Kellynch Lodge, every danger would be avoided;
408 and it was in fact, a change which must do both health and spirits
409 good. Anne had been too little from home, too little seen. Her spirits
410 were not high. A larger society would improve them. She wanted her to
411 be more known.
412
413 The undesirableness of any other house in the same neighbourhood for
414 Sir Walter was certainly much strengthened by one part, and a very
415 material part of the scheme, which had been happily engrafted on the
416 beginning. He was not only to quit his home, but to see it in the
417 hands of others; a trial of fortitude, which stronger heads than Sir
418 Walter's have found too much. Kellynch Hall was to be let. This,
419 however, was a profound secret, not to be breathed beyond their own
420 circle.
421
422 Sir Walter could not have borne the degradation of being known to
423 design letting his house. Mr Shepherd had once mentioned the word
424 "advertise," but never dared approach it again. Sir Walter spurned the
425 idea of its being offered in any manner; forbad the slightest hint
426 being dropped of his having such an intention; and it was only on the
427 supposition of his being spontaneously solicited by some most
428 unexceptionable applicant, on his own terms, and as a great favour,
429 that he would let it at all.
430
431 How quick come the reasons for approving what we like! Lady Russell
432 had another excellent one at hand, for being extremely glad that Sir
433 Walter and his family were to remove from the country. Elizabeth had
434 been lately forming an intimacy, which she wished to see interrupted.
435 It was with the daughter of Mr Shepherd, who had returned, after an
436 unprosperous marriage, to her father's house, with the additional
437 burden of two children. She was a clever young woman, who understood
438 the art of pleasing--the art of pleasing, at least, at Kellynch Hall;
439 and who had made herself so acceptable to Miss Elliot, as to have been
440 already staying there more than once, in spite of all that Lady
441 Russell, who thought it a friendship quite out of place, could hint of
442 caution and reserve.
443
444 Lady Russell, indeed, had scarcely any influence with Elizabeth, and
445 seemed to love her, rather because she would love her, than because
446 Elizabeth deserved it. She had never received from her more than
447 outward attention, nothing beyond the observances of complaisance; had
448 never succeeded in any point which she wanted to carry, against
449 previous inclination. She had been repeatedly very earnest in trying
450 to get Anne included in the visit to London, sensibly open to all the
451 injustice and all the discredit of the selfish arrangements which shut
452 her out, and on many lesser occasions had endeavoured to give Elizabeth
453 the advantage of her own better judgement and experience; but always in
454 vain: Elizabeth would go her own way; and never had she pursued it in
455 more decided opposition to Lady Russell than in this selection of Mrs
456 Clay; turning from the society of so deserving a sister, to bestow her
457 affection and confidence on one who ought to have been nothing to her
458 but the object of distant civility.
459
460 From situation, Mrs Clay was, in Lady Russell's estimate, a very
461 unequal, and in her character she believed a very dangerous companion;
462 and a removal that would leave Mrs Clay behind, and bring a choice of
463 more suitable intimates within Miss Elliot's reach, was therefore an
464 object of first-rate importance.
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466
467
468 Chapter 3
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470
471 "I must take leave to observe, Sir Walter," said Mr Shepherd one
472 morning at Kellynch Hall, as he laid down the newspaper, "that the
473 present juncture is much in our favour. This peace will be turning all
474 our rich naval officers ashore. They will be all wanting a home.
475 Could not be a better time, Sir Walter, for having a choice of tenants,
476 very responsible tenants. Many a noble fortune has been made during
477 the war. If a rich admiral were to come in our way, Sir Walter--"
478
479 "He would be a very lucky man, Shepherd," replied Sir Walter; "that's
480 all I have to remark. A prize indeed would Kellynch Hall be to him;
481 rather the greatest prize of all, let him have taken ever so many
482 before; hey, Shepherd?"
483
484 Mr Shepherd laughed, as he knew he must, at this wit, and then added--
485
486 "I presume to observe, Sir Walter, that, in the way of business,
487 gentlemen of the navy are well to deal with. I have had a little
488 knowledge of their methods of doing business; and I am free to confess
489 that they have very liberal notions, and are as likely to make
490 desirable tenants as any set of people one should meet with.
491 Therefore, Sir Walter, what I would take leave to suggest is, that if
492 in consequence of any rumours getting abroad of your intention; which
493 must be contemplated as a possible thing, because we know how difficult
494 it is to keep the actions and designs of one part of the world from the
495 notice and curiosity of the other; consequence has its tax; I, John
496 Shepherd, might conceal any family-matters that I chose, for nobody
497 would think it worth their while to observe me; but Sir Walter Elliot
498 has eyes upon him which it may be very difficult to elude; and
499 therefore, thus much I venture upon, that it will not greatly surprise
500 me if, with all our caution, some rumour of the truth should get
501 abroad; in the supposition of which, as I was going to observe, since
502 applications will unquestionably follow, I should think any from our
503 wealthy naval commanders particularly worth attending to; and beg leave
504 to add, that two hours will bring me over at any time, to save you the
505 trouble of replying."
506
507 Sir Walter only nodded. But soon afterwards, rising and pacing the
508 room, he observed sarcastically--
509
510 "There are few among the gentlemen of the navy, I imagine, who would
511 not be surprised to find themselves in a house of this description."
512
513 "They would look around them, no doubt, and bless their good fortune,"
514 said Mrs Clay, for Mrs Clay was present: her father had driven her
515 over, nothing being of so much use to Mrs Clay's health as a drive to
516 Kellynch: "but I quite agree with my father in thinking a sailor might
517 be a very desirable tenant. I have known a good deal of the
518 profession; and besides their liberality, they are so neat and careful
519 in all their ways! These valuable pictures of yours, Sir Walter, if
520 you chose to leave them, would be perfectly safe. Everything in and
521 about the house would be taken such excellent care of! The gardens and
522 shrubberies would be kept in almost as high order as they are now. You
523 need not be afraid, Miss Elliot, of your own sweet flower gardens being
524 neglected."
525
526 "As to all that," rejoined Sir Walter coolly, "supposing I were induced
527 to let my house, I have by no means made up my mind as to the
528 privileges to be annexed to it. I am not particularly disposed to
529 favour a tenant. The park would be open to him of course, and few navy
530 officers, or men of any other description, can have had such a range;
531 but what restrictions I might impose on the use of the
532 pleasure-grounds, is another thing. I am not fond of the idea of my
533 shrubberies being always approachable; and I should recommend Miss
534 Elliot to be on her guard with respect to her flower garden. I am very
535 little disposed to grant a tenant of Kellynch Hall any extraordinary
536 favour, I assure you, be he sailor or soldier."
537
538 After a short pause, Mr Shepherd presumed to say--
539
540 "In all these cases, there are established usages which make everything
541 plain and easy between landlord and tenant. Your interest, Sir Walter,
542 is in pretty safe hands. Depend upon me for taking care that no tenant
543 has more than his just rights. I venture to hint, that Sir Walter
544 Elliot cannot be half so jealous for his own, as John Shepherd will be
545 for him."
546
547 Here Anne spoke--
548
549 "The navy, I think, who have done so much for us, have at least an
550 equal claim with any other set of men, for all the comforts and all the
551 privileges which any home can give. Sailors work hard enough for their
552 comforts, we must all allow."
553
554 "Very true, very true. What Miss Anne says, is very true," was Mr
555 Shepherd's rejoinder, and "Oh! certainly," was his daughter's; but Sir
556 Walter's remark was, soon afterwards--
557
558 "The profession has its utility, but I should be sorry to see any
559 friend of mine belonging to it."
560
561 "Indeed!" was the reply, and with a look of surprise.
562
563 "Yes; it is in two points offensive to me; I have two strong grounds of
564 objection to it. First, as being the means of bringing persons of
565 obscure birth into undue distinction, and raising men to honours which
566 their fathers and grandfathers never dreamt of; and secondly, as it
567 cuts up a man's youth and vigour most horribly; a sailor grows old
568 sooner than any other man. I have observed it all my life. A man is
569 in greater danger in the navy of being insulted by the rise of one
570 whose father, his father might have disdained to speak to, and of
571 becoming prematurely an object of disgust himself, than in any other
572 line. One day last spring, in town, I was in company with two men,
573 striking instances of what I am talking of; Lord St Ives, whose father
574 we all know to have been a country curate, without bread to eat; I was
575 to give place to Lord St Ives, and a certain Admiral Baldwin, the most
576 deplorable-looking personage you can imagine; his face the colour of
577 mahogany, rough and rugged to the last degree; all lines and wrinkles,
578 nine grey hairs of a side, and nothing but a dab of powder at top. 'In
579 the name of heaven, who is that old fellow?' said I to a friend of mine
580 who was standing near, (Sir Basil Morley). 'Old fellow!' cried Sir
581 Basil, 'it is Admiral Baldwin. What do you take his age to be?'
582 'Sixty,' said I, 'or perhaps sixty-two.' 'Forty,' replied Sir Basil,
583 'forty, and no more.' Picture to yourselves my amazement; I shall not
584 easily forget Admiral Baldwin. I never saw quite so wretched an
585 example of what a sea-faring life can do; but to a degree, I know it is
586 the same with them all: they are all knocked about, and exposed to
587 every climate, and every weather, till they are not fit to be seen. It
588 is a pity they are not knocked on the head at once, before they reach
589 Admiral Baldwin's age."
590
591 "Nay, Sir Walter," cried Mrs Clay, "this is being severe indeed. Have
592 a little mercy on the poor men. We are not all born to be handsome.
593 The sea is no beautifier, certainly; sailors do grow old betimes; I
594 have observed it; they soon lose the look of youth. But then, is not
595 it the same with many other professions, perhaps most other? Soldiers,
596 in active service, are not at all better off: and even in the quieter
597 professions, there is a toil and a labour of the mind, if not of the
598 body, which seldom leaves a man's looks to the natural effect of time.
599 The lawyer plods, quite care-worn; the physician is up at all hours,
600 and travelling in all weather; and even the clergyman--" she stopt a
601 moment to consider what might do for the clergyman;--"and even the
602 clergyman, you know is obliged to go into infected rooms, and expose
603 his health and looks to all the injury of a poisonous atmosphere. In
604 fact, as I have long been convinced, though every profession is
605 necessary and honourable in its turn, it is only the lot of those who
606 are not obliged to follow any, who can live in a regular way, in the
607 country, choosing their own hours, following their own pursuits, and
608 living on their own property, without the torment of trying for more;
609 it is only their lot, I say, to hold the blessings of health and a good
610 appearance to the utmost: I know no other set of men but what lose
611 something of their personableness when they cease to be quite young."
612
613 It seemed as if Mr Shepherd, in this anxiety to bespeak Sir Walter's
614 good will towards a naval officer as tenant, had been gifted with
615 foresight; for the very first application for the house was from an
616 Admiral Croft, with whom he shortly afterwards fell into company in
617 attending the quarter sessions at Taunton; and indeed, he had received
618 a hint of the Admiral from a London correspondent. By the report which
619 he hastened over to Kellynch to make, Admiral Croft was a native of
620 Somersetshire, who having acquired a very handsome fortune, was wishing
621 to settle in his own country, and had come down to Taunton in order to
622 look at some advertised places in that immediate neighbourhood, which,
623 however, had not suited him; that accidentally hearing--(it was just as
624 he had foretold, Mr Shepherd observed, Sir Walter's concerns could not
625 be kept a secret,)--accidentally hearing of the possibility of
626 Kellynch Hall being to let, and understanding his (Mr Shepherd's)
627 connection with the owner, he had introduced himself to him in order to
628 make particular inquiries, and had, in the course of a pretty long
629 conference, expressed as strong an inclination for the place as a man
630 who knew it only by description could feel; and given Mr Shepherd, in
631 his explicit account of himself, every proof of his being a most
632 responsible, eligible tenant.
633
634 "And who is Admiral Croft?" was Sir Walter's cold suspicious inquiry.
635
636 Mr Shepherd answered for his being of a gentleman's family, and
637 mentioned a place; and Anne, after the little pause which followed,
638 added--
639
640 "He is a rear admiral of the white. He was in the Trafalgar action,
641 and has been in the East Indies since; he was stationed there, I
642 believe, several years."
643
644 "Then I take it for granted," observed Sir Walter, "that his face is
645 about as orange as the cuffs and capes of my livery."
646
647 Mr Shepherd hastened to assure him, that Admiral Croft was a very hale,
648 hearty, well-looking man, a little weather-beaten, to be sure, but not
649 much, and quite the gentleman in all his notions and behaviour; not
650 likely to make the smallest difficulty about terms, only wanted a
651 comfortable home, and to get into it as soon as possible; knew he must
652 pay for his convenience; knew what rent a ready-furnished house of that
653 consequence might fetch; should not have been surprised if Sir Walter
654 had asked more; had inquired about the manor; would be glad of the
655 deputation, certainly, but made no great point of it; said he sometimes
656 took out a gun, but never killed; quite the gentleman.
657
658 Mr Shepherd was eloquent on the subject; pointing out all the
659 circumstances of the Admiral's family, which made him peculiarly
660 desirable as a tenant. He was a married man, and without children; the
661 very state to be wished for. A house was never taken good care of, Mr
662 Shepherd observed, without a lady: he did not know, whether furniture
663 might not be in danger of suffering as much where there was no lady, as
664 where there were many children. A lady, without a family, was the very
665 best preserver of furniture in the world. He had seen Mrs Croft, too;
666 she was at Taunton with the admiral, and had been present almost all
667 the time they were talking the matter over.
668
669 "And a very well-spoken, genteel, shrewd lady, she seemed to be,"
670 continued he; "asked more questions about the house, and terms, and
671 taxes, than the Admiral himself, and seemed more conversant with
672 business; and moreover, Sir Walter, I found she was not quite
673 unconnected in this country, any more than her husband; that is to say,
674 she is sister to a gentleman who did live amongst us once; she told me
675 so herself: sister to the gentleman who lived a few years back at
676 Monkford. Bless me! what was his name? At this moment I cannot
677 recollect his name, though I have heard it so lately. Penelope, my
678 dear, can you help me to the name of the gentleman who lived at
679 Monkford: Mrs Croft's brother?"
680
681 But Mrs Clay was talking so eagerly with Miss Elliot, that she did not
682 hear the appeal.
683
684 "I have no conception whom you can mean, Shepherd; I remember no
685 gentleman resident at Monkford since the time of old Governor Trent."
686
687 "Bless me! how very odd! I shall forget my own name soon, I suppose.
688 A name that I am so very well acquainted with; knew the gentleman so
689 well by sight; seen him a hundred times; came to consult me once, I
690 remember, about a trespass of one of his neighbours; farmer's man
691 breaking into his orchard; wall torn down; apples stolen; caught in the
692 fact; and afterwards, contrary to my judgement, submitted to an
693 amicable compromise. Very odd indeed!"
694
695 After waiting another moment--
696
697 "You mean Mr Wentworth, I suppose?" said Anne.
698
699 Mr Shepherd was all gratitude.
700
701 "Wentworth was the very name! Mr Wentworth was the very man. He had
702 the curacy of Monkford, you know, Sir Walter, some time back, for two
703 or three years. Came there about the year ---5, I take it. You
704 remember him, I am sure."
705
706 "Wentworth? Oh! ay,--Mr Wentworth, the curate of Monkford. You misled
707 me by the term gentleman. I thought you were speaking of some man of
708 property: Mr Wentworth was nobody, I remember; quite unconnected;
709 nothing to do with the Strafford family. One wonders how the names of
710 many of our nobility become so common."
711
712 As Mr Shepherd perceived that this connexion of the Crofts did them no
713 service with Sir Walter, he mentioned it no more; returning, with all
714 his zeal, to dwell on the circumstances more indisputably in their
715 favour; their age, and number, and fortune; the high idea they had
716 formed of Kellynch Hall, and extreme solicitude for the advantage of
717 renting it; making it appear as if they ranked nothing beyond the
718 happiness of being the tenants of Sir Walter Elliot: an extraordinary
719 taste, certainly, could they have been supposed in the secret of Sir
720 Walter's estimate of the dues of a tenant.
721
722 It succeeded, however; and though Sir Walter must ever look with an
723 evil eye on anyone intending to inhabit that house, and think them
724 infinitely too well off in being permitted to rent it on the highest
725 terms, he was talked into allowing Mr Shepherd to proceed in the
726 treaty, and authorising him to wait on Admiral Croft, who still
727 remained at Taunton, and fix a day for the house being seen.
728
729 Sir Walter was not very wise; but still he had experience enough of the
730 world to feel, that a more unobjectionable tenant, in all essentials,
731 than Admiral Croft bid fair to be, could hardly offer. So far went his
732 understanding; and his vanity supplied a little additional soothing, in
733 the Admiral's situation in life, which was just high enough, and not
734 too high. "I have let my house to Admiral Croft," would sound
735 extremely well; very much better than to any mere Mr--; a Mr (save,
736 perhaps, some half dozen in the nation,) always needs a note of
737 explanation. An admiral speaks his own consequence, and, at the same
738 time, can never make a baronet look small. In all their dealings and
739 intercourse, Sir Walter Elliot must ever have the precedence.
740
741 Nothing could be done without a reference to Elizabeth: but her
742 inclination was growing so strong for a removal, that she was happy to
743 have it fixed and expedited by a tenant at hand; and not a word to
744 suspend decision was uttered by her.
745
746 Mr Shepherd was completely empowered to act; and no sooner had such an
747 end been reached, than Anne, who had been a most attentive listener to
748 the whole, left the room, to seek the comfort of cool air for her
749 flushed cheeks; and as she walked along a favourite grove, said, with a
750 gentle sigh, "A few months more, and he, perhaps, may be walking here."
751
752
753
754 Chapter 4
755
756
757 He was not Mr Wentworth, the former curate of Monkford, however
758 suspicious appearances may be, but a Captain Frederick Wentworth, his
759 brother, who being made commander in consequence of the action off St
760 Domingo, and not immediately employed, had come into Somersetshire, in
761 the summer of 1806; and having no parent living, found a home for half
762 a year at Monkford. He was, at that time, a remarkably fine young man,
763 with a great deal of intelligence, spirit, and brilliancy; and Anne an
764 extremely pretty girl, with gentleness, modesty, taste, and feeling.
765 Half the sum of attraction, on either side, might have been enough, for
766 he had nothing to do, and she had hardly anybody to love; but the
767 encounter of such lavish recommendations could not fail. They were
768 gradually acquainted, and when acquainted, rapidly and deeply in love.
769 It would be difficult to say which had seen highest perfection in the
770 other, or which had been the happiest: she, in receiving his
771 declarations and proposals, or he in having them accepted.
772
773 A short period of exquisite felicity followed, and but a short one.
774 Troubles soon arose. Sir Walter, on being applied to, without actually
775 withholding his consent, or saying it should never be, gave it all the
776 negative of great astonishment, great coldness, great silence, and a
777 professed resolution of doing nothing for his daughter. He thought it
778 a very degrading alliance; and Lady Russell, though with more tempered
779 and pardonable pride, received it as a most unfortunate one.
780
781 Anne Elliot, with all her claims of birth, beauty, and mind, to throw
782 herself away at nineteen; involve herself at nineteen in an engagement
783 with a young man, who had nothing but himself to recommend him, and no
784 hopes of attaining affluence, but in the chances of a most uncertain
785 profession, and no connexions to secure even his farther rise in the
786 profession, would be, indeed, a throwing away, which she grieved to
787 think of! Anne Elliot, so young; known to so few, to be snatched off
788 by a stranger without alliance or fortune; or rather sunk by him into a
789 state of most wearing, anxious, youth-killing dependence! It must not
790 be, if by any fair interference of friendship, any representations from
791 one who had almost a mother's love, and mother's rights, it would be
792 prevented.
793
794 Captain Wentworth had no fortune. He had been lucky in his profession;
795 but spending freely, what had come freely, had realized nothing. But
796 he was confident that he should soon be rich: full of life and ardour,
797 he knew that he should soon have a ship, and soon be on a station that
798 would lead to everything he wanted. He had always been lucky; he knew
799 he should be so still. Such confidence, powerful in its own warmth,
800 and bewitching in the wit which often expressed it, must have been
801 enough for Anne; but Lady Russell saw it very differently. His
802 sanguine temper, and fearlessness of mind, operated very differently on
803 her. She saw in it but an aggravation of the evil. It only added a
804 dangerous character to himself. He was brilliant, he was headstrong.
805 Lady Russell had little taste for wit, and of anything approaching to
806 imprudence a horror. She deprecated the connexion in every light.
807
808 Such opposition, as these feelings produced, was more than Anne could
809 combat. Young and gentle as she was, it might yet have been possible
810 to withstand her father's ill-will, though unsoftened by one kind word
811 or look on the part of her sister; but Lady Russell, whom she had
812 always loved and relied on, could not, with such steadiness of opinion,
813 and such tenderness of manner, be continually advising her in vain.
814 She was persuaded to believe the engagement a wrong thing: indiscreet,
815 improper, hardly capable of success, and not deserving it. But it was
816 not a merely selfish caution, under which she acted, in putting an end
817 to it. Had she not imagined herself consulting his good, even more
818 than her own, she could hardly have given him up. The belief of being
819 prudent, and self-denying, principally for his advantage, was her chief
820 consolation, under the misery of a parting, a final parting; and every
821 consolation was required, for she had to encounter all the additional
822 pain of opinions, on his side, totally unconvinced and unbending, and
823 of his feeling himself ill used by so forced a relinquishment. He had
824 left the country in consequence.
825
826 A few months had seen the beginning and the end of their acquaintance;
827 but not with a few months ended Anne's share of suffering from it. Her
828 attachment and regrets had, for a long time, clouded every enjoyment of
829 youth, and an early loss of bloom and spirits had been their lasting
830 effect.
831
832 More than seven years were gone since this little history of sorrowful
833 interest had reached its close; and time had softened down much,
834 perhaps nearly all of peculiar attachment to him, but she had been too
835 dependent on time alone; no aid had been given in change of place
836 (except in one visit to Bath soon after the rupture), or in any novelty
837 or enlargement of society. No one had ever come within the Kellynch
838 circle, who could bear a comparison with Frederick Wentworth, as he
839 stood in her memory. No second attachment, the only thoroughly
840 natural, happy, and sufficient cure, at her time of life, had been
841 possible to the nice tone of her mind, the fastidiousness of her taste,
842 in the small limits of the society around them. She had been
843 solicited, when about two-and-twenty, to change her name, by the young
844 man, who not long afterwards found a more willing mind in her younger
845 sister; and Lady Russell had lamented her refusal; for Charles Musgrove
846 was the eldest son of a man, whose landed property and general
847 importance were second in that country, only to Sir Walter's, and of
848 good character and appearance; and however Lady Russell might have
849 asked yet for something more, while Anne was nineteen, she would have
850 rejoiced to see her at twenty-two so respectably removed from the
851 partialities and injustice of her father's house, and settled so
852 permanently near herself. But in this case, Anne had left nothing for
853 advice to do; and though Lady Russell, as satisfied as ever with her
854 own discretion, never wished the past undone, she began now to have the
855 anxiety which borders on hopelessness for Anne's being tempted, by some
856 man of talents and independence, to enter a state for which she held
857 her to be peculiarly fitted by her warm affections and domestic habits.
858
859 They knew not each other's opinion, either its constancy or its change,
860 on the one leading point of Anne's conduct, for the subject was never
861 alluded to; but Anne, at seven-and-twenty, thought very differently
862 from what she had been made to think at nineteen. She did not blame
863 Lady Russell, she did not blame herself for having been guided by her;
864 but she felt that were any young person, in similar circumstances, to
865 apply to her for counsel, they would never receive any of such certain
866 immediate wretchedness, such uncertain future good. She was persuaded
867 that under every disadvantage of disapprobation at home, and every
868 anxiety attending his profession, all their probable fears, delays, and
869 disappointments, she should yet have been a happier woman in
870 maintaining the engagement, than she had been in the sacrifice of it;
871 and this, she fully believed, had the usual share, had even more than
872 the usual share of all such solicitudes and suspense been theirs,
873 without reference to the actual results of their case, which, as it
874 happened, would have bestowed earlier prosperity than could be
875 reasonably calculated on. All his sanguine expectations, all his
876 confidence had been justified. His genius and ardour had seemed to
877 foresee and to command his prosperous path. He had, very soon after
878 their engagement ceased, got employ: and all that he had told her would
879 follow, had taken place. He had distinguished himself, and early
880 gained the other step in rank, and must now, by successive captures,
881 have made a handsome fortune. She had only navy lists and newspapers
882 for her authority, but she could not doubt his being rich; and, in
883 favour of his constancy, she had no reason to believe him married.
884
885 How eloquent could Anne Elliot have been! how eloquent, at least, were
886 her wishes on the side of early warm attachment, and a cheerful
887 confidence in futurity, against that over-anxious caution which seems
888 to insult exertion and distrust Providence! She had been forced into
889 prudence in her youth, she learned romance as she grew older: the
890 natural sequel of an unnatural beginning.
891
892 With all these circumstances, recollections and feelings, she could not
893 hear that Captain Wentworth's sister was likely to live at Kellynch
894 without a revival of former pain; and many a stroll, and many a sigh,
895 were necessary to dispel the agitation of the idea. She often told
896 herself it was folly, before she could harden her nerves sufficiently
897 to feel the continual discussion of the Crofts and their business no
898 evil. She was assisted, however, by that perfect indifference and
899 apparent unconsciousness, among the only three of her own friends in
900 the secret of the past, which seemed almost to deny any recollection of
901 it. She could do justice to the superiority of Lady Russell's motives
902 in this, over those of her father and Elizabeth; she could honour all
903 the better feelings of her calmness; but the general air of oblivion
904 among them was highly important from whatever it sprung; and in the
905 event of Admiral Croft's really taking Kellynch Hall, she rejoiced anew
906 over the conviction which had always been most grateful to her, of the
907 past being known to those three only among her connexions, by whom no
908 syllable, she believed, would ever be whispered, and in the trust that
909 among his, the brother only with whom he had been residing, had
910 received any information of their short-lived engagement. That brother
911 had been long removed from the country and being a sensible man, and,
912 moreover, a single man at the time, she had a fond dependence on no
913 human creature's having heard of it from him.
914
915 The sister, Mrs Croft, had then been out of England, accompanying her
916 husband on a foreign station, and her own sister, Mary, had been at
917 school while it all occurred; and never admitted by the pride of some,
918 and the delicacy of others, to the smallest knowledge of it afterwards.
919
920 With these supports, she hoped that the acquaintance between herself
921 and the Crofts, which, with Lady Russell, still resident in Kellynch,
922 and Mary fixed only three miles off, must be anticipated, need not
923 involve any particular awkwardness.
924
925
926
927 Chapter 5
928
929
930 On the morning appointed for Admiral and Mrs Croft's seeing Kellynch
931 Hall, Anne found it most natural to take her almost daily walk to Lady
932 Russell's, and keep out of the way till all was over; when she found it
933 most natural to be sorry that she had missed the opportunity of seeing
934 them.
935
936 This meeting of the two parties proved highly satisfactory, and decided
937 the whole business at once. Each lady was previously well disposed for
938 an agreement, and saw nothing, therefore, but good manners in the
939 other; and with regard to the gentlemen, there was such an hearty good
940 humour, such an open, trusting liberality on the Admiral's side, as
941 could not but influence Sir Walter, who had besides been flattered into
942 his very best and most polished behaviour by Mr Shepherd's assurances
943 of his being known, by report, to the Admiral, as a model of good
944 breeding.
945
946 The house and grounds, and furniture, were approved, the Crofts were
947 approved, terms, time, every thing, and every body, was right; and Mr
948 Shepherd's clerks were set to work, without there having been a single
949 preliminary difference to modify of all that "This indenture sheweth."
950
951 Sir Walter, without hesitation, declared the Admiral to be the
952 best-looking sailor he had ever met with, and went so far as to say,
953 that if his own man might have had the arranging of his hair, he should
954 not be ashamed of being seen with him any where; and the Admiral, with
955 sympathetic cordiality, observed to his wife as they drove back through
956 the park, "I thought we should soon come to a deal, my dear, in spite
957 of what they told us at Taunton. The Baronet will never set the Thames
958 on fire, but there seems to be no harm in him."--reciprocal
959 compliments, which would have been esteemed about equal.
960
961 The Crofts were to have possession at Michaelmas; and as Sir Walter
962 proposed removing to Bath in the course of the preceding month, there
963 was no time to be lost in making every dependent arrangement.
964
965 Lady Russell, convinced that Anne would not be allowed to be of any
966 use, or any importance, in the choice of the house which they were
967 going to secure, was very unwilling to have her hurried away so soon,
968 and wanted to make it possible for her to stay behind till she might
969 convey her to Bath herself after Christmas; but having engagements of
970 her own which must take her from Kellynch for several weeks, she was
971 unable to give the full invitation she wished, and Anne though dreading
972 the possible heats of September in all the white glare of Bath, and
973 grieving to forego all the influence so sweet and so sad of the
974 autumnal months in the country, did not think that, everything
975 considered, she wished to remain. It would be most right, and most
976 wise, and, therefore must involve least suffering to go with the others.
977
978 Something occurred, however, to give her a different duty. Mary, often
979 a little unwell, and always thinking a great deal of her own
980 complaints, and always in the habit of claiming Anne when anything was
981 the matter, was indisposed; and foreseeing that she should not have a
982 day's health all the autumn, entreated, or rather required her, for it
983 was hardly entreaty, to come to Uppercross Cottage, and bear her
984 company as long as she should want her, instead of going to Bath.
985
986 "I cannot possibly do without Anne," was Mary's reasoning; and
987 Elizabeth's reply was, "Then I am sure Anne had better stay, for nobody
988 will want her in Bath."
989
990 To be claimed as a good, though in an improper style, is at least
991 better than being rejected as no good at all; and Anne, glad to be
992 thought of some use, glad to have anything marked out as a duty, and
993 certainly not sorry to have the scene of it in the country, and her own
994 dear country, readily agreed to stay.
995
996 This invitation of Mary's removed all Lady Russell's difficulties, and
997 it was consequently soon settled that Anne should not go to Bath till
998 Lady Russell took her, and that all the intervening time should be
999 divided between Uppercross Cottage and Kellynch Lodge.
1000
1001 So far all was perfectly right; but Lady Russell was almost startled by
1002 the wrong of one part of the Kellynch Hall plan, when it burst on her,
1003 which was, Mrs Clay's being engaged to go to Bath with Sir Walter and
1004 Elizabeth, as a most important and valuable assistant to the latter in
1005 all the business before her. Lady Russell was extremely sorry that
1006 such a measure should have been resorted to at all, wondered, grieved,
1007 and feared; and the affront it contained to Anne, in Mrs Clay's being
1008 of so much use, while Anne could be of none, was a very sore
1009 aggravation.
1010
1011 Anne herself was become hardened to such affronts; but she felt the
1012 imprudence of the arrangement quite as keenly as Lady Russell. With a
1013 great deal of quiet observation, and a knowledge, which she often
1014 wished less, of her father's character, she was sensible that results
1015 the most serious to his family from the intimacy were more than
1016 possible. She did not imagine that her father had at present an idea
1017 of the kind. Mrs Clay had freckles, and a projecting tooth, and a
1018 clumsy wrist, which he was continually making severe remarks upon, in
1019 her absence; but she was young, and certainly altogether well-looking,
1020 and possessed, in an acute mind and assiduous pleasing manners,
1021 infinitely more dangerous attractions than any merely personal might
1022 have been. Anne was so impressed by the degree of their danger, that
1023 she could not excuse herself from trying to make it perceptible to her
1024 sister. She had little hope of success; but Elizabeth, who in the
1025 event of such a reverse would be so much more to be pitied than
1026 herself, should never, she thought, have reason to reproach her for
1027 giving no warning.
1028
1029 She spoke, and seemed only to offend. Elizabeth could not conceive how
1030 such an absurd suspicion should occur to her, and indignantly answered
1031 for each party's perfectly knowing their situation.
1032
1033 "Mrs Clay," said she, warmly, "never forgets who she is; and as I am
1034 rather better acquainted with her sentiments than you can be, I can
1035 assure you, that upon the subject of marriage they are particularly
1036 nice, and that she reprobates all inequality of condition and rank more
1037 strongly than most people. And as to my father, I really should not
1038 have thought that he, who has kept himself single so long for our
1039 sakes, need be suspected now. If Mrs Clay were a very beautiful woman,
1040 I grant you, it might be wrong to have her so much with me; not that
1041 anything in the world, I am sure, would induce my father to make a
1042 degrading match, but he might be rendered unhappy. But poor Mrs Clay
1043 who, with all her merits, can never have been reckoned tolerably
1044 pretty, I really think poor Mrs Clay may be staying here in perfect
1045 safety. One would imagine you had never heard my father speak of her
1046 personal misfortunes, though I know you must fifty times. That tooth
1047 of her's and those freckles. Freckles do not disgust me so very much
1048 as they do him. I have known a face not materially disfigured by a
1049 few, but he abominates them. You must have heard him notice Mrs Clay's
1050 freckles."
1051
1052 "There is hardly any personal defect," replied Anne, "which an
1053 agreeable manner might not gradually reconcile one to."
1054
1055 "I think very differently," answered Elizabeth, shortly; "an agreeable
1056 manner may set off handsome features, but can never alter plain ones.
1057 However, at any rate, as I have a great deal more at stake on this
1058 point than anybody else can have, I think it rather unnecessary in you
1059 to be advising me."
1060
1061 Anne had done; glad that it was over, and not absolutely hopeless of
1062 doing good. Elizabeth, though resenting the suspicion, might yet be
1063 made observant by it.
1064
1065 The last office of the four carriage-horses was to draw Sir Walter,
1066 Miss Elliot, and Mrs Clay to Bath. The party drove off in very good
1067 spirits; Sir Walter prepared with condescending bows for all the
1068 afflicted tenantry and cottagers who might have had a hint to show
1069 themselves, and Anne walked up at the same time, in a sort of desolate
1070 tranquillity, to the Lodge, where she was to spend the first week.
1071
1072 Her friend was not in better spirits than herself. Lady Russell felt
1073 this break-up of the family exceedingly. Their respectability was as
1074 dear to her as her own, and a daily intercourse had become precious by
1075 habit. It was painful to look upon their deserted grounds, and still
1076 worse to anticipate the new hands they were to fall into; and to escape
1077 the solitariness and the melancholy of so altered a village, and be out
1078 of the way when Admiral and Mrs Croft first arrived, she had determined
1079 to make her own absence from home begin when she must give up Anne.
1080 Accordingly their removal was made together, and Anne was set down at
1081 Uppercross Cottage, in the first stage of Lady Russell's journey.
1082
1083 Uppercross was a moderate-sized village, which a few years back had
1084 been completely in the old English style, containing only two houses
1085 superior in appearance to those of the yeomen and labourers; the
1086 mansion of the squire, with its high walls, great gates, and old trees,
1087 substantial and unmodernized, and the compact, tight parsonage,
1088 enclosed in its own neat garden, with a vine and a pear-tree trained
1089 round its casements; but upon the marriage of the young 'squire, it had
1090 received the improvement of a farm-house elevated into a cottage, for
1091 his residence, and Uppercross Cottage, with its veranda, French
1092 windows, and other prettiness, was quite as likely to catch the
1093 traveller's eye as the more consistent and considerable aspect and
1094 premises of the Great House, about a quarter of a mile farther on.
1095
1096 Here Anne had often been staying. She knew the ways of Uppercross as
1097 well as those of Kellynch. The two families were so continually
1098 meeting, so much in the habit of running in and out of each other's
1099 house at all hours, that it was rather a surprise to her to find Mary
1100 alone; but being alone, her being unwell and out of spirits was almost
1101 a matter of course. Though better endowed than the elder sister, Mary
1102 had not Anne's understanding nor temper. While well, and happy, and
1103 properly attended to, she had great good humour and excellent spirits;
1104 but any indisposition sunk her completely. She had no resources for
1105 solitude; and inheriting a considerable share of the Elliot
1106 self-importance, was very prone to add to every other distress that of
1107 fancying herself neglected and ill-used. In person, she was inferior to
1108 both sisters, and had, even in her bloom, only reached the dignity of
1109 being "a fine girl." She was now lying on the faded sofa of the pretty
1110 little drawing-room, the once elegant furniture of which had been
1111 gradually growing shabby, under the influence of four summers and two
1112 children; and, on Anne's appearing, greeted her with--
1113
1114 "So, you are come at last! I began to think I should never see you. I
1115 am so ill I can hardly speak. I have not seen a creature the whole
1116 morning!"
1117
1118 "I am sorry to find you unwell," replied Anne. "You sent me such a
1119 good account of yourself on Thursday!"
1120
1121 "Yes, I made the best of it; I always do: but I was very far from well
1122 at the time; and I do not think I ever was so ill in my life as I have
1123 been all this morning: very unfit to be left alone, I am sure.
1124 Suppose I were to be seized of a sudden in some dreadful way, and not
1125 able to ring the bell! So, Lady Russell would not get out. I do not
1126 think she has been in this house three times this summer."
1127
1128 Anne said what was proper, and enquired after her husband. "Oh!
1129 Charles is out shooting. I have not seen him since seven o'clock. He
1130 would go, though I told him how ill I was. He said he should not stay
1131 out long; but he has never come back, and now it is almost one. I
1132 assure you, I have not seen a soul this whole long morning."
1133
1134 "You have had your little boys with you?"
1135
1136 "Yes, as long as I could bear their noise; but they are so unmanageable
1137 that they do me more harm than good. Little Charles does not mind a
1138 word I say, and Walter is growing quite as bad."
1139
1140 "Well, you will soon be better now," replied Anne, cheerfully. "You
1141 know I always cure you when I come. How are your neighbours at the
1142 Great House?"
1143
1144 "I can give you no account of them. I have not seen one of them
1145 to-day, except Mr Musgrove, who just stopped and spoke through the
1146 window, but without getting off his horse; and though I told him how
1147 ill I was, not one of them have been near me. It did not happen to
1148 suit the Miss Musgroves, I suppose, and they never put themselves out
1149 of their way."
1150
1151 "You will see them yet, perhaps, before the morning is gone. It is
1152 early."
1153
1154 "I never want them, I assure you. They talk and laugh a great deal too
1155 much for me. Oh! Anne, I am so very unwell! It was quite unkind of
1156 you not to come on Thursday."
1157
1158 "My dear Mary, recollect what a comfortable account you sent me of
1159 yourself! You wrote in the cheerfullest manner, and said you were
1160 perfectly well, and in no hurry for me; and that being the case, you
1161 must be aware that my wish would be to remain with Lady Russell to the
1162 last: and besides what I felt on her account, I have really been so
1163 busy, have had so much to do, that I could not very conveniently have
1164 left Kellynch sooner."
1165
1166 "Dear me! what can you possibly have to do?"
1167
1168 "A great many things, I assure you. More than I can recollect in a
1169 moment; but I can tell you some. I have been making a duplicate of the
1170 catalogue of my father's books and pictures. I have been several times
1171 in the garden with Mackenzie, trying to understand, and make him
1172 understand, which of Elizabeth's plants are for Lady Russell. I have
1173 had all my own little concerns to arrange, books and music to divide,
1174 and all my trunks to repack, from not having understood in time what
1175 was intended as to the waggons: and one thing I have had to do, Mary,
1176 of a more trying nature: going to almost every house in the parish, as
1177 a sort of take-leave. I was told that they wished it. But all these
1178 things took up a great deal of time."
1179
1180 "Oh! well!" and after a moment's pause, "but you have never asked me
1181 one word about our dinner at the Pooles yesterday."
1182
1183 "Did you go then? I have made no enquiries, because I concluded you
1184 must have been obliged to give up the party."
1185
1186 "Oh yes! I went. I was very well yesterday; nothing at all the matter
1187 with me till this morning. It would have been strange if I had not
1188 gone."
1189
1190 "I am very glad you were well enough, and I hope you had a pleasant
1191 party."
1192
1193 "Nothing remarkable. One always knows beforehand what the dinner will
1194 be, and who will be there; and it is so very uncomfortable not having a
1195 carriage of one's own. Mr and Mrs Musgrove took me, and we were so
1196 crowded! They are both so very large, and take up so much room; and Mr
1197 Musgrove always sits forward. So, there was I, crowded into the back
1198 seat with Henrietta and Louisa; and I think it very likely that my
1199 illness to-day may be owing to it."
1200
1201 A little further perseverance in patience and forced cheerfulness on
1202 Anne's side produced nearly a cure on Mary's. She could soon sit
1203 upright on the sofa, and began to hope she might be able to leave it by
1204 dinner-time. Then, forgetting to think of it, she was at the other end
1205 of the room, beautifying a nosegay; then, she ate her cold meat; and
1206 then she was well enough to propose a little walk.
1207
1208 "Where shall we go?" said she, when they were ready. "I suppose you
1209 will not like to call at the Great House before they have been to see
1210 you?"
1211
1212 "I have not the smallest objection on that account," replied Anne. "I
1213 should never think of standing on such ceremony with people I know so
1214 well as Mrs and the Miss Musgroves."
1215
1216 "Oh! but they ought to call upon you as soon as possible. They ought
1217 to feel what is due to you as my sister. However, we may as well go
1218 and sit with them a little while, and when we have that over, we can
1219 enjoy our walk."
1220
1221 Anne had always thought such a style of intercourse highly imprudent;
1222 but she had ceased to endeavour to check it, from believing that,
1223 though there were on each side continual subjects of offence, neither
1224 family could now do without it. To the Great House accordingly they
1225 went, to sit the full half hour in the old-fashioned square parlour,
1226 with a small carpet and shining floor, to which the present daughters
1227 of the house were gradually giving the proper air of confusion by a
1228 grand piano-forte and a harp, flower-stands and little tables placed in
1229 every direction. Oh! could the originals of the portraits against the
1230 wainscot, could the gentlemen in brown velvet and the ladies in blue
1231 satin have seen what was going on, have been conscious of such an
1232 overthrow of all order and neatness! The portraits themselves seemed
1233 to be staring in astonishment.
1234
1235 The Musgroves, like their houses, were in a state of alteration,
1236 perhaps of improvement. The father and mother were in the old English
1237 style, and the young people in the new. Mr and Mrs Musgrove were a
1238 very good sort of people; friendly and hospitable, not much educated,
1239 and not at all elegant. Their children had more modern minds and
1240 manners. There was a numerous family; but the only two grown up,
1241 excepting Charles, were Henrietta and Louisa, young ladies of nineteen
1242 and twenty, who had brought from school at Exeter all the usual stock
1243 of accomplishments, and were now like thousands of other young ladies,
1244 living to be fashionable, happy, and merry. Their dress had every
1245 advantage, their faces were rather pretty, their spirits extremely
1246 good, their manner unembarrassed and pleasant; they were of consequence
1247 at home, and favourites abroad. Anne always contemplated them as some
1248 of the happiest creatures of her acquaintance; but still, saved as we
1249 all are, by some comfortable feeling of superiority from wishing for
1250 the possibility of exchange, she would not have given up her own more
1251 elegant and cultivated mind for all their enjoyments; and envied them
1252 nothing but that seemingly perfect good understanding and agreement
1253 together, that good-humoured mutual affection, of which she had known
1254 so little herself with either of her sisters.
1255
1256 They were received with great cordiality. Nothing seemed amiss on the
1257 side of the Great House family, which was generally, as Anne very well
1258 knew, the least to blame. The half hour was chatted away pleasantly
1259 enough; and she was not at all surprised, at the end of it, to have
1260 their walking party joined by both the Miss Musgroves, at Mary's
1261 particular invitation.
1262
1263
1264
1265 Chapter 6
1266
1267
1268 Anne had not wanted this visit to Uppercross, to learn that a removal
1269 from one set of people to another, though at a distance of only three
1270 miles, will often include a total change of conversation, opinion, and
1271 idea. She had never been staying there before, without being struck by
1272 it, or without wishing that other Elliots could have her advantage in
1273 seeing how unknown, or unconsidered there, were the affairs which at
1274 Kellynch Hall were treated as of such general publicity and pervading
1275 interest; yet, with all this experience, she believed she must now
1276 submit to feel that another lesson, in the art of knowing our own
1277 nothingness beyond our own circle, was become necessary for her; for
1278 certainly, coming as she did, with a heart full of the subject which
1279 had been completely occupying both houses in Kellynch for many weeks,
1280 she had expected rather more curiosity and sympathy than she found in
1281 the separate but very similar remark of Mr and Mrs Musgrove: "So, Miss
1282 Anne, Sir Walter and your sister are gone; and what part of Bath do you
1283 think they will settle in?" and this, without much waiting for an
1284 answer; or in the young ladies' addition of, "I hope we shall be in
1285 Bath in the winter; but remember, papa, if we do go, we must be in a
1286 good situation: none of your Queen Squares for us!" or in the anxious
1287 supplement from Mary, of--"Upon my word, I shall be pretty well off,
1288 when you are all gone away to be happy at Bath!"
1289
1290 She could only resolve to avoid such self-delusion in future, and think
1291 with heightened gratitude of the extraordinary blessing of having one
1292 such truly sympathising friend as Lady Russell.
1293
1294 The Mr Musgroves had their own game to guard, and to destroy, their own
1295 horses, dogs, and newspapers to engage them, and the females were fully
1296 occupied in all the other common subjects of housekeeping, neighbours,
1297 dress, dancing, and music. She acknowledged it to be very fitting,
1298 that every little social commonwealth should dictate its own matters of
1299 discourse; and hoped, ere long, to become a not unworthy member of the
1300 one she was now transplanted into. With the prospect of spending at
1301 least two months at Uppercross, it was highly incumbent on her to
1302 clothe her imagination, her memory, and all her ideas in as much of
1303 Uppercross as possible.
1304
1305 She had no dread of these two months. Mary was not so repulsive and
1306 unsisterly as Elizabeth, nor so inaccessible to all influence of hers;
1307 neither was there anything among the other component parts of the
1308 cottage inimical to comfort. She was always on friendly terms with her
1309 brother-in-law; and in the children, who loved her nearly as well, and
1310 respected her a great deal more than their mother, she had an object of
1311 interest, amusement, and wholesome exertion.
1312
1313 Charles Musgrove was civil and agreeable; in sense and temper he was
1314 undoubtedly superior to his wife, but not of powers, or conversation,
1315 or grace, to make the past, as they were connected together, at all a
1316 dangerous contemplation; though, at the same time, Anne could believe,
1317 with Lady Russell, that a more equal match might have greatly improved
1318 him; and that a woman of real understanding might have given more
1319 consequence to his character, and more usefulness, rationality, and
1320 elegance to his habits and pursuits. As it was, he did nothing with
1321 much zeal, but sport; and his time was otherwise trifled away, without
1322 benefit from books or anything else. He had very good spirits, which
1323 never seemed much affected by his wife's occasional lowness, bore with
1324 her unreasonableness sometimes to Anne's admiration, and upon the
1325 whole, though there was very often a little disagreement (in which she
1326 had sometimes more share than she wished, being appealed to by both
1327 parties), they might pass for a happy couple. They were always
1328 perfectly agreed in the want of more money, and a strong inclination
1329 for a handsome present from his father; but here, as on most topics, he
1330 had the superiority, for while Mary thought it a great shame that such
1331 a present was not made, he always contended for his father's having
1332 many other uses for his money, and a right to spend it as he liked.
1333
1334 As to the management of their children, his theory was much better than
1335 his wife's, and his practice not so bad. "I could manage them very
1336 well, if it were not for Mary's interference," was what Anne often
1337 heard him say, and had a good deal of faith in; but when listening in
1338 turn to Mary's reproach of "Charles spoils the children so that I
1339 cannot get them into any order," she never had the smallest temptation
1340 to say, "Very true."
1341
1342 One of the least agreeable circumstances of her residence there was her
1343 being treated with too much confidence by all parties, and being too
1344 much in the secret of the complaints of each house. Known to have some
1345 influence with her sister, she was continually requested, or at least
1346 receiving hints to exert it, beyond what was practicable. "I wish you
1347 could persuade Mary not to be always fancying herself ill," was
1348 Charles's language; and, in an unhappy mood, thus spoke Mary: "I do
1349 believe if Charles were to see me dying, he would not think there was
1350 anything the matter with me. I am sure, Anne, if you would, you might
1351 persuade him that I really am very ill--a great deal worse than I ever
1352 own."
1353
1354 Mary's declaration was, "I hate sending the children to the Great
1355 House, though their grandmamma is always wanting to see them, for she
1356 humours and indulges them to such a degree, and gives them so much
1357 trash and sweet things, that they are sure to come back sick and cross
1358 for the rest of the day." And Mrs Musgrove took the first opportunity
1359 of being alone with Anne, to say, "Oh! Miss Anne, I cannot help wishing
1360 Mrs Charles had a little of your method with those children. They are
1361 quite different creatures with you! But to be sure, in general they
1362 are so spoilt! It is a pity you cannot put your sister in the way of
1363 managing them. They are as fine healthy children as ever were seen,
1364 poor little dears! without partiality; but Mrs Charles knows no more
1365 how they should be treated--! Bless me! how troublesome they are
1366 sometimes. I assure you, Miss Anne, it prevents my wishing to see them
1367 at our house so often as I otherwise should. I believe Mrs Charles is
1368 not quite pleased with my not inviting them oftener; but you know it is
1369 very bad to have children with one that one is obligated to be checking
1370 every moment; "don't do this," and "don't do that;" or that one can
1371 only keep in tolerable order by more cake than is good for them."
1372
1373 She had this communication, moreover, from Mary. "Mrs Musgrove thinks
1374 all her servants so steady, that it would be high treason to call it in
1375 question; but I am sure, without exaggeration, that her upper
1376 house-maid and laundry-maid, instead of being in their business, are
1377 gadding about the village, all day long. I meet them wherever I go;
1378 and I declare, I never go twice into my nursery without seeing
1379 something of them. If Jemima were not the trustiest, steadiest
1380 creature in the world, it would be enough to spoil her; for she tells
1381 me, they are always tempting her to take a walk with them." And on Mrs
1382 Musgrove's side, it was, "I make a rule of never interfering in any of
1383 my daughter-in-law's concerns, for I know it would not do; but I shall
1384 tell you, Miss Anne, because you may be able to set things to rights,
1385 that I have no very good opinion of Mrs Charles's nursery-maid: I hear
1386 strange stories of her; she is always upon the gad; and from my own
1387 knowledge, I can declare, she is such a fine-dressing lady, that she is
1388 enough to ruin any servants she comes near. Mrs Charles quite swears
1389 by her, I know; but I just give you this hint, that you may be upon the
1390 watch; because, if you see anything amiss, you need not be afraid of
1391 mentioning it."
1392
1393 Again, it was Mary's complaint, that Mrs Musgrove was very apt not to
1394 give her the precedence that was her due, when they dined at the Great
1395 House with other families; and she did not see any reason why she was
1396 to be considered so much at home as to lose her place. And one day
1397 when Anne was walking with only the Musgroves, one of them after
1398 talking of rank, people of rank, and jealousy of rank, said, "I have no
1399 scruple of observing to you, how nonsensical some persons are about
1400 their place, because all the world knows how easy and indifferent you
1401 are about it; but I wish anybody could give Mary a hint that it would
1402 be a great deal better if she were not so very tenacious, especially if
1403 she would not be always putting herself forward to take place of mamma.
1404 Nobody doubts her right to have precedence of mamma, but it would be
1405 more becoming in her not to be always insisting on it. It is not that
1406 mamma cares about it the least in the world, but I know it is taken
1407 notice of by many persons."
