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1 Persuasion
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6 Jane Austen
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8 (1818)
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13 Chapter 1
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16 Sir Walter Elliot, of Kellynch Hall, in Somersetshire, was a man who,
17 for his own amusement, never took up any book but the Baronetage; there
18 he found occupation for an idle hour, and consolation in a distressed
19 one; there his faculties were roused into admiration and respect, by
20 contemplating the limited remnant of the earliest patents; there any
21 unwelcome sensations, arising from domestic affairs changed naturally
22 into pity and contempt as he turned over the almost endless creations
23 of the last century; and there, if every other leaf were powerless, he
24 could read his own history with an interest which never failed. This
25 was the page at which the favourite volume always opened:
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27 "ELLIOT OF KELLYNCH HALL.
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29 "Walter Elliot, born March 1, 1760, married, July 15, 1784, Elizabeth,
30 daughter of James Stevenson, Esq. of South Park, in the county of
31 Gloucester, by which lady (who died 1800) he has issue Elizabeth, born
32 June 1, 1785; Anne, born August 9, 1787; a still-born son, November 5,
33 1789; Mary, born November 20, 1791."
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35 Precisely such had the paragraph originally stood from the printer's
36 hands; but Sir Walter had improved it by adding, for the information of
37 himself and his family, these words, after the date of Mary's birth--
38 "Married, December 16, 1810, Charles, son and heir of Charles Musgrove,
39 Esq. of Uppercross, in the county of Somerset," and by inserting most
40 accurately the day of the month on which he had lost his wife.
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42 Then followed the history and rise of the ancient and respectable
43 family, in the usual terms; how it had been first settled in Cheshire;
44 how mentioned in Dugdale, serving the office of high sheriff,
45 representing a borough in three successive parliaments, exertions of
46 loyalty, and dignity of baronet, in the first year of Charles II, with
47 all the Marys and Elizabeths they had married; forming altogether two
48 handsome duodecimo pages, and concluding with the arms and
49 motto:--"Principal seat, Kellynch Hall, in the county of Somerset," and
50 Sir Walter's handwriting again in this finale:--
51
52 "Heir presumptive, William Walter Elliot, Esq., great grandson of the
53 second Sir Walter."
54
55 Vanity was the beginning and the end of Sir Walter Elliot's character;
56 vanity of person and of situation. He had been remarkably handsome in
57 his youth; and, at fifty-four, was still a very fine man. Few women
58 could think more of their personal appearance than he did, nor could
59 the valet of any new made lord be more delighted with the place he held
60 in society. He considered the blessing of beauty as inferior only to
61 the blessing of a baronetcy; and the Sir Walter Elliot, who united
62 these gifts, was the constant object of his warmest respect and
63 devotion.
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65 His good looks and his rank had one fair claim on his attachment; since
66 to them he must have owed a wife of very superior character to any
67 thing deserved by his own. Lady Elliot had been an excellent woman,
68 sensible and amiable; whose judgement and conduct, if they might be
69 pardoned the youthful infatuation which made her Lady Elliot, had never
70 required indulgence afterwards.--She had humoured, or softened, or
71 concealed his failings, and promoted his real respectability for
72 seventeen years; and though not the very happiest being in the world
73 herself, had found enough in her duties, her friends, and her children,
74 to attach her to life, and make it no matter of indifference to her
75 when she was called on to quit them.--Three girls, the two eldest
76 sixteen and fourteen, was an awful legacy for a mother to bequeath, an
77 awful charge rather, to confide to the authority and guidance of a
78 conceited, silly father. She had, however, one very intimate friend, a
79 sensible, deserving woman, who had been brought, by strong attachment
80 to herself, to settle close by her, in the village of Kellynch; and on
81 her kindness and advice, Lady Elliot mainly relied for the best help
82 and maintenance of the good principles and instruction which she had
83 been anxiously giving her daughters.
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85 This friend, and Sir Walter, did not marry, whatever might have been
86 anticipated on that head by their acquaintance. Thirteen years had
87 passed away since Lady Elliot's death, and they were still near
88 neighbours and intimate friends, and one remained a widower, the other
89 a widow.
90
91 That Lady Russell, of steady age and character, and extremely well
92 provided for, should have no thought of a second marriage, needs no
93 apology to the public, which is rather apt to be unreasonably
94 discontented when a woman does marry again, than when she does not; but
95 Sir Walter's continuing in singleness requires explanation. Be it
96 known then, that Sir Walter, like a good father, (having met with one
97 or two private disappointments in very unreasonable applications),
98 prided himself on remaining single for his dear daughters' sake. For
99 one daughter, his eldest, he would really have given up any thing,
100 which he had not been very much tempted to do. Elizabeth had
101 succeeded, at sixteen, to all that was possible, of her mother's rights
102 and consequence; and being very handsome, and very like himself, her
103 influence had always been great, and they had gone on together most
104 happily. His two other children were of very inferior value. Mary had
105 acquired a little artificial importance, by becoming Mrs Charles
106 Musgrove; but Anne, with an elegance of mind and sweetness of
107 character, which must have placed her high with any people of real
108 understanding, was nobody with either father or sister; her word had no
109 weight, her convenience was always to give way--she was only Anne.
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111 To Lady Russell, indeed, she was a most dear and highly valued
112 god-daughter, favourite, and friend. Lady Russell loved them all; but
113 it was only in Anne that she could fancy the mother to revive again.
114
115 A few years before, Anne Elliot had been a very pretty girl, but her
116 bloom had vanished early; and as even in its height, her father had
117 found little to admire in her, (so totally different were her delicate
118 features and mild dark eyes from his own), there could be nothing in
119 them, now that she was faded and thin, to excite his esteem. He had
120 never indulged much hope, he had now none, of ever reading her name in
121 any other page of his favourite work. All equality of alliance must
122 rest with Elizabeth, for Mary had merely connected herself with an old
123 country family of respectability and large fortune, and had therefore
124 given all the honour and received none: Elizabeth would, one day or
125 other, marry suitably.
126
127 It sometimes happens that a woman is handsomer at twenty-nine than she
128 was ten years before; and, generally speaking, if there has been
129 neither ill health nor anxiety, it is a time of life at which scarcely
130 any charm is lost. It was so with Elizabeth, still the same handsome
131 Miss Elliot that she had begun to be thirteen years ago, and Sir Walter
132 might be excused, therefore, in forgetting her age, or, at least, be
133 deemed only half a fool, for thinking himself and Elizabeth as blooming
134 as ever, amidst the wreck of the good looks of everybody else; for he
135 could plainly see how old all the rest of his family and acquaintance
136 were growing. Anne haggard, Mary coarse, every face in the
137 neighbourhood worsting, and the rapid increase of the crow's foot about
138 Lady Russell's temples had long been a distress to him.
139
140 Elizabeth did not quite equal her father in personal contentment.
141 Thirteen years had seen her mistress of Kellynch Hall, presiding and
142 directing with a self-possession and decision which could never have
143 given the idea of her being younger than she was. For thirteen years
144 had she been doing the honours, and laying down the domestic law at
145 home, and leading the way to the chaise and four, and walking
146 immediately after Lady Russell out of all the drawing-rooms and
147 dining-rooms in the country. Thirteen winters' revolving frosts had
148 seen her opening every ball of credit which a scanty neighbourhood
149 afforded, and thirteen springs shewn their blossoms, as she travelled
150 up to London with her father, for a few weeks' annual enjoyment of the
151 great world. She had the remembrance of all this, she had the
152 consciousness of being nine-and-twenty to give her some regrets and
153 some apprehensions; she was fully satisfied of being still quite as
154 handsome as ever, but she felt her approach to the years of danger, and
155 would have rejoiced to be certain of being properly solicited by
156 baronet-blood within the next twelvemonth or two. Then might she again
157 take up the book of books with as much enjoyment as in her early youth,
158 but now she liked it not. Always to be presented with the date of her
159 own birth and see no marriage follow but that of a youngest sister,
160 made the book an evil; and more than once, when her father had left it
161 open on the table near her, had she closed it, with averted eyes, and
162 pushed it away.
163
164 She had had a disappointment, moreover, which that book, and especially
165 the history of her own family, must ever present the remembrance of.
166 The heir presumptive, the very William Walter Elliot, Esq., whose
167 rights had been so generously supported by her father, had disappointed
168 her.
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170 She had, while a very young girl, as soon as she had known him to be,
171 in the event of her having no brother, the future baronet, meant to
172 marry him, and her father had always meant that she should. He had not
173 been known to them as a boy; but soon after Lady Elliot's death, Sir
174 Walter had sought the acquaintance, and though his overtures had not
175 been met with any warmth, he had persevered in seeking it, making
176 allowance for the modest drawing-back of youth; and, in one of their
177 spring excursions to London, when Elizabeth was in her first bloom, Mr
178 Elliot had been forced into the introduction.
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180 He was at that time a very young man, just engaged in the study of the
181 law; and Elizabeth found him extremely agreeable, and every plan in his
182 favour was confirmed. He was invited to Kellynch Hall; he was talked
183 of and expected all the rest of the year; but he never came. The
184 following spring he was seen again in town, found equally agreeable,
185 again encouraged, invited, and expected, and again he did not come; and
186 the next tidings were that he was married. Instead of pushing his
187 fortune in the line marked out for the heir of the house of Elliot, he
188 had purchased independence by uniting himself to a rich woman of
189 inferior birth.
190
191 Sir Walter had resented it. As the head of the house, he felt that he
192 ought to have been consulted, especially after taking the young man so
193 publicly by the hand; "For they must have been seen together," he
194 observed, "once at Tattersall's, and twice in the lobby of the House of
195 Commons." His disapprobation was expressed, but apparently very little
196 regarded. Mr Elliot had attempted no apology, and shewn himself as
197 unsolicitous of being longer noticed by the family, as Sir Walter
198 considered him unworthy of it: all acquaintance between them had
199 ceased.
200
201 This very awkward history of Mr Elliot was still, after an interval of
202 several years, felt with anger by Elizabeth, who had liked the man for
203 himself, and still more for being her father's heir, and whose strong
204 family pride could see only in him a proper match for Sir Walter
205 Elliot's eldest daughter. There was not a baronet from A to Z whom her
206 feelings could have so willingly acknowledged as an equal. Yet so
207 miserably had he conducted himself, that though she was at this present
208 time (the summer of 1814) wearing black ribbons for his wife, she could
209 not admit him to be worth thinking of again. The disgrace of his first
210 marriage might, perhaps, as there was no reason to suppose it
211 perpetuated by offspring, have been got over, had he not done worse;
212 but he had, as by the accustomary intervention of kind friends, they
213 had been informed, spoken most disrespectfully of them all, most
214 slightingly and contemptuously of the very blood he belonged to, and
215 the honours which were hereafter to be his own. This could not be
216 pardoned.
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218 Such were Elizabeth Elliot's sentiments and sensations; such the cares
219 to alloy, the agitations to vary, the sameness and the elegance, the
220 prosperity and the nothingness of her scene of life; such the feelings
221 to give interest to a long, uneventful residence in one country circle,
222 to fill the vacancies which there were no habits of utility abroad, no
223 talents or accomplishments for home, to occupy.
224
225 But now, another occupation and solicitude of mind was beginning to be
226 added to these. Her father was growing distressed for money. She
227 knew, that when he now took up the Baronetage, it was to drive the
228 heavy bills of his tradespeople, and the unwelcome hints of Mr
229 Shepherd, his agent, from his thoughts. The Kellynch property was
230 good, but not equal to Sir Walter's apprehension of the state required
231 in its possessor. While Lady Elliot lived, there had been method,
232 moderation, and economy, which had just kept him within his income; but
233 with her had died all such right-mindedness, and from that period he
234 had been constantly exceeding it. It had not been possible for him to
235 spend less; he had done nothing but what Sir Walter Elliot was
236 imperiously called on to do; but blameless as he was, he was not only
237 growing dreadfully in debt, but was hearing of it so often, that it
238 became vain to attempt concealing it longer, even partially, from his
239 daughter. He had given her some hints of it the last spring in town;
240 he had gone so far even as to say, "Can we retrench? Does it occur to
241 you that there is any one article in which we can retrench?" and
242 Elizabeth, to do her justice, had, in the first ardour of female alarm,
243 set seriously to think what could be done, and had finally proposed
244 these two branches of economy, to cut off some unnecessary charities,
245 and to refrain from new furnishing the drawing-room; to which
246 expedients she afterwards added the happy thought of their taking no
247 present down to Anne, as had been the usual yearly custom. But these
248 measures, however good in themselves, were insufficient for the real
249 extent of the evil, the whole of which Sir Walter found himself obliged
250 to confess to her soon afterwards. Elizabeth had nothing to propose of
251 deeper efficacy. She felt herself ill-used and unfortunate, as did her
252 father; and they were neither of them able to devise any means of
253 lessening their expenses without compromising their dignity, or
254 relinquishing their comforts in a way not to be borne.
255
256 There was only a small part of his estate that Sir Walter could dispose
257 of; but had every acre been alienable, it would have made no
258 difference. He had condescended to mortgage as far as he had the
259 power, but he would never condescend to sell. No; he would never
260 disgrace his name so far. The Kellynch estate should be transmitted
261 whole and entire, as he had received it.
262
263 Their two confidential friends, Mr Shepherd, who lived in the
264 neighbouring market town, and Lady Russell, were called to advise them;
265 and both father and daughter seemed to expect that something should be
266 struck out by one or the other to remove their embarrassments and
267 reduce their expenditure, without involving the loss of any indulgence
268 of taste or pride.
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272 Chapter 2
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275 Mr Shepherd, a civil, cautious lawyer, who, whatever might be his hold
276 or his views on Sir Walter, would rather have the disagreeable prompted
277 by anybody else, excused himself from offering the slightest hint, and
278 only begged leave to recommend an implicit reference to the excellent
279 judgement of Lady Russell, from whose known good sense he fully
280 expected to have just such resolute measures advised as he meant to see
281 finally adopted.
282
283 Lady Russell was most anxiously zealous on the subject, and gave it
284 much serious consideration. She was a woman rather of sound than of
285 quick abilities, whose difficulties in coming to any decision in this
286 instance were great, from the opposition of two leading principles.
287 She was of strict integrity herself, with a delicate sense of honour;
288 but she was as desirous of saving Sir Walter's feelings, as solicitous
289 for the credit of the family, as aristocratic in her ideas of what was
290 due to them, as anybody of sense and honesty could well be. She was a
291 benevolent, charitable, good woman, and capable of strong attachments,
292 most correct in her conduct, strict in her notions of decorum, and with
293 manners that were held a standard of good-breeding. She had a
294 cultivated mind, and was, generally speaking, rational and consistent;
295 but she had prejudices on the side of ancestry; she had a value for
296 rank and consequence, which blinded her a little to the faults of those
297 who possessed them. Herself the widow of only a knight, she gave the
298 dignity of a baronet all its due; and Sir Walter, independent of his
299 claims as an old acquaintance, an attentive neighbour, an obliging
300 landlord, the husband of her very dear friend, the father of Anne and
301 her sisters, was, as being Sir Walter, in her apprehension, entitled to
302 a great deal of compassion and consideration under his present
303 difficulties.
304
305 They must retrench; that did not admit of a doubt. But she was very
306 anxious to have it done with the least possible pain to him and
307 Elizabeth. She drew up plans of economy, she made exact calculations,
308 and she did what nobody else thought of doing: she consulted Anne, who
309 never seemed considered by the others as having any interest in the
310 question. She consulted, and in a degree was influenced by her in
311 marking out the scheme of retrenchment which was at last submitted to
312 Sir Walter. Every emendation of Anne's had been on the side of honesty
313 against importance. She wanted more vigorous measures, a more complete
314 reformation, a quicker release from debt, a much higher tone of
315 indifference for everything but justice and equity.
316
317 "If we can persuade your father to all this," said Lady Russell,
318 looking over her paper, "much may be done. If he will adopt these
319 regulations, in seven years he will be clear; and I hope we may be able
320 to convince him and Elizabeth, that Kellynch Hall has a respectability
321 in itself which cannot be affected by these reductions; and that the
322 true dignity of Sir Walter Elliot will be very far from lessened in the
323 eyes of sensible people, by acting like a man of principle. What will
324 he be doing, in fact, but what very many of our first families have
325 done, or ought to do? There will be nothing singular in his case; and
326 it is singularity which often makes the worst part of our suffering, as
327 it always does of our conduct. I have great hope of prevailing. We
328 must be serious and decided; for after all, the person who has
329 contracted debts must pay them; and though a great deal is due to the
330 feelings of the gentleman, and the head of a house, like your father,
331 there is still more due to the character of an honest man."
332
333 This was the principle on which Anne wanted her father to be
334 proceeding, his friends to be urging him. She considered it as an act
335 of indispensable duty to clear away the claims of creditors with all
336 the expedition which the most comprehensive retrenchments could secure,
337 and saw no dignity in anything short of it. She wanted it to be
338 prescribed, and felt as a duty. She rated Lady Russell's influence
339 highly; and as to the severe degree of self-denial which her own
340 conscience prompted, she believed there might be little more difficulty
341 in persuading them to a complete, than to half a reformation. Her
342 knowledge of her father and Elizabeth inclined her to think that the
343 sacrifice of one pair of horses would be hardly less painful than of
344 both, and so on, through the whole list of Lady Russell's too gentle
345 reductions.
346
347 How Anne's more rigid requisitions might have been taken is of little
348 consequence. Lady Russell's had no success at all: could not be put up
349 with, were not to be borne. "What! every comfort of life knocked off!
350 Journeys, London, servants, horses, table--contractions and
351 restrictions every where! To live no longer with the decencies even of
352 a private gentleman! No, he would sooner quit Kellynch Hall at once,
353 than remain in it on such disgraceful terms."
354
355 "Quit Kellynch Hall." The hint was immediately taken up by Mr
356 Shepherd, whose interest was involved in the reality of Sir Walter's
357 retrenching, and who was perfectly persuaded that nothing would be done
358 without a change of abode. "Since the idea had been started in the
359 very quarter which ought to dictate, he had no scruple," he said, "in
360 confessing his judgement to be entirely on that side. It did not
361 appear to him that Sir Walter could materially alter his style of
362 living in a house which had such a character of hospitality and ancient
363 dignity to support. In any other place Sir Walter might judge for
364 himself; and would be looked up to, as regulating the modes of life in
365 whatever way he might choose to model his household."
366
367 Sir Walter would quit Kellynch Hall; and after a very few days more of
368 doubt and indecision, the great question of whither he should go was
369 settled, and the first outline of this important change made out.
370
371 There had been three alternatives, London, Bath, or another house in
372 the country. All Anne's wishes had been for the latter. A small house
373 in their own neighbourhood, where they might still have Lady Russell's
374 society, still be near Mary, and still have the pleasure of sometimes
375 seeing the lawns and groves of Kellynch, was the object of her
376 ambition. But the usual fate of Anne attended her, in having something
377 very opposite from her inclination fixed on. She disliked Bath, and
378 did not think it agreed with her; and Bath was to be her home.
379
380 Sir Walter had at first thought more of London; but Mr Shepherd felt
381 that he could not be trusted in London, and had been skilful enough to
382 dissuade him from it, and make Bath preferred. It was a much safer
383 place for a gentleman in his predicament: he might there be important
384 at comparatively little expense. Two material advantages of Bath over
385 London had of course been given all their weight: its more convenient
386 distance from Kellynch, only fifty miles, and Lady Russell's spending
387 some part of every winter there; and to the very great satisfaction of
388 Lady Russell, whose first views on the projected change had been for
389 Bath, Sir Walter and Elizabeth were induced to believe that they should
390 lose neither consequence nor enjoyment by settling there.
391
392 Lady Russell felt obliged to oppose her dear Anne's known wishes. It
393 would be too much to expect Sir Walter to descend into a small house in
394 his own neighbourhood. Anne herself would have found the
395 mortifications of it more than she foresaw, and to Sir Walter's
396 feelings they must have been dreadful. And with regard to Anne's
397 dislike of Bath, she considered it as a prejudice and mistake arising,
398 first, from the circumstance of her having been three years at school
399 there, after her mother's death; and secondly, from her happening to be
400 not in perfectly good spirits the only winter which she had afterwards
401 spent there with herself.
402
403 Lady Russell was fond of Bath, in short, and disposed to think it must
404 suit them all; and as to her young friend's health, by passing all the
405 warm months with her at Kellynch Lodge, every danger would be avoided;
406 and it was in fact, a change which must do both health and spirits
407 good. Anne had been too little from home, too little seen. Her spirits
408 were not high. A larger society would improve them. She wanted her to
409 be more known.
410
411 The undesirableness of any other house in the same neighbourhood for
412 Sir Walter was certainly much strengthened by one part, and a very
413 material part of the scheme, which had been happily engrafted on the
414 beginning. He was not only to quit his home, but to see it in the
415 hands of others; a trial of fortitude, which stronger heads than Sir
416 Walter's have found too much. Kellynch Hall was to be let. This,
417 however, was a profound secret, not to be breathed beyond their own
418 circle.
419
420 Sir Walter could not have borne the degradation of being known to
421 design letting his house. Mr Shepherd had once mentioned the word
422 "advertise," but never dared approach it again. Sir Walter spurned the
423 idea of its being offered in any manner; forbad the slightest hint
424 being dropped of his having such an intention; and it was only on the
425 supposition of his being spontaneously solicited by some most
426 unexceptionable applicant, on his own terms, and as a great favour,
427 that he would let it at all.
428
429 How quick come the reasons for approving what we like! Lady Russell
430 had another excellent one at hand, for being extremely glad that Sir
431 Walter and his family were to remove from the country. Elizabeth had
432 been lately forming an intimacy, which she wished to see interrupted.
433 It was with the daughter of Mr Shepherd, who had returned, after an
434 unprosperous marriage, to her father's house, with the additional
435 burden of two children. She was a clever young woman, who understood
436 the art of pleasing--the art of pleasing, at least, at Kellynch Hall;
437 and who had made herself so acceptable to Miss Elliot, as to have been
438 already staying there more than once, in spite of all that Lady
439 Russell, who thought it a friendship quite out of place, could hint of
440 caution and reserve.
441
442 Lady Russell, indeed, had scarcely any influence with Elizabeth, and
443 seemed to love her, rather because she would love her, than because
444 Elizabeth deserved it. She had never received from her more than
445 outward attention, nothing beyond the observances of complaisance; had
446 never succeeded in any point which she wanted to carry, against
447 previous inclination. She had been repeatedly very earnest in trying
448 to get Anne included in the visit to London, sensibly open to all the
449 injustice and all the discredit of the selfish arrangements which shut
450 her out, and on many lesser occasions had endeavoured to give Elizabeth
451 the advantage of her own better judgement and experience; but always in
452 vain: Elizabeth would go her own way; and never had she pursued it in
453 more decided opposition to Lady Russell than in this selection of Mrs
454 Clay; turning from the society of so deserving a sister, to bestow her
455 affection and confidence on one who ought to have been nothing to her
456 but the object of distant civility.
457
458 From situation, Mrs Clay was, in Lady Russell's estimate, a very
459 unequal, and in her character she believed a very dangerous companion;
460 and a removal that would leave Mrs Clay behind, and bring a choice of
461 more suitable intimates within Miss Elliot's reach, was therefore an
462 object of first-rate importance.
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464
465
466 Chapter 3
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468
469 "I must take leave to observe, Sir Walter," said Mr Shepherd one
470 morning at Kellynch Hall, as he laid down the newspaper, "that the
471 present juncture is much in our favour. This peace will be turning all
472 our rich naval officers ashore. They will be all wanting a home.
473 Could not be a better time, Sir Walter, for having a choice of tenants,
474 very responsible tenants. Many a noble fortune has been made during
475 the war. If a rich admiral were to come in our way, Sir Walter--"
476
477 "He would be a very lucky man, Shepherd," replied Sir Walter; "that's
478 all I have to remark. A prize indeed would Kellynch Hall be to him;
479 rather the greatest prize of all, let him have taken ever so many
480 before; hey, Shepherd?"
481
482 Mr Shepherd laughed, as he knew he must, at this wit, and then added--
483
484 "I presume to observe, Sir Walter, that, in the way of business,
485 gentlemen of the navy are well to deal with. I have had a little
486 knowledge of their methods of doing business; and I am free to confess
487 that they have very liberal notions, and are as likely to make
488 desirable tenants as any set of people one should meet with.
489 Therefore, Sir Walter, what I would take leave to suggest is, that if
490 in consequence of any rumours getting abroad of your intention; which
491 must be contemplated as a possible thing, because we know how difficult
492 it is to keep the actions and designs of one part of the world from the
493 notice and curiosity of the other; consequence has its tax; I, John
494 Shepherd, might conceal any family-matters that I chose, for nobody
495 would think it worth their while to observe me; but Sir Walter Elliot
496 has eyes upon him which it may be very difficult to elude; and
497 therefore, thus much I venture upon, that it will not greatly surprise
498 me if, with all our caution, some rumour of the truth should get
499 abroad; in the supposition of which, as I was going to observe, since
500 applications will unquestionably follow, I should think any from our
501 wealthy naval commanders particularly worth attending to; and beg leave
502 to add, that two hours will bring me over at any time, to save you the
503 trouble of replying."
504
505 Sir Walter only nodded. But soon afterwards, rising and pacing the
506 room, he observed sarcastically--
507
508 "There are few among the gentlemen of the navy, I imagine, who would
509 not be surprised to find themselves in a house of this description."
510
511 "They would look around them, no doubt, and bless their good fortune,"
512 said Mrs Clay, for Mrs Clay was present: her father had driven her
513 over, nothing being of so much use to Mrs Clay's health as a drive to
514 Kellynch: "but I quite agree with my father in thinking a sailor might
515 be a very desirable tenant. I have known a good deal of the
516 profession; and besides their liberality, they are so neat and careful
517 in all their ways! These valuable pictures of yours, Sir Walter, if
518 you chose to leave them, would be perfectly safe. Everything in and
519 about the house would be taken such excellent care of! The gardens and
520 shrubberies would be kept in almost as high order as they are now. You
521 need not be afraid, Miss Elliot, of your own sweet flower gardens being
522 neglected."
523
524 "As to all that," rejoined Sir Walter coolly, "supposing I were induced
525 to let my house, I have by no means made up my mind as to the
526 privileges to be annexed to it. I am not particularly disposed to
527 favour a tenant. The park would be open to him of course, and few navy
528 officers, or men of any other description, can have had such a range;
529 but what restrictions I might impose on the use of the
530 pleasure-grounds, is another thing. I am not fond of the idea of my
531 shrubberies being always approachable; and I should recommend Miss
532 Elliot to be on her guard with respect to her flower garden. I am very
533 little disposed to grant a tenant of Kellynch Hall any extraordinary
534 favour, I assure you, be he sailor or soldier."
535
536 After a short pause, Mr Shepherd presumed to say--
537
538 "In all these cases, there are established usages which make everything
539 plain and easy between landlord and tenant. Your interest, Sir Walter,
540 is in pretty safe hands. Depend upon me for taking care that no tenant
541 has more than his just rights. I venture to hint, that Sir Walter
542 Elliot cannot be half so jealous for his own, as John Shepherd will be
543 for him."
544
545 Here Anne spoke--
546
547 "The navy, I think, who have done so much for us, have at least an
548 equal claim with any other set of men, for all the comforts and all the
549 privileges which any home can give. Sailors work hard enough for their
550 comforts, we must all allow."
551
552 "Very true, very true. What Miss Anne says, is very true," was Mr
553 Shepherd's rejoinder, and "Oh! certainly," was his daughter's; but Sir
554 Walter's remark was, soon afterwards--
555
556 "The profession has its utility, but I should be sorry to see any
557 friend of mine belonging to it."
558
559 "Indeed!" was the reply, and with a look of surprise.
560
561 "Yes; it is in two points offensive to me; I have two strong grounds of
562 objection to it. First, as being the means of bringing persons of
563 obscure birth into undue distinction, and raising men to honours which
564 their fathers and grandfathers never dreamt of; and secondly, as it
565 cuts up a man's youth and vigour most horribly; a sailor grows old
566 sooner than any other man. I have observed it all my life. A man is
567 in greater danger in the navy of being insulted by the rise of one
568 whose father, his father might have disdained to speak to, and of
569 becoming prematurely an object of disgust himself, than in any other
570 line. One day last spring, in town, I was in company with two men,
571 striking instances of what I am talking of; Lord St Ives, whose father
572 we all know to have been a country curate, without bread to eat; I was
573 to give place to Lord St Ives, and a certain Admiral Baldwin, the most
574 deplorable-looking personage you can imagine; his face the colour of
575 mahogany, rough and rugged to the last degree; all lines and wrinkles,
576 nine grey hairs of a side, and nothing but a dab of powder at top. 'In
577 the name of heaven, who is that old fellow?' said I to a friend of mine
578 who was standing near, (Sir Basil Morley). 'Old fellow!' cried Sir
579 Basil, 'it is Admiral Baldwin. What do you take his age to be?'
580 'Sixty,' said I, 'or perhaps sixty-two.' 'Forty,' replied Sir Basil,
581 'forty, and no more.' Picture to yourselves my amazement; I shall not
582 easily forget Admiral Baldwin. I never saw quite so wretched an
583 example of what a sea-faring life can do; but to a degree, I know it is
584 the same with them all: they are all knocked about, and exposed to
585 every climate, and every weather, till they are not fit to be seen. It
586 is a pity they are not knocked on the head at once, before they reach
587 Admiral Baldwin's age."
588
589 "Nay, Sir Walter," cried Mrs Clay, "this is being severe indeed. Have
590 a little mercy on the poor men. We are not all born to be handsome.
591 The sea is no beautifier, certainly; sailors do grow old betimes; I
592 have observed it; they soon lose the look of youth. But then, is not
593 it the same with many other professions, perhaps most other? Soldiers,
594 in active service, are not at all better off: and even in the quieter
595 professions, there is a toil and a labour of the mind, if not of the
596 body, which seldom leaves a man's looks to the natural effect of time.
597 The lawyer plods, quite care-worn; the physician is up at all hours,
598 and travelling in all weather; and even the clergyman--" she stopt a
599 moment to consider what might do for the clergyman;--"and even the
600 clergyman, you know is obliged to go into infected rooms, and expose
601 his health and looks to all the injury of a poisonous atmosphere. In
602 fact, as I have long been convinced, though every profession is
603 necessary and honourable in its turn, it is only the lot of those who
604 are not obliged to follow any, who can live in a regular way, in the
605 country, choosing their own hours, following their own pursuits, and
606 living on their own property, without the torment of trying for more;
607 it is only their lot, I say, to hold the blessings of health and a good
608 appearance to the utmost: I know no other set of men but what lose
609 something of their personableness when they cease to be quite young."
610
611 It seemed as if Mr Shepherd, in this anxiety to bespeak Sir Walter's
612 good will towards a naval officer as tenant, had been gifted with
613 foresight; for the very first application for the house was from an
614 Admiral Croft, with whom he shortly afterwards fell into company in
615 attending the quarter sessions at Taunton; and indeed, he had received
616 a hint of the Admiral from a London correspondent. By the report which
617 he hastened over to Kellynch to make, Admiral Croft was a native of
618 Somersetshire, who having acquired a very handsome fortune, was wishing
619 to settle in his own country, and had come down to Taunton in order to
620 look at some advertised places in that immediate neighbourhood, which,
621 however, had not suited him; that accidentally hearing--(it was just as
622 he had foretold, Mr Shepherd observed, Sir Walter's concerns could not
623 be kept a secret,)--accidentally hearing of the possibility of
624 Kellynch Hall being to let, and understanding his (Mr Shepherd's)
625 connection with the owner, he had introduced himself to him in order to
626 make particular inquiries, and had, in the course of a pretty long
627 conference, expressed as strong an inclination for the place as a man
628 who knew it only by description could feel; and given Mr Shepherd, in
629 his explicit account of himself, every proof of his being a most
630 responsible, eligible tenant.
631
632 "And who is Admiral Croft?" was Sir Walter's cold suspicious inquiry.
633
634 Mr Shepherd answered for his being of a gentleman's family, and
635 mentioned a place; and Anne, after the little pause which followed,
636 added--
637
638 "He is a rear admiral of the white. He was in the Trafalgar action,
639 and has been in the East Indies since; he was stationed there, I
640 believe, several years."
641
642 "Then I take it for granted," observed Sir Walter, "that his face is
643 about as orange as the cuffs and capes of my livery."
644
645 Mr Shepherd hastened to assure him, that Admiral Croft was a very hale,
646 hearty, well-looking man, a little weather-beaten, to be sure, but not
647 much, and quite the gentleman in all his notions and behaviour; not
648 likely to make the smallest difficulty about terms, only wanted a
649 comfortable home, and to get into it as soon as possible; knew he must
650 pay for his convenience; knew what rent a ready-furnished house of that
651 consequence might fetch; should not have been surprised if Sir Walter
652 had asked more; had inquired about the manor; would be glad of the
653 deputation, certainly, but made no great point of it; said he sometimes
654 took out a gun, but never killed; quite the gentleman.
655
656 Mr Shepherd was eloquent on the subject; pointing out all the
657 circumstances of the Admiral's family, which made him peculiarly
658 desirable as a tenant. He was a married man, and without children; the
659 very state to be wished for. A house was never taken good care of, Mr
660 Shepherd observed, without a lady: he did not know, whether furniture
661 might not be in danger of suffering as much where there was no lady, as
662 where there were many children. A lady, without a family, was the very
663 best preserver of furniture in the world. He had seen Mrs Croft, too;
664 she was at Taunton with the admiral, and had been present almost all
665 the time they were talking the matter over.
666
667 "And a very well-spoken, genteel, shrewd lady, she seemed to be,"
668 continued he; "asked more questions about the house, and terms, and
669 taxes, than the Admiral himself, and seemed more conversant with
670 business; and moreover, Sir Walter, I found she was not quite
671 unconnected in this country, any more than her husband; that is to say,
672 she is sister to a gentleman who did live amongst us once; she told me
673 so herself: sister to the gentleman who lived a few years back at
674 Monkford. Bless me! what was his name? At this moment I cannot
675 recollect his name, though I have heard it so lately. Penelope, my
676 dear, can you help me to the name of the gentleman who lived at
677 Monkford: Mrs Croft's brother?"
678
679 But Mrs Clay was talking so eagerly with Miss Elliot, that she did not
680 hear the appeal.
681
682 "I have no conception whom you can mean, Shepherd; I remember no
683 gentleman resident at Monkford since the time of old Governor Trent."
684
685 "Bless me! how very odd! I shall forget my own name soon, I suppose.
686 A name that I am so very well acquainted with; knew the gentleman so
687 well by sight; seen him a hundred times; came to consult me once, I
688 remember, about a trespass of one of his neighbours; farmer's man
689 breaking into his orchard; wall torn down; apples stolen; caught in the
690 fact; and afterwards, contrary to my judgement, submitted to an
691 amicable compromise. Very odd indeed!"
692
693 After waiting another moment--
694
695 "You mean Mr Wentworth, I suppose?" said Anne.
696
697 Mr Shepherd was all gratitude.
698
699 "Wentworth was the very name! Mr Wentworth was the very man. He had
700 the curacy of Monkford, you know, Sir Walter, some time back, for two
701 or three years. Came there about the year ---5, I take it. You
702 remember him, I am sure."
703
704 "Wentworth? Oh! ay,--Mr Wentworth, the curate of Monkford. You misled
705 me by the term gentleman. I thought you were speaking of some man of
706 property: Mr Wentworth was nobody, I remember; quite unconnected;
707 nothing to do with the Strafford family. One wonders how the names of
708 many of our nobility become so common."
709
710 As Mr Shepherd perceived that this connexion of the Crofts did them no
711 service with Sir Walter, he mentioned it no more; returning, with all
712 his zeal, to dwell on the circumstances more indisputably in their
713 favour; their age, and number, and fortune; the high idea they had
714 formed of Kellynch Hall, and extreme solicitude for the advantage of
715 renting it; making it appear as if they ranked nothing beyond the
716 happiness of being the tenants of Sir Walter Elliot: an extraordinary
717 taste, certainly, could they have been supposed in the secret of Sir
718 Walter's estimate of the dues of a tenant.
719
720 It succeeded, however; and though Sir Walter must ever look with an
721 evil eye on anyone intending to inhabit that house, and think them
722 infinitely too well off in being permitted to rent it on the highest
723 terms, he was talked into allowing Mr Shepherd to proceed in the
724 treaty, and authorising him to wait on Admiral Croft, who still
725 remained at Taunton, and fix a day for the house being seen.
726
727 Sir Walter was not very wise; but still he had experience enough of the
728 world to feel, that a more unobjectionable tenant, in all essentials,
729 than Admiral Croft bid fair to be, could hardly offer. So far went his
730 understanding; and his vanity supplied a little additional soothing, in
731 the Admiral's situation in life, which was just high enough, and not
732 too high. "I have let my house to Admiral Croft," would sound
733 extremely well; very much better than to any mere Mr--; a Mr (save,
734 perhaps, some half dozen in the nation,) always needs a note of
735 explanation. An admiral speaks his own consequence, and, at the same
736 time, can never make a baronet look small. In all their dealings and
737 intercourse, Sir Walter Elliot must ever have the precedence.
738
739 Nothing could be done without a reference to Elizabeth: but her
740 inclination was growing so strong for a removal, that she was happy to
741 have it fixed and expedited by a tenant at hand; and not a word to
742 suspend decision was uttered by her.
743
744 Mr Shepherd was completely empowered to act; and no sooner had such an
745 end been reached, than Anne, who had been a most attentive listener to
746 the whole, left the room, to seek the comfort of cool air for her
747 flushed cheeks; and as she walked along a favourite grove, said, with a
748 gentle sigh, "A few months more, and he, perhaps, may be walking here."
749
750
751
752 Chapter 4
753
754
755 He was not Mr Wentworth, the former curate of Monkford, however
756 suspicious appearances may be, but a Captain Frederick Wentworth, his
757 brother, who being made commander in consequence of the action off St
758 Domingo, and not immediately employed, had come into Somersetshire, in
759 the summer of 1806; and having no parent living, found a home for half
760 a year at Monkford. He was, at that time, a remarkably fine young man,
761 with a great deal of intelligence, spirit, and brilliancy; and Anne an
762 extremely pretty girl, with gentleness, modesty, taste, and feeling.
763 Half the sum of attraction, on either side, might have been enough, for
764 he had nothing to do, and she had hardly anybody to love; but the
765 encounter of such lavish recommendations could not fail. They were
766 gradually acquainted, and when acquainted, rapidly and deeply in love.
767 It would be difficult to say which had seen highest perfection in the
768 other, or which had been the happiest: she, in receiving his
769 declarations and proposals, or he in having them accepted.
770
771 A short period of exquisite felicity followed, and but a short one.
772 Troubles soon arose. Sir Walter, on being applied to, without actually
773 withholding his consent, or saying it should never be, gave it all the
774 negative of great astonishment, great coldness, great silence, and a
775 professed resolution of doing nothing for his daughter. He thought it
776 a very degrading alliance; and Lady Russell, though with more tempered
777 and pardonable pride, received it as a most unfortunate one.
778
779 Anne Elliot, with all her claims of birth, beauty, and mind, to throw
780 herself away at nineteen; involve herself at nineteen in an engagement
781 with a young man, who had nothing but himself to recommend him, and no
782 hopes of attaining affluence, but in the chances of a most uncertain
783 profession, and no connexions to secure even his farther rise in the
784 profession, would be, indeed, a throwing away, which she grieved to
785 think of! Anne Elliot, so young; known to so few, to be snatched off
786 by a stranger without alliance or fortune; or rather sunk by him into a
787 state of most wearing, anxious, youth-killing dependence! It must not
788 be, if by any fair interference of friendship, any representations from
789 one who had almost a mother's love, and mother's rights, it would be
790 prevented.
791
792 Captain Wentworth had no fortune. He had been lucky in his profession;
793 but spending freely, what had come freely, had realized nothing. But
794 he was confident that he should soon be rich: full of life and ardour,
795 he knew that he should soon have a ship, and soon be on a station that
796 would lead to everything he wanted. He had always been lucky; he knew
797 he should be so still. Such confidence, powerful in its own warmth,
798 and bewitching in the wit which often expressed it, must have been
799 enough for Anne; but Lady Russell saw it very differently. His
800 sanguine temper, and fearlessness of mind, operated very differently on
801 her. She saw in it but an aggravation of the evil. It only added a
802 dangerous character to himself. He was brilliant, he was headstrong.
803 Lady Russell had little taste for wit, and of anything approaching to
804 imprudence a horror. She deprecated the connexion in every light.
805
806 Such opposition, as these feelings produced, was more than Anne could
807 combat. Young and gentle as she was, it might yet have been possible
808 to withstand her father's ill-will, though unsoftened by one kind word
809 or look on the part of her sister; but Lady Russell, whom she had
810 always loved and relied on, could not, with such steadiness of opinion,
811 and such tenderness of manner, be continually advising her in vain.
812 She was persuaded to believe the engagement a wrong thing: indiscreet,
813 improper, hardly capable of success, and not deserving it. But it was
814 not a merely selfish caution, under which she acted, in putting an end
815 to it. Had she not imagined herself consulting his good, even more
816 than her own, she could hardly have given him up. The belief of being
817 prudent, and self-denying, principally for his advantage, was her chief
818 consolation, under the misery of a parting, a final parting; and every
819 consolation was required, for she had to encounter all the additional
820 pain of opinions, on his side, totally unconvinced and unbending, and
821 of his feeling himself ill used by so forced a relinquishment. He had
822 left the country in consequence.
823
824 A few months had seen the beginning and the end of their acquaintance;
825 but not with a few months ended Anne's share of suffering from it. Her
826 attachment and regrets had, for a long time, clouded every enjoyment of
827 youth, and an early loss of bloom and spirits had been their lasting
828 effect.
829
830 More than seven years were gone since this little history of sorrowful
831 interest had reached its close; and time had softened down much,
832 perhaps nearly all of peculiar attachment to him, but she had been too
833 dependent on time alone; no aid had been given in change of place
834 (except in one visit to Bath soon after the rupture), or in any novelty
835 or enlargement of society. No one had ever come within the Kellynch
836 circle, who could bear a comparison with Frederick Wentworth, as he
837 stood in her memory. No second attachment, the only thoroughly
838 natural, happy, and sufficient cure, at her time of life, had been
839 possible to the nice tone of her mind, the fastidiousness of her taste,
840 in the small limits of the society around them. She had been
841 solicited, when about two-and-twenty, to change her name, by the young
842 man, who not long afterwards found a more willing mind in her younger
843 sister; and Lady Russell had lamented her refusal; for Charles Musgrove
844 was the eldest son of a man, whose landed property and general
845 importance were second in that country, only to Sir Walter's, and of
846 good character and appearance; and however Lady Russell might have
847 asked yet for something more, while Anne was nineteen, she would have
848 rejoiced to see her at twenty-two so respectably removed from the
849 partialities and injustice of her father's house, and settled so
850 permanently near herself. But in this case, Anne had left nothing for
851 advice to do; and though Lady Russell, as satisfied as ever with her
852 own discretion, never wished the past undone, she began now to have the
853 anxiety which borders on hopelessness for Anne's being tempted, by some
854 man of talents and independence, to enter a state for which she held
855 her to be peculiarly fitted by her warm affections and domestic habits.
856
857 They knew not each other's opinion, either its constancy or its change,
858 on the one leading point of Anne's conduct, for the subject was never
859 alluded to; but Anne, at seven-and-twenty, thought very differently
860 from what she had been made to think at nineteen. She did not blame
861 Lady Russell, she did not blame herself for having been guided by her;
862 but she felt that were any young person, in similar circumstances, to
863 apply to her for counsel, they would never receive any of such certain
864 immediate wretchedness, such uncertain future good. She was persuaded
865 that under every disadvantage of disapprobation at home, and every
866 anxiety attending his profession, all their probable fears, delays, and
867 disappointments, she should yet have been a happier woman in
868 maintaining the engagement, than she had been in the sacrifice of it;
869 and this, she fully believed, had the usual share, had even more than
870 the usual share of all such solicitudes and suspense been theirs,
871 without reference to the actual results of their case, which, as it
872 happened, would have bestowed earlier prosperity than could be
873 reasonably calculated on. All his sanguine expectations, all his
874 confidence had been justified. His genius and ardour had seemed to
875 foresee and to command his prosperous path. He had, very soon after
876 their engagement ceased, got employ: and all that he had told her would
877 follow, had taken place. He had distinguished himself, and early
878 gained the other step in rank, and must now, by successive captures,
879 have made a handsome fortune. She had only navy lists and newspapers
880 for her authority, but she could not doubt his being rich; and, in
881 favour of his constancy, she had no reason to believe him married.
882
883 How eloquent could Anne Elliot have been! how eloquent, at least, were
884 her wishes on the side of early warm attachment, and a cheerful
885 confidence in futurity, against that over-anxious caution which seems
886 to insult exertion and distrust Providence! She had been forced into
887 prudence in her youth, she learned romance as she grew older: the
888 natural sequel of an unnatural beginning.
889
890 With all these circumstances, recollections and feelings, she could not
891 hear that Captain Wentworth's sister was likely to live at Kellynch
892 without a revival of former pain; and many a stroll, and many a sigh,
893 were necessary to dispel the agitation of the idea. She often told
894 herself it was folly, before she could harden her nerves sufficiently
895 to feel the continual discussion of the Crofts and their business no
896 evil. She was assisted, however, by that perfect indifference and
897 apparent unconsciousness, among the only three of her own friends in
898 the secret of the past, which seemed almost to deny any recollection of
899 it. She could do justice to the superiority of Lady Russell's motives
900 in this, over those of her father and Elizabeth; she could honour all
901 the better feelings of her calmness; but the general air of oblivion
902 among them was highly important from whatever it sprung; and in the
903 event of Admiral Croft's really taking Kellynch Hall, she rejoiced anew
904 over the conviction which had always been most grateful to her, of the
905 past being known to those three only among her connexions, by whom no
906 syllable, she believed, would ever be whispered, and in the trust that
907 among his, the brother only with whom he had been residing, had
908 received any information of their short-lived engagement. That brother
909 had been long removed from the country and being a sensible man, and,
910 moreover, a single man at the time, she had a fond dependence on no
911 human creature's having heard of it from him.
912
913 The sister, Mrs Croft, had then been out of England, accompanying her
914 husband on a foreign station, and her own sister, Mary, had been at
915 school while it all occurred; and never admitted by the pride of some,
916 and the delicacy of others, to the smallest knowledge of it afterwards.
917
918 With these supports, she hoped that the acquaintance between herself
919 and the Crofts, which, with Lady Russell, still resident in Kellynch,
920 and Mary fixed only three miles off, must be anticipated, need not
921 involve any particular awkwardness.
922
923
924
925 Chapter 5
926
927
928 On the morning appointed for Admiral and Mrs Croft's seeing Kellynch
929 Hall, Anne found it most natural to take her almost daily walk to Lady
930 Russell's, and keep out of the way till all was over; when she found it
931 most natural to be sorry that she had missed the opportunity of seeing
932 them.
933
934 This meeting of the two parties proved highly satisfactory, and decided
935 the whole business at once. Each lady was previously well disposed for
936 an agreement, and saw nothing, therefore, but good manners in the
937 other; and with regard to the gentlemen, there was such an hearty good
938 humour, such an open, trusting liberality on the Admiral's side, as
939 could not but influence Sir Walter, who had besides been flattered into
940 his very best and most polished behaviour by Mr Shepherd's assurances
941 of his being known, by report, to the Admiral, as a model of good
942 breeding.
943
944 The house and grounds, and furniture, were approved, the Crofts were
945 approved, terms, time, every thing, and every body, was right; and Mr
946 Shepherd's clerks were set to work, without there having been a single
947 preliminary difference to modify of all that "This indenture sheweth."
948
949 Sir Walter, without hesitation, declared the Admiral to be the
950 best-looking sailor he had ever met with, and went so far as to say,
951 that if his own man might have had the arranging of his hair, he should
952 not be ashamed of being seen with him any where; and the Admiral, with
953 sympathetic cordiality, observed to his wife as they drove back through
954 the park, "I thought we should soon come to a deal, my dear, in spite
955 of what they told us at Taunton. The Baronet will never set the Thames
956 on fire, but there seems to be no harm in him."--reciprocal
957 compliments, which would have been esteemed about equal.
958
959 The Crofts were to have possession at Michaelmas; and as Sir Walter
960 proposed removing to Bath in the course of the preceding month, there
961 was no time to be lost in making every dependent arrangement.
962
963 Lady Russell, convinced that Anne would not be allowed to be of any
964 use, or any importance, in the choice of the house which they were
965 going to secure, was very unwilling to have her hurried away so soon,
966 and wanted to make it possible for her to stay behind till she might
967 convey her to Bath herself after Christmas; but having engagements of
968 her own which must take her from Kellynch for several weeks, she was
969 unable to give the full invitation she wished, and Anne though dreading
970 the possible heats of September in all the white glare of Bath, and
971 grieving to forego all the influence so sweet and so sad of the
972 autumnal months in the country, did not think that, everything
973 considered, she wished to remain. It would be most right, and most
974 wise, and, therefore must involve least suffering to go with the others.
975
976 Something occurred, however, to give her a different duty. Mary, often
977 a little unwell, and always thinking a great deal of her own
978 complaints, and always in the habit of claiming Anne when anything was
979 the matter, was indisposed; and foreseeing that she should not have a
980 day's health all the autumn, entreated, or rather required her, for it
981 was hardly entreaty, to come to Uppercross Cottage, and bear her
982 company as long as she should want her, instead of going to Bath.
983
984 "I cannot possibly do without Anne," was Mary's reasoning; and
985 Elizabeth's reply was, "Then I am sure Anne had better stay, for nobody
986 will want her in Bath."
987
988 To be claimed as a good, though in an improper style, is at least
989 better than being rejected as no good at all; and Anne, glad to be
990 thought of some use, glad to have anything marked out as a duty, and
991 certainly not sorry to have the scene of it in the country, and her own
992 dear country, readily agreed to stay.
993
994 This invitation of Mary's removed all Lady Russell's difficulties, and
995 it was consequently soon settled that Anne should not go to Bath till
996 Lady Russell took her, and that all the intervening time should be
997 divided between Uppercross Cottage and Kellynch Lodge.
998
999 So far all was perfectly right; but Lady Russell was almost startled by
1000 the wrong of one part of the Kellynch Hall plan, when it burst on her,
1001 which was, Mrs Clay's being engaged to go to Bath with Sir Walter and
1002 Elizabeth, as a most important and valuable assistant to the latter in
1003 all the business before her. Lady Russell was extremely sorry that
1004 such a measure should have been resorted to at all, wondered, grieved,
1005 and feared; and the affront it contained to Anne, in Mrs Clay's being
1006 of so much use, while Anne could be of none, was a very sore
1007 aggravation.
1008
1009 Anne herself was become hardened to such affronts; but she felt the
1010 imprudence of the arrangement quite as keenly as Lady Russell. With a
1011 great deal of quiet observation, and a knowledge, which she often
1012 wished less, of her father's character, she was sensible that results
1013 the most serious to his family from the intimacy were more than
1014 possible. She did not imagine that her father had at present an idea
1015 of the kind. Mrs Clay had freckles, and a projecting tooth, and a
1016 clumsy wrist, which he was continually making severe remarks upon, in
1017 her absence; but she was young, and certainly altogether well-looking,
1018 and possessed, in an acute mind and assiduous pleasing manners,
1019 infinitely more dangerous attractions than any merely personal might
1020 have been. Anne was so impressed by the degree of their danger, that
1021 she could not excuse herself from trying to make it perceptible to her
1022 sister. She had little hope of success; but Elizabeth, who in the
1023 event of such a reverse would be so much more to be pitied than
1024 herself, should never, she thought, have reason to reproach her for
1025 giving no warning.
1026
1027 She spoke, and seemed only to offend. Elizabeth could not conceive how
1028 such an absurd suspicion should occur to her, and indignantly answered
1029 for each party's perfectly knowing their situation.
1030
1031 "Mrs Clay," said she, warmly, "never forgets who she is; and as I am
1032 rather better acquainted with her sentiments than you can be, I can
1033 assure you, that upon the subject of marriage they are particularly
1034 nice, and that she reprobates all inequality of condition and rank more
1035 strongly than most people. And as to my father, I really should not
1036 have thought that he, who has kept himself single so long for our
1037 sakes, need be suspected now. If Mrs Clay were a very beautiful woman,
1038 I grant you, it might be wrong to have her so much with me; not that
1039 anything in the world, I am sure, would induce my father to make a
1040 degrading match, but he might be rendered unhappy. But poor Mrs Clay
1041 who, with all her merits, can never have been reckoned tolerably
1042 pretty, I really think poor Mrs Clay may be staying here in perfect
1043 safety. One would imagine you had never heard my father speak of her
1044 personal misfortunes, though I know you must fifty times. That tooth
1045 of her's and those freckles. Freckles do not disgust me so very much
1046 as they do him. I have known a face not materially disfigured by a
1047 few, but he abominates them. You must have heard him notice Mrs Clay's
1048 freckles."
1049
1050 "There is hardly any personal defect," replied Anne, "which an
1051 agreeable manner might not gradually reconcile one to."
1052
1053 "I think very differently," answered Elizabeth, shortly; "an agreeable
1054 manner may set off handsome features, but can never alter plain ones.
1055 However, at any rate, as I have a great deal more at stake on this
1056 point than anybody else can have, I think it rather unnecessary in you
1057 to be advising me."
1058
1059 Anne had done; glad that it was over, and not absolutely hopeless of
1060 doing good. Elizabeth, though resenting the suspicion, might yet be
1061 made observant by it.
