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1 EMMA
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3 By Jane Austen
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8 VOLUME I
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12 CHAPTER I
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15 Emma Woodhouse, handsome, clever, and rich, with a comfortable home
16 and happy disposition, seemed to unite some of the best blessings of
17 existence; and had lived nearly twenty-one years in the world with very
18 little to distress or vex her.
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20 She was the youngest of the two daughters of a most affectionate,
21 indulgent father; and had, in consequence of her sister’s marriage, been
22 mistress of his house from a very early period. Her mother had died
23 too long ago for her to have more than an indistinct remembrance of
24 her caresses; and her place had been supplied by an excellent woman as
25 governess, who had fallen little short of a mother in affection.
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27 Sixteen years had Miss Taylor been in Mr. Woodhouse’s family, less as a
28 governess than a friend, very fond of both daughters, but particularly
29 of Emma. Between _them_ it was more the intimacy of sisters. Even before
30 Miss Taylor had ceased to hold the nominal office of governess, the
31 mildness of her temper had hardly allowed her to impose any restraint;
32 and the shadow of authority being now long passed away, they had been
33 living together as friend and friend very mutually attached, and Emma
34 doing just what she liked; highly esteeming Miss Taylor’s judgment, but
35 directed chiefly by her own.
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37 The real evils, indeed, of Emma’s situation were the power of having
38 rather too much her own way, and a disposition to think a little too
39 well of herself; these were the disadvantages which threatened alloy to
40 her many enjoyments. The danger, however, was at present so unperceived,
41 that they did not by any means rank as misfortunes with her.
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43 Sorrow came--a gentle sorrow--but not at all in the shape of any
44 disagreeable consciousness.--Miss Taylor married. It was Miss Taylor’s
45 loss which first brought grief. It was on the wedding-day of this
46 beloved friend that Emma first sat in mournful thought of any
47 continuance. The wedding over, and the bride-people gone, her father and
48 herself were left to dine together, with no prospect of a third to cheer
49 a long evening. Her father composed himself to sleep after dinner, as
50 usual, and she had then only to sit and think of what she had lost.
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52 The event had every promise of happiness for her friend. Mr. Weston
53 was a man of unexceptionable character, easy fortune, suitable age, and
54 pleasant manners; and there was some satisfaction in considering
55 with what self-denying, generous friendship she had always wished and
56 promoted the match; but it was a black morning’s work for her. The want
57 of Miss Taylor would be felt every hour of every day. She recalled her
58 past kindness--the kindness, the affection of sixteen years--how she had
59 taught and how she had played with her from five years old--how she had
60 devoted all her powers to attach and amuse her in health--and how
61 nursed her through the various illnesses of childhood. A large debt of
62 gratitude was owing here; but the intercourse of the last seven
63 years, the equal footing and perfect unreserve which had soon followed
64 Isabella’s marriage, on their being left to each other, was yet a
65 dearer, tenderer recollection. She had been a friend and companion such
66 as few possessed: intelligent, well-informed, useful, gentle, knowing
67 all the ways of the family, interested in all its concerns, and
68 peculiarly interested in herself, in every pleasure, every scheme of
69 hers--one to whom she could speak every thought as it arose, and who had
70 such an affection for her as could never find fault.
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72 How was she to bear the change?--It was true that her friend was going
73 only half a mile from them; but Emma was aware that great must be the
74 difference between a Mrs. Weston, only half a mile from them, and a Miss
75 Taylor in the house; and with all her advantages, natural and domestic,
76 she was now in great danger of suffering from intellectual solitude. She
77 dearly loved her father, but he was no companion for her. He could not
78 meet her in conversation, rational or playful.
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80 The evil of the actual disparity in their ages (and Mr. Woodhouse had
81 not married early) was much increased by his constitution and habits;
82 for having been a valetudinarian all his life, without activity of
83 mind or body, he was a much older man in ways than in years; and though
84 everywhere beloved for the friendliness of his heart and his amiable
85 temper, his talents could not have recommended him at any time.
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87 Her sister, though comparatively but little removed by matrimony, being
88 settled in London, only sixteen miles off, was much beyond her daily
89 reach; and many a long October and November evening must be struggled
90 through at Hartfield, before Christmas brought the next visit from
91 Isabella and her husband, and their little children, to fill the house,
92 and give her pleasant society again.
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94 Highbury, the large and populous village, almost amounting to a town,
95 to which Hartfield, in spite of its separate lawn, and shrubberies, and
96 name, did really belong, afforded her no equals. The Woodhouses
97 were first in consequence there. All looked up to them. She had many
98 acquaintance in the place, for her father was universally civil, but
99 not one among them who could be accepted in lieu of Miss Taylor for even
100 half a day. It was a melancholy change; and Emma could not but sigh over
101 it, and wish for impossible things, till her father awoke, and made it
102 necessary to be cheerful. His spirits required support. He was a nervous
103 man, easily depressed; fond of every body that he was used to, and
104 hating to part with them; hating change of every kind. Matrimony, as the
105 origin of change, was always disagreeable; and he was by no means yet
106 reconciled to his own daughter’s marrying, nor could ever speak of her
107 but with compassion, though it had been entirely a match of affection,
108 when he was now obliged to part with Miss Taylor too; and from his
109 habits of gentle selfishness, and of being never able to suppose that
110 other people could feel differently from himself, he was very much
111 disposed to think Miss Taylor had done as sad a thing for herself as for
112 them, and would have been a great deal happier if she had spent all the
113 rest of her life at Hartfield. Emma smiled and chatted as cheerfully
114 as she could, to keep him from such thoughts; but when tea came, it was
115 impossible for him not to say exactly as he had said at dinner,
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117 “Poor Miss Taylor!--I wish she were here again. What a pity it is that
118 Mr. Weston ever thought of her!”
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120 “I cannot agree with you, papa; you know I cannot. Mr. Weston is such
121 a good-humoured, pleasant, excellent man, that he thoroughly deserves
122 a good wife;--and you would not have had Miss Taylor live with us for
123 ever, and bear all my odd humours, when she might have a house of her
124 own?”
125
126 “A house of her own!--But where is the advantage of a house of her own?
127 This is three times as large.--And you have never any odd humours, my
128 dear.”
129
130 “How often we shall be going to see them, and they coming to see us!--We
131 shall be always meeting! _We_ must begin; we must go and pay wedding
132 visit very soon.”
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134 “My dear, how am I to get so far? Randalls is such a distance. I could
135 not walk half so far.”
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137 “No, papa, nobody thought of your walking. We must go in the carriage,
138 to be sure.”
139
140 “The carriage! But James will not like to put the horses to for such a
141 little way;--and where are the poor horses to be while we are paying our
142 visit?”
143
144 “They are to be put into Mr. Weston’s stable, papa. You know we have
145 settled all that already. We talked it all over with Mr. Weston last
146 night. And as for James, you may be very sure he will always like going
147 to Randalls, because of his daughter’s being housemaid there. I only
148 doubt whether he will ever take us anywhere else. That was your doing,
149 papa. You got Hannah that good place. Nobody thought of Hannah till you
150 mentioned her--James is so obliged to you!”
151
152 “I am very glad I did think of her. It was very lucky, for I would not
153 have had poor James think himself slighted upon any account; and I am
154 sure she will make a very good servant: she is a civil, pretty-spoken
155 girl; I have a great opinion of her. Whenever I see her, she always
156 curtseys and asks me how I do, in a very pretty manner; and when you
157 have had her here to do needlework, I observe she always turns the lock
158 of the door the right way and never bangs it. I am sure she will be an
159 excellent servant; and it will be a great comfort to poor Miss Taylor
160 to have somebody about her that she is used to see. Whenever James goes
161 over to see his daughter, you know, she will be hearing of us. He will
162 be able to tell her how we all are.”
163
164 Emma spared no exertions to maintain this happier flow of ideas, and
165 hoped, by the help of backgammon, to get her father tolerably
166 through the evening, and be attacked by no regrets but her own. The
167 backgammon-table was placed; but a visitor immediately afterwards walked
168 in and made it unnecessary.
169
170 Mr. Knightley, a sensible man about seven or eight-and-thirty, was not
171 only a very old and intimate friend of the family, but particularly
172 connected with it, as the elder brother of Isabella’s husband. He lived
173 about a mile from Highbury, was a frequent visitor, and always welcome,
174 and at this time more welcome than usual, as coming directly from their
175 mutual connexions in London. He had returned to a late dinner, after
176 some days’ absence, and now walked up to Hartfield to say that all were
177 well in Brunswick Square. It was a happy circumstance, and animated
178 Mr. Woodhouse for some time. Mr. Knightley had a cheerful manner, which
179 always did him good; and his many inquiries after “poor Isabella” and
180 her children were answered most satisfactorily. When this was over, Mr.
181 Woodhouse gratefully observed, “It is very kind of you, Mr. Knightley,
182 to come out at this late hour to call upon us. I am afraid you must have
183 had a shocking walk.”
184
185 “Not at all, sir. It is a beautiful moonlight night; and so mild that I
186 must draw back from your great fire.”
187
188 “But you must have found it very damp and dirty. I wish you may not
189 catch cold.”
190
191 “Dirty, sir! Look at my shoes. Not a speck on them.”
192
193 “Well! that is quite surprising, for we have had a vast deal of rain
194 here. It rained dreadfully hard for half an hour while we were at
195 breakfast. I wanted them to put off the wedding.”
196
197 “By the bye--I have not wished you joy. Being pretty well aware of what
198 sort of joy you must both be feeling, I have been in no hurry with my
199 congratulations; but I hope it all went off tolerably well. How did you
200 all behave? Who cried most?”
201
202 “Ah! poor Miss Taylor! ‘Tis a sad business.”
203
204 “Poor Mr. and Miss Woodhouse, if you please; but I cannot possibly say
205 ‘poor Miss Taylor.’ I have a great regard for you and Emma; but when it
206 comes to the question of dependence or independence!--At any rate, it
207 must be better to have only one to please than two.”
208
209 “Especially when _one_ of those two is such a fanciful, troublesome
210 creature!” said Emma playfully. “That is what you have in your head, I
211 know--and what you would certainly say if my father were not by.”
212
213 “I believe it is very true, my dear, indeed,” said Mr. Woodhouse, with a
214 sigh. “I am afraid I am sometimes very fanciful and troublesome.”
215
216 “My dearest papa! You do not think I could mean _you_, or suppose Mr.
217 Knightley to mean _you_. What a horrible idea! Oh no! I meant only
218 myself. Mr. Knightley loves to find fault with me, you know--in a
219 joke--it is all a joke. We always say what we like to one another.”
220
221 Mr. Knightley, in fact, was one of the few people who could see faults
222 in Emma Woodhouse, and the only one who ever told her of them: and
223 though this was not particularly agreeable to Emma herself, she knew
224 it would be so much less so to her father, that she would not have him
225 really suspect such a circumstance as her not being thought perfect by
226 every body.
227
228 “Emma knows I never flatter her,” said Mr. Knightley, “but I meant no
229 reflection on any body. Miss Taylor has been used to have two persons
230 to please; she will now have but one. The chances are that she must be a
231 gainer.”
232
233 “Well,” said Emma, willing to let it pass--“you want to hear about
234 the wedding; and I shall be happy to tell you, for we all behaved
235 charmingly. Every body was punctual, every body in their best looks: not
236 a tear, and hardly a long face to be seen. Oh no; we all felt that we
237 were going to be only half a mile apart, and were sure of meeting every
238 day.”
239
240 “Dear Emma bears every thing so well,” said her father. “But, Mr.
241 Knightley, she is really very sorry to lose poor Miss Taylor, and I am
242 sure she _will_ miss her more than she thinks for.”
243
244 Emma turned away her head, divided between tears and smiles. “It
245 is impossible that Emma should not miss such a companion,” said Mr.
246 Knightley. “We should not like her so well as we do, sir, if we could
247 suppose it; but she knows how much the marriage is to Miss Taylor’s
248 advantage; she knows how very acceptable it must be, at Miss Taylor’s
249 time of life, to be settled in a home of her own, and how important to
250 her to be secure of a comfortable provision, and therefore cannot allow
251 herself to feel so much pain as pleasure. Every friend of Miss Taylor
252 must be glad to have her so happily married.”
253
254 “And you have forgotten one matter of joy to me,” said Emma, “and a very
255 considerable one--that I made the match myself. I made the match, you
256 know, four years ago; and to have it take place, and be proved in the
257 right, when so many people said Mr. Weston would never marry again, may
258 comfort me for any thing.”
259
260 Mr. Knightley shook his head at her. Her father fondly replied, “Ah!
261 my dear, I wish you would not make matches and foretell things, for
262 whatever you say always comes to pass. Pray do not make any more
263 matches.”
264
265 “I promise you to make none for myself, papa; but I must, indeed, for
266 other people. It is the greatest amusement in the world! And after such
267 success, you know!--Every body said that Mr. Weston would never marry
268 again. Oh dear, no! Mr. Weston, who had been a widower so long, and who
269 seemed so perfectly comfortable without a wife, so constantly occupied
270 either in his business in town or among his friends here, always
271 acceptable wherever he went, always cheerful--Mr. Weston need not spend
272 a single evening in the year alone if he did not like it. Oh no! Mr.
273 Weston certainly would never marry again. Some people even talked of a
274 promise to his wife on her deathbed, and others of the son and the
275 uncle not letting him. All manner of solemn nonsense was talked on the
276 subject, but I believed none of it.
277
278 “Ever since the day--about four years ago--that Miss Taylor and I met
279 with him in Broadway Lane, when, because it began to drizzle, he darted
280 away with so much gallantry, and borrowed two umbrellas for us from
281 Farmer Mitchell’s, I made up my mind on the subject. I planned the match
282 from that hour; and when such success has blessed me in this instance,
283 dear papa, you cannot think that I shall leave off match-making.”
284
285 “I do not understand what you mean by ‘success,’” said Mr. Knightley.
286 “Success supposes endeavour. Your time has been properly and delicately
287 spent, if you have been endeavouring for the last four years to bring
288 about this marriage. A worthy employment for a young lady’s mind! But
289 if, which I rather imagine, your making the match, as you call it, means
290 only your planning it, your saying to yourself one idle day, ‘I think it
291 would be a very good thing for Miss Taylor if Mr. Weston were to marry
292 her,’ and saying it again to yourself every now and then afterwards, why
293 do you talk of success? Where is your merit? What are you proud of? You
294 made a lucky guess; and _that_ is all that can be said.”
295
296 “And have you never known the pleasure and triumph of a lucky guess?--I
297 pity you.--I thought you cleverer--for, depend upon it a lucky guess is
298 never merely luck. There is always some talent in it. And as to my
299 poor word ‘success,’ which you quarrel with, I do not know that I am so
300 entirely without any claim to it. You have drawn two pretty pictures;
301 but I think there may be a third--a something between the do-nothing and
302 the do-all. If I had not promoted Mr. Weston’s visits here, and given
303 many little encouragements, and smoothed many little matters, it might
304 not have come to any thing after all. I think you must know Hartfield
305 enough to comprehend that.”
306
307 “A straightforward, open-hearted man like Weston, and a rational,
308 unaffected woman like Miss Taylor, may be safely left to manage their
309 own concerns. You are more likely to have done harm to yourself, than
310 good to them, by interference.”
311
312 “Emma never thinks of herself, if she can do good to others,” rejoined
313 Mr. Woodhouse, understanding but in part. “But, my dear, pray do not
314 make any more matches; they are silly things, and break up one’s family
315 circle grievously.”
316
317 “Only one more, papa; only for Mr. Elton. Poor Mr. Elton! You like Mr.
318 Elton, papa,--I must look about for a wife for him. There is nobody in
319 Highbury who deserves him--and he has been here a whole year, and has
320 fitted up his house so comfortably, that it would be a shame to have him
321 single any longer--and I thought when he was joining their hands to-day,
322 he looked so very much as if he would like to have the same kind office
323 done for him! I think very well of Mr. Elton, and this is the only way I
324 have of doing him a service.”
325
326 “Mr. Elton is a very pretty young man, to be sure, and a very good young
327 man, and I have a great regard for him. But if you want to shew him any
328 attention, my dear, ask him to come and dine with us some day. That will
329 be a much better thing. I dare say Mr. Knightley will be so kind as to
330 meet him.”
331
332 “With a great deal of pleasure, sir, at any time,” said Mr. Knightley,
333 laughing, “and I agree with you entirely, that it will be a much better
334 thing. Invite him to dinner, Emma, and help him to the best of the fish
335 and the chicken, but leave him to chuse his own wife. Depend upon it, a
336 man of six or seven-and-twenty can take care of himself.”
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340 CHAPTER II
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342
343 Mr. Weston was a native of Highbury, and born of a respectable family,
344 which for the last two or three generations had been rising into
345 gentility and property. He had received a good education, but, on
346 succeeding early in life to a small independence, had become indisposed
347 for any of the more homely pursuits in which his brothers were engaged,
348 and had satisfied an active, cheerful mind and social temper by entering
349 into the militia of his county, then embodied.
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351 Captain Weston was a general favourite; and when the chances of his
352 military life had introduced him to Miss Churchill, of a great Yorkshire
353 family, and Miss Churchill fell in love with him, nobody was surprized,
354 except her brother and his wife, who had never seen him, and who were
355 full of pride and importance, which the connexion would offend.
356
357 Miss Churchill, however, being of age, and with the full command of her
358 fortune--though her fortune bore no proportion to the family-estate--was
359 not to be dissuaded from the marriage, and it took place, to the
360 infinite mortification of Mr. and Mrs. Churchill, who threw her off with
361 due decorum. It was an unsuitable connexion, and did not produce much
362 happiness. Mrs. Weston ought to have found more in it, for she had a
363 husband whose warm heart and sweet temper made him think every thing due
364 to her in return for the great goodness of being in love with him;
365 but though she had one sort of spirit, she had not the best. She had
366 resolution enough to pursue her own will in spite of her brother,
367 but not enough to refrain from unreasonable regrets at that brother’s
368 unreasonable anger, nor from missing the luxuries of her former home.
369 They lived beyond their income, but still it was nothing in comparison
370 of Enscombe: she did not cease to love her husband, but she wanted at
371 once to be the wife of Captain Weston, and Miss Churchill of Enscombe.
372
373 Captain Weston, who had been considered, especially by the Churchills,
374 as making such an amazing match, was proved to have much the worst of
375 the bargain; for when his wife died, after a three years’ marriage, he
376 was rather a poorer man than at first, and with a child to maintain.
377 From the expense of the child, however, he was soon relieved. The boy
378 had, with the additional softening claim of a lingering illness of his
379 mother’s, been the means of a sort of reconciliation; and Mr. and Mrs.
380 Churchill, having no children of their own, nor any other young creature
381 of equal kindred to care for, offered to take the whole charge of the
382 little Frank soon after her decease. Some scruples and some reluctance
383 the widower-father may be supposed to have felt; but as they were
384 overcome by other considerations, the child was given up to the care and
385 the wealth of the Churchills, and he had only his own comfort to seek,
386 and his own situation to improve as he could.
387
388 A complete change of life became desirable. He quitted the militia and
389 engaged in trade, having brothers already established in a good way in
390 London, which afforded him a favourable opening. It was a concern which
391 brought just employment enough. He had still a small house in Highbury,
392 where most of his leisure days were spent; and between useful occupation
393 and the pleasures of society, the next eighteen or twenty years of his
394 life passed cheerfully away. He had, by that time, realised an easy
395 competence--enough to secure the purchase of a little estate adjoining
396 Highbury, which he had always longed for--enough to marry a woman as
397 portionless even as Miss Taylor, and to live according to the wishes of
398 his own friendly and social disposition.
399
400 It was now some time since Miss Taylor had begun to influence his
401 schemes; but as it was not the tyrannic influence of youth on youth,
402 it had not shaken his determination of never settling till he could
403 purchase Randalls, and the sale of Randalls was long looked forward to;
404 but he had gone steadily on, with these objects in view, till they were
405 accomplished. He had made his fortune, bought his house, and obtained
406 his wife; and was beginning a new period of existence, with every
407 probability of greater happiness than in any yet passed through. He had
408 never been an unhappy man; his own temper had secured him from that,
409 even in his first marriage; but his second must shew him how delightful
410 a well-judging and truly amiable woman could be, and must give him the
411 pleasantest proof of its being a great deal better to choose than to be
412 chosen, to excite gratitude than to feel it.
413
414 He had only himself to please in his choice: his fortune was his own;
415 for as to Frank, it was more than being tacitly brought up as his
416 uncle’s heir, it had become so avowed an adoption as to have him assume
417 the name of Churchill on coming of age. It was most unlikely, therefore,
418 that he should ever want his father’s assistance. His father had no
419 apprehension of it. The aunt was a capricious woman, and governed her
420 husband entirely; but it was not in Mr. Weston’s nature to imagine that
421 any caprice could be strong enough to affect one so dear, and, as he
422 believed, so deservedly dear. He saw his son every year in London, and
423 was proud of him; and his fond report of him as a very fine young man
424 had made Highbury feel a sort of pride in him too. He was looked on as
425 sufficiently belonging to the place to make his merits and prospects a
426 kind of common concern.
427
428 Mr. Frank Churchill was one of the boasts of Highbury, and a lively
429 curiosity to see him prevailed, though the compliment was so little
430 returned that he had never been there in his life. His coming to visit
431 his father had been often talked of but never achieved.
432
433 Now, upon his father’s marriage, it was very generally proposed, as a
434 most proper attention, that the visit should take place. There was not a
435 dissentient voice on the subject, either when Mrs. Perry drank tea with
436 Mrs. and Miss Bates, or when Mrs. and Miss Bates returned the visit. Now
437 was the time for Mr. Frank Churchill to come among them; and the hope
438 strengthened when it was understood that he had written to his new
439 mother on the occasion. For a few days, every morning visit in Highbury
440 included some mention of the handsome letter Mrs. Weston had received.
441 “I suppose you have heard of the handsome letter Mr. Frank Churchill
442 has written to Mrs. Weston? I understand it was a very handsome letter,
443 indeed. Mr. Woodhouse told me of it. Mr. Woodhouse saw the letter, and
444 he says he never saw such a handsome letter in his life.”
445
446 It was, indeed, a highly prized letter. Mrs. Weston had, of course,
447 formed a very favourable idea of the young man; and such a pleasing
448 attention was an irresistible proof of his great good sense, and a most
449 welcome addition to every source and every expression of congratulation
450 which her marriage had already secured. She felt herself a most
451 fortunate woman; and she had lived long enough to know how fortunate
452 she might well be thought, where the only regret was for a partial
453 separation from friends whose friendship for her had never cooled, and
454 who could ill bear to part with her.
455
456 She knew that at times she must be missed; and could not think, without
457 pain, of Emma’s losing a single pleasure, or suffering an hour’s ennui,
458 from the want of her companionableness: but dear Emma was of no feeble
459 character; she was more equal to her situation than most girls would
460 have been, and had sense, and energy, and spirits that might be hoped
461 would bear her well and happily through its little difficulties and
462 privations. And then there was such comfort in the very easy distance of
463 Randalls from Hartfield, so convenient for even solitary female walking,
464 and in Mr. Weston’s disposition and circumstances, which would make the
465 approaching season no hindrance to their spending half the evenings in
466 the week together.
467
468 Her situation was altogether the subject of hours of gratitude to Mrs.
469 Weston, and of moments only of regret; and her satisfaction--her more
470 than satisfaction--her cheerful enjoyment, was so just and so apparent,
471 that Emma, well as she knew her father, was sometimes taken by surprize
472 at his being still able to pity ‘poor Miss Taylor,’ when they left her
473 at Randalls in the centre of every domestic comfort, or saw her go away
474 in the evening attended by her pleasant husband to a carriage of her
475 own. But never did she go without Mr. Woodhouse’s giving a gentle sigh,
476 and saying, “Ah, poor Miss Taylor! She would be very glad to stay.”
477
478 There was no recovering Miss Taylor--nor much likelihood of ceasing to
479 pity her; but a few weeks brought some alleviation to Mr. Woodhouse.
480 The compliments of his neighbours were over; he was no longer teased by
481 being wished joy of so sorrowful an event; and the wedding-cake, which
482 had been a great distress to him, was all eat up. His own stomach
483 could bear nothing rich, and he could never believe other people to be
484 different from himself. What was unwholesome to him he regarded as unfit
485 for any body; and he had, therefore, earnestly tried to dissuade them
486 from having any wedding-cake at all, and when that proved vain, as
487 earnestly tried to prevent any body’s eating it. He had been at the
488 pains of consulting Mr. Perry, the apothecary, on the subject. Mr. Perry
489 was an intelligent, gentlemanlike man, whose frequent visits were one
490 of the comforts of Mr. Woodhouse’s life; and upon being applied to, he
491 could not but acknowledge (though it seemed rather against the bias
492 of inclination) that wedding-cake might certainly disagree with
493 many--perhaps with most people, unless taken moderately. With such an
494 opinion, in confirmation of his own, Mr. Woodhouse hoped to influence
495 every visitor of the newly married pair; but still the cake was eaten;
496 and there was no rest for his benevolent nerves till it was all gone.
497
498 There was a strange rumour in Highbury of all the little Perrys being
499 seen with a slice of Mrs. Weston’s wedding-cake in their hands: but Mr.
500 Woodhouse would never believe it.
501
502
503
504 CHAPTER III
505
506
507 Mr. Woodhouse was fond of society in his own way. He liked very much to
508 have his friends come and see him; and from various united causes, from
509 his long residence at Hartfield, and his good nature, from his fortune,
510 his house, and his daughter, he could command the visits of his
511 own little circle, in a great measure, as he liked. He had not much
512 intercourse with any families beyond that circle; his horror of late
513 hours, and large dinner-parties, made him unfit for any acquaintance but
514 such as would visit him on his own terms. Fortunately for him, Highbury,
515 including Randalls in the same parish, and Donwell Abbey in the parish
516 adjoining, the seat of Mr. Knightley, comprehended many such. Not
517 unfrequently, through Emma’s persuasion, he had some of the chosen and
518 the best to dine with him: but evening parties were what he preferred;
519 and, unless he fancied himself at any time unequal to company, there
520 was scarcely an evening in the week in which Emma could not make up a
521 card-table for him.
522
523 Real, long-standing regard brought the Westons and Mr. Knightley; and by
524 Mr. Elton, a young man living alone without liking it, the privilege
525 of exchanging any vacant evening of his own blank solitude for the
526 elegancies and society of Mr. Woodhouse’s drawing-room, and the smiles
527 of his lovely daughter, was in no danger of being thrown away.
528
529 After these came a second set; among the most come-at-able of whom were
530 Mrs. and Miss Bates, and Mrs. Goddard, three ladies almost always at
531 the service of an invitation from Hartfield, and who were fetched and
532 carried home so often, that Mr. Woodhouse thought it no hardship for
533 either James or the horses. Had it taken place only once a year, it
534 would have been a grievance.
535
536 Mrs. Bates, the widow of a former vicar of Highbury, was a very old
537 lady, almost past every thing but tea and quadrille. She lived with her
538 single daughter in a very small way, and was considered with all the
539 regard and respect which a harmless old lady, under such untoward
540 circumstances, can excite. Her daughter enjoyed a most uncommon degree
541 of popularity for a woman neither young, handsome, rich, nor married.
542 Miss Bates stood in the very worst predicament in the world for having
543 much of the public favour; and she had no intellectual superiority to
544 make atonement to herself, or frighten those who might hate her into
545 outward respect. She had never boasted either beauty or cleverness. Her
546 youth had passed without distinction, and her middle of life was devoted
547 to the care of a failing mother, and the endeavour to make a small
548 income go as far as possible. And yet she was a happy woman, and a woman
549 whom no one named without good-will. It was her own universal good-will
550 and contented temper which worked such wonders. She loved every body,
551 was interested in every body’s happiness, quicksighted to every body’s
552 merits; thought herself a most fortunate creature, and surrounded with
553 blessings in such an excellent mother, and so many good neighbours
554 and friends, and a home that wanted for nothing. The simplicity and
555 cheerfulness of her nature, her contented and grateful spirit, were a
556 recommendation to every body, and a mine of felicity to herself. She was
557 a great talker upon little matters, which exactly suited Mr. Woodhouse,
558 full of trivial communications and harmless gossip.
559
560 Mrs. Goddard was the mistress of a School--not of a seminary, or an
561 establishment, or any thing which professed, in long sentences of
562 refined nonsense, to combine liberal acquirements with elegant morality,
563 upon new principles and new systems--and where young ladies for enormous
564 pay might be screwed out of health and into vanity--but a real,
565 honest, old-fashioned Boarding-school, where a reasonable quantity of
566 accomplishments were sold at a reasonable price, and where girls might
567 be sent to be out of the way, and scramble themselves into a little
568 education, without any danger of coming back prodigies. Mrs. Goddard’s
569 school was in high repute--and very deservedly; for Highbury was
570 reckoned a particularly healthy spot: she had an ample house and garden,
571 gave the children plenty of wholesome food, let them run about a great
572 deal in the summer, and in winter dressed their chilblains with her own
573 hands. It was no wonder that a train of twenty young couple now walked
574 after her to church. She was a plain, motherly kind of woman, who
575 had worked hard in her youth, and now thought herself entitled to the
576 occasional holiday of a tea-visit; and having formerly owed much to Mr.
577 Woodhouse’s kindness, felt his particular claim on her to leave her neat
578 parlour, hung round with fancy-work, whenever she could, and win or lose
579 a few sixpences by his fireside.
580
581 These were the ladies whom Emma found herself very frequently able to
582 collect; and happy was she, for her father’s sake, in the power; though,
583 as far as she was herself concerned, it was no remedy for the absence of
584 Mrs. Weston. She was delighted to see her father look comfortable, and
585 very much pleased with herself for contriving things so well; but the
586 quiet prosings of three such women made her feel that every evening so
587 spent was indeed one of the long evenings she had fearfully anticipated.
588
589 As she sat one morning, looking forward to exactly such a close of the
590 present day, a note was brought from Mrs. Goddard, requesting, in most
591 respectful terms, to be allowed to bring Miss Smith with her; a most
592 welcome request: for Miss Smith was a girl of seventeen, whom Emma knew
593 very well by sight, and had long felt an interest in, on account of
594 her beauty. A very gracious invitation was returned, and the evening no
595 longer dreaded by the fair mistress of the mansion.
596
597 Harriet Smith was the natural daughter of somebody. Somebody had placed
598 her, several years back, at Mrs. Goddard’s school, and somebody
599 had lately raised her from the condition of scholar to that of
600 parlour-boarder. This was all that was generally known of her history.
601 She had no visible friends but what had been acquired at Highbury, and
602 was now just returned from a long visit in the country to some young
603 ladies who had been at school there with her.
604
605 She was a very pretty girl, and her beauty happened to be of a sort
606 which Emma particularly admired. She was short, plump, and fair, with a
607 fine bloom, blue eyes, light hair, regular features, and a look of great
608 sweetness, and, before the end of the evening, Emma was as much pleased
609 with her manners as her person, and quite determined to continue the
610 acquaintance.
611
612 She was not struck by any thing remarkably clever in Miss Smith’s
613 conversation, but she found her altogether very engaging--not
614 inconveniently shy, not unwilling to talk--and yet so far from pushing,
615 shewing so proper and becoming a deference, seeming so pleasantly
616 grateful for being admitted to Hartfield, and so artlessly impressed
617 by the appearance of every thing in so superior a style to what she had
618 been used to, that she must have good sense, and deserve encouragement.
619 Encouragement should be given. Those soft blue eyes, and all those
620 natural graces, should not be wasted on the inferior society of Highbury
621 and its connexions. The acquaintance she had already formed were
622 unworthy of her. The friends from whom she had just parted, though very
623 good sort of people, must be doing her harm. They were a family of the
624 name of Martin, whom Emma well knew by character, as renting a large
625 farm of Mr. Knightley, and residing in the parish of Donwell--very
626 creditably, she believed--she knew Mr. Knightley thought highly of
627 them--but they must be coarse and unpolished, and very unfit to be the
628 intimates of a girl who wanted only a little more knowledge and elegance
629 to be quite perfect. _She_ would notice her; she would improve her; she
630 would detach her from her bad acquaintance, and introduce her into good
631 society; she would form her opinions and her manners. It would be an
632 interesting, and certainly a very kind undertaking; highly becoming her
633 own situation in life, her leisure, and powers.
634
635 She was so busy in admiring those soft blue eyes, in talking and
636 listening, and forming all these schemes in the in-betweens, that the
637 evening flew away at a very unusual rate; and the supper-table, which
638 always closed such parties, and for which she had been used to sit and
639 watch the due time, was all set out and ready, and moved forwards to the
640 fire, before she was aware. With an alacrity beyond the common impulse
641 of a spirit which yet was never indifferent to the credit of doing every
642 thing well and attentively, with the real good-will of a mind delighted
643 with its own ideas, did she then do all the honours of the meal, and
644 help and recommend the minced chicken and scalloped oysters, with an
645 urgency which she knew would be acceptable to the early hours and civil
646 scruples of their guests.
647
648 Upon such occasions poor Mr. Woodhouse’s feelings were in sad warfare.
649 He loved to have the cloth laid, because it had been the fashion of his
650 youth, but his conviction of suppers being very unwholesome made him
651 rather sorry to see any thing put on it; and while his hospitality would
652 have welcomed his visitors to every thing, his care for their health
653 made him grieve that they would eat.
654
655 Such another small basin of thin gruel as his own was all that he could,
656 with thorough self-approbation, recommend; though he might constrain
657 himself, while the ladies were comfortably clearing the nicer things, to
658 say:
659
660 “Mrs. Bates, let me propose your venturing on one of these eggs. An egg
661 boiled very soft is not unwholesome. Serle understands boiling an egg
662 better than any body. I would not recommend an egg boiled by any body
663 else; but you need not be afraid, they are very small, you see--one of
664 our small eggs will not hurt you. Miss Bates, let Emma help you to a
665 _little_ bit of tart--a _very_ little bit. Ours are all apple-tarts. You
666 need not be afraid of unwholesome preserves here. I do not advise the
667 custard. Mrs. Goddard, what say you to _half_ a glass of wine? A
668 _small_ half-glass, put into a tumbler of water? I do not think it could
669 disagree with you.”
670
671 Emma allowed her father to talk--but supplied her visitors in a much
672 more satisfactory style, and on the present evening had particular
673 pleasure in sending them away happy. The happiness of Miss Smith was
674 quite equal to her intentions. Miss Woodhouse was so great a personage
675 in Highbury, that the prospect of the introduction had given as much
676 panic as pleasure; but the humble, grateful little girl went off with
677 highly gratified feelings, delighted with the affability with which Miss
678 Woodhouse had treated her all the evening, and actually shaken hands
679 with her at last!
680
681
682
683 CHAPTER IV
684
685
686 Harriet Smith’s intimacy at Hartfield was soon a settled thing. Quick
687 and decided in her ways, Emma lost no time in inviting, encouraging, and
688 telling her to come very often; and as their acquaintance increased, so
689 did their satisfaction in each other. As a walking companion, Emma had
690 very early foreseen how useful she might find her. In that respect
691 Mrs. Weston’s loss had been important. Her father never went beyond the
692 shrubbery, where two divisions of the ground sufficed him for his long
693 walk, or his short, as the year varied; and since Mrs. Weston’s marriage
694 her exercise had been too much confined. She had ventured once alone to
695 Randalls, but it was not pleasant; and a Harriet Smith, therefore,
696 one whom she could summon at any time to a walk, would be a valuable
697 addition to her privileges. But in every respect, as she saw more of
698 her, she approved her, and was confirmed in all her kind designs.
699
700 Harriet certainly was not clever, but she had a sweet, docile, grateful
701 disposition, was totally free from conceit, and only desiring to be
702 guided by any one she looked up to. Her early attachment to herself
703 was very amiable; and her inclination for good company, and power of
704 appreciating what was elegant and clever, shewed that there was no
705 want of taste, though strength of understanding must not be expected.
706 Altogether she was quite convinced of Harriet Smith’s being exactly the
707 young friend she wanted--exactly the something which her home required.
708 Such a friend as Mrs. Weston was out of the question. Two such could
709 never be granted. Two such she did not want. It was quite a different
710 sort of thing, a sentiment distinct and independent. Mrs. Weston was the
711 object of a regard which had its basis in gratitude and esteem. Harriet
712 would be loved as one to whom she could be useful. For Mrs. Weston there
713 was nothing to be done; for Harriet every thing.
714
715 Her first attempts at usefulness were in an endeavour to find out who
716 were the parents, but Harriet could not tell. She was ready to tell
717 every thing in her power, but on this subject questions were vain. Emma
718 was obliged to fancy what she liked--but she could never believe that in
719 the same situation _she_ should not have discovered the truth. Harriet
720 had no penetration. She had been satisfied to hear and believe just what
721 Mrs. Goddard chose to tell her; and looked no farther.
722
723 Mrs. Goddard, and the teachers, and the girls and the affairs of
724 the school in general, formed naturally a great part of the
725 conversation--and but for her acquaintance with the Martins of
726 Abbey-Mill Farm, it must have been the whole. But the Martins occupied
727 her thoughts a good deal; she had spent two very happy months with them,
728 and now loved to talk of the pleasures of her visit, and describe
729 the many comforts and wonders of the place. Emma encouraged her
730 talkativeness--amused by such a picture of another set of beings,
731 and enjoying the youthful simplicity which could speak with so much
732 exultation of Mrs. Martin’s having “_two_ parlours, two very good
733 parlours, indeed; one of them quite as large as Mrs. Goddard’s
734 drawing-room; and of her having an upper maid who had lived
735 five-and-twenty years with her; and of their having eight cows, two of
736 them Alderneys, and one a little Welch cow, a very pretty little Welch
737 cow indeed; and of Mrs. Martin’s saying as she was so fond of it,
738 it should be called _her_ cow; and of their having a very handsome
739 summer-house in their garden, where some day next year they were all to
740 drink tea:--a very handsome summer-house, large enough to hold a dozen
741 people.”
742
743 For some time she was amused, without thinking beyond the immediate
744 cause; but as she came to understand the family better, other feelings
745 arose. She had taken up a wrong idea, fancying it was a mother and
746 daughter, a son and son’s wife, who all lived together; but when it
747 appeared that the Mr. Martin, who bore a part in the narrative, and was
748 always mentioned with approbation for his great good-nature in doing
749 something or other, was a single man; that there was no young Mrs.
750 Martin, no wife in the case; she did suspect danger to her poor little
751 friend from all this hospitality and kindness, and that, if she were not
752 taken care of, she might be required to sink herself forever.
753
754 With this inspiriting notion, her questions increased in number and
755 meaning; and she particularly led Harriet to talk more of Mr. Martin,
756 and there was evidently no dislike to it. Harriet was very ready to
757 speak of the share he had had in their moonlight walks and merry evening
758 games; and dwelt a good deal upon his being so very good-humoured and
759 obliging. He had gone three miles round one day in order to bring her
760 some walnuts, because she had said how fond she was of them, and in
761 every thing else he was so very obliging. He had his shepherd’s son into
762 the parlour one night on purpose to sing to her. She was very fond
763 of singing. He could sing a little himself. She believed he was very
764 clever, and understood every thing. He had a very fine flock, and, while
765 she was with them, he had been bid more for his wool than any body in
766 the country. She believed every body spoke well of him. His mother and
767 sisters were very fond of him. Mrs. Martin had told her one day (and
768 there was a blush as she said it,) that it was impossible for any body
769 to be a better son, and therefore she was sure, whenever he married, he
770 would make a good husband. Not that she _wanted_ him to marry. She was
771 in no hurry at all.
772
773 “Well done, Mrs. Martin!” thought Emma. “You know what you are about.”
774
775 “And when she had come away, Mrs. Martin was so very kind as to send
776 Mrs. Goddard a beautiful goose--the finest goose Mrs. Goddard had ever
777 seen. Mrs. Goddard had dressed it on a Sunday, and asked all the three
778 teachers, Miss Nash, and Miss Prince, and Miss Richardson, to sup with
779 her.”
780
781 “Mr. Martin, I suppose, is not a man of information beyond the line of
782 his own business? He does not read?”
783
784 “Oh yes!--that is, no--I do not know--but I believe he has read a
785 good deal--but not what you would think any thing of. He reads the
786 Agricultural Reports, and some other books that lay in one of the window
787 seats--but he reads all _them_ to himself. But sometimes of an evening,
788 before we went to cards, he would read something aloud out of the
789 Elegant Extracts, very entertaining. And I know he has read the Vicar of
790 Wakefield. He never read the Romance of the Forest, nor The Children of
791 the Abbey. He had never heard of such books before I mentioned them, but
792 he is determined to get them now as soon as ever he can.”
793
794 The next question was--
795
796 “What sort of looking man is Mr. Martin?”
797
798 “Oh! not handsome--not at all handsome. I thought him very plain at
799 first, but I do not think him so plain now. One does not, you know,
800 after a time. But did you never see him? He is in Highbury every now and
801 then, and he is sure to ride through every week in his way to Kingston.
802 He has passed you very often.”
803
804 “That may be, and I may have seen him fifty times, but without having
805 any idea of his name. A young farmer, whether on horseback or on foot,
806 is the very last sort of person to raise my curiosity. The yeomanry are
807 precisely the order of people with whom I feel I can have nothing to do.
808 A degree or two lower, and a creditable appearance might interest me;
809 I might hope to be useful to their families in some way or other. But
810 a farmer can need none of my help, and is, therefore, in one sense, as
811 much above my notice as in every other he is below it.”
812
813 “To be sure. Oh yes! It is not likely you should ever have observed him;
814 but he knows you very well indeed--I mean by sight.”
815
816 “I have no doubt of his being a very respectable young man. I know,
817 indeed, that he is so, and, as such, wish him well. What do you imagine
818 his age to be?”
819
820 “He was four-and-twenty the 8th of last June, and my birthday is the
821 23rd just a fortnight and a day’s difference--which is very odd.”
822
823 “Only four-and-twenty. That is too young to settle. His mother is
824 perfectly right not to be in a hurry. They seem very comfortable as they
825 are, and if she were to take any pains to marry him, she would probably
826 repent it. Six years hence, if he could meet with a good sort of young
827 woman in the same rank as his own, with a little money, it might be very
828 desirable.”
829
830 “Six years hence! Dear Miss Woodhouse, he would be thirty years old!”
831
832 “Well, and that is as early as most men can afford to marry, who are not
833 born to an independence. Mr. Martin, I imagine, has his fortune entirely
834 to make--cannot be at all beforehand with the world. Whatever money he
835 might come into when his father died, whatever his share of the family
836 property, it is, I dare say, all afloat, all employed in his stock, and
837 so forth; and though, with diligence and good luck, he may be rich in
838 time, it is next to impossible that he should have realised any thing
839 yet.”
840
841 “To be sure, so it is. But they live very comfortably. They have no
842 indoors man, else they do not want for any thing; and Mrs. Martin talks
843 of taking a boy another year.”
844
845 “I wish you may not get into a scrape, Harriet, whenever he does
846 marry;--I mean, as to being acquainted with his wife--for though his
847 sisters, from a superior education, are not to be altogether objected
848 to, it does not follow that he might marry any body at all fit for you
849 to notice. The misfortune of your birth ought to make you particularly
850 careful as to your associates. There can be no doubt of your being a
851 gentleman’s daughter, and you must support your claim to that station by
852 every thing within your own power, or there will be plenty of people who
853 would take pleasure in degrading you.”
854
855 “Yes, to be sure, I suppose there are. But while I visit at Hartfield,
856 and you are so kind to me, Miss Woodhouse, I am not afraid of what any
857 body can do.”
858
859 “You understand the force of influence pretty well, Harriet; but I would
860 have you so firmly established in good society, as to be independent
861 even of Hartfield and Miss Woodhouse. I want to see you permanently
862 well connected, and to that end it will be advisable to have as few odd
863 acquaintance as may be; and, therefore, I say that if you should still
864 be in this country when Mr. Martin marries, I wish you may not be drawn
865 in by your intimacy with the sisters, to be acquainted with the wife,
866 who will probably be some mere farmer’s daughter, without education.”
867
868 “To be sure. Yes. Not that I think Mr. Martin would ever marry any body
869 but what had had some education--and been very well brought up. However,
870 I do not mean to set up my opinion against yours--and I am sure I shall
871 not wish for the acquaintance of his wife. I shall always have a great
872 regard for the Miss Martins, especially Elizabeth, and should be very
873 sorry to give them up, for they are quite as well educated as me. But
874 if he marries a very ignorant, vulgar woman, certainly I had better not
875 visit her, if I can help it.”
876
877 Emma watched her through the fluctuations of this speech, and saw no
878 alarming symptoms of love. The young man had been the first admirer, but
879 she trusted there was no other hold, and that there would be no serious
880 difficulty, on Harriet’s side, to oppose any friendly arrangement of her
881 own.
882
883 They met Mr. Martin the very next day, as they were walking on the
884 Donwell road. He was on foot, and after looking very respectfully at
885 her, looked with most unfeigned satisfaction at her companion. Emma was
886 not sorry to have such an opportunity of survey; and walking a few
887 yards forward, while they talked together, soon made her quick eye
888 sufficiently acquainted with Mr. Robert Martin. His appearance was very
889 neat, and he looked like a sensible young man, but his person had no
890 other advantage; and when he came to be contrasted with gentlemen,
891 she thought he must lose all the ground he had gained in Harriet’s
892 inclination. Harriet was not insensible of manner; she had voluntarily
893 noticed her father’s gentleness with admiration as well as wonder. Mr.
894 Martin looked as if he did not know what manner was.
895
896 They remained but a few minutes together, as Miss Woodhouse must not be
897 kept waiting; and Harriet then came running to her with a smiling face,
898 and in a flutter of spirits, which Miss Woodhouse hoped very soon to
899 compose.
900
901 “Only think of our happening to meet him!--How very odd! It was quite
902 a chance, he said, that he had not gone round by Randalls. He did not
903 think we ever walked this road. He thought we walked towards Randalls
904 most days. He has not been able to get the Romance of the Forest yet.
905 He was so busy the last time he was at Kingston that he quite forgot it,
906 but he goes again to-morrow. So very odd we should happen to meet! Well,
907 Miss Woodhouse, is he like what you expected? What do you think of him?
908 Do you think him so very plain?”
909
910 “He is very plain, undoubtedly--remarkably plain:--but that is nothing
911 compared with his entire want of gentility. I had no right to expect
912 much, and I did not expect much; but I had no idea that he could be so
913 very clownish, so totally without air. I had imagined him, I confess, a
914 degree or two nearer gentility.”
915
916 “To be sure,” said Harriet, in a mortified voice, “he is not so genteel
917 as real gentlemen.”
918
919 “I think, Harriet, since your acquaintance with us, you have been
920 repeatedly in the company of some such very real gentlemen, that you
921 must yourself be struck with the difference in Mr. Martin. At Hartfield,
922 you have had very good specimens of well educated, well bred men. I
923 should be surprized if, after seeing them, you could be in company
924 with Mr. Martin again without perceiving him to be a very inferior
925 creature--and rather wondering at yourself for having ever thought him
926 at all agreeable before. Do not you begin to feel that now? Were not
927 you struck? I am sure you must have been struck by his awkward look and
928 abrupt manner, and the uncouthness of a voice which I heard to be wholly
929 unmodulated as I stood here.”
930
931 “Certainly, he is not like Mr. Knightley. He has not such a fine air and
932 way of walking as Mr. Knightley. I see the difference plain enough. But
933 Mr. Knightley is so very fine a man!”
934
935 “Mr. Knightley’s air is so remarkably good that it is not fair to
936 compare Mr. Martin with _him_. You might not see one in a hundred with
937 _gentleman_ so plainly written as in Mr. Knightley. But he is not the
938 only gentleman you have been lately used to. What say you to Mr. Weston
939 and Mr. Elton? Compare Mr. Martin with either of _them_. Compare their
940 manner of carrying themselves; of walking; of speaking; of being silent.
941 You must see the difference.”
942
943 “Oh yes!--there is a great difference. But Mr. Weston is almost an old
944 man. Mr. Weston must be between forty and fifty.”
945
946 “Which makes his good manners the more valuable. The older a person
947 grows, Harriet, the more important it is that their manners should not
948 be bad; the more glaring and disgusting any loudness, or coarseness, or
949 awkwardness becomes. What is passable in youth is detestable in later
950 age. Mr. Martin is now awkward and abrupt; what will he be at Mr.
951 Weston’s time of life?”
952
953 “There is no saying, indeed,” replied Harriet rather solemnly.
954
955 “But there may be pretty good guessing. He will be a completely gross,
956 vulgar farmer, totally inattentive to appearances, and thinking of
957 nothing but profit and loss.”
958
959 “Will he, indeed? That will be very bad.”
960
961 “How much his business engrosses him already is very plain from the
962 circumstance of his forgetting to inquire for the book you recommended.
963 He was a great deal too full of the market to think of any thing
964 else--which is just as it should be, for a thriving man. What has he to
965 do with books? And I have no doubt that he _will_ thrive, and be a very
966 rich man in time--and his being illiterate and coarse need not disturb
967 _us_.”
968
969 “I wonder he did not remember the book”--was all Harriet’s answer, and
970 spoken with a degree of grave displeasure which Emma thought might be
971 safely left to itself. She, therefore, said no more for some time. Her
972 next beginning was,
973
974 “In one respect, perhaps, Mr. Elton’s manners are superior to Mr.
975 Knightley’s or Mr. Weston’s. They have more gentleness. They might be
976 more safely held up as a pattern. There is an openness, a quickness,
977 almost a bluntness in Mr. Weston, which every body likes in _him_,
978 because there is so much good-humour with it--but that would not do to
979 be copied. Neither would Mr. Knightley’s downright, decided, commanding
980 sort of manner, though it suits _him_ very well; his figure, and look,
981 and situation in life seem to allow it; but if any young man were to set
982 about copying him, he would not be sufferable. On the contrary, I think
983 a young man might be very safely recommended to take Mr. Elton as a
984 model. Mr. Elton is good-humoured, cheerful, obliging, and gentle.
985 He seems to me to be grown particularly gentle of late. I do not know
986 whether he has any design of ingratiating himself with either of us,
987 Harriet, by additional softness, but it strikes me that his manners are
988 softer than they used to be. If he means any thing, it must be to please
989 you. Did not I tell you what he said of you the other day?”
990
991 She then repeated some warm personal praise which she had drawn from Mr.
992 Elton, and now did full justice to; and Harriet blushed and smiled, and
993 said she had always thought Mr. Elton very agreeable.
994
995 Mr. Elton was the very person fixed on by Emma for driving the young
996 farmer out of Harriet’s head. She thought it would be an excellent
997 match; and only too palpably desirable, natural, and probable, for her
998 to have much merit in planning it. She feared it was what every body
999 else must think of and predict. It was not likely, however, that any
1000 body should have equalled her in the date of the plan, as it had
1001 entered her brain during the very first evening of Harriet’s coming to
1002 Hartfield. The longer she considered it, the greater was her sense
1003 of its expediency. Mr. Elton’s situation was most suitable, quite the
1004 gentleman himself, and without low connexions; at the same time, not of
1005 any family that could fairly object to the doubtful birth of Harriet.
1006 He had a comfortable home for her, and Emma imagined a very sufficient
1007 income; for though the vicarage of Highbury was not large, he was known
1008 to have some independent property; and she thought very highly of him
1009 as a good-humoured, well-meaning, respectable young man, without any
1010 deficiency of useful understanding or knowledge of the world.
1011
1012 She had already satisfied herself that he thought Harriet a beautiful
1013 girl, which she trusted, with such frequent meetings at Hartfield, was
1014 foundation enough on his side; and on Harriet’s there could be little
1015 doubt that the idea of being preferred by him would have all the usual
1016 weight and efficacy. And he was really a very pleasing young man, a
1017 young man whom any woman not fastidious might like. He was reckoned very
1018 handsome; his person much admired in general, though not by her,
1019 there being a want of elegance of feature which she could not dispense
1020 with:--but the girl who could be gratified by a Robert Martin’s riding
1021 about the country to get walnuts for her might very well be conquered by
1022 Mr. Elton’s admiration.
1023
1024
1025
1026 CHAPTER V
1027
1028
1029 “I do not know what your opinion may be, Mrs. Weston,” said Mr.
1030 Knightley, “of this great intimacy between Emma and Harriet Smith, but I
1031 think it a bad thing.”
1032
1033 “A bad thing! Do you really think it a bad thing?--why so?”
1034
1035 “I think they will neither of them do the other any good.”
1036
1037 “You surprize me! Emma must do Harriet good: and by supplying her with a
1038 new object of interest, Harriet may be said to do Emma good. I have been
1039 seeing their intimacy with the greatest pleasure. How very differently
1040 we feel!--Not think they will do each other any good! This will
1041 certainly be the beginning of one of our quarrels about Emma, Mr.
1042 Knightley.”
1043
1044 “Perhaps you think I am come on purpose to quarrel with you, knowing
1045 Weston to be out, and that you must still fight your own battle.”
1046
1047 “Mr. Weston would undoubtedly support me, if he were here, for he thinks
1048 exactly as I do on the subject. We were speaking of it only yesterday,
1049 and agreeing how fortunate it was for Emma, that there should be such a
1050 girl in Highbury for her to associate with. Mr. Knightley, I shall not
1051 allow you to be a fair judge in this case. You are so much used to live
1052 alone, that you do not know the value of a companion; and, perhaps no
1053 man can be a good judge of the comfort a woman feels in the society of
1054 one of her own sex, after being used to it all her life. I can imagine
1055 your objection to Harriet Smith. She is not the superior young woman
1056 which Emma’s friend ought to be. But on the other hand, as Emma wants
1057 to see her better informed, it will be an inducement to her to read more
1058 herself. They will read together. She means it, I know.”