1408
1409 How was Anne to set all these matters to rights? She could do little
1410 more than listen patiently, soften every grievance, and excuse each to
1411 the other; give them all hints of the forbearance necessary between
1412 such near neighbours, and make those hints broadest which were meant
1413 for her sister's benefit.
1414
1415 In all other respects, her visit began and proceeded very well. Her
1416 own spirits improved by change of place and subject, by being removed
1417 three miles from Kellynch; Mary's ailments lessened by having a
1418 constant companion, and their daily intercourse with the other family,
1419 since there was neither superior affection, confidence, nor employment
1420 in the cottage, to be interrupted by it, was rather an advantage. It
1421 was certainly carried nearly as far as possible, for they met every
1422 morning, and hardly ever spent an evening asunder; but she believed
1423 they should not have done so well without the sight of Mr and Mrs
1424 Musgrove's respectable forms in the usual places, or without the
1425 talking, laughing, and singing of their daughters.
1426
1427 She played a great deal better than either of the Miss Musgroves, but
1428 having no voice, no knowledge of the harp, and no fond parents, to sit
1429 by and fancy themselves delighted, her performance was little thought
1430 of, only out of civility, or to refresh the others, as she was well
1431 aware. She knew that when she played she was giving pleasure only to
1432 herself; but this was no new sensation. Excepting one short period of
1433 her life, she had never, since the age of fourteen, never since the
1434 loss of her dear mother, known the happiness of being listened to, or
1435 encouraged by any just appreciation or real taste. In music she had
1436 been always used to feel alone in the world; and Mr and Mrs Musgrove's
1437 fond partiality for their own daughters' performance, and total
1438 indifference to any other person's, gave her much more pleasure for
1439 their sakes, than mortification for her own.
1440
1441 The party at the Great House was sometimes increased by other company.
1442 The neighbourhood was not large, but the Musgroves were visited by
1443 everybody, and had more dinner-parties, and more callers, more visitors
1444 by invitation and by chance, than any other family. They were more
1445 completely popular.
1446
1447 The girls were wild for dancing; and the evenings ended, occasionally,
1448 in an unpremeditated little ball. There was a family of cousins within
1449 a walk of Uppercross, in less affluent circumstances, who depended on
1450 the Musgroves for all their pleasures: they would come at any time,
1451 and help play at anything, or dance anywhere; and Anne, very much
1452 preferring the office of musician to a more active post, played country
1453 dances to them by the hour together; a kindness which always
1454 recommended her musical powers to the notice of Mr and Mrs Musgrove
1455 more than anything else, and often drew this compliment;--"Well done,
1456 Miss Anne! very well done indeed! Lord bless me! how those little
1457 fingers of yours fly about!"
1458
1459 So passed the first three weeks. Michaelmas came; and now Anne's heart
1460 must be in Kellynch again. A beloved home made over to others; all the
1461 precious rooms and furniture, groves, and prospects, beginning to own
1462 other eyes and other limbs! She could not think of much else on the
1463 29th of September; and she had this sympathetic touch in the evening
1464 from Mary, who, on having occasion to note down the day of the month,
1465 exclaimed, "Dear me, is not this the day the Crofts were to come to
1466 Kellynch? I am glad I did not think of it before. How low it makes
1467 me!"
1468
1469 The Crofts took possession with true naval alertness, and were to be
1470 visited. Mary deplored the necessity for herself. "Nobody knew how
1471 much she should suffer. She should put it off as long as she could;"
1472 but was not easy till she had talked Charles into driving her over on
1473 an early day, and was in a very animated, comfortable state of
1474 imaginary agitation, when she came back. Anne had very sincerely
1475 rejoiced in there being no means of her going. She wished, however to
1476 see the Crofts, and was glad to be within when the visit was returned.
1477 They came: the master of the house was not at home, but the two
1478 sisters were together; and as it chanced that Mrs Croft fell to the
1479 share of Anne, while the Admiral sat by Mary, and made himself very
1480 agreeable by his good-humoured notice of her little boys, she was well
1481 able to watch for a likeness, and if it failed her in the features, to
1482 catch it in the voice, or in the turn of sentiment and expression.
1483
1484 Mrs Croft, though neither tall nor fat, had a squareness, uprightness,
1485 and vigour of form, which gave importance to her person. She had
1486 bright dark eyes, good teeth, and altogether an agreeable face; though
1487 her reddened and weather-beaten complexion, the consequence of her
1488 having been almost as much at sea as her husband, made her seem to have
1489 lived some years longer in the world than her real eight-and-thirty.
1490 Her manners were open, easy, and decided, like one who had no distrust
1491 of herself, and no doubts of what to do; without any approach to
1492 coarseness, however, or any want of good humour. Anne gave her credit,
1493 indeed, for feelings of great consideration towards herself, in all
1494 that related to Kellynch, and it pleased her: especially, as she had
1495 satisfied herself in the very first half minute, in the instant even of
1496 introduction, that there was not the smallest symptom of any knowledge
1497 or suspicion on Mrs Croft's side, to give a bias of any sort. She was
1498 quite easy on that head, and consequently full of strength and courage,
1499 till for a moment electrified by Mrs Croft's suddenly saying,--
1500
1501 "It was you, and not your sister, I find, that my brother had the
1502 pleasure of being acquainted with, when he was in this country."
1503
1504 Anne hoped she had outlived the age of blushing; but the age of emotion
1505 she certainly had not.
1506
1507 "Perhaps you may not have heard that he is married?" added Mrs Croft.
1508
1509 She could now answer as she ought; and was happy to feel, when Mrs
1510 Croft's next words explained it to be Mr Wentworth of whom she spoke,
1511 that she had said nothing which might not do for either brother. She
1512 immediately felt how reasonable it was, that Mrs Croft should be
1513 thinking and speaking of Edward, and not of Frederick; and with shame
1514 at her own forgetfulness applied herself to the knowledge of their
1515 former neighbour's present state with proper interest.
1516
1517 The rest was all tranquillity; till, just as they were moving, she
1518 heard the Admiral say to Mary--
1519
1520 "We are expecting a brother of Mrs Croft's here soon; I dare say you
1521 know him by name."
1522
1523 He was cut short by the eager attacks of the little boys, clinging to
1524 him like an old friend, and declaring he should not go; and being too
1525 much engrossed by proposals of carrying them away in his coat pockets,
1526 &c., to have another moment for finishing or recollecting what he had
1527 begun, Anne was left to persuade herself, as well as she could, that
1528 the same brother must still be in question. She could not, however,
1529 reach such a degree of certainty, as not to be anxious to hear whether
1530 anything had been said on the subject at the other house, where the
1531 Crofts had previously been calling.
1532
1533 The folks of the Great House were to spend the evening of this day at
1534 the Cottage; and it being now too late in the year for such visits to
1535 be made on foot, the coach was beginning to be listened for, when the
1536 youngest Miss Musgrove walked in. That she was coming to apologize,
1537 and that they should have to spend the evening by themselves, was the
1538 first black idea; and Mary was quite ready to be affronted, when Louisa
1539 made all right by saying, that she only came on foot, to leave more
1540 room for the harp, which was bringing in the carriage.
1541
1542 "And I will tell you our reason," she added, "and all about it. I am
1543 come on to give you notice, that papa and mamma are out of spirits this
1544 evening, especially mamma; she is thinking so much of poor Richard!
1545 And we agreed it would be best to have the harp, for it seems to amuse
1546 her more than the piano-forte. I will tell you why she is out of
1547 spirits. When the Crofts called this morning, (they called here
1548 afterwards, did not they?), they happened to say, that her brother,
1549 Captain Wentworth, is just returned to England, or paid off, or
1550 something, and is coming to see them almost directly; and most
1551 unluckily it came into mamma's head, when they were gone, that
1552 Wentworth, or something very like it, was the name of poor Richard's
1553 captain at one time; I do not know when or where, but a great while
1554 before he died, poor fellow! And upon looking over his letters and
1555 things, she found it was so, and is perfectly sure that this must be
1556 the very man, and her head is quite full of it, and of poor Richard!
1557 So we must be as merry as we can, that she may not be dwelling upon
1558 such gloomy things."
1559
1560 The real circumstances of this pathetic piece of family history were,
1561 that the Musgroves had had the ill fortune of a very troublesome,
1562 hopeless son; and the good fortune to lose him before he reached his
1563 twentieth year; that he had been sent to sea because he was stupid and
1564 unmanageable on shore; that he had been very little cared for at any
1565 time by his family, though quite as much as he deserved; seldom heard
1566 of, and scarcely at all regretted, when the intelligence of his death
1567 abroad had worked its way to Uppercross, two years before.
1568
1569 He had, in fact, though his sisters were now doing all they could for
1570 him, by calling him "poor Richard," been nothing better than a
1571 thick-headed, unfeeling, unprofitable Dick Musgrove, who had never done
1572 anything to entitle himself to more than the abbreviation of his name,
1573 living or dead.
1574
1575 He had been several years at sea, and had, in the course of those
1576 removals to which all midshipmen are liable, and especially such
1577 midshipmen as every captain wishes to get rid of, been six months on
1578 board Captain Frederick Wentworth's frigate, the Laconia; and from the
1579 Laconia he had, under the influence of his captain, written the only
1580 two letters which his father and mother had ever received from him
1581 during the whole of his absence; that is to say, the only two
1582 disinterested letters; all the rest had been mere applications for
1583 money.
1584
1585 In each letter he had spoken well of his captain; but yet, so little
1586 were they in the habit of attending to such matters, so unobservant and
1587 incurious were they as to the names of men or ships, that it had made
1588 scarcely any impression at the time; and that Mrs Musgrove should have
1589 been suddenly struck, this very day, with a recollection of the name of
1590 Wentworth, as connected with her son, seemed one of those extraordinary
1591 bursts of mind which do sometimes occur.
1592
1593 She had gone to her letters, and found it all as she supposed; and the
1594 re-perusal of these letters, after so long an interval, her poor son
1595 gone for ever, and all the strength of his faults forgotten, had
1596 affected her spirits exceedingly, and thrown her into greater grief for
1597 him than she had known on first hearing of his death. Mr Musgrove was,
1598 in a lesser degree, affected likewise; and when they reached the
1599 cottage, they were evidently in want, first, of being listened to anew
1600 on this subject, and afterwards, of all the relief which cheerful
1601 companions could give them.
1602
1603 To hear them talking so much of Captain Wentworth, repeating his name
1604 so often, puzzling over past years, and at last ascertaining that it
1605 might, that it probably would, turn out to be the very same Captain
1606 Wentworth whom they recollected meeting, once or twice, after their
1607 coming back from Clifton--a very fine young man--but they could not say
1608 whether it was seven or eight years ago, was a new sort of trial to
1609 Anne's nerves. She found, however, that it was one to which she must
1610 inure herself. Since he actually was expected in the country, she must
1611 teach herself to be insensible on such points. And not only did it
1612 appear that he was expected, and speedily, but the Musgroves, in their
1613 warm gratitude for the kindness he had shewn poor Dick, and very high
1614 respect for his character, stamped as it was by poor Dick's having been
1615 six months under his care, and mentioning him in strong, though not
1616 perfectly well-spelt praise, as "a fine dashing felow, only two
1617 perticular about the schoolmaster," were bent on introducing
1618 themselves, and seeking his acquaintance, as soon as they could hear of
1619 his arrival.
1620
1621 The resolution of doing so helped to form the comfort of their evening.
1622
1623
1624
1625 Chapter 7
1626
1627
1628 A very few days more, and Captain Wentworth was known to be at
1629 Kellynch, and Mr Musgrove had called on him, and come back warm in his
1630 praise, and he was engaged with the Crofts to dine at Uppercross, by
1631 the end of another week. It had been a great disappointment to Mr
1632 Musgrove to find that no earlier day could be fixed, so impatient was
1633 he to shew his gratitude, by seeing Captain Wentworth under his own
1634 roof, and welcoming him to all that was strongest and best in his
1635 cellars. But a week must pass; only a week, in Anne's reckoning, and
1636 then, she supposed, they must meet; and soon she began to wish that she
1637 could feel secure even for a week.
1638
1639 Captain Wentworth made a very early return to Mr Musgrove's civility,
1640 and she was all but calling there in the same half hour. She and Mary
1641 were actually setting forward for the Great House, where, as she
1642 afterwards learnt, they must inevitably have found him, when they were
1643 stopped by the eldest boy's being at that moment brought home in
1644 consequence of a bad fall. The child's situation put the visit
1645 entirely aside; but she could not hear of her escape with indifference,
1646 even in the midst of the serious anxiety which they afterwards felt on
1647 his account.
1648
1649 His collar-bone was found to be dislocated, and such injury received in
1650 the back, as roused the most alarming ideas. It was an afternoon of
1651 distress, and Anne had every thing to do at once; the apothecary to
1652 send for, the father to have pursued and informed, the mother to
1653 support and keep from hysterics, the servants to control, the youngest
1654 child to banish, and the poor suffering one to attend and soothe;
1655 besides sending, as soon as she recollected it, proper notice to the
1656 other house, which brought her an accession rather of frightened,
1657 enquiring companions, than of very useful assistants.
1658
1659 Her brother's return was the first comfort; he could take best care of
1660 his wife; and the second blessing was the arrival of the apothecary.
1661 Till he came and had examined the child, their apprehensions were the
1662 worse for being vague; they suspected great injury, but knew not where;
1663 but now the collar-bone was soon replaced, and though Mr Robinson felt
1664 and felt, and rubbed, and looked grave, and spoke low words both to the
1665 father and the aunt, still they were all to hope the best, and to be
1666 able to part and eat their dinner in tolerable ease of mind; and then
1667 it was, just before they parted, that the two young aunts were able so
1668 far to digress from their nephew's state, as to give the information of
1669 Captain Wentworth's visit; staying five minutes behind their father and
1670 mother, to endeavour to express how perfectly delighted they were with
1671 him, how much handsomer, how infinitely more agreeable they thought him
1672 than any individual among their male acquaintance, who had been at all
1673 a favourite before. How glad they had been to hear papa invite him to
1674 stay dinner, how sorry when he said it was quite out of his power, and
1675 how glad again when he had promised in reply to papa and mamma's
1676 farther pressing invitations to come and dine with them on the
1677 morrow--actually on the morrow; and he had promised it in so pleasant a
1678 manner, as if he felt all the motive of their attention just as he
1679 ought. And in short, he had looked and said everything with such
1680 exquisite grace, that they could assure them all, their heads were both
1681 turned by him; and off they ran, quite as full of glee as of love, and
1682 apparently more full of Captain Wentworth than of little Charles.
1683
1684 The same story and the same raptures were repeated, when the two girls
1685 came with their father, through the gloom of the evening, to make
1686 enquiries; and Mr Musgrove, no longer under the first uneasiness about
1687 his heir, could add his confirmation and praise, and hope there would
1688 be now no occasion for putting Captain Wentworth off, and only be sorry
1689 to think that the cottage party, probably, would not like to leave the
1690 little boy, to give him the meeting. "Oh no; as to leaving the little
1691 boy," both father and mother were in much too strong and recent alarm
1692 to bear the thought; and Anne, in the joy of the escape, could not help
1693 adding her warm protestations to theirs.
1694
1695 Charles Musgrove, indeed, afterwards, shewed more of inclination; "the
1696 child was going on so well, and he wished so much to be introduced to
1697 Captain Wentworth, that, perhaps, he might join them in the evening; he
1698 would not dine from home, but he might walk in for half an hour." But
1699 in this he was eagerly opposed by his wife, with "Oh! no, indeed,
1700 Charles, I cannot bear to have you go away. Only think if anything
1701 should happen?"
1702
1703 The child had a good night, and was going on well the next day. It
1704 must be a work of time to ascertain that no injury had been done to the
1705 spine; but Mr Robinson found nothing to increase alarm, and Charles
1706 Musgrove began, consequently, to feel no necessity for longer
1707 confinement. The child was to be kept in bed and amused as quietly as
1708 possible; but what was there for a father to do? This was quite a
1709 female case, and it would be highly absurd in him, who could be of no
1710 use at home, to shut himself up. His father very much wished him to
1711 meet Captain Wentworth, and there being no sufficient reason against
1712 it, he ought to go; and it ended in his making a bold, public
1713 declaration, when he came in from shooting, of his meaning to dress
1714 directly, and dine at the other house.
1715
1716 "Nothing can be going on better than the child," said he; "so I told my
1717 father, just now, that I would come, and he thought me quite right.
1718 Your sister being with you, my love, I have no scruple at all. You
1719 would not like to leave him yourself, but you see I can be of no use.
1720 Anne will send for me if anything is the matter."
1721
1722 Husbands and wives generally understand when opposition will be vain.
1723 Mary knew, from Charles's manner of speaking, that he was quite
1724 determined on going, and that it would be of no use to teaze him. She
1725 said nothing, therefore, till he was out of the room, but as soon as
1726 there was only Anne to hear--
1727
1728 "So you and I are to be left to shift by ourselves, with this poor sick
1729 child; and not a creature coming near us all the evening! I knew how
1730 it would be. This is always my luck. If there is anything
1731 disagreeable going on men are always sure to get out of it, and Charles
1732 is as bad as any of them. Very unfeeling! I must say it is very
1733 unfeeling of him to be running away from his poor little boy. Talks of
1734 his being going on so well! How does he know that he is going on well,
1735 or that there may not be a sudden change half an hour hence? I did not
1736 think Charles would have been so unfeeling. So here he is to go away
1737 and enjoy himself, and because I am the poor mother, I am not to be
1738 allowed to stir; and yet, I am sure, I am more unfit than anybody else
1739 to be about the child. My being the mother is the very reason why my
1740 feelings should not be tried. I am not at all equal to it. You saw
1741 how hysterical I was yesterday."
1742
1743 "But that was only the effect of the suddenness of your alarm--of the
1744 shock. You will not be hysterical again. I dare say we shall have
1745 nothing to distress us. I perfectly understand Mr Robinson's
1746 directions, and have no fears; and indeed, Mary, I cannot wonder at
1747 your husband. Nursing does not belong to a man; it is not his
1748 province. A sick child is always the mother's property: her own
1749 feelings generally make it so."
1750
1751 "I hope I am as fond of my child as any mother, but I do not know that
1752 I am of any more use in the sick-room than Charles, for I cannot be
1753 always scolding and teazing the poor child when it is ill; and you saw,
1754 this morning, that if I told him to keep quiet, he was sure to begin
1755 kicking about. I have not nerves for the sort of thing."
1756
1757 "But, could you be comfortable yourself, to be spending the whole
1758 evening away from the poor boy?"
1759
1760 "Yes; you see his papa can, and why should not I? Jemima is so
1761 careful; and she could send us word every hour how he was. I really
1762 think Charles might as well have told his father we would all come. I
1763 am not more alarmed about little Charles now than he is. I was
1764 dreadfully alarmed yesterday, but the case is very different to-day."
1765
1766 "Well, if you do not think it too late to give notice for yourself,
1767 suppose you were to go, as well as your husband. Leave little Charles
1768 to my care. Mr and Mrs Musgrove cannot think it wrong while I remain
1769 with him."
1770
1771 "Are you serious?" cried Mary, her eyes brightening. "Dear me! that's
1772 a very good thought, very good, indeed. To be sure, I may just as well
1773 go as not, for I am of no use at home--am I? and it only harasses me.
1774 You, who have not a mother's feelings, are a great deal the properest
1775 person. You can make little Charles do anything; he always minds you
1776 at a word. It will be a great deal better than leaving him only with
1777 Jemima. Oh! I shall certainly go; I am sure I ought if I can, quite as
1778 much as Charles, for they want me excessively to be acquainted with
1779 Captain Wentworth, and I know you do not mind being left alone. An
1780 excellent thought of yours, indeed, Anne. I will go and tell Charles,
1781 and get ready directly. You can send for us, you know, at a moment's
1782 notice, if anything is the matter; but I dare say there will be nothing
1783 to alarm you. I should not go, you may be sure, if I did not feel
1784 quite at ease about my dear child."
1785
1786 The next moment she was tapping at her husband's dressing-room door,
1787 and as Anne followed her up stairs, she was in time for the whole
1788 conversation, which began with Mary's saying, in a tone of great
1789 exultation--
1790
1791 "I mean to go with you, Charles, for I am of no more use at home than
1792 you are. If I were to shut myself up for ever with the child, I should
1793 not be able to persuade him to do anything he did not like. Anne will
1794 stay; Anne undertakes to stay at home and take care of him. It is
1795 Anne's own proposal, and so I shall go with you, which will be a great
1796 deal better, for I have not dined at the other house since Tuesday."
1797
1798 "This is very kind of Anne," was her husband's answer, "and I should be
1799 very glad to have you go; but it seems rather hard that she should be
1800 left at home by herself, to nurse our sick child."
1801
1802 Anne was now at hand to take up her own cause, and the sincerity of her
1803 manner being soon sufficient to convince him, where conviction was at
1804 least very agreeable, he had no farther scruples as to her being left
1805 to dine alone, though he still wanted her to join them in the evening,
1806 when the child might be at rest for the night, and kindly urged her to
1807 let him come and fetch her, but she was quite unpersuadable; and this
1808 being the case, she had ere long the pleasure of seeing them set off
1809 together in high spirits. They were gone, she hoped, to be happy,
1810 however oddly constructed such happiness might seem; as for herself,
1811 she was left with as many sensations of comfort, as were, perhaps, ever
1812 likely to be hers. She knew herself to be of the first utility to the
1813 child; and what was it to her if Frederick Wentworth were only half a
1814 mile distant, making himself agreeable to others?
1815
1816 She would have liked to know how he felt as to a meeting. Perhaps
1817 indifferent, if indifference could exist under such circumstances. He
1818 must be either indifferent or unwilling. Had he wished ever to see her
1819 again, he need not have waited till this time; he would have done what
1820 she could not but believe that in his place she should have done long
1821 ago, when events had been early giving him the independence which alone
1822 had been wanting.
1823
1824 Her brother and sister came back delighted with their new acquaintance,
1825 and their visit in general. There had been music, singing, talking,
1826 laughing, all that was most agreeable; charming manners in Captain
1827 Wentworth, no shyness or reserve; they seemed all to know each other
1828 perfectly, and he was coming the very next morning to shoot with
1829 Charles. He was to come to breakfast, but not at the Cottage, though
1830 that had been proposed at first; but then he had been pressed to come
1831 to the Great House instead, and he seemed afraid of being in Mrs
1832 Charles Musgrove's way, on account of the child, and therefore,
1833 somehow, they hardly knew how, it ended in Charles's being to meet him
1834 to breakfast at his father's.
1835
1836 Anne understood it. He wished to avoid seeing her. He had inquired
1837 after her, she found, slightly, as might suit a former slight
1838 acquaintance, seeming to acknowledge such as she had acknowledged,
1839 actuated, perhaps, by the same view of escaping introduction when they
1840 were to meet.
1841
1842 The morning hours of the Cottage were always later than those of the
1843 other house, and on the morrow the difference was so great that Mary
1844 and Anne were not more than beginning breakfast when Charles came in to
1845 say that they were just setting off, that he was come for his dogs,
1846 that his sisters were following with Captain Wentworth; his sisters
1847 meaning to visit Mary and the child, and Captain Wentworth proposing
1848 also to wait on her for a few minutes if not inconvenient; and though
1849 Charles had answered for the child's being in no such state as could
1850 make it inconvenient, Captain Wentworth would not be satisfied without
1851 his running on to give notice.
1852
1853 Mary, very much gratified by this attention, was delighted to receive
1854 him, while a thousand feelings rushed on Anne, of which this was the
1855 most consoling, that it would soon be over. And it was soon over. In
1856 two minutes after Charles's preparation, the others appeared; they were
1857 in the drawing-room. Her eye half met Captain Wentworth's, a bow, a
1858 curtsey passed; she heard his voice; he talked to Mary, said all that
1859 was right, said something to the Miss Musgroves, enough to mark an easy
1860 footing; the room seemed full, full of persons and voices, but a few
1861 minutes ended it. Charles shewed himself at the window, all was ready,
1862 their visitor had bowed and was gone, the Miss Musgroves were gone too,
1863 suddenly resolving to walk to the end of the village with the
1864 sportsmen: the room was cleared, and Anne might finish her breakfast
1865 as she could.
1866
1867 "It is over! it is over!" she repeated to herself again and again, in
1868 nervous gratitude. "The worst is over!"
1869
1870 Mary talked, but she could not attend. She had seen him. They had
1871 met. They had been once more in the same room.
1872
1873 Soon, however, she began to reason with herself, and try to be feeling
1874 less. Eight years, almost eight years had passed, since all had been
1875 given up. How absurd to be resuming the agitation which such an
1876 interval had banished into distance and indistinctness! What might not
1877 eight years do? Events of every description, changes, alienations,
1878 removals--all, all must be comprised in it, and oblivion of the past--
1879 how natural, how certain too! It included nearly a third part of her
1880 own life.
1881
1882 Alas! with all her reasoning, she found, that to retentive feelings
1883 eight years may be little more than nothing.
1884
1885 Now, how were his sentiments to be read? Was this like wishing to
1886 avoid her? And the next moment she was hating herself for the folly
1887 which asked the question.
1888
1889 On one other question which perhaps her utmost wisdom might not have
1890 prevented, she was soon spared all suspense; for, after the Miss
1891 Musgroves had returned and finished their visit at the Cottage she had
1892 this spontaneous information from Mary:--
1893
1894 "Captain Wentworth is not very gallant by you, Anne, though he was so
1895 attentive to me. Henrietta asked him what he thought of you, when they
1896 went away, and he said, 'You were so altered he should not have known
1897 you again.'"
1898
1899 Mary had no feelings to make her respect her sister's in a common way,
1900 but she was perfectly unsuspicious of being inflicting any peculiar
1901 wound.
1902
1903 "Altered beyond his knowledge." Anne fully submitted, in silent, deep
1904 mortification. Doubtless it was so, and she could take no revenge, for
1905 he was not altered, or not for the worse. She had already acknowledged
1906 it to herself, and she could not think differently, let him think of
1907 her as he would. No: the years which had destroyed her youth and
1908 bloom had only given him a more glowing, manly, open look, in no
1909 respect lessening his personal advantages. She had seen the same
1910 Frederick Wentworth.
1911
1912 "So altered that he should not have known her again!" These were words
1913 which could not but dwell with her. Yet she soon began to rejoice that
1914 she had heard them. They were of sobering tendency; they allayed
1915 agitation; they composed, and consequently must make her happier.
1916
1917 Frederick Wentworth had used such words, or something like them, but
1918 without an idea that they would be carried round to her. He had
1919 thought her wretchedly altered, and in the first moment of appeal, had
1920 spoken as he felt. He had not forgiven Anne Elliot. She had used him
1921 ill, deserted and disappointed him; and worse, she had shewn a
1922 feebleness of character in doing so, which his own decided, confident
1923 temper could not endure. She had given him up to oblige others. It
1924 had been the effect of over-persuasion. It had been weakness and
1925 timidity.
1926
1927 He had been most warmly attached to her, and had never seen a woman
1928 since whom he thought her equal; but, except from some natural
1929 sensation of curiosity, he had no desire of meeting her again. Her
1930 power with him was gone for ever.
1931
1932 It was now his object to marry. He was rich, and being turned on
1933 shore, fully intended to settle as soon as he could be properly
1934 tempted; actually looking round, ready to fall in love with all the
1935 speed which a clear head and a quick taste could allow. He had a heart
1936 for either of the Miss Musgroves, if they could catch it; a heart, in
1937 short, for any pleasing young woman who came in his way, excepting Anne
1938 Elliot. This was his only secret exception, when he said to his
1939 sister, in answer to her suppositions:--
1940
1941 "Yes, here I am, Sophia, quite ready to make a foolish match. Anybody
1942 between fifteen and thirty may have me for asking. A little beauty,
1943 and a few smiles, and a few compliments to the navy, and I am a lost
1944 man. Should not this be enough for a sailor, who has had no society
1945 among women to make him nice?"
1946
1947 He said it, she knew, to be contradicted. His bright proud eye spoke
1948 the conviction that he was nice; and Anne Elliot was not out of his
1949 thoughts, when he more seriously described the woman he should wish to
1950 meet with. "A strong mind, with sweetness of manner," made the first
1951 and the last of the description.
1952
1953 "That is the woman I want," said he. "Something a little inferior I
1954 shall of course put up with, but it must not be much. If I am a fool,
1955 I shall be a fool indeed, for I have thought on the subject more than
1956 most men."
1957
1958
1959
1960 Chapter 8
1961
1962
1963 From this time Captain Wentworth and Anne Elliot were repeatedly in the
1964 same circle. They were soon dining in company together at Mr
1965 Musgrove's, for the little boy's state could no longer supply his aunt
1966 with a pretence for absenting herself; and this was but the beginning
1967 of other dinings and other meetings.
1968
1969 Whether former feelings were to be renewed must be brought to the
1970 proof; former times must undoubtedly be brought to the recollection of
1971 each; they could not but be reverted to; the year of their engagement
1972 could not but be named by him, in the little narratives or descriptions
1973 which conversation called forth. His profession qualified him, his
1974 disposition lead him, to talk; and "That was in the year six;" "That
1975 happened before I went to sea in the year six," occurred in the course
1976 of the first evening they spent together: and though his voice did not
1977 falter, and though she had no reason to suppose his eye wandering
1978 towards her while he spoke, Anne felt the utter impossibility, from her
1979 knowledge of his mind, that he could be unvisited by remembrance any
1980 more than herself. There must be the same immediate association of
1981 thought, though she was very far from conceiving it to be of equal pain.
1982
1983 They had no conversation together, no intercourse but what the
1984 commonest civility required. Once so much to each other! Now nothing!
1985 There had been a time, when of all the large party now filling the
1986 drawing-room at Uppercross, they would have found it most difficult to
1987 cease to speak to one another. With the exception, perhaps, of Admiral
1988 and Mrs Croft, who seemed particularly attached and happy, (Anne could
1989 allow no other exceptions even among the married couples), there could
1990 have been no two hearts so open, no tastes so similar, no feelings so
1991 in unison, no countenances so beloved. Now they were as strangers;
1992 nay, worse than strangers, for they could never become acquainted. It
1993 was a perpetual estrangement.
1994
1995 When he talked, she heard the same voice, and discerned the same mind.
1996 There was a very general ignorance of all naval matters throughout the
1997 party; and he was very much questioned, and especially by the two Miss
1998 Musgroves, who seemed hardly to have any eyes but for him, as to the
1999 manner of living on board, daily regulations, food, hours, &c., and
2000 their surprise at his accounts, at learning the degree of accommodation
2001 and arrangement which was practicable, drew from him some pleasant
2002 ridicule, which reminded Anne of the early days when she too had been
2003 ignorant, and she too had been accused of supposing sailors to be
2004 living on board without anything to eat, or any cook to dress it if
2005 there were, or any servant to wait, or any knife and fork to use.
2006
2007 From thus listening and thinking, she was roused by a whisper of Mrs
2008 Musgrove's who, overcome by fond regrets, could not help saying--
2009
2010 "Ah! Miss Anne, if it had pleased Heaven to spare my poor son, I dare
2011 say he would have been just such another by this time."
2012
2013 Anne suppressed a smile, and listened kindly, while Mrs Musgrove
2014 relieved her heart a little more; and for a few minutes, therefore,
2015 could not keep pace with the conversation of the others.
2016
2017 When she could let her attention take its natural course again, she
2018 found the Miss Musgroves just fetching the Navy List (their own navy
2019 list, the first that had ever been at Uppercross), and sitting down
2020 together to pore over it, with the professed view of finding out the
2021 ships that Captain Wentworth had commanded.
2022
2023 "Your first was the Asp, I remember; we will look for the Asp."
2024
2025 "You will not find her there. Quite worn out and broken up. I was the
2026 last man who commanded her. Hardly fit for service then. Reported fit
2027 for home service for a year or two, and so I was sent off to the West
2028 Indies."
2029
2030 The girls looked all amazement.
2031
2032 "The Admiralty," he continued, "entertain themselves now and then, with
2033 sending a few hundred men to sea, in a ship not fit to be employed.
2034 But they have a great many to provide for; and among the thousands that
2035 may just as well go to the bottom as not, it is impossible for them to
2036 distinguish the very set who may be least missed."
2037
2038 "Phoo! phoo!" cried the Admiral, "what stuff these young fellows talk!
2039 Never was a better sloop than the Asp in her day. For an old built
2040 sloop, you would not see her equal. Lucky fellow to get her! He knows
2041 there must have been twenty better men than himself applying for her at
2042 the same time. Lucky fellow to get anything so soon, with no more
2043 interest than his."
2044
2045 "I felt my luck, Admiral, I assure you;" replied Captain Wentworth,
2046 seriously. "I was as well satisfied with my appointment as you can
2047 desire. It was a great object with me at that time to be at sea; a
2048 very great object, I wanted to be doing something."
2049
2050 "To be sure you did. What should a young fellow like you do ashore for
2051 half a year together? If a man had not a wife, he soon wants to be
2052 afloat again."
2053
2054 "But, Captain Wentworth," cried Louisa, "how vexed you must have been
2055 when you came to the Asp, to see what an old thing they had given you."
2056
2057 "I knew pretty well what she was before that day;" said he, smiling.
2058 "I had no more discoveries to make than you would have as to the
2059 fashion and strength of any old pelisse, which you had seen lent about
2060 among half your acquaintance ever since you could remember, and which
2061 at last, on some very wet day, is lent to yourself. Ah! she was a dear
2062 old Asp to me. She did all that I wanted. I knew she would. I knew
2063 that we should either go to the bottom together, or that she would be
2064 the making of me; and I never had two days of foul weather all the time
2065 I was at sea in her; and after taking privateers enough to be very
2066 entertaining, I had the good luck in my passage home the next autumn,
2067 to fall in with the very French frigate I wanted. I brought her into
2068 Plymouth; and here another instance of luck. We had not been six hours
2069 in the Sound, when a gale came on, which lasted four days and nights,
2070 and which would have done for poor old Asp in half the time; our touch
2071 with the Great Nation not having much improved our condition.
2072 Four-and-twenty hours later, and I should only have been a gallant
2073 Captain Wentworth, in a small paragraph at one corner of the
2074 newspapers; and being lost in only a sloop, nobody would have thought
2075 about me." Anne's shudderings were to herself alone; but the Miss
2076 Musgroves could be as open as they were sincere, in their exclamations
2077 of pity and horror.
2078
2079 "And so then, I suppose," said Mrs Musgrove, in a low voice, as if
2080 thinking aloud, "so then he went away to the Laconia, and there he met
2081 with our poor boy. Charles, my dear," (beckoning him to her), "do ask
2082 Captain Wentworth where it was he first met with your poor brother. I
2083 always forgot."
2084
2085 "It was at Gibraltar, mother, I know. Dick had been left ill at
2086 Gibraltar, with a recommendation from his former captain to Captain
2087 Wentworth."
2088
2089 "Oh! but, Charles, tell Captain Wentworth, he need not be afraid of
2090 mentioning poor Dick before me, for it would be rather a pleasure to
2091 hear him talked of by such a good friend."
2092
2093 Charles, being somewhat more mindful of the probabilities of the case,
2094 only nodded in reply, and walked away.
2095
2096 The girls were now hunting for the Laconia; and Captain Wentworth could
2097 not deny himself the pleasure of taking the precious volume into his
2098 own hands to save them the trouble, and once more read aloud the little
2099 statement of her name and rate, and present non-commissioned class,
2100 observing over it that she too had been one of the best friends man
2101 ever had.
2102
2103 "Ah! those were pleasant days when I had the Laconia! How fast I made
2104 money in her. A friend of mine and I had such a lovely cruise together
2105 off the Western Islands. Poor Harville, sister! You know how much he
2106 wanted money: worse than myself. He had a wife. Excellent fellow. I
2107 shall never forget his happiness. He felt it all, so much for her
2108 sake. I wished for him again the next summer, when I had still the
2109 same luck in the Mediterranean."
2110
2111 "And I am sure, Sir," said Mrs Musgrove, "it was a lucky day for us,
2112 when you were put captain into that ship. We shall never forget what
2113 you did."
2114
2115 Her feelings made her speak low; and Captain Wentworth, hearing only in
2116 part, and probably not having Dick Musgrove at all near his thoughts,
2117 looked rather in suspense, and as if waiting for more.
2118
2119 "My brother," whispered one of the girls; "mamma is thinking of poor
2120 Richard."
2121
2122 "Poor dear fellow!" continued Mrs Musgrove; "he was grown so steady,
2123 and such an excellent correspondent, while he was under your care! Ah!
2124 it would have been a happy thing, if he had never left you. I assure
2125 you, Captain Wentworth, we are very sorry he ever left you."
2126
2127 There was a momentary expression in Captain Wentworth's face at this
2128 speech, a certain glance of his bright eye, and curl of his handsome
2129 mouth, which convinced Anne, that instead of sharing in Mrs Musgrove's
2130 kind wishes, as to her son, he had probably been at some pains to get
2131 rid of him; but it was too transient an indulgence of self-amusement to
2132 be detected by any who understood him less than herself; in another
2133 moment he was perfectly collected and serious, and almost instantly
2134 afterwards coming up to the sofa, on which she and Mrs Musgrove were
2135 sitting, took a place by the latter, and entered into conversation with
2136 her, in a low voice, about her son, doing it with so much sympathy and
2137 natural grace, as shewed the kindest consideration for all that was
2138 real and unabsurd in the parent's feelings.
2139
2140 They were actually on the same sofa, for Mrs Musgrove had most readily
2141 made room for him; they were divided only by Mrs Musgrove. It was no
2142 insignificant barrier, indeed. Mrs Musgrove was of a comfortable,
2143 substantial size, infinitely more fitted by nature to express good
2144 cheer and good humour, than tenderness and sentiment; and while the
2145 agitations of Anne's slender form, and pensive face, may be considered
2146 as very completely screened, Captain Wentworth should be allowed some
2147 credit for the self-command with which he attended to her large fat
2148 sighings over the destiny of a son, whom alive nobody had cared for.
2149
2150 Personal size and mental sorrow have certainly no necessary
2151 proportions. A large bulky figure has as good a right to be in deep
2152 affliction, as the most graceful set of limbs in the world. But, fair
2153 or not fair, there are unbecoming conjunctions, which reason will
2154 patronize in vain--which taste cannot tolerate--which ridicule will
2155 seize.
2156
2157 The Admiral, after taking two or three refreshing turns about the room
2158 with his hands behind him, being called to order by his wife, now came
2159 up to Captain Wentworth, and without any observation of what he might
2160 be interrupting, thinking only of his own thoughts, began with--
2161
2162 "If you had been a week later at Lisbon, last spring, Frederick, you
2163 would have been asked to give a passage to Lady Mary Grierson and her
2164 daughters."
2165
2166 "Should I? I am glad I was not a week later then."
2167
2168 The Admiral abused him for his want of gallantry. He defended himself;
2169 though professing that he would never willingly admit any ladies on
2170 board a ship of his, excepting for a ball, or a visit, which a few
2171 hours might comprehend.
2172
2173 "But, if I know myself," said he, "this is from no want of gallantry
2174 towards them. It is rather from feeling how impossible it is, with all
2175 one's efforts, and all one's sacrifices, to make the accommodations on
2176 board such as women ought to have. There can be no want of gallantry,
2177 Admiral, in rating the claims of women to every personal comfort high,
2178 and this is what I do. I hate to hear of women on board, or to see
2179 them on board; and no ship under my command shall ever convey a family
2180 of ladies anywhere, if I can help it."
2181
2182 This brought his sister upon him.
2183
2184 "Oh! Frederick! But I cannot believe it of you.--All idle
2185 refinement!--Women may be as comfortable on board, as in the best house
2186 in England. I believe I have lived as much on board as most women, and
2187 I know nothing superior to the accommodations of a man-of-war. I
2188 declare I have not a comfort or an indulgence about me, even at
2189 Kellynch Hall," (with a kind bow to Anne), "beyond what I always had in
2190 most of the ships I have lived in; and they have been five altogether."
2191
2192 "Nothing to the purpose," replied her brother. "You were living with
2193 your husband, and were the only woman on board."
2194
2195 "But you, yourself, brought Mrs Harville, her sister, her cousin, and
2196 three children, round from Portsmouth to Plymouth. Where was this
2197 superfine, extraordinary sort of gallantry of yours then?"
2198
2199 "All merged in my friendship, Sophia. I would assist any brother
2200 officer's wife that I could, and I would bring anything of Harville's
2201 from the world's end, if he wanted it. But do not imagine that I did
2202 not feel it an evil in itself."
2203
2204 "Depend upon it, they were all perfectly comfortable."
2205
2206 "I might not like them the better for that perhaps. Such a number of
2207 women and children have no right to be comfortable on board."
2208
2209 "My dear Frederick, you are talking quite idly. Pray, what would
2210 become of us poor sailors' wives, who often want to be conveyed to one
2211 port or another, after our husbands, if everybody had your feelings?"
2212
2213 "My feelings, you see, did not prevent my taking Mrs Harville and all
2214 her family to Plymouth."
2215
2216 "But I hate to hear you talking so like a fine gentleman, and as if
2217 women were all fine ladies, instead of rational creatures. We none of
2218 us expect to be in smooth water all our days."
2219
2220 "Ah! my dear," said the Admiral, "when he had got a wife, he will sing
2221 a different tune. When he is married, if we have the good luck to live
2222 to another war, we shall see him do as you and I, and a great many
2223 others, have done. We shall have him very thankful to anybody that
2224 will bring him his wife."
2225
2226 "Ay, that we shall."
2227
2228 "Now I have done," cried Captain Wentworth. "When once married people
2229 begin to attack me with,--'Oh! you will think very differently, when
2230 you are married.' I can only say, 'No, I shall not;' and then they say
2231 again, 'Yes, you will,' and there is an end of it."
2232
2233 He got up and moved away.
2234
2235 "What a great traveller you must have been, ma'am!" said Mrs Musgrove
2236 to Mrs Croft.
2237
2238 "Pretty well, ma'am in the fifteen years of my marriage; though many
2239 women have done more. I have crossed the Atlantic four times, and have
2240 been once to the East Indies, and back again, and only once; besides
2241 being in different places about home: Cork, and Lisbon, and Gibraltar.
2242 But I never went beyond the Streights, and never was in the West
2243 Indies. We do not call Bermuda or Bahama, you know, the West Indies."
2244
2245 Mrs Musgrove had not a word to say in dissent; she could not accuse
2246 herself of having ever called them anything in the whole course of her
2247 life.
2248
2249 "And I do assure you, ma'am," pursued Mrs Croft, "that nothing can
2250 exceed the accommodations of a man-of-war; I speak, you know, of the
2251 higher rates. When you come to a frigate, of course, you are more
2252 confined; though any reasonable woman may be perfectly happy in one of
2253 them; and I can safely say, that the happiest part of my life has been
2254 spent on board a ship. While we were together, you know, there was
2255 nothing to be feared. Thank God! I have always been blessed with
2256 excellent health, and no climate disagrees with me. A little
2257 disordered always the first twenty-four hours of going to sea, but
2258 never knew what sickness was afterwards. The only time I ever really
2259 suffered in body or mind, the only time that I ever fancied myself
2260 unwell, or had any ideas of danger, was the winter that I passed by
2261 myself at Deal, when the Admiral (Captain Croft then) was in the North
2262 Seas. I lived in perpetual fright at that time, and had all manner of
2263 imaginary complaints from not knowing what to do with myself, or when I
2264 should hear from him next; but as long as we could be together, nothing
2265 ever ailed me, and I never met with the smallest inconvenience."
2266
2267 "Aye, to be sure. Yes, indeed, oh yes! I am quite of your opinion,
2268 Mrs Croft," was Mrs Musgrove's hearty answer. "There is nothing so bad
2269 as a separation. I am quite of your opinion. I know what it is, for
2270 Mr Musgrove always attends the assizes, and I am so glad when they are
2271 over, and he is safe back again."
2272
2273 The evening ended with dancing. On its being proposed, Anne offered
2274 her services, as usual; and though her eyes would sometimes fill with
2275 tears as she sat at the instrument, she was extremely glad to be
2276 employed, and desired nothing in return but to be unobserved.
2277
2278 It was a merry, joyous party, and no one seemed in higher spirits than
2279 Captain Wentworth. She felt that he had every thing to elevate him
2280 which general attention and deference, and especially the attention of
2281 all the young women, could do. The Miss Hayters, the females of the
2282 family of cousins already mentioned, were apparently admitted to the
2283 honour of being in love with him; and as for Henrietta and Louisa, they
2284 both seemed so entirely occupied by him, that nothing but the continued
2285 appearance of the most perfect good-will between themselves could have
2286 made it credible that they were not decided rivals. If he were a
2287 little spoilt by such universal, such eager admiration, who could
2288 wonder?
2289
2290 These were some of the thoughts which occupied Anne, while her fingers
2291 were mechanically at work, proceeding for half an hour together,
2292 equally without error, and without consciousness. Once she felt that
2293 he was looking at herself, observing her altered features, perhaps,
2294 trying to trace in them the ruins of the face which had once charmed
2295 him; and once she knew that he must have spoken of her; she was hardly
2296 aware of it, till she heard the answer; but then she was sure of his
2297 having asked his partner whether Miss Elliot never danced? The answer
2298 was, "Oh, no; never; she has quite given up dancing. She had rather
2299 play. She is never tired of playing." Once, too, he spoke to her.
2300 She had left the instrument on the dancing being over, and he had sat
2301 down to try to make out an air which he wished to give the Miss
2302 Musgroves an idea of. Unintentionally she returned to that part of the
2303 room; he saw her, and, instantly rising, said, with studied politeness--
2304
2305 "I beg your pardon, madam, this is your seat;" and though she
2306 immediately drew back with a decided negative, he was not to be induced
2307 to sit down again.
2308
2309 Anne did not wish for more of such looks and speeches. His cold
2310 politeness, his ceremonious grace, were worse than anything.
2311
2312
2313
2314 Chapter 9
2315
2316
2317 Captain Wentworth was come to Kellynch as to a home, to stay as long as
2318 he liked, being as thoroughly the object of the Admiral's fraternal
2319 kindness as of his wife's. He had intended, on first arriving, to
2320 proceed very soon into Shropshire, and visit the brother settled in
2321 that country, but the attractions of Uppercross induced him to put this
2322 off. There was so much of friendliness, and of flattery, and of
2323 everything most bewitching in his reception there; the old were so
2324 hospitable, the young so agreeable, that he could not but resolve to
2325 remain where he was, and take all the charms and perfections of
2326 Edward's wife upon credit a little longer.
2327
2328 It was soon Uppercross with him almost every day. The Musgroves could
2329 hardly be more ready to invite than he to come, particularly in the
2330 morning, when he had no companion at home, for the Admiral and Mrs
2331 Croft were generally out of doors together, interesting themselves in
2332 their new possessions, their grass, and their sheep, and dawdling about
2333 in a way not endurable to a third person, or driving out in a gig,
2334 lately added to their establishment.
2335
2336 Hitherto there had been but one opinion of Captain Wentworth among the
2337 Musgroves and their dependencies. It was unvarying, warm admiration
2338 everywhere; but this intimate footing was not more than established,
2339 when a certain Charles Hayter returned among them, to be a good deal
2340 disturbed by it, and to think Captain Wentworth very much in the way.
2341
2342 Charles Hayter was the eldest of all the cousins, and a very amiable,
2343 pleasing young man, between whom and Henrietta there had been a
2344 considerable appearance of attachment previous to Captain Wentworth's
2345 introduction. He was in orders; and having a curacy in the
2346 neighbourhood, where residence was not required, lived at his father's
2347 house, only two miles from Uppercross. A short absence from home had
2348 left his fair one unguarded by his attentions at this critical period,
2349 and when he came back he had the pain of finding very altered manners,
2350 and of seeing Captain Wentworth.
2351
2352 Mrs Musgrove and Mrs Hayter were sisters. They had each had money, but
2353 their marriages had made a material difference in their degree of
2354 consequence. Mr Hayter had some property of his own, but it was
2355 insignificant compared with Mr Musgrove's; and while the Musgroves were
2356 in the first class of society in the country, the young Hayters would,
2357 from their parents' inferior, retired, and unpolished way of living,
2358 and their own defective education, have been hardly in any class at
2359 all, but for their connexion with Uppercross, this eldest son of course
2360 excepted, who had chosen to be a scholar and a gentleman, and who was
2361 very superior in cultivation and manners to all the rest.
2362
2363 The two families had always been on excellent terms, there being no
2364 pride on one side, and no envy on the other, and only such a
2365 consciousness of superiority in the Miss Musgroves, as made them
2366 pleased to improve their cousins. Charles's attentions to Henrietta
2367 had been observed by her father and mother without any disapprobation.
2368 "It would not be a great match for her; but if Henrietta liked him,"--
2369 and Henrietta did seem to like him.
2370
2371 Henrietta fully thought so herself, before Captain Wentworth came; but
2372 from that time Cousin Charles had been very much forgotten.
2373
2374 Which of the two sisters was preferred by Captain Wentworth was as yet
2375 quite doubtful, as far as Anne's observation reached. Henrietta was
2376 perhaps the prettiest, Louisa had the higher spirits; and she knew not
2377 now, whether the more gentle or the more lively character were most
2378 likely to attract him.
2379
2380 Mr and Mrs Musgrove, either from seeing little, or from an entire
2381 confidence in the discretion of both their daughters, and of all the
2382 young men who came near them, seemed to leave everything to take its
2383 chance. There was not the smallest appearance of solicitude or remark
2384 about them in the Mansion-house; but it was different at the Cottage:
2385 the young couple there were more disposed to speculate and wonder; and
2386 Captain Wentworth had not been above four or five times in the Miss
2387 Musgroves' company, and Charles Hayter had but just reappeared, when
2388 Anne had to listen to the opinions of her brother and sister, as to
2389 which was the one liked best. Charles gave it for Louisa, Mary for
2390 Henrietta, but quite agreeing that to have him marry either could be
2391 extremely delightful.
2392
2393 Charles "had never seen a pleasanter man in his life; and from what he
2394 had once heard Captain Wentworth himself say, was very sure that he had
2395 not made less than twenty thousand pounds by the war. Here was a
2396 fortune at once; besides which, there would be the chance of what might
2397 be done in any future war; and he was sure Captain Wentworth was as
2398 likely a man to distinguish himself as any officer in the navy. Oh! it
2399 would be a capital match for either of his sisters."
2400
2401 "Upon my word it would," replied Mary. "Dear me! If he should rise to
2402 any very great honours! If he should ever be made a baronet! 'Lady
2403 Wentworth' sounds very well. That would be a noble thing, indeed, for
2404 Henrietta! She would take place of me then, and Henrietta would not
2405 dislike that. Sir Frederick and Lady Wentworth! It would be but a new
2406 creation, however, and I never think much of your new creations."
2407
2408 It suited Mary best to think Henrietta the one preferred on the very
2409 account of Charles Hayter, whose pretensions she wished to see put an
2410 end to. She looked down very decidedly upon the Hayters, and thought
2411 it would be quite a misfortune to have the existing connection between
2412 the families renewed--very sad for herself and her children.