1062
1063 The last office of the four carriage-horses was to draw Sir Walter,
1064 Miss Elliot, and Mrs Clay to Bath. The party drove off in very good
1065 spirits; Sir Walter prepared with condescending bows for all the
1066 afflicted tenantry and cottagers who might have had a hint to show
1067 themselves, and Anne walked up at the same time, in a sort of desolate
1068 tranquillity, to the Lodge, where she was to spend the first week.
1069
1070 Her friend was not in better spirits than herself. Lady Russell felt
1071 this break-up of the family exceedingly. Their respectability was as
1072 dear to her as her own, and a daily intercourse had become precious by
1073 habit. It was painful to look upon their deserted grounds, and still
1074 worse to anticipate the new hands they were to fall into; and to escape
1075 the solitariness and the melancholy of so altered a village, and be out
1076 of the way when Admiral and Mrs Croft first arrived, she had determined
1077 to make her own absence from home begin when she must give up Anne.
1078 Accordingly their removal was made together, and Anne was set down at
1079 Uppercross Cottage, in the first stage of Lady Russell's journey.
1080
1081 Uppercross was a moderate-sized village, which a few years back had
1082 been completely in the old English style, containing only two houses
1083 superior in appearance to those of the yeomen and labourers; the
1084 mansion of the squire, with its high walls, great gates, and old trees,
1085 substantial and unmodernized, and the compact, tight parsonage,
1086 enclosed in its own neat garden, with a vine and a pear-tree trained
1087 round its casements; but upon the marriage of the young 'squire, it had
1088 received the improvement of a farm-house elevated into a cottage, for
1089 his residence, and Uppercross Cottage, with its veranda, French
1090 windows, and other prettiness, was quite as likely to catch the
1091 traveller's eye as the more consistent and considerable aspect and
1092 premises of the Great House, about a quarter of a mile farther on.
1093
1094 Here Anne had often been staying. She knew the ways of Uppercross as
1095 well as those of Kellynch. The two families were so continually
1096 meeting, so much in the habit of running in and out of each other's
1097 house at all hours, that it was rather a surprise to her to find Mary
1098 alone; but being alone, her being unwell and out of spirits was almost
1099 a matter of course. Though better endowed than the elder sister, Mary
1100 had not Anne's understanding nor temper. While well, and happy, and
1101 properly attended to, she had great good humour and excellent spirits;
1102 but any indisposition sunk her completely. She had no resources for
1103 solitude; and inheriting a considerable share of the Elliot
1104 self-importance, was very prone to add to every other distress that of
1105 fancying herself neglected and ill-used. In person, she was inferior to
1106 both sisters, and had, even in her bloom, only reached the dignity of
1107 being "a fine girl." She was now lying on the faded sofa of the pretty
1108 little drawing-room, the once elegant furniture of which had been
1109 gradually growing shabby, under the influence of four summers and two
1110 children; and, on Anne's appearing, greeted her with--
1111
1112 "So, you are come at last! I began to think I should never see you. I
1113 am so ill I can hardly speak. I have not seen a creature the whole
1114 morning!"
1115
1116 "I am sorry to find you unwell," replied Anne. "You sent me such a
1117 good account of yourself on Thursday!"
1118
1119 "Yes, I made the best of it; I always do: but I was very far from well
1120 at the time; and I do not think I ever was so ill in my life as I have
1121 been all this morning: very unfit to be left alone, I am sure.
1122 Suppose I were to be seized of a sudden in some dreadful way, and not
1123 able to ring the bell! So, Lady Russell would not get out. I do not
1124 think she has been in this house three times this summer."
1125
1126 Anne said what was proper, and enquired after her husband. "Oh!
1127 Charles is out shooting. I have not seen him since seven o'clock. He
1128 would go, though I told him how ill I was. He said he should not stay
1129 out long; but he has never come back, and now it is almost one. I
1130 assure you, I have not seen a soul this whole long morning."
1131
1132 "You have had your little boys with you?"
1133
1134 "Yes, as long as I could bear their noise; but they are so unmanageable
1135 that they do me more harm than good. Little Charles does not mind a
1136 word I say, and Walter is growing quite as bad."
1137
1138 "Well, you will soon be better now," replied Anne, cheerfully. "You
1139 know I always cure you when I come. How are your neighbours at the
1140 Great House?"
1141
1142 "I can give you no account of them. I have not seen one of them
1143 to-day, except Mr Musgrove, who just stopped and spoke through the
1144 window, but without getting off his horse; and though I told him how
1145 ill I was, not one of them have been near me. It did not happen to
1146 suit the Miss Musgroves, I suppose, and they never put themselves out
1147 of their way."
1148
1149 "You will see them yet, perhaps, before the morning is gone. It is
1150 early."
1151
1152 "I never want them, I assure you. They talk and laugh a great deal too
1153 much for me. Oh! Anne, I am so very unwell! It was quite unkind of
1154 you not to come on Thursday."
1155
1156 "My dear Mary, recollect what a comfortable account you sent me of
1157 yourself! You wrote in the cheerfullest manner, and said you were
1158 perfectly well, and in no hurry for me; and that being the case, you
1159 must be aware that my wish would be to remain with Lady Russell to the
1160 last: and besides what I felt on her account, I have really been so
1161 busy, have had so much to do, that I could not very conveniently have
1162 left Kellynch sooner."
1163
1164 "Dear me! what can you possibly have to do?"
1165
1166 "A great many things, I assure you. More than I can recollect in a
1167 moment; but I can tell you some. I have been making a duplicate of the
1168 catalogue of my father's books and pictures. I have been several times
1169 in the garden with Mackenzie, trying to understand, and make him
1170 understand, which of Elizabeth's plants are for Lady Russell. I have
1171 had all my own little concerns to arrange, books and music to divide,
1172 and all my trunks to repack, from not having understood in time what
1173 was intended as to the waggons: and one thing I have had to do, Mary,
1174 of a more trying nature: going to almost every house in the parish, as
1175 a sort of take-leave. I was told that they wished it. But all these
1176 things took up a great deal of time."
1177
1178 "Oh! well!" and after a moment's pause, "but you have never asked me
1179 one word about our dinner at the Pooles yesterday."
1180
1181 "Did you go then? I have made no enquiries, because I concluded you
1182 must have been obliged to give up the party."
1183
1184 "Oh yes! I went. I was very well yesterday; nothing at all the matter
1185 with me till this morning. It would have been strange if I had not
1186 gone."
1187
1188 "I am very glad you were well enough, and I hope you had a pleasant
1189 party."
1190
1191 "Nothing remarkable. One always knows beforehand what the dinner will
1192 be, and who will be there; and it is so very uncomfortable not having a
1193 carriage of one's own. Mr and Mrs Musgrove took me, and we were so
1194 crowded! They are both so very large, and take up so much room; and Mr
1195 Musgrove always sits forward. So, there was I, crowded into the back
1196 seat with Henrietta and Louisa; and I think it very likely that my
1197 illness to-day may be owing to it."
1198
1199 A little further perseverance in patience and forced cheerfulness on
1200 Anne's side produced nearly a cure on Mary's. She could soon sit
1201 upright on the sofa, and began to hope she might be able to leave it by
1202 dinner-time. Then, forgetting to think of it, she was at the other end
1203 of the room, beautifying a nosegay; then, she ate her cold meat; and
1204 then she was well enough to propose a little walk.
1205
1206 "Where shall we go?" said she, when they were ready. "I suppose you
1207 will not like to call at the Great House before they have been to see
1208 you?"
1209
1210 "I have not the smallest objection on that account," replied Anne. "I
1211 should never think of standing on such ceremony with people I know so
1212 well as Mrs and the Miss Musgroves."
1213
1214 "Oh! but they ought to call upon you as soon as possible. They ought
1215 to feel what is due to you as my sister. However, we may as well go
1216 and sit with them a little while, and when we have that over, we can
1217 enjoy our walk."
1218
1219 Anne had always thought such a style of intercourse highly imprudent;
1220 but she had ceased to endeavour to check it, from believing that,
1221 though there were on each side continual subjects of offence, neither
1222 family could now do without it. To the Great House accordingly they
1223 went, to sit the full half hour in the old-fashioned square parlour,
1224 with a small carpet and shining floor, to which the present daughters
1225 of the house were gradually giving the proper air of confusion by a
1226 grand piano-forte and a harp, flower-stands and little tables placed in
1227 every direction. Oh! could the originals of the portraits against the
1228 wainscot, could the gentlemen in brown velvet and the ladies in blue
1229 satin have seen what was going on, have been conscious of such an
1230 overthrow of all order and neatness! The portraits themselves seemed
1231 to be staring in astonishment.
1232
1233 The Musgroves, like their houses, were in a state of alteration,
1234 perhaps of improvement. The father and mother were in the old English
1235 style, and the young people in the new. Mr and Mrs Musgrove were a
1236 very good sort of people; friendly and hospitable, not much educated,
1237 and not at all elegant. Their children had more modern minds and
1238 manners. There was a numerous family; but the only two grown up,
1239 excepting Charles, were Henrietta and Louisa, young ladies of nineteen
1240 and twenty, who had brought from school at Exeter all the usual stock
1241 of accomplishments, and were now like thousands of other young ladies,
1242 living to be fashionable, happy, and merry. Their dress had every
1243 advantage, their faces were rather pretty, their spirits extremely
1244 good, their manner unembarrassed and pleasant; they were of consequence
1245 at home, and favourites abroad. Anne always contemplated them as some
1246 of the happiest creatures of her acquaintance; but still, saved as we
1247 all are, by some comfortable feeling of superiority from wishing for
1248 the possibility of exchange, she would not have given up her own more
1249 elegant and cultivated mind for all their enjoyments; and envied them
1250 nothing but that seemingly perfect good understanding and agreement
1251 together, that good-humoured mutual affection, of which she had known
1252 so little herself with either of her sisters.
1253
1254 They were received with great cordiality. Nothing seemed amiss on the
1255 side of the Great House family, which was generally, as Anne very well
1256 knew, the least to blame. The half hour was chatted away pleasantly
1257 enough; and she was not at all surprised, at the end of it, to have
1258 their walking party joined by both the Miss Musgroves, at Mary's
1259 particular invitation.
1260
1261
1262
1263 Chapter 6
1264
1265
1266 Anne had not wanted this visit to Uppercross, to learn that a removal
1267 from one set of people to another, though at a distance of only three
1268 miles, will often include a total change of conversation, opinion, and
1269 idea. She had never been staying there before, without being struck by
1270 it, or without wishing that other Elliots could have her advantage in
1271 seeing how unknown, or unconsidered there, were the affairs which at
1272 Kellynch Hall were treated as of such general publicity and pervading
1273 interest; yet, with all this experience, she believed she must now
1274 submit to feel that another lesson, in the art of knowing our own
1275 nothingness beyond our own circle, was become necessary for her; for
1276 certainly, coming as she did, with a heart full of the subject which
1277 had been completely occupying both houses in Kellynch for many weeks,
1278 she had expected rather more curiosity and sympathy than she found in
1279 the separate but very similar remark of Mr and Mrs Musgrove: "So, Miss
1280 Anne, Sir Walter and your sister are gone; and what part of Bath do you
1281 think they will settle in?" and this, without much waiting for an
1282 answer; or in the young ladies' addition of, "I hope we shall be in
1283 Bath in the winter; but remember, papa, if we do go, we must be in a
1284 good situation: none of your Queen Squares for us!" or in the anxious
1285 supplement from Mary, of--"Upon my word, I shall be pretty well off,
1286 when you are all gone away to be happy at Bath!"
1287
1288 She could only resolve to avoid such self-delusion in future, and think
1289 with heightened gratitude of the extraordinary blessing of having one
1290 such truly sympathising friend as Lady Russell.
1291
1292 The Mr Musgroves had their own game to guard, and to destroy, their own
1293 horses, dogs, and newspapers to engage them, and the females were fully
1294 occupied in all the other common subjects of housekeeping, neighbours,
1295 dress, dancing, and music. She acknowledged it to be very fitting,
1296 that every little social commonwealth should dictate its own matters of
1297 discourse; and hoped, ere long, to become a not unworthy member of the
1298 one she was now transplanted into. With the prospect of spending at
1299 least two months at Uppercross, it was highly incumbent on her to
1300 clothe her imagination, her memory, and all her ideas in as much of
1301 Uppercross as possible.
1302
1303 She had no dread of these two months. Mary was not so repulsive and
1304 unsisterly as Elizabeth, nor so inaccessible to all influence of hers;
1305 neither was there anything among the other component parts of the
1306 cottage inimical to comfort. She was always on friendly terms with her
1307 brother-in-law; and in the children, who loved her nearly as well, and
1308 respected her a great deal more than their mother, she had an object of
1309 interest, amusement, and wholesome exertion.
1310
1311 Charles Musgrove was civil and agreeable; in sense and temper he was
1312 undoubtedly superior to his wife, but not of powers, or conversation,
1313 or grace, to make the past, as they were connected together, at all a
1314 dangerous contemplation; though, at the same time, Anne could believe,
1315 with Lady Russell, that a more equal match might have greatly improved
1316 him; and that a woman of real understanding might have given more
1317 consequence to his character, and more usefulness, rationality, and
1318 elegance to his habits and pursuits. As it was, he did nothing with
1319 much zeal, but sport; and his time was otherwise trifled away, without
1320 benefit from books or anything else. He had very good spirits, which
1321 never seemed much affected by his wife's occasional lowness, bore with
1322 her unreasonableness sometimes to Anne's admiration, and upon the
1323 whole, though there was very often a little disagreement (in which she
1324 had sometimes more share than she wished, being appealed to by both
1325 parties), they might pass for a happy couple. They were always
1326 perfectly agreed in the want of more money, and a strong inclination
1327 for a handsome present from his father; but here, as on most topics, he
1328 had the superiority, for while Mary thought it a great shame that such
1329 a present was not made, he always contended for his father's having
1330 many other uses for his money, and a right to spend it as he liked.
1331
1332 As to the management of their children, his theory was much better than
1333 his wife's, and his practice not so bad. "I could manage them very
1334 well, if it were not for Mary's interference," was what Anne often
1335 heard him say, and had a good deal of faith in; but when listening in
1336 turn to Mary's reproach of "Charles spoils the children so that I
1337 cannot get them into any order," she never had the smallest temptation
1338 to say, "Very true."
1339
1340 One of the least agreeable circumstances of her residence there was her
1341 being treated with too much confidence by all parties, and being too
1342 much in the secret of the complaints of each house. Known to have some
1343 influence with her sister, she was continually requested, or at least
1344 receiving hints to exert it, beyond what was practicable. "I wish you
1345 could persuade Mary not to be always fancying herself ill," was
1346 Charles's language; and, in an unhappy mood, thus spoke Mary: "I do
1347 believe if Charles were to see me dying, he would not think there was
1348 anything the matter with me. I am sure, Anne, if you would, you might
1349 persuade him that I really am very ill--a great deal worse than I ever
1350 own."
1351
1352 Mary's declaration was, "I hate sending the children to the Great
1353 House, though their grandmamma is always wanting to see them, for she
1354 humours and indulges them to such a degree, and gives them so much
1355 trash and sweet things, that they are sure to come back sick and cross
1356 for the rest of the day." And Mrs Musgrove took the first opportunity
1357 of being alone with Anne, to say, "Oh! Miss Anne, I cannot help wishing
1358 Mrs Charles had a little of your method with those children. They are
1359 quite different creatures with you! But to be sure, in general they
1360 are so spoilt! It is a pity you cannot put your sister in the way of
1361 managing them. They are as fine healthy children as ever were seen,
1362 poor little dears! without partiality; but Mrs Charles knows no more
1363 how they should be treated--! Bless me! how troublesome they are
1364 sometimes. I assure you, Miss Anne, it prevents my wishing to see them
1365 at our house so often as I otherwise should. I believe Mrs Charles is
1366 not quite pleased with my not inviting them oftener; but you know it is
1367 very bad to have children with one that one is obligated to be checking
1368 every moment; "don't do this," and "don't do that;" or that one can
1369 only keep in tolerable order by more cake than is good for them."
1370
1371 She had this communication, moreover, from Mary. "Mrs Musgrove thinks
1372 all her servants so steady, that it would be high treason to call it in
1373 question; but I am sure, without exaggeration, that her upper
1374 house-maid and laundry-maid, instead of being in their business, are
1375 gadding about the village, all day long. I meet them wherever I go;
1376 and I declare, I never go twice into my nursery without seeing
1377 something of them. If Jemima were not the trustiest, steadiest
1378 creature in the world, it would be enough to spoil her; for she tells
1379 me, they are always tempting her to take a walk with them." And on Mrs
1380 Musgrove's side, it was, "I make a rule of never interfering in any of
1381 my daughter-in-law's concerns, for I know it would not do; but I shall
1382 tell you, Miss Anne, because you may be able to set things to rights,
1383 that I have no very good opinion of Mrs Charles's nursery-maid: I hear
1384 strange stories of her; she is always upon the gad; and from my own
1385 knowledge, I can declare, she is such a fine-dressing lady, that she is
1386 enough to ruin any servants she comes near. Mrs Charles quite swears
1387 by her, I know; but I just give you this hint, that you may be upon the
1388 watch; because, if you see anything amiss, you need not be afraid of
1389 mentioning it."
1390
1391 Again, it was Mary's complaint, that Mrs Musgrove was very apt not to
1392 give her the precedence that was her due, when they dined at the Great
1393 House with other families; and she did not see any reason why she was
1394 to be considered so much at home as to lose her place. And one day
1395 when Anne was walking with only the Musgroves, one of them after
1396 talking of rank, people of rank, and jealousy of rank, said, "I have no
1397 scruple of observing to you, how nonsensical some persons are about
1398 their place, because all the world knows how easy and indifferent you
1399 are about it; but I wish anybody could give Mary a hint that it would
1400 be a great deal better if she were not so very tenacious, especially if
1401 she would not be always putting herself forward to take place of mamma.
1402 Nobody doubts her right to have precedence of mamma, but it would be
1403 more becoming in her not to be always insisting on it. It is not that
1404 mamma cares about it the least in the world, but I know it is taken
1405 notice of by many persons."
1406
1407 How was Anne to set all these matters to rights? She could do little
1408 more than listen patiently, soften every grievance, and excuse each to
1409 the other; give them all hints of the forbearance necessary between
1410 such near neighbours, and make those hints broadest which were meant
1411 for her sister's benefit.
1412
1413 In all other respects, her visit began and proceeded very well. Her
1414 own spirits improved by change of place and subject, by being removed
1415 three miles from Kellynch; Mary's ailments lessened by having a
1416 constant companion, and their daily intercourse with the other family,
1417 since there was neither superior affection, confidence, nor employment
1418 in the cottage, to be interrupted by it, was rather an advantage. It
1419 was certainly carried nearly as far as possible, for they met every
1420 morning, and hardly ever spent an evening asunder; but she believed
1421 they should not have done so well without the sight of Mr and Mrs
1422 Musgrove's respectable forms in the usual places, or without the
1423 talking, laughing, and singing of their daughters.
1424
1425 She played a great deal better than either of the Miss Musgroves, but
1426 having no voice, no knowledge of the harp, and no fond parents, to sit
1427 by and fancy themselves delighted, her performance was little thought
1428 of, only out of civility, or to refresh the others, as she was well
1429 aware. She knew that when she played she was giving pleasure only to
1430 herself; but this was no new sensation. Excepting one short period of
1431 her life, she had never, since the age of fourteen, never since the
1432 loss of her dear mother, known the happiness of being listened to, or
1433 encouraged by any just appreciation or real taste. In music she had
1434 been always used to feel alone in the world; and Mr and Mrs Musgrove's
1435 fond partiality for their own daughters' performance, and total
1436 indifference to any other person's, gave her much more pleasure for
1437 their sakes, than mortification for her own.
1438
1439 The party at the Great House was sometimes increased by other company.
1440 The neighbourhood was not large, but the Musgroves were visited by
1441 everybody, and had more dinner-parties, and more callers, more visitors
1442 by invitation and by chance, than any other family. They were more
1443 completely popular.
1444
1445 The girls were wild for dancing; and the evenings ended, occasionally,
1446 in an unpremeditated little ball. There was a family of cousins within
1447 a walk of Uppercross, in less affluent circumstances, who depended on
1448 the Musgroves for all their pleasures: they would come at any time,
1449 and help play at anything, or dance anywhere; and Anne, very much
1450 preferring the office of musician to a more active post, played country
1451 dances to them by the hour together; a kindness which always
1452 recommended her musical powers to the notice of Mr and Mrs Musgrove
1453 more than anything else, and often drew this compliment;--"Well done,
1454 Miss Anne! very well done indeed! Lord bless me! how those little
1455 fingers of yours fly about!"
1456
1457 So passed the first three weeks. Michaelmas came; and now Anne's heart
1458 must be in Kellynch again. A beloved home made over to others; all the
1459 precious rooms and furniture, groves, and prospects, beginning to own
1460 other eyes and other limbs! She could not think of much else on the
1461 29th of September; and she had this sympathetic touch in the evening
1462 from Mary, who, on having occasion to note down the day of the month,
1463 exclaimed, "Dear me, is not this the day the Crofts were to come to
1464 Kellynch? I am glad I did not think of it before. How low it makes
1465 me!"
1466
1467 The Crofts took possession with true naval alertness, and were to be
1468 visited. Mary deplored the necessity for herself. "Nobody knew how
1469 much she should suffer. She should put it off as long as she could;"
1470 but was not easy till she had talked Charles into driving her over on
1471 an early day, and was in a very animated, comfortable state of
1472 imaginary agitation, when she came back. Anne had very sincerely
1473 rejoiced in there being no means of her going. She wished, however to
1474 see the Crofts, and was glad to be within when the visit was returned.
1475 They came: the master of the house was not at home, but the two
1476 sisters were together; and as it chanced that Mrs Croft fell to the
1477 share of Anne, while the Admiral sat by Mary, and made himself very
1478 agreeable by his good-humoured notice of her little boys, she was well
1479 able to watch for a likeness, and if it failed her in the features, to
1480 catch it in the voice, or in the turn of sentiment and expression.
1481
1482 Mrs Croft, though neither tall nor fat, had a squareness, uprightness,
1483 and vigour of form, which gave importance to her person. She had
1484 bright dark eyes, good teeth, and altogether an agreeable face; though
1485 her reddened and weather-beaten complexion, the consequence of her
1486 having been almost as much at sea as her husband, made her seem to have
1487 lived some years longer in the world than her real eight-and-thirty.
1488 Her manners were open, easy, and decided, like one who had no distrust
1489 of herself, and no doubts of what to do; without any approach to
1490 coarseness, however, or any want of good humour. Anne gave her credit,
1491 indeed, for feelings of great consideration towards herself, in all
1492 that related to Kellynch, and it pleased her: especially, as she had
1493 satisfied herself in the very first half minute, in the instant even of
1494 introduction, that there was not the smallest symptom of any knowledge
1495 or suspicion on Mrs Croft's side, to give a bias of any sort. She was
1496 quite easy on that head, and consequently full of strength and courage,
1497 till for a moment electrified by Mrs Croft's suddenly saying,--
1498
1499 "It was you, and not your sister, I find, that my brother had the
1500 pleasure of being acquainted with, when he was in this country."
1501
1502 Anne hoped she had outlived the age of blushing; but the age of emotion
1503 she certainly had not.
1504
1505 "Perhaps you may not have heard that he is married?" added Mrs Croft.
1506
1507 She could now answer as she ought; and was happy to feel, when Mrs
1508 Croft's next words explained it to be Mr Wentworth of whom she spoke,
1509 that she had said nothing which might not do for either brother. She
1510 immediately felt how reasonable it was, that Mrs Croft should be
1511 thinking and speaking of Edward, and not of Frederick; and with shame
1512 at her own forgetfulness applied herself to the knowledge of their
1513 former neighbour's present state with proper interest.
1514
1515 The rest was all tranquillity; till, just as they were moving, she
1516 heard the Admiral say to Mary--
1517
1518 "We are expecting a brother of Mrs Croft's here soon; I dare say you
1519 know him by name."
1520
1521 He was cut short by the eager attacks of the little boys, clinging to
1522 him like an old friend, and declaring he should not go; and being too
1523 much engrossed by proposals of carrying them away in his coat pockets,
1524 &c., to have another moment for finishing or recollecting what he had
1525 begun, Anne was left to persuade herself, as well as she could, that
1526 the same brother must still be in question. She could not, however,
1527 reach such a degree of certainty, as not to be anxious to hear whether
1528 anything had been said on the subject at the other house, where the
1529 Crofts had previously been calling.
1530
1531 The folks of the Great House were to spend the evening of this day at
1532 the Cottage; and it being now too late in the year for such visits to
1533 be made on foot, the coach was beginning to be listened for, when the
1534 youngest Miss Musgrove walked in. That she was coming to apologize,
1535 and that they should have to spend the evening by themselves, was the
1536 first black idea; and Mary was quite ready to be affronted, when Louisa
1537 made all right by saying, that she only came on foot, to leave more
1538 room for the harp, which was bringing in the carriage.
1539
1540 "And I will tell you our reason," she added, "and all about it. I am
1541 come on to give you notice, that papa and mamma are out of spirits this
1542 evening, especially mamma; she is thinking so much of poor Richard!
1543 And we agreed it would be best to have the harp, for it seems to amuse
1544 her more than the piano-forte. I will tell you why she is out of
1545 spirits. When the Crofts called this morning, (they called here
1546 afterwards, did not they?), they happened to say, that her brother,
1547 Captain Wentworth, is just returned to England, or paid off, or
1548 something, and is coming to see them almost directly; and most
1549 unluckily it came into mamma's head, when they were gone, that
1550 Wentworth, or something very like it, was the name of poor Richard's
1551 captain at one time; I do not know when or where, but a great while
1552 before he died, poor fellow! And upon looking over his letters and
1553 things, she found it was so, and is perfectly sure that this must be
1554 the very man, and her head is quite full of it, and of poor Richard!
1555 So we must be as merry as we can, that she may not be dwelling upon
1556 such gloomy things."
1557
1558 The real circumstances of this pathetic piece of family history were,
1559 that the Musgroves had had the ill fortune of a very troublesome,
1560 hopeless son; and the good fortune to lose him before he reached his
1561 twentieth year; that he had been sent to sea because he was stupid and
1562 unmanageable on shore; that he had been very little cared for at any
1563 time by his family, though quite as much as he deserved; seldom heard
1564 of, and scarcely at all regretted, when the intelligence of his death
1565 abroad had worked its way to Uppercross, two years before.
1566
1567 He had, in fact, though his sisters were now doing all they could for
1568 him, by calling him "poor Richard," been nothing better than a
1569 thick-headed, unfeeling, unprofitable Dick Musgrove, who had never done
1570 anything to entitle himself to more than the abbreviation of his name,
1571 living or dead.
1572
1573 He had been several years at sea, and had, in the course of those
1574 removals to which all midshipmen are liable, and especially such
1575 midshipmen as every captain wishes to get rid of, been six months on
1576 board Captain Frederick Wentworth's frigate, the Laconia; and from the
1577 Laconia he had, under the influence of his captain, written the only
1578 two letters which his father and mother had ever received from him
1579 during the whole of his absence; that is to say, the only two
1580 disinterested letters; all the rest had been mere applications for
1581 money.
1582
1583 In each letter he had spoken well of his captain; but yet, so little
1584 were they in the habit of attending to such matters, so unobservant and
1585 incurious were they as to the names of men or ships, that it had made
1586 scarcely any impression at the time; and that Mrs Musgrove should have
1587 been suddenly struck, this very day, with a recollection of the name of
1588 Wentworth, as connected with her son, seemed one of those extraordinary
1589 bursts of mind which do sometimes occur.
1590
1591 She had gone to her letters, and found it all as she supposed; and the
1592 re-perusal of these letters, after so long an interval, her poor son
1593 gone for ever, and all the strength of his faults forgotten, had
1594 affected her spirits exceedingly, and thrown her into greater grief for
1595 him than she had known on first hearing of his death. Mr Musgrove was,
1596 in a lesser degree, affected likewise; and when they reached the
1597 cottage, they were evidently in want, first, of being listened to anew
1598 on this subject, and afterwards, of all the relief which cheerful
1599 companions could give them.
1600
1601 To hear them talking so much of Captain Wentworth, repeating his name
1602 so often, puzzling over past years, and at last ascertaining that it
1603 might, that it probably would, turn out to be the very same Captain
1604 Wentworth whom they recollected meeting, once or twice, after their
1605 coming back from Clifton--a very fine young man--but they could not say
1606 whether it was seven or eight years ago, was a new sort of trial to
1607 Anne's nerves. She found, however, that it was one to which she must
1608 inure herself. Since he actually was expected in the country, she must
1609 teach herself to be insensible on such points. And not only did it
1610 appear that he was expected, and speedily, but the Musgroves, in their
1611 warm gratitude for the kindness he had shewn poor Dick, and very high
1612 respect for his character, stamped as it was by poor Dick's having been
1613 six months under his care, and mentioning him in strong, though not
1614 perfectly well-spelt praise, as "a fine dashing felow, only two
1615 perticular about the schoolmaster," were bent on introducing
1616 themselves, and seeking his acquaintance, as soon as they could hear of
1617 his arrival.
1618
1619 The resolution of doing so helped to form the comfort of their evening.
1620
1621
1622
1623 Chapter 7
1624
1625
1626 A very few days more, and Captain Wentworth was known to be at
1627 Kellynch, and Mr Musgrove had called on him, and come back warm in his
1628 praise, and he was engaged with the Crofts to dine at Uppercross, by
1629 the end of another week. It had been a great disappointment to Mr
1630 Musgrove to find that no earlier day could be fixed, so impatient was
1631 he to shew his gratitude, by seeing Captain Wentworth under his own
1632 roof, and welcoming him to all that was strongest and best in his
1633 cellars. But a week must pass; only a week, in Anne's reckoning, and
1634 then, she supposed, they must meet; and soon she began to wish that she
1635 could feel secure even for a week.
1636
1637 Captain Wentworth made a very early return to Mr Musgrove's civility,
1638 and she was all but calling there in the same half hour. She and Mary
1639 were actually setting forward for the Great House, where, as she
1640 afterwards learnt, they must inevitably have found him, when they were
1641 stopped by the eldest boy's being at that moment brought home in
1642 consequence of a bad fall. The child's situation put the visit
1643 entirely aside; but she could not hear of her escape with indifference,
1644 even in the midst of the serious anxiety which they afterwards felt on
1645 his account.
1646
1647 His collar-bone was found to be dislocated, and such injury received in
1648 the back, as roused the most alarming ideas. It was an afternoon of
1649 distress, and Anne had every thing to do at once; the apothecary to
1650 send for, the father to have pursued and informed, the mother to
1651 support and keep from hysterics, the servants to control, the youngest
1652 child to banish, and the poor suffering one to attend and soothe;
1653 besides sending, as soon as she recollected it, proper notice to the
1654 other house, which brought her an accession rather of frightened,
1655 enquiring companions, than of very useful assistants.
1656
1657 Her brother's return was the first comfort; he could take best care of
1658 his wife; and the second blessing was the arrival of the apothecary.
1659 Till he came and had examined the child, their apprehensions were the
1660 worse for being vague; they suspected great injury, but knew not where;
1661 but now the collar-bone was soon replaced, and though Mr Robinson felt
1662 and felt, and rubbed, and looked grave, and spoke low words both to the
1663 father and the aunt, still they were all to hope the best, and to be
1664 able to part and eat their dinner in tolerable ease of mind; and then
1665 it was, just before they parted, that the two young aunts were able so
1666 far to digress from their nephew's state, as to give the information of
1667 Captain Wentworth's visit; staying five minutes behind their father and
1668 mother, to endeavour to express how perfectly delighted they were with
1669 him, how much handsomer, how infinitely more agreeable they thought him
1670 than any individual among their male acquaintance, who had been at all
1671 a favourite before. How glad they had been to hear papa invite him to
1672 stay dinner, how sorry when he said it was quite out of his power, and
1673 how glad again when he had promised in reply to papa and mamma's
1674 farther pressing invitations to come and dine with them on the
1675 morrow--actually on the morrow; and he had promised it in so pleasant a
1676 manner, as if he felt all the motive of their attention just as he
1677 ought. And in short, he had looked and said everything with such
1678 exquisite grace, that they could assure them all, their heads were both
1679 turned by him; and off they ran, quite as full of glee as of love, and
1680 apparently more full of Captain Wentworth than of little Charles.
1681
1682 The same story and the same raptures were repeated, when the two girls
1683 came with their father, through the gloom of the evening, to make
1684 enquiries; and Mr Musgrove, no longer under the first uneasiness about
1685 his heir, could add his confirmation and praise, and hope there would
1686 be now no occasion for putting Captain Wentworth off, and only be sorry
1687 to think that the cottage party, probably, would not like to leave the
1688 little boy, to give him the meeting. "Oh no; as to leaving the little
1689 boy," both father and mother were in much too strong and recent alarm
1690 to bear the thought; and Anne, in the joy of the escape, could not help
1691 adding her warm protestations to theirs.
1692
1693 Charles Musgrove, indeed, afterwards, shewed more of inclination; "the
1694 child was going on so well, and he wished so much to be introduced to
1695 Captain Wentworth, that, perhaps, he might join them in the evening; he
1696 would not dine from home, but he might walk in for half an hour." But
1697 in this he was eagerly opposed by his wife, with "Oh! no, indeed,
1698 Charles, I cannot bear to have you go away. Only think if anything
1699 should happen?"
1700
1701 The child had a good night, and was going on well the next day. It
1702 must be a work of time to ascertain that no injury had been done to the
1703 spine; but Mr Robinson found nothing to increase alarm, and Charles
1704 Musgrove began, consequently, to feel no necessity for longer
1705 confinement. The child was to be kept in bed and amused as quietly as
1706 possible; but what was there for a father to do? This was quite a
1707 female case, and it would be highly absurd in him, who could be of no
1708 use at home, to shut himself up. His father very much wished him to
1709 meet Captain Wentworth, and there being no sufficient reason against
1710 it, he ought to go; and it ended in his making a bold, public
1711 declaration, when he came in from shooting, of his meaning to dress
1712 directly, and dine at the other house.
1713
1714 "Nothing can be going on better than the child," said he; "so I told my
1715 father, just now, that I would come, and he thought me quite right.
1716 Your sister being with you, my love, I have no scruple at all. You
1717 would not like to leave him yourself, but you see I can be of no use.
1718 Anne will send for me if anything is the matter."
1719
1720 Husbands and wives generally understand when opposition will be vain.
1721 Mary knew, from Charles's manner of speaking, that he was quite
1722 determined on going, and that it would be of no use to teaze him. She
1723 said nothing, therefore, till he was out of the room, but as soon as
1724 there was only Anne to hear--
1725
1726 "So you and I are to be left to shift by ourselves, with this poor sick
1727 child; and not a creature coming near us all the evening! I knew how
1728 it would be. This is always my luck. If there is anything
1729 disagreeable going on men are always sure to get out of it, and Charles
1730 is as bad as any of them. Very unfeeling! I must say it is very
1731 unfeeling of him to be running away from his poor little boy. Talks of
1732 his being going on so well! How does he know that he is going on well,
1733 or that there may not be a sudden change half an hour hence? I did not
1734 think Charles would have been so unfeeling. So here he is to go away
1735 and enjoy himself, and because I am the poor mother, I am not to be
1736 allowed to stir; and yet, I am sure, I am more unfit than anybody else
1737 to be about the child. My being the mother is the very reason why my
1738 feelings should not be tried. I am not at all equal to it. You saw
1739 how hysterical I was yesterday."
1740
1741 "But that was only the effect of the suddenness of your alarm--of the
1742 shock. You will not be hysterical again. I dare say we shall have
1743 nothing to distress us. I perfectly understand Mr Robinson's
1744 directions, and have no fears; and indeed, Mary, I cannot wonder at
1745 your husband. Nursing does not belong to a man; it is not his
1746 province. A sick child is always the mother's property: her own
1747 feelings generally make it so."
1748
1749 "I hope I am as fond of my child as any mother, but I do not know that
1750 I am of any more use in the sick-room than Charles, for I cannot be
1751 always scolding and teazing the poor child when it is ill; and you saw,
1752 this morning, that if I told him to keep quiet, he was sure to begin
1753 kicking about. I have not nerves for the sort of thing."
1754
1755 "But, could you be comfortable yourself, to be spending the whole
1756 evening away from the poor boy?"
1757
1758 "Yes; you see his papa can, and why should not I? Jemima is so
1759 careful; and she could send us word every hour how he was. I really
1760 think Charles might as well have told his father we would all come. I
1761 am not more alarmed about little Charles now than he is. I was
1762 dreadfully alarmed yesterday, but the case is very different to-day."
1763
1764 "Well, if you do not think it too late to give notice for yourself,
1765 suppose you were to go, as well as your husband. Leave little Charles
1766 to my care. Mr and Mrs Musgrove cannot think it wrong while I remain
1767 with him."
1768
1769 "Are you serious?" cried Mary, her eyes brightening. "Dear me! that's
1770 a very good thought, very good, indeed. To be sure, I may just as well
1771 go as not, for I am of no use at home--am I? and it only harasses me.
1772 You, who have not a mother's feelings, are a great deal the properest
1773 person. You can make little Charles do anything; he always minds you
1774 at a word. It will be a great deal better than leaving him only with
1775 Jemima. Oh! I shall certainly go; I am sure I ought if I can, quite as
1776 much as Charles, for they want me excessively to be acquainted with
1777 Captain Wentworth, and I know you do not mind being left alone. An
1778 excellent thought of yours, indeed, Anne. I will go and tell Charles,
1779 and get ready directly. You can send for us, you know, at a moment's
1780 notice, if anything is the matter; but I dare say there will be nothing
1781 to alarm you. I should not go, you may be sure, if I did not feel
1782 quite at ease about my dear child."
1783
1784 The next moment she was tapping at her husband's dressing-room door,
1785 and as Anne followed her up stairs, she was in time for the whole
1786 conversation, which began with Mary's saying, in a tone of great
1787 exultation--
1788
1789 "I mean to go with you, Charles, for I am of no more use at home than
1790 you are. If I were to shut myself up for ever with the child, I should
1791 not be able to persuade him to do anything he did not like. Anne will
1792 stay; Anne undertakes to stay at home and take care of him. It is
1793 Anne's own proposal, and so I shall go with you, which will be a great
1794 deal better, for I have not dined at the other house since Tuesday."
1795
1796 "This is very kind of Anne," was her husband's answer, "and I should be
1797 very glad to have you go; but it seems rather hard that she should be
1798 left at home by herself, to nurse our sick child."
1799
1800 Anne was now at hand to take up her own cause, and the sincerity of her
1801 manner being soon sufficient to convince him, where conviction was at
1802 least very agreeable, he had no farther scruples as to her being left
1803 to dine alone, though he still wanted her to join them in the evening,
1804 when the child might be at rest for the night, and kindly urged her to
1805 let him come and fetch her, but she was quite unpersuadable; and this
1806 being the case, she had ere long the pleasure of seeing them set off
1807 together in high spirits. They were gone, she hoped, to be happy,
1808 however oddly constructed such happiness might seem; as for herself,
1809 she was left with as many sensations of comfort, as were, perhaps, ever
1810 likely to be hers. She knew herself to be of the first utility to the
1811 child; and what was it to her if Frederick Wentworth were only half a
1812 mile distant, making himself agreeable to others?
1813
1814 She would have liked to know how he felt as to a meeting. Perhaps
1815 indifferent, if indifference could exist under such circumstances. He
1816 must be either indifferent or unwilling. Had he wished ever to see her
1817 again, he need not have waited till this time; he would have done what
1818 she could not but believe that in his place she should have done long
1819 ago, when events had been early giving him the independence which alone
1820 had been wanting.
1821
1822 Her brother and sister came back delighted with their new acquaintance,
1823 and their visit in general. There had been music, singing, talking,
1824 laughing, all that was most agreeable; charming manners in Captain
1825 Wentworth, no shyness or reserve; they seemed all to know each other
1826 perfectly, and he was coming the very next morning to shoot with
1827 Charles. He was to come to breakfast, but not at the Cottage, though
1828 that had been proposed at first; but then he had been pressed to come
1829 to the Great House instead, and he seemed afraid of being in Mrs
1830 Charles Musgrove's way, on account of the child, and therefore,
1831 somehow, they hardly knew how, it ended in Charles's being to meet him
1832 to breakfast at his father's.
1833
1834 Anne understood it. He wished to avoid seeing her. He had inquired
1835 after her, she found, slightly, as might suit a former slight
1836 acquaintance, seeming to acknowledge such as she had acknowledged,
1837 actuated, perhaps, by the same view of escaping introduction when they
1838 were to meet.
1839
1840 The morning hours of the Cottage were always later than those of the
1841 other house, and on the morrow the difference was so great that Mary
1842 and Anne were not more than beginning breakfast when Charles came in to
1843 say that they were just setting off, that he was come for his dogs,
1844 that his sisters were following with Captain Wentworth; his sisters
1845 meaning to visit Mary and the child, and Captain Wentworth proposing
1846 also to wait on her for a few minutes if not inconvenient; and though
1847 Charles had answered for the child's being in no such state as could
1848 make it inconvenient, Captain Wentworth would not be satisfied without
1849 his running on to give notice.
1850
1851 Mary, very much gratified by this attention, was delighted to receive
1852 him, while a thousand feelings rushed on Anne, of which this was the
1853 most consoling, that it would soon be over. And it was soon over. In
1854 two minutes after Charles's preparation, the others appeared; they were
1855 in the drawing-room. Her eye half met Captain Wentworth's, a bow, a
1856 curtsey passed; she heard his voice; he talked to Mary, said all that
1857 was right, said something to the Miss Musgroves, enough to mark an easy
1858 footing; the room seemed full, full of persons and voices, but a few
1859 minutes ended it. Charles shewed himself at the window, all was ready,
1860 their visitor had bowed and was gone, the Miss Musgroves were gone too,
1861 suddenly resolving to walk to the end of the village with the
1862 sportsmen: the room was cleared, and Anne might finish her breakfast
1863 as she could.
1864
1865 "It is over! it is over!" she repeated to herself again and again, in
1866 nervous gratitude. "The worst is over!"
1867
1868 Mary talked, but she could not attend. She had seen him. They had
1869 met. They had been once more in the same room.
1870
1871 Soon, however, she began to reason with herself, and try to be feeling
1872 less. Eight years, almost eight years had passed, since all had been
1873 given up. How absurd to be resuming the agitation which such an
1874 interval had banished into distance and indistinctness! What might not
1875 eight years do? Events of every description, changes, alienations,
1876 removals--all, all must be comprised in it, and oblivion of the past--
1877 how natural, how certain too! It included nearly a third part of her
1878 own life.
1879
1880 Alas! with all her reasoning, she found, that to retentive feelings
1881 eight years may be little more than nothing.
1882
1883 Now, how were his sentiments to be read? Was this like wishing to
1884 avoid her? And the next moment she was hating herself for the folly
1885 which asked the question.
1886
1887 On one other question which perhaps her utmost wisdom might not have
1888 prevented, she was soon spared all suspense; for, after the Miss
1889 Musgroves had returned and finished their visit at the Cottage she had
1890 this spontaneous information from Mary:--
1891
1892 "Captain Wentworth is not very gallant by you, Anne, though he was so
1893 attentive to me. Henrietta asked him what he thought of you, when they
1894 went away, and he said, 'You were so altered he should not have known
1895 you again.'"
1896
1897 Mary had no feelings to make her respect her sister's in a common way,
1898 but she was perfectly unsuspicious of being inflicting any peculiar
1899 wound.
1900
1901 "Altered beyond his knowledge." Anne fully submitted, in silent, deep
1902 mortification. Doubtless it was so, and she could take no revenge, for
1903 he was not altered, or not for the worse. She had already acknowledged
1904 it to herself, and she could not think differently, let him think of
1905 her as he would. No: the years which had destroyed her youth and
1906 bloom had only given him a more glowing, manly, open look, in no
1907 respect lessening his personal advantages. She had seen the same
1908 Frederick Wentworth.
1909
1910 "So altered that he should not have known her again!" These were words
1911 which could not but dwell with her. Yet she soon began to rejoice that
1912 she had heard them. They were of sobering tendency; they allayed
1913 agitation; they composed, and consequently must make her happier.
1914
1915 Frederick Wentworth had used such words, or something like them, but
1916 without an idea that they would be carried round to her. He had
1917 thought her wretchedly altered, and in the first moment of appeal, had
1918 spoken as he felt. He had not forgiven Anne Elliot. She had used him
1919 ill, deserted and disappointed him; and worse, she had shewn a
1920 feebleness of character in doing so, which his own decided, confident
1921 temper could not endure. She had given him up to oblige others. It
1922 had been the effect of over-persuasion. It had been weakness and
1923 timidity.
1924
1925 He had been most warmly attached to her, and had never seen a woman
1926 since whom he thought her equal; but, except from some natural
1927 sensation of curiosity, he had no desire of meeting her again. Her
1928 power with him was gone for ever.
1929
1930 It was now his object to marry. He was rich, and being turned on
1931 shore, fully intended to settle as soon as he could be properly
1932 tempted; actually looking round, ready to fall in love with all the
1933 speed which a clear head and a quick taste could allow. He had a heart
1934 for either of the Miss Musgroves, if they could catch it; a heart, in
1935 short, for any pleasing young woman who came in his way, excepting Anne
1936 Elliot. This was his only secret exception, when he said to his
1937 sister, in answer to her suppositions:--
1938
1939 "Yes, here I am, Sophia, quite ready to make a foolish match. Anybody
1940 between fifteen and thirty may have me for asking. A little beauty,
1941 and a few smiles, and a few compliments to the navy, and I am a lost
1942 man. Should not this be enough for a sailor, who has had no society
1943 among women to make him nice?"
1944
1945 He said it, she knew, to be contradicted. His bright proud eye spoke
1946 the conviction that he was nice; and Anne Elliot was not out of his
1947 thoughts, when he more seriously described the woman he should wish to
1948 meet with. "A strong mind, with sweetness of manner," made the first
1949 and the last of the description.
1950
1951 "That is the woman I want," said he. "Something a little inferior I
1952 shall of course put up with, but it must not be much. If I am a fool,
1953 I shall be a fool indeed, for I have thought on the subject more than
1954 most men."
1955
1956
1957
1958 Chapter 8
1959
1960
1961 From this time Captain Wentworth and Anne Elliot were repeatedly in the
1962 same circle. They were soon dining in company together at Mr
1963 Musgrove's, for the little boy's state could no longer supply his aunt
1964 with a pretence for absenting herself; and this was but the beginning
1965 of other dinings and other meetings.
1966
1967 Whether former feelings were to be renewed must be brought to the
1968 proof; former times must undoubtedly be brought to the recollection of
1969 each; they could not but be reverted to; the year of their engagement
1970 could not but be named by him, in the little narratives or descriptions
1971 which conversation called forth. His profession qualified him, his
1972 disposition lead him, to talk; and "That was in the year six;" "That
1973 happened before I went to sea in the year six," occurred in the course
1974 of the first evening they spent together: and though his voice did not
1975 falter, and though she had no reason to suppose his eye wandering
1976 towards her while he spoke, Anne felt the utter impossibility, from her
1977 knowledge of his mind, that he could be unvisited by remembrance any
1978 more than herself. There must be the same immediate association of
1979 thought, though she was very far from conceiving it to be of equal pain.
1980
1981 They had no conversation together, no intercourse but what the
1982 commonest civility required. Once so much to each other! Now nothing!
1983 There had been a time, when of all the large party now filling the
1984 drawing-room at Uppercross, they would have found it most difficult to
1985 cease to speak to one another. With the exception, perhaps, of Admiral
1986 and Mrs Croft, who seemed particularly attached and happy, (Anne could
1987 allow no other exceptions even among the married couples), there could
1988 have been no two hearts so open, no tastes so similar, no feelings so
1989 in unison, no countenances so beloved. Now they were as strangers;
1990 nay, worse than strangers, for they could never become acquainted. It
1991 was a perpetual estrangement.
1992
1993 When he talked, she heard the same voice, and discerned the same mind.
1994 There was a very general ignorance of all naval matters throughout the
1995 party; and he was very much questioned, and especially by the two Miss
1996 Musgroves, who seemed hardly to have any eyes but for him, as to the
1997 manner of living on board, daily regulations, food, hours, &c., and
1998 their surprise at his accounts, at learning the degree of accommodation
1999 and arrangement which was practicable, drew from him some pleasant
2000 ridicule, which reminded Anne of the early days when she too had been
2001 ignorant, and she too had been accused of supposing sailors to be
2002 living on board without anything to eat, or any cook to dress it if
2003 there were, or any servant to wait, or any knife and fork to use.
2004
2005 From thus listening and thinking, she was roused by a whisper of Mrs
2006 Musgrove's who, overcome by fond regrets, could not help saying--
2007
2008 "Ah! Miss Anne, if it had pleased Heaven to spare my poor son, I dare
2009 say he would have been just such another by this time."
2010
2011 Anne suppressed a smile, and listened kindly, while Mrs Musgrove
2012 relieved her heart a little more; and for a few minutes, therefore,
2013 could not keep pace with the conversation of the others.
2014
2015 When she could let her attention take its natural course again, she
2016 found the Miss Musgroves just fetching the Navy List (their own navy
2017 list, the first that had ever been at Uppercross), and sitting down
2018 together to pore over it, with the professed view of finding out the
2019 ships that Captain Wentworth had commanded.
2020
2021 "Your first was the Asp, I remember; we will look for the Asp."
2022
2023 "You will not find her there. Quite worn out and broken up. I was the
2024 last man who commanded her. Hardly fit for service then. Reported fit
2025 for home service for a year or two, and so I was sent off to the West
2026 Indies."
2027
2028 The girls looked all amazement.
2029
2030 "The Admiralty," he continued, "entertain themselves now and then, with
2031 sending a few hundred men to sea, in a ship not fit to be employed.
2032 But they have a great many to provide for; and among the thousands that
2033 may just as well go to the bottom as not, it is impossible for them to
2034 distinguish the very set who may be least missed."
2035
2036 "Phoo! phoo!" cried the Admiral, "what stuff these young fellows talk!
2037 Never was a better sloop than the Asp in her day. For an old built
2038 sloop, you would not see her equal. Lucky fellow to get her! He knows
2039 there must have been twenty better men than himself applying for her at
2040 the same time. Lucky fellow to get anything so soon, with no more
2041 interest than his."
2042
2043 "I felt my luck, Admiral, I assure you;" replied Captain Wentworth,
2044 seriously. "I was as well satisfied with my appointment as you can
2045 desire. It was a great object with me at that time to be at sea; a
2046 very great object, I wanted to be doing something."
2047
2048 "To be sure you did. What should a young fellow like you do ashore for
2049 half a year together? If a man had not a wife, he soon wants to be
2050 afloat again."
2051
2052 "But, Captain Wentworth," cried Louisa, "how vexed you must have been
2053 when you came to the Asp, to see what an old thing they had given you."
2054
2055 "I knew pretty well what she was before that day;" said he, smiling.
2056 "I had no more discoveries to make than you would have as to the
2057 fashion and strength of any old pelisse, which you had seen lent about
2058 among half your acquaintance ever since you could remember, and which
2059 at last, on some very wet day, is lent to yourself. Ah! she was a dear
2060 old Asp to me. She did all that I wanted. I knew she would. I knew
2061 that we should either go to the bottom together, or that she would be
2062 the making of me; and I never had two days of foul weather all the time
2063 I was at sea in her; and after taking privateers enough to be very
2064 entertaining, I had the good luck in my passage home the next autumn,
2065 to fall in with the very French frigate I wanted. I brought her into
2066 Plymouth; and here another instance of luck. We had not been six hours
2067 in the Sound, when a gale came on, which lasted four days and nights,
2068 and which would have done for poor old Asp in half the time; our touch
2069 with the Great Nation not having much improved our condition.
2070 Four-and-twenty hours later, and I should only have been a gallant
2071 Captain Wentworth, in a small paragraph at one corner of the
2072 newspapers; and being lost in only a sloop, nobody would have thought
2073 about me." Anne's shudderings were to herself alone; but the Miss
2074 Musgroves could be as open as they were sincere, in their exclamations
2075 of pity and horror.
2076
2077 "And so then, I suppose," said Mrs Musgrove, in a low voice, as if
2078 thinking aloud, "so then he went away to the Laconia, and there he met
2079 with our poor boy. Charles, my dear," (beckoning him to her), "do ask
2080 Captain Wentworth where it was he first met with your poor brother. I
2081 always forgot."
2082
2083 "It was at Gibraltar, mother, I know. Dick had been left ill at
2084 Gibraltar, with a recommendation from his former captain to Captain
2085 Wentworth."
2086
2087 "Oh! but, Charles, tell Captain Wentworth, he need not be afraid of
2088 mentioning poor Dick before me, for it would be rather a pleasure to
2089 hear him talked of by such a good friend."
2090
2091 Charles, being somewhat more mindful of the probabilities of the case,
2092 only nodded in reply, and walked away.
2093
2094 The girls were now hunting for the Laconia; and Captain Wentworth could
2095 not deny himself the pleasure of taking the precious volume into his
2096 own hands to save them the trouble, and once more read aloud the little
2097 statement of her name and rate, and present non-commissioned class,
2098 observing over it that she too had been one of the best friends man
2099 ever had.
2100
2101 "Ah! those were pleasant days when I had the Laconia! How fast I made
2102 money in her. A friend of mine and I had such a lovely cruise together
2103 off the Western Islands. Poor Harville, sister! You know how much he
2104 wanted money: worse than myself. He had a wife. Excellent fellow. I
2105 shall never forget his happiness. He felt it all, so much for her
2106 sake. I wished for him again the next summer, when I had still the
2107 same luck in the Mediterranean."
2108
2109 "And I am sure, Sir," said Mrs Musgrove, "it was a lucky day for us,
2110 when you were put captain into that ship. We shall never forget what
2111 you did."