1059
1060 “Emma has been meaning to read more ever since she was twelve years old.
1061 I have seen a great many lists of her drawing-up at various times of
1062 books that she meant to read regularly through--and very good lists
1063 they were--very well chosen, and very neatly arranged--sometimes
1064 alphabetically, and sometimes by some other rule. The list she drew
1065 up when only fourteen--I remember thinking it did her judgment so much
1066 credit, that I preserved it some time; and I dare say she may have made
1067 out a very good list now. But I have done with expecting any course of
1068 steady reading from Emma. She will never submit to any thing
1069 requiring industry and patience, and a subjection of the fancy to the
1070 understanding. Where Miss Taylor failed to stimulate, I may safely
1071 affirm that Harriet Smith will do nothing.--You never could persuade her
1072 to read half so much as you wished.--You know you could not.”
1073
1074 “I dare say,” replied Mrs. Weston, smiling, “that I thought so
1075 _then_;--but since we have parted, I can never remember Emma’s omitting
1076 to do any thing I wished.”
1077
1078 “There is hardly any desiring to refresh such a memory as _that_,”--said
1079 Mr. Knightley, feelingly; and for a moment or two he had done. “But I,”
1080 he soon added, “who have had no such charm thrown over my senses, must
1081 still see, hear, and remember. Emma is spoiled by being the cleverest
1082 of her family. At ten years old, she had the misfortune of being able to
1083 answer questions which puzzled her sister at seventeen. She was always
1084 quick and assured: Isabella slow and diffident. And ever since she
1085 was twelve, Emma has been mistress of the house and of you all. In her
1086 mother she lost the only person able to cope with her. She inherits her
1087 mother’s talents, and must have been under subjection to her.”
1088
1089 “I should have been sorry, Mr. Knightley, to be dependent on _your_
1090 recommendation, had I quitted Mr. Woodhouse’s family and wanted another
1091 situation; I do not think you would have spoken a good word for me to
1092 any body. I am sure you always thought me unfit for the office I held.”
1093
1094 “Yes,” said he, smiling. “You are better placed _here_; very fit for a
1095 wife, but not at all for a governess. But you were preparing yourself to
1096 be an excellent wife all the time you were at Hartfield. You might
1097 not give Emma such a complete education as your powers would seem to
1098 promise; but you were receiving a very good education from _her_, on the
1099 very material matrimonial point of submitting your own will, and doing
1100 as you were bid; and if Weston had asked me to recommend him a wife, I
1101 should certainly have named Miss Taylor.”
1102
1103 “Thank you. There will be very little merit in making a good wife to
1104 such a man as Mr. Weston.”
1105
1106 “Why, to own the truth, I am afraid you are rather thrown away, and that
1107 with every disposition to bear, there will be nothing to be borne. We
1108 will not despair, however. Weston may grow cross from the wantonness of
1109 comfort, or his son may plague him.”
1110
1111 “I hope not _that_.--It is not likely. No, Mr. Knightley, do not
1112 foretell vexation from that quarter.”
1113
1114 “Not I, indeed. I only name possibilities. I do not pretend to Emma’s
1115 genius for foretelling and guessing. I hope, with all my heart, the
1116 young man may be a Weston in merit, and a Churchill in fortune.--But
1117 Harriet Smith--I have not half done about Harriet Smith. I think her the
1118 very worst sort of companion that Emma could possibly have. She knows
1119 nothing herself, and looks upon Emma as knowing every thing. She is a
1120 flatterer in all her ways; and so much the worse, because undesigned.
1121 Her ignorance is hourly flattery. How can Emma imagine she has any
1122 thing to learn herself, while Harriet is presenting such a delightful
1123 inferiority? And as for Harriet, I will venture to say that _she_ cannot
1124 gain by the acquaintance. Hartfield will only put her out of conceit
1125 with all the other places she belongs to. She will grow just refined
1126 enough to be uncomfortable with those among whom birth and circumstances
1127 have placed her home. I am much mistaken if Emma’s doctrines give any
1128 strength of mind, or tend at all to make a girl adapt herself rationally
1129 to the varieties of her situation in life.--They only give a little
1130 polish.”
1131
1132 “I either depend more upon Emma’s good sense than you do, or am more
1133 anxious for her present comfort; for I cannot lament the acquaintance.
1134 How well she looked last night!”
1135
1136 “Oh! you would rather talk of her person than her mind, would you? Very
1137 well; I shall not attempt to deny Emma’s being pretty.”
1138
1139 “Pretty! say beautiful rather. Can you imagine any thing nearer perfect
1140 beauty than Emma altogether--face and figure?”
1141
1142 “I do not know what I could imagine, but I confess that I have seldom
1143 seen a face or figure more pleasing to me than hers. But I am a partial
1144 old friend.”
1145
1146 “Such an eye!--the true hazle eye--and so brilliant! regular features,
1147 open countenance, with a complexion! oh! what a bloom of full health,
1148 and such a pretty height and size; such a firm and upright figure!
1149 There is health, not merely in her bloom, but in her air, her head, her
1150 glance. One hears sometimes of a child being ‘the picture of health;’
1151 now, Emma always gives me the idea of being the complete picture of
1152 grown-up health. She is loveliness itself. Mr. Knightley, is not she?”
1153
1154 “I have not a fault to find with her person,” he replied. “I think her
1155 all you describe. I love to look at her; and I will add this praise,
1156 that I do not think her personally vain. Considering how very handsome
1157 she is, she appears to be little occupied with it; her vanity lies
1158 another way. Mrs. Weston, I am not to be talked out of my dislike of
1159 Harriet Smith, or my dread of its doing them both harm.”
1160
1161 “And I, Mr. Knightley, am equally stout in my confidence of its not
1162 doing them any harm. With all dear Emma’s little faults, she is an
1163 excellent creature. Where shall we see a better daughter, or a kinder
1164 sister, or a truer friend? No, no; she has qualities which may be
1165 trusted; she will never lead any one really wrong; she will make no
1166 lasting blunder; where Emma errs once, she is in the right a hundred
1167 times.”
1168
1169 “Very well; I will not plague you any more. Emma shall be an angel, and
1170 I will keep my spleen to myself till Christmas brings John and Isabella.
1171 John loves Emma with a reasonable and therefore not a blind affection,
1172 and Isabella always thinks as he does; except when he is not quite
1173 frightened enough about the children. I am sure of having their opinions
1174 with me.”
1175
1176 “I know that you all love her really too well to be unjust or unkind;
1177 but excuse me, Mr. Knightley, if I take the liberty (I consider myself,
1178 you know, as having somewhat of the privilege of speech that Emma’s
1179 mother might have had) the liberty of hinting that I do not think any
1180 possible good can arise from Harriet Smith’s intimacy being made a
1181 matter of much discussion among you. Pray excuse me; but supposing any
1182 little inconvenience may be apprehended from the intimacy, it cannot be
1183 expected that Emma, accountable to nobody but her father, who perfectly
1184 approves the acquaintance, should put an end to it, so long as it is a
1185 source of pleasure to herself. It has been so many years my province to
1186 give advice, that you cannot be surprized, Mr. Knightley, at this little
1187 remains of office.”
1188
1189 “Not at all,” cried he; “I am much obliged to you for it. It is very
1190 good advice, and it shall have a better fate than your advice has often
1191 found; for it shall be attended to.”
1192
1193 “Mrs. John Knightley is easily alarmed, and might be made unhappy about
1194 her sister.”
1195
1196 “Be satisfied,” said he, “I will not raise any outcry. I will keep my
1197 ill-humour to myself. I have a very sincere interest in Emma. Isabella
1198 does not seem more my sister; has never excited a greater interest;
1199 perhaps hardly so great. There is an anxiety, a curiosity in what one
1200 feels for Emma. I wonder what will become of her!”
1201
1202 “So do I,” said Mrs. Weston gently, “very much.”
1203
1204 “She always declares she will never marry, which, of course, means just
1205 nothing at all. But I have no idea that she has yet ever seen a man she
1206 cared for. It would not be a bad thing for her to be very much in love
1207 with a proper object. I should like to see Emma in love, and in some
1208 doubt of a return; it would do her good. But there is nobody hereabouts
1209 to attach her; and she goes so seldom from home.”
1210
1211 “There does, indeed, seem as little to tempt her to break her resolution
1212 at present,” said Mrs. Weston, “as can well be; and while she is so
1213 happy at Hartfield, I cannot wish her to be forming any attachment which
1214 would be creating such difficulties on poor Mr. Woodhouse’s account. I
1215 do not recommend matrimony at present to Emma, though I mean no slight
1216 to the state, I assure you.”
1217
1218 Part of her meaning was to conceal some favourite thoughts of her own
1219 and Mr. Weston’s on the subject, as much as possible. There were wishes
1220 at Randalls respecting Emma’s destiny, but it was not desirable to
1221 have them suspected; and the quiet transition which Mr. Knightley soon
1222 afterwards made to “What does Weston think of the weather; shall we have
1223 rain?” convinced her that he had nothing more to say or surmise about
1224 Hartfield.
1225
1226
1227
1228 CHAPTER VI
1229
1230
1231 Emma could not feel a doubt of having given Harriet’s fancy a proper
1232 direction and raised the gratitude of her young vanity to a very good
1233 purpose, for she found her decidedly more sensible than before of Mr.
1234 Elton’s being a remarkably handsome man, with most agreeable manners;
1235 and as she had no hesitation in following up the assurance of his
1236 admiration by agreeable hints, she was soon pretty confident of creating
1237 as much liking on Harriet’s side, as there could be any occasion for.
1238 She was quite convinced of Mr. Elton’s being in the fairest way of
1239 falling in love, if not in love already. She had no scruple with regard
1240 to him. He talked of Harriet, and praised her so warmly, that she could
1241 not suppose any thing wanting which a little time would not add. His
1242 perception of the striking improvement of Harriet’s manner, since her
1243 introduction at Hartfield, was not one of the least agreeable proofs of
1244 his growing attachment.
1245
1246 “You have given Miss Smith all that she required,” said he; “you have
1247 made her graceful and easy. She was a beautiful creature when she
1248 came to you, but, in my opinion, the attractions you have added are
1249 infinitely superior to what she received from nature.”
1250
1251 “I am glad you think I have been useful to her; but Harriet only wanted
1252 drawing out, and receiving a few, very few hints. She had all the
1253 natural grace of sweetness of temper and artlessness in herself. I have
1254 done very little.”
1255
1256 “If it were admissible to contradict a lady,” said the gallant Mr.
1257 Elton--
1258
1259 “I have perhaps given her a little more decision of character, have
1260 taught her to think on points which had not fallen in her way before.”
1261
1262 “Exactly so; that is what principally strikes me. So much superadded
1263 decision of character! Skilful has been the hand!”
1264
1265 “Great has been the pleasure, I am sure. I never met with a disposition
1266 more truly amiable.”
1267
1268 “I have no doubt of it.” And it was spoken with a sort of sighing
1269 animation, which had a vast deal of the lover. She was not less pleased
1270 another day with the manner in which he seconded a sudden wish of hers,
1271 to have Harriet’s picture.
1272
1273 “Did you ever have your likeness taken, Harriet?” said she: “did you
1274 ever sit for your picture?”
1275
1276 Harriet was on the point of leaving the room, and only stopt to say,
1277 with a very interesting naivete,
1278
1279 “Oh! dear, no, never.”
1280
1281 No sooner was she out of sight, than Emma exclaimed,
1282
1283 “What an exquisite possession a good picture of her would be! I would
1284 give any money for it. I almost long to attempt her likeness myself.
1285 You do not know it I dare say, but two or three years ago I had a great
1286 passion for taking likenesses, and attempted several of my friends, and
1287 was thought to have a tolerable eye in general. But from one cause or
1288 another, I gave it up in disgust. But really, I could almost venture,
1289 if Harriet would sit to me. It would be such a delight to have her
1290 picture!”
1291
1292 “Let me entreat you,” cried Mr. Elton; “it would indeed be a delight!
1293 Let me entreat you, Miss Woodhouse, to exercise so charming a talent
1294 in favour of your friend. I know what your drawings are. How could
1295 you suppose me ignorant? Is not this room rich in specimens of your
1296 landscapes and flowers; and has not Mrs. Weston some inimitable
1297 figure-pieces in her drawing-room, at Randalls?”
1298
1299 Yes, good man!--thought Emma--but what has all that to do with taking
1300 likenesses? You know nothing of drawing. Don’t pretend to be in raptures
1301 about mine. Keep your raptures for Harriet’s face. “Well, if you give me
1302 such kind encouragement, Mr. Elton, I believe I shall try what I can do.
1303 Harriet’s features are very delicate, which makes a likeness difficult;
1304 and yet there is a peculiarity in the shape of the eye and the lines
1305 about the mouth which one ought to catch.”
1306
1307 “Exactly so--The shape of the eye and the lines about the mouth--I have
1308 not a doubt of your success. Pray, pray attempt it. As you will do it,
1309 it will indeed, to use your own words, be an exquisite possession.”
1310
1311 “But I am afraid, Mr. Elton, Harriet will not like to sit. She thinks
1312 so little of her own beauty. Did not you observe her manner of answering
1313 me? How completely it meant, ‘why should my picture be drawn?’”
1314
1315 “Oh! yes, I observed it, I assure you. It was not lost on me. But still
1316 I cannot imagine she would not be persuaded.”
1317
1318 Harriet was soon back again, and the proposal almost immediately made;
1319 and she had no scruples which could stand many minutes against the
1320 earnest pressing of both the others. Emma wished to go to work directly,
1321 and therefore produced the portfolio containing her various attempts at
1322 portraits, for not one of them had ever been finished, that they might
1323 decide together on the best size for Harriet. Her many beginnings were
1324 displayed. Miniatures, half-lengths, whole-lengths, pencil, crayon, and
1325 water-colours had been all tried in turn. She had always wanted to do
1326 every thing, and had made more progress both in drawing and music than
1327 many might have done with so little labour as she would ever submit to.
1328 She played and sang;--and drew in almost every style; but steadiness
1329 had always been wanting; and in nothing had she approached the degree of
1330 excellence which she would have been glad to command, and ought not to
1331 have failed of. She was not much deceived as to her own skill either
1332 as an artist or a musician, but she was not unwilling to have others
1333 deceived, or sorry to know her reputation for accomplishment often
1334 higher than it deserved.
1335
1336 There was merit in every drawing--in the least finished, perhaps the
1337 most; her style was spirited; but had there been much less, or had there
1338 been ten times more, the delight and admiration of her two companions
1339 would have been the same. They were both in ecstasies. A likeness
1340 pleases every body; and Miss Woodhouse’s performances must be capital.
1341
1342 “No great variety of faces for you,” said Emma. “I had only my own
1343 family to study from. There is my father--another of my father--but the
1344 idea of sitting for his picture made him so nervous, that I could only
1345 take him by stealth; neither of them very like therefore. Mrs. Weston
1346 again, and again, and again, you see. Dear Mrs. Weston! always my
1347 kindest friend on every occasion. She would sit whenever I asked her.
1348 There is my sister; and really quite her own little elegant figure!--and
1349 the face not unlike. I should have made a good likeness of her, if she
1350 would have sat longer, but she was in such a hurry to have me draw
1351 her four children that she would not be quiet. Then, here come all my
1352 attempts at three of those four children;--there they are, Henry and
1353 John and Bella, from one end of the sheet to the other, and any one of
1354 them might do for any one of the rest. She was so eager to have them
1355 drawn that I could not refuse; but there is no making children of three
1356 or four years old stand still you know; nor can it be very easy to take
1357 any likeness of them, beyond the air and complexion, unless they are
1358 coarser featured than any of mama’s children ever were. Here is my
1359 sketch of the fourth, who was a baby. I took him as he was sleeping on
1360 the sofa, and it is as strong a likeness of his cockade as you would
1361 wish to see. He had nestled down his head most conveniently. That’s very
1362 like. I am rather proud of little George. The corner of the sofa is very
1363 good. Then here is my last,”--unclosing a pretty sketch of a gentleman
1364 in small size, whole-length--“my last and my best--my brother, Mr. John
1365 Knightley.--This did not want much of being finished, when I put it away
1366 in a pet, and vowed I would never take another likeness. I could not
1367 help being provoked; for after all my pains, and when I had really made
1368 a very good likeness of it--(Mrs. Weston and I were quite agreed in
1369 thinking it _very_ like)--only too handsome--too flattering--but
1370 that was a fault on the right side”--after all this, came poor dear
1371 Isabella’s cold approbation of--“Yes, it was a little like--but to be
1372 sure it did not do him justice. We had had a great deal of trouble
1373 in persuading him to sit at all. It was made a great favour of; and
1374 altogether it was more than I could bear; and so I never would finish
1375 it, to have it apologised over as an unfavourable likeness, to every
1376 morning visitor in Brunswick Square;--and, as I said, I did then
1377 forswear ever drawing any body again. But for Harriet’s sake, or rather
1378 for my own, and as there are no husbands and wives in the case _at_
1379 _present_, I will break my resolution now.”
1380
1381 Mr. Elton seemed very properly struck and delighted by the idea, and was
1382 repeating, “No husbands and wives in the case at present indeed, as
1383 you observe. Exactly so. No husbands and wives,” with so interesting a
1384 consciousness, that Emma began to consider whether she had not better
1385 leave them together at once. But as she wanted to be drawing, the
1386 declaration must wait a little longer.
1387
1388 She had soon fixed on the size and sort of portrait. It was to be
1389 a whole-length in water-colours, like Mr. John Knightley’s, and was
1390 destined, if she could please herself, to hold a very honourable station
1391 over the mantelpiece.
1392
1393 The sitting began; and Harriet, smiling and blushing, and afraid of not
1394 keeping her attitude and countenance, presented a very sweet mixture of
1395 youthful expression to the steady eyes of the artist. But there was no
1396 doing any thing, with Mr. Elton fidgeting behind her and watching every
1397 touch. She gave him credit for stationing himself where he might gaze
1398 and gaze again without offence; but was really obliged to put an end to
1399 it, and request him to place himself elsewhere. It then occurred to her
1400 to employ him in reading.
1401
1402 “If he would be so good as to read to them, it would be a kindness
1403 indeed! It would amuse away the difficulties of her part, and lessen the
1404 irksomeness of Miss Smith’s.”
1405
1406 Mr. Elton was only too happy. Harriet listened, and Emma drew in peace.
1407 She must allow him to be still frequently coming to look; any thing less
1408 would certainly have been too little in a lover; and he was ready at the
1409 smallest intermission of the pencil, to jump up and see the progress,
1410 and be charmed.--There was no being displeased with such an encourager,
1411 for his admiration made him discern a likeness almost before it
1412 was possible. She could not respect his eye, but his love and his
1413 complaisance were unexceptionable.
1414
1415 The sitting was altogether very satisfactory; she was quite enough
1416 pleased with the first day’s sketch to wish to go on. There was no want
1417 of likeness, she had been fortunate in the attitude, and as she meant
1418 to throw in a little improvement to the figure, to give a little more
1419 height, and considerably more elegance, she had great confidence of
1420 its being in every way a pretty drawing at last, and of its filling
1421 its destined place with credit to them both--a standing memorial of the
1422 beauty of one, the skill of the other, and the friendship of both;
1423 with as many other agreeable associations as Mr. Elton’s very promising
1424 attachment was likely to add.
1425
1426 Harriet was to sit again the next day; and Mr. Elton, just as he ought,
1427 entreated for the permission of attending and reading to them again.
1428
1429 “By all means. We shall be most happy to consider you as one of the
1430 party.”
1431
1432 The same civilities and courtesies, the same success and satisfaction,
1433 took place on the morrow, and accompanied the whole progress of the
1434 picture, which was rapid and happy. Every body who saw it was pleased,
1435 but Mr. Elton was in continual raptures, and defended it through every
1436 criticism.
1437
1438 “Miss Woodhouse has given her friend the only beauty she
1439 wanted,”--observed Mrs. Weston to him--not in the least suspecting that
1440 she was addressing a lover.--“The expression of the eye is most correct,
1441 but Miss Smith has not those eyebrows and eyelashes. It is the fault of
1442 her face that she has them not.”
1443
1444 “Do you think so?” replied he. “I cannot agree with you. It appears
1445 to me a most perfect resemblance in every feature. I never saw such a
1446 likeness in my life. We must allow for the effect of shade, you know.”
1447
1448 “You have made her too tall, Emma,” said Mr. Knightley.
1449
1450 Emma knew that she had, but would not own it; and Mr. Elton warmly
1451 added,
1452
1453 “Oh no! certainly not too tall; not in the least too tall. Consider, she
1454 is sitting down--which naturally presents a different--which in short
1455 gives exactly the idea--and the proportions must be preserved, you know.
1456 Proportions, fore-shortening.--Oh no! it gives one exactly the idea of
1457 such a height as Miss Smith’s. Exactly so indeed!”
1458
1459 “It is very pretty,” said Mr. Woodhouse. “So prettily done! Just as your
1460 drawings always are, my dear. I do not know any body who draws so well
1461 as you do. The only thing I do not thoroughly like is, that she seems
1462 to be sitting out of doors, with only a little shawl over her
1463 shoulders--and it makes one think she must catch cold.”
1464
1465 “But, my dear papa, it is supposed to be summer; a warm day in summer.
1466 Look at the tree.”
1467
1468 “But it is never safe to sit out of doors, my dear.”
1469
1470 “You, sir, may say any thing,” cried Mr. Elton, “but I must confess that
1471 I regard it as a most happy thought, the placing of Miss Smith out of
1472 doors; and the tree is touched with such inimitable spirit! Any other
1473 situation would have been much less in character. The naivete of Miss
1474 Smith’s manners--and altogether--Oh, it is most admirable! I cannot keep
1475 my eyes from it. I never saw such a likeness.”
1476
1477 The next thing wanted was to get the picture framed; and here were a few
1478 difficulties. It must be done directly; it must be done in London; the
1479 order must go through the hands of some intelligent person whose taste
1480 could be depended on; and Isabella, the usual doer of all commissions,
1481 must not be applied to, because it was December, and Mr. Woodhouse
1482 could not bear the idea of her stirring out of her house in the fogs of
1483 December. But no sooner was the distress known to Mr. Elton, than it
1484 was removed. His gallantry was always on the alert. “Might he be trusted
1485 with the commission, what infinite pleasure should he have in executing
1486 it! he could ride to London at any time. It was impossible to say how
1487 much he should be gratified by being employed on such an errand.”
1488
1489 “He was too good!--she could not endure the thought!--she would not give
1490 him such a troublesome office for the world,”--brought on the desired
1491 repetition of entreaties and assurances,--and a very few minutes settled
1492 the business.
1493
1494 Mr. Elton was to take the drawing to London, chuse the frame, and give
1495 the directions; and Emma thought she could so pack it as to ensure its
1496 safety without much incommoding him, while he seemed mostly fearful of
1497 not being incommoded enough.
1498
1499 “What a precious deposit!” said he with a tender sigh, as he received
1500 it.
1501
1502 “This man is almost too gallant to be in love,” thought Emma. “I should
1503 say so, but that I suppose there may be a hundred different ways of
1504 being in love. He is an excellent young man, and will suit Harriet
1505 exactly; it will be an ‘Exactly so,’ as he says himself; but he does
1506 sigh and languish, and study for compliments rather more than I could
1507 endure as a principal. I come in for a pretty good share as a second.
1508 But it is his gratitude on Harriet’s account.”
1509
1510
1511
1512 CHAPTER VII
1513
1514
1515 The very day of Mr. Elton’s going to London produced a fresh occasion
1516 for Emma’s services towards her friend. Harriet had been at Hartfield,
1517 as usual, soon after breakfast; and, after a time, had gone home to
1518 return again to dinner: she returned, and sooner than had been
1519 talked of, and with an agitated, hurried look, announcing something
1520 extraordinary to have happened which she was longing to tell. Half a
1521 minute brought it all out. She had heard, as soon as she got back to
1522 Mrs. Goddard’s, that Mr. Martin had been there an hour before, and
1523 finding she was not at home, nor particularly expected, had left a
1524 little parcel for her from one of his sisters, and gone away; and on
1525 opening this parcel, she had actually found, besides the two songs which
1526 she had lent Elizabeth to copy, a letter to herself; and this letter was
1527 from him, from Mr. Martin, and contained a direct proposal of marriage.
1528 “Who could have thought it? She was so surprized she did not know what
1529 to do. Yes, quite a proposal of marriage; and a very good letter,
1530 at least she thought so. And he wrote as if he really loved her very
1531 much--but she did not know--and so, she was come as fast as she could to
1532 ask Miss Woodhouse what she should do.--” Emma was half-ashamed of her
1533 friend for seeming so pleased and so doubtful.
1534
1535 “Upon my word,” she cried, “the young man is determined not to lose any
1536 thing for want of asking. He will connect himself well if he can.”
1537
1538 “Will you read the letter?” cried Harriet. “Pray do. I’d rather you
1539 would.”
1540
1541 Emma was not sorry to be pressed. She read, and was surprized. The style
1542 of the letter was much above her expectation. There were not merely no
1543 grammatical errors, but as a composition it would not have disgraced a
1544 gentleman; the language, though plain, was strong and unaffected, and
1545 the sentiments it conveyed very much to the credit of the writer. It was
1546 short, but expressed good sense, warm attachment, liberality, propriety,
1547 even delicacy of feeling. She paused over it, while Harriet stood
1548 anxiously watching for her opinion, with a “Well, well,” and was at last
1549 forced to add, “Is it a good letter? or is it too short?”
1550
1551 “Yes, indeed, a very good letter,” replied Emma rather slowly--“so
1552 good a letter, Harriet, that every thing considered, I think one of his
1553 sisters must have helped him. I can hardly imagine the young man whom
1554 I saw talking with you the other day could express himself so well, if
1555 left quite to his own powers, and yet it is not the style of a woman;
1556 no, certainly, it is too strong and concise; not diffuse enough for a
1557 woman. No doubt he is a sensible man, and I suppose may have a natural
1558 talent for--thinks strongly and clearly--and when he takes a pen in
1559 hand, his thoughts naturally find proper words. It is so with some men.
1560 Yes, I understand the sort of mind. Vigorous, decided, with sentiments
1561 to a certain point, not coarse. A better written letter, Harriet
1562 (returning it,) than I had expected.”
1563
1564 “Well,” said the still waiting Harriet;--“well--and--and what shall I
1565 do?”
1566
1567 “What shall you do! In what respect? Do you mean with regard to this
1568 letter?”
1569
1570 “Yes.”
1571
1572 “But what are you in doubt of? You must answer it of course--and
1573 speedily.”
1574
1575 “Yes. But what shall I say? Dear Miss Woodhouse, do advise me.”
1576
1577 “Oh no, no! the letter had much better be all your own. You will express
1578 yourself very properly, I am sure. There is no danger of your not
1579 being intelligible, which is the first thing. Your meaning must be
1580 unequivocal; no doubts or demurs: and such expressions of gratitude
1581 and concern for the pain you are inflicting as propriety requires, will
1582 present themselves unbidden to _your_ mind, I am persuaded. You need
1583 not be prompted to write with the appearance of sorrow for his
1584 disappointment.”
1585
1586 “You think I ought to refuse him then,” said Harriet, looking down.
1587
1588 “Ought to refuse him! My dear Harriet, what do you mean? Are you in any
1589 doubt as to that? I thought--but I beg your pardon, perhaps I have been
1590 under a mistake. I certainly have been misunderstanding you, if you feel
1591 in doubt as to the _purport_ of your answer. I had imagined you were
1592 consulting me only as to the wording of it.”
1593
1594 Harriet was silent. With a little reserve of manner, Emma continued:
1595
1596 “You mean to return a favourable answer, I collect.”
1597
1598 “No, I do not; that is, I do not mean--What shall I do? What would you
1599 advise me to do? Pray, dear Miss Woodhouse, tell me what I ought to do.”
1600
1601 “I shall not give you any advice, Harriet. I will have nothing to do
1602 with it. This is a point which you must settle with your feelings.”
1603
1604 “I had no notion that he liked me so very much,” said Harriet,
1605 contemplating the letter. For a little while Emma persevered in her
1606 silence; but beginning to apprehend the bewitching flattery of that
1607 letter might be too powerful, she thought it best to say,
1608
1609 “I lay it down as a general rule, Harriet, that if a woman _doubts_ as
1610 to whether she should accept a man or not, she certainly ought to refuse
1611 him. If she can hesitate as to ‘Yes,’ she ought to say ‘No’ directly.
1612 It is not a state to be safely entered into with doubtful feelings, with
1613 half a heart. I thought it my duty as a friend, and older than yourself,
1614 to say thus much to you. But do not imagine that I want to influence
1615 you.”
1616
1617 “Oh! no, I am sure you are a great deal too kind to--but if you would
1618 just advise me what I had best do--No, no, I do not mean that--As
1619 you say, one’s mind ought to be quite made up--One should not be
1620 hesitating--It is a very serious thing.--It will be safer to say ‘No,’
1621 perhaps.--Do you think I had better say ‘No?’”
1622
1623 “Not for the world,” said Emma, smiling graciously, “would I advise you
1624 either way. You must be the best judge of your own happiness. If you
1625 prefer Mr. Martin to every other person; if you think him the most
1626 agreeable man you have ever been in company with, why should you
1627 hesitate? You blush, Harriet.--Does any body else occur to you at
1628 this moment under such a definition? Harriet, Harriet, do not deceive
1629 yourself; do not be run away with by gratitude and compassion. At this
1630 moment whom are you thinking of?”
1631
1632 The symptoms were favourable.--Instead of answering, Harriet turned away
1633 confused, and stood thoughtfully by the fire; and though the letter was
1634 still in her hand, it was now mechanically twisted about without regard.
1635 Emma waited the result with impatience, but not without strong hopes. At
1636 last, with some hesitation, Harriet said--
1637
1638 “Miss Woodhouse, as you will not give me your opinion, I must do as well
1639 as I can by myself; and I have now quite determined, and really almost
1640 made up my mind--to refuse Mr. Martin. Do you think I am right?”
1641
1642 “Perfectly, perfectly right, my dearest Harriet; you are doing just
1643 what you ought. While you were at all in suspense I kept my feelings to
1644 myself, but now that you are so completely decided I have no hesitation
1645 in approving. Dear Harriet, I give myself joy of this. It would
1646 have grieved me to lose your acquaintance, which must have been the
1647 consequence of your marrying Mr. Martin. While you were in the smallest
1648 degree wavering, I said nothing about it, because I would not influence;
1649 but it would have been the loss of a friend to me. I could not have
1650 visited Mrs. Robert Martin, of Abbey-Mill Farm. Now I am secure of you
1651 for ever.”
1652
1653 Harriet had not surmised her own danger, but the idea of it struck her
1654 forcibly.
1655
1656 “You could not have visited me!” she cried, looking aghast. “No, to be
1657 sure you could not; but I never thought of that before. That would have
1658 been too dreadful!--What an escape!--Dear Miss Woodhouse, I would not
1659 give up the pleasure and honour of being intimate with you for any thing
1660 in the world.”
1661
1662 “Indeed, Harriet, it would have been a severe pang to lose you; but it
1663 must have been. You would have thrown yourself out of all good society.
1664 I must have given you up.”
1665
1666 “Dear me!--How should I ever have borne it! It would have killed me
1667 never to come to Hartfield any more!”
1668
1669 “Dear affectionate creature!--_You_ banished to Abbey-Mill Farm!--_You_
1670 confined to the society of the illiterate and vulgar all your life! I
1671 wonder how the young man could have the assurance to ask it. He must
1672 have a pretty good opinion of himself.”
1673
1674 “I do not think he is conceited either, in general,” said Harriet, her
1675 conscience opposing such censure; “at least, he is very good natured,
1676 and I shall always feel much obliged to him, and have a great regard
1677 for--but that is quite a different thing from--and you know, though
1678 he may like me, it does not follow that I should--and certainly I must
1679 confess that since my visiting here I have seen people--and if one comes
1680 to compare them, person and manners, there is no comparison at all,
1681 _one_ is so very handsome and agreeable. However, I do really think Mr.
1682 Martin a very amiable young man, and have a great opinion of him; and
1683 his being so much attached to me--and his writing such a letter--but as
1684 to leaving you, it is what I would not do upon any consideration.”
1685
1686 “Thank you, thank you, my own sweet little friend. We will not be
1687 parted. A woman is not to marry a man merely because she is asked, or
1688 because he is attached to her, and can write a tolerable letter.”
1689
1690 “Oh no;--and it is but a short letter too.”
1691
1692 Emma felt the bad taste of her friend, but let it pass with a “very
1693 true; and it would be a small consolation to her, for the clownish
1694 manner which might be offending her every hour of the day, to know that
1695 her husband could write a good letter.”
1696
1697 “Oh! yes, very. Nobody cares for a letter; the thing is, to be always
1698 happy with pleasant companions. I am quite determined to refuse him. But
1699 how shall I do? What shall I say?”
1700
1701 Emma assured her there would be no difficulty in the answer, and advised
1702 its being written directly, which was agreed to, in the hope of her
1703 assistance; and though Emma continued to protest against any assistance
1704 being wanted, it was in fact given in the formation of every sentence.
1705 The looking over his letter again, in replying to it, had such a
1706 softening tendency, that it was particularly necessary to brace her up
1707 with a few decisive expressions; and she was so very much concerned at
1708 the idea of making him unhappy, and thought so much of what his mother
1709 and sisters would think and say, and was so anxious that they should not
1710 fancy her ungrateful, that Emma believed if the young man had come in
1711 her way at that moment, he would have been accepted after all.
1712
1713 This letter, however, was written, and sealed, and sent. The business
1714 was finished, and Harriet safe. She was rather low all the evening, but
1715 Emma could allow for her amiable regrets, and sometimes relieved them by
1716 speaking of her own affection, sometimes by bringing forward the idea of
1717 Mr. Elton.
1718
1719 “I shall never be invited to Abbey-Mill again,” was said in rather a
1720 sorrowful tone.
1721
1722 “Nor, if you were, could I ever bear to part with you, my Harriet. You
1723 are a great deal too necessary at Hartfield to be spared to Abbey-Mill.”
1724
1725 “And I am sure I should never want to go there; for I am never happy but
1726 at Hartfield.”
1727
1728 Some time afterwards it was, “I think Mrs. Goddard would be very much
1729 surprized if she knew what had happened. I am sure Miss Nash would--for
1730 Miss Nash thinks her own sister very well married, and it is only a
1731 linen-draper.”
1732
1733 “One should be sorry to see greater pride or refinement in the teacher
1734 of a school, Harriet. I dare say Miss Nash would envy you such an
1735 opportunity as this of being married. Even this conquest would appear
1736 valuable in her eyes. As to any thing superior for you, I suppose she
1737 is quite in the dark. The attentions of a certain person can hardly be
1738 among the tittle-tattle of Highbury yet. Hitherto I fancy you and I
1739 are the only people to whom his looks and manners have explained
1740 themselves.”
1741
1742 Harriet blushed and smiled, and said something about wondering that
1743 people should like her so much. The idea of Mr. Elton was certainly
1744 cheering; but still, after a time, she was tender-hearted again towards
1745 the rejected Mr. Martin.
1746
1747 “Now he has got my letter,” said she softly. “I wonder what they are all
1748 doing--whether his sisters know--if he is unhappy, they will be unhappy
1749 too. I hope he will not mind it so very much.”
1750
1751 “Let us think of those among our absent friends who are more cheerfully
1752 employed,” cried Emma. “At this moment, perhaps, Mr. Elton is shewing
1753 your picture to his mother and sisters, telling how much more beautiful
1754 is the original, and after being asked for it five or six times,
1755 allowing them to hear your name, your own dear name.”
1756
1757 “My picture!--But he has left my picture in Bond-street.”
1758
1759 “Has he so!--Then I know nothing of Mr. Elton. No, my dear little modest
1760 Harriet, depend upon it the picture will not be in Bond-street till
1761 just before he mounts his horse to-morrow. It is his companion all this
1762 evening, his solace, his delight. It opens his designs to his family,
1763 it introduces you among them, it diffuses through the party those
1764 pleasantest feelings of our nature, eager curiosity and warm
1765 prepossession. How cheerful, how animated, how suspicious, how busy
1766 their imaginations all are!”
1767
1768 Harriet smiled again, and her smiles grew stronger.
1769
1770
1771
1772 CHAPTER VIII
1773
1774
1775 Harriet slept at Hartfield that night. For some weeks past she had been
1776 spending more than half her time there, and gradually getting to have
1777 a bed-room appropriated to herself; and Emma judged it best in every
1778 respect, safest and kindest, to keep her with them as much as possible
1779 just at present. She was obliged to go the next morning for an hour or
1780 two to Mrs. Goddard’s, but it was then to be settled that she should
1781 return to Hartfield, to make a regular visit of some days.
1782
1783 While she was gone, Mr. Knightley called, and sat some time with Mr.
1784 Woodhouse and Emma, till Mr. Woodhouse, who had previously made up his
1785 mind to walk out, was persuaded by his daughter not to defer it, and was
1786 induced by the entreaties of both, though against the scruples of his
1787 own civility, to leave Mr. Knightley for that purpose. Mr. Knightley,
1788 who had nothing of ceremony about him, was offering by his short,
1789 decided answers, an amusing contrast to the protracted apologies and
1790 civil hesitations of the other.
1791
1792 “Well, I believe, if you will excuse me, Mr. Knightley, if you will not
1793 consider me as doing a very rude thing, I shall take Emma’s advice and
1794 go out for a quarter of an hour. As the sun is out, I believe I had
1795 better take my three turns while I can. I treat you without ceremony,
1796 Mr. Knightley. We invalids think we are privileged people.”
1797
1798 “My dear sir, do not make a stranger of me.”
1799
1800 “I leave an excellent substitute in my daughter. Emma will be happy to
1801 entertain you. And therefore I think I will beg your excuse and take my
1802 three turns--my winter walk.”
1803
1804 “You cannot do better, sir.”
1805
1806 “I would ask for the pleasure of your company, Mr. Knightley, but I am a
1807 very slow walker, and my pace would be tedious to you; and, besides, you
1808 have another long walk before you, to Donwell Abbey.”
1809
1810 “Thank you, sir, thank you; I am going this moment myself; and I think
1811 the sooner _you_ go the better. I will fetch your greatcoat and open the
1812 garden door for you.”
1813
1814 Mr. Woodhouse at last was off; but Mr. Knightley, instead of being
1815 immediately off likewise, sat down again, seemingly inclined for more
1816 chat. He began speaking of Harriet, and speaking of her with more
1817 voluntary praise than Emma had ever heard before.
1818
1819 “I cannot rate her beauty as you do,” said he; “but she is a
1820 pretty little creature, and I am inclined to think very well of her
1821 disposition. Her character depends upon those she is with; but in good
1822 hands she will turn out a valuable woman.”
1823
1824 “I am glad you think so; and the good hands, I hope, may not be
1825 wanting.”
1826
1827 “Come,” said he, “you are anxious for a compliment, so I will tell you
1828 that you have improved her. You have cured her of her school-girl’s
1829 giggle; she really does you credit.”
1830
1831 “Thank you. I should be mortified indeed if I did not believe I had been
1832 of some use; but it is not every body who will bestow praise where they
1833 may. _You_ do not often overpower me with it.”
1834
1835 “You are expecting her again, you say, this morning?”
1836
1837 “Almost every moment. She has been gone longer already than she
1838 intended.”
1839
1840 “Something has happened to delay her; some visitors perhaps.”
1841
1842 “Highbury gossips!--Tiresome wretches!”
1843
1844 “Harriet may not consider every body tiresome that you would.”
1845
1846 Emma knew this was too true for contradiction, and therefore said
1847 nothing. He presently added, with a smile,
1848
1849 “I do not pretend to fix on times or places, but I must tell you that
1850 I have good reason to believe your little friend will soon hear of
1851 something to her advantage.”
1852
1853 “Indeed! how so? of what sort?”
1854
1855 “A very serious sort, I assure you;” still smiling.
1856
1857 “Very serious! I can think of but one thing--Who is in love with her?
1858 Who makes you their confidant?”
1859
1860 Emma was more than half in hopes of Mr. Elton’s having dropt a hint.
1861 Mr. Knightley was a sort of general friend and adviser, and she knew Mr.
1862 Elton looked up to him.
1863
1864 “I have reason to think,” he replied, “that Harriet Smith will soon have
1865 an offer of marriage, and from a most unexceptionable quarter:--Robert
1866 Martin is the man. Her visit to Abbey-Mill, this summer, seems to have
1867 done his business. He is desperately in love and means to marry her.”
1868
1869 “He is very obliging,” said Emma; “but is he sure that Harriet means to
1870 marry him?”
1871
1872 “Well, well, means to make her an offer then. Will that do? He came to
1873 the Abbey two evenings ago, on purpose to consult me about it. He knows
1874 I have a thorough regard for him and all his family, and, I believe,
1875 considers me as one of his best friends. He came to ask me whether
1876 I thought it would be imprudent in him to settle so early; whether
1877 I thought her too young: in short, whether I approved his choice
1878 altogether; having some apprehension perhaps of her being considered
1879 (especially since _your_ making so much of her) as in a line of society
1880 above him. I was very much pleased with all that he said. I never hear
1881 better sense from any one than Robert Martin. He always speaks to the
1882 purpose; open, straightforward, and very well judging. He told me every
1883 thing; his circumstances and plans, and what they all proposed doing in
1884 the event of his marriage. He is an excellent young man, both as son and
1885 brother. I had no hesitation in advising him to marry. He proved to me
1886 that he could afford it; and that being the case, I was convinced he
1887 could not do better. I praised the fair lady too, and altogether sent
1888 him away very happy. If he had never esteemed my opinion before, he
1889 would have thought highly of me then; and, I dare say, left the house
1890 thinking me the best friend and counsellor man ever had. This happened
1891 the night before last. Now, as we may fairly suppose, he would not allow
1892 much time to pass before he spoke to the lady, and as he does not appear
1893 to have spoken yesterday, it is not unlikely that he should be at Mrs.
1894 Goddard’s to-day; and she may be detained by a visitor, without thinking
1895 him at all a tiresome wretch.”
1896
1897 “Pray, Mr. Knightley,” said Emma, who had been smiling to herself
1898 through a great part of this speech, “how do you know that Mr. Martin
1899 did not speak yesterday?”
1900
1901 “Certainly,” replied he, surprized, “I do not absolutely know it; but it
1902 may be inferred. Was not she the whole day with you?”
1903
1904 “Come,” said she, “I will tell you something, in return for what
1905 you have told me. He did speak yesterday--that is, he wrote, and was
1906 refused.”
1907
1908 This was obliged to be repeated before it could be believed; and Mr.
1909 Knightley actually looked red with surprize and displeasure, as he stood
1910 up, in tall indignation, and said,
1911
1912 “Then she is a greater simpleton than I ever believed her. What is the
1913 foolish girl about?”
1914
1915 “Oh! to be sure,” cried Emma, “it is always incomprehensible to a man
1916 that a woman should ever refuse an offer of marriage. A man always
1917 imagines a woman to be ready for any body who asks her.”
1918
1919 “Nonsense! a man does not imagine any such thing. But what is the
1920 meaning of this? Harriet Smith refuse Robert Martin? madness, if it is
1921 so; but I hope you are mistaken.”
1922
1923 “I saw her answer!--nothing could be clearer.”
1924
1925 “You saw her answer!--you wrote her answer too. Emma, this is your
1926 doing. You persuaded her to refuse him.”
1927
1928 “And if I did, (which, however, I am far from allowing) I should not
1929 feel that I had done wrong. Mr. Martin is a very respectable young man,
1930 but I cannot admit him to be Harriet’s equal; and am rather surprized
1931 indeed that he should have ventured to address her. By your account, he
1932 does seem to have had some scruples. It is a pity that they were ever
1933 got over.”
1934
1935 “Not Harriet’s equal!” exclaimed Mr. Knightley loudly and warmly; and
1936 with calmer asperity, added, a few moments afterwards, “No, he is
1937 not her equal indeed, for he is as much her superior in sense as in
1938 situation. Emma, your infatuation about that girl blinds you. What are
1939 Harriet Smith’s claims, either of birth, nature or education, to any
1940 connexion higher than Robert Martin? She is the natural daughter of
1941 nobody knows whom, with probably no settled provision at all, and
1942 certainly no respectable relations. She is known only as parlour-boarder
1943 at a common school. She is not a sensible girl, nor a girl of any
1944 information. She has been taught nothing useful, and is too young and
1945 too simple to have acquired any thing herself. At her age she can have
1946 no experience, and with her little wit, is not very likely ever to have
1947 any that can avail her. She is pretty, and she is good tempered, and
1948 that is all. My only scruple in advising the match was on his account,
1949 as being beneath his deserts, and a bad connexion for him. I felt that,
1950 as to fortune, in all probability he might do much better; and that as
1951 to a rational companion or useful helpmate, he could not do worse. But I
1952 could not reason so to a man in love, and was willing to trust to there
1953 being no harm in her, to her having that sort of disposition, which, in
1954 good hands, like his, might be easily led aright and turn out very well.
1955 The advantage of the match I felt to be all on her side; and had not the
1956 smallest doubt (nor have I now) that there would be a general cry-out
1957 upon her extreme good luck. Even _your_ satisfaction I made sure of.
1958 It crossed my mind immediately that you would not regret your friend’s
1959 leaving Highbury, for the sake of her being settled so well. I remember
1960 saying to myself, ‘Even Emma, with all her partiality for Harriet, will
1961 think this a good match.’”
1962
1963 “I cannot help wondering at your knowing so little of Emma as to say any
1964 such thing. What! think a farmer, (and with all his sense and all his
1965 merit Mr. Martin is nothing more,) a good match for my intimate friend!
1966 Not regret her leaving Highbury for the sake of marrying a man whom
1967 I could never admit as an acquaintance of my own! I wonder you should
1968 think it possible for me to have such feelings. I assure you mine are
1969 very different. I must think your statement by no means fair. You are
1970 not just to Harriet’s claims. They would be estimated very differently
1971 by others as well as myself; Mr. Martin may be the richest of the two,
1972 but he is undoubtedly her inferior as to rank in society.--The sphere in
1973 which she moves is much above his.--It would be a degradation.”
1974
1975 “A degradation to illegitimacy and ignorance, to be married to a
1976 respectable, intelligent gentleman-farmer!”
1977
1978 “As to the circumstances of her birth, though in a legal sense she may
1979 be called Nobody, it will not hold in common sense. She is not to pay
1980 for the offence of others, by being held below the level of those with
1981 whom she is brought up.--There can scarcely be a doubt that her father
1982 is a gentleman--and a gentleman of fortune.--Her allowance is
1983 very liberal; nothing has ever been grudged for her improvement or
1984 comfort.--That she is a gentleman’s daughter, is indubitable to me; that
1985 she associates with gentlemen’s daughters, no one, I apprehend, will
1986 deny.--She is superior to Mr. Robert Martin.”
1987
1988 “Whoever might be her parents,” said Mr. Knightley, “whoever may have
1989 had the charge of her, it does not appear to have been any part of
1990 their plan to introduce her into what you would call good society. After
1991 receiving a very indifferent education she is left in Mrs. Goddard’s
1992 hands to shift as she can;--to move, in short, in Mrs. Goddard’s line,
1993 to have Mrs. Goddard’s acquaintance. Her friends evidently thought
1994 this good enough for her; and it _was_ good enough. She desired nothing
1995 better herself. Till you chose to turn her into a friend, her mind had
1996 no distaste for her own set, nor any ambition beyond it. She was as
1997 happy as possible with the Martins in the summer. She had no sense of
1998 superiority then. If she has it now, you have given it. You have been no
1999 friend to Harriet Smith, Emma. Robert Martin would never have proceeded
2000 so far, if he had not felt persuaded of her not being disinclined to
2001 him. I know him well. He has too much real feeling to address any
2002 woman on the haphazard of selfish passion. And as to conceit, he is
2003 the farthest from it of any man I know. Depend upon it he had
2004 encouragement.”
2005
2006 It was most convenient to Emma not to make a direct reply to this
2007 assertion; she chose rather to take up her own line of the subject
2008 again.
2009
2010 “You are a very warm friend to Mr. Martin; but, as I said before,
2011 are unjust to Harriet. Harriet’s claims to marry well are not so
2012 contemptible as you represent them. She is not a clever girl, but she
2013 has better sense than you are aware of, and does not deserve to have her
2014 understanding spoken of so slightingly. Waiving that point, however, and
2015 supposing her to be, as you describe her, only pretty and good-natured,
2016 let me tell you, that in the degree she possesses them, they are not
2017 trivial recommendations to the world in general, for she is, in fact, a
2018 beautiful girl, and must be thought so by ninety-nine people out of an
2019 hundred; and till it appears that men are much more philosophic on the
2020 subject of beauty than they are generally supposed; till they do fall
2021 in love with well-informed minds instead of handsome faces, a girl, with
2022 such loveliness as Harriet, has a certainty of being admired and sought
2023 after, of having the power of chusing from among many, consequently a
2024 claim to be nice. Her good-nature, too, is not so very slight a claim,
2025 comprehending, as it does, real, thorough sweetness of temper and
2026 manner, a very humble opinion of herself, and a great readiness to
2027 be pleased with other people. I am very much mistaken if your sex in
2028 general would not think such beauty, and such temper, the highest claims
2029 a woman could possess.”
2030
2031 “Upon my word, Emma, to hear you abusing the reason you have, is almost
2032 enough to make me think so too. Better be without sense, than misapply
2033 it as you do.”
2034
2035 “To be sure!” cried she playfully. “I know _that_ is the feeling of
2036 you all. I know that such a girl as Harriet is exactly what every
2037 man delights in--what at once bewitches his senses and satisfies his
2038 judgment. Oh! Harriet may pick and chuse. Were you, yourself, ever to
2039 marry, she is the very woman for you. And is she, at seventeen, just
2040 entering into life, just beginning to be known, to be wondered at
2041 because she does not accept the first offer she receives? No--pray let
2042 her have time to look about her.”
2043
2044 “I have always thought it a very foolish intimacy,” said Mr. Knightley
2045 presently, “though I have kept my thoughts to myself; but I now perceive
2046 that it will be a very unfortunate one for Harriet. You will puff her up
2047 with such ideas of her own beauty, and of what she has a claim to, that,
2048 in a little while, nobody within her reach will be good enough for her.
2049 Vanity working on a weak head, produces every sort of mischief. Nothing
2050 so easy as for a young lady to raise her expectations too high. Miss
2051 Harriet Smith may not find offers of marriage flow in so fast, though
2052 she is a very pretty girl. Men of sense, whatever you may chuse to
2053 say, do not want silly wives. Men of family would not be very fond of
2054 connecting themselves with a girl of such obscurity--and most prudent
2055 men would be afraid of the inconvenience and disgrace they might be
2056 involved in, when the mystery of her parentage came to be revealed. Let
2057 her marry Robert Martin, and she is safe, respectable, and happy for
2058 ever; but if you encourage her to expect to marry greatly, and teach her
2059 to be satisfied with nothing less than a man of consequence and large
2060 fortune, she may be a parlour-boarder at Mrs. Goddard’s all the rest
2061 of her life--or, at least, (for Harriet Smith is a girl who will marry
2062 somebody or other,) till she grow desperate, and is glad to catch at the
2063 old writing-master’s son.”
2064
2065 “We think so very differently on this point, Mr. Knightley, that there
2066 can be no use in canvassing it. We shall only be making each other more
2067 angry. But as to my _letting_ her marry Robert Martin, it is impossible;
2068 she has refused him, and so decidedly, I think, as must prevent any
2069 second application. She must abide by the evil of having refused him,
2070 whatever it may be; and as to the refusal itself, I will not pretend to
2071 say that I might not influence her a little; but I assure you there
2072 was very little for me or for any body to do. His appearance is so much
2073 against him, and his manner so bad, that if she ever were disposed to
2074 favour him, she is not now. I can imagine, that before she had seen
2075 any body superior, she might tolerate him. He was the brother of her
2076 friends, and he took pains to please her; and altogether, having seen
2077 nobody better (that must have been his great assistant) she might not,
2078 while she was at Abbey-Mill, find him disagreeable. But the case
2079 is altered now. She knows now what gentlemen are; and nothing but a
2080 gentleman in education and manner has any chance with Harriet.”
2081
2082 “Nonsense, errant nonsense, as ever was talked!” cried Mr.
2083 Knightley.--“Robert Martin’s manners have sense, sincerity, and
2084 good-humour to recommend them; and his mind has more true gentility than
2085 Harriet Smith could understand.”
2086
2087 Emma made no answer, and tried to look cheerfully unconcerned, but was
2088 really feeling uncomfortable and wanting him very much to be gone. She
2089 did not repent what she had done; she still thought herself a better
2090 judge of such a point of female right and refinement than he could be;
2091 but yet she had a sort of habitual respect for his judgment in general,
2092 which made her dislike having it so loudly against her; and to have him
2093 sitting just opposite to her in angry state, was very disagreeable.