2413
2414 "You know," said she, "I cannot think him at all a fit match for
2415 Henrietta; and considering the alliances which the Musgroves have made,
2416 she has no right to throw herself away. I do not think any young woman
2417 has a right to make a choice that may be disagreeable and inconvenient
2418 to the principal part of her family, and be giving bad connections to
2419 those who have not been used to them. And, pray, who is Charles
2420 Hayter? Nothing but a country curate. A most improper match for Miss
2421 Musgrove of Uppercross."
2422
2423 Her husband, however, would not agree with her here; for besides having
2424 a regard for his cousin, Charles Hayter was an eldest son, and he saw
2425 things as an eldest son himself.
2426
2427 "Now you are talking nonsense, Mary," was therefore his answer. "It
2428 would not be a great match for Henrietta, but Charles has a very fair
2429 chance, through the Spicers, of getting something from the Bishop in
2430 the course of a year or two; and you will please to remember, that he
2431 is the eldest son; whenever my uncle dies, he steps into very pretty
2432 property. The estate at Winthrop is not less than two hundred and
2433 fifty acres, besides the farm near Taunton, which is some of the best
2434 land in the country. I grant you, that any of them but Charles would
2435 be a very shocking match for Henrietta, and indeed it could not be; he
2436 is the only one that could be possible; but he is a very good-natured,
2437 good sort of a fellow; and whenever Winthrop comes into his hands, he
2438 will make a different sort of place of it, and live in a very different
2439 sort of way; and with that property, he will never be a contemptible
2440 man--good, freehold property. No, no; Henrietta might do worse than
2441 marry Charles Hayter; and if she has him, and Louisa can get Captain
2442 Wentworth, I shall be very well satisfied."
2443
2444 "Charles may say what he pleases," cried Mary to Anne, as soon as he
2445 was out of the room, "but it would be shocking to have Henrietta marry
2446 Charles Hayter; a very bad thing for her, and still worse for me; and
2447 therefore it is very much to be wished that Captain Wentworth may soon
2448 put him quite out of her head, and I have very little doubt that he
2449 has. She took hardly any notice of Charles Hayter yesterday. I wish
2450 you had been there to see her behaviour. And as to Captain Wentworth's
2451 liking Louisa as well as Henrietta, it is nonsense to say so; for he
2452 certainly does like Henrietta a great deal the best. But Charles is so
2453 positive! I wish you had been with us yesterday, for then you might
2454 have decided between us; and I am sure you would have thought as I did,
2455 unless you had been determined to give it against me."
2456
2457 A dinner at Mr Musgrove's had been the occasion when all these things
2458 should have been seen by Anne; but she had staid at home, under the
2459 mixed plea of a headache of her own, and some return of indisposition
2460 in little Charles. She had thought only of avoiding Captain Wentworth;
2461 but an escape from being appealed to as umpire was now added to the
2462 advantages of a quiet evening.
2463
2464 As to Captain Wentworth's views, she deemed it of more consequence that
2465 he should know his own mind early enough not to be endangering the
2466 happiness of either sister, or impeaching his own honour, than that he
2467 should prefer Henrietta to Louisa, or Louisa to Henrietta. Either of
2468 them would, in all probability, make him an affectionate, good-humoured
2469 wife. With regard to Charles Hayter, she had delicacy which must be
2470 pained by any lightness of conduct in a well-meaning young woman, and a
2471 heart to sympathize in any of the sufferings it occasioned; but if
2472 Henrietta found herself mistaken in the nature of her feelings, the
2473 alteration could not be understood too soon.
2474
2475 Charles Hayter had met with much to disquiet and mortify him in his
2476 cousin's behaviour. She had too old a regard for him to be so wholly
2477 estranged as might in two meetings extinguish every past hope, and
2478 leave him nothing to do but to keep away from Uppercross: but there
2479 was such a change as became very alarming, when such a man as Captain
2480 Wentworth was to be regarded as the probable cause. He had been absent
2481 only two Sundays, and when they parted, had left her interested, even
2482 to the height of his wishes, in his prospect of soon quitting his
2483 present curacy, and obtaining that of Uppercross instead. It had then
2484 seemed the object nearest her heart, that Dr Shirley, the rector, who
2485 for more than forty years had been zealously discharging all the duties
2486 of his office, but was now growing too infirm for many of them, should
2487 be quite fixed on engaging a curate; should make his curacy quite as
2488 good as he could afford, and should give Charles Hayter the promise of
2489 it. The advantage of his having to come only to Uppercross, instead of
2490 going six miles another way; of his having, in every respect, a better
2491 curacy; of his belonging to their dear Dr Shirley, and of dear, good Dr
2492 Shirley's being relieved from the duty which he could no longer get
2493 through without most injurious fatigue, had been a great deal, even to
2494 Louisa, but had been almost everything to Henrietta. When he came
2495 back, alas! the zeal of the business was gone by. Louisa could not
2496 listen at all to his account of a conversation which he had just held
2497 with Dr Shirley: she was at a window, looking out for Captain
2498 Wentworth; and even Henrietta had at best only a divided attention to
2499 give, and seemed to have forgotten all the former doubt and solicitude
2500 of the negotiation.
2501
2502 "Well, I am very glad indeed: but I always thought you would have it;
2503 I always thought you sure. It did not appear to me that--in short, you
2504 know, Dr Shirley must have a curate, and you had secured his promise.
2505 Is he coming, Louisa?"
2506
2507 One morning, very soon after the dinner at the Musgroves, at which Anne
2508 had not been present, Captain Wentworth walked into the drawing-room at
2509 the Cottage, where were only herself and the little invalid Charles,
2510 who was lying on the sofa.
2511
2512 The surprise of finding himself almost alone with Anne Elliot, deprived
2513 his manners of their usual composure: he started, and could only say,
2514 "I thought the Miss Musgroves had been here: Mrs Musgrove told me I
2515 should find them here," before he walked to the window to recollect
2516 himself, and feel how he ought to behave.
2517
2518 "They are up stairs with my sister: they will be down in a few
2519 moments, I dare say," had been Anne's reply, in all the confusion that
2520 was natural; and if the child had not called her to come and do
2521 something for him, she would have been out of the room the next moment,
2522 and released Captain Wentworth as well as herself.
2523
2524 He continued at the window; and after calmly and politely saying, "I
2525 hope the little boy is better," was silent.
2526
2527 She was obliged to kneel down by the sofa, and remain there to satisfy
2528 her patient; and thus they continued a few minutes, when, to her very
2529 great satisfaction, she heard some other person crossing the little
2530 vestibule. She hoped, on turning her head, to see the master of the
2531 house; but it proved to be one much less calculated for making matters
2532 easy--Charles Hayter, probably not at all better pleased by the sight
2533 of Captain Wentworth than Captain Wentworth had been by the sight of
2534 Anne.
2535
2536 She only attempted to say, "How do you do? Will you not sit down? The
2537 others will be here presently."
2538
2539 Captain Wentworth, however, came from his window, apparently not
2540 ill-disposed for conversation; but Charles Hayter soon put an end to
2541 his attempts by seating himself near the table, and taking up the
2542 newspaper; and Captain Wentworth returned to his window.
2543
2544 Another minute brought another addition. The younger boy, a remarkable
2545 stout, forward child, of two years old, having got the door opened for
2546 him by some one without, made his determined appearance among them, and
2547 went straight to the sofa to see what was going on, and put in his
2548 claim to anything good that might be giving away.
2549
2550 There being nothing to eat, he could only have some play; and as his
2551 aunt would not let him tease his sick brother, he began to fasten
2552 himself upon her, as she knelt, in such a way that, busy as she was
2553 about Charles, she could not shake him off. She spoke to him, ordered,
2554 entreated, and insisted in vain. Once she did contrive to push him
2555 away, but the boy had the greater pleasure in getting upon her back
2556 again directly.
2557
2558 "Walter," said she, "get down this moment. You are extremely
2559 troublesome. I am very angry with you."
2560
2561 "Walter," cried Charles Hayter, "why do you not do as you are bid? Do
2562 not you hear your aunt speak? Come to me, Walter, come to cousin
2563 Charles."
2564
2565 But not a bit did Walter stir.
2566
2567 In another moment, however, she found herself in the state of being
2568 released from him; some one was taking him from her, though he had bent
2569 down her head so much, that his little sturdy hands were unfastened
2570 from around her neck, and he was resolutely borne away, before she knew
2571 that Captain Wentworth had done it.
2572
2573 Her sensations on the discovery made her perfectly speechless. She
2574 could not even thank him. She could only hang over little Charles,
2575 with most disordered feelings. His kindness in stepping forward to her
2576 relief, the manner, the silence in which it had passed, the little
2577 particulars of the circumstance, with the conviction soon forced on her
2578 by the noise he was studiously making with the child, that he meant to
2579 avoid hearing her thanks, and rather sought to testify that her
2580 conversation was the last of his wants, produced such a confusion of
2581 varying, but very painful agitation, as she could not recover from,
2582 till enabled by the entrance of Mary and the Miss Musgroves to make
2583 over her little patient to their cares, and leave the room. She could
2584 not stay. It might have been an opportunity of watching the loves and
2585 jealousies of the four--they were now altogether; but she could stay
2586 for none of it. It was evident that Charles Hayter was not well
2587 inclined towards Captain Wentworth. She had a strong impression of his
2588 having said, in a vext tone of voice, after Captain Wentworth's
2589 interference, "You ought to have minded me, Walter; I told you not to
2590 teaze your aunt;" and could comprehend his regretting that Captain
2591 Wentworth should do what he ought to have done himself. But neither
2592 Charles Hayter's feelings, nor anybody's feelings, could interest her,
2593 till she had a little better arranged her own. She was ashamed of
2594 herself, quite ashamed of being so nervous, so overcome by such a
2595 trifle; but so it was, and it required a long application of solitude
2596 and reflection to recover her.
2597
2598
2599
2600 Chapter 10
2601
2602
2603 Other opportunities of making her observations could not fail to occur.
2604 Anne had soon been in company with all the four together often enough
2605 to have an opinion, though too wise to acknowledge as much at home,
2606 where she knew it would have satisfied neither husband nor wife; for
2607 while she considered Louisa to be rather the favourite, she could not
2608 but think, as far as she might dare to judge from memory and
2609 experience, that Captain Wentworth was not in love with either. They
2610 were more in love with him; yet there it was not love. It was a little
2611 fever of admiration; but it might, probably must, end in love with
2612 some. Charles Hayter seemed aware of being slighted, and yet Henrietta
2613 had sometimes the air of being divided between them. Anne longed for
2614 the power of representing to them all what they were about, and of
2615 pointing out some of the evils they were exposing themselves to. She
2616 did not attribute guile to any. It was the highest satisfaction to her
2617 to believe Captain Wentworth not in the least aware of the pain he was
2618 occasioning. There was no triumph, no pitiful triumph in his manner.
2619 He had, probably, never heard, and never thought of any claims of
2620 Charles Hayter. He was only wrong in accepting the attentions (for
2621 accepting must be the word) of two young women at once.
2622
2623 After a short struggle, however, Charles Hayter seemed to quit the
2624 field. Three days had passed without his coming once to Uppercross; a
2625 most decided change. He had even refused one regular invitation to
2626 dinner; and having been found on the occasion by Mr Musgrove with some
2627 large books before him, Mr and Mrs Musgrove were sure all could not be
2628 right, and talked, with grave faces, of his studying himself to death.
2629 It was Mary's hope and belief that he had received a positive dismissal
2630 from Henrietta, and her husband lived under the constant dependence of
2631 seeing him to-morrow. Anne could only feel that Charles Hayter was
2632 wise.
2633
2634 One morning, about this time Charles Musgrove and Captain Wentworth
2635 being gone a-shooting together, as the sisters in the Cottage were
2636 sitting quietly at work, they were visited at the window by the sisters
2637 from the Mansion-house.
2638
2639 It was a very fine November day, and the Miss Musgroves came through
2640 the little grounds, and stopped for no other purpose than to say, that
2641 they were going to take a long walk, and therefore concluded Mary could
2642 not like to go with them; and when Mary immediately replied, with some
2643 jealousy at not being supposed a good walker, "Oh, yes, I should like
2644 to join you very much, I am very fond of a long walk;" Anne felt
2645 persuaded, by the looks of the two girls, that it was precisely what
2646 they did not wish, and admired again the sort of necessity which the
2647 family habits seemed to produce, of everything being to be
2648 communicated, and everything being to be done together, however
2649 undesired and inconvenient. She tried to dissuade Mary from going, but
2650 in vain; and that being the case, thought it best to accept the Miss
2651 Musgroves' much more cordial invitation to herself to go likewise, as
2652 she might be useful in turning back with her sister, and lessening the
2653 interference in any plan of their own.
2654
2655 "I cannot imagine why they should suppose I should not like a long
2656 walk," said Mary, as she went up stairs. "Everybody is always
2657 supposing that I am not a good walker; and yet they would not have been
2658 pleased, if we had refused to join them. When people come in this
2659 manner on purpose to ask us, how can one say no?"
2660
2661 Just as they were setting off, the gentlemen returned. They had taken
2662 out a young dog, who had spoilt their sport, and sent them back early.
2663 Their time and strength, and spirits, were, therefore, exactly ready
2664 for this walk, and they entered into it with pleasure. Could Anne have
2665 foreseen such a junction, she would have staid at home; but, from some
2666 feelings of interest and curiosity, she fancied now that it was too
2667 late to retract, and the whole six set forward together in the
2668 direction chosen by the Miss Musgroves, who evidently considered the
2669 walk as under their guidance.
2670
2671 Anne's object was, not to be in the way of anybody; and where the
2672 narrow paths across the fields made many separations necessary, to keep
2673 with her brother and sister. Her pleasure in the walk must arise from
2674 the exercise and the day, from the view of the last smiles of the year
2675 upon the tawny leaves, and withered hedges, and from repeating to
2676 herself some few of the thousand poetical descriptions extant of
2677 autumn, that season of peculiar and inexhaustible influence on the mind
2678 of taste and tenderness, that season which had drawn from every poet,
2679 worthy of being read, some attempt at description, or some lines of
2680 feeling. She occupied her mind as much as possible in such like
2681 musings and quotations; but it was not possible, that when within reach
2682 of Captain Wentworth's conversation with either of the Miss Musgroves,
2683 she should not try to hear it; yet she caught little very remarkable.
2684 It was mere lively chat, such as any young persons, on an intimate
2685 footing, might fall into. He was more engaged with Louisa than with
2686 Henrietta. Louisa certainly put more forward for his notice than her
2687 sister. This distinction appeared to increase, and there was one
2688 speech of Louisa's which struck her. After one of the many praises of
2689 the day, which were continually bursting forth, Captain Wentworth
2690 added:--
2691
2692 "What glorious weather for the Admiral and my sister! They meant to
2693 take a long drive this morning; perhaps we may hail them from some of
2694 these hills. They talked of coming into this side of the country. I
2695 wonder whereabouts they will upset to-day. Oh! it does happen very
2696 often, I assure you; but my sister makes nothing of it; she would as
2697 lieve be tossed out as not."
2698
2699 "Ah! You make the most of it, I know," cried Louisa, "but if it were
2700 really so, I should do just the same in her place. If I loved a man,
2701 as she loves the Admiral, I would always be with him, nothing should
2702 ever separate us, and I would rather be overturned by him, than driven
2703 safely by anybody else."
2704
2705 It was spoken with enthusiasm.
2706
2707 "Had you?" cried he, catching the same tone; "I honour you!" And there
2708 was silence between them for a little while.
2709
2710 Anne could not immediately fall into a quotation again. The sweet
2711 scenes of autumn were for a while put by, unless some tender sonnet,
2712 fraught with the apt analogy of the declining year, with declining
2713 happiness, and the images of youth and hope, and spring, all gone
2714 together, blessed her memory. She roused herself to say, as they
2715 struck by order into another path, "Is not this one of the ways to
2716 Winthrop?" But nobody heard, or, at least, nobody answered her.
2717
2718 Winthrop, however, or its environs--for young men are, sometimes to be
2719 met with, strolling about near home--was their destination; and after
2720 another half mile of gradual ascent through large enclosures, where the
2721 ploughs at work, and the fresh made path spoke the farmer counteracting
2722 the sweets of poetical despondence, and meaning to have spring again,
2723 they gained the summit of the most considerable hill, which parted
2724 Uppercross and Winthrop, and soon commanded a full view of the latter,
2725 at the foot of the hill on the other side.
2726
2727 Winthrop, without beauty and without dignity, was stretched before them;
2728 an indifferent house, standing low, and hemmed in by the barns and
2729 buildings of a farm-yard.
2730
2731 Mary exclaimed, "Bless me! here is Winthrop. I declare I had no idea!
2732 Well now, I think we had better turn back; I am excessively tired."
2733
2734 Henrietta, conscious and ashamed, and seeing no cousin Charles walking
2735 along any path, or leaning against any gate, was ready to do as Mary
2736 wished; but "No!" said Charles Musgrove, and "No, no!" cried Louisa
2737 more eagerly, and taking her sister aside, seemed to be arguing the
2738 matter warmly.
2739
2740 Charles, in the meanwhile, was very decidedly declaring his resolution
2741 of calling on his aunt, now that he was so near; and very evidently,
2742 though more fearfully, trying to induce his wife to go too. But this
2743 was one of the points on which the lady shewed her strength; and when
2744 he recommended the advantage of resting herself a quarter of an hour at
2745 Winthrop, as she felt so tired, she resolutely answered, "Oh! no,
2746 indeed! walking up that hill again would do her more harm than any
2747 sitting down could do her good;" and, in short, her look and manner
2748 declared, that go she would not.
2749
2750 After a little succession of these sort of debates and consultations,
2751 it was settled between Charles and his two sisters, that he and
2752 Henrietta should just run down for a few minutes, to see their aunt and
2753 cousins, while the rest of the party waited for them at the top of the
2754 hill. Louisa seemed the principal arranger of the plan; and, as she
2755 went a little way with them, down the hill, still talking to Henrietta,
2756 Mary took the opportunity of looking scornfully around her, and saying
2757 to Captain Wentworth--
2758
2759 "It is very unpleasant, having such connexions! But, I assure you, I
2760 have never been in the house above twice in my life."
2761
2762 She received no other answer, than an artificial, assenting smile,
2763 followed by a contemptuous glance, as he turned away, which Anne
2764 perfectly knew the meaning of.
2765
2766 The brow of the hill, where they remained, was a cheerful spot: Louisa
2767 returned; and Mary, finding a comfortable seat for herself on the step
2768 of a stile, was very well satisfied so long as the others all stood
2769 about her; but when Louisa drew Captain Wentworth away, to try for a
2770 gleaning of nuts in an adjoining hedge-row, and they were gone by
2771 degrees quite out of sight and sound, Mary was happy no longer; she
2772 quarrelled with her own seat, was sure Louisa had got a much better
2773 somewhere, and nothing could prevent her from going to look for a
2774 better also. She turned through the same gate, but could not see them.
2775 Anne found a nice seat for her, on a dry sunny bank, under the
2776 hedge-row, in which she had no doubt of their still being, in some spot
2777 or other. Mary sat down for a moment, but it would not do; she was
2778 sure Louisa had found a better seat somewhere else, and she would go on
2779 till she overtook her.
2780
2781 Anne, really tired herself, was glad to sit down; and she very soon
2782 heard Captain Wentworth and Louisa in the hedge-row, behind her, as if
2783 making their way back along the rough, wild sort of channel, down the
2784 centre. They were speaking as they drew near. Louisa's voice was the
2785 first distinguished. She seemed to be in the middle of some eager
2786 speech. What Anne first heard was--
2787
2788 "And so, I made her go. I could not bear that she should be frightened
2789 from the visit by such nonsense. What! would I be turned back from
2790 doing a thing that I had determined to do, and that I knew to be right,
2791 by the airs and interference of such a person, or of any person I may
2792 say? No, I have no idea of being so easily persuaded. When I have
2793 made up my mind, I have made it; and Henrietta seemed entirely to have
2794 made up hers to call at Winthrop to-day; and yet, she was as near
2795 giving it up, out of nonsensical complaisance!"
2796
2797 "She would have turned back then, but for you?"
2798
2799 "She would indeed. I am almost ashamed to say it."
2800
2801 "Happy for her, to have such a mind as yours at hand! After the hints
2802 you gave just now, which did but confirm my own observations, the last
2803 time I was in company with him, I need not affect to have no
2804 comprehension of what is going on. I see that more than a mere dutiful
2805 morning visit to your aunt was in question; and woe betide him, and her
2806 too, when it comes to things of consequence, when they are placed in
2807 circumstances requiring fortitude and strength of mind, if she have not
2808 resolution enough to resist idle interference in such a trifle as this.
2809 Your sister is an amiable creature; but yours is the character of
2810 decision and firmness, I see. If you value her conduct or happiness,
2811 infuse as much of your own spirit into her as you can. But this, no
2812 doubt, you have been always doing. It is the worst evil of too
2813 yielding and indecisive a character, that no influence over it can be
2814 depended on. You are never sure of a good impression being durable;
2815 everybody may sway it. Let those who would be happy be firm. Here is
2816 a nut," said he, catching one down from an upper bough, "to exemplify:
2817 a beautiful glossy nut, which, blessed with original strength, has
2818 outlived all the storms of autumn. Not a puncture, not a weak spot
2819 anywhere. This nut," he continued, with playful solemnity, "while so
2820 many of his brethren have fallen and been trodden under foot, is still
2821 in possession of all the happiness that a hazel nut can be supposed
2822 capable of." Then returning to his former earnest tone--"My first
2823 wish for all whom I am interested in, is that they should be firm. If
2824 Louisa Musgrove would be beautiful and happy in her November of life,
2825 she will cherish all her present powers of mind."
2826
2827 He had done, and was unanswered. It would have surprised Anne if
2828 Louisa could have readily answered such a speech: words of such
2829 interest, spoken with such serious warmth! She could imagine what
2830 Louisa was feeling. For herself, she feared to move, lest she should
2831 be seen. While she remained, a bush of low rambling holly protected
2832 her, and they were moving on. Before they were beyond her hearing,
2833 however, Louisa spoke again.
2834
2835 "Mary is good-natured enough in many respects," said she; "but she does
2836 sometimes provoke me excessively, by her nonsense and pride--the Elliot
2837 pride. She has a great deal too much of the Elliot pride. We do so
2838 wish that Charles had married Anne instead. I suppose you know he
2839 wanted to marry Anne?"
2840
2841 After a moment's pause, Captain Wentworth said--
2842
2843 "Do you mean that she refused him?"
2844
2845 "Oh! yes; certainly."
2846
2847 "When did that happen?"
2848
2849 "I do not exactly know, for Henrietta and I were at school at the time;
2850 but I believe about a year before he married Mary. I wish she had
2851 accepted him. We should all have liked her a great deal better; and
2852 papa and mamma always think it was her great friend Lady Russell's
2853 doing, that she did not. They think Charles might not be learned and
2854 bookish enough to please Lady Russell, and that therefore, she
2855 persuaded Anne to refuse him."
2856
2857 The sounds were retreating, and Anne distinguished no more. Her own
2858 emotions still kept her fixed. She had much to recover from, before
2859 she could move. The listener's proverbial fate was not absolutely
2860 hers; she had heard no evil of herself, but she had heard a great deal
2861 of very painful import. She saw how her own character was considered
2862 by Captain Wentworth, and there had been just that degree of feeling
2863 and curiosity about her in his manner which must give her extreme
2864 agitation.
2865
2866 As soon as she could, she went after Mary, and having found, and walked
2867 back with her to their former station, by the stile, felt some comfort
2868 in their whole party being immediately afterwards collected, and once
2869 more in motion together. Her spirits wanted the solitude and silence
2870 which only numbers could give.
2871
2872 Charles and Henrietta returned, bringing, as may be conjectured,
2873 Charles Hayter with them. The minutiae of the business Anne could not
2874 attempt to understand; even Captain Wentworth did not seem admitted to
2875 perfect confidence here; but that there had been a withdrawing on the
2876 gentleman's side, and a relenting on the lady's, and that they were now
2877 very glad to be together again, did not admit a doubt. Henrietta
2878 looked a little ashamed, but very well pleased;--Charles Hayter
2879 exceedingly happy: and they were devoted to each other almost from the
2880 first instant of their all setting forward for Uppercross.
2881
2882 Everything now marked out Louisa for Captain Wentworth; nothing could
2883 be plainer; and where many divisions were necessary, or even where they
2884 were not, they walked side by side nearly as much as the other two. In
2885 a long strip of meadow land, where there was ample space for all, they
2886 were thus divided, forming three distinct parties; and to that party of
2887 the three which boasted least animation, and least complaisance, Anne
2888 necessarily belonged. She joined Charles and Mary, and was tired
2889 enough to be very glad of Charles's other arm; but Charles, though in
2890 very good humour with her, was out of temper with his wife. Mary had
2891 shewn herself disobliging to him, and was now to reap the consequence,
2892 which consequence was his dropping her arm almost every moment to cut
2893 off the heads of some nettles in the hedge with his switch; and when
2894 Mary began to complain of it, and lament her being ill-used, according
2895 to custom, in being on the hedge side, while Anne was never incommoded
2896 on the other, he dropped the arms of both to hunt after a weasel which
2897 he had a momentary glance of, and they could hardly get him along at
2898 all.
2899
2900 This long meadow bordered a lane, which their footpath, at the end of
2901 it was to cross, and when the party had all reached the gate of exit,
2902 the carriage advancing in the same direction, which had been some time
2903 heard, was just coming up, and proved to be Admiral Croft's gig. He
2904 and his wife had taken their intended drive, and were returning home.
2905 Upon hearing how long a walk the young people had engaged in, they
2906 kindly offered a seat to any lady who might be particularly tired; it
2907 would save her a full mile, and they were going through Uppercross.
2908 The invitation was general, and generally declined. The Miss Musgroves
2909 were not at all tired, and Mary was either offended, by not being asked
2910 before any of the others, or what Louisa called the Elliot pride could
2911 not endure to make a third in a one horse chaise.
2912
2913 The walking party had crossed the lane, and were surmounting an
2914 opposite stile, and the Admiral was putting his horse in motion again,
2915 when Captain Wentworth cleared the hedge in a moment to say something
2916 to his sister. The something might be guessed by its effects.
2917
2918 "Miss Elliot, I am sure you are tired," cried Mrs Croft. "Do let us
2919 have the pleasure of taking you home. Here is excellent room for
2920 three, I assure you. If we were all like you, I believe we might sit
2921 four. You must, indeed, you must."
2922
2923 Anne was still in the lane; and though instinctively beginning to
2924 decline, she was not allowed to proceed. The Admiral's kind urgency
2925 came in support of his wife's; they would not be refused; they
2926 compressed themselves into the smallest possible space to leave her a
2927 corner, and Captain Wentworth, without saying a word, turned to her,
2928 and quietly obliged her to be assisted into the carriage.
2929
2930 Yes; he had done it. She was in the carriage, and felt that he had
2931 placed her there, that his will and his hands had done it, that she
2932 owed it to his perception of her fatigue, and his resolution to give
2933 her rest. She was very much affected by the view of his disposition
2934 towards her, which all these things made apparent. This little
2935 circumstance seemed the completion of all that had gone before. She
2936 understood him. He could not forgive her, but he could not be
2937 unfeeling. Though condemning her for the past, and considering it with
2938 high and unjust resentment, though perfectly careless of her, and
2939 though becoming attached to another, still he could not see her suffer,
2940 without the desire of giving her relief. It was a remainder of former
2941 sentiment; it was an impulse of pure, though unacknowledged friendship;
2942 it was a proof of his own warm and amiable heart, which she could not
2943 contemplate without emotions so compounded of pleasure and pain, that
2944 she knew not which prevailed.
2945
2946 Her answers to the kindness and the remarks of her companions were at
2947 first unconsciously given. They had travelled half their way along the
2948 rough lane, before she was quite awake to what they said. She then
2949 found them talking of "Frederick."
2950
2951 "He certainly means to have one or other of those two girls, Sophy,"
2952 said the Admiral; "but there is no saying which. He has been running
2953 after them, too, long enough, one would think, to make up his mind.
2954 Ay, this comes of the peace. If it were war now, he would have settled
2955 it long ago. We sailors, Miss Elliot, cannot afford to make long
2956 courtships in time of war. How many days was it, my dear, between the
2957 first time of my seeing you and our sitting down together in our
2958 lodgings at North Yarmouth?"
2959
2960 "We had better not talk about it, my dear," replied Mrs Croft,
2961 pleasantly; "for if Miss Elliot were to hear how soon we came to an
2962 understanding, she would never be persuaded that we could be happy
2963 together. I had known you by character, however, long before."
2964
2965 "Well, and I had heard of you as a very pretty girl, and what were we
2966 to wait for besides? I do not like having such things so long in hand.
2967 I wish Frederick would spread a little more canvass, and bring us home
2968 one of these young ladies to Kellynch. Then there would always be
2969 company for them. And very nice young ladies they both are; I hardly
2970 know one from the other."
2971
2972 "Very good humoured, unaffected girls, indeed," said Mrs Croft, in a
2973 tone of calmer praise, such as made Anne suspect that her keener powers
2974 might not consider either of them as quite worthy of her brother; "and
2975 a very respectable family. One could not be connected with better
2976 people. My dear Admiral, that post! we shall certainly take that
2977 post."
2978
2979 But by coolly giving the reins a better direction herself they happily
2980 passed the danger; and by once afterwards judiciously putting out her
2981 hand they neither fell into a rut, nor ran foul of a dung-cart; and
2982 Anne, with some amusement at their style of driving, which she imagined
2983 no bad representation of the general guidance of their affairs, found
2984 herself safely deposited by them at the Cottage.
2985
2986
2987
2988 Chapter 11
2989
2990
2991 The time now approached for Lady Russell's return: the day was even
2992 fixed; and Anne, being engaged to join her as soon as she was
2993 resettled, was looking forward to an early removal to Kellynch, and
2994 beginning to think how her own comfort was likely to be affected by it.
2995
2996 It would place her in the same village with Captain Wentworth, within
2997 half a mile of him; they would have to frequent the same church, and
2998 there must be intercourse between the two families. This was against
2999 her; but on the other hand, he spent so much of his time at Uppercross,
3000 that in removing thence she might be considered rather as leaving him
3001 behind, than as going towards him; and, upon the whole, she believed
3002 she must, on this interesting question, be the gainer, almost as
3003 certainly as in her change of domestic society, in leaving poor Mary
3004 for Lady Russell.
3005
3006 She wished it might be possible for her to avoid ever seeing Captain
3007 Wentworth at the Hall: those rooms had witnessed former meetings which
3008 would be brought too painfully before her; but she was yet more anxious
3009 for the possibility of Lady Russell and Captain Wentworth never meeting
3010 anywhere. They did not like each other, and no renewal of acquaintance
3011 now could do any good; and were Lady Russell to see them together, she
3012 might think that he had too much self-possession, and she too little.
3013
3014 These points formed her chief solicitude in anticipating her removal
3015 from Uppercross, where she felt she had been stationed quite long
3016 enough. Her usefulness to little Charles would always give some
3017 sweetness to the memory of her two months' visit there, but he was
3018 gaining strength apace, and she had nothing else to stay for.
3019
3020 The conclusion of her visit, however, was diversified in a way which
3021 she had not at all imagined. Captain Wentworth, after being unseen and
3022 unheard of at Uppercross for two whole days, appeared again among them
3023 to justify himself by a relation of what had kept him away.
3024
3025 A letter from his friend, Captain Harville, having found him out at
3026 last, had brought intelligence of Captain Harville's being settled with
3027 his family at Lyme for the winter; of their being therefore, quite
3028 unknowingly, within twenty miles of each other. Captain Harville had
3029 never been in good health since a severe wound which he received two
3030 years before, and Captain Wentworth's anxiety to see him had determined
3031 him to go immediately to Lyme. He had been there for four-and-twenty
3032 hours. His acquittal was complete, his friendship warmly honoured, a
3033 lively interest excited for his friend, and his description of the fine
3034 country about Lyme so feelingly attended to by the party, that an
3035 earnest desire to see Lyme themselves, and a project for going thither
3036 was the consequence.
3037
3038 The young people were all wild to see Lyme. Captain Wentworth talked
3039 of going there again himself, it was only seventeen miles from
3040 Uppercross; though November, the weather was by no means bad; and, in
3041 short, Louisa, who was the most eager of the eager, having formed the
3042 resolution to go, and besides the pleasure of doing as she liked, being
3043 now armed with the idea of merit in maintaining her own way, bore down
3044 all the wishes of her father and mother for putting it off till summer;
3045 and to Lyme they were to go--Charles, Mary, Anne, Henrietta, Louisa,
3046 and Captain Wentworth.
3047
3048 The first heedless scheme had been to go in the morning and return at
3049 night; but to this Mr Musgrove, for the sake of his horses, would not
3050 consent; and when it came to be rationally considered, a day in the
3051 middle of November would not leave much time for seeing a new place,
3052 after deducting seven hours, as the nature of the country required, for
3053 going and returning. They were, consequently, to stay the night there,
3054 and not to be expected back till the next day's dinner. This was felt
3055 to be a considerable amendment; and though they all met at the Great
3056 House at rather an early breakfast hour, and set off very punctually,
3057 it was so much past noon before the two carriages, Mr Musgrove's coach
3058 containing the four ladies, and Charles's curricle, in which he drove
3059 Captain Wentworth, were descending the long hill into Lyme, and
3060 entering upon the still steeper street of the town itself, that it was
3061 very evident they would not have more than time for looking about them,
3062 before the light and warmth of the day were gone.
3063
3064 After securing accommodations, and ordering a dinner at one of the
3065 inns, the next thing to be done was unquestionably to walk directly
3066 down to the sea. They were come too late in the year for any amusement
3067 or variety which Lyme, as a public place, might offer. The rooms were
3068 shut up, the lodgers almost all gone, scarcely any family but of the
3069 residents left; and, as there is nothing to admire in the buildings
3070 themselves, the remarkable situation of the town, the principal street
3071 almost hurrying into the water, the walk to the Cobb, skirting round
3072 the pleasant little bay, which, in the season, is animated with bathing
3073 machines and company; the Cobb itself, its old wonders and new
3074 improvements, with the very beautiful line of cliffs stretching out to
3075 the east of the town, are what the stranger's eye will seek; and a very
3076 strange stranger it must be, who does not see charms in the immediate
3077 environs of Lyme, to make him wish to know it better. The scenes in
3078 its neighbourhood, Charmouth, with its high grounds and extensive
3079 sweeps of country, and still more, its sweet, retired bay, backed by
3080 dark cliffs, where fragments of low rock among the sands, make it the
3081 happiest spot for watching the flow of the tide, for sitting in
3082 unwearied contemplation; the woody varieties of the cheerful village of
3083 Up Lyme; and, above all, Pinny, with its green chasms between romantic
3084 rocks, where the scattered forest trees and orchards of luxuriant
3085 growth, declare that many a generation must have passed away since the
3086 first partial falling of the cliff prepared the ground for such a
3087 state, where a scene so wonderful and so lovely is exhibited, as may
3088 more than equal any of the resembling scenes of the far-famed Isle of
3089 Wight: these places must be visited, and visited again, to make the
3090 worth of Lyme understood.
3091
3092 The party from Uppercross passing down by the now deserted and
3093 melancholy looking rooms, and still descending, soon found themselves
3094 on the sea-shore; and lingering only, as all must linger and gaze on a
3095 first return to the sea, who ever deserved to look on it at all,
3096 proceeded towards the Cobb, equally their object in itself and on
3097 Captain Wentworth's account: for in a small house, near the foot of an
3098 old pier of unknown date, were the Harvilles settled. Captain
3099 Wentworth turned in to call on his friend; the others walked on, and he
3100 was to join them on the Cobb.
3101
3102 They were by no means tired of wondering and admiring; and not even
3103 Louisa seemed to feel that they had parted with Captain Wentworth long,
3104 when they saw him coming after them, with three companions, all well
3105 known already, by description, to be Captain and Mrs Harville, and a
3106 Captain Benwick, who was staying with them.
3107
3108 Captain Benwick had some time ago been first lieutenant of the Laconia;
3109 and the account which Captain Wentworth had given of him, on his return
3110 from Lyme before, his warm praise of him as an excellent young man and
3111 an officer, whom he had always valued highly, which must have stamped
3112 him well in the esteem of every listener, had been followed by a little
3113 history of his private life, which rendered him perfectly interesting
3114 in the eyes of all the ladies. He had been engaged to Captain
3115 Harville's sister, and was now mourning her loss. They had been a year
3116 or two waiting for fortune and promotion. Fortune came, his
3117 prize-money as lieutenant being great; promotion, too, came at last;
3118 but Fanny Harville did not live to know it. She had died the preceding
3119 summer while he was at sea. Captain Wentworth believed it impossible
3120 for man to be more attached to woman than poor Benwick had been to
3121 Fanny Harville, or to be more deeply afflicted under the dreadful
3122 change. He considered his disposition as of the sort which must suffer
3123 heavily, uniting very strong feelings with quiet, serious, and retiring
3124 manners, and a decided taste for reading, and sedentary pursuits. To
3125 finish the interest of the story, the friendship between him and the
3126 Harvilles seemed, if possible, augmented by the event which closed all
3127 their views of alliance, and Captain Benwick was now living with them
3128 entirely. Captain Harville had taken his present house for half a
3129 year; his taste, and his health, and his fortune, all directing him to
3130 a residence inexpensive, and by the sea; and the grandeur of the
3131 country, and the retirement of Lyme in the winter, appeared exactly
3132 adapted to Captain Benwick's state of mind. The sympathy and good-will
3133 excited towards Captain Benwick was very great.
3134
3135 "And yet," said Anne to herself, as they now moved forward to meet the
3136 party, "he has not, perhaps, a more sorrowing heart than I have. I
3137 cannot believe his prospects so blighted for ever. He is younger than
3138 I am; younger in feeling, if not in fact; younger as a man. He will
3139 rally again, and be happy with another."
3140
3141 They all met, and were introduced. Captain Harville was a tall, dark
3142 man, with a sensible, benevolent countenance; a little lame; and from
3143 strong features and want of health, looking much older than Captain
3144 Wentworth. Captain Benwick looked, and was, the youngest of the three,
3145 and, compared with either of them, a little man. He had a pleasing
3146 face and a melancholy air, just as he ought to have, and drew back from
3147 conversation.
3148
3149 Captain Harville, though not equalling Captain Wentworth in manners,
3150 was a perfect gentleman, unaffected, warm, and obliging. Mrs Harville,
3151 a degree less polished than her husband, seemed, however, to have the
3152 same good feelings; and nothing could be more pleasant than their
3153 desire of considering the whole party as friends of their own, because
3154 the friends of Captain Wentworth, or more kindly hospitable than their
3155 entreaties for their all promising to dine with them. The dinner,
3156 already ordered at the inn, was at last, though unwillingly, accepted
3157 as a excuse; but they seemed almost hurt that Captain Wentworth should
3158 have brought any such party to Lyme, without considering it as a thing
3159 of course that they should dine with them.
3160
3161 There was so much attachment to Captain Wentworth in all this, and such
3162 a bewitching charm in a degree of hospitality so uncommon, so unlike
3163 the usual style of give-and-take invitations, and dinners of formality
3164 and display, that Anne felt her spirits not likely to be benefited by
3165 an increasing acquaintance among his brother-officers. "These would
3166 have been all my friends," was her thought; and she had to struggle
3167 against a great tendency to lowness.
3168
3169 On quitting the Cobb, they all went in-doors with their new friends,
3170 and found rooms so small as none but those who invite from the heart
3171 could think capable of accommodating so many. Anne had a moment's
3172 astonishment on the subject herself; but it was soon lost in the
3173 pleasanter feelings which sprang from the sight of all the ingenious
3174 contrivances and nice arrangements of Captain Harville, to turn the
3175 actual space to the best account, to supply the deficiencies of
3176 lodging-house furniture, and defend the windows and doors against the
3177 winter storms to be expected. The varieties in the fitting-up of the
3178 rooms, where the common necessaries provided by the owner, in the
3179 common indifferent plight, were contrasted with some few articles of a
3180 rare species of wood, excellently worked up, and with something curious
3181 and valuable from all the distant countries Captain Harville had
3182 visited, were more than amusing to Anne; connected as it all was with
3183 his profession, the fruit of its labours, the effect of its influence
3184 on his habits, the picture of repose and domestic happiness it
3185 presented, made it to her a something more, or less, than gratification.
3186
3187 Captain Harville was no reader; but he had contrived excellent
3188 accommodations, and fashioned very pretty shelves, for a tolerable
3189 collection of well-bound volumes, the property of Captain Benwick. His
3190 lameness prevented him from taking much exercise; but a mind of
3191 usefulness and ingenuity seemed to furnish him with constant employment
3192 within. He drew, he varnished, he carpentered, he glued; he made toys
3193 for the children; he fashioned new netting-needles and pins with
3194 improvements; and if everything else was done, sat down to his large
3195 fishing-net at one corner of the room.
3196
3197 Anne thought she left great happiness behind her when they quitted the
3198 house; and Louisa, by whom she found herself walking, burst forth into
3199 raptures of admiration and delight on the character of the navy; their
3200 friendliness, their brotherliness, their openness, their uprightness;
3201 protesting that she was convinced of sailors having more worth and
3202 warmth than any other set of men in England; that they only knew how to
3203 live, and they only deserved to be respected and loved.
3204
3205 They went back to dress and dine; and so well had the scheme answered
3206 already, that nothing was found amiss; though its being "so entirely
3207 out of season," and the "no thoroughfare of Lyme," and the "no
3208 expectation of company," had brought many apologies from the heads of
3209 the inn.
3210
3211 Anne found herself by this time growing so much more hardened to being
3212 in Captain Wentworth's company than she had at first imagined could
3213 ever be, that the sitting down to the same table with him now, and the
3214 interchange of the common civilities attending on it (they never got
3215 beyond), was become a mere nothing.
3216
3217 The nights were too dark for the ladies to meet again till the morrow,
3218 but Captain Harville had promised them a visit in the evening; and he
3219 came, bringing his friend also, which was more than had been expected,
3220 it having been agreed that Captain Benwick had all the appearance of
3221 being oppressed by the presence of so many strangers. He ventured
3222 among them again, however, though his spirits certainly did not seem
3223 fit for the mirth of the party in general.
3224
3225 While Captains Wentworth and Harville led the talk on one side of the
3226 room, and by recurring to former days, supplied anecdotes in abundance
3227 to occupy and entertain the others, it fell to Anne's lot to be placed
3228 rather apart with Captain Benwick; and a very good impulse of her
3229 nature obliged her to begin an acquaintance with him. He was shy, and
3230 disposed to abstraction; but the engaging mildness of her countenance,
3231 and gentleness of her manners, soon had their effect; and Anne was well
3232 repaid the first trouble of exertion. He was evidently a young man of
3233 considerable taste in reading, though principally in poetry; and
3234 besides the persuasion of having given him at least an evening's
3235 indulgence in the discussion of subjects, which his usual companions
3236 had probably no concern in, she had the hope of being of real use to
3237 him in some suggestions as to the duty and benefit of struggling
3238 against affliction, which had naturally grown out of their
3239 conversation. For, though shy, he did not seem reserved; it had rather
3240 the appearance of feelings glad to burst their usual restraints; and
3241 having talked of poetry, the richness of the present age, and gone
3242 through a brief comparison of opinion as to the first-rate poets,
3243 trying to ascertain whether Marmion or The Lady of the Lake were to be
3244 preferred, and how ranked the Giaour and The Bride of Abydos; and
3245 moreover, how the Giaour was to be pronounced, he showed himself so
3246 intimately acquainted with all the tenderest songs of the one poet, and
3247 all the impassioned descriptions of hopeless agony of the other; he
3248 repeated, with such tremulous feeling, the various lines which imaged a
3249 broken heart, or a mind destroyed by wretchedness, and looked so
3250 entirely as if he meant to be understood, that she ventured to hope he
3251 did not always read only poetry, and to say, that she thought it was
3252 the misfortune of poetry to be seldom safely enjoyed by those who
3253 enjoyed it completely; and that the strong feelings which alone could
3254 estimate it truly were the very feelings which ought to taste it but
3255 sparingly.
3256
3257 His looks shewing him not pained, but pleased with this allusion to his
3258 situation, she was emboldened to go on; and feeling in herself the
3259 right of seniority of mind, she ventured to recommend a larger
3260 allowance of prose in his daily study; and on being requested to
3261 particularize, mentioned such works of our best moralists, such
3262 collections of the finest letters, such memoirs of characters of worth
3263 and suffering, as occurred to her at the moment as calculated to rouse
3264 and fortify the mind by the highest precepts, and the strongest
3265 examples of moral and religious endurances.
3266
3267 Captain Benwick listened attentively, and seemed grateful for the
3268 interest implied; and though with a shake of the head, and sighs which
3269 declared his little faith in the efficacy of any books on grief like
3270 his, noted down the names of those she recommended, and promised to
3271 procure and read them.
3272
3273 When the evening was over, Anne could not but be amused at the idea of
3274 her coming to Lyme to preach patience and resignation to a young man
3275 whom she had never seen before; nor could she help fearing, on more
3276 serious reflection, that, like many other great moralists and
3277 preachers, she had been eloquent on a point in which her own conduct
3278 would ill bear examination.
3279
3280
3281
3282 Chapter 12
3283
3284
3285 Anne and Henrietta, finding themselves the earliest of the party the
3286 next morning, agreed to stroll down to the sea before breakfast. They
3287 went to the sands, to watch the flowing of the tide, which a fine
3288 south-easterly breeze was bringing in with all the grandeur which so
3289 flat a shore admitted. They praised the morning; gloried in the sea;
3290 sympathized in the delight of the fresh-feeling breeze--and were
3291 silent; till Henrietta suddenly began again with--
3292
3293 "Oh! yes,--I am quite convinced that, with very few exceptions, the
3294 sea-air always does good. There can be no doubt of its having been of
3295 the greatest service to Dr Shirley, after his illness, last spring
3296 twelve-month. He declares himself, that coming to Lyme for a month,
3297 did him more good than all the medicine he took; and, that being by the
3298 sea, always makes him feel young again. Now, I cannot help thinking it
3299 a pity that he does not live entirely by the sea. I do think he had
3300 better leave Uppercross entirely, and fix at Lyme. Do not you, Anne?
3301 Do not you agree with me, that it is the best thing he could do, both
3302 for himself and Mrs Shirley? She has cousins here, you know, and many
3303 acquaintance, which would make it cheerful for her, and I am sure she
3304 would be glad to get to a place where she could have medical attendance
3305 at hand, in case of his having another seizure. Indeed I think it
3306 quite melancholy to have such excellent people as Dr and Mrs Shirley,
3307 who have been doing good all their lives, wearing out their last days
3308 in a place like Uppercross, where, excepting our family, they seem shut
3309 out from all the world. I wish his friends would propose it to him. I
3310 really think they ought. And, as to procuring a dispensation, there
3311 could be no difficulty at his time of life, and with his character. My
3312 only doubt is, whether anything could persuade him to leave his parish.
3313 He is so very strict and scrupulous in his notions; over-scrupulous I
3314 must say. Do not you think, Anne, it is being over-scrupulous? Do not
3315 you think it is quite a mistaken point of conscience, when a clergyman
3316 sacrifices his health for the sake of duties, which may be just as well
3317 performed by another person? And at Lyme too, only seventeen miles
3318 off, he would be near enough to hear, if people thought there was
3319 anything to complain of."
3320
3321 Anne smiled more than once to herself during this speech, and entered
3322 into the subject, as ready to do good by entering into the feelings of
3323 a young lady as of a young man, though here it was good of a lower
3324 standard, for what could be offered but general acquiescence? She said
3325 all that was reasonable and proper on the business; felt the claims of
3326 Dr Shirley to repose as she ought; saw how very desirable it was that
3327 he should have some active, respectable young man, as a resident
3328 curate, and was even courteous enough to hint at the advantage of such
3329 resident curate's being married.
3330
3331 "I wish," said Henrietta, very well pleased with her companion, "I wish
3332 Lady Russell lived at Uppercross, and were intimate with Dr Shirley. I
3333 have always heard of Lady Russell as a woman of the greatest influence
3334 with everybody! I always look upon her as able to persuade a person to
3335 anything! I am afraid of her, as I have told you before, quite afraid
3336 of her, because she is so very clever; but I respect her amazingly, and
3337 wish we had such a neighbour at Uppercross."
3338
3339 Anne was amused by Henrietta's manner of being grateful, and amused
3340 also that the course of events and the new interests of Henrietta's
3341 views should have placed her friend at all in favour with any of the
3342 Musgrove family; she had only time, however, for a general answer, and
3343 a wish that such another woman were at Uppercross, before all subjects
3344 suddenly ceased, on seeing Louisa and Captain Wentworth coming towards
3345 them. They came also for a stroll till breakfast was likely to be
3346 ready; but Louisa recollecting, immediately afterwards that she had
3347 something to procure at a shop, invited them all to go back with her
3348 into the town. They were all at her disposal.
3349
3350 When they came to the steps, leading upwards from the beach, a
3351 gentleman, at the same moment preparing to come down, politely drew
3352 back, and stopped to give them way. They ascended and passed him; and
3353 as they passed, Anne's face caught his eye, and he looked at her with a
3354 degree of earnest admiration, which she could not be insensible of.
3355 She was looking remarkably well; her very regular, very pretty
3356 features, having the bloom and freshness of youth restored by the fine
3357 wind which had been blowing on her complexion, and by the animation of
3358 eye which it had also produced. It was evident that the gentleman,
3359 (completely a gentleman in manner) admired her exceedingly. Captain
3360 Wentworth looked round at her instantly in a way which shewed his
3361 noticing of it. He gave her a momentary glance, a glance of
3362 brightness, which seemed to say, "That man is struck with you, and even
3363 I, at this moment, see something like Anne Elliot again."
3364
3365 After attending Louisa through her business, and loitering about a
3366 little longer, they returned to the inn; and Anne, in passing
3367 afterwards quickly from her own chamber to their dining-room, had
3368 nearly run against the very same gentleman, as he came out of an
3369 adjoining apartment. She had before conjectured him to be a stranger
3370 like themselves, and determined that a well-looking groom, who was
3371 strolling about near the two inns as they came back, should be his
3372 servant. Both master and man being in mourning assisted the idea. It
3373 was now proved that he belonged to the same inn as themselves; and this
3374 second meeting, short as it was, also proved again by the gentleman's
3375 looks, that he thought hers very lovely, and by the readiness and
3376 propriety of his apologies, that he was a man of exceedingly good
3377 manners. He seemed about thirty, and though not handsome, had an
3378 agreeable person. Anne felt that she should like to know who he was.
3379
3380 They had nearly done breakfast, when the sound of a carriage, (almost
3381 the first they had heard since entering Lyme) drew half the party to
3382 the window. It was a gentleman's carriage, a curricle, but only coming
3383 round from the stable-yard to the front door; somebody must be going
3384 away. It was driven by a servant in mourning.
3385
3386 The word curricle made Charles Musgrove jump up that he might compare
3387 it with his own; the servant in mourning roused Anne's curiosity, and
3388 the whole six were collected to look, by the time the owner of the
3389 curricle was to be seen issuing from the door amidst the bows and
3390 civilities of the household, and taking his seat, to drive off.
3391
3392 "Ah!" cried Captain Wentworth, instantly, and with half a glance at
3393 Anne, "it is the very man we passed."
3394
3395 The Miss Musgroves agreed to it; and having all kindly watched him as
3396 far up the hill as they could, they returned to the breakfast table.