2112
2113 Her feelings made her speak low; and Captain Wentworth, hearing only in
2114 part, and probably not having Dick Musgrove at all near his thoughts,
2115 looked rather in suspense, and as if waiting for more.
2116
2117 "My brother," whispered one of the girls; "mamma is thinking of poor
2118 Richard."
2119
2120 "Poor dear fellow!" continued Mrs Musgrove; "he was grown so steady,
2121 and such an excellent correspondent, while he was under your care! Ah!
2122 it would have been a happy thing, if he had never left you. I assure
2123 you, Captain Wentworth, we are very sorry he ever left you."
2124
2125 There was a momentary expression in Captain Wentworth's face at this
2126 speech, a certain glance of his bright eye, and curl of his handsome
2127 mouth, which convinced Anne, that instead of sharing in Mrs Musgrove's
2128 kind wishes, as to her son, he had probably been at some pains to get
2129 rid of him; but it was too transient an indulgence of self-amusement to
2130 be detected by any who understood him less than herself; in another
2131 moment he was perfectly collected and serious, and almost instantly
2132 afterwards coming up to the sofa, on which she and Mrs Musgrove were
2133 sitting, took a place by the latter, and entered into conversation with
2134 her, in a low voice, about her son, doing it with so much sympathy and
2135 natural grace, as shewed the kindest consideration for all that was
2136 real and unabsurd in the parent's feelings.
2137
2138 They were actually on the same sofa, for Mrs Musgrove had most readily
2139 made room for him; they were divided only by Mrs Musgrove. It was no
2140 insignificant barrier, indeed. Mrs Musgrove was of a comfortable,
2141 substantial size, infinitely more fitted by nature to express good
2142 cheer and good humour, than tenderness and sentiment; and while the
2143 agitations of Anne's slender form, and pensive face, may be considered
2144 as very completely screened, Captain Wentworth should be allowed some
2145 credit for the self-command with which he attended to her large fat
2146 sighings over the destiny of a son, whom alive nobody had cared for.
2147
2148 Personal size and mental sorrow have certainly no necessary
2149 proportions. A large bulky figure has as good a right to be in deep
2150 affliction, as the most graceful set of limbs in the world. But, fair
2151 or not fair, there are unbecoming conjunctions, which reason will
2152 patronize in vain--which taste cannot tolerate--which ridicule will
2153 seize.
2154
2155 The Admiral, after taking two or three refreshing turns about the room
2156 with his hands behind him, being called to order by his wife, now came
2157 up to Captain Wentworth, and without any observation of what he might
2158 be interrupting, thinking only of his own thoughts, began with--
2159
2160 "If you had been a week later at Lisbon, last spring, Frederick, you
2161 would have been asked to give a passage to Lady Mary Grierson and her
2162 daughters."
2163
2164 "Should I? I am glad I was not a week later then."
2165
2166 The Admiral abused him for his want of gallantry. He defended himself;
2167 though professing that he would never willingly admit any ladies on
2168 board a ship of his, excepting for a ball, or a visit, which a few
2169 hours might comprehend.
2170
2171 "But, if I know myself," said he, "this is from no want of gallantry
2172 towards them. It is rather from feeling how impossible it is, with all
2173 one's efforts, and all one's sacrifices, to make the accommodations on
2174 board such as women ought to have. There can be no want of gallantry,
2175 Admiral, in rating the claims of women to every personal comfort high,
2176 and this is what I do. I hate to hear of women on board, or to see
2177 them on board; and no ship under my command shall ever convey a family
2178 of ladies anywhere, if I can help it."
2179
2180 This brought his sister upon him.
2181
2182 "Oh! Frederick! But I cannot believe it of you.--All idle
2183 refinement!--Women may be as comfortable on board, as in the best house
2184 in England. I believe I have lived as much on board as most women, and
2185 I know nothing superior to the accommodations of a man-of-war. I
2186 declare I have not a comfort or an indulgence about me, even at
2187 Kellynch Hall," (with a kind bow to Anne), "beyond what I always had in
2188 most of the ships I have lived in; and they have been five altogether."
2189
2190 "Nothing to the purpose," replied her brother. "You were living with
2191 your husband, and were the only woman on board."
2192
2193 "But you, yourself, brought Mrs Harville, her sister, her cousin, and
2194 three children, round from Portsmouth to Plymouth. Where was this
2195 superfine, extraordinary sort of gallantry of yours then?"
2196
2197 "All merged in my friendship, Sophia. I would assist any brother
2198 officer's wife that I could, and I would bring anything of Harville's
2199 from the world's end, if he wanted it. But do not imagine that I did
2200 not feel it an evil in itself."
2201
2202 "Depend upon it, they were all perfectly comfortable."
2203
2204 "I might not like them the better for that perhaps. Such a number of
2205 women and children have no right to be comfortable on board."
2206
2207 "My dear Frederick, you are talking quite idly. Pray, what would
2208 become of us poor sailors' wives, who often want to be conveyed to one
2209 port or another, after our husbands, if everybody had your feelings?"
2210
2211 "My feelings, you see, did not prevent my taking Mrs Harville and all
2212 her family to Plymouth."
2213
2214 "But I hate to hear you talking so like a fine gentleman, and as if
2215 women were all fine ladies, instead of rational creatures. We none of
2216 us expect to be in smooth water all our days."
2217
2218 "Ah! my dear," said the Admiral, "when he had got a wife, he will sing
2219 a different tune. When he is married, if we have the good luck to live
2220 to another war, we shall see him do as you and I, and a great many
2221 others, have done. We shall have him very thankful to anybody that
2222 will bring him his wife."
2223
2224 "Ay, that we shall."
2225
2226 "Now I have done," cried Captain Wentworth. "When once married people
2227 begin to attack me with,--'Oh! you will think very differently, when
2228 you are married.' I can only say, 'No, I shall not;' and then they say
2229 again, 'Yes, you will,' and there is an end of it."
2230
2231 He got up and moved away.
2232
2233 "What a great traveller you must have been, ma'am!" said Mrs Musgrove
2234 to Mrs Croft.
2235
2236 "Pretty well, ma'am in the fifteen years of my marriage; though many
2237 women have done more. I have crossed the Atlantic four times, and have
2238 been once to the East Indies, and back again, and only once; besides
2239 being in different places about home: Cork, and Lisbon, and Gibraltar.
2240 But I never went beyond the Streights, and never was in the West
2241 Indies. We do not call Bermuda or Bahama, you know, the West Indies."
2242
2243 Mrs Musgrove had not a word to say in dissent; she could not accuse
2244 herself of having ever called them anything in the whole course of her
2245 life.
2246
2247 "And I do assure you, ma'am," pursued Mrs Croft, "that nothing can
2248 exceed the accommodations of a man-of-war; I speak, you know, of the
2249 higher rates. When you come to a frigate, of course, you are more
2250 confined; though any reasonable woman may be perfectly happy in one of
2251 them; and I can safely say, that the happiest part of my life has been
2252 spent on board a ship. While we were together, you know, there was
2253 nothing to be feared. Thank God! I have always been blessed with
2254 excellent health, and no climate disagrees with me. A little
2255 disordered always the first twenty-four hours of going to sea, but
2256 never knew what sickness was afterwards. The only time I ever really
2257 suffered in body or mind, the only time that I ever fancied myself
2258 unwell, or had any ideas of danger, was the winter that I passed by
2259 myself at Deal, when the Admiral (Captain Croft then) was in the North
2260 Seas. I lived in perpetual fright at that time, and had all manner of
2261 imaginary complaints from not knowing what to do with myself, or when I
2262 should hear from him next; but as long as we could be together, nothing
2263 ever ailed me, and I never met with the smallest inconvenience."
2264
2265 "Aye, to be sure. Yes, indeed, oh yes! I am quite of your opinion,
2266 Mrs Croft," was Mrs Musgrove's hearty answer. "There is nothing so bad
2267 as a separation. I am quite of your opinion. I know what it is, for
2268 Mr Musgrove always attends the assizes, and I am so glad when they are
2269 over, and he is safe back again."
2270
2271 The evening ended with dancing. On its being proposed, Anne offered
2272 her services, as usual; and though her eyes would sometimes fill with
2273 tears as she sat at the instrument, she was extremely glad to be
2274 employed, and desired nothing in return but to be unobserved.
2275
2276 It was a merry, joyous party, and no one seemed in higher spirits than
2277 Captain Wentworth. She felt that he had every thing to elevate him
2278 which general attention and deference, and especially the attention of
2279 all the young women, could do. The Miss Hayters, the females of the
2280 family of cousins already mentioned, were apparently admitted to the
2281 honour of being in love with him; and as for Henrietta and Louisa, they
2282 both seemed so entirely occupied by him, that nothing but the continued
2283 appearance of the most perfect good-will between themselves could have
2284 made it credible that they were not decided rivals. If he were a
2285 little spoilt by such universal, such eager admiration, who could
2286 wonder?
2287
2288 These were some of the thoughts which occupied Anne, while her fingers
2289 were mechanically at work, proceeding for half an hour together,
2290 equally without error, and without consciousness. Once she felt that
2291 he was looking at herself, observing her altered features, perhaps,
2292 trying to trace in them the ruins of the face which had once charmed
2293 him; and once she knew that he must have spoken of her; she was hardly
2294 aware of it, till she heard the answer; but then she was sure of his
2295 having asked his partner whether Miss Elliot never danced? The answer
2296 was, "Oh, no; never; she has quite given up dancing. She had rather
2297 play. She is never tired of playing." Once, too, he spoke to her.
2298 She had left the instrument on the dancing being over, and he had sat
2299 down to try to make out an air which he wished to give the Miss
2300 Musgroves an idea of. Unintentionally she returned to that part of the
2301 room; he saw her, and, instantly rising, said, with studied politeness--
2302
2303 "I beg your pardon, madam, this is your seat;" and though she
2304 immediately drew back with a decided negative, he was not to be induced
2305 to sit down again.
2306
2307 Anne did not wish for more of such looks and speeches. His cold
2308 politeness, his ceremonious grace, were worse than anything.
2309
2310
2311
2312 Chapter 9
2313
2314
2315 Captain Wentworth was come to Kellynch as to a home, to stay as long as
2316 he liked, being as thoroughly the object of the Admiral's fraternal
2317 kindness as of his wife's. He had intended, on first arriving, to
2318 proceed very soon into Shropshire, and visit the brother settled in
2319 that country, but the attractions of Uppercross induced him to put this
2320 off. There was so much of friendliness, and of flattery, and of
2321 everything most bewitching in his reception there; the old were so
2322 hospitable, the young so agreeable, that he could not but resolve to
2323 remain where he was, and take all the charms and perfections of
2324 Edward's wife upon credit a little longer.
2325
2326 It was soon Uppercross with him almost every day. The Musgroves could
2327 hardly be more ready to invite than he to come, particularly in the
2328 morning, when he had no companion at home, for the Admiral and Mrs
2329 Croft were generally out of doors together, interesting themselves in
2330 their new possessions, their grass, and their sheep, and dawdling about
2331 in a way not endurable to a third person, or driving out in a gig,
2332 lately added to their establishment.
2333
2334 Hitherto there had been but one opinion of Captain Wentworth among the
2335 Musgroves and their dependencies. It was unvarying, warm admiration
2336 everywhere; but this intimate footing was not more than established,
2337 when a certain Charles Hayter returned among them, to be a good deal
2338 disturbed by it, and to think Captain Wentworth very much in the way.
2339
2340 Charles Hayter was the eldest of all the cousins, and a very amiable,
2341 pleasing young man, between whom and Henrietta there had been a
2342 considerable appearance of attachment previous to Captain Wentworth's
2343 introduction. He was in orders; and having a curacy in the
2344 neighbourhood, where residence was not required, lived at his father's
2345 house, only two miles from Uppercross. A short absence from home had
2346 left his fair one unguarded by his attentions at this critical period,
2347 and when he came back he had the pain of finding very altered manners,
2348 and of seeing Captain Wentworth.
2349
2350 Mrs Musgrove and Mrs Hayter were sisters. They had each had money, but
2351 their marriages had made a material difference in their degree of
2352 consequence. Mr Hayter had some property of his own, but it was
2353 insignificant compared with Mr Musgrove's; and while the Musgroves were
2354 in the first class of society in the country, the young Hayters would,
2355 from their parents' inferior, retired, and unpolished way of living,
2356 and their own defective education, have been hardly in any class at
2357 all, but for their connexion with Uppercross, this eldest son of course
2358 excepted, who had chosen to be a scholar and a gentleman, and who was
2359 very superior in cultivation and manners to all the rest.
2360
2361 The two families had always been on excellent terms, there being no
2362 pride on one side, and no envy on the other, and only such a
2363 consciousness of superiority in the Miss Musgroves, as made them
2364 pleased to improve their cousins. Charles's attentions to Henrietta
2365 had been observed by her father and mother without any disapprobation.
2366 "It would not be a great match for her; but if Henrietta liked him,"--
2367 and Henrietta did seem to like him.
2368
2369 Henrietta fully thought so herself, before Captain Wentworth came; but
2370 from that time Cousin Charles had been very much forgotten.
2371
2372 Which of the two sisters was preferred by Captain Wentworth was as yet
2373 quite doubtful, as far as Anne's observation reached. Henrietta was
2374 perhaps the prettiest, Louisa had the higher spirits; and she knew not
2375 now, whether the more gentle or the more lively character were most
2376 likely to attract him.
2377
2378 Mr and Mrs Musgrove, either from seeing little, or from an entire
2379 confidence in the discretion of both their daughters, and of all the
2380 young men who came near them, seemed to leave everything to take its
2381 chance. There was not the smallest appearance of solicitude or remark
2382 about them in the Mansion-house; but it was different at the Cottage:
2383 the young couple there were more disposed to speculate and wonder; and
2384 Captain Wentworth had not been above four or five times in the Miss
2385 Musgroves' company, and Charles Hayter had but just reappeared, when
2386 Anne had to listen to the opinions of her brother and sister, as to
2387 which was the one liked best. Charles gave it for Louisa, Mary for
2388 Henrietta, but quite agreeing that to have him marry either could be
2389 extremely delightful.
2390
2391 Charles "had never seen a pleasanter man in his life; and from what he
2392 had once heard Captain Wentworth himself say, was very sure that he had
2393 not made less than twenty thousand pounds by the war. Here was a
2394 fortune at once; besides which, there would be the chance of what might
2395 be done in any future war; and he was sure Captain Wentworth was as
2396 likely a man to distinguish himself as any officer in the navy. Oh! it
2397 would be a capital match for either of his sisters."
2398
2399 "Upon my word it would," replied Mary. "Dear me! If he should rise to
2400 any very great honours! If he should ever be made a baronet! 'Lady
2401 Wentworth' sounds very well. That would be a noble thing, indeed, for
2402 Henrietta! She would take place of me then, and Henrietta would not
2403 dislike that. Sir Frederick and Lady Wentworth! It would be but a new
2404 creation, however, and I never think much of your new creations."
2405
2406 It suited Mary best to think Henrietta the one preferred on the very
2407 account of Charles Hayter, whose pretensions she wished to see put an
2408 end to. She looked down very decidedly upon the Hayters, and thought
2409 it would be quite a misfortune to have the existing connection between
2410 the families renewed--very sad for herself and her children.
2411
2412 "You know," said she, "I cannot think him at all a fit match for
2413 Henrietta; and considering the alliances which the Musgroves have made,
2414 she has no right to throw herself away. I do not think any young woman
2415 has a right to make a choice that may be disagreeable and inconvenient
2416 to the principal part of her family, and be giving bad connections to
2417 those who have not been used to them. And, pray, who is Charles
2418 Hayter? Nothing but a country curate. A most improper match for Miss
2419 Musgrove of Uppercross."
2420
2421 Her husband, however, would not agree with her here; for besides having
2422 a regard for his cousin, Charles Hayter was an eldest son, and he saw
2423 things as an eldest son himself.
2424
2425 "Now you are talking nonsense, Mary," was therefore his answer. "It
2426 would not be a great match for Henrietta, but Charles has a very fair
2427 chance, through the Spicers, of getting something from the Bishop in
2428 the course of a year or two; and you will please to remember, that he
2429 is the eldest son; whenever my uncle dies, he steps into very pretty
2430 property. The estate at Winthrop is not less than two hundred and
2431 fifty acres, besides the farm near Taunton, which is some of the best
2432 land in the country. I grant you, that any of them but Charles would
2433 be a very shocking match for Henrietta, and indeed it could not be; he
2434 is the only one that could be possible; but he is a very good-natured,
2435 good sort of a fellow; and whenever Winthrop comes into his hands, he
2436 will make a different sort of place of it, and live in a very different
2437 sort of way; and with that property, he will never be a contemptible
2438 man--good, freehold property. No, no; Henrietta might do worse than
2439 marry Charles Hayter; and if she has him, and Louisa can get Captain
2440 Wentworth, I shall be very well satisfied."
2441
2442 "Charles may say what he pleases," cried Mary to Anne, as soon as he
2443 was out of the room, "but it would be shocking to have Henrietta marry
2444 Charles Hayter; a very bad thing for her, and still worse for me; and
2445 therefore it is very much to be wished that Captain Wentworth may soon
2446 put him quite out of her head, and I have very little doubt that he
2447 has. She took hardly any notice of Charles Hayter yesterday. I wish
2448 you had been there to see her behaviour. And as to Captain Wentworth's
2449 liking Louisa as well as Henrietta, it is nonsense to say so; for he
2450 certainly does like Henrietta a great deal the best. But Charles is so
2451 positive! I wish you had been with us yesterday, for then you might
2452 have decided between us; and I am sure you would have thought as I did,
2453 unless you had been determined to give it against me."
2454
2455 A dinner at Mr Musgrove's had been the occasion when all these things
2456 should have been seen by Anne; but she had staid at home, under the
2457 mixed plea of a headache of her own, and some return of indisposition
2458 in little Charles. She had thought only of avoiding Captain Wentworth;
2459 but an escape from being appealed to as umpire was now added to the
2460 advantages of a quiet evening.
2461
2462 As to Captain Wentworth's views, she deemed it of more consequence that
2463 he should know his own mind early enough not to be endangering the
2464 happiness of either sister, or impeaching his own honour, than that he
2465 should prefer Henrietta to Louisa, or Louisa to Henrietta. Either of
2466 them would, in all probability, make him an affectionate, good-humoured
2467 wife. With regard to Charles Hayter, she had delicacy which must be
2468 pained by any lightness of conduct in a well-meaning young woman, and a
2469 heart to sympathize in any of the sufferings it occasioned; but if
2470 Henrietta found herself mistaken in the nature of her feelings, the
2471 alteration could not be understood too soon.
2472
2473 Charles Hayter had met with much to disquiet and mortify him in his
2474 cousin's behaviour. She had too old a regard for him to be so wholly
2475 estranged as might in two meetings extinguish every past hope, and
2476 leave him nothing to do but to keep away from Uppercross: but there
2477 was such a change as became very alarming, when such a man as Captain
2478 Wentworth was to be regarded as the probable cause. He had been absent
2479 only two Sundays, and when they parted, had left her interested, even
2480 to the height of his wishes, in his prospect of soon quitting his
2481 present curacy, and obtaining that of Uppercross instead. It had then
2482 seemed the object nearest her heart, that Dr Shirley, the rector, who
2483 for more than forty years had been zealously discharging all the duties
2484 of his office, but was now growing too infirm for many of them, should
2485 be quite fixed on engaging a curate; should make his curacy quite as
2486 good as he could afford, and should give Charles Hayter the promise of
2487 it. The advantage of his having to come only to Uppercross, instead of
2488 going six miles another way; of his having, in every respect, a better
2489 curacy; of his belonging to their dear Dr Shirley, and of dear, good Dr
2490 Shirley's being relieved from the duty which he could no longer get
2491 through without most injurious fatigue, had been a great deal, even to
2492 Louisa, but had been almost everything to Henrietta. When he came
2493 back, alas! the zeal of the business was gone by. Louisa could not
2494 listen at all to his account of a conversation which he had just held
2495 with Dr Shirley: she was at a window, looking out for Captain
2496 Wentworth; and even Henrietta had at best only a divided attention to
2497 give, and seemed to have forgotten all the former doubt and solicitude
2498 of the negotiation.
2499
2500 "Well, I am very glad indeed: but I always thought you would have it;
2501 I always thought you sure. It did not appear to me that--in short, you
2502 know, Dr Shirley must have a curate, and you had secured his promise.
2503 Is he coming, Louisa?"
2504
2505 One morning, very soon after the dinner at the Musgroves, at which Anne
2506 had not been present, Captain Wentworth walked into the drawing-room at
2507 the Cottage, where were only herself and the little invalid Charles,
2508 who was lying on the sofa.
2509
2510 The surprise of finding himself almost alone with Anne Elliot, deprived
2511 his manners of their usual composure: he started, and could only say,
2512 "I thought the Miss Musgroves had been here: Mrs Musgrove told me I
2513 should find them here," before he walked to the window to recollect
2514 himself, and feel how he ought to behave.
2515
2516 "They are up stairs with my sister: they will be down in a few
2517 moments, I dare say," had been Anne's reply, in all the confusion that
2518 was natural; and if the child had not called her to come and do
2519 something for him, she would have been out of the room the next moment,
2520 and released Captain Wentworth as well as herself.
2521
2522 He continued at the window; and after calmly and politely saying, "I
2523 hope the little boy is better," was silent.
2524
2525 She was obliged to kneel down by the sofa, and remain there to satisfy
2526 her patient; and thus they continued a few minutes, when, to her very
2527 great satisfaction, she heard some other person crossing the little
2528 vestibule. She hoped, on turning her head, to see the master of the
2529 house; but it proved to be one much less calculated for making matters
2530 easy--Charles Hayter, probably not at all better pleased by the sight
2531 of Captain Wentworth than Captain Wentworth had been by the sight of
2532 Anne.
2533
2534 She only attempted to say, "How do you do? Will you not sit down? The
2535 others will be here presently."
2536
2537 Captain Wentworth, however, came from his window, apparently not
2538 ill-disposed for conversation; but Charles Hayter soon put an end to
2539 his attempts by seating himself near the table, and taking up the
2540 newspaper; and Captain Wentworth returned to his window.
2541
2542 Another minute brought another addition. The younger boy, a remarkable
2543 stout, forward child, of two years old, having got the door opened for
2544 him by some one without, made his determined appearance among them, and
2545 went straight to the sofa to see what was going on, and put in his
2546 claim to anything good that might be giving away.
2547
2548 There being nothing to eat, he could only have some play; and as his
2549 aunt would not let him tease his sick brother, he began to fasten
2550 himself upon her, as she knelt, in such a way that, busy as she was
2551 about Charles, she could not shake him off. She spoke to him, ordered,
2552 entreated, and insisted in vain. Once she did contrive to push him
2553 away, but the boy had the greater pleasure in getting upon her back
2554 again directly.
2555
2556 "Walter," said she, "get down this moment. You are extremely
2557 troublesome. I am very angry with you."
2558
2559 "Walter," cried Charles Hayter, "why do you not do as you are bid? Do
2560 not you hear your aunt speak? Come to me, Walter, come to cousin
2561 Charles."
2562
2563 But not a bit did Walter stir.
2564
2565 In another moment, however, she found herself in the state of being
2566 released from him; some one was taking him from her, though he had bent
2567 down her head so much, that his little sturdy hands were unfastened
2568 from around her neck, and he was resolutely borne away, before she knew
2569 that Captain Wentworth had done it.
2570
2571 Her sensations on the discovery made her perfectly speechless. She
2572 could not even thank him. She could only hang over little Charles,
2573 with most disordered feelings. His kindness in stepping forward to her
2574 relief, the manner, the silence in which it had passed, the little
2575 particulars of the circumstance, with the conviction soon forced on her
2576 by the noise he was studiously making with the child, that he meant to
2577 avoid hearing her thanks, and rather sought to testify that her
2578 conversation was the last of his wants, produced such a confusion of
2579 varying, but very painful agitation, as she could not recover from,
2580 till enabled by the entrance of Mary and the Miss Musgroves to make
2581 over her little patient to their cares, and leave the room. She could
2582 not stay. It might have been an opportunity of watching the loves and
2583 jealousies of the four--they were now altogether; but she could stay
2584 for none of it. It was evident that Charles Hayter was not well
2585 inclined towards Captain Wentworth. She had a strong impression of his
2586 having said, in a vext tone of voice, after Captain Wentworth's
2587 interference, "You ought to have minded me, Walter; I told you not to
2588 teaze your aunt;" and could comprehend his regretting that Captain
2589 Wentworth should do what he ought to have done himself. But neither
2590 Charles Hayter's feelings, nor anybody's feelings, could interest her,
2591 till she had a little better arranged her own. She was ashamed of
2592 herself, quite ashamed of being so nervous, so overcome by such a
2593 trifle; but so it was, and it required a long application of solitude
2594 and reflection to recover her.
2595
2596
2597
2598 Chapter 10
2599
2600
2601 Other opportunities of making her observations could not fail to occur.
2602 Anne had soon been in company with all the four together often enough
2603 to have an opinion, though too wise to acknowledge as much at home,
2604 where she knew it would have satisfied neither husband nor wife; for
2605 while she considered Louisa to be rather the favourite, she could not
2606 but think, as far as she might dare to judge from memory and
2607 experience, that Captain Wentworth was not in love with either. They
2608 were more in love with him; yet there it was not love. It was a little
2609 fever of admiration; but it might, probably must, end in love with
2610 some. Charles Hayter seemed aware of being slighted, and yet Henrietta
2611 had sometimes the air of being divided between them. Anne longed for
2612 the power of representing to them all what they were about, and of
2613 pointing out some of the evils they were exposing themselves to. She
2614 did not attribute guile to any. It was the highest satisfaction to her
2615 to believe Captain Wentworth not in the least aware of the pain he was
2616 occasioning. There was no triumph, no pitiful triumph in his manner.
2617 He had, probably, never heard, and never thought of any claims of
2618 Charles Hayter. He was only wrong in accepting the attentions (for
2619 accepting must be the word) of two young women at once.
2620
2621 After a short struggle, however, Charles Hayter seemed to quit the
2622 field. Three days had passed without his coming once to Uppercross; a
2623 most decided change. He had even refused one regular invitation to
2624 dinner; and having been found on the occasion by Mr Musgrove with some
2625 large books before him, Mr and Mrs Musgrove were sure all could not be
2626 right, and talked, with grave faces, of his studying himself to death.
2627 It was Mary's hope and belief that he had received a positive dismissal
2628 from Henrietta, and her husband lived under the constant dependence of
2629 seeing him to-morrow. Anne could only feel that Charles Hayter was
2630 wise.
2631
2632 One morning, about this time Charles Musgrove and Captain Wentworth
2633 being gone a-shooting together, as the sisters in the Cottage were
2634 sitting quietly at work, they were visited at the window by the sisters
2635 from the Mansion-house.
2636
2637 It was a very fine November day, and the Miss Musgroves came through
2638 the little grounds, and stopped for no other purpose than to say, that
2639 they were going to take a long walk, and therefore concluded Mary could
2640 not like to go with them; and when Mary immediately replied, with some
2641 jealousy at not being supposed a good walker, "Oh, yes, I should like
2642 to join you very much, I am very fond of a long walk;" Anne felt
2643 persuaded, by the looks of the two girls, that it was precisely what
2644 they did not wish, and admired again the sort of necessity which the
2645 family habits seemed to produce, of everything being to be
2646 communicated, and everything being to be done together, however
2647 undesired and inconvenient. She tried to dissuade Mary from going, but
2648 in vain; and that being the case, thought it best to accept the Miss
2649 Musgroves' much more cordial invitation to herself to go likewise, as
2650 she might be useful in turning back with her sister, and lessening the
2651 interference in any plan of their own.
2652
2653 "I cannot imagine why they should suppose I should not like a long
2654 walk," said Mary, as she went up stairs. "Everybody is always
2655 supposing that I am not a good walker; and yet they would not have been
2656 pleased, if we had refused to join them. When people come in this
2657 manner on purpose to ask us, how can one say no?"
2658
2659 Just as they were setting off, the gentlemen returned. They had taken
2660 out a young dog, who had spoilt their sport, and sent them back early.
2661 Their time and strength, and spirits, were, therefore, exactly ready
2662 for this walk, and they entered into it with pleasure. Could Anne have
2663 foreseen such a junction, she would have staid at home; but, from some
2664 feelings of interest and curiosity, she fancied now that it was too
2665 late to retract, and the whole six set forward together in the
2666 direction chosen by the Miss Musgroves, who evidently considered the
2667 walk as under their guidance.
2668
2669 Anne's object was, not to be in the way of anybody; and where the
2670 narrow paths across the fields made many separations necessary, to keep
2671 with her brother and sister. Her pleasure in the walk must arise from
2672 the exercise and the day, from the view of the last smiles of the year
2673 upon the tawny leaves, and withered hedges, and from repeating to
2674 herself some few of the thousand poetical descriptions extant of
2675 autumn, that season of peculiar and inexhaustible influence on the mind
2676 of taste and tenderness, that season which had drawn from every poet,
2677 worthy of being read, some attempt at description, or some lines of
2678 feeling. She occupied her mind as much as possible in such like
2679 musings and quotations; but it was not possible, that when within reach
2680 of Captain Wentworth's conversation with either of the Miss Musgroves,
2681 she should not try to hear it; yet she caught little very remarkable.
2682 It was mere lively chat, such as any young persons, on an intimate
2683 footing, might fall into. He was more engaged with Louisa than with
2684 Henrietta. Louisa certainly put more forward for his notice than her
2685 sister. This distinction appeared to increase, and there was one
2686 speech of Louisa's which struck her. After one of the many praises of
2687 the day, which were continually bursting forth, Captain Wentworth
2688 added:--
2689
2690 "What glorious weather for the Admiral and my sister! They meant to
2691 take a long drive this morning; perhaps we may hail them from some of
2692 these hills. They talked of coming into this side of the country. I
2693 wonder whereabouts they will upset to-day. Oh! it does happen very
2694 often, I assure you; but my sister makes nothing of it; she would as
2695 lieve be tossed out as not."
2696
2697 "Ah! You make the most of it, I know," cried Louisa, "but if it were
2698 really so, I should do just the same in her place. If I loved a man,
2699 as she loves the Admiral, I would always be with him, nothing should
2700 ever separate us, and I would rather be overturned by him, than driven
2701 safely by anybody else."
2702
2703 It was spoken with enthusiasm.
2704
2705 "Had you?" cried he, catching the same tone; "I honour you!" And there
2706 was silence between them for a little while.
2707
2708 Anne could not immediately fall into a quotation again. The sweet
2709 scenes of autumn were for a while put by, unless some tender sonnet,
2710 fraught with the apt analogy of the declining year, with declining
2711 happiness, and the images of youth and hope, and spring, all gone
2712 together, blessed her memory. She roused herself to say, as they
2713 struck by order into another path, "Is not this one of the ways to
2714 Winthrop?" But nobody heard, or, at least, nobody answered her.
2715
2716 Winthrop, however, or its environs--for young men are, sometimes to be
2717 met with, strolling about near home--was their destination; and after
2718 another half mile of gradual ascent through large enclosures, where the
2719 ploughs at work, and the fresh made path spoke the farmer counteracting
2720 the sweets of poetical despondence, and meaning to have spring again,
2721 they gained the summit of the most considerable hill, which parted
2722 Uppercross and Winthrop, and soon commanded a full view of the latter,
2723 at the foot of the hill on the other side.
2724
2725 Winthrop, without beauty and without dignity, was stretched before them;
2726 an indifferent house, standing low, and hemmed in by the barns and
2727 buildings of a farm-yard.
2728
2729 Mary exclaimed, "Bless me! here is Winthrop. I declare I had no idea!
2730 Well now, I think we had better turn back; I am excessively tired."
2731
2732 Henrietta, conscious and ashamed, and seeing no cousin Charles walking
2733 along any path, or leaning against any gate, was ready to do as Mary
2734 wished; but "No!" said Charles Musgrove, and "No, no!" cried Louisa
2735 more eagerly, and taking her sister aside, seemed to be arguing the
2736 matter warmly.
2737
2738 Charles, in the meanwhile, was very decidedly declaring his resolution
2739 of calling on his aunt, now that he was so near; and very evidently,
2740 though more fearfully, trying to induce his wife to go too. But this
2741 was one of the points on which the lady shewed her strength; and when
2742 he recommended the advantage of resting herself a quarter of an hour at
2743 Winthrop, as she felt so tired, she resolutely answered, "Oh! no,
2744 indeed! walking up that hill again would do her more harm than any
2745 sitting down could do her good;" and, in short, her look and manner
2746 declared, that go she would not.
2747
2748 After a little succession of these sort of debates and consultations,
2749 it was settled between Charles and his two sisters, that he and
2750 Henrietta should just run down for a few minutes, to see their aunt and
2751 cousins, while the rest of the party waited for them at the top of the
2752 hill. Louisa seemed the principal arranger of the plan; and, as she
2753 went a little way with them, down the hill, still talking to Henrietta,
2754 Mary took the opportunity of looking scornfully around her, and saying
2755 to Captain Wentworth--
2756
2757 "It is very unpleasant, having such connexions! But, I assure you, I
2758 have never been in the house above twice in my life."
2759
2760 She received no other answer, than an artificial, assenting smile,
2761 followed by a contemptuous glance, as he turned away, which Anne
2762 perfectly knew the meaning of.
2763
2764 The brow of the hill, where they remained, was a cheerful spot: Louisa
2765 returned; and Mary, finding a comfortable seat for herself on the step
2766 of a stile, was very well satisfied so long as the others all stood
2767 about her; but when Louisa drew Captain Wentworth away, to try for a
2768 gleaning of nuts in an adjoining hedge-row, and they were gone by
2769 degrees quite out of sight and sound, Mary was happy no longer; she
2770 quarrelled with her own seat, was sure Louisa had got a much better
2771 somewhere, and nothing could prevent her from going to look for a
2772 better also. She turned through the same gate, but could not see them.
2773 Anne found a nice seat for her, on a dry sunny bank, under the
2774 hedge-row, in which she had no doubt of their still being, in some spot
2775 or other. Mary sat down for a moment, but it would not do; she was
2776 sure Louisa had found a better seat somewhere else, and she would go on
2777 till she overtook her.
2778
2779 Anne, really tired herself, was glad to sit down; and she very soon
2780 heard Captain Wentworth and Louisa in the hedge-row, behind her, as if
2781 making their way back along the rough, wild sort of channel, down the
2782 centre. They were speaking as they drew near. Louisa's voice was the
2783 first distinguished. She seemed to be in the middle of some eager
2784 speech. What Anne first heard was--
2785
2786 "And so, I made her go. I could not bear that she should be frightened
2787 from the visit by such nonsense. What! would I be turned back from
2788 doing a thing that I had determined to do, and that I knew to be right,
2789 by the airs and interference of such a person, or of any person I may
2790 say? No, I have no idea of being so easily persuaded. When I have
2791 made up my mind, I have made it; and Henrietta seemed entirely to have
2792 made up hers to call at Winthrop to-day; and yet, she was as near
2793 giving it up, out of nonsensical complaisance!"
2794
2795 "She would have turned back then, but for you?"
2796
2797 "She would indeed. I am almost ashamed to say it."
2798
2799 "Happy for her, to have such a mind as yours at hand! After the hints
2800 you gave just now, which did but confirm my own observations, the last
2801 time I was in company with him, I need not affect to have no
2802 comprehension of what is going on. I see that more than a mere dutiful
2803 morning visit to your aunt was in question; and woe betide him, and her
2804 too, when it comes to things of consequence, when they are placed in
2805 circumstances requiring fortitude and strength of mind, if she have not
2806 resolution enough to resist idle interference in such a trifle as this.
2807 Your sister is an amiable creature; but yours is the character of
2808 decision and firmness, I see. If you value her conduct or happiness,
2809 infuse as much of your own spirit into her as you can. But this, no
2810 doubt, you have been always doing. It is the worst evil of too
2811 yielding and indecisive a character, that no influence over it can be
2812 depended on. You are never sure of a good impression being durable;
2813 everybody may sway it. Let those who would be happy be firm. Here is
2814 a nut," said he, catching one down from an upper bough, "to exemplify:
2815 a beautiful glossy nut, which, blessed with original strength, has
2816 outlived all the storms of autumn. Not a puncture, not a weak spot
2817 anywhere. This nut," he continued, with playful solemnity, "while so
2818 many of his brethren have fallen and been trodden under foot, is still
2819 in possession of all the happiness that a hazel nut can be supposed
2820 capable of." Then returning to his former earnest tone--"My first
2821 wish for all whom I am interested in, is that they should be firm. If
2822 Louisa Musgrove would be beautiful and happy in her November of life,
2823 she will cherish all her present powers of mind."
2824
2825 He had done, and was unanswered. It would have surprised Anne if
2826 Louisa could have readily answered such a speech: words of such
2827 interest, spoken with such serious warmth! She could imagine what
2828 Louisa was feeling. For herself, she feared to move, lest she should
2829 be seen. While she remained, a bush of low rambling holly protected
2830 her, and they were moving on. Before they were beyond her hearing,
2831 however, Louisa spoke again.
2832
2833 "Mary is good-natured enough in many respects," said she; "but she does
2834 sometimes provoke me excessively, by her nonsense and pride--the Elliot
2835 pride. She has a great deal too much of the Elliot pride. We do so
2836 wish that Charles had married Anne instead. I suppose you know he
2837 wanted to marry Anne?"
2838
2839 After a moment's pause, Captain Wentworth said--
2840
2841 "Do you mean that she refused him?"
2842
2843 "Oh! yes; certainly."
2844
2845 "When did that happen?"
2846
2847 "I do not exactly know, for Henrietta and I were at school at the time;
2848 but I believe about a year before he married Mary. I wish she had
2849 accepted him. We should all have liked her a great deal better; and
2850 papa and mamma always think it was her great friend Lady Russell's
2851 doing, that she did not. They think Charles might not be learned and
2852 bookish enough to please Lady Russell, and that therefore, she
2853 persuaded Anne to refuse him."
2854
2855 The sounds were retreating, and Anne distinguished no more. Her own
2856 emotions still kept her fixed. She had much to recover from, before
2857 she could move. The listener's proverbial fate was not absolutely
2858 hers; she had heard no evil of herself, but she had heard a great deal
2859 of very painful import. She saw how her own character was considered
2860 by Captain Wentworth, and there had been just that degree of feeling
2861 and curiosity about her in his manner which must give her extreme
2862 agitation.
2863
2864 As soon as she could, she went after Mary, and having found, and walked
2865 back with her to their former station, by the stile, felt some comfort
2866 in their whole party being immediately afterwards collected, and once
2867 more in motion together. Her spirits wanted the solitude and silence
2868 which only numbers could give.
2869
2870 Charles and Henrietta returned, bringing, as may be conjectured,
2871 Charles Hayter with them. The minutiae of the business Anne could not
2872 attempt to understand; even Captain Wentworth did not seem admitted to
2873 perfect confidence here; but that there had been a withdrawing on the
2874 gentleman's side, and a relenting on the lady's, and that they were now
2875 very glad to be together again, did not admit a doubt. Henrietta
2876 looked a little ashamed, but very well pleased;--Charles Hayter
2877 exceedingly happy: and they were devoted to each other almost from the
2878 first instant of their all setting forward for Uppercross.
2879
2880 Everything now marked out Louisa for Captain Wentworth; nothing could
2881 be plainer; and where many divisions were necessary, or even where they
2882 were not, they walked side by side nearly as much as the other two. In
2883 a long strip of meadow land, where there was ample space for all, they
2884 were thus divided, forming three distinct parties; and to that party of
2885 the three which boasted least animation, and least complaisance, Anne
2886 necessarily belonged. She joined Charles and Mary, and was tired
2887 enough to be very glad of Charles's other arm; but Charles, though in
2888 very good humour with her, was out of temper with his wife. Mary had
2889 shewn herself disobliging to him, and was now to reap the consequence,
2890 which consequence was his dropping her arm almost every moment to cut
2891 off the heads of some nettles in the hedge with his switch; and when
2892 Mary began to complain of it, and lament her being ill-used, according
2893 to custom, in being on the hedge side, while Anne was never incommoded
2894 on the other, he dropped the arms of both to hunt after a weasel which
2895 he had a momentary glance of, and they could hardly get him along at
2896 all.
2897
2898 This long meadow bordered a lane, which their footpath, at the end of
2899 it was to cross, and when the party had all reached the gate of exit,
2900 the carriage advancing in the same direction, which had been some time
2901 heard, was just coming up, and proved to be Admiral Croft's gig. He
2902 and his wife had taken their intended drive, and were returning home.
2903 Upon hearing how long a walk the young people had engaged in, they
2904 kindly offered a seat to any lady who might be particularly tired; it
2905 would save her a full mile, and they were going through Uppercross.
2906 The invitation was general, and generally declined. The Miss Musgroves
2907 were not at all tired, and Mary was either offended, by not being asked
2908 before any of the others, or what Louisa called the Elliot pride could
2909 not endure to make a third in a one horse chaise.
2910
2911 The walking party had crossed the lane, and were surmounting an
2912 opposite stile, and the Admiral was putting his horse in motion again,
2913 when Captain Wentworth cleared the hedge in a moment to say something
2914 to his sister. The something might be guessed by its effects.
2915
2916 "Miss Elliot, I am sure you are tired," cried Mrs Croft. "Do let us
2917 have the pleasure of taking you home. Here is excellent room for
2918 three, I assure you. If we were all like you, I believe we might sit
2919 four. You must, indeed, you must."
2920
2921 Anne was still in the lane; and though instinctively beginning to
2922 decline, she was not allowed to proceed. The Admiral's kind urgency
2923 came in support of his wife's; they would not be refused; they
2924 compressed themselves into the smallest possible space to leave her a
2925 corner, and Captain Wentworth, without saying a word, turned to her,
2926 and quietly obliged her to be assisted into the carriage.
2927
2928 Yes; he had done it. She was in the carriage, and felt that he had
2929 placed her there, that his will and his hands had done it, that she
2930 owed it to his perception of her fatigue, and his resolution to give
2931 her rest. She was very much affected by the view of his disposition
2932 towards her, which all these things made apparent. This little
2933 circumstance seemed the completion of all that had gone before. She
2934 understood him. He could not forgive her, but he could not be
2935 unfeeling. Though condemning her for the past, and considering it with
2936 high and unjust resentment, though perfectly careless of her, and
2937 though becoming attached to another, still he could not see her suffer,
2938 without the desire of giving her relief. It was a remainder of former
2939 sentiment; it was an impulse of pure, though unacknowledged friendship;
2940 it was a proof of his own warm and amiable heart, which she could not
2941 contemplate without emotions so compounded of pleasure and pain, that
2942 she knew not which prevailed.
2943
2944 Her answers to the kindness and the remarks of her companions were at
2945 first unconsciously given. They had travelled half their way along the
2946 rough lane, before she was quite awake to what they said. She then
2947 found them talking of "Frederick."
2948
2949 "He certainly means to have one or other of those two girls, Sophy,"
2950 said the Admiral; "but there is no saying which. He has been running
2951 after them, too, long enough, one would think, to make up his mind.
2952 Ay, this comes of the peace. If it were war now, he would have settled
2953 it long ago. We sailors, Miss Elliot, cannot afford to make long
2954 courtships in time of war. How many days was it, my dear, between the
2955 first time of my seeing you and our sitting down together in our
2956 lodgings at North Yarmouth?"
2957
2958 "We had better not talk about it, my dear," replied Mrs Croft,
2959 pleasantly; "for if Miss Elliot were to hear how soon we came to an
2960 understanding, she would never be persuaded that we could be happy
2961 together. I had known you by character, however, long before."
2962
2963 "Well, and I had heard of you as a very pretty girl, and what were we
2964 to wait for besides? I do not like having such things so long in hand.
2965 I wish Frederick would spread a little more canvass, and bring us home
2966 one of these young ladies to Kellynch. Then there would always be
2967 company for them. And very nice young ladies they both are; I hardly
2968 know one from the other."
2969
2970 "Very good humoured, unaffected girls, indeed," said Mrs Croft, in a
2971 tone of calmer praise, such as made Anne suspect that her keener powers
2972 might not consider either of them as quite worthy of her brother; "and
2973 a very respectable family. One could not be connected with better
2974 people. My dear Admiral, that post! we shall certainly take that
2975 post."
2976
2977 But by coolly giving the reins a better direction herself they happily
2978 passed the danger; and by once afterwards judiciously putting out her
2979 hand they neither fell into a rut, nor ran foul of a dung-cart; and
2980 Anne, with some amusement at their style of driving, which she imagined
2981 no bad representation of the general guidance of their affairs, found
2982 herself safely deposited by them at the Cottage.
2983
2984
2985
2986 Chapter 11
2987
2988
2989 The time now approached for Lady Russell's return: the day was even
2990 fixed; and Anne, being engaged to join her as soon as she was
2991 resettled, was looking forward to an early removal to Kellynch, and
2992 beginning to think how her own comfort was likely to be affected by it.
2993
2994 It would place her in the same village with Captain Wentworth, within
2995 half a mile of him; they would have to frequent the same church, and
2996 there must be intercourse between the two families. This was against
2997 her; but on the other hand, he spent so much of his time at Uppercross,
2998 that in removing thence she might be considered rather as leaving him
2999 behind, than as going towards him; and, upon the whole, she believed
3000 she must, on this interesting question, be the gainer, almost as
3001 certainly as in her change of domestic society, in leaving poor Mary
3002 for Lady Russell.
3003
3004 She wished it might be possible for her to avoid ever seeing Captain
3005 Wentworth at the Hall: those rooms had witnessed former meetings which
3006 would be brought too painfully before her; but she was yet more anxious
3007 for the possibility of Lady Russell and Captain Wentworth never meeting
3008 anywhere. They did not like each other, and no renewal of acquaintance
3009 now could do any good; and were Lady Russell to see them together, she
3010 might think that he had too much self-possession, and she too little.
3011
3012 These points formed her chief solicitude in anticipating her removal
3013 from Uppercross, where she felt she had been stationed quite long
3014 enough. Her usefulness to little Charles would always give some
3015 sweetness to the memory of her two months' visit there, but he was
3016 gaining strength apace, and she had nothing else to stay for.
3017
3018 The conclusion of her visit, however, was diversified in a way which
3019 she had not at all imagined. Captain Wentworth, after being unseen and
3020 unheard of at Uppercross for two whole days, appeared again among them
3021 to justify himself by a relation of what had kept him away.
3022
3023 A letter from his friend, Captain Harville, having found him out at
3024 last, had brought intelligence of Captain Harville's being settled with
3025 his family at Lyme for the winter; of their being therefore, quite
3026 unknowingly, within twenty miles of each other. Captain Harville had
3027 never been in good health since a severe wound which he received two
3028 years before, and Captain Wentworth's anxiety to see him had determined
3029 him to go immediately to Lyme. He had been there for four-and-twenty
3030 hours. His acquittal was complete, his friendship warmly honoured, a
3031 lively interest excited for his friend, and his description of the fine
3032 country about Lyme so feelingly attended to by the party, that an
3033 earnest desire to see Lyme themselves, and a project for going thither
3034 was the consequence.
3035
3036 The young people were all wild to see Lyme. Captain Wentworth talked
3037 of going there again himself, it was only seventeen miles from
3038 Uppercross; though November, the weather was by no means bad; and, in
3039 short, Louisa, who was the most eager of the eager, having formed the
3040 resolution to go, and besides the pleasure of doing as she liked, being
3041 now armed with the idea of merit in maintaining her own way, bore down
3042 all the wishes of her father and mother for putting it off till summer;
3043 and to Lyme they were to go--Charles, Mary, Anne, Henrietta, Louisa,
3044 and Captain Wentworth.
3045
3046 The first heedless scheme had been to go in the morning and return at
3047 night; but to this Mr Musgrove, for the sake of his horses, would not
3048 consent; and when it came to be rationally considered, a day in the
3049 middle of November would not leave much time for seeing a new place,
3050 after deducting seven hours, as the nature of the country required, for
3051 going and returning. They were, consequently, to stay the night there,
3052 and not to be expected back till the next day's dinner. This was felt
3053 to be a considerable amendment; and though they all met at the Great
3054 House at rather an early breakfast hour, and set off very punctually,
3055 it was so much past noon before the two carriages, Mr Musgrove's coach
3056 containing the four ladies, and Charles's curricle, in which he drove
3057 Captain Wentworth, were descending the long hill into Lyme, and
3058 entering upon the still steeper street of the town itself, that it was
3059 very evident they would not have more than time for looking about them,
3060 before the light and warmth of the day were gone.
3061
3062 After securing accommodations, and ordering a dinner at one of the
3063 inns, the next thing to be done was unquestionably to walk directly
3064 down to the sea. They were come too late in the year for any amusement
3065 or variety which Lyme, as a public place, might offer. The rooms were
3066 shut up, the lodgers almost all gone, scarcely any family but of the
3067 residents left; and, as there is nothing to admire in the buildings
3068 themselves, the remarkable situation of the town, the principal street
3069 almost hurrying into the water, the walk to the Cobb, skirting round
3070 the pleasant little bay, which, in the season, is animated with bathing
3071 machines and company; the Cobb itself, its old wonders and new
3072 improvements, with the very beautiful line of cliffs stretching out to
3073 the east of the town, are what the stranger's eye will seek; and a very
3074 strange stranger it must be, who does not see charms in the immediate
3075 environs of Lyme, to make him wish to know it better. The scenes in
3076 its neighbourhood, Charmouth, with its high grounds and extensive
3077 sweeps of country, and still more, its sweet, retired bay, backed by
3078 dark cliffs, where fragments of low rock among the sands, make it the
3079 happiest spot for watching the flow of the tide, for sitting in
3080 unwearied contemplation; the woody varieties of the cheerful village of
3081 Up Lyme; and, above all, Pinny, with its green chasms between romantic
3082 rocks, where the scattered forest trees and orchards of luxuriant
3083 growth, declare that many a generation must have passed away since the
3084 first partial falling of the cliff prepared the ground for such a
3085 state, where a scene so wonderful and so lovely is exhibited, as may
3086 more than equal any of the resembling scenes of the far-famed Isle of
3087 Wight: these places must be visited, and visited again, to make the
3088 worth of Lyme understood.
3089
3090 The party from Uppercross passing down by the now deserted and
3091 melancholy looking rooms, and still descending, soon found themselves
3092 on the sea-shore; and lingering only, as all must linger and gaze on a
3093 first return to the sea, who ever deserved to look on it at all,
3094 proceeded towards the Cobb, equally their object in itself and on
3095 Captain Wentworth's account: for in a small house, near the foot of an
3096 old pier of unknown date, were the Harvilles settled. Captain
3097 Wentworth turned in to call on his friend; the others walked on, and he
3098 was to join them on the Cobb.
3099
3100 They were by no means tired of wondering and admiring; and not even
3101 Louisa seemed to feel that they had parted with Captain Wentworth long,
3102 when they saw him coming after them, with three companions, all well
3103 known already, by description, to be Captain and Mrs Harville, and a
3104 Captain Benwick, who was staying with them.
3105
3106 Captain Benwick had some time ago been first lieutenant of the Laconia;
3107 and the account which Captain Wentworth had given of him, on his return
3108 from Lyme before, his warm praise of him as an excellent young man and
3109 an officer, whom he had always valued highly, which must have stamped
3110 him well in the esteem of every listener, had been followed by a little
3111 history of his private life, which rendered him perfectly interesting
3112 in the eyes of all the ladies. He had been engaged to Captain
3113 Harville's sister, and was now mourning her loss. They had been a year
3114 or two waiting for fortune and promotion. Fortune came, his
3115 prize-money as lieutenant being great; promotion, too, came at last;
3116 but Fanny Harville did not live to know it. She had died the preceding
3117 summer while he was at sea. Captain Wentworth believed it impossible
3118 for man to be more attached to woman than poor Benwick had been to
3119 Fanny Harville, or to be more deeply afflicted under the dreadful
3120 change. He considered his disposition as of the sort which must suffer
3121 heavily, uniting very strong feelings with quiet, serious, and retiring
3122 manners, and a decided taste for reading, and sedentary pursuits. To
3123 finish the interest of the story, the friendship between him and the
3124 Harvilles seemed, if possible, augmented by the event which closed all
3125 their views of alliance, and Captain Benwick was now living with them
3126 entirely. Captain Harville had taken his present house for half a
3127 year; his taste, and his health, and his fortune, all directing him to
3128 a residence inexpensive, and by the sea; and the grandeur of the
3129 country, and the retirement of Lyme in the winter, appeared exactly
3130 adapted to Captain Benwick's state of mind. The sympathy and good-will
3131 excited towards Captain Benwick was very great.
3132
3133 "And yet," said Anne to herself, as they now moved forward to meet the
3134 party, "he has not, perhaps, a more sorrowing heart than I have. I
3135 cannot believe his prospects so blighted for ever. He is younger than
3136 I am; younger in feeling, if not in fact; younger as a man. He will
3137 rally again, and be happy with another."
3138
3139 They all met, and were introduced. Captain Harville was a tall, dark
3140 man, with a sensible, benevolent countenance; a little lame; and from
3141 strong features and want of health, looking much older than Captain
3142 Wentworth. Captain Benwick looked, and was, the youngest of the three,
3143 and, compared with either of them, a little man. He had a pleasing
3144 face and a melancholy air, just as he ought to have, and drew back from
3145 conversation.
3146
3147 Captain Harville, though not equalling Captain Wentworth in manners,
3148 was a perfect gentleman, unaffected, warm, and obliging. Mrs Harville,
3149 a degree less polished than her husband, seemed, however, to have the
3150 same good feelings; and nothing could be more pleasant than their
3151 desire of considering the whole party as friends of their own, because
3152 the friends of Captain Wentworth, or more kindly hospitable than their
3153 entreaties for their all promising to dine with them. The dinner,
3154 already ordered at the inn, was at last, though unwillingly, accepted
3155 as a excuse; but they seemed almost hurt that Captain Wentworth should
3156 have brought any such party to Lyme, without considering it as a thing
3157 of course that they should dine with them.