2094 Some minutes passed in this unpleasant silence, with only one attempt
2095 on Emma’s side to talk of the weather, but he made no answer. He was
2096 thinking. The result of his thoughts appeared at last in these words.
2097
2098 “Robert Martin has no great loss--if he can but think so; and I hope it
2099 will not be long before he does. Your views for Harriet are best known
2100 to yourself; but as you make no secret of your love of match-making, it
2101 is fair to suppose that views, and plans, and projects you have;--and as
2102 a friend I shall just hint to you that if Elton is the man, I think it
2103 will be all labour in vain.”
2104
2105 Emma laughed and disclaimed. He continued,
2106
2107 “Depend upon it, Elton will not do. Elton is a very good sort of man,
2108 and a very respectable vicar of Highbury, but not at all likely to make
2109 an imprudent match. He knows the value of a good income as well as any
2110 body. Elton may talk sentimentally, but he will act rationally. He is
2111 as well acquainted with his own claims, as you can be with Harriet’s.
2112 He knows that he is a very handsome young man, and a great favourite
2113 wherever he goes; and from his general way of talking in unreserved
2114 moments, when there are only men present, I am convinced that he does
2115 not mean to throw himself away. I have heard him speak with great
2116 animation of a large family of young ladies that his sisters are
2117 intimate with, who have all twenty thousand pounds apiece.”
2118
2119 “I am very much obliged to you,” said Emma, laughing again. “If I had
2120 set my heart on Mr. Elton’s marrying Harriet, it would have been very
2121 kind to open my eyes; but at present I only want to keep Harriet to
2122 myself. I have done with match-making indeed. I could never hope to
2123 equal my own doings at Randalls. I shall leave off while I am well.”
2124
2125 “Good morning to you,”--said he, rising and walking off abruptly. He was
2126 very much vexed. He felt the disappointment of the young man, and was
2127 mortified to have been the means of promoting it, by the sanction he had
2128 given; and the part which he was persuaded Emma had taken in the affair,
2129 was provoking him exceedingly.
2130
2131 Emma remained in a state of vexation too; but there was more
2132 indistinctness in the causes of her’s, than in his. She did not always
2133 feel so absolutely satisfied with herself, so entirely convinced that
2134 her opinions were right and her adversary’s wrong, as Mr. Knightley. He
2135 walked off in more complete self-approbation than he left for her. She
2136 was not so materially cast down, however, but that a little time and
2137 the return of Harriet were very adequate restoratives. Harriet’s staying
2138 away so long was beginning to make her uneasy. The possibility of the
2139 young man’s coming to Mrs. Goddard’s that morning, and meeting with
2140 Harriet and pleading his own cause, gave alarming ideas. The dread
2141 of such a failure after all became the prominent uneasiness; and when
2142 Harriet appeared, and in very good spirits, and without having any
2143 such reason to give for her long absence, she felt a satisfaction which
2144 settled her with her own mind, and convinced her, that let Mr.
2145 Knightley think or say what he would, she had done nothing which woman’s
2146 friendship and woman’s feelings would not justify.
2147
2148 He had frightened her a little about Mr. Elton; but when she considered
2149 that Mr. Knightley could not have observed him as she had done, neither
2150 with the interest, nor (she must be allowed to tell herself, in spite of
2151 Mr. Knightley’s pretensions) with the skill of such an observer on such
2152 a question as herself, that he had spoken it hastily and in anger, she
2153 was able to believe, that he had rather said what he wished resentfully
2154 to be true, than what he knew any thing about. He certainly might have
2155 heard Mr. Elton speak with more unreserve than she had ever done, and
2156 Mr. Elton might not be of an imprudent, inconsiderate disposition as to
2157 money matters; he might naturally be rather attentive than otherwise
2158 to them; but then, Mr. Knightley did not make due allowance for the
2159 influence of a strong passion at war with all interested motives. Mr.
2160 Knightley saw no such passion, and of course thought nothing of its
2161 effects; but she saw too much of it to feel a doubt of its overcoming
2162 any hesitations that a reasonable prudence might originally suggest; and
2163 more than a reasonable, becoming degree of prudence, she was very sure
2164 did not belong to Mr. Elton.
2165
2166 Harriet’s cheerful look and manner established hers: she came back, not
2167 to think of Mr. Martin, but to talk of Mr. Elton. Miss Nash had been
2168 telling her something, which she repeated immediately with great
2169 delight. Mr. Perry had been to Mrs. Goddard’s to attend a sick child,
2170 and Miss Nash had seen him, and he had told Miss Nash, that as he was
2171 coming back yesterday from Clayton Park, he had met Mr. Elton, and
2172 found to his great surprize, that Mr. Elton was actually on his road
2173 to London, and not meaning to return till the morrow, though it was the
2174 whist-club night, which he had been never known to miss before; and Mr.
2175 Perry had remonstrated with him about it, and told him how shabby it
2176 was in him, their best player, to absent himself, and tried very much to
2177 persuade him to put off his journey only one day; but it would not
2178 do; Mr. Elton had been determined to go on, and had said in a _very_
2179 _particular_ way indeed, that he was going on business which he would
2180 not put off for any inducement in the world; and something about a
2181 very enviable commission, and being the bearer of something exceedingly
2182 precious. Mr. Perry could not quite understand him, but he was very sure
2183 there must be a _lady_ in the case, and he told him so; and Mr. Elton
2184 only looked very conscious and smiling, and rode off in great spirits.
2185 Miss Nash had told her all this, and had talked a great deal more about
2186 Mr. Elton; and said, looking so very significantly at her, “that she did
2187 not pretend to understand what his business might be, but she only
2188 knew that any woman whom Mr. Elton could prefer, she should think the
2189 luckiest woman in the world; for, beyond a doubt, Mr. Elton had not his
2190 equal for beauty or agreeableness.”
2191
2192
2193
2194 CHAPTER IX
2195
2196
2197 Mr. Knightley might quarrel with her, but Emma could not quarrel with
2198 herself. He was so much displeased, that it was longer than usual before
2199 he came to Hartfield again; and when they did meet, his grave looks
2200 shewed that she was not forgiven. She was sorry, but could not repent.
2201 On the contrary, her plans and proceedings were more and more justified
2202 and endeared to her by the general appearances of the next few days.
2203
2204 The Picture, elegantly framed, came safely to hand soon after Mr.
2205 Elton’s return, and being hung over the mantelpiece of the common
2206 sitting-room, he got up to look at it, and sighed out his half sentences
2207 of admiration just as he ought; and as for Harriet’s feelings, they were
2208 visibly forming themselves into as strong and steady an attachment as
2209 her youth and sort of mind admitted. Emma was soon perfectly satisfied
2210 of Mr. Martin’s being no otherwise remembered, than as he furnished a
2211 contrast with Mr. Elton, of the utmost advantage to the latter.
2212
2213 Her views of improving her little friend’s mind, by a great deal of
2214 useful reading and conversation, had never yet led to more than a few
2215 first chapters, and the intention of going on to-morrow. It was much
2216 easier to chat than to study; much pleasanter to let her imagination
2217 range and work at Harriet’s fortune, than to be labouring to enlarge
2218 her comprehension or exercise it on sober facts; and the only literary
2219 pursuit which engaged Harriet at present, the only mental provision she
2220 was making for the evening of life, was the collecting and transcribing
2221 all the riddles of every sort that she could meet with, into a thin
2222 quarto of hot-pressed paper, made up by her friend, and ornamented with
2223 ciphers and trophies.
2224
2225 In this age of literature, such collections on a very grand scale are
2226 not uncommon. Miss Nash, head-teacher at Mrs. Goddard’s, had written out
2227 at least three hundred; and Harriet, who had taken the first hint of it
2228 from her, hoped, with Miss Woodhouse’s help, to get a great many more.
2229 Emma assisted with her invention, memory and taste; and as Harriet wrote
2230 a very pretty hand, it was likely to be an arrangement of the first
2231 order, in form as well as quantity.
2232
2233 Mr. Woodhouse was almost as much interested in the business as the
2234 girls, and tried very often to recollect something worth their putting
2235 in. “So many clever riddles as there used to be when he was young--he
2236 wondered he could not remember them! but he hoped he should in time.”
2237 And it always ended in “Kitty, a fair but frozen maid.”
2238
2239 His good friend Perry, too, whom he had spoken to on the subject,
2240 did not at present recollect any thing of the riddle kind; but he
2241 had desired Perry to be upon the watch, and as he went about so much,
2242 something, he thought, might come from that quarter.
2243
2244 It was by no means his daughter’s wish that the intellects of Highbury
2245 in general should be put under requisition. Mr. Elton was the only one
2246 whose assistance she asked. He was invited to contribute any really good
2247 enigmas, charades, or conundrums that he might recollect; and she had
2248 the pleasure of seeing him most intently at work with his recollections;
2249 and at the same time, as she could perceive, most earnestly careful that
2250 nothing ungallant, nothing that did not breathe a compliment to the
2251 sex should pass his lips. They owed to him their two or three politest
2252 puzzles; and the joy and exultation with which at last he recalled, and
2253 rather sentimentally recited, that well-known charade,
2254
2255 My first doth affliction denote,
2256 Which my second is destin’d to feel
2257 And my whole is the best antidote
2258 That affliction to soften and heal.--
2259
2260 made her quite sorry to acknowledge that they had transcribed it some
2261 pages ago already.
2262
2263 “Why will not you write one yourself for us, Mr. Elton?” said she; “that
2264 is the only security for its freshness; and nothing could be easier to
2265 you.”
2266
2267 “Oh no! he had never written, hardly ever, any thing of the kind in his
2268 life. The stupidest fellow! He was afraid not even Miss Woodhouse”--he
2269 stopt a moment--“or Miss Smith could inspire him.”
2270
2271 The very next day however produced some proof of inspiration. He
2272 called for a few moments, just to leave a piece of paper on the table
2273 containing, as he said, a charade, which a friend of his had addressed
2274 to a young lady, the object of his admiration, but which, from his
2275 manner, Emma was immediately convinced must be his own.
2276
2277 “I do not offer it for Miss Smith’s collection,” said he. “Being my
2278 friend’s, I have no right to expose it in any degree to the public eye,
2279 but perhaps you may not dislike looking at it.”
2280
2281 The speech was more to Emma than to Harriet, which Emma could
2282 understand. There was deep consciousness about him, and he found
2283 it easier to meet her eye than her friend’s. He was gone the next
2284 moment:--after another moment’s pause,
2285
2286 “Take it,” said Emma, smiling, and pushing the paper towards
2287 Harriet--“it is for you. Take your own.”
2288
2289 But Harriet was in a tremor, and could not touch it; and Emma, never
2290 loth to be first, was obliged to examine it herself.
2291
2292 To Miss--
2293
2294 CHARADE.
2295
2296 My first displays the wealth and pomp of kings,
2297 Lords of the earth! their luxury and ease.
2298 Another view of man, my second brings,
2299 Behold him there, the monarch of the seas!
2300
2301 But ah! united, what reverse we have!
2302 Man’s boasted power and freedom, all are flown;
2303 Lord of the earth and sea, he bends a slave,
2304 And woman, lovely woman, reigns alone.
2305
2306 Thy ready wit the word will soon supply,
2307 May its approval beam in that soft eye!
2308
2309 She cast her eye over it, pondered, caught the meaning, read it through
2310 again to be quite certain, and quite mistress of the lines, and then
2311 passing it to Harriet, sat happily smiling, and saying to herself, while
2312 Harriet was puzzling over the paper in all the confusion of hope and
2313 dulness, “Very well, Mr. Elton, very well indeed. I have read worse
2314 charades. _Courtship_--a very good hint. I give you credit for it. This
2315 is feeling your way. This is saying very plainly--‘Pray, Miss Smith,
2316 give me leave to pay my addresses to you. Approve my charade and my
2317 intentions in the same glance.’
2318
2319 May its approval beam in that soft eye!
2320
2321 Harriet exactly. Soft is the very word for her eye--of all epithets, the
2322 justest that could be given.
2323
2324 Thy ready wit the word will soon supply.
2325
2326 Humph--Harriet’s ready wit! All the better. A man must be very much in
2327 love, indeed, to describe her so. Ah! Mr. Knightley, I wish you had the
2328 benefit of this; I think this would convince you. For once in your life
2329 you would be obliged to own yourself mistaken. An excellent charade
2330 indeed! and very much to the purpose. Things must come to a crisis soon
2331 now.”
2332
2333 She was obliged to break off from these very pleasant observations,
2334 which were otherwise of a sort to run into great length, by the
2335 eagerness of Harriet’s wondering questions.
2336
2337 “What can it be, Miss Woodhouse?--what can it be? I have not an idea--I
2338 cannot guess it in the least. What can it possibly be? Do try to find
2339 it out, Miss Woodhouse. Do help me. I never saw any thing so hard. Is it
2340 kingdom? I wonder who the friend was--and who could be the young lady.
2341 Do you think it is a good one? Can it be woman?
2342
2343 And woman, lovely woman, reigns alone.
2344
2345 Can it be Neptune?
2346
2347 Behold him there, the monarch of the seas!
2348
2349 Or a trident? or a mermaid? or a shark? Oh, no! shark is only one
2350 syllable. It must be very clever, or he would not have brought it. Oh!
2351 Miss Woodhouse, do you think we shall ever find it out?”
2352
2353 “Mermaids and sharks! Nonsense! My dear Harriet, what are you thinking
2354 of? Where would be the use of his bringing us a charade made by a friend
2355 upon a mermaid or a shark? Give me the paper and listen.
2356
2357 For Miss ------, read Miss Smith.
2358
2359 My first displays the wealth and pomp of kings,
2360 Lords of the earth! their luxury and ease.
2361
2362 That is _court_.
2363
2364 Another view of man, my second brings;
2365 Behold him there, the monarch of the seas!
2366
2367 That is _ship_;--plain as it can be.--Now for the cream.
2368
2369 But ah! united, (_courtship_, you know,) what reverse we have!
2370 Man’s boasted power and freedom, all are flown.
2371 Lord of the earth and sea, he bends a slave,
2372 And woman, lovely woman, reigns alone.
2373
2374 A very proper compliment!--and then follows the application, which
2375 I think, my dear Harriet, you cannot find much difficulty in
2376 comprehending. Read it in comfort to yourself. There can be no doubt of
2377 its being written for you and to you.”
2378
2379 Harriet could not long resist so delightful a persuasion. She read
2380 the concluding lines, and was all flutter and happiness. She could not
2381 speak. But she was not wanted to speak. It was enough for her to feel.
2382 Emma spoke for her.
2383
2384 “There is so pointed, and so particular a meaning in this compliment,”
2385 said she, “that I cannot have a doubt as to Mr. Elton’s intentions. You
2386 are his object--and you will soon receive the completest proof of it. I
2387 thought it must be so. I thought I could not be so deceived; but now, it
2388 is clear; the state of his mind is as clear and decided, as my wishes on
2389 the subject have been ever since I knew you. Yes, Harriet, just so long
2390 have I been wanting the very circumstance to happen that has happened.
2391 I could never tell whether an attachment between you and Mr. Elton were
2392 most desirable or most natural. Its probability and its eligibility have
2393 really so equalled each other! I am very happy. I congratulate you, my
2394 dear Harriet, with all my heart. This is an attachment which a woman may
2395 well feel pride in creating. This is a connexion which offers nothing
2396 but good. It will give you every thing that you want--consideration,
2397 independence, a proper home--it will fix you in the centre of all your
2398 real friends, close to Hartfield and to me, and confirm our intimacy
2399 for ever. This, Harriet, is an alliance which can never raise a blush in
2400 either of us.”
2401
2402 “Dear Miss Woodhouse!”--and “Dear Miss Woodhouse,” was all that Harriet,
2403 with many tender embraces could articulate at first; but when they did
2404 arrive at something more like conversation, it was sufficiently clear to
2405 her friend that she saw, felt, anticipated, and remembered just as she
2406 ought. Mr. Elton’s superiority had very ample acknowledgment.
2407
2408 “Whatever you say is always right,” cried Harriet, “and therefore I
2409 suppose, and believe, and hope it must be so; but otherwise I could not
2410 have imagined it. It is so much beyond any thing I deserve. Mr. Elton,
2411 who might marry any body! There cannot be two opinions about _him_. He
2412 is so very superior. Only think of those sweet verses--‘To Miss ------.’
2413 Dear me, how clever!--Could it really be meant for me?”
2414
2415 “I cannot make a question, or listen to a question about that. It is a
2416 certainty. Receive it on my judgment. It is a sort of prologue to
2417 the play, a motto to the chapter; and will be soon followed by
2418 matter-of-fact prose.”
2419
2420 “It is a sort of thing which nobody could have expected. I am sure,
2421 a month ago, I had no more idea myself!--The strangest things do take
2422 place!”
2423
2424 “When Miss Smiths and Mr. Eltons get acquainted--they do indeed--and
2425 really it is strange; it is out of the common course that what is so
2426 evidently, so palpably desirable--what courts the pre-arrangement of
2427 other people, should so immediately shape itself into the proper form.
2428 You and Mr. Elton are by situation called together; you belong to one
2429 another by every circumstance of your respective homes. Your marrying
2430 will be equal to the match at Randalls. There does seem to be a
2431 something in the air of Hartfield which gives love exactly the right
2432 direction, and sends it into the very channel where it ought to flow.
2433
2434 The course of true love never did run smooth--
2435
2436 A Hartfield edition of Shakespeare would have a long note on that
2437 passage.”
2438
2439 “That Mr. Elton should really be in love with me,--me, of all people,
2440 who did not know him, to speak to him, at Michaelmas! And he, the very
2441 handsomest man that ever was, and a man that every body looks up to,
2442 quite like Mr. Knightley! His company so sought after, that every body
2443 says he need not eat a single meal by himself if he does not chuse it;
2444 that he has more invitations than there are days in the week. And so
2445 excellent in the Church! Miss Nash has put down all the texts he has
2446 ever preached from since he came to Highbury. Dear me! When I look back
2447 to the first time I saw him! How little did I think!--The two Abbots and
2448 I ran into the front room and peeped through the blind when we heard he
2449 was going by, and Miss Nash came and scolded us away, and staid to look
2450 through herself; however, she called me back presently, and let me
2451 look too, which was very good-natured. And how beautiful we thought he
2452 looked! He was arm-in-arm with Mr. Cole.”
2453
2454 “This is an alliance which, whoever--whatever your friends may be, must
2455 be agreeable to them, provided at least they have common sense; and we
2456 are not to be addressing our conduct to fools. If they are anxious to
2457 see you _happily_ married, here is a man whose amiable character gives
2458 every assurance of it;--if they wish to have you settled in the same
2459 country and circle which they have chosen to place you in, here it will
2460 be accomplished; and if their only object is that you should, in the
2461 common phrase, be _well_ married, here is the comfortable fortune, the
2462 respectable establishment, the rise in the world which must satisfy
2463 them.”
2464
2465 “Yes, very true. How nicely you talk; I love to hear you. You understand
2466 every thing. You and Mr. Elton are one as clever as the other. This
2467 charade!--If I had studied a twelvemonth, I could never have made any
2468 thing like it.”
2469
2470 “I thought he meant to try his skill, by his manner of declining it
2471 yesterday.”
2472
2473 “I do think it is, without exception, the best charade I ever read.”
2474
2475 “I never read one more to the purpose, certainly.”
2476
2477 “It is as long again as almost all we have had before.”
2478
2479 “I do not consider its length as particularly in its favour. Such things
2480 in general cannot be too short.”
2481
2482 Harriet was too intent on the lines to hear. The most satisfactory
2483 comparisons were rising in her mind.
2484
2485 “It is one thing,” said she, presently--her cheeks in a glow--“to have
2486 very good sense in a common way, like every body else, and if there is
2487 any thing to say, to sit down and write a letter, and say just what you
2488 must, in a short way; and another, to write verses and charades like
2489 this.”
2490
2491 Emma could not have desired a more spirited rejection of Mr. Martin’s
2492 prose.
2493
2494 “Such sweet lines!” continued Harriet--“these two last!--But how shall I
2495 ever be able to return the paper, or say I have found it out?--Oh! Miss
2496 Woodhouse, what can we do about that?”
2497
2498 “Leave it to me. You do nothing. He will be here this evening, I dare
2499 say, and then I will give it him back, and some nonsense or other will
2500 pass between us, and you shall not be committed.--Your soft eyes shall
2501 chuse their own time for beaming. Trust to me.”
2502
2503 “Oh! Miss Woodhouse, what a pity that I must not write this beautiful
2504 charade into my book! I am sure I have not got one half so good.”
2505
2506 “Leave out the two last lines, and there is no reason why you should not
2507 write it into your book.”
2508
2509 “Oh! but those two lines are”--
2510
2511 --“The best of all. Granted;--for private enjoyment; and for private
2512 enjoyment keep them. They are not at all the less written you know,
2513 because you divide them. The couplet does not cease to be, nor does its
2514 meaning change. But take it away, and all _appropriation_ ceases, and a
2515 very pretty gallant charade remains, fit for any collection. Depend upon
2516 it, he would not like to have his charade slighted, much better than his
2517 passion. A poet in love must be encouraged in both capacities, or
2518 neither. Give me the book, I will write it down, and then there can be
2519 no possible reflection on you.”
2520
2521 Harriet submitted, though her mind could hardly separate the parts,
2522 so as to feel quite sure that her friend were not writing down a
2523 declaration of love. It seemed too precious an offering for any degree
2524 of publicity.
2525
2526 “I shall never let that book go out of my own hands,” said she.
2527
2528 “Very well,” replied Emma; “a most natural feeling; and the longer it
2529 lasts, the better I shall be pleased. But here is my father coming: you
2530 will not object to my reading the charade to him. It will be giving him
2531 so much pleasure! He loves any thing of the sort, and especially any
2532 thing that pays woman a compliment. He has the tenderest spirit of
2533 gallantry towards us all!--You must let me read it to him.”
2534
2535 Harriet looked grave.
2536
2537 “My dear Harriet, you must not refine too much upon this charade.--You
2538 will betray your feelings improperly, if you are too conscious and too
2539 quick, and appear to affix more meaning, or even quite all the meaning
2540 which may be affixed to it. Do not be overpowered by such a little
2541 tribute of admiration. If he had been anxious for secrecy, he would not
2542 have left the paper while I was by; but he rather pushed it towards me
2543 than towards you. Do not let us be too solemn on the business. He has
2544 encouragement enough to proceed, without our sighing out our souls over
2545 this charade.”
2546
2547 “Oh! no--I hope I shall not be ridiculous about it. Do as you please.”
2548
2549 Mr. Woodhouse came in, and very soon led to the subject again, by the
2550 recurrence of his very frequent inquiry of “Well, my dears, how does
2551 your book go on?--Have you got any thing fresh?”
2552
2553 “Yes, papa; we have something to read you, something quite fresh. A
2554 piece of paper was found on the table this morning--(dropt, we suppose,
2555 by a fairy)--containing a very pretty charade, and we have just copied
2556 it in.”
2557
2558 She read it to him, just as he liked to have any thing read, slowly and
2559 distinctly, and two or three times over, with explanations of every
2560 part as she proceeded--and he was very much pleased, and, as she had
2561 foreseen, especially struck with the complimentary conclusion.
2562
2563 “Aye, that’s very just, indeed, that’s very properly said. Very true.
2564 ‘Woman, lovely woman.’ It is such a pretty charade, my dear, that I
2565 can easily guess what fairy brought it.--Nobody could have written so
2566 prettily, but you, Emma.”
2567
2568 Emma only nodded, and smiled.--After a little thinking, and a very
2569 tender sigh, he added,
2570
2571 “Ah! it is no difficulty to see who you take after! Your dear mother
2572 was so clever at all those things! If I had but her memory! But I can
2573 remember nothing;--not even that particular riddle which you have
2574 heard me mention; I can only recollect the first stanza; and there are
2575 several.
2576
2577 Kitty, a fair but frozen maid,
2578 Kindled a flame I yet deplore,
2579 The hood-wink’d boy I called to aid,
2580 Though of his near approach afraid,
2581 So fatal to my suit before.
2582
2583 And that is all that I can recollect of it--but it is very clever all
2584 the way through. But I think, my dear, you said you had got it.”
2585
2586 “Yes, papa, it is written out in our second page. We copied it from the
2587 Elegant Extracts. It was Garrick’s, you know.”
2588
2589 “Aye, very true.--I wish I could recollect more of it.
2590
2591 Kitty, a fair but frozen maid.
2592
2593 The name makes me think of poor Isabella; for she was very near being
2594 christened Catherine after her grandmama. I hope we shall have her here
2595 next week. Have you thought, my dear, where you shall put her--and what
2596 room there will be for the children?”
2597
2598 “Oh! yes--she will have her own room, of course; the room she always
2599 has;--and there is the nursery for the children,--just as usual, you
2600 know. Why should there be any change?”
2601
2602 “I do not know, my dear--but it is so long since she was here!--not
2603 since last Easter, and then only for a few days.--Mr. John Knightley’s
2604 being a lawyer is very inconvenient.--Poor Isabella!--she is sadly taken
2605 away from us all!--and how sorry she will be when she comes, not to see
2606 Miss Taylor here!”
2607
2608 “She will not be surprized, papa, at least.”
2609
2610 “I do not know, my dear. I am sure I was very much surprized when I
2611 first heard she was going to be married.”
2612
2613 “We must ask Mr. and Mrs. Weston to dine with us, while Isabella is
2614 here.”
2615
2616 “Yes, my dear, if there is time.--But--(in a very depressed tone)--she
2617 is coming for only one week. There will not be time for any thing.”
2618
2619 “It is unfortunate that they cannot stay longer--but it seems a case of
2620 necessity. Mr. John Knightley must be in town again on the 28th, and we
2621 ought to be thankful, papa, that we are to have the whole of the time
2622 they can give to the country, that two or three days are not to be taken
2623 out for the Abbey. Mr. Knightley promises to give up his claim this
2624 Christmas--though you know it is longer since they were with him, than
2625 with us.”
2626
2627 “It would be very hard, indeed, my dear, if poor Isabella were to be
2628 anywhere but at Hartfield.”
2629
2630 Mr. Woodhouse could never allow for Mr. Knightley’s claims on his
2631 brother, or any body’s claims on Isabella, except his own. He sat musing
2632 a little while, and then said,
2633
2634 “But I do not see why poor Isabella should be obliged to go back so
2635 soon, though he does. I think, Emma, I shall try and persuade her to
2636 stay longer with us. She and the children might stay very well.”
2637
2638 “Ah! papa--that is what you never have been able to accomplish, and I
2639 do not think you ever will. Isabella cannot bear to stay behind her
2640 husband.”
2641
2642 This was too true for contradiction. Unwelcome as it was, Mr. Woodhouse
2643 could only give a submissive sigh; and as Emma saw his spirits affected
2644 by the idea of his daughter’s attachment to her husband, she immediately
2645 led to such a branch of the subject as must raise them.
2646
2647 “Harriet must give us as much of her company as she can while my brother
2648 and sister are here. I am sure she will be pleased with the children.
2649 We are very proud of the children, are not we, papa? I wonder which she
2650 will think the handsomest, Henry or John?”
2651
2652 “Aye, I wonder which she will. Poor little dears, how glad they will be
2653 to come. They are very fond of being at Hartfield, Harriet.”
2654
2655 “I dare say they are, sir. I am sure I do not know who is not.”
2656
2657 “Henry is a fine boy, but John is very like his mama. Henry is the
2658 eldest, he was named after me, not after his father. John, the second,
2659 is named after his father. Some people are surprized, I believe, that
2660 the eldest was not, but Isabella would have him called Henry, which I
2661 thought very pretty of her. And he is a very clever boy, indeed. They
2662 are all remarkably clever; and they have so many pretty ways. They will
2663 come and stand by my chair, and say, ‘Grandpapa, can you give me a bit
2664 of string?’ and once Henry asked me for a knife, but I told him knives
2665 were only made for grandpapas. I think their father is too rough with
2666 them very often.”
2667
2668 “He appears rough to you,” said Emma, “because you are so very gentle
2669 yourself; but if you could compare him with other papas, you would not
2670 think him rough. He wishes his boys to be active and hardy; and if
2671 they misbehave, can give them a sharp word now and then; but he is an
2672 affectionate father--certainly Mr. John Knightley is an affectionate
2673 father. The children are all fond of him.”
2674
2675 “And then their uncle comes in, and tosses them up to the ceiling in a
2676 very frightful way!”
2677
2678 “But they like it, papa; there is nothing they like so much. It is such
2679 enjoyment to them, that if their uncle did not lay down the rule of
2680 their taking turns, whichever began would never give way to the other.”
2681
2682 “Well, I cannot understand it.”
2683
2684 “That is the case with us all, papa. One half of the world cannot
2685 understand the pleasures of the other.”
2686
2687 Later in the morning, and just as the girls were going to separate
2688 in preparation for the regular four o’clock dinner, the hero of this
2689 inimitable charade walked in again. Harriet turned away; but Emma could
2690 receive him with the usual smile, and her quick eye soon discerned in
2691 his the consciousness of having made a push--of having thrown a die;
2692 and she imagined he was come to see how it might turn up. His ostensible
2693 reason, however, was to ask whether Mr. Woodhouse’s party could be made
2694 up in the evening without him, or whether he should be in the smallest
2695 degree necessary at Hartfield. If he were, every thing else must give
2696 way; but otherwise his friend Cole had been saying so much about his
2697 dining with him--had made such a point of it, that he had promised him
2698 conditionally to come.
2699
2700 Emma thanked him, but could not allow of his disappointing his friend
2701 on their account; her father was sure of his rubber. He re-urged--she
2702 re-declined; and he seemed then about to make his bow, when taking the
2703 paper from the table, she returned it--
2704
2705 “Oh! here is the charade you were so obliging as to leave with us; thank
2706 you for the sight of it. We admired it so much, that I have ventured
2707 to write it into Miss Smith’s collection. Your friend will not take it
2708 amiss I hope. Of course I have not transcribed beyond the first eight
2709 lines.”
2710
2711 Mr. Elton certainly did not very well know what to say. He looked rather
2712 doubtingly--rather confused; said something about “honour,”--glanced at
2713 Emma and at Harriet, and then seeing the book open on the table, took
2714 it up, and examined it very attentively. With the view of passing off an
2715 awkward moment, Emma smilingly said,
2716
2717 “You must make my apologies to your friend; but so good a charade
2718 must not be confined to one or two. He may be sure of every woman’s
2719 approbation while he writes with such gallantry.”
2720
2721 “I have no hesitation in saying,” replied Mr. Elton, though hesitating
2722 a good deal while he spoke; “I have no hesitation in saying--at least
2723 if my friend feels at all as _I_ do--I have not the smallest doubt that,
2724 could he see his little effusion honoured as _I_ see it, (looking at the
2725 book again, and replacing it on the table), he would consider it as the
2726 proudest moment of his life.”
2727
2728 After this speech he was gone as soon as possible. Emma could not think
2729 it too soon; for with all his good and agreeable qualities, there was
2730 a sort of parade in his speeches which was very apt to incline her to
2731 laugh. She ran away to indulge the inclination, leaving the tender and
2732 the sublime of pleasure to Harriet’s share.
2733
2734
2735
2736 CHAPTER X
2737
2738
2739 Though now the middle of December, there had yet been no weather to
2740 prevent the young ladies from tolerably regular exercise; and on the
2741 morrow, Emma had a charitable visit to pay to a poor sick family, who
2742 lived a little way out of Highbury.
2743
2744 Their road to this detached cottage was down Vicarage Lane, a lane
2745 leading at right angles from the broad, though irregular, main street of
2746 the place; and, as may be inferred, containing the blessed abode of Mr.
2747 Elton. A few inferior dwellings were first to be passed, and then, about
2748 a quarter of a mile down the lane rose the Vicarage, an old and not
2749 very good house, almost as close to the road as it could be. It had
2750 no advantage of situation; but had been very much smartened up by the
2751 present proprietor; and, such as it was, there could be no possibility
2752 of the two friends passing it without a slackened pace and observing
2753 eyes.--Emma’s remark was--
2754
2755 “There it is. There go you and your riddle-book one of these
2756 days.”--Harriet’s was--
2757
2758 “Oh, what a sweet house!--How very beautiful!--There are the yellow
2759 curtains that Miss Nash admires so much.”
2760
2761 “I do not often walk this way _now_,” said Emma, as they proceeded, “but
2762 _then_ there will be an inducement, and I shall gradually get intimately
2763 acquainted with all the hedges, gates, pools and pollards of this part
2764 of Highbury.”
2765
2766 Harriet, she found, had never in her life been inside the Vicarage,
2767 and her curiosity to see it was so extreme, that, considering exteriors
2768 and probabilities, Emma could only class it, as a proof of love, with
2769 Mr. Elton’s seeing ready wit in her.
2770
2771 “I wish we could contrive it,” said she; “but I cannot think of any
2772 tolerable pretence for going in;--no servant that I want to inquire
2773 about of his housekeeper--no message from my father.”
2774
2775 She pondered, but could think of nothing. After a mutual silence of some
2776 minutes, Harriet thus began again--
2777
2778 “I do so wonder, Miss Woodhouse, that you should not be married, or
2779 going to be married! so charming as you are!”--
2780
2781 Emma laughed, and replied,
2782
2783 “My being charming, Harriet, is not quite enough to induce me to marry;
2784 I must find other people charming--one other person at least. And I
2785 am not only, not going to be married, at present, but have very little
2786 intention of ever marrying at all.”
2787
2788 “Ah!--so you say; but I cannot believe it.”
2789
2790 “I must see somebody very superior to any one I have seen yet, to be
2791 tempted; Mr. Elton, you know, (recollecting herself,) is out of the
2792 question: and I do _not_ wish to see any such person. I would rather not
2793 be tempted. I cannot really change for the better. If I were to marry, I
2794 must expect to repent it.”
2795
2796 “Dear me!--it is so odd to hear a woman talk so!”--
2797
2798 “I have none of the usual inducements of women to marry. Were I to fall
2799 in love, indeed, it would be a different thing! but I never have been in
2800 love; it is not my way, or my nature; and I do not think I ever shall.
2801 And, without love, I am sure I should be a fool to change such a
2802 situation as mine. Fortune I do not want; employment I do not want;
2803 consequence I do not want: I believe few married women are half as much
2804 mistress of their husband’s house as I am of Hartfield; and never, never
2805 could I expect to be so truly beloved and important; so always first and
2806 always right in any man’s eyes as I am in my father’s.”
2807
2808 “But then, to be an old maid at last, like Miss Bates!”
2809
2810 “That is as formidable an image as you could present, Harriet; and if
2811 I thought I should ever be like Miss Bates! so silly--so satisfied--so
2812 smiling--so prosing--so undistinguishing and unfastidious--and so apt
2813 to tell every thing relative to every body about me, I would marry
2814 to-morrow. But between _us_, I am convinced there never can be any
2815 likeness, except in being unmarried.”
2816
2817 “But still, you will be an old maid! and that’s so dreadful!”
2818
2819 “Never mind, Harriet, I shall not be a poor old maid; and it is poverty
2820 only which makes celibacy contemptible to a generous public! A single
2821 woman, with a very narrow income, must be a ridiculous, disagreeable old
2822 maid! the proper sport of boys and girls, but a single woman, of good
2823 fortune, is always respectable, and may be as sensible and pleasant
2824 as any body else. And the distinction is not quite so much against the
2825 candour and common sense of the world as appears at first; for a very
2826 narrow income has a tendency to contract the mind, and sour the temper.
2827 Those who can barely live, and who live perforce in a very small, and
2828 generally very inferior, society, may well be illiberal and cross. This
2829 does not apply, however, to Miss Bates; she is only too good natured and
2830 too silly to suit me; but, in general, she is very much to the taste
2831 of every body, though single and though poor. Poverty certainly has not
2832 contracted her mind: I really believe, if she had only a shilling in the
2833 world, she would be very likely to give away sixpence of it; and nobody
2834 is afraid of her: that is a great charm.”
2835
2836 “Dear me! but what shall you do? how shall you employ yourself when you
2837 grow old?”
2838
2839 “If I know myself, Harriet, mine is an active, busy mind, with a great
2840 many independent resources; and I do not perceive why I should be more
2841 in want of employment at forty or fifty than one-and-twenty. Woman’s
2842 usual occupations of hand and mind will be as open to me then as they
2843 are now; or with no important variation. If I draw less, I shall read
2844 more; if I give up music, I shall take to carpet-work. And as for
2845 objects of interest, objects for the affections, which is in truth the
2846 great point of inferiority, the want of which is really the great evil
2847 to be avoided in _not_ marrying, I shall be very well off, with all the
2848 children of a sister I love so much, to care about. There will be enough
2849 of them, in all probability, to supply every sort of sensation that
2850 declining life can need. There will be enough for every hope and every
2851 fear; and though my attachment to none can equal that of a parent, it
2852 suits my ideas of comfort better than what is warmer and blinder. My
2853 nephews and nieces!--I shall often have a niece with me.”
2854
2855 “Do you know Miss Bates’s niece? That is, I know you must have seen her
2856 a hundred times--but are you acquainted?”
2857
2858 “Oh! yes; we are always forced to be acquainted whenever she comes to
2859 Highbury. By the bye, _that_ is almost enough to put one out of conceit
2860 with a niece. Heaven forbid! at least, that I should ever bore people
2861 half so much about all the Knightleys together, as she does about Jane
2862 Fairfax. One is sick of the very name of Jane Fairfax. Every letter from
2863 her is read forty times over; her compliments to all friends go round
2864 and round again; and if she does but send her aunt the pattern of a
2865 stomacher, or knit a pair of garters for her grandmother, one hears of
2866 nothing else for a month. I wish Jane Fairfax very well; but she tires
2867 me to death.”
2868
2869 They were now approaching the cottage, and all idle topics were
2870 superseded. Emma was very compassionate; and the distresses of the poor
2871 were as sure of relief from her personal attention and kindness, her
2872 counsel and her patience, as from her purse. She understood their ways,
2873 could allow for their ignorance and their temptations, had no romantic
2874 expectations of extraordinary virtue from those for whom education had
2875 done so little; entered into their troubles with ready sympathy, and
2876 always gave her assistance with as much intelligence as good-will. In
2877 the present instance, it was sickness and poverty together which she
2878 came to visit; and after remaining there as long as she could give
2879 comfort or advice, she quitted the cottage with such an impression of
2880 the scene as made her say to Harriet, as they walked away,
2881
2882 “These are the sights, Harriet, to do one good. How trifling they make
2883 every thing else appear!--I feel now as if I could think of nothing but
2884 these poor creatures all the rest of the day; and yet, who can say how
2885 soon it may all vanish from my mind?”
2886
2887 “Very true,” said Harriet. “Poor creatures! one can think of nothing
2888 else.”
2889
2890 “And really, I do not think the impression will soon be over,” said
2891 Emma, as she crossed the low hedge, and tottering footstep which ended
2892 the narrow, slippery path through the cottage garden, and brought them
2893 into the lane again. “I do not think it will,” stopping to look once
2894 more at all the outward wretchedness of the place, and recall the still
2895 greater within.
2896
2897 “Oh! dear, no,” said her companion.
2898
2899 They walked on. The lane made a slight bend; and when that bend was
2900 passed, Mr. Elton was immediately in sight; and so near as to give Emma
2901 time only to say farther,
2902
2903 “Ah! Harriet, here comes a very sudden trial of our stability in good
2904 thoughts. Well, (smiling,) I hope it may be allowed that if compassion
2905 has produced exertion and relief to the sufferers, it has done all that
2906 is truly important. If we feel for the wretched, enough to do all we can
2907 for them, the rest is empty sympathy, only distressing to ourselves.”
2908
2909 Harriet could just answer, “Oh! dear, yes,” before the gentleman joined
2910 them. The wants and sufferings of the poor family, however, were the
2911 first subject on meeting. He had been going to call on them. His visit
2912 he would now defer; but they had a very interesting parley about
2913 what could be done and should be done. Mr. Elton then turned back to
2914 accompany them.
2915
2916 “To fall in with each other on such an errand as this,” thought Emma;
2917 “to meet in a charitable scheme; this will bring a great increase
2918 of love on each side. I should not wonder if it were to bring on the
2919 declaration. It must, if I were not here. I wish I were anywhere else.”
2920
2921 Anxious to separate herself from them as far as she could, she soon
2922 afterwards took possession of a narrow footpath, a little raised on one
2923 side of the lane, leaving them together in the main road. But she had
2924 not been there two minutes when she found that Harriet’s habits of
2925 dependence and imitation were bringing her up too, and that, in short,
2926 they would both be soon after her. This would not do; she immediately
2927 stopped, under pretence of having some alteration to make in the lacing
2928 of her half-boot, and stooping down in complete occupation of the
2929 footpath, begged them to have the goodness to walk on, and she would
2930 follow in half a minute. They did as they were desired; and by the time
2931 she judged it reasonable to have done with her boot, she had the comfort
2932 of farther delay in her power, being overtaken by a child from the
2933 cottage, setting out, according to orders, with her pitcher, to fetch
2934 broth from Hartfield. To walk by the side of this child, and talk to
2935 and question her, was the most natural thing in the world, or would have
2936 been the most natural, had she been acting just then without design;
2937 and by this means the others were still able to keep ahead, without
2938 any obligation of waiting for her. She gained on them, however,
2939 involuntarily: the child’s pace was quick, and theirs rather slow;
2940 and she was the more concerned at it, from their being evidently in
2941 a conversation which interested them. Mr. Elton was speaking with
2942 animation, Harriet listening with a very pleased attention; and Emma,
2943 having sent the child on, was beginning to think how she might draw back
2944 a little more, when they both looked around, and she was obliged to join
2945 them.
2946
2947 Mr. Elton was still talking, still engaged in some interesting detail;
2948 and Emma experienced some disappointment when she found that he was only
2949 giving his fair companion an account of the yesterday’s party at his
2950 friend Cole’s, and that she was come in herself for the Stilton cheese,
2951 the north Wiltshire, the butter, the celery, the beet-root, and all the
2952 dessert.
2953
2954 “This would soon have led to something better, of course,” was her
2955 consoling reflection; “any thing interests between those who love; and
2956 any thing will serve as introduction to what is near the heart. If I
2957 could but have kept longer away!”
2958
2959 They now walked on together quietly, till within view of the vicarage
2960 pales, when a sudden resolution, of at least getting Harriet into the
2961 house, made her again find something very much amiss about her boot, and
2962 fall behind to arrange it once more. She then broke the lace off short,
2963 and dexterously throwing it into a ditch, was presently obliged to
2964 entreat them to stop, and acknowledged her inability to put herself to
2965 rights so as to be able to walk home in tolerable comfort.
2966
2967 “Part of my lace is gone,” said she, “and I do not know how I am to
2968 contrive. I really am a most troublesome companion to you both, but I
2969 hope I am not often so ill-equipped. Mr. Elton, I must beg leave to stop
2970 at your house, and ask your housekeeper for a bit of ribband or string,
2971 or any thing just to keep my boot on.”
2972
2973 Mr. Elton looked all happiness at this proposition; and nothing could
2974 exceed his alertness and attention in conducting them into his house and
2975 endeavouring to make every thing appear to advantage. The room they were
2976 taken into was the one he chiefly occupied, and looking forwards; behind
2977 it was another with which it immediately communicated; the door between
2978 them was open, and Emma passed into it with the housekeeper to receive
2979 her assistance in the most comfortable manner. She was obliged to leave
2980 the door ajar as she found it; but she fully intended that Mr. Elton
2981 should close it. It was not closed, however, it still remained ajar; but
2982 by engaging the housekeeper in incessant conversation, she hoped to make
2983 it practicable for him to chuse his own subject in the adjoining
2984 room. For ten minutes she could hear nothing but herself. It could be
2985 protracted no longer. She was then obliged to be finished, and make her
2986 appearance.
2987
2988 The lovers were standing together at one of the windows. It had a most
2989 favourable aspect; and, for half a minute, Emma felt the glory of having
2990 schemed successfully. But it would not do; he had not come to the point.
2991 He had been most agreeable, most delightful; he had told Harriet that
2992 he had seen them go by, and had purposely followed them; other little
2993 gallantries and allusions had been dropt, but nothing serious.
2994
2995 “Cautious, very cautious,” thought Emma; “he advances inch by inch, and
2996 will hazard nothing till he believes himself secure.”
2997
2998 Still, however, though every thing had not been accomplished by her
2999 ingenious device, she could not but flatter herself that it had been
3000 the occasion of much present enjoyment to both, and must be leading them
3001 forward to the great event.
3002
3003
3004
3005 CHAPTER XI
3006
3007
3008 Mr. Elton must now be left to himself. It was no longer in Emma’s power
3009 to superintend his happiness or quicken his measures. The coming of her
3010 sister’s family was so very near at hand, that first in anticipation,
3011 and then in reality, it became henceforth her prime object of interest;
3012 and during the ten days of their stay at Hartfield it was not to be
3013 expected--she did not herself expect--that any thing beyond occasional,
3014 fortuitous assistance could be afforded by her to the lovers. They might
3015 advance rapidly if they would, however; they must advance somehow or
3016 other whether they would or no. She hardly wished to have more leisure
3017 for them. There are people, who the more you do for them, the less they
3018 will do for themselves.
3019
3020 Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley, from having been longer than usual absent
3021 from Surry, were exciting of course rather more than the usual interest.
3022 Till this year, every long vacation since their marriage had been
3023 divided between Hartfield and Donwell Abbey; but all the holidays of
3024 this autumn had been given to sea-bathing for the children, and it was
3025 therefore many months since they had been seen in a regular way by their
3026 Surry connexions, or seen at all by Mr. Woodhouse, who could not be
3027 induced to get so far as London, even for poor Isabella’s sake; and
3028 who consequently was now most nervously and apprehensively happy in
3029 forestalling this too short visit.
3030
3031 He thought much of the evils of the journey for her, and not a little
3032 of the fatigues of his own horses and coachman who were to bring some
3033 of the party the last half of the way; but his alarms were needless;
3034 the sixteen miles being happily accomplished, and Mr. and Mrs. John
3035 Knightley, their five children, and a competent number of nursery-maids,
3036 all reaching Hartfield in safety. The bustle and joy of such an arrival,
3037 the many to be talked to, welcomed, encouraged, and variously dispersed
3038 and disposed of, produced a noise and confusion which his nerves could
3039 not have borne under any other cause, nor have endured much longer even
3040 for this; but the ways of Hartfield and the feelings of her father
3041 were so respected by Mrs. John Knightley, that in spite of maternal
3042 solicitude for the immediate enjoyment of her little ones, and for their
3043 having instantly all the liberty and attendance, all the eating and
3044 drinking, and sleeping and playing, which they could possibly wish for,
3045 without the smallest delay, the children were never allowed to be long
3046 a disturbance to him, either in themselves or in any restless attendance
3047 on them.
3048
3049 Mrs. John Knightley was a pretty, elegant little woman, of gentle, quiet
3050 manners, and a disposition remarkably amiable and affectionate; wrapt
3051 up in her family; a devoted wife, a doating mother, and so tenderly
3052 attached to her father and sister that, but for these higher ties, a
3053 warmer love might have seemed impossible. She could never see a fault
3054 in any of them. She was not a woman of strong understanding or any
3055 quickness; and with this resemblance of her father, she inherited also
3056 much of his constitution; was delicate in her own health, over-careful
3057 of that of her children, had many fears and many nerves, and was as fond
3058 of her own Mr. Wingfield in town as her father could be of Mr. Perry.
3059 They were alike too, in a general benevolence of temper, and a strong
3060 habit of regard for every old acquaintance.
3061
3062 Mr. John Knightley was a tall, gentleman-like, and very clever man;
3063 rising in his profession, domestic, and respectable in his private
3064 character; but with reserved manners which prevented his being generally
3065 pleasing; and capable of being sometimes out of humour. He was not an
3066 ill-tempered man, not so often unreasonably cross as to deserve such a
3067 reproach; but his temper was not his great perfection; and, indeed, with
3068 such a worshipping wife, it was hardly possible that any natural defects
3069 in it should not be increased. The extreme sweetness of her temper
3070 must hurt his. He had all the clearness and quickness of mind which she
3071 wanted, and he could sometimes act an ungracious, or say a severe thing.
3072
3073 He was not a great favourite with his fair sister-in-law. Nothing wrong
3074 in him escaped her. She was quick in feeling the little injuries to
3075 Isabella, which Isabella never felt herself. Perhaps she might have
3076 passed over more had his manners been flattering to Isabella’s sister,
3077 but they were only those of a calmly kind brother and friend, without
3078 praise and without blindness; but hardly any degree of personal
3079 compliment could have made her regardless of that greatest fault of
3080 all in her eyes which he sometimes fell into, the want of respectful
3081 forbearance towards her father. There he had not always the patience
3082 that could have been wished. Mr. Woodhouse’s peculiarities and
3083 fidgetiness were sometimes provoking him to a rational remonstrance or
3084 sharp retort equally ill-bestowed. It did not often happen; for Mr. John
3085 Knightley had really a great regard for his father-in-law, and generally
3086 a strong sense of what was due to him; but it was too often for Emma’s
3087 charity, especially as there was all the pain of apprehension frequently
3088 to be endured, though the offence came not. The beginning, however, of
3089 every visit displayed none but the properest feelings, and this being of
3090 necessity so short might be hoped to pass away in unsullied cordiality.
3091 They had not been long seated and composed when Mr. Woodhouse, with a
3092 melancholy shake of the head and a sigh, called his daughter’s attention
3093 to the sad change at Hartfield since she had been there last.
3094
3095 “Ah, my dear,” said he, “poor Miss Taylor--It is a grievous business.”
3096
3097 “Oh yes, sir,” cried she with ready sympathy, “how you must miss her!
3098 And dear Emma, too!--What a dreadful loss to you both!--I have been so
3099 grieved for you.--I could not imagine how you could possibly do without
3100 her.--It is a sad change indeed.--But I hope she is pretty well, sir.”
3101
3102 “Pretty well, my dear--I hope--pretty well.--I do not know but that the
3103 place agrees with her tolerably.”
3104
3105 Mr. John Knightley here asked Emma quietly whether there were any doubts
3106 of the air of Randalls.
3107
3108 “Oh! no--none in the least. I never saw Mrs. Weston better in my
3109 life--never looking so well. Papa is only speaking his own regret.”
3110
3111 “Very much to the honour of both,” was the handsome reply.
3112
3113 “And do you see her, sir, tolerably often?” asked Isabella in the
3114 plaintive tone which just suited her father.
3115
3116 Mr. Woodhouse hesitated.--“Not near so often, my dear, as I could wish.”
3117
3118 “Oh! papa, we have missed seeing them but one entire day since they
3119 married. Either in the morning or evening of every day, excepting one,
3120 have we seen either Mr. Weston or Mrs. Weston, and generally both,
3121 either at Randalls or here--and as you may suppose, Isabella, most
3122 frequently here. They are very, very kind in their visits. Mr. Weston
3123 is really as kind as herself. Papa, if you speak in that melancholy way,
3124 you will be giving Isabella a false idea of us all. Every body must be
3125 aware that Miss Taylor must be missed, but every body ought also to be
3126 assured that Mr. and Mrs. Weston do really prevent our missing her by
3127 any means to the extent we ourselves anticipated--which is the exact
3128 truth.”
3129
3130 “Just as it should be,” said Mr. John Knightley, “and just as I hoped
3131 it was from your letters. Her wish of shewing you attention could not be
3132 doubted, and his being a disengaged and social man makes it all easy. I
3133 have been always telling you, my love, that I had no idea of the change
3134 being so very material to Hartfield as you apprehended; and now you have
3135 Emma’s account, I hope you will be satisfied.”
3136
3137 “Why, to be sure,” said Mr. Woodhouse--“yes, certainly--I cannot
3138 deny that Mrs. Weston, poor Mrs. Weston, does come and see us pretty
3139 often--but then--she is always obliged to go away again.”
3140
3141 “It would be very hard upon Mr. Weston if she did not, papa.--You quite
3142 forget poor Mr. Weston.”
3143
3144 “I think, indeed,” said John Knightley pleasantly, “that Mr. Weston has
3145 some little claim. You and I, Emma, will venture to take the part of the
3146 poor husband. I, being a husband, and you not being a wife, the claims
3147 of the man may very likely strike us with equal force. As for Isabella,
3148 she has been married long enough to see the convenience of putting all
3149 the Mr. Westons aside as much as she can.”
3150
3151 “Me, my love,” cried his wife, hearing and understanding only in part.--
3152 “Are you talking about me?--I am sure nobody ought to be, or can be, a
3153 greater advocate for matrimony than I am; and if it had not been for
3154 the misery of her leaving Hartfield, I should never have thought of Miss
3155 Taylor but as the most fortunate woman in the world; and as to slighting
3156 Mr. Weston, that excellent Mr. Weston, I think there is nothing he does
3157 not deserve. I believe he is one of the very best-tempered men that ever
3158 existed. Excepting yourself and your brother, I do not know his equal
3159 for temper. I shall never forget his flying Henry’s kite for him that
3160 very windy day last Easter--and ever since his particular kindness last
3161 September twelvemonth in writing that note, at twelve o’clock at night,
3162 on purpose to assure me that there was no scarlet fever at Cobham, I
3163 have been convinced there could not be a more feeling heart nor a better
3164 man in existence.--If any body can deserve him, it must be Miss Taylor.”