3397 The waiter came into the room soon afterwards.
3398
3399 "Pray," said Captain Wentworth, immediately, "can you tell us the name
3400 of the gentleman who is just gone away?"
3401
3402 "Yes, Sir, a Mr Elliot, a gentleman of large fortune, came in last
3403 night from Sidmouth. Dare say you heard the carriage, sir, while you
3404 were at dinner; and going on now for Crewkherne, in his way to Bath and
3405 London."
3406
3407 "Elliot!" Many had looked on each other, and many had repeated the
3408 name, before all this had been got through, even by the smart rapidity
3409 of a waiter.
3410
3411 "Bless me!" cried Mary; "it must be our cousin; it must be our Mr
3412 Elliot, it must, indeed! Charles, Anne, must not it? In mourning, you
3413 see, just as our Mr Elliot must be. How very extraordinary! In the
3414 very same inn with us! Anne, must not it be our Mr Elliot? my
3415 father's next heir? Pray sir," turning to the waiter, "did not you
3416 hear, did not his servant say whether he belonged to the Kellynch
3417 family?"
3418
3419 "No, ma'am, he did not mention no particular family; but he said his
3420 master was a very rich gentleman, and would be a baronight some day."
3421
3422 "There! you see!" cried Mary in an ecstasy, "just as I said! Heir to
3423 Sir Walter Elliot! I was sure that would come out, if it was so.
3424 Depend upon it, that is a circumstance which his servants take care to
3425 publish, wherever he goes. But, Anne, only conceive how extraordinary!
3426 I wish I had looked at him more. I wish we had been aware in time, who
3427 it was, that he might have been introduced to us. What a pity that we
3428 should not have been introduced to each other! Do you think he had the
3429 Elliot countenance? I hardly looked at him, I was looking at the
3430 horses; but I think he had something of the Elliot countenance, I
3431 wonder the arms did not strike me! Oh! the great-coat was hanging over
3432 the panel, and hid the arms, so it did; otherwise, I am sure, I should
3433 have observed them, and the livery too; if the servant had not been in
3434 mourning, one should have known him by the livery."
3435
3436 "Putting all these very extraordinary circumstances together," said
3437 Captain Wentworth, "we must consider it to be the arrangement of
3438 Providence, that you should not be introduced to your cousin."
3439
3440 When she could command Mary's attention, Anne quietly tried to convince
3441 her that their father and Mr Elliot had not, for many years, been on
3442 such terms as to make the power of attempting an introduction at all
3443 desirable.
3444
3445 At the same time, however, it was a secret gratification to herself to
3446 have seen her cousin, and to know that the future owner of Kellynch was
3447 undoubtedly a gentleman, and had an air of good sense. She would not,
3448 upon any account, mention her having met with him the second time;
3449 luckily Mary did not much attend to their having passed close by him in
3450 their earlier walk, but she would have felt quite ill-used by Anne's
3451 having actually run against him in the passage, and received his very
3452 polite excuses, while she had never been near him at all; no, that
3453 cousinly little interview must remain a perfect secret.
3454
3455 "Of course," said Mary, "you will mention our seeing Mr Elliot, the
3456 next time you write to Bath. I think my father certainly ought to hear
3457 of it; do mention all about him."
3458
3459 Anne avoided a direct reply, but it was just the circumstance which she
3460 considered as not merely unnecessary to be communicated, but as what
3461 ought to be suppressed. The offence which had been given her father,
3462 many years back, she knew; Elizabeth's particular share in it she
3463 suspected; and that Mr Elliot's idea always produced irritation in both
3464 was beyond a doubt. Mary never wrote to Bath herself; all the toil of
3465 keeping up a slow and unsatisfactory correspondence with Elizabeth fell
3466 on Anne.
3467
3468 Breakfast had not been long over, when they were joined by Captain and
3469 Mrs Harville and Captain Benwick; with whom they had appointed to take
3470 their last walk about Lyme. They ought to be setting off for
3471 Uppercross by one, and in the meanwhile were to be all together, and
3472 out of doors as long as they could.
3473
3474 Anne found Captain Benwick getting near her, as soon as they were all
3475 fairly in the street. Their conversation the preceding evening did not
3476 disincline him to seek her again; and they walked together some time,
3477 talking as before of Mr Scott and Lord Byron, and still as unable as
3478 before, and as unable as any other two readers, to think exactly alike
3479 of the merits of either, till something occasioned an almost general
3480 change amongst their party, and instead of Captain Benwick, she had
3481 Captain Harville by her side.
3482
3483 "Miss Elliot," said he, speaking rather low, "you have done a good deed
3484 in making that poor fellow talk so much. I wish he could have such
3485 company oftener. It is bad for him, I know, to be shut up as he is;
3486 but what can we do? We cannot part."
3487
3488 "No," said Anne, "that I can easily believe to be impossible; but in
3489 time, perhaps--we know what time does in every case of affliction, and
3490 you must remember, Captain Harville, that your friend may yet be called
3491 a young mourner--only last summer, I understand."
3492
3493 "Ay, true enough," (with a deep sigh) "only June."
3494
3495 "And not known to him, perhaps, so soon."
3496
3497 "Not till the first week of August, when he came home from the Cape,
3498 just made into the Grappler. I was at Plymouth dreading to hear of
3499 him; he sent in letters, but the Grappler was under orders for
3500 Portsmouth. There the news must follow him, but who was to tell it?
3501 not I. I would as soon have been run up to the yard-arm. Nobody could
3502 do it, but that good fellow" (pointing to Captain Wentworth.) "The
3503 Laconia had come into Plymouth the week before; no danger of her being
3504 sent to sea again. He stood his chance for the rest; wrote up for
3505 leave of absence, but without waiting the return, travelled night and
3506 day till he got to Portsmouth, rowed off to the Grappler that instant,
3507 and never left the poor fellow for a week. That's what he did, and
3508 nobody else could have saved poor James. You may think, Miss Elliot,
3509 whether he is dear to us!"
3510
3511 Anne did think on the question with perfect decision, and said as much
3512 in reply as her own feeling could accomplish, or as his seemed able to
3513 bear, for he was too much affected to renew the subject, and when he
3514 spoke again, it was of something totally different.
3515
3516 Mrs Harville's giving it as her opinion that her husband would have
3517 quite walking enough by the time he reached home, determined the
3518 direction of all the party in what was to be their last walk; they
3519 would accompany them to their door, and then return and set off
3520 themselves. By all their calculations there was just time for this;
3521 but as they drew near the Cobb, there was such a general wish to walk
3522 along it once more, all were so inclined, and Louisa soon grew so
3523 determined, that the difference of a quarter of an hour, it was found,
3524 would be no difference at all; so with all the kind leave-taking, and
3525 all the kind interchange of invitations and promises which may be
3526 imagined, they parted from Captain and Mrs Harville at their own door,
3527 and still accompanied by Captain Benwick, who seemed to cling to them
3528 to the last, proceeded to make the proper adieus to the Cobb.
3529
3530 Anne found Captain Benwick again drawing near her. Lord Byron's "dark
3531 blue seas" could not fail of being brought forward by their present
3532 view, and she gladly gave him all her attention as long as attention
3533 was possible. It was soon drawn, perforce another way.
3534
3535 There was too much wind to make the high part of the new Cobb pleasant
3536 for the ladies, and they agreed to get down the steps to the lower, and
3537 all were contented to pass quietly and carefully down the steep flight,
3538 excepting Louisa; she must be jumped down them by Captain Wentworth.
3539 In all their walks, he had had to jump her from the stiles; the
3540 sensation was delightful to her. The hardness of the pavement for her
3541 feet, made him less willing upon the present occasion; he did it,
3542 however. She was safely down, and instantly, to show her enjoyment,
3543 ran up the steps to be jumped down again. He advised her against it,
3544 thought the jar too great; but no, he reasoned and talked in vain, she
3545 smiled and said, "I am determined I will:" he put out his hands; she
3546 was too precipitate by half a second, she fell on the pavement on the
3547 Lower Cobb, and was taken up lifeless! There was no wound, no blood,
3548 no visible bruise; but her eyes were closed, she breathed not, her face
3549 was like death. The horror of the moment to all who stood around!
3550
3551 Captain Wentworth, who had caught her up, knelt with her in his arms,
3552 looking on her with a face as pallid as her own, in an agony of
3553 silence. "She is dead! she is dead!" screamed Mary, catching hold of
3554 her husband, and contributing with his own horror to make him
3555 immoveable; and in another moment, Henrietta, sinking under the
3556 conviction, lost her senses too, and would have fallen on the steps,
3557 but for Captain Benwick and Anne, who caught and supported her between
3558 them.
3559
3560 "Is there no one to help me?" were the first words which burst from
3561 Captain Wentworth, in a tone of despair, and as if all his own strength
3562 were gone.
3563
3564 "Go to him, go to him," cried Anne, "for heaven's sake go to him. I
3565 can support her myself. Leave me, and go to him. Rub her hands, rub
3566 her temples; here are salts; take them, take them."
3567
3568 Captain Benwick obeyed, and Charles at the same moment, disengaging
3569 himself from his wife, they were both with him; and Louisa was raised
3570 up and supported more firmly between them, and everything was done that
3571 Anne had prompted, but in vain; while Captain Wentworth, staggering
3572 against the wall for his support, exclaimed in the bitterest agony--
3573
3574 "Oh God! her father and mother!"
3575
3576 "A surgeon!" said Anne.
3577
3578 He caught the word; it seemed to rouse him at once, and saying only--
3579 "True, true, a surgeon this instant," was darting away, when Anne
3580 eagerly suggested--
3581
3582 "Captain Benwick, would not it be better for Captain Benwick? He knows
3583 where a surgeon is to be found."
3584
3585 Every one capable of thinking felt the advantage of the idea, and in a
3586 moment (it was all done in rapid moments) Captain Benwick had resigned
3587 the poor corpse-like figure entirely to the brother's care, and was
3588 off for the town with the utmost rapidity.
3589
3590 As to the wretched party left behind, it could scarcely be said which
3591 of the three, who were completely rational, was suffering most: Captain
3592 Wentworth, Anne, or Charles, who, really a very affectionate brother,
3593 hung over Louisa with sobs of grief, and could only turn his eyes from
3594 one sister, to see the other in a state as insensible, or to witness
3595 the hysterical agitations of his wife, calling on him for help which he
3596 could not give.
3597
3598 Anne, attending with all the strength and zeal, and thought, which
3599 instinct supplied, to Henrietta, still tried, at intervals, to suggest
3600 comfort to the others, tried to quiet Mary, to animate Charles, to
3601 assuage the feelings of Captain Wentworth. Both seemed to look to her
3602 for directions.
3603
3604 "Anne, Anne," cried Charles, "What is to be done next? What, in
3605 heaven's name, is to be done next?"
3606
3607 Captain Wentworth's eyes were also turned towards her.
3608
3609 "Had not she better be carried to the inn? Yes, I am sure: carry her
3610 gently to the inn."
3611
3612 "Yes, yes, to the inn," repeated Captain Wentworth, comparatively
3613 collected, and eager to be doing something. "I will carry her myself.
3614 Musgrove, take care of the others."
3615
3616 By this time the report of the accident had spread among the workmen
3617 and boatmen about the Cobb, and many were collected near them, to be
3618 useful if wanted, at any rate, to enjoy the sight of a dead young lady,
3619 nay, two dead young ladies, for it proved twice as fine as the first
3620 report. To some of the best-looking of these good people Henrietta was
3621 consigned, for, though partially revived, she was quite helpless; and
3622 in this manner, Anne walking by her side, and Charles attending to his
3623 wife, they set forward, treading back with feelings unutterable, the
3624 ground, which so lately, so very lately, and so light of heart, they
3625 had passed along.
3626
3627 They were not off the Cobb, before the Harvilles met them. Captain
3628 Benwick had been seen flying by their house, with a countenance which
3629 showed something to be wrong; and they had set off immediately,
3630 informed and directed as they passed, towards the spot. Shocked as
3631 Captain Harville was, he brought senses and nerves that could be
3632 instantly useful; and a look between him and his wife decided what was
3633 to be done. She must be taken to their house; all must go to their
3634 house; and await the surgeon's arrival there. They would not listen to
3635 scruples: he was obeyed; they were all beneath his roof; and while
3636 Louisa, under Mrs Harville's direction, was conveyed up stairs, and
3637 given possession of her own bed, assistance, cordials, restoratives
3638 were supplied by her husband to all who needed them.
3639
3640 Louisa had once opened her eyes, but soon closed them again, without
3641 apparent consciousness. This had been a proof of life, however, of
3642 service to her sister; and Henrietta, though perfectly incapable of
3643 being in the same room with Louisa, was kept, by the agitation of hope
3644 and fear, from a return of her own insensibility. Mary, too, was
3645 growing calmer.
3646
3647 The surgeon was with them almost before it had seemed possible. They
3648 were sick with horror, while he examined; but he was not hopeless. The
3649 head had received a severe contusion, but he had seen greater injuries
3650 recovered from: he was by no means hopeless; he spoke cheerfully.
3651
3652 That he did not regard it as a desperate case, that he did not say a
3653 few hours must end it, was at first felt, beyond the hope of most; and
3654 the ecstasy of such a reprieve, the rejoicing, deep and silent, after a
3655 few fervent ejaculations of gratitude to Heaven had been offered, may
3656 be conceived.
3657
3658 The tone, the look, with which "Thank God!" was uttered by Captain
3659 Wentworth, Anne was sure could never be forgotten by her; nor the sight
3660 of him afterwards, as he sat near a table, leaning over it with folded
3661 arms and face concealed, as if overpowered by the various feelings of
3662 his soul, and trying by prayer and reflection to calm them.
3663
3664 Louisa's limbs had escaped. There was no injury but to the head.
3665
3666 It now became necessary for the party to consider what was best to be
3667 done, as to their general situation. They were now able to speak to
3668 each other and consult. That Louisa must remain where she was, however
3669 distressing to her friends to be involving the Harvilles in such
3670 trouble, did not admit a doubt. Her removal was impossible. The
3671 Harvilles silenced all scruples; and, as much as they could, all
3672 gratitude. They had looked forward and arranged everything before the
3673 others began to reflect. Captain Benwick must give up his room to
3674 them, and get another bed elsewhere; and the whole was settled. They
3675 were only concerned that the house could accommodate no more; and yet
3676 perhaps, by "putting the children away in the maid's room, or swinging
3677 a cot somewhere," they could hardly bear to think of not finding room
3678 for two or three besides, supposing they might wish to stay; though,
3679 with regard to any attendance on Miss Musgrove, there need not be the
3680 least uneasiness in leaving her to Mrs Harville's care entirely. Mrs
3681 Harville was a very experienced nurse, and her nursery-maid, who had
3682 lived with her long, and gone about with her everywhere, was just such
3683 another. Between these two, she could want no possible attendance by
3684 day or night. And all this was said with a truth and sincerity of
3685 feeling irresistible.
3686
3687 Charles, Henrietta, and Captain Wentworth were the three in
3688 consultation, and for a little while it was only an interchange of
3689 perplexity and terror. "Uppercross, the necessity of some one's going
3690 to Uppercross; the news to be conveyed; how it could be broken to Mr
3691 and Mrs Musgrove; the lateness of the morning; an hour already gone
3692 since they ought to have been off; the impossibility of being in
3693 tolerable time." At first, they were capable of nothing more to the
3694 purpose than such exclamations; but, after a while, Captain Wentworth,
3695 exerting himself, said--
3696
3697 "We must be decided, and without the loss of another minute. Every
3698 minute is valuable. Some one must resolve on being off for Uppercross
3699 instantly. Musgrove, either you or I must go."
3700
3701 Charles agreed, but declared his resolution of not going away. He
3702 would be as little incumbrance as possible to Captain and Mrs Harville;
3703 but as to leaving his sister in such a state, he neither ought, nor
3704 would. So far it was decided; and Henrietta at first declared the
3705 same. She, however, was soon persuaded to think differently. The
3706 usefulness of her staying! She who had not been able to remain in
3707 Louisa's room, or to look at her, without sufferings which made her
3708 worse than helpless! She was forced to acknowledge that she could do
3709 no good, yet was still unwilling to be away, till, touched by the
3710 thought of her father and mother, she gave it up; she consented, she
3711 was anxious to be at home.
3712
3713 The plan had reached this point, when Anne, coming quietly down from
3714 Louisa's room, could not but hear what followed, for the parlour door
3715 was open.
3716
3717 "Then it is settled, Musgrove," cried Captain Wentworth, "that you
3718 stay, and that I take care of your sister home. But as to the rest, as
3719 to the others, if one stays to assist Mrs Harville, I think it need be
3720 only one. Mrs Charles Musgrove will, of course, wish to get back to
3721 her children; but if Anne will stay, no one so proper, so capable as
3722 Anne."
3723
3724 She paused a moment to recover from the emotion of hearing herself so
3725 spoken of. The other two warmly agreed with what he said, and she then
3726 appeared.
3727
3728 "You will stay, I am sure; you will stay and nurse her;" cried he,
3729 turning to her and speaking with a glow, and yet a gentleness, which
3730 seemed almost restoring the past. She coloured deeply, and he
3731 recollected himself and moved away. She expressed herself most
3732 willing, ready, happy to remain. "It was what she had been thinking
3733 of, and wishing to be allowed to do. A bed on the floor in Louisa's
3734 room would be sufficient for her, if Mrs Harville would but think so."
3735
3736 One thing more, and all seemed arranged. Though it was rather
3737 desirable that Mr and Mrs Musgrove should be previously alarmed by some
3738 share of delay; yet the time required by the Uppercross horses to take
3739 them back, would be a dreadful extension of suspense; and Captain
3740 Wentworth proposed, and Charles Musgrove agreed, that it would be much
3741 better for him to take a chaise from the inn, and leave Mr Musgrove's
3742 carriage and horses to be sent home the next morning early, when there
3743 would be the farther advantage of sending an account of Louisa's night.
3744
3745 Captain Wentworth now hurried off to get everything ready on his part,
3746 and to be soon followed by the two ladies. When the plan was made
3747 known to Mary, however, there was an end of all peace in it. She was
3748 so wretched and so vehement, complained so much of injustice in being
3749 expected to go away instead of Anne; Anne, who was nothing to Louisa,
3750 while she was her sister, and had the best right to stay in Henrietta's
3751 stead! Why was not she to be as useful as Anne? And to go home
3752 without Charles, too, without her husband! No, it was too unkind. And
3753 in short, she said more than her husband could long withstand, and as
3754 none of the others could oppose when he gave way, there was no help for
3755 it; the change of Mary for Anne was inevitable.
3756
3757 Anne had never submitted more reluctantly to the jealous and
3758 ill-judging claims of Mary; but so it must be, and they set off for the
3759 town, Charles taking care of his sister, and Captain Benwick attending
3760 to her. She gave a moment's recollection, as they hurried along, to
3761 the little circumstances which the same spots had witnessed earlier in
3762 the morning. There she had listened to Henrietta's schemes for Dr
3763 Shirley's leaving Uppercross; farther on, she had first seen Mr Elliot;
3764 a moment seemed all that could now be given to any one but Louisa, or
3765 those who were wrapt up in her welfare.
3766
3767 Captain Benwick was most considerately attentive to her; and, united as
3768 they all seemed by the distress of the day, she felt an increasing
3769 degree of good-will towards him, and a pleasure even in thinking that
3770 it might, perhaps, be the occasion of continuing their acquaintance.
3771
3772 Captain Wentworth was on the watch for them, and a chaise and four in
3773 waiting, stationed for their convenience in the lowest part of the
3774 street; but his evident surprise and vexation at the substitution of
3775 one sister for the other, the change in his countenance, the
3776 astonishment, the expressions begun and suppressed, with which Charles
3777 was listened to, made but a mortifying reception of Anne; or must at
3778 least convince her that she was valued only as she could be useful to
3779 Louisa.
3780
3781 She endeavoured to be composed, and to be just. Without emulating the
3782 feelings of an Emma towards her Henry, she would have attended on
3783 Louisa with a zeal above the common claims of regard, for his sake; and
3784 she hoped he would not long be so unjust as to suppose she would shrink
3785 unnecessarily from the office of a friend.
3786
3787 In the meanwhile she was in the carriage. He had handed them both in,
3788 and placed himself between them; and in this manner, under these
3789 circumstances, full of astonishment and emotion to Anne, she quitted
3790 Lyme. How the long stage would pass; how it was to affect their
3791 manners; what was to be their sort of intercourse, she could not
3792 foresee. It was all quite natural, however. He was devoted to
3793 Henrietta; always turning towards her; and when he spoke at all, always
3794 with the view of supporting her hopes and raising her spirits. In
3795 general, his voice and manner were studiously calm. To spare Henrietta
3796 from agitation seemed the governing principle. Once only, when she had
3797 been grieving over the last ill-judged, ill-fated walk to the Cobb,
3798 bitterly lamenting that it ever had been thought of, he burst forth, as
3799 if wholly overcome--
3800
3801 "Don't talk of it, don't talk of it," he cried. "Oh God! that I had
3802 not given way to her at the fatal moment! Had I done as I ought! But
3803 so eager and so resolute! Dear, sweet Louisa!"
3804
3805 Anne wondered whether it ever occurred to him now, to question the
3806 justness of his own previous opinion as to the universal felicity and
3807 advantage of firmness of character; and whether it might not strike him
3808 that, like all other qualities of the mind, it should have its
3809 proportions and limits. She thought it could scarcely escape him to
3810 feel that a persuadable temper might sometimes be as much in favour of
3811 happiness as a very resolute character.
3812
3813 They got on fast. Anne was astonished to recognise the same hills and
3814 the same objects so soon. Their actual speed, heightened by some dread
3815 of the conclusion, made the road appear but half as long as on the day
3816 before. It was growing quite dusk, however, before they were in the
3817 neighbourhood of Uppercross, and there had been total silence among
3818 them for some time, Henrietta leaning back in the corner, with a shawl
3819 over her face, giving the hope of her having cried herself to sleep;
3820 when, as they were going up their last hill, Anne found herself all at
3821 once addressed by Captain Wentworth. In a low, cautious voice, he
3822 said:--
3823
3824 "I have been considering what we had best do. She must not appear at
3825 first. She could not stand it. I have been thinking whether you had
3826 not better remain in the carriage with her, while I go in and break it
3827 to Mr and Mrs Musgrove. Do you think this is a good plan?"
3828
3829 She did: he was satisfied, and said no more. But the remembrance of
3830 the appeal remained a pleasure to her, as a proof of friendship, and of
3831 deference for her judgement, a great pleasure; and when it became a
3832 sort of parting proof, its value did not lessen.
3833
3834 When the distressing communication at Uppercross was over, and he had
3835 seen the father and mother quite as composed as could be hoped, and the
3836 daughter all the better for being with them, he announced his intention
3837 of returning in the same carriage to Lyme; and when the horses were
3838 baited, he was off.
3839
3840 (End of volume one.)
3841
3842
3843
3844 Chapter 13
3845
3846
3847 The remainder of Anne's time at Uppercross, comprehending only two
3848 days, was spent entirely at the Mansion House; and she had the
3849 satisfaction of knowing herself extremely useful there, both as an
3850 immediate companion, and as assisting in all those arrangements for the
3851 future, which, in Mr and Mrs Musgrove's distressed state of spirits,
3852 would have been difficulties.
3853
3854 They had an early account from Lyme the next morning. Louisa was much
3855 the same. No symptoms worse than before had appeared. Charles came a
3856 few hours afterwards, to bring a later and more particular account. He
3857 was tolerably cheerful. A speedy cure must not be hoped, but
3858 everything was going on as well as the nature of the case admitted. In
3859 speaking of the Harvilles, he seemed unable to satisfy his own sense of
3860 their kindness, especially of Mrs Harville's exertions as a nurse.
3861 "She really left nothing for Mary to do. He and Mary had been
3862 persuaded to go early to their inn last night. Mary had been
3863 hysterical again this morning. When he came away, she was going to
3864 walk out with Captain Benwick, which, he hoped, would do her good. He
3865 almost wished she had been prevailed on to come home the day before;
3866 but the truth was, that Mrs Harville left nothing for anybody to do."
3867
3868 Charles was to return to Lyme the same afternoon, and his father had at
3869 first half a mind to go with him, but the ladies could not consent. It
3870 would be going only to multiply trouble to the others, and increase his
3871 own distress; and a much better scheme followed and was acted upon. A
3872 chaise was sent for from Crewkherne, and Charles conveyed back a far
3873 more useful person in the old nursery-maid of the family, one who
3874 having brought up all the children, and seen the very last, the
3875 lingering and long-petted Master Harry, sent to school after his
3876 brothers, was now living in her deserted nursery to mend stockings and
3877 dress all the blains and bruises she could get near her, and who,
3878 consequently, was only too happy in being allowed to go and help nurse
3879 dear Miss Louisa. Vague wishes of getting Sarah thither, had occurred
3880 before to Mrs Musgrove and Henrietta; but without Anne, it would hardly
3881 have been resolved on, and found practicable so soon.
3882
3883 They were indebted, the next day, to Charles Hayter, for all the minute
3884 knowledge of Louisa, which it was so essential to obtain every
3885 twenty-four hours. He made it his business to go to Lyme, and his
3886 account was still encouraging. The intervals of sense and
3887 consciousness were believed to be stronger. Every report agreed in
3888 Captain Wentworth's appearing fixed in Lyme.
3889
3890 Anne was to leave them on the morrow, an event which they all dreaded.
3891 "What should they do without her? They were wretched comforters for
3892 one another." And so much was said in this way, that Anne thought she
3893 could not do better than impart among them the general inclination to
3894 which she was privy, and persuaded them all to go to Lyme at once. She
3895 had little difficulty; it was soon determined that they would go; go
3896 to-morrow, fix themselves at the inn, or get into lodgings, as it
3897 suited, and there remain till dear Louisa could be moved. They must be
3898 taking off some trouble from the good people she was with; they might
3899 at least relieve Mrs Harville from the care of her own children; and in
3900 short, they were so happy in the decision, that Anne was delighted with
3901 what she had done, and felt that she could not spend her last morning
3902 at Uppercross better than in assisting their preparations, and sending
3903 them off at an early hour, though her being left to the solitary range
3904 of the house was the consequence.
3905
3906 She was the last, excepting the little boys at the cottage, she was the
3907 very last, the only remaining one of all that had filled and animated
3908 both houses, of all that had given Uppercross its cheerful character.
3909 A few days had made a change indeed!
3910
3911 If Louisa recovered, it would all be well again. More than former
3912 happiness would be restored. There could not be a doubt, to her mind
3913 there was none, of what would follow her recovery. A few months hence,
3914 and the room now so deserted, occupied but by her silent, pensive self,
3915 might be filled again with all that was happy and gay, all that was
3916 glowing and bright in prosperous love, all that was most unlike Anne
3917 Elliot!
3918
3919 An hour's complete leisure for such reflections as these, on a dark
3920 November day, a small thick rain almost blotting out the very few
3921 objects ever to be discerned from the windows, was enough to make the
3922 sound of Lady Russell's carriage exceedingly welcome; and yet, though
3923 desirous to be gone, she could not quit the Mansion House, or look an
3924 adieu to the Cottage, with its black, dripping and comfortless veranda,
3925 or even notice through the misty glasses the last humble tenements of
3926 the village, without a saddened heart. Scenes had passed in Uppercross
3927 which made it precious. It stood the record of many sensations of
3928 pain, once severe, but now softened; and of some instances of relenting
3929 feeling, some breathings of friendship and reconciliation, which could
3930 never be looked for again, and which could never cease to be dear. She
3931 left it all behind her, all but the recollection that such things had
3932 been.
3933
3934 Anne had never entered Kellynch since her quitting Lady Russell's house
3935 in September. It had not been necessary, and the few occasions of its
3936 being possible for her to go to the Hall she had contrived to evade and
3937 escape from. Her first return was to resume her place in the modern
3938 and elegant apartments of the Lodge, and to gladden the eyes of its
3939 mistress.
3940
3941 There was some anxiety mixed with Lady Russell's joy in meeting her.
3942 She knew who had been frequenting Uppercross. But happily, either Anne
3943 was improved in plumpness and looks, or Lady Russell fancied her so;
3944 and Anne, in receiving her compliments on the occasion, had the
3945 amusement of connecting them with the silent admiration of her cousin,
3946 and of hoping that she was to be blessed with a second spring of youth
3947 and beauty.
3948
3949 When they came to converse, she was soon sensible of some mental
3950 change. The subjects of which her heart had been full on leaving
3951 Kellynch, and which she had felt slighted, and been compelled to
3952 smother among the Musgroves, were now become but of secondary interest.
3953 She had lately lost sight even of her father and sister and Bath.
3954 Their concerns had been sunk under those of Uppercross; and when Lady
3955 Russell reverted to their former hopes and fears, and spoke her
3956 satisfaction in the house in Camden Place, which had been taken, and
3957 her regret that Mrs Clay should still be with them, Anne would have
3958 been ashamed to have it known how much more she was thinking of Lyme
3959 and Louisa Musgrove, and all her acquaintance there; how much more
3960 interesting to her was the home and the friendship of the Harvilles and
3961 Captain Benwick, than her own father's house in Camden Place, or her
3962 own sister's intimacy with Mrs Clay. She was actually forced to exert
3963 herself to meet Lady Russell with anything like the appearance of equal
3964 solicitude, on topics which had by nature the first claim on her.
3965
3966 There was a little awkwardness at first in their discourse on another
3967 subject. They must speak of the accident at Lyme. Lady Russell had
3968 not been arrived five minutes the day before, when a full account of
3969 the whole had burst on her; but still it must be talked of, she must
3970 make enquiries, she must regret the imprudence, lament the result, and
3971 Captain Wentworth's name must be mentioned by both. Anne was conscious
3972 of not doing it so well as Lady Russell. She could not speak the name,
3973 and look straight forward to Lady Russell's eye, till she had adopted
3974 the expedient of telling her briefly what she thought of the attachment
3975 between him and Louisa. When this was told, his name distressed her no
3976 longer.
3977
3978 Lady Russell had only to listen composedly, and wish them happy, but
3979 internally her heart revelled in angry pleasure, in pleased contempt,
3980 that the man who at twenty-three had seemed to understand somewhat of
3981 the value of an Anne Elliot, should, eight years afterwards, be charmed
3982 by a Louisa Musgrove.
3983
3984 The first three or four days passed most quietly, with no circumstance
3985 to mark them excepting the receipt of a note or two from Lyme, which
3986 found their way to Anne, she could not tell how, and brought a rather
3987 improving account of Louisa. At the end of that period, Lady Russell's
3988 politeness could repose no longer, and the fainter self-threatenings of
3989 the past became in a decided tone, "I must call on Mrs Croft; I really
3990 must call upon her soon. Anne, have you courage to go with me, and pay
3991 a visit in that house? It will be some trial to us both."
3992
3993 Anne did not shrink from it; on the contrary, she truly felt as she
3994 said, in observing--
3995
3996 "I think you are very likely to suffer the most of the two; your
3997 feelings are less reconciled to the change than mine. By remaining in
3998 the neighbourhood, I am become inured to it."
3999
4000 She could have said more on the subject; for she had in fact so high an
4001 opinion of the Crofts, and considered her father so very fortunate in
4002 his tenants, felt the parish to be so sure of a good example, and the
4003 poor of the best attention and relief, that however sorry and ashamed
4004 for the necessity of the removal, she could not but in conscience feel
4005 that they were gone who deserved not to stay, and that Kellynch Hall
4006 had passed into better hands than its owners'. These convictions must
4007 unquestionably have their own pain, and severe was its kind; but they
4008 precluded that pain which Lady Russell would suffer in entering the
4009 house again, and returning through the well-known apartments.
4010
4011 In such moments Anne had no power of saying to herself, "These rooms
4012 ought to belong only to us. Oh, how fallen in their destination! How
4013 unworthily occupied! An ancient family to be so driven away!
4014 Strangers filling their place!" No, except when she thought of her
4015 mother, and remembered where she had been used to sit and preside, she
4016 had no sigh of that description to heave.
4017
4018 Mrs Croft always met her with a kindness which gave her the pleasure of
4019 fancying herself a favourite, and on the present occasion, receiving
4020 her in that house, there was particular attention.
4021
4022 The sad accident at Lyme was soon the prevailing topic, and on
4023 comparing their latest accounts of the invalid, it appeared that each
4024 lady dated her intelligence from the same hour of yestermorn; that
4025 Captain Wentworth had been in Kellynch yesterday (the first time since
4026 the accident), had brought Anne the last note, which she had not been
4027 able to trace the exact steps of; had staid a few hours and then
4028 returned again to Lyme, and without any present intention of quitting
4029 it any more. He had enquired after her, she found, particularly; had
4030 expressed his hope of Miss Elliot's not being the worse for her
4031 exertions, and had spoken of those exertions as great. This was
4032 handsome, and gave her more pleasure than almost anything else could
4033 have done.
4034
4035 As to the sad catastrophe itself, it could be canvassed only in one
4036 style by a couple of steady, sensible women, whose judgements had to
4037 work on ascertained events; and it was perfectly decided that it had
4038 been the consequence of much thoughtlessness and much imprudence; that
4039 its effects were most alarming, and that it was frightful to think, how
4040 long Miss Musgrove's recovery might yet be doubtful, and how liable she
4041 would still remain to suffer from the concussion hereafter! The
4042 Admiral wound it up summarily by exclaiming--
4043
4044 "Ay, a very bad business indeed. A new sort of way this, for a young
4045 fellow to be making love, by breaking his mistress's head, is not it,
4046 Miss Elliot? This is breaking a head and giving a plaster, truly!"
4047
4048 Admiral Croft's manners were not quite of the tone to suit Lady
4049 Russell, but they delighted Anne. His goodness of heart and simplicity
4050 of character were irresistible.
4051
4052 "Now, this must be very bad for you," said he, suddenly rousing from a
4053 little reverie, "to be coming and finding us here. I had not
4054 recollected it before, I declare, but it must be very bad. But now, do
4055 not stand upon ceremony. Get up and go over all the rooms in the house
4056 if you like it."
4057
4058 "Another time, Sir, I thank you, not now."
4059
4060 "Well, whenever it suits you. You can slip in from the shrubbery at
4061 any time; and there you will find we keep our umbrellas hanging up by
4062 that door. A good place is not it? But," (checking himself), "you
4063 will not think it a good place, for yours were always kept in the
4064 butler's room. Ay, so it always is, I believe. One man's ways may be
4065 as good as another's, but we all like our own best. And so you must
4066 judge for yourself, whether it would be better for you to go about the
4067 house or not."
4068
4069 Anne, finding she might decline it, did so, very gratefully.
4070
4071 "We have made very few changes either," continued the Admiral, after
4072 thinking a moment. "Very few. We told you about the laundry-door, at
4073 Uppercross. That has been a very great improvement. The wonder was,
4074 how any family upon earth could bear with the inconvenience of its
4075 opening as it did, so long! You will tell Sir Walter what we have
4076 done, and that Mr Shepherd thinks it the greatest improvement the house
4077 ever had. Indeed, I must do ourselves the justice to say, that the few
4078 alterations we have made have been all very much for the better. My
4079 wife should have the credit of them, however. I have done very little
4080 besides sending away some of the large looking-glasses from my
4081 dressing-room, which was your father's. A very good man, and very much
4082 the gentleman I am sure: but I should think, Miss Elliot," (looking
4083 with serious reflection), "I should think he must be rather a dressy
4084 man for his time of life. Such a number of looking-glasses! oh Lord!
4085 there was no getting away from one's self. So I got Sophy to lend me a
4086 hand, and we soon shifted their quarters; and now I am quite snug, with
4087 my little shaving glass in one corner, and another great thing that I
4088 never go near."
4089
4090 Anne, amused in spite of herself, was rather distressed for an answer,
4091 and the Admiral, fearing he might not have been civil enough, took up
4092 the subject again, to say--
4093
4094 "The next time you write to your good father, Miss Elliot, pray give
4095 him my compliments and Mrs Croft's, and say that we are settled here
4096 quite to our liking, and have no fault at all to find with the place.
4097 The breakfast-room chimney smokes a little, I grant you, but it is only
4098 when the wind is due north and blows hard, which may not happen three
4099 times a winter. And take it altogether, now that we have been into
4100 most of the houses hereabouts and can judge, there is not one that we
4101 like better than this. Pray say so, with my compliments. He will be
4102 glad to hear it."
4103
4104 Lady Russell and Mrs Croft were very well pleased with each other: but
4105 the acquaintance which this visit began was fated not to proceed far at
4106 present; for when it was returned, the Crofts announced themselves to
4107 be going away for a few weeks, to visit their connexions in the north
4108 of the county, and probably might not be at home again before Lady
4109 Russell would be removing to Bath.
4110
4111 So ended all danger to Anne of meeting Captain Wentworth at Kellynch
4112 Hall, or of seeing him in company with her friend. Everything was safe
4113 enough, and she smiled over the many anxious feelings she had wasted on
4114 the subject.
4115
4116
4117
4118 Chapter 14
4119
4120
4121 Though Charles and Mary had remained at Lyme much longer after Mr and
4122 Mrs Musgrove's going than Anne conceived they could have been at all
4123 wanted, they were yet the first of the family to be at home again; and
4124 as soon as possible after their return to Uppercross they drove over to
4125 the Lodge. They had left Louisa beginning to sit up; but her head,
4126 though clear, was exceedingly weak, and her nerves susceptible to the
4127 highest extreme of tenderness; and though she might be pronounced to be
4128 altogether doing very well, it was still impossible to say when she
4129 might be able to bear the removal home; and her father and mother, who
4130 must return in time to receive their younger children for the Christmas
4131 holidays, had hardly a hope of being allowed to bring her with them.
4132
4133 They had been all in lodgings together. Mrs Musgrove had got Mrs
4134 Harville's children away as much as she could, every possible supply
4135 from Uppercross had been furnished, to lighten the inconvenience to the
4136 Harvilles, while the Harvilles had been wanting them to come to dinner
4137 every day; and in short, it seemed to have been only a struggle on each
4138 side as to which should be most disinterested and hospitable.
4139
4140 Mary had had her evils; but upon the whole, as was evident by her
4141 staying so long, she had found more to enjoy than to suffer. Charles
4142 Hayter had been at Lyme oftener than suited her; and when they dined
4143 with the Harvilles there had been only a maid-servant to wait, and at
4144 first Mrs Harville had always given Mrs Musgrove precedence; but then,
4145 she had received so very handsome an apology from her on finding out
4146 whose daughter she was, and there had been so much going on every day,
4147 there had been so many walks between their lodgings and the Harvilles,
4148 and she had got books from the library, and changed them so often, that
4149 the balance had certainly been much in favour of Lyme. She had been
4150 taken to Charmouth too, and she had bathed, and she had gone to church,
4151 and there were a great many more people to look at in the church at
4152 Lyme than at Uppercross; and all this, joined to the sense of being so
4153 very useful, had made really an agreeable fortnight.
4154
4155 Anne enquired after Captain Benwick. Mary's face was clouded directly.
4156 Charles laughed.
4157
4158 "Oh! Captain Benwick is very well, I believe, but he is a very odd
4159 young man. I do not know what he would be at. We asked him to come
4160 home with us for a day or two: Charles undertook to give him some
4161 shooting, and he seemed quite delighted, and, for my part, I thought it
4162 was all settled; when behold! on Tuesday night, he made a very awkward
4163 sort of excuse; 'he never shot' and he had 'been quite misunderstood,'
4164 and he had promised this and he had promised that, and the end of it
4165 was, I found, that he did not mean to come. I suppose he was afraid of
4166 finding it dull; but upon my word I should have thought we were lively
4167 enough at the Cottage for such a heart-broken man as Captain Benwick."
4168
4169 Charles laughed again and said, "Now Mary, you know very well how it
4170 really was. It was all your doing," (turning to Anne.) "He fancied
4171 that if he went with us, he should find you close by: he fancied
4172 everybody to be living in Uppercross; and when he discovered that Lady
4173 Russell lived three miles off, his heart failed him, and he had not
4174 courage to come. That is the fact, upon my honour. Mary knows it is."
4175
4176 But Mary did not give into it very graciously, whether from not
4177 considering Captain Benwick entitled by birth and situation to be in
4178 love with an Elliot, or from not wanting to believe Anne a greater
4179 attraction to Uppercross than herself, must be left to be guessed.
4180 Anne's good-will, however, was not to be lessened by what she heard.
4181 She boldly acknowledged herself flattered, and continued her enquiries.
4182
4183 "Oh! he talks of you," cried Charles, "in such terms--" Mary
4184 interrupted him. "I declare, Charles, I never heard him mention Anne
4185 twice all the time I was there. I declare, Anne, he never talks of you
4186 at all."
4187
4188 "No," admitted Charles, "I do not know that he ever does, in a general
4189 way; but however, it is a very clear thing that he admires you
4190 exceedingly. His head is full of some books that he is reading upon
4191 your recommendation, and he wants to talk to you about them; he has
4192 found out something or other in one of them which he thinks--oh! I
4193 cannot pretend to remember it, but it was something very fine--I
4194 overheard him telling Henrietta all about it; and then 'Miss Elliot'
4195 was spoken of in the highest terms! Now Mary, I declare it was so, I
4196 heard it myself, and you were in the other room. 'Elegance, sweetness,
4197 beauty.' Oh! there was no end of Miss Elliot's charms."
4198
4199 "And I am sure," cried Mary, warmly, "it was a very little to his
4200 credit, if he did. Miss Harville only died last June. Such a heart is
4201 very little worth having; is it, Lady Russell? I am sure you will
4202 agree with me."
4203
4204 "I must see Captain Benwick before I decide," said Lady Russell,
4205 smiling.
4206
4207 "And that you are very likely to do very soon, I can tell you, ma'am,"
4208 said Charles. "Though he had not nerves for coming away with us, and
4209 setting off again afterwards to pay a formal visit here, he will make
4210 his way over to Kellynch one day by himself, you may depend on it. I
4211 told him the distance and the road, and I told him of the church's
4212 being so very well worth seeing; for as he has a taste for those sort
4213 of things, I thought that would be a good excuse, and he listened with
4214 all his understanding and soul; and I am sure from his manner that you
4215 will have him calling here soon. So, I give you notice, Lady Russell."
4216
4217 "Any acquaintance of Anne's will always be welcome to me," was Lady
4218 Russell's kind answer.
4219
4220 "Oh! as to being Anne's acquaintance," said Mary, "I think he is rather
4221 my acquaintance, for I have been seeing him every day this last
4222 fortnight."
4223
4224 "Well, as your joint acquaintance, then, I shall be very happy to see
4225 Captain Benwick."
4226
4227 "You will not find anything very agreeable in him, I assure you, ma'am.
4228 He is one of the dullest young men that ever lived. He has walked with
4229 me, sometimes, from one end of the sands to the other, without saying a
4230 word. He is not at all a well-bred young man. I am sure you will not
4231 like him."
4232
4233 "There we differ, Mary," said Anne. "I think Lady Russell would like
4234 him. I think she would be so much pleased with his mind, that she
4235 would very soon see no deficiency in his manner."
4236
4237 "So do I, Anne," said Charles. "I am sure Lady Russell would like him.
4238 He is just Lady Russell's sort. Give him a book, and he will read all
4239 day long."
4240
4241 "Yes, that he will!" exclaimed Mary, tauntingly. "He will sit poring
4242 over his book, and not know when a person speaks to him, or when one
4243 drops one's scissors, or anything that happens. Do you think Lady
4244 Russell would like that?"
4245
4246 Lady Russell could not help laughing. "Upon my word," said she, "I
4247 should not have supposed that my opinion of any one could have admitted
4248 of such difference of conjecture, steady and matter of fact as I may
4249 call myself. I have really a curiosity to see the person who can give
4250 occasion to such directly opposite notions. I wish he may be induced
4251 to call here. And when he does, Mary, you may depend upon hearing my
4252 opinion; but I am determined not to judge him beforehand."
4253
4254 "You will not like him, I will answer for it."
4255
4256 Lady Russell began talking of something else. Mary spoke with
4257 animation of their meeting with, or rather missing, Mr Elliot so
4258 extraordinarily.
4259
4260 "He is a man," said Lady Russell, "whom I have no wish to see. His
4261 declining to be on cordial terms with the head of his family, has left
4262 a very strong impression in his disfavour with me."
4263
4264 This decision checked Mary's eagerness, and stopped her short in the
4265 midst of the Elliot countenance.
4266
4267 With regard to Captain Wentworth, though Anne hazarded no enquiries,
4268 there was voluntary communication sufficient. His spirits had been
4269 greatly recovering lately as might be expected. As Louisa improved, he
4270 had improved, and he was now quite a different creature from what he
4271 had been the first week. He had not seen Louisa; and was so extremely
4272 fearful of any ill consequence to her from an interview, that he did
4273 not press for it at all; and, on the contrary, seemed to have a plan of
4274 going away for a week or ten days, till her head was stronger. He had
4275 talked of going down to Plymouth for a week, and wanted to persuade
4276 Captain Benwick to go with him; but, as Charles maintained to the last,
4277 Captain Benwick seemed much more disposed to ride over to Kellynch.
4278
4279 There can be no doubt that Lady Russell and Anne were both occasionally
4280 thinking of Captain Benwick, from this time. Lady Russell could not
4281 hear the door-bell without feeling that it might be his herald; nor
4282 could Anne return from any stroll of solitary indulgence in her
4283 father's grounds, or any visit of charity in the village, without
4284 wondering whether she might see him or hear of him. Captain Benwick
4285 came not, however. He was either less disposed for it than Charles had
4286 imagined, or he was too shy; and after giving him a week's indulgence,
4287 Lady Russell determined him to be unworthy of the interest which he had
4288 been beginning to excite.
4289
4290 The Musgroves came back to receive their happy boys and girls from
4291 school, bringing with them Mrs Harville's little children, to improve
4292 the noise of Uppercross, and lessen that of Lyme. Henrietta remained
4293 with Louisa; but all the rest of the family were again in their usual
4294 quarters.
4295
4296 Lady Russell and Anne paid their compliments to them once, when Anne
4297 could not but feel that Uppercross was already quite alive again.
4298 Though neither Henrietta, nor Louisa, nor Charles Hayter, nor Captain
4299 Wentworth were there, the room presented as strong a contrast as could
4300 be wished to the last state she had seen it in.
4301
4302 Immediately surrounding Mrs Musgrove were the little Harvilles, whom
4303 she was sedulously guarding from the tyranny of the two children from
4304 the Cottage, expressly arrived to amuse them. On one side was a table
4305 occupied by some chattering girls, cutting up silk and gold paper; and
4306 on the other were tressels and trays, bending under the weight of brawn
4307 and cold pies, where riotous boys were holding high revel; the whole
4308 completed by a roaring Christmas fire, which seemed determined to be
4309 heard, in spite of all the noise of the others. Charles and Mary also
4310 came in, of course, during their visit, and Mr Musgrove made a point of
4311 paying his respects to Lady Russell, and sat down close to her for ten
4312 minutes, talking with a very raised voice, but from the clamour of the
4313 children on his knees, generally in vain. It was a fine family-piece.
4314
4315 Anne, judging from her own temperament, would have deemed such a
4316 domestic hurricane a bad restorative of the nerves, which Louisa's
4317 illness must have so greatly shaken. But Mrs Musgrove, who got Anne
4318 near her on purpose to thank her most cordially, again and again, for
4319 all her attentions to them, concluded a short recapitulation of what
4320 she had suffered herself by observing, with a happy glance round the
4321 room, that after all she had gone through, nothing was so likely to do
4322 her good as a little quiet cheerfulness at home.
4323
4324 Louisa was now recovering apace. Her mother could even think of her
4325 being able to join their party at home, before her brothers and sisters
4326 went to school again. The Harvilles had promised to come with her and
4327 stay at Uppercross, whenever she returned. Captain Wentworth was gone,
4328 for the present, to see his brother in Shropshire.
4329
4330 "I hope I shall remember, in future," said Lady Russell, as soon as
4331 they were reseated in the carriage, "not to call at Uppercross in the
4332 Christmas holidays."
4333
4334 Everybody has their taste in noises as well as in other matters; and
4335 sounds are quite innoxious, or most distressing, by their sort rather
4336 than their quantity. When Lady Russell not long afterwards, was
4337 entering Bath on a wet afternoon, and driving through the long course
4338 of streets from the Old Bridge to Camden Place, amidst the dash of
4339 other carriages, the heavy rumble of carts and drays, the bawling of
4340 newspapermen, muffin-men and milkmen, and the ceaseless clink of
4341 pattens, she made no complaint. No, these were noises which belonged
4342 to the winter pleasures; her spirits rose under their influence; and
4343 like Mrs Musgrove, she was feeling, though not saying, that after being
4344 long in the country, nothing could be so good for her as a little quiet
4345 cheerfulness.
4346
4347 Anne did not share these feelings. She persisted in a very determined,
4348 though very silent disinclination for Bath; caught the first dim view
4349 of the extensive buildings, smoking in rain, without any wish of seeing
4350 them better; felt their progress through the streets to be, however
4351 disagreeable, yet too rapid; for who would be glad to see her when she
4352 arrived? And looked back, with fond regret, to the bustles of
4353 Uppercross and the seclusion of Kellynch.
4354
4355 Elizabeth's last letter had communicated a piece of news of some
4356 interest. Mr Elliot was in Bath. He had called in Camden Place; had
4357 called a second time, a third; had been pointedly attentive. If
4358 Elizabeth and her father did not deceive themselves, had been taking
4359 much pains to seek the acquaintance, and proclaim the value of the
4360 connection, as he had formerly taken pains to shew neglect. This was
4361 very wonderful if it were true; and Lady Russell was in a state of very
4362 agreeable curiosity and perplexity about Mr Elliot, already recanting
4363 the sentiment she had so lately expressed to Mary, of his being "a man
4364 whom she had no wish to see." She had a great wish to see him. If he
4365 really sought to reconcile himself like a dutiful branch, he must be
4366 forgiven for having dismembered himself from the paternal tree.
4367
4368 Anne was not animated to an equal pitch by the circumstance, but she
4369 felt that she would rather see Mr Elliot again than not, which was more
4370 than she could say for many other persons in Bath.
4371
4372 She was put down in Camden Place; and Lady Russell then drove to her
4373 own lodgings, in Rivers Street.
4374
4375
4376
4377 Chapter 15
4378
4379
4380 Sir Walter had taken a very good house in Camden Place, a lofty
4381 dignified situation, such as becomes a man of consequence; and both he
4382 and Elizabeth were settled there, much to their satisfaction.
4383
4384 Anne entered it with a sinking heart, anticipating an imprisonment of
4385 many months, and anxiously saying to herself, "Oh! when shall I leave
4386 you again?" A degree of unexpected cordiality, however, in the welcome
4387 she received, did her good. Her father and sister were glad to see
4388 her, for the sake of shewing her the house and furniture, and met her
4389 with kindness. Her making a fourth, when they sat down to dinner, was
4390 noticed as an advantage.
4391
4392 Mrs Clay was very pleasant, and very smiling, but her courtesies and
4393 smiles were more a matter of course. Anne had always felt that she
4394 would pretend what was proper on her arrival, but the complaisance of
4395 the others was unlooked for. They were evidently in excellent spirits,
4396 and she was soon to listen to the causes. They had no inclination to
4397 listen to her. After laying out for some compliments of being deeply
4398 regretted in their old neighbourhood, which Anne could not pay, they
4399 had only a few faint enquiries to make, before the talk must be all
4400 their own. Uppercross excited no interest, Kellynch very little: it
4401 was all Bath.