3158
3159 There was so much attachment to Captain Wentworth in all this, and such
3160 a bewitching charm in a degree of hospitality so uncommon, so unlike
3161 the usual style of give-and-take invitations, and dinners of formality
3162 and display, that Anne felt her spirits not likely to be benefited by
3163 an increasing acquaintance among his brother-officers. "These would
3164 have been all my friends," was her thought; and she had to struggle
3165 against a great tendency to lowness.
3166
3167 On quitting the Cobb, they all went in-doors with their new friends,
3168 and found rooms so small as none but those who invite from the heart
3169 could think capable of accommodating so many. Anne had a moment's
3170 astonishment on the subject herself; but it was soon lost in the
3171 pleasanter feelings which sprang from the sight of all the ingenious
3172 contrivances and nice arrangements of Captain Harville, to turn the
3173 actual space to the best account, to supply the deficiencies of
3174 lodging-house furniture, and defend the windows and doors against the
3175 winter storms to be expected. The varieties in the fitting-up of the
3176 rooms, where the common necessaries provided by the owner, in the
3177 common indifferent plight, were contrasted with some few articles of a
3178 rare species of wood, excellently worked up, and with something curious
3179 and valuable from all the distant countries Captain Harville had
3180 visited, were more than amusing to Anne; connected as it all was with
3181 his profession, the fruit of its labours, the effect of its influence
3182 on his habits, the picture of repose and domestic happiness it
3183 presented, made it to her a something more, or less, than gratification.
3184
3185 Captain Harville was no reader; but he had contrived excellent
3186 accommodations, and fashioned very pretty shelves, for a tolerable
3187 collection of well-bound volumes, the property of Captain Benwick. His
3188 lameness prevented him from taking much exercise; but a mind of
3189 usefulness and ingenuity seemed to furnish him with constant employment
3190 within. He drew, he varnished, he carpentered, he glued; he made toys
3191 for the children; he fashioned new netting-needles and pins with
3192 improvements; and if everything else was done, sat down to his large
3193 fishing-net at one corner of the room.
3194
3195 Anne thought she left great happiness behind her when they quitted the
3196 house; and Louisa, by whom she found herself walking, burst forth into
3197 raptures of admiration and delight on the character of the navy; their
3198 friendliness, their brotherliness, their openness, their uprightness;
3199 protesting that she was convinced of sailors having more worth and
3200 warmth than any other set of men in England; that they only knew how to
3201 live, and they only deserved to be respected and loved.
3202
3203 They went back to dress and dine; and so well had the scheme answered
3204 already, that nothing was found amiss; though its being "so entirely
3205 out of season," and the "no thoroughfare of Lyme," and the "no
3206 expectation of company," had brought many apologies from the heads of
3207 the inn.
3208
3209 Anne found herself by this time growing so much more hardened to being
3210 in Captain Wentworth's company than she had at first imagined could
3211 ever be, that the sitting down to the same table with him now, and the
3212 interchange of the common civilities attending on it (they never got
3213 beyond), was become a mere nothing.
3214
3215 The nights were too dark for the ladies to meet again till the morrow,
3216 but Captain Harville had promised them a visit in the evening; and he
3217 came, bringing his friend also, which was more than had been expected,
3218 it having been agreed that Captain Benwick had all the appearance of
3219 being oppressed by the presence of so many strangers. He ventured
3220 among them again, however, though his spirits certainly did not seem
3221 fit for the mirth of the party in general.
3222
3223 While Captains Wentworth and Harville led the talk on one side of the
3224 room, and by recurring to former days, supplied anecdotes in abundance
3225 to occupy and entertain the others, it fell to Anne's lot to be placed
3226 rather apart with Captain Benwick; and a very good impulse of her
3227 nature obliged her to begin an acquaintance with him. He was shy, and
3228 disposed to abstraction; but the engaging mildness of her countenance,
3229 and gentleness of her manners, soon had their effect; and Anne was well
3230 repaid the first trouble of exertion. He was evidently a young man of
3231 considerable taste in reading, though principally in poetry; and
3232 besides the persuasion of having given him at least an evening's
3233 indulgence in the discussion of subjects, which his usual companions
3234 had probably no concern in, she had the hope of being of real use to
3235 him in some suggestions as to the duty and benefit of struggling
3236 against affliction, which had naturally grown out of their
3237 conversation. For, though shy, he did not seem reserved; it had rather
3238 the appearance of feelings glad to burst their usual restraints; and
3239 having talked of poetry, the richness of the present age, and gone
3240 through a brief comparison of opinion as to the first-rate poets,
3241 trying to ascertain whether Marmion or The Lady of the Lake were to be
3242 preferred, and how ranked the Giaour and The Bride of Abydos; and
3243 moreover, how the Giaour was to be pronounced, he showed himself so
3244 intimately acquainted with all the tenderest songs of the one poet, and
3245 all the impassioned descriptions of hopeless agony of the other; he
3246 repeated, with such tremulous feeling, the various lines which imaged a
3247 broken heart, or a mind destroyed by wretchedness, and looked so
3248 entirely as if he meant to be understood, that she ventured to hope he
3249 did not always read only poetry, and to say, that she thought it was
3250 the misfortune of poetry to be seldom safely enjoyed by those who
3251 enjoyed it completely; and that the strong feelings which alone could
3252 estimate it truly were the very feelings which ought to taste it but
3253 sparingly.
3254
3255 His looks shewing him not pained, but pleased with this allusion to his
3256 situation, she was emboldened to go on; and feeling in herself the
3257 right of seniority of mind, she ventured to recommend a larger
3258 allowance of prose in his daily study; and on being requested to
3259 particularize, mentioned such works of our best moralists, such
3260 collections of the finest letters, such memoirs of characters of worth
3261 and suffering, as occurred to her at the moment as calculated to rouse
3262 and fortify the mind by the highest precepts, and the strongest
3263 examples of moral and religious endurances.
3264
3265 Captain Benwick listened attentively, and seemed grateful for the
3266 interest implied; and though with a shake of the head, and sighs which
3267 declared his little faith in the efficacy of any books on grief like
3268 his, noted down the names of those she recommended, and promised to
3269 procure and read them.
3270
3271 When the evening was over, Anne could not but be amused at the idea of
3272 her coming to Lyme to preach patience and resignation to a young man
3273 whom she had never seen before; nor could she help fearing, on more
3274 serious reflection, that, like many other great moralists and
3275 preachers, she had been eloquent on a point in which her own conduct
3276 would ill bear examination.
3277
3278
3279
3280 Chapter 12
3281
3282
3283 Anne and Henrietta, finding themselves the earliest of the party the
3284 next morning, agreed to stroll down to the sea before breakfast. They
3285 went to the sands, to watch the flowing of the tide, which a fine
3286 south-easterly breeze was bringing in with all the grandeur which so
3287 flat a shore admitted. They praised the morning; gloried in the sea;
3288 sympathized in the delight of the fresh-feeling breeze--and were
3289 silent; till Henrietta suddenly began again with--
3290
3291 "Oh! yes,--I am quite convinced that, with very few exceptions, the
3292 sea-air always does good. There can be no doubt of its having been of
3293 the greatest service to Dr Shirley, after his illness, last spring
3294 twelve-month. He declares himself, that coming to Lyme for a month,
3295 did him more good than all the medicine he took; and, that being by the
3296 sea, always makes him feel young again. Now, I cannot help thinking it
3297 a pity that he does not live entirely by the sea. I do think he had
3298 better leave Uppercross entirely, and fix at Lyme. Do not you, Anne?
3299 Do not you agree with me, that it is the best thing he could do, both
3300 for himself and Mrs Shirley? She has cousins here, you know, and many
3301 acquaintance, which would make it cheerful for her, and I am sure she
3302 would be glad to get to a place where she could have medical attendance
3303 at hand, in case of his having another seizure. Indeed I think it
3304 quite melancholy to have such excellent people as Dr and Mrs Shirley,
3305 who have been doing good all their lives, wearing out their last days
3306 in a place like Uppercross, where, excepting our family, they seem shut
3307 out from all the world. I wish his friends would propose it to him. I
3308 really think they ought. And, as to procuring a dispensation, there
3309 could be no difficulty at his time of life, and with his character. My
3310 only doubt is, whether anything could persuade him to leave his parish.
3311 He is so very strict and scrupulous in his notions; over-scrupulous I
3312 must say. Do not you think, Anne, it is being over-scrupulous? Do not
3313 you think it is quite a mistaken point of conscience, when a clergyman
3314 sacrifices his health for the sake of duties, which may be just as well
3315 performed by another person? And at Lyme too, only seventeen miles
3316 off, he would be near enough to hear, if people thought there was
3317 anything to complain of."
3318
3319 Anne smiled more than once to herself during this speech, and entered
3320 into the subject, as ready to do good by entering into the feelings of
3321 a young lady as of a young man, though here it was good of a lower
3322 standard, for what could be offered but general acquiescence? She said
3323 all that was reasonable and proper on the business; felt the claims of
3324 Dr Shirley to repose as she ought; saw how very desirable it was that
3325 he should have some active, respectable young man, as a resident
3326 curate, and was even courteous enough to hint at the advantage of such
3327 resident curate's being married.
3328
3329 "I wish," said Henrietta, very well pleased with her companion, "I wish
3330 Lady Russell lived at Uppercross, and were intimate with Dr Shirley. I
3331 have always heard of Lady Russell as a woman of the greatest influence
3332 with everybody! I always look upon her as able to persuade a person to
3333 anything! I am afraid of her, as I have told you before, quite afraid
3334 of her, because she is so very clever; but I respect her amazingly, and
3335 wish we had such a neighbour at Uppercross."
3336
3337 Anne was amused by Henrietta's manner of being grateful, and amused
3338 also that the course of events and the new interests of Henrietta's
3339 views should have placed her friend at all in favour with any of the
3340 Musgrove family; she had only time, however, for a general answer, and
3341 a wish that such another woman were at Uppercross, before all subjects
3342 suddenly ceased, on seeing Louisa and Captain Wentworth coming towards
3343 them. They came also for a stroll till breakfast was likely to be
3344 ready; but Louisa recollecting, immediately afterwards that she had
3345 something to procure at a shop, invited them all to go back with her
3346 into the town. They were all at her disposal.
3347
3348 When they came to the steps, leading upwards from the beach, a
3349 gentleman, at the same moment preparing to come down, politely drew
3350 back, and stopped to give them way. They ascended and passed him; and
3351 as they passed, Anne's face caught his eye, and he looked at her with a
3352 degree of earnest admiration, which she could not be insensible of.
3353 She was looking remarkably well; her very regular, very pretty
3354 features, having the bloom and freshness of youth restored by the fine
3355 wind which had been blowing on her complexion, and by the animation of
3356 eye which it had also produced. It was evident that the gentleman,
3357 (completely a gentleman in manner) admired her exceedingly. Captain
3358 Wentworth looked round at her instantly in a way which shewed his
3359 noticing of it. He gave her a momentary glance, a glance of
3360 brightness, which seemed to say, "That man is struck with you, and even
3361 I, at this moment, see something like Anne Elliot again."
3362
3363 After attending Louisa through her business, and loitering about a
3364 little longer, they returned to the inn; and Anne, in passing
3365 afterwards quickly from her own chamber to their dining-room, had
3366 nearly run against the very same gentleman, as he came out of an
3367 adjoining apartment. She had before conjectured him to be a stranger
3368 like themselves, and determined that a well-looking groom, who was
3369 strolling about near the two inns as they came back, should be his
3370 servant. Both master and man being in mourning assisted the idea. It
3371 was now proved that he belonged to the same inn as themselves; and this
3372 second meeting, short as it was, also proved again by the gentleman's
3373 looks, that he thought hers very lovely, and by the readiness and
3374 propriety of his apologies, that he was a man of exceedingly good
3375 manners. He seemed about thirty, and though not handsome, had an
3376 agreeable person. Anne felt that she should like to know who he was.
3377
3378 They had nearly done breakfast, when the sound of a carriage, (almost
3379 the first they had heard since entering Lyme) drew half the party to
3380 the window. It was a gentleman's carriage, a curricle, but only coming
3381 round from the stable-yard to the front door; somebody must be going
3382 away. It was driven by a servant in mourning.
3383
3384 The word curricle made Charles Musgrove jump up that he might compare
3385 it with his own; the servant in mourning roused Anne's curiosity, and
3386 the whole six were collected to look, by the time the owner of the
3387 curricle was to be seen issuing from the door amidst the bows and
3388 civilities of the household, and taking his seat, to drive off.
3389
3390 "Ah!" cried Captain Wentworth, instantly, and with half a glance at
3391 Anne, "it is the very man we passed."
3392
3393 The Miss Musgroves agreed to it; and having all kindly watched him as
3394 far up the hill as they could, they returned to the breakfast table.
3395 The waiter came into the room soon afterwards.
3396
3397 "Pray," said Captain Wentworth, immediately, "can you tell us the name
3398 of the gentleman who is just gone away?"
3399
3400 "Yes, Sir, a Mr Elliot, a gentleman of large fortune, came in last
3401 night from Sidmouth. Dare say you heard the carriage, sir, while you
3402 were at dinner; and going on now for Crewkherne, in his way to Bath and
3403 London."
3404
3405 "Elliot!" Many had looked on each other, and many had repeated the
3406 name, before all this had been got through, even by the smart rapidity
3407 of a waiter.
3408
3409 "Bless me!" cried Mary; "it must be our cousin; it must be our Mr
3410 Elliot, it must, indeed! Charles, Anne, must not it? In mourning, you
3411 see, just as our Mr Elliot must be. How very extraordinary! In the
3412 very same inn with us! Anne, must not it be our Mr Elliot? my
3413 father's next heir? Pray sir," turning to the waiter, "did not you
3414 hear, did not his servant say whether he belonged to the Kellynch
3415 family?"
3416
3417 "No, ma'am, he did not mention no particular family; but he said his
3418 master was a very rich gentleman, and would be a baronight some day."
3419
3420 "There! you see!" cried Mary in an ecstasy, "just as I said! Heir to
3421 Sir Walter Elliot! I was sure that would come out, if it was so.
3422 Depend upon it, that is a circumstance which his servants take care to
3423 publish, wherever he goes. But, Anne, only conceive how extraordinary!
3424 I wish I had looked at him more. I wish we had been aware in time, who
3425 it was, that he might have been introduced to us. What a pity that we
3426 should not have been introduced to each other! Do you think he had the
3427 Elliot countenance? I hardly looked at him, I was looking at the
3428 horses; but I think he had something of the Elliot countenance, I
3429 wonder the arms did not strike me! Oh! the great-coat was hanging over
3430 the panel, and hid the arms, so it did; otherwise, I am sure, I should
3431 have observed them, and the livery too; if the servant had not been in
3432 mourning, one should have known him by the livery."
3433
3434 "Putting all these very extraordinary circumstances together," said
3435 Captain Wentworth, "we must consider it to be the arrangement of
3436 Providence, that you should not be introduced to your cousin."
3437
3438 When she could command Mary's attention, Anne quietly tried to convince
3439 her that their father and Mr Elliot had not, for many years, been on
3440 such terms as to make the power of attempting an introduction at all
3441 desirable.
3442
3443 At the same time, however, it was a secret gratification to herself to
3444 have seen her cousin, and to know that the future owner of Kellynch was
3445 undoubtedly a gentleman, and had an air of good sense. She would not,
3446 upon any account, mention her having met with him the second time;
3447 luckily Mary did not much attend to their having passed close by him in
3448 their earlier walk, but she would have felt quite ill-used by Anne's
3449 having actually run against him in the passage, and received his very
3450 polite excuses, while she had never been near him at all; no, that
3451 cousinly little interview must remain a perfect secret.
3452
3453 "Of course," said Mary, "you will mention our seeing Mr Elliot, the
3454 next time you write to Bath. I think my father certainly ought to hear
3455 of it; do mention all about him."
3456
3457 Anne avoided a direct reply, but it was just the circumstance which she
3458 considered as not merely unnecessary to be communicated, but as what
3459 ought to be suppressed. The offence which had been given her father,
3460 many years back, she knew; Elizabeth's particular share in it she
3461 suspected; and that Mr Elliot's idea always produced irritation in both
3462 was beyond a doubt. Mary never wrote to Bath herself; all the toil of
3463 keeping up a slow and unsatisfactory correspondence with Elizabeth fell
3464 on Anne.
3465
3466 Breakfast had not been long over, when they were joined by Captain and
3467 Mrs Harville and Captain Benwick; with whom they had appointed to take
3468 their last walk about Lyme. They ought to be setting off for
3469 Uppercross by one, and in the meanwhile were to be all together, and
3470 out of doors as long as they could.
3471
3472 Anne found Captain Benwick getting near her, as soon as they were all
3473 fairly in the street. Their conversation the preceding evening did not
3474 disincline him to seek her again; and they walked together some time,
3475 talking as before of Mr Scott and Lord Byron, and still as unable as
3476 before, and as unable as any other two readers, to think exactly alike
3477 of the merits of either, till something occasioned an almost general
3478 change amongst their party, and instead of Captain Benwick, she had
3479 Captain Harville by her side.
3480
3481 "Miss Elliot," said he, speaking rather low, "you have done a good deed
3482 in making that poor fellow talk so much. I wish he could have such
3483 company oftener. It is bad for him, I know, to be shut up as he is;
3484 but what can we do? We cannot part."
3485
3486 "No," said Anne, "that I can easily believe to be impossible; but in
3487 time, perhaps--we know what time does in every case of affliction, and
3488 you must remember, Captain Harville, that your friend may yet be called
3489 a young mourner--only last summer, I understand."
3490
3491 "Ay, true enough," (with a deep sigh) "only June."
3492
3493 "And not known to him, perhaps, so soon."
3494
3495 "Not till the first week of August, when he came home from the Cape,
3496 just made into the Grappler. I was at Plymouth dreading to hear of
3497 him; he sent in letters, but the Grappler was under orders for
3498 Portsmouth. There the news must follow him, but who was to tell it?
3499 not I. I would as soon have been run up to the yard-arm. Nobody could
3500 do it, but that good fellow" (pointing to Captain Wentworth.) "The
3501 Laconia had come into Plymouth the week before; no danger of her being
3502 sent to sea again. He stood his chance for the rest; wrote up for
3503 leave of absence, but without waiting the return, travelled night and
3504 day till he got to Portsmouth, rowed off to the Grappler that instant,
3505 and never left the poor fellow for a week. That's what he did, and
3506 nobody else could have saved poor James. You may think, Miss Elliot,
3507 whether he is dear to us!"
3508
3509 Anne did think on the question with perfect decision, and said as much
3510 in reply as her own feeling could accomplish, or as his seemed able to
3511 bear, for he was too much affected to renew the subject, and when he
3512 spoke again, it was of something totally different.
3513
3514 Mrs Harville's giving it as her opinion that her husband would have
3515 quite walking enough by the time he reached home, determined the
3516 direction of all the party in what was to be their last walk; they
3517 would accompany them to their door, and then return and set off
3518 themselves. By all their calculations there was just time for this;
3519 but as they drew near the Cobb, there was such a general wish to walk
3520 along it once more, all were so inclined, and Louisa soon grew so
3521 determined, that the difference of a quarter of an hour, it was found,
3522 would be no difference at all; so with all the kind leave-taking, and
3523 all the kind interchange of invitations and promises which may be
3524 imagined, they parted from Captain and Mrs Harville at their own door,
3525 and still accompanied by Captain Benwick, who seemed to cling to them
3526 to the last, proceeded to make the proper adieus to the Cobb.
3527
3528 Anne found Captain Benwick again drawing near her. Lord Byron's "dark
3529 blue seas" could not fail of being brought forward by their present
3530 view, and she gladly gave him all her attention as long as attention
3531 was possible. It was soon drawn, perforce another way.
3532
3533 There was too much wind to make the high part of the new Cobb pleasant
3534 for the ladies, and they agreed to get down the steps to the lower, and
3535 all were contented to pass quietly and carefully down the steep flight,
3536 excepting Louisa; she must be jumped down them by Captain Wentworth.
3537 In all their walks, he had had to jump her from the stiles; the
3538 sensation was delightful to her. The hardness of the pavement for her
3539 feet, made him less willing upon the present occasion; he did it,
3540 however. She was safely down, and instantly, to show her enjoyment,
3541 ran up the steps to be jumped down again. He advised her against it,
3542 thought the jar too great; but no, he reasoned and talked in vain, she
3543 smiled and said, "I am determined I will:" he put out his hands; she
3544 was too precipitate by half a second, she fell on the pavement on the
3545 Lower Cobb, and was taken up lifeless! There was no wound, no blood,
3546 no visible bruise; but her eyes were closed, she breathed not, her face
3547 was like death. The horror of the moment to all who stood around!
3548
3549 Captain Wentworth, who had caught her up, knelt with her in his arms,
3550 looking on her with a face as pallid as her own, in an agony of
3551 silence. "She is dead! she is dead!" screamed Mary, catching hold of
3552 her husband, and contributing with his own horror to make him
3553 immoveable; and in another moment, Henrietta, sinking under the
3554 conviction, lost her senses too, and would have fallen on the steps,
3555 but for Captain Benwick and Anne, who caught and supported her between
3556 them.
3557
3558 "Is there no one to help me?" were the first words which burst from
3559 Captain Wentworth, in a tone of despair, and as if all his own strength
3560 were gone.
3561
3562 "Go to him, go to him," cried Anne, "for heaven's sake go to him. I
3563 can support her myself. Leave me, and go to him. Rub her hands, rub
3564 her temples; here are salts; take them, take them."
3565
3566 Captain Benwick obeyed, and Charles at the same moment, disengaging
3567 himself from his wife, they were both with him; and Louisa was raised
3568 up and supported more firmly between them, and everything was done that
3569 Anne had prompted, but in vain; while Captain Wentworth, staggering
3570 against the wall for his support, exclaimed in the bitterest agony--
3571
3572 "Oh God! her father and mother!"
3573
3574 "A surgeon!" said Anne.
3575
3576 He caught the word; it seemed to rouse him at once, and saying only--
3577 "True, true, a surgeon this instant," was darting away, when Anne
3578 eagerly suggested--
3579
3580 "Captain Benwick, would not it be better for Captain Benwick? He knows
3581 where a surgeon is to be found."
3582
3583 Every one capable of thinking felt the advantage of the idea, and in a
3584 moment (it was all done in rapid moments) Captain Benwick had resigned
3585 the poor corpse-like figure entirely to the brother's care, and was
3586 off for the town with the utmost rapidity.
3587
3588 As to the wretched party left behind, it could scarcely be said which
3589 of the three, who were completely rational, was suffering most: Captain
3590 Wentworth, Anne, or Charles, who, really a very affectionate brother,
3591 hung over Louisa with sobs of grief, and could only turn his eyes from
3592 one sister, to see the other in a state as insensible, or to witness
3593 the hysterical agitations of his wife, calling on him for help which he
3594 could not give.
3595
3596 Anne, attending with all the strength and zeal, and thought, which
3597 instinct supplied, to Henrietta, still tried, at intervals, to suggest
3598 comfort to the others, tried to quiet Mary, to animate Charles, to
3599 assuage the feelings of Captain Wentworth. Both seemed to look to her
3600 for directions.
3601
3602 "Anne, Anne," cried Charles, "What is to be done next? What, in
3603 heaven's name, is to be done next?"
3604
3605 Captain Wentworth's eyes were also turned towards her.
3606
3607 "Had not she better be carried to the inn? Yes, I am sure: carry her
3608 gently to the inn."
3609
3610 "Yes, yes, to the inn," repeated Captain Wentworth, comparatively
3611 collected, and eager to be doing something. "I will carry her myself.
3612 Musgrove, take care of the others."
3613
3614 By this time the report of the accident had spread among the workmen
3615 and boatmen about the Cobb, and many were collected near them, to be
3616 useful if wanted, at any rate, to enjoy the sight of a dead young lady,
3617 nay, two dead young ladies, for it proved twice as fine as the first
3618 report. To some of the best-looking of these good people Henrietta was
3619 consigned, for, though partially revived, she was quite helpless; and
3620 in this manner, Anne walking by her side, and Charles attending to his
3621 wife, they set forward, treading back with feelings unutterable, the
3622 ground, which so lately, so very lately, and so light of heart, they
3623 had passed along.
3624
3625 They were not off the Cobb, before the Harvilles met them. Captain
3626 Benwick had been seen flying by their house, with a countenance which
3627 showed something to be wrong; and they had set off immediately,
3628 informed and directed as they passed, towards the spot. Shocked as
3629 Captain Harville was, he brought senses and nerves that could be
3630 instantly useful; and a look between him and his wife decided what was
3631 to be done. She must be taken to their house; all must go to their
3632 house; and await the surgeon's arrival there. They would not listen to
3633 scruples: he was obeyed; they were all beneath his roof; and while
3634 Louisa, under Mrs Harville's direction, was conveyed up stairs, and
3635 given possession of her own bed, assistance, cordials, restoratives
3636 were supplied by her husband to all who needed them.
3637
3638 Louisa had once opened her eyes, but soon closed them again, without
3639 apparent consciousness. This had been a proof of life, however, of
3640 service to her sister; and Henrietta, though perfectly incapable of
3641 being in the same room with Louisa, was kept, by the agitation of hope
3642 and fear, from a return of her own insensibility. Mary, too, was
3643 growing calmer.
3644
3645 The surgeon was with them almost before it had seemed possible. They
3646 were sick with horror, while he examined; but he was not hopeless. The
3647 head had received a severe contusion, but he had seen greater injuries
3648 recovered from: he was by no means hopeless; he spoke cheerfully.
3649
3650 That he did not regard it as a desperate case, that he did not say a
3651 few hours must end it, was at first felt, beyond the hope of most; and
3652 the ecstasy of such a reprieve, the rejoicing, deep and silent, after a
3653 few fervent ejaculations of gratitude to Heaven had been offered, may
3654 be conceived.
3655
3656 The tone, the look, with which "Thank God!" was uttered by Captain
3657 Wentworth, Anne was sure could never be forgotten by her; nor the sight
3658 of him afterwards, as he sat near a table, leaning over it with folded
3659 arms and face concealed, as if overpowered by the various feelings of
3660 his soul, and trying by prayer and reflection to calm them.
3661
3662 Louisa's limbs had escaped. There was no injury but to the head.
3663
3664 It now became necessary for the party to consider what was best to be
3665 done, as to their general situation. They were now able to speak to
3666 each other and consult. That Louisa must remain where she was, however
3667 distressing to her friends to be involving the Harvilles in such
3668 trouble, did not admit a doubt. Her removal was impossible. The
3669 Harvilles silenced all scruples; and, as much as they could, all
3670 gratitude. They had looked forward and arranged everything before the
3671 others began to reflect. Captain Benwick must give up his room to
3672 them, and get another bed elsewhere; and the whole was settled. They
3673 were only concerned that the house could accommodate no more; and yet
3674 perhaps, by "putting the children away in the maid's room, or swinging
3675 a cot somewhere," they could hardly bear to think of not finding room
3676 for two or three besides, supposing they might wish to stay; though,
3677 with regard to any attendance on Miss Musgrove, there need not be the
3678 least uneasiness in leaving her to Mrs Harville's care entirely. Mrs
3679 Harville was a very experienced nurse, and her nursery-maid, who had
3680 lived with her long, and gone about with her everywhere, was just such
3681 another. Between these two, she could want no possible attendance by
3682 day or night. And all this was said with a truth and sincerity of
3683 feeling irresistible.
3684
3685 Charles, Henrietta, and Captain Wentworth were the three in
3686 consultation, and for a little while it was only an interchange of
3687 perplexity and terror. "Uppercross, the necessity of some one's going
3688 to Uppercross; the news to be conveyed; how it could be broken to Mr
3689 and Mrs Musgrove; the lateness of the morning; an hour already gone
3690 since they ought to have been off; the impossibility of being in
3691 tolerable time." At first, they were capable of nothing more to the
3692 purpose than such exclamations; but, after a while, Captain Wentworth,
3693 exerting himself, said--
3694
3695 "We must be decided, and without the loss of another minute. Every
3696 minute is valuable. Some one must resolve on being off for Uppercross
3697 instantly. Musgrove, either you or I must go."
3698
3699 Charles agreed, but declared his resolution of not going away. He
3700 would be as little incumbrance as possible to Captain and Mrs Harville;
3701 but as to leaving his sister in such a state, he neither ought, nor
3702 would. So far it was decided; and Henrietta at first declared the
3703 same. She, however, was soon persuaded to think differently. The
3704 usefulness of her staying! She who had not been able to remain in
3705 Louisa's room, or to look at her, without sufferings which made her
3706 worse than helpless! She was forced to acknowledge that she could do
3707 no good, yet was still unwilling to be away, till, touched by the
3708 thought of her father and mother, she gave it up; she consented, she
3709 was anxious to be at home.
3710
3711 The plan had reached this point, when Anne, coming quietly down from
3712 Louisa's room, could not but hear what followed, for the parlour door
3713 was open.
3714
3715 "Then it is settled, Musgrove," cried Captain Wentworth, "that you
3716 stay, and that I take care of your sister home. But as to the rest, as
3717 to the others, if one stays to assist Mrs Harville, I think it need be
3718 only one. Mrs Charles Musgrove will, of course, wish to get back to
3719 her children; but if Anne will stay, no one so proper, so capable as
3720 Anne."
3721
3722 She paused a moment to recover from the emotion of hearing herself so
3723 spoken of. The other two warmly agreed with what he said, and she then
3724 appeared.
3725
3726 "You will stay, I am sure; you will stay and nurse her;" cried he,
3727 turning to her and speaking with a glow, and yet a gentleness, which
3728 seemed almost restoring the past. She coloured deeply, and he
3729 recollected himself and moved away. She expressed herself most
3730 willing, ready, happy to remain. "It was what she had been thinking
3731 of, and wishing to be allowed to do. A bed on the floor in Louisa's
3732 room would be sufficient for her, if Mrs Harville would but think so."
3733
3734 One thing more, and all seemed arranged. Though it was rather
3735 desirable that Mr and Mrs Musgrove should be previously alarmed by some
3736 share of delay; yet the time required by the Uppercross horses to take
3737 them back, would be a dreadful extension of suspense; and Captain
3738 Wentworth proposed, and Charles Musgrove agreed, that it would be much
3739 better for him to take a chaise from the inn, and leave Mr Musgrove's
3740 carriage and horses to be sent home the next morning early, when there
3741 would be the farther advantage of sending an account of Louisa's night.
3742
3743 Captain Wentworth now hurried off to get everything ready on his part,
3744 and to be soon followed by the two ladies. When the plan was made
3745 known to Mary, however, there was an end of all peace in it. She was
3746 so wretched and so vehement, complained so much of injustice in being
3747 expected to go away instead of Anne; Anne, who was nothing to Louisa,
3748 while she was her sister, and had the best right to stay in Henrietta's
3749 stead! Why was not she to be as useful as Anne? And to go home
3750 without Charles, too, without her husband! No, it was too unkind. And
3751 in short, she said more than her husband could long withstand, and as
3752 none of the others could oppose when he gave way, there was no help for
3753 it; the change of Mary for Anne was inevitable.
3754
3755 Anne had never submitted more reluctantly to the jealous and
3756 ill-judging claims of Mary; but so it must be, and they set off for the
3757 town, Charles taking care of his sister, and Captain Benwick attending
3758 to her. She gave a moment's recollection, as they hurried along, to
3759 the little circumstances which the same spots had witnessed earlier in
3760 the morning. There she had listened to Henrietta's schemes for Dr
3761 Shirley's leaving Uppercross; farther on, she had first seen Mr Elliot;
3762 a moment seemed all that could now be given to any one but Louisa, or
3763 those who were wrapt up in her welfare.
3764
3765 Captain Benwick was most considerately attentive to her; and, united as
3766 they all seemed by the distress of the day, she felt an increasing
3767 degree of good-will towards him, and a pleasure even in thinking that
3768 it might, perhaps, be the occasion of continuing their acquaintance.
3769
3770 Captain Wentworth was on the watch for them, and a chaise and four in
3771 waiting, stationed for their convenience in the lowest part of the
3772 street; but his evident surprise and vexation at the substitution of
3773 one sister for the other, the change in his countenance, the
3774 astonishment, the expressions begun and suppressed, with which Charles
3775 was listened to, made but a mortifying reception of Anne; or must at
3776 least convince her that she was valued only as she could be useful to
3777 Louisa.
3778
3779 She endeavoured to be composed, and to be just. Without emulating the
3780 feelings of an Emma towards her Henry, she would have attended on
3781 Louisa with a zeal above the common claims of regard, for his sake; and
3782 she hoped he would not long be so unjust as to suppose she would shrink
3783 unnecessarily from the office of a friend.
3784
3785 In the meanwhile she was in the carriage. He had handed them both in,
3786 and placed himself between them; and in this manner, under these
3787 circumstances, full of astonishment and emotion to Anne, she quitted
3788 Lyme. How the long stage would pass; how it was to affect their
3789 manners; what was to be their sort of intercourse, she could not
3790 foresee. It was all quite natural, however. He was devoted to
3791 Henrietta; always turning towards her; and when he spoke at all, always
3792 with the view of supporting her hopes and raising her spirits. In
3793 general, his voice and manner were studiously calm. To spare Henrietta
3794 from agitation seemed the governing principle. Once only, when she had
3795 been grieving over the last ill-judged, ill-fated walk to the Cobb,
3796 bitterly lamenting that it ever had been thought of, he burst forth, as
3797 if wholly overcome--
3798
3799 "Don't talk of it, don't talk of it," he cried. "Oh God! that I had
3800 not given way to her at the fatal moment! Had I done as I ought! But
3801 so eager and so resolute! Dear, sweet Louisa!"
3802
3803 Anne wondered whether it ever occurred to him now, to question the
3804 justness of his own previous opinion as to the universal felicity and
3805 advantage of firmness of character; and whether it might not strike him
3806 that, like all other qualities of the mind, it should have its
3807 proportions and limits. She thought it could scarcely escape him to
3808 feel that a persuadable temper might sometimes be as much in favour of
3809 happiness as a very resolute character.
3810
3811 They got on fast. Anne was astonished to recognise the same hills and
3812 the same objects so soon. Their actual speed, heightened by some dread
3813 of the conclusion, made the road appear but half as long as on the day
3814 before. It was growing quite dusk, however, before they were in the
3815 neighbourhood of Uppercross, and there had been total silence among
3816 them for some time, Henrietta leaning back in the corner, with a shawl
3817 over her face, giving the hope of her having cried herself to sleep;
3818 when, as they were going up their last hill, Anne found herself all at
3819 once addressed by Captain Wentworth. In a low, cautious voice, he
3820 said:--
3821
3822 "I have been considering what we had best do. She must not appear at
3823 first. She could not stand it. I have been thinking whether you had
3824 not better remain in the carriage with her, while I go in and break it
3825 to Mr and Mrs Musgrove. Do you think this is a good plan?"
3826
3827 She did: he was satisfied, and said no more. But the remembrance of
3828 the appeal remained a pleasure to her, as a proof of friendship, and of
3829 deference for her judgement, a great pleasure; and when it became a
3830 sort of parting proof, its value did not lessen.
3831
3832 When the distressing communication at Uppercross was over, and he had
3833 seen the father and mother quite as composed as could be hoped, and the
3834 daughter all the better for being with them, he announced his intention
3835 of returning in the same carriage to Lyme; and when the horses were
3836 baited, he was off.
3837
3838 (End of volume one.)
3839
3840
3841
3842 Chapter 13
3843
3844
3845 The remainder of Anne's time at Uppercross, comprehending only two
3846 days, was spent entirely at the Mansion House; and she had the
3847 satisfaction of knowing herself extremely useful there, both as an
3848 immediate companion, and as assisting in all those arrangements for the
3849 future, which, in Mr and Mrs Musgrove's distressed state of spirits,
3850 would have been difficulties.
3851
3852 They had an early account from Lyme the next morning. Louisa was much
3853 the same. No symptoms worse than before had appeared. Charles came a
3854 few hours afterwards, to bring a later and more particular account. He
3855 was tolerably cheerful. A speedy cure must not be hoped, but
3856 everything was going on as well as the nature of the case admitted. In
3857 speaking of the Harvilles, he seemed unable to satisfy his own sense of
3858 their kindness, especially of Mrs Harville's exertions as a nurse.
3859 "She really left nothing for Mary to do. He and Mary had been
3860 persuaded to go early to their inn last night. Mary had been
3861 hysterical again this morning. When he came away, she was going to
3862 walk out with Captain Benwick, which, he hoped, would do her good. He
3863 almost wished she had been prevailed on to come home the day before;
3864 but the truth was, that Mrs Harville left nothing for anybody to do."
3865
3866 Charles was to return to Lyme the same afternoon, and his father had at
3867 first half a mind to go with him, but the ladies could not consent. It
3868 would be going only to multiply trouble to the others, and increase his
3869 own distress; and a much better scheme followed and was acted upon. A
3870 chaise was sent for from Crewkherne, and Charles conveyed back a far
3871 more useful person in the old nursery-maid of the family, one who
3872 having brought up all the children, and seen the very last, the
3873 lingering and long-petted Master Harry, sent to school after his
3874 brothers, was now living in her deserted nursery to mend stockings and
3875 dress all the blains and bruises she could get near her, and who,
3876 consequently, was only too happy in being allowed to go and help nurse
3877 dear Miss Louisa. Vague wishes of getting Sarah thither, had occurred
3878 before to Mrs Musgrove and Henrietta; but without Anne, it would hardly
3879 have been resolved on, and found practicable so soon.
3880
3881 They were indebted, the next day, to Charles Hayter, for all the minute
3882 knowledge of Louisa, which it was so essential to obtain every
3883 twenty-four hours. He made it his business to go to Lyme, and his
3884 account was still encouraging. The intervals of sense and
3885 consciousness were believed to be stronger. Every report agreed in
3886 Captain Wentworth's appearing fixed in Lyme.
3887
3888 Anne was to leave them on the morrow, an event which they all dreaded.
3889 "What should they do without her? They were wretched comforters for
3890 one another." And so much was said in this way, that Anne thought she
3891 could not do better than impart among them the general inclination to
3892 which she was privy, and persuaded them all to go to Lyme at once. She
3893 had little difficulty; it was soon determined that they would go; go
3894 to-morrow, fix themselves at the inn, or get into lodgings, as it
3895 suited, and there remain till dear Louisa could be moved. They must be
3896 taking off some trouble from the good people she was with; they might
3897 at least relieve Mrs Harville from the care of her own children; and in
3898 short, they were so happy in the decision, that Anne was delighted with
3899 what she had done, and felt that she could not spend her last morning
3900 at Uppercross better than in assisting their preparations, and sending
3901 them off at an early hour, though her being left to the solitary range
3902 of the house was the consequence.
3903
3904 She was the last, excepting the little boys at the cottage, she was the
3905 very last, the only remaining one of all that had filled and animated
3906 both houses, of all that had given Uppercross its cheerful character.
3907 A few days had made a change indeed!
3908
3909 If Louisa recovered, it would all be well again. More than former
3910 happiness would be restored. There could not be a doubt, to her mind
3911 there was none, of what would follow her recovery. A few months hence,
3912 and the room now so deserted, occupied but by her silent, pensive self,
3913 might be filled again with all that was happy and gay, all that was
3914 glowing and bright in prosperous love, all that was most unlike Anne
3915 Elliot!
3916
3917 An hour's complete leisure for such reflections as these, on a dark
3918 November day, a small thick rain almost blotting out the very few
3919 objects ever to be discerned from the windows, was enough to make the
3920 sound of Lady Russell's carriage exceedingly welcome; and yet, though
3921 desirous to be gone, she could not quit the Mansion House, or look an
3922 adieu to the Cottage, with its black, dripping and comfortless veranda,
3923 or even notice through the misty glasses the last humble tenements of
3924 the village, without a saddened heart. Scenes had passed in Uppercross
3925 which made it precious. It stood the record of many sensations of
3926 pain, once severe, but now softened; and of some instances of relenting
3927 feeling, some breathings of friendship and reconciliation, which could
3928 never be looked for again, and which could never cease to be dear. She
3929 left it all behind her, all but the recollection that such things had
3930 been.
3931
3932 Anne had never entered Kellynch since her quitting Lady Russell's house
3933 in September. It had not been necessary, and the few occasions of its
3934 being possible for her to go to the Hall she had contrived to evade and
3935 escape from. Her first return was to resume her place in the modern
3936 and elegant apartments of the Lodge, and to gladden the eyes of its
3937 mistress.
3938
3939 There was some anxiety mixed with Lady Russell's joy in meeting her.
3940 She knew who had been frequenting Uppercross. But happily, either Anne
3941 was improved in plumpness and looks, or Lady Russell fancied her so;
3942 and Anne, in receiving her compliments on the occasion, had the
3943 amusement of connecting them with the silent admiration of her cousin,
3944 and of hoping that she was to be blessed with a second spring of youth
3945 and beauty.
3946
3947 When they came to converse, she was soon sensible of some mental
3948 change. The subjects of which her heart had been full on leaving
3949 Kellynch, and which she had felt slighted, and been compelled to
3950 smother among the Musgroves, were now become but of secondary interest.
3951 She had lately lost sight even of her father and sister and Bath.
3952 Their concerns had been sunk under those of Uppercross; and when Lady
3953 Russell reverted to their former hopes and fears, and spoke her
3954 satisfaction in the house in Camden Place, which had been taken, and
3955 her regret that Mrs Clay should still be with them, Anne would have
3956 been ashamed to have it known how much more she was thinking of Lyme
3957 and Louisa Musgrove, and all her acquaintance there; how much more
3958 interesting to her was the home and the friendship of the Harvilles and
3959 Captain Benwick, than her own father's house in Camden Place, or her
3960 own sister's intimacy with Mrs Clay. She was actually forced to exert
3961 herself to meet Lady Russell with anything like the appearance of equal
3962 solicitude, on topics which had by nature the first claim on her.
3963
3964 There was a little awkwardness at first in their discourse on another
3965 subject. They must speak of the accident at Lyme. Lady Russell had
3966 not been arrived five minutes the day before, when a full account of
3967 the whole had burst on her; but still it must be talked of, she must
3968 make enquiries, she must regret the imprudence, lament the result, and
3969 Captain Wentworth's name must be mentioned by both. Anne was conscious
3970 of not doing it so well as Lady Russell. She could not speak the name,
3971 and look straight forward to Lady Russell's eye, till she had adopted
3972 the expedient of telling her briefly what she thought of the attachment
3973 between him and Louisa. When this was told, his name distressed her no
3974 longer.
3975
3976 Lady Russell had only to listen composedly, and wish them happy, but
3977 internally her heart revelled in angry pleasure, in pleased contempt,
3978 that the man who at twenty-three had seemed to understand somewhat of
3979 the value of an Anne Elliot, should, eight years afterwards, be charmed
3980 by a Louisa Musgrove.
3981
3982 The first three or four days passed most quietly, with no circumstance
3983 to mark them excepting the receipt of a note or two from Lyme, which
3984 found their way to Anne, she could not tell how, and brought a rather
3985 improving account of Louisa. At the end of that period, Lady Russell's
3986 politeness could repose no longer, and the fainter self-threatenings of
3987 the past became in a decided tone, "I must call on Mrs Croft; I really
3988 must call upon her soon. Anne, have you courage to go with me, and pay
3989 a visit in that house? It will be some trial to us both."
3990
3991 Anne did not shrink from it; on the contrary, she truly felt as she
3992 said, in observing--
3993
3994 "I think you are very likely to suffer the most of the two; your
3995 feelings are less reconciled to the change than mine. By remaining in
3996 the neighbourhood, I am become inured to it."
3997
3998 She could have said more on the subject; for she had in fact so high an
3999 opinion of the Crofts, and considered her father so very fortunate in
4000 his tenants, felt the parish to be so sure of a good example, and the
4001 poor of the best attention and relief, that however sorry and ashamed
4002 for the necessity of the removal, she could not but in conscience feel
4003 that they were gone who deserved not to stay, and that Kellynch Hall
4004 had passed into better hands than its owners'. These convictions must
4005 unquestionably have their own pain, and severe was its kind; but they
4006 precluded that pain which Lady Russell would suffer in entering the
4007 house again, and returning through the well-known apartments.
4008
4009 In such moments Anne had no power of saying to herself, "These rooms
4010 ought to belong only to us. Oh, how fallen in their destination! How
4011 unworthily occupied! An ancient family to be so driven away!
4012 Strangers filling their place!" No, except when she thought of her
4013 mother, and remembered where she had been used to sit and preside, she
4014 had no sigh of that description to heave.
4015
4016 Mrs Croft always met her with a kindness which gave her the pleasure of
4017 fancying herself a favourite, and on the present occasion, receiving
4018 her in that house, there was particular attention.
4019
4020 The sad accident at Lyme was soon the prevailing topic, and on
4021 comparing their latest accounts of the invalid, it appeared that each
4022 lady dated her intelligence from the same hour of yestermorn; that
4023 Captain Wentworth had been in Kellynch yesterday (the first time since
4024 the accident), had brought Anne the last note, which she had not been
4025 able to trace the exact steps of; had staid a few hours and then
4026 returned again to Lyme, and without any present intention of quitting
4027 it any more. He had enquired after her, she found, particularly; had
4028 expressed his hope of Miss Elliot's not being the worse for her
4029 exertions, and had spoken of those exertions as great. This was
4030 handsome, and gave her more pleasure than almost anything else could
4031 have done.
4032
4033 As to the sad catastrophe itself, it could be canvassed only in one
4034 style by a couple of steady, sensible women, whose judgements had to
4035 work on ascertained events; and it was perfectly decided that it had
4036 been the consequence of much thoughtlessness and much imprudence; that
4037 its effects were most alarming, and that it was frightful to think, how
4038 long Miss Musgrove's recovery might yet be doubtful, and how liable she
4039 would still remain to suffer from the concussion hereafter! The
4040 Admiral wound it up summarily by exclaiming--
4041
4042 "Ay, a very bad business indeed. A new sort of way this, for a young
4043 fellow to be making love, by breaking his mistress's head, is not it,
4044 Miss Elliot? This is breaking a head and giving a plaster, truly!"
4045
4046 Admiral Croft's manners were not quite of the tone to suit Lady
4047 Russell, but they delighted Anne. His goodness of heart and simplicity
4048 of character were irresistible.
4049
4050 "Now, this must be very bad for you," said he, suddenly rousing from a
4051 little reverie, "to be coming and finding us here. I had not
4052 recollected it before, I declare, but it must be very bad. But now, do
4053 not stand upon ceremony. Get up and go over all the rooms in the house
4054 if you like it."
4055
4056 "Another time, Sir, I thank you, not now."
4057
4058 "Well, whenever it suits you. You can slip in from the shrubbery at
4059 any time; and there you will find we keep our umbrellas hanging up by
4060 that door. A good place is not it? But," (checking himself), "you
4061 will not think it a good place, for yours were always kept in the
4062 butler's room. Ay, so it always is, I believe. One man's ways may be
4063 as good as another's, but we all like our own best. And so you must
4064 judge for yourself, whether it would be better for you to go about the
4065 house or not."
4066
4067 Anne, finding she might decline it, did so, very gratefully.
4068
4069 "We have made very few changes either," continued the Admiral, after
4070 thinking a moment. "Very few. We told you about the laundry-door, at
4071 Uppercross. That has been a very great improvement. The wonder was,
4072 how any family upon earth could bear with the inconvenience of its
4073 opening as it did, so long! You will tell Sir Walter what we have
4074 done, and that Mr Shepherd thinks it the greatest improvement the house
4075 ever had. Indeed, I must do ourselves the justice to say, that the few
4076 alterations we have made have been all very much for the better. My
4077 wife should have the credit of them, however. I have done very little
4078 besides sending away some of the large looking-glasses from my
4079 dressing-room, which was your father's. A very good man, and very much
4080 the gentleman I am sure: but I should think, Miss Elliot," (looking
4081 with serious reflection), "I should think he must be rather a dressy
4082 man for his time of life. Such a number of looking-glasses! oh Lord!
4083 there was no getting away from one's self. So I got Sophy to lend me a
4084 hand, and we soon shifted their quarters; and now I am quite snug, with
4085 my little shaving glass in one corner, and another great thing that I
4086 never go near."
4087
4088 Anne, amused in spite of herself, was rather distressed for an answer,
4089 and the Admiral, fearing he might not have been civil enough, took up
4090 the subject again, to say--
4091
4092 "The next time you write to your good father, Miss Elliot, pray give
4093 him my compliments and Mrs Croft's, and say that we are settled here
4094 quite to our liking, and have no fault at all to find with the place.
4095 The breakfast-room chimney smokes a little, I grant you, but it is only
4096 when the wind is due north and blows hard, which may not happen three
4097 times a winter. And take it altogether, now that we have been into
4098 most of the houses hereabouts and can judge, there is not one that we
4099 like better than this. Pray say so, with my compliments. He will be
4100 glad to hear it."
4101
4102 Lady Russell and Mrs Croft were very well pleased with each other: but
4103 the acquaintance which this visit began was fated not to proceed far at
4104 present; for when it was returned, the Crofts announced themselves to
4105 be going away for a few weeks, to visit their connexions in the north
4106 of the county, and probably might not be at home again before Lady
4107 Russell would be removing to Bath.
4108
4109 So ended all danger to Anne of meeting Captain Wentworth at Kellynch
4110 Hall, or of seeing him in company with her friend. Everything was safe
4111 enough, and she smiled over the many anxious feelings she had wasted on
4112 the subject.
4113
4114
4115
4116 Chapter 14
4117
4118
4119 Though Charles and Mary had remained at Lyme much longer after Mr and
4120 Mrs Musgrove's going than Anne conceived they could have been at all
4121 wanted, they were yet the first of the family to be at home again; and
4122 as soon as possible after their return to Uppercross they drove over to
4123 the Lodge. They had left Louisa beginning to sit up; but her head,
4124 though clear, was exceedingly weak, and her nerves susceptible to the
4125 highest extreme of tenderness; and though she might be pronounced to be
4126 altogether doing very well, it was still impossible to say when she
4127 might be able to bear the removal home; and her father and mother, who
4128 must return in time to receive their younger children for the Christmas
4129 holidays, had hardly a hope of being allowed to bring her with them.
4130
4131 They had been all in lodgings together. Mrs Musgrove had got Mrs
4132 Harville's children away as much as she could, every possible supply
4133 from Uppercross had been furnished, to lighten the inconvenience to the
4134 Harvilles, while the Harvilles had been wanting them to come to dinner
4135 every day; and in short, it seemed to have been only a struggle on each
4136 side as to which should be most disinterested and hospitable.
4137
4138 Mary had had her evils; but upon the whole, as was evident by her
4139 staying so long, she had found more to enjoy than to suffer. Charles
4140 Hayter had been at Lyme oftener than suited her; and when they dined
4141 with the Harvilles there had been only a maid-servant to wait, and at
4142 first Mrs Harville had always given Mrs Musgrove precedence; but then,
4143 she had received so very handsome an apology from her on finding out
4144 whose daughter she was, and there had been so much going on every day,
4145 there had been so many walks between their lodgings and the Harvilles,
4146 and she had got books from the library, and changed them so often, that
4147 the balance had certainly been much in favour of Lyme. She had been
4148 taken to Charmouth too, and she had bathed, and she had gone to church,
4149 and there were a great many more people to look at in the church at
4150 Lyme than at Uppercross; and all this, joined to the sense of being so
4151 very useful, had made really an agreeable fortnight.
4152
4153 Anne enquired after Captain Benwick. Mary's face was clouded directly.
4154 Charles laughed.
4155
4156 "Oh! Captain Benwick is very well, I believe, but he is a very odd
4157 young man. I do not know what he would be at. We asked him to come
4158 home with us for a day or two: Charles undertook to give him some
4159 shooting, and he seemed quite delighted, and, for my part, I thought it
4160 was all settled; when behold! on Tuesday night, he made a very awkward
4161 sort of excuse; 'he never shot' and he had 'been quite misunderstood,'
4162 and he had promised this and he had promised that, and the end of it
4163 was, I found, that he did not mean to come. I suppose he was afraid of
4164 finding it dull; but upon my word I should have thought we were lively
4165 enough at the Cottage for such a heart-broken man as Captain Benwick."
4166
4167 Charles laughed again and said, "Now Mary, you know very well how it
4168 really was. It was all your doing," (turning to Anne.) "He fancied
4169 that if he went with us, he should find you close by: he fancied
4170 everybody to be living in Uppercross; and when he discovered that Lady
4171 Russell lived three miles off, his heart failed him, and he had not
4172 courage to come. That is the fact, upon my honour. Mary knows it is."
4173
4174 But Mary did not give into it very graciously, whether from not
4175 considering Captain Benwick entitled by birth and situation to be in
4176 love with an Elliot, or from not wanting to believe Anne a greater
4177 attraction to Uppercross than herself, must be left to be guessed.
4178 Anne's good-will, however, was not to be lessened by what she heard.
4179 She boldly acknowledged herself flattered, and continued her enquiries.
4180
4181 "Oh! he talks of you," cried Charles, "in such terms--" Mary
4182 interrupted him. "I declare, Charles, I never heard him mention Anne
4183 twice all the time I was there. I declare, Anne, he never talks of you
4184 at all."
4185
4186 "No," admitted Charles, "I do not know that he ever does, in a general
4187 way; but however, it is a very clear thing that he admires you
4188 exceedingly. His head is full of some books that he is reading upon
4189 your recommendation, and he wants to talk to you about them; he has
4190 found out something or other in one of them which he thinks--oh! I
4191 cannot pretend to remember it, but it was something very fine--I
4192 overheard him telling Henrietta all about it; and then 'Miss Elliot'
4193 was spoken of in the highest terms! Now Mary, I declare it was so, I
4194 heard it myself, and you were in the other room. 'Elegance, sweetness,
4195 beauty.' Oh! there was no end of Miss Elliot's charms."