3165
3166 “Where is the young man?” said John Knightley. “Has he been here on this
3167 occasion--or has he not?”
3168
3169 “He has not been here yet,” replied Emma. “There was a strong
3170 expectation of his coming soon after the marriage, but it ended in
3171 nothing; and I have not heard him mentioned lately.”
3172
3173 “But you should tell them of the letter, my dear,” said her father.
3174 “He wrote a letter to poor Mrs. Weston, to congratulate her, and a very
3175 proper, handsome letter it was. She shewed it to me. I thought it very
3176 well done of him indeed. Whether it was his own idea you know, one
3177 cannot tell. He is but young, and his uncle, perhaps--”
3178
3179 “My dear papa, he is three-and-twenty. You forget how time passes.”
3180
3181 “Three-and-twenty!--is he indeed?--Well, I could not have thought
3182 it--and he was but two years old when he lost his poor mother! Well,
3183 time does fly indeed!--and my memory is very bad. However, it was an
3184 exceeding good, pretty letter, and gave Mr. and Mrs. Weston a great deal
3185 of pleasure. I remember it was written from Weymouth, and dated Sept.
3186 28th--and began, ‘My dear Madam,’ but I forget how it went on; and it
3187 was signed ‘F. C. Weston Churchill.’--I remember that perfectly.”
3188
3189 “How very pleasing and proper of him!” cried the good-hearted Mrs. John
3190 Knightley. “I have no doubt of his being a most amiable young man. But
3191 how sad it is that he should not live at home with his father! There is
3192 something so shocking in a child’s being taken away from his parents and
3193 natural home! I never could comprehend how Mr. Weston could part with
3194 him. To give up one’s child! I really never could think well of any body
3195 who proposed such a thing to any body else.”
3196
3197 “Nobody ever did think well of the Churchills, I fancy,” observed Mr.
3198 John Knightley coolly. “But you need not imagine Mr. Weston to have felt
3199 what you would feel in giving up Henry or John. Mr. Weston is rather
3200 an easy, cheerful-tempered man, than a man of strong feelings; he takes
3201 things as he finds them, and makes enjoyment of them somehow or other,
3202 depending, I suspect, much more upon what is called society for his
3203 comforts, that is, upon the power of eating and drinking, and playing
3204 whist with his neighbours five times a week, than upon family affection,
3205 or any thing that home affords.”
3206
3207 Emma could not like what bordered on a reflection on Mr. Weston, and had
3208 half a mind to take it up; but she struggled, and let it pass. She
3209 would keep the peace if possible; and there was something honourable and
3210 valuable in the strong domestic habits, the all-sufficiency of home to
3211 himself, whence resulted her brother’s disposition to look down on
3212 the common rate of social intercourse, and those to whom it was
3213 important.--It had a high claim to forbearance.
3214
3215
3216
3217 CHAPTER XII
3218
3219
3220 Mr. Knightley was to dine with them--rather against the inclination of
3221 Mr. Woodhouse, who did not like that any one should share with him in
3222 Isabella’s first day. Emma’s sense of right however had decided it;
3223 and besides the consideration of what was due to each brother, she had
3224 particular pleasure, from the circumstance of the late disagreement
3225 between Mr. Knightley and herself, in procuring him the proper
3226 invitation.
3227
3228 She hoped they might now become friends again. She thought it was time
3229 to make up. Making-up indeed would not do. _She_ certainly had not been
3230 in the wrong, and _he_ would never own that he had. Concession must be
3231 out of the question; but it was time to appear to forget that they had
3232 ever quarrelled; and she hoped it might rather assist the restoration of
3233 friendship, that when he came into the room she had one of the children
3234 with her--the youngest, a nice little girl about eight months old, who
3235 was now making her first visit to Hartfield, and very happy to be danced
3236 about in her aunt’s arms. It did assist; for though he began with grave
3237 looks and short questions, he was soon led on to talk of them all in
3238 the usual way, and to take the child out of her arms with all the
3239 unceremoniousness of perfect amity. Emma felt they were friends again;
3240 and the conviction giving her at first great satisfaction, and then
3241 a little sauciness, she could not help saying, as he was admiring the
3242 baby,
3243
3244 “What a comfort it is, that we think alike about our nephews and nieces.
3245 As to men and women, our opinions are sometimes very different; but with
3246 regard to these children, I observe we never disagree.”
3247
3248 “If you were as much guided by nature in your estimate of men and women,
3249 and as little under the power of fancy and whim in your dealings with
3250 them, as you are where these children are concerned, we might always
3251 think alike.”
3252
3253 “To be sure--our discordancies must always arise from my being in the
3254 wrong.”
3255
3256 “Yes,” said he, smiling--“and reason good. I was sixteen years old when
3257 you were born.”
3258
3259 “A material difference then,” she replied--“and no doubt you were much
3260 my superior in judgment at that period of our lives; but does not the
3261 lapse of one-and-twenty years bring our understandings a good deal
3262 nearer?”
3263
3264 “Yes--a good deal _nearer_.”
3265
3266 “But still, not near enough to give me a chance of being right, if we
3267 think differently.”
3268
3269 “I have still the advantage of you by sixteen years’ experience, and by
3270 not being a pretty young woman and a spoiled child. Come, my dear Emma,
3271 let us be friends, and say no more about it. Tell your aunt, little
3272 Emma, that she ought to set you a better example than to be renewing old
3273 grievances, and that if she were not wrong before, she is now.”
3274
3275 “That’s true,” she cried--“very true. Little Emma, grow up a better
3276 woman than your aunt. Be infinitely cleverer and not half so conceited.
3277 Now, Mr. Knightley, a word or two more, and I have done. As far as good
3278 intentions went, we were _both_ right, and I must say that no effects on
3279 my side of the argument have yet proved wrong. I only want to know that
3280 Mr. Martin is not very, very bitterly disappointed.”
3281
3282 “A man cannot be more so,” was his short, full answer.
3283
3284 “Ah!--Indeed I am very sorry.--Come, shake hands with me.”
3285
3286 This had just taken place and with great cordiality, when John Knightley
3287 made his appearance, and “How d’ye do, George?” and “John, how are
3288 you?” succeeded in the true English style, burying under a calmness that
3289 seemed all but indifference, the real attachment which would have led
3290 either of them, if requisite, to do every thing for the good of the
3291 other.
3292
3293 The evening was quiet and conversable, as Mr. Woodhouse declined cards
3294 entirely for the sake of comfortable talk with his dear Isabella, and
3295 the little party made two natural divisions; on one side he and his
3296 daughter; on the other the two Mr. Knightleys; their subjects totally
3297 distinct, or very rarely mixing--and Emma only occasionally joining in
3298 one or the other.
3299
3300 The brothers talked of their own concerns and pursuits, but principally
3301 of those of the elder, whose temper was by much the most communicative,
3302 and who was always the greater talker. As a magistrate, he had generally
3303 some point of law to consult John about, or, at least, some curious
3304 anecdote to give; and as a farmer, as keeping in hand the home-farm at
3305 Donwell, he had to tell what every field was to bear next year, and to
3306 give all such local information as could not fail of being interesting
3307 to a brother whose home it had equally been the longest part of his
3308 life, and whose attachments were strong. The plan of a drain, the change
3309 of a fence, the felling of a tree, and the destination of every acre for
3310 wheat, turnips, or spring corn, was entered into with as much equality
3311 of interest by John, as his cooler manners rendered possible; and if his
3312 willing brother ever left him any thing to inquire about, his inquiries
3313 even approached a tone of eagerness.
3314
3315 While they were thus comfortably occupied, Mr. Woodhouse was enjoying a
3316 full flow of happy regrets and fearful affection with his daughter.
3317
3318 “My poor dear Isabella,” said he, fondly taking her hand, and
3319 interrupting, for a few moments, her busy labours for some one of her
3320 five children--“How long it is, how terribly long since you were here!
3321 And how tired you must be after your journey! You must go to bed early,
3322 my dear--and I recommend a little gruel to you before you go.--You and
3323 I will have a nice basin of gruel together. My dear Emma, suppose we all
3324 have a little gruel.”
3325
3326 Emma could not suppose any such thing, knowing as she did, that both the
3327 Mr. Knightleys were as unpersuadable on that article as herself;--and
3328 two basins only were ordered. After a little more discourse in praise of
3329 gruel, with some wondering at its not being taken every evening by every
3330 body, he proceeded to say, with an air of grave reflection,
3331
3332 “It was an awkward business, my dear, your spending the autumn at South
3333 End instead of coming here. I never had much opinion of the sea air.”
3334
3335 “Mr. Wingfield most strenuously recommended it, sir--or we should not
3336 have gone. He recommended it for all the children, but particularly for
3337 the weakness in little Bella’s throat,--both sea air and bathing.”
3338
3339 “Ah! my dear, but Perry had many doubts about the sea doing her any
3340 good; and as to myself, I have been long perfectly convinced, though
3341 perhaps I never told you so before, that the sea is very rarely of use
3342 to any body. I am sure it almost killed me once.”
3343
3344 “Come, come,” cried Emma, feeling this to be an unsafe subject, “I must
3345 beg you not to talk of the sea. It makes me envious and miserable;--I
3346 who have never seen it! South End is prohibited, if you please. My dear
3347 Isabella, I have not heard you make one inquiry about Mr. Perry yet; and
3348 he never forgets you.”
3349
3350 “Oh! good Mr. Perry--how is he, sir?”
3351
3352 “Why, pretty well; but not quite well. Poor Perry is bilious, and he has
3353 not time to take care of himself--he tells me he has not time to take
3354 care of himself--which is very sad--but he is always wanted all round
3355 the country. I suppose there is not a man in such practice anywhere. But
3356 then there is not so clever a man any where.”
3357
3358 “And Mrs. Perry and the children, how are they? do the children grow?
3359 I have a great regard for Mr. Perry. I hope he will be calling soon. He
3360 will be so pleased to see my little ones.”
3361
3362 “I hope he will be here to-morrow, for I have a question or two to ask
3363 him about myself of some consequence. And, my dear, whenever he comes,
3364 you had better let him look at little Bella’s throat.”
3365
3366 “Oh! my dear sir, her throat is so much better that I have hardly any
3367 uneasiness about it. Either bathing has been of the greatest service to
3368 her, or else it is to be attributed to an excellent embrocation of Mr.
3369 Wingfield’s, which we have been applying at times ever since August.”
3370
3371 “It is not very likely, my dear, that bathing should have been of use
3372 to her--and if I had known you were wanting an embrocation, I would have
3373 spoken to--
3374
3375 “You seem to me to have forgotten Mrs. and Miss Bates,” said Emma, “I
3376 have not heard one inquiry after them.”
3377
3378 “Oh! the good Bateses--I am quite ashamed of myself--but you mention
3379 them in most of your letters. I hope they are quite well. Good old Mrs.
3380 Bates--I will call upon her to-morrow, and take my children.--They
3381 are always so pleased to see my children.--And that excellent Miss
3382 Bates!--such thorough worthy people!--How are they, sir?”
3383
3384 “Why, pretty well, my dear, upon the whole. But poor Mrs. Bates had a
3385 bad cold about a month ago.”
3386
3387 “How sorry I am! But colds were never so prevalent as they have been
3388 this autumn. Mr. Wingfield told me that he has never known them more
3389 general or heavy--except when it has been quite an influenza.”
3390
3391 “That has been a good deal the case, my dear; but not to the degree you
3392 mention. Perry says that colds have been very general, but not so heavy
3393 as he has very often known them in November. Perry does not call it
3394 altogether a sickly season.”
3395
3396 “No, I do not know that Mr. Wingfield considers it _very_ sickly
3397 except--
3398
3399 “Ah! my poor dear child, the truth is, that in London it is always
3400 a sickly season. Nobody is healthy in London, nobody can be. It is a
3401 dreadful thing to have you forced to live there! so far off!--and the
3402 air so bad!”
3403
3404 “No, indeed--_we_ are not at all in a bad air. Our part of London is
3405 very superior to most others!--You must not confound us with London
3406 in general, my dear sir. The neighbourhood of Brunswick Square is very
3407 different from almost all the rest. We are so very airy! I should be
3408 unwilling, I own, to live in any other part of the town;--there is
3409 hardly any other that I could be satisfied to have my children in:
3410 but _we_ are so remarkably airy!--Mr. Wingfield thinks the vicinity of
3411 Brunswick Square decidedly the most favourable as to air.”
3412
3413 “Ah! my dear, it is not like Hartfield. You make the best of it--but
3414 after you have been a week at Hartfield, you are all of you different
3415 creatures; you do not look like the same. Now I cannot say, that I think
3416 you are any of you looking well at present.”
3417
3418 “I am sorry to hear you say so, sir; but I assure you, excepting those
3419 little nervous head-aches and palpitations which I am never entirely
3420 free from anywhere, I am quite well myself; and if the children were
3421 rather pale before they went to bed, it was only because they were a
3422 little more tired than usual, from their journey and the happiness of
3423 coming. I hope you will think better of their looks to-morrow; for I
3424 assure you Mr. Wingfield told me, that he did not believe he had ever
3425 sent us off altogether, in such good case. I trust, at least, that
3426 you do not think Mr. Knightley looking ill,” turning her eyes with
3427 affectionate anxiety towards her husband.
3428
3429 “Middling, my dear; I cannot compliment you. I think Mr. John Knightley
3430 very far from looking well.”
3431
3432 “What is the matter, sir?--Did you speak to me?” cried Mr. John
3433 Knightley, hearing his own name.
3434
3435 “I am sorry to find, my love, that my father does not think you looking
3436 well--but I hope it is only from being a little fatigued. I could have
3437 wished, however, as you know, that you had seen Mr. Wingfield before you
3438 left home.”
3439
3440 “My dear Isabella,”--exclaimed he hastily--“pray do not concern yourself
3441 about my looks. Be satisfied with doctoring and coddling yourself and
3442 the children, and let me look as I chuse.”
3443
3444 “I did not thoroughly understand what you were telling your brother,”
3445 cried Emma, “about your friend Mr. Graham’s intending to have a bailiff
3446 from Scotland, to look after his new estate. What will it answer? Will
3447 not the old prejudice be too strong?”
3448
3449 And she talked in this way so long and successfully that, when forced to
3450 give her attention again to her father and sister, she had nothing
3451 worse to hear than Isabella’s kind inquiry after Jane Fairfax; and Jane
3452 Fairfax, though no great favourite with her in general, she was at that
3453 moment very happy to assist in praising.
3454
3455 “That sweet, amiable Jane Fairfax!” said Mrs. John Knightley.--“It
3456 is so long since I have seen her, except now and then for a moment
3457 accidentally in town! What happiness it must be to her good old
3458 grandmother and excellent aunt, when she comes to visit them! I always
3459 regret excessively on dear Emma’s account that she cannot be more at
3460 Highbury; but now their daughter is married, I suppose Colonel and Mrs.
3461 Campbell will not be able to part with her at all. She would be such a
3462 delightful companion for Emma.”
3463
3464 Mr. Woodhouse agreed to it all, but added,
3465
3466 “Our little friend Harriet Smith, however, is just such another pretty
3467 kind of young person. You will like Harriet. Emma could not have a
3468 better companion than Harriet.”
3469
3470 “I am most happy to hear it--but only Jane Fairfax one knows to be so
3471 very accomplished and superior!--and exactly Emma’s age.”
3472
3473 This topic was discussed very happily, and others succeeded of similar
3474 moment, and passed away with similar harmony; but the evening did not
3475 close without a little return of agitation. The gruel came and supplied
3476 a great deal to be said--much praise and many comments--undoubting
3477 decision of its wholesomeness for every constitution, and pretty
3478 severe Philippics upon the many houses where it was never met with
3479 tolerably;--but, unfortunately, among the failures which the daughter
3480 had to instance, the most recent, and therefore most prominent, was in
3481 her own cook at South End, a young woman hired for the time, who never
3482 had been able to understand what she meant by a basin of nice smooth
3483 gruel, thin, but not too thin. Often as she had wished for and ordered
3484 it, she had never been able to get any thing tolerable. Here was a
3485 dangerous opening.
3486
3487 “Ah!” said Mr. Woodhouse, shaking his head and fixing his eyes on her
3488 with tender concern.--The ejaculation in Emma’s ear expressed, “Ah!
3489 there is no end of the sad consequences of your going to South End. It
3490 does not bear talking of.” And for a little while she hoped he would not
3491 talk of it, and that a silent rumination might suffice to restore him to
3492 the relish of his own smooth gruel. After an interval of some minutes,
3493 however, he began with,
3494
3495 “I shall always be very sorry that you went to the sea this autumn,
3496 instead of coming here.”
3497
3498 “But why should you be sorry, sir?--I assure you, it did the children a
3499 great deal of good.”
3500
3501 “And, moreover, if you must go to the sea, it had better not have been
3502 to South End. South End is an unhealthy place. Perry was surprized to
3503 hear you had fixed upon South End.”
3504
3505 “I know there is such an idea with many people, but indeed it is quite
3506 a mistake, sir.--We all had our health perfectly well there, never
3507 found the least inconvenience from the mud; and Mr. Wingfield says it is
3508 entirely a mistake to suppose the place unhealthy; and I am sure he may
3509 be depended on, for he thoroughly understands the nature of the air, and
3510 his own brother and family have been there repeatedly.”
3511
3512 “You should have gone to Cromer, my dear, if you went anywhere.--Perry
3513 was a week at Cromer once, and he holds it to be the best of all the
3514 sea-bathing places. A fine open sea, he says, and very pure air. And, by
3515 what I understand, you might have had lodgings there quite away from
3516 the sea--a quarter of a mile off--very comfortable. You should have
3517 consulted Perry.”
3518
3519 “But, my dear sir, the difference of the journey;--only consider how
3520 great it would have been.--An hundred miles, perhaps, instead of forty.”
3521
3522 “Ah! my dear, as Perry says, where health is at stake, nothing else
3523 should be considered; and if one is to travel, there is not much to
3524 chuse between forty miles and an hundred.--Better not move at all,
3525 better stay in London altogether than travel forty miles to get into
3526 a worse air. This is just what Perry said. It seemed to him a very
3527 ill-judged measure.”
3528
3529 Emma’s attempts to stop her father had been vain; and when he
3530 had reached such a point as this, she could not wonder at her
3531 brother-in-law’s breaking out.
3532
3533 “Mr. Perry,” said he, in a voice of very strong displeasure, “would do
3534 as well to keep his opinion till it is asked for. Why does he make it
3535 any business of his, to wonder at what I do?--at my taking my family to
3536 one part of the coast or another?--I may be allowed, I hope, the use of
3537 my judgment as well as Mr. Perry.--I want his directions no more than
3538 his drugs.” He paused--and growing cooler in a moment, added, with only
3539 sarcastic dryness, “If Mr. Perry can tell me how to convey a wife and
3540 five children a distance of an hundred and thirty miles with no greater
3541 expense or inconvenience than a distance of forty, I should be as
3542 willing to prefer Cromer to South End as he could himself.”
3543
3544 “True, true,” cried Mr. Knightley, with most ready interposition--“very
3545 true. That’s a consideration indeed.--But John, as to what I was telling
3546 you of my idea of moving the path to Langham, of turning it more to the
3547 right that it may not cut through the home meadows, I cannot conceive
3548 any difficulty. I should not attempt it, if it were to be the means of
3549 inconvenience to the Highbury people, but if you call to mind exactly
3550 the present line of the path.... The only way of proving it, however,
3551 will be to turn to our maps. I shall see you at the Abbey to-morrow
3552 morning I hope, and then we will look them over, and you shall give me
3553 your opinion.”
3554
3555 Mr. Woodhouse was rather agitated by such harsh reflections on his
3556 friend Perry, to whom he had, in fact, though unconsciously, been
3557 attributing many of his own feelings and expressions;--but the soothing
3558 attentions of his daughters gradually removed the present evil, and
3559 the immediate alertness of one brother, and better recollections of the
3560 other, prevented any renewal of it.
3561
3562
3563
3564 CHAPTER XIII
3565
3566
3567 There could hardly be a happier creature in the world than Mrs. John
3568 Knightley, in this short visit to Hartfield, going about every morning
3569 among her old acquaintance with her five children, and talking over what
3570 she had done every evening with her father and sister. She had nothing
3571 to wish otherwise, but that the days did not pass so swiftly. It was a
3572 delightful visit;--perfect, in being much too short.
3573
3574 In general their evenings were less engaged with friends than their
3575 mornings; but one complete dinner engagement, and out of the house too,
3576 there was no avoiding, though at Christmas. Mr. Weston would take no
3577 denial; they must all dine at Randalls one day;--even Mr. Woodhouse was
3578 persuaded to think it a possible thing in preference to a division of
3579 the party.
3580
3581 How they were all to be conveyed, he would have made a difficulty if he
3582 could, but as his son and daughter’s carriage and horses were actually
3583 at Hartfield, he was not able to make more than a simple question on
3584 that head; it hardly amounted to a doubt; nor did it occupy Emma long
3585 to convince him that they might in one of the carriages find room for
3586 Harriet also.
3587
3588 Harriet, Mr. Elton, and Mr. Knightley, their own especial set, were the
3589 only persons invited to meet them;--the hours were to be early, as
3590 well as the numbers few; Mr. Woodhouse’s habits and inclination being
3591 consulted in every thing.
3592
3593 The evening before this great event (for it was a very great event that
3594 Mr. Woodhouse should dine out, on the 24th of December) had been spent
3595 by Harriet at Hartfield, and she had gone home so much indisposed with
3596 a cold, that, but for her own earnest wish of being nursed by Mrs.
3597 Goddard, Emma could not have allowed her to leave the house. Emma called
3598 on her the next day, and found her doom already signed with regard to
3599 Randalls. She was very feverish and had a bad sore throat: Mrs. Goddard
3600 was full of care and affection, Mr. Perry was talked of, and Harriet
3601 herself was too ill and low to resist the authority which excluded her
3602 from this delightful engagement, though she could not speak of her loss
3603 without many tears.
3604
3605 Emma sat with her as long as she could, to attend her in Mrs. Goddard’s
3606 unavoidable absences, and raise her spirits by representing how much Mr.
3607 Elton’s would be depressed when he knew her state; and left her at last
3608 tolerably comfortable, in the sweet dependence of his having a most
3609 comfortless visit, and of their all missing her very much. She had not
3610 advanced many yards from Mrs. Goddard’s door, when she was met by Mr.
3611 Elton himself, evidently coming towards it, and as they walked on slowly
3612 together in conversation about the invalid--of whom he, on the rumour
3613 of considerable illness, had been going to inquire, that he might
3614 carry some report of her to Hartfield--they were overtaken by Mr. John
3615 Knightley returning from the daily visit to Donwell, with his two eldest
3616 boys, whose healthy, glowing faces shewed all the benefit of a country
3617 run, and seemed to ensure a quick despatch of the roast mutton and rice
3618 pudding they were hastening home for. They joined company and
3619 proceeded together. Emma was just describing the nature of her friend’s
3620 complaint;--“a throat very much inflamed, with a great deal of heat
3621 about her, a quick, low pulse, &c. and she was sorry to find from Mrs.
3622 Goddard that Harriet was liable to very bad sore-throats, and had often
3623 alarmed her with them.” Mr. Elton looked all alarm on the occasion, as
3624 he exclaimed,
3625
3626 “A sore-throat!--I hope not infectious. I hope not of a putrid
3627 infectious sort. Has Perry seen her? Indeed you should take care of
3628 yourself as well as of your friend. Let me entreat you to run no risks.
3629 Why does not Perry see her?”
3630
3631 Emma, who was not really at all frightened herself, tranquillised this
3632 excess of apprehension by assurances of Mrs. Goddard’s experience and
3633 care; but as there must still remain a degree of uneasiness which she
3634 could not wish to reason away, which she would rather feed and assist
3635 than not, she added soon afterwards--as if quite another subject,
3636
3637 “It is so cold, so very cold--and looks and feels so very much like
3638 snow, that if it were to any other place or with any other party, I
3639 should really try not to go out to-day--and dissuade my father from
3640 venturing; but as he has made up his mind, and does not seem to feel the
3641 cold himself, I do not like to interfere, as I know it would be so great
3642 a disappointment to Mr. and Mrs. Weston. But, upon my word, Mr. Elton,
3643 in your case, I should certainly excuse myself. You appear to me a
3644 little hoarse already, and when you consider what demand of voice and
3645 what fatigues to-morrow will bring, I think it would be no more than
3646 common prudence to stay at home and take care of yourself to-night.”
3647
3648 Mr. Elton looked as if he did not very well know what answer to make;
3649 which was exactly the case; for though very much gratified by the kind
3650 care of such a fair lady, and not liking to resist any advice of her’s,
3651 he had not really the least inclination to give up the visit;--but Emma,
3652 too eager and busy in her own previous conceptions and views to hear him
3653 impartially, or see him with clear vision, was very well satisfied with
3654 his muttering acknowledgment of its being “very cold, certainly very
3655 cold,” and walked on, rejoicing in having extricated him from Randalls,
3656 and secured him the power of sending to inquire after Harriet every hour
3657 of the evening.
3658
3659 “You do quite right,” said she;--“we will make your apologies to Mr. and
3660 Mrs. Weston.”
3661
3662 But hardly had she so spoken, when she found her brother was civilly
3663 offering a seat in his carriage, if the weather were Mr. Elton’s only
3664 objection, and Mr. Elton actually accepting the offer with much prompt
3665 satisfaction. It was a done thing; Mr. Elton was to go, and never had
3666 his broad handsome face expressed more pleasure than at this moment;
3667 never had his smile been stronger, nor his eyes more exulting than when
3668 he next looked at her.
3669
3670 “Well,” said she to herself, “this is most strange!--After I had got
3671 him off so well, to chuse to go into company, and leave Harriet ill
3672 behind!--Most strange indeed!--But there is, I believe, in many men,
3673 especially single men, such an inclination--such a passion for dining
3674 out--a dinner engagement is so high in the class of their pleasures,
3675 their employments, their dignities, almost their duties, that any
3676 thing gives way to it--and this must be the case with Mr. Elton; a most
3677 valuable, amiable, pleasing young man undoubtedly, and very much in love
3678 with Harriet; but still, he cannot refuse an invitation, he must dine
3679 out wherever he is asked. What a strange thing love is! he can see ready
3680 wit in Harriet, but will not dine alone for her.”
3681
3682 Soon afterwards Mr. Elton quitted them, and she could not but do him
3683 the justice of feeling that there was a great deal of sentiment in his
3684 manner of naming Harriet at parting; in the tone of his voice while
3685 assuring her that he should call at Mrs. Goddard’s for news of her fair
3686 friend, the last thing before he prepared for the happiness of meeting
3687 her again, when he hoped to be able to give a better report; and
3688 he sighed and smiled himself off in a way that left the balance of
3689 approbation much in his favour.
3690
3691 After a few minutes of entire silence between them, John Knightley began
3692 with--
3693
3694 “I never in my life saw a man more intent on being agreeable than Mr.
3695 Elton. It is downright labour to him where ladies are concerned. With
3696 men he can be rational and unaffected, but when he has ladies to please,
3697 every feature works.”
3698
3699 “Mr. Elton’s manners are not perfect,” replied Emma; “but where there is
3700 a wish to please, one ought to overlook, and one does overlook a great
3701 deal. Where a man does his best with only moderate powers, he will
3702 have the advantage over negligent superiority. There is such perfect
3703 good-temper and good-will in Mr. Elton as one cannot but value.”
3704
3705 “Yes,” said Mr. John Knightley presently, with some slyness, “he seems
3706 to have a great deal of good-will towards you.”
3707
3708 “Me!” she replied with a smile of astonishment, “are you imagining me to
3709 be Mr. Elton’s object?”
3710
3711 “Such an imagination has crossed me, I own, Emma; and if it never
3712 occurred to you before, you may as well take it into consideration now.”
3713
3714 “Mr. Elton in love with me!--What an idea!”
3715
3716 “I do not say it is so; but you will do well to consider whether it
3717 is so or not, and to regulate your behaviour accordingly. I think your
3718 manners to him encouraging. I speak as a friend, Emma. You had better
3719 look about you, and ascertain what you do, and what you mean to do.”
3720
3721 “I thank you; but I assure you you are quite mistaken. Mr. Elton and
3722 I are very good friends, and nothing more;” and she walked on, amusing
3723 herself in the consideration of the blunders which often arise from a
3724 partial knowledge of circumstances, of the mistakes which people of high
3725 pretensions to judgment are for ever falling into; and not very well
3726 pleased with her brother for imagining her blind and ignorant, and in
3727 want of counsel. He said no more.
3728
3729 Mr. Woodhouse had so completely made up his mind to the visit, that in
3730 spite of the increasing coldness, he seemed to have no idea of shrinking
3731 from it, and set forward at last most punctually with his eldest
3732 daughter in his own carriage, with less apparent consciousness of the
3733 weather than either of the others; too full of the wonder of his own
3734 going, and the pleasure it was to afford at Randalls to see that it was
3735 cold, and too well wrapt up to feel it. The cold, however, was severe;
3736 and by the time the second carriage was in motion, a few flakes of snow
3737 were finding their way down, and the sky had the appearance of being so
3738 overcharged as to want only a milder air to produce a very white world
3739 in a very short time.
3740
3741 Emma soon saw that her companion was not in the happiest humour. The
3742 preparing and the going abroad in such weather, with the sacrifice of
3743 his children after dinner, were evils, were disagreeables at least,
3744 which Mr. John Knightley did not by any means like; he anticipated
3745 nothing in the visit that could be at all worth the purchase; and the
3746 whole of their drive to the vicarage was spent by him in expressing his
3747 discontent.
3748
3749 “A man,” said he, “must have a very good opinion of himself when he asks
3750 people to leave their own fireside, and encounter such a day as
3751 this, for the sake of coming to see him. He must think himself a most
3752 agreeable fellow; I could not do such a thing. It is the greatest
3753 absurdity--Actually snowing at this moment!--The folly of not allowing
3754 people to be comfortable at home--and the folly of people’s not staying
3755 comfortably at home when they can! If we were obliged to go out such
3756 an evening as this, by any call of duty or business, what a hardship we
3757 should deem it;--and here are we, probably with rather thinner clothing
3758 than usual, setting forward voluntarily, without excuse, in defiance of
3759 the voice of nature, which tells man, in every thing given to his view
3760 or his feelings, to stay at home himself, and keep all under shelter
3761 that he can;--here are we setting forward to spend five dull hours in
3762 another man’s house, with nothing to say or to hear that was not said
3763 and heard yesterday, and may not be said and heard again to-morrow.
3764 Going in dismal weather, to return probably in worse;--four horses and
3765 four servants taken out for nothing but to convey five idle, shivering
3766 creatures into colder rooms and worse company than they might have had
3767 at home.”
3768
3769 Emma did not find herself equal to give the pleased assent, which no
3770 doubt he was in the habit of receiving, to emulate the “Very true,
3771 my love,” which must have been usually administered by his travelling
3772 companion; but she had resolution enough to refrain from making
3773 any answer at all. She could not be complying, she dreaded being
3774 quarrelsome; her heroism reached only to silence. She allowed him to
3775 talk, and arranged the glasses, and wrapped herself up, without opening
3776 her lips.
3777
3778 They arrived, the carriage turned, the step was let down, and Mr. Elton,
3779 spruce, black, and smiling, was with them instantly. Emma thought with
3780 pleasure of some change of subject. Mr. Elton was all obligation and
3781 cheerfulness; he was so very cheerful in his civilities indeed, that she
3782 began to think he must have received a different account of Harriet from
3783 what had reached her. She had sent while dressing, and the answer had
3784 been, “Much the same--not better.”
3785
3786 “_My_ report from Mrs. Goddard’s,” said she presently, “was not so
3787 pleasant as I had hoped--‘Not better’ was _my_ answer.”
3788
3789 His face lengthened immediately; and his voice was the voice of
3790 sentiment as he answered.
3791
3792 “Oh! no--I am grieved to find--I was on the point of telling you that
3793 when I called at Mrs. Goddard’s door, which I did the very last thing
3794 before I returned to dress, I was told that Miss Smith was not better,
3795 by no means better, rather worse. Very much grieved and concerned--I
3796 had flattered myself that she must be better after such a cordial as I
3797 knew had been given her in the morning.”
3798
3799 Emma smiled and answered--“My visit was of use to the nervous part of
3800 her complaint, I hope; but not even I can charm away a sore throat;
3801 it is a most severe cold indeed. Mr. Perry has been with her, as you
3802 probably heard.”
3803
3804 “Yes--I imagined--that is--I did not--”
3805
3806 “He has been used to her in these complaints, and I hope to-morrow
3807 morning will bring us both a more comfortable report. But it is
3808 impossible not to feel uneasiness. Such a sad loss to our party to-day!”
3809
3810 “Dreadful!--Exactly so, indeed.--She will be missed every moment.”
3811
3812 This was very proper; the sigh which accompanied it was really
3813 estimable; but it should have lasted longer. Emma was rather in dismay
3814 when only half a minute afterwards he began to speak of other things,
3815 and in a voice of the greatest alacrity and enjoyment.
3816
3817 “What an excellent device,” said he, “the use of a sheepskin for
3818 carriages. How very comfortable they make it;--impossible to feel cold
3819 with such precautions. The contrivances of modern days indeed have
3820 rendered a gentleman’s carriage perfectly complete. One is so fenced
3821 and guarded from the weather, that not a breath of air can find its way
3822 unpermitted. Weather becomes absolutely of no consequence. It is a very
3823 cold afternoon--but in this carriage we know nothing of the matter.--Ha!
3824 snows a little I see.”
3825
3826 “Yes,” said John Knightley, “and I think we shall have a good deal of
3827 it.”
3828
3829 “Christmas weather,” observed Mr. Elton. “Quite seasonable; and
3830 extremely fortunate we may think ourselves that it did not begin
3831 yesterday, and prevent this day’s party, which it might very possibly
3832 have done, for Mr. Woodhouse would hardly have ventured had there been
3833 much snow on the ground; but now it is of no consequence. This is quite
3834 the season indeed for friendly meetings. At Christmas every body invites
3835 their friends about them, and people think little of even the worst
3836 weather. I was snowed up at a friend’s house once for a week. Nothing
3837 could be pleasanter. I went for only one night, and could not get away
3838 till that very day se’nnight.”
3839
3840 Mr. John Knightley looked as if he did not comprehend the pleasure, but
3841 said only, coolly,
3842
3843 “I cannot wish to be snowed up a week at Randalls.”
3844
3845 At another time Emma might have been amused, but she was too much
3846 astonished now at Mr. Elton’s spirits for other feelings. Harriet seemed
3847 quite forgotten in the expectation of a pleasant party.
3848
3849 “We are sure of excellent fires,” continued he, “and every thing in the
3850 greatest comfort. Charming people, Mr. and Mrs. Weston;--Mrs. Weston
3851 indeed is much beyond praise, and he is exactly what one values, so
3852 hospitable, and so fond of society;--it will be a small party, but where
3853 small parties are select, they are perhaps the most agreeable of any.
3854 Mr. Weston’s dining-room does not accommodate more than ten comfortably;
3855 and for my part, I would rather, under such circumstances, fall short by
3856 two than exceed by two. I think you will agree with me, (turning with
3857 a soft air to Emma,) I think I shall certainly have your approbation,
3858 though Mr. Knightley perhaps, from being used to the large parties of
3859 London, may not quite enter into our feelings.”
3860
3861 “I know nothing of the large parties of London, sir--I never dine with
3862 any body.”
3863
3864 “Indeed! (in a tone of wonder and pity,) I had no idea that the law had
3865 been so great a slavery. Well, sir, the time must come when you will
3866 be paid for all this, when you will have little labour and great
3867 enjoyment.”
3868
3869 “My first enjoyment,” replied John Knightley, as they passed through the
3870 sweep-gate, “will be to find myself safe at Hartfield again.”
3871
3872
3873
3874 CHAPTER XIV
3875
3876
3877 Some change of countenance was necessary for each gentleman as they
3878 walked into Mrs. Weston’s drawing-room;--Mr. Elton must compose his
3879 joyous looks, and Mr. John Knightley disperse his ill-humour. Mr.
3880 Elton must smile less, and Mr. John Knightley more, to fit them for the
3881 place.--Emma only might be as nature prompted, and shew herself just as
3882 happy as she was. To her it was real enjoyment to be with the Westons.
3883 Mr. Weston was a great favourite, and there was not a creature in the
3884 world to whom she spoke with such unreserve, as to his wife; not any
3885 one, to whom she related with such conviction of being listened to and
3886 understood, of being always interesting and always intelligible, the
3887 little affairs, arrangements, perplexities, and pleasures of her father
3888 and herself. She could tell nothing of Hartfield, in which Mrs. Weston
3889 had not a lively concern; and half an hour’s uninterrupted communication
3890 of all those little matters on which the daily happiness of private life
3891 depends, was one of the first gratifications of each.
3892
3893 This was a pleasure which perhaps the whole day’s visit might not
3894 afford, which certainly did not belong to the present half-hour; but the
3895 very sight of Mrs. Weston, her smile, her touch, her voice was grateful
3896 to Emma, and she determined to think as little as possible of Mr.
3897 Elton’s oddities, or of any thing else unpleasant, and enjoy all that
3898 was enjoyable to the utmost.
3899
3900 The misfortune of Harriet’s cold had been pretty well gone through
3901 before her arrival. Mr. Woodhouse had been safely seated long enough
3902 to give the history of it, besides all the history of his own and
3903 Isabella’s coming, and of Emma’s being to follow, and had indeed just
3904 got to the end of his satisfaction that James should come and see his
3905 daughter, when the others appeared, and Mrs. Weston, who had been almost
3906 wholly engrossed by her attentions to him, was able to turn away and
3907 welcome her dear Emma.
3908
3909 Emma’s project of forgetting Mr. Elton for a while made her rather sorry
3910 to find, when they had all taken their places, that he was close to her.
3911 The difficulty was great of driving his strange insensibility towards
3912 Harriet, from her mind, while he not only sat at her elbow, but
3913 was continually obtruding his happy countenance on her notice, and
3914 solicitously addressing her upon every occasion. Instead of forgetting
3915 him, his behaviour was such that she could not avoid the internal
3916 suggestion of “Can it really be as my brother imagined? can it be
3917 possible for this man to be beginning to transfer his affections from
3918 Harriet to me?--Absurd and insufferable!”--Yet he would be so anxious
3919 for her being perfectly warm, would be so interested about her father,
3920 and so delighted with Mrs. Weston; and at last would begin admiring her
3921 drawings with so much zeal and so little knowledge as seemed terribly
3922 like a would-be lover, and made it some effort with her to preserve her
3923 good manners. For her own sake she could not be rude; and for Harriet’s,
3924 in the hope that all would yet turn out right, she was even positively
3925 civil; but it was an effort; especially as something was going on
3926 amongst the others, in the most overpowering period of Mr. Elton’s
3927 nonsense, which she particularly wished to listen to. She heard enough
3928 to know that Mr. Weston was giving some information about his son; she
3929 heard the words “my son,” and “Frank,” and “my son,” repeated several
3930 times over; and, from a few other half-syllables very much suspected
3931 that he was announcing an early visit from his son; but before she could
3932 quiet Mr. Elton, the subject was so completely past that any reviving
3933 question from her would have been awkward.
3934
3935 Now, it so happened that in spite of Emma’s resolution of never
3936 marrying, there was something in the name, in the idea of Mr.
3937 Frank Churchill, which always interested her. She had frequently
3938 thought--especially since his father’s marriage with Miss Taylor--that
3939 if she _were_ to marry, he was the very person to suit her in age,
3940 character and condition. He seemed by this connexion between the
3941 families, quite to belong to her. She could not but suppose it to be
3942 a match that every body who knew them must think of. That Mr. and Mrs.
3943 Weston did think of it, she was very strongly persuaded; and though
3944 not meaning to be induced by him, or by any body else, to give up a
3945 situation which she believed more replete with good than any she could
3946 change it for, she had a great curiosity to see him, a decided intention
3947 of finding him pleasant, of being liked by him to a certain degree, and
3948 a sort of pleasure in the idea of their being coupled in their friends’
3949 imaginations.
3950
3951 With such sensations, Mr. Elton’s civilities were dreadfully ill-timed;
3952 but she had the comfort of appearing very polite, while feeling very
3953 cross--and of thinking that the rest of the visit could not possibly
3954 pass without bringing forward the same information again, or the
3955 substance of it, from the open-hearted Mr. Weston.--So it proved;--for
3956 when happily released from Mr. Elton, and seated by Mr. Weston,
3957 at dinner, he made use of the very first interval in the cares of
3958 hospitality, the very first leisure from the saddle of mutton, to say to
3959 her,
3960
3961 “We want only two more to be just the right number. I should like to see
3962 two more here,--your pretty little friend, Miss Smith, and my son--and
3963 then I should say we were quite complete. I believe you did not hear me
3964 telling the others in the drawing-room that we are expecting Frank.
3965 I had a letter from him this morning, and he will be with us within a
3966 fortnight.”
3967
3968 Emma spoke with a very proper degree of pleasure; and fully assented to
3969 his proposition of Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Smith making their party
3970 quite complete.
3971
3972 “He has been wanting to come to us,” continued Mr. Weston, “ever since
3973 September: every letter has been full of it; but he cannot command his
3974 own time. He has those to please who must be pleased, and who (between
3975 ourselves) are sometimes to be pleased only by a good many sacrifices.
3976 But now I have no doubt of seeing him here about the second week in
3977 January.”
3978
3979 “What a very great pleasure it will be to you! and Mrs. Weston is so
3980 anxious to be acquainted with him, that she must be almost as happy as
3981 yourself.”
3982
3983 “Yes, she would be, but that she thinks there will be another put-off.
3984 She does not depend upon his coming so much as I do: but she does not
3985 know the parties so well as I do. The case, you see, is--(but this is
3986 quite between ourselves: I did not mention a syllable of it in the other
3987 room. There are secrets in all families, you know)--The case is, that a
3988 party of friends are invited to pay a visit at Enscombe in January; and
3989 that Frank’s coming depends upon their being put off. If they are not
3990 put off, he cannot stir. But I know they will, because it is a family
3991 that a certain lady, of some consequence, at Enscombe, has a particular
3992 dislike to: and though it is thought necessary to invite them once in
3993 two or three years, they always are put off when it comes to the point.
3994 I have not the smallest doubt of the issue. I am as confident of seeing
3995 Frank here before the middle of January, as I am of being here myself:
3996 but your good friend there (nodding towards the upper end of the table)
3997 has so few vagaries herself, and has been so little used to them at
3998 Hartfield, that she cannot calculate on their effects, as I have been
3999 long in the practice of doing.”
4000
4001 “I am sorry there should be any thing like doubt in the case,” replied
4002 Emma; “but am disposed to side with you, Mr. Weston. If you think he
4003 will come, I shall think so too; for you know Enscombe.”
4004
4005 “Yes--I have some right to that knowledge; though I have never been at
4006 the place in my life.--She is an odd woman!--But I never allow myself
4007 to speak ill of her, on Frank’s account; for I do believe her to be very
4008 fond of him. I used to think she was not capable of being fond of
4009 any body, except herself: but she has always been kind to him (in her
4010 way--allowing for little whims and caprices, and expecting every thing
4011 to be as she likes). And it is no small credit, in my opinion, to him,
4012 that he should excite such an affection; for, though I would not say
4013 it to any body else, she has no more heart than a stone to people in
4014 general; and the devil of a temper.”
4015
4016 Emma liked the subject so well, that she began upon it, to Mrs. Weston,
4017 very soon after their moving into the drawing-room: wishing her joy--yet
4018 observing, that she knew the first meeting must be rather alarming.--
4019 Mrs. Weston agreed to it; but added, that she should be very glad to be
4020 secure of undergoing the anxiety of a first meeting at the time talked
4021 of: “for I cannot depend upon his coming. I cannot be so sanguine as
4022 Mr. Weston. I am very much afraid that it will all end in nothing. Mr.
4023 Weston, I dare say, has been telling you exactly how the matter stands?”
4024
4025 “Yes--it seems to depend upon nothing but the ill-humour of Mrs.
4026 Churchill, which I imagine to be the most certain thing in the world.”
4027
4028 “My Emma!” replied Mrs. Weston, smiling, “what is the certainty
4029 of caprice?” Then turning to Isabella, who had not been attending
4030 before--“You must know, my dear Mrs. Knightley, that we are by no means
4031 so sure of seeing Mr. Frank Churchill, in my opinion, as his father
4032 thinks. It depends entirely upon his aunt’s spirits and pleasure; in
4033 short, upon her temper. To you--to my two daughters--I may venture on
4034 the truth. Mrs. Churchill rules at Enscombe, and is a very odd-tempered
4035 woman; and his coming now, depends upon her being willing to spare him.”
4036
4037 “Oh, Mrs. Churchill; every body knows Mrs. Churchill,” replied Isabella:
4038 “and I am sure I never think of that poor young man without the greatest
4039 compassion. To be constantly living with an ill-tempered person, must
4040 be dreadful. It is what we happily have never known any thing of; but
4041 it must be a life of misery. What a blessing, that she never had any
4042 children! Poor little creatures, how unhappy she would have made them!”
4043
4044 Emma wished she had been alone with Mrs. Weston. She should then have
4045 heard more: Mrs. Weston would speak to her, with a degree of unreserve
4046 which she would not hazard with Isabella; and, she really believed,
4047 would scarcely try to conceal any thing relative to the Churchills
4048 from her, excepting those views on the young man, of which her own
4049 imagination had already given her such instinctive knowledge. But at
4050 present there was nothing more to be said. Mr. Woodhouse very soon
4051 followed them into the drawing-room. To be sitting long after
4052 dinner, was a confinement that he could not endure. Neither wine nor
4053 conversation was any thing to him; and gladly did he move to those with
4054 whom he was always comfortable.
4055
4056 While he talked to Isabella, however, Emma found an opportunity of
4057 saying,
4058
4059 “And so you do not consider this visit from your son as by any means
4060 certain. I am sorry for it. The introduction must be unpleasant,
4061 whenever it takes place; and the sooner it could be over, the better.”
4062
4063 “Yes; and every delay makes one more apprehensive of other delays. Even
4064 if this family, the Braithwaites, are put off, I am still afraid that
4065 some excuse may be found for disappointing us. I cannot bear to imagine
4066 any reluctance on his side; but I am sure there is a great wish on
4067 the Churchills’ to keep him to themselves. There is jealousy. They
4068 are jealous even of his regard for his father. In short, I can feel no
4069 dependence on his coming, and I wish Mr. Weston were less sanguine.”
4070
4071 “He ought to come,” said Emma. “If he could stay only a couple of days,
4072 he ought to come; and one can hardly conceive a young man’s not having
4073 it in his power to do as much as that. A young _woman_, if she fall into
4074 bad hands, may be teased, and kept at a distance from those she wants
4075 to be with; but one cannot comprehend a young _man_‘s being under such
4076 restraint, as not to be able to spend a week with his father, if he
4077 likes it.”
4078
4079 “One ought to be at Enscombe, and know the ways of the family, before
4080 one decides upon what he can do,” replied Mrs. Weston. “One ought to
4081 use the same caution, perhaps, in judging of the conduct of any one
4082 individual of any one family; but Enscombe, I believe, certainly must
4083 not be judged by general rules: _she_ is so very unreasonable; and every
4084 thing gives way to her.”
4085
4086 “But she is so fond of the nephew: he is so very great a favourite. Now,
4087 according to my idea of Mrs. Churchill, it would be most natural, that
4088 while she makes no sacrifice for the comfort of the husband, to whom she
4089 owes every thing, while she exercises incessant caprice towards _him_,
4090 she should frequently be governed by the nephew, to whom she owes
4091 nothing at all.”
4092
4093 “My dearest Emma, do not pretend, with your sweet temper, to understand
4094 a bad one, or to lay down rules for it: you must let it go its own way.
4095 I have no doubt of his having, at times, considerable influence; but it
4096 may be perfectly impossible for him to know beforehand _when_ it will
4097 be.”
4098
4099 Emma listened, and then coolly said, “I shall not be satisfied, unless
4100 he comes.”
4101
4102 “He may have a great deal of influence on some points,” continued Mrs.
4103 Weston, “and on others, very little: and among those, on which she is
4104 beyond his reach, it is but too likely, may be this very circumstance of
4105 his coming away from them to visit us.”
4106
4107
4108
4109 CHAPTER XV
4110
4111
4112 Mr. Woodhouse was soon ready for his tea; and when he had drank his
4113 tea he was quite ready to go home; and it was as much as his three
4114 companions could do, to entertain away his notice of the lateness of
4115 the hour, before the other gentlemen appeared. Mr. Weston was chatty and
4116 convivial, and no friend to early separations of any sort; but at last
4117 the drawing-room party did receive an augmentation. Mr. Elton, in very
4118 good spirits, was one of the first to walk in. Mrs. Weston and Emma
4119 were sitting together on a sofa. He joined them immediately, and, with
4120 scarcely an invitation, seated himself between them.
4121
4122 Emma, in good spirits too, from the amusement afforded her mind by
4123 the expectation of Mr. Frank Churchill, was willing to forget his late
4124 improprieties, and be as well satisfied with him as before, and on his
4125 making Harriet his very first subject, was ready to listen with most
4126 friendly smiles.
4127
4128 He professed himself extremely anxious about her fair friend--her fair,
4129 lovely, amiable friend. “Did she know?--had she heard any thing about
4130 her, since their being at Randalls?--he felt much anxiety--he must
4131 confess that the nature of her complaint alarmed him considerably.”
4132 And in this style he talked on for some time very properly, not much
4133 attending to any answer, but altogether sufficiently awake to the terror
4134 of a bad sore throat; and Emma was quite in charity with him.
4135
4136 But at last there seemed a perverse turn; it seemed all at once as if he
4137 were more afraid of its being a bad sore throat on her account, than on
4138 Harriet’s--more anxious that she should escape the infection, than
4139 that there should be no infection in the complaint. He began with great
4140 earnestness to entreat her to refrain from visiting the sick-chamber
4141 again, for the present--to entreat her to _promise_ _him_ not to venture
4142 into such hazard till he had seen Mr. Perry and learnt his opinion; and
4143 though she tried to laugh it off and bring the subject back into its
4144 proper course, there was no putting an end to his extreme solicitude
4145 about her. She was vexed. It did appear--there was no concealing
4146 it--exactly like the pretence of being in love with her, instead of
4147 Harriet; an inconstancy, if real, the most contemptible and abominable!
4148 and she had difficulty in behaving with temper. He turned to Mrs. Weston
4149 to implore her assistance, “Would not she give him her support?--would
4150 not she add her persuasions to his, to induce Miss Woodhouse not to go
4151 to Mrs. Goddard’s till it were certain that Miss Smith’s disorder had
4152 no infection? He could not be satisfied without a promise--would not she
4153 give him her influence in procuring it?”
4154
4155 “So scrupulous for others,” he continued, “and yet so careless for
4156 herself! She wanted me to nurse my cold by staying at home to-day, and
4157 yet will not promise to avoid the danger of catching an ulcerated sore
4158 throat herself. Is this fair, Mrs. Weston?--Judge between us. Have not I
4159 some right to complain? I am sure of your kind support and aid.”
4160
4161 Emma saw Mrs. Weston’s surprize, and felt that it must be great, at an
4162 address which, in words and manner, was assuming to himself the right of
4163 first interest in her; and as for herself, she was too much provoked and
4164 offended to have the power of directly saying any thing to the purpose.
4165 She could only give him a look; but it was such a look as she thought
4166 must restore him to his senses, and then left the sofa, removing to a
4167 seat by her sister, and giving her all her attention.
4168
4169 She had not time to know how Mr. Elton took the reproof, so rapidly did
4170 another subject succeed; for Mr. John Knightley now came into the room
4171 from examining the weather, and opened on them all with the information
4172 of the ground being covered with snow, and of its still snowing
4173 fast, with a strong drifting wind; concluding with these words to Mr.
4174 Woodhouse:
4175
4176 “This will prove a spirited beginning of your winter engagements,
4177 sir. Something new for your coachman and horses to be making their way
4178 through a storm of snow.”
4179
4180 Poor Mr. Woodhouse was silent from consternation; but every body else
4181 had something to say; every body was either surprized or not surprized,
4182 and had some question to ask, or some comfort to offer. Mrs. Weston
4183 and Emma tried earnestly to cheer him and turn his attention from his
4184 son-in-law, who was pursuing his triumph rather unfeelingly.
4185
4186 “I admired your resolution very much, sir,” said he, “in venturing out
4187 in such weather, for of course you saw there would be snow very soon.
4188 Every body must have seen the snow coming on. I admired your spirit; and
4189 I dare say we shall get home very well. Another hour or two’s snow can
4190 hardly make the road impassable; and we are two carriages; if one is
4191 blown over in the bleak part of the common field there will be the other
4192 at hand. I dare say we shall be all safe at Hartfield before midnight.”
4193
4194 Mr. Weston, with triumph of a different sort, was confessing that he
4195 had known it to be snowing some time, but had not said a word, lest
4196 it should make Mr. Woodhouse uncomfortable, and be an excuse for his
4197 hurrying away. As to there being any quantity of snow fallen or likely
4198 to fall to impede their return, that was a mere joke; he was afraid they
4199 would find no difficulty. He wished the road might be impassable, that
4200 he might be able to keep them all at Randalls; and with the utmost
4201 good-will was sure that accommodation might be found for every body,
4202 calling on his wife to agree with him, that with a little contrivance,
4203 every body might be lodged, which she hardly knew how to do, from the
4204 consciousness of there being but two spare rooms in the house.