4402
4403 They had the pleasure of assuring her that Bath more than answered
4404 their expectations in every respect. Their house was undoubtedly the
4405 best in Camden Place; their drawing-rooms had many decided advantages
4406 over all the others which they had either seen or heard of, and the
4407 superiority was not less in the style of the fitting-up, or the taste
4408 of the furniture. Their acquaintance was exceedingly sought after.
4409 Everybody was wanting to visit them. They had drawn back from many
4410 introductions, and still were perpetually having cards left by people
4411 of whom they knew nothing.
4412
4413 Here were funds of enjoyment. Could Anne wonder that her father and
4414 sister were happy? She might not wonder, but she must sigh that her
4415 father should feel no degradation in his change, should see nothing to
4416 regret in the duties and dignity of the resident landholder, should
4417 find so much to be vain of in the littlenesses of a town; and she must
4418 sigh, and smile, and wonder too, as Elizabeth threw open the
4419 folding-doors and walked with exultation from one drawing-room to the
4420 other, boasting of their space; at the possibility of that woman, who
4421 had been mistress of Kellynch Hall, finding extent to be proud of
4422 between two walls, perhaps thirty feet asunder.
4423
4424 But this was not all which they had to make them happy. They had Mr
4425 Elliot too. Anne had a great deal to hear of Mr Elliot. He was not
4426 only pardoned, they were delighted with him. He had been in Bath about
4427 a fortnight; (he had passed through Bath in November, in his way to
4428 London, when the intelligence of Sir Walter's being settled there had
4429 of course reached him, though only twenty-four hours in the place, but
4430 he had not been able to avail himself of it;) but he had now been a
4431 fortnight in Bath, and his first object on arriving, had been to leave
4432 his card in Camden Place, following it up by such assiduous endeavours
4433 to meet, and when they did meet, by such great openness of conduct,
4434 such readiness to apologize for the past, such solicitude to be
4435 received as a relation again, that their former good understanding was
4436 completely re-established.
4437
4438 They had not a fault to find in him. He had explained away all the
4439 appearance of neglect on his own side. It had originated in
4440 misapprehension entirely. He had never had an idea of throwing himself
4441 off; he had feared that he was thrown off, but knew not why, and
4442 delicacy had kept him silent. Upon the hint of having spoken
4443 disrespectfully or carelessly of the family and the family honours, he
4444 was quite indignant. He, who had ever boasted of being an Elliot, and
4445 whose feelings, as to connection, were only too strict to suit the
4446 unfeudal tone of the present day. He was astonished, indeed, but his
4447 character and general conduct must refute it. He could refer Sir
4448 Walter to all who knew him; and certainly, the pains he had been taking
4449 on this, the first opportunity of reconciliation, to be restored to the
4450 footing of a relation and heir-presumptive, was a strong proof of his
4451 opinions on the subject.
4452
4453 The circumstances of his marriage, too, were found to admit of much
4454 extenuation. This was an article not to be entered on by himself; but
4455 a very intimate friend of his, a Colonel Wallis, a highly respectable
4456 man, perfectly the gentleman, (and not an ill-looking man, Sir Walter
4457 added), who was living in very good style in Marlborough Buildings, and
4458 had, at his own particular request, been admitted to their acquaintance
4459 through Mr Elliot, had mentioned one or two things relative to the
4460 marriage, which made a material difference in the discredit of it.
4461
4462 Colonel Wallis had known Mr Elliot long, had been well acquainted also
4463 with his wife, had perfectly understood the whole story. She was
4464 certainly not a woman of family, but well educated, accomplished, rich,
4465 and excessively in love with his friend. There had been the charm.
4466 She had sought him. Without that attraction, not all her money would
4467 have tempted Elliot, and Sir Walter was, moreover, assured of her
4468 having been a very fine woman. Here was a great deal to soften the
4469 business. A very fine woman with a large fortune, in love with him!
4470 Sir Walter seemed to admit it as complete apology; and though Elizabeth
4471 could not see the circumstance in quite so favourable a light, she
4472 allowed it be a great extenuation.
4473
4474 Mr Elliot had called repeatedly, had dined with them once, evidently
4475 delighted by the distinction of being asked, for they gave no dinners
4476 in general; delighted, in short, by every proof of cousinly notice, and
4477 placing his whole happiness in being on intimate terms in Camden Place.
4478
4479 Anne listened, but without quite understanding it. Allowances, large
4480 allowances, she knew, must be made for the ideas of those who spoke.
4481 She heard it all under embellishment. All that sounded extravagant or
4482 irrational in the progress of the reconciliation might have no origin
4483 but in the language of the relators. Still, however, she had the
4484 sensation of there being something more than immediately appeared, in
4485 Mr Elliot's wishing, after an interval of so many years, to be well
4486 received by them. In a worldly view, he had nothing to gain by being
4487 on terms with Sir Walter; nothing to risk by a state of variance. In
4488 all probability he was already the richer of the two, and the Kellynch
4489 estate would as surely be his hereafter as the title. A sensible man,
4490 and he had looked like a very sensible man, why should it be an object
4491 to him? She could only offer one solution; it was, perhaps, for
4492 Elizabeth's sake. There might really have been a liking formerly,
4493 though convenience and accident had drawn him a different way; and now
4494 that he could afford to please himself, he might mean to pay his
4495 addresses to her. Elizabeth was certainly very handsome, with
4496 well-bred, elegant manners, and her character might never have been
4497 penetrated by Mr Elliot, knowing her but in public, and when very young
4498 himself. How her temper and understanding might bear the investigation
4499 of his present keener time of life was another concern and rather a
4500 fearful one. Most earnestly did she wish that he might not be too
4501 nice, or too observant if Elizabeth were his object; and that Elizabeth
4502 was disposed to believe herself so, and that her friend Mrs Clay was
4503 encouraging the idea, seemed apparent by a glance or two between them,
4504 while Mr Elliot's frequent visits were talked of.
4505
4506 Anne mentioned the glimpses she had had of him at Lyme, but without
4507 being much attended to. "Oh! yes, perhaps, it had been Mr Elliot.
4508 They did not know. It might be him, perhaps." They could not listen
4509 to her description of him. They were describing him themselves; Sir
4510 Walter especially. He did justice to his very gentlemanlike
4511 appearance, his air of elegance and fashion, his good shaped face, his
4512 sensible eye; but, at the same time, "must lament his being very much
4513 under-hung, a defect which time seemed to have increased; nor could he
4514 pretend to say that ten years had not altered almost every feature for
4515 the worse. Mr Elliot appeared to think that he (Sir Walter) was
4516 looking exactly as he had done when they last parted;" but Sir Walter
4517 had "not been able to return the compliment entirely, which had
4518 embarrassed him. He did not mean to complain, however. Mr Elliot was
4519 better to look at than most men, and he had no objection to being seen
4520 with him anywhere."
4521
4522 Mr Elliot, and his friends in Marlborough Buildings, were talked of the
4523 whole evening. "Colonel Wallis had been so impatient to be introduced
4524 to them! and Mr Elliot so anxious that he should!" and there was a Mrs
4525 Wallis, at present known only to them by description, as she was in
4526 daily expectation of her confinement; but Mr Elliot spoke of her as "a
4527 most charming woman, quite worthy of being known in Camden Place," and
4528 as soon as she recovered they were to be acquainted. Sir Walter
4529 thought much of Mrs Wallis; she was said to be an excessively pretty
4530 woman, beautiful. "He longed to see her. He hoped she might make some
4531 amends for the many very plain faces he was continually passing in the
4532 streets. The worst of Bath was the number of its plain women. He did
4533 not mean to say that there were no pretty women, but the number of the
4534 plain was out of all proportion. He had frequently observed, as he
4535 walked, that one handsome face would be followed by thirty, or
4536 five-and-thirty frights; and once, as he had stood in a shop on Bond
4537 Street, he had counted eighty-seven women go by, one after another,
4538 without there being a tolerable face among them. It had been a frosty
4539 morning, to be sure, a sharp frost, which hardly one woman in a
4540 thousand could stand the test of. But still, there certainly were a
4541 dreadful multitude of ugly women in Bath; and as for the men! they
4542 were infinitely worse. Such scarecrows as the streets were full of!
4543 It was evident how little the women were used to the sight of anything
4544 tolerable, by the effect which a man of decent appearance produced. He
4545 had never walked anywhere arm-in-arm with Colonel Wallis (who was a
4546 fine military figure, though sandy-haired) without observing that every
4547 woman's eye was upon him; every woman's eye was sure to be upon Colonel
4548 Wallis." Modest Sir Walter! He was not allowed to escape, however.
4549 His daughter and Mrs Clay united in hinting that Colonel Wallis's
4550 companion might have as good a figure as Colonel Wallis, and certainly
4551 was not sandy-haired.
4552
4553 "How is Mary looking?" said Sir Walter, in the height of his good
4554 humour. "The last time I saw her she had a red nose, but I hope that
4555 may not happen every day."
4556
4557 "Oh! no, that must have been quite accidental. In general she has been
4558 in very good health and very good looks since Michaelmas."
4559
4560 "If I thought it would not tempt her to go out in sharp winds, and grow
4561 coarse, I would send her a new hat and pelisse."
4562
4563 Anne was considering whether she should venture to suggest that a gown,
4564 or a cap, would not be liable to any such misuse, when a knock at the
4565 door suspended everything. "A knock at the door! and so late! It was
4566 ten o'clock. Could it be Mr Elliot? They knew he was to dine in
4567 Lansdown Crescent. It was possible that he might stop in his way home
4568 to ask them how they did. They could think of no one else. Mrs Clay
4569 decidedly thought it Mr Elliot's knock." Mrs Clay was right. With all
4570 the state which a butler and foot-boy could give, Mr Elliot was ushered
4571 into the room.
4572
4573 It was the same, the very same man, with no difference but of dress.
4574 Anne drew a little back, while the others received his compliments, and
4575 her sister his apologies for calling at so unusual an hour, but "he
4576 could not be so near without wishing to know that neither she nor her
4577 friend had taken cold the day before," &c. &c; which was all as
4578 politely done, and as politely taken, as possible, but her part must
4579 follow then. Sir Walter talked of his youngest daughter; "Mr Elliot
4580 must give him leave to present him to his youngest daughter" (there was
4581 no occasion for remembering Mary); and Anne, smiling and blushing, very
4582 becomingly shewed to Mr Elliot the pretty features which he had by no
4583 means forgotten, and instantly saw, with amusement at his little start
4584 of surprise, that he had not been at all aware of who she was. He
4585 looked completely astonished, but not more astonished than pleased; his
4586 eyes brightened! and with the most perfect alacrity he welcomed the
4587 relationship, alluded to the past, and entreated to be received as an
4588 acquaintance already. He was quite as good-looking as he had appeared
4589 at Lyme, his countenance improved by speaking, and his manners were so
4590 exactly what they ought to be, so polished, so easy, so particularly
4591 agreeable, that she could compare them in excellence to only one
4592 person's manners. They were not the same, but they were, perhaps,
4593 equally good.
4594
4595 He sat down with them, and improved their conversation very much.
4596 There could be no doubt of his being a sensible man. Ten minutes were
4597 enough to certify that. His tone, his expressions, his choice of
4598 subject, his knowing where to stop; it was all the operation of a
4599 sensible, discerning mind. As soon as he could, he began to talk to
4600 her of Lyme, wanting to compare opinions respecting the place, but
4601 especially wanting to speak of the circumstance of their happening to
4602 be guests in the same inn at the same time; to give his own route,
4603 understand something of hers, and regret that he should have lost such
4604 an opportunity of paying his respects to her. She gave him a short
4605 account of her party and business at Lyme. His regret increased as he
4606 listened. He had spent his whole solitary evening in the room
4607 adjoining theirs; had heard voices, mirth continually; thought they
4608 must be a most delightful set of people, longed to be with them, but
4609 certainly without the smallest suspicion of his possessing the shadow
4610 of a right to introduce himself. If he had but asked who the party
4611 were! The name of Musgrove would have told him enough. "Well, it
4612 would serve to cure him of an absurd practice of never asking a
4613 question at an inn, which he had adopted, when quite a young man, on
4614 the principal of its being very ungenteel to be curious.
4615
4616 "The notions of a young man of one or two and twenty," said he, "as to
4617 what is necessary in manners to make him quite the thing, are more
4618 absurd, I believe, than those of any other set of beings in the world.
4619 The folly of the means they often employ is only to be equalled by the
4620 folly of what they have in view."
4621
4622 But he must not be addressing his reflections to Anne alone: he knew
4623 it; he was soon diffused again among the others, and it was only at
4624 intervals that he could return to Lyme.
4625
4626 His enquiries, however, produced at length an account of the scene she
4627 had been engaged in there, soon after his leaving the place. Having
4628 alluded to "an accident," he must hear the whole. When he questioned,
4629 Sir Walter and Elizabeth began to question also, but the difference in
4630 their manner of doing it could not be unfelt. She could only compare
4631 Mr Elliot to Lady Russell, in the wish of really comprehending what had
4632 passed, and in the degree of concern for what she must have suffered in
4633 witnessing it.
4634
4635 He staid an hour with them. The elegant little clock on the mantel-piece
4636 had struck "eleven with its silver sounds," and the watchman was
4637 beginning to be heard at a distance telling the same tale, before Mr
4638 Elliot or any of them seemed to feel that he had been there long.
4639
4640 Anne could not have supposed it possible that her first evening in
4641 Camden Place could have passed so well!
4642
4643
4644
4645 Chapter 16
4646
4647
4648 There was one point which Anne, on returning to her family, would have
4649 been more thankful to ascertain even than Mr Elliot's being in love
4650 with Elizabeth, which was, her father's not being in love with Mrs
4651 Clay; and she was very far from easy about it, when she had been at
4652 home a few hours. On going down to breakfast the next morning, she
4653 found there had just been a decent pretence on the lady's side of
4654 meaning to leave them. She could imagine Mrs Clay to have said, that
4655 "now Miss Anne was come, she could not suppose herself at all wanted;"
4656 for Elizabeth was replying in a sort of whisper, "That must not be any
4657 reason, indeed. I assure you I feel it none. She is nothing to me,
4658 compared with you;" and she was in full time to hear her father say,
4659 "My dear madam, this must not be. As yet, you have seen nothing of
4660 Bath. You have been here only to be useful. You must not run away
4661 from us now. You must stay to be acquainted with Mrs Wallis, the
4662 beautiful Mrs Wallis. To your fine mind, I well know the sight of
4663 beauty is a real gratification."
4664
4665 He spoke and looked so much in earnest, that Anne was not surprised to
4666 see Mrs Clay stealing a glance at Elizabeth and herself. Her
4667 countenance, perhaps, might express some watchfulness; but the praise
4668 of the fine mind did not appear to excite a thought in her sister. The
4669 lady could not but yield to such joint entreaties, and promise to stay.
4670
4671 In the course of the same morning, Anne and her father chancing to be
4672 alone together, he began to compliment her on her improved looks; he
4673 thought her "less thin in her person, in her cheeks; her skin, her
4674 complexion, greatly improved; clearer, fresher. Had she been using any
4675 thing in particular?" "No, nothing." "Merely Gowland," he supposed.
4676 "No, nothing at all." "Ha! he was surprised at that;" and added,
4677 "certainly you cannot do better than to continue as you are; you cannot
4678 be better than well; or I should recommend Gowland, the constant use of
4679 Gowland, during the spring months. Mrs Clay has been using it at my
4680 recommendation, and you see what it has done for her. You see how it
4681 has carried away her freckles."
4682
4683 If Elizabeth could but have heard this! Such personal praise might
4684 have struck her, especially as it did not appear to Anne that the
4685 freckles were at all lessened. But everything must take its chance.
4686 The evil of a marriage would be much diminished, if Elizabeth were also
4687 to marry. As for herself, she might always command a home with Lady
4688 Russell.
4689
4690 Lady Russell's composed mind and polite manners were put to some trial
4691 on this point, in her intercourse in Camden Place. The sight of Mrs
4692 Clay in such favour, and of Anne so overlooked, was a perpetual
4693 provocation to her there; and vexed her as much when she was away, as a
4694 person in Bath who drinks the water, gets all the new publications, and
4695 has a very large acquaintance, has time to be vexed.
4696
4697 As Mr Elliot became known to her, she grew more charitable, or more
4698 indifferent, towards the others. His manners were an immediate
4699 recommendation; and on conversing with him she found the solid so fully
4700 supporting the superficial, that she was at first, as she told Anne,
4701 almost ready to exclaim, "Can this be Mr Elliot?" and could not
4702 seriously picture to herself a more agreeable or estimable man.
4703 Everything united in him; good understanding, correct opinions,
4704 knowledge of the world, and a warm heart. He had strong feelings of
4705 family attachment and family honour, without pride or weakness; he
4706 lived with the liberality of a man of fortune, without display; he
4707 judged for himself in everything essential, without defying public
4708 opinion in any point of worldly decorum. He was steady, observant,
4709 moderate, candid; never run away with by spirits or by selfishness,
4710 which fancied itself strong feeling; and yet, with a sensibility to
4711 what was amiable and lovely, and a value for all the felicities of
4712 domestic life, which characters of fancied enthusiasm and violent
4713 agitation seldom really possess. She was sure that he had not been
4714 happy in marriage. Colonel Wallis said it, and Lady Russell saw it;
4715 but it had been no unhappiness to sour his mind, nor (she began pretty
4716 soon to suspect) to prevent his thinking of a second choice. Her
4717 satisfaction in Mr Elliot outweighed all the plague of Mrs Clay.
4718
4719 It was now some years since Anne had begun to learn that she and her
4720 excellent friend could sometimes think differently; and it did not
4721 surprise her, therefore, that Lady Russell should see nothing
4722 suspicious or inconsistent, nothing to require more motives than
4723 appeared, in Mr Elliot's great desire of a reconciliation. In Lady
4724 Russell's view, it was perfectly natural that Mr Elliot, at a mature
4725 time of life, should feel it a most desirable object, and what would
4726 very generally recommend him among all sensible people, to be on good
4727 terms with the head of his family; the simplest process in the world of
4728 time upon a head naturally clear, and only erring in the heyday of
4729 youth. Anne presumed, however, still to smile about it, and at last to
4730 mention "Elizabeth." Lady Russell listened, and looked, and made only
4731 this cautious reply:--"Elizabeth! very well; time will explain."
4732
4733 It was a reference to the future, which Anne, after a little
4734 observation, felt she must submit to. She could determine nothing at
4735 present. In that house Elizabeth must be first; and she was in the
4736 habit of such general observance as "Miss Elliot," that any
4737 particularity of attention seemed almost impossible. Mr Elliot, too,
4738 it must be remembered, had not been a widower seven months. A little
4739 delay on his side might be very excusable. In fact, Anne could never
4740 see the crape round his hat, without fearing that she was the
4741 inexcusable one, in attributing to him such imaginations; for though
4742 his marriage had not been very happy, still it had existed so many
4743 years that she could not comprehend a very rapid recovery from the
4744 awful impression of its being dissolved.
4745
4746 However it might end, he was without any question their pleasantest
4747 acquaintance in Bath: she saw nobody equal to him; and it was a great
4748 indulgence now and then to talk to him about Lyme, which he seemed to
4749 have as lively a wish to see again, and to see more of, as herself.
4750 They went through the particulars of their first meeting a great many
4751 times. He gave her to understand that he had looked at her with some
4752 earnestness. She knew it well; and she remembered another person's
4753 look also.
4754
4755 They did not always think alike. His value for rank and connexion she
4756 perceived was greater than hers. It was not merely complaisance, it
4757 must be a liking to the cause, which made him enter warmly into her
4758 father and sister's solicitudes on a subject which she thought unworthy
4759 to excite them. The Bath paper one morning announced the arrival of
4760 the Dowager Viscountess Dalrymple, and her daughter, the Honourable
4761 Miss Carteret; and all the comfort of No. --, Camden Place, was swept
4762 away for many days; for the Dalrymples (in Anne's opinion, most
4763 unfortunately) were cousins of the Elliots; and the agony was how to
4764 introduce themselves properly.
4765
4766 Anne had never seen her father and sister before in contact with
4767 nobility, and she must acknowledge herself disappointed. She had hoped
4768 better things from their high ideas of their own situation in life, and
4769 was reduced to form a wish which she had never foreseen; a wish that
4770 they had more pride; for "our cousins Lady Dalrymple and Miss
4771 Carteret;" "our cousins, the Dalrymples," sounded in her ears all day
4772 long.
4773
4774 Sir Walter had once been in company with the late viscount, but had
4775 never seen any of the rest of the family; and the difficulties of the
4776 case arose from there having been a suspension of all intercourse by
4777 letters of ceremony, ever since the death of that said late viscount,
4778 when, in consequence of a dangerous illness of Sir Walter's at the same
4779 time, there had been an unlucky omission at Kellynch. No letter of
4780 condolence had been sent to Ireland. The neglect had been visited on
4781 the head of the sinner; for when poor Lady Elliot died herself, no
4782 letter of condolence was received at Kellynch, and, consequently, there
4783 was but too much reason to apprehend that the Dalrymples considered the
4784 relationship as closed. How to have this anxious business set to
4785 rights, and be admitted as cousins again, was the question: and it was
4786 a question which, in a more rational manner, neither Lady Russell nor
4787 Mr Elliot thought unimportant. "Family connexions were always worth
4788 preserving, good company always worth seeking; Lady Dalrymple had taken
4789 a house, for three months, in Laura Place, and would be living in
4790 style. She had been at Bath the year before, and Lady Russell had
4791 heard her spoken of as a charming woman. It was very desirable that
4792 the connexion should be renewed, if it could be done, without any
4793 compromise of propriety on the side of the Elliots."
4794
4795 Sir Walter, however, would choose his own means, and at last wrote a
4796 very fine letter of ample explanation, regret, and entreaty, to his
4797 right honourable cousin. Neither Lady Russell nor Mr Elliot could
4798 admire the letter; but it did all that was wanted, in bringing three
4799 lines of scrawl from the Dowager Viscountess. "She was very much
4800 honoured, and should be happy in their acquaintance." The toils of the
4801 business were over, the sweets began. They visited in Laura Place,
4802 they had the cards of Dowager Viscountess Dalrymple, and the Honourable
4803 Miss Carteret, to be arranged wherever they might be most visible: and
4804 "Our cousins in Laura Place,"--"Our cousin, Lady Dalrymple and Miss
4805 Carteret," were talked of to everybody.
4806
4807 Anne was ashamed. Had Lady Dalrymple and her daughter even been very
4808 agreeable, she would still have been ashamed of the agitation they
4809 created, but they were nothing. There was no superiority of manner,
4810 accomplishment, or understanding. Lady Dalrymple had acquired the name
4811 of "a charming woman," because she had a smile and a civil answer for
4812 everybody. Miss Carteret, with still less to say, was so plain and so
4813 awkward, that she would never have been tolerated in Camden Place but
4814 for her birth.
4815
4816 Lady Russell confessed she had expected something better; but yet "it
4817 was an acquaintance worth having;" and when Anne ventured to speak her
4818 opinion of them to Mr Elliot, he agreed to their being nothing in
4819 themselves, but still maintained that, as a family connexion, as good
4820 company, as those who would collect good company around them, they had
4821 their value. Anne smiled and said,
4822
4823 "My idea of good company, Mr Elliot, is the company of clever,
4824 well-informed people, who have a great deal of conversation; that is
4825 what I call good company."
4826
4827 "You are mistaken," said he gently, "that is not good company; that is
4828 the best. Good company requires only birth, education, and manners,
4829 and with regard to education is not very nice. Birth and good manners
4830 are essential; but a little learning is by no means a dangerous thing
4831 in good company; on the contrary, it will do very well. My cousin Anne
4832 shakes her head. She is not satisfied. She is fastidious. My dear
4833 cousin" (sitting down by her), "you have a better right to be
4834 fastidious than almost any other woman I know; but will it answer?
4835 Will it make you happy? Will it not be wiser to accept the society of
4836 those good ladies in Laura Place, and enjoy all the advantages of the
4837 connexion as far as possible? You may depend upon it, that they will
4838 move in the first set in Bath this winter, and as rank is rank, your
4839 being known to be related to them will have its use in fixing your
4840 family (our family let me say) in that degree of consideration which we
4841 must all wish for."
4842
4843 "Yes," sighed Anne, "we shall, indeed, be known to be related to them!"
4844 then recollecting herself, and not wishing to be answered, she added,
4845 "I certainly do think there has been by far too much trouble taken to
4846 procure the acquaintance. I suppose" (smiling) "I have more pride than
4847 any of you; but I confess it does vex me, that we should be so
4848 solicitous to have the relationship acknowledged, which we may be very
4849 sure is a matter of perfect indifference to them."
4850
4851 "Pardon me, dear cousin, you are unjust in your own claims. In London,
4852 perhaps, in your present quiet style of living, it might be as you say:
4853 but in Bath; Sir Walter Elliot and his family will always be worth
4854 knowing: always acceptable as acquaintance."
4855
4856 "Well," said Anne, "I certainly am proud, too proud to enjoy a welcome
4857 which depends so entirely upon place."
4858
4859 "I love your indignation," said he; "it is very natural. But here you
4860 are in Bath, and the object is to be established here with all the
4861 credit and dignity which ought to belong to Sir Walter Elliot. You
4862 talk of being proud; I am called proud, I know, and I shall not wish to
4863 believe myself otherwise; for our pride, if investigated, would have
4864 the same object, I have no doubt, though the kind may seem a little
4865 different. In one point, I am sure, my dear cousin," (he continued,
4866 speaking lower, though there was no one else in the room) "in one
4867 point, I am sure, we must feel alike. We must feel that every addition
4868 to your father's society, among his equals or superiors, may be of use
4869 in diverting his thoughts from those who are beneath him."
4870
4871 He looked, as he spoke, to the seat which Mrs Clay had been lately
4872 occupying: a sufficient explanation of what he particularly meant; and
4873 though Anne could not believe in their having the same sort of pride,
4874 she was pleased with him for not liking Mrs Clay; and her conscience
4875 admitted that his wishing to promote her father's getting great
4876 acquaintance was more than excusable in the view of defeating her.
4877
4878
4879
4880 Chapter 17
4881
4882
4883 While Sir Walter and Elizabeth were assiduously pushing their good
4884 fortune in Laura Place, Anne was renewing an acquaintance of a very
4885 different description.
4886
4887 She had called on her former governess, and had heard from her of there
4888 being an old school-fellow in Bath, who had the two strong claims on
4889 her attention of past kindness and present suffering. Miss Hamilton,
4890 now Mrs Smith, had shewn her kindness in one of those periods of her
4891 life when it had been most valuable. Anne had gone unhappy to school,
4892 grieving for the loss of a mother whom she had dearly loved, feeling
4893 her separation from home, and suffering as a girl of fourteen, of
4894 strong sensibility and not high spirits, must suffer at such a time;
4895 and Miss Hamilton, three years older than herself, but still from the
4896 want of near relations and a settled home, remaining another year at
4897 school, had been useful and good to her in a way which had considerably
4898 lessened her misery, and could never be remembered with indifference.
4899
4900 Miss Hamilton had left school, had married not long afterwards, was
4901 said to have married a man of fortune, and this was all that Anne had
4902 known of her, till now that their governess's account brought her
4903 situation forward in a more decided but very different form.
4904
4905 She was a widow and poor. Her husband had been extravagant; and at his
4906 death, about two years before, had left his affairs dreadfully
4907 involved. She had had difficulties of every sort to contend with, and
4908 in addition to these distresses had been afflicted with a severe
4909 rheumatic fever, which, finally settling in her legs, had made her for
4910 the present a cripple. She had come to Bath on that account, and was
4911 now in lodgings near the hot baths, living in a very humble way, unable
4912 even to afford herself the comfort of a servant, and of course almost
4913 excluded from society.
4914
4915 Their mutual friend answered for the satisfaction which a visit from
4916 Miss Elliot would give Mrs Smith, and Anne therefore lost no time in
4917 going. She mentioned nothing of what she had heard, or what she
4918 intended, at home. It would excite no proper interest there. She only
4919 consulted Lady Russell, who entered thoroughly into her sentiments, and
4920 was most happy to convey her as near to Mrs Smith's lodgings in
4921 Westgate Buildings, as Anne chose to be taken.
4922
4923 The visit was paid, their acquaintance re-established, their interest
4924 in each other more than re-kindled. The first ten minutes had its
4925 awkwardness and its emotion. Twelve years were gone since they had
4926 parted, and each presented a somewhat different person from what the
4927 other had imagined. Twelve years had changed Anne from the blooming,
4928 silent, unformed girl of fifteen, to the elegant little woman of
4929 seven-and-twenty, with every beauty except bloom, and with manners as
4930 consciously right as they were invariably gentle; and twelve years had
4931 transformed the fine-looking, well-grown Miss Hamilton, in all the glow
4932 of health and confidence of superiority, into a poor, infirm, helpless
4933 widow, receiving the visit of her former protegee as a favour; but all
4934 that was uncomfortable in the meeting had soon passed away, and left
4935 only the interesting charm of remembering former partialities and
4936 talking over old times.
4937
4938 Anne found in Mrs Smith the good sense and agreeable manners which she
4939 had almost ventured to depend on, and a disposition to converse and be
4940 cheerful beyond her expectation. Neither the dissipations of the
4941 past--and she had lived very much in the world--nor the restrictions of
4942 the present, neither sickness nor sorrow seemed to have closed her
4943 heart or ruined her spirits.
4944
4945 In the course of a second visit she talked with great openness, and
4946 Anne's astonishment increased. She could scarcely imagine a more
4947 cheerless situation in itself than Mrs Smith's. She had been very fond
4948 of her husband: she had buried him. She had been used to affluence:
4949 it was gone. She had no child to connect her with life and happiness
4950 again, no relations to assist in the arrangement of perplexed affairs,
4951 no health to make all the rest supportable. Her accommodations were
4952 limited to a noisy parlour, and a dark bedroom behind, with no
4953 possibility of moving from one to the other without assistance, which
4954 there was only one servant in the house to afford, and she never
4955 quitted the house but to be conveyed into the warm bath. Yet, in spite
4956 of all this, Anne had reason to believe that she had moments only of
4957 languor and depression, to hours of occupation and enjoyment. How
4958 could it be? She watched, observed, reflected, and finally determined
4959 that this was not a case of fortitude or of resignation only. A
4960 submissive spirit might be patient, a strong understanding would supply
4961 resolution, but here was something more; here was that elasticity of
4962 mind, that disposition to be comforted, that power of turning readily
4963 from evil to good, and of finding employment which carried her out of
4964 herself, which was from nature alone. It was the choicest gift of
4965 Heaven; and Anne viewed her friend as one of those instances in which,
4966 by a merciful appointment, it seems designed to counterbalance almost
4967 every other want.
4968
4969 There had been a time, Mrs Smith told her, when her spirits had nearly
4970 failed. She could not call herself an invalid now, compared with her
4971 state on first reaching Bath. Then she had, indeed, been a pitiable
4972 object; for she had caught cold on the journey, and had hardly taken
4973 possession of her lodgings before she was again confined to her bed and
4974 suffering under severe and constant pain; and all this among strangers,
4975 with the absolute necessity of having a regular nurse, and finances at
4976 that moment particularly unfit to meet any extraordinary expense. She
4977 had weathered it, however, and could truly say that it had done her
4978 good. It had increased her comforts by making her feel herself to be
4979 in good hands. She had seen too much of the world, to expect sudden or
4980 disinterested attachment anywhere, but her illness had proved to her
4981 that her landlady had a character to preserve, and would not use her
4982 ill; and she had been particularly fortunate in her nurse, as a sister
4983 of her landlady, a nurse by profession, and who had always a home in
4984 that house when unemployed, chanced to be at liberty just in time to
4985 attend her. "And she," said Mrs Smith, "besides nursing me most
4986 admirably, has really proved an invaluable acquaintance. As soon as I
4987 could use my hands she taught me to knit, which has been a great
4988 amusement; and she put me in the way of making these little
4989 thread-cases, pin-cushions and card-racks, which you always find me so
4990 busy about, and which supply me with the means of doing a little good
4991 to one or two very poor families in this neighbourhood. She had a
4992 large acquaintance, of course professionally, among those who can
4993 afford to buy, and she disposes of my merchandise. She always takes
4994 the right time for applying. Everybody's heart is open, you know, when
4995 they have recently escaped from severe pain, or are recovering the
4996 blessing of health, and Nurse Rooke thoroughly understands when to
4997 speak. She is a shrewd, intelligent, sensible woman. Hers is a line
4998 for seeing human nature; and she has a fund of good sense and
4999 observation, which, as a companion, make her infinitely superior to
5000 thousands of those who having only received 'the best education in the
5001 world,' know nothing worth attending to. Call it gossip, if you will,
5002 but when Nurse Rooke has half an hour's leisure to bestow on me, she is
5003 sure to have something to relate that is entertaining and profitable:
5004 something that makes one know one's species better. One likes to hear
5005 what is going on, to be au fait as to the newest modes of being
5006 trifling and silly. To me, who live so much alone, her conversation, I
5007 assure you, is a treat."
5008
5009 Anne, far from wishing to cavil at the pleasure, replied, "I can easily
5010 believe it. Women of that class have great opportunities, and if they
5011 are intelligent may be well worth listening to. Such varieties of
5012 human nature as they are in the habit of witnessing! And it is not
5013 merely in its follies, that they are well read; for they see it
5014 occasionally under every circumstance that can be most interesting or
5015 affecting. What instances must pass before them of ardent,
5016 disinterested, self-denying attachment, of heroism, fortitude,
5017 patience, resignation: of all the conflicts and all the sacrifices
5018 that ennoble us most. A sick chamber may often furnish the worth of
5019 volumes."
5020
5021 "Yes," said Mrs Smith more doubtingly, "sometimes it may, though I fear
5022 its lessons are not often in the elevated style you describe. Here and
5023 there, human nature may be great in times of trial; but generally
5024 speaking, it is its weakness and not its strength that appears in a
5025 sick chamber: it is selfishness and impatience rather than generosity
5026 and fortitude, that one hears of. There is so little real friendship
5027 in the world! and unfortunately" (speaking low and tremulously) "there
5028 are so many who forget to think seriously till it is almost too late."
5029
5030 Anne saw the misery of such feelings. The husband had not been what he
5031 ought, and the wife had been led among that part of mankind which made
5032 her think worse of the world than she hoped it deserved. It was but a
5033 passing emotion however with Mrs Smith; she shook it off, and soon
5034 added in a different tone--
5035
5036 "I do not suppose the situation my friend Mrs Rooke is in at present,
5037 will furnish much either to interest or edify me. She is only nursing
5038 Mrs Wallis of Marlborough Buildings; a mere pretty, silly, expensive,
5039 fashionable woman, I believe; and of course will have nothing to report
5040 but of lace and finery. I mean to make my profit of Mrs Wallis,
5041 however. She has plenty of money, and I intend she shall buy all the
5042 high-priced things I have in hand now."
5043
5044 Anne had called several times on her friend, before the existence of
5045 such a person was known in Camden Place. At last, it became necessary
5046 to speak of her. Sir Walter, Elizabeth and Mrs Clay, returned one
5047 morning from Laura Place, with a sudden invitation from Lady Dalrymple
5048 for the same evening, and Anne was already engaged, to spend that
5049 evening in Westgate Buildings. She was not sorry for the excuse. They
5050 were only asked, she was sure, because Lady Dalrymple being kept at
5051 home by a bad cold, was glad to make use of the relationship which had
5052 been so pressed on her; and she declined on her own account with great
5053 alacrity--"She was engaged to spend the evening with an old
5054 schoolfellow." They were not much interested in anything relative to
5055 Anne; but still there were questions enough asked, to make it
5056 understood what this old schoolfellow was; and Elizabeth was
5057 disdainful, and Sir Walter severe.
5058
5059 "Westgate Buildings!" said he, "and who is Miss Anne Elliot to be
5060 visiting in Westgate Buildings? A Mrs Smith. A widow Mrs Smith; and
5061 who was her husband? One of five thousand Mr Smiths whose names are to
5062 be met with everywhere. And what is her attraction? That she is old
5063 and sickly. Upon my word, Miss Anne Elliot, you have the most
5064 extraordinary taste! Everything that revolts other people, low
5065 company, paltry rooms, foul air, disgusting associations are inviting
5066 to you. But surely you may put off this old lady till to-morrow: she
5067 is not so near her end, I presume, but that she may hope to see another
5068 day. What is her age? Forty?"
5069
5070 "No, sir, she is not one-and-thirty; but I do not think I can put off
5071 my engagement, because it is the only evening for some time which will
5072 at once suit her and myself. She goes into the warm bath to-morrow,
5073 and for the rest of the week, you know, we are engaged."
5074
5075 "But what does Lady Russell think of this acquaintance?" asked
5076 Elizabeth.
5077
5078 "She sees nothing to blame in it," replied Anne; "on the contrary, she
5079 approves it, and has generally taken me when I have called on Mrs
5080 Smith."
5081
5082 "Westgate Buildings must have been rather surprised by the appearance
5083 of a carriage drawn up near its pavement," observed Sir Walter. "Sir
5084 Henry Russell's widow, indeed, has no honours to distinguish her arms,
5085 but still it is a handsome equipage, and no doubt is well known to
5086 convey a Miss Elliot. A widow Mrs Smith lodging in Westgate Buildings!
5087 A poor widow barely able to live, between thirty and forty; a mere Mrs
5088 Smith, an every-day Mrs Smith, of all people and all names in the
5089 world, to be the chosen friend of Miss Anne Elliot, and to be preferred
5090 by her to her own family connections among the nobility of England and
5091 Ireland! Mrs Smith! Such a name!"
5092
5093 Mrs Clay, who had been present while all this passed, now thought it
5094 advisable to leave the room, and Anne could have said much, and did
5095 long to say a little in defence of her friend's not very dissimilar
5096 claims to theirs, but her sense of personal respect to her father
5097 prevented her. She made no reply. She left it to himself to
5098 recollect, that Mrs Smith was not the only widow in Bath between thirty
5099 and forty, with little to live on, and no surname of dignity.
5100
5101 Anne kept her appointment; the others kept theirs, and of course she
5102 heard the next morning that they had had a delightful evening. She had
5103 been the only one of the set absent, for Sir Walter and Elizabeth had
5104 not only been quite at her ladyship's service themselves, but had
5105 actually been happy to be employed by her in collecting others, and had
5106 been at the trouble of inviting both Lady Russell and Mr Elliot; and Mr
5107 Elliot had made a point of leaving Colonel Wallis early, and Lady
5108 Russell had fresh arranged all her evening engagements in order to wait
5109 on her. Anne had the whole history of all that such an evening could
5110 supply from Lady Russell. To her, its greatest interest must be, in
5111 having been very much talked of between her friend and Mr Elliot; in
5112 having been wished for, regretted, and at the same time honoured for
5113 staying away in such a cause. Her kind, compassionate visits to this
5114 old schoolfellow, sick and reduced, seemed to have quite delighted Mr
5115 Elliot. He thought her a most extraordinary young woman; in her
5116 temper, manners, mind, a model of female excellence. He could meet
5117 even Lady Russell in a discussion of her merits; and Anne could not be
5118 given to understand so much by her friend, could not know herself to be
5119 so highly rated by a sensible man, without many of those agreeable
5120 sensations which her friend meant to create.
5121
5122 Lady Russell was now perfectly decided in her opinion of Mr Elliot.
5123 She was as much convinced of his meaning to gain Anne in time as of his
5124 deserving her, and was beginning to calculate the number of weeks which
5125 would free him from all the remaining restraints of widowhood, and
5126 leave him at liberty to exert his most open powers of pleasing. She
5127 would not speak to Anne with half the certainty she felt on the
5128 subject, she would venture on little more than hints of what might be
5129 hereafter, of a possible attachment on his side, of the desirableness
5130 of the alliance, supposing such attachment to be real and returned.
5131 Anne heard her, and made no violent exclamations; she only smiled,
5132 blushed, and gently shook her head.
5133
5134 "I am no match-maker, as you well know," said Lady Russell, "being much
5135 too well aware of the uncertainty of all human events and calculations.
5136 I only mean that if Mr Elliot should some time hence pay his addresses
5137 to you, and if you should be disposed to accept him, I think there
5138 would be every possibility of your being happy together. A most
5139 suitable connection everybody must consider it, but I think it might be
5140 a very happy one."
5141
5142 "Mr Elliot is an exceedingly agreeable man, and in many respects I
5143 think highly of him," said Anne; "but we should not suit."
5144
5145 Lady Russell let this pass, and only said in rejoinder, "I own that to
5146 be able to regard you as the future mistress of Kellynch, the future
5147 Lady Elliot, to look forward and see you occupying your dear mother's
5148 place, succeeding to all her rights, and all her popularity, as well as
5149 to all her virtues, would be the highest possible gratification to me.
5150 You are your mother's self in countenance and disposition; and if I
5151 might be allowed to fancy you such as she was, in situation and name,
5152 and home, presiding and blessing in the same spot, and only superior to
5153 her in being more highly valued! My dearest Anne, it would give me
5154 more delight than is often felt at my time of life!"
5155
5156 Anne was obliged to turn away, to rise, to walk to a distant table,
5157 and, leaning there in pretended employment, try to subdue the feelings
5158 this picture excited. For a few moments her imagination and her heart
5159 were bewitched. The idea of becoming what her mother had been; of
5160 having the precious name of "Lady Elliot" first revived in herself; of
5161 being restored to Kellynch, calling it her home again, her home for
5162 ever, was a charm which she could not immediately resist. Lady Russell
5163 said not another word, willing to leave the matter to its own
5164 operation; and believing that, could Mr Elliot at that moment with
5165 propriety have spoken for himself!--she believed, in short, what Anne
5166 did not believe. The same image of Mr Elliot speaking for himself
5167 brought Anne to composure again. The charm of Kellynch and of "Lady
5168 Elliot" all faded away. She never could accept him. And it was not
5169 only that her feelings were still adverse to any man save one; her
5170 judgement, on a serious consideration of the possibilities of such a
5171 case was against Mr Elliot.
5172
5173 Though they had now been acquainted a month, she could not be satisfied
5174 that she really knew his character. That he was a sensible man, an
5175 agreeable man, that he talked well, professed good opinions, seemed to
5176 judge properly and as a man of principle, this was all clear enough.
5177 He certainly knew what was right, nor could she fix on any one article
5178 of moral duty evidently transgressed; but yet she would have been
5179 afraid to answer for his conduct. She distrusted the past, if not the
5180 present. The names which occasionally dropt of former associates, the
5181 allusions to former practices and pursuits, suggested suspicions not
5182 favourable of what he had been. She saw that there had been bad
5183 habits; that Sunday travelling had been a common thing; that there had
5184 been a period of his life (and probably not a short one) when he had
5185 been, at least, careless in all serious matters; and, though he might
5186 now think very differently, who could answer for the true sentiments of
5187 a clever, cautious man, grown old enough to appreciate a fair
5188 character? How could it ever be ascertained that his mind was truly
5189 cleansed?
5190
5191 Mr Elliot was rational, discreet, polished, but he was not open. There
5192 was never any burst of feeling, any warmth of indignation or delight,
5193 at the evil or good of others. This, to Anne, was a decided
5194 imperfection. Her early impressions were incurable. She prized the
5195 frank, the open-hearted, the eager character beyond all others. Warmth
5196 and enthusiasm did captivate her still. She felt that she could so
5197 much more depend upon the sincerity of those who sometimes looked or
5198 said a careless or a hasty thing, than of those whose presence of mind
5199 never varied, whose tongue never slipped.
5200
5201 Mr Elliot was too generally agreeable. Various as were the tempers in
5202 her father's house, he pleased them all. He endured too well, stood
5203 too well with every body. He had spoken to her with some degree of
5204 openness of Mrs Clay; had appeared completely to see what Mrs Clay was
5205 about, and to hold her in contempt; and yet Mrs Clay found him as
5206 agreeable as any body.
5207
5208 Lady Russell saw either less or more than her young friend, for she saw
5209 nothing to excite distrust. She could not imagine a man more exactly
5210 what he ought to be than Mr Elliot; nor did she ever enjoy a sweeter
5211 feeling than the hope of seeing him receive the hand of her beloved
5212 Anne in Kellynch church, in the course of the following autumn.
5213
5214
5215
5216 Chapter 18
5217
5218
5219 It was the beginning of February; and Anne, having been a month in
5220 Bath, was growing very eager for news from Uppercross and Lyme. She
5221 wanted to hear much more than Mary had communicated. It was three
5222 weeks since she had heard at all. She only knew that Henrietta was at
5223 home again; and that Louisa, though considered to be recovering fast,
5224 was still in Lyme; and she was thinking of them all very intently one
5225 evening, when a thicker letter than usual from Mary was delivered to
5226 her; and, to quicken the pleasure and surprise, with Admiral and Mrs
5227 Croft's compliments.
5228
5229 The Crofts must be in Bath! A circumstance to interest her. They were
5230 people whom her heart turned to very naturally.
5231
5232 "What is this?" cried Sir Walter. "The Crofts have arrived in Bath?
5233 The Crofts who rent Kellynch? What have they brought you?"
5234
5235 "A letter from Uppercross Cottage, Sir."
5236
5237 "Oh! those letters are convenient passports. They secure an
5238 introduction. I should have visited Admiral Croft, however, at any
5239 rate. I know what is due to my tenant."
5240
5241 Anne could listen no longer; she could not even have told how the poor
5242 Admiral's complexion escaped; her letter engrossed her. It had been
5243 begun several days back.
5244
5245
5246 "February 1st.
5247
5248 "My dear Anne,--I make no apology for my silence, because I know how
5249 little people think of letters in such a place as Bath. You must be a
5250 great deal too happy to care for Uppercross, which, as you well know,
5251 affords little to write about. We have had a very dull Christmas; Mr
5252 and Mrs Musgrove have not had one dinner party all the holidays. I do
5253 not reckon the Hayters as anybody. The holidays, however, are over at
5254 last: I believe no children ever had such long ones. I am sure I had
5255 not. The house was cleared yesterday, except of the little Harvilles;
5256 but you will be surprised to hear they have never gone home. Mrs
5257 Harville must be an odd mother to part with them so long. I do not
5258 understand it. They are not at all nice children, in my opinion; but
5259 Mrs Musgrove seems to like them quite as well, if not better, than her
5260 grandchildren. What dreadful weather we have had! It may not be felt
5261 in Bath, with your nice pavements; but in the country it is of some
5262 consequence. I have not had a creature call on me since the second
5263 week in January, except Charles Hayter, who had been calling much
5264 oftener than was welcome. Between ourselves, I think it a great pity
5265 Henrietta did not remain at Lyme as long as Louisa; it would have kept
5266 her a little out of his way. The carriage is gone to-day, to bring
5267 Louisa and the Harvilles to-morrow. We are not asked to dine with
5268 them, however, till the day after, Mrs Musgrove is so afraid of her
5269 being fatigued by the journey, which is not very likely, considering
5270 the care that will be taken of her; and it would be much more
5271 convenient to me to dine there to-morrow. I am glad you find Mr Elliot
5272 so agreeable, and wish I could be acquainted with him too; but I have
5273 my usual luck: I am always out of the way when any thing desirable is
5274 going on; always the last of my family to be noticed. What an immense
5275 time Mrs Clay has been staying with Elizabeth! Does she never mean to
5276 go away? But perhaps if she were to leave the room vacant, we might
5277 not be invited. Let me know what you think of this. I do not expect
5278 my children to be asked, you know. I can leave them at the Great House
5279 very well, for a month or six weeks. I have this moment heard that the
5280 Crofts are going to Bath almost immediately; they think the Admiral
5281 gouty. Charles heard it quite by chance; they have not had the
5282 civility to give me any notice, or of offering to take anything. I do
5283 not think they improve at all as neighbours. We see nothing of them,
5284 and this is really an instance of gross inattention. Charles joins me
5285 in love, and everything proper. Yours affectionately,
5286
5287 "Mary M---.
5288
5289 "I am sorry to say that I am very far from well; and Jemima has just
5290 told me that the butcher says there is a bad sore-throat very much
5291 about. I dare say I shall catch it; and my sore-throats, you know, are
5292 always worse than anybody's."
5293
5294
5295 So ended the first part, which had been afterwards put into an
5296 envelope, containing nearly as much more.
5297
5298
5299 "I kept my letter open, that I might send you word how Louisa bore her
5300 journey, and now I am extremely glad I did, having a great deal to add.
5301 In the first place, I had a note from Mrs Croft yesterday, offering to
5302 convey anything to you; a very kind, friendly note indeed, addressed to
5303 me, just as it ought; I shall therefore be able to make my letter as
5304 long as I like. The Admiral does not seem very ill, and I sincerely
5305 hope Bath will do him all the good he wants. I shall be truly glad to
5306 have them back again. Our neighbourhood cannot spare such a pleasant
5307 family. But now for Louisa. I have something to communicate that will
5308 astonish you not a little. She and the Harvilles came on Tuesday very
5309 safely, and in the evening we went to ask her how she did, when we were
5310 rather surprised not to find Captain Benwick of the party, for he had
5311 been invited as well as the Harvilles; and what do you think was the
5312 reason? Neither more nor less than his being in love with Louisa, and
5313 not choosing to venture to Uppercross till he had had an answer from Mr
5314 Musgrove; for it was all settled between him and her before she came
5315 away, and he had written to her father by Captain Harville. True, upon
5316 my honour! Are not you astonished? I shall be surprised at least if
5317 you ever received a hint of it, for I never did. Mrs Musgrove protests
5318 solemnly that she knew nothing of the matter. We are all very well
5319 pleased, however, for though it is not equal to her marrying Captain
5320 Wentworth, it is infinitely better than Charles Hayter; and Mr Musgrove
5321 has written his consent, and Captain Benwick is expected to-day. Mrs
5322 Harville says her husband feels a good deal on his poor sister's
5323 account; but, however, Louisa is a great favourite with both. Indeed,
5324 Mrs Harville and I quite agree that we love her the better for having
5325 nursed her. Charles wonders what Captain Wentworth will say; but if
5326 you remember, I never thought him attached to Louisa; I never could see
5327 anything of it. And this is the end, you see, of Captain Benwick's
5328 being supposed to be an admirer of yours. How Charles could take such
5329 a thing into his head was always incomprehensible to me. I hope he
5330 will be more agreeable now. Certainly not a great match for Louisa
5331 Musgrove, but a million times better than marrying among the Hayters."
5332
5333
5334 Mary need not have feared her sister's being in any degree prepared for
5335 the news. She had never in her life been more astonished. Captain
5336 Benwick and Louisa Musgrove! It was almost too wonderful for belief,
5337 and it was with the greatest effort that she could remain in the room,
5338 preserve an air of calmness, and answer the common questions of the
5339 moment. Happily for her, they were not many. Sir Walter wanted to
5340 know whether the Crofts travelled with four horses, and whether they
5341 were likely to be situated in such a part of Bath as it might suit Miss
5342 Elliot and himself to visit in; but had little curiosity beyond.
5343
5344 "How is Mary?" said Elizabeth; and without waiting for an answer, "And
5345 pray what brings the Crofts to Bath?"