4196
4197 "And I am sure," cried Mary, warmly, "it was a very little to his
4198 credit, if he did. Miss Harville only died last June. Such a heart is
4199 very little worth having; is it, Lady Russell? I am sure you will
4200 agree with me."
4201
4202 "I must see Captain Benwick before I decide," said Lady Russell,
4203 smiling.
4204
4205 "And that you are very likely to do very soon, I can tell you, ma'am,"
4206 said Charles. "Though he had not nerves for coming away with us, and
4207 setting off again afterwards to pay a formal visit here, he will make
4208 his way over to Kellynch one day by himself, you may depend on it. I
4209 told him the distance and the road, and I told him of the church's
4210 being so very well worth seeing; for as he has a taste for those sort
4211 of things, I thought that would be a good excuse, and he listened with
4212 all his understanding and soul; and I am sure from his manner that you
4213 will have him calling here soon. So, I give you notice, Lady Russell."
4214
4215 "Any acquaintance of Anne's will always be welcome to me," was Lady
4216 Russell's kind answer.
4217
4218 "Oh! as to being Anne's acquaintance," said Mary, "I think he is rather
4219 my acquaintance, for I have been seeing him every day this last
4220 fortnight."
4221
4222 "Well, as your joint acquaintance, then, I shall be very happy to see
4223 Captain Benwick."
4224
4225 "You will not find anything very agreeable in him, I assure you, ma'am.
4226 He is one of the dullest young men that ever lived. He has walked with
4227 me, sometimes, from one end of the sands to the other, without saying a
4228 word. He is not at all a well-bred young man. I am sure you will not
4229 like him."
4230
4231 "There we differ, Mary," said Anne. "I think Lady Russell would like
4232 him. I think she would be so much pleased with his mind, that she
4233 would very soon see no deficiency in his manner."
4234
4235 "So do I, Anne," said Charles. "I am sure Lady Russell would like him.
4236 He is just Lady Russell's sort. Give him a book, and he will read all
4237 day long."
4238
4239 "Yes, that he will!" exclaimed Mary, tauntingly. "He will sit poring
4240 over his book, and not know when a person speaks to him, or when one
4241 drops one's scissors, or anything that happens. Do you think Lady
4242 Russell would like that?"
4243
4244 Lady Russell could not help laughing. "Upon my word," said she, "I
4245 should not have supposed that my opinion of any one could have admitted
4246 of such difference of conjecture, steady and matter of fact as I may
4247 call myself. I have really a curiosity to see the person who can give
4248 occasion to such directly opposite notions. I wish he may be induced
4249 to call here. And when he does, Mary, you may depend upon hearing my
4250 opinion; but I am determined not to judge him beforehand."
4251
4252 "You will not like him, I will answer for it."
4253
4254 Lady Russell began talking of something else. Mary spoke with
4255 animation of their meeting with, or rather missing, Mr Elliot so
4256 extraordinarily.
4257
4258 "He is a man," said Lady Russell, "whom I have no wish to see. His
4259 declining to be on cordial terms with the head of his family, has left
4260 a very strong impression in his disfavour with me."
4261
4262 This decision checked Mary's eagerness, and stopped her short in the
4263 midst of the Elliot countenance.
4264
4265 With regard to Captain Wentworth, though Anne hazarded no enquiries,
4266 there was voluntary communication sufficient. His spirits had been
4267 greatly recovering lately as might be expected. As Louisa improved, he
4268 had improved, and he was now quite a different creature from what he
4269 had been the first week. He had not seen Louisa; and was so extremely
4270 fearful of any ill consequence to her from an interview, that he did
4271 not press for it at all; and, on the contrary, seemed to have a plan of
4272 going away for a week or ten days, till her head was stronger. He had
4273 talked of going down to Plymouth for a week, and wanted to persuade
4274 Captain Benwick to go with him; but, as Charles maintained to the last,
4275 Captain Benwick seemed much more disposed to ride over to Kellynch.
4276
4277 There can be no doubt that Lady Russell and Anne were both occasionally
4278 thinking of Captain Benwick, from this time. Lady Russell could not
4279 hear the door-bell without feeling that it might be his herald; nor
4280 could Anne return from any stroll of solitary indulgence in her
4281 father's grounds, or any visit of charity in the village, without
4282 wondering whether she might see him or hear of him. Captain Benwick
4283 came not, however. He was either less disposed for it than Charles had
4284 imagined, or he was too shy; and after giving him a week's indulgence,
4285 Lady Russell determined him to be unworthy of the interest which he had
4286 been beginning to excite.
4287
4288 The Musgroves came back to receive their happy boys and girls from
4289 school, bringing with them Mrs Harville's little children, to improve
4290 the noise of Uppercross, and lessen that of Lyme. Henrietta remained
4291 with Louisa; but all the rest of the family were again in their usual
4292 quarters.
4293
4294 Lady Russell and Anne paid their compliments to them once, when Anne
4295 could not but feel that Uppercross was already quite alive again.
4296 Though neither Henrietta, nor Louisa, nor Charles Hayter, nor Captain
4297 Wentworth were there, the room presented as strong a contrast as could
4298 be wished to the last state she had seen it in.
4299
4300 Immediately surrounding Mrs Musgrove were the little Harvilles, whom
4301 she was sedulously guarding from the tyranny of the two children from
4302 the Cottage, expressly arrived to amuse them. On one side was a table
4303 occupied by some chattering girls, cutting up silk and gold paper; and
4304 on the other were tressels and trays, bending under the weight of brawn
4305 and cold pies, where riotous boys were holding high revel; the whole
4306 completed by a roaring Christmas fire, which seemed determined to be
4307 heard, in spite of all the noise of the others. Charles and Mary also
4308 came in, of course, during their visit, and Mr Musgrove made a point of
4309 paying his respects to Lady Russell, and sat down close to her for ten
4310 minutes, talking with a very raised voice, but from the clamour of the
4311 children on his knees, generally in vain. It was a fine family-piece.
4312
4313 Anne, judging from her own temperament, would have deemed such a
4314 domestic hurricane a bad restorative of the nerves, which Louisa's
4315 illness must have so greatly shaken. But Mrs Musgrove, who got Anne
4316 near her on purpose to thank her most cordially, again and again, for
4317 all her attentions to them, concluded a short recapitulation of what
4318 she had suffered herself by observing, with a happy glance round the
4319 room, that after all she had gone through, nothing was so likely to do
4320 her good as a little quiet cheerfulness at home.
4321
4322 Louisa was now recovering apace. Her mother could even think of her
4323 being able to join their party at home, before her brothers and sisters
4324 went to school again. The Harvilles had promised to come with her and
4325 stay at Uppercross, whenever she returned. Captain Wentworth was gone,
4326 for the present, to see his brother in Shropshire.
4327
4328 "I hope I shall remember, in future," said Lady Russell, as soon as
4329 they were reseated in the carriage, "not to call at Uppercross in the
4330 Christmas holidays."
4331
4332 Everybody has their taste in noises as well as in other matters; and
4333 sounds are quite innoxious, or most distressing, by their sort rather
4334 than their quantity. When Lady Russell not long afterwards, was
4335 entering Bath on a wet afternoon, and driving through the long course
4336 of streets from the Old Bridge to Camden Place, amidst the dash of
4337 other carriages, the heavy rumble of carts and drays, the bawling of
4338 newspapermen, muffin-men and milkmen, and the ceaseless clink of
4339 pattens, she made no complaint. No, these were noises which belonged
4340 to the winter pleasures; her spirits rose under their influence; and
4341 like Mrs Musgrove, she was feeling, though not saying, that after being
4342 long in the country, nothing could be so good for her as a little quiet
4343 cheerfulness.
4344
4345 Anne did not share these feelings. She persisted in a very determined,
4346 though very silent disinclination for Bath; caught the first dim view
4347 of the extensive buildings, smoking in rain, without any wish of seeing
4348 them better; felt their progress through the streets to be, however
4349 disagreeable, yet too rapid; for who would be glad to see her when she
4350 arrived? And looked back, with fond regret, to the bustles of
4351 Uppercross and the seclusion of Kellynch.
4352
4353 Elizabeth's last letter had communicated a piece of news of some
4354 interest. Mr Elliot was in Bath. He had called in Camden Place; had
4355 called a second time, a third; had been pointedly attentive. If
4356 Elizabeth and her father did not deceive themselves, had been taking
4357 much pains to seek the acquaintance, and proclaim the value of the
4358 connection, as he had formerly taken pains to shew neglect. This was
4359 very wonderful if it were true; and Lady Russell was in a state of very
4360 agreeable curiosity and perplexity about Mr Elliot, already recanting
4361 the sentiment she had so lately expressed to Mary, of his being "a man
4362 whom she had no wish to see." She had a great wish to see him. If he
4363 really sought to reconcile himself like a dutiful branch, he must be
4364 forgiven for having dismembered himself from the paternal tree.
4365
4366 Anne was not animated to an equal pitch by the circumstance, but she
4367 felt that she would rather see Mr Elliot again than not, which was more
4368 than she could say for many other persons in Bath.
4369
4370 She was put down in Camden Place; and Lady Russell then drove to her
4371 own lodgings, in Rivers Street.
4372
4373
4374
4375 Chapter 15
4376
4377
4378 Sir Walter had taken a very good house in Camden Place, a lofty
4379 dignified situation, such as becomes a man of consequence; and both he
4380 and Elizabeth were settled there, much to their satisfaction.
4381
4382 Anne entered it with a sinking heart, anticipating an imprisonment of
4383 many months, and anxiously saying to herself, "Oh! when shall I leave
4384 you again?" A degree of unexpected cordiality, however, in the welcome
4385 she received, did her good. Her father and sister were glad to see
4386 her, for the sake of shewing her the house and furniture, and met her
4387 with kindness. Her making a fourth, when they sat down to dinner, was
4388 noticed as an advantage.
4389
4390 Mrs Clay was very pleasant, and very smiling, but her courtesies and
4391 smiles were more a matter of course. Anne had always felt that she
4392 would pretend what was proper on her arrival, but the complaisance of
4393 the others was unlooked for. They were evidently in excellent spirits,
4394 and she was soon to listen to the causes. They had no inclination to
4395 listen to her. After laying out for some compliments of being deeply
4396 regretted in their old neighbourhood, which Anne could not pay, they
4397 had only a few faint enquiries to make, before the talk must be all
4398 their own. Uppercross excited no interest, Kellynch very little: it
4399 was all Bath.
4400
4401 They had the pleasure of assuring her that Bath more than answered
4402 their expectations in every respect. Their house was undoubtedly the
4403 best in Camden Place; their drawing-rooms had many decided advantages
4404 over all the others which they had either seen or heard of, and the
4405 superiority was not less in the style of the fitting-up, or the taste
4406 of the furniture. Their acquaintance was exceedingly sought after.
4407 Everybody was wanting to visit them. They had drawn back from many
4408 introductions, and still were perpetually having cards left by people
4409 of whom they knew nothing.
4410
4411 Here were funds of enjoyment. Could Anne wonder that her father and
4412 sister were happy? She might not wonder, but she must sigh that her
4413 father should feel no degradation in his change, should see nothing to
4414 regret in the duties and dignity of the resident landholder, should
4415 find so much to be vain of in the littlenesses of a town; and she must
4416 sigh, and smile, and wonder too, as Elizabeth threw open the
4417 folding-doors and walked with exultation from one drawing-room to the
4418 other, boasting of their space; at the possibility of that woman, who
4419 had been mistress of Kellynch Hall, finding extent to be proud of
4420 between two walls, perhaps thirty feet asunder.
4421
4422 But this was not all which they had to make them happy. They had Mr
4423 Elliot too. Anne had a great deal to hear of Mr Elliot. He was not
4424 only pardoned, they were delighted with him. He had been in Bath about
4425 a fortnight; (he had passed through Bath in November, in his way to
4426 London, when the intelligence of Sir Walter's being settled there had
4427 of course reached him, though only twenty-four hours in the place, but
4428 he had not been able to avail himself of it;) but he had now been a
4429 fortnight in Bath, and his first object on arriving, had been to leave
4430 his card in Camden Place, following it up by such assiduous endeavours
4431 to meet, and when they did meet, by such great openness of conduct,
4432 such readiness to apologize for the past, such solicitude to be
4433 received as a relation again, that their former good understanding was
4434 completely re-established.
4435
4436 They had not a fault to find in him. He had explained away all the
4437 appearance of neglect on his own side. It had originated in
4438 misapprehension entirely. He had never had an idea of throwing himself
4439 off; he had feared that he was thrown off, but knew not why, and
4440 delicacy had kept him silent. Upon the hint of having spoken
4441 disrespectfully or carelessly of the family and the family honours, he
4442 was quite indignant. He, who had ever boasted of being an Elliot, and
4443 whose feelings, as to connection, were only too strict to suit the
4444 unfeudal tone of the present day. He was astonished, indeed, but his
4445 character and general conduct must refute it. He could refer Sir
4446 Walter to all who knew him; and certainly, the pains he had been taking
4447 on this, the first opportunity of reconciliation, to be restored to the
4448 footing of a relation and heir-presumptive, was a strong proof of his
4449 opinions on the subject.
4450
4451 The circumstances of his marriage, too, were found to admit of much
4452 extenuation. This was an article not to be entered on by himself; but
4453 a very intimate friend of his, a Colonel Wallis, a highly respectable
4454 man, perfectly the gentleman, (and not an ill-looking man, Sir Walter
4455 added), who was living in very good style in Marlborough Buildings, and
4456 had, at his own particular request, been admitted to their acquaintance
4457 through Mr Elliot, had mentioned one or two things relative to the
4458 marriage, which made a material difference in the discredit of it.
4459
4460 Colonel Wallis had known Mr Elliot long, had been well acquainted also
4461 with his wife, had perfectly understood the whole story. She was
4462 certainly not a woman of family, but well educated, accomplished, rich,
4463 and excessively in love with his friend. There had been the charm.
4464 She had sought him. Without that attraction, not all her money would
4465 have tempted Elliot, and Sir Walter was, moreover, assured of her
4466 having been a very fine woman. Here was a great deal to soften the
4467 business. A very fine woman with a large fortune, in love with him!
4468 Sir Walter seemed to admit it as complete apology; and though Elizabeth
4469 could not see the circumstance in quite so favourable a light, she
4470 allowed it be a great extenuation.
4471
4472 Mr Elliot had called repeatedly, had dined with them once, evidently
4473 delighted by the distinction of being asked, for they gave no dinners
4474 in general; delighted, in short, by every proof of cousinly notice, and
4475 placing his whole happiness in being on intimate terms in Camden Place.
4476
4477 Anne listened, but without quite understanding it. Allowances, large
4478 allowances, she knew, must be made for the ideas of those who spoke.
4479 She heard it all under embellishment. All that sounded extravagant or
4480 irrational in the progress of the reconciliation might have no origin
4481 but in the language of the relators. Still, however, she had the
4482 sensation of there being something more than immediately appeared, in
4483 Mr Elliot's wishing, after an interval of so many years, to be well
4484 received by them. In a worldly view, he had nothing to gain by being
4485 on terms with Sir Walter; nothing to risk by a state of variance. In
4486 all probability he was already the richer of the two, and the Kellynch
4487 estate would as surely be his hereafter as the title. A sensible man,
4488 and he had looked like a very sensible man, why should it be an object
4489 to him? She could only offer one solution; it was, perhaps, for
4490 Elizabeth's sake. There might really have been a liking formerly,
4491 though convenience and accident had drawn him a different way; and now
4492 that he could afford to please himself, he might mean to pay his
4493 addresses to her. Elizabeth was certainly very handsome, with
4494 well-bred, elegant manners, and her character might never have been
4495 penetrated by Mr Elliot, knowing her but in public, and when very young
4496 himself. How her temper and understanding might bear the investigation
4497 of his present keener time of life was another concern and rather a
4498 fearful one. Most earnestly did she wish that he might not be too
4499 nice, or too observant if Elizabeth were his object; and that Elizabeth
4500 was disposed to believe herself so, and that her friend Mrs Clay was
4501 encouraging the idea, seemed apparent by a glance or two between them,
4502 while Mr Elliot's frequent visits were talked of.
4503
4504 Anne mentioned the glimpses she had had of him at Lyme, but without
4505 being much attended to. "Oh! yes, perhaps, it had been Mr Elliot.
4506 They did not know. It might be him, perhaps." They could not listen
4507 to her description of him. They were describing him themselves; Sir
4508 Walter especially. He did justice to his very gentlemanlike
4509 appearance, his air of elegance and fashion, his good shaped face, his
4510 sensible eye; but, at the same time, "must lament his being very much
4511 under-hung, a defect which time seemed to have increased; nor could he
4512 pretend to say that ten years had not altered almost every feature for
4513 the worse. Mr Elliot appeared to think that he (Sir Walter) was
4514 looking exactly as he had done when they last parted;" but Sir Walter
4515 had "not been able to return the compliment entirely, which had
4516 embarrassed him. He did not mean to complain, however. Mr Elliot was
4517 better to look at than most men, and he had no objection to being seen
4518 with him anywhere."
4519
4520 Mr Elliot, and his friends in Marlborough Buildings, were talked of the
4521 whole evening. "Colonel Wallis had been so impatient to be introduced
4522 to them! and Mr Elliot so anxious that he should!" and there was a Mrs
4523 Wallis, at present known only to them by description, as she was in
4524 daily expectation of her confinement; but Mr Elliot spoke of her as "a
4525 most charming woman, quite worthy of being known in Camden Place," and
4526 as soon as she recovered they were to be acquainted. Sir Walter
4527 thought much of Mrs Wallis; she was said to be an excessively pretty
4528 woman, beautiful. "He longed to see her. He hoped she might make some
4529 amends for the many very plain faces he was continually passing in the
4530 streets. The worst of Bath was the number of its plain women. He did
4531 not mean to say that there were no pretty women, but the number of the
4532 plain was out of all proportion. He had frequently observed, as he
4533 walked, that one handsome face would be followed by thirty, or
4534 five-and-thirty frights; and once, as he had stood in a shop on Bond
4535 Street, he had counted eighty-seven women go by, one after another,
4536 without there being a tolerable face among them. It had been a frosty
4537 morning, to be sure, a sharp frost, which hardly one woman in a
4538 thousand could stand the test of. But still, there certainly were a
4539 dreadful multitude of ugly women in Bath; and as for the men! they
4540 were infinitely worse. Such scarecrows as the streets were full of!
4541 It was evident how little the women were used to the sight of anything
4542 tolerable, by the effect which a man of decent appearance produced. He
4543 had never walked anywhere arm-in-arm with Colonel Wallis (who was a
4544 fine military figure, though sandy-haired) without observing that every
4545 woman's eye was upon him; every woman's eye was sure to be upon Colonel
4546 Wallis." Modest Sir Walter! He was not allowed to escape, however.
4547 His daughter and Mrs Clay united in hinting that Colonel Wallis's
4548 companion might have as good a figure as Colonel Wallis, and certainly
4549 was not sandy-haired.
4550
4551 "How is Mary looking?" said Sir Walter, in the height of his good
4552 humour. "The last time I saw her she had a red nose, but I hope that
4553 may not happen every day."
4554
4555 "Oh! no, that must have been quite accidental. In general she has been
4556 in very good health and very good looks since Michaelmas."
4557
4558 "If I thought it would not tempt her to go out in sharp winds, and grow
4559 coarse, I would send her a new hat and pelisse."
4560
4561 Anne was considering whether she should venture to suggest that a gown,
4562 or a cap, would not be liable to any such misuse, when a knock at the
4563 door suspended everything. "A knock at the door! and so late! It was
4564 ten o'clock. Could it be Mr Elliot? They knew he was to dine in
4565 Lansdown Crescent. It was possible that he might stop in his way home
4566 to ask them how they did. They could think of no one else. Mrs Clay
4567 decidedly thought it Mr Elliot's knock." Mrs Clay was right. With all
4568 the state which a butler and foot-boy could give, Mr Elliot was ushered
4569 into the room.
4570
4571 It was the same, the very same man, with no difference but of dress.
4572 Anne drew a little back, while the others received his compliments, and
4573 her sister his apologies for calling at so unusual an hour, but "he
4574 could not be so near without wishing to know that neither she nor her
4575 friend had taken cold the day before," &c. &c; which was all as
4576 politely done, and as politely taken, as possible, but her part must
4577 follow then. Sir Walter talked of his youngest daughter; "Mr Elliot
4578 must give him leave to present him to his youngest daughter" (there was
4579 no occasion for remembering Mary); and Anne, smiling and blushing, very
4580 becomingly shewed to Mr Elliot the pretty features which he had by no
4581 means forgotten, and instantly saw, with amusement at his little start
4582 of surprise, that he had not been at all aware of who she was. He
4583 looked completely astonished, but not more astonished than pleased; his
4584 eyes brightened! and with the most perfect alacrity he welcomed the
4585 relationship, alluded to the past, and entreated to be received as an
4586 acquaintance already. He was quite as good-looking as he had appeared
4587 at Lyme, his countenance improved by speaking, and his manners were so
4588 exactly what they ought to be, so polished, so easy, so particularly
4589 agreeable, that she could compare them in excellence to only one
4590 person's manners. They were not the same, but they were, perhaps,
4591 equally good.
4592
4593 He sat down with them, and improved their conversation very much.
4594 There could be no doubt of his being a sensible man. Ten minutes were
4595 enough to certify that. His tone, his expressions, his choice of
4596 subject, his knowing where to stop; it was all the operation of a
4597 sensible, discerning mind. As soon as he could, he began to talk to
4598 her of Lyme, wanting to compare opinions respecting the place, but
4599 especially wanting to speak of the circumstance of their happening to
4600 be guests in the same inn at the same time; to give his own route,
4601 understand something of hers, and regret that he should have lost such
4602 an opportunity of paying his respects to her. She gave him a short
4603 account of her party and business at Lyme. His regret increased as he
4604 listened. He had spent his whole solitary evening in the room
4605 adjoining theirs; had heard voices, mirth continually; thought they
4606 must be a most delightful set of people, longed to be with them, but
4607 certainly without the smallest suspicion of his possessing the shadow
4608 of a right to introduce himself. If he had but asked who the party
4609 were! The name of Musgrove would have told him enough. "Well, it
4610 would serve to cure him of an absurd practice of never asking a
4611 question at an inn, which he had adopted, when quite a young man, on
4612 the principal of its being very ungenteel to be curious.
4613
4614 "The notions of a young man of one or two and twenty," said he, "as to
4615 what is necessary in manners to make him quite the thing, are more
4616 absurd, I believe, than those of any other set of beings in the world.
4617 The folly of the means they often employ is only to be equalled by the
4618 folly of what they have in view."
4619
4620 But he must not be addressing his reflections to Anne alone: he knew
4621 it; he was soon diffused again among the others, and it was only at
4622 intervals that he could return to Lyme.
4623
4624 His enquiries, however, produced at length an account of the scene she
4625 had been engaged in there, soon after his leaving the place. Having
4626 alluded to "an accident," he must hear the whole. When he questioned,
4627 Sir Walter and Elizabeth began to question also, but the difference in
4628 their manner of doing it could not be unfelt. She could only compare
4629 Mr Elliot to Lady Russell, in the wish of really comprehending what had
4630 passed, and in the degree of concern for what she must have suffered in
4631 witnessing it.
4632
4633 He staid an hour with them. The elegant little clock on the mantel-piece
4634 had struck "eleven with its silver sounds," and the watchman was
4635 beginning to be heard at a distance telling the same tale, before Mr
4636 Elliot or any of them seemed to feel that he had been there long.
4637
4638 Anne could not have supposed it possible that her first evening in
4639 Camden Place could have passed so well!
4640
4641
4642
4643 Chapter 16
4644
4645
4646 There was one point which Anne, on returning to her family, would have
4647 been more thankful to ascertain even than Mr Elliot's being in love
4648 with Elizabeth, which was, her father's not being in love with Mrs
4649 Clay; and she was very far from easy about it, when she had been at
4650 home a few hours. On going down to breakfast the next morning, she
4651 found there had just been a decent pretence on the lady's side of
4652 meaning to leave them. She could imagine Mrs Clay to have said, that
4653 "now Miss Anne was come, she could not suppose herself at all wanted;"
4654 for Elizabeth was replying in a sort of whisper, "That must not be any
4655 reason, indeed. I assure you I feel it none. She is nothing to me,
4656 compared with you;" and she was in full time to hear her father say,
4657 "My dear madam, this must not be. As yet, you have seen nothing of
4658 Bath. You have been here only to be useful. You must not run away
4659 from us now. You must stay to be acquainted with Mrs Wallis, the
4660 beautiful Mrs Wallis. To your fine mind, I well know the sight of
4661 beauty is a real gratification."
4662
4663 He spoke and looked so much in earnest, that Anne was not surprised to
4664 see Mrs Clay stealing a glance at Elizabeth and herself. Her
4665 countenance, perhaps, might express some watchfulness; but the praise
4666 of the fine mind did not appear to excite a thought in her sister. The
4667 lady could not but yield to such joint entreaties, and promise to stay.
4668
4669 In the course of the same morning, Anne and her father chancing to be
4670 alone together, he began to compliment her on her improved looks; he
4671 thought her "less thin in her person, in her cheeks; her skin, her
4672 complexion, greatly improved; clearer, fresher. Had she been using any
4673 thing in particular?" "No, nothing." "Merely Gowland," he supposed.
4674 "No, nothing at all." "Ha! he was surprised at that;" and added,
4675 "certainly you cannot do better than to continue as you are; you cannot
4676 be better than well; or I should recommend Gowland, the constant use of
4677 Gowland, during the spring months. Mrs Clay has been using it at my
4678 recommendation, and you see what it has done for her. You see how it
4679 has carried away her freckles."
4680
4681 If Elizabeth could but have heard this! Such personal praise might
4682 have struck her, especially as it did not appear to Anne that the
4683 freckles were at all lessened. But everything must take its chance.
4684 The evil of a marriage would be much diminished, if Elizabeth were also
4685 to marry. As for herself, she might always command a home with Lady
4686 Russell.
4687
4688 Lady Russell's composed mind and polite manners were put to some trial
4689 on this point, in her intercourse in Camden Place. The sight of Mrs
4690 Clay in such favour, and of Anne so overlooked, was a perpetual
4691 provocation to her there; and vexed her as much when she was away, as a
4692 person in Bath who drinks the water, gets all the new publications, and
4693 has a very large acquaintance, has time to be vexed.
4694
4695 As Mr Elliot became known to her, she grew more charitable, or more
4696 indifferent, towards the others. His manners were an immediate
4697 recommendation; and on conversing with him she found the solid so fully
4698 supporting the superficial, that she was at first, as she told Anne,
4699 almost ready to exclaim, "Can this be Mr Elliot?" and could not
4700 seriously picture to herself a more agreeable or estimable man.
4701 Everything united in him; good understanding, correct opinions,
4702 knowledge of the world, and a warm heart. He had strong feelings of
4703 family attachment and family honour, without pride or weakness; he
4704 lived with the liberality of a man of fortune, without display; he
4705 judged for himself in everything essential, without defying public
4706 opinion in any point of worldly decorum. He was steady, observant,
4707 moderate, candid; never run away with by spirits or by selfishness,
4708 which fancied itself strong feeling; and yet, with a sensibility to
4709 what was amiable and lovely, and a value for all the felicities of
4710 domestic life, which characters of fancied enthusiasm and violent
4711 agitation seldom really possess. She was sure that he had not been
4712 happy in marriage. Colonel Wallis said it, and Lady Russell saw it;
4713 but it had been no unhappiness to sour his mind, nor (she began pretty
4714 soon to suspect) to prevent his thinking of a second choice. Her
4715 satisfaction in Mr Elliot outweighed all the plague of Mrs Clay.
4716
4717 It was now some years since Anne had begun to learn that she and her
4718 excellent friend could sometimes think differently; and it did not
4719 surprise her, therefore, that Lady Russell should see nothing
4720 suspicious or inconsistent, nothing to require more motives than
4721 appeared, in Mr Elliot's great desire of a reconciliation. In Lady
4722 Russell's view, it was perfectly natural that Mr Elliot, at a mature
4723 time of life, should feel it a most desirable object, and what would
4724 very generally recommend him among all sensible people, to be on good
4725 terms with the head of his family; the simplest process in the world of
4726 time upon a head naturally clear, and only erring in the heyday of
4727 youth. Anne presumed, however, still to smile about it, and at last to
4728 mention "Elizabeth." Lady Russell listened, and looked, and made only
4729 this cautious reply:--"Elizabeth! very well; time will explain."
4730
4731 It was a reference to the future, which Anne, after a little
4732 observation, felt she must submit to. She could determine nothing at
4733 present. In that house Elizabeth must be first; and she was in the
4734 habit of such general observance as "Miss Elliot," that any
4735 particularity of attention seemed almost impossible. Mr Elliot, too,
4736 it must be remembered, had not been a widower seven months. A little
4737 delay on his side might be very excusable. In fact, Anne could never
4738 see the crape round his hat, without fearing that she was the
4739 inexcusable one, in attributing to him such imaginations; for though
4740 his marriage had not been very happy, still it had existed so many
4741 years that she could not comprehend a very rapid recovery from the
4742 awful impression of its being dissolved.
4743
4744 However it might end, he was without any question their pleasantest
4745 acquaintance in Bath: she saw nobody equal to him; and it was a great
4746 indulgence now and then to talk to him about Lyme, which he seemed to
4747 have as lively a wish to see again, and to see more of, as herself.
4748 They went through the particulars of their first meeting a great many
4749 times. He gave her to understand that he had looked at her with some
4750 earnestness. She knew it well; and she remembered another person's
4751 look also.
4752
4753 They did not always think alike. His value for rank and connexion she
4754 perceived was greater than hers. It was not merely complaisance, it
4755 must be a liking to the cause, which made him enter warmly into her
4756 father and sister's solicitudes on a subject which she thought unworthy
4757 to excite them. The Bath paper one morning announced the arrival of
4758 the Dowager Viscountess Dalrymple, and her daughter, the Honourable
4759 Miss Carteret; and all the comfort of No. --, Camden Place, was swept
4760 away for many days; for the Dalrymples (in Anne's opinion, most
4761 unfortunately) were cousins of the Elliots; and the agony was how to
4762 introduce themselves properly.
4763
4764 Anne had never seen her father and sister before in contact with
4765 nobility, and she must acknowledge herself disappointed. She had hoped
4766 better things from their high ideas of their own situation in life, and
4767 was reduced to form a wish which she had never foreseen; a wish that
4768 they had more pride; for "our cousins Lady Dalrymple and Miss
4769 Carteret;" "our cousins, the Dalrymples," sounded in her ears all day
4770 long.
4771
4772 Sir Walter had once been in company with the late viscount, but had
4773 never seen any of the rest of the family; and the difficulties of the
4774 case arose from there having been a suspension of all intercourse by
4775 letters of ceremony, ever since the death of that said late viscount,
4776 when, in consequence of a dangerous illness of Sir Walter's at the same
4777 time, there had been an unlucky omission at Kellynch. No letter of
4778 condolence had been sent to Ireland. The neglect had been visited on
4779 the head of the sinner; for when poor Lady Elliot died herself, no
4780 letter of condolence was received at Kellynch, and, consequently, there
4781 was but too much reason to apprehend that the Dalrymples considered the
4782 relationship as closed. How to have this anxious business set to
4783 rights, and be admitted as cousins again, was the question: and it was
4784 a question which, in a more rational manner, neither Lady Russell nor
4785 Mr Elliot thought unimportant. "Family connexions were always worth
4786 preserving, good company always worth seeking; Lady Dalrymple had taken
4787 a house, for three months, in Laura Place, and would be living in
4788 style. She had been at Bath the year before, and Lady Russell had
4789 heard her spoken of as a charming woman. It was very desirable that
4790 the connexion should be renewed, if it could be done, without any
4791 compromise of propriety on the side of the Elliots."
4792
4793 Sir Walter, however, would choose his own means, and at last wrote a
4794 very fine letter of ample explanation, regret, and entreaty, to his
4795 right honourable cousin. Neither Lady Russell nor Mr Elliot could
4796 admire the letter; but it did all that was wanted, in bringing three
4797 lines of scrawl from the Dowager Viscountess. "She was very much
4798 honoured, and should be happy in their acquaintance." The toils of the
4799 business were over, the sweets began. They visited in Laura Place,
4800 they had the cards of Dowager Viscountess Dalrymple, and the Honourable
4801 Miss Carteret, to be arranged wherever they might be most visible: and
4802 "Our cousins in Laura Place,"--"Our cousin, Lady Dalrymple and Miss
4803 Carteret," were talked of to everybody.
4804
4805 Anne was ashamed. Had Lady Dalrymple and her daughter even been very
4806 agreeable, she would still have been ashamed of the agitation they
4807 created, but they were nothing. There was no superiority of manner,
4808 accomplishment, or understanding. Lady Dalrymple had acquired the name
4809 of "a charming woman," because she had a smile and a civil answer for
4810 everybody. Miss Carteret, with still less to say, was so plain and so
4811 awkward, that she would never have been tolerated in Camden Place but
4812 for her birth.
4813
4814 Lady Russell confessed she had expected something better; but yet "it
4815 was an acquaintance worth having;" and when Anne ventured to speak her
4816 opinion of them to Mr Elliot, he agreed to their being nothing in
4817 themselves, but still maintained that, as a family connexion, as good
4818 company, as those who would collect good company around them, they had
4819 their value. Anne smiled and said,
4820
4821 "My idea of good company, Mr Elliot, is the company of clever,
4822 well-informed people, who have a great deal of conversation; that is
4823 what I call good company."
4824
4825 "You are mistaken," said he gently, "that is not good company; that is
4826 the best. Good company requires only birth, education, and manners,
4827 and with regard to education is not very nice. Birth and good manners
4828 are essential; but a little learning is by no means a dangerous thing
4829 in good company; on the contrary, it will do very well. My cousin Anne
4830 shakes her head. She is not satisfied. She is fastidious. My dear
4831 cousin" (sitting down by her), "you have a better right to be
4832 fastidious than almost any other woman I know; but will it answer?
4833 Will it make you happy? Will it not be wiser to accept the society of
4834 those good ladies in Laura Place, and enjoy all the advantages of the
4835 connexion as far as possible? You may depend upon it, that they will
4836 move in the first set in Bath this winter, and as rank is rank, your
4837 being known to be related to them will have its use in fixing your
4838 family (our family let me say) in that degree of consideration which we
4839 must all wish for."
4840
4841 "Yes," sighed Anne, "we shall, indeed, be known to be related to them!"
4842 then recollecting herself, and not wishing to be answered, she added,
4843 "I certainly do think there has been by far too much trouble taken to
4844 procure the acquaintance. I suppose" (smiling) "I have more pride than
4845 any of you; but I confess it does vex me, that we should be so
4846 solicitous to have the relationship acknowledged, which we may be very
4847 sure is a matter of perfect indifference to them."
4848
4849 "Pardon me, dear cousin, you are unjust in your own claims. In London,
4850 perhaps, in your present quiet style of living, it might be as you say:
4851 but in Bath; Sir Walter Elliot and his family will always be worth
4852 knowing: always acceptable as acquaintance."
4853
4854 "Well," said Anne, "I certainly am proud, too proud to enjoy a welcome
4855 which depends so entirely upon place."
4856
4857 "I love your indignation," said he; "it is very natural. But here you
4858 are in Bath, and the object is to be established here with all the
4859 credit and dignity which ought to belong to Sir Walter Elliot. You
4860 talk of being proud; I am called proud, I know, and I shall not wish to
4861 believe myself otherwise; for our pride, if investigated, would have
4862 the same object, I have no doubt, though the kind may seem a little
4863 different. In one point, I am sure, my dear cousin," (he continued,
4864 speaking lower, though there was no one else in the room) "in one
4865 point, I am sure, we must feel alike. We must feel that every addition
4866 to your father's society, among his equals or superiors, may be of use
4867 in diverting his thoughts from those who are beneath him."
4868
4869 He looked, as he spoke, to the seat which Mrs Clay had been lately
4870 occupying: a sufficient explanation of what he particularly meant; and
4871 though Anne could not believe in their having the same sort of pride,
4872 she was pleased with him for not liking Mrs Clay; and her conscience
4873 admitted that his wishing to promote her father's getting great
4874 acquaintance was more than excusable in the view of defeating her.
4875
4876
4877
4878 Chapter 17
4879
4880
4881 While Sir Walter and Elizabeth were assiduously pushing their good
4882 fortune in Laura Place, Anne was renewing an acquaintance of a very
4883 different description.
4884
4885 She had called on her former governess, and had heard from her of there
4886 being an old school-fellow in Bath, who had the two strong claims on
4887 her attention of past kindness and present suffering. Miss Hamilton,
4888 now Mrs Smith, had shewn her kindness in one of those periods of her
4889 life when it had been most valuable. Anne had gone unhappy to school,
4890 grieving for the loss of a mother whom she had dearly loved, feeling
4891 her separation from home, and suffering as a girl of fourteen, of
4892 strong sensibility and not high spirits, must suffer at such a time;
4893 and Miss Hamilton, three years older than herself, but still from the
4894 want of near relations and a settled home, remaining another year at
4895 school, had been useful and good to her in a way which had considerably
4896 lessened her misery, and could never be remembered with indifference.
4897
4898 Miss Hamilton had left school, had married not long afterwards, was
4899 said to have married a man of fortune, and this was all that Anne had
4900 known of her, till now that their governess's account brought her
4901 situation forward in a more decided but very different form.
4902
4903 She was a widow and poor. Her husband had been extravagant; and at his
4904 death, about two years before, had left his affairs dreadfully
4905 involved. She had had difficulties of every sort to contend with, and
4906 in addition to these distresses had been afflicted with a severe
4907 rheumatic fever, which, finally settling in her legs, had made her for
4908 the present a cripple. She had come to Bath on that account, and was
4909 now in lodgings near the hot baths, living in a very humble way, unable
4910 even to afford herself the comfort of a servant, and of course almost
4911 excluded from society.
4912
4913 Their mutual friend answered for the satisfaction which a visit from
4914 Miss Elliot would give Mrs Smith, and Anne therefore lost no time in
4915 going. She mentioned nothing of what she had heard, or what she
4916 intended, at home. It would excite no proper interest there. She only
4917 consulted Lady Russell, who entered thoroughly into her sentiments, and
4918 was most happy to convey her as near to Mrs Smith's lodgings in
4919 Westgate Buildings, as Anne chose to be taken.
4920
4921 The visit was paid, their acquaintance re-established, their interest
4922 in each other more than re-kindled. The first ten minutes had its
4923 awkwardness and its emotion. Twelve years were gone since they had
4924 parted, and each presented a somewhat different person from what the
4925 other had imagined. Twelve years had changed Anne from the blooming,
4926 silent, unformed girl of fifteen, to the elegant little woman of
4927 seven-and-twenty, with every beauty except bloom, and with manners as
4928 consciously right as they were invariably gentle; and twelve years had
4929 transformed the fine-looking, well-grown Miss Hamilton, in all the glow
4930 of health and confidence of superiority, into a poor, infirm, helpless
4931 widow, receiving the visit of her former protegee as a favour; but all
4932 that was uncomfortable in the meeting had soon passed away, and left
4933 only the interesting charm of remembering former partialities and
4934 talking over old times.
4935
4936 Anne found in Mrs Smith the good sense and agreeable manners which she
4937 had almost ventured to depend on, and a disposition to converse and be
4938 cheerful beyond her expectation. Neither the dissipations of the
4939 past--and she had lived very much in the world--nor the restrictions of
4940 the present, neither sickness nor sorrow seemed to have closed her
4941 heart or ruined her spirits.
4942
4943 In the course of a second visit she talked with great openness, and
4944 Anne's astonishment increased. She could scarcely imagine a more
4945 cheerless situation in itself than Mrs Smith's. She had been very fond
4946 of her husband: she had buried him. She had been used to affluence:
4947 it was gone. She had no child to connect her with life and happiness
4948 again, no relations to assist in the arrangement of perplexed affairs,
4949 no health to make all the rest supportable. Her accommodations were
4950 limited to a noisy parlour, and a dark bedroom behind, with no
4951 possibility of moving from one to the other without assistance, which
4952 there was only one servant in the house to afford, and she never
4953 quitted the house but to be conveyed into the warm bath. Yet, in spite
4954 of all this, Anne had reason to believe that she had moments only of
4955 languor and depression, to hours of occupation and enjoyment. How
4956 could it be? She watched, observed, reflected, and finally determined
4957 that this was not a case of fortitude or of resignation only. A
4958 submissive spirit might be patient, a strong understanding would supply
4959 resolution, but here was something more; here was that elasticity of
4960 mind, that disposition to be comforted, that power of turning readily
4961 from evil to good, and of finding employment which carried her out of
4962 herself, which was from nature alone. It was the choicest gift of
4963 Heaven; and Anne viewed her friend as one of those instances in which,
4964 by a merciful appointment, it seems designed to counterbalance almost
4965 every other want.
4966
4967 There had been a time, Mrs Smith told her, when her spirits had nearly
4968 failed. She could not call herself an invalid now, compared with her
4969 state on first reaching Bath. Then she had, indeed, been a pitiable
4970 object; for she had caught cold on the journey, and had hardly taken
4971 possession of her lodgings before she was again confined to her bed and
4972 suffering under severe and constant pain; and all this among strangers,
4973 with the absolute necessity of having a regular nurse, and finances at
4974 that moment particularly unfit to meet any extraordinary expense. She
4975 had weathered it, however, and could truly say that it had done her
4976 good. It had increased her comforts by making her feel herself to be
4977 in good hands. She had seen too much of the world, to expect sudden or
4978 disinterested attachment anywhere, but her illness had proved to her
4979 that her landlady had a character to preserve, and would not use her
4980 ill; and she had been particularly fortunate in her nurse, as a sister
4981 of her landlady, a nurse by profession, and who had always a home in
4982 that house when unemployed, chanced to be at liberty just in time to
4983 attend her. "And she," said Mrs Smith, "besides nursing me most
4984 admirably, has really proved an invaluable acquaintance. As soon as I
4985 could use my hands she taught me to knit, which has been a great
4986 amusement; and she put me in the way of making these little
4987 thread-cases, pin-cushions and card-racks, which you always find me so
4988 busy about, and which supply me with the means of doing a little good
4989 to one or two very poor families in this neighbourhood. She had a
4990 large acquaintance, of course professionally, among those who can
4991 afford to buy, and she disposes of my merchandise. She always takes
4992 the right time for applying. Everybody's heart is open, you know, when
4993 they have recently escaped from severe pain, or are recovering the
4994 blessing of health, and Nurse Rooke thoroughly understands when to
4995 speak. She is a shrewd, intelligent, sensible woman. Hers is a line
4996 for seeing human nature; and she has a fund of good sense and
4997 observation, which, as a companion, make her infinitely superior to
4998 thousands of those who having only received 'the best education in the
4999 world,' know nothing worth attending to. Call it gossip, if you will,
5000 but when Nurse Rooke has half an hour's leisure to bestow on me, she is
5001 sure to have something to relate that is entertaining and profitable:
5002 something that makes one know one's species better. One likes to hear
5003 what is going on, to be au fait as to the newest modes of being
5004 trifling and silly. To me, who live so much alone, her conversation, I
5005 assure you, is a treat."
5006
5007 Anne, far from wishing to cavil at the pleasure, replied, "I can easily
5008 believe it. Women of that class have great opportunities, and if they
5009 are intelligent may be well worth listening to. Such varieties of
5010 human nature as they are in the habit of witnessing! And it is not
5011 merely in its follies, that they are well read; for they see it
5012 occasionally under every circumstance that can be most interesting or
5013 affecting. What instances must pass before them of ardent,
5014 disinterested, self-denying attachment, of heroism, fortitude,
5015 patience, resignation: of all the conflicts and all the sacrifices
5016 that ennoble us most. A sick chamber may often furnish the worth of
5017 volumes."
5018
5019 "Yes," said Mrs Smith more doubtingly, "sometimes it may, though I fear
5020 its lessons are not often in the elevated style you describe. Here and
5021 there, human nature may be great in times of trial; but generally
5022 speaking, it is its weakness and not its strength that appears in a
5023 sick chamber: it is selfishness and impatience rather than generosity
5024 and fortitude, that one hears of. There is so little real friendship
5025 in the world! and unfortunately" (speaking low and tremulously) "there
5026 are so many who forget to think seriously till it is almost too late."
5027
5028 Anne saw the misery of such feelings. The husband had not been what he
5029 ought, and the wife had been led among that part of mankind which made
5030 her think worse of the world than she hoped it deserved. It was but a
5031 passing emotion however with Mrs Smith; she shook it off, and soon
5032 added in a different tone--
5033
5034 "I do not suppose the situation my friend Mrs Rooke is in at present,
5035 will furnish much either to interest or edify me. She is only nursing
5036 Mrs Wallis of Marlborough Buildings; a mere pretty, silly, expensive,
5037 fashionable woman, I believe; and of course will have nothing to report
5038 but of lace and finery. I mean to make my profit of Mrs Wallis,
5039 however. She has plenty of money, and I intend she shall buy all the
5040 high-priced things I have in hand now."
5041
5042 Anne had called several times on her friend, before the existence of
5043 such a person was known in Camden Place. At last, it became necessary
5044 to speak of her. Sir Walter, Elizabeth and Mrs Clay, returned one
5045 morning from Laura Place, with a sudden invitation from Lady Dalrymple
5046 for the same evening, and Anne was already engaged, to spend that
5047 evening in Westgate Buildings. She was not sorry for the excuse. They
5048 were only asked, she was sure, because Lady Dalrymple being kept at
5049 home by a bad cold, was glad to make use of the relationship which had
5050 been so pressed on her; and she declined on her own account with great
5051 alacrity--"She was engaged to spend the evening with an old
5052 schoolfellow." They were not much interested in anything relative to
5053 Anne; but still there were questions enough asked, to make it
5054 understood what this old schoolfellow was; and Elizabeth was
5055 disdainful, and Sir Walter severe.
5056
5057 "Westgate Buildings!" said he, "and who is Miss Anne Elliot to be
5058 visiting in Westgate Buildings? A Mrs Smith. A widow Mrs Smith; and
5059 who was her husband? One of five thousand Mr Smiths whose names are to
5060 be met with everywhere. And what is her attraction? That she is old
5061 and sickly. Upon my word, Miss Anne Elliot, you have the most
5062 extraordinary taste! Everything that revolts other people, low
5063 company, paltry rooms, foul air, disgusting associations are inviting
5064 to you. But surely you may put off this old lady till to-morrow: she
5065 is not so near her end, I presume, but that she may hope to see another
5066 day. What is her age? Forty?"
5067
5068 "No, sir, she is not one-and-thirty; but I do not think I can put off
5069 my engagement, because it is the only evening for some time which will
5070 at once suit her and myself. She goes into the warm bath to-morrow,
5071 and for the rest of the week, you know, we are engaged."
5072
5073 "But what does Lady Russell think of this acquaintance?" asked
5074 Elizabeth.
5075
5076 "She sees nothing to blame in it," replied Anne; "on the contrary, she
5077 approves it, and has generally taken me when I have called on Mrs
5078 Smith."
5079
5080 "Westgate Buildings must have been rather surprised by the appearance
5081 of a carriage drawn up near its pavement," observed Sir Walter. "Sir
5082 Henry Russell's widow, indeed, has no honours to distinguish her arms,
5083 but still it is a handsome equipage, and no doubt is well known to
5084 convey a Miss Elliot. A widow Mrs Smith lodging in Westgate Buildings!
5085 A poor widow barely able to live, between thirty and forty; a mere Mrs
5086 Smith, an every-day Mrs Smith, of all people and all names in the
5087 world, to be the chosen friend of Miss Anne Elliot, and to be preferred
5088 by her to her own family connections among the nobility of England and
5089 Ireland! Mrs Smith! Such a name!"
5090
5091 Mrs Clay, who had been present while all this passed, now thought it
5092 advisable to leave the room, and Anne could have said much, and did
5093 long to say a little in defence of her friend's not very dissimilar
5094 claims to theirs, but her sense of personal respect to her father
5095 prevented her. She made no reply. She left it to himself to
5096 recollect, that Mrs Smith was not the only widow in Bath between thirty
5097 and forty, with little to live on, and no surname of dignity.
5098
5099 Anne kept her appointment; the others kept theirs, and of course she
5100 heard the next morning that they had had a delightful evening. She had
5101 been the only one of the set absent, for Sir Walter and Elizabeth had
5102 not only been quite at her ladyship's service themselves, but had
5103 actually been happy to be employed by her in collecting others, and had
5104 been at the trouble of inviting both Lady Russell and Mr Elliot; and Mr
5105 Elliot had made a point of leaving Colonel Wallis early, and Lady
5106 Russell had fresh arranged all her evening engagements in order to wait
5107 on her. Anne had the whole history of all that such an evening could
5108 supply from Lady Russell. To her, its greatest interest must be, in
5109 having been very much talked of between her friend and Mr Elliot; in
5110 having been wished for, regretted, and at the same time honoured for
5111 staying away in such a cause. Her kind, compassionate visits to this
5112 old schoolfellow, sick and reduced, seemed to have quite delighted Mr
5113 Elliot. He thought her a most extraordinary young woman; in her
5114 temper, manners, mind, a model of female excellence. He could meet
5115 even Lady Russell in a discussion of her merits; and Anne could not be
5116 given to understand so much by her friend, could not know herself to be
5117 so highly rated by a sensible man, without many of those agreeable
5118 sensations which her friend meant to create.
5119
5120 Lady Russell was now perfectly decided in her opinion of Mr Elliot.
5121 She was as much convinced of his meaning to gain Anne in time as of his
5122 deserving her, and was beginning to calculate the number of weeks which
5123 would free him from all the remaining restraints of widowhood, and
5124 leave him at liberty to exert his most open powers of pleasing. She
5125 would not speak to Anne with half the certainty she felt on the
5126 subject, she would venture on little more than hints of what might be
5127 hereafter, of a possible attachment on his side, of the desirableness
5128 of the alliance, supposing such attachment to be real and returned.
5129 Anne heard her, and made no violent exclamations; she only smiled,
5130 blushed, and gently shook her head.
5131
5132 "I am no match-maker, as you well know," said Lady Russell, "being much
5133 too well aware of the uncertainty of all human events and calculations.
5134 I only mean that if Mr Elliot should some time hence pay his addresses
5135 to you, and if you should be disposed to accept him, I think there
5136 would be every possibility of your being happy together. A most
5137 suitable connection everybody must consider it, but I think it might be
5138 a very happy one."
5139
5140 "Mr Elliot is an exceedingly agreeable man, and in many respects I
5141 think highly of him," said Anne; "but we should not suit."
5142
5143 Lady Russell let this pass, and only said in rejoinder, "I own that to
5144 be able to regard you as the future mistress of Kellynch, the future
5145 Lady Elliot, to look forward and see you occupying your dear mother's
5146 place, succeeding to all her rights, and all her popularity, as well as
5147 to all her virtues, would be the highest possible gratification to me.
5148 You are your mother's self in countenance and disposition; and if I
5149 might be allowed to fancy you such as she was, in situation and name,
5150 and home, presiding and blessing in the same spot, and only superior to
5151 her in being more highly valued! My dearest Anne, it would give me
5152 more delight than is often felt at my time of life!"
5153
5154 Anne was obliged to turn away, to rise, to walk to a distant table,
5155 and, leaning there in pretended employment, try to subdue the feelings
5156 this picture excited. For a few moments her imagination and her heart
5157 were bewitched. The idea of becoming what her mother had been; of
5158 having the precious name of "Lady Elliot" first revived in herself; of
5159 being restored to Kellynch, calling it her home again, her home for
5160 ever, was a charm which she could not immediately resist. Lady Russell
5161 said not another word, willing to leave the matter to its own
5162 operation; and believing that, could Mr Elliot at that moment with
5163 propriety have spoken for himself!--she believed, in short, what Anne
5164 did not believe. The same image of Mr Elliot speaking for himself
5165 brought Anne to composure again. The charm of Kellynch and of "Lady
5166 Elliot" all faded away. She never could accept him. And it was not
5167 only that her feelings were still adverse to any man save one; her
5168 judgement, on a serious consideration of the possibilities of such a
5169 case was against Mr Elliot.
5170
5171 Though they had now been acquainted a month, she could not be satisfied
5172 that she really knew his character. That he was a sensible man, an
5173 agreeable man, that he talked well, professed good opinions, seemed to
5174 judge properly and as a man of principle, this was all clear enough.
5175 He certainly knew what was right, nor could she fix on any one article
5176 of moral duty evidently transgressed; but yet she would have been
5177 afraid to answer for his conduct. She distrusted the past, if not the
5178 present. The names which occasionally dropt of former associates, the
5179 allusions to former practices and pursuits, suggested suspicions not
5180 favourable of what he had been. She saw that there had been bad
5181 habits; that Sunday travelling had been a common thing; that there had
5182 been a period of his life (and probably not a short one) when he had
5183 been, at least, careless in all serious matters; and, though he might
5184 now think very differently, who could answer for the true sentiments of
5185 a clever, cautious man, grown old enough to appreciate a fair
5186 character? How could it ever be ascertained that his mind was truly
5187 cleansed?
5188
5189 Mr Elliot was rational, discreet, polished, but he was not open. There
5190 was never any burst of feeling, any warmth of indignation or delight,
5191 at the evil or good of others. This, to Anne, was a decided
5192 imperfection. Her early impressions were incurable. She prized the
5193 frank, the open-hearted, the eager character beyond all others. Warmth
5194 and enthusiasm did captivate her still. She felt that she could so
5195 much more depend upon the sincerity of those who sometimes looked or
5196 said a careless or a hasty thing, than of those whose presence of mind
5197 never varied, whose tongue never slipped.