4205
4206 “What is to be done, my dear Emma?--what is to be done?” was Mr.
4207 Woodhouse’s first exclamation, and all that he could say for some
4208 time. To her he looked for comfort; and her assurances of safety, her
4209 representation of the excellence of the horses, and of James, and of
4210 their having so many friends about them, revived him a little.
4211
4212 His eldest daughter’s alarm was equal to his own. The horror of being
4213 blocked up at Randalls, while her children were at Hartfield, was full
4214 in her imagination; and fancying the road to be now just passable for
4215 adventurous people, but in a state that admitted no delay, she was eager
4216 to have it settled, that her father and Emma should remain at Randalls,
4217 while she and her husband set forward instantly through all the possible
4218 accumulations of drifted snow that might impede them.
4219
4220 “You had better order the carriage directly, my love,” said she; “I dare
4221 say we shall be able to get along, if we set off directly; and if we
4222 do come to any thing very bad, I can get out and walk. I am not at all
4223 afraid. I should not mind walking half the way. I could change my shoes,
4224 you know, the moment I got home; and it is not the sort of thing that
4225 gives me cold.”
4226
4227 “Indeed!” replied he. “Then, my dear Isabella, it is the most
4228 extraordinary sort of thing in the world, for in general every thing
4229 does give you cold. Walk home!--you are prettily shod for walking home,
4230 I dare say. It will be bad enough for the horses.”
4231
4232 Isabella turned to Mrs. Weston for her approbation of the plan. Mrs.
4233 Weston could only approve. Isabella then went to Emma; but Emma could
4234 not so entirely give up the hope of their being all able to get away;
4235 and they were still discussing the point, when Mr. Knightley, who had
4236 left the room immediately after his brother’s first report of the snow,
4237 came back again, and told them that he had been out of doors to examine,
4238 and could answer for there not being the smallest difficulty in their
4239 getting home, whenever they liked it, either now or an hour hence. He
4240 had gone beyond the sweep--some way along the Highbury road--the snow
4241 was nowhere above half an inch deep--in many places hardly enough to
4242 whiten the ground; a very few flakes were falling at present, but the
4243 clouds were parting, and there was every appearance of its being soon
4244 over. He had seen the coachmen, and they both agreed with him in there
4245 being nothing to apprehend.
4246
4247 To Isabella, the relief of such tidings was very great, and they were
4248 scarcely less acceptable to Emma on her father’s account, who
4249 was immediately set as much at ease on the subject as his nervous
4250 constitution allowed; but the alarm that had been raised could not be
4251 appeased so as to admit of any comfort for him while he continued at
4252 Randalls. He was satisfied of there being no present danger in returning
4253 home, but no assurances could convince him that it was safe to stay; and
4254 while the others were variously urging and recommending, Mr. Knightley
4255 and Emma settled it in a few brief sentences: thus--
4256
4257 “Your father will not be easy; why do not you go?”
4258
4259 “I am ready, if the others are.”
4260
4261 “Shall I ring the bell?”
4262
4263 “Yes, do.”
4264
4265 And the bell was rung, and the carriages spoken for. A few minutes more,
4266 and Emma hoped to see one troublesome companion deposited in his own
4267 house, to get sober and cool, and the other recover his temper and
4268 happiness when this visit of hardship were over.
4269
4270 The carriage came: and Mr. Woodhouse, always the first object on such
4271 occasions, was carefully attended to his own by Mr. Knightley and Mr.
4272 Weston; but not all that either could say could prevent some renewal
4273 of alarm at the sight of the snow which had actually fallen, and the
4274 discovery of a much darker night than he had been prepared for. “He was
4275 afraid they should have a very bad drive. He was afraid poor Isabella
4276 would not like it. And there would be poor Emma in the carriage behind.
4277 He did not know what they had best do. They must keep as much together
4278 as they could;” and James was talked to, and given a charge to go very
4279 slow and wait for the other carriage.
4280
4281 Isabella stept in after her father; John Knightley, forgetting that he
4282 did not belong to their party, stept in after his wife very naturally;
4283 so that Emma found, on being escorted and followed into the second
4284 carriage by Mr. Elton, that the door was to be lawfully shut on them,
4285 and that they were to have a tete-a-tete drive. It would not have been
4286 the awkwardness of a moment, it would have been rather a pleasure,
4287 previous to the suspicions of this very day; she could have talked to
4288 him of Harriet, and the three-quarters of a mile would have seemed but
4289 one. But now, she would rather it had not happened. She believed he had
4290 been drinking too much of Mr. Weston’s good wine, and felt sure that he
4291 would want to be talking nonsense.
4292
4293 To restrain him as much as might be, by her own manners, she was
4294 immediately preparing to speak with exquisite calmness and gravity of
4295 the weather and the night; but scarcely had she begun, scarcely had they
4296 passed the sweep-gate and joined the other carriage, than she found her
4297 subject cut up--her hand seized--her attention demanded, and Mr. Elton
4298 actually making violent love to her: availing himself of the precious
4299 opportunity, declaring sentiments which must be already well known,
4300 hoping--fearing--adoring--ready to die if she refused him; but
4301 flattering himself that his ardent attachment and unequalled love and
4302 unexampled passion could not fail of having some effect, and in short,
4303 very much resolved on being seriously accepted as soon as possible. It
4304 really was so. Without scruple--without apology--without much apparent
4305 diffidence, Mr. Elton, the lover of Harriet, was professing himself
4306 _her_ lover. She tried to stop him; but vainly; he would go on, and say
4307 it all. Angry as she was, the thought of the moment made her resolve to
4308 restrain herself when she did speak. She felt that half this folly must
4309 be drunkenness, and therefore could hope that it might belong only to
4310 the passing hour. Accordingly, with a mixture of the serious and the
4311 playful, which she hoped would best suit his half and half state, she
4312 replied,
4313
4314 “I am very much astonished, Mr. Elton. This to _me_! you forget
4315 yourself--you take me for my friend--any message to Miss Smith I shall
4316 be happy to deliver; but no more of this to _me_, if you please.”
4317
4318 “Miss Smith!--message to Miss Smith!--What could she possibly
4319 mean!”--And he repeated her words with such assurance of accent, such
4320 boastful pretence of amazement, that she could not help replying with
4321 quickness,
4322
4323 “Mr. Elton, this is the most extraordinary conduct! and I can account
4324 for it only in one way; you are not yourself, or you could not speak
4325 either to me, or of Harriet, in such a manner. Command yourself enough
4326 to say no more, and I will endeavour to forget it.”
4327
4328 But Mr. Elton had only drunk wine enough to elevate his spirits, not at
4329 all to confuse his intellects. He perfectly knew his own meaning; and
4330 having warmly protested against her suspicion as most injurious, and
4331 slightly touched upon his respect for Miss Smith as her friend,--but
4332 acknowledging his wonder that Miss Smith should be mentioned at all,--he
4333 resumed the subject of his own passion, and was very urgent for a
4334 favourable answer.
4335
4336 As she thought less of his inebriety, she thought more of his
4337 inconstancy and presumption; and with fewer struggles for politeness,
4338 replied,
4339
4340 “It is impossible for me to doubt any longer. You have made yourself
4341 too clear. Mr. Elton, my astonishment is much beyond any thing I can
4342 express. After such behaviour, as I have witnessed during the last
4343 month, to Miss Smith--such attentions as I have been in the daily
4344 habit of observing--to be addressing me in this manner--this is an
4345 unsteadiness of character, indeed, which I had not supposed possible!
4346 Believe me, sir, I am far, very far, from gratified in being the object
4347 of such professions.”
4348
4349 “Good Heaven!” cried Mr. Elton, “what can be the meaning of this?--Miss
4350 Smith!--I never thought of Miss Smith in the whole course of my
4351 existence--never paid her any attentions, but as your friend: never
4352 cared whether she were dead or alive, but as your friend. If she
4353 has fancied otherwise, her own wishes have misled her, and I am very
4354 sorry--extremely sorry--But, Miss Smith, indeed!--Oh! Miss Woodhouse!
4355 who can think of Miss Smith, when Miss Woodhouse is near! No, upon my
4356 honour, there is no unsteadiness of character. I have thought only of
4357 you. I protest against having paid the smallest attention to any one
4358 else. Every thing that I have said or done, for many weeks past, has
4359 been with the sole view of marking my adoration of yourself. You
4360 cannot really, seriously, doubt it. No!--(in an accent meant to be
4361 insinuating)--I am sure you have seen and understood me.”
4362
4363 It would be impossible to say what Emma felt, on hearing this--which
4364 of all her unpleasant sensations was uppermost. She was too completely
4365 overpowered to be immediately able to reply: and two moments of silence
4366 being ample encouragement for Mr. Elton’s sanguine state of mind, he
4367 tried to take her hand again, as he joyously exclaimed--
4368
4369 “Charming Miss Woodhouse! allow me to interpret this interesting
4370 silence. It confesses that you have long understood me.”
4371
4372 “No, sir,” cried Emma, “it confesses no such thing. So far from having
4373 long understood you, I have been in a most complete error with respect
4374 to your views, till this moment. As to myself, I am very sorry that you
4375 should have been giving way to any feelings--Nothing could be farther
4376 from my wishes--your attachment to my friend Harriet--your pursuit of
4377 her, (pursuit, it appeared,) gave me great pleasure, and I have been
4378 very earnestly wishing you success: but had I supposed that she were not
4379 your attraction to Hartfield, I should certainly have thought you judged
4380 ill in making your visits so frequent. Am I to believe that you have
4381 never sought to recommend yourself particularly to Miss Smith?--that you
4382 have never thought seriously of her?”
4383
4384 “Never, madam,” cried he, affronted in his turn: “never, I assure you.
4385 _I_ think seriously of Miss Smith!--Miss Smith is a very good sort of
4386 girl; and I should be happy to see her respectably settled. I wish
4387 her extremely well: and, no doubt, there are men who might not object
4388 to--Every body has their level: but as for myself, I am not, I think,
4389 quite so much at a loss. I need not so totally despair of an equal
4390 alliance, as to be addressing myself to Miss Smith!--No, madam, my
4391 visits to Hartfield have been for yourself only; and the encouragement I
4392 received--”
4393
4394 “Encouragement!--I give you encouragement!--Sir, you have been entirely
4395 mistaken in supposing it. I have seen you only as the admirer of my
4396 friend. In no other light could you have been more to me than a common
4397 acquaintance. I am exceedingly sorry: but it is well that the mistake
4398 ends where it does. Had the same behaviour continued, Miss Smith might
4399 have been led into a misconception of your views; not being aware,
4400 probably, any more than myself, of the very great inequality which you
4401 are so sensible of. But, as it is, the disappointment is single, and, I
4402 trust, will not be lasting. I have no thoughts of matrimony at present.”
4403
4404 He was too angry to say another word; her manner too decided to invite
4405 supplication; and in this state of swelling resentment, and mutually
4406 deep mortification, they had to continue together a few minutes longer,
4407 for the fears of Mr. Woodhouse had confined them to a foot-pace. If
4408 there had not been so much anger, there would have been desperate
4409 awkwardness; but their straightforward emotions left no room for the
4410 little zigzags of embarrassment. Without knowing when the carriage
4411 turned into Vicarage Lane, or when it stopped, they found themselves,
4412 all at once, at the door of his house; and he was out before another
4413 syllable passed.--Emma then felt it indispensable to wish him a good
4414 night. The compliment was just returned, coldly and proudly; and, under
4415 indescribable irritation of spirits, she was then conveyed to Hartfield.
4416
4417 There she was welcomed, with the utmost delight, by her father, who
4418 had been trembling for the dangers of a solitary drive from Vicarage
4419 Lane--turning a corner which he could never bear to think of--and in
4420 strange hands--a mere common coachman--no James; and there it seemed as
4421 if her return only were wanted to make every thing go well: for Mr.
4422 John Knightley, ashamed of his ill-humour, was now all kindness and
4423 attention; and so particularly solicitous for the comfort of her
4424 father, as to seem--if not quite ready to join him in a basin of
4425 gruel--perfectly sensible of its being exceedingly wholesome; and the
4426 day was concluding in peace and comfort to all their little party,
4427 except herself.--But her mind had never been in such perturbation; and
4428 it needed a very strong effort to appear attentive and cheerful till the
4429 usual hour of separating allowed her the relief of quiet reflection.
4430
4431
4432
4433 CHAPTER XVI
4434
4435
4436 The hair was curled, and the maid sent away, and Emma sat down to think
4437 and be miserable.--It was a wretched business indeed!--Such an overthrow
4438 of every thing she had been wishing for!--Such a development of every
4439 thing most unwelcome!--Such a blow for Harriet!--that was the worst
4440 of all. Every part of it brought pain and humiliation, of some sort or
4441 other; but, compared with the evil to Harriet, all was light; and
4442 she would gladly have submitted to feel yet more mistaken--more in
4443 error--more disgraced by mis-judgment, than she actually was, could the
4444 effects of her blunders have been confined to herself.
4445
4446 “If I had not persuaded Harriet into liking the man, I could have
4447 borne any thing. He might have doubled his presumption to me--but poor
4448 Harriet!”
4449
4450 How she could have been so deceived!--He protested that he had never
4451 thought seriously of Harriet--never! She looked back as well as
4452 she could; but it was all confusion. She had taken up the idea, she
4453 supposed, and made every thing bend to it. His manners, however, must
4454 have been unmarked, wavering, dubious, or she could not have been so
4455 misled.
4456
4457 The picture!--How eager he had been about the picture!--and the
4458 charade!--and an hundred other circumstances;--how clearly they had
4459 seemed to point at Harriet. To be sure, the charade, with its “ready
4460 wit”--but then the “soft eyes”--in fact it suited neither; it was
4461 a jumble without taste or truth. Who could have seen through such
4462 thick-headed nonsense?
4463
4464 Certainly she had often, especially of late, thought his manners to
4465 herself unnecessarily gallant; but it had passed as his way, as a mere
4466 error of judgment, of knowledge, of taste, as one proof among others
4467 that he had not always lived in the best society, that with all the
4468 gentleness of his address, true elegance was sometimes wanting; but,
4469 till this very day, she had never, for an instant, suspected it to mean
4470 any thing but grateful respect to her as Harriet’s friend.
4471
4472 To Mr. John Knightley was she indebted for her first idea on the
4473 subject, for the first start of its possibility. There was no denying
4474 that those brothers had penetration. She remembered what Mr. Knightley
4475 had once said to her about Mr. Elton, the caution he had given,
4476 the conviction he had professed that Mr. Elton would never marry
4477 indiscreetly; and blushed to think how much truer a knowledge of his
4478 character had been there shewn than any she had reached herself. It
4479 was dreadfully mortifying; but Mr. Elton was proving himself, in many
4480 respects, the very reverse of what she had meant and believed him;
4481 proud, assuming, conceited; very full of his own claims, and little
4482 concerned about the feelings of others.
4483
4484 Contrary to the usual course of things, Mr. Elton’s wanting to pay his
4485 addresses to her had sunk him in her opinion. His professions and his
4486 proposals did him no service. She thought nothing of his attachment,
4487 and was insulted by his hopes. He wanted to marry well, and having the
4488 arrogance to raise his eyes to her, pretended to be in love; but she was
4489 perfectly easy as to his not suffering any disappointment that need be
4490 cared for. There had been no real affection either in his language or
4491 manners. Sighs and fine words had been given in abundance; but she could
4492 hardly devise any set of expressions, or fancy any tone of voice, less
4493 allied with real love. She need not trouble herself to pity him. He
4494 only wanted to aggrandise and enrich himself; and if Miss Woodhouse
4495 of Hartfield, the heiress of thirty thousand pounds, were not quite so
4496 easily obtained as he had fancied, he would soon try for Miss Somebody
4497 else with twenty, or with ten.
4498
4499 But--that he should talk of encouragement, should consider her as aware
4500 of his views, accepting his attentions, meaning (in short), to marry
4501 him!--should suppose himself her equal in connexion or mind!--look down
4502 upon her friend, so well understanding the gradations of rank below
4503 him, and be so blind to what rose above, as to fancy himself shewing no
4504 presumption in addressing her!--It was most provoking.
4505
4506 Perhaps it was not fair to expect him to feel how very much he was her
4507 inferior in talent, and all the elegancies of mind. The very want of
4508 such equality might prevent his perception of it; but he must know that
4509 in fortune and consequence she was greatly his superior. He must
4510 know that the Woodhouses had been settled for several generations at
4511 Hartfield, the younger branch of a very ancient family--and that the
4512 Eltons were nobody. The landed property of Hartfield certainly was
4513 inconsiderable, being but a sort of notch in the Donwell Abbey estate,
4514 to which all the rest of Highbury belonged; but their fortune, from
4515 other sources, was such as to make them scarcely secondary to Donwell
4516 Abbey itself, in every other kind of consequence; and the Woodhouses had
4517 long held a high place in the consideration of the neighbourhood which
4518 Mr. Elton had first entered not two years ago, to make his way as he
4519 could, without any alliances but in trade, or any thing to recommend him
4520 to notice but his situation and his civility.--But he had fancied her
4521 in love with him; that evidently must have been his dependence; and
4522 after raving a little about the seeming incongruity of gentle manners
4523 and a conceited head, Emma was obliged in common honesty to stop
4524 and admit that her own behaviour to him had been so complaisant and
4525 obliging, so full of courtesy and attention, as (supposing her real
4526 motive unperceived) might warrant a man of ordinary observation and
4527 delicacy, like Mr. Elton, in fancying himself a very decided favourite.
4528 If _she_ had so misinterpreted his feelings, she had little right to
4529 wonder that _he_, with self-interest to blind him, should have mistaken
4530 hers.
4531
4532 The first error and the worst lay at her door. It was foolish, it was
4533 wrong, to take so active a part in bringing any two people together. It
4534 was adventuring too far, assuming too much, making light of what
4535 ought to be serious, a trick of what ought to be simple. She was quite
4536 concerned and ashamed, and resolved to do such things no more.
4537
4538 “Here have I,” said she, “actually talked poor Harriet into being very
4539 much attached to this man. She might never have thought of him but for
4540 me; and certainly never would have thought of him with hope, if I had
4541 not assured her of his attachment, for she is as modest and humble as I
4542 used to think him. Oh! that I had been satisfied with persuading her not
4543 to accept young Martin. There I was quite right. That was well done
4544 of me; but there I should have stopped, and left the rest to time and
4545 chance. I was introducing her into good company, and giving her the
4546 opportunity of pleasing some one worth having; I ought not to have
4547 attempted more. But now, poor girl, her peace is cut up for some time.
4548 I have been but half a friend to her; and if she were _not_ to feel this
4549 disappointment so very much, I am sure I have not an idea of any body
4550 else who would be at all desirable for her;--William Coxe--Oh! no, I
4551 could not endure William Coxe--a pert young lawyer.”
4552
4553 She stopt to blush and laugh at her own relapse, and then resumed a more
4554 serious, more dispiriting cogitation upon what had been, and might be,
4555 and must be. The distressing explanation she had to make to Harriet, and
4556 all that poor Harriet would be suffering, with the awkwardness of
4557 future meetings, the difficulties of continuing or discontinuing the
4558 acquaintance, of subduing feelings, concealing resentment, and avoiding
4559 eclat, were enough to occupy her in most unmirthful reflections some
4560 time longer, and she went to bed at last with nothing settled but the
4561 conviction of her having blundered most dreadfully.
4562
4563 To youth and natural cheerfulness like Emma’s, though under temporary
4564 gloom at night, the return of day will hardly fail to bring return of
4565 spirits. The youth and cheerfulness of morning are in happy analogy,
4566 and of powerful operation; and if the distress be not poignant enough
4567 to keep the eyes unclosed, they will be sure to open to sensations of
4568 softened pain and brighter hope.
4569
4570 Emma got up on the morrow more disposed for comfort than she had gone
4571 to bed, more ready to see alleviations of the evil before her, and to
4572 depend on getting tolerably out of it.
4573
4574 It was a great consolation that Mr. Elton should not be really in
4575 love with her, or so particularly amiable as to make it shocking to
4576 disappoint him--that Harriet’s nature should not be of that superior
4577 sort in which the feelings are most acute and retentive--and that there
4578 could be no necessity for any body’s knowing what had passed except the
4579 three principals, and especially for her father’s being given a moment’s
4580 uneasiness about it.
4581
4582 These were very cheering thoughts; and the sight of a great deal of snow
4583 on the ground did her further service, for any thing was welcome that
4584 might justify their all three being quite asunder at present.
4585
4586 The weather was most favourable for her; though Christmas Day, she
4587 could not go to church. Mr. Woodhouse would have been miserable had his
4588 daughter attempted it, and she was therefore safe from either exciting
4589 or receiving unpleasant and most unsuitable ideas. The ground covered
4590 with snow, and the atmosphere in that unsettled state between frost and
4591 thaw, which is of all others the most unfriendly for exercise, every
4592 morning beginning in rain or snow, and every evening setting in to
4593 freeze, she was for many days a most honourable prisoner. No intercourse
4594 with Harriet possible but by note; no church for her on Sunday any
4595 more than on Christmas Day; and no need to find excuses for Mr. Elton’s
4596 absenting himself.
4597
4598 It was weather which might fairly confine every body at home; and though
4599 she hoped and believed him to be really taking comfort in some society
4600 or other, it was very pleasant to have her father so well satisfied with
4601 his being all alone in his own house, too wise to stir out; and to
4602 hear him say to Mr. Knightley, whom no weather could keep entirely from
4603 them,--
4604
4605 “Ah! Mr. Knightley, why do not you stay at home like poor Mr. Elton?”
4606
4607 These days of confinement would have been, but for her private
4608 perplexities, remarkably comfortable, as such seclusion exactly suited
4609 her brother, whose feelings must always be of great importance to
4610 his companions; and he had, besides, so thoroughly cleared off his
4611 ill-humour at Randalls, that his amiableness never failed him during the
4612 rest of his stay at Hartfield. He was always agreeable and obliging,
4613 and speaking pleasantly of every body. But with all the hopes of
4614 cheerfulness, and all the present comfort of delay, there was still such
4615 an evil hanging over her in the hour of explanation with Harriet, as
4616 made it impossible for Emma to be ever perfectly at ease.
4617
4618
4619
4620 CHAPTER XVII
4621
4622
4623 Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley were not detained long at Hartfield. The
4624 weather soon improved enough for those to move who must move; and Mr.
4625 Woodhouse having, as usual, tried to persuade his daughter to stay
4626 behind with all her children, was obliged to see the whole party
4627 set off, and return to his lamentations over the destiny of poor
4628 Isabella;--which poor Isabella, passing her life with those she doated
4629 on, full of their merits, blind to their faults, and always innocently
4630 busy, might have been a model of right feminine happiness.
4631
4632 The evening of the very day on which they went brought a note from Mr.
4633 Elton to Mr. Woodhouse, a long, civil, ceremonious note, to say, with
4634 Mr. Elton’s best compliments, “that he was proposing to leave Highbury
4635 the following morning in his way to Bath; where, in compliance with
4636 the pressing entreaties of some friends, he had engaged to spend a few
4637 weeks, and very much regretted the impossibility he was under, from
4638 various circumstances of weather and business, of taking a personal
4639 leave of Mr. Woodhouse, of whose friendly civilities he should ever
4640 retain a grateful sense--and had Mr. Woodhouse any commands, should be
4641 happy to attend to them.”
4642
4643 Emma was most agreeably surprized.--Mr. Elton’s absence just at this
4644 time was the very thing to be desired. She admired him for contriving
4645 it, though not able to give him much credit for the manner in which it
4646 was announced. Resentment could not have been more plainly spoken than
4647 in a civility to her father, from which she was so pointedly excluded.
4648 She had not even a share in his opening compliments.--Her name was not
4649 mentioned;--and there was so striking a change in all this, and such an
4650 ill-judged solemnity of leave-taking in his graceful acknowledgments, as
4651 she thought, at first, could not escape her father’s suspicion.
4652
4653 It did, however.--Her father was quite taken up with the surprize of so
4654 sudden a journey, and his fears that Mr. Elton might never get safely to
4655 the end of it, and saw nothing extraordinary in his language. It was a
4656 very useful note, for it supplied them with fresh matter for thought
4657 and conversation during the rest of their lonely evening. Mr. Woodhouse
4658 talked over his alarms, and Emma was in spirits to persuade them away
4659 with all her usual promptitude.
4660
4661 She now resolved to keep Harriet no longer in the dark. She had reason
4662 to believe her nearly recovered from her cold, and it was desirable that
4663 she should have as much time as possible for getting the better of
4664 her other complaint before the gentleman’s return. She went to Mrs.
4665 Goddard’s accordingly the very next day, to undergo the necessary
4666 penance of communication; and a severe one it was.--She had to destroy
4667 all the hopes which she had been so industriously feeding--to appear in
4668 the ungracious character of the one preferred--and acknowledge herself
4669 grossly mistaken and mis-judging in all her ideas on one subject, all
4670 her observations, all her convictions, all her prophecies for the last
4671 six weeks.
4672
4673 The confession completely renewed her first shame--and the sight of
4674 Harriet’s tears made her think that she should never be in charity with
4675 herself again.
4676
4677 Harriet bore the intelligence very well--blaming nobody--and in every
4678 thing testifying such an ingenuousness of disposition and lowly opinion
4679 of herself, as must appear with particular advantage at that moment to
4680 her friend.
4681
4682 Emma was in the humour to value simplicity and modesty to the utmost;
4683 and all that was amiable, all that ought to be attaching, seemed on
4684 Harriet’s side, not her own. Harriet did not consider herself as having
4685 any thing to complain of. The affection of such a man as Mr. Elton
4686 would have been too great a distinction.--She never could have deserved
4687 him--and nobody but so partial and kind a friend as Miss Woodhouse would
4688 have thought it possible.
4689
4690 Her tears fell abundantly--but her grief was so truly artless, that
4691 no dignity could have made it more respectable in Emma’s eyes--and
4692 she listened to her and tried to console her with all her heart and
4693 understanding--really for the time convinced that Harriet was the
4694 superior creature of the two--and that to resemble her would be more for
4695 her own welfare and happiness than all that genius or intelligence could
4696 do.
4697
4698 It was rather too late in the day to set about being simple-minded and
4699 ignorant; but she left her with every previous resolution confirmed of
4700 being humble and discreet, and repressing imagination all the rest of
4701 her life. Her second duty now, inferior only to her father’s claims, was
4702 to promote Harriet’s comfort, and endeavour to prove her own affection
4703 in some better method than by match-making. She got her to Hartfield,
4704 and shewed her the most unvarying kindness, striving to occupy and
4705 amuse her, and by books and conversation, to drive Mr. Elton from her
4706 thoughts.
4707
4708 Time, she knew, must be allowed for this being thoroughly done; and
4709 she could suppose herself but an indifferent judge of such matters in
4710 general, and very inadequate to sympathise in an attachment to Mr. Elton
4711 in particular; but it seemed to her reasonable that at Harriet’s age,
4712 and with the entire extinction of all hope, such a progress might be
4713 made towards a state of composure by the time of Mr. Elton’s return, as
4714 to allow them all to meet again in the common routine of acquaintance,
4715 without any danger of betraying sentiments or increasing them.
4716
4717 Harriet did think him all perfection, and maintained the non-existence
4718 of any body equal to him in person or goodness--and did, in truth,
4719 prove herself more resolutely in love than Emma had foreseen; but yet
4720 it appeared to her so natural, so inevitable to strive against an
4721 inclination of that sort _unrequited_, that she could not comprehend its
4722 continuing very long in equal force.
4723
4724 If Mr. Elton, on his return, made his own indifference as evident and
4725 indubitable as she could not doubt he would anxiously do, she could not
4726 imagine Harriet’s persisting to place her happiness in the sight or the
4727 recollection of him.
4728
4729 Their being fixed, so absolutely fixed, in the same place, was bad for
4730 each, for all three. Not one of them had the power of removal, or of
4731 effecting any material change of society. They must encounter each
4732 other, and make the best of it.
4733
4734 Harriet was farther unfortunate in the tone of her companions at Mrs.
4735 Goddard’s; Mr. Elton being the adoration of all the teachers and great
4736 girls in the school; and it must be at Hartfield only that she could
4737 have any chance of hearing him spoken of with cooling moderation or
4738 repellent truth. Where the wound had been given, there must the cure be
4739 found if anywhere; and Emma felt that, till she saw her in the way of
4740 cure, there could be no true peace for herself.
4741
4742
4743
4744 CHAPTER XVIII
4745
4746
4747 Mr. Frank Churchill did not come. When the time proposed drew near, Mrs.
4748 Weston’s fears were justified in the arrival of a letter of excuse. For
4749 the present, he could not be spared, to his “very great mortification
4750 and regret; but still he looked forward with the hope of coming to
4751 Randalls at no distant period.”
4752
4753 Mrs. Weston was exceedingly disappointed--much more disappointed, in
4754 fact, than her husband, though her dependence on seeing the young man
4755 had been so much more sober: but a sanguine temper, though for ever
4756 expecting more good than occurs, does not always pay for its hopes by
4757 any proportionate depression. It soon flies over the present failure,
4758 and begins to hope again. For half an hour Mr. Weston was surprized and
4759 sorry; but then he began to perceive that Frank’s coming two or three
4760 months later would be a much better plan; better time of year;
4761 better weather; and that he would be able, without any doubt, to stay
4762 considerably longer with them than if he had come sooner.
4763
4764 These feelings rapidly restored his comfort, while Mrs. Weston, of
4765 a more apprehensive disposition, foresaw nothing but a repetition of
4766 excuses and delays; and after all her concern for what her husband was
4767 to suffer, suffered a great deal more herself.
4768
4769 Emma was not at this time in a state of spirits to care really about Mr.
4770 Frank Churchill’s not coming, except as a disappointment at Randalls.
4771 The acquaintance at present had no charm for her. She wanted, rather, to
4772 be quiet, and out of temptation; but still, as it was desirable that she
4773 should appear, in general, like her usual self, she took care to express
4774 as much interest in the circumstance, and enter as warmly into Mr.
4775 and Mrs. Weston’s disappointment, as might naturally belong to their
4776 friendship.
4777
4778 She was the first to announce it to Mr. Knightley; and exclaimed quite
4779 as much as was necessary, (or, being acting a part, perhaps rather
4780 more,) at the conduct of the Churchills, in keeping him away. She then
4781 proceeded to say a good deal more than she felt, of the advantage of
4782 such an addition to their confined society in Surry; the pleasure of
4783 looking at somebody new; the gala-day to Highbury entire, which the
4784 sight of him would have made; and ending with reflections on the
4785 Churchills again, found herself directly involved in a disagreement
4786 with Mr. Knightley; and, to her great amusement, perceived that she was
4787 taking the other side of the question from her real opinion, and making
4788 use of Mrs. Weston’s arguments against herself.
4789
4790 “The Churchills are very likely in fault,” said Mr. Knightley, coolly;
4791 “but I dare say he might come if he would.”
4792
4793 “I do not know why you should say so. He wishes exceedingly to come; but
4794 his uncle and aunt will not spare him.”
4795
4796 “I cannot believe that he has not the power of coming, if he made a
4797 point of it. It is too unlikely, for me to believe it without proof.”
4798
4799 “How odd you are! What has Mr. Frank Churchill done, to make you suppose
4800 him such an unnatural creature?”
4801
4802 “I am not supposing him at all an unnatural creature, in suspecting that
4803 he may have learnt to be above his connexions, and to care very little
4804 for any thing but his own pleasure, from living with those who have
4805 always set him the example of it. It is a great deal more natural than
4806 one could wish, that a young man, brought up by those who are proud,
4807 luxurious, and selfish, should be proud, luxurious, and selfish too. If
4808 Frank Churchill had wanted to see his father, he would have contrived it
4809 between September and January. A man at his age--what is he?--three or
4810 four-and-twenty--cannot be without the means of doing as much as that.
4811 It is impossible.”
4812
4813 “That’s easily said, and easily felt by you, who have always been your
4814 own master. You are the worst judge in the world, Mr. Knightley, of the
4815 difficulties of dependence. You do not know what it is to have tempers
4816 to manage.”
4817
4818 “It is not to be conceived that a man of three or four-and-twenty
4819 should not have liberty of mind or limb to that amount. He cannot want
4820 money--he cannot want leisure. We know, on the contrary, that he has so
4821 much of both, that he is glad to get rid of them at the idlest haunts in
4822 the kingdom. We hear of him for ever at some watering-place or other. A
4823 little while ago, he was at Weymouth. This proves that he can leave the
4824 Churchills.”
4825
4826 “Yes, sometimes he can.”
4827
4828 “And those times are whenever he thinks it worth his while; whenever
4829 there is any temptation of pleasure.”
4830
4831 “It is very unfair to judge of any body’s conduct, without an intimate
4832 knowledge of their situation. Nobody, who has not been in the interior
4833 of a family, can say what the difficulties of any individual of that
4834 family may be. We ought to be acquainted with Enscombe, and with Mrs.
4835 Churchill’s temper, before we pretend to decide upon what her nephew
4836 can do. He may, at times, be able to do a great deal more than he can at
4837 others.”
4838
4839 “There is one thing, Emma, which a man can always do, if he chuses, and
4840 that is, his duty; not by manoeuvring and finessing, but by vigour and
4841 resolution. It is Frank Churchill’s duty to pay this attention to his
4842 father. He knows it to be so, by his promises and messages; but if he
4843 wished to do it, it might be done. A man who felt rightly would say at
4844 once, simply and resolutely, to Mrs. Churchill--‘Every sacrifice of
4845 mere pleasure you will always find me ready to make to your convenience;
4846 but I must go and see my father immediately. I know he would be hurt by
4847 my failing in such a mark of respect to him on the present occasion.
4848 I shall, therefore, set off to-morrow.’--If he would say so to her
4849 at once, in the tone of decision becoming a man, there would be no
4850 opposition made to his going.”
4851
4852 “No,” said Emma, laughing; “but perhaps there might be some made to his
4853 coming back again. Such language for a young man entirely dependent, to
4854 use!--Nobody but you, Mr. Knightley, would imagine it possible. But you
4855 have not an idea of what is requisite in situations directly opposite to
4856 your own. Mr. Frank Churchill to be making such a speech as that to
4857 the uncle and aunt, who have brought him up, and are to provide for
4858 him!--Standing up in the middle of the room, I suppose, and speaking as
4859 loud as he could!--How can you imagine such conduct practicable?”
4860
4861 “Depend upon it, Emma, a sensible man would find no difficulty in it. He
4862 would feel himself in the right; and the declaration--made, of course,
4863 as a man of sense would make it, in a proper manner--would do him more
4864 good, raise him higher, fix his interest stronger with the people he
4865 depended on, than all that a line of shifts and expedients can ever do.
4866 Respect would be added to affection. They would feel that they could
4867 trust him; that the nephew who had done rightly by his father, would do
4868 rightly by them; for they know, as well as he does, as well as all the
4869 world must know, that he ought to pay this visit to his father; and
4870 while meanly exerting their power to delay it, are in their hearts not
4871 thinking the better of him for submitting to their whims. Respect for
4872 right conduct is felt by every body. If he would act in this sort of
4873 manner, on principle, consistently, regularly, their little minds would
4874 bend to his.”
4875
4876 “I rather doubt that. You are very fond of bending little minds; but
4877 where little minds belong to rich people in authority, I think they have
4878 a knack of swelling out, till they are quite as unmanageable as great
4879 ones. I can imagine, that if you, as you are, Mr. Knightley, were to be
4880 transported and placed all at once in Mr. Frank Churchill’s situation,
4881 you would be able to say and do just what you have been recommending for
4882 him; and it might have a very good effect. The Churchills might not have
4883 a word to say in return; but then, you would have no habits of early
4884 obedience and long observance to break through. To him who has, it might
4885 not be so easy to burst forth at once into perfect independence, and set
4886 all their claims on his gratitude and regard at nought. He may have as
4887 strong a sense of what would be right, as you can have, without being so
4888 equal, under particular circumstances, to act up to it.”
4889
4890 “Then it would not be so strong a sense. If it failed to produce equal
4891 exertion, it could not be an equal conviction.”
4892
4893 “Oh, the difference of situation and habit! I wish you would try to
4894 understand what an amiable young man may be likely to feel in directly
4895 opposing those, whom as child and boy he has been looking up to all his
4896 life.”
4897
4898 “Our amiable young man is a very weak young man, if this be the first
4899 occasion of his carrying through a resolution to do right against the
4900 will of others. It ought to have been a habit with him by this time, of
4901 following his duty, instead of consulting expediency. I can allow for
4902 the fears of the child, but not of the man. As he became rational, he
4903 ought to have roused himself and shaken off all that was unworthy in
4904 their authority. He ought to have opposed the first attempt on their
4905 side to make him slight his father. Had he begun as he ought, there
4906 would have been no difficulty now.”
4907
4908 “We shall never agree about him,” cried Emma; “but that is nothing
4909 extraordinary. I have not the least idea of his being a weak young man:
4910 I feel sure that he is not. Mr. Weston would not be blind to folly,
4911 though in his own son; but he is very likely to have a more yielding,
4912 complying, mild disposition than would suit your notions of man’s
4913 perfection. I dare say he has; and though it may cut him off from some
4914 advantages, it will secure him many others.”
4915
4916 “Yes; all the advantages of sitting still when he ought to move, and
4917 of leading a life of mere idle pleasure, and fancying himself extremely
4918 expert in finding excuses for it. He can sit down and write a fine
4919 flourishing letter, full of professions and falsehoods, and persuade
4920 himself that he has hit upon the very best method in the world of
4921 preserving peace at home and preventing his father’s having any right to
4922 complain. His letters disgust me.”
4923
4924 “Your feelings are singular. They seem to satisfy every body else.”
4925
4926 “I suspect they do not satisfy Mrs. Weston. They hardly can satisfy
4927 a woman of her good sense and quick feelings: standing in a mother’s
4928 place, but without a mother’s affection to blind her. It is on her
4929 account that attention to Randalls is doubly due, and she must doubly
4930 feel the omission. Had she been a person of consequence herself, he
4931 would have come I dare say; and it would not have signified whether
4932 he did or no. Can you think your friend behindhand in these sort of
4933 considerations? Do you suppose she does not often say all this to
4934 herself? No, Emma, your amiable young man can be amiable only in French,
4935 not in English. He may be very ‘amiable,’ have very good manners, and be
4936 very agreeable; but he can have no English delicacy towards the feelings
4937 of other people: nothing really amiable about him.”
4938
4939 “You seem determined to think ill of him.”
4940
4941 “Me!--not at all,” replied Mr. Knightley, rather displeased; “I do not
4942 want to think ill of him. I should be as ready to acknowledge his merits
4943 as any other man; but I hear of none, except what are merely personal;
4944 that he is well-grown and good-looking, with smooth, plausible manners.”
4945
4946 “Well, if he have nothing else to recommend him, he will be a treasure
4947 at Highbury. We do not often look upon fine young men, well-bred and
4948 agreeable. We must not be nice and ask for all the virtues into the
4949 bargain. Cannot you imagine, Mr. Knightley, what a _sensation_ his
4950 coming will produce? There will be but one subject throughout the
4951 parishes of Donwell and Highbury; but one interest--one object of
4952 curiosity; it will be all Mr. Frank Churchill; we shall think and speak
4953 of nobody else.”
4954
4955 “You will excuse my being so much over-powered. If I find him
4956 conversable, I shall be glad of his acquaintance; but if he is only a
4957 chattering coxcomb, he will not occupy much of my time or thoughts.”
4958
4959 “My idea of him is, that he can adapt his conversation to the taste of
4960 every body, and has the power as well as the wish of being universally
4961 agreeable. To you, he will talk of farming; to me, of drawing or music;
4962 and so on to every body, having that general information on all subjects
4963 which will enable him to follow the lead, or take the lead, just as
4964 propriety may require, and to speak extremely well on each; that is my
4965 idea of him.”
4966
4967 “And mine,” said Mr. Knightley warmly, “is, that if he turn out any
4968 thing like it, he will be the most insufferable fellow breathing! What!
4969 at three-and-twenty to be the king of his company--the great man--the
4970 practised politician, who is to read every body’s character, and make
4971 every body’s talents conduce to the display of his own superiority; to
4972 be dispensing his flatteries around, that he may make all appear like
4973 fools compared with himself! My dear Emma, your own good sense could not
4974 endure such a puppy when it came to the point.”
4975
4976 “I will say no more about him,” cried Emma, “you turn every thing to
4977 evil. We are both prejudiced; you against, I for him; and we have no
4978 chance of agreeing till he is really here.”
4979
4980 “Prejudiced! I am not prejudiced.”
4981
4982 “But I am very much, and without being at all ashamed of it. My love for
4983 Mr. and Mrs. Weston gives me a decided prejudice in his favour.”
4984
4985 “He is a person I never think of from one month’s end to another,” said
4986 Mr. Knightley, with a degree of vexation, which made Emma immediately
4987 talk of something else, though she could not comprehend why he should be
4988 angry.
4989
4990 To take a dislike to a young man, only because he appeared to be of a
4991 different disposition from himself, was unworthy the real liberality of
4992 mind which she was always used to acknowledge in him; for with all the
4993 high opinion of himself, which she had often laid to his charge, she had
4994 never before for a moment supposed it could make him unjust to the merit
4995 of another.
4996
4997
4998
4999
5000 VOLUME II
5001
5002
5003
5004 CHAPTER I
5005
5006
5007 Emma and Harriet had been walking together one morning, and, in Emma’s
5008 opinion, had been talking enough of Mr. Elton for that day. She could
5009 not think that Harriet’s solace or her own sins required more; and
5010 she was therefore industriously getting rid of the subject as they
5011 returned;--but it burst out again when she thought she had succeeded,
5012 and after speaking some time of what the poor must suffer in winter, and
5013 receiving no other answer than a very plaintive--“Mr. Elton is so good
5014 to the poor!” she found something else must be done.
5015
5016 They were just approaching the house where lived Mrs. and Miss Bates.
5017 She determined to call upon them and seek safety in numbers. There was
5018 always sufficient reason for such an attention; Mrs. and Miss Bates
5019 loved to be called on, and she knew she was considered by the very few
5020 who presumed ever to see imperfection in her, as rather negligent in
5021 that respect, and as not contributing what she ought to the stock of
5022 their scanty comforts.
5023
5024 She had had many a hint from Mr. Knightley and some from her own heart,
5025 as to her deficiency--but none were equal to counteract the persuasion
5026 of its being very disagreeable,--a waste of time--tiresome women--and
5027 all the horror of being in danger of falling in with the second-rate and
5028 third-rate of Highbury, who were calling on them for ever, and therefore
5029 she seldom went near them. But now she made the sudden resolution of not
5030 passing their door without going in--observing, as she proposed it to
5031 Harriet, that, as well as she could calculate, they were just now quite
5032 safe from any letter from Jane Fairfax.
5033
5034 The house belonged to people in business. Mrs. and Miss Bates occupied
5035 the drawing-room floor; and there, in the very moderate-sized apartment,
5036 which was every thing to them, the visitors were most cordially and even
5037 gratefully welcomed; the quiet neat old lady, who with her knitting was
5038 seated in the warmest corner, wanting even to give up her place to
5039 Miss Woodhouse, and her more active, talking daughter, almost ready
5040 to overpower them with care and kindness, thanks for their visit,
5041 solicitude for their shoes, anxious inquiries after Mr. Woodhouse’s
5042 health, cheerful communications about her mother’s, and sweet-cake from
5043 the beaufet--“Mrs. Cole had just been there, just called in for ten
5044 minutes, and had been so good as to sit an hour with them, and _she_ had
5045 taken a piece of cake and been so kind as to say she liked it very much;
5046 and, therefore, she hoped Miss Woodhouse and Miss Smith would do them
5047 the favour to eat a piece too.”
5048
5049 The mention of the Coles was sure to be followed by that of Mr. Elton.
5050 There was intimacy between them, and Mr. Cole had heard from Mr. Elton
5051 since his going away. Emma knew what was coming; they must have the
5052 letter over again, and settle how long he had been gone, and how much
5053 he was engaged in company, and what a favourite he was wherever he went,
5054 and how full the Master of the Ceremonies’ ball had been; and she went
5055 through it very well, with all the interest and all the commendation
5056 that could be requisite, and always putting forward to prevent Harriet’s
5057 being obliged to say a word.
5058
5059 This she had been prepared for when she entered the house; but meant,
5060 having once talked him handsomely over, to be no farther incommoded by
5061 any troublesome topic, and to wander at large amongst all the Mistresses
5062 and Misses of Highbury, and their card-parties. She had not been
5063 prepared to have Jane Fairfax succeed Mr. Elton; but he was actually
5064 hurried off by Miss Bates, she jumped away from him at last abruptly to
5065 the Coles, to usher in a letter from her niece.
5066
5067 “Oh! yes--Mr. Elton, I understand--certainly as to dancing--Mrs. Cole
5068 was telling me that dancing at the rooms at Bath was--Mrs. Cole was so
5069 kind as to sit some time with us, talking of Jane; for as soon as
5070 she came in, she began inquiring after her, Jane is so very great a
5071 favourite there. Whenever she is with us, Mrs. Cole does not know how to
5072 shew her kindness enough; and I must say that Jane deserves it as much
5073 as any body can. And so she began inquiring after her directly, saying,
5074 ‘I know you cannot have heard from Jane lately, because it is not her
5075 time for writing;’ and when I immediately said, ‘But indeed we have, we
5076 had a letter this very morning,’ I do not know that I ever saw any body
5077 more surprized. ‘Have you, upon your honour?’ said she; ‘well, that is
5078 quite unexpected. Do let me hear what she says.’”
5079
5080 Emma’s politeness was at hand directly, to say, with smiling interest--
5081
5082 “Have you heard from Miss Fairfax so lately? I am extremely happy. I
5083 hope she is well?”
5084
5085 “Thank you. You are so kind!” replied the happily deceived aunt, while
5086 eagerly hunting for the letter.--“Oh! here it is. I was sure it could
5087 not be far off; but I had put my huswife upon it, you see, without being
5088 aware, and so it was quite hid, but I had it in my hand so very lately
5089 that I was almost sure it must be on the table. I was reading it to Mrs.
5090 Cole, and since she went away, I was reading it again to my mother, for
5091 it is such a pleasure to her--a letter from Jane--that she can never
5092 hear it often enough; so I knew it could not be far off, and here it is,
5093 only just under my huswife--and since you are so kind as to wish to hear
5094 what she says;--but, first of all, I really must, in justice to
5095 Jane, apologise for her writing so short a letter--only two pages you
5096 see--hardly two--and in general she fills the whole paper and crosses
5097 half. My mother often wonders that I can make it out so well. She often
5098 says, when the letter is first opened, ‘Well, Hetty, now I think
5099 you will be put to it to make out all that checker-work’--don’t you,
5100 ma’am?--And then I tell her, I am sure she would contrive to make it out
5101 herself, if she had nobody to do it for her--every word of it--I am sure
5102 she would pore over it till she had made out every word. And, indeed,
5103 though my mother’s eyes are not so good as they were, she can see
5104 amazingly well still, thank God! with the help of spectacles. It is such
5105 a blessing! My mother’s are really very good indeed. Jane often says,
5106 when she is here, ‘I am sure, grandmama, you must have had very strong
5107 eyes to see as you do--and so much fine work as you have done too!--I
5108 only wish my eyes may last me as well.’”
5109
5110 All this spoken extremely fast obliged Miss Bates to stop for breath;
5111 and Emma said something very civil about the excellence of Miss
5112 Fairfax’s handwriting.
5113
5114 “You are extremely kind,” replied Miss Bates, highly gratified; “you who
5115 are such a judge, and write so beautifully yourself. I am sure there is
5116 nobody’s praise that could give us so much pleasure as Miss Woodhouse’s.
5117 My mother does not hear; she is a little deaf you know. Ma’am,”
5118 addressing her, “do you hear what Miss Woodhouse is so obliging to say
5119 about Jane’s handwriting?”
5120
5121 And Emma had the advantage of hearing her own silly compliment repeated
5122 twice over before the good old lady could comprehend it. She was
5123 pondering, in the meanwhile, upon the possibility, without seeming very
5124 rude, of making her escape from Jane Fairfax’s letter, and had almost
5125 resolved on hurrying away directly under some slight excuse, when Miss
5126 Bates turned to her again and seized her attention.
5127
5128 “My mother’s deafness is very trifling you see--just nothing at all. By
5129 only raising my voice, and saying any thing two or three times over,
5130 she is sure to hear; but then she is used to my voice. But it is very
5131 remarkable that she should always hear Jane better than she does me.
5132 Jane speaks so distinct! However, she will not find her grandmama at all
5133 deafer than she was two years ago; which is saying a great deal at my
5134 mother’s time of life--and it really is full two years, you know, since
5135 she was here. We never were so long without seeing her before, and as
5136 I was telling Mrs. Cole, we shall hardly know how to make enough of her
5137 now.”
5138
5139 “Are you expecting Miss Fairfax here soon?”
5140
5141 “Oh yes; next week.”
5142
5143 “Indeed!--that must be a very great pleasure.”
5144
5145 “Thank you. You are very kind. Yes, next week. Every body is so
5146 surprized; and every body says the same obliging things. I am sure she
5147 will be as happy to see her friends at Highbury, as they can be to see
5148 her. Yes, Friday or Saturday; she cannot say which, because Colonel
5149 Campbell will be wanting the carriage himself one of those days. So very
5150 good of them to send her the whole way! But they always do, you know. Oh
5151 yes, Friday or Saturday next. That is what she writes about. That is
5152 the reason of her writing out of rule, as we call it; for, in the
5153 common course, we should not have heard from her before next Tuesday or
5154 Wednesday.”
5155
5156 “Yes, so I imagined. I was afraid there could be little chance of my
5157 hearing any thing of Miss Fairfax to-day.”
5158
5159 “So obliging of you! No, we should not have heard, if it had not been
5160 for this particular circumstance, of her being to come here so soon. My
5161 mother is so delighted!--for she is to be three months with us at
5162 least. Three months, she says so, positively, as I am going to have the
5163 pleasure of reading to you. The case is, you see, that the Campbells are
5164 going to Ireland. Mrs. Dixon has persuaded her father and mother to come
5165 over and see her directly. They had not intended to go over till the
5166 summer, but she is so impatient to see them again--for till she married,
5167 last October, she was never away from them so much as a week, which must
5168 make it very strange to be in different kingdoms, I was going to say,
5169 but however different countries, and so she wrote a very urgent letter
5170 to her mother--or her father, I declare I do not know which it was, but
5171 we shall see presently in Jane’s letter--wrote in Mr. Dixon’s name as
5172 well as her own, to press their coming over directly, and they would
5173 give them the meeting in Dublin, and take them back to their country
5174 seat, Baly-craig, a beautiful place, I fancy. Jane has heard a great
5175 deal of its beauty; from Mr. Dixon, I mean--I do not know that she ever
5176 heard about it from any body else; but it was very natural, you know,
5177 that he should like to speak of his own place while he was paying his
5178 addresses--and as Jane used to be very often walking out with them--for
5179 Colonel and Mrs. Campbell were very particular about their daughter’s
5180 not walking out often with only Mr. Dixon, for which I do not at all
5181 blame them; of course she heard every thing he might be telling Miss
5182 Campbell about his own home in Ireland; and I think she wrote us word
5183 that he had shewn them some drawings of the place, views that he had
5184 taken himself. He is a most amiable, charming young man, I believe. Jane
5185 was quite longing to go to Ireland, from his account of things.”
5186
5187 At this moment, an ingenious and animating suspicion entering Emma’s
5188 brain with regard to Jane Fairfax, this charming Mr. Dixon, and the
5189 not going to Ireland, she said, with the insidious design of farther
5190 discovery,
5191
5192 “You must feel it very fortunate that Miss Fairfax should be allowed to
5193 come to you at such a time. Considering the very particular friendship
5194 between her and Mrs. Dixon, you could hardly have expected her to be
5195 excused from accompanying Colonel and Mrs. Campbell.”
5196
5197 “Very true, very true, indeed. The very thing that we have always been
5198 rather afraid of; for we should not have liked to have her at such a
5199 distance from us, for months together--not able to come if any thing was
5200 to happen. But you see, every thing turns out for the best. They want
5201 her (Mr. and Mrs. Dixon) excessively to come over with Colonel and Mrs.
5202 Campbell; quite depend upon it; nothing can be more kind or pressing
5203 than their _joint_ invitation, Jane says, as you will hear presently;
5204 Mr. Dixon does not seem in the least backward in any attention. He is
5205 a most charming young man. Ever since the service he rendered Jane at
5206 Weymouth, when they were out in that party on the water, and she, by the
5207 sudden whirling round of something or other among the sails, would have
5208 been dashed into the sea at once, and actually was all but gone, if he
5209 had not, with the greatest presence of mind, caught hold of her habit--
5210 (I can never think of it without trembling!)--But ever since we had the
5211 history of that day, I have been so fond of Mr. Dixon!”
5212
5213 “But, in spite of all her friends’ urgency, and her own wish of seeing
5214 Ireland, Miss Fairfax prefers devoting the time to you and Mrs. Bates?”
5215
5216 “Yes--entirely her own doing, entirely her own choice; and Colonel
5217 and Mrs. Campbell think she does quite right, just what they should
5218 recommend; and indeed they particularly _wish_ her to try her native
5219 air, as she has not been quite so well as usual lately.”