5346
5347 "They come on the Admiral's account. He is thought to be gouty."
5348
5349 "Gout and decrepitude!" said Sir Walter. "Poor old gentleman."
5350
5351 "Have they any acquaintance here?" asked Elizabeth.
5352
5353 "I do not know; but I can hardly suppose that, at Admiral Croft's time
5354 of life, and in his profession, he should not have many acquaintance in
5355 such a place as this."
5356
5357 "I suspect," said Sir Walter coolly, "that Admiral Croft will be best
5358 known in Bath as the renter of Kellynch Hall. Elizabeth, may we
5359 venture to present him and his wife in Laura Place?"
5360
5361 "Oh, no! I think not. Situated as we are with Lady Dalrymple, cousins,
5362 we ought to be very careful not to embarrass her with acquaintance she
5363 might not approve. If we were not related, it would not signify; but
5364 as cousins, she would feel scrupulous as to any proposal of ours. We
5365 had better leave the Crofts to find their own level. There are several
5366 odd-looking men walking about here, who, I am told, are sailors. The
5367 Crofts will associate with them."
5368
5369 This was Sir Walter and Elizabeth's share of interest in the letter;
5370 when Mrs Clay had paid her tribute of more decent attention, in an
5371 enquiry after Mrs Charles Musgrove, and her fine little boys, Anne was
5372 at liberty.
5373
5374 In her own room, she tried to comprehend it. Well might Charles wonder
5375 how Captain Wentworth would feel! Perhaps he had quitted the field,
5376 had given Louisa up, had ceased to love, had found he did not love her.
5377 She could not endure the idea of treachery or levity, or anything akin
5378 to ill usage between him and his friend. She could not endure that
5379 such a friendship as theirs should be severed unfairly.
5380
5381 Captain Benwick and Louisa Musgrove! The high-spirited, joyous-talking
5382 Louisa Musgrove, and the dejected, thinking, feeling, reading, Captain
5383 Benwick, seemed each of them everything that would not suit the other.
5384 Their minds most dissimilar! Where could have been the attraction?
5385 The answer soon presented itself. It had been in situation. They had
5386 been thrown together several weeks; they had been living in the same
5387 small family party: since Henrietta's coming away, they must have been
5388 depending almost entirely on each other, and Louisa, just recovering
5389 from illness, had been in an interesting state, and Captain Benwick was
5390 not inconsolable. That was a point which Anne had not been able to
5391 avoid suspecting before; and instead of drawing the same conclusion as
5392 Mary, from the present course of events, they served only to confirm
5393 the idea of his having felt some dawning of tenderness toward herself.
5394 She did not mean, however, to derive much more from it to gratify her
5395 vanity, than Mary might have allowed. She was persuaded that any
5396 tolerably pleasing young woman who had listened and seemed to feel for
5397 him would have received the same compliment. He had an affectionate
5398 heart. He must love somebody.
5399
5400 She saw no reason against their being happy. Louisa had fine naval
5401 fervour to begin with, and they would soon grow more alike. He would
5402 gain cheerfulness, and she would learn to be an enthusiast for Scott
5403 and Lord Byron; nay, that was probably learnt already; of course they
5404 had fallen in love over poetry. The idea of Louisa Musgrove turned
5405 into a person of literary taste, and sentimental reflection was
5406 amusing, but she had no doubt of its being so. The day at Lyme, the
5407 fall from the Cobb, might influence her health, her nerves, her
5408 courage, her character to the end of her life, as thoroughly as it
5409 appeared to have influenced her fate.
5410
5411 The conclusion of the whole was, that if the woman who had been
5412 sensible of Captain Wentworth's merits could be allowed to prefer
5413 another man, there was nothing in the engagement to excite lasting
5414 wonder; and if Captain Wentworth lost no friend by it, certainly
5415 nothing to be regretted. No, it was not regret which made Anne's heart
5416 beat in spite of herself, and brought the colour into her cheeks when
5417 she thought of Captain Wentworth unshackled and free. She had some
5418 feelings which she was ashamed to investigate. They were too much like
5419 joy, senseless joy!
5420
5421 She longed to see the Crofts; but when the meeting took place, it was
5422 evident that no rumour of the news had yet reached them. The visit of
5423 ceremony was paid and returned; and Louisa Musgrove was mentioned, and
5424 Captain Benwick, too, without even half a smile.
5425
5426 The Crofts had placed themselves in lodgings in Gay Street, perfectly
5427 to Sir Walter's satisfaction. He was not at all ashamed of the
5428 acquaintance, and did, in fact, think and talk a great deal more about
5429 the Admiral, than the Admiral ever thought or talked about him.
5430
5431 The Crofts knew quite as many people in Bath as they wished for, and
5432 considered their intercourse with the Elliots as a mere matter of form,
5433 and not in the least likely to afford them any pleasure. They brought
5434 with them their country habit of being almost always together. He was
5435 ordered to walk to keep off the gout, and Mrs Croft seemed to go shares
5436 with him in everything, and to walk for her life to do him good. Anne
5437 saw them wherever she went. Lady Russell took her out in her carriage
5438 almost every morning, and she never failed to think of them, and never
5439 failed to see them. Knowing their feelings as she did, it was a most
5440 attractive picture of happiness to her. She always watched them as
5441 long as she could, delighted to fancy she understood what they might be
5442 talking of, as they walked along in happy independence, or equally
5443 delighted to see the Admiral's hearty shake of the hand when he
5444 encountered an old friend, and observe their eagerness of conversation
5445 when occasionally forming into a little knot of the navy, Mrs Croft
5446 looking as intelligent and keen as any of the officers around her.
5447
5448 Anne was too much engaged with Lady Russell to be often walking
5449 herself; but it so happened that one morning, about a week or ten days
5450 after the Croft's arrival, it suited her best to leave her friend, or
5451 her friend's carriage, in the lower part of the town, and return alone
5452 to Camden Place, and in walking up Milsom Street she had the good
5453 fortune to meet with the Admiral. He was standing by himself at a
5454 printshop window, with his hands behind him, in earnest contemplation
5455 of some print, and she not only might have passed him unseen, but was
5456 obliged to touch as well as address him before she could catch his
5457 notice. When he did perceive and acknowledge her, however, it was done
5458 with all his usual frankness and good humour. "Ha! is it you? Thank
5459 you, thank you. This is treating me like a friend. Here I am, you
5460 see, staring at a picture. I can never get by this shop without
5461 stopping. But what a thing here is, by way of a boat! Do look at it.
5462 Did you ever see the like? What queer fellows your fine painters must
5463 be, to think that anybody would venture their lives in such a shapeless
5464 old cockleshell as that? And yet here are two gentlemen stuck up in it
5465 mightily at their ease, and looking about them at the rocks and
5466 mountains, as if they were not to be upset the next moment, which they
5467 certainly must be. I wonder where that boat was built!" (laughing
5468 heartily); "I would not venture over a horsepond in it. Well,"
5469 (turning away), "now, where are you bound? Can I go anywhere for you,
5470 or with you? Can I be of any use?"
5471
5472 "None, I thank you, unless you will give me the pleasure of your
5473 company the little way our road lies together. I am going home."
5474
5475
5476 "That I will, with all my heart, and farther, too. Yes, yes we will
5477 have a snug walk together, and I have something to tell you as we go
5478 along. There, take my arm; that's right; I do not feel comfortable if
5479 I have not a woman there. Lord! what a boat it is!" taking a last look
5480 at the picture, as they began to be in motion.
5481
5482 "Did you say that you had something to tell me, sir?"
5483
5484 "Yes, I have, presently. But here comes a friend, Captain Brigden; I
5485 shall only say, 'How d'ye do?' as we pass, however. I shall not stop.
5486 'How d'ye do?' Brigden stares to see anybody with me but my wife.
5487 She, poor soul, is tied by the leg. She has a blister on one of her
5488 heels, as large as a three-shilling piece. If you look across the
5489 street, you will see Admiral Brand coming down and his brother. Shabby
5490 fellows, both of them! I am glad they are not on this side of the way.
5491 Sophy cannot bear them. They played me a pitiful trick once: got away
5492 with some of my best men. I will tell you the whole story another
5493 time. There comes old Sir Archibald Drew and his grandson. Look, he
5494 sees us; he kisses his hand to you; he takes you for my wife. Ah! the
5495 peace has come too soon for that younker. Poor old Sir Archibald! How
5496 do you like Bath, Miss Elliot? It suits us very well. We are always
5497 meeting with some old friend or other; the streets full of them every
5498 morning; sure to have plenty of chat; and then we get away from them
5499 all, and shut ourselves in our lodgings, and draw in our chairs, and
5500 are as snug as if we were at Kellynch, ay, or as we used to be even at
5501 North Yarmouth and Deal. We do not like our lodgings here the worse, I
5502 can tell you, for putting us in mind of those we first had at North
5503 Yarmouth. The wind blows through one of the cupboards just in the same
5504 way."
5505
5506 When they were got a little farther, Anne ventured to press again for
5507 what he had to communicate. She hoped when clear of Milsom Street to
5508 have her curiosity gratified; but she was still obliged to wait, for
5509 the Admiral had made up his mind not to begin till they had gained the
5510 greater space and quiet of Belmont; and as she was not really Mrs
5511 Croft, she must let him have his own way. As soon as they were fairly
5512 ascending Belmont, he began--
5513
5514 "Well, now you shall hear something that will surprise you. But first
5515 of all, you must tell me the name of the young lady I am going to talk
5516 about. That young lady, you know, that we have all been so concerned
5517 for. The Miss Musgrove, that all this has been happening to. Her
5518 Christian name: I always forget her Christian name."
5519
5520 Anne had been ashamed to appear to comprehend so soon as she really
5521 did; but now she could safely suggest the name of "Louisa."
5522
5523 "Ay, ay, Miss Louisa Musgrove, that is the name. I wish young ladies
5524 had not such a number of fine Christian names. I should never be out
5525 if they were all Sophys, or something of that sort. Well, this Miss
5526 Louisa, we all thought, you know, was to marry Frederick. He was
5527 courting her week after week. The only wonder was, what they could be
5528 waiting for, till the business at Lyme came; then, indeed, it was clear
5529 enough that they must wait till her brain was set to right. But even
5530 then there was something odd in their way of going on. Instead of
5531 staying at Lyme, he went off to Plymouth, and then he went off to see
5532 Edward. When we came back from Minehead he was gone down to Edward's,
5533 and there he has been ever since. We have seen nothing of him since
5534 November. Even Sophy could not understand it. But now, the matter has
5535 taken the strangest turn of all; for this young lady, the same Miss
5536 Musgrove, instead of being to marry Frederick, is to marry James
5537 Benwick. You know James Benwick."
5538
5539 "A little. I am a little acquainted with Captain Benwick."
5540
5541 "Well, she is to marry him. Nay, most likely they are married already,
5542 for I do not know what they should wait for."
5543
5544 "I thought Captain Benwick a very pleasing young man," said Anne, "and
5545 I understand that he bears an excellent character."
5546
5547 "Oh! yes, yes, there is not a word to be said against James Benwick.
5548 He is only a commander, it is true, made last summer, and these are bad
5549 times for getting on, but he has not another fault that I know of. An
5550 excellent, good-hearted fellow, I assure you; a very active, zealous
5551 officer too, which is more than you would think for, perhaps, for that
5552 soft sort of manner does not do him justice."
5553
5554 "Indeed you are mistaken there, sir; I should never augur want of
5555 spirit from Captain Benwick's manners. I thought them particularly
5556 pleasing, and I will answer for it, they would generally please."
5557
5558 "Well, well, ladies are the best judges; but James Benwick is rather
5559 too piano for me; and though very likely it is all our partiality,
5560 Sophy and I cannot help thinking Frederick's manners better than his.
5561 There is something about Frederick more to our taste."
5562
5563 Anne was caught. She had only meant to oppose the too common idea of
5564 spirit and gentleness being incompatible with each other, not at all to
5565 represent Captain Benwick's manners as the very best that could
5566 possibly be; and, after a little hesitation, she was beginning to say,
5567 "I was not entering into any comparison of the two friends," but the
5568 Admiral interrupted her with--
5569
5570 "And the thing is certainly true. It is not a mere bit of gossip. We
5571 have it from Frederick himself. His sister had a letter from him
5572 yesterday, in which he tells us of it, and he had just had it in a
5573 letter from Harville, written upon the spot, from Uppercross. I fancy
5574 they are all at Uppercross."
5575
5576 This was an opportunity which Anne could not resist; she said,
5577 therefore, "I hope, Admiral, I hope there is nothing in the style of
5578 Captain Wentworth's letter to make you and Mrs Croft particularly
5579 uneasy. It did seem, last autumn, as if there were an attachment
5580 between him and Louisa Musgrove; but I hope it may be understood to
5581 have worn out on each side equally, and without violence. I hope his
5582 letter does not breathe the spirit of an ill-used man."
5583
5584 "Not at all, not at all; there is not an oath or a murmur from
5585 beginning to end."
5586
5587 Anne looked down to hide her smile.
5588
5589 "No, no; Frederick is not a man to whine and complain; he has too much
5590 spirit for that. If the girl likes another man better, it is very fit
5591 she should have him."
5592
5593 "Certainly. But what I mean is, that I hope there is nothing in
5594 Captain Wentworth's manner of writing to make you suppose he thinks
5595 himself ill-used by his friend, which might appear, you know, without
5596 its being absolutely said. I should be very sorry that such a
5597 friendship as has subsisted between him and Captain Benwick should be
5598 destroyed, or even wounded, by a circumstance of this sort."
5599
5600 "Yes, yes, I understand you. But there is nothing at all of that
5601 nature in the letter. He does not give the least fling at Benwick;
5602 does not so much as say, 'I wonder at it, I have a reason of my own for
5603 wondering at it.' No, you would not guess, from his way of writing,
5604 that he had ever thought of this Miss (what's her name?) for himself.
5605 He very handsomely hopes they will be happy together; and there is
5606 nothing very unforgiving in that, I think."
5607
5608 Anne did not receive the perfect conviction which the Admiral meant to
5609 convey, but it would have been useless to press the enquiry farther.
5610 She therefore satisfied herself with common-place remarks or quiet
5611 attention, and the Admiral had it all his own way.
5612
5613 "Poor Frederick!" said he at last. "Now he must begin all over again
5614 with somebody else. I think we must get him to Bath. Sophy must
5615 write, and beg him to come to Bath. Here are pretty girls enough, I am
5616 sure. It would be of no use to go to Uppercross again, for that other
5617 Miss Musgrove, I find, is bespoke by her cousin, the young parson. Do
5618 not you think, Miss Elliot, we had better try to get him to Bath?"
5619
5620
5621
5622 Chapter 19
5623
5624
5625 While Admiral Croft was taking this walk with Anne, and expressing his
5626 wish of getting Captain Wentworth to Bath, Captain Wentworth was
5627 already on his way thither. Before Mrs Croft had written, he was
5628 arrived, and the very next time Anne walked out, she saw him.
5629
5630 Mr Elliot was attending his two cousins and Mrs Clay. They were in
5631 Milsom Street. It began to rain, not much, but enough to make shelter
5632 desirable for women, and quite enough to make it very desirable for
5633 Miss Elliot to have the advantage of being conveyed home in Lady
5634 Dalrymple's carriage, which was seen waiting at a little distance; she,
5635 Anne, and Mrs Clay, therefore, turned into Molland's, while Mr Elliot
5636 stepped to Lady Dalrymple, to request her assistance. He soon joined
5637 them again, successful, of course; Lady Dalrymple would be most happy
5638 to take them home, and would call for them in a few minutes.
5639
5640 Her ladyship's carriage was a barouche, and did not hold more than four
5641 with any comfort. Miss Carteret was with her mother; consequently it
5642 was not reasonable to expect accommodation for all the three Camden
5643 Place ladies. There could be no doubt as to Miss Elliot. Whoever
5644 suffered inconvenience, she must suffer none, but it occupied a little
5645 time to settle the point of civility between the other two. The rain
5646 was a mere trifle, and Anne was most sincere in preferring a walk with
5647 Mr Elliot. But the rain was also a mere trifle to Mrs Clay; she would
5648 hardly allow it even to drop at all, and her boots were so thick! much
5649 thicker than Miss Anne's; and, in short, her civility rendered her
5650 quite as anxious to be left to walk with Mr Elliot as Anne could be,
5651 and it was discussed between them with a generosity so polite and so
5652 determined, that the others were obliged to settle it for them; Miss
5653 Elliot maintaining that Mrs Clay had a little cold already, and Mr
5654 Elliot deciding on appeal, that his cousin Anne's boots were rather the
5655 thickest.
5656
5657 It was fixed accordingly, that Mrs Clay should be of the party in the
5658 carriage; and they had just reached this point, when Anne, as she sat
5659 near the window, descried, most decidedly and distinctly, Captain
5660 Wentworth walking down the street.
5661
5662 Her start was perceptible only to herself; but she instantly felt that
5663 she was the greatest simpleton in the world, the most unaccountable and
5664 absurd! For a few minutes she saw nothing before her; it was all
5665 confusion. She was lost, and when she had scolded back her senses, she
5666 found the others still waiting for the carriage, and Mr Elliot (always
5667 obliging) just setting off for Union Street on a commission of Mrs
5668 Clay's.
5669
5670 She now felt a great inclination to go to the outer door; she wanted to
5671 see if it rained. Why was she to suspect herself of another motive?
5672 Captain Wentworth must be out of sight. She left her seat, she would
5673 go; one half of her should not be always so much wiser than the other
5674 half, or always suspecting the other of being worse than it was. She
5675 would see if it rained. She was sent back, however, in a moment by the
5676 entrance of Captain Wentworth himself, among a party of gentlemen and
5677 ladies, evidently his acquaintance, and whom he must have joined a
5678 little below Milsom Street. He was more obviously struck and confused
5679 by the sight of her than she had ever observed before; he looked quite
5680 red. For the first time, since their renewed acquaintance, she felt
5681 that she was betraying the least sensibility of the two. She had the
5682 advantage of him in the preparation of the last few moments. All the
5683 overpowering, blinding, bewildering, first effects of strong surprise
5684 were over with her. Still, however, she had enough to feel! It was
5685 agitation, pain, pleasure, a something between delight and misery.
5686
5687 He spoke to her, and then turned away. The character of his manner was
5688 embarrassment. She could not have called it either cold or friendly,
5689 or anything so certainly as embarrassed.
5690
5691 After a short interval, however, he came towards her, and spoke again.
5692 Mutual enquiries on common subjects passed: neither of them, probably,
5693 much the wiser for what they heard, and Anne continuing fully sensible
5694 of his being less at ease than formerly. They had by dint of being so
5695 very much together, got to speak to each other with a considerable
5696 portion of apparent indifference and calmness; but he could not do it
5697 now. Time had changed him, or Louisa had changed him. There was
5698 consciousness of some sort or other. He looked very well, not as if he
5699 had been suffering in health or spirits, and he talked of Uppercross,
5700 of the Musgroves, nay, even of Louisa, and had even a momentary look of
5701 his own arch significance as he named her; but yet it was Captain
5702 Wentworth not comfortable, not easy, not able to feign that he was.
5703
5704 It did not surprise, but it grieved Anne to observe that Elizabeth
5705 would not know him. She saw that he saw Elizabeth, that Elizabeth saw
5706 him, that there was complete internal recognition on each side; she was
5707 convinced that he was ready to be acknowledged as an acquaintance,
5708 expecting it, and she had the pain of seeing her sister turn away with
5709 unalterable coldness.
5710
5711 Lady Dalrymple's carriage, for which Miss Elliot was growing very
5712 impatient, now drew up; the servant came in to announce it. It was
5713 beginning to rain again, and altogether there was a delay, and a
5714 bustle, and a talking, which must make all the little crowd in the shop
5715 understand that Lady Dalrymple was calling to convey Miss Elliot. At
5716 last Miss Elliot and her friend, unattended but by the servant, (for
5717 there was no cousin returned), were walking off; and Captain Wentworth,
5718 watching them, turned again to Anne, and by manner, rather than words,
5719 was offering his services to her.
5720
5721 "I am much obliged to you," was her answer, "but I am not going with
5722 them. The carriage would not accommodate so many. I walk: I prefer
5723 walking."
5724
5725 "But it rains."
5726
5727 "Oh! very little, Nothing that I regard."
5728
5729 After a moment's pause he said: "Though I came only yesterday, I have
5730 equipped myself properly for Bath already, you see," (pointing to a new
5731 umbrella); "I wish you would make use of it, if you are determined to
5732 walk; though I think it would be more prudent to let me get you a
5733 chair."
5734
5735 She was very much obliged to him, but declined it all, repeating her
5736 conviction, that the rain would come to nothing at present, and adding,
5737 "I am only waiting for Mr Elliot. He will be here in a moment, I am
5738 sure."
5739
5740 She had hardly spoken the words when Mr Elliot walked in. Captain
5741 Wentworth recollected him perfectly. There was no difference between
5742 him and the man who had stood on the steps at Lyme, admiring Anne as
5743 she passed, except in the air and look and manner of the privileged
5744 relation and friend. He came in with eagerness, appeared to see and
5745 think only of her, apologised for his stay, was grieved to have kept
5746 her waiting, and anxious to get her away without further loss of time
5747 and before the rain increased; and in another moment they walked off
5748 together, her arm under his, a gentle and embarrassed glance, and a
5749 "Good morning to you!" being all that she had time for, as she passed
5750 away.
5751
5752 As soon as they were out of sight, the ladies of Captain Wentworth's
5753 party began talking of them.
5754
5755 "Mr Elliot does not dislike his cousin, I fancy?"
5756
5757 "Oh! no, that is clear enough. One can guess what will happen there.
5758 He is always with them; half lives in the family, I believe. What a
5759 very good-looking man!"
5760
5761 "Yes, and Miss Atkinson, who dined with him once at the Wallises, says
5762 he is the most agreeable man she ever was in company with."
5763
5764 "She is pretty, I think; Anne Elliot; very pretty, when one comes to
5765 look at her. It is not the fashion to say so, but I confess I admire
5766 her more than her sister."
5767
5768 "Oh! so do I."
5769
5770 "And so do I. No comparison. But the men are all wild after Miss
5771 Elliot. Anne is too delicate for them."
5772
5773 Anne would have been particularly obliged to her cousin, if he would
5774 have walked by her side all the way to Camden Place, without saying a
5775 word. She had never found it so difficult to listen to him, though
5776 nothing could exceed his solicitude and care, and though his subjects
5777 were principally such as were wont to be always interesting: praise,
5778 warm, just, and discriminating, of Lady Russell, and insinuations
5779 highly rational against Mrs Clay. But just now she could think only of
5780 Captain Wentworth. She could not understand his present feelings,
5781 whether he were really suffering much from disappointment or not; and
5782 till that point were settled, she could not be quite herself.
5783
5784 She hoped to be wise and reasonable in time; but alas! alas! she must
5785 confess to herself that she was not wise yet.
5786
5787 Another circumstance very essential for her to know, was how long he
5788 meant to be in Bath; he had not mentioned it, or she could not
5789 recollect it. He might be only passing through. But it was more
5790 probable that he should be come to stay. In that case, so liable as
5791 every body was to meet every body in Bath, Lady Russell would in all
5792 likelihood see him somewhere. Would she recollect him? How would it
5793 all be?
5794
5795 She had already been obliged to tell Lady Russell that Louisa Musgrove
5796 was to marry Captain Benwick. It had cost her something to encounter
5797 Lady Russell's surprise; and now, if she were by any chance to be
5798 thrown into company with Captain Wentworth, her imperfect knowledge of
5799 the matter might add another shade of prejudice against him.
5800
5801 The following morning Anne was out with her friend, and for the first
5802 hour, in an incessant and fearful sort of watch for him in vain; but at
5803 last, in returning down Pulteney Street, she distinguished him on the
5804 right hand pavement at such a distance as to have him in view the
5805 greater part of the street. There were many other men about him, many
5806 groups walking the same way, but there was no mistaking him. She
5807 looked instinctively at Lady Russell; but not from any mad idea of her
5808 recognising him so soon as she did herself. No, it was not to be
5809 supposed that Lady Russell would perceive him till they were nearly
5810 opposite. She looked at her however, from time to time, anxiously; and
5811 when the moment approached which must point him out, though not daring
5812 to look again (for her own countenance she knew was unfit to be seen),
5813 she was yet perfectly conscious of Lady Russell's eyes being turned
5814 exactly in the direction for him--of her being, in short, intently
5815 observing him. She could thoroughly comprehend the sort of fascination
5816 he must possess over Lady Russell's mind, the difficulty it must be for
5817 her to withdraw her eyes, the astonishment she must be feeling that
5818 eight or nine years should have passed over him, and in foreign climes
5819 and in active service too, without robbing him of one personal grace!
5820
5821 At last, Lady Russell drew back her head. "Now, how would she speak of
5822 him?"
5823
5824 "You will wonder," said she, "what has been fixing my eye so long; but
5825 I was looking after some window-curtains, which Lady Alicia and Mrs
5826 Frankland were telling me of last night. They described the
5827 drawing-room window-curtains of one of the houses on this side of the
5828 way, and this part of the street, as being the handsomest and best hung
5829 of any in Bath, but could not recollect the exact number, and I have
5830 been trying to find out which it could be; but I confess I can see no
5831 curtains hereabouts that answer their description."
5832
5833 Anne sighed and blushed and smiled, in pity and disdain, either at her
5834 friend or herself. The part which provoked her most, was that in all
5835 this waste of foresight and caution, she should have lost the right
5836 moment for seeing whether he saw them.
5837
5838 A day or two passed without producing anything. The theatre or the
5839 rooms, where he was most likely to be, were not fashionable enough for
5840 the Elliots, whose evening amusements were solely in the elegant
5841 stupidity of private parties, in which they were getting more and more
5842 engaged; and Anne, wearied of such a state of stagnation, sick of
5843 knowing nothing, and fancying herself stronger because her strength was
5844 not tried, was quite impatient for the concert evening. It was a
5845 concert for the benefit of a person patronised by Lady Dalrymple. Of
5846 course they must attend. It was really expected to be a good one, and
5847 Captain Wentworth was very fond of music. If she could only have a few
5848 minutes conversation with him again, she fancied she should be
5849 satisfied; and as to the power of addressing him, she felt all over
5850 courage if the opportunity occurred. Elizabeth had turned from him,
5851 Lady Russell overlooked him; her nerves were strengthened by these
5852 circumstances; she felt that she owed him attention.
5853
5854 She had once partly promised Mrs Smith to spend the evening with her;
5855 but in a short hurried call she excused herself and put it off, with
5856 the more decided promise of a longer visit on the morrow. Mrs Smith
5857 gave a most good-humoured acquiescence.
5858
5859 "By all means," said she; "only tell me all about it, when you do come.
5860 Who is your party?"
5861
5862 Anne named them all. Mrs Smith made no reply; but when she was leaving
5863 her said, and with an expression half serious, half arch, "Well, I
5864 heartily wish your concert may answer; and do not fail me to-morrow if
5865 you can come; for I begin to have a foreboding that I may not have many
5866 more visits from you."
5867
5868 Anne was startled and confused; but after standing in a moment's
5869 suspense, was obliged, and not sorry to be obliged, to hurry away.
5870
5871
5872
5873 Chapter 20
5874
5875
5876 Sir Walter, his two daughters, and Mrs Clay, were the earliest of all
5877 their party at the rooms in the evening; and as Lady Dalrymple must be
5878 waited for, they took their station by one of the fires in the Octagon
5879 Room. But hardly were they so settled, when the door opened again, and
5880 Captain Wentworth walked in alone. Anne was the nearest to him, and
5881 making yet a little advance, she instantly spoke. He was preparing
5882 only to bow and pass on, but her gentle "How do you do?" brought him
5883 out of the straight line to stand near her, and make enquiries in
5884 return, in spite of the formidable father and sister in the back
5885 ground. Their being in the back ground was a support to Anne; she knew
5886 nothing of their looks, and felt equal to everything which she believed
5887 right to be done.
5888
5889 While they were speaking, a whispering between her father and Elizabeth
5890 caught her ear. She could not distinguish, but she must guess the
5891 subject; and on Captain Wentworth's making a distant bow, she
5892 comprehended that her father had judged so well as to give him that
5893 simple acknowledgement of acquaintance, and she was just in time by a
5894 side glance to see a slight curtsey from Elizabeth herself. This,
5895 though late, and reluctant, and ungracious, was yet better than
5896 nothing, and her spirits improved.
5897
5898 After talking, however, of the weather, and Bath, and the concert,
5899 their conversation began to flag, and so little was said at last, that
5900 she was expecting him to go every moment, but he did not; he seemed in
5901 no hurry to leave her; and presently with renewed spirit, with a little
5902 smile, a little glow, he said--
5903
5904 "I have hardly seen you since our day at Lyme. I am afraid you must
5905 have suffered from the shock, and the more from its not overpowering
5906 you at the time."
5907
5908 She assured him that she had not.
5909
5910 "It was a frightful hour," said he, "a frightful day!" and he passed
5911 his hand across his eyes, as if the remembrance were still too painful,
5912 but in a moment, half smiling again, added, "The day has produced some
5913 effects however; has had some consequences which must be considered as
5914 the very reverse of frightful. When you had the presence of mind to
5915 suggest that Benwick would be the properest person to fetch a surgeon,
5916 you could have little idea of his being eventually one of those most
5917 concerned in her recovery."
5918
5919 "Certainly I could have none. But it appears--I should hope it would
5920 be a very happy match. There are on both sides good principles and
5921 good temper."
5922
5923 "Yes," said he, looking not exactly forward; "but there, I think, ends
5924 the resemblance. With all my soul I wish them happy, and rejoice over
5925 every circumstance in favour of it. They have no difficulties to
5926 contend with at home, no opposition, no caprice, no delays. The
5927 Musgroves are behaving like themselves, most honourably and kindly,
5928 only anxious with true parental hearts to promote their daughter's
5929 comfort. All this is much, very much in favour of their happiness;
5930 more than perhaps--"
5931
5932 He stopped. A sudden recollection seemed to occur, and to give him
5933 some taste of that emotion which was reddening Anne's cheeks and fixing
5934 her eyes on the ground. After clearing his throat, however, he
5935 proceeded thus--
5936
5937 "I confess that I do think there is a disparity, too great a disparity,
5938 and in a point no less essential than mind. I regard Louisa Musgrove
5939 as a very amiable, sweet-tempered girl, and not deficient in
5940 understanding, but Benwick is something more. He is a clever man, a
5941 reading man; and I confess, that I do consider his attaching himself to
5942 her with some surprise. Had it been the effect of gratitude, had he
5943 learnt to love her, because he believed her to be preferring him, it
5944 would have been another thing. But I have no reason to suppose it so.
5945 It seems, on the contrary, to have been a perfectly spontaneous,
5946 untaught feeling on his side, and this surprises me. A man like him,
5947 in his situation! with a heart pierced, wounded, almost broken! Fanny
5948 Harville was a very superior creature, and his attachment to her was
5949 indeed attachment. A man does not recover from such a devotion of the
5950 heart to such a woman. He ought not; he does not."
5951
5952 Either from the consciousness, however, that his friend had recovered,
5953 or from other consciousness, he went no farther; and Anne who, in spite
5954 of the agitated voice in which the latter part had been uttered, and in
5955 spite of all the various noises of the room, the almost ceaseless slam
5956 of the door, and ceaseless buzz of persons walking through, had
5957 distinguished every word, was struck, gratified, confused, and
5958 beginning to breathe very quick, and feel an hundred things in a
5959 moment. It was impossible for her to enter on such a subject; and yet,
5960 after a pause, feeling the necessity of speaking, and having not the
5961 smallest wish for a total change, she only deviated so far as to say--
5962
5963 "You were a good while at Lyme, I think?"
5964
5965 "About a fortnight. I could not leave it till Louisa's doing well was
5966 quite ascertained. I had been too deeply concerned in the mischief to
5967 be soon at peace. It had been my doing, solely mine. She would not
5968 have been obstinate if I had not been weak. The country round Lyme is
5969 very fine. I walked and rode a great deal; and the more I saw, the
5970 more I found to admire."
5971
5972 "I should very much like to see Lyme again," said Anne.
5973
5974 "Indeed! I should not have supposed that you could have found anything
5975 in Lyme to inspire such a feeling. The horror and distress you were
5976 involved in, the stretch of mind, the wear of spirits! I should have
5977 thought your last impressions of Lyme must have been strong disgust."
5978
5979 "The last hours were certainly very painful," replied Anne; "but when
5980 pain is over, the remembrance of it often becomes a pleasure. One does
5981 not love a place the less for having suffered in it, unless it has been
5982 all suffering, nothing but suffering, which was by no means the case at
5983 Lyme. We were only in anxiety and distress during the last two hours,
5984 and previously there had been a great deal of enjoyment. So much
5985 novelty and beauty! I have travelled so little, that every fresh place
5986 would be interesting to me; but there is real beauty at Lyme; and in
5987 short" (with a faint blush at some recollections), "altogether my
5988 impressions of the place are very agreeable."
5989
5990 As she ceased, the entrance door opened again, and the very party
5991 appeared for whom they were waiting. "Lady Dalrymple, Lady Dalrymple,"
5992 was the rejoicing sound; and with all the eagerness compatible with
5993 anxious elegance, Sir Walter and his two ladies stepped forward to meet
5994 her. Lady Dalrymple and Miss Carteret, escorted by Mr Elliot and
5995 Colonel Wallis, who had happened to arrive nearly at the same instant,
5996 advanced into the room. The others joined them, and it was a group in
5997 which Anne found herself also necessarily included. She was divided
5998 from Captain Wentworth. Their interesting, almost too interesting
5999 conversation must be broken up for a time, but slight was the penance
6000 compared with the happiness which brought it on! She had learnt, in
6001 the last ten minutes, more of his feelings towards Louisa, more of all
6002 his feelings than she dared to think of; and she gave herself up to the
6003 demands of the party, to the needful civilities of the moment, with
6004 exquisite, though agitated sensations. She was in good humour with
6005 all. She had received ideas which disposed her to be courteous and
6006 kind to all, and to pity every one, as being less happy than herself.
6007
6008 The delightful emotions were a little subdued, when on stepping back
6009 from the group, to be joined again by Captain Wentworth, she saw that
6010 he was gone. She was just in time to see him turn into the Concert
6011 Room. He was gone; he had disappeared, she felt a moment's regret.
6012 But "they should meet again. He would look for her, he would find her
6013 out before the evening were over, and at present, perhaps, it was as
6014 well to be asunder. She was in need of a little interval for
6015 recollection."
6016
6017 Upon Lady Russell's appearance soon afterwards, the whole party was
6018 collected, and all that remained was to marshal themselves, and proceed
6019 into the Concert Room; and be of all the consequence in their power,
6020 draw as many eyes, excite as many whispers, and disturb as many people
6021 as they could.
6022
6023 Very, very happy were both Elizabeth and Anne Elliot as they walked in.
6024 Elizabeth arm in arm with Miss Carteret, and looking on the broad back
6025 of the dowager Viscountess Dalrymple before her, had nothing to wish
6026 for which did not seem within her reach; and Anne--but it would be an
6027 insult to the nature of Anne's felicity, to draw any comparison between
6028 it and her sister's; the origin of one all selfish vanity, of the other
6029 all generous attachment.
6030
6031 Anne saw nothing, thought nothing of the brilliancy of the room. Her
6032 happiness was from within. Her eyes were bright and her cheeks glowed;
6033 but she knew nothing about it. She was thinking only of the last half
6034 hour, and as they passed to their seats, her mind took a hasty range
6035 over it. His choice of subjects, his expressions, and still more his
6036 manner and look, had been such as she could see in only one light. His
6037 opinion of Louisa Musgrove's inferiority, an opinion which he had
6038 seemed solicitous to give, his wonder at Captain Benwick, his feelings
6039 as to a first, strong attachment; sentences begun which he could not
6040 finish, his half averted eyes and more than half expressive glance,
6041 all, all declared that he had a heart returning to her at least; that
6042 anger, resentment, avoidance, were no more; and that they were
6043 succeeded, not merely by friendship and regard, but by the tenderness
6044 of the past. Yes, some share of the tenderness of the past. She could
6045 not contemplate the change as implying less. He must love her.
6046
6047 These were thoughts, with their attendant visions, which occupied and
6048 flurried her too much to leave her any power of observation; and she
6049 passed along the room without having a glimpse of him, without even
6050 trying to discern him. When their places were determined on, and they
6051 were all properly arranged, she looked round to see if he should happen
6052 to be in the same part of the room, but he was not; her eye could not
6053 reach him; and the concert being just opening, she must consent for a
6054 time to be happy in a humbler way.
6055
6056 The party was divided and disposed of on two contiguous benches: Anne
6057 was among those on the foremost, and Mr Elliot had manoeuvred so well,
6058 with the assistance of his friend Colonel Wallis, as to have a seat by
6059 her. Miss Elliot, surrounded by her cousins, and the principal object
6060 of Colonel Wallis's gallantry, was quite contented.
6061
6062 Anne's mind was in a most favourable state for the entertainment of the
6063 evening; it was just occupation enough: she had feelings for the
6064 tender, spirits for the gay, attention for the scientific, and patience
6065 for the wearisome; and had never liked a concert better, at least
6066 during the first act. Towards the close of it, in the interval
6067 succeeding an Italian song, she explained the words of the song to Mr
6068 Elliot. They had a concert bill between them.
6069
6070 "This," said she, "is nearly the sense, or rather the meaning of the
6071 words, for certainly the sense of an Italian love-song must not be
6072 talked of, but it is as nearly the meaning as I can give; for I do not
6073 pretend to understand the language. I am a very poor Italian scholar."
6074
6075 "Yes, yes, I see you are. I see you know nothing of the matter. You
6076 have only knowledge enough of the language to translate at sight these
6077 inverted, transposed, curtailed Italian lines, into clear,
6078 comprehensible, elegant English. You need not say anything more of
6079 your ignorance. Here is complete proof."
6080
6081 "I will not oppose such kind politeness; but I should be sorry to be
6082 examined by a real proficient."
6083
6084 "I have not had the pleasure of visiting in Camden Place so long,"
6085 replied he, "without knowing something of Miss Anne Elliot; and I do
6086 regard her as one who is too modest for the world in general to be
6087 aware of half her accomplishments, and too highly accomplished for
6088 modesty to be natural in any other woman."
6089
6090 "For shame! for shame! this is too much flattery. I forget what we are
6091 to have next," turning to the bill.
6092
6093 "Perhaps," said Mr Elliot, speaking low, "I have had a longer
6094 acquaintance with your character than you are aware of."
6095
6096 "Indeed! How so? You can have been acquainted with it only since I
6097 came to Bath, excepting as you might hear me previously spoken of in my
6098 own family."
6099
6100 "I knew you by report long before you came to Bath. I had heard you
6101 described by those who knew you intimately. I have been acquainted
6102 with you by character many years. Your person, your disposition,
6103 accomplishments, manner; they were all present to me."
6104
6105 Mr Elliot was not disappointed in the interest he hoped to raise. No
6106 one can withstand the charm of such a mystery. To have been described
6107 long ago to a recent acquaintance, by nameless people, is irresistible;
6108 and Anne was all curiosity. She wondered, and questioned him eagerly;
6109 but in vain. He delighted in being asked, but he would not tell.
6110
6111 "No, no, some time or other, perhaps, but not now. He would mention no
6112 names now; but such, he could assure her, had been the fact. He had
6113 many years ago received such a description of Miss Anne Elliot as had
6114 inspired him with the highest idea of her merit, and excited the
6115 warmest curiosity to know her."
6116
6117 Anne could think of no one so likely to have spoken with partiality of
6118 her many years ago as the Mr Wentworth of Monkford, Captain Wentworth's
6119 brother. He might have been in Mr Elliot's company, but she had not
6120 courage to ask the question.
6121
6122 "The name of Anne Elliot," said he, "has long had an interesting sound
6123 to me. Very long has it possessed a charm over my fancy; and, if I
6124 dared, I would breathe my wishes that the name might never change."
6125
6126 Such, she believed, were his words; but scarcely had she received their
6127 sound, than her attention was caught by other sounds immediately behind
6128 her, which rendered every thing else trivial. Her father and Lady
6129 Dalrymple were speaking.
6130
6131 "A well-looking man," said Sir Walter, "a very well-looking man."
6132
6133 "A very fine young man indeed!" said Lady Dalrymple. "More air than
6134 one often sees in Bath. Irish, I dare say."
6135
6136 "No, I just know his name. A bowing acquaintance. Wentworth; Captain
6137 Wentworth of the navy. His sister married my tenant in Somersetshire,
6138 the Croft, who rents Kellynch."
6139
6140 Before Sir Walter had reached this point, Anne's eyes had caught the
6141 right direction, and distinguished Captain Wentworth standing among a
6142 cluster of men at a little distance. As her eyes fell on him, his
6143 seemed to be withdrawn from her. It had that appearance. It seemed as
6144 if she had been one moment too late; and as long as she dared observe,
6145 he did not look again: but the performance was recommencing, and she
6146 was forced to seem to restore her attention to the orchestra and look
6147 straight forward.
6148
6149 When she could give another glance, he had moved away. He could not
6150 have come nearer to her if he would; she was so surrounded and shut in:
6151 but she would rather have caught his eye.
6152
6153 Mr Elliot's speech, too, distressed her. She had no longer any
6154 inclination to talk to him. She wished him not so near her.
6155
6156 The first act was over. Now she hoped for some beneficial change; and,
6157 after a period of nothing-saying amongst the party, some of them did
6158 decide on going in quest of tea. Anne was one of the few who did not
6159 choose to move. She remained in her seat, and so did Lady Russell; but
6160 she had the pleasure of getting rid of Mr Elliot; and she did not mean,
6161 whatever she might feel on Lady Russell's account, to shrink from
6162 conversation with Captain Wentworth, if he gave her the opportunity.
6163 She was persuaded by Lady Russell's countenance that she had seen him.
6164
6165 He did not come however. Anne sometimes fancied she discerned him at a
6166 distance, but he never came. The anxious interval wore away
6167 unproductively. The others returned, the room filled again, benches
6168 were reclaimed and repossessed, and another hour of pleasure or of
6169 penance was to be sat out, another hour of music was to give delight or
6170 the gapes, as real or affected taste for it prevailed. To Anne, it
6171 chiefly wore the prospect of an hour of agitation. She could not quit
6172 that room in peace without seeing Captain Wentworth once more, without
6173 the interchange of one friendly look.
6174
6175 In re-settling themselves there were now many changes, the result of
6176 which was favourable for her. Colonel Wallis declined sitting down
6177 again, and Mr Elliot was invited by Elizabeth and Miss Carteret, in a
6178 manner not to be refused, to sit between them; and by some other
6179 removals, and a little scheming of her own, Anne was enabled to place
6180 herself much nearer the end of the bench than she had been before, much
6181 more within reach of a passer-by. She could not do so, without
6182 comparing herself with Miss Larolles, the inimitable Miss Larolles; but
6183 still she did it, and not with much happier effect; though by what
6184 seemed prosperity in the shape of an early abdication in her next
6185 neighbours, she found herself at the very end of the bench before the
6186 concert closed.
6187
6188 Such was her situation, with a vacant space at hand, when Captain
6189 Wentworth was again in sight. She saw him not far off. He saw her
6190 too; yet he looked grave, and seemed irresolute, and only by very slow
6191 degrees came at last near enough to speak to her. She felt that
6192 something must be the matter. The change was indubitable. The
6193 difference between his present air and what it had been in the Octagon
6194 Room was strikingly great. Why was it? She thought of her father, of
6195 Lady Russell. Could there have been any unpleasant glances? He began
6196 by speaking of the concert gravely, more like the Captain Wentworth of
6197 Uppercross; owned himself disappointed, had expected singing; and in
6198 short, must confess that he should not be sorry when it was over. Anne
6199 replied, and spoke in defence of the performance so well, and yet in
6200 allowance for his feelings so pleasantly, that his countenance
6201 improved, and he replied again with almost a smile. They talked for a
6202 few minutes more; the improvement held; he even looked down towards the
6203 bench, as if he saw a place on it well worth occupying; when at that
6204 moment a touch on her shoulder obliged Anne to turn round. It came
6205 from Mr Elliot. He begged her pardon, but she must be applied to, to
6206 explain Italian again. Miss Carteret was very anxious to have a
6207 general idea of what was next to be sung. Anne could not refuse; but
6208 never had she sacrificed to politeness with a more suffering spirit.
6209
6210 A few minutes, though as few as possible, were inevitably consumed; and
6211 when her own mistress again, when able to turn and look as she had done
6212 before, she found herself accosted by Captain Wentworth, in a reserved
6213 yet hurried sort of farewell. "He must wish her good night; he was
6214 going; he should get home as fast as he could."
6215
6216 "Is not this song worth staying for?" said Anne, suddenly struck by an
6217 idea which made her yet more anxious to be encouraging.
6218
6219 "No!" he replied impressively, "there is nothing worth my staying for;"
6220 and he was gone directly.
6221
6222 Jealousy of Mr Elliot! It was the only intelligible motive. Captain
6223 Wentworth jealous of her affection! Could she have believed it a week
6224 ago; three hours ago! For a moment the gratification was exquisite.
6225 But, alas! there were very different thoughts to succeed. How was such
6226 jealousy to be quieted? How was the truth to reach him? How, in all
6227 the peculiar disadvantages of their respective situations, would he
6228 ever learn of her real sentiments? It was misery to think of Mr
6229 Elliot's attentions. Their evil was incalculable.
6230
6231
6232
6233 Chapter 21
6234
6235
6236 Anne recollected with pleasure the next morning her promise of going to
6237 Mrs Smith, meaning that it should engage her from home at the time when
6238 Mr Elliot would be most likely to call; for to avoid Mr Elliot was
6239 almost a first object.
6240
6241 She felt a great deal of good-will towards him. In spite of the
6242 mischief of his attentions, she owed him gratitude and regard, perhaps
6243 compassion. She could not help thinking much of the extraordinary
6244 circumstances attending their acquaintance, of the right which he
6245 seemed to have to interest her, by everything in situation, by his own
6246 sentiments, by his early prepossession. It was altogether very
6247 extraordinary; flattering, but painful. There was much to regret. How
6248 she might have felt had there been no Captain Wentworth in the case,
6249 was not worth enquiry; for there was a Captain Wentworth; and be the
6250 conclusion of the present suspense good or bad, her affection would be
6251 his for ever. Their union, she believed, could not divide her more
6252 from other men, than their final separation.
6253
6254 Prettier musings of high-wrought love and eternal constancy, could
6255 never have passed along the streets of Bath, than Anne was sporting
6256 with from Camden Place to Westgate Buildings. It was almost enough to
6257 spread purification and perfume all the way.
6258
6259 She was sure of a pleasant reception; and her friend seemed this
6260 morning particularly obliged to her for coming, seemed hardly to have
6261 expected her, though it had been an appointment.
6262
6263 An account of the concert was immediately claimed; and Anne's
6264 recollections of the concert were quite happy enough to animate her
6265 features and make her rejoice to talk of it. All that she could tell
6266 she told most gladly, but the all was little for one who had been
6267 there, and unsatisfactory for such an enquirer as Mrs Smith, who had
6268 already heard, through the short cut of a laundress and a waiter,
6269 rather more of the general success and produce of the evening than Anne
6270 could relate, and who now asked in vain for several particulars of the
6271 company. Everybody of any consequence or notoriety in Bath was well
6272 know by name to Mrs Smith.
6273
6274 "The little Durands were there, I conclude," said she, "with their
6275 mouths open to catch the music, like unfledged sparrows ready to be
6276 fed. They never miss a concert."
6277
6278 "Yes; I did not see them myself, but I heard Mr Elliot say they were in
6279 the room."
6280
6281 "The Ibbotsons, were they there? and the two new beauties, with the
6282 tall Irish officer, who is talked of for one of them."
6283
6284 "I do not know. I do not think they were."
6285
6286 "Old Lady Mary Maclean? I need not ask after her. She never misses, I
6287 know; and you must have seen her. She must have been in your own
6288 circle; for as you went with Lady Dalrymple, you were in the seats of
6289 grandeur, round the orchestra, of course."
6290
6291 "No, that was what I dreaded. It would have been very unpleasant to me
6292 in every respect. But happily Lady Dalrymple always chooses to be
6293 farther off; and we were exceedingly well placed, that is, for hearing;
6294 I must not say for seeing, because I appear to have seen very little."
6295
6296 "Oh! you saw enough for your own amusement. I can understand. There
6297 is a sort of domestic enjoyment to be known even in a crowd, and this
6298 you had. You were a large party in yourselves, and you wanted nothing
6299 beyond."
6300
6301 "But I ought to have looked about me more," said Anne, conscious while
6302 she spoke that there had in fact been no want of looking about, that
6303 the object only had been deficient.
6304
6305 "No, no; you were better employed. You need not tell me that you had a
6306 pleasant evening. I see it in your eye. I perfectly see how the hours
6307 passed: that you had always something agreeable to listen to. In the
6308 intervals of the concert it was conversation."
6309
6310 Anne half smiled and said, "Do you see that in my eye?"
6311
6312 "Yes, I do. Your countenance perfectly informs me that you were in
6313 company last night with the person whom you think the most agreeable in
6314 the world, the person who interests you at this present time more than
6315 all the rest of the world put together."
6316
6317 A blush overspread Anne's cheeks. She could say nothing.
6318
6319 "And such being the case," continued Mrs Smith, after a short pause, "I
6320 hope you believe that I do know how to value your kindness in coming to
6321 me this morning. It is really very good of you to come and sit with
6322 me, when you must have so many pleasanter demands upon your time."
6323
6324 Anne heard nothing of this. She was still in the astonishment and
6325 confusion excited by her friend's penetration, unable to imagine how
6326 any report of Captain Wentworth could have reached her. After another
6327 short silence--
6328
6329 "Pray," said Mrs Smith, "is Mr Elliot aware of your acquaintance with
6330 me? Does he know that I am in Bath?"
6331
6332 "Mr Elliot!" repeated Anne, looking up surprised. A moment's
6333 reflection shewed her the mistake she had been under. She caught it
6334 instantaneously; and recovering her courage with the feeling of safety,
6335 soon added, more composedly, "Are you acquainted with Mr Elliot?"
6336
6337 "I have been a good deal acquainted with him," replied Mrs Smith,
6338 gravely, "but it seems worn out now. It is a great while since we met."
6339
6340 "I was not at all aware of this. You never mentioned it before. Had I
6341 known it, I would have had the pleasure of talking to him about you."
6342
6343 "To confess the truth," said Mrs Smith, assuming her usual air of
6344 cheerfulness, "that is exactly the pleasure I want you to have. I want
6345 you to talk about me to Mr Elliot. I want your interest with him. He
6346 can be of essential service to me; and if you would have the goodness,
6347 my dear Miss Elliot, to make it an object to yourself, of course it is
6348 done."
6349
6350 "I should be extremely happy; I hope you cannot doubt my willingness to
6351 be of even the slightest use to you," replied Anne; "but I suspect that
6352 you are considering me as having a higher claim on Mr Elliot, a greater
6353 right to influence him, than is really the case. I am sure you have,
6354 somehow or other, imbibed such a notion. You must consider me only as
6355 Mr Elliot's relation. If in that light there is anything which you
6356 suppose his cousin might fairly ask of him, I beg you would not
6357 hesitate to employ me."