5198
5199 Mr Elliot was too generally agreeable. Various as were the tempers in
5200 her father's house, he pleased them all. He endured too well, stood
5201 too well with every body. He had spoken to her with some degree of
5202 openness of Mrs Clay; had appeared completely to see what Mrs Clay was
5203 about, and to hold her in contempt; and yet Mrs Clay found him as
5204 agreeable as any body.
5205
5206 Lady Russell saw either less or more than her young friend, for she saw
5207 nothing to excite distrust. She could not imagine a man more exactly
5208 what he ought to be than Mr Elliot; nor did she ever enjoy a sweeter
5209 feeling than the hope of seeing him receive the hand of her beloved
5210 Anne in Kellynch church, in the course of the following autumn.
5211
5212
5213
5214 Chapter 18
5215
5216
5217 It was the beginning of February; and Anne, having been a month in
5218 Bath, was growing very eager for news from Uppercross and Lyme. She
5219 wanted to hear much more than Mary had communicated. It was three
5220 weeks since she had heard at all. She only knew that Henrietta was at
5221 home again; and that Louisa, though considered to be recovering fast,
5222 was still in Lyme; and she was thinking of them all very intently one
5223 evening, when a thicker letter than usual from Mary was delivered to
5224 her; and, to quicken the pleasure and surprise, with Admiral and Mrs
5225 Croft's compliments.
5226
5227 The Crofts must be in Bath! A circumstance to interest her. They were
5228 people whom her heart turned to very naturally.
5229
5230 "What is this?" cried Sir Walter. "The Crofts have arrived in Bath?
5231 The Crofts who rent Kellynch? What have they brought you?"
5232
5233 "A letter from Uppercross Cottage, Sir."
5234
5235 "Oh! those letters are convenient passports. They secure an
5236 introduction. I should have visited Admiral Croft, however, at any
5237 rate. I know what is due to my tenant."
5238
5239 Anne could listen no longer; she could not even have told how the poor
5240 Admiral's complexion escaped; her letter engrossed her. It had been
5241 begun several days back.
5242
5243
5244 "February 1st.
5245
5246 "My dear Anne,--I make no apology for my silence, because I know how
5247 little people think of letters in such a place as Bath. You must be a
5248 great deal too happy to care for Uppercross, which, as you well know,
5249 affords little to write about. We have had a very dull Christmas; Mr
5250 and Mrs Musgrove have not had one dinner party all the holidays. I do
5251 not reckon the Hayters as anybody. The holidays, however, are over at
5252 last: I believe no children ever had such long ones. I am sure I had
5253 not. The house was cleared yesterday, except of the little Harvilles;
5254 but you will be surprised to hear they have never gone home. Mrs
5255 Harville must be an odd mother to part with them so long. I do not
5256 understand it. They are not at all nice children, in my opinion; but
5257 Mrs Musgrove seems to like them quite as well, if not better, than her
5258 grandchildren. What dreadful weather we have had! It may not be felt
5259 in Bath, with your nice pavements; but in the country it is of some
5260 consequence. I have not had a creature call on me since the second
5261 week in January, except Charles Hayter, who had been calling much
5262 oftener than was welcome. Between ourselves, I think it a great pity
5263 Henrietta did not remain at Lyme as long as Louisa; it would have kept
5264 her a little out of his way. The carriage is gone to-day, to bring
5265 Louisa and the Harvilles to-morrow. We are not asked to dine with
5266 them, however, till the day after, Mrs Musgrove is so afraid of her
5267 being fatigued by the journey, which is not very likely, considering
5268 the care that will be taken of her; and it would be much more
5269 convenient to me to dine there to-morrow. I am glad you find Mr Elliot
5270 so agreeable, and wish I could be acquainted with him too; but I have
5271 my usual luck: I am always out of the way when any thing desirable is
5272 going on; always the last of my family to be noticed. What an immense
5273 time Mrs Clay has been staying with Elizabeth! Does she never mean to
5274 go away? But perhaps if she were to leave the room vacant, we might
5275 not be invited. Let me know what you think of this. I do not expect
5276 my children to be asked, you know. I can leave them at the Great House
5277 very well, for a month or six weeks. I have this moment heard that the
5278 Crofts are going to Bath almost immediately; they think the Admiral
5279 gouty. Charles heard it quite by chance; they have not had the
5280 civility to give me any notice, or of offering to take anything. I do
5281 not think they improve at all as neighbours. We see nothing of them,
5282 and this is really an instance of gross inattention. Charles joins me
5283 in love, and everything proper. Yours affectionately,
5284
5285 "Mary M---.
5286
5287 "I am sorry to say that I am very far from well; and Jemima has just
5288 told me that the butcher says there is a bad sore-throat very much
5289 about. I dare say I shall catch it; and my sore-throats, you know, are
5290 always worse than anybody's."
5291
5292
5293 So ended the first part, which had been afterwards put into an
5294 envelope, containing nearly as much more.
5295
5296
5297 "I kept my letter open, that I might send you word how Louisa bore her
5298 journey, and now I am extremely glad I did, having a great deal to add.
5299 In the first place, I had a note from Mrs Croft yesterday, offering to
5300 convey anything to you; a very kind, friendly note indeed, addressed to
5301 me, just as it ought; I shall therefore be able to make my letter as
5302 long as I like. The Admiral does not seem very ill, and I sincerely
5303 hope Bath will do him all the good he wants. I shall be truly glad to
5304 have them back again. Our neighbourhood cannot spare such a pleasant
5305 family. But now for Louisa. I have something to communicate that will
5306 astonish you not a little. She and the Harvilles came on Tuesday very
5307 safely, and in the evening we went to ask her how she did, when we were
5308 rather surprised not to find Captain Benwick of the party, for he had
5309 been invited as well as the Harvilles; and what do you think was the
5310 reason? Neither more nor less than his being in love with Louisa, and
5311 not choosing to venture to Uppercross till he had had an answer from Mr
5312 Musgrove; for it was all settled between him and her before she came
5313 away, and he had written to her father by Captain Harville. True, upon
5314 my honour! Are not you astonished? I shall be surprised at least if
5315 you ever received a hint of it, for I never did. Mrs Musgrove protests
5316 solemnly that she knew nothing of the matter. We are all very well
5317 pleased, however, for though it is not equal to her marrying Captain
5318 Wentworth, it is infinitely better than Charles Hayter; and Mr Musgrove
5319 has written his consent, and Captain Benwick is expected to-day. Mrs
5320 Harville says her husband feels a good deal on his poor sister's
5321 account; but, however, Louisa is a great favourite with both. Indeed,
5322 Mrs Harville and I quite agree that we love her the better for having
5323 nursed her. Charles wonders what Captain Wentworth will say; but if
5324 you remember, I never thought him attached to Louisa; I never could see
5325 anything of it. And this is the end, you see, of Captain Benwick's
5326 being supposed to be an admirer of yours. How Charles could take such
5327 a thing into his head was always incomprehensible to me. I hope he
5328 will be more agreeable now. Certainly not a great match for Louisa
5329 Musgrove, but a million times better than marrying among the Hayters."
5330
5331
5332 Mary need not have feared her sister's being in any degree prepared for
5333 the news. She had never in her life been more astonished. Captain
5334 Benwick and Louisa Musgrove! It was almost too wonderful for belief,
5335 and it was with the greatest effort that she could remain in the room,
5336 preserve an air of calmness, and answer the common questions of the
5337 moment. Happily for her, they were not many. Sir Walter wanted to
5338 know whether the Crofts travelled with four horses, and whether they
5339 were likely to be situated in such a part of Bath as it might suit Miss
5340 Elliot and himself to visit in; but had little curiosity beyond.
5341
5342 "How is Mary?" said Elizabeth; and without waiting for an answer, "And
5343 pray what brings the Crofts to Bath?"
5344
5345 "They come on the Admiral's account. He is thought to be gouty."
5346
5347 "Gout and decrepitude!" said Sir Walter. "Poor old gentleman."
5348
5349 "Have they any acquaintance here?" asked Elizabeth.
5350
5351 "I do not know; but I can hardly suppose that, at Admiral Croft's time
5352 of life, and in his profession, he should not have many acquaintance in
5353 such a place as this."
5354
5355 "I suspect," said Sir Walter coolly, "that Admiral Croft will be best
5356 known in Bath as the renter of Kellynch Hall. Elizabeth, may we
5357 venture to present him and his wife in Laura Place?"
5358
5359 "Oh, no! I think not. Situated as we are with Lady Dalrymple, cousins,
5360 we ought to be very careful not to embarrass her with acquaintance she
5361 might not approve. If we were not related, it would not signify; but
5362 as cousins, she would feel scrupulous as to any proposal of ours. We
5363 had better leave the Crofts to find their own level. There are several
5364 odd-looking men walking about here, who, I am told, are sailors. The
5365 Crofts will associate with them."
5366
5367 This was Sir Walter and Elizabeth's share of interest in the letter;
5368 when Mrs Clay had paid her tribute of more decent attention, in an
5369 enquiry after Mrs Charles Musgrove, and her fine little boys, Anne was
5370 at liberty.
5371
5372 In her own room, she tried to comprehend it. Well might Charles wonder
5373 how Captain Wentworth would feel! Perhaps he had quitted the field,
5374 had given Louisa up, had ceased to love, had found he did not love her.
5375 She could not endure the idea of treachery or levity, or anything akin
5376 to ill usage between him and his friend. She could not endure that
5377 such a friendship as theirs should be severed unfairly.
5378
5379 Captain Benwick and Louisa Musgrove! The high-spirited, joyous-talking
5380 Louisa Musgrove, and the dejected, thinking, feeling, reading, Captain
5381 Benwick, seemed each of them everything that would not suit the other.
5382 Their minds most dissimilar! Where could have been the attraction?
5383 The answer soon presented itself. It had been in situation. They had
5384 been thrown together several weeks; they had been living in the same
5385 small family party: since Henrietta's coming away, they must have been
5386 depending almost entirely on each other, and Louisa, just recovering
5387 from illness, had been in an interesting state, and Captain Benwick was
5388 not inconsolable. That was a point which Anne had not been able to
5389 avoid suspecting before; and instead of drawing the same conclusion as
5390 Mary, from the present course of events, they served only to confirm
5391 the idea of his having felt some dawning of tenderness toward herself.
5392 She did not mean, however, to derive much more from it to gratify her
5393 vanity, than Mary might have allowed. She was persuaded that any
5394 tolerably pleasing young woman who had listened and seemed to feel for
5395 him would have received the same compliment. He had an affectionate
5396 heart. He must love somebody.
5397
5398 She saw no reason against their being happy. Louisa had fine naval
5399 fervour to begin with, and they would soon grow more alike. He would
5400 gain cheerfulness, and she would learn to be an enthusiast for Scott
5401 and Lord Byron; nay, that was probably learnt already; of course they
5402 had fallen in love over poetry. The idea of Louisa Musgrove turned
5403 into a person of literary taste, and sentimental reflection was
5404 amusing, but she had no doubt of its being so. The day at Lyme, the
5405 fall from the Cobb, might influence her health, her nerves, her
5406 courage, her character to the end of her life, as thoroughly as it
5407 appeared to have influenced her fate.
5408
5409 The conclusion of the whole was, that if the woman who had been
5410 sensible of Captain Wentworth's merits could be allowed to prefer
5411 another man, there was nothing in the engagement to excite lasting
5412 wonder; and if Captain Wentworth lost no friend by it, certainly
5413 nothing to be regretted. No, it was not regret which made Anne's heart
5414 beat in spite of herself, and brought the colour into her cheeks when
5415 she thought of Captain Wentworth unshackled and free. She had some
5416 feelings which she was ashamed to investigate. They were too much like
5417 joy, senseless joy!
5418
5419 She longed to see the Crofts; but when the meeting took place, it was
5420 evident that no rumour of the news had yet reached them. The visit of
5421 ceremony was paid and returned; and Louisa Musgrove was mentioned, and
5422 Captain Benwick, too, without even half a smile.
5423
5424 The Crofts had placed themselves in lodgings in Gay Street, perfectly
5425 to Sir Walter's satisfaction. He was not at all ashamed of the
5426 acquaintance, and did, in fact, think and talk a great deal more about
5427 the Admiral, than the Admiral ever thought or talked about him.
5428
5429 The Crofts knew quite as many people in Bath as they wished for, and
5430 considered their intercourse with the Elliots as a mere matter of form,
5431 and not in the least likely to afford them any pleasure. They brought
5432 with them their country habit of being almost always together. He was
5433 ordered to walk to keep off the gout, and Mrs Croft seemed to go shares
5434 with him in everything, and to walk for her life to do him good. Anne
5435 saw them wherever she went. Lady Russell took her out in her carriage
5436 almost every morning, and she never failed to think of them, and never
5437 failed to see them. Knowing their feelings as she did, it was a most
5438 attractive picture of happiness to her. She always watched them as
5439 long as she could, delighted to fancy she understood what they might be
5440 talking of, as they walked along in happy independence, or equally
5441 delighted to see the Admiral's hearty shake of the hand when he
5442 encountered an old friend, and observe their eagerness of conversation
5443 when occasionally forming into a little knot of the navy, Mrs Croft
5444 looking as intelligent and keen as any of the officers around her.
5445
5446 Anne was too much engaged with Lady Russell to be often walking
5447 herself; but it so happened that one morning, about a week or ten days
5448 after the Croft's arrival, it suited her best to leave her friend, or
5449 her friend's carriage, in the lower part of the town, and return alone
5450 to Camden Place, and in walking up Milsom Street she had the good
5451 fortune to meet with the Admiral. He was standing by himself at a
5452 printshop window, with his hands behind him, in earnest contemplation
5453 of some print, and she not only might have passed him unseen, but was
5454 obliged to touch as well as address him before she could catch his
5455 notice. When he did perceive and acknowledge her, however, it was done
5456 with all his usual frankness and good humour. "Ha! is it you? Thank
5457 you, thank you. This is treating me like a friend. Here I am, you
5458 see, staring at a picture. I can never get by this shop without
5459 stopping. But what a thing here is, by way of a boat! Do look at it.
5460 Did you ever see the like? What queer fellows your fine painters must
5461 be, to think that anybody would venture their lives in such a shapeless
5462 old cockleshell as that? And yet here are two gentlemen stuck up in it
5463 mightily at their ease, and looking about them at the rocks and
5464 mountains, as if they were not to be upset the next moment, which they
5465 certainly must be. I wonder where that boat was built!" (laughing
5466 heartily); "I would not venture over a horsepond in it. Well,"
5467 (turning away), "now, where are you bound? Can I go anywhere for you,
5468 or with you? Can I be of any use?"
5469
5470 "None, I thank you, unless you will give me the pleasure of your
5471 company the little way our road lies together. I am going home."
5472
5473
5474 "That I will, with all my heart, and farther, too. Yes, yes we will
5475 have a snug walk together, and I have something to tell you as we go
5476 along. There, take my arm; that's right; I do not feel comfortable if
5477 I have not a woman there. Lord! what a boat it is!" taking a last look
5478 at the picture, as they began to be in motion.
5479
5480 "Did you say that you had something to tell me, sir?"
5481
5482 "Yes, I have, presently. But here comes a friend, Captain Brigden; I
5483 shall only say, 'How d'ye do?' as we pass, however. I shall not stop.
5484 'How d'ye do?' Brigden stares to see anybody with me but my wife.
5485 She, poor soul, is tied by the leg. She has a blister on one of her
5486 heels, as large as a three-shilling piece. If you look across the
5487 street, you will see Admiral Brand coming down and his brother. Shabby
5488 fellows, both of them! I am glad they are not on this side of the way.
5489 Sophy cannot bear them. They played me a pitiful trick once: got away
5490 with some of my best men. I will tell you the whole story another
5491 time. There comes old Sir Archibald Drew and his grandson. Look, he
5492 sees us; he kisses his hand to you; he takes you for my wife. Ah! the
5493 peace has come too soon for that younker. Poor old Sir Archibald! How
5494 do you like Bath, Miss Elliot? It suits us very well. We are always
5495 meeting with some old friend or other; the streets full of them every
5496 morning; sure to have plenty of chat; and then we get away from them
5497 all, and shut ourselves in our lodgings, and draw in our chairs, and
5498 are as snug as if we were at Kellynch, ay, or as we used to be even at
5499 North Yarmouth and Deal. We do not like our lodgings here the worse, I
5500 can tell you, for putting us in mind of those we first had at North
5501 Yarmouth. The wind blows through one of the cupboards just in the same
5502 way."
5503
5504 When they were got a little farther, Anne ventured to press again for
5505 what he had to communicate. She hoped when clear of Milsom Street to
5506 have her curiosity gratified; but she was still obliged to wait, for
5507 the Admiral had made up his mind not to begin till they had gained the
5508 greater space and quiet of Belmont; and as she was not really Mrs
5509 Croft, she must let him have his own way. As soon as they were fairly
5510 ascending Belmont, he began--
5511
5512 "Well, now you shall hear something that will surprise you. But first
5513 of all, you must tell me the name of the young lady I am going to talk
5514 about. That young lady, you know, that we have all been so concerned
5515 for. The Miss Musgrove, that all this has been happening to. Her
5516 Christian name: I always forget her Christian name."
5517
5518 Anne had been ashamed to appear to comprehend so soon as she really
5519 did; but now she could safely suggest the name of "Louisa."
5520
5521 "Ay, ay, Miss Louisa Musgrove, that is the name. I wish young ladies
5522 had not such a number of fine Christian names. I should never be out
5523 if they were all Sophys, or something of that sort. Well, this Miss
5524 Louisa, we all thought, you know, was to marry Frederick. He was
5525 courting her week after week. The only wonder was, what they could be
5526 waiting for, till the business at Lyme came; then, indeed, it was clear
5527 enough that they must wait till her brain was set to right. But even
5528 then there was something odd in their way of going on. Instead of
5529 staying at Lyme, he went off to Plymouth, and then he went off to see
5530 Edward. When we came back from Minehead he was gone down to Edward's,
5531 and there he has been ever since. We have seen nothing of him since
5532 November. Even Sophy could not understand it. But now, the matter has
5533 taken the strangest turn of all; for this young lady, the same Miss
5534 Musgrove, instead of being to marry Frederick, is to marry James
5535 Benwick. You know James Benwick."
5536
5537 "A little. I am a little acquainted with Captain Benwick."
5538
5539 "Well, she is to marry him. Nay, most likely they are married already,
5540 for I do not know what they should wait for."
5541
5542 "I thought Captain Benwick a very pleasing young man," said Anne, "and
5543 I understand that he bears an excellent character."
5544
5545 "Oh! yes, yes, there is not a word to be said against James Benwick.
5546 He is only a commander, it is true, made last summer, and these are bad
5547 times for getting on, but he has not another fault that I know of. An
5548 excellent, good-hearted fellow, I assure you; a very active, zealous
5549 officer too, which is more than you would think for, perhaps, for that
5550 soft sort of manner does not do him justice."
5551
5552 "Indeed you are mistaken there, sir; I should never augur want of
5553 spirit from Captain Benwick's manners. I thought them particularly
5554 pleasing, and I will answer for it, they would generally please."
5555
5556 "Well, well, ladies are the best judges; but James Benwick is rather
5557 too piano for me; and though very likely it is all our partiality,
5558 Sophy and I cannot help thinking Frederick's manners better than his.
5559 There is something about Frederick more to our taste."
5560
5561 Anne was caught. She had only meant to oppose the too common idea of
5562 spirit and gentleness being incompatible with each other, not at all to
5563 represent Captain Benwick's manners as the very best that could
5564 possibly be; and, after a little hesitation, she was beginning to say,
5565 "I was not entering into any comparison of the two friends," but the
5566 Admiral interrupted her with--
5567
5568 "And the thing is certainly true. It is not a mere bit of gossip. We
5569 have it from Frederick himself. His sister had a letter from him
5570 yesterday, in which he tells us of it, and he had just had it in a
5571 letter from Harville, written upon the spot, from Uppercross. I fancy
5572 they are all at Uppercross."
5573
5574 This was an opportunity which Anne could not resist; she said,
5575 therefore, "I hope, Admiral, I hope there is nothing in the style of
5576 Captain Wentworth's letter to make you and Mrs Croft particularly
5577 uneasy. It did seem, last autumn, as if there were an attachment
5578 between him and Louisa Musgrove; but I hope it may be understood to
5579 have worn out on each side equally, and without violence. I hope his
5580 letter does not breathe the spirit of an ill-used man."
5581
5582 "Not at all, not at all; there is not an oath or a murmur from
5583 beginning to end."
5584
5585 Anne looked down to hide her smile.
5586
5587 "No, no; Frederick is not a man to whine and complain; he has too much
5588 spirit for that. If the girl likes another man better, it is very fit
5589 she should have him."
5590
5591 "Certainly. But what I mean is, that I hope there is nothing in
5592 Captain Wentworth's manner of writing to make you suppose he thinks
5593 himself ill-used by his friend, which might appear, you know, without
5594 its being absolutely said. I should be very sorry that such a
5595 friendship as has subsisted between him and Captain Benwick should be
5596 destroyed, or even wounded, by a circumstance of this sort."
5597
5598 "Yes, yes, I understand you. But there is nothing at all of that
5599 nature in the letter. He does not give the least fling at Benwick;
5600 does not so much as say, 'I wonder at it, I have a reason of my own for
5601 wondering at it.' No, you would not guess, from his way of writing,
5602 that he had ever thought of this Miss (what's her name?) for himself.
5603 He very handsomely hopes they will be happy together; and there is
5604 nothing very unforgiving in that, I think."
5605
5606 Anne did not receive the perfect conviction which the Admiral meant to
5607 convey, but it would have been useless to press the enquiry farther.
5608 She therefore satisfied herself with common-place remarks or quiet
5609 attention, and the Admiral had it all his own way.
5610
5611 "Poor Frederick!" said he at last. "Now he must begin all over again
5612 with somebody else. I think we must get him to Bath. Sophy must
5613 write, and beg him to come to Bath. Here are pretty girls enough, I am
5614 sure. It would be of no use to go to Uppercross again, for that other
5615 Miss Musgrove, I find, is bespoke by her cousin, the young parson. Do
5616 not you think, Miss Elliot, we had better try to get him to Bath?"
5617
5618
5619
5620 Chapter 19
5621
5622
5623 While Admiral Croft was taking this walk with Anne, and expressing his
5624 wish of getting Captain Wentworth to Bath, Captain Wentworth was
5625 already on his way thither. Before Mrs Croft had written, he was
5626 arrived, and the very next time Anne walked out, she saw him.
5627
5628 Mr Elliot was attending his two cousins and Mrs Clay. They were in
5629 Milsom Street. It began to rain, not much, but enough to make shelter
5630 desirable for women, and quite enough to make it very desirable for
5631 Miss Elliot to have the advantage of being conveyed home in Lady
5632 Dalrymple's carriage, which was seen waiting at a little distance; she,
5633 Anne, and Mrs Clay, therefore, turned into Molland's, while Mr Elliot
5634 stepped to Lady Dalrymple, to request her assistance. He soon joined
5635 them again, successful, of course; Lady Dalrymple would be most happy
5636 to take them home, and would call for them in a few minutes.
5637
5638 Her ladyship's carriage was a barouche, and did not hold more than four
5639 with any comfort. Miss Carteret was with her mother; consequently it
5640 was not reasonable to expect accommodation for all the three Camden
5641 Place ladies. There could be no doubt as to Miss Elliot. Whoever
5642 suffered inconvenience, she must suffer none, but it occupied a little
5643 time to settle the point of civility between the other two. The rain
5644 was a mere trifle, and Anne was most sincere in preferring a walk with
5645 Mr Elliot. But the rain was also a mere trifle to Mrs Clay; she would
5646 hardly allow it even to drop at all, and her boots were so thick! much
5647 thicker than Miss Anne's; and, in short, her civility rendered her
5648 quite as anxious to be left to walk with Mr Elliot as Anne could be,
5649 and it was discussed between them with a generosity so polite and so
5650 determined, that the others were obliged to settle it for them; Miss
5651 Elliot maintaining that Mrs Clay had a little cold already, and Mr
5652 Elliot deciding on appeal, that his cousin Anne's boots were rather the
5653 thickest.
5654
5655 It was fixed accordingly, that Mrs Clay should be of the party in the
5656 carriage; and they had just reached this point, when Anne, as she sat
5657 near the window, descried, most decidedly and distinctly, Captain
5658 Wentworth walking down the street.
5659
5660 Her start was perceptible only to herself; but she instantly felt that
5661 she was the greatest simpleton in the world, the most unaccountable and
5662 absurd! For a few minutes she saw nothing before her; it was all
5663 confusion. She was lost, and when she had scolded back her senses, she
5664 found the others still waiting for the carriage, and Mr Elliot (always
5665 obliging) just setting off for Union Street on a commission of Mrs
5666 Clay's.
5667
5668 She now felt a great inclination to go to the outer door; she wanted to
5669 see if it rained. Why was she to suspect herself of another motive?
5670 Captain Wentworth must be out of sight. She left her seat, she would
5671 go; one half of her should not be always so much wiser than the other
5672 half, or always suspecting the other of being worse than it was. She
5673 would see if it rained. She was sent back, however, in a moment by the
5674 entrance of Captain Wentworth himself, among a party of gentlemen and
5675 ladies, evidently his acquaintance, and whom he must have joined a
5676 little below Milsom Street. He was more obviously struck and confused
5677 by the sight of her than she had ever observed before; he looked quite
5678 red. For the first time, since their renewed acquaintance, she felt
5679 that she was betraying the least sensibility of the two. She had the
5680 advantage of him in the preparation of the last few moments. All the
5681 overpowering, blinding, bewildering, first effects of strong surprise
5682 were over with her. Still, however, she had enough to feel! It was
5683 agitation, pain, pleasure, a something between delight and misery.
5684
5685 He spoke to her, and then turned away. The character of his manner was
5686 embarrassment. She could not have called it either cold or friendly,
5687 or anything so certainly as embarrassed.
5688
5689 After a short interval, however, he came towards her, and spoke again.
5690 Mutual enquiries on common subjects passed: neither of them, probably,
5691 much the wiser for what they heard, and Anne continuing fully sensible
5692 of his being less at ease than formerly. They had by dint of being so
5693 very much together, got to speak to each other with a considerable
5694 portion of apparent indifference and calmness; but he could not do it
5695 now. Time had changed him, or Louisa had changed him. There was
5696 consciousness of some sort or other. He looked very well, not as if he
5697 had been suffering in health or spirits, and he talked of Uppercross,
5698 of the Musgroves, nay, even of Louisa, and had even a momentary look of
5699 his own arch significance as he named her; but yet it was Captain
5700 Wentworth not comfortable, not easy, not able to feign that he was.
5701
5702 It did not surprise, but it grieved Anne to observe that Elizabeth
5703 would not know him. She saw that he saw Elizabeth, that Elizabeth saw
5704 him, that there was complete internal recognition on each side; she was
5705 convinced that he was ready to be acknowledged as an acquaintance,
5706 expecting it, and she had the pain of seeing her sister turn away with
5707 unalterable coldness.
5708
5709 Lady Dalrymple's carriage, for which Miss Elliot was growing very
5710 impatient, now drew up; the servant came in to announce it. It was
5711 beginning to rain again, and altogether there was a delay, and a
5712 bustle, and a talking, which must make all the little crowd in the shop
5713 understand that Lady Dalrymple was calling to convey Miss Elliot. At
5714 last Miss Elliot and her friend, unattended but by the servant, (for
5715 there was no cousin returned), were walking off; and Captain Wentworth,
5716 watching them, turned again to Anne, and by manner, rather than words,
5717 was offering his services to her.
5718
5719 "I am much obliged to you," was her answer, "but I am not going with
5720 them. The carriage would not accommodate so many. I walk: I prefer
5721 walking."
5722
5723 "But it rains."
5724
5725 "Oh! very little, Nothing that I regard."
5726
5727 After a moment's pause he said: "Though I came only yesterday, I have
5728 equipped myself properly for Bath already, you see," (pointing to a new
5729 umbrella); "I wish you would make use of it, if you are determined to
5730 walk; though I think it would be more prudent to let me get you a
5731 chair."
5732
5733 She was very much obliged to him, but declined it all, repeating her
5734 conviction, that the rain would come to nothing at present, and adding,
5735 "I am only waiting for Mr Elliot. He will be here in a moment, I am
5736 sure."
5737
5738 She had hardly spoken the words when Mr Elliot walked in. Captain
5739 Wentworth recollected him perfectly. There was no difference between
5740 him and the man who had stood on the steps at Lyme, admiring Anne as
5741 she passed, except in the air and look and manner of the privileged
5742 relation and friend. He came in with eagerness, appeared to see and
5743 think only of her, apologised for his stay, was grieved to have kept
5744 her waiting, and anxious to get her away without further loss of time
5745 and before the rain increased; and in another moment they walked off
5746 together, her arm under his, a gentle and embarrassed glance, and a
5747 "Good morning to you!" being all that she had time for, as she passed
5748 away.
5749
5750 As soon as they were out of sight, the ladies of Captain Wentworth's
5751 party began talking of them.
5752
5753 "Mr Elliot does not dislike his cousin, I fancy?"
5754
5755 "Oh! no, that is clear enough. One can guess what will happen there.
5756 He is always with them; half lives in the family, I believe. What a
5757 very good-looking man!"
5758
5759 "Yes, and Miss Atkinson, who dined with him once at the Wallises, says
5760 he is the most agreeable man she ever was in company with."
5761
5762 "She is pretty, I think; Anne Elliot; very pretty, when one comes to
5763 look at her. It is not the fashion to say so, but I confess I admire
5764 her more than her sister."
5765
5766 "Oh! so do I."
5767
5768 "And so do I. No comparison. But the men are all wild after Miss
5769 Elliot. Anne is too delicate for them."
5770
5771 Anne would have been particularly obliged to her cousin, if he would
5772 have walked by her side all the way to Camden Place, without saying a
5773 word. She had never found it so difficult to listen to him, though
5774 nothing could exceed his solicitude and care, and though his subjects
5775 were principally such as were wont to be always interesting: praise,
5776 warm, just, and discriminating, of Lady Russell, and insinuations
5777 highly rational against Mrs Clay. But just now she could think only of
5778 Captain Wentworth. She could not understand his present feelings,
5779 whether he were really suffering much from disappointment or not; and
5780 till that point were settled, she could not be quite herself.
5781
5782 She hoped to be wise and reasonable in time; but alas! alas! she must
5783 confess to herself that she was not wise yet.
5784
5785 Another circumstance very essential for her to know, was how long he
5786 meant to be in Bath; he had not mentioned it, or she could not
5787 recollect it. He might be only passing through. But it was more
5788 probable that he should be come to stay. In that case, so liable as
5789 every body was to meet every body in Bath, Lady Russell would in all
5790 likelihood see him somewhere. Would she recollect him? How would it
5791 all be?
5792
5793 She had already been obliged to tell Lady Russell that Louisa Musgrove
5794 was to marry Captain Benwick. It had cost her something to encounter
5795 Lady Russell's surprise; and now, if she were by any chance to be
5796 thrown into company with Captain Wentworth, her imperfect knowledge of
5797 the matter might add another shade of prejudice against him.
5798
5799 The following morning Anne was out with her friend, and for the first
5800 hour, in an incessant and fearful sort of watch for him in vain; but at
5801 last, in returning down Pulteney Street, she distinguished him on the
5802 right hand pavement at such a distance as to have him in view the
5803 greater part of the street. There were many other men about him, many
5804 groups walking the same way, but there was no mistaking him. She
5805 looked instinctively at Lady Russell; but not from any mad idea of her
5806 recognising him so soon as she did herself. No, it was not to be
5807 supposed that Lady Russell would perceive him till they were nearly
5808 opposite. She looked at her however, from time to time, anxiously; and
5809 when the moment approached which must point him out, though not daring
5810 to look again (for her own countenance she knew was unfit to be seen),
5811 she was yet perfectly conscious of Lady Russell's eyes being turned
5812 exactly in the direction for him--of her being, in short, intently
5813 observing him. She could thoroughly comprehend the sort of fascination
5814 he must possess over Lady Russell's mind, the difficulty it must be for
5815 her to withdraw her eyes, the astonishment she must be feeling that
5816 eight or nine years should have passed over him, and in foreign climes
5817 and in active service too, without robbing him of one personal grace!
5818
5819 At last, Lady Russell drew back her head. "Now, how would she speak of
5820 him?"
5821
5822 "You will wonder," said she, "what has been fixing my eye so long; but
5823 I was looking after some window-curtains, which Lady Alicia and Mrs
5824 Frankland were telling me of last night. They described the
5825 drawing-room window-curtains of one of the houses on this side of the
5826 way, and this part of the street, as being the handsomest and best hung
5827 of any in Bath, but could not recollect the exact number, and I have
5828 been trying to find out which it could be; but I confess I can see no
5829 curtains hereabouts that answer their description."
5830
5831 Anne sighed and blushed and smiled, in pity and disdain, either at her
5832 friend or herself. The part which provoked her most, was that in all
5833 this waste of foresight and caution, she should have lost the right
5834 moment for seeing whether he saw them.
5835
5836 A day or two passed without producing anything. The theatre or the
5837 rooms, where he was most likely to be, were not fashionable enough for
5838 the Elliots, whose evening amusements were solely in the elegant
5839 stupidity of private parties, in which they were getting more and more
5840 engaged; and Anne, wearied of such a state of stagnation, sick of
5841 knowing nothing, and fancying herself stronger because her strength was
5842 not tried, was quite impatient for the concert evening. It was a
5843 concert for the benefit of a person patronised by Lady Dalrymple. Of
5844 course they must attend. It was really expected to be a good one, and
5845 Captain Wentworth was very fond of music. If she could only have a few
5846 minutes conversation with him again, she fancied she should be
5847 satisfied; and as to the power of addressing him, she felt all over
5848 courage if the opportunity occurred. Elizabeth had turned from him,
5849 Lady Russell overlooked him; her nerves were strengthened by these
5850 circumstances; she felt that she owed him attention.
5851
5852 She had once partly promised Mrs Smith to spend the evening with her;
5853 but in a short hurried call she excused herself and put it off, with
5854 the more decided promise of a longer visit on the morrow. Mrs Smith
5855 gave a most good-humoured acquiescence.
5856
5857 "By all means," said she; "only tell me all about it, when you do come.
5858 Who is your party?"
5859
5860 Anne named them all. Mrs Smith made no reply; but when she was leaving
5861 her said, and with an expression half serious, half arch, "Well, I
5862 heartily wish your concert may answer; and do not fail me to-morrow if
5863 you can come; for I begin to have a foreboding that I may not have many
5864 more visits from you."
5865
5866 Anne was startled and confused; but after standing in a moment's
5867 suspense, was obliged, and not sorry to be obliged, to hurry away.
5868
5869
5870
5871 Chapter 20
5872
5873
5874 Sir Walter, his two daughters, and Mrs Clay, were the earliest of all
5875 their party at the rooms in the evening; and as Lady Dalrymple must be
5876 waited for, they took their station by one of the fires in the Octagon
5877 Room. But hardly were they so settled, when the door opened again, and
5878 Captain Wentworth walked in alone. Anne was the nearest to him, and
5879 making yet a little advance, she instantly spoke. He was preparing
5880 only to bow and pass on, but her gentle "How do you do?" brought him
5881 out of the straight line to stand near her, and make enquiries in
5882 return, in spite of the formidable father and sister in the back
5883 ground. Their being in the back ground was a support to Anne; she knew
5884 nothing of their looks, and felt equal to everything which she believed
5885 right to be done.
5886
5887 While they were speaking, a whispering between her father and Elizabeth
5888 caught her ear. She could not distinguish, but she must guess the
5889 subject; and on Captain Wentworth's making a distant bow, she
5890 comprehended that her father had judged so well as to give him that
5891 simple acknowledgement of acquaintance, and she was just in time by a
5892 side glance to see a slight curtsey from Elizabeth herself. This,
5893 though late, and reluctant, and ungracious, was yet better than
5894 nothing, and her spirits improved.
5895
5896 After talking, however, of the weather, and Bath, and the concert,
5897 their conversation began to flag, and so little was said at last, that
5898 she was expecting him to go every moment, but he did not; he seemed in
5899 no hurry to leave her; and presently with renewed spirit, with a little
5900 smile, a little glow, he said--
5901
5902 "I have hardly seen you since our day at Lyme. I am afraid you must
5903 have suffered from the shock, and the more from its not overpowering
5904 you at the time."
5905
5906 She assured him that she had not.
5907
5908 "It was a frightful hour," said he, "a frightful day!" and he passed
5909 his hand across his eyes, as if the remembrance were still too painful,
5910 but in a moment, half smiling again, added, "The day has produced some
5911 effects however; has had some consequences which must be considered as
5912 the very reverse of frightful. When you had the presence of mind to
5913 suggest that Benwick would be the properest person to fetch a surgeon,
5914 you could have little idea of his being eventually one of those most
5915 concerned in her recovery."
5916
5917 "Certainly I could have none. But it appears--I should hope it would
5918 be a very happy match. There are on both sides good principles and
5919 good temper."
5920
5921 "Yes," said he, looking not exactly forward; "but there, I think, ends
5922 the resemblance. With all my soul I wish them happy, and rejoice over
5923 every circumstance in favour of it. They have no difficulties to
5924 contend with at home, no opposition, no caprice, no delays. The
5925 Musgroves are behaving like themselves, most honourably and kindly,
5926 only anxious with true parental hearts to promote their daughter's
5927 comfort. All this is much, very much in favour of their happiness;
5928 more than perhaps--"
5929
5930 He stopped. A sudden recollection seemed to occur, and to give him
5931 some taste of that emotion which was reddening Anne's cheeks and fixing
5932 her eyes on the ground. After clearing his throat, however, he
5933 proceeded thus--
5934
5935 "I confess that I do think there is a disparity, too great a disparity,
5936 and in a point no less essential than mind. I regard Louisa Musgrove
5937 as a very amiable, sweet-tempered girl, and not deficient in
5938 understanding, but Benwick is something more. He is a clever man, a
5939 reading man; and I confess, that I do consider his attaching himself to
5940 her with some surprise. Had it been the effect of gratitude, had he
5941 learnt to love her, because he believed her to be preferring him, it
5942 would have been another thing. But I have no reason to suppose it so.
5943 It seems, on the contrary, to have been a perfectly spontaneous,
5944 untaught feeling on his side, and this surprises me. A man like him,
5945 in his situation! with a heart pierced, wounded, almost broken! Fanny
5946 Harville was a very superior creature, and his attachment to her was
5947 indeed attachment. A man does not recover from such a devotion of the
5948 heart to such a woman. He ought not; he does not."
5949
5950 Either from the consciousness, however, that his friend had recovered,
5951 or from other consciousness, he went no farther; and Anne who, in spite
5952 of the agitated voice in which the latter part had been uttered, and in
5953 spite of all the various noises of the room, the almost ceaseless slam
5954 of the door, and ceaseless buzz of persons walking through, had
5955 distinguished every word, was struck, gratified, confused, and
5956 beginning to breathe very quick, and feel an hundred things in a
5957 moment. It was impossible for her to enter on such a subject; and yet,
5958 after a pause, feeling the necessity of speaking, and having not the
5959 smallest wish for a total change, she only deviated so far as to say--
5960
5961 "You were a good while at Lyme, I think?"
5962
5963 "About a fortnight. I could not leave it till Louisa's doing well was
5964 quite ascertained. I had been too deeply concerned in the mischief to
5965 be soon at peace. It had been my doing, solely mine. She would not
5966 have been obstinate if I had not been weak. The country round Lyme is
5967 very fine. I walked and rode a great deal; and the more I saw, the
5968 more I found to admire."
5969
5970 "I should very much like to see Lyme again," said Anne.
5971
5972 "Indeed! I should not have supposed that you could have found anything
5973 in Lyme to inspire such a feeling. The horror and distress you were
5974 involved in, the stretch of mind, the wear of spirits! I should have
5975 thought your last impressions of Lyme must have been strong disgust."
5976
5977 "The last hours were certainly very painful," replied Anne; "but when
5978 pain is over, the remembrance of it often becomes a pleasure. One does
5979 not love a place the less for having suffered in it, unless it has been
5980 all suffering, nothing but suffering, which was by no means the case at
5981 Lyme. We were only in anxiety and distress during the last two hours,
5982 and previously there had been a great deal of enjoyment. So much
5983 novelty and beauty! I have travelled so little, that every fresh place
5984 would be interesting to me; but there is real beauty at Lyme; and in
5985 short" (with a faint blush at some recollections), "altogether my
5986 impressions of the place are very agreeable."
5987
5988 As she ceased, the entrance door opened again, and the very party
5989 appeared for whom they were waiting. "Lady Dalrymple, Lady Dalrymple,"
5990 was the rejoicing sound; and with all the eagerness compatible with
5991 anxious elegance, Sir Walter and his two ladies stepped forward to meet
5992 her. Lady Dalrymple and Miss Carteret, escorted by Mr Elliot and
5993 Colonel Wallis, who had happened to arrive nearly at the same instant,
5994 advanced into the room. The others joined them, and it was a group in
5995 which Anne found herself also necessarily included. She was divided
5996 from Captain Wentworth. Their interesting, almost too interesting
5997 conversation must be broken up for a time, but slight was the penance
5998 compared with the happiness which brought it on! She had learnt, in
5999 the last ten minutes, more of his feelings towards Louisa, more of all
6000 his feelings than she dared to think of; and she gave herself up to the
6001 demands of the party, to the needful civilities of the moment, with
6002 exquisite, though agitated sensations. She was in good humour with
6003 all. She had received ideas which disposed her to be courteous and
6004 kind to all, and to pity every one, as being less happy than herself.
6005
6006 The delightful emotions were a little subdued, when on stepping back
6007 from the group, to be joined again by Captain Wentworth, she saw that
6008 he was gone. She was just in time to see him turn into the Concert
6009 Room. He was gone; he had disappeared, she felt a moment's regret.
6010 But "they should meet again. He would look for her, he would find her
6011 out before the evening were over, and at present, perhaps, it was as
6012 well to be asunder. She was in need of a little interval for
6013 recollection."
6014
6015 Upon Lady Russell's appearance soon afterwards, the whole party was
6016 collected, and all that remained was to marshal themselves, and proceed
6017 into the Concert Room; and be of all the consequence in their power,
6018 draw as many eyes, excite as many whispers, and disturb as many people
6019 as they could.
6020
6021 Very, very happy were both Elizabeth and Anne Elliot as they walked in.
6022 Elizabeth arm in arm with Miss Carteret, and looking on the broad back
6023 of the dowager Viscountess Dalrymple before her, had nothing to wish
6024 for which did not seem within her reach; and Anne--but it would be an
6025 insult to the nature of Anne's felicity, to draw any comparison between
6026 it and her sister's; the origin of one all selfish vanity, of the other
6027 all generous attachment.
6028
6029 Anne saw nothing, thought nothing of the brilliancy of the room. Her
6030 happiness was from within. Her eyes were bright and her cheeks glowed;
6031 but she knew nothing about it. She was thinking only of the last half
6032 hour, and as they passed to their seats, her mind took a hasty range
6033 over it. His choice of subjects, his expressions, and still more his
6034 manner and look, had been such as she could see in only one light. His
6035 opinion of Louisa Musgrove's inferiority, an opinion which he had
6036 seemed solicitous to give, his wonder at Captain Benwick, his feelings
6037 as to a first, strong attachment; sentences begun which he could not
6038 finish, his half averted eyes and more than half expressive glance,
6039 all, all declared that he had a heart returning to her at least; that
6040 anger, resentment, avoidance, were no more; and that they were
6041 succeeded, not merely by friendship and regard, but by the tenderness
6042 of the past. Yes, some share of the tenderness of the past. She could
6043 not contemplate the change as implying less. He must love her.
6044
6045 These were thoughts, with their attendant visions, which occupied and
6046 flurried her too much to leave her any power of observation; and she
6047 passed along the room without having a glimpse of him, without even
6048 trying to discern him. When their places were determined on, and they
6049 were all properly arranged, she looked round to see if he should happen
6050 to be in the same part of the room, but he was not; her eye could not
6051 reach him; and the concert being just opening, she must consent for a
6052 time to be happy in a humbler way.
6053
6054 The party was divided and disposed of on two contiguous benches: Anne
6055 was among those on the foremost, and Mr Elliot had manoeuvred so well,
6056 with the assistance of his friend Colonel Wallis, as to have a seat by
6057 her. Miss Elliot, surrounded by her cousins, and the principal object
6058 of Colonel Wallis's gallantry, was quite contented.
6059
6060 Anne's mind was in a most favourable state for the entertainment of the
6061 evening; it was just occupation enough: she had feelings for the
6062 tender, spirits for the gay, attention for the scientific, and patience
6063 for the wearisome; and had never liked a concert better, at least
6064 during the first act. Towards the close of it, in the interval
6065 succeeding an Italian song, she explained the words of the song to Mr
6066 Elliot. They had a concert bill between them.
6067
6068 "This," said she, "is nearly the sense, or rather the meaning of the
6069 words, for certainly the sense of an Italian love-song must not be
6070 talked of, but it is as nearly the meaning as I can give; for I do not
6071 pretend to understand the language. I am a very poor Italian scholar."
6072
6073 "Yes, yes, I see you are. I see you know nothing of the matter. You
6074 have only knowledge enough of the language to translate at sight these
6075 inverted, transposed, curtailed Italian lines, into clear,
6076 comprehensible, elegant English. You need not say anything more of
6077 your ignorance. Here is complete proof."
6078
6079 "I will not oppose such kind politeness; but I should be sorry to be
6080 examined by a real proficient."
6081
6082 "I have not had the pleasure of visiting in Camden Place so long,"
6083 replied he, "without knowing something of Miss Anne Elliot; and I do
6084 regard her as one who is too modest for the world in general to be
6085 aware of half her accomplishments, and too highly accomplished for
6086 modesty to be natural in any other woman."
6087
6088 "For shame! for shame! this is too much flattery. I forget what we are
6089 to have next," turning to the bill.
6090
6091 "Perhaps," said Mr Elliot, speaking low, "I have had a longer
6092 acquaintance with your character than you are aware of."
6093
6094 "Indeed! How so? You can have been acquainted with it only since I
6095 came to Bath, excepting as you might hear me previously spoken of in my
6096 own family."
6097
6098 "I knew you by report long before you came to Bath. I had heard you
6099 described by those who knew you intimately. I have been acquainted
6100 with you by character many years. Your person, your disposition,
6101 accomplishments, manner; they were all present to me."
6102
6103 Mr Elliot was not disappointed in the interest he hoped to raise. No
6104 one can withstand the charm of such a mystery. To have been described
6105 long ago to a recent acquaintance, by nameless people, is irresistible;
6106 and Anne was all curiosity. She wondered, and questioned him eagerly;
6107 but in vain. He delighted in being asked, but he would not tell.
6108
6109 "No, no, some time or other, perhaps, but not now. He would mention no
6110 names now; but such, he could assure her, had been the fact. He had
6111 many years ago received such a description of Miss Anne Elliot as had
6112 inspired him with the highest idea of her merit, and excited the
6113 warmest curiosity to know her."
6114
6115 Anne could think of no one so likely to have spoken with partiality of
6116 her many years ago as the Mr Wentworth of Monkford, Captain Wentworth's
6117 brother. He might have been in Mr Elliot's company, but she had not
6118 courage to ask the question.
6119
6120 "The name of Anne Elliot," said he, "has long had an interesting sound
6121 to me. Very long has it possessed a charm over my fancy; and, if I
6122 dared, I would breathe my wishes that the name might never change."
6123
6124 Such, she believed, were his words; but scarcely had she received their
6125 sound, than her attention was caught by other sounds immediately behind
6126 her, which rendered every thing else trivial. Her father and Lady
6127 Dalrymple were speaking.
6128
6129 "A well-looking man," said Sir Walter, "a very well-looking man."
6130
6131 "A very fine young man indeed!" said Lady Dalrymple. "More air than
6132 one often sees in Bath. Irish, I dare say."
6133
6134 "No, I just know his name. A bowing acquaintance. Wentworth; Captain
6135 Wentworth of the navy. His sister married my tenant in Somersetshire,
6136 the Croft, who rents Kellynch."
6137
6138 Before Sir Walter had reached this point, Anne's eyes had caught the
6139 right direction, and distinguished Captain Wentworth standing among a
6140 cluster of men at a little distance. As her eyes fell on him, his
6141 seemed to be withdrawn from her. It had that appearance. It seemed as
6142 if she had been one moment too late; and as long as she dared observe,
6143 he did not look again: but the performance was recommencing, and she
6144 was forced to seem to restore her attention to the orchestra and look
6145 straight forward.
6146
6147 When she could give another glance, he had moved away. He could not
6148 have come nearer to her if he would; she was so surrounded and shut in:
6149 but she would rather have caught his eye.
6150
6151 Mr Elliot's speech, too, distressed her. She had no longer any
6152 inclination to talk to him. She wished him not so near her.
6153
6154 The first act was over. Now she hoped for some beneficial change; and,
6155 after a period of nothing-saying amongst the party, some of them did
6156 decide on going in quest of tea. Anne was one of the few who did not
6157 choose to move. She remained in her seat, and so did Lady Russell; but
6158 she had the pleasure of getting rid of Mr Elliot; and she did not mean,
6159 whatever she might feel on Lady Russell's account, to shrink from
6160 conversation with Captain Wentworth, if he gave her the opportunity.
6161 She was persuaded by Lady Russell's countenance that she had seen him.
6162
6163 He did not come however. Anne sometimes fancied she discerned him at a
6164 distance, but he never came. The anxious interval wore away
6165 unproductively. The others returned, the room filled again, benches
6166 were reclaimed and repossessed, and another hour of pleasure or of
6167 penance was to be sat out, another hour of music was to give delight or
6168 the gapes, as real or affected taste for it prevailed. To Anne, it
6169 chiefly wore the prospect of an hour of agitation. She could not quit
6170 that room in peace without seeing Captain Wentworth once more, without
6171 the interchange of one friendly look.
6172
6173 In re-settling themselves there were now many changes, the result of
6174 which was favourable for her. Colonel Wallis declined sitting down
6175 again, and Mr Elliot was invited by Elizabeth and Miss Carteret, in a
6176 manner not to be refused, to sit between them; and by some other
6177 removals, and a little scheming of her own, Anne was enabled to place
6178 herself much nearer the end of the bench than she had been before, much
6179 more within reach of a passer-by. She could not do so, without
6180 comparing herself with Miss Larolles, the inimitable Miss Larolles; but
6181 still she did it, and not with much happier effect; though by what
6182 seemed prosperity in the shape of an early abdication in her next
6183 neighbours, she found herself at the very end of the bench before the
6184 concert closed.
6185
6186 Such was her situation, with a vacant space at hand, when Captain
6187 Wentworth was again in sight. She saw him not far off. He saw her
6188 too; yet he looked grave, and seemed irresolute, and only by very slow
6189 degrees came at last near enough to speak to her. She felt that
6190 something must be the matter. The change was indubitable. The
6191 difference between his present air and what it had been in the Octagon
6192 Room was strikingly great. Why was it? She thought of her father, of
6193 Lady Russell. Could there have been any unpleasant glances? He began
6194 by speaking of the concert gravely, more like the Captain Wentworth of
6195 Uppercross; owned himself disappointed, had expected singing; and in
6196 short, must confess that he should not be sorry when it was over. Anne
6197 replied, and spoke in defence of the performance so well, and yet in
6198 allowance for his feelings so pleasantly, that his countenance
6199 improved, and he replied again with almost a smile. They talked for a
6200 few minutes more; the improvement held; he even looked down towards the
6201 bench, as if he saw a place on it well worth occupying; when at that
6202 moment a touch on her shoulder obliged Anne to turn round. It came
6203 from Mr Elliot. He begged her pardon, but she must be applied to, to
6204 explain Italian again. Miss Carteret was very anxious to have a
6205 general idea of what was next to be sung. Anne could not refuse; but
6206 never had she sacrificed to politeness with a more suffering spirit.
6207
6208 A few minutes, though as few as possible, were inevitably consumed; and
6209 when her own mistress again, when able to turn and look as she had done
6210 before, she found herself accosted by Captain Wentworth, in a reserved
6211 yet hurried sort of farewell. "He must wish her good night; he was
6212 going; he should get home as fast as he could."
6213
6214 "Is not this song worth staying for?" said Anne, suddenly struck by an
6215 idea which made her yet more anxious to be encouraging.
6216
6217 "No!" he replied impressively, "there is nothing worth my staying for;"
6218 and he was gone directly.
6219
6220 Jealousy of Mr Elliot! It was the only intelligible motive. Captain
6221 Wentworth jealous of her affection! Could she have believed it a week
6222 ago; three hours ago! For a moment the gratification was exquisite.
6223 But, alas! there were very different thoughts to succeed. How was such
6224 jealousy to be quieted? How was the truth to reach him? How, in all
6225 the peculiar disadvantages of their respective situations, would he
6226 ever learn of her real sentiments? It was misery to think of Mr
6227 Elliot's attentions. Their evil was incalculable.
6228
6229
6230
6231 Chapter 21
6232
6233
6234 Anne recollected with pleasure the next morning her promise of going to
6235 Mrs Smith, meaning that it should engage her from home at the time when
6236 Mr Elliot would be most likely to call; for to avoid Mr Elliot was
6237 almost a first object.
6238
6239 She felt a great deal of good-will towards him. In spite of the
6240 mischief of his attentions, she owed him gratitude and regard, perhaps
6241 compassion. She could not help thinking much of the extraordinary
6242 circumstances attending their acquaintance, of the right which he
6243 seemed to have to interest her, by everything in situation, by his own
6244 sentiments, by his early prepossession. It was altogether very
6245 extraordinary; flattering, but painful. There was much to regret. How
6246 she might have felt had there been no Captain Wentworth in the case,
6247 was not worth enquiry; for there was a Captain Wentworth; and be the
6248 conclusion of the present suspense good or bad, her affection would be
6249 his for ever. Their union, she believed, could not divide her more
6250 from other men, than their final separation.