5220
5221 “I am concerned to hear of it. I think they judge wisely. But Mrs.
5222 Dixon must be very much disappointed. Mrs. Dixon, I understand, has
5223 no remarkable degree of personal beauty; is not, by any means, to be
5224 compared with Miss Fairfax.”
5225
5226 “Oh! no. You are very obliging to say such things--but certainly not.
5227 There is no comparison between them. Miss Campbell always was absolutely
5228 plain--but extremely elegant and amiable.”
5229
5230 “Yes, that of course.”
5231
5232 “Jane caught a bad cold, poor thing! so long ago as the 7th of November,
5233 (as I am going to read to you,) and has never been well since. A long
5234 time, is not it, for a cold to hang upon her? She never mentioned
5235 it before, because she would not alarm us. Just like her! so
5236 considerate!--But however, she is so far from well, that her kind
5237 friends the Campbells think she had better come home, and try an air
5238 that always agrees with her; and they have no doubt that three or four
5239 months at Highbury will entirely cure her--and it is certainly a great
5240 deal better that she should come here, than go to Ireland, if she is
5241 unwell. Nobody could nurse her, as we should do.”
5242
5243 “It appears to me the most desirable arrangement in the world.”
5244
5245 “And so she is to come to us next Friday or Saturday, and the Campbells
5246 leave town in their way to Holyhead the Monday following--as you will
5247 find from Jane’s letter. So sudden!--You may guess, dear Miss Woodhouse,
5248 what a flurry it has thrown me in! If it was not for the drawback of
5249 her illness--but I am afraid we must expect to see her grown thin, and
5250 looking very poorly. I must tell you what an unlucky thing happened to
5251 me, as to that. I always make a point of reading Jane’s letters through
5252 to myself first, before I read them aloud to my mother, you know, for
5253 fear of there being any thing in them to distress her. Jane desired me
5254 to do it, so I always do: and so I began to-day with my usual caution;
5255 but no sooner did I come to the mention of her being unwell, than I
5256 burst out, quite frightened, with ‘Bless me! poor Jane is ill!’--which
5257 my mother, being on the watch, heard distinctly, and was sadly alarmed
5258 at. However, when I read on, I found it was not near so bad as I had
5259 fancied at first; and I make so light of it now to her, that she does
5260 not think much about it. But I cannot imagine how I could be so off my
5261 guard. If Jane does not get well soon, we will call in Mr. Perry. The
5262 expense shall not be thought of; and though he is so liberal, and so
5263 fond of Jane that I dare say he would not mean to charge any thing for
5264 attendance, we could not suffer it to be so, you know. He has a wife and
5265 family to maintain, and is not to be giving away his time. Well, now I
5266 have just given you a hint of what Jane writes about, we will turn to
5267 her letter, and I am sure she tells her own story a great deal better
5268 than I can tell it for her.”
5269
5270 “I am afraid we must be running away,” said Emma, glancing at Harriet,
5271 and beginning to rise--“My father will be expecting us. I had no
5272 intention, I thought I had no power of staying more than five minutes,
5273 when I first entered the house. I merely called, because I would not
5274 pass the door without inquiring after Mrs. Bates; but I have been so
5275 pleasantly detained! Now, however, we must wish you and Mrs. Bates good
5276 morning.”
5277
5278 And not all that could be urged to detain her succeeded. She regained
5279 the street--happy in this, that though much had been forced on her
5280 against her will, though she had in fact heard the whole substance of
5281 Jane Fairfax’s letter, she had been able to escape the letter itself.
5282
5283
5284
5285 CHAPTER II
5286
5287
5288 Jane Fairfax was an orphan, the only child of Mrs. Bates’s youngest
5289 daughter.
5290
5291 The marriage of Lieut. Fairfax of the ----regiment of infantry,
5292 and Miss Jane Bates, had had its day of fame and pleasure, hope
5293 and interest; but nothing now remained of it, save the melancholy
5294 remembrance of him dying in action abroad--of his widow sinking under
5295 consumption and grief soon afterwards--and this girl.
5296
5297 By birth she belonged to Highbury: and when at three years old, on
5298 losing her mother, she became the property, the charge, the consolation,
5299 the foundling of her grandmother and aunt, there had seemed every
5300 probability of her being permanently fixed there; of her being taught
5301 only what very limited means could command, and growing up with no
5302 advantages of connexion or improvement, to be engrafted on what
5303 nature had given her in a pleasing person, good understanding, and
5304 warm-hearted, well-meaning relations.
5305
5306 But the compassionate feelings of a friend of her father gave a change
5307 to her destiny. This was Colonel Campbell, who had very highly regarded
5308 Fairfax, as an excellent officer and most deserving young man; and
5309 farther, had been indebted to him for such attentions, during a severe
5310 camp-fever, as he believed had saved his life. These were claims which
5311 he did not learn to overlook, though some years passed away from the
5312 death of poor Fairfax, before his own return to England put any thing in
5313 his power. When he did return, he sought out the child and took notice
5314 of her. He was a married man, with only one living child, a girl, about
5315 Jane’s age: and Jane became their guest, paying them long visits and
5316 growing a favourite with all; and before she was nine years old, his
5317 daughter’s great fondness for her, and his own wish of being a real
5318 friend, united to produce an offer from Colonel Campbell of undertaking
5319 the whole charge of her education. It was accepted; and from that period
5320 Jane had belonged to Colonel Campbell’s family, and had lived with them
5321 entirely, only visiting her grandmother from time to time.
5322
5323 The plan was that she should be brought up for educating others; the
5324 very few hundred pounds which she inherited from her father making
5325 independence impossible. To provide for her otherwise was out of Colonel
5326 Campbell’s power; for though his income, by pay and appointments, was
5327 handsome, his fortune was moderate and must be all his daughter’s;
5328 but, by giving her an education, he hoped to be supplying the means of
5329 respectable subsistence hereafter.
5330
5331 Such was Jane Fairfax’s history. She had fallen into good hands, known
5332 nothing but kindness from the Campbells, and been given an excellent
5333 education. Living constantly with right-minded and well-informed people,
5334 her heart and understanding had received every advantage of discipline
5335 and culture; and Colonel Campbell’s residence being in London, every
5336 lighter talent had been done full justice to, by the attendance of
5337 first-rate masters. Her disposition and abilities were equally worthy
5338 of all that friendship could do; and at eighteen or nineteen she was,
5339 as far as such an early age can be qualified for the care of children,
5340 fully competent to the office of instruction herself; but she was too
5341 much beloved to be parted with. Neither father nor mother could promote,
5342 and the daughter could not endure it. The evil day was put off. It was
5343 easy to decide that she was still too young; and Jane remained with
5344 them, sharing, as another daughter, in all the rational pleasures of
5345 an elegant society, and a judicious mixture of home and amusement, with
5346 only the drawback of the future, the sobering suggestions of her own
5347 good understanding to remind her that all this might soon be over.
5348
5349 The affection of the whole family, the warm attachment of Miss
5350 Campbell in particular, was the more honourable to each party from
5351 the circumstance of Jane’s decided superiority both in beauty and
5352 acquirements. That nature had given it in feature could not be unseen
5353 by the young woman, nor could her higher powers of mind be unfelt by the
5354 parents. They continued together with unabated regard however, till the
5355 marriage of Miss Campbell, who by that chance, that luck which so often
5356 defies anticipation in matrimonial affairs, giving attraction to what is
5357 moderate rather than to what is superior, engaged the affections of
5358 Mr. Dixon, a young man, rich and agreeable, almost as soon as they were
5359 acquainted; and was eligibly and happily settled, while Jane Fairfax had
5360 yet her bread to earn.
5361
5362 This event had very lately taken place; too lately for any thing to be
5363 yet attempted by her less fortunate friend towards entering on her path
5364 of duty; though she had now reached the age which her own judgment had
5365 fixed on for beginning. She had long resolved that one-and-twenty
5366 should be the period. With the fortitude of a devoted novitiate, she had
5367 resolved at one-and-twenty to complete the sacrifice, and retire from
5368 all the pleasures of life, of rational intercourse, equal society, peace
5369 and hope, to penance and mortification for ever.
5370
5371 The good sense of Colonel and Mrs. Campbell could not oppose such
5372 a resolution, though their feelings did. As long as they lived, no
5373 exertions would be necessary, their home might be hers for ever; and for
5374 their own comfort they would have retained her wholly; but this would
5375 be selfishness:--what must be at last, had better be soon. Perhaps they
5376 began to feel it might have been kinder and wiser to have resisted the
5377 temptation of any delay, and spared her from a taste of such enjoyments
5378 of ease and leisure as must now be relinquished. Still, however,
5379 affection was glad to catch at any reasonable excuse for not hurrying
5380 on the wretched moment. She had never been quite well since the time of
5381 their daughter’s marriage; and till she should have completely recovered
5382 her usual strength, they must forbid her engaging in duties, which, so
5383 far from being compatible with a weakened frame and varying spirits,
5384 seemed, under the most favourable circumstances, to require something
5385 more than human perfection of body and mind to be discharged with
5386 tolerable comfort.
5387
5388 With regard to her not accompanying them to Ireland, her account to her
5389 aunt contained nothing but truth, though there might be some truths
5390 not told. It was her own choice to give the time of their absence to
5391 Highbury; to spend, perhaps, her last months of perfect liberty with
5392 those kind relations to whom she was so very dear: and the Campbells,
5393 whatever might be their motive or motives, whether single, or double, or
5394 treble, gave the arrangement their ready sanction, and said, that they
5395 depended more on a few months spent in her native air, for the recovery
5396 of her health, than on any thing else. Certain it was that she was to
5397 come; and that Highbury, instead of welcoming that perfect novelty which
5398 had been so long promised it--Mr. Frank Churchill--must put up for the
5399 present with Jane Fairfax, who could bring only the freshness of a two
5400 years’ absence.
5401
5402 Emma was sorry;--to have to pay civilities to a person she did not like
5403 through three long months!--to be always doing more than she wished,
5404 and less than she ought! Why she did not like Jane Fairfax might be a
5405 difficult question to answer; Mr. Knightley had once told her it was
5406 because she saw in her the really accomplished young woman, which she
5407 wanted to be thought herself; and though the accusation had been eagerly
5408 refuted at the time, there were moments of self-examination in which
5409 her conscience could not quite acquit her. But “she could never get
5410 acquainted with her: she did not know how it was, but there was such
5411 coldness and reserve--such apparent indifference whether she pleased or
5412 not--and then, her aunt was such an eternal talker!--and she was made
5413 such a fuss with by every body!--and it had been always imagined that
5414 they were to be so intimate--because their ages were the same, every
5415 body had supposed they must be so fond of each other.” These were her
5416 reasons--she had no better.
5417
5418 It was a dislike so little just--every imputed fault was so magnified
5419 by fancy, that she never saw Jane Fairfax the first time after any
5420 considerable absence, without feeling that she had injured her; and
5421 now, when the due visit was paid, on her arrival, after a two years’
5422 interval, she was particularly struck with the very appearance and
5423 manners, which for those two whole years she had been depreciating. Jane
5424 Fairfax was very elegant, remarkably elegant; and she had herself the
5425 highest value for elegance. Her height was pretty, just such as almost
5426 every body would think tall, and nobody could think very tall; her
5427 figure particularly graceful; her size a most becoming medium, between
5428 fat and thin, though a slight appearance of ill-health seemed to point
5429 out the likeliest evil of the two. Emma could not but feel all this; and
5430 then, her face--her features--there was more beauty in them altogether
5431 than she had remembered; it was not regular, but it was very pleasing
5432 beauty. Her eyes, a deep grey, with dark eye-lashes and eyebrows, had
5433 never been denied their praise; but the skin, which she had been used to
5434 cavil at, as wanting colour, had a clearness and delicacy which really
5435 needed no fuller bloom. It was a style of beauty, of which elegance was
5436 the reigning character, and as such, she must, in honour, by all her
5437 principles, admire it:--elegance, which, whether of person or of mind,
5438 she saw so little in Highbury. There, not to be vulgar, was distinction,
5439 and merit.
5440
5441 In short, she sat, during the first visit, looking at Jane Fairfax with
5442 twofold complacency; the sense of pleasure and the sense of rendering
5443 justice, and was determining that she would dislike her no longer. When
5444 she took in her history, indeed, her situation, as well as her beauty;
5445 when she considered what all this elegance was destined to, what she was
5446 going to sink from, how she was going to live, it seemed impossible
5447 to feel any thing but compassion and respect; especially, if to every
5448 well-known particular entitling her to interest, were added the highly
5449 probable circumstance of an attachment to Mr. Dixon, which she had
5450 so naturally started to herself. In that case, nothing could be more
5451 pitiable or more honourable than the sacrifices she had resolved on.
5452 Emma was very willing now to acquit her of having seduced Mr. Dixon’s
5453 actions from his wife, or of any thing mischievous which her imagination
5454 had suggested at first. If it were love, it might be simple, single,
5455 successless love on her side alone. She might have been unconsciously
5456 sucking in the sad poison, while a sharer of his conversation with her
5457 friend; and from the best, the purest of motives, might now be
5458 denying herself this visit to Ireland, and resolving to divide herself
5459 effectually from him and his connexions by soon beginning her career of
5460 laborious duty.
5461
5462 Upon the whole, Emma left her with such softened, charitable feelings,
5463 as made her look around in walking home, and lament that Highbury
5464 afforded no young man worthy of giving her independence; nobody that she
5465 could wish to scheme about for her.
5466
5467 These were charming feelings--but not lasting. Before she had committed
5468 herself by any public profession of eternal friendship for Jane Fairfax,
5469 or done more towards a recantation of past prejudices and errors, than
5470 saying to Mr. Knightley, “She certainly is handsome; she is better than
5471 handsome!” Jane had spent an evening at Hartfield with her grandmother
5472 and aunt, and every thing was relapsing much into its usual state.
5473 Former provocations reappeared. The aunt was as tiresome as ever; more
5474 tiresome, because anxiety for her health was now added to admiration
5475 of her powers; and they had to listen to the description of exactly how
5476 little bread and butter she ate for breakfast, and how small a slice
5477 of mutton for dinner, as well as to see exhibitions of new caps and new
5478 workbags for her mother and herself; and Jane’s offences rose again.
5479 They had music; Emma was obliged to play; and the thanks and praise
5480 which necessarily followed appeared to her an affectation of candour, an
5481 air of greatness, meaning only to shew off in higher style her own very
5482 superior performance. She was, besides, which was the worst of all, so
5483 cold, so cautious! There was no getting at her real opinion. Wrapt up in
5484 a cloak of politeness, she seemed determined to hazard nothing. She was
5485 disgustingly, was suspiciously reserved.
5486
5487 If any thing could be more, where all was most, she was more reserved on
5488 the subject of Weymouth and the Dixons than any thing. She seemed bent
5489 on giving no real insight into Mr. Dixon’s character, or her own value
5490 for his company, or opinion of the suitableness of the match. It was all
5491 general approbation and smoothness; nothing delineated or distinguished.
5492 It did her no service however. Her caution was thrown away. Emma saw
5493 its artifice, and returned to her first surmises. There probably _was_
5494 something more to conceal than her own preference; Mr. Dixon, perhaps,
5495 had been very near changing one friend for the other, or been fixed only
5496 to Miss Campbell, for the sake of the future twelve thousand pounds.
5497
5498 The like reserve prevailed on other topics. She and Mr. Frank Churchill
5499 had been at Weymouth at the same time. It was known that they were a
5500 little acquainted; but not a syllable of real information could Emma
5501 procure as to what he truly was. “Was he handsome?”--“She believed
5502 he was reckoned a very fine young man.” “Was he agreeable?”--“He was
5503 generally thought so.” “Did he appear a sensible young man; a young
5504 man of information?”--“At a watering-place, or in a common London
5505 acquaintance, it was difficult to decide on such points. Manners were
5506 all that could be safely judged of, under a much longer knowledge than
5507 they had yet had of Mr. Churchill. She believed every body found his
5508 manners pleasing.” Emma could not forgive her.
5509
5510
5511
5512 CHAPTER III
5513
5514
5515 Emma could not forgive her;--but as neither provocation nor resentment
5516 were discerned by Mr. Knightley, who had been of the party, and had
5517 seen only proper attention and pleasing behaviour on each side, he was
5518 expressing the next morning, being at Hartfield again on business with
5519 Mr. Woodhouse, his approbation of the whole; not so openly as he might
5520 have done had her father been out of the room, but speaking plain enough
5521 to be very intelligible to Emma. He had been used to think her unjust to
5522 Jane, and had now great pleasure in marking an improvement.
5523
5524 “A very pleasant evening,” he began, as soon as Mr. Woodhouse had been
5525 talked into what was necessary, told that he understood, and the papers
5526 swept away;--“particularly pleasant. You and Miss Fairfax gave us some
5527 very good music. I do not know a more luxurious state, sir, than sitting
5528 at one’s ease to be entertained a whole evening by two such young women;
5529 sometimes with music and sometimes with conversation. I am sure Miss
5530 Fairfax must have found the evening pleasant, Emma. You left nothing
5531 undone. I was glad you made her play so much, for having no instrument
5532 at her grandmother’s, it must have been a real indulgence.”
5533
5534 “I am happy you approved,” said Emma, smiling; “but I hope I am not
5535 often deficient in what is due to guests at Hartfield.”
5536
5537 “No, my dear,” said her father instantly; “_that_ I am sure you are not.
5538 There is nobody half so attentive and civil as you are. If any thing,
5539 you are too attentive. The muffin last night--if it had been handed
5540 round once, I think it would have been enough.”
5541
5542 “No,” said Mr. Knightley, nearly at the same time; “you are not often
5543 deficient; not often deficient either in manner or comprehension. I
5544 think you understand me, therefore.”
5545
5546 An arch look expressed--“I understand you well enough;” but she said
5547 only, “Miss Fairfax is reserved.”
5548
5549 “I always told you she was--a little; but you will soon overcome all
5550 that part of her reserve which ought to be overcome, all that has its
5551 foundation in diffidence. What arises from discretion must be honoured.”
5552
5553 “You think her diffident. I do not see it.”
5554
5555 “My dear Emma,” said he, moving from his chair into one close by her,
5556 “you are not going to tell me, I hope, that you had not a pleasant
5557 evening.”
5558
5559 “Oh! no; I was pleased with my own perseverance in asking questions; and
5560 amused to think how little information I obtained.”
5561
5562 “I am disappointed,” was his only answer.
5563
5564 “I hope every body had a pleasant evening,” said Mr. Woodhouse, in his
5565 quiet way. “I had. Once, I felt the fire rather too much; but then I
5566 moved back my chair a little, a very little, and it did not disturb me.
5567 Miss Bates was very chatty and good-humoured, as she always is, though
5568 she speaks rather too quick. However, she is very agreeable, and Mrs.
5569 Bates too, in a different way. I like old friends; and Miss Jane
5570 Fairfax is a very pretty sort of young lady, a very pretty and a
5571 very well-behaved young lady indeed. She must have found the evening
5572 agreeable, Mr. Knightley, because she had Emma.”
5573
5574 “True, sir; and Emma, because she had Miss Fairfax.”
5575
5576 Emma saw his anxiety, and wishing to appease it, at least for the
5577 present, said, and with a sincerity which no one could question--
5578
5579 “She is a sort of elegant creature that one cannot keep one’s eyes from.
5580 I am always watching her to admire; and I do pity her from my heart.”
5581
5582 Mr. Knightley looked as if he were more gratified than he cared to
5583 express; and before he could make any reply, Mr. Woodhouse, whose
5584 thoughts were on the Bates’s, said--
5585
5586 “It is a great pity that their circumstances should be so confined! a
5587 great pity indeed! and I have often wished--but it is so little one can
5588 venture to do--small, trifling presents, of any thing uncommon--Now we
5589 have killed a porker, and Emma thinks of sending them a loin or a leg;
5590 it is very small and delicate--Hartfield pork is not like any other
5591 pork--but still it is pork--and, my dear Emma, unless one could be sure
5592 of their making it into steaks, nicely fried, as ours are fried, without
5593 the smallest grease, and not roast it, for no stomach can bear roast
5594 pork--I think we had better send the leg--do not you think so, my dear?”
5595
5596 “My dear papa, I sent the whole hind-quarter. I knew you would wish it.
5597 There will be the leg to be salted, you know, which is so very nice, and
5598 the loin to be dressed directly in any manner they like.”
5599
5600 “That’s right, my dear, very right. I had not thought of it before, but
5601 that is the best way. They must not over-salt the leg; and then, if it
5602 is not over-salted, and if it is very thoroughly boiled, just as Serle
5603 boils ours, and eaten very moderately of, with a boiled turnip, and a
5604 little carrot or parsnip, I do not consider it unwholesome.”
5605
5606 “Emma,” said Mr. Knightley presently, “I have a piece of news for you.
5607 You like news--and I heard an article in my way hither that I think will
5608 interest you.”
5609
5610 “News! Oh! yes, I always like news. What is it?--why do you smile
5611 so?--where did you hear it?--at Randalls?”
5612
5613 He had time only to say,
5614
5615 “No, not at Randalls; I have not been near Randalls,” when the door was
5616 thrown open, and Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax walked into the room. Full
5617 of thanks, and full of news, Miss Bates knew not which to give quickest.
5618 Mr. Knightley soon saw that he had lost his moment, and that not another
5619 syllable of communication could rest with him.
5620
5621 “Oh! my dear sir, how are you this morning? My dear Miss Woodhouse--I
5622 come quite over-powered. Such a beautiful hind-quarter of pork! You
5623 are too bountiful! Have you heard the news? Mr. Elton is going to be
5624 married.”
5625
5626 Emma had not had time even to think of Mr. Elton, and she was so
5627 completely surprized that she could not avoid a little start, and a
5628 little blush, at the sound.
5629
5630 “There is my news:--I thought it would interest you,” said Mr.
5631 Knightley, with a smile which implied a conviction of some part of what
5632 had passed between them.
5633
5634 “But where could _you_ hear it?” cried Miss Bates. “Where could you
5635 possibly hear it, Mr. Knightley? For it is not five minutes since I
5636 received Mrs. Cole’s note--no, it cannot be more than five--or at least
5637 ten--for I had got my bonnet and spencer on, just ready to come out--I
5638 was only gone down to speak to Patty again about the pork--Jane was
5639 standing in the passage--were not you, Jane?--for my mother was so
5640 afraid that we had not any salting-pan large enough. So I said I would
5641 go down and see, and Jane said, ‘Shall I go down instead? for I think
5642 you have a little cold, and Patty has been washing the kitchen.’--‘Oh!
5643 my dear,’ said I--well, and just then came the note. A Miss
5644 Hawkins--that’s all I know. A Miss Hawkins of Bath. But, Mr. Knightley,
5645 how could you possibly have heard it? for the very moment Mr. Cole told
5646 Mrs. Cole of it, she sat down and wrote to me. A Miss Hawkins--”
5647
5648 “I was with Mr. Cole on business an hour and a half ago. He had just
5649 read Elton’s letter as I was shewn in, and handed it to me directly.”
5650
5651 “Well! that is quite--I suppose there never was a piece of news more
5652 generally interesting. My dear sir, you really are too bountiful. My
5653 mother desires her very best compliments and regards, and a thousand
5654 thanks, and says you really quite oppress her.”
5655
5656 “We consider our Hartfield pork,” replied Mr. Woodhouse--“indeed it
5657 certainly is, so very superior to all other pork, that Emma and I cannot
5658 have a greater pleasure than--”
5659
5660 “Oh! my dear sir, as my mother says, our friends are only too good
5661 to us. If ever there were people who, without having great wealth
5662 themselves, had every thing they could wish for, I am sure it is us.
5663 We may well say that ‘our lot is cast in a goodly heritage.’ Well, Mr.
5664 Knightley, and so you actually saw the letter; well--”
5665
5666 “It was short--merely to announce--but cheerful, exulting, of course.”--
5667 Here was a sly glance at Emma. “He had been so fortunate as to--I forget
5668 the precise words--one has no business to remember them. The information
5669 was, as you state, that he was going to be married to a Miss Hawkins. By
5670 his style, I should imagine it just settled.”
5671
5672 “Mr. Elton going to be married!” said Emma, as soon as she could speak.
5673 “He will have every body’s wishes for his happiness.”
5674
5675 “He is very young to settle,” was Mr. Woodhouse’s observation. “He had
5676 better not be in a hurry. He seemed to me very well off as he was. We
5677 were always glad to see him at Hartfield.”
5678
5679 “A new neighbour for us all, Miss Woodhouse!” said Miss Bates, joyfully;
5680 “my mother is so pleased!--she says she cannot bear to have the poor old
5681 Vicarage without a mistress. This is great news, indeed. Jane, you have
5682 never seen Mr. Elton!--no wonder that you have such a curiosity to see
5683 him.”
5684
5685 Jane’s curiosity did not appear of that absorbing nature as wholly to
5686 occupy her.
5687
5688 “No--I have never seen Mr. Elton,” she replied, starting on this appeal;
5689 “is he--is he a tall man?”
5690
5691 “Who shall answer that question?” cried Emma. “My father would say
5692 ‘yes,’ Mr. Knightley ‘no;’ and Miss Bates and I that he is just the
5693 happy medium. When you have been here a little longer, Miss Fairfax,
5694 you will understand that Mr. Elton is the standard of perfection in
5695 Highbury, both in person and mind.”
5696
5697 “Very true, Miss Woodhouse, so she will. He is the very best young
5698 man--But, my dear Jane, if you remember, I told you yesterday he
5699 was precisely the height of Mr. Perry. Miss Hawkins,--I dare say, an
5700 excellent young woman. His extreme attention to my mother--wanting
5701 her to sit in the vicarage pew, that she might hear the better, for my
5702 mother is a little deaf, you know--it is not much, but she does not
5703 hear quite quick. Jane says that Colonel Campbell is a little deaf. He
5704 fancied bathing might be good for it--the warm bath--but she says it did
5705 him no lasting benefit. Colonel Campbell, you know, is quite our angel.
5706 And Mr. Dixon seems a very charming young man, quite worthy of him. It
5707 is such a happiness when good people get together--and they always do.
5708 Now, here will be Mr. Elton and Miss Hawkins; and there are the Coles,
5709 such very good people; and the Perrys--I suppose there never was a
5710 happier or a better couple than Mr. and Mrs. Perry. I say, sir,” turning
5711 to Mr. Woodhouse, “I think there are few places with such society as
5712 Highbury. I always say, we are quite blessed in our neighbours.--My dear
5713 sir, if there is one thing my mother loves better than another, it is
5714 pork--a roast loin of pork--”
5715
5716 “As to who, or what Miss Hawkins is, or how long he has been acquainted
5717 with her,” said Emma, “nothing I suppose can be known. One feels that it
5718 cannot be a very long acquaintance. He has been gone only four weeks.”
5719
5720 Nobody had any information to give; and, after a few more wonderings,
5721 Emma said,
5722
5723 “You are silent, Miss Fairfax--but I hope you mean to take an interest
5724 in this news. You, who have been hearing and seeing so much of late
5725 on these subjects, who must have been so deep in the business on Miss
5726 Campbell’s account--we shall not excuse your being indifferent about Mr.
5727 Elton and Miss Hawkins.”
5728
5729 “When I have seen Mr. Elton,” replied Jane, “I dare say I shall be
5730 interested--but I believe it requires _that_ with me. And as it is some
5731 months since Miss Campbell married, the impression may be a little worn
5732 off.”
5733
5734 “Yes, he has been gone just four weeks, as you observe, Miss Woodhouse,”
5735 said Miss Bates, “four weeks yesterday.--A Miss Hawkins!--Well, I had
5736 always rather fancied it would be some young lady hereabouts; not that
5737 I ever--Mrs. Cole once whispered to me--but I immediately said, ‘No, Mr.
5738 Elton is a most worthy young man--but’--In short, I do not think I am
5739 particularly quick at those sort of discoveries. I do not pretend to it.
5740 What is before me, I see. At the same time, nobody could wonder if
5741 Mr. Elton should have aspired--Miss Woodhouse lets me chatter on, so
5742 good-humouredly. She knows I would not offend for the world. How does
5743 Miss Smith do? She seems quite recovered now. Have you heard from Mrs.
5744 John Knightley lately? Oh! those dear little children. Jane, do you
5745 know I always fancy Mr. Dixon like Mr. John Knightley. I mean in
5746 person--tall, and with that sort of look--and not very talkative.”
5747
5748 “Quite wrong, my dear aunt; there is no likeness at all.”
5749
5750 “Very odd! but one never does form a just idea of any body beforehand.
5751 One takes up a notion, and runs away with it. Mr. Dixon, you say, is
5752 not, strictly speaking, handsome?”
5753
5754 “Handsome! Oh! no--far from it--certainly plain. I told you he was
5755 plain.”
5756
5757 “My dear, you said that Miss Campbell would not allow him to be plain,
5758 and that you yourself--”
5759
5760 “Oh! as for me, my judgment is worth nothing. Where I have a regard,
5761 I always think a person well-looking. But I gave what I believed the
5762 general opinion, when I called him plain.”
5763
5764 “Well, my dear Jane, I believe we must be running away. The weather does
5765 not look well, and grandmama will be uneasy. You are too obliging, my
5766 dear Miss Woodhouse; but we really must take leave. This has been a most
5767 agreeable piece of news indeed. I shall just go round by Mrs. Cole’s;
5768 but I shall not stop three minutes: and, Jane, you had better go home
5769 directly--I would not have you out in a shower!--We think she is the
5770 better for Highbury already. Thank you, we do indeed. I shall not
5771 attempt calling on Mrs. Goddard, for I really do not think she cares for
5772 any thing but _boiled_ pork: when we dress the leg it will be another
5773 thing. Good morning to you, my dear sir. Oh! Mr. Knightley is coming
5774 too. Well, that is so very!--I am sure if Jane is tired, you will be
5775 so kind as to give her your arm.--Mr. Elton, and Miss Hawkins!--Good
5776 morning to you.”
5777
5778 Emma, alone with her father, had half her attention wanted by him while
5779 he lamented that young people would be in such a hurry to marry--and to
5780 marry strangers too--and the other half she could give to her own view
5781 of the subject. It was to herself an amusing and a very welcome piece
5782 of news, as proving that Mr. Elton could not have suffered long; but she
5783 was sorry for Harriet: Harriet must feel it--and all that she could hope
5784 was, by giving the first information herself, to save her from hearing
5785 it abruptly from others. It was now about the time that she was likely
5786 to call. If she were to meet Miss Bates in her way!--and upon its
5787 beginning to rain, Emma was obliged to expect that the weather would
5788 be detaining her at Mrs. Goddard’s, and that the intelligence would
5789 undoubtedly rush upon her without preparation.
5790
5791 The shower was heavy, but short; and it had not been over five minutes,
5792 when in came Harriet, with just the heated, agitated look which
5793 hurrying thither with a full heart was likely to give; and the “Oh! Miss
5794 Woodhouse, what do you think has happened!” which instantly burst forth,
5795 had all the evidence of corresponding perturbation. As the blow was
5796 given, Emma felt that she could not now shew greater kindness than in
5797 listening; and Harriet, unchecked, ran eagerly through what she had to
5798 tell. “She had set out from Mrs. Goddard’s half an hour ago--she had
5799 been afraid it would rain--she had been afraid it would pour down
5800 every moment--but she thought she might get to Hartfield first--she
5801 had hurried on as fast as possible; but then, as she was passing by the
5802 house where a young woman was making up a gown for her, she thought she
5803 would just step in and see how it went on; and though she did not seem
5804 to stay half a moment there, soon after she came out it began to rain,
5805 and she did not know what to do; so she ran on directly, as fast as
5806 she could, and took shelter at Ford’s.”--Ford’s was the principal
5807 woollen-draper, linen-draper, and haberdasher’s shop united; the shop
5808 first in size and fashion in the place.--“And so, there she had
5809 set, without an idea of any thing in the world, full ten minutes,
5810 perhaps--when, all of a sudden, who should come in--to be sure it was
5811 so very odd!--but they always dealt at Ford’s--who should come in, but
5812 Elizabeth Martin and her brother!--Dear Miss Woodhouse! only think. I
5813 thought I should have fainted. I did not know what to do. I was sitting
5814 near the door--Elizabeth saw me directly; but he did not; he was busy
5815 with the umbrella. I am sure she saw me, but she looked away directly,
5816 and took no notice; and they both went to quite the farther end of the
5817 shop; and I kept sitting near the door!--Oh! dear; I was so miserable!
5818 I am sure I must have been as white as my gown. I could not go away
5819 you know, because of the rain; but I did so wish myself anywhere in the
5820 world but there.--Oh! dear, Miss Woodhouse--well, at last, I fancy, he
5821 looked round and saw me; for instead of going on with her buyings, they
5822 began whispering to one another. I am sure they were talking of me; and
5823 I could not help thinking that he was persuading her to speak to me--(do
5824 you think he was, Miss Woodhouse?)--for presently she came forward--came
5825 quite up to me, and asked me how I did, and seemed ready to shake hands,
5826 if I would. She did not do any of it in the same way that she used; I
5827 could see she was altered; but, however, she seemed to _try_ to be very
5828 friendly, and we shook hands, and stood talking some time; but I know no
5829 more what I said--I was in such a tremble!--I remember she said she
5830 was sorry we never met now; which I thought almost too kind! Dear, Miss
5831 Woodhouse, I was absolutely miserable! By that time, it was beginning to
5832 hold up, and I was determined that nothing should stop me from getting
5833 away--and then--only think!--I found he was coming up towards me
5834 too--slowly you know, and as if he did not quite know what to do; and
5835 so he came and spoke, and I answered--and I stood for a minute, feeling
5836 dreadfully, you know, one can’t tell how; and then I took courage, and
5837 said it did not rain, and I must go; and so off I set; and I had not got
5838 three yards from the door, when he came after me, only to say, if I was
5839 going to Hartfield, he thought I had much better go round by Mr. Cole’s
5840 stables, for I should find the near way quite floated by this rain. Oh!
5841 dear, I thought it would have been the death of me! So I said, I was
5842 very much obliged to him: you know I could not do less; and then he went
5843 back to Elizabeth, and I came round by the stables--I believe I did--but
5844 I hardly knew where I was, or any thing about it. Oh! Miss Woodhouse,
5845 I would rather done any thing than have it happen: and yet, you know,
5846 there was a sort of satisfaction in seeing him behave so pleasantly and
5847 so kindly. And Elizabeth, too. Oh! Miss Woodhouse, do talk to me and
5848 make me comfortable again.”
5849
5850 Very sincerely did Emma wish to do so; but it was not immediately in
5851 her power. She was obliged to stop and think. She was not thoroughly
5852 comfortable herself. The young man’s conduct, and his sister’s, seemed
5853 the result of real feeling, and she could not but pity them. As Harriet
5854 described it, there had been an interesting mixture of wounded affection
5855 and genuine delicacy in their behaviour. But she had believed them to be
5856 well-meaning, worthy people before; and what difference did this make
5857 in the evils of the connexion? It was folly to be disturbed by it. Of
5858 course, he must be sorry to lose her--they must be all sorry. Ambition,
5859 as well as love, had probably been mortified. They might all have hoped
5860 to rise by Harriet’s acquaintance: and besides, what was the value of
5861 Harriet’s description?--So easily pleased--so little discerning;--what
5862 signified her praise?
5863
5864 She exerted herself, and did try to make her comfortable, by considering
5865 all that had passed as a mere trifle, and quite unworthy of being dwelt
5866 on,
5867
5868 “It might be distressing, for the moment,” said she; “but you seem to
5869 have behaved extremely well; and it is over--and may never--can never,
5870 as a first meeting, occur again, and therefore you need not think about
5871 it.”
5872
5873 Harriet said, “very true,” and she “would not think about it;” but still
5874 she talked of it--still she could talk of nothing else; and Emma, at
5875 last, in order to put the Martins out of her head, was obliged to hurry
5876 on the news, which she had meant to give with so much tender caution;
5877 hardly knowing herself whether to rejoice or be angry, ashamed or only
5878 amused, at such a state of mind in poor Harriet--such a conclusion of
5879 Mr. Elton’s importance with her!
5880
5881 Mr. Elton’s rights, however, gradually revived. Though she did not feel
5882 the first intelligence as she might have done the day before, or an hour
5883 before, its interest soon increased; and before their first conversation
5884 was over, she had talked herself into all the sensations of curiosity,
5885 wonder and regret, pain and pleasure, as to this fortunate Miss Hawkins,
5886 which could conduce to place the Martins under proper subordination in
5887 her fancy.
5888
5889 Emma learned to be rather glad that there had been such a meeting. It
5890 had been serviceable in deadening the first shock, without retaining any
5891 influence to alarm. As Harriet now lived, the Martins could not get
5892 at her, without seeking her, where hitherto they had wanted either the
5893 courage or the condescension to seek her; for since her refusal of the
5894 brother, the sisters never had been at Mrs. Goddard’s; and a twelvemonth
5895 might pass without their being thrown together again, with any
5896 necessity, or even any power of speech.
5897
5898
5899
5900 CHAPTER IV
5901
5902
5903 Human nature is so well disposed towards those who are in interesting
5904 situations, that a young person, who either marries or dies, is sure of
5905 being kindly spoken of.
5906
5907 A week had not passed since Miss Hawkins’s name was first mentioned in
5908 Highbury, before she was, by some means or other, discovered to have
5909 every recommendation of person and mind; to be handsome, elegant, highly
5910 accomplished, and perfectly amiable: and when Mr. Elton himself arrived
5911 to triumph in his happy prospects, and circulate the fame of her merits,
5912 there was very little more for him to do, than to tell her Christian
5913 name, and say whose music she principally played.
5914
5915 Mr. Elton returned, a very happy man. He had gone away rejected and
5916 mortified--disappointed in a very sanguine hope, after a series of what
5917 appeared to him strong encouragement; and not only losing the right
5918 lady, but finding himself debased to the level of a very wrong one. He
5919 had gone away deeply offended--he came back engaged to another--and
5920 to another as superior, of course, to the first, as under such
5921 circumstances what is gained always is to what is lost. He came back gay
5922 and self-satisfied, eager and busy, caring nothing for Miss Woodhouse,
5923 and defying Miss Smith.
5924
5925 The charming Augusta Hawkins, in addition to all the usual advantages of
5926 perfect beauty and merit, was in possession of an independent fortune,
5927 of so many thousands as would always be called ten; a point of some
5928 dignity, as well as some convenience: the story told well; he had not
5929 thrown himself away--he had gained a woman of 10,000 l. or thereabouts;
5930 and he had gained her with such delightful rapidity--the first hour of
5931 introduction had been so very soon followed by distinguishing notice;
5932 the history which he had to give Mrs. Cole of the rise and progress
5933 of the affair was so glorious--the steps so quick, from the accidental
5934 rencontre, to the dinner at Mr. Green’s, and the party at Mrs.
5935 Brown’s--smiles and blushes rising in importance--with consciousness and
5936 agitation richly scattered--the lady had been so easily impressed--so
5937 sweetly disposed--had in short, to use a most intelligible phrase,
5938 been so very ready to have him, that vanity and prudence were equally
5939 contented.
5940
5941 He had caught both substance and shadow--both fortune and affection, and
5942 was just the happy man he ought to be; talking only of himself and
5943 his own concerns--expecting to be congratulated--ready to be laughed
5944 at--and, with cordial, fearless smiles, now addressing all the young
5945 ladies of the place, to whom, a few weeks ago, he would have been more
5946 cautiously gallant.
5947
5948 The wedding was no distant event, as the parties had only themselves to
5949 please, and nothing but the necessary preparations to wait for; and
5950 when he set out for Bath again, there was a general expectation, which
5951 a certain glance of Mrs. Cole’s did not seem to contradict, that when he
5952 next entered Highbury he would bring his bride.
5953
5954 During his present short stay, Emma had barely seen him; but just enough
5955 to feel that the first meeting was over, and to give her the impression
5956 of his not being improved by the mixture of pique and pretension, now
5957 spread over his air. She was, in fact, beginning very much to wonder
5958 that she had ever thought him pleasing at all; and his sight was so
5959 inseparably connected with some very disagreeable feelings, that,
5960 except in a moral light, as a penance, a lesson, a source of profitable
5961 humiliation to her own mind, she would have been thankful to be assured
5962 of never seeing him again. She wished him very well; but he gave
5963 her pain, and his welfare twenty miles off would administer most
5964 satisfaction.
5965
5966 The pain of his continued residence in Highbury, however, must
5967 certainly be lessened by his marriage. Many vain solicitudes would be
5968 prevented--many awkwardnesses smoothed by it. A _Mrs._ _Elton_ would
5969 be an excuse for any change of intercourse; former intimacy might sink
5970 without remark. It would be almost beginning their life of civility
5971 again.
5972
5973 Of the lady, individually, Emma thought very little. She was good enough
5974 for Mr. Elton, no doubt; accomplished enough for Highbury--handsome
5975 enough--to look plain, probably, by Harriet’s side. As to connexion,
5976 there Emma was perfectly easy; persuaded, that after all his own vaunted
5977 claims and disdain of Harriet, he had done nothing. On that article,
5978 truth seemed attainable. _What_ she was, must be uncertain; but _who_
5979 she was, might be found out; and setting aside the 10,000 l., it did not
5980 appear that she was at all Harriet’s superior. She brought no name, no
5981 blood, no alliance. Miss Hawkins was the youngest of the two daughters
5982 of a Bristol--merchant, of course, he must be called; but, as the whole
5983 of the profits of his mercantile life appeared so very moderate, it
5984 was not unfair to guess the dignity of his line of trade had been very
5985 moderate also. Part of every winter she had been used to spend in Bath;
5986 but Bristol was her home, the very heart of Bristol; for though the
5987 father and mother had died some years ago, an uncle remained--in the law
5988 line--nothing more distinctly honourable was hazarded of him, than
5989 that he was in the law line; and with him the daughter had lived. Emma
5990 guessed him to be the drudge of some attorney, and too stupid to rise.
5991 And all the grandeur of the connexion seemed dependent on the elder
5992 sister, who was _very_ _well_ _married_, to a gentleman in a _great_
5993 _way_, near Bristol, who kept two carriages! That was the wind-up of the
5994 history; that was the glory of Miss Hawkins.
5995
5996 Could she but have given Harriet her feelings about it all! She had
5997 talked her into love; but, alas! she was not so easily to be talked out
5998 of it. The charm of an object to occupy the many vacancies of Harriet’s
5999 mind was not to be talked away. He might be superseded by another; he
6000 certainly would indeed; nothing could be clearer; even a Robert Martin
6001 would have been sufficient; but nothing else, she feared, would cure
6002 her. Harriet was one of those, who, having once begun, would be always
6003 in love. And now, poor girl! she was considerably worse from this
6004 reappearance of Mr. Elton. She was always having a glimpse of him
6005 somewhere or other. Emma saw him only once; but two or three times every
6006 day Harriet was sure _just_ to meet with him, or _just_ to miss him,
6007 _just_ to hear his voice, or see his shoulder, _just_ to have something
6008 occur to preserve him in her fancy, in all the favouring warmth of
6009 surprize and conjecture. She was, moreover, perpetually hearing about
6010 him; for, excepting when at Hartfield, she was always among those who
6011 saw no fault in Mr. Elton, and found nothing so interesting as
6012 the discussion of his concerns; and every report, therefore, every
6013 guess--all that had already occurred, all that might occur in the
6014 arrangement of his affairs, comprehending income, servants, and
6015 furniture, was continually in agitation around her. Her regard was
6016 receiving strength by invariable praise of him, and her regrets kept
6017 alive, and feelings irritated by ceaseless repetitions of Miss
6018 Hawkins’s happiness, and continual observation of, how much he seemed
6019 attached!--his air as he walked by the house--the very sitting of his
6020 hat, being all in proof of how much he was in love!
6021
6022 Had it been allowable entertainment, had there been no pain to her
6023 friend, or reproach to herself, in the waverings of Harriet’s mind,
6024 Emma would have been amused by its variations. Sometimes Mr. Elton
6025 predominated, sometimes the Martins; and each was occasionally useful
6026 as a check to the other. Mr. Elton’s engagement had been the cure of
6027 the agitation of meeting Mr. Martin. The unhappiness produced by the
6028 knowledge of that engagement had been a little put aside by Elizabeth
6029 Martin’s calling at Mrs. Goddard’s a few days afterwards. Harriet had
6030 not been at home; but a note had been prepared and left for her, written
6031 in the very style to touch; a small mixture of reproach, with a great
6032 deal of kindness; and till Mr. Elton himself appeared, she had been much
6033 occupied by it, continually pondering over what could be done in return,
6034 and wishing to do more than she dared to confess. But Mr. Elton, in
6035 person, had driven away all such cares. While he staid, the Martins were
6036 forgotten; and on the very morning of his setting off for Bath again,
6037 Emma, to dissipate some of the distress it occasioned, judged it best
6038 for her to return Elizabeth Martin’s visit.
6039
6040 How that visit was to be acknowledged--what would be necessary--and
6041 what might be safest, had been a point of some doubtful consideration.
6042 Absolute neglect of the mother and sisters, when invited to come, would
6043 be ingratitude. It must not be: and yet the danger of a renewal of the
6044 acquaintance--!
6045
6046 After much thinking, she could determine on nothing better, than
6047 Harriet’s returning the visit; but in a way that, if they had
6048 understanding, should convince them that it was to be only a formal
6049 acquaintance. She meant to take her in the carriage, leave her at the
6050 Abbey Mill, while she drove a little farther, and call for her again
6051 so soon, as to allow no time for insidious applications or dangerous
6052 recurrences to the past, and give the most decided proof of what degree
6053 of intimacy was chosen for the future.
6054
6055 She could think of nothing better: and though there was something in it
6056 which her own heart could not approve--something of ingratitude, merely
6057 glossed over--it must be done, or what would become of Harriet?
6058
6059
6060
6061 CHAPTER V
6062
6063
6064 Small heart had Harriet for visiting. Only half an hour before her
6065 friend called for her at Mrs. Goddard’s, her evil stars had led her
6066 to the very spot where, at that moment, a trunk, directed to _The Rev.
6067 Philip Elton, White-Hart, Bath_, was to be seen under the operation of
6068 being lifted into the butcher’s cart, which was to convey it to where
6069 the coaches past; and every thing in this world, excepting that trunk
6070 and the direction, was consequently a blank.
6071
6072 She went, however; and when they reached the farm, and she was to be
6073 put down, at the end of the broad, neat gravel walk, which led between
6074 espalier apple-trees to the front door, the sight of every thing which
6075 had given her so much pleasure the autumn before, was beginning to
6076 revive a little local agitation; and when they parted, Emma observed her
6077 to be looking around with a sort of fearful curiosity, which determined
6078 her not to allow the visit to exceed the proposed quarter of an hour.
6079 She went on herself, to give that portion of time to an old servant who
6080 was married, and settled in Donwell.
6081
6082 The quarter of an hour brought her punctually to the white gate again;
6083 and Miss Smith receiving her summons, was with her without delay, and
6084 unattended by any alarming young man. She came solitarily down the
6085 gravel walk--a Miss Martin just appearing at the door, and parting with
6086 her seemingly with ceremonious civility.
6087
6088 Harriet could not very soon give an intelligible account. She was
6089 feeling too much; but at last Emma collected from her enough to
6090 understand the sort of meeting, and the sort of pain it was creating.
6091 She had seen only Mrs. Martin and the two girls. They had received her
6092 doubtingly, if not coolly; and nothing beyond the merest commonplace had
6093 been talked almost all the time--till just at last, when Mrs. Martin’s
6094 saying, all of a sudden, that she thought Miss Smith was grown, had
6095 brought on a more interesting subject, and a warmer manner. In that very
6096 room she had been measured last September, with her two friends. There
6097 were the pencilled marks and memorandums on the wainscot by the window.
6098 _He_ had done it. They all seemed to remember the day, the hour,
6099 the party, the occasion--to feel the same consciousness, the same
6100 regrets--to be ready to return to the same good understanding; and they
6101 were just growing again like themselves, (Harriet, as Emma must suspect,
6102 as ready as the best of them to be cordial and happy,) when the carriage
6103 reappeared, and all was over. The style of the visit, and the shortness
6104 of it, were then felt to be decisive. Fourteen minutes to be given
6105 to those with whom she had thankfully passed six weeks not six months
6106 ago!--Emma could not but picture it all, and feel how justly they might
6107 resent, how naturally Harriet must suffer. It was a bad business. She
6108 would have given a great deal, or endured a great deal, to have had
6109 the Martins in a higher rank of life. They were so deserving, that a
6110 _little_ higher should have been enough: but as it was, how could she
6111 have done otherwise?--Impossible!--She could not repent. They must be
6112 separated; but there was a great deal of pain in the process--so much
6113 to herself at this time, that she soon felt the necessity of a little
6114 consolation, and resolved on going home by way of Randalls to
6115 procure it. Her mind was quite sick of Mr. Elton and the Martins. The
6116 refreshment of Randalls was absolutely necessary.
6117
6118 It was a good scheme; but on driving to the door they heard that neither
6119 “master nor mistress was at home;” they had both been out some time; the
6120 man believed they were gone to Hartfield.
6121
6122 “This is too bad,” cried Emma, as they turned away. “And now we shall
6123 just miss them; too provoking!--I do not know when I have been so
6124 disappointed.” And she leaned back in the corner, to indulge her
6125 murmurs, or to reason them away; probably a little of both--such being
6126 the commonest process of a not ill-disposed mind. Presently the carriage
6127 stopt; she looked up; it was stopt by Mr. and Mrs. Weston, who were
6128 standing to speak to her. There was instant pleasure in the sight of
6129 them, and still greater pleasure was conveyed in sound--for Mr. Weston
6130 immediately accosted her with,
6131
6132 “How d’ye do?--how d’ye do?--We have been sitting with your father--glad
6133 to see him so well. Frank comes to-morrow--I had a letter this
6134 morning--we see him to-morrow by dinner-time to a certainty--he is at
6135 Oxford to-day, and he comes for a whole fortnight; I knew it would be
6136 so. If he had come at Christmas he could not have staid three days; I
6137 was always glad he did not come at Christmas; now we are going to have
6138 just the right weather for him, fine, dry, settled weather. We shall
6139 enjoy him completely; every thing has turned out exactly as we could
6140 wish.”
6141
6142 There was no resisting such news, no possibility of avoiding the
6143 influence of such a happy face as Mr. Weston’s, confirmed as it all was
6144 by the words and the countenance of his wife, fewer and quieter, but not
6145 less to the purpose. To know that _she_ thought his coming certain was
6146 enough to make Emma consider it so, and sincerely did she rejoice in
6147 their joy. It was a most delightful reanimation of exhausted spirits.
6148 The worn-out past was sunk in the freshness of what was coming; and in
6149 the rapidity of half a moment’s thought, she hoped Mr. Elton would now
6150 be talked of no more.
6151
6152 Mr. Weston gave her the history of the engagements at Enscombe, which
6153 allowed his son to answer for having an entire fortnight at his command,
6154 as well as the route and the method of his journey; and she listened,
6155 and smiled, and congratulated.
6156
6157 “I shall soon bring him over to Hartfield,” said he, at the conclusion.
6158
6159 Emma could imagine she saw a touch of the arm at this speech, from his
6160 wife.
6161
6162 “We had better move on, Mr. Weston,” said she, “we are detaining the
6163 girls.”
6164
6165 “Well, well, I am ready;”--and turning again to Emma, “but you must
6166 not be expecting such a _very_ fine young man; you have only
6167 had _my_ account you know; I dare say he is really nothing
6168 extraordinary:”--though his own sparkling eyes at the moment were
6169 speaking a very different conviction.
6170
6171 Emma could look perfectly unconscious and innocent, and answer in a
6172 manner that appropriated nothing.
6173
6174 “Think of me to-morrow, my dear Emma, about four o’clock,” was Mrs.
6175 Weston’s parting injunction; spoken with some anxiety, and meant only
6176 for her.
6177
6178 “Four o’clock!--depend upon it he will be here by three,” was Mr.
6179 Weston’s quick amendment; and so ended a most satisfactory meeting.
6180 Emma’s spirits were mounted quite up to happiness; every thing wore
6181 a different air; James and his horses seemed not half so sluggish as
6182 before. When she looked at the hedges, she thought the elder at least
6183 must soon be coming out; and when she turned round to Harriet, she saw
6184 something like a look of spring, a tender smile even there.
6185
6186 “Will Mr. Frank Churchill pass through Bath as well as Oxford?”--was a
6187 question, however, which did not augur much.
6188
6189 But neither geography nor tranquillity could come all at once, and Emma
6190 was now in a humour to resolve that they should both come in time.
6191
6192 The morning of the interesting day arrived, and Mrs. Weston’s faithful
6193 pupil did not forget either at ten, or eleven, or twelve o’clock, that
6194 she was to think of her at four.
6195
6196 “My dear, dear anxious friend,”--said she, in mental soliloquy, while
6197 walking downstairs from her own room, “always overcareful for every
6198 body’s comfort but your own; I see you now in all your little fidgets,
6199 going again and again into his room, to be sure that all is right.”