6358
6359 Mrs Smith gave her a penetrating glance, and then, smiling, said--
6360
6361 "I have been a little premature, I perceive; I beg your pardon. I
6362 ought to have waited for official information. But now, my dear Miss
6363 Elliot, as an old friend, do give me a hint as to when I may speak.
6364 Next week? To be sure by next week I may be allowed to think it all
6365 settled, and build my own selfish schemes on Mr Elliot's good fortune."
6366
6367 "No," replied Anne, "nor next week, nor next, nor next. I assure you
6368 that nothing of the sort you are thinking of will be settled any week.
6369 I am not going to marry Mr Elliot. I should like to know why you
6370 imagine I am?"
6371
6372 Mrs Smith looked at her again, looked earnestly, smiled, shook her
6373 head, and exclaimed--
6374
6375 "Now, how I do wish I understood you! How I do wish I knew what you
6376 were at! I have a great idea that you do not design to be cruel, when
6377 the right moment occurs. Till it does come, you know, we women never
6378 mean to have anybody. It is a thing of course among us, that every man
6379 is refused, till he offers. But why should you be cruel? Let me plead
6380 for my--present friend I cannot call him, but for my former friend.
6381 Where can you look for a more suitable match? Where could you expect a
6382 more gentlemanlike, agreeable man? Let me recommend Mr Elliot. I am
6383 sure you hear nothing but good of him from Colonel Wallis; and who can
6384 know him better than Colonel Wallis?"
6385
6386 "My dear Mrs Smith, Mr Elliot's wife has not been dead much above half
6387 a year. He ought not to be supposed to be paying his addresses to any
6388 one."
6389
6390 "Oh! if these are your only objections," cried Mrs Smith, archly, "Mr
6391 Elliot is safe, and I shall give myself no more trouble about him. Do
6392 not forget me when you are married, that's all. Let him know me to be
6393 a friend of yours, and then he will think little of the trouble
6394 required, which it is very natural for him now, with so many affairs
6395 and engagements of his own, to avoid and get rid of as he can; very
6396 natural, perhaps. Ninety-nine out of a hundred would do the same. Of
6397 course, he cannot be aware of the importance to me. Well, my dear Miss
6398 Elliot, I hope and trust you will be very happy. Mr Elliot has sense
6399 to understand the value of such a woman. Your peace will not be
6400 shipwrecked as mine has been. You are safe in all worldly matters, and
6401 safe in his character. He will not be led astray; he will not be
6402 misled by others to his ruin."
6403
6404 "No," said Anne, "I can readily believe all that of my cousin. He
6405 seems to have a calm decided temper, not at all open to dangerous
6406 impressions. I consider him with great respect. I have no reason,
6407 from any thing that has fallen within my observation, to do otherwise.
6408 But I have not known him long; and he is not a man, I think, to be
6409 known intimately soon. Will not this manner of speaking of him, Mrs
6410 Smith, convince you that he is nothing to me? Surely this must be calm
6411 enough. And, upon my word, he is nothing to me. Should he ever
6412 propose to me (which I have very little reason to imagine he has any
6413 thought of doing), I shall not accept him. I assure you I shall not.
6414 I assure you, Mr Elliot had not the share which you have been
6415 supposing, in whatever pleasure the concert of last night might afford:
6416 not Mr Elliot; it is not Mr Elliot that--"
6417
6418 She stopped, regretting with a deep blush that she had implied so much;
6419 but less would hardly have been sufficient. Mrs Smith would hardly
6420 have believed so soon in Mr Elliot's failure, but from the perception
6421 of there being a somebody else. As it was, she instantly submitted,
6422 and with all the semblance of seeing nothing beyond; and Anne, eager to
6423 escape farther notice, was impatient to know why Mrs Smith should have
6424 fancied she was to marry Mr Elliot; where she could have received the
6425 idea, or from whom she could have heard it.
6426
6427 "Do tell me how it first came into your head."
6428
6429 "It first came into my head," replied Mrs Smith, "upon finding how much
6430 you were together, and feeling it to be the most probable thing in the
6431 world to be wished for by everybody belonging to either of you; and you
6432 may depend upon it that all your acquaintance have disposed of you in
6433 the same way. But I never heard it spoken of till two days ago."
6434
6435 "And has it indeed been spoken of?"
6436
6437 "Did you observe the woman who opened the door to you when you called
6438 yesterday?"
6439
6440 "No. Was not it Mrs Speed, as usual, or the maid? I observed no one
6441 in particular."
6442
6443 "It was my friend Mrs Rooke; Nurse Rooke; who, by-the-bye, had a great
6444 curiosity to see you, and was delighted to be in the way to let you in.
6445 She came away from Marlborough Buildings only on Sunday; and she it was
6446 who told me you were to marry Mr Elliot. She had had it from Mrs
6447 Wallis herself, which did not seem bad authority. She sat an hour with
6448 me on Monday evening, and gave me the whole history." "The whole
6449 history," repeated Anne, laughing. "She could not make a very long
6450 history, I think, of one such little article of unfounded news."
6451
6452 Mrs Smith said nothing.
6453
6454 "But," continued Anne, presently, "though there is no truth in my
6455 having this claim on Mr Elliot, I should be extremely happy to be of
6456 use to you in any way that I could. Shall I mention to him your being
6457 in Bath? Shall I take any message?"
6458
6459 "No, I thank you: no, certainly not. In the warmth of the moment, and
6460 under a mistaken impression, I might, perhaps, have endeavoured to
6461 interest you in some circumstances; but not now. No, I thank you, I
6462 have nothing to trouble you with."
6463
6464 "I think you spoke of having known Mr Elliot many years?"
6465
6466 "I did."
6467
6468 "Not before he was married, I suppose?"
6469
6470 "Yes; he was not married when I knew him first."
6471
6472 "And--were you much acquainted?"
6473
6474 "Intimately."
6475
6476 "Indeed! Then do tell me what he was at that time of life. I have a
6477 great curiosity to know what Mr Elliot was as a very young man. Was he
6478 at all such as he appears now?"
6479
6480 "I have not seen Mr Elliot these three years," was Mrs Smith's answer,
6481 given so gravely that it was impossible to pursue the subject farther;
6482 and Anne felt that she had gained nothing but an increase of curiosity.
6483 They were both silent: Mrs Smith very thoughtful. At last--
6484
6485 "I beg your pardon, my dear Miss Elliot," she cried, in her natural
6486 tone of cordiality, "I beg your pardon for the short answers I have
6487 been giving you, but I have been uncertain what I ought to do. I have
6488 been doubting and considering as to what I ought to tell you. There
6489 were many things to be taken into the account. One hates to be
6490 officious, to be giving bad impressions, making mischief. Even the
6491 smooth surface of family-union seems worth preserving, though there may
6492 be nothing durable beneath. However, I have determined; I think I am
6493 right; I think you ought to be made acquainted with Mr Elliot's real
6494 character. Though I fully believe that, at present, you have not the
6495 smallest intention of accepting him, there is no saying what may
6496 happen. You might, some time or other, be differently affected towards
6497 him. Hear the truth, therefore, now, while you are unprejudiced. Mr
6498 Elliot is a man without heart or conscience; a designing, wary,
6499 cold-blooded being, who thinks only of himself; whom for his own
6500 interest or ease, would be guilty of any cruelty, or any treachery,
6501 that could be perpetrated without risk of his general character. He
6502 has no feeling for others. Those whom he has been the chief cause of
6503 leading into ruin, he can neglect and desert without the smallest
6504 compunction. He is totally beyond the reach of any sentiment of
6505 justice or compassion. Oh! he is black at heart, hollow and black!"
6506
6507 Anne's astonished air, and exclamation of wonder, made her pause, and
6508 in a calmer manner, she added,
6509
6510 "My expressions startle you. You must allow for an injured, angry
6511 woman. But I will try to command myself. I will not abuse him. I
6512 will only tell you what I have found him. Facts shall speak. He was
6513 the intimate friend of my dear husband, who trusted and loved him, and
6514 thought him as good as himself. The intimacy had been formed before
6515 our marriage. I found them most intimate friends; and I, too, became
6516 excessively pleased with Mr Elliot, and entertained the highest opinion
6517 of him. At nineteen, you know, one does not think very seriously; but
6518 Mr Elliot appeared to me quite as good as others, and much more
6519 agreeable than most others, and we were almost always together. We
6520 were principally in town, living in very good style. He was then the
6521 inferior in circumstances; he was then the poor one; he had chambers in
6522 the Temple, and it was as much as he could do to support the appearance
6523 of a gentleman. He had always a home with us whenever he chose it; he
6524 was always welcome; he was like a brother. My poor Charles, who had
6525 the finest, most generous spirit in the world, would have divided his
6526 last farthing with him; and I know that his purse was open to him; I
6527 know that he often assisted him."
6528
6529 "This must have been about that very period of Mr Elliot's life," said
6530 Anne, "which has always excited my particular curiosity. It must have
6531 been about the same time that he became known to my father and sister.
6532 I never knew him myself; I only heard of him; but there was a something
6533 in his conduct then, with regard to my father and sister, and
6534 afterwards in the circumstances of his marriage, which I never could
6535 quite reconcile with present times. It seemed to announce a different
6536 sort of man."
6537
6538 "I know it all, I know it all," cried Mrs Smith. "He had been
6539 introduced to Sir Walter and your sister before I was acquainted with
6540 him, but I heard him speak of them for ever. I know he was invited and
6541 encouraged, and I know he did not choose to go. I can satisfy you,
6542 perhaps, on points which you would little expect; and as to his
6543 marriage, I knew all about it at the time. I was privy to all the fors
6544 and againsts; I was the friend to whom he confided his hopes and plans;
6545 and though I did not know his wife previously, her inferior situation
6546 in society, indeed, rendered that impossible, yet I knew her all her
6547 life afterwards, or at least till within the last two years of her
6548 life, and can answer any question you may wish to put."
6549
6550 "Nay," said Anne, "I have no particular enquiry to make about her. I
6551 have always understood they were not a happy couple. But I should like
6552 to know why, at that time of his life, he should slight my father's
6553 acquaintance as he did. My father was certainly disposed to take very
6554 kind and proper notice of him. Why did Mr Elliot draw back?"
6555
6556 "Mr Elliot," replied Mrs Smith, "at that period of his life, had one
6557 object in view: to make his fortune, and by a rather quicker process
6558 than the law. He was determined to make it by marriage. He was
6559 determined, at least, not to mar it by an imprudent marriage; and I
6560 know it was his belief (whether justly or not, of course I cannot
6561 decide), that your father and sister, in their civilities and
6562 invitations, were designing a match between the heir and the young
6563 lady, and it was impossible that such a match should have answered his
6564 ideas of wealth and independence. That was his motive for drawing
6565 back, I can assure you. He told me the whole story. He had no
6566 concealments with me. It was curious, that having just left you behind
6567 me in Bath, my first and principal acquaintance on marrying should be
6568 your cousin; and that, through him, I should be continually hearing of
6569 your father and sister. He described one Miss Elliot, and I thought
6570 very affectionately of the other."
6571
6572 "Perhaps," cried Anne, struck by a sudden idea, "you sometimes spoke of
6573 me to Mr Elliot?"
6574
6575 "To be sure I did; very often. I used to boast of my own Anne Elliot,
6576 and vouch for your being a very different creature from--"
6577
6578 She checked herself just in time.
6579
6580 "This accounts for something which Mr Elliot said last night," cried
6581 Anne. "This explains it. I found he had been used to hear of me. I
6582 could not comprehend how. What wild imaginations one forms where dear
6583 self is concerned! How sure to be mistaken! But I beg your pardon; I
6584 have interrupted you. Mr Elliot married then completely for money?
6585 The circumstances, probably, which first opened your eyes to his
6586 character."
6587
6588 Mrs Smith hesitated a little here. "Oh! those things are too common.
6589 When one lives in the world, a man or woman's marrying for money is too
6590 common to strike one as it ought. I was very young, and associated
6591 only with the young, and we were a thoughtless, gay set, without any
6592 strict rules of conduct. We lived for enjoyment. I think differently
6593 now; time and sickness and sorrow have given me other notions; but at
6594 that period I must own I saw nothing reprehensible in what Mr Elliot
6595 was doing. 'To do the best for himself,' passed as a duty."
6596
6597 "But was not she a very low woman?"
6598
6599 "Yes; which I objected to, but he would not regard. Money, money, was
6600 all that he wanted. Her father was a grazier, her grandfather had been
6601 a butcher, but that was all nothing. She was a fine woman, had had a
6602 decent education, was brought forward by some cousins, thrown by chance
6603 into Mr Elliot's company, and fell in love with him; and not a
6604 difficulty or a scruple was there on his side, with respect to her
6605 birth. All his caution was spent in being secured of the real amount
6606 of her fortune, before he committed himself. Depend upon it, whatever
6607 esteem Mr Elliot may have for his own situation in life now, as a young
6608 man he had not the smallest value for it. His chance for the Kellynch
6609 estate was something, but all the honour of the family he held as cheap
6610 as dirt. I have often heard him declare, that if baronetcies were
6611 saleable, anybody should have his for fifty pounds, arms and motto,
6612 name and livery included; but I will not pretend to repeat half that I
6613 used to hear him say on that subject. It would not be fair; and yet
6614 you ought to have proof, for what is all this but assertion, and you
6615 shall have proof."
6616
6617 "Indeed, my dear Mrs Smith, I want none," cried Anne. "You have
6618 asserted nothing contradictory to what Mr Elliot appeared to be some
6619 years ago. This is all in confirmation, rather, of what we used to
6620 hear and believe. I am more curious to know why he should be so
6621 different now."
6622
6623 "But for my satisfaction, if you will have the goodness to ring for
6624 Mary; stay: I am sure you will have the still greater goodness of
6625 going yourself into my bedroom, and bringing me the small inlaid box
6626 which you will find on the upper shelf of the closet."
6627
6628 Anne, seeing her friend to be earnestly bent on it, did as she was
6629 desired. The box was brought and placed before her, and Mrs Smith,
6630 sighing over it as she unlocked it, said--
6631
6632 "This is full of papers belonging to him, to my husband; a small
6633 portion only of what I had to look over when I lost him. The letter I
6634 am looking for was one written by Mr Elliot to him before our marriage,
6635 and happened to be saved; why, one can hardly imagine. But he was
6636 careless and immethodical, like other men, about those things; and when
6637 I came to examine his papers, I found it with others still more
6638 trivial, from different people scattered here and there, while many
6639 letters and memorandums of real importance had been destroyed. Here it
6640 is; I would not burn it, because being even then very little satisfied
6641 with Mr Elliot, I was determined to preserve every document of former
6642 intimacy. I have now another motive for being glad that I can produce
6643 it."
6644
6645 This was the letter, directed to "Charles Smith, Esq. Tunbridge Wells,"
6646 and dated from London, as far back as July, 1803:--
6647
6648 "Dear Smith,--I have received yours. Your kindness almost overpowers
6649 me. I wish nature had made such hearts as yours more common, but I
6650 have lived three-and-twenty years in the world, and have seen none like
6651 it. At present, believe me, I have no need of your services, being in
6652 cash again. Give me joy: I have got rid of Sir Walter and Miss. They
6653 are gone back to Kellynch, and almost made me swear to visit them this
6654 summer; but my first visit to Kellynch will be with a surveyor, to tell
6655 me how to bring it with best advantage to the hammer. The baronet,
6656 nevertheless, is not unlikely to marry again; he is quite fool enough.
6657 If he does, however, they will leave me in peace, which may be a decent
6658 equivalent for the reversion. He is worse than last year.
6659
6660 "I wish I had any name but Elliot. I am sick of it. The name of
6661 Walter I can drop, thank God! and I desire you will never insult me
6662 with my second W. again, meaning, for the rest of my life, to be only
6663 yours truly,--Wm. Elliot."
6664
6665 Such a letter could not be read without putting Anne in a glow; and Mrs
6666 Smith, observing the high colour in her face, said--
6667
6668 "The language, I know, is highly disrespectful. Though I have forgot
6669 the exact terms, I have a perfect impression of the general meaning.
6670 But it shows you the man. Mark his professions to my poor husband.
6671 Can any thing be stronger?"
6672
6673 Anne could not immediately get over the shock and mortification of
6674 finding such words applied to her father. She was obliged to recollect
6675 that her seeing the letter was a violation of the laws of honour, that
6676 no one ought to be judged or to be known by such testimonies, that no
6677 private correspondence could bear the eye of others, before she could
6678 recover calmness enough to return the letter which she had been
6679 meditating over, and say--
6680
6681 "Thank you. This is full proof undoubtedly; proof of every thing you
6682 were saying. But why be acquainted with us now?"
6683
6684 "I can explain this too," cried Mrs Smith, smiling.
6685
6686 "Can you really?"
6687
6688 "Yes. I have shewn you Mr Elliot as he was a dozen years ago, and I
6689 will shew him as he is now. I cannot produce written proof again, but
6690 I can give as authentic oral testimony as you can desire, of what he is
6691 now wanting, and what he is now doing. He is no hypocrite now. He
6692 truly wants to marry you. His present attentions to your family are
6693 very sincere: quite from the heart. I will give you my authority: his
6694 friend Colonel Wallis."
6695
6696 "Colonel Wallis! you are acquainted with him?"
6697
6698 "No. It does not come to me in quite so direct a line as that; it
6699 takes a bend or two, but nothing of consequence. The stream is as good
6700 as at first; the little rubbish it collects in the turnings is easily
6701 moved away. Mr Elliot talks unreservedly to Colonel Wallis of his
6702 views on you, which said Colonel Wallis, I imagine to be, in himself, a
6703 sensible, careful, discerning sort of character; but Colonel Wallis has
6704 a very pretty silly wife, to whom he tells things which he had better
6705 not, and he repeats it all to her. She in the overflowing spirits of
6706 her recovery, repeats it all to her nurse; and the nurse knowing my
6707 acquaintance with you, very naturally brings it all to me. On Monday
6708 evening, my good friend Mrs Rooke let me thus much into the secrets of
6709 Marlborough Buildings. When I talked of a whole history, therefore,
6710 you see I was not romancing so much as you supposed."
6711
6712 "My dear Mrs Smith, your authority is deficient. This will not do. Mr
6713 Elliot's having any views on me will not in the least account for the
6714 efforts he made towards a reconciliation with my father. That was all
6715 prior to my coming to Bath. I found them on the most friendly terms
6716 when I arrived."
6717
6718 "I know you did; I know it all perfectly, but--"
6719
6720 "Indeed, Mrs Smith, we must not expect to get real information in such
6721 a line. Facts or opinions which are to pass through the hands of so
6722 many, to be misconceived by folly in one, and ignorance in another, can
6723 hardly have much truth left."
6724
6725 "Only give me a hearing. You will soon be able to judge of the general
6726 credit due, by listening to some particulars which you can yourself
6727 immediately contradict or confirm. Nobody supposes that you were his
6728 first inducement. He had seen you indeed, before he came to Bath, and
6729 admired you, but without knowing it to be you. So says my historian,
6730 at least. Is this true? Did he see you last summer or autumn,
6731 'somewhere down in the west,' to use her own words, without knowing it
6732 to be you?"
6733
6734 "He certainly did. So far it is very true. At Lyme. I happened to be
6735 at Lyme."
6736
6737 "Well," continued Mrs Smith, triumphantly, "grant my friend the credit
6738 due to the establishment of the first point asserted. He saw you then
6739 at Lyme, and liked you so well as to be exceedingly pleased to meet
6740 with you again in Camden Place, as Miss Anne Elliot, and from that
6741 moment, I have no doubt, had a double motive in his visits there. But
6742 there was another, and an earlier, which I will now explain. If there
6743 is anything in my story which you know to be either false or
6744 improbable, stop me. My account states, that your sister's friend, the
6745 lady now staying with you, whom I have heard you mention, came to Bath
6746 with Miss Elliot and Sir Walter as long ago as September (in short when
6747 they first came themselves), and has been staying there ever since;
6748 that she is a clever, insinuating, handsome woman, poor and plausible,
6749 and altogether such in situation and manner, as to give a general idea,
6750 among Sir Walter's acquaintance, of her meaning to be Lady Elliot, and
6751 as general a surprise that Miss Elliot should be apparently, blind to
6752 the danger."
6753
6754 Here Mrs Smith paused a moment; but Anne had not a word to say, and she
6755 continued--
6756
6757 "This was the light in which it appeared to those who knew the family,
6758 long before you returned to it; and Colonel Wallis had his eye upon
6759 your father enough to be sensible of it, though he did not then visit
6760 in Camden Place; but his regard for Mr Elliot gave him an interest in
6761 watching all that was going on there, and when Mr Elliot came to Bath
6762 for a day or two, as he happened to do a little before Christmas,
6763 Colonel Wallis made him acquainted with the appearance of things, and
6764 the reports beginning to prevail. Now you are to understand, that time
6765 had worked a very material change in Mr Elliot's opinions as to the
6766 value of a baronetcy. Upon all points of blood and connexion he is a
6767 completely altered man. Having long had as much money as he could
6768 spend, nothing to wish for on the side of avarice or indulgence, he has
6769 been gradually learning to pin his happiness upon the consequence he is
6770 heir to. I thought it coming on before our acquaintance ceased, but it
6771 is now a confirmed feeling. He cannot bear the idea of not being Sir
6772 William. You may guess, therefore, that the news he heard from his
6773 friend could not be very agreeable, and you may guess what it produced;
6774 the resolution of coming back to Bath as soon as possible, and of
6775 fixing himself here for a time, with the view of renewing his former
6776 acquaintance, and recovering such a footing in the family as might give
6777 him the means of ascertaining the degree of his danger, and of
6778 circumventing the lady if he found it material. This was agreed upon
6779 between the two friends as the only thing to be done; and Colonel
6780 Wallis was to assist in every way that he could. He was to be
6781 introduced, and Mrs Wallis was to be introduced, and everybody was to
6782 be introduced. Mr Elliot came back accordingly; and on application was
6783 forgiven, as you know, and re-admitted into the family; and there it
6784 was his constant object, and his only object (till your arrival added
6785 another motive), to watch Sir Walter and Mrs Clay. He omitted no
6786 opportunity of being with them, threw himself in their way, called at
6787 all hours; but I need not be particular on this subject. You can
6788 imagine what an artful man would do; and with this guide, perhaps, may
6789 recollect what you have seen him do."
6790
6791 "Yes," said Anne, "you tell me nothing which does not accord with what
6792 I have known, or could imagine. There is always something offensive in
6793 the details of cunning. The manoeuvres of selfishness and duplicity
6794 must ever be revolting, but I have heard nothing which really surprises
6795 me. I know those who would be shocked by such a representation of Mr
6796 Elliot, who would have difficulty in believing it; but I have never
6797 been satisfied. I have always wanted some other motive for his conduct
6798 than appeared. I should like to know his present opinion, as to the
6799 probability of the event he has been in dread of; whether he considers
6800 the danger to be lessening or not."
6801
6802 "Lessening, I understand," replied Mrs Smith. "He thinks Mrs Clay
6803 afraid of him, aware that he sees through her, and not daring to
6804 proceed as she might do in his absence. But since he must be absent
6805 some time or other, I do not perceive how he can ever be secure while
6806 she holds her present influence. Mrs Wallis has an amusing idea, as
6807 nurse tells me, that it is to be put into the marriage articles when
6808 you and Mr Elliot marry, that your father is not to marry Mrs Clay. A
6809 scheme, worthy of Mrs Wallis's understanding, by all accounts; but my
6810 sensible nurse Rooke sees the absurdity of it. 'Why, to be sure,
6811 ma'am,' said she, 'it would not prevent his marrying anybody else.'
6812 And, indeed, to own the truth, I do not think nurse, in her heart, is a
6813 very strenuous opposer of Sir Walter's making a second match. She must
6814 be allowed to be a favourer of matrimony, you know; and (since self
6815 will intrude) who can say that she may not have some flying visions of
6816 attending the next Lady Elliot, through Mrs Wallis's recommendation?"
6817
6818 "I am very glad to know all this," said Anne, after a little
6819 thoughtfulness. "It will be more painful to me in some respects to be
6820 in company with him, but I shall know better what to do. My line of
6821 conduct will be more direct. Mr Elliot is evidently a disingenuous,
6822 artificial, worldly man, who has never had any better principle to
6823 guide him than selfishness."
6824
6825 But Mr Elliot was not done with. Mrs Smith had been carried away from
6826 her first direction, and Anne had forgotten, in the interest of her own
6827 family concerns, how much had been originally implied against him; but
6828 her attention was now called to the explanation of those first hints,
6829 and she listened to a recital which, if it did not perfectly justify
6830 the unqualified bitterness of Mrs Smith, proved him to have been very
6831 unfeeling in his conduct towards her; very deficient both in justice
6832 and compassion.
6833
6834 She learned that (the intimacy between them continuing unimpaired by Mr
6835 Elliot's marriage) they had been as before always together, and Mr
6836 Elliot had led his friend into expenses much beyond his fortune. Mrs
6837 Smith did not want to take blame to herself, and was most tender of
6838 throwing any on her husband; but Anne could collect that their income
6839 had never been equal to their style of living, and that from the first
6840 there had been a great deal of general and joint extravagance. From
6841 his wife's account of him she could discern Mr Smith to have been a man
6842 of warm feelings, easy temper, careless habits, and not strong
6843 understanding, much more amiable than his friend, and very unlike him,
6844 led by him, and probably despised by him. Mr Elliot, raised by his
6845 marriage to great affluence, and disposed to every gratification of
6846 pleasure and vanity which could be commanded without involving himself,
6847 (for with all his self-indulgence he had become a prudent man), and
6848 beginning to be rich, just as his friend ought to have found himself to
6849 be poor, seemed to have had no concern at all for that friend's
6850 probable finances, but, on the contrary, had been prompting and
6851 encouraging expenses which could end only in ruin; and the Smiths
6852 accordingly had been ruined.
6853
6854 The husband had died just in time to be spared the full knowledge of
6855 it. They had previously known embarrassments enough to try the
6856 friendship of their friends, and to prove that Mr Elliot's had better
6857 not be tried; but it was not till his death that the wretched state of
6858 his affairs was fully known. With a confidence in Mr Elliot's regard,
6859 more creditable to his feelings than his judgement, Mr Smith had
6860 appointed him the executor of his will; but Mr Elliot would not act,
6861 and the difficulties and distress which this refusal had heaped on her,
6862 in addition to the inevitable sufferings of her situation, had been
6863 such as could not be related without anguish of spirit, or listened to
6864 without corresponding indignation.
6865
6866 Anne was shewn some letters of his on the occasion, answers to urgent
6867 applications from Mrs Smith, which all breathed the same stern
6868 resolution of not engaging in a fruitless trouble, and, under a cold
6869 civility, the same hard-hearted indifference to any of the evils it
6870 might bring on her. It was a dreadful picture of ingratitude and
6871 inhumanity; and Anne felt, at some moments, that no flagrant open crime
6872 could have been worse. She had a great deal to listen to; all the
6873 particulars of past sad scenes, all the minutiae of distress upon
6874 distress, which in former conversations had been merely hinted at, were
6875 dwelt on now with a natural indulgence. Anne could perfectly
6876 comprehend the exquisite relief, and was only the more inclined to
6877 wonder at the composure of her friend's usual state of mind.
6878
6879 There was one circumstance in the history of her grievances of
6880 particular irritation. She had good reason to believe that some
6881 property of her husband in the West Indies, which had been for many
6882 years under a sort of sequestration for the payment of its own
6883 incumbrances, might be recoverable by proper measures; and this
6884 property, though not large, would be enough to make her comparatively
6885 rich. But there was nobody to stir in it. Mr Elliot would do nothing,
6886 and she could do nothing herself, equally disabled from personal
6887 exertion by her state of bodily weakness, and from employing others by
6888 her want of money. She had no natural connexions to assist her even
6889 with their counsel, and she could not afford to purchase the assistance
6890 of the law. This was a cruel aggravation of actually straitened means.
6891 To feel that she ought to be in better circumstances, that a little
6892 trouble in the right place might do it, and to fear that delay might be
6893 even weakening her claims, was hard to bear.
6894
6895 It was on this point that she had hoped to engage Anne's good offices
6896 with Mr Elliot. She had previously, in the anticipation of their
6897 marriage, been very apprehensive of losing her friend by it; but on
6898 being assured that he could have made no attempt of that nature, since
6899 he did not even know her to be in Bath, it immediately occurred, that
6900 something might be done in her favour by the influence of the woman he
6901 loved, and she had been hastily preparing to interest Anne's feelings,
6902 as far as the observances due to Mr Elliot's character would allow,
6903 when Anne's refutation of the supposed engagement changed the face of
6904 everything; and while it took from her the new-formed hope of
6905 succeeding in the object of her first anxiety, left her at least the
6906 comfort of telling the whole story her own way.
6907
6908 After listening to this full description of Mr Elliot, Anne could not
6909 but express some surprise at Mrs Smith's having spoken of him so
6910 favourably in the beginning of their conversation. "She had seemed to
6911 recommend and praise him!"
6912
6913 "My dear," was Mrs Smith's reply, "there was nothing else to be done.
6914 I considered your marrying him as certain, though he might not yet have
6915 made the offer, and I could no more speak the truth of him, than if he
6916 had been your husband. My heart bled for you, as I talked of
6917 happiness; and yet he is sensible, he is agreeable, and with such a
6918 woman as you, it was not absolutely hopeless. He was very unkind to
6919 his first wife. They were wretched together. But she was too ignorant
6920 and giddy for respect, and he had never loved her. I was willing to
6921 hope that you must fare better."
6922
6923 Anne could just acknowledge within herself such a possibility of having
6924 been induced to marry him, as made her shudder at the idea of the
6925 misery which must have followed. It was just possible that she might
6926 have been persuaded by Lady Russell! And under such a supposition,
6927 which would have been most miserable, when time had disclosed all, too
6928 late?
6929
6930 It was very desirable that Lady Russell should be no longer deceived;
6931 and one of the concluding arrangements of this important conference,
6932 which carried them through the greater part of the morning, was, that
6933 Anne had full liberty to communicate to her friend everything relative
6934 to Mrs Smith, in which his conduct was involved.
6935
6936
6937
6938 Chapter 22
6939
6940
6941 Anne went home to think over all that she had heard. In one point, her
6942 feelings were relieved by this knowledge of Mr Elliot. There was no
6943 longer anything of tenderness due to him. He stood as opposed to
6944 Captain Wentworth, in all his own unwelcome obtrusiveness; and the evil
6945 of his attentions last night, the irremediable mischief he might have
6946 done, was considered with sensations unqualified, unperplexed. Pity
6947 for him was all over. But this was the only point of relief. In every
6948 other respect, in looking around her, or penetrating forward, she saw
6949 more to distrust and to apprehend. She was concerned for the
6950 disappointment and pain Lady Russell would be feeling; for the
6951 mortifications which must be hanging over her father and sister, and
6952 had all the distress of foreseeing many evils, without knowing how to
6953 avert any one of them. She was most thankful for her own knowledge of
6954 him. She had never considered herself as entitled to reward for not
6955 slighting an old friend like Mrs Smith, but here was a reward indeed
6956 springing from it! Mrs Smith had been able to tell her what no one
6957 else could have done. Could the knowledge have been extended through
6958 her family? But this was a vain idea. She must talk to Lady Russell,
6959 tell her, consult with her, and having done her best, wait the event
6960 with as much composure as possible; and after all, her greatest want of
6961 composure would be in that quarter of the mind which could not be
6962 opened to Lady Russell; in that flow of anxieties and fears which must
6963 be all to herself.
6964
6965
6966 She found, on reaching home, that she had, as she intended, escaped
6967 seeing Mr Elliot; that he had called and paid them a long morning
6968 visit; but hardly had she congratulated herself, and felt safe, when
6969 she heard that he was coming again in the evening.
6970
6971 "I had not the smallest intention of asking him," said Elizabeth, with
6972 affected carelessness, "but he gave so many hints; so Mrs Clay says, at
6973 least."
6974
6975 "Indeed, I do say it. I never saw anybody in my life spell harder for
6976 an invitation. Poor man! I was really in pain for him; for your
6977 hard-hearted sister, Miss Anne, seems bent on cruelty."
6978
6979 "Oh!" cried Elizabeth, "I have been rather too much used to the game to
6980 be soon overcome by a gentleman's hints. However, when I found how
6981 excessively he was regretting that he should miss my father this
6982 morning, I gave way immediately, for I would never really omit an
6983 opportunity of bringing him and Sir Walter together. They appear to so
6984 much advantage in company with each other. Each behaving so
6985 pleasantly. Mr Elliot looking up with so much respect."
6986
6987 "Quite delightful!" cried Mrs Clay, not daring, however, to turn her
6988 eyes towards Anne. "Exactly like father and son! Dear Miss Elliot,
6989 may I not say father and son?"
6990
6991 "Oh! I lay no embargo on any body's words. If you will have such
6992 ideas! But, upon my word, I am scarcely sensible of his attentions
6993 being beyond those of other men."
6994
6995 "My dear Miss Elliot!" exclaimed Mrs Clay, lifting her hands and eyes,
6996 and sinking all the rest of her astonishment in a convenient silence.
6997
6998 "Well, my dear Penelope, you need not be so alarmed about him. I did
6999 invite him, you know. I sent him away with smiles. When I found he
7000 was really going to his friends at Thornberry Park for the whole day
7001 to-morrow, I had compassion on him."
7002
7003 Anne admired the good acting of the friend, in being able to shew such
7004 pleasure as she did, in the expectation and in the actual arrival of
7005 the very person whose presence must really be interfering with her
7006 prime object. It was impossible but that Mrs Clay must hate the sight
7007 of Mr Elliot; and yet she could assume a most obliging, placid look,
7008 and appear quite satisfied with the curtailed license of devoting
7009 herself only half as much to Sir Walter as she would have done
7010 otherwise.
7011
7012 To Anne herself it was most distressing to see Mr Elliot enter the
7013 room; and quite painful to have him approach and speak to her. She had
7014 been used before to feel that he could not be always quite sincere, but
7015 now she saw insincerity in everything. His attentive deference to her
7016 father, contrasted with his former language, was odious; and when she
7017 thought of his cruel conduct towards Mrs Smith, she could hardly bear
7018 the sight of his present smiles and mildness, or the sound of his
7019 artificial good sentiments.
7020
7021 She meant to avoid any such alteration of manners as might provoke a
7022 remonstrance on his side. It was a great object to her to escape all
7023 enquiry or eclat; but it was her intention to be as decidedly cool to
7024 him as might be compatible with their relationship; and to retrace, as
7025 quietly as she could, the few steps of unnecessary intimacy she had
7026 been gradually led along. She was accordingly more guarded, and more
7027 cool, than she had been the night before.
7028
7029 He wanted to animate her curiosity again as to how and where he could
7030 have heard her formerly praised; wanted very much to be gratified by
7031 more solicitation; but the charm was broken: he found that the heat and
7032 animation of a public room was necessary to kindle his modest cousin's
7033 vanity; he found, at least, that it was not to be done now, by any of
7034 those attempts which he could hazard among the too-commanding claims of
7035 the others. He little surmised that it was a subject acting now
7036 exactly against his interest, bringing immediately to her thoughts all
7037 those parts of his conduct which were least excusable.
7038
7039 She had some satisfaction in finding that he was really going out of
7040 Bath the next morning, going early, and that he would be gone the
7041 greater part of two days. He was invited again to Camden Place the
7042 very evening of his return; but from Thursday to Saturday evening his
7043 absence was certain. It was bad enough that a Mrs Clay should be
7044 always before her; but that a deeper hypocrite should be added to their
7045 party, seemed the destruction of everything like peace and comfort. It
7046 was so humiliating to reflect on the constant deception practised on
7047 her father and Elizabeth; to consider the various sources of
7048 mortification preparing for them! Mrs Clay's selfishness was not so
7049 complicate nor so revolting as his; and Anne would have compounded for
7050 the marriage at once, with all its evils, to be clear of Mr Elliot's
7051 subtleties in endeavouring to prevent it.
7052
7053 On Friday morning she meant to go very early to Lady Russell, and
7054 accomplish the necessary communication; and she would have gone
7055 directly after breakfast, but that Mrs Clay was also going out on some
7056 obliging purpose of saving her sister trouble, which determined her to
7057 wait till she might be safe from such a companion. She saw Mrs Clay
7058 fairly off, therefore, before she began to talk of spending the morning
7059 in Rivers Street.
7060
7061 "Very well," said Elizabeth, "I have nothing to send but my love. Oh!
7062 you may as well take back that tiresome book she would lend me, and
7063 pretend I have read it through. I really cannot be plaguing myself for
7064 ever with all the new poems and states of the nation that come out.
7065 Lady Russell quite bores one with her new publications. You need not
7066 tell her so, but I thought her dress hideous the other night. I used
7067 to think she had some taste in dress, but I was ashamed of her at the
7068 concert. Something so formal and arrange in her air! and she sits so
7069 upright! My best love, of course."
7070
7071 "And mine," added Sir Walter. "Kindest regards. And you may say, that
7072 I mean to call upon her soon. Make a civil message; but I shall only
7073 leave my card. Morning visits are never fair by women at her time of
7074 life, who make themselves up so little. If she would only wear rouge
7075 she would not be afraid of being seen; but last time I called, I
7076 observed the blinds were let down immediately."
7077
7078 While her father spoke, there was a knock at the door. Who could it
7079 be? Anne, remembering the preconcerted visits, at all hours, of Mr
7080 Elliot, would have expected him, but for his known engagement seven
7081 miles off. After the usual period of suspense, the usual sounds of
7082 approach were heard, and "Mr and Mrs Charles Musgrove" were ushered
7083 into the room.
7084
7085 Surprise was the strongest emotion raised by their appearance; but Anne
7086 was really glad to see them; and the others were not so sorry but that
7087 they could put on a decent air of welcome; and as soon as it became
7088 clear that these, their nearest relations, were not arrived with any
7089 views of accommodation in that house, Sir Walter and Elizabeth were
7090 able to rise in cordiality, and do the honours of it very well. They
7091 were come to Bath for a few days with Mrs Musgrove, and were at the
7092 White Hart. So much was pretty soon understood; but till Sir Walter
7093 and Elizabeth were walking Mary into the other drawing-room, and
7094 regaling themselves with her admiration, Anne could not draw upon
7095 Charles's brain for a regular history of their coming, or an
7096 explanation of some smiling hints of particular business, which had
7097 been ostentatiously dropped by Mary, as well as of some apparent
7098 confusion as to whom their party consisted of.
7099
7100 She then found that it consisted of Mrs Musgrove, Henrietta, and
7101 Captain Harville, beside their two selves. He gave her a very plain,
7102 intelligible account of the whole; a narration in which she saw a great
7103 deal of most characteristic proceeding. The scheme had received its
7104 first impulse by Captain Harville's wanting to come to Bath on
7105 business. He had begun to talk of it a week ago; and by way of doing
7106 something, as shooting was over, Charles had proposed coming with him,
7107 and Mrs Harville had seemed to like the idea of it very much, as an
7108 advantage to her husband; but Mary could not bear to be left, and had
7109 made herself so unhappy about it, that for a day or two everything
7110 seemed to be in suspense, or at an end. But then, it had been taken up
7111 by his father and mother. His mother had some old friends in Bath whom
7112 she wanted to see; it was thought a good opportunity for Henrietta to
7113 come and buy wedding-clothes for herself and her sister; and, in short,
7114 it ended in being his mother's party, that everything might be
7115 comfortable and easy to Captain Harville; and he and Mary were included
7116 in it by way of general convenience. They had arrived late the night
7117 before. Mrs Harville, her children, and Captain Benwick, remained with
7118 Mr Musgrove and Louisa at Uppercross.
7119
7120 Anne's only surprise was, that affairs should be in forwardness enough
7121 for Henrietta's wedding-clothes to be talked of. She had imagined such
7122 difficulties of fortune to exist there as must prevent the marriage
7123 from being near at hand; but she learned from Charles that, very
7124 recently, (since Mary's last letter to herself), Charles Hayter had
7125 been applied to by a friend to hold a living for a youth who could not
7126 possibly claim it under many years; and that on the strength of his
7127 present income, with almost a certainty of something more permanent
7128 long before the term in question, the two families had consented to the
7129 young people's wishes, and that their marriage was likely to take place
7130 in a few months, quite as soon as Louisa's. "And a very good living it
7131 was," Charles added: "only five-and-twenty miles from Uppercross, and
7132 in a very fine country: fine part of Dorsetshire. In the centre of
7133 some of the best preserves in the kingdom, surrounded by three great
7134 proprietors, each more careful and jealous than the other; and to two
7135 of the three at least, Charles Hayter might get a special
7136 recommendation. Not that he will value it as he ought," he observed,
7137 "Charles is too cool about sporting. That's the worst of him."
7138
7139 "I am extremely glad, indeed," cried Anne, "particularly glad that this
7140 should happen; and that of two sisters, who both deserve equally well,
7141 and who have always been such good friends, the pleasant prospect of
7142 one should not be dimming those of the other--that they should be so
7143 equal in their prosperity and comfort. I hope your father and mother
7144 are quite happy with regard to both."
7145
7146 "Oh! yes. My father would be well pleased if the gentlemen were
7147 richer, but he has no other fault to find. Money, you know, coming
7148 down with money--two daughters at once--it cannot be a very agreeable
7149 operation, and it streightens him as to many things. However, I do not
7150 mean to say they have not a right to it. It is very fit they should
7151 have daughters' shares; and I am sure he has always been a very kind,
7152 liberal father to me. Mary does not above half like Henrietta's match.
7153 She never did, you know. But she does not do him justice, nor think
7154 enough about Winthrop. I cannot make her attend to the value of the
7155 property. It is a very fair match, as times go; and I have liked
7156 Charles Hayter all my life, and I shall not leave off now."
7157
7158 "Such excellent parents as Mr and Mrs Musgrove," exclaimed Anne,
7159 "should be happy in their children's marriages. They do everything to
7160 confer happiness, I am sure. What a blessing to young people to be in
7161 such hands! Your father and mother seem so totally free from all those
7162 ambitious feelings which have led to so much misconduct and misery,
7163 both in young and old. I hope you think Louisa perfectly recovered
7164 now?"
7165
7166 He answered rather hesitatingly, "Yes, I believe I do; very much
7167 recovered; but she is altered; there is no running or jumping about, no
7168 laughing or dancing; it is quite different. If one happens only to
7169 shut the door a little hard, she starts and wriggles like a young
7170 dab-chick in the water; and Benwick sits at her elbow, reading verses,
7171 or whispering to her, all day long."
7172
7173 Anne could not help laughing. "That cannot be much to your taste, I
7174 know," said she; "but I do believe him to be an excellent young man."
7175
7176 "To be sure he is. Nobody doubts it; and I hope you do not think I am
7177 so illiberal as to want every man to have the same objects and
7178 pleasures as myself. I have a great value for Benwick; and when one
7179 can but get him to talk, he has plenty to say. His reading has done
7180 him no harm, for he has fought as well as read. He is a brave fellow.
7181 I got more acquainted with him last Monday than ever I did before. We
7182 had a famous set-to at rat-hunting all the morning in my father's great
7183 barns; and he played his part so well that I have liked him the better
7184 ever since."
7185
7186 Here they were interrupted by the absolute necessity of Charles's
7187 following the others to admire mirrors and china; but Anne had heard
7188 enough to understand the present state of Uppercross, and rejoice in
7189 its happiness; and though she sighed as she rejoiced, her sigh had none
7190 of the ill-will of envy in it. She would certainly have risen to their
7191 blessings if she could, but she did not want to lessen theirs.
7192
7193 The visit passed off altogether in high good humour. Mary was in
7194 excellent spirits, enjoying the gaiety and the change, and so well
7195 satisfied with the journey in her mother-in-law's carriage with four
7196 horses, and with her own complete independence of Camden Place, that
7197 she was exactly in a temper to admire everything as she ought, and
7198 enter most readily into all the superiorities of the house, as they
7199 were detailed to her. She had no demands on her father or sister, and
7200 her consequence was just enough increased by their handsome
7201 drawing-rooms.
7202
7203 Elizabeth was, for a short time, suffering a good deal. She felt that
7204 Mrs Musgrove and all her party ought to be asked to dine with them; but
7205 she could not bear to have the difference of style, the reduction of
7206 servants, which a dinner must betray, witnessed by those who had been
7207 always so inferior to the Elliots of Kellynch. It was a struggle
7208 between propriety and vanity; but vanity got the better, and then
7209 Elizabeth was happy again. These were her internal persuasions: "Old
7210 fashioned notions; country hospitality; we do not profess to give
7211 dinners; few people in Bath do; Lady Alicia never does; did not even
7212 ask her own sister's family, though they were here a month: and I dare
7213 say it would be very inconvenient to Mrs Musgrove; put her quite out of
7214 her way. I am sure she would rather not come; she cannot feel easy
7215 with us. I will ask them all for an evening; that will be much better;
7216 that will be a novelty and a treat. They have not seen two such
7217 drawing rooms before. They will be delighted to come to-morrow
7218 evening. It shall be a regular party, small, but most elegant." And
7219 this satisfied Elizabeth: and when the invitation was given to the two
7220 present, and promised for the absent, Mary was as completely satisfied.
7221 She was particularly asked to meet Mr Elliot, and be introduced to Lady
7222 Dalrymple and Miss Carteret, who were fortunately already engaged to
7223 come; and she could not have received a more gratifying attention.
7224 Miss Elliot was to have the honour of calling on Mrs Musgrove in the
7225 course of the morning; and Anne walked off with Charles and Mary, to go
7226 and see her and Henrietta directly.
7227
7228 Her plan of sitting with Lady Russell must give way for the present.
7229 They all three called in Rivers Street for a couple of minutes; but
7230 Anne convinced herself that a day's delay of the intended communication
7231 could be of no consequence, and hastened forward to the White Hart, to
7232 see again the friends and companions of the last autumn, with an
7233 eagerness of good-will which many associations contributed to form.
7234
7235 They found Mrs Musgrove and her daughter within, and by themselves, and
7236 Anne had the kindest welcome from each. Henrietta was exactly in that
7237 state of recently-improved views, of fresh-formed happiness, which made
7238 her full of regard and interest for everybody she had ever liked before
7239 at all; and Mrs Musgrove's real affection had been won by her
7240 usefulness when they were in distress. It was a heartiness, and a
7241 warmth, and a sincerity which Anne delighted in the more, from the sad
7242 want of such blessings at home. She was entreated to give them as much
7243 of her time as possible, invited for every day and all day long, or
7244 rather claimed as part of the family; and, in return, she naturally
7245 fell into all her wonted ways of attention and assistance, and on
7246 Charles's leaving them together, was listening to Mrs Musgrove's
7247 history of Louisa, and to Henrietta's of herself, giving opinions on
7248 business, and recommendations to shops; with intervals of every help
7249 which Mary required, from altering her ribbon to settling her accounts;
7250 from finding her keys, and assorting her trinkets, to trying to
7251 convince her that she was not ill-used by anybody; which Mary, well
7252 amused as she generally was, in her station at a window overlooking the
7253 entrance to the Pump Room, could not but have her moments of imagining.
7254
7255 A morning of thorough confusion was to be expected. A large party in
7256 an hotel ensured a quick-changing, unsettled scene. One five minutes
7257 brought a note, the next a parcel; and Anne had not been there half an
7258 hour, when their dining-room, spacious as it was, seemed more than half
7259 filled: a party of steady old friends were seated around Mrs Musgrove,
7260 and Charles came back with Captains Harville and Wentworth. The
7261 appearance of the latter could not be more than the surprise of the
7262 moment. It was impossible for her to have forgotten to feel that this
7263 arrival of their common friends must be soon bringing them together
7264 again. Their last meeting had been most important in opening his
7265 feelings; she had derived from it a delightful conviction; but she
7266 feared from his looks, that the same unfortunate persuasion, which had
7267 hastened him away from the Concert Room, still governed. He did not
7268 seem to want to be near enough for conversation.
7269
7270 She tried to be calm, and leave things to take their course, and tried
7271 to dwell much on this argument of rational dependence:--"Surely, if
7272 there be constant attachment on each side, our hearts must understand
7273 each other ere long. We are not boy and girl, to be captiously
7274 irritable, misled by every moment's inadvertence, and wantonly playing
7275 with our own happiness." And yet, a few minutes afterwards, she felt
7276 as if their being in company with each other, under their present
7277 circumstances, could only be exposing them to inadvertencies and
7278 misconstructions of the most mischievous kind.
7279
7280 "Anne," cried Mary, still at her window, "there is Mrs Clay, I am sure,
7281 standing under the colonnade, and a gentleman with her. I saw them
7282 turn the corner from Bath Street just now. They seemed deep in talk.
7283 Who is it? Come, and tell me. Good heavens! I recollect. It is Mr
7284 Elliot himself."
7285
7286 "No," cried Anne, quickly, "it cannot be Mr Elliot, I assure you. He
7287 was to leave Bath at nine this morning, and does not come back till
7288 to-morrow."
7289
7290 As she spoke, she felt that Captain Wentworth was looking at her, the
7291 consciousness of which vexed and embarrassed her, and made her regret
7292 that she had said so much, simple as it was.
7293
7294 Mary, resenting that she should be supposed not to know her own cousin,
7295 began talking very warmly about the family features, and protesting
7296 still more positively that it was Mr Elliot, calling again upon Anne to
7297 come and look for herself, but Anne did not mean to stir, and tried to
7298 be cool and unconcerned. Her distress returned, however, on perceiving
7299 smiles and intelligent glances pass between two or three of the lady
7300 visitors, as if they believed themselves quite in the secret. It was
7301 evident that the report concerning her had spread, and a short pause
7302 succeeded, which seemed to ensure that it would now spread farther.
7303
7304 "Do come, Anne," cried Mary, "come and look yourself. You will be too
7305 late if you do not make haste. They are parting; they are shaking
7306 hands. He is turning away. Not know Mr Elliot, indeed! You seem to
7307 have forgot all about Lyme."
7308
7309 To pacify Mary, and perhaps screen her own embarrassment, Anne did move
7310 quietly to the window. She was just in time to ascertain that it
7311 really was Mr Elliot, which she had never believed, before he
7312 disappeared on one side, as Mrs Clay walked quickly off on the other;
7313 and checking the surprise which she could not but feel at such an
7314 appearance of friendly conference between two persons of totally
7315 opposite interest, she calmly said, "Yes, it is Mr Elliot, certainly.
7316 He has changed his hour of going, I suppose, that is all, or I may be
7317 mistaken, I might not attend;" and walked back to her chair,
7318 recomposed, and with the comfortable hope of having acquitted herself
7319 well.
7320
7321 The visitors took their leave; and Charles, having civilly seen them
7322 off, and then made a face at them, and abused them for coming, began
7323 with--
7324
7325 "Well, mother, I have done something for you that you will like. I
7326 have been to the theatre, and secured a box for to-morrow night. A'n't
7327 I a good boy? I know you love a play; and there is room for us all.
7328 It holds nine. I have engaged Captain Wentworth. Anne will not be
7329 sorry to join us, I am sure. We all like a play. Have not I done
7330 well, mother?"