6251
6252 Prettier musings of high-wrought love and eternal constancy, could
6253 never have passed along the streets of Bath, than Anne was sporting
6254 with from Camden Place to Westgate Buildings. It was almost enough to
6255 spread purification and perfume all the way.
6256
6257 She was sure of a pleasant reception; and her friend seemed this
6258 morning particularly obliged to her for coming, seemed hardly to have
6259 expected her, though it had been an appointment.
6260
6261 An account of the concert was immediately claimed; and Anne's
6262 recollections of the concert were quite happy enough to animate her
6263 features and make her rejoice to talk of it. All that she could tell
6264 she told most gladly, but the all was little for one who had been
6265 there, and unsatisfactory for such an enquirer as Mrs Smith, who had
6266 already heard, through the short cut of a laundress and a waiter,
6267 rather more of the general success and produce of the evening than Anne
6268 could relate, and who now asked in vain for several particulars of the
6269 company. Everybody of any consequence or notoriety in Bath was well
6270 know by name to Mrs Smith.
6271
6272 "The little Durands were there, I conclude," said she, "with their
6273 mouths open to catch the music, like unfledged sparrows ready to be
6274 fed. They never miss a concert."
6275
6276 "Yes; I did not see them myself, but I heard Mr Elliot say they were in
6277 the room."
6278
6279 "The Ibbotsons, were they there? and the two new beauties, with the
6280 tall Irish officer, who is talked of for one of them."
6281
6282 "I do not know. I do not think they were."
6283
6284 "Old Lady Mary Maclean? I need not ask after her. She never misses, I
6285 know; and you must have seen her. She must have been in your own
6286 circle; for as you went with Lady Dalrymple, you were in the seats of
6287 grandeur, round the orchestra, of course."
6288
6289 "No, that was what I dreaded. It would have been very unpleasant to me
6290 in every respect. But happily Lady Dalrymple always chooses to be
6291 farther off; and we were exceedingly well placed, that is, for hearing;
6292 I must not say for seeing, because I appear to have seen very little."
6293
6294 "Oh! you saw enough for your own amusement. I can understand. There
6295 is a sort of domestic enjoyment to be known even in a crowd, and this
6296 you had. You were a large party in yourselves, and you wanted nothing
6297 beyond."
6298
6299 "But I ought to have looked about me more," said Anne, conscious while
6300 she spoke that there had in fact been no want of looking about, that
6301 the object only had been deficient.
6302
6303 "No, no; you were better employed. You need not tell me that you had a
6304 pleasant evening. I see it in your eye. I perfectly see how the hours
6305 passed: that you had always something agreeable to listen to. In the
6306 intervals of the concert it was conversation."
6307
6308 Anne half smiled and said, "Do you see that in my eye?"
6309
6310 "Yes, I do. Your countenance perfectly informs me that you were in
6311 company last night with the person whom you think the most agreeable in
6312 the world, the person who interests you at this present time more than
6313 all the rest of the world put together."
6314
6315 A blush overspread Anne's cheeks. She could say nothing.
6316
6317 "And such being the case," continued Mrs Smith, after a short pause, "I
6318 hope you believe that I do know how to value your kindness in coming to
6319 me this morning. It is really very good of you to come and sit with
6320 me, when you must have so many pleasanter demands upon your time."
6321
6322 Anne heard nothing of this. She was still in the astonishment and
6323 confusion excited by her friend's penetration, unable to imagine how
6324 any report of Captain Wentworth could have reached her. After another
6325 short silence--
6326
6327 "Pray," said Mrs Smith, "is Mr Elliot aware of your acquaintance with
6328 me? Does he know that I am in Bath?"
6329
6330 "Mr Elliot!" repeated Anne, looking up surprised. A moment's
6331 reflection shewed her the mistake she had been under. She caught it
6332 instantaneously; and recovering her courage with the feeling of safety,
6333 soon added, more composedly, "Are you acquainted with Mr Elliot?"
6334
6335 "I have been a good deal acquainted with him," replied Mrs Smith,
6336 gravely, "but it seems worn out now. It is a great while since we met."
6337
6338 "I was not at all aware of this. You never mentioned it before. Had I
6339 known it, I would have had the pleasure of talking to him about you."
6340
6341 "To confess the truth," said Mrs Smith, assuming her usual air of
6342 cheerfulness, "that is exactly the pleasure I want you to have. I want
6343 you to talk about me to Mr Elliot. I want your interest with him. He
6344 can be of essential service to me; and if you would have the goodness,
6345 my dear Miss Elliot, to make it an object to yourself, of course it is
6346 done."
6347
6348 "I should be extremely happy; I hope you cannot doubt my willingness to
6349 be of even the slightest use to you," replied Anne; "but I suspect that
6350 you are considering me as having a higher claim on Mr Elliot, a greater
6351 right to influence him, than is really the case. I am sure you have,
6352 somehow or other, imbibed such a notion. You must consider me only as
6353 Mr Elliot's relation. If in that light there is anything which you
6354 suppose his cousin might fairly ask of him, I beg you would not
6355 hesitate to employ me."
6356
6357 Mrs Smith gave her a penetrating glance, and then, smiling, said--
6358
6359 "I have been a little premature, I perceive; I beg your pardon. I
6360 ought to have waited for official information. But now, my dear Miss
6361 Elliot, as an old friend, do give me a hint as to when I may speak.
6362 Next week? To be sure by next week I may be allowed to think it all
6363 settled, and build my own selfish schemes on Mr Elliot's good fortune."
6364
6365 "No," replied Anne, "nor next week, nor next, nor next. I assure you
6366 that nothing of the sort you are thinking of will be settled any week.
6367 I am not going to marry Mr Elliot. I should like to know why you
6368 imagine I am?"
6369
6370 Mrs Smith looked at her again, looked earnestly, smiled, shook her
6371 head, and exclaimed--
6372
6373 "Now, how I do wish I understood you! How I do wish I knew what you
6374 were at! I have a great idea that you do not design to be cruel, when
6375 the right moment occurs. Till it does come, you know, we women never
6376 mean to have anybody. It is a thing of course among us, that every man
6377 is refused, till he offers. But why should you be cruel? Let me plead
6378 for my--present friend I cannot call him, but for my former friend.
6379 Where can you look for a more suitable match? Where could you expect a
6380 more gentlemanlike, agreeable man? Let me recommend Mr Elliot. I am
6381 sure you hear nothing but good of him from Colonel Wallis; and who can
6382 know him better than Colonel Wallis?"
6383
6384 "My dear Mrs Smith, Mr Elliot's wife has not been dead much above half
6385 a year. He ought not to be supposed to be paying his addresses to any
6386 one."
6387
6388 "Oh! if these are your only objections," cried Mrs Smith, archly, "Mr
6389 Elliot is safe, and I shall give myself no more trouble about him. Do
6390 not forget me when you are married, that's all. Let him know me to be
6391 a friend of yours, and then he will think little of the trouble
6392 required, which it is very natural for him now, with so many affairs
6393 and engagements of his own, to avoid and get rid of as he can; very
6394 natural, perhaps. Ninety-nine out of a hundred would do the same. Of
6395 course, he cannot be aware of the importance to me. Well, my dear Miss
6396 Elliot, I hope and trust you will be very happy. Mr Elliot has sense
6397 to understand the value of such a woman. Your peace will not be
6398 shipwrecked as mine has been. You are safe in all worldly matters, and
6399 safe in his character. He will not be led astray; he will not be
6400 misled by others to his ruin."
6401
6402 "No," said Anne, "I can readily believe all that of my cousin. He
6403 seems to have a calm decided temper, not at all open to dangerous
6404 impressions. I consider him with great respect. I have no reason,
6405 from any thing that has fallen within my observation, to do otherwise.
6406 But I have not known him long; and he is not a man, I think, to be
6407 known intimately soon. Will not this manner of speaking of him, Mrs
6408 Smith, convince you that he is nothing to me? Surely this must be calm
6409 enough. And, upon my word, he is nothing to me. Should he ever
6410 propose to me (which I have very little reason to imagine he has any
6411 thought of doing), I shall not accept him. I assure you I shall not.
6412 I assure you, Mr Elliot had not the share which you have been
6413 supposing, in whatever pleasure the concert of last night might afford:
6414 not Mr Elliot; it is not Mr Elliot that--"
6415
6416 She stopped, regretting with a deep blush that she had implied so much;
6417 but less would hardly have been sufficient. Mrs Smith would hardly
6418 have believed so soon in Mr Elliot's failure, but from the perception
6419 of there being a somebody else. As it was, she instantly submitted,
6420 and with all the semblance of seeing nothing beyond; and Anne, eager to
6421 escape farther notice, was impatient to know why Mrs Smith should have
6422 fancied she was to marry Mr Elliot; where she could have received the
6423 idea, or from whom she could have heard it.
6424
6425 "Do tell me how it first came into your head."
6426
6427 "It first came into my head," replied Mrs Smith, "upon finding how much
6428 you were together, and feeling it to be the most probable thing in the
6429 world to be wished for by everybody belonging to either of you; and you
6430 may depend upon it that all your acquaintance have disposed of you in
6431 the same way. But I never heard it spoken of till two days ago."
6432
6433 "And has it indeed been spoken of?"
6434
6435 "Did you observe the woman who opened the door to you when you called
6436 yesterday?"
6437
6438 "No. Was not it Mrs Speed, as usual, or the maid? I observed no one
6439 in particular."
6440
6441 "It was my friend Mrs Rooke; Nurse Rooke; who, by-the-bye, had a great
6442 curiosity to see you, and was delighted to be in the way to let you in.
6443 She came away from Marlborough Buildings only on Sunday; and she it was
6444 who told me you were to marry Mr Elliot. She had had it from Mrs
6445 Wallis herself, which did not seem bad authority. She sat an hour with
6446 me on Monday evening, and gave me the whole history." "The whole
6447 history," repeated Anne, laughing. "She could not make a very long
6448 history, I think, of one such little article of unfounded news."
6449
6450 Mrs Smith said nothing.
6451
6452 "But," continued Anne, presently, "though there is no truth in my
6453 having this claim on Mr Elliot, I should be extremely happy to be of
6454 use to you in any way that I could. Shall I mention to him your being
6455 in Bath? Shall I take any message?"
6456
6457 "No, I thank you: no, certainly not. In the warmth of the moment, and
6458 under a mistaken impression, I might, perhaps, have endeavoured to
6459 interest you in some circumstances; but not now. No, I thank you, I
6460 have nothing to trouble you with."
6461
6462 "I think you spoke of having known Mr Elliot many years?"
6463
6464 "I did."
6465
6466 "Not before he was married, I suppose?"
6467
6468 "Yes; he was not married when I knew him first."
6469
6470 "And--were you much acquainted?"
6471
6472 "Intimately."
6473
6474 "Indeed! Then do tell me what he was at that time of life. I have a
6475 great curiosity to know what Mr Elliot was as a very young man. Was he
6476 at all such as he appears now?"
6477
6478 "I have not seen Mr Elliot these three years," was Mrs Smith's answer,
6479 given so gravely that it was impossible to pursue the subject farther;
6480 and Anne felt that she had gained nothing but an increase of curiosity.
6481 They were both silent: Mrs Smith very thoughtful. At last--
6482
6483 "I beg your pardon, my dear Miss Elliot," she cried, in her natural
6484 tone of cordiality, "I beg your pardon for the short answers I have
6485 been giving you, but I have been uncertain what I ought to do. I have
6486 been doubting and considering as to what I ought to tell you. There
6487 were many things to be taken into the account. One hates to be
6488 officious, to be giving bad impressions, making mischief. Even the
6489 smooth surface of family-union seems worth preserving, though there may
6490 be nothing durable beneath. However, I have determined; I think I am
6491 right; I think you ought to be made acquainted with Mr Elliot's real
6492 character. Though I fully believe that, at present, you have not the
6493 smallest intention of accepting him, there is no saying what may
6494 happen. You might, some time or other, be differently affected towards
6495 him. Hear the truth, therefore, now, while you are unprejudiced. Mr
6496 Elliot is a man without heart or conscience; a designing, wary,
6497 cold-blooded being, who thinks only of himself; whom for his own
6498 interest or ease, would be guilty of any cruelty, or any treachery,
6499 that could be perpetrated without risk of his general character. He
6500 has no feeling for others. Those whom he has been the chief cause of
6501 leading into ruin, he can neglect and desert without the smallest
6502 compunction. He is totally beyond the reach of any sentiment of
6503 justice or compassion. Oh! he is black at heart, hollow and black!"
6504
6505 Anne's astonished air, and exclamation of wonder, made her pause, and
6506 in a calmer manner, she added,
6507
6508 "My expressions startle you. You must allow for an injured, angry
6509 woman. But I will try to command myself. I will not abuse him. I
6510 will only tell you what I have found him. Facts shall speak. He was
6511 the intimate friend of my dear husband, who trusted and loved him, and
6512 thought him as good as himself. The intimacy had been formed before
6513 our marriage. I found them most intimate friends; and I, too, became
6514 excessively pleased with Mr Elliot, and entertained the highest opinion
6515 of him. At nineteen, you know, one does not think very seriously; but
6516 Mr Elliot appeared to me quite as good as others, and much more
6517 agreeable than most others, and we were almost always together. We
6518 were principally in town, living in very good style. He was then the
6519 inferior in circumstances; he was then the poor one; he had chambers in
6520 the Temple, and it was as much as he could do to support the appearance
6521 of a gentleman. He had always a home with us whenever he chose it; he
6522 was always welcome; he was like a brother. My poor Charles, who had
6523 the finest, most generous spirit in the world, would have divided his
6524 last farthing with him; and I know that his purse was open to him; I
6525 know that he often assisted him."
6526
6527 "This must have been about that very period of Mr Elliot's life," said
6528 Anne, "which has always excited my particular curiosity. It must have
6529 been about the same time that he became known to my father and sister.
6530 I never knew him myself; I only heard of him; but there was a something
6531 in his conduct then, with regard to my father and sister, and
6532 afterwards in the circumstances of his marriage, which I never could
6533 quite reconcile with present times. It seemed to announce a different
6534 sort of man."
6535
6536 "I know it all, I know it all," cried Mrs Smith. "He had been
6537 introduced to Sir Walter and your sister before I was acquainted with
6538 him, but I heard him speak of them for ever. I know he was invited and
6539 encouraged, and I know he did not choose to go. I can satisfy you,
6540 perhaps, on points which you would little expect; and as to his
6541 marriage, I knew all about it at the time. I was privy to all the fors
6542 and againsts; I was the friend to whom he confided his hopes and plans;
6543 and though I did not know his wife previously, her inferior situation
6544 in society, indeed, rendered that impossible, yet I knew her all her
6545 life afterwards, or at least till within the last two years of her
6546 life, and can answer any question you may wish to put."
6547
6548 "Nay," said Anne, "I have no particular enquiry to make about her. I
6549 have always understood they were not a happy couple. But I should like
6550 to know why, at that time of his life, he should slight my father's
6551 acquaintance as he did. My father was certainly disposed to take very
6552 kind and proper notice of him. Why did Mr Elliot draw back?"
6553
6554 "Mr Elliot," replied Mrs Smith, "at that period of his life, had one
6555 object in view: to make his fortune, and by a rather quicker process
6556 than the law. He was determined to make it by marriage. He was
6557 determined, at least, not to mar it by an imprudent marriage; and I
6558 know it was his belief (whether justly or not, of course I cannot
6559 decide), that your father and sister, in their civilities and
6560 invitations, were designing a match between the heir and the young
6561 lady, and it was impossible that such a match should have answered his
6562 ideas of wealth and independence. That was his motive for drawing
6563 back, I can assure you. He told me the whole story. He had no
6564 concealments with me. It was curious, that having just left you behind
6565 me in Bath, my first and principal acquaintance on marrying should be
6566 your cousin; and that, through him, I should be continually hearing of
6567 your father and sister. He described one Miss Elliot, and I thought
6568 very affectionately of the other."
6569
6570 "Perhaps," cried Anne, struck by a sudden idea, "you sometimes spoke of
6571 me to Mr Elliot?"
6572
6573 "To be sure I did; very often. I used to boast of my own Anne Elliot,
6574 and vouch for your being a very different creature from--"
6575
6576 She checked herself just in time.
6577
6578 "This accounts for something which Mr Elliot said last night," cried
6579 Anne. "This explains it. I found he had been used to hear of me. I
6580 could not comprehend how. What wild imaginations one forms where dear
6581 self is concerned! How sure to be mistaken! But I beg your pardon; I
6582 have interrupted you. Mr Elliot married then completely for money?
6583 The circumstances, probably, which first opened your eyes to his
6584 character."
6585
6586 Mrs Smith hesitated a little here. "Oh! those things are too common.
6587 When one lives in the world, a man or woman's marrying for money is too
6588 common to strike one as it ought. I was very young, and associated
6589 only with the young, and we were a thoughtless, gay set, without any
6590 strict rules of conduct. We lived for enjoyment. I think differently
6591 now; time and sickness and sorrow have given me other notions; but at
6592 that period I must own I saw nothing reprehensible in what Mr Elliot
6593 was doing. 'To do the best for himself,' passed as a duty."
6594
6595 "But was not she a very low woman?"
6596
6597 "Yes; which I objected to, but he would not regard. Money, money, was
6598 all that he wanted. Her father was a grazier, her grandfather had been
6599 a butcher, but that was all nothing. She was a fine woman, had had a
6600 decent education, was brought forward by some cousins, thrown by chance
6601 into Mr Elliot's company, and fell in love with him; and not a
6602 difficulty or a scruple was there on his side, with respect to her
6603 birth. All his caution was spent in being secured of the real amount
6604 of her fortune, before he committed himself. Depend upon it, whatever
6605 esteem Mr Elliot may have for his own situation in life now, as a young
6606 man he had not the smallest value for it. His chance for the Kellynch
6607 estate was something, but all the honour of the family he held as cheap
6608 as dirt. I have often heard him declare, that if baronetcies were
6609 saleable, anybody should have his for fifty pounds, arms and motto,
6610 name and livery included; but I will not pretend to repeat half that I
6611 used to hear him say on that subject. It would not be fair; and yet
6612 you ought to have proof, for what is all this but assertion, and you
6613 shall have proof."
6614
6615 "Indeed, my dear Mrs Smith, I want none," cried Anne. "You have
6616 asserted nothing contradictory to what Mr Elliot appeared to be some
6617 years ago. This is all in confirmation, rather, of what we used to
6618 hear and believe. I am more curious to know why he should be so
6619 different now."
6620
6621 "But for my satisfaction, if you will have the goodness to ring for
6622 Mary; stay: I am sure you will have the still greater goodness of
6623 going yourself into my bedroom, and bringing me the small inlaid box
6624 which you will find on the upper shelf of the closet."
6625
6626 Anne, seeing her friend to be earnestly bent on it, did as she was
6627 desired. The box was brought and placed before her, and Mrs Smith,
6628 sighing over it as she unlocked it, said--
6629
6630 "This is full of papers belonging to him, to my husband; a small
6631 portion only of what I had to look over when I lost him. The letter I
6632 am looking for was one written by Mr Elliot to him before our marriage,
6633 and happened to be saved; why, one can hardly imagine. But he was
6634 careless and immethodical, like other men, about those things; and when
6635 I came to examine his papers, I found it with others still more
6636 trivial, from different people scattered here and there, while many
6637 letters and memorandums of real importance had been destroyed. Here it
6638 is; I would not burn it, because being even then very little satisfied
6639 with Mr Elliot, I was determined to preserve every document of former
6640 intimacy. I have now another motive for being glad that I can produce
6641 it."
6642
6643 This was the letter, directed to "Charles Smith, Esq. Tunbridge Wells,"
6644 and dated from London, as far back as July, 1803:--
6645
6646 "Dear Smith,--I have received yours. Your kindness almost overpowers
6647 me. I wish nature had made such hearts as yours more common, but I
6648 have lived three-and-twenty years in the world, and have seen none like
6649 it. At present, believe me, I have no need of your services, being in
6650 cash again. Give me joy: I have got rid of Sir Walter and Miss. They
6651 are gone back to Kellynch, and almost made me swear to visit them this
6652 summer; but my first visit to Kellynch will be with a surveyor, to tell
6653 me how to bring it with best advantage to the hammer. The baronet,
6654 nevertheless, is not unlikely to marry again; he is quite fool enough.
6655 If he does, however, they will leave me in peace, which may be a decent
6656 equivalent for the reversion. He is worse than last year.
6657
6658 "I wish I had any name but Elliot. I am sick of it. The name of
6659 Walter I can drop, thank God! and I desire you will never insult me
6660 with my second W. again, meaning, for the rest of my life, to be only
6661 yours truly,--Wm. Elliot."
6662
6663 Such a letter could not be read without putting Anne in a glow; and Mrs
6664 Smith, observing the high colour in her face, said--
6665
6666 "The language, I know, is highly disrespectful. Though I have forgot
6667 the exact terms, I have a perfect impression of the general meaning.
6668 But it shows you the man. Mark his professions to my poor husband.
6669 Can any thing be stronger?"
6670
6671 Anne could not immediately get over the shock and mortification of
6672 finding such words applied to her father. She was obliged to recollect
6673 that her seeing the letter was a violation of the laws of honour, that
6674 no one ought to be judged or to be known by such testimonies, that no
6675 private correspondence could bear the eye of others, before she could
6676 recover calmness enough to return the letter which she had been
6677 meditating over, and say--
6678
6679 "Thank you. This is full proof undoubtedly; proof of every thing you
6680 were saying. But why be acquainted with us now?"
6681
6682 "I can explain this too," cried Mrs Smith, smiling.
6683
6684 "Can you really?"
6685
6686 "Yes. I have shewn you Mr Elliot as he was a dozen years ago, and I
6687 will shew him as he is now. I cannot produce written proof again, but
6688 I can give as authentic oral testimony as you can desire, of what he is
6689 now wanting, and what he is now doing. He is no hypocrite now. He
6690 truly wants to marry you. His present attentions to your family are
6691 very sincere: quite from the heart. I will give you my authority: his
6692 friend Colonel Wallis."
6693
6694 "Colonel Wallis! you are acquainted with him?"
6695
6696 "No. It does not come to me in quite so direct a line as that; it
6697 takes a bend or two, but nothing of consequence. The stream is as good
6698 as at first; the little rubbish it collects in the turnings is easily
6699 moved away. Mr Elliot talks unreservedly to Colonel Wallis of his
6700 views on you, which said Colonel Wallis, I imagine to be, in himself, a
6701 sensible, careful, discerning sort of character; but Colonel Wallis has
6702 a very pretty silly wife, to whom he tells things which he had better
6703 not, and he repeats it all to her. She in the overflowing spirits of
6704 her recovery, repeats it all to her nurse; and the nurse knowing my
6705 acquaintance with you, very naturally brings it all to me. On Monday
6706 evening, my good friend Mrs Rooke let me thus much into the secrets of
6707 Marlborough Buildings. When I talked of a whole history, therefore,
6708 you see I was not romancing so much as you supposed."
6709
6710 "My dear Mrs Smith, your authority is deficient. This will not do. Mr
6711 Elliot's having any views on me will not in the least account for the
6712 efforts he made towards a reconciliation with my father. That was all
6713 prior to my coming to Bath. I found them on the most friendly terms
6714 when I arrived."
6715
6716 "I know you did; I know it all perfectly, but--"
6717
6718 "Indeed, Mrs Smith, we must not expect to get real information in such
6719 a line. Facts or opinions which are to pass through the hands of so
6720 many, to be misconceived by folly in one, and ignorance in another, can
6721 hardly have much truth left."
6722
6723 "Only give me a hearing. You will soon be able to judge of the general
6724 credit due, by listening to some particulars which you can yourself
6725 immediately contradict or confirm. Nobody supposes that you were his
6726 first inducement. He had seen you indeed, before he came to Bath, and
6727 admired you, but without knowing it to be you. So says my historian,
6728 at least. Is this true? Did he see you last summer or autumn,
6729 'somewhere down in the west,' to use her own words, without knowing it
6730 to be you?"
6731
6732 "He certainly did. So far it is very true. At Lyme. I happened to be
6733 at Lyme."
6734
6735 "Well," continued Mrs Smith, triumphantly, "grant my friend the credit
6736 due to the establishment of the first point asserted. He saw you then
6737 at Lyme, and liked you so well as to be exceedingly pleased to meet
6738 with you again in Camden Place, as Miss Anne Elliot, and from that
6739 moment, I have no doubt, had a double motive in his visits there. But
6740 there was another, and an earlier, which I will now explain. If there
6741 is anything in my story which you know to be either false or
6742 improbable, stop me. My account states, that your sister's friend, the
6743 lady now staying with you, whom I have heard you mention, came to Bath
6744 with Miss Elliot and Sir Walter as long ago as September (in short when
6745 they first came themselves), and has been staying there ever since;
6746 that she is a clever, insinuating, handsome woman, poor and plausible,
6747 and altogether such in situation and manner, as to give a general idea,
6748 among Sir Walter's acquaintance, of her meaning to be Lady Elliot, and
6749 as general a surprise that Miss Elliot should be apparently, blind to
6750 the danger."
6751
6752 Here Mrs Smith paused a moment; but Anne had not a word to say, and she
6753 continued--
6754
6755 "This was the light in which it appeared to those who knew the family,
6756 long before you returned to it; and Colonel Wallis had his eye upon
6757 your father enough to be sensible of it, though he did not then visit
6758 in Camden Place; but his regard for Mr Elliot gave him an interest in
6759 watching all that was going on there, and when Mr Elliot came to Bath
6760 for a day or two, as he happened to do a little before Christmas,
6761 Colonel Wallis made him acquainted with the appearance of things, and
6762 the reports beginning to prevail. Now you are to understand, that time
6763 had worked a very material change in Mr Elliot's opinions as to the
6764 value of a baronetcy. Upon all points of blood and connexion he is a
6765 completely altered man. Having long had as much money as he could
6766 spend, nothing to wish for on the side of avarice or indulgence, he has
6767 been gradually learning to pin his happiness upon the consequence he is
6768 heir to. I thought it coming on before our acquaintance ceased, but it
6769 is now a confirmed feeling. He cannot bear the idea of not being Sir
6770 William. You may guess, therefore, that the news he heard from his
6771 friend could not be very agreeable, and you may guess what it produced;
6772 the resolution of coming back to Bath as soon as possible, and of
6773 fixing himself here for a time, with the view of renewing his former
6774 acquaintance, and recovering such a footing in the family as might give
6775 him the means of ascertaining the degree of his danger, and of
6776 circumventing the lady if he found it material. This was agreed upon
6777 between the two friends as the only thing to be done; and Colonel
6778 Wallis was to assist in every way that he could. He was to be
6779 introduced, and Mrs Wallis was to be introduced, and everybody was to
6780 be introduced. Mr Elliot came back accordingly; and on application was
6781 forgiven, as you know, and re-admitted into the family; and there it
6782 was his constant object, and his only object (till your arrival added
6783 another motive), to watch Sir Walter and Mrs Clay. He omitted no
6784 opportunity of being with them, threw himself in their way, called at
6785 all hours; but I need not be particular on this subject. You can
6786 imagine what an artful man would do; and with this guide, perhaps, may
6787 recollect what you have seen him do."
6788
6789 "Yes," said Anne, "you tell me nothing which does not accord with what
6790 I have known, or could imagine. There is always something offensive in
6791 the details of cunning. The manoeuvres of selfishness and duplicity
6792 must ever be revolting, but I have heard nothing which really surprises
6793 me. I know those who would be shocked by such a representation of Mr
6794 Elliot, who would have difficulty in believing it; but I have never
6795 been satisfied. I have always wanted some other motive for his conduct
6796 than appeared. I should like to know his present opinion, as to the
6797 probability of the event he has been in dread of; whether he considers
6798 the danger to be lessening or not."
6799
6800 "Lessening, I understand," replied Mrs Smith. "He thinks Mrs Clay
6801 afraid of him, aware that he sees through her, and not daring to
6802 proceed as she might do in his absence. But since he must be absent
6803 some time or other, I do not perceive how he can ever be secure while
6804 she holds her present influence. Mrs Wallis has an amusing idea, as
6805 nurse tells me, that it is to be put into the marriage articles when
6806 you and Mr Elliot marry, that your father is not to marry Mrs Clay. A
6807 scheme, worthy of Mrs Wallis's understanding, by all accounts; but my
6808 sensible nurse Rooke sees the absurdity of it. 'Why, to be sure,
6809 ma'am,' said she, 'it would not prevent his marrying anybody else.'
6810 And, indeed, to own the truth, I do not think nurse, in her heart, is a
6811 very strenuous opposer of Sir Walter's making a second match. She must
6812 be allowed to be a favourer of matrimony, you know; and (since self
6813 will intrude) who can say that she may not have some flying visions of
6814 attending the next Lady Elliot, through Mrs Wallis's recommendation?"
6815
6816 "I am very glad to know all this," said Anne, after a little
6817 thoughtfulness. "It will be more painful to me in some respects to be
6818 in company with him, but I shall know better what to do. My line of
6819 conduct will be more direct. Mr Elliot is evidently a disingenuous,
6820 artificial, worldly man, who has never had any better principle to
6821 guide him than selfishness."
6822
6823 But Mr Elliot was not done with. Mrs Smith had been carried away from
6824 her first direction, and Anne had forgotten, in the interest of her own
6825 family concerns, how much had been originally implied against him; but
6826 her attention was now called to the explanation of those first hints,
6827 and she listened to a recital which, if it did not perfectly justify
6828 the unqualified bitterness of Mrs Smith, proved him to have been very
6829 unfeeling in his conduct towards her; very deficient both in justice
6830 and compassion.
6831
6832 She learned that (the intimacy between them continuing unimpaired by Mr
6833 Elliot's marriage) they had been as before always together, and Mr
6834 Elliot had led his friend into expenses much beyond his fortune. Mrs
6835 Smith did not want to take blame to herself, and was most tender of
6836 throwing any on her husband; but Anne could collect that their income
6837 had never been equal to their style of living, and that from the first
6838 there had been a great deal of general and joint extravagance. From
6839 his wife's account of him she could discern Mr Smith to have been a man
6840 of warm feelings, easy temper, careless habits, and not strong
6841 understanding, much more amiable than his friend, and very unlike him,
6842 led by him, and probably despised by him. Mr Elliot, raised by his
6843 marriage to great affluence, and disposed to every gratification of
6844 pleasure and vanity which could be commanded without involving himself,
6845 (for with all his self-indulgence he had become a prudent man), and
6846 beginning to be rich, just as his friend ought to have found himself to
6847 be poor, seemed to have had no concern at all for that friend's
6848 probable finances, but, on the contrary, had been prompting and
6849 encouraging expenses which could end only in ruin; and the Smiths
6850 accordingly had been ruined.
6851
6852 The husband had died just in time to be spared the full knowledge of
6853 it. They had previously known embarrassments enough to try the
6854 friendship of their friends, and to prove that Mr Elliot's had better
6855 not be tried; but it was not till his death that the wretched state of
6856 his affairs was fully known. With a confidence in Mr Elliot's regard,
6857 more creditable to his feelings than his judgement, Mr Smith had
6858 appointed him the executor of his will; but Mr Elliot would not act,
6859 and the difficulties and distress which this refusal had heaped on her,
6860 in addition to the inevitable sufferings of her situation, had been
6861 such as could not be related without anguish of spirit, or listened to
6862 without corresponding indignation.
6863
6864 Anne was shewn some letters of his on the occasion, answers to urgent
6865 applications from Mrs Smith, which all breathed the same stern
6866 resolution of not engaging in a fruitless trouble, and, under a cold
6867 civility, the same hard-hearted indifference to any of the evils it
6868 might bring on her. It was a dreadful picture of ingratitude and
6869 inhumanity; and Anne felt, at some moments, that no flagrant open crime
6870 could have been worse. She had a great deal to listen to; all the
6871 particulars of past sad scenes, all the minutiae of distress upon
6872 distress, which in former conversations had been merely hinted at, were
6873 dwelt on now with a natural indulgence. Anne could perfectly
6874 comprehend the exquisite relief, and was only the more inclined to
6875 wonder at the composure of her friend's usual state of mind.
6876
6877 There was one circumstance in the history of her grievances of
6878 particular irritation. She had good reason to believe that some
6879 property of her husband in the West Indies, which had been for many
6880 years under a sort of sequestration for the payment of its own
6881 incumbrances, might be recoverable by proper measures; and this
6882 property, though not large, would be enough to make her comparatively
6883 rich. But there was nobody to stir in it. Mr Elliot would do nothing,
6884 and she could do nothing herself, equally disabled from personal
6885 exertion by her state of bodily weakness, and from employing others by
6886 her want of money. She had no natural connexions to assist her even
6887 with their counsel, and she could not afford to purchase the assistance
6888 of the law. This was a cruel aggravation of actually straitened means.
6889 To feel that she ought to be in better circumstances, that a little
6890 trouble in the right place might do it, and to fear that delay might be
6891 even weakening her claims, was hard to bear.
6892
6893 It was on this point that she had hoped to engage Anne's good offices
6894 with Mr Elliot. She had previously, in the anticipation of their
6895 marriage, been very apprehensive of losing her friend by it; but on
6896 being assured that he could have made no attempt of that nature, since
6897 he did not even know her to be in Bath, it immediately occurred, that
6898 something might be done in her favour by the influence of the woman he
6899 loved, and she had been hastily preparing to interest Anne's feelings,
6900 as far as the observances due to Mr Elliot's character would allow,
6901 when Anne's refutation of the supposed engagement changed the face of
6902 everything; and while it took from her the new-formed hope of
6903 succeeding in the object of her first anxiety, left her at least the
6904 comfort of telling the whole story her own way.
6905
6906 After listening to this full description of Mr Elliot, Anne could not
6907 but express some surprise at Mrs Smith's having spoken of him so
6908 favourably in the beginning of their conversation. "She had seemed to
6909 recommend and praise him!"
6910
6911 "My dear," was Mrs Smith's reply, "there was nothing else to be done.
6912 I considered your marrying him as certain, though he might not yet have
6913 made the offer, and I could no more speak the truth of him, than if he
6914 had been your husband. My heart bled for you, as I talked of
6915 happiness; and yet he is sensible, he is agreeable, and with such a
6916 woman as you, it was not absolutely hopeless. He was very unkind to
6917 his first wife. They were wretched together. But she was too ignorant
6918 and giddy for respect, and he had never loved her. I was willing to
6919 hope that you must fare better."
6920
6921 Anne could just acknowledge within herself such a possibility of having
6922 been induced to marry him, as made her shudder at the idea of the
6923 misery which must have followed. It was just possible that she might
6924 have been persuaded by Lady Russell! And under such a supposition,
6925 which would have been most miserable, when time had disclosed all, too
6926 late?
6927
6928 It was very desirable that Lady Russell should be no longer deceived;
6929 and one of the concluding arrangements of this important conference,
6930 which carried them through the greater part of the morning, was, that
6931 Anne had full liberty to communicate to her friend everything relative
6932 to Mrs Smith, in which his conduct was involved.
6933
6934
6935
6936 Chapter 22
6937
6938
6939 Anne went home to think over all that she had heard. In one point, her
6940 feelings were relieved by this knowledge of Mr Elliot. There was no
6941 longer anything of tenderness due to him. He stood as opposed to
6942 Captain Wentworth, in all his own unwelcome obtrusiveness; and the evil
6943 of his attentions last night, the irremediable mischief he might have
6944 done, was considered with sensations unqualified, unperplexed. Pity
6945 for him was all over. But this was the only point of relief. In every
6946 other respect, in looking around her, or penetrating forward, she saw
6947 more to distrust and to apprehend. She was concerned for the
6948 disappointment and pain Lady Russell would be feeling; for the
6949 mortifications which must be hanging over her father and sister, and
6950 had all the distress of foreseeing many evils, without knowing how to
6951 avert any one of them. She was most thankful for her own knowledge of
6952 him. She had never considered herself as entitled to reward for not
6953 slighting an old friend like Mrs Smith, but here was a reward indeed
6954 springing from it! Mrs Smith had been able to tell her what no one
6955 else could have done. Could the knowledge have been extended through
6956 her family? But this was a vain idea. She must talk to Lady Russell,
6957 tell her, consult with her, and having done her best, wait the event
6958 with as much composure as possible; and after all, her greatest want of
6959 composure would be in that quarter of the mind which could not be
6960 opened to Lady Russell; in that flow of anxieties and fears which must
6961 be all to herself.
6962
6963
6964 She found, on reaching home, that she had, as she intended, escaped
6965 seeing Mr Elliot; that he had called and paid them a long morning
6966 visit; but hardly had she congratulated herself, and felt safe, when
6967 she heard that he was coming again in the evening.
6968
6969 "I had not the smallest intention of asking him," said Elizabeth, with
6970 affected carelessness, "but he gave so many hints; so Mrs Clay says, at
6971 least."
6972
6973 "Indeed, I do say it. I never saw anybody in my life spell harder for
6974 an invitation. Poor man! I was really in pain for him; for your
6975 hard-hearted sister, Miss Anne, seems bent on cruelty."
6976
6977 "Oh!" cried Elizabeth, "I have been rather too much used to the game to
6978 be soon overcome by a gentleman's hints. However, when I found how
6979 excessively he was regretting that he should miss my father this
6980 morning, I gave way immediately, for I would never really omit an
6981 opportunity of bringing him and Sir Walter together. They appear to so
6982 much advantage in company with each other. Each behaving so
6983 pleasantly. Mr Elliot looking up with so much respect."
6984
6985 "Quite delightful!" cried Mrs Clay, not daring, however, to turn her
6986 eyes towards Anne. "Exactly like father and son! Dear Miss Elliot,
6987 may I not say father and son?"
6988
6989 "Oh! I lay no embargo on any body's words. If you will have such
6990 ideas! But, upon my word, I am scarcely sensible of his attentions
6991 being beyond those of other men."
6992
6993 "My dear Miss Elliot!" exclaimed Mrs Clay, lifting her hands and eyes,
6994 and sinking all the rest of her astonishment in a convenient silence.
6995
6996 "Well, my dear Penelope, you need not be so alarmed about him. I did
6997 invite him, you know. I sent him away with smiles. When I found he
6998 was really going to his friends at Thornberry Park for the whole day
6999 to-morrow, I had compassion on him."
7000
7001 Anne admired the good acting of the friend, in being able to shew such
7002 pleasure as she did, in the expectation and in the actual arrival of
7003 the very person whose presence must really be interfering with her
7004 prime object. It was impossible but that Mrs Clay must hate the sight
7005 of Mr Elliot; and yet she could assume a most obliging, placid look,
7006 and appear quite satisfied with the curtailed license of devoting
7007 herself only half as much to Sir Walter as she would have done
7008 otherwise.
7009
7010 To Anne herself it was most distressing to see Mr Elliot enter the
7011 room; and quite painful to have him approach and speak to her. She had
7012 been used before to feel that he could not be always quite sincere, but
7013 now she saw insincerity in everything. His attentive deference to her
7014 father, contrasted with his former language, was odious; and when she
7015 thought of his cruel conduct towards Mrs Smith, she could hardly bear
7016 the sight of his present smiles and mildness, or the sound of his
7017 artificial good sentiments.
7018
7019 She meant to avoid any such alteration of manners as might provoke a
7020 remonstrance on his side. It was a great object to her to escape all
7021 enquiry or eclat; but it was her intention to be as decidedly cool to
7022 him as might be compatible with their relationship; and to retrace, as
7023 quietly as she could, the few steps of unnecessary intimacy she had
7024 been gradually led along. She was accordingly more guarded, and more
7025 cool, than she had been the night before.
7026
7027 He wanted to animate her curiosity again as to how and where he could
7028 have heard her formerly praised; wanted very much to be gratified by
7029 more solicitation; but the charm was broken: he found that the heat and
7030 animation of a public room was necessary to kindle his modest cousin's
7031 vanity; he found, at least, that it was not to be done now, by any of
7032 those attempts which he could hazard among the too-commanding claims of
7033 the others. He little surmised that it was a subject acting now
7034 exactly against his interest, bringing immediately to her thoughts all
7035 those parts of his conduct which were least excusable.
7036
7037 She had some satisfaction in finding that he was really going out of
7038 Bath the next morning, going early, and that he would be gone the
7039 greater part of two days. He was invited again to Camden Place the
7040 very evening of his return; but from Thursday to Saturday evening his
7041 absence was certain. It was bad enough that a Mrs Clay should be
7042 always before her; but that a deeper hypocrite should be added to their
7043 party, seemed the destruction of everything like peace and comfort. It
7044 was so humiliating to reflect on the constant deception practised on
7045 her father and Elizabeth; to consider the various sources of
7046 mortification preparing for them! Mrs Clay's selfishness was not so
7047 complicate nor so revolting as his; and Anne would have compounded for
7048 the marriage at once, with all its evils, to be clear of Mr Elliot's
7049 subtleties in endeavouring to prevent it.
7050
7051 On Friday morning she meant to go very early to Lady Russell, and
7052 accomplish the necessary communication; and she would have gone
7053 directly after breakfast, but that Mrs Clay was also going out on some
7054 obliging purpose of saving her sister trouble, which determined her to
7055 wait till she might be safe from such a companion. She saw Mrs Clay
7056 fairly off, therefore, before she began to talk of spending the morning
7057 in Rivers Street.
7058
7059 "Very well," said Elizabeth, "I have nothing to send but my love. Oh!
7060 you may as well take back that tiresome book she would lend me, and
7061 pretend I have read it through. I really cannot be plaguing myself for
7062 ever with all the new poems and states of the nation that come out.
7063 Lady Russell quite bores one with her new publications. You need not
7064 tell her so, but I thought her dress hideous the other night. I used
7065 to think she had some taste in dress, but I was ashamed of her at the
7066 concert. Something so formal and arrange in her air! and she sits so
7067 upright! My best love, of course."
7068
7069 "And mine," added Sir Walter. "Kindest regards. And you may say, that
7070 I mean to call upon her soon. Make a civil message; but I shall only
7071 leave my card. Morning visits are never fair by women at her time of
7072 life, who make themselves up so little. If she would only wear rouge
7073 she would not be afraid of being seen; but last time I called, I
7074 observed the blinds were let down immediately."
7075
7076 While her father spoke, there was a knock at the door. Who could it
7077 be? Anne, remembering the preconcerted visits, at all hours, of Mr
7078 Elliot, would have expected him, but for his known engagement seven
7079 miles off. After the usual period of suspense, the usual sounds of
7080 approach were heard, and "Mr and Mrs Charles Musgrove" were ushered
7081 into the room.
7082
7083 Surprise was the strongest emotion raised by their appearance; but Anne
7084 was really glad to see them; and the others were not so sorry but that
7085 they could put on a decent air of welcome; and as soon as it became
7086 clear that these, their nearest relations, were not arrived with any
7087 views of accommodation in that house, Sir Walter and Elizabeth were
7088 able to rise in cordiality, and do the honours of it very well. They
7089 were come to Bath for a few days with Mrs Musgrove, and were at the
7090 White Hart. So much was pretty soon understood; but till Sir Walter
7091 and Elizabeth were walking Mary into the other drawing-room, and
7092 regaling themselves with her admiration, Anne could not draw upon
7093 Charles's brain for a regular history of their coming, or an
7094 explanation of some smiling hints of particular business, which had
7095 been ostentatiously dropped by Mary, as well as of some apparent
7096 confusion as to whom their party consisted of.
7097
7098 She then found that it consisted of Mrs Musgrove, Henrietta, and
7099 Captain Harville, beside their two selves. He gave her a very plain,
7100 intelligible account of the whole; a narration in which she saw a great
7101 deal of most characteristic proceeding. The scheme had received its
7102 first impulse by Captain Harville's wanting to come to Bath on
7103 business. He had begun to talk of it a week ago; and by way of doing
7104 something, as shooting was over, Charles had proposed coming with him,
7105 and Mrs Harville had seemed to like the idea of it very much, as an
7106 advantage to her husband; but Mary could not bear to be left, and had
7107 made herself so unhappy about it, that for a day or two everything
7108 seemed to be in suspense, or at an end. But then, it had been taken up
7109 by his father and mother. His mother had some old friends in Bath whom
7110 she wanted to see; it was thought a good opportunity for Henrietta to
7111 come and buy wedding-clothes for herself and her sister; and, in short,
7112 it ended in being his mother's party, that everything might be
7113 comfortable and easy to Captain Harville; and he and Mary were included
7114 in it by way of general convenience. They had arrived late the night
7115 before. Mrs Harville, her children, and Captain Benwick, remained with
7116 Mr Musgrove and Louisa at Uppercross.
7117
7118 Anne's only surprise was, that affairs should be in forwardness enough
7119 for Henrietta's wedding-clothes to be talked of. She had imagined such
7120 difficulties of fortune to exist there as must prevent the marriage
7121 from being near at hand; but she learned from Charles that, very
7122 recently, (since Mary's last letter to herself), Charles Hayter had
7123 been applied to by a friend to hold a living for a youth who could not
7124 possibly claim it under many years; and that on the strength of his
7125 present income, with almost a certainty of something more permanent
7126 long before the term in question, the two families had consented to the
7127 young people's wishes, and that their marriage was likely to take place
7128 in a few months, quite as soon as Louisa's. "And a very good living it
7129 was," Charles added: "only five-and-twenty miles from Uppercross, and
7130 in a very fine country: fine part of Dorsetshire. In the centre of
7131 some of the best preserves in the kingdom, surrounded by three great
7132 proprietors, each more careful and jealous than the other; and to two
7133 of the three at least, Charles Hayter might get a special
7134 recommendation. Not that he will value it as he ought," he observed,
7135 "Charles is too cool about sporting. That's the worst of him."
7136
7137 "I am extremely glad, indeed," cried Anne, "particularly glad that this
7138 should happen; and that of two sisters, who both deserve equally well,
7139 and who have always been such good friends, the pleasant prospect of
7140 one should not be dimming those of the other--that they should be so
7141 equal in their prosperity and comfort. I hope your father and mother
7142 are quite happy with regard to both."
7143
7144 "Oh! yes. My father would be well pleased if the gentlemen were
7145 richer, but he has no other fault to find. Money, you know, coming
7146 down with money--two daughters at once--it cannot be a very agreeable
7147 operation, and it streightens him as to many things. However, I do not
7148 mean to say they have not a right to it. It is very fit they should
7149 have daughters' shares; and I am sure he has always been a very kind,
7150 liberal father to me. Mary does not above half like Henrietta's match.
7151 She never did, you know. But she does not do him justice, nor think
7152 enough about Winthrop. I cannot make her attend to the value of the
7153 property. It is a very fair match, as times go; and I have liked
7154 Charles Hayter all my life, and I shall not leave off now."
7155
7156 "Such excellent parents as Mr and Mrs Musgrove," exclaimed Anne,
7157 "should be happy in their children's marriages. They do everything to
7158 confer happiness, I am sure. What a blessing to young people to be in
7159 such hands! Your father and mother seem so totally free from all those
7160 ambitious feelings which have led to so much misconduct and misery,
7161 both in young and old. I hope you think Louisa perfectly recovered
7162 now?"
7163
7164 He answered rather hesitatingly, "Yes, I believe I do; very much
7165 recovered; but she is altered; there is no running or jumping about, no
7166 laughing or dancing; it is quite different. If one happens only to
7167 shut the door a little hard, she starts and wriggles like a young
7168 dab-chick in the water; and Benwick sits at her elbow, reading verses,
7169 or whispering to her, all day long."
7170
7171 Anne could not help laughing. "That cannot be much to your taste, I
7172 know," said she; "but I do believe him to be an excellent young man."
7173
7174 "To be sure he is. Nobody doubts it; and I hope you do not think I am
7175 so illiberal as to want every man to have the same objects and
7176 pleasures as myself. I have a great value for Benwick; and when one
7177 can but get him to talk, he has plenty to say. His reading has done
7178 him no harm, for he has fought as well as read. He is a brave fellow.
7179 I got more acquainted with him last Monday than ever I did before. We
7180 had a famous set-to at rat-hunting all the morning in my father's great
7181 barns; and he played his part so well that I have liked him the better
7182 ever since."
7183
7184 Here they were interrupted by the absolute necessity of Charles's
7185 following the others to admire mirrors and china; but Anne had heard
7186 enough to understand the present state of Uppercross, and rejoice in
7187 its happiness; and though she sighed as she rejoiced, her sigh had none
7188 of the ill-will of envy in it. She would certainly have risen to their
7189 blessings if she could, but she did not want to lessen theirs.
7190
7191 The visit passed off altogether in high good humour. Mary was in
7192 excellent spirits, enjoying the gaiety and the change, and so well
7193 satisfied with the journey in her mother-in-law's carriage with four
7194 horses, and with her own complete independence of Camden Place, that
7195 she was exactly in a temper to admire everything as she ought, and
7196 enter most readily into all the superiorities of the house, as they
7197 were detailed to her. She had no demands on her father or sister, and
7198 her consequence was just enough increased by their handsome
7199 drawing-rooms.
7200
7201 Elizabeth was, for a short time, suffering a good deal. She felt that
7202 Mrs Musgrove and all her party ought to be asked to dine with them; but
7203 she could not bear to have the difference of style, the reduction of
7204 servants, which a dinner must betray, witnessed by those who had been
7205 always so inferior to the Elliots of Kellynch. It was a struggle
7206 between propriety and vanity; but vanity got the better, and then
7207 Elizabeth was happy again. These were her internal persuasions: "Old
7208 fashioned notions; country hospitality; we do not profess to give
7209 dinners; few people in Bath do; Lady Alicia never does; did not even
7210 ask her own sister's family, though they were here a month: and I dare
7211 say it would be very inconvenient to Mrs Musgrove; put her quite out of
7212 her way. I am sure she would rather not come; she cannot feel easy
7213 with us. I will ask them all for an evening; that will be much better;
7214 that will be a novelty and a treat. They have not seen two such
7215 drawing rooms before. They will be delighted to come to-morrow
7216 evening. It shall be a regular party, small, but most elegant." And
7217 this satisfied Elizabeth: and when the invitation was given to the two
7218 present, and promised for the absent, Mary was as completely satisfied.
7219 She was particularly asked to meet Mr Elliot, and be introduced to Lady
7220 Dalrymple and Miss Carteret, who were fortunately already engaged to
7221 come; and she could not have received a more gratifying attention.
7222 Miss Elliot was to have the honour of calling on Mrs Musgrove in the
7223 course of the morning; and Anne walked off with Charles and Mary, to go
7224 and see her and Henrietta directly.
7225
7226 Her plan of sitting with Lady Russell must give way for the present.
7227 They all three called in Rivers Street for a couple of minutes; but
7228 Anne convinced herself that a day's delay of the intended communication
7229 could be of no consequence, and hastened forward to the White Hart, to
7230 see again the friends and companions of the last autumn, with an
7231 eagerness of good-will which many associations contributed to form.
7232
7233 They found Mrs Musgrove and her daughter within, and by themselves, and
7234 Anne had the kindest welcome from each. Henrietta was exactly in that
7235 state of recently-improved views, of fresh-formed happiness, which made
7236 her full of regard and interest for everybody she had ever liked before
7237 at all; and Mrs Musgrove's real affection had been won by her
7238 usefulness when they were in distress. It was a heartiness, and a
7239 warmth, and a sincerity which Anne delighted in the more, from the sad
7240 want of such blessings at home. She was entreated to give them as much
7241 of her time as possible, invited for every day and all day long, or
7242 rather claimed as part of the family; and, in return, she naturally
7243 fell into all her wonted ways of attention and assistance, and on
7244 Charles's leaving them together, was listening to Mrs Musgrove's
7245 history of Louisa, and to Henrietta's of herself, giving opinions on
7246 business, and recommendations to shops; with intervals of every help
7247 which Mary required, from altering her ribbon to settling her accounts;
7248 from finding her keys, and assorting her trinkets, to trying to
7249 convince her that she was not ill-used by anybody; which Mary, well
7250 amused as she generally was, in her station at a window overlooking the
7251 entrance to the Pump Room, could not but have her moments of imagining.
7252
7253 A morning of thorough confusion was to be expected. A large party in
7254 an hotel ensured a quick-changing, unsettled scene. One five minutes
7255 brought a note, the next a parcel; and Anne had not been there half an
7256 hour, when their dining-room, spacious as it was, seemed more than half
7257 filled: a party of steady old friends were seated around Mrs Musgrove,
7258 and Charles came back with Captains Harville and Wentworth. The
7259 appearance of the latter could not be more than the surprise of the
7260 moment. It was impossible for her to have forgotten to feel that this
7261 arrival of their common friends must be soon bringing them together
7262 again. Their last meeting had been most important in opening his
7263 feelings; she had derived from it a delightful conviction; but she
7264 feared from his looks, that the same unfortunate persuasion, which had
7265 hastened him away from the Concert Room, still governed. He did not
7266 seem to want to be near enough for conversation.
7267
7268 She tried to be calm, and leave things to take their course, and tried
7269 to dwell much on this argument of rational dependence:--"Surely, if
7270 there be constant attachment on each side, our hearts must understand
7271 each other ere long. We are not boy and girl, to be captiously
7272 irritable, misled by every moment's inadvertence, and wantonly playing
7273 with our own happiness." And yet, a few minutes afterwards, she felt
7274 as if their being in company with each other, under their present
7275 circumstances, could only be exposing them to inadvertencies and
7276 misconstructions of the most mischievous kind.
7277
7278 "Anne," cried Mary, still at her window, "there is Mrs Clay, I am sure,
7279 standing under the colonnade, and a gentleman with her. I saw them
7280 turn the corner from Bath Street just now. They seemed deep in talk.
7281 Who is it? Come, and tell me. Good heavens! I recollect. It is Mr
7282 Elliot himself."
7283
7284 "No," cried Anne, quickly, "it cannot be Mr Elliot, I assure you. He
7285 was to leave Bath at nine this morning, and does not come back till
7286 to-morrow."