6200 The clock struck twelve as she passed through the hall. “‘Tis twelve;
6201 I shall not forget to think of you four hours hence; and by this
6202 time to-morrow, perhaps, or a little later, I may be thinking of the
6203 possibility of their all calling here. I am sure they will bring him
6204 soon.”
6205
6206 She opened the parlour door, and saw two gentlemen sitting with her
6207 father--Mr. Weston and his son. They had been arrived only a few
6208 minutes, and Mr. Weston had scarcely finished his explanation of Frank’s
6209 being a day before his time, and her father was yet in the midst of his
6210 very civil welcome and congratulations, when she appeared, to have her
6211 share of surprize, introduction, and pleasure.
6212
6213 The Frank Churchill so long talked of, so high in interest, was actually
6214 before her--he was presented to her, and she did not think too much had
6215 been said in his praise; he was a _very_ good looking young man; height,
6216 air, address, all were unexceptionable, and his countenance had a great
6217 deal of the spirit and liveliness of his father’s; he looked quick and
6218 sensible. She felt immediately that she should like him; and there was
6219 a well-bred ease of manner, and a readiness to talk, which convinced her
6220 that he came intending to be acquainted with her, and that acquainted
6221 they soon must be.
6222
6223 He had reached Randalls the evening before. She was pleased with the
6224 eagerness to arrive which had made him alter his plan, and travel
6225 earlier, later, and quicker, that he might gain half a day.
6226
6227 “I told you yesterday,” cried Mr. Weston with exultation, “I told you
6228 all that he would be here before the time named. I remembered what I
6229 used to do myself. One cannot creep upon a journey; one cannot help
6230 getting on faster than one has planned; and the pleasure of coming in
6231 upon one’s friends before the look-out begins, is worth a great deal
6232 more than any little exertion it needs.”
6233
6234 “It is a great pleasure where one can indulge in it,” said the young
6235 man, “though there are not many houses that I should presume on so far;
6236 but in coming _home_ I felt I might do any thing.”
6237
6238 The word _home_ made his father look on him with fresh complacency.
6239 Emma was directly sure that he knew how to make himself agreeable; the
6240 conviction was strengthened by what followed. He was very much pleased
6241 with Randalls, thought it a most admirably arranged house, would hardly
6242 allow it even to be very small, admired the situation, the walk to
6243 Highbury, Highbury itself, Hartfield still more, and professed himself
6244 to have always felt the sort of interest in the country which none but
6245 one’s _own_ country gives, and the greatest curiosity to visit it. That
6246 he should never have been able to indulge so amiable a feeling before,
6247 passed suspiciously through Emma’s brain; but still, if it were a
6248 falsehood, it was a pleasant one, and pleasantly handled. His manner had
6249 no air of study or exaggeration. He did really look and speak as if in a
6250 state of no common enjoyment.
6251
6252 Their subjects in general were such as belong to an opening
6253 acquaintance. On his side were the inquiries,--“Was she a
6254 horsewoman?--Pleasant rides?--Pleasant walks?--Had they a large
6255 neighbourhood?--Highbury, perhaps, afforded society enough?--There were
6256 several very pretty houses in and about it.--Balls--had they balls?--Was
6257 it a musical society?”
6258
6259 But when satisfied on all these points, and their acquaintance
6260 proportionably advanced, he contrived to find an opportunity, while
6261 their two fathers were engaged with each other, of introducing his
6262 mother-in-law, and speaking of her with so much handsome praise, so much
6263 warm admiration, so much gratitude for the happiness she secured to his
6264 father, and her very kind reception of himself, as was an additional
6265 proof of his knowing how to please--and of his certainly thinking it
6266 worth while to try to please her. He did not advance a word of praise
6267 beyond what she knew to be thoroughly deserved by Mrs. Weston; but,
6268 undoubtedly he could know very little of the matter. He understood
6269 what would be welcome; he could be sure of little else. “His father’s
6270 marriage,” he said, “had been the wisest measure, every friend must
6271 rejoice in it; and the family from whom he had received such a blessing
6272 must be ever considered as having conferred the highest obligation on
6273 him.”
6274
6275 He got as near as he could to thanking her for Miss Taylor’s merits,
6276 without seeming quite to forget that in the common course of things it
6277 was to be rather supposed that Miss Taylor had formed Miss Woodhouse’s
6278 character, than Miss Woodhouse Miss Taylor’s. And at last, as if
6279 resolved to qualify his opinion completely for travelling round to its
6280 object, he wound it all up with astonishment at the youth and beauty of
6281 her person.
6282
6283 “Elegant, agreeable manners, I was prepared for,” said he; “but I
6284 confess that, considering every thing, I had not expected more than a
6285 very tolerably well-looking woman of a certain age; I did not know that
6286 I was to find a pretty young woman in Mrs. Weston.”
6287
6288 “You cannot see too much perfection in Mrs. Weston for my feelings,”
6289 said Emma; “were you to guess her to be _eighteen_, I should listen with
6290 pleasure; but _she_ would be ready to quarrel with you for using such
6291 words. Don’t let her imagine that you have spoken of her as a pretty
6292 young woman.”
6293
6294 “I hope I should know better,” he replied; “no, depend upon it, (with a
6295 gallant bow,) that in addressing Mrs. Weston I should understand whom
6296 I might praise without any danger of being thought extravagant in my
6297 terms.”
6298
6299 Emma wondered whether the same suspicion of what might be expected from
6300 their knowing each other, which had taken strong possession of her mind,
6301 had ever crossed his; and whether his compliments were to be considered
6302 as marks of acquiescence, or proofs of defiance. She must see more
6303 of him to understand his ways; at present she only felt they were
6304 agreeable.
6305
6306 She had no doubt of what Mr. Weston was often thinking about. His quick
6307 eye she detected again and again glancing towards them with a happy
6308 expression; and even, when he might have determined not to look, she was
6309 confident that he was often listening.
6310
6311 Her own father’s perfect exemption from any thought of the kind, the
6312 entire deficiency in him of all such sort of penetration or suspicion,
6313 was a most comfortable circumstance. Happily he was not farther from
6314 approving matrimony than from foreseeing it.--Though always objecting
6315 to every marriage that was arranged, he never suffered beforehand from
6316 the apprehension of any; it seemed as if he could not think so ill of
6317 any two persons’ understanding as to suppose they meant to marry till it
6318 were proved against them. She blessed the favouring blindness. He could
6319 now, without the drawback of a single unpleasant surmise, without a
6320 glance forward at any possible treachery in his guest, give way to all
6321 his natural kind-hearted civility in solicitous inquiries after Mr.
6322 Frank Churchill’s accommodation on his journey, through the sad evils
6323 of sleeping two nights on the road, and express very genuine unmixed
6324 anxiety to know that he had certainly escaped catching cold--which,
6325 however, he could not allow him to feel quite assured of himself till
6326 after another night.
6327
6328 A reasonable visit paid, Mr. Weston began to move.--“He must be going.
6329 He had business at the Crown about his hay, and a great many errands for
6330 Mrs. Weston at Ford’s, but he need not hurry any body else.” His son,
6331 too well bred to hear the hint, rose immediately also, saying,
6332
6333 “As you are going farther on business, sir, I will take the opportunity
6334 of paying a visit, which must be paid some day or other, and therefore
6335 may as well be paid now. I have the honour of being acquainted with
6336 a neighbour of yours, (turning to Emma,) a lady residing in or near
6337 Highbury; a family of the name of Fairfax. I shall have no difficulty,
6338 I suppose, in finding the house; though Fairfax, I believe, is not
6339 the proper name--I should rather say Barnes, or Bates. Do you know any
6340 family of that name?”
6341
6342 “To be sure we do,” cried his father; “Mrs. Bates--we passed her
6343 house--I saw Miss Bates at the window. True, true, you are acquainted
6344 with Miss Fairfax; I remember you knew her at Weymouth, and a fine girl
6345 she is. Call upon her, by all means.”
6346
6347 “There is no necessity for my calling this morning,” said the young man;
6348 “another day would do as well; but there was that degree of acquaintance
6349 at Weymouth which--”
6350
6351 “Oh! go to-day, go to-day. Do not defer it. What is right to be done
6352 cannot be done too soon. And, besides, I must give you a hint, Frank;
6353 any want of attention to her _here_ should be carefully avoided. You saw
6354 her with the Campbells, when she was the equal of every body she mixed
6355 with, but here she is with a poor old grandmother, who has barely enough
6356 to live on. If you do not call early it will be a slight.”
6357
6358 The son looked convinced.
6359
6360 “I have heard her speak of the acquaintance,” said Emma; “she is a very
6361 elegant young woman.”
6362
6363 He agreed to it, but with so quiet a “Yes,” as inclined her almost to
6364 doubt his real concurrence; and yet there must be a very distinct sort
6365 of elegance for the fashionable world, if Jane Fairfax could be thought
6366 only ordinarily gifted with it.
6367
6368 “If you were never particularly struck by her manners before,” said she,
6369 “I think you will to-day. You will see her to advantage; see her and
6370 hear her--no, I am afraid you will not hear her at all, for she has an
6371 aunt who never holds her tongue.”
6372
6373 “You are acquainted with Miss Jane Fairfax, sir, are you?” said Mr.
6374 Woodhouse, always the last to make his way in conversation; “then give
6375 me leave to assure you that you will find her a very agreeable young
6376 lady. She is staying here on a visit to her grandmama and aunt, very
6377 worthy people; I have known them all my life. They will be extremely
6378 glad to see you, I am sure; and one of my servants shall go with you to
6379 shew you the way.”
6380
6381 “My dear sir, upon no account in the world; my father can direct me.”
6382
6383 “But your father is not going so far; he is only going to the Crown,
6384 quite on the other side of the street, and there are a great many
6385 houses; you might be very much at a loss, and it is a very dirty walk,
6386 unless you keep on the footpath; but my coachman can tell you where you
6387 had best cross the street.”
6388
6389 Mr. Frank Churchill still declined it, looking as serious as he could,
6390 and his father gave his hearty support by calling out, “My good friend,
6391 this is quite unnecessary; Frank knows a puddle of water when he sees
6392 it, and as to Mrs. Bates’s, he may get there from the Crown in a hop,
6393 step, and jump.”
6394
6395 They were permitted to go alone; and with a cordial nod from one, and a
6396 graceful bow from the other, the two gentlemen took leave. Emma remained
6397 very well pleased with this beginning of the acquaintance, and could now
6398 engage to think of them all at Randalls any hour of the day, with full
6399 confidence in their comfort.
6400
6401
6402
6403 CHAPTER VI
6404
6405
6406 The next morning brought Mr. Frank Churchill again. He came with Mrs.
6407 Weston, to whom and to Highbury he seemed to take very cordially. He had
6408 been sitting with her, it appeared, most companionably at home, till
6409 her usual hour of exercise; and on being desired to chuse their walk,
6410 immediately fixed on Highbury.--“He did not doubt there being very
6411 pleasant walks in every direction, but if left to him, he should always
6412 chuse the same. Highbury, that airy, cheerful, happy-looking Highbury,
6413 would be his constant attraction.”--Highbury, with Mrs. Weston, stood
6414 for Hartfield; and she trusted to its bearing the same construction with
6415 him. They walked thither directly.
6416
6417 Emma had hardly expected them: for Mr. Weston, who had called in for
6418 half a minute, in order to hear that his son was very handsome, knew
6419 nothing of their plans; and it was an agreeable surprize to her,
6420 therefore, to perceive them walking up to the house together, arm in
6421 arm. She was wanting to see him again, and especially to see him in
6422 company with Mrs. Weston, upon his behaviour to whom her opinion of him
6423 was to depend. If he were deficient there, nothing should make amends
6424 for it. But on seeing them together, she became perfectly satisfied. It
6425 was not merely in fine words or hyperbolical compliment that he paid his
6426 duty; nothing could be more proper or pleasing than his whole manner to
6427 her--nothing could more agreeably denote his wish of considering her as
6428 a friend and securing her affection. And there was time enough for Emma
6429 to form a reasonable judgment, as their visit included all the rest of
6430 the morning. They were all three walking about together for an hour
6431 or two--first round the shrubberies of Hartfield, and afterwards
6432 in Highbury. He was delighted with every thing; admired Hartfield
6433 sufficiently for Mr. Woodhouse’s ear; and when their going farther was
6434 resolved on, confessed his wish to be made acquainted with the whole
6435 village, and found matter of commendation and interest much oftener than
6436 Emma could have supposed.
6437
6438 Some of the objects of his curiosity spoke very amiable feelings. He
6439 begged to be shewn the house which his father had lived in so long, and
6440 which had been the home of his father’s father; and on recollecting that
6441 an old woman who had nursed him was still living, walked in quest of
6442 her cottage from one end of the street to the other; and though in
6443 some points of pursuit or observation there was no positive merit, they
6444 shewed, altogether, a good-will towards Highbury in general, which must
6445 be very like a merit to those he was with.
6446
6447 Emma watched and decided, that with such feelings as were now shewn, it
6448 could not be fairly supposed that he had been ever voluntarily absenting
6449 himself; that he had not been acting a part, or making a parade of
6450 insincere professions; and that Mr. Knightley certainly had not done him
6451 justice.
6452
6453 Their first pause was at the Crown Inn, an inconsiderable house, though
6454 the principal one of the sort, where a couple of pair of post-horses
6455 were kept, more for the convenience of the neighbourhood than from any
6456 run on the road; and his companions had not expected to be detained by
6457 any interest excited there; but in passing it they gave the history of
6458 the large room visibly added; it had been built many years ago for
6459 a ball-room, and while the neighbourhood had been in a particularly
6460 populous, dancing state, had been occasionally used as such;--but such
6461 brilliant days had long passed away, and now the highest purpose for
6462 which it was ever wanted was to accommodate a whist club established
6463 among the gentlemen and half-gentlemen of the place. He was immediately
6464 interested. Its character as a ball-room caught him; and instead of
6465 passing on, he stopt for several minutes at the two superior sashed
6466 windows which were open, to look in and contemplate its capabilities,
6467 and lament that its original purpose should have ceased. He saw no fault
6468 in the room, he would acknowledge none which they suggested. No, it
6469 was long enough, broad enough, handsome enough. It would hold the
6470 very number for comfort. They ought to have balls there at least every
6471 fortnight through the winter. Why had not Miss Woodhouse revived
6472 the former good old days of the room?--She who could do any thing in
6473 Highbury! The want of proper families in the place, and the conviction
6474 that none beyond the place and its immediate environs could be tempted
6475 to attend, were mentioned; but he was not satisfied. He could not be
6476 persuaded that so many good-looking houses as he saw around him, could
6477 not furnish numbers enough for such a meeting; and even when particulars
6478 were given and families described, he was still unwilling to admit that
6479 the inconvenience of such a mixture would be any thing, or that there
6480 would be the smallest difficulty in every body’s returning into their
6481 proper place the next morning. He argued like a young man very much bent
6482 on dancing; and Emma was rather surprized to see the constitution of
6483 the Weston prevail so decidedly against the habits of the Churchills.
6484 He seemed to have all the life and spirit, cheerful feelings, and social
6485 inclinations of his father, and nothing of the pride or reserve of
6486 Enscombe. Of pride, indeed, there was, perhaps, scarcely enough; his
6487 indifference to a confusion of rank, bordered too much on inelegance of
6488 mind. He could be no judge, however, of the evil he was holding cheap.
6489 It was but an effusion of lively spirits.
6490
6491 At last he was persuaded to move on from the front of the Crown;
6492 and being now almost facing the house where the Bateses lodged, Emma
6493 recollected his intended visit the day before, and asked him if he had
6494 paid it.
6495
6496 “Yes, oh! yes”--he replied; “I was just going to mention it. A very
6497 successful visit:--I saw all the three ladies; and felt very much
6498 obliged to you for your preparatory hint. If the talking aunt had taken
6499 me quite by surprize, it must have been the death of me. As it was, I
6500 was only betrayed into paying a most unreasonable visit. Ten minutes
6501 would have been all that was necessary, perhaps all that was proper; and
6502 I had told my father I should certainly be at home before him--but there
6503 was no getting away, no pause; and, to my utter astonishment, I found,
6504 when he (finding me nowhere else) joined me there at last, that I had
6505 been actually sitting with them very nearly three-quarters of an hour.
6506 The good lady had not given me the possibility of escape before.”
6507
6508 “And how did you think Miss Fairfax looking?”
6509
6510 “Ill, very ill--that is, if a young lady can ever be allowed to look
6511 ill. But the expression is hardly admissible, Mrs. Weston, is it? Ladies
6512 can never look ill. And, seriously, Miss Fairfax is naturally so
6513 pale, as almost always to give the appearance of ill health.--A most
6514 deplorable want of complexion.”
6515
6516 Emma would not agree to this, and began a warm defence of Miss Fairfax’s
6517 complexion. “It was certainly never brilliant, but she would not
6518 allow it to have a sickly hue in general; and there was a softness and
6519 delicacy in her skin which gave peculiar elegance to the character of
6520 her face.” He listened with all due deference; acknowledged that he had
6521 heard many people say the same--but yet he must confess, that to him
6522 nothing could make amends for the want of the fine glow of health. Where
6523 features were indifferent, a fine complexion gave beauty to them all;
6524 and where they were good, the effect was--fortunately he need not
6525 attempt to describe what the effect was.
6526
6527 “Well,” said Emma, “there is no disputing about taste.--At least you
6528 admire her except her complexion.”
6529
6530 He shook his head and laughed.--“I cannot separate Miss Fairfax and her
6531 complexion.”
6532
6533 “Did you see her often at Weymouth? Were you often in the same society?”
6534
6535 At this moment they were approaching Ford’s, and he hastily exclaimed,
6536 “Ha! this must be the very shop that every body attends every day of
6537 their lives, as my father informs me. He comes to Highbury himself, he
6538 says, six days out of the seven, and has always business at Ford’s.
6539 If it be not inconvenient to you, pray let us go in, that I may prove
6540 myself to belong to the place, to be a true citizen of Highbury. I must
6541 buy something at Ford’s. It will be taking out my freedom.--I dare say
6542 they sell gloves.”
6543
6544 “Oh! yes, gloves and every thing. I do admire your patriotism. You will
6545 be adored in Highbury. You were very popular before you came, because
6546 you were Mr. Weston’s son--but lay out half a guinea at Ford’s, and your
6547 popularity will stand upon your own virtues.”
6548
6549 They went in; and while the sleek, well-tied parcels of “Men’s Beavers”
6550 and “York Tan” were bringing down and displaying on the counter, he
6551 said--“But I beg your pardon, Miss Woodhouse, you were speaking to me,
6552 you were saying something at the very moment of this burst of my _amor_
6553 _patriae_. Do not let me lose it. I assure you the utmost stretch of
6554 public fame would not make me amends for the loss of any happiness in
6555 private life.”
6556
6557 “I merely asked, whether you had known much of Miss Fairfax and her
6558 party at Weymouth.”
6559
6560 “And now that I understand your question, I must pronounce it to be a
6561 very unfair one. It is always the lady’s right to decide on the degree
6562 of acquaintance. Miss Fairfax must already have given her account.--I
6563 shall not commit myself by claiming more than she may chuse to allow.”
6564
6565 “Upon my word! you answer as discreetly as she could do herself. But
6566 her account of every thing leaves so much to be guessed, she is so very
6567 reserved, so very unwilling to give the least information about any
6568 body, that I really think you may say what you like of your acquaintance
6569 with her.”
6570
6571 “May I, indeed?--Then I will speak the truth, and nothing suits me so
6572 well. I met her frequently at Weymouth. I had known the Campbells a
6573 little in town; and at Weymouth we were very much in the same set.
6574 Colonel Campbell is a very agreeable man, and Mrs. Campbell a friendly,
6575 warm-hearted woman. I like them all.”
6576
6577 “You know Miss Fairfax’s situation in life, I conclude; what she is
6578 destined to be?”
6579
6580 “Yes--(rather hesitatingly)--I believe I do.”
6581
6582 “You get upon delicate subjects, Emma,” said Mrs. Weston smiling;
6583 “remember that I am here.--Mr. Frank Churchill hardly knows what to say
6584 when you speak of Miss Fairfax’s situation in life. I will move a little
6585 farther off.”
6586
6587 “I certainly do forget to think of _her_,” said Emma, “as having ever
6588 been any thing but my friend and my dearest friend.”
6589
6590 He looked as if he fully understood and honoured such a sentiment.
6591
6592 When the gloves were bought, and they had quitted the shop again, “Did
6593 you ever hear the young lady we were speaking of, play?” said Frank
6594 Churchill.
6595
6596 “Ever hear her!” repeated Emma. “You forget how much she belongs to
6597 Highbury. I have heard her every year of our lives since we both began.
6598 She plays charmingly.”
6599
6600 “You think so, do you?--I wanted the opinion of some one who
6601 could really judge. She appeared to me to play well, that is, with
6602 considerable taste, but I know nothing of the matter myself.--I am
6603 excessively fond of music, but without the smallest skill or right
6604 of judging of any body’s performance.--I have been used to hear her’s
6605 admired; and I remember one proof of her being thought to play well:--a
6606 man, a very musical man, and in love with another woman--engaged to
6607 her--on the point of marriage--would yet never ask that other woman
6608 to sit down to the instrument, if the lady in question could sit down
6609 instead--never seemed to like to hear one if he could hear the other.
6610 That, I thought, in a man of known musical talent, was some proof.”
6611
6612 “Proof indeed!” said Emma, highly amused.--“Mr. Dixon is very musical,
6613 is he? We shall know more about them all, in half an hour, from you,
6614 than Miss Fairfax would have vouchsafed in half a year.”
6615
6616 “Yes, Mr. Dixon and Miss Campbell were the persons; and I thought it a
6617 very strong proof.”
6618
6619 “Certainly--very strong it was; to own the truth, a great deal stronger
6620 than, if _I_ had been Miss Campbell, would have been at all agreeable
6621 to me. I could not excuse a man’s having more music than love--more ear
6622 than eye--a more acute sensibility to fine sounds than to my feelings.
6623 How did Miss Campbell appear to like it?”
6624
6625 “It was her very particular friend, you know.”
6626
6627 “Poor comfort!” said Emma, laughing. “One would rather have a stranger
6628 preferred than one’s very particular friend--with a stranger it might
6629 not recur again--but the misery of having a very particular friend
6630 always at hand, to do every thing better than one does oneself!--Poor
6631 Mrs. Dixon! Well, I am glad she is gone to settle in Ireland.”
6632
6633 “You are right. It was not very flattering to Miss Campbell; but she
6634 really did not seem to feel it.”
6635
6636 “So much the better--or so much the worse:--I do not know which. But
6637 be it sweetness or be it stupidity in her--quickness of friendship, or
6638 dulness of feeling--there was one person, I think, who must have felt
6639 it: Miss Fairfax herself. She must have felt the improper and dangerous
6640 distinction.”
6641
6642 “As to that--I do not--”
6643
6644 “Oh! do not imagine that I expect an account of Miss Fairfax’s
6645 sensations from you, or from any body else. They are known to no human
6646 being, I guess, but herself. But if she continued to play whenever she
6647 was asked by Mr. Dixon, one may guess what one chuses.”
6648
6649 “There appeared such a perfectly good understanding among them all--”
6650 he began rather quickly, but checking himself, added, “however, it is
6651 impossible for me to say on what terms they really were--how it might
6652 all be behind the scenes. I can only say that there was smoothness
6653 outwardly. But you, who have known Miss Fairfax from a child, must be
6654 a better judge of her character, and of how she is likely to conduct
6655 herself in critical situations, than I can be.”
6656
6657 “I have known her from a child, undoubtedly; we have been children
6658 and women together; and it is natural to suppose that we should be
6659 intimate,--that we should have taken to each other whenever she visited
6660 her friends. But we never did. I hardly know how it has happened; a
6661 little, perhaps, from that wickedness on my side which was prone to take
6662 disgust towards a girl so idolized and so cried up as she always was,
6663 by her aunt and grandmother, and all their set. And then, her reserve--I
6664 never could attach myself to any one so completely reserved.”
6665
6666 “It is a most repulsive quality, indeed,” said he. “Oftentimes very
6667 convenient, no doubt, but never pleasing. There is safety in reserve,
6668 but no attraction. One cannot love a reserved person.”
6669
6670 “Not till the reserve ceases towards oneself; and then the attraction
6671 may be the greater. But I must be more in want of a friend, or an
6672 agreeable companion, than I have yet been, to take the trouble of
6673 conquering any body’s reserve to procure one. Intimacy between Miss
6674 Fairfax and me is quite out of the question. I have no reason to think
6675 ill of her--not the least--except that such extreme and perpetual
6676 cautiousness of word and manner, such a dread of giving a distinct idea
6677 about any body, is apt to suggest suspicions of there being something to
6678 conceal.”
6679
6680 He perfectly agreed with her: and after walking together so long, and
6681 thinking so much alike, Emma felt herself so well acquainted with him,
6682 that she could hardly believe it to be only their second meeting. He was
6683 not exactly what she had expected; less of the man of the world in some
6684 of his notions, less of the spoiled child of fortune, therefore better
6685 than she had expected. His ideas seemed more moderate--his feelings
6686 warmer. She was particularly struck by his manner of considering Mr.
6687 Elton’s house, which, as well as the church, he would go and look at,
6688 and would not join them in finding much fault with. No, he could not
6689 believe it a bad house; not such a house as a man was to be pitied for
6690 having. If it were to be shared with the woman he loved, he could not
6691 think any man to be pitied for having that house. There must be ample
6692 room in it for every real comfort. The man must be a blockhead who
6693 wanted more.
6694
6695 Mrs. Weston laughed, and said he did not know what he was talking about.
6696 Used only to a large house himself, and without ever thinking how many
6697 advantages and accommodations were attached to its size, he could be no
6698 judge of the privations inevitably belonging to a small one. But Emma,
6699 in her own mind, determined that he _did_ know what he was talking
6700 about, and that he shewed a very amiable inclination to settle early in
6701 life, and to marry, from worthy motives. He might not be aware of the
6702 inroads on domestic peace to be occasioned by no housekeeper’s room, or
6703 a bad butler’s pantry, but no doubt he did perfectly feel that Enscombe
6704 could not make him happy, and that whenever he were attached, he would
6705 willingly give up much of wealth to be allowed an early establishment.
6706
6707
6708
6709 CHAPTER VII
6710
6711
6712 Emma’s very good opinion of Frank Churchill was a little shaken the
6713 following day, by hearing that he was gone off to London, merely to have
6714 his hair cut. A sudden freak seemed to have seized him at breakfast, and
6715 he had sent for a chaise and set off, intending to return to dinner,
6716 but with no more important view that appeared than having his hair cut.
6717 There was certainly no harm in his travelling sixteen miles twice over
6718 on such an errand; but there was an air of foppery and nonsense in it
6719 which she could not approve. It did not accord with the rationality of
6720 plan, the moderation in expense, or even the unselfish warmth of heart,
6721 which she had believed herself to discern in him yesterday. Vanity,
6722 extravagance, love of change, restlessness of temper, which must be
6723 doing something, good or bad; heedlessness as to the pleasure of his
6724 father and Mrs. Weston, indifferent as to how his conduct might appear
6725 in general; he became liable to all these charges. His father only
6726 called him a coxcomb, and thought it a very good story; but that Mrs.
6727 Weston did not like it, was clear enough, by her passing it over as
6728 quickly as possible, and making no other comment than that “all young
6729 people would have their little whims.”
6730
6731 With the exception of this little blot, Emma found that his visit
6732 hitherto had given her friend only good ideas of him. Mrs. Weston
6733 was very ready to say how attentive and pleasant a companion he made
6734 himself--how much she saw to like in his disposition altogether. He
6735 appeared to have a very open temper--certainly a very cheerful and
6736 lively one; she could observe nothing wrong in his notions, a great deal
6737 decidedly right; he spoke of his uncle with warm regard, was fond of
6738 talking of him--said he would be the best man in the world if he were
6739 left to himself; and though there was no being attached to the aunt, he
6740 acknowledged her kindness with gratitude, and seemed to mean always to
6741 speak of her with respect. This was all very promising; and, but for
6742 such an unfortunate fancy for having his hair cut, there was nothing to
6743 denote him unworthy of the distinguished honour which her imagination
6744 had given him; the honour, if not of being really in love with her,
6745 of being at least very near it, and saved only by her own
6746 indifference--(for still her resolution held of never marrying)--the
6747 honour, in short, of being marked out for her by all their joint
6748 acquaintance.
6749
6750 Mr. Weston, on his side, added a virtue to the account which must
6751 have some weight. He gave her to understand that Frank admired her
6752 extremely--thought her very beautiful and very charming; and with so
6753 much to be said for him altogether, she found she must not judge him
6754 harshly. As Mrs. Weston observed, “all young people would have their
6755 little whims.”
6756
6757 There was one person among his new acquaintance in Surry, not so
6758 leniently disposed. In general he was judged, throughout the parishes of
6759 Donwell and Highbury, with great candour; liberal allowances were made
6760 for the little excesses of such a handsome young man--one who smiled so
6761 often and bowed so well; but there was one spirit among them not to be
6762 softened, from its power of censure, by bows or smiles--Mr. Knightley.
6763 The circumstance was told him at Hartfield; for the moment, he was
6764 silent; but Emma heard him almost immediately afterwards say to himself,
6765 over a newspaper he held in his hand, “Hum! just the trifling, silly
6766 fellow I took him for.” She had half a mind to resent; but an instant’s
6767 observation convinced her that it was really said only to relieve his
6768 own feelings, and not meant to provoke; and therefore she let it pass.
6769
6770 Although in one instance the bearers of not good tidings, Mr. and
6771 Mrs. Weston’s visit this morning was in another respect particularly
6772 opportune. Something occurred while they were at Hartfield, to make Emma
6773 want their advice; and, which was still more lucky, she wanted exactly
6774 the advice they gave.
6775
6776 This was the occurrence:--The Coles had been settled some years in
6777 Highbury, and were very good sort of people--friendly, liberal, and
6778 unpretending; but, on the other hand, they were of low origin, in trade,
6779 and only moderately genteel. On their first coming into the country,
6780 they had lived in proportion to their income, quietly, keeping little
6781 company, and that little unexpensively; but the last year or two had
6782 brought them a considerable increase of means--the house in town had
6783 yielded greater profits, and fortune in general had smiled on them. With
6784 their wealth, their views increased; their want of a larger house, their
6785 inclination for more company. They added to their house, to their number
6786 of servants, to their expenses of every sort; and by this time were,
6787 in fortune and style of living, second only to the family at Hartfield.
6788 Their love of society, and their new dining-room, prepared every body
6789 for their keeping dinner-company; and a few parties, chiefly among the
6790 single men, had already taken place. The regular and best families Emma
6791 could hardly suppose they would presume to invite--neither Donwell, nor
6792 Hartfield, nor Randalls. Nothing should tempt _her_ to go, if they did;
6793 and she regretted that her father’s known habits would be giving
6794 her refusal less meaning than she could wish. The Coles were very
6795 respectable in their way, but they ought to be taught that it was not
6796 for them to arrange the terms on which the superior families would visit
6797 them. This lesson, she very much feared, they would receive only from
6798 herself; she had little hope of Mr. Knightley, none of Mr. Weston.
6799
6800 But she had made up her mind how to meet this presumption so many weeks
6801 before it appeared, that when the insult came at last, it found her
6802 very differently affected. Donwell and Randalls had received their
6803 invitation, and none had come for her father and herself; and Mrs.
6804 Weston’s accounting for it with “I suppose they will not take the
6805 liberty with you; they know you do not dine out,” was not quite
6806 sufficient. She felt that she should like to have had the power of
6807 refusal; and afterwards, as the idea of the party to be assembled there,
6808 consisting precisely of those whose society was dearest to her, occurred
6809 again and again, she did not know that she might not have been tempted
6810 to accept. Harriet was to be there in the evening, and the Bateses. They
6811 had been speaking of it as they walked about Highbury the day before,
6812 and Frank Churchill had most earnestly lamented her absence. Might
6813 not the evening end in a dance? had been a question of his. The bare
6814 possibility of it acted as a farther irritation on her spirits; and
6815 her being left in solitary grandeur, even supposing the omission to be
6816 intended as a compliment, was but poor comfort.
6817
6818 It was the arrival of this very invitation while the Westons were at
6819 Hartfield, which made their presence so acceptable; for though her first
6820 remark, on reading it, was that “of course it must be declined,” she so
6821 very soon proceeded to ask them what they advised her to do, that their
6822 advice for her going was most prompt and successful.
6823
6824 She owned that, considering every thing, she was not absolutely
6825 without inclination for the party. The Coles expressed themselves so
6826 properly--there was so much real attention in the manner of it--so much
6827 consideration for her father. “They would have solicited the honour
6828 earlier, but had been waiting the arrival of a folding-screen from
6829 London, which they hoped might keep Mr. Woodhouse from any draught of
6830 air, and therefore induce him the more readily to give them the honour
6831 of his company.” Upon the whole, she was very persuadable; and it being
6832 briefly settled among themselves how it might be done without neglecting
6833 his comfort--how certainly Mrs. Goddard, if not Mrs. Bates, might be
6834 depended on for bearing him company--Mr. Woodhouse was to be talked
6835 into an acquiescence of his daughter’s going out to dinner on a day now
6836 near at hand, and spending the whole evening away from him. As for _his_
6837 going, Emma did not wish him to think it possible, the hours would be
6838 too late, and the party too numerous. He was soon pretty well resigned.
6839
6840 “I am not fond of dinner-visiting,” said he--“I never was. No more is
6841 Emma. Late hours do not agree with us. I am sorry Mr. and Mrs. Cole
6842 should have done it. I think it would be much better if they would come
6843 in one afternoon next summer, and take their tea with us--take us
6844 in their afternoon walk; which they might do, as our hours are so
6845 reasonable, and yet get home without being out in the damp of the
6846 evening. The dews of a summer evening are what I would not expose any
6847 body to. However, as they are so very desirous to have dear Emma dine
6848 with them, and as you will both be there, and Mr. Knightley too, to take
6849 care of her, I cannot wish to prevent it, provided the weather be what
6850 it ought, neither damp, nor cold, nor windy.” Then turning to Mrs.
6851 Weston, with a look of gentle reproach--“Ah! Miss Taylor, if you had not
6852 married, you would have staid at home with me.”
6853
6854 “Well, sir,” cried Mr. Weston, “as I took Miss Taylor away, it is
6855 incumbent on me to supply her place, if I can; and I will step to Mrs.
6856 Goddard in a moment, if you wish it.”
6857
6858 But the idea of any thing to be done in a _moment_, was increasing,
6859 not lessening, Mr. Woodhouse’s agitation. The ladies knew better how
6860 to allay it. Mr. Weston must be quiet, and every thing deliberately
6861 arranged.
6862
6863 With this treatment, Mr. Woodhouse was soon composed enough for talking
6864 as usual. “He should be happy to see Mrs. Goddard. He had a great regard
6865 for Mrs. Goddard; and Emma should write a line, and invite her. James
6866 could take the note. But first of all, there must be an answer written
6867 to Mrs. Cole.”
6868
6869 “You will make my excuses, my dear, as civilly as possible. You will say
6870 that I am quite an invalid, and go no where, and therefore must decline
6871 their obliging invitation; beginning with my _compliments_, of course.
6872 But you will do every thing right. I need not tell you what is to be
6873 done. We must remember to let James know that the carriage will be
6874 wanted on Tuesday. I shall have no fears for you with him. We have never
6875 been there above once since the new approach was made; but still I have
6876 no doubt that James will take you very safely. And when you get there,
6877 you must tell him at what time you would have him come for you again;
6878 and you had better name an early hour. You will not like staying late.
6879 You will get very tired when tea is over.”
6880
6881 “But you would not wish me to come away before I am tired, papa?”
6882
6883 “Oh! no, my love; but you will soon be tired. There will be a great many
6884 people talking at once. You will not like the noise.”
6885
6886 “But, my dear sir,” cried Mr. Weston, “if Emma comes away early, it will
6887 be breaking up the party.”
6888
6889 “And no great harm if it does,” said Mr. Woodhouse. “The sooner every
6890 party breaks up, the better.”
6891
6892 “But you do not consider how it may appear to the Coles. Emma’s going
6893 away directly after tea might be giving offence. They are good-natured
6894 people, and think little of their own claims; but still they must
6895 feel that any body’s hurrying away is no great compliment; and Miss
6896 Woodhouse’s doing it would be more thought of than any other person’s in
6897 the room. You would not wish to disappoint and mortify the Coles, I am
6898 sure, sir; friendly, good sort of people as ever lived, and who have
6899 been your neighbours these _ten_ years.”
6900
6901 “No, upon no account in the world, Mr. Weston; I am much obliged to
6902 you for reminding me. I should be extremely sorry to be giving them any
6903 pain. I know what worthy people they are. Perry tells me that Mr. Cole
6904 never touches malt liquor. You would not think it to look at him, but
6905 he is bilious--Mr. Cole is very bilious. No, I would not be the means
6906 of giving them any pain. My dear Emma, we must consider this. I am sure,
6907 rather than run the risk of hurting Mr. and Mrs. Cole, you would stay a
6908 little longer than you might wish. You will not regard being tired. You
6909 will be perfectly safe, you know, among your friends.”
6910
6911 “Oh yes, papa. I have no fears at all for myself; and I should have no
6912 scruples of staying as late as Mrs. Weston, but on your account. I am
6913 only afraid of your sitting up for me. I am not afraid of your not being
6914 exceedingly comfortable with Mrs. Goddard. She loves piquet, you
6915 know; but when she is gone home, I am afraid you will be sitting up by
6916 yourself, instead of going to bed at your usual time--and the idea of
6917 that would entirely destroy my comfort. You must promise me not to sit
6918 up.”
6919
6920 He did, on the condition of some promises on her side: such as that,
6921 if she came home cold, she would be sure to warm herself thoroughly; if
6922 hungry, that she would take something to eat; that her own maid should
6923 sit up for her; and that Serle and the butler should see that every
6924 thing were safe in the house, as usual.
6925
6926
6927
6928 CHAPTER VIII
6929
6930
6931 Frank Churchill came back again; and if he kept his father’s dinner
6932 waiting, it was not known at Hartfield; for Mrs. Weston was too anxious
6933 for his being a favourite with Mr. Woodhouse, to betray any imperfection
6934 which could be concealed.
6935
6936 He came back, had had his hair cut, and laughed at himself with a very
6937 good grace, but without seeming really at all ashamed of what he had
6938 done. He had no reason to wish his hair longer, to conceal any confusion
6939 of face; no reason to wish the money unspent, to improve his spirits.
6940 He was quite as undaunted and as lively as ever; and, after seeing him,
6941 Emma thus moralised to herself:--
6942
6943 “I do not know whether it ought to be so, but certainly silly things
6944 do cease to be silly if they are done by sensible people in an impudent
6945 way. Wickedness is always wickedness, but folly is not always folly.--It
6946 depends upon the character of those who handle it. Mr. Knightley, he is
6947 _not_ a trifling, silly young man. If he were, he would have done this
6948 differently. He would either have gloried in the achievement, or
6949 been ashamed of it. There would have been either the ostentation of
6950 a coxcomb, or the evasions of a mind too weak to defend its own
6951 vanities.--No, I am perfectly sure that he is not trifling or silly.”
6952
6953 With Tuesday came the agreeable prospect of seeing him again, and for
6954 a longer time than hitherto; of judging of his general manners, and by
6955 inference, of the meaning of his manners towards herself; of guessing
6956 how soon it might be necessary for her to throw coldness into her air;
6957 and of fancying what the observations of all those might be, who were
6958 now seeing them together for the first time.
6959
6960 She meant to be very happy, in spite of the scene being laid at Mr.
6961 Cole’s; and without being able to forget that among the failings of Mr.
6962 Elton, even in the days of his favour, none had disturbed her more than
6963 his propensity to dine with Mr. Cole.
6964
6965 Her father’s comfort was amply secured, Mrs. Bates as well as Mrs.
6966 Goddard being able to come; and her last pleasing duty, before she left
6967 the house, was to pay her respects to them as they sat together after
6968 dinner; and while her father was fondly noticing the beauty of her
6969 dress, to make the two ladies all the amends in her power, by helping
6970 them to large slices of cake and full glasses of wine, for whatever
6971 unwilling self-denial his care of their constitution might have obliged
6972 them to practise during the meal.--She had provided a plentiful dinner
6973 for them; she wished she could know that they had been allowed to eat
6974 it.
6975
6976 She followed another carriage to Mr. Cole’s door; and was pleased to see
6977 that it was Mr. Knightley’s; for Mr. Knightley keeping no horses,
6978 having little spare money and a great deal of health, activity, and
6979 independence, was too apt, in Emma’s opinion, to get about as he could,
6980 and not use his carriage so often as became the owner of Donwell Abbey.
6981 She had an opportunity now of speaking her approbation while warm from
6982 her heart, for he stopped to hand her out.
6983
6984 “This is coming as you should do,” said she; “like a gentleman.--I am
6985 quite glad to see you.”
6986
6987 He thanked her, observing, “How lucky that we should arrive at the same
6988 moment! for, if we had met first in the drawing-room, I doubt whether
6989 you would have discerned me to be more of a gentleman than usual.--You
6990 might not have distinguished how I came, by my look or manner.”
6991
6992 “Yes I should, I am sure I should. There is always a look of
6993 consciousness or bustle when people come in a way which they know to be
6994 beneath them. You think you carry it off very well, I dare say, but
6995 with you it is a sort of bravado, an air of affected unconcern; I always
6996 observe it whenever I meet you under those circumstances. _Now_ you have
6997 nothing to try for. You are not afraid of being supposed ashamed. You
6998 are not striving to look taller than any body else. _Now_ I shall really
6999 be very happy to walk into the same room with you.”
7000
7001 “Nonsensical girl!” was his reply, but not at all in anger.
7002
7003 Emma had as much reason to be satisfied with the rest of the party as
7004 with Mr. Knightley. She was received with a cordial respect which could
7005 not but please, and given all the consequence she could wish for.
7006 When the Westons arrived, the kindest looks of love, the strongest of
7007 admiration were for her, from both husband and wife; the son approached
7008 her with a cheerful eagerness which marked her as his peculiar object,
7009 and at dinner she found him seated by her--and, as she firmly believed,
7010 not without some dexterity on his side.
7011
7012 The party was rather large, as it included one other family, a proper
7013 unobjectionable country family, whom the Coles had the advantage of
7014 naming among their acquaintance, and the male part of Mr. Cox’s family,
7015 the lawyer of Highbury. The less worthy females were to come in the
7016 evening, with Miss Bates, Miss Fairfax, and Miss Smith; but already,
7017 at dinner, they were too numerous for any subject of conversation to be
7018 general; and, while politics and Mr. Elton were talked over, Emma could
7019 fairly surrender all her attention to the pleasantness of her neighbour.
7020 The first remote sound to which she felt herself obliged to attend, was
7021 the name of Jane Fairfax. Mrs. Cole seemed to be relating something of
7022 her that was expected to be very interesting. She listened, and found
7023 it well worth listening to. That very dear part of Emma, her fancy,
7024 received an amusing supply. Mrs. Cole was telling that she had been
7025 calling on Miss Bates, and as soon as she entered the room had
7026 been struck by the sight of a pianoforte--a very elegant looking
7027 instrument--not a grand, but a large-sized square pianoforte; and the
7028 substance of the story, the end of all the dialogue which ensued of
7029 surprize, and inquiry, and congratulations on her side, and explanations
7030 on Miss Bates’s, was, that this pianoforte had arrived from
7031 Broadwood’s the day before, to the great astonishment of both aunt and
7032 niece--entirely unexpected; that at first, by Miss Bates’s account,
7033 Jane herself was quite at a loss, quite bewildered to think who could
7034 possibly have ordered it--but now, they were both perfectly satisfied
7035 that it could be from only one quarter;--of course it must be from
7036 Colonel Campbell.
7037
7038 “One can suppose nothing else,” added Mrs. Cole, “and I was only
7039 surprized that there could ever have been a doubt. But Jane, it seems,
7040 had a letter from them very lately, and not a word was said about it.
7041 She knows their ways best; but I should not consider their silence as
7042 any reason for their not meaning to make the present. They might chuse
7043 to surprize her.”
7044
7045 Mrs. Cole had many to agree with her; every body who spoke on the
7046 subject was equally convinced that it must come from Colonel Campbell,
7047 and equally rejoiced that such a present had been made; and there were
7048 enough ready to speak to allow Emma to think her own way, and still
7049 listen to Mrs. Cole.
7050
7051 “I declare, I do not know when I have heard any thing that has given me
7052 more satisfaction!--It always has quite hurt me that Jane Fairfax, who
7053 plays so delightfully, should not have an instrument. It seemed quite
7054 a shame, especially considering how many houses there are where fine
7055 instruments are absolutely thrown away. This is like giving ourselves
7056 a slap, to be sure! and it was but yesterday I was telling Mr. Cole,
7057 I really was ashamed to look at our new grand pianoforte in the
7058 drawing-room, while I do not know one note from another, and our little
7059 girls, who are but just beginning, perhaps may never make any thing of
7060 it; and there is poor Jane Fairfax, who is mistress of music, has not
7061 any thing of the nature of an instrument, not even the pitifullest old
7062 spinet in the world, to amuse herself with.--I was saying this to
7063 Mr. Cole but yesterday, and he quite agreed with me; only he is so
7064 particularly fond of music that he could not help indulging himself
7065 in the purchase, hoping that some of our good neighbours might be so
7066 obliging occasionally to put it to a better use than we can; and that
7067 really is the reason why the instrument was bought--or else I am sure
7068 we ought to be ashamed of it.--We are in great hopes that Miss Woodhouse
7069 may be prevailed with to try it this evening.”
7070
7071 Miss Woodhouse made the proper acquiescence; and finding that nothing
7072 more was to be entrapped from any communication of Mrs. Cole’s, turned
7073 to Frank Churchill.
7074
7075 “Why do you smile?” said she.
7076
7077 “Nay, why do you?”
7078
7079 “Me!--I suppose I smile for pleasure at Colonel Campbell’s being so rich
7080 and so liberal.--It is a handsome present.”
7081
7082 “Very.”
7083
7084 “I rather wonder that it was never made before.”
7085
7086 “Perhaps Miss Fairfax has never been staying here so long before.”
7087
7088 “Or that he did not give her the use of their own instrument--which must
7089 now be shut up in London, untouched by any body.”
7090
7091 “That is a grand pianoforte, and he might think it too large for Mrs.
7092 Bates’s house.”
7093
7094 “You may _say_ what you chuse--but your countenance testifies that your
7095 _thoughts_ on this subject are very much like mine.”
7096
7097 “I do not know. I rather believe you are giving me more credit for
7098 acuteness than I deserve. I smile because you smile, and shall probably
7099 suspect whatever I find you suspect; but at present I do not see what
7100 there is to question. If Colonel Campbell is not the person, who can
7101 be?”
7102
7103 “What do you say to Mrs. Dixon?”
7104
7105 “Mrs. Dixon! very true indeed. I had not thought of Mrs. Dixon. She must
7106 know as well as her father, how acceptable an instrument would be; and
7107 perhaps the mode of it, the mystery, the surprize, is more like a young
7108 woman’s scheme than an elderly man’s. It is Mrs. Dixon, I dare say. I
7109 told you that your suspicions would guide mine.”
7110
7111 “If so, you must extend your suspicions and comprehend _Mr_. Dixon in
7112 them.”
7113
7114 “Mr. Dixon.--Very well. Yes, I immediately perceive that it must be the
7115 joint present of Mr. and Mrs. Dixon. We were speaking the other day, you
7116 know, of his being so warm an admirer of her performance.”
7117
7118 “Yes, and what you told me on that head, confirmed an idea which I had
7119 entertained before.--I do not mean to reflect upon the good intentions
7120 of either Mr. Dixon or Miss Fairfax, but I cannot help suspecting either
7121 that, after making his proposals to her friend, he had the misfortune
7122 to fall in love with _her_, or that he became conscious of a little
7123 attachment on her side. One might guess twenty things without guessing
7124 exactly the right; but I am sure there must be a particular cause for
7125 her chusing to come to Highbury instead of going with the Campbells
7126 to Ireland. Here, she must be leading a life of privation and penance;
7127 there it would have been all enjoyment. As to the pretence of trying her
7128 native air, I look upon that as a mere excuse.--In the summer it might
7129 have passed; but what can any body’s native air do for them in the
7130 months of January, February, and March? Good fires and carriages would
7131 be much more to the purpose in most cases of delicate health, and I dare
7132 say in her’s. I do not require you to adopt all my suspicions, though
7133 you make so noble a profession of doing it, but I honestly tell you what
7134 they are.”
7135
7136 “And, upon my word, they have an air of great probability. Mr. Dixon’s
7137 preference of her music to her friend’s, I can answer for being very
7138 decided.”
7139
7140 “And then, he saved her life. Did you ever hear of that?--A water
7141 party; and by some accident she was falling overboard. He caught her.”
7142
7143 “He did. I was there--one of the party.”
7144
7145 “Were you really?--Well!--But you observed nothing of course, for it
7146 seems to be a new idea to you.--If I had been there, I think I should
7147 have made some discoveries.”
7148
7149 “I dare say you would; but I, simple I, saw nothing but the fact, that
7150 Miss Fairfax was nearly dashed from the vessel and that Mr. Dixon caught
7151 her.--It was the work of a moment. And though the consequent shock and
7152 alarm was very great and much more durable--indeed I believe it was
7153 half an hour before any of us were comfortable again--yet that was too
7154 general a sensation for any thing of peculiar anxiety to be
7155 observable. I do not mean to say, however, that you might not have made
7156 discoveries.”
7157
7158 The conversation was here interrupted. They were called on to share
7159 in the awkwardness of a rather long interval between the courses, and
7160 obliged to be as formal and as orderly as the others; but when the table
7161 was again safely covered, when every corner dish was placed exactly
7162 right, and occupation and ease were generally restored, Emma said,
7163
7164 “The arrival of this pianoforte is decisive with me. I wanted to know
7165 a little more, and this tells me quite enough. Depend upon it, we shall
7166 soon hear that it is a present from Mr. and Mrs. Dixon.”
7167
7168 “And if the Dixons should absolutely deny all knowledge of it we must
7169 conclude it to come from the Campbells.”
7170
7171 “No, I am sure it is not from the Campbells. Miss Fairfax knows it is
7172 not from the Campbells, or they would have been guessed at first. She
7173 would not have been puzzled, had she dared fix on them. I may not have
7174 convinced you perhaps, but I am perfectly convinced myself that Mr.
7175 Dixon is a principal in the business.”
7176
7177 “Indeed you injure me if you suppose me unconvinced. Your reasonings
7178 carry my judgment along with them entirely. At first, while I supposed
7179 you satisfied that Colonel Campbell was the giver, I saw it only as
7180 paternal kindness, and thought it the most natural thing in the world.
7181 But when you mentioned Mrs. Dixon, I felt how much more probable that it
7182 should be the tribute of warm female friendship. And now I can see it in
7183 no other light than as an offering of love.”
7184
7185 There was no occasion to press the matter farther. The conviction seemed
7186 real; he looked as if he felt it. She said no more, other subjects
7187 took their turn; and the rest of the dinner passed away; the dessert
7188 succeeded, the children came in, and were talked to and admired amid the
7189 usual rate of conversation; a few clever things said, a few downright
7190 silly, but by much the larger proportion neither the one nor the
7191 other--nothing worse than everyday remarks, dull repetitions, old news,
7192 and heavy jokes.
7193
7194 The ladies had not been long in the drawing-room, before the other
7195 ladies, in their different divisions, arrived. Emma watched the entree
7196 of her own particular little friend; and if she could not exult in her
7197 dignity and grace, she could not only love the blooming sweetness and
7198 the artless manner, but could most heartily rejoice in that light,
7199 cheerful, unsentimental disposition which allowed her so many
7200 alleviations of pleasure, in the midst of the pangs of disappointed
7201 affection. There she sat--and who would have guessed how many tears she
7202 had been lately shedding? To be in company, nicely dressed herself and
7203 seeing others nicely dressed, to sit and smile and look pretty, and say
7204 nothing, was enough for the happiness of the present hour. Jane Fairfax
7205 did look and move superior; but Emma suspected she might have been
7206 glad to change feelings with Harriet, very glad to have purchased the
7207 mortification of having loved--yes, of having loved even Mr. Elton in
7208 vain--by the surrender of all the dangerous pleasure of knowing herself
7209 beloved by the husband of her friend.
7210
7211 In so large a party it was not necessary that Emma should approach her.
7212 She did not wish to speak of the pianoforte, she felt too much in the
7213 secret herself, to think the appearance of curiosity or interest fair,
7214 and therefore purposely kept at a distance; but by the others, the
7215 subject was almost immediately introduced, and she saw the blush of
7216 consciousness with which congratulations were received, the blush
7217 of guilt which accompanied the name of “my excellent friend Colonel
7218 Campbell.”
7219
7220 Mrs. Weston, kind-hearted and musical, was particularly interested
7221 by the circumstance, and Emma could not help being amused at her
7222 perseverance in dwelling on the subject; and having so much to ask and
7223 to say as to tone, touch, and pedal, totally unsuspicious of that wish
7224 of saying as little about it as possible, which she plainly read in the
7225 fair heroine’s countenance.