7331
7332 Mrs Musgrove was good humouredly beginning to express her perfect
7333 readiness for the play, if Henrietta and all the others liked it, when
7334 Mary eagerly interrupted her by exclaiming--
7335
7336 "Good heavens, Charles! how can you think of such a thing? Take a box
7337 for to-morrow night! Have you forgot that we are engaged to Camden
7338 Place to-morrow night? and that we were most particularly asked to meet
7339 Lady Dalrymple and her daughter, and Mr Elliot, and all the principal
7340 family connexions, on purpose to be introduced to them? How can you be
7341 so forgetful?"
7342
7343 "Phoo! phoo!" replied Charles, "what's an evening party? Never worth
7344 remembering. Your father might have asked us to dinner, I think, if he
7345 had wanted to see us. You may do as you like, but I shall go to the
7346 play."
7347
7348 "Oh! Charles, I declare it will be too abominable if you do, when you
7349 promised to go."
7350
7351 "No, I did not promise. I only smirked and bowed, and said the word
7352 'happy.' There was no promise."
7353
7354 "But you must go, Charles. It would be unpardonable to fail. We were
7355 asked on purpose to be introduced. There was always such a great
7356 connexion between the Dalrymples and ourselves. Nothing ever happened
7357 on either side that was not announced immediately. We are quite near
7358 relations, you know; and Mr Elliot too, whom you ought so particularly
7359 to be acquainted with! Every attention is due to Mr Elliot. Consider,
7360 my father's heir: the future representative of the family."
7361
7362 "Don't talk to me about heirs and representatives," cried Charles. "I
7363 am not one of those who neglect the reigning power to bow to the rising
7364 sun. If I would not go for the sake of your father, I should think it
7365 scandalous to go for the sake of his heir. What is Mr Elliot to me?"
7366 The careless expression was life to Anne, who saw that Captain
7367 Wentworth was all attention, looking and listening with his whole soul;
7368 and that the last words brought his enquiring eyes from Charles to
7369 herself.
7370
7371 Charles and Mary still talked on in the same style; he, half serious
7372 and half jesting, maintaining the scheme for the play, and she,
7373 invariably serious, most warmly opposing it, and not omitting to make
7374 it known that, however determined to go to Camden Place herself, she
7375 should not think herself very well used, if they went to the play
7376 without her. Mrs Musgrove interposed.
7377
7378 "We had better put it off. Charles, you had much better go back and
7379 change the box for Tuesday. It would be a pity to be divided, and we
7380 should be losing Miss Anne, too, if there is a party at her father's;
7381 and I am sure neither Henrietta nor I should care at all for the play,
7382 if Miss Anne could not be with us."
7383
7384 Anne felt truly obliged to her for such kindness; and quite as much so
7385 for the opportunity it gave her of decidedly saying--
7386
7387 "If it depended only on my inclination, ma'am, the party at home
7388 (excepting on Mary's account) would not be the smallest impediment. I
7389 have no pleasure in the sort of meeting, and should be too happy to
7390 change it for a play, and with you. But, it had better not be
7391 attempted, perhaps." She had spoken it; but she trembled when it was
7392 done, conscious that her words were listened to, and daring not even to
7393 try to observe their effect.
7394
7395 It was soon generally agreed that Tuesday should be the day; Charles
7396 only reserving the advantage of still teasing his wife, by persisting
7397 that he would go to the play to-morrow if nobody else would.
7398
7399 Captain Wentworth left his seat, and walked to the fire-place; probably
7400 for the sake of walking away from it soon afterwards, and taking a
7401 station, with less bare-faced design, by Anne.
7402
7403 "You have not been long enough in Bath," said he, "to enjoy the evening
7404 parties of the place."
7405
7406 "Oh! no. The usual character of them has nothing for me. I am no
7407 card-player."
7408
7409 "You were not formerly, I know. You did not use to like cards; but
7410 time makes many changes."
7411
7412 "I am not yet so much changed," cried Anne, and stopped, fearing she
7413 hardly knew what misconstruction. After waiting a few moments he said,
7414 and as if it were the result of immediate feeling, "It is a period,
7415 indeed! Eight years and a half is a period."
7416
7417 Whether he would have proceeded farther was left to Anne's imagination
7418 to ponder over in a calmer hour; for while still hearing the sounds he
7419 had uttered, she was startled to other subjects by Henrietta, eager to
7420 make use of the present leisure for getting out, and calling on her
7421 companions to lose no time, lest somebody else should come in.
7422
7423 They were obliged to move. Anne talked of being perfectly ready, and
7424 tried to look it; but she felt that could Henrietta have known the
7425 regret and reluctance of her heart in quitting that chair, in preparing
7426 to quit the room, she would have found, in all her own sensations for
7427 her cousin, in the very security of his affection, wherewith to pity
7428 her.
7429
7430 Their preparations, however, were stopped short. Alarming sounds were
7431 heard; other visitors approached, and the door was thrown open for Sir
7432 Walter and Miss Elliot, whose entrance seemed to give a general chill.
7433 Anne felt an instant oppression, and wherever she looked saw symptoms
7434 of the same. The comfort, the freedom, the gaiety of the room was
7435 over, hushed into cold composure, determined silence, or insipid talk,
7436 to meet the heartless elegance of her father and sister. How
7437 mortifying to feel that it was so!
7438
7439 Her jealous eye was satisfied in one particular. Captain Wentworth was
7440 acknowledged again by each, by Elizabeth more graciously than before.
7441 She even addressed him once, and looked at him more than once.
7442 Elizabeth was, in fact, revolving a great measure. The sequel
7443 explained it. After the waste of a few minutes in saying the proper
7444 nothings, she began to give the invitation which was to comprise all
7445 the remaining dues of the Musgroves. "To-morrow evening, to meet a few
7446 friends: no formal party." It was all said very gracefully, and the
7447 cards with which she had provided herself, the "Miss Elliot at home,"
7448 were laid on the table, with a courteous, comprehensive smile to all,
7449 and one smile and one card more decidedly for Captain Wentworth. The
7450 truth was, that Elizabeth had been long enough in Bath to understand
7451 the importance of a man of such an air and appearance as his. The past
7452 was nothing. The present was that Captain Wentworth would move about
7453 well in her drawing-room. The card was pointedly given, and Sir Walter
7454 and Elizabeth arose and disappeared.
7455
7456 The interruption had been short, though severe, and ease and animation
7457 returned to most of those they left as the door shut them out, but not
7458 to Anne. She could think only of the invitation she had with such
7459 astonishment witnessed, and of the manner in which it had been
7460 received; a manner of doubtful meaning, of surprise rather than
7461 gratification, of polite acknowledgement rather than acceptance. She
7462 knew him; she saw disdain in his eye, and could not venture to believe
7463 that he had determined to accept such an offering, as an atonement for
7464 all the insolence of the past. Her spirits sank. He held the card in
7465 his hand after they were gone, as if deeply considering it.
7466
7467 "Only think of Elizabeth's including everybody!" whispered Mary very
7468 audibly. "I do not wonder Captain Wentworth is delighted! You see he
7469 cannot put the card out of his hand."
7470
7471 Anne caught his eye, saw his cheeks glow, and his mouth form itself
7472 into a momentary expression of contempt, and turned away, that she
7473 might neither see nor hear more to vex her.
7474
7475 The party separated. The gentlemen had their own pursuits, the ladies
7476 proceeded on their own business, and they met no more while Anne
7477 belonged to them. She was earnestly begged to return and dine, and
7478 give them all the rest of the day, but her spirits had been so long
7479 exerted that at present she felt unequal to more, and fit only for
7480 home, where she might be sure of being as silent as she chose.
7481
7482 Promising to be with them the whole of the following morning,
7483 therefore, she closed the fatigues of the present by a toilsome walk to
7484 Camden Place, there to spend the evening chiefly in listening to the
7485 busy arrangements of Elizabeth and Mrs Clay for the morrow's party, the
7486 frequent enumeration of the persons invited, and the continually
7487 improving detail of all the embellishments which were to make it the
7488 most completely elegant of its kind in Bath, while harassing herself
7489 with the never-ending question, of whether Captain Wentworth would come
7490 or not? They were reckoning him as certain, but with her it was a
7491 gnawing solicitude never appeased for five minutes together. She
7492 generally thought he would come, because she generally thought he
7493 ought; but it was a case which she could not so shape into any positive
7494 act of duty or discretion, as inevitably to defy the suggestions of
7495 very opposite feelings.
7496
7497 She only roused herself from the broodings of this restless agitation,
7498 to let Mrs Clay know that she had been seen with Mr Elliot three hours
7499 after his being supposed to be out of Bath, for having watched in vain
7500 for some intimation of the interview from the lady herself, she
7501 determined to mention it, and it seemed to her there was guilt in Mrs
7502 Clay's face as she listened. It was transient: cleared away in an
7503 instant; but Anne could imagine she read there the consciousness of
7504 having, by some complication of mutual trick, or some overbearing
7505 authority of his, been obliged to attend (perhaps for half an hour) to
7506 his lectures and restrictions on her designs on Sir Walter. She
7507 exclaimed, however, with a very tolerable imitation of nature:--
7508
7509 "Oh! dear! very true. Only think, Miss Elliot, to my great surprise I
7510 met with Mr Elliot in Bath Street. I was never more astonished. He
7511 turned back and walked with me to the Pump Yard. He had been prevented
7512 setting off for Thornberry, but I really forget by what; for I was in a
7513 hurry, and could not much attend, and I can only answer for his being
7514 determined not to be delayed in his return. He wanted to know how
7515 early he might be admitted to-morrow. He was full of 'to-morrow,' and
7516 it is very evident that I have been full of it too, ever since I
7517 entered the house, and learnt the extension of your plan and all that
7518 had happened, or my seeing him could never have gone so entirely out of
7519 my head."
7520
7521
7522
7523 Chapter 23
7524
7525
7526 One day only had passed since Anne's conversation with Mrs Smith; but a
7527 keener interest had succeeded, and she was now so little touched by Mr
7528 Elliot's conduct, except by its effects in one quarter, that it became
7529 a matter of course the next morning, still to defer her explanatory
7530 visit in Rivers Street. She had promised to be with the Musgroves from
7531 breakfast to dinner. Her faith was plighted, and Mr Elliot's
7532 character, like the Sultaness Scheherazade's head, must live another
7533 day.
7534
7535 She could not keep her appointment punctually, however; the weather was
7536 unfavourable, and she had grieved over the rain on her friends'
7537 account, and felt it very much on her own, before she was able to
7538 attempt the walk. When she reached the White Hart, and made her way to
7539 the proper apartment, she found herself neither arriving quite in time,
7540 nor the first to arrive. The party before her were, Mrs Musgrove,
7541 talking to Mrs Croft, and Captain Harville to Captain Wentworth; and
7542 she immediately heard that Mary and Henrietta, too impatient to wait,
7543 had gone out the moment it had cleared, but would be back again soon,
7544 and that the strictest injunctions had been left with Mrs Musgrove to
7545 keep her there till they returned. She had only to submit, sit down,
7546 be outwardly composed, and feel herself plunged at once in all the
7547 agitations which she had merely laid her account of tasting a little
7548 before the morning closed. There was no delay, no waste of time. She
7549 was deep in the happiness of such misery, or the misery of such
7550 happiness, instantly. Two minutes after her entering the room, Captain
7551 Wentworth said--
7552
7553 "We will write the letter we were talking of, Harville, now, if you
7554 will give me materials."
7555
7556 Materials were at hand, on a separate table; he went to it, and nearly
7557 turning his back to them all, was engrossed by writing.
7558
7559 Mrs Musgrove was giving Mrs Croft the history of her eldest daughter's
7560 engagement, and just in that inconvenient tone of voice which was
7561 perfectly audible while it pretended to be a whisper. Anne felt that
7562 she did not belong to the conversation, and yet, as Captain Harville
7563 seemed thoughtful and not disposed to talk, she could not avoid hearing
7564 many undesirable particulars; such as, "how Mr Musgrove and my brother
7565 Hayter had met again and again to talk it over; what my brother Hayter
7566 had said one day, and what Mr Musgrove had proposed the next, and what
7567 had occurred to my sister Hayter, and what the young people had wished,
7568 and what I said at first I never could consent to, but was afterwards
7569 persuaded to think might do very well," and a great deal in the same
7570 style of open-hearted communication: minutiae which, even with every
7571 advantage of taste and delicacy, which good Mrs Musgrove could not
7572 give, could be properly interesting only to the principals. Mrs Croft
7573 was attending with great good-humour, and whenever she spoke at all, it
7574 was very sensibly. Anne hoped the gentlemen might each be too much
7575 self-occupied to hear.
7576
7577 "And so, ma'am, all these thing considered," said Mrs Musgrove, in her
7578 powerful whisper, "though we could have wished it different, yet,
7579 altogether, we did not think it fair to stand out any longer, for
7580 Charles Hayter was quite wild about it, and Henrietta was pretty near
7581 as bad; and so we thought they had better marry at once, and make the
7582 best of it, as many others have done before them. At any rate, said I,
7583 it will be better than a long engagement."
7584
7585 "That is precisely what I was going to observe," cried Mrs Croft. "I
7586 would rather have young people settle on a small income at once, and
7587 have to struggle with a few difficulties together, than be involved in
7588 a long engagement. I always think that no mutual--"
7589
7590 "Oh! dear Mrs Croft," cried Mrs Musgrove, unable to let her finish her
7591 speech, "there is nothing I so abominate for young people as a long
7592 engagement. It is what I always protested against for my children. It
7593 is all very well, I used to say, for young people to be engaged, if
7594 there is a certainty of their being able to marry in six months, or
7595 even in twelve; but a long engagement--"
7596
7597 "Yes, dear ma'am," said Mrs Croft, "or an uncertain engagement, an
7598 engagement which may be long. To begin without knowing that at such a
7599 time there will be the means of marrying, I hold to be very unsafe and
7600 unwise, and what I think all parents should prevent as far as they can."
7601
7602 Anne found an unexpected interest here. She felt its application to
7603 herself, felt it in a nervous thrill all over her; and at the same
7604 moment that her eyes instinctively glanced towards the distant table,
7605 Captain Wentworth's pen ceased to move, his head was raised, pausing,
7606 listening, and he turned round the next instant to give a look, one
7607 quick, conscious look at her.
7608
7609 The two ladies continued to talk, to re-urge the same admitted truths,
7610 and enforce them with such examples of the ill effect of a contrary
7611 practice as had fallen within their observation, but Anne heard nothing
7612 distinctly; it was only a buzz of words in her ear, her mind was in
7613 confusion.
7614
7615 Captain Harville, who had in truth been hearing none of it, now left
7616 his seat, and moved to a window, and Anne seeming to watch him, though
7617 it was from thorough absence of mind, became gradually sensible that he
7618 was inviting her to join him where he stood. He looked at her with a
7619 smile, and a little motion of the head, which expressed, "Come to me, I
7620 have something to say;" and the unaffected, easy kindness of manner
7621 which denoted the feelings of an older acquaintance than he really was,
7622 strongly enforced the invitation. She roused herself and went to him.
7623 The window at which he stood was at the other end of the room from
7624 where the two ladies were sitting, and though nearer to Captain
7625 Wentworth's table, not very near. As she joined him, Captain
7626 Harville's countenance re-assumed the serious, thoughtful expression
7627 which seemed its natural character.
7628
7629 "Look here," said he, unfolding a parcel in his hand, and displaying a
7630 small miniature painting, "do you know who that is?"
7631
7632 "Certainly: Captain Benwick."
7633
7634 "Yes, and you may guess who it is for. But," (in a deep tone,) "it was
7635 not done for her. Miss Elliot, do you remember our walking together at
7636 Lyme, and grieving for him? I little thought then--but no matter.
7637 This was drawn at the Cape. He met with a clever young German artist
7638 at the Cape, and in compliance with a promise to my poor sister, sat to
7639 him, and was bringing it home for her; and I have now the charge of
7640 getting it properly set for another! It was a commission to me! But
7641 who else was there to employ? I hope I can allow for him. I am not
7642 sorry, indeed, to make it over to another. He undertakes it;" (looking
7643 towards Captain Wentworth,) "he is writing about it now." And with a
7644 quivering lip he wound up the whole by adding, "Poor Fanny! she would
7645 not have forgotten him so soon!"
7646
7647 "No," replied Anne, in a low, feeling voice. "That I can easily
7648 believe."
7649
7650 "It was not in her nature. She doted on him."
7651
7652 "It would not be the nature of any woman who truly loved."
7653
7654 Captain Harville smiled, as much as to say, "Do you claim that for your
7655 sex?" and she answered the question, smiling also, "Yes. We certainly
7656 do not forget you as soon as you forget us. It is, perhaps, our fate
7657 rather than our merit. We cannot help ourselves. We live at home,
7658 quiet, confined, and our feelings prey upon us. You are forced on
7659 exertion. You have always a profession, pursuits, business of some
7660 sort or other, to take you back into the world immediately, and
7661 continual occupation and change soon weaken impressions."
7662
7663 "Granting your assertion that the world does all this so soon for men
7664 (which, however, I do not think I shall grant), it does not apply to
7665 Benwick. He has not been forced upon any exertion. The peace turned
7666 him on shore at the very moment, and he has been living with us, in our
7667 little family circle, ever since."
7668
7669 "True," said Anne, "very true; I did not recollect; but what shall we
7670 say now, Captain Harville? If the change be not from outward
7671 circumstances, it must be from within; it must be nature, man's nature,
7672 which has done the business for Captain Benwick."
7673
7674 "No, no, it is not man's nature. I will not allow it to be more man's
7675 nature than woman's to be inconstant and forget those they do love, or
7676 have loved. I believe the reverse. I believe in a true analogy
7677 between our bodily frames and our mental; and that as our bodies are
7678 the strongest, so are our feelings; capable of bearing most rough
7679 usage, and riding out the heaviest weather."
7680
7681 "Your feelings may be the strongest," replied Anne, "but the same
7682 spirit of analogy will authorise me to assert that ours are the most
7683 tender. Man is more robust than woman, but he is not longer lived;
7684 which exactly explains my view of the nature of their attachments.
7685 Nay, it would be too hard upon you, if it were otherwise. You have
7686 difficulties, and privations, and dangers enough to struggle with. You
7687 are always labouring and toiling, exposed to every risk and hardship.
7688 Your home, country, friends, all quitted. Neither time, nor health,
7689 nor life, to be called your own. It would be hard, indeed" (with a
7690 faltering voice), "if woman's feelings were to be added to all this."
7691
7692 "We shall never agree upon this question," Captain Harville was
7693 beginning to say, when a slight noise called their attention to Captain
7694 Wentworth's hitherto perfectly quiet division of the room. It was
7695 nothing more than that his pen had fallen down; but Anne was startled
7696 at finding him nearer than she had supposed, and half inclined to
7697 suspect that the pen had only fallen because he had been occupied by
7698 them, striving to catch sounds, which yet she did not think he could
7699 have caught.
7700
7701 "Have you finished your letter?" said Captain Harville.
7702
7703 "Not quite, a few lines more. I shall have done in five minutes."
7704
7705 "There is no hurry on my side. I am only ready whenever you are. I am
7706 in very good anchorage here," (smiling at Anne,) "well supplied, and
7707 want for nothing. No hurry for a signal at all. Well, Miss Elliot,"
7708 (lowering his voice,) "as I was saying we shall never agree, I suppose,
7709 upon this point. No man and woman, would, probably. But let me
7710 observe that all histories are against you--all stories, prose and
7711 verse. If I had such a memory as Benwick, I could bring you fifty
7712 quotations in a moment on my side the argument, and I do not think I
7713 ever opened a book in my life which had not something to say upon
7714 woman's inconstancy. Songs and proverbs, all talk of woman's
7715 fickleness. But perhaps you will say, these were all written by men."
7716
7717 "Perhaps I shall. Yes, yes, if you please, no reference to examples in
7718 books. Men have had every advantage of us in telling their own story.
7719 Education has been theirs in so much higher a degree; the pen has been
7720 in their hands. I will not allow books to prove anything."
7721
7722 "But how shall we prove anything?"
7723
7724 "We never shall. We never can expect to prove any thing upon such a
7725 point. It is a difference of opinion which does not admit of proof.
7726 We each begin, probably, with a little bias towards our own sex; and
7727 upon that bias build every circumstance in favour of it which has
7728 occurred within our own circle; many of which circumstances (perhaps
7729 those very cases which strike us the most) may be precisely such as
7730 cannot be brought forward without betraying a confidence, or in some
7731 respect saying what should not be said."
7732
7733 "Ah!" cried Captain Harville, in a tone of strong feeling, "if I could
7734 but make you comprehend what a man suffers when he takes a last look at
7735 his wife and children, and watches the boat that he has sent them off
7736 in, as long as it is in sight, and then turns away and says, 'God knows
7737 whether we ever meet again!' And then, if I could convey to you the
7738 glow of his soul when he does see them again; when, coming back after a
7739 twelvemonth's absence, perhaps, and obliged to put into another port,
7740 he calculates how soon it be possible to get them there, pretending to
7741 deceive himself, and saying, 'They cannot be here till such a day,' but
7742 all the while hoping for them twelve hours sooner, and seeing them
7743 arrive at last, as if Heaven had given them wings, by many hours sooner
7744 still! If I could explain to you all this, and all that a man can bear
7745 and do, and glories to do, for the sake of these treasures of his
7746 existence! I speak, you know, only of such men as have hearts!"
7747 pressing his own with emotion.
7748
7749 "Oh!" cried Anne eagerly, "I hope I do justice to all that is felt by
7750 you, and by those who resemble you. God forbid that I should
7751 undervalue the warm and faithful feelings of any of my
7752 fellow-creatures! I should deserve utter contempt if I dared to
7753 suppose that true attachment and constancy were known only by woman.
7754 No, I believe you capable of everything great and good in your married
7755 lives. I believe you equal to every important exertion, and to every
7756 domestic forbearance, so long as--if I may be allowed the
7757 expression--so long as you have an object. I mean while the woman you
7758 love lives, and lives for you. All the privilege I claim for my own
7759 sex (it is not a very enviable one; you need not covet it), is that of
7760 loving longest, when existence or when hope is gone."
7761
7762 She could not immediately have uttered another sentence; her heart was
7763 too full, her breath too much oppressed.
7764
7765 "You are a good soul," cried Captain Harville, putting his hand on her
7766 arm, quite affectionately. "There is no quarrelling with you. And
7767 when I think of Benwick, my tongue is tied."
7768
7769 Their attention was called towards the others. Mrs Croft was taking
7770 leave.
7771
7772 "Here, Frederick, you and I part company, I believe," said she. "I am
7773 going home, and you have an engagement with your friend. To-night we
7774 may have the pleasure of all meeting again at your party," (turning to
7775 Anne.) "We had your sister's card yesterday, and I understood
7776 Frederick had a card too, though I did not see it; and you are
7777 disengaged, Frederick, are you not, as well as ourselves?"
7778
7779 Captain Wentworth was folding up a letter in great haste, and either
7780 could not or would not answer fully.
7781
7782 "Yes," said he, "very true; here we separate, but Harville and I shall
7783 soon be after you; that is, Harville, if you are ready, I am in half a
7784 minute. I know you will not be sorry to be off. I shall be at your
7785 service in half a minute."
7786
7787 Mrs Croft left them, and Captain Wentworth, having sealed his letter
7788 with great rapidity, was indeed ready, and had even a hurried, agitated
7789 air, which shewed impatience to be gone. Anne knew not how to
7790 understand it. She had the kindest "Good morning, God bless you!" from
7791 Captain Harville, but from him not a word, nor a look! He had passed
7792 out of the room without a look!
7793
7794 She had only time, however, to move closer to the table where he had
7795 been writing, when footsteps were heard returning; the door opened, it
7796 was himself. He begged their pardon, but he had forgotten his gloves,
7797 and instantly crossing the room to the writing table, he drew out a
7798 letter from under the scattered paper, placed it before Anne with eyes
7799 of glowing entreaty fixed on her for a time, and hastily collecting his
7800 gloves, was again out of the room, almost before Mrs Musgrove was aware
7801 of his being in it: the work of an instant!
7802
7803 The revolution which one instant had made in Anne, was almost beyond
7804 expression. The letter, with a direction hardly legible, to "Miss A.
7805 E.--," was evidently the one which he had been folding so hastily.
7806 While supposed to be writing only to Captain Benwick, he had been also
7807 addressing her! On the contents of that letter depended all which this
7808 world could do for her. Anything was possible, anything might be
7809 defied rather than suspense. Mrs Musgrove had little arrangements of
7810 her own at her own table; to their protection she must trust, and
7811 sinking into the chair which he had occupied, succeeding to the very
7812 spot where he had leaned and written, her eyes devoured the following
7813 words:
7814
7815
7816 "I can listen no longer in silence. I must speak to you by such means
7817 as are within my reach. You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half
7818 hope. Tell me not that I am too late, that such precious feelings are
7819 gone for ever. I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your
7820 own than when you almost broke it, eight years and a half ago. Dare
7821 not say that man forgets sooner than woman, that his love has an
7822 earlier death. I have loved none but you. Unjust I may have been,
7823 weak and resentful I have been, but never inconstant. You alone have
7824 brought me to Bath. For you alone, I think and plan. Have you not
7825 seen this? Can you fail to have understood my wishes? I had not
7826 waited even these ten days, could I have read your feelings, as I think
7827 you must have penetrated mine. I can hardly write. I am every instant
7828 hearing something which overpowers me. You sink your voice, but I can
7829 distinguish the tones of that voice when they would be lost on others.
7830 Too good, too excellent creature! You do us justice, indeed. You do
7831 believe that there is true attachment and constancy among men. Believe
7832 it to be most fervent, most undeviating, in F. W.
7833
7834 "I must go, uncertain of my fate; but I shall return hither, or follow
7835 your party, as soon as possible. A word, a look, will be enough to
7836 decide whether I enter your father's house this evening or never."
7837
7838
7839 Such a letter was not to be soon recovered from. Half an hour's
7840 solitude and reflection might have tranquillized her; but the ten
7841 minutes only which now passed before she was interrupted, with all the
7842 restraints of her situation, could do nothing towards tranquillity.
7843 Every moment rather brought fresh agitation. It was overpowering
7844 happiness. And before she was beyond the first stage of full
7845 sensation, Charles, Mary, and Henrietta all came in.
7846
7847 The absolute necessity of seeming like herself produced then an
7848 immediate struggle; but after a while she could do no more. She began
7849 not to understand a word they said, and was obliged to plead
7850 indisposition and excuse herself. They could then see that she looked
7851 very ill, were shocked and concerned, and would not stir without her
7852 for the world. This was dreadful. Would they only have gone away, and
7853 left her in the quiet possession of that room it would have been her
7854 cure; but to have them all standing or waiting around her was
7855 distracting, and in desperation, she said she would go home.
7856
7857 "By all means, my dear," cried Mrs Musgrove, "go home directly, and
7858 take care of yourself, that you may be fit for the evening. I wish
7859 Sarah was here to doctor you, but I am no doctor myself. Charles, ring
7860 and order a chair. She must not walk."
7861
7862 But the chair would never do. Worse than all! To lose the possibility
7863 of speaking two words to Captain Wentworth in the course of her quiet,
7864 solitary progress up the town (and she felt almost certain of meeting
7865 him) could not be borne. The chair was earnestly protested against,
7866 and Mrs Musgrove, who thought only of one sort of illness, having
7867 assured herself with some anxiety, that there had been no fall in the
7868 case; that Anne had not at any time lately slipped down, and got a blow
7869 on her head; that she was perfectly convinced of having had no fall;
7870 could part with her cheerfully, and depend on finding her better at
7871 night.
7872
7873 Anxious to omit no possible precaution, Anne struggled, and said--
7874
7875 "I am afraid, ma'am, that it is not perfectly understood. Pray be so
7876 good as to mention to the other gentlemen that we hope to see your
7877 whole party this evening. I am afraid there had been some mistake; and
7878 I wish you particularly to assure Captain Harville and Captain
7879 Wentworth, that we hope to see them both."
7880
7881 "Oh! my dear, it is quite understood, I give you my word. Captain
7882 Harville has no thought but of going."
7883
7884 "Do you think so? But I am afraid; and I should be so very sorry.
7885 Will you promise me to mention it, when you see them again? You will
7886 see them both this morning, I dare say. Do promise me."
7887
7888 "To be sure I will, if you wish it. Charles, if you see Captain
7889 Harville anywhere, remember to give Miss Anne's message. But indeed,
7890 my dear, you need not be uneasy. Captain Harville holds himself quite
7891 engaged, I'll answer for it; and Captain Wentworth the same, I dare
7892 say."
7893
7894 Anne could do no more; but her heart prophesied some mischance to damp
7895 the perfection of her felicity. It could not be very lasting, however.
7896 Even if he did not come to Camden Place himself, it would be in her
7897 power to send an intelligible sentence by Captain Harville. Another
7898 momentary vexation occurred. Charles, in his real concern and good
7899 nature, would go home with her; there was no preventing him. This was
7900 almost cruel. But she could not be long ungrateful; he was sacrificing
7901 an engagement at a gunsmith's, to be of use to her; and she set off
7902 with him, with no feeling but gratitude apparent.
7903
7904 They were on Union Street, when a quicker step behind, a something of
7905 familiar sound, gave her two moments' preparation for the sight of
7906 Captain Wentworth. He joined them; but, as if irresolute whether to
7907 join or to pass on, said nothing, only looked. Anne could command
7908 herself enough to receive that look, and not repulsively. The cheeks
7909 which had been pale now glowed, and the movements which had hesitated
7910 were decided. He walked by her side. Presently, struck by a sudden
7911 thought, Charles said--
7912
7913 "Captain Wentworth, which way are you going? Only to Gay Street, or
7914 farther up the town?"
7915
7916 "I hardly know," replied Captain Wentworth, surprised.
7917
7918 "Are you going as high as Belmont? Are you going near Camden Place?
7919 Because, if you are, I shall have no scruple in asking you to take my
7920 place, and give Anne your arm to her father's door. She is rather done
7921 for this morning, and must not go so far without help, and I ought to
7922 be at that fellow's in the Market Place. He promised me the sight of a
7923 capital gun he is just going to send off; said he would keep it
7924 unpacked to the last possible moment, that I might see it; and if I do
7925 not turn back now, I have no chance. By his description, a good deal
7926 like the second size double-barrel of mine, which you shot with one day
7927 round Winthrop."
7928
7929 There could not be an objection. There could be only the most proper
7930 alacrity, a most obliging compliance for public view; and smiles reined
7931 in and spirits dancing in private rapture. In half a minute Charles
7932 was at the bottom of Union Street again, and the other two proceeding
7933 together: and soon words enough had passed between them to decide
7934 their direction towards the comparatively quiet and retired gravel
7935 walk, where the power of conversation would make the present hour a
7936 blessing indeed, and prepare it for all the immortality which the
7937 happiest recollections of their own future lives could bestow. There
7938 they exchanged again those feelings and those promises which had once
7939 before seemed to secure everything, but which had been followed by so
7940 many, many years of division and estrangement. There they returned
7941 again into the past, more exquisitely happy, perhaps, in their
7942 re-union, than when it had been first projected; more tender, more
7943 tried, more fixed in a knowledge of each other's character, truth, and
7944 attachment; more equal to act, more justified in acting. And there, as
7945 they slowly paced the gradual ascent, heedless of every group around
7946 them, seeing neither sauntering politicians, bustling housekeepers,
7947 flirting girls, nor nursery-maids and children, they could indulge in
7948 those retrospections and acknowledgements, and especially in those
7949 explanations of what had directly preceded the present moment, which
7950 were so poignant and so ceaseless in interest. All the little
7951 variations of the last week were gone through; and of yesterday and
7952 today there could scarcely be an end.
7953
7954 She had not mistaken him. Jealousy of Mr Elliot had been the retarding
7955 weight, the doubt, the torment. That had begun to operate in the very
7956 hour of first meeting her in Bath; that had returned, after a short
7957 suspension, to ruin the concert; and that had influenced him in
7958 everything he had said and done, or omitted to say and do, in the last
7959 four-and-twenty hours. It had been gradually yielding to the better
7960 hopes which her looks, or words, or actions occasionally encouraged; it
7961 had been vanquished at last by those sentiments and those tones which
7962 had reached him while she talked with Captain Harville; and under the
7963 irresistible governance of which he had seized a sheet of paper, and
7964 poured out his feelings.
7965
7966 Of what he had then written, nothing was to be retracted or qualified.
7967 He persisted in having loved none but her. She had never been
7968 supplanted. He never even believed himself to see her equal. Thus
7969 much indeed he was obliged to acknowledge: that he had been constant
7970 unconsciously, nay unintentionally; that he had meant to forget her,
7971 and believed it to be done. He had imagined himself indifferent, when
7972 he had only been angry; and he had been unjust to her merits, because
7973 he had been a sufferer from them. Her character was now fixed on his
7974 mind as perfection itself, maintaining the loveliest medium of
7975 fortitude and gentleness; but he was obliged to acknowledge that only
7976 at Uppercross had he learnt to do her justice, and only at Lyme had he
7977 begun to understand himself. At Lyme, he had received lessons of more
7978 than one sort. The passing admiration of Mr Elliot had at least roused
7979 him, and the scenes on the Cobb and at Captain Harville's had fixed her
7980 superiority.
7981
7982 In his preceding attempts to attach himself to Louisa Musgrove (the
7983 attempts of angry pride), he protested that he had for ever felt it to
7984 be impossible; that he had not cared, could not care, for Louisa;
7985 though till that day, till the leisure for reflection which followed
7986 it, he had not understood the perfect excellence of the mind with which
7987 Louisa's could so ill bear a comparison, or the perfect unrivalled hold
7988 it possessed over his own. There, he had learnt to distinguish between
7989 the steadiness of principle and the obstinacy of self-will, between the
7990 darings of heedlessness and the resolution of a collected mind. There
7991 he had seen everything to exalt in his estimation the woman he had
7992 lost; and there begun to deplore the pride, the folly, the madness of
7993 resentment, which had kept him from trying to regain her when thrown in
7994 his way.
7995
7996 From that period his penance had become severe. He had no sooner been
7997 free from the horror and remorse attending the first few days of
7998 Louisa's accident, no sooner begun to feel himself alive again, than he
7999 had begun to feel himself, though alive, not at liberty.
8000
8001 "I found," said he, "that I was considered by Harville an engaged man!
8002 That neither Harville nor his wife entertained a doubt of our mutual
8003 attachment. I was startled and shocked. To a degree, I could
8004 contradict this instantly; but, when I began to reflect that others
8005 might have felt the same--her own family, nay, perhaps herself--I was
8006 no longer at my own disposal. I was hers in honour if she wished it.
8007 I had been unguarded. I had not thought seriously on this subject
8008 before. I had not considered that my excessive intimacy must have its
8009 danger of ill consequence in many ways; and that I had no right to be
8010 trying whether I could attach myself to either of the girls, at the
8011 risk of raising even an unpleasant report, were there no other ill
8012 effects. I had been grossly wrong, and must abide the consequences."
8013
8014 He found too late, in short, that he had entangled himself; and that
8015 precisely as he became fully satisfied of his not caring for Louisa at
8016 all, he must regard himself as bound to her, if her sentiments for him
8017 were what the Harvilles supposed. It determined him to leave Lyme, and
8018 await her complete recovery elsewhere. He would gladly weaken, by any
8019 fair means, whatever feelings or speculations concerning him might
8020 exist; and he went, therefore, to his brother's, meaning after a while
8021 to return to Kellynch, and act as circumstances might require.
8022
8023 "I was six weeks with Edward," said he, "and saw him happy. I could
8024 have no other pleasure. I deserved none. He enquired after you very
8025 particularly; asked even if you were personally altered, little
8026 suspecting that to my eye you could never alter."
8027
8028 Anne smiled, and let it pass. It was too pleasing a blunder for a
8029 reproach. It is something for a woman to be assured, in her
8030 eight-and-twentieth year, that she has not lost one charm of earlier
8031 youth; but the value of such homage was inexpressibly increased to
8032 Anne, by comparing it with former words, and feeling it to be the
8033 result, not the cause of a revival of his warm attachment.
8034
8035 He had remained in Shropshire, lamenting the blindness of his own
8036 pride, and the blunders of his own calculations, till at once released
8037 from Louisa by the astonishing and felicitous intelligence of her
8038 engagement with Benwick.
8039
8040 "Here," said he, "ended the worst of my state; for now I could at least
8041 put myself in the way of happiness; I could exert myself; I could do
8042 something. But to be waiting so long in inaction, and waiting only for
8043 evil, had been dreadful. Within the first five minutes I said, 'I will
8044 be at Bath on Wednesday,' and I was. Was it unpardonable to think it
8045 worth my while to come? and to arrive with some degree of hope? You
8046 were single. It was possible that you might retain the feelings of the
8047 past, as I did; and one encouragement happened to be mine. I could
8048 never doubt that you would be loved and sought by others, but I knew to
8049 a certainty that you had refused one man, at least, of better
8050 pretensions than myself; and I could not help often saying, 'Was this
8051 for me?'"
8052
8053 Their first meeting in Milsom Street afforded much to be said, but the
8054 concert still more. That evening seemed to be made up of exquisite
8055 moments. The moment of her stepping forward in the Octagon Room to
8056 speak to him: the moment of Mr Elliot's appearing and tearing her
8057 away, and one or two subsequent moments, marked by returning hope or
8058 increasing despondency, were dwelt on with energy.
8059
8060 "To see you," cried he, "in the midst of those who could not be my
8061 well-wishers; to see your cousin close by you, conversing and smiling,
8062 and feel all the horrible eligibilities and proprieties of the match!
8063 To consider it as the certain wish of every being who could hope to
8064 influence you! Even if your own feelings were reluctant or
8065 indifferent, to consider what powerful supports would be his! Was it
8066 not enough to make the fool of me which I appeared? How could I look
8067 on without agony? Was not the very sight of the friend who sat behind
8068 you, was not the recollection of what had been, the knowledge of her
8069 influence, the indelible, immoveable impression of what persuasion had
8070 once done--was it not all against me?"
8071
8072 "You should have distinguished," replied Anne. "You should not have
8073 suspected me now; the case is so different, and my age is so different.
8074 If I was wrong in yielding to persuasion once, remember that it was to
8075 persuasion exerted on the side of safety, not of risk. When I yielded,
8076 I thought it was to duty, but no duty could be called in aid here. In
8077 marrying a man indifferent to me, all risk would have been incurred,
8078 and all duty violated."
8079
8080 "Perhaps I ought to have reasoned thus," he replied, "but I could not.
8081 I could not derive benefit from the late knowledge I had acquired of
8082 your character. I could not bring it into play; it was overwhelmed,
8083 buried, lost in those earlier feelings which I had been smarting under
8084 year after year. I could think of you only as one who had yielded, who
8085 had given me up, who had been influenced by any one rather than by me.
8086 I saw you with the very person who had guided you in that year of
8087 misery. I had no reason to believe her of less authority now. The
8088 force of habit was to be added."
8089
8090 "I should have thought," said Anne, "that my manner to yourself might
8091 have spared you much or all of this."
8092
8093 "No, no! your manner might be only the ease which your engagement to
8094 another man would give. I left you in this belief; and yet, I was
8095 determined to see you again. My spirits rallied with the morning, and
8096 I felt that I had still a motive for remaining here."
8097
8098 At last Anne was at home again, and happier than any one in that house
8099 could have conceived. All the surprise and suspense, and every other
8100 painful part of the morning dissipated by this conversation, she
8101 re-entered the house so happy as to be obliged to find an alloy in some
8102 momentary apprehensions of its being impossible to last. An interval
8103 of meditation, serious and grateful, was the best corrective of
8104 everything dangerous in such high-wrought felicity; and she went to her
8105 room, and grew steadfast and fearless in the thankfulness of her
8106 enjoyment.
8107
8108 The evening came, the drawing-rooms were lighted up, the company
8109 assembled. It was but a card party, it was but a mixture of those who
8110 had never met before, and those who met too often; a commonplace
8111 business, too numerous for intimacy, too small for variety; but Anne
8112 had never found an evening shorter. Glowing and lovely in sensibility
8113 and happiness, and more generally admired than she thought about or
8114 cared for, she had cheerful or forbearing feelings for every creature
8115 around her. Mr Elliot was there; she avoided, but she could pity him.
8116 The Wallises, she had amusement in understanding them. Lady Dalrymple
8117 and Miss Carteret--they would soon be innoxious cousins to her. She
8118 cared not for Mrs Clay, and had nothing to blush for in the public
8119 manners of her father and sister. With the Musgroves, there was the
8120 happy chat of perfect ease; with Captain Harville, the kind-hearted
8121 intercourse of brother and sister; with Lady Russell, attempts at
8122 conversation, which a delicious consciousness cut short; with Admiral
8123 and Mrs Croft, everything of peculiar cordiality and fervent interest,
8124 which the same consciousness sought to conceal; and with Captain
8125 Wentworth, some moments of communications continually occurring, and
8126 always the hope of more, and always the knowledge of his being there.
8127
8128 It was in one of these short meetings, each apparently occupied in
8129 admiring a fine display of greenhouse plants, that she said--
8130
8131 "I have been thinking over the past, and trying impartially to judge of
8132 the right and wrong, I mean with regard to myself; and I must believe
8133 that I was right, much as I suffered from it, that I was perfectly
8134 right in being guided by the friend whom you will love better than you
8135 do now. To me, she was in the place of a parent. Do not mistake me,
8136 however. I am not saying that she did not err in her advice. It was,
8137 perhaps, one of those cases in which advice is good or bad only as the
8138 event decides; and for myself, I certainly never should, in any
8139 circumstance of tolerable similarity, give such advice. But I mean,
8140 that I was right in submitting to her, and that if I had done
8141 otherwise, I should have suffered more in continuing the engagement
8142 than I did even in giving it up, because I should have suffered in my
8143 conscience. I have now, as far as such a sentiment is allowable in
8144 human nature, nothing to reproach myself with; and if I mistake not, a
8145 strong sense of duty is no bad part of a woman's portion."
8146
8147 He looked at her, looked at Lady Russell, and looking again at her,
8148 replied, as if in cool deliberation--
8149
8150 "Not yet. But there are hopes of her being forgiven in time. I trust
8151 to being in charity with her soon. But I too have been thinking over
8152 the past, and a question has suggested itself, whether there may not
8153 have been one person more my enemy even than that lady? My own self.
8154 Tell me if, when I returned to England in the year eight, with a few
8155 thousand pounds, and was posted into the Laconia, if I had then written
8156 to you, would you have answered my letter? Would you, in short, have
8157 renewed the engagement then?"
8158
8159 "Would I!" was all her answer; but the accent was decisive enough.
8160
8161 "Good God!" he cried, "you would! It is not that I did not think of
8162 it, or desire it, as what could alone crown all my other success; but I
8163 was proud, too proud to ask again. I did not understand you. I shut
8164 my eyes, and would not understand you, or do you justice. This is a
8165 recollection which ought to make me forgive every one sooner than
8166 myself. Six years of separation and suffering might have been spared.
8167 It is a sort of pain, too, which is new to me. I have been used to the
8168 gratification of believing myself to earn every blessing that I
8169 enjoyed. I have valued myself on honourable toils and just rewards.
8170 Like other great men under reverses," he added, with a smile. "I must
8171 endeavour to subdue my mind to my fortune. I must learn to brook being
8172 happier than I deserve."
8173
8174
8175
8176 Chapter 24
8177
8178
8179 Who can be in doubt of what followed? When any two young people take
8180 it into their heads to marry, they are pretty sure by perseverance to
8181 carry their point, be they ever so poor, or ever so imprudent, or ever
8182 so little likely to be necessary to each other's ultimate comfort.
8183 This may be bad morality to conclude with, but I believe it to be
8184 truth; and if such parties succeed, how should a Captain Wentworth and
8185 an Anne Elliot, with the advantage of maturity of mind, consciousness
8186 of right, and one independent fortune between them, fail of bearing
8187 down every opposition? They might in fact, have borne down a great
8188 deal more than they met with, for there was little to distress them
8189 beyond the want of graciousness and warmth. Sir Walter made no
8190 objection, and Elizabeth did nothing worse than look cold and
8191 unconcerned. Captain Wentworth, with five-and-twenty thousand pounds,
8192 and as high in his profession as merit and activity could place him,
8193 was no longer nobody. He was now esteemed quite worthy to address the
8194 daughter of a foolish, spendthrift baronet, who had not had principle
8195 or sense enough to maintain himself in the situation in which
8196 Providence had placed him, and who could give his daughter at present
8197 but a small part of the share of ten thousand pounds which must be hers
8198 hereafter.
8199
8200 Sir Walter, indeed, though he had no affection for Anne, and no vanity
8201 flattered, to make him really happy on the occasion, was very far from
8202 thinking it a bad match for her. On the contrary, when he saw more of
8203 Captain Wentworth, saw him repeatedly by daylight, and eyed him well,
8204 he was very much struck by his personal claims, and felt that his
8205 superiority of appearance might be not unfairly balanced against her
8206 superiority of rank; and all this, assisted by his well-sounding name,
8207 enabled Sir Walter at last to prepare his pen, with a very good grace,
8208 for the insertion of the marriage in the volume of honour.
8209
8210 The only one among them, whose opposition of feeling could excite any
8211 serious anxiety was Lady Russell. Anne knew that Lady Russell must be
8212 suffering some pain in understanding and relinquishing Mr Elliot, and
8213 be making some struggles to become truly acquainted with, and do
8214 justice to Captain Wentworth. This however was what Lady Russell had
8215 now to do. She must learn to feel that she had been mistaken with
8216 regard to both; that she had been unfairly influenced by appearances in
8217 each; that because Captain Wentworth's manners had not suited her own
8218 ideas, she had been too quick in suspecting them to indicate a
8219 character of dangerous impetuosity; and that because Mr Elliot's
8220 manners had precisely pleased her in their propriety and correctness,
8221 their general politeness and suavity, she had been too quick in
8222 receiving them as the certain result of the most correct opinions and
8223 well-regulated mind. There was nothing less for Lady Russell to do,
8224 than to admit that she had been pretty completely wrong, and to take up
8225 a new set of opinions and of hopes.
8226
8227 There is a quickness of perception in some, a nicety in the discernment
8228 of character, a natural penetration, in short, which no experience in
8229 others can equal, and Lady Russell had been less gifted in this part of
8230 understanding than her young friend. But she was a very good woman,
8231 and if her second object was to be sensible and well-judging, her first
8232 was to see Anne happy. She loved Anne better than she loved her own
8233 abilities; and when the awkwardness of the beginning was over, found
8234 little hardship in attaching herself as a mother to the man who was
8235 securing the happiness of her other child.
8236
8237 Of all the family, Mary was probably the one most immediately gratified
8238 by the circumstance. It was creditable to have a sister married, and
8239 she might flatter herself with having been greatly instrumental to the
8240 connexion, by keeping Anne with her in the autumn; and as her own
8241 sister must be better than her husband's sisters, it was very agreeable
8242 that Captain Wentworth should be a richer man than either Captain
8243 Benwick or Charles Hayter. She had something to suffer, perhaps, when
8244 they came into contact again, in seeing Anne restored to the rights of
8245 seniority, and the mistress of a very pretty landaulette; but she had a
8246 future to look forward to, of powerful consolation. Anne had no
8247 Uppercross Hall before her, no landed estate, no headship of a family;
8248 and if they could but keep Captain Wentworth from being made a baronet,
8249 she would not change situations with Anne.
8250
8251 It would be well for the eldest sister if she were equally satisfied
8252 with her situation, for a change is not very probable there. She had
8253 soon the mortification of seeing Mr Elliot withdraw, and no one of
8254 proper condition has since presented himself to raise even the
8255 unfounded hopes which sunk with him.
8256
8257 The news of his cousin Anne's engagement burst on Mr Elliot most
8258 unexpectedly. It deranged his best plan of domestic happiness, his
8259 best hope of keeping Sir Walter single by the watchfulness which a
8260 son-in-law's rights would have given. But, though discomfited and
8261 disappointed, he could still do something for his own interest and his
8262 own enjoyment. He soon quitted Bath; and on Mrs Clay's quitting it
8263 soon afterwards, and being next heard of as established under his
8264 protection in London, it was evident how double a game he had been
8265 playing, and how determined he was to save himself from being cut out
8266 by one artful woman, at least.
8267
8268 Mrs Clay's affections had overpowered her interest, and she had
8269 sacrificed, for the young man's sake, the possibility of scheming
8270 longer for Sir Walter. She has abilities, however, as well as
8271 affections; and it is now a doubtful point whether his cunning, or
8272 hers, may finally carry the day; whether, after preventing her from
8273 being the wife of Sir Walter, he may not be wheedled and caressed at
8274 last into making her the wife of Sir William.
8275
8276 It cannot be doubted that Sir Walter and Elizabeth were shocked and
8277 mortified by the loss of their companion, and the discovery of their
8278 deception in her. They had their great cousins, to be sure, to resort
8279 to for comfort; but they must long feel that to flatter and follow
8280 others, without being flattered and followed in turn, is but a state of
8281 half enjoyment.
8282
8283 Anne, satisfied at a very early period of Lady Russell's meaning to
8284 love Captain Wentworth as she ought, had no other alloy to the
8285 happiness of her prospects than what arose from the consciousness of
8286 having no relations to bestow on him which a man of sense could value.
8287 There she felt her own inferiority very keenly. The disproportion in
8288 their fortune was nothing; it did not give her a moment's regret; but
8289 to have no family to receive and estimate him properly, nothing of
8290 respectability, of harmony, of good will to offer in return for all the
8291 worth and all the prompt welcome which met her in his brothers and
8292 sisters, was a source of as lively pain as her mind could well be
8293 sensible of under circumstances of otherwise strong felicity. She had
8294 but two friends in the world to add to his list, Lady Russell and Mrs
8295 Smith. To those, however, he was very well disposed to attach himself.
8296 Lady Russell, in spite of all her former transgressions, he could now
8297 value from his heart. While he was not obliged to say that he believed
8298 her to have been right in originally dividing them, he was ready to say
8299 almost everything else in her favour, and as for Mrs Smith, she had
8300 claims of various kinds to recommend her quickly and permanently.
8301
8302 Her recent good offices by Anne had been enough in themselves, and
8303 their marriage, instead of depriving her of one friend, secured her
8304 two. She was their earliest visitor in their settled life; and Captain
8305 Wentworth, by putting her in the way of recovering her husband's
8306 property in the West Indies, by writing for her, acting for her, and
8307 seeing her through all the petty difficulties of the case with the
8308 activity and exertion of a fearless man and a determined friend, fully
8309 requited the services which she had rendered, or ever meant to render,
8310 to his wife.
8311
8312 Mrs Smith's enjoyments were not spoiled by this improvement of income,
8313 with some improvement of health, and the acquisition of such friends to
8314 be often with, for her cheerfulness and mental alacrity did not fail
8315 her; and while these prime supplies of good remained, she might have
8316 bid defiance even to greater accessions of worldly prosperity. She
8317 might have been absolutely rich and perfectly healthy, and yet be
8318 happy. Her spring of felicity was in the glow of her spirits, as her
8319 friend Anne's was in the warmth of her heart. Anne was tenderness
8320 itself, and she had the full worth of it in Captain Wentworth's
8321 affection. His profession was all that could ever make her friends
8322 wish that tenderness less, the dread of a future war all that could dim
8323 her sunshine. She gloried in being a sailor's wife, but she must pay
8324 the tax of quick alarm for belonging to that profession which is, if
8325 possible, more distinguished in its domestic virtues than in its
8326 national importance.
8327
8328
8329
8330 Finis