7287
7288 As she spoke, she felt that Captain Wentworth was looking at her, the
7289 consciousness of which vexed and embarrassed her, and made her regret
7290 that she had said so much, simple as it was.
7291
7292 Mary, resenting that she should be supposed not to know her own cousin,
7293 began talking very warmly about the family features, and protesting
7294 still more positively that it was Mr Elliot, calling again upon Anne to
7295 come and look for herself, but Anne did not mean to stir, and tried to
7296 be cool and unconcerned. Her distress returned, however, on perceiving
7297 smiles and intelligent glances pass between two or three of the lady
7298 visitors, as if they believed themselves quite in the secret. It was
7299 evident that the report concerning her had spread, and a short pause
7300 succeeded, which seemed to ensure that it would now spread farther.
7301
7302 "Do come, Anne," cried Mary, "come and look yourself. You will be too
7303 late if you do not make haste. They are parting; they are shaking
7304 hands. He is turning away. Not know Mr Elliot, indeed! You seem to
7305 have forgot all about Lyme."
7306
7307 To pacify Mary, and perhaps screen her own embarrassment, Anne did move
7308 quietly to the window. She was just in time to ascertain that it
7309 really was Mr Elliot, which she had never believed, before he
7310 disappeared on one side, as Mrs Clay walked quickly off on the other;
7311 and checking the surprise which she could not but feel at such an
7312 appearance of friendly conference between two persons of totally
7313 opposite interest, she calmly said, "Yes, it is Mr Elliot, certainly.
7314 He has changed his hour of going, I suppose, that is all, or I may be
7315 mistaken, I might not attend;" and walked back to her chair,
7316 recomposed, and with the comfortable hope of having acquitted herself
7317 well.
7318
7319 The visitors took their leave; and Charles, having civilly seen them
7320 off, and then made a face at them, and abused them for coming, began
7321 with--
7322
7323 "Well, mother, I have done something for you that you will like. I
7324 have been to the theatre, and secured a box for to-morrow night. A'n't
7325 I a good boy? I know you love a play; and there is room for us all.
7326 It holds nine. I have engaged Captain Wentworth. Anne will not be
7327 sorry to join us, I am sure. We all like a play. Have not I done
7328 well, mother?"
7329
7330 Mrs Musgrove was good humouredly beginning to express her perfect
7331 readiness for the play, if Henrietta and all the others liked it, when
7332 Mary eagerly interrupted her by exclaiming--
7333
7334 "Good heavens, Charles! how can you think of such a thing? Take a box
7335 for to-morrow night! Have you forgot that we are engaged to Camden
7336 Place to-morrow night? and that we were most particularly asked to meet
7337 Lady Dalrymple and her daughter, and Mr Elliot, and all the principal
7338 family connexions, on purpose to be introduced to them? How can you be
7339 so forgetful?"
7340
7341 "Phoo! phoo!" replied Charles, "what's an evening party? Never worth
7342 remembering. Your father might have asked us to dinner, I think, if he
7343 had wanted to see us. You may do as you like, but I shall go to the
7344 play."
7345
7346 "Oh! Charles, I declare it will be too abominable if you do, when you
7347 promised to go."
7348
7349 "No, I did not promise. I only smirked and bowed, and said the word
7350 'happy.' There was no promise."
7351
7352 "But you must go, Charles. It would be unpardonable to fail. We were
7353 asked on purpose to be introduced. There was always such a great
7354 connexion between the Dalrymples and ourselves. Nothing ever happened
7355 on either side that was not announced immediately. We are quite near
7356 relations, you know; and Mr Elliot too, whom you ought so particularly
7357 to be acquainted with! Every attention is due to Mr Elliot. Consider,
7358 my father's heir: the future representative of the family."
7359
7360 "Don't talk to me about heirs and representatives," cried Charles. "I
7361 am not one of those who neglect the reigning power to bow to the rising
7362 sun. If I would not go for the sake of your father, I should think it
7363 scandalous to go for the sake of his heir. What is Mr Elliot to me?"
7364 The careless expression was life to Anne, who saw that Captain
7365 Wentworth was all attention, looking and listening with his whole soul;
7366 and that the last words brought his enquiring eyes from Charles to
7367 herself.
7368
7369 Charles and Mary still talked on in the same style; he, half serious
7370 and half jesting, maintaining the scheme for the play, and she,
7371 invariably serious, most warmly opposing it, and not omitting to make
7372 it known that, however determined to go to Camden Place herself, she
7373 should not think herself very well used, if they went to the play
7374 without her. Mrs Musgrove interposed.
7375
7376 "We had better put it off. Charles, you had much better go back and
7377 change the box for Tuesday. It would be a pity to be divided, and we
7378 should be losing Miss Anne, too, if there is a party at her father's;
7379 and I am sure neither Henrietta nor I should care at all for the play,
7380 if Miss Anne could not be with us."
7381
7382 Anne felt truly obliged to her for such kindness; and quite as much so
7383 for the opportunity it gave her of decidedly saying--
7384
7385 "If it depended only on my inclination, ma'am, the party at home
7386 (excepting on Mary's account) would not be the smallest impediment. I
7387 have no pleasure in the sort of meeting, and should be too happy to
7388 change it for a play, and with you. But, it had better not be
7389 attempted, perhaps." She had spoken it; but she trembled when it was
7390 done, conscious that her words were listened to, and daring not even to
7391 try to observe their effect.
7392
7393 It was soon generally agreed that Tuesday should be the day; Charles
7394 only reserving the advantage of still teasing his wife, by persisting
7395 that he would go to the play to-morrow if nobody else would.
7396
7397 Captain Wentworth left his seat, and walked to the fire-place; probably
7398 for the sake of walking away from it soon afterwards, and taking a
7399 station, with less bare-faced design, by Anne.
7400
7401 "You have not been long enough in Bath," said he, "to enjoy the evening
7402 parties of the place."
7403
7404 "Oh! no. The usual character of them has nothing for me. I am no
7405 card-player."
7406
7407 "You were not formerly, I know. You did not use to like cards; but
7408 time makes many changes."
7409
7410 "I am not yet so much changed," cried Anne, and stopped, fearing she
7411 hardly knew what misconstruction. After waiting a few moments he said,
7412 and as if it were the result of immediate feeling, "It is a period,
7413 indeed! Eight years and a half is a period."
7414
7415 Whether he would have proceeded farther was left to Anne's imagination
7416 to ponder over in a calmer hour; for while still hearing the sounds he
7417 had uttered, she was startled to other subjects by Henrietta, eager to
7418 make use of the present leisure for getting out, and calling on her
7419 companions to lose no time, lest somebody else should come in.
7420
7421 They were obliged to move. Anne talked of being perfectly ready, and
7422 tried to look it; but she felt that could Henrietta have known the
7423 regret and reluctance of her heart in quitting that chair, in preparing
7424 to quit the room, she would have found, in all her own sensations for
7425 her cousin, in the very security of his affection, wherewith to pity
7426 her.
7427
7428 Their preparations, however, were stopped short. Alarming sounds were
7429 heard; other visitors approached, and the door was thrown open for Sir
7430 Walter and Miss Elliot, whose entrance seemed to give a general chill.
7431 Anne felt an instant oppression, and wherever she looked saw symptoms
7432 of the same. The comfort, the freedom, the gaiety of the room was
7433 over, hushed into cold composure, determined silence, or insipid talk,
7434 to meet the heartless elegance of her father and sister. How
7435 mortifying to feel that it was so!
7436
7437 Her jealous eye was satisfied in one particular. Captain Wentworth was
7438 acknowledged again by each, by Elizabeth more graciously than before.
7439 She even addressed him once, and looked at him more than once.
7440 Elizabeth was, in fact, revolving a great measure. The sequel
7441 explained it. After the waste of a few minutes in saying the proper
7442 nothings, she began to give the invitation which was to comprise all
7443 the remaining dues of the Musgroves. "To-morrow evening, to meet a few
7444 friends: no formal party." It was all said very gracefully, and the
7445 cards with which she had provided herself, the "Miss Elliot at home,"
7446 were laid on the table, with a courteous, comprehensive smile to all,
7447 and one smile and one card more decidedly for Captain Wentworth. The
7448 truth was, that Elizabeth had been long enough in Bath to understand
7449 the importance of a man of such an air and appearance as his. The past
7450 was nothing. The present was that Captain Wentworth would move about
7451 well in her drawing-room. The card was pointedly given, and Sir Walter
7452 and Elizabeth arose and disappeared.
7453
7454 The interruption had been short, though severe, and ease and animation
7455 returned to most of those they left as the door shut them out, but not
7456 to Anne. She could think only of the invitation she had with such
7457 astonishment witnessed, and of the manner in which it had been
7458 received; a manner of doubtful meaning, of surprise rather than
7459 gratification, of polite acknowledgement rather than acceptance. She
7460 knew him; she saw disdain in his eye, and could not venture to believe
7461 that he had determined to accept such an offering, as an atonement for
7462 all the insolence of the past. Her spirits sank. He held the card in
7463 his hand after they were gone, as if deeply considering it.
7464
7465 "Only think of Elizabeth's including everybody!" whispered Mary very
7466 audibly. "I do not wonder Captain Wentworth is delighted! You see he
7467 cannot put the card out of his hand."
7468
7469 Anne caught his eye, saw his cheeks glow, and his mouth form itself
7470 into a momentary expression of contempt, and turned away, that she
7471 might neither see nor hear more to vex her.
7472
7473 The party separated. The gentlemen had their own pursuits, the ladies
7474 proceeded on their own business, and they met no more while Anne
7475 belonged to them. She was earnestly begged to return and dine, and
7476 give them all the rest of the day, but her spirits had been so long
7477 exerted that at present she felt unequal to more, and fit only for
7478 home, where she might be sure of being as silent as she chose.
7479
7480 Promising to be with them the whole of the following morning,
7481 therefore, she closed the fatigues of the present by a toilsome walk to
7482 Camden Place, there to spend the evening chiefly in listening to the
7483 busy arrangements of Elizabeth and Mrs Clay for the morrow's party, the
7484 frequent enumeration of the persons invited, and the continually
7485 improving detail of all the embellishments which were to make it the
7486 most completely elegant of its kind in Bath, while harassing herself
7487 with the never-ending question, of whether Captain Wentworth would come
7488 or not? They were reckoning him as certain, but with her it was a
7489 gnawing solicitude never appeased for five minutes together. She
7490 generally thought he would come, because she generally thought he
7491 ought; but it was a case which she could not so shape into any positive
7492 act of duty or discretion, as inevitably to defy the suggestions of
7493 very opposite feelings.
7494
7495 She only roused herself from the broodings of this restless agitation,
7496 to let Mrs Clay know that she had been seen with Mr Elliot three hours
7497 after his being supposed to be out of Bath, for having watched in vain
7498 for some intimation of the interview from the lady herself, she
7499 determined to mention it, and it seemed to her there was guilt in Mrs
7500 Clay's face as she listened. It was transient: cleared away in an
7501 instant; but Anne could imagine she read there the consciousness of
7502 having, by some complication of mutual trick, or some overbearing
7503 authority of his, been obliged to attend (perhaps for half an hour) to
7504 his lectures and restrictions on her designs on Sir Walter. She
7505 exclaimed, however, with a very tolerable imitation of nature:--
7506
7507 "Oh! dear! very true. Only think, Miss Elliot, to my great surprise I
7508 met with Mr Elliot in Bath Street. I was never more astonished. He
7509 turned back and walked with me to the Pump Yard. He had been prevented
7510 setting off for Thornberry, but I really forget by what; for I was in a
7511 hurry, and could not much attend, and I can only answer for his being
7512 determined not to be delayed in his return. He wanted to know how
7513 early he might be admitted to-morrow. He was full of 'to-morrow,' and
7514 it is very evident that I have been full of it too, ever since I
7515 entered the house, and learnt the extension of your plan and all that
7516 had happened, or my seeing him could never have gone so entirely out of
7517 my head."
7518
7519
7520
7521 Chapter 23
7522
7523
7524 One day only had passed since Anne's conversation with Mrs Smith; but a
7525 keener interest had succeeded, and she was now so little touched by Mr
7526 Elliot's conduct, except by its effects in one quarter, that it became
7527 a matter of course the next morning, still to defer her explanatory
7528 visit in Rivers Street. She had promised to be with the Musgroves from
7529 breakfast to dinner. Her faith was plighted, and Mr Elliot's
7530 character, like the Sultaness Scheherazade's head, must live another
7531 day.
7532
7533 She could not keep her appointment punctually, however; the weather was
7534 unfavourable, and she had grieved over the rain on her friends'
7535 account, and felt it very much on her own, before she was able to
7536 attempt the walk. When she reached the White Hart, and made her way to
7537 the proper apartment, she found herself neither arriving quite in time,
7538 nor the first to arrive. The party before her were, Mrs Musgrove,
7539 talking to Mrs Croft, and Captain Harville to Captain Wentworth; and
7540 she immediately heard that Mary and Henrietta, too impatient to wait,
7541 had gone out the moment it had cleared, but would be back again soon,
7542 and that the strictest injunctions had been left with Mrs Musgrove to
7543 keep her there till they returned. She had only to submit, sit down,
7544 be outwardly composed, and feel herself plunged at once in all the
7545 agitations which she had merely laid her account of tasting a little
7546 before the morning closed. There was no delay, no waste of time. She
7547 was deep in the happiness of such misery, or the misery of such
7548 happiness, instantly. Two minutes after her entering the room, Captain
7549 Wentworth said--
7550
7551 "We will write the letter we were talking of, Harville, now, if you
7552 will give me materials."
7553
7554 Materials were at hand, on a separate table; he went to it, and nearly
7555 turning his back to them all, was engrossed by writing.
7556
7557 Mrs Musgrove was giving Mrs Croft the history of her eldest daughter's
7558 engagement, and just in that inconvenient tone of voice which was
7559 perfectly audible while it pretended to be a whisper. Anne felt that
7560 she did not belong to the conversation, and yet, as Captain Harville
7561 seemed thoughtful and not disposed to talk, she could not avoid hearing
7562 many undesirable particulars; such as, "how Mr Musgrove and my brother
7563 Hayter had met again and again to talk it over; what my brother Hayter
7564 had said one day, and what Mr Musgrove had proposed the next, and what
7565 had occurred to my sister Hayter, and what the young people had wished,
7566 and what I said at first I never could consent to, but was afterwards
7567 persuaded to think might do very well," and a great deal in the same
7568 style of open-hearted communication: minutiae which, even with every
7569 advantage of taste and delicacy, which good Mrs Musgrove could not
7570 give, could be properly interesting only to the principals. Mrs Croft
7571 was attending with great good-humour, and whenever she spoke at all, it
7572 was very sensibly. Anne hoped the gentlemen might each be too much
7573 self-occupied to hear.
7574
7575 "And so, ma'am, all these thing considered," said Mrs Musgrove, in her
7576 powerful whisper, "though we could have wished it different, yet,
7577 altogether, we did not think it fair to stand out any longer, for
7578 Charles Hayter was quite wild about it, and Henrietta was pretty near
7579 as bad; and so we thought they had better marry at once, and make the
7580 best of it, as many others have done before them. At any rate, said I,
7581 it will be better than a long engagement."
7582
7583 "That is precisely what I was going to observe," cried Mrs Croft. "I
7584 would rather have young people settle on a small income at once, and
7585 have to struggle with a few difficulties together, than be involved in
7586 a long engagement. I always think that no mutual--"
7587
7588 "Oh! dear Mrs Croft," cried Mrs Musgrove, unable to let her finish her
7589 speech, "there is nothing I so abominate for young people as a long
7590 engagement. It is what I always protested against for my children. It
7591 is all very well, I used to say, for young people to be engaged, if
7592 there is a certainty of their being able to marry in six months, or
7593 even in twelve; but a long engagement--"
7594
7595 "Yes, dear ma'am," said Mrs Croft, "or an uncertain engagement, an
7596 engagement which may be long. To begin without knowing that at such a
7597 time there will be the means of marrying, I hold to be very unsafe and
7598 unwise, and what I think all parents should prevent as far as they can."
7599
7600 Anne found an unexpected interest here. She felt its application to
7601 herself, felt it in a nervous thrill all over her; and at the same
7602 moment that her eyes instinctively glanced towards the distant table,
7603 Captain Wentworth's pen ceased to move, his head was raised, pausing,
7604 listening, and he turned round the next instant to give a look, one
7605 quick, conscious look at her.
7606
7607 The two ladies continued to talk, to re-urge the same admitted truths,
7608 and enforce them with such examples of the ill effect of a contrary
7609 practice as had fallen within their observation, but Anne heard nothing
7610 distinctly; it was only a buzz of words in her ear, her mind was in
7611 confusion.
7612
7613 Captain Harville, who had in truth been hearing none of it, now left
7614 his seat, and moved to a window, and Anne seeming to watch him, though
7615 it was from thorough absence of mind, became gradually sensible that he
7616 was inviting her to join him where he stood. He looked at her with a
7617 smile, and a little motion of the head, which expressed, "Come to me, I
7618 have something to say;" and the unaffected, easy kindness of manner
7619 which denoted the feelings of an older acquaintance than he really was,
7620 strongly enforced the invitation. She roused herself and went to him.
7621 The window at which he stood was at the other end of the room from
7622 where the two ladies were sitting, and though nearer to Captain
7623 Wentworth's table, not very near. As she joined him, Captain
7624 Harville's countenance re-assumed the serious, thoughtful expression
7625 which seemed its natural character.
7626
7627 "Look here," said he, unfolding a parcel in his hand, and displaying a
7628 small miniature painting, "do you know who that is?"
7629
7630 "Certainly: Captain Benwick."
7631
7632 "Yes, and you may guess who it is for. But," (in a deep tone,) "it was
7633 not done for her. Miss Elliot, do you remember our walking together at
7634 Lyme, and grieving for him? I little thought then--but no matter.
7635 This was drawn at the Cape. He met with a clever young German artist
7636 at the Cape, and in compliance with a promise to my poor sister, sat to
7637 him, and was bringing it home for her; and I have now the charge of
7638 getting it properly set for another! It was a commission to me! But
7639 who else was there to employ? I hope I can allow for him. I am not
7640 sorry, indeed, to make it over to another. He undertakes it;" (looking
7641 towards Captain Wentworth,) "he is writing about it now." And with a
7642 quivering lip he wound up the whole by adding, "Poor Fanny! she would
7643 not have forgotten him so soon!"
7644
7645 "No," replied Anne, in a low, feeling voice. "That I can easily
7646 believe."
7647
7648 "It was not in her nature. She doted on him."
7649
7650 "It would not be the nature of any woman who truly loved."
7651
7652 Captain Harville smiled, as much as to say, "Do you claim that for your
7653 sex?" and she answered the question, smiling also, "Yes. We certainly
7654 do not forget you as soon as you forget us. It is, perhaps, our fate
7655 rather than our merit. We cannot help ourselves. We live at home,
7656 quiet, confined, and our feelings prey upon us. You are forced on
7657 exertion. You have always a profession, pursuits, business of some
7658 sort or other, to take you back into the world immediately, and
7659 continual occupation and change soon weaken impressions."
7660
7661 "Granting your assertion that the world does all this so soon for men
7662 (which, however, I do not think I shall grant), it does not apply to
7663 Benwick. He has not been forced upon any exertion. The peace turned
7664 him on shore at the very moment, and he has been living with us, in our
7665 little family circle, ever since."
7666
7667 "True," said Anne, "very true; I did not recollect; but what shall we
7668 say now, Captain Harville? If the change be not from outward
7669 circumstances, it must be from within; it must be nature, man's nature,
7670 which has done the business for Captain Benwick."
7671
7672 "No, no, it is not man's nature. I will not allow it to be more man's
7673 nature than woman's to be inconstant and forget those they do love, or
7674 have loved. I believe the reverse. I believe in a true analogy
7675 between our bodily frames and our mental; and that as our bodies are
7676 the strongest, so are our feelings; capable of bearing most rough
7677 usage, and riding out the heaviest weather."
7678
7679 "Your feelings may be the strongest," replied Anne, "but the same
7680 spirit of analogy will authorise me to assert that ours are the most
7681 tender. Man is more robust than woman, but he is not longer lived;
7682 which exactly explains my view of the nature of their attachments.
7683 Nay, it would be too hard upon you, if it were otherwise. You have
7684 difficulties, and privations, and dangers enough to struggle with. You
7685 are always labouring and toiling, exposed to every risk and hardship.
7686 Your home, country, friends, all quitted. Neither time, nor health,
7687 nor life, to be called your own. It would be hard, indeed" (with a
7688 faltering voice), "if woman's feelings were to be added to all this."
7689
7690 "We shall never agree upon this question," Captain Harville was
7691 beginning to say, when a slight noise called their attention to Captain
7692 Wentworth's hitherto perfectly quiet division of the room. It was
7693 nothing more than that his pen had fallen down; but Anne was startled
7694 at finding him nearer than she had supposed, and half inclined to
7695 suspect that the pen had only fallen because he had been occupied by
7696 them, striving to catch sounds, which yet she did not think he could
7697 have caught.
7698
7699 "Have you finished your letter?" said Captain Harville.
7700
7701 "Not quite, a few lines more. I shall have done in five minutes."
7702
7703 "There is no hurry on my side. I am only ready whenever you are. I am
7704 in very good anchorage here," (smiling at Anne,) "well supplied, and
7705 want for nothing. No hurry for a signal at all. Well, Miss Elliot,"
7706 (lowering his voice,) "as I was saying we shall never agree, I suppose,
7707 upon this point. No man and woman, would, probably. But let me
7708 observe that all histories are against you--all stories, prose and
7709 verse. If I had such a memory as Benwick, I could bring you fifty
7710 quotations in a moment on my side the argument, and I do not think I
7711 ever opened a book in my life which had not something to say upon
7712 woman's inconstancy. Songs and proverbs, all talk of woman's
7713 fickleness. But perhaps you will say, these were all written by men."
7714
7715 "Perhaps I shall. Yes, yes, if you please, no reference to examples in
7716 books. Men have had every advantage of us in telling their own story.
7717 Education has been theirs in so much higher a degree; the pen has been
7718 in their hands. I will not allow books to prove anything."
7719
7720 "But how shall we prove anything?"
7721
7722 "We never shall. We never can expect to prove any thing upon such a
7723 point. It is a difference of opinion which does not admit of proof.
7724 We each begin, probably, with a little bias towards our own sex; and
7725 upon that bias build every circumstance in favour of it which has
7726 occurred within our own circle; many of which circumstances (perhaps
7727 those very cases which strike us the most) may be precisely such as
7728 cannot be brought forward without betraying a confidence, or in some
7729 respect saying what should not be said."
7730
7731 "Ah!" cried Captain Harville, in a tone of strong feeling, "if I could
7732 but make you comprehend what a man suffers when he takes a last look at
7733 his wife and children, and watches the boat that he has sent them off
7734 in, as long as it is in sight, and then turns away and says, 'God knows
7735 whether we ever meet again!' And then, if I could convey to you the
7736 glow of his soul when he does see them again; when, coming back after a
7737 twelvemonth's absence, perhaps, and obliged to put into another port,
7738 he calculates how soon it be possible to get them there, pretending to
7739 deceive himself, and saying, 'They cannot be here till such a day,' but
7740 all the while hoping for them twelve hours sooner, and seeing them
7741 arrive at last, as if Heaven had given them wings, by many hours sooner
7742 still! If I could explain to you all this, and all that a man can bear
7743 and do, and glories to do, for the sake of these treasures of his
7744 existence! I speak, you know, only of such men as have hearts!"
7745 pressing his own with emotion.
7746
7747 "Oh!" cried Anne eagerly, "I hope I do justice to all that is felt by
7748 you, and by those who resemble you. God forbid that I should
7749 undervalue the warm and faithful feelings of any of my
7750 fellow-creatures! I should deserve utter contempt if I dared to
7751 suppose that true attachment and constancy were known only by woman.
7752 No, I believe you capable of everything great and good in your married
7753 lives. I believe you equal to every important exertion, and to every
7754 domestic forbearance, so long as--if I may be allowed the
7755 expression--so long as you have an object. I mean while the woman you
7756 love lives, and lives for you. All the privilege I claim for my own
7757 sex (it is not a very enviable one; you need not covet it), is that of
7758 loving longest, when existence or when hope is gone."
7759
7760 She could not immediately have uttered another sentence; her heart was
7761 too full, her breath too much oppressed.
7762
7763 "You are a good soul," cried Captain Harville, putting his hand on her
7764 arm, quite affectionately. "There is no quarrelling with you. And
7765 when I think of Benwick, my tongue is tied."
7766
7767 Their attention was called towards the others. Mrs Croft was taking
7768 leave.
7769
7770 "Here, Frederick, you and I part company, I believe," said she. "I am
7771 going home, and you have an engagement with your friend. To-night we
7772 may have the pleasure of all meeting again at your party," (turning to
7773 Anne.) "We had your sister's card yesterday, and I understood
7774 Frederick had a card too, though I did not see it; and you are
7775 disengaged, Frederick, are you not, as well as ourselves?"
7776
7777 Captain Wentworth was folding up a letter in great haste, and either
7778 could not or would not answer fully.
7779
7780 "Yes," said he, "very true; here we separate, but Harville and I shall
7781 soon be after you; that is, Harville, if you are ready, I am in half a
7782 minute. I know you will not be sorry to be off. I shall be at your
7783 service in half a minute."
7784
7785 Mrs Croft left them, and Captain Wentworth, having sealed his letter
7786 with great rapidity, was indeed ready, and had even a hurried, agitated
7787 air, which shewed impatience to be gone. Anne knew not how to
7788 understand it. She had the kindest "Good morning, God bless you!" from
7789 Captain Harville, but from him not a word, nor a look! He had passed
7790 out of the room without a look!
7791
7792 She had only time, however, to move closer to the table where he had
7793 been writing, when footsteps were heard returning; the door opened, it
7794 was himself. He begged their pardon, but he had forgotten his gloves,
7795 and instantly crossing the room to the writing table, he drew out a
7796 letter from under the scattered paper, placed it before Anne with eyes
7797 of glowing entreaty fixed on her for a time, and hastily collecting his
7798 gloves, was again out of the room, almost before Mrs Musgrove was aware
7799 of his being in it: the work of an instant!
7800
7801 The revolution which one instant had made in Anne, was almost beyond
7802 expression. The letter, with a direction hardly legible, to "Miss A.
7803 E.--," was evidently the one which he had been folding so hastily.
7804 While supposed to be writing only to Captain Benwick, he had been also
7805 addressing her! On the contents of that letter depended all which this
7806 world could do for her. Anything was possible, anything might be
7807 defied rather than suspense. Mrs Musgrove had little arrangements of
7808 her own at her own table; to their protection she must trust, and
7809 sinking into the chair which he had occupied, succeeding to the very
7810 spot where he had leaned and written, her eyes devoured the following
7811 words:
7812
7813
7814 "I can listen no longer in silence. I must speak to you by such means
7815 as are within my reach. You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half
7816 hope. Tell me not that I am too late, that such precious feelings are
7817 gone for ever. I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your
7818 own than when you almost broke it, eight years and a half ago. Dare
7819 not say that man forgets sooner than woman, that his love has an
7820 earlier death. I have loved none but you. Unjust I may have been,
7821 weak and resentful I have been, but never inconstant. You alone have
7822 brought me to Bath. For you alone, I think and plan. Have you not
7823 seen this? Can you fail to have understood my wishes? I had not
7824 waited even these ten days, could I have read your feelings, as I think
7825 you must have penetrated mine. I can hardly write. I am every instant
7826 hearing something which overpowers me. You sink your voice, but I can
7827 distinguish the tones of that voice when they would be lost on others.
7828 Too good, too excellent creature! You do us justice, indeed. You do
7829 believe that there is true attachment and constancy among men. Believe
7830 it to be most fervent, most undeviating, in F. W.
7831
7832 "I must go, uncertain of my fate; but I shall return hither, or follow
7833 your party, as soon as possible. A word, a look, will be enough to
7834 decide whether I enter your father's house this evening or never."
7835
7836
7837 Such a letter was not to be soon recovered from. Half an hour's
7838 solitude and reflection might have tranquillized her; but the ten
7839 minutes only which now passed before she was interrupted, with all the
7840 restraints of her situation, could do nothing towards tranquillity.
7841 Every moment rather brought fresh agitation. It was overpowering
7842 happiness. And before she was beyond the first stage of full
7843 sensation, Charles, Mary, and Henrietta all came in.
7844
7845 The absolute necessity of seeming like herself produced then an
7846 immediate struggle; but after a while she could do no more. She began
7847 not to understand a word they said, and was obliged to plead
7848 indisposition and excuse herself. They could then see that she looked
7849 very ill, were shocked and concerned, and would not stir without her
7850 for the world. This was dreadful. Would they only have gone away, and
7851 left her in the quiet possession of that room it would have been her
7852 cure; but to have them all standing or waiting around her was
7853 distracting, and in desperation, she said she would go home.
7854
7855 "By all means, my dear," cried Mrs Musgrove, "go home directly, and
7856 take care of yourself, that you may be fit for the evening. I wish
7857 Sarah was here to doctor you, but I am no doctor myself. Charles, ring
7858 and order a chair. She must not walk."
7859
7860 But the chair would never do. Worse than all! To lose the possibility
7861 of speaking two words to Captain Wentworth in the course of her quiet,
7862 solitary progress up the town (and she felt almost certain of meeting
7863 him) could not be borne. The chair was earnestly protested against,
7864 and Mrs Musgrove, who thought only of one sort of illness, having
7865 assured herself with some anxiety, that there had been no fall in the
7866 case; that Anne had not at any time lately slipped down, and got a blow
7867 on her head; that she was perfectly convinced of having had no fall;
7868 could part with her cheerfully, and depend on finding her better at
7869 night.
7870
7871 Anxious to omit no possible precaution, Anne struggled, and said--
7872
7873 "I am afraid, ma'am, that it is not perfectly understood. Pray be so
7874 good as to mention to the other gentlemen that we hope to see your
7875 whole party this evening. I am afraid there had been some mistake; and
7876 I wish you particularly to assure Captain Harville and Captain
7877 Wentworth, that we hope to see them both."
7878
7879 "Oh! my dear, it is quite understood, I give you my word. Captain
7880 Harville has no thought but of going."
7881
7882 "Do you think so? But I am afraid; and I should be so very sorry.
7883 Will you promise me to mention it, when you see them again? You will
7884 see them both this morning, I dare say. Do promise me."
7885
7886 "To be sure I will, if you wish it. Charles, if you see Captain
7887 Harville anywhere, remember to give Miss Anne's message. But indeed,
7888 my dear, you need not be uneasy. Captain Harville holds himself quite
7889 engaged, I'll answer for it; and Captain Wentworth the same, I dare
7890 say."
7891
7892 Anne could do no more; but her heart prophesied some mischance to damp
7893 the perfection of her felicity. It could not be very lasting, however.
7894 Even if he did not come to Camden Place himself, it would be in her
7895 power to send an intelligible sentence by Captain Harville. Another
7896 momentary vexation occurred. Charles, in his real concern and good
7897 nature, would go home with her; there was no preventing him. This was
7898 almost cruel. But she could not be long ungrateful; he was sacrificing
7899 an engagement at a gunsmith's, to be of use to her; and she set off
7900 with him, with no feeling but gratitude apparent.
7901
7902 They were on Union Street, when a quicker step behind, a something of
7903 familiar sound, gave her two moments' preparation for the sight of
7904 Captain Wentworth. He joined them; but, as if irresolute whether to
7905 join or to pass on, said nothing, only looked. Anne could command
7906 herself enough to receive that look, and not repulsively. The cheeks
7907 which had been pale now glowed, and the movements which had hesitated
7908 were decided. He walked by her side. Presently, struck by a sudden
7909 thought, Charles said--
7910
7911 "Captain Wentworth, which way are you going? Only to Gay Street, or
7912 farther up the town?"
7913
7914 "I hardly know," replied Captain Wentworth, surprised.
7915
7916 "Are you going as high as Belmont? Are you going near Camden Place?
7917 Because, if you are, I shall have no scruple in asking you to take my
7918 place, and give Anne your arm to her father's door. She is rather done
7919 for this morning, and must not go so far without help, and I ought to
7920 be at that fellow's in the Market Place. He promised me the sight of a
7921 capital gun he is just going to send off; said he would keep it
7922 unpacked to the last possible moment, that I might see it; and if I do
7923 not turn back now, I have no chance. By his description, a good deal
7924 like the second size double-barrel of mine, which you shot with one day
7925 round Winthrop."
7926
7927 There could not be an objection. There could be only the most proper
7928 alacrity, a most obliging compliance for public view; and smiles reined
7929 in and spirits dancing in private rapture. In half a minute Charles
7930 was at the bottom of Union Street again, and the other two proceeding
7931 together: and soon words enough had passed between them to decide
7932 their direction towards the comparatively quiet and retired gravel
7933 walk, where the power of conversation would make the present hour a
7934 blessing indeed, and prepare it for all the immortality which the
7935 happiest recollections of their own future lives could bestow. There
7936 they exchanged again those feelings and those promises which had once
7937 before seemed to secure everything, but which had been followed by so
7938 many, many years of division and estrangement. There they returned
7939 again into the past, more exquisitely happy, perhaps, in their
7940 re-union, than when it had been first projected; more tender, more
7941 tried, more fixed in a knowledge of each other's character, truth, and
7942 attachment; more equal to act, more justified in acting. And there, as
7943 they slowly paced the gradual ascent, heedless of every group around
7944 them, seeing neither sauntering politicians, bustling housekeepers,
7945 flirting girls, nor nursery-maids and children, they could indulge in
7946 those retrospections and acknowledgements, and especially in those
7947 explanations of what had directly preceded the present moment, which
7948 were so poignant and so ceaseless in interest. All the little
7949 variations of the last week were gone through; and of yesterday and
7950 today there could scarcely be an end.
7951
7952 She had not mistaken him. Jealousy of Mr Elliot had been the retarding
7953 weight, the doubt, the torment. That had begun to operate in the very
7954 hour of first meeting her in Bath; that had returned, after a short
7955 suspension, to ruin the concert; and that had influenced him in
7956 everything he had said and done, or omitted to say and do, in the last
7957 four-and-twenty hours. It had been gradually yielding to the better
7958 hopes which her looks, or words, or actions occasionally encouraged; it
7959 had been vanquished at last by those sentiments and those tones which
7960 had reached him while she talked with Captain Harville; and under the
7961 irresistible governance of which he had seized a sheet of paper, and
7962 poured out his feelings.
7963
7964 Of what he had then written, nothing was to be retracted or qualified.
7965 He persisted in having loved none but her. She had never been
7966 supplanted. He never even believed himself to see her equal. Thus
7967 much indeed he was obliged to acknowledge: that he had been constant
7968 unconsciously, nay unintentionally; that he had meant to forget her,
7969 and believed it to be done. He had imagined himself indifferent, when
7970 he had only been angry; and he had been unjust to her merits, because
7971 he had been a sufferer from them. Her character was now fixed on his
7972 mind as perfection itself, maintaining the loveliest medium of
7973 fortitude and gentleness; but he was obliged to acknowledge that only
7974 at Uppercross had he learnt to do her justice, and only at Lyme had he
7975 begun to understand himself. At Lyme, he had received lessons of more
7976 than one sort. The passing admiration of Mr Elliot had at least roused
7977 him, and the scenes on the Cobb and at Captain Harville's had fixed her
7978 superiority.
7979
7980 In his preceding attempts to attach himself to Louisa Musgrove (the
7981 attempts of angry pride), he protested that he had for ever felt it to
7982 be impossible; that he had not cared, could not care, for Louisa;
7983 though till that day, till the leisure for reflection which followed
7984 it, he had not understood the perfect excellence of the mind with which
7985 Louisa's could so ill bear a comparison, or the perfect unrivalled hold
7986 it possessed over his own. There, he had learnt to distinguish between
7987 the steadiness of principle and the obstinacy of self-will, between the
7988 darings of heedlessness and the resolution of a collected mind. There
7989 he had seen everything to exalt in his estimation the woman he had
7990 lost; and there begun to deplore the pride, the folly, the madness of
7991 resentment, which had kept him from trying to regain her when thrown in
7992 his way.
7993
7994 From that period his penance had become severe. He had no sooner been
7995 free from the horror and remorse attending the first few days of
7996 Louisa's accident, no sooner begun to feel himself alive again, than he
7997 had begun to feel himself, though alive, not at liberty.
7998
7999 "I found," said he, "that I was considered by Harville an engaged man!
8000 That neither Harville nor his wife entertained a doubt of our mutual
8001 attachment. I was startled and shocked. To a degree, I could
8002 contradict this instantly; but, when I began to reflect that others
8003 might have felt the same--her own family, nay, perhaps herself--I was
8004 no longer at my own disposal. I was hers in honour if she wished it.
8005 I had been unguarded. I had not thought seriously on this subject
8006 before. I had not considered that my excessive intimacy must have its
8007 danger of ill consequence in many ways; and that I had no right to be
8008 trying whether I could attach myself to either of the girls, at the
8009 risk of raising even an unpleasant report, were there no other ill
8010 effects. I had been grossly wrong, and must abide the consequences."
8011
8012 He found too late, in short, that he had entangled himself; and that
8013 precisely as he became fully satisfied of his not caring for Louisa at
8014 all, he must regard himself as bound to her, if her sentiments for him
8015 were what the Harvilles supposed. It determined him to leave Lyme, and
8016 await her complete recovery elsewhere. He would gladly weaken, by any
8017 fair means, whatever feelings or speculations concerning him might
8018 exist; and he went, therefore, to his brother's, meaning after a while
8019 to return to Kellynch, and act as circumstances might require.
8020
8021 "I was six weeks with Edward," said he, "and saw him happy. I could
8022 have no other pleasure. I deserved none. He enquired after you very
8023 particularly; asked even if you were personally altered, little
8024 suspecting that to my eye you could never alter."
8025
8026 Anne smiled, and let it pass. It was too pleasing a blunder for a
8027 reproach. It is something for a woman to be assured, in her
8028 eight-and-twentieth year, that she has not lost one charm of earlier
8029 youth; but the value of such homage was inexpressibly increased to
8030 Anne, by comparing it with former words, and feeling it to be the
8031 result, not the cause of a revival of his warm attachment.
8032
8033 He had remained in Shropshire, lamenting the blindness of his own
8034 pride, and the blunders of his own calculations, till at once released
8035 from Louisa by the astonishing and felicitous intelligence of her
8036 engagement with Benwick.
8037
8038 "Here," said he, "ended the worst of my state; for now I could at least
8039 put myself in the way of happiness; I could exert myself; I could do
8040 something. But to be waiting so long in inaction, and waiting only for
8041 evil, had been dreadful. Within the first five minutes I said, 'I will
8042 be at Bath on Wednesday,' and I was. Was it unpardonable to think it
8043 worth my while to come? and to arrive with some degree of hope? You
8044 were single. It was possible that you might retain the feelings of the
8045 past, as I did; and one encouragement happened to be mine. I could
8046 never doubt that you would be loved and sought by others, but I knew to
8047 a certainty that you had refused one man, at least, of better
8048 pretensions than myself; and I could not help often saying, 'Was this
8049 for me?'"
8050
8051 Their first meeting in Milsom Street afforded much to be said, but the
8052 concert still more. That evening seemed to be made up of exquisite
8053 moments. The moment of her stepping forward in the Octagon Room to
8054 speak to him: the moment of Mr Elliot's appearing and tearing her
8055 away, and one or two subsequent moments, marked by returning hope or
8056 increasing despondency, were dwelt on with energy.
8057
8058 "To see you," cried he, "in the midst of those who could not be my
8059 well-wishers; to see your cousin close by you, conversing and smiling,
8060 and feel all the horrible eligibilities and proprieties of the match!
8061 To consider it as the certain wish of every being who could hope to
8062 influence you! Even if your own feelings were reluctant or
8063 indifferent, to consider what powerful supports would be his! Was it
8064 not enough to make the fool of me which I appeared? How could I look
8065 on without agony? Was not the very sight of the friend who sat behind
8066 you, was not the recollection of what had been, the knowledge of her
8067 influence, the indelible, immoveable impression of what persuasion had
8068 once done--was it not all against me?"
8069
8070 "You should have distinguished," replied Anne. "You should not have
8071 suspected me now; the case is so different, and my age is so different.
8072 If I was wrong in yielding to persuasion once, remember that it was to
8073 persuasion exerted on the side of safety, not of risk. When I yielded,
8074 I thought it was to duty, but no duty could be called in aid here. In
8075 marrying a man indifferent to me, all risk would have been incurred,
8076 and all duty violated."
8077
8078 "Perhaps I ought to have reasoned thus," he replied, "but I could not.
8079 I could not derive benefit from the late knowledge I had acquired of
8080 your character. I could not bring it into play; it was overwhelmed,
8081 buried, lost in those earlier feelings which I had been smarting under
8082 year after year. I could think of you only as one who had yielded, who
8083 had given me up, who had been influenced by any one rather than by me.
8084 I saw you with the very person who had guided you in that year of
8085 misery. I had no reason to believe her of less authority now. The
8086 force of habit was to be added."
8087
8088 "I should have thought," said Anne, "that my manner to yourself might
8089 have spared you much or all of this."
8090
8091 "No, no! your manner might be only the ease which your engagement to
8092 another man would give. I left you in this belief; and yet, I was
8093 determined to see you again. My spirits rallied with the morning, and
8094 I felt that I had still a motive for remaining here."
8095
8096 At last Anne was at home again, and happier than any one in that house
8097 could have conceived. All the surprise and suspense, and every other
8098 painful part of the morning dissipated by this conversation, she
8099 re-entered the house so happy as to be obliged to find an alloy in some
8100 momentary apprehensions of its being impossible to last. An interval
8101 of meditation, serious and grateful, was the best corrective of
8102 everything dangerous in such high-wrought felicity; and she went to her
8103 room, and grew steadfast and fearless in the thankfulness of her
8104 enjoyment.
8105
8106 The evening came, the drawing-rooms were lighted up, the company
8107 assembled. It was but a card party, it was but a mixture of those who
8108 had never met before, and those who met too often; a commonplace
8109 business, too numerous for intimacy, too small for variety; but Anne
8110 had never found an evening shorter. Glowing and lovely in sensibility
8111 and happiness, and more generally admired than she thought about or
8112 cared for, she had cheerful or forbearing feelings for every creature
8113 around her. Mr Elliot was there; she avoided, but she could pity him.
8114 The Wallises, she had amusement in understanding them. Lady Dalrymple
8115 and Miss Carteret--they would soon be innoxious cousins to her. She
8116 cared not for Mrs Clay, and had nothing to blush for in the public
8117 manners of her father and sister. With the Musgroves, there was the
8118 happy chat of perfect ease; with Captain Harville, the kind-hearted
8119 intercourse of brother and sister; with Lady Russell, attempts at
8120 conversation, which a delicious consciousness cut short; with Admiral
8121 and Mrs Croft, everything of peculiar cordiality and fervent interest,
8122 which the same consciousness sought to conceal; and with Captain
8123 Wentworth, some moments of communications continually occurring, and
8124 always the hope of more, and always the knowledge of his being there.
8125
8126 It was in one of these short meetings, each apparently occupied in
8127 admiring a fine display of greenhouse plants, that she said--
8128
8129 "I have been thinking over the past, and trying impartially to judge of
8130 the right and wrong, I mean with regard to myself; and I must believe
8131 that I was right, much as I suffered from it, that I was perfectly
8132 right in being guided by the friend whom you will love better than you
8133 do now. To me, she was in the place of a parent. Do not mistake me,
8134 however. I am not saying that she did not err in her advice. It was,
8135 perhaps, one of those cases in which advice is good or bad only as the
8136 event decides; and for myself, I certainly never should, in any
8137 circumstance of tolerable similarity, give such advice. But I mean,
8138 that I was right in submitting to her, and that if I had done
8139 otherwise, I should have suffered more in continuing the engagement
8140 than I did even in giving it up, because I should have suffered in my
8141 conscience. I have now, as far as such a sentiment is allowable in
8142 human nature, nothing to reproach myself with; and if I mistake not, a
8143 strong sense of duty is no bad part of a woman's portion."
8144
8145 He looked at her, looked at Lady Russell, and looking again at her,
8146 replied, as if in cool deliberation--
8147
8148 "Not yet. But there are hopes of her being forgiven in time. I trust
8149 to being in charity with her soon. But I too have been thinking over
8150 the past, and a question has suggested itself, whether there may not
8151 have been one person more my enemy even than that lady? My own self.
8152 Tell me if, when I returned to England in the year eight, with a few
8153 thousand pounds, and was posted into the Laconia, if I had then written
8154 to you, would you have answered my letter? Would you, in short, have
8155 renewed the engagement then?"
8156
8157 "Would I!" was all her answer; but the accent was decisive enough.
8158
8159 "Good God!" he cried, "you would! It is not that I did not think of
8160 it, or desire it, as what could alone crown all my other success; but I
8161 was proud, too proud to ask again. I did not understand you. I shut
8162 my eyes, and would not understand you, or do you justice. This is a
8163 recollection which ought to make me forgive every one sooner than
8164 myself. Six years of separation and suffering might have been spared.
8165 It is a sort of pain, too, which is new to me. I have been used to the
8166 gratification of believing myself to earn every blessing that I
8167 enjoyed. I have valued myself on honourable toils and just rewards.
8168 Like other great men under reverses," he added, with a smile. "I must
8169 endeavour to subdue my mind to my fortune. I must learn to brook being
8170 happier than I deserve."
8171
8172
8173
8174 Chapter 24
8175
8176
8177 Who can be in doubt of what followed? When any two young people take
8178 it into their heads to marry, they are pretty sure by perseverance to
8179 carry their point, be they ever so poor, or ever so imprudent, or ever
8180 so little likely to be necessary to each other's ultimate comfort.
8181 This may be bad morality to conclude with, but I believe it to be
8182 truth; and if such parties succeed, how should a Captain Wentworth and
8183 an Anne Elliot, with the advantage of maturity of mind, consciousness
8184 of right, and one independent fortune between them, fail of bearing
8185 down every opposition? They might in fact, have borne down a great
8186 deal more than they met with, for there was little to distress them
8187 beyond the want of graciousness and warmth. Sir Walter made no
8188 objection, and Elizabeth did nothing worse than look cold and
8189 unconcerned. Captain Wentworth, with five-and-twenty thousand pounds,
8190 and as high in his profession as merit and activity could place him,
8191 was no longer nobody. He was now esteemed quite worthy to address the
8192 daughter of a foolish, spendthrift baronet, who had not had principle
8193 or sense enough to maintain himself in the situation in which
8194 Providence had placed him, and who could give his daughter at present
8195 but a small part of the share of ten thousand pounds which must be hers
8196 hereafter.
8197
8198 Sir Walter, indeed, though he had no affection for Anne, and no vanity
8199 flattered, to make him really happy on the occasion, was very far from
8200 thinking it a bad match for her. On the contrary, when he saw more of
8201 Captain Wentworth, saw him repeatedly by daylight, and eyed him well,
8202 he was very much struck by his personal claims, and felt that his
8203 superiority of appearance might be not unfairly balanced against her
8204 superiority of rank; and all this, assisted by his well-sounding name,
8205 enabled Sir Walter at last to prepare his pen, with a very good grace,
8206 for the insertion of the marriage in the volume of honour.
8207
8208 The only one among them, whose opposition of feeling could excite any
8209 serious anxiety was Lady Russell. Anne knew that Lady Russell must be
8210 suffering some pain in understanding and relinquishing Mr Elliot, and
8211 be making some struggles to become truly acquainted with, and do
8212 justice to Captain Wentworth. This however was what Lady Russell had
8213 now to do. She must learn to feel that she had been mistaken with
8214 regard to both; that she had been unfairly influenced by appearances in
8215 each; that because Captain Wentworth's manners had not suited her own
8216 ideas, she had been too quick in suspecting them to indicate a
8217 character of dangerous impetuosity; and that because Mr Elliot's
8218 manners had precisely pleased her in their propriety and correctness,
8219 their general politeness and suavity, she had been too quick in
8220 receiving them as the certain result of the most correct opinions and
8221 well-regulated mind. There was nothing less for Lady Russell to do,
8222 than to admit that she had been pretty completely wrong, and to take up
8223 a new set of opinions and of hopes.
8224
8225 There is a quickness of perception in some, a nicety in the discernment
8226 of character, a natural penetration, in short, which no experience in
8227 others can equal, and Lady Russell had been less gifted in this part of
8228 understanding than her young friend. But she was a very good woman,
8229 and if her second object was to be sensible and well-judging, her first
8230 was to see Anne happy. She loved Anne better than she loved her own
8231 abilities; and when the awkwardness of the beginning was over, found
8232 little hardship in attaching herself as a mother to the man who was
8233 securing the happiness of her other child.
8234
8235 Of all the family, Mary was probably the one most immediately gratified
8236 by the circumstance. It was creditable to have a sister married, and
8237 she might flatter herself with having been greatly instrumental to the
8238 connexion, by keeping Anne with her in the autumn; and as her own
8239 sister must be better than her husband's sisters, it was very agreeable
8240 that Captain Wentworth should be a richer man than either Captain
8241 Benwick or Charles Hayter. She had something to suffer, perhaps, when
8242 they came into contact again, in seeing Anne restored to the rights of
8243 seniority, and the mistress of a very pretty landaulette; but she had a
8244 future to look forward to, of powerful consolation. Anne had no
8245 Uppercross Hall before her, no landed estate, no headship of a family;
8246 and if they could but keep Captain Wentworth from being made a baronet,
8247 she would not change situations with Anne.
8248
8249 It would be well for the eldest sister if she were equally satisfied
8250 with her situation, for a change is not very probable there. She had
8251 soon the mortification of seeing Mr Elliot withdraw, and no one of
8252 proper condition has since presented himself to raise even the
8253 unfounded hopes which sunk with him.
8254
8255 The news of his cousin Anne's engagement burst on Mr Elliot most
8256 unexpectedly. It deranged his best plan of domestic happiness, his
8257 best hope of keeping Sir Walter single by the watchfulness which a
8258 son-in-law's rights would have given. But, though discomfited and
8259 disappointed, he could still do something for his own interest and his
8260 own enjoyment. He soon quitted Bath; and on Mrs Clay's quitting it
8261 soon afterwards, and being next heard of as established under his
8262 protection in London, it was evident how double a game he had been
8263 playing, and how determined he was to save himself from being cut out
8264 by one artful woman, at least.
8265
8266 Mrs Clay's affections had overpowered her interest, and she had
8267 sacrificed, for the young man's sake, the possibility of scheming
8268 longer for Sir Walter. She has abilities, however, as well as
8269 affections; and it is now a doubtful point whether his cunning, or
8270 hers, may finally carry the day; whether, after preventing her from
8271 being the wife of Sir Walter, he may not be wheedled and caressed at
8272 last into making her the wife of Sir William.
8273
8274 It cannot be doubted that Sir Walter and Elizabeth were shocked and
8275 mortified by the loss of their companion, and the discovery of their
8276 deception in her. They had their great cousins, to be sure, to resort
8277 to for comfort; but they must long feel that to flatter and follow
8278 others, without being flattered and followed in turn, is but a state of
8279 half enjoyment.
8280
8281 Anne, satisfied at a very early period of Lady Russell's meaning to
8282 love Captain Wentworth as she ought, had no other alloy to the
8283 happiness of her prospects than what arose from the consciousness of
8284 having no relations to bestow on him which a man of sense could value.
8285 There she felt her own inferiority very keenly. The disproportion in
8286 their fortune was nothing; it did not give her a moment's regret; but
8287 to have no family to receive and estimate him properly, nothing of
8288 respectability, of harmony, of good will to offer in return for all the
8289 worth and all the prompt welcome which met her in his brothers and
8290 sisters, was a source of as lively pain as her mind could well be
8291 sensible of under circumstances of otherwise strong felicity. She had
8292 but two friends in the world to add to his list, Lady Russell and Mrs
8293 Smith. To those, however, he was very well disposed to attach himself.
8294 Lady Russell, in spite of all her former transgressions, he could now
8295 value from his heart. While he was not obliged to say that he believed
8296 her to have been right in originally dividing them, he was ready to say
8297 almost everything else in her favour, and as for Mrs Smith, she had
8298 claims of various kinds to recommend her quickly and permanently.
8299
8300 Her recent good offices by Anne had been enough in themselves, and
8301 their marriage, instead of depriving her of one friend, secured her
8302 two. She was their earliest visitor in their settled life; and Captain
8303 Wentworth, by putting her in the way of recovering her husband's
8304 property in the West Indies, by writing for her, acting for her, and
8305 seeing her through all the petty difficulties of the case with the
8306 activity and exertion of a fearless man and a determined friend, fully
8307 requited the services which she had rendered, or ever meant to render,
8308 to his wife.
8309
8310 Mrs Smith's enjoyments were not spoiled by this improvement of income,
8311 with some improvement of health, and the acquisition of such friends to
8312 be often with, for her cheerfulness and mental alacrity did not fail
8313 her; and while these prime supplies of good remained, she might have
8314 bid defiance even to greater accessions of worldly prosperity. She
8315 might have been absolutely rich and perfectly healthy, and yet be
8316 happy. Her spring of felicity was in the glow of her spirits, as her
8317 friend Anne's was in the warmth of her heart. Anne was tenderness
8318 itself, and she had the full worth of it in Captain Wentworth's
8319 affection. His profession was all that could ever make her friends
8320 wish that tenderness less, the dread of a future war all that could dim
8321 her sunshine. She gloried in being a sailor's wife, but she must pay
8322 the tax of quick alarm for belonging to that profession which is, if
8323 possible, more distinguished in its domestic virtues than in its
8324 national importance.
8325
8326
8327
8328 Finis