7226
7227 They were soon joined by some of the gentlemen; and the very first
7228 of the early was Frank Churchill. In he walked, the first and the
7229 handsomest; and after paying his compliments en passant to Miss Bates
7230 and her niece, made his way directly to the opposite side of the circle,
7231 where sat Miss Woodhouse; and till he could find a seat by her, would
7232 not sit at all. Emma divined what every body present must be thinking.
7233 She was his object, and every body must perceive it. She introduced him
7234 to her friend, Miss Smith, and, at convenient moments afterwards, heard
7235 what each thought of the other. “He had never seen so lovely a face, and
7236 was delighted with her naivete.” And she, “Only to be sure it was paying
7237 him too great a compliment, but she did think there were some looks a
7238 little like Mr. Elton.” Emma restrained her indignation, and only turned
7239 from her in silence.
7240
7241 Smiles of intelligence passed between her and the gentleman on first
7242 glancing towards Miss Fairfax; but it was most prudent to avoid speech.
7243 He told her that he had been impatient to leave the dining-room--hated
7244 sitting long--was always the first to move when he could--that his
7245 father, Mr. Knightley, Mr. Cox, and Mr. Cole, were left very busy over
7246 parish business--that as long as he had staid, however, it had been
7247 pleasant enough, as he had found them in general a set of gentlemanlike,
7248 sensible men; and spoke so handsomely of Highbury altogether--thought it
7249 so abundant in agreeable families--that Emma began to feel she had been
7250 used to despise the place rather too much. She questioned him as to the
7251 society in Yorkshire--the extent of the neighbourhood about Enscombe,
7252 and the sort; and could make out from his answers that, as far as
7253 Enscombe was concerned, there was very little going on, that their
7254 visitings were among a range of great families, none very near; and
7255 that even when days were fixed, and invitations accepted, it was an even
7256 chance that Mrs. Churchill were not in health and spirits for going;
7257 that they made a point of visiting no fresh person; and that, though
7258 he had his separate engagements, it was not without difficulty, without
7259 considerable address _at_ _times_, that he could get away, or introduce
7260 an acquaintance for a night.
7261
7262 She saw that Enscombe could not satisfy, and that Highbury, taken at
7263 its best, might reasonably please a young man who had more retirement at
7264 home than he liked. His importance at Enscombe was very evident. He did
7265 not boast, but it naturally betrayed itself, that he had persuaded his
7266 aunt where his uncle could do nothing, and on her laughing and noticing
7267 it, he owned that he believed (excepting one or two points) he could
7268 _with_ _time_ persuade her to any thing. One of those points on which
7269 his influence failed, he then mentioned. He had wanted very much to
7270 go abroad--had been very eager indeed to be allowed to travel--but she
7271 would not hear of it. This had happened the year before. _Now_, he said,
7272 he was beginning to have no longer the same wish.
7273
7274 The unpersuadable point, which he did not mention, Emma guessed to be
7275 good behaviour to his father.
7276
7277 “I have made a most wretched discovery,” said he, after a short pause.--
7278 “I have been here a week to-morrow--half my time. I never knew days fly
7279 so fast. A week to-morrow!--And I have hardly begun to enjoy myself.
7280 But just got acquainted with Mrs. Weston, and others!--I hate the
7281 recollection.”
7282
7283 “Perhaps you may now begin to regret that you spent one whole day, out
7284 of so few, in having your hair cut.”
7285
7286 “No,” said he, smiling, “that is no subject of regret at all. I have
7287 no pleasure in seeing my friends, unless I can believe myself fit to be
7288 seen.”
7289
7290 The rest of the gentlemen being now in the room, Emma found herself
7291 obliged to turn from him for a few minutes, and listen to Mr. Cole. When
7292 Mr. Cole had moved away, and her attention could be restored as before,
7293 she saw Frank Churchill looking intently across the room at Miss
7294 Fairfax, who was sitting exactly opposite.
7295
7296 “What is the matter?” said she.
7297
7298 He started. “Thank you for rousing me,” he replied. “I believe I have
7299 been very rude; but really Miss Fairfax has done her hair in so odd a
7300 way--so very odd a way--that I cannot keep my eyes from her. I never saw
7301 any thing so outree!--Those curls!--This must be a fancy of her own. I
7302 see nobody else looking like her!--I must go and ask her whether it
7303 is an Irish fashion. Shall I?--Yes, I will--I declare I will--and you
7304 shall see how she takes it;--whether she colours.”
7305
7306 He was gone immediately; and Emma soon saw him standing before Miss
7307 Fairfax, and talking to her; but as to its effect on the young lady,
7308 as he had improvidently placed himself exactly between them, exactly in
7309 front of Miss Fairfax, she could absolutely distinguish nothing.
7310
7311 Before he could return to his chair, it was taken by Mrs. Weston.
7312
7313 “This is the luxury of a large party,” said she:--“one can get near
7314 every body, and say every thing. My dear Emma, I am longing to talk
7315 to you. I have been making discoveries and forming plans, just like
7316 yourself, and I must tell them while the idea is fresh. Do you know how
7317 Miss Bates and her niece came here?”
7318
7319 “How?--They were invited, were not they?”
7320
7321 “Oh! yes--but how they were conveyed hither?--the manner of their
7322 coming?”
7323
7324 “They walked, I conclude. How else could they come?”
7325
7326 “Very true.--Well, a little while ago it occurred to me how very sad
7327 it would be to have Jane Fairfax walking home again, late at night, and
7328 cold as the nights are now. And as I looked at her, though I never saw
7329 her appear to more advantage, it struck me that she was heated, and
7330 would therefore be particularly liable to take cold. Poor girl! I could
7331 not bear the idea of it; so, as soon as Mr. Weston came into the room,
7332 and I could get at him, I spoke to him about the carriage. You may guess
7333 how readily he came into my wishes; and having his approbation, I made
7334 my way directly to Miss Bates, to assure her that the carriage would be
7335 at her service before it took us home; for I thought it would be making
7336 her comfortable at once. Good soul! she was as grateful as possible, you
7337 may be sure. ‘Nobody was ever so fortunate as herself!’--but with many,
7338 many thanks--‘there was no occasion to trouble us, for Mr. Knightley’s
7339 carriage had brought, and was to take them home again.’ I was quite
7340 surprized;--very glad, I am sure; but really quite surprized. Such a
7341 very kind attention--and so thoughtful an attention!--the sort of thing
7342 that so few men would think of. And, in short, from knowing his
7343 usual ways, I am very much inclined to think that it was for their
7344 accommodation the carriage was used at all. I do suspect he would not
7345 have had a pair of horses for himself, and that it was only as an excuse
7346 for assisting them.”
7347
7348 “Very likely,” said Emma--“nothing more likely. I know no man more
7349 likely than Mr. Knightley to do the sort of thing--to do any thing
7350 really good-natured, useful, considerate, or benevolent. He is not a
7351 gallant man, but he is a very humane one; and this, considering Jane
7352 Fairfax’s ill-health, would appear a case of humanity to him;--and for
7353 an act of unostentatious kindness, there is nobody whom I would fix on
7354 more than on Mr. Knightley. I know he had horses to-day--for we arrived
7355 together; and I laughed at him about it, but he said not a word that
7356 could betray.”
7357
7358 “Well,” said Mrs. Weston, smiling, “you give him credit for more simple,
7359 disinterested benevolence in this instance than I do; for while Miss
7360 Bates was speaking, a suspicion darted into my head, and I have never
7361 been able to get it out again. The more I think of it, the more probable
7362 it appears. In short, I have made a match between Mr. Knightley and Jane
7363 Fairfax. See the consequence of keeping you company!--What do you say to
7364 it?”
7365
7366 “Mr. Knightley and Jane Fairfax!” exclaimed Emma. “Dear Mrs. Weston, how
7367 could you think of such a thing?--Mr. Knightley!--Mr. Knightley must not
7368 marry!--You would not have little Henry cut out from Donwell?--Oh! no,
7369 no, Henry must have Donwell. I cannot at all consent to Mr. Knightley’s
7370 marrying; and I am sure it is not at all likely. I am amazed that you
7371 should think of such a thing.”
7372
7373 “My dear Emma, I have told you what led me to think of it. I do not want
7374 the match--I do not want to injure dear little Henry--but the idea has
7375 been given me by circumstances; and if Mr. Knightley really wished to
7376 marry, you would not have him refrain on Henry’s account, a boy of six
7377 years old, who knows nothing of the matter?”
7378
7379 “Yes, I would. I could not bear to have Henry supplanted.--Mr.
7380 Knightley marry!--No, I have never had such an idea, and I cannot adopt
7381 it now. And Jane Fairfax, too, of all women!”
7382
7383 “Nay, she has always been a first favourite with him, as you very well
7384 know.”
7385
7386 “But the imprudence of such a match!”
7387
7388 “I am not speaking of its prudence; merely its probability.”
7389
7390 “I see no probability in it, unless you have any better foundation than
7391 what you mention. His good-nature, his humanity, as I tell you, would
7392 be quite enough to account for the horses. He has a great regard for the
7393 Bateses, you know, independent of Jane Fairfax--and is always glad to
7394 shew them attention. My dear Mrs. Weston, do not take to match-making.
7395 You do it very ill. Jane Fairfax mistress of the Abbey!--Oh! no,
7396 no;--every feeling revolts. For his own sake, I would not have him do so
7397 mad a thing.”
7398
7399 “Imprudent, if you please--but not mad. Excepting inequality of fortune,
7400 and perhaps a little disparity of age, I can see nothing unsuitable.”
7401
7402 “But Mr. Knightley does not want to marry. I am sure he has not the
7403 least idea of it. Do not put it into his head. Why should he marry?--He
7404 is as happy as possible by himself; with his farm, and his sheep, and
7405 his library, and all the parish to manage; and he is extremely fond of
7406 his brother’s children. He has no occasion to marry, either to fill up
7407 his time or his heart.”
7408
7409 “My dear Emma, as long as he thinks so, it is so; but if he really loves
7410 Jane Fairfax--”
7411
7412 “Nonsense! He does not care about Jane Fairfax. In the way of love, I am
7413 sure he does not. He would do any good to her, or her family; but--”
7414
7415 “Well,” said Mrs. Weston, laughing, “perhaps the greatest good he could
7416 do them, would be to give Jane such a respectable home.”
7417
7418 “If it would be good to her, I am sure it would be evil to himself; a
7419 very shameful and degrading connexion. How would he bear to have Miss
7420 Bates belonging to him?--To have her haunting the Abbey, and thanking
7421 him all day long for his great kindness in marrying Jane?--‘So very
7422 kind and obliging!--But he always had been such a very kind neighbour!’
7423 And then fly off, through half a sentence, to her mother’s old
7424 petticoat. ‘Not that it was such a very old petticoat either--for still
7425 it would last a great while--and, indeed, she must thankfully say that
7426 their petticoats were all very strong.’”
7427
7428 “For shame, Emma! Do not mimic her. You divert me against my conscience.
7429 And, upon my word, I do not think Mr. Knightley would be much disturbed
7430 by Miss Bates. Little things do not irritate him. She might talk on; and
7431 if he wanted to say any thing himself, he would only talk louder, and
7432 drown her voice. But the question is not, whether it would be a bad
7433 connexion for him, but whether he wishes it; and I think he does. I have
7434 heard him speak, and so must you, so very highly of Jane Fairfax! The
7435 interest he takes in her--his anxiety about her health--his concern that
7436 she should have no happier prospect! I have heard him express himself
7437 so warmly on those points!--Such an admirer of her performance on the
7438 pianoforte, and of her voice! I have heard him say that he could listen
7439 to her for ever. Oh! and I had almost forgotten one idea that occurred
7440 to me--this pianoforte that has been sent here by somebody--though
7441 we have all been so well satisfied to consider it a present from the
7442 Campbells, may it not be from Mr. Knightley? I cannot help suspecting
7443 him. I think he is just the person to do it, even without being in
7444 love.”
7445
7446 “Then it can be no argument to prove that he is in love. But I do not
7447 think it is at all a likely thing for him to do. Mr. Knightley does
7448 nothing mysteriously.”
7449
7450 “I have heard him lamenting her having no instrument repeatedly; oftener
7451 than I should suppose such a circumstance would, in the common course of
7452 things, occur to him.”
7453
7454 “Very well; and if he had intended to give her one, he would have told
7455 her so.”
7456
7457 “There might be scruples of delicacy, my dear Emma. I have a very strong
7458 notion that it comes from him. I am sure he was particularly silent when
7459 Mrs. Cole told us of it at dinner.”
7460
7461 “You take up an idea, Mrs. Weston, and run away with it; as you have
7462 many a time reproached me with doing. I see no sign of attachment--I
7463 believe nothing of the pianoforte--and proof only shall convince me that
7464 Mr. Knightley has any thought of marrying Jane Fairfax.”
7465
7466 They combated the point some time longer in the same way; Emma rather
7467 gaining ground over the mind of her friend; for Mrs. Weston was the most
7468 used of the two to yield; till a little bustle in the room shewed them
7469 that tea was over, and the instrument in preparation;--and at the same
7470 moment Mr. Cole approaching to entreat Miss Woodhouse would do them the
7471 honour of trying it. Frank Churchill, of whom, in the eagerness of her
7472 conversation with Mrs. Weston, she had been seeing nothing, except that
7473 he had found a seat by Miss Fairfax, followed Mr. Cole, to add his very
7474 pressing entreaties; and as, in every respect, it suited Emma best to
7475 lead, she gave a very proper compliance.
7476
7477 She knew the limitations of her own powers too well to attempt more than
7478 she could perform with credit; she wanted neither taste nor spirit in
7479 the little things which are generally acceptable, and could accompany
7480 her own voice well. One accompaniment to her song took her agreeably by
7481 surprize--a second, slightly but correctly taken by Frank Churchill. Her
7482 pardon was duly begged at the close of the song, and every thing usual
7483 followed. He was accused of having a delightful voice, and a perfect
7484 knowledge of music; which was properly denied; and that he knew nothing
7485 of the matter, and had no voice at all, roundly asserted. They sang
7486 together once more; and Emma would then resign her place to Miss
7487 Fairfax, whose performance, both vocal and instrumental, she never could
7488 attempt to conceal from herself, was infinitely superior to her own.
7489
7490 With mixed feelings, she seated herself at a little distance from the
7491 numbers round the instrument, to listen. Frank Churchill sang again.
7492 They had sung together once or twice, it appeared, at Weymouth. But the
7493 sight of Mr. Knightley among the most attentive, soon drew away half
7494 Emma’s mind; and she fell into a train of thinking on the subject of
7495 Mrs. Weston’s suspicions, to which the sweet sounds of the united voices
7496 gave only momentary interruptions. Her objections to Mr. Knightley’s
7497 marrying did not in the least subside. She could see nothing but evil
7498 in it. It would be a great disappointment to Mr. John Knightley;
7499 consequently to Isabella. A real injury to the children--a most
7500 mortifying change, and material loss to them all;--a very great
7501 deduction from her father’s daily comfort--and, as to herself, she could
7502 not at all endure the idea of Jane Fairfax at Donwell Abbey. A Mrs.
7503 Knightley for them all to give way to!--No--Mr. Knightley must never
7504 marry. Little Henry must remain the heir of Donwell.
7505
7506 Presently Mr. Knightley looked back, and came and sat down by her. They
7507 talked at first only of the performance. His admiration was certainly
7508 very warm; yet she thought, but for Mrs. Weston, it would not have
7509 struck her. As a sort of touchstone, however, she began to speak of his
7510 kindness in conveying the aunt and niece; and though his answer was in
7511 the spirit of cutting the matter short, she believed it to indicate only
7512 his disinclination to dwell on any kindness of his own.
7513
7514 “I often feel concern,” said she, “that I dare not make our carriage
7515 more useful on such occasions. It is not that I am without the wish; but
7516 you know how impossible my father would deem it that James should put-to
7517 for such a purpose.”
7518
7519 “Quite out of the question, quite out of the question,” he
7520 replied;--“but you must often wish it, I am sure.” And he smiled with
7521 such seeming pleasure at the conviction, that she must proceed another
7522 step.
7523
7524 “This present from the Campbells,” said she--“this pianoforte is very
7525 kindly given.”
7526
7527 “Yes,” he replied, and without the smallest apparent
7528 embarrassment.--“But they would have done better had they given
7529 her notice of it. Surprizes are foolish things. The pleasure is not
7530 enhanced, and the inconvenience is often considerable. I should have
7531 expected better judgment in Colonel Campbell.”
7532
7533 From that moment, Emma could have taken her oath that Mr. Knightley had
7534 had no concern in giving the instrument. But whether he were
7535 entirely free from peculiar attachment--whether there were no actual
7536 preference--remained a little longer doubtful. Towards the end of Jane’s
7537 second song, her voice grew thick.
7538
7539 “That will do,” said he, when it was finished, thinking aloud--“you have
7540 sung quite enough for one evening--now be quiet.”
7541
7542 Another song, however, was soon begged for. “One more;--they would not
7543 fatigue Miss Fairfax on any account, and would only ask for one more.”
7544 And Frank Churchill was heard to say, “I think you could manage this
7545 without effort; the first part is so very trifling. The strength of the
7546 song falls on the second.”
7547
7548 Mr. Knightley grew angry.
7549
7550 “That fellow,” said he, indignantly, “thinks of nothing but shewing off
7551 his own voice. This must not be.” And touching Miss Bates, who at that
7552 moment passed near--“Miss Bates, are you mad, to let your niece sing
7553 herself hoarse in this manner? Go, and interfere. They have no mercy on
7554 her.”
7555
7556 Miss Bates, in her real anxiety for Jane, could hardly stay even to
7557 be grateful, before she stept forward and put an end to all farther
7558 singing. Here ceased the concert part of the evening, for Miss Woodhouse
7559 and Miss Fairfax were the only young lady performers; but soon (within
7560 five minutes) the proposal of dancing--originating nobody exactly knew
7561 where--was so effectually promoted by Mr. and Mrs. Cole, that every
7562 thing was rapidly clearing away, to give proper space. Mrs. Weston,
7563 capital in her country-dances, was seated, and beginning an irresistible
7564 waltz; and Frank Churchill, coming up with most becoming gallantry to
7565 Emma, had secured her hand, and led her up to the top.
7566
7567 While waiting till the other young people could pair themselves off,
7568 Emma found time, in spite of the compliments she was receiving on
7569 her voice and her taste, to look about, and see what became of Mr.
7570 Knightley. This would be a trial. He was no dancer in general. If he
7571 were to be very alert in engaging Jane Fairfax now, it might augur
7572 something. There was no immediate appearance. No; he was talking to Mrs.
7573 Cole--he was looking on unconcerned; Jane was asked by somebody else,
7574 and he was still talking to Mrs. Cole.
7575
7576 Emma had no longer an alarm for Henry; his interest was yet safe; and
7577 she led off the dance with genuine spirit and enjoyment. Not more than
7578 five couple could be mustered; but the rarity and the suddenness of
7579 it made it very delightful, and she found herself well matched in a
7580 partner. They were a couple worth looking at.
7581
7582 Two dances, unfortunately, were all that could be allowed. It was
7583 growing late, and Miss Bates became anxious to get home, on her mother’s
7584 account. After some attempts, therefore, to be permitted to begin again,
7585 they were obliged to thank Mrs. Weston, look sorrowful, and have done.
7586
7587 “Perhaps it is as well,” said Frank Churchill, as he attended Emma to
7588 her carriage. “I must have asked Miss Fairfax, and her languid dancing
7589 would not have agreed with me, after yours.”
7590
7591
7592
7593 CHAPTER IX
7594
7595
7596 Emma did not repent her condescension in going to the Coles. The visit
7597 afforded her many pleasant recollections the next day; and all that she
7598 might be supposed to have lost on the side of dignified seclusion, must
7599 be amply repaid in the splendour of popularity. She must have delighted
7600 the Coles--worthy people, who deserved to be made happy!--And left a
7601 name behind her that would not soon die away.
7602
7603 Perfect happiness, even in memory, is not common; and there were two
7604 points on which she was not quite easy. She doubted whether she had not
7605 transgressed the duty of woman by woman, in betraying her suspicions of
7606 Jane Fairfax’s feelings to Frank Churchill. It was hardly right; but it
7607 had been so strong an idea, that it would escape her, and his submission
7608 to all that she told, was a compliment to her penetration, which made
7609 it difficult for her to be quite certain that she ought to have held her
7610 tongue.
7611
7612 The other circumstance of regret related also to Jane Fairfax; and
7613 there she had no doubt. She did unfeignedly and unequivocally regret the
7614 inferiority of her own playing and singing. She did most heartily
7615 grieve over the idleness of her childhood--and sat down and practised
7616 vigorously an hour and a half.
7617
7618 She was then interrupted by Harriet’s coming in; and if Harriet’s praise
7619 could have satisfied her, she might soon have been comforted.
7620
7621 “Oh! if I could but play as well as you and Miss Fairfax!”
7622
7623 “Don’t class us together, Harriet. My playing is no more like her’s,
7624 than a lamp is like sunshine.”
7625
7626 “Oh! dear--I think you play the best of the two. I think you play quite
7627 as well as she does. I am sure I had much rather hear you. Every body
7628 last night said how well you played.”
7629
7630 “Those who knew any thing about it, must have felt the difference. The
7631 truth is, Harriet, that my playing is just good enough to be praised,
7632 but Jane Fairfax’s is much beyond it.”
7633
7634 “Well, I always shall think that you play quite as well as she does, or
7635 that if there is any difference nobody would ever find it out. Mr. Cole
7636 said how much taste you had; and Mr. Frank Churchill talked a great deal
7637 about your taste, and that he valued taste much more than execution.”
7638
7639 “Ah! but Jane Fairfax has them both, Harriet.”
7640
7641 “Are you sure? I saw she had execution, but I did not know she had any
7642 taste. Nobody talked about it. And I hate Italian singing.--There is no
7643 understanding a word of it. Besides, if she does play so very well, you
7644 know, it is no more than she is obliged to do, because she will have to
7645 teach. The Coxes were wondering last night whether she would get into
7646 any great family. How did you think the Coxes looked?”
7647
7648 “Just as they always do--very vulgar.”
7649
7650 “They told me something,” said Harriet rather hesitatingly; “but it is
7651 nothing of any consequence.”
7652
7653 Emma was obliged to ask what they had told her, though fearful of its
7654 producing Mr. Elton.
7655
7656 “They told me--that Mr. Martin dined with them last Saturday.”
7657
7658 “Oh!”
7659
7660 “He came to their father upon some business, and he asked him to stay to
7661 dinner.”
7662
7663 “Oh!”
7664
7665 “They talked a great deal about him, especially Anne Cox. I do not know
7666 what she meant, but she asked me if I thought I should go and stay there
7667 again next summer.”
7668
7669 “She meant to be impertinently curious, just as such an Anne Cox should
7670 be.”
7671
7672 “She said he was very agreeable the day he dined there. He sat by her at
7673 dinner. Miss Nash thinks either of the Coxes would be very glad to marry
7674 him.”
7675
7676 “Very likely.--I think they are, without exception, the most vulgar
7677 girls in Highbury.”
7678
7679 Harriet had business at Ford’s.--Emma thought it most prudent to go with
7680 her. Another accidental meeting with the Martins was possible, and in
7681 her present state, would be dangerous.
7682
7683 Harriet, tempted by every thing and swayed by half a word, was always
7684 very long at a purchase; and while she was still hanging over muslins
7685 and changing her mind, Emma went to the door for amusement.--Much could
7686 not be hoped from the traffic of even the busiest part of Highbury;--Mr.
7687 Perry walking hastily by, Mr. William Cox letting himself in at the
7688 office-door, Mr. Cole’s carriage-horses returning from exercise, or a
7689 stray letter-boy on an obstinate mule, were the liveliest objects she
7690 could presume to expect; and when her eyes fell only on the butcher with
7691 his tray, a tidy old woman travelling homewards from shop with her full
7692 basket, two curs quarrelling over a dirty bone, and a string of dawdling
7693 children round the baker’s little bow-window eyeing the gingerbread, she
7694 knew she had no reason to complain, and was amused enough; quite enough
7695 still to stand at the door. A mind lively and at ease, can do with
7696 seeing nothing, and can see nothing that does not answer.
7697
7698 She looked down the Randalls road. The scene enlarged; two persons
7699 appeared; Mrs. Weston and her son-in-law; they were walking into
7700 Highbury;--to Hartfield of course. They were stopping, however, in the
7701 first place at Mrs. Bates’s; whose house was a little nearer
7702 Randalls than Ford’s; and had all but knocked, when Emma caught their
7703 eye.--Immediately they crossed the road and came forward to her; and the
7704 agreeableness of yesterday’s engagement seemed to give fresh pleasure to
7705 the present meeting. Mrs. Weston informed her that she was going to call
7706 on the Bateses, in order to hear the new instrument.
7707
7708 “For my companion tells me,” said she, “that I absolutely promised Miss
7709 Bates last night, that I would come this morning. I was not aware of it
7710 myself. I did not know that I had fixed a day, but as he says I did, I
7711 am going now.”
7712
7713 “And while Mrs. Weston pays her visit, I may be allowed, I hope,” said
7714 Frank Churchill, “to join your party and wait for her at Hartfield--if
7715 you are going home.”
7716
7717 Mrs. Weston was disappointed.
7718
7719 “I thought you meant to go with me. They would be very much pleased.”
7720
7721 “Me! I should be quite in the way. But, perhaps--I may be equally in the
7722 way here. Miss Woodhouse looks as if she did not want me. My aunt always
7723 sends me off when she is shopping. She says I fidget her to death; and
7724 Miss Woodhouse looks as if she could almost say the same. What am I to
7725 do?”
7726
7727 “I am here on no business of my own,” said Emma; “I am only waiting for
7728 my friend. She will probably have soon done, and then we shall go home.
7729 But you had better go with Mrs. Weston and hear the instrument.”
7730
7731 “Well--if you advise it.--But (with a smile) if Colonel Campbell should
7732 have employed a careless friend, and if it should prove to have an
7733 indifferent tone--what shall I say? I shall be no support to Mrs.
7734 Weston. She might do very well by herself. A disagreeable truth would be
7735 palatable through her lips, but I am the wretchedest being in the world
7736 at a civil falsehood.”
7737
7738 “I do not believe any such thing,” replied Emma.--“I am persuaded that
7739 you can be as insincere as your neighbours, when it is necessary; but
7740 there is no reason to suppose the instrument is indifferent. Quite
7741 otherwise indeed, if I understood Miss Fairfax’s opinion last night.”
7742
7743 “Do come with me,” said Mrs. Weston, “if it be not very disagreeable to
7744 you. It need not detain us long. We will go to Hartfield afterwards.
7745 We will follow them to Hartfield. I really wish you to call with me. It
7746 will be felt so great an attention! and I always thought you meant it.”
7747
7748 He could say no more; and with the hope of Hartfield to reward him,
7749 returned with Mrs. Weston to Mrs. Bates’s door. Emma watched them in,
7750 and then joined Harriet at the interesting counter,--trying, with all
7751 the force of her own mind, to convince her that if she wanted plain
7752 muslin it was of no use to look at figured; and that a blue ribbon, be
7753 it ever so beautiful, would still never match her yellow pattern. At
7754 last it was all settled, even to the destination of the parcel.
7755
7756 “Should I send it to Mrs. Goddard’s, ma’am?” asked Mrs.
7757 Ford.--“Yes--no--yes, to Mrs. Goddard’s. Only my pattern gown is at
7758 Hartfield. No, you shall send it to Hartfield, if you please. But then,
7759 Mrs. Goddard will want to see it.--And I could take the pattern gown
7760 home any day. But I shall want the ribbon directly--so it had better go
7761 to Hartfield--at least the ribbon. You could make it into two parcels,
7762 Mrs. Ford, could not you?”
7763
7764 “It is not worth while, Harriet, to give Mrs. Ford the trouble of two
7765 parcels.”
7766
7767 “No more it is.”
7768
7769 “No trouble in the world, ma’am,” said the obliging Mrs. Ford.
7770
7771 “Oh! but indeed I would much rather have it only in one. Then, if you
7772 please, you shall send it all to Mrs. Goddard’s--I do not know--No, I
7773 think, Miss Woodhouse, I may just as well have it sent to Hartfield, and
7774 take it home with me at night. What do you advise?”
7775
7776 “That you do not give another half-second to the subject. To Hartfield,
7777 if you please, Mrs. Ford.”
7778
7779 “Aye, that will be much best,” said Harriet, quite satisfied, “I should
7780 not at all like to have it sent to Mrs. Goddard’s.”
7781
7782 Voices approached the shop--or rather one voice and two ladies: Mrs.
7783 Weston and Miss Bates met them at the door.
7784
7785 “My dear Miss Woodhouse,” said the latter, “I am just run across to
7786 entreat the favour of you to come and sit down with us a little while,
7787 and give us your opinion of our new instrument; you and Miss Smith. How
7788 do you do, Miss Smith?--Very well I thank you.--And I begged Mrs. Weston
7789 to come with me, that I might be sure of succeeding.”
7790
7791 “I hope Mrs. Bates and Miss Fairfax are--”
7792
7793 “Very well, I am much obliged to you. My mother is delightfully well;
7794 and Jane caught no cold last night. How is Mr. Woodhouse?--I am so glad
7795 to hear such a good account. Mrs. Weston told me you were here.--Oh!
7796 then, said I, I must run across, I am sure Miss Woodhouse will allow me
7797 just to run across and entreat her to come in; my mother will be so
7798 very happy to see her--and now we are such a nice party, she cannot
7799 refuse.--‘Aye, pray do,’ said Mr. Frank Churchill, ‘Miss Woodhouse’s
7800 opinion of the instrument will be worth having.’--But, said I, I shall
7801 be more sure of succeeding if one of you will go with me.--‘Oh,’ said
7802 he, ‘wait half a minute, till I have finished my job;’--For, would you
7803 believe it, Miss Woodhouse, there he is, in the most obliging manner in
7804 the world, fastening in the rivet of my mother’s spectacles.--The rivet
7805 came out, you know, this morning.--So very obliging!--For my mother had
7806 no use of her spectacles--could not put them on. And, by the bye, every
7807 body ought to have two pair of spectacles; they should indeed. Jane said
7808 so. I meant to take them over to John Saunders the first thing I did,
7809 but something or other hindered me all the morning; first one thing,
7810 then another, there is no saying what, you know. At one time Patty came
7811 to say she thought the kitchen chimney wanted sweeping. Oh, said I,
7812 Patty do not come with your bad news to me. Here is the rivet of your
7813 mistress’s spectacles out. Then the baked apples came home, Mrs. Wallis
7814 sent them by her boy; they are extremely civil and obliging to us, the
7815 Wallises, always--I have heard some people say that Mrs. Wallis can be
7816 uncivil and give a very rude answer, but we have never known any thing
7817 but the greatest attention from them. And it cannot be for the value
7818 of our custom now, for what is our consumption of bread, you know?
7819 Only three of us.--besides dear Jane at present--and she really eats
7820 nothing--makes such a shocking breakfast, you would be quite frightened
7821 if you saw it. I dare not let my mother know how little she eats--so I
7822 say one thing and then I say another, and it passes off. But about the
7823 middle of the day she gets hungry, and there is nothing she likes so
7824 well as these baked apples, and they are extremely wholesome, for I took
7825 the opportunity the other day of asking Mr. Perry; I happened to meet
7826 him in the street. Not that I had any doubt before--I have so often
7827 heard Mr. Woodhouse recommend a baked apple. I believe it is the only
7828 way that Mr. Woodhouse thinks the fruit thoroughly wholesome. We
7829 have apple-dumplings, however, very often. Patty makes an excellent
7830 apple-dumpling. Well, Mrs. Weston, you have prevailed, I hope, and these
7831 ladies will oblige us.”
7832
7833 Emma would be “very happy to wait on Mrs. Bates, &c.,” and they did at
7834 last move out of the shop, with no farther delay from Miss Bates than,
7835
7836 “How do you do, Mrs. Ford? I beg your pardon. I did not see you before.
7837 I hear you have a charming collection of new ribbons from town. Jane
7838 came back delighted yesterday. Thank ye, the gloves do very well--only a
7839 little too large about the wrist; but Jane is taking them in.”
7840
7841 “What was I talking of?” said she, beginning again when they were all in
7842 the street.
7843
7844 Emma wondered on what, of all the medley, she would fix.
7845
7846 “I declare I cannot recollect what I was talking of.--Oh! my mother’s
7847 spectacles. So very obliging of Mr. Frank Churchill! ‘Oh!’ said he,
7848 ‘I do think I can fasten the rivet; I like a job of this kind
7849 excessively.’--Which you know shewed him to be so very.... Indeed I must
7850 say that, much as I had heard of him before and much as I had expected,
7851 he very far exceeds any thing.... I do congratulate you, Mrs. Weston,
7852 most warmly. He seems every thing the fondest parent could....
7853 ‘Oh!’ said he, ‘I can fasten the rivet. I like a job of that sort
7854 excessively.’ I never shall forget his manner. And when I brought out
7855 the baked apples from the closet, and hoped our friends would be so very
7856 obliging as to take some, ‘Oh!’ said he directly, ‘there is nothing
7857 in the way of fruit half so good, and these are the finest-looking
7858 home-baked apples I ever saw in my life.’ That, you know, was so
7859 very.... And I am sure, by his manner, it was no compliment. Indeed they
7860 are very delightful apples, and Mrs. Wallis does them full justice--only
7861 we do not have them baked more than twice, and Mr. Woodhouse made us
7862 promise to have them done three times--but Miss Woodhouse will be so
7863 good as not to mention it. The apples themselves are the very finest
7864 sort for baking, beyond a doubt; all from Donwell--some of Mr.
7865 Knightley’s most liberal supply. He sends us a sack every year; and
7866 certainly there never was such a keeping apple anywhere as one of his
7867 trees--I believe there is two of them. My mother says the orchard was
7868 always famous in her younger days. But I was really quite shocked the
7869 other day--for Mr. Knightley called one morning, and Jane was eating
7870 these apples, and we talked about them and said how much she enjoyed
7871 them, and he asked whether we were not got to the end of our stock. ‘I
7872 am sure you must be,’ said he, ‘and I will send you another supply; for
7873 I have a great many more than I can ever use. William Larkins let me
7874 keep a larger quantity than usual this year. I will send you some more,
7875 before they get good for nothing.’ So I begged he would not--for really
7876 as to ours being gone, I could not absolutely say that we had a great
7877 many left--it was but half a dozen indeed; but they should be all kept
7878 for Jane; and I could not at all bear that he should be sending us more,
7879 so liberal as he had been already; and Jane said the same. And when
7880 he was gone, she almost quarrelled with me--No, I should not say
7881 quarrelled, for we never had a quarrel in our lives; but she was quite
7882 distressed that I had owned the apples were so nearly gone; she wished
7883 I had made him believe we had a great many left. Oh, said I, my dear,
7884 I did say as much as I could. However, the very same evening William
7885 Larkins came over with a large basket of apples, the same sort of
7886 apples, a bushel at least, and I was very much obliged, and went down
7887 and spoke to William Larkins and said every thing, as you may suppose.
7888 William Larkins is such an old acquaintance! I am always glad to see
7889 him. But, however, I found afterwards from Patty, that William said it
7890 was all the apples of _that_ sort his master had; he had brought them
7891 all--and now his master had not one left to bake or boil. William did
7892 not seem to mind it himself, he was so pleased to think his master had
7893 sold so many; for William, you know, thinks more of his master’s profit
7894 than any thing; but Mrs. Hodges, he said, was quite displeased at their
7895 being all sent away. She could not bear that her master should not be
7896 able to have another apple-tart this spring. He told Patty this, but bid
7897 her not mind it, and be sure not to say any thing to us about it, for
7898 Mrs. Hodges _would_ be cross sometimes, and as long as so many sacks
7899 were sold, it did not signify who ate the remainder. And so Patty told
7900 me, and I was excessively shocked indeed! I would not have Mr. Knightley
7901 know any thing about it for the world! He would be so very.... I wanted
7902 to keep it from Jane’s knowledge; but, unluckily, I had mentioned it
7903 before I was aware.”
7904
7905 Miss Bates had just done as Patty opened the door; and her visitors
7906 walked upstairs without having any regular narration to attend to,
7907 pursued only by the sounds of her desultory good-will.
7908
7909 “Pray take care, Mrs. Weston, there is a step at the turning. Pray take
7910 care, Miss Woodhouse, ours is rather a dark staircase--rather darker
7911 and narrower than one could wish. Miss Smith, pray take care. Miss
7912 Woodhouse, I am quite concerned, I am sure you hit your foot. Miss
7913 Smith, the step at the turning.”
7914
7915
7916
7917 CHAPTER X
7918
7919
7920 The appearance of the little sitting-room as they entered, was
7921 tranquillity itself; Mrs. Bates, deprived of her usual employment,
7922 slumbering on one side of the fire, Frank Churchill, at a table near
7923 her, most deedily occupied about her spectacles, and Jane Fairfax,
7924 standing with her back to them, intent on her pianoforte.
7925
7926 Busy as he was, however, the young man was yet able to shew a most happy
7927 countenance on seeing Emma again.
7928
7929 “This is a pleasure,” said he, in rather a low voice, “coming at least
7930 ten minutes earlier than I had calculated. You find me trying to be
7931 useful; tell me if you think I shall succeed.”
7932
7933 “What!” said Mrs. Weston, “have not you finished it yet? you would not
7934 earn a very good livelihood as a working silversmith at this rate.”
7935
7936 “I have not been working uninterruptedly,” he replied, “I have been
7937 assisting Miss Fairfax in trying to make her instrument stand steadily,
7938 it was not quite firm; an unevenness in the floor, I believe. You see
7939 we have been wedging one leg with paper. This was very kind of you to be
7940 persuaded to come. I was almost afraid you would be hurrying home.”
7941
7942 He contrived that she should be seated by him; and was sufficiently
7943 employed in looking out the best baked apple for her, and trying to make
7944 her help or advise him in his work, till Jane Fairfax was quite ready
7945 to sit down to the pianoforte again. That she was not immediately ready,
7946 Emma did suspect to arise from the state of her nerves; she had not yet
7947 possessed the instrument long enough to touch it without emotion; she
7948 must reason herself into the power of performance; and Emma could not
7949 but pity such feelings, whatever their origin, and could not but resolve
7950 never to expose them to her neighbour again.
7951
7952 At last Jane began, and though the first bars were feebly given, the
7953 powers of the instrument were gradually done full justice to. Mrs.
7954 Weston had been delighted before, and was delighted again; Emma
7955 joined her in all her praise; and the pianoforte, with every proper
7956 discrimination, was pronounced to be altogether of the highest promise.
7957
7958 “Whoever Colonel Campbell might employ,” said Frank Churchill, with a
7959 smile at Emma, “the person has not chosen ill. I heard a good deal of
7960 Colonel Campbell’s taste at Weymouth; and the softness of the upper
7961 notes I am sure is exactly what he and _all_ _that_ _party_ would
7962 particularly prize. I dare say, Miss Fairfax, that he either gave his
7963 friend very minute directions, or wrote to Broadwood himself. Do not you
7964 think so?”
7965
7966 Jane did not look round. She was not obliged to hear. Mrs. Weston had
7967 been speaking to her at the same moment.
7968
7969 “It is not fair,” said Emma, in a whisper; “mine was a random guess. Do
7970 not distress her.”
7971
7972 He shook his head with a smile, and looked as if he had very little
7973 doubt and very little mercy. Soon afterwards he began again,
7974
7975 “How much your friends in Ireland must be enjoying your pleasure on this
7976 occasion, Miss Fairfax. I dare say they often think of you, and wonder
7977 which will be the day, the precise day of the instrument’s coming to
7978 hand. Do you imagine Colonel Campbell knows the business to be going
7979 forward just at this time?--Do you imagine it to be the consequence
7980 of an immediate commission from him, or that he may have sent only
7981 a general direction, an order indefinite as to time, to depend upon
7982 contingencies and conveniences?”
7983
7984 He paused. She could not but hear; she could not avoid answering,
7985
7986 “Till I have a letter from Colonel Campbell,” said she, in a voice of
7987 forced calmness, “I can imagine nothing with any confidence. It must be
7988 all conjecture.”
7989
7990 “Conjecture--aye, sometimes one conjectures right, and sometimes one
7991 conjectures wrong. I wish I could conjecture how soon I shall make this
7992 rivet quite firm. What nonsense one talks, Miss Woodhouse, when hard
7993 at work, if one talks at all;--your real workmen, I suppose, hold their
7994 tongues; but we gentlemen labourers if we get hold of a word--Miss
7995 Fairfax said something about conjecturing. There, it is done. I have the
7996 pleasure, madam, (to Mrs. Bates,) of restoring your spectacles, healed
7997 for the present.”
7998
7999 He was very warmly thanked both by mother and daughter; to escape a
8000 little from the latter, he went to the pianoforte, and begged Miss
8001 Fairfax, who was still sitting at it, to play something more.
8002
8003 “If you are very kind,” said he, “it will be one of the waltzes we
8004 danced last night;--let me live them over again. You did not enjoy them
8005 as I did; you appeared tired the whole time. I believe you were glad we
8006 danced no longer; but I would have given worlds--all the worlds one ever
8007 has to give--for another half-hour.”
8008
8009 She played.
8010
8011 “What felicity it is to hear a tune again which _has_ made one
8012 happy!--If I mistake not that was danced at Weymouth.”
8013
8014 She looked up at him for a moment, coloured deeply, and played something
8015 else. He took some music from a chair near the pianoforte, and turning
8016 to Emma, said,
8017
8018 “Here is something quite new to me. Do you know it?--Cramer.--And here
8019 are a new set of Irish melodies. That, from such a quarter, one might
8020 expect. This was all sent with the instrument. Very thoughtful of
8021 Colonel Campbell, was not it?--He knew Miss Fairfax could have no music
8022 here. I honour that part of the attention particularly; it shews it to
8023 have been so thoroughly from the heart. Nothing hastily done; nothing
8024 incomplete. True affection only could have prompted it.”
8025
8026 Emma wished he would be less pointed, yet could not help being amused;
8027 and when on glancing her eye towards Jane Fairfax she caught the remains
8028 of a smile, when she saw that with all the deep blush of consciousness,
8029 there had been a smile of secret delight, she had less scruple in the
8030 amusement, and much less compunction with respect to her.--This
8031 amiable, upright, perfect Jane Fairfax was apparently cherishing very
8032 reprehensible feelings.
8033
8034 He brought all the music to her, and they looked it over together.--Emma
8035 took the opportunity of whispering,
8036
8037 “You speak too plain. She must understand you.”
8038
8039 “I hope she does. I would have her understand me. I am not in the least
8040 ashamed of my meaning.”
8041
8042 “But really, I am half ashamed, and wish I had never taken up the idea.”
8043
8044 “I am very glad you did, and that you communicated it to me. I have now
8045 a key to all her odd looks and ways. Leave shame to her. If she does
8046 wrong, she ought to feel it.”
8047
8048 “She is not entirely without it, I think.”
8049
8050 “I do not see much sign of it. She is playing _Robin_ _Adair_ at this
8051 moment--_his_ favourite.”
8052
8053 Shortly afterwards Miss Bates, passing near the window, descried Mr.
8054 Knightley on horse-back not far off.
8055
8056 “Mr. Knightley I declare!--I must speak to him if possible, just to
8057 thank him. I will not open the window here; it would give you all cold;
8058 but I can go into my mother’s room you know. I dare say he will come
8059 in when he knows who is here. Quite delightful to have you all meet
8060 so!--Our little room so honoured!”
8061
8062 She was in the adjoining chamber while she still spoke, and opening the
8063 casement there, immediately called Mr. Knightley’s attention, and every
8064 syllable of their conversation was as distinctly heard by the others, as
8065 if it had passed within the same apartment.
8066
8067 “How d’ ye do?--how d’ye do?--Very well, I thank you. So obliged to you
8068 for the carriage last night. We were just in time; my mother just ready
8069 for us. Pray come in; do come in. You will find some friends here.”
8070
8071 So began Miss Bates; and Mr. Knightley seemed determined to be heard in
8072 his turn, for most resolutely and commandingly did he say,
8073
8074 “How is your niece, Miss Bates?--I want to inquire after you all, but
8075 particularly your niece. How is Miss Fairfax?--I hope she caught no cold
8076 last night. How is she to-day? Tell me how Miss Fairfax is.”
8077
8078 And Miss Bates was obliged to give a direct answer before he would hear
8079 her in any thing else. The listeners were amused; and Mrs. Weston gave
8080 Emma a look of particular meaning. But Emma still shook her head in
8081 steady scepticism.
8082
8083 “So obliged to you!--so very much obliged to you for the carriage,”
8084 resumed Miss Bates.
8085
8086 He cut her short with,
8087
8088 “I am going to Kingston. Can I do any thing for you?”
8089
8090 “Oh! dear, Kingston--are you?--Mrs. Cole was saying the other day she
8091 wanted something from Kingston.”
8092
8093 “Mrs. Cole has servants to send. Can I do any thing for _you_?”
8094
8095 “No, I thank you. But do come in. Who do you think is here?--Miss
8096 Woodhouse and Miss Smith; so kind as to call to hear the new pianoforte.
8097 Do put up your horse at the Crown, and come in.”
8098
8099 “Well,” said he, in a deliberating manner, “for five minutes, perhaps.”
8100
8101 “And here is Mrs. Weston and Mr. Frank Churchill too!--Quite delightful;
8102 so many friends!”
8103
8104 “No, not now, I thank you. I could not stay two minutes. I must get on
8105 to Kingston as fast as I can.”
8106
8107 “Oh! do come in. They will be so very happy to see you.”
8108
8109 “No, no; your room is full enough. I will call another day, and hear the
8110 pianoforte.”
8111
8112 “Well, I am so sorry!--Oh! Mr. Knightley, what a delightful party last
8113 night; how extremely pleasant.--Did you ever see such dancing?--Was not
8114 it delightful?--Miss Woodhouse and Mr. Frank Churchill; I never saw any
8115 thing equal to it.”
8116
8117 “Oh! very delightful indeed; I can say nothing less, for I suppose Miss
8118 Woodhouse and Mr. Frank Churchill are hearing every thing that passes.
8119 And (raising his voice still more) I do not see why Miss Fairfax should
8120 not be mentioned too. I think Miss Fairfax dances very well; and Mrs.
8121 Weston is the very best country-dance player, without exception,
8122 in England. Now, if your friends have any gratitude, they will say
8123 something pretty loud about you and me in return; but I cannot stay to
8124 hear it.”
8125
8126 “Oh! Mr. Knightley, one moment more; something of consequence--so
8127 shocked!--Jane and I are both so shocked about the apples!”
8128
8129 “What is the matter now?”
8130
8131 “To think of your sending us all your store apples. You said you had
8132 a great many, and now you have not one left. We really are so shocked!
8133 Mrs. Hodges may well be angry. William Larkins mentioned it here. You
8134 should not have done it, indeed you should not. Ah! he is off. He never
8135 can bear to be thanked. But I thought he would have staid now, and it
8136 would have been a pity not to have mentioned.... Well, (returning to the
8137 room,) I have not been able to succeed. Mr. Knightley cannot stop. He is
8138 going to Kingston. He asked me if he could do any thing....”
8139
8140 “Yes,” said Jane, “we heard his kind offers, we heard every thing.”
8141
8142 “Oh! yes, my dear, I dare say you might, because you know, the door was
8143 open, and the window was open, and Mr. Knightley spoke loud. You must
8144 have heard every thing to be sure. ‘Can I do any thing for you at
8145 Kingston?’ said he; so I just mentioned.... Oh! Miss Woodhouse, must you
8146 be going?--You seem but just come--so very obliging of you.”
8147
8148 Emma found it really time to be at home; the visit had already lasted
8149 long; and on examining watches, so much of the morning was perceived
8150 to be gone, that Mrs. Weston and her companion taking leave also, could
8151 allow themselves only to walk with the two young ladies to Hartfield
8152 gates, before they set off for Randalls.
8153
8154
8155
8156 CHAPTER XI
8157
8158
8159 It may be possible to do without dancing entirely. Instances have been
8160 known of young people passing many, many months successively, without
8161 being at any ball of any description, and no material injury accrue
8162 either to body or mind;--but when a beginning is made--when the
8163 felicities of rapid motion have once been, though slightly, felt--it
8164 must be a very heavy set that does not ask for more.
8165
8166 Frank Churchill had danced once at Highbury, and longed to dance again;
8167 and the last half-hour of an evening which Mr. Woodhouse was persuaded
8168 to spend with his daughter at Randalls, was passed by the two young
8169 people in schemes on the subject. Frank’s was the first idea; and his
8170 the greatest zeal in pursuing it; for the lady was the best judge of the
8171 difficulties, and the most solicitous for accommodation and appearance.
8172 But still she had inclination enough for shewing people again how
8173 delightfully Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Woodhouse danced--for
8174 doing that in which she need not blush to compare herself with Jane
8175 Fairfax--and even for simple dancing itself, without any of the wicked
8176 aids of vanity--to assist him first in pacing out the room they were in
8177 to see what it could be made to hold--and then in taking the dimensions
8178 of the other parlour, in the hope of discovering, in spite of all that
8179 Mr. Weston could say of their exactly equal size, that it was a little
8180 the largest.
8181
8182 His first proposition and request, that the dance begun at Mr. Cole’s
8183 should be finished there--that the same party should be collected,
8184 and the same musician engaged, met with the readiest acquiescence. Mr.
8185 Weston entered into the idea with thorough enjoyment, and Mrs. Weston
8186 most willingly undertook to play as long as they could wish to dance;
8187 and the interesting employment had followed, of reckoning up exactly who
8188 there would be, and portioning out the indispensable division of space
8189 to every couple.
8190
8191 “You and Miss Smith, and Miss Fairfax, will be three, and the two Miss
8192 Coxes five,” had been repeated many times over. “And there will be the
8193 two Gilberts, young Cox, my father, and myself, besides Mr. Knightley.
8194 Yes, that will be quite enough for pleasure. You and Miss Smith, and
8195 Miss Fairfax, will be three, and the two Miss Coxes five; and for five
8196 couple there will be plenty of room.”
8197
8198 But soon it came to be on one side,
8199
8200 “But will there be good room for five couple?--I really do not think
8201 there will.”
8202
8203 On another,
8204
8205 “And after all, five couple are not enough to make it worth while to
8206 stand up. Five couple are nothing, when one thinks seriously about it.
8207 It will not do to _invite_ five couple. It can be allowable only as the
8208 thought of the moment.”
8209
8210 Somebody said that _Miss_ Gilbert was expected at her brother’s, and
8211 must be invited with the rest. Somebody else believed _Mrs_. Gilbert
8212 would have danced the other evening, if she had been asked. A word was
8213 put in for a second young Cox; and at last, Mr. Weston naming one family
8214 of cousins who must be included, and another of very old acquaintance
8215 who could not be left out, it became a certainty that the five couple
8216 would be at least ten, and a very interesting speculation in what
8217 possible manner they could be disposed of.
8218
8219 The doors of the two rooms were just opposite each other. “Might not
8220 they use both rooms, and dance across the passage?” It seemed the
8221 best scheme; and yet it was not so good but that many of them wanted a
8222 better. Emma said it would be awkward; Mrs. Weston was in distress about
8223 the supper; and Mr. Woodhouse opposed it earnestly, on the score of
8224 health. It made him so very unhappy, indeed, that it could not be
8225 persevered in.
8226
8227 “Oh! no,” said he; “it would be the extreme of imprudence. I could not
8228 bear it for Emma!--Emma is not strong. She would catch a dreadful cold.
8229 So would poor little Harriet. So you would all. Mrs. Weston, you would
8230 be quite laid up; do not let them talk of such a wild thing. Pray do
8231 not let them talk of it. That young man (speaking lower) is very
8232 thoughtless. Do not tell his father, but that young man is not quite
8233 the thing. He has been opening the doors very often this evening,
8234 and keeping them open very inconsiderately. He does not think of the
8235 draught. I do not mean to set you against him, but indeed he is not
8236 quite the thing!”
8237
8238 Mrs. Weston was sorry for such a charge. She knew the importance of
8239 it, and said every thing in her power to do it away. Every door was now
8240 closed, the passage plan given up, and the first scheme of dancing only
8241 in the room they were in resorted to again; and with such good-will on
8242 Frank Churchill’s part, that the space which a quarter of an hour before
8243 had been deemed barely sufficient for five couple, was now endeavoured
8244 to be made out quite enough for ten.
8245
8246 “We were too magnificent,” said he. “We allowed unnecessary room. Ten
8247 couple may stand here very well.”
8248
8249 Emma demurred. “It would be a crowd--a sad crowd; and what could be
8250 worse than dancing without space to turn in?”
8251
8252 “Very true,” he gravely replied; “it was very bad.” But still he went on
8253 measuring, and still he ended with,
8254
8255 “I think there will be very tolerable room for ten couple.”
8256
8257 “No, no,” said she, “you are quite unreasonable. It would be dreadful
8258 to be standing so close! Nothing can be farther from pleasure than to be
8259 dancing in a crowd--and a crowd in a little room!”
8260
8261 “There is no denying it,” he replied. “I agree with you exactly. A crowd
8262 in a little room--Miss Woodhouse, you have the art of giving pictures
8263 in a few words. Exquisite, quite exquisite!--Still, however, having
8264 proceeded so far, one is unwilling to give the matter up. It would be
8265 a disappointment to my father--and altogether--I do not know that--I am
8266 rather of opinion that ten couple might stand here very well.”
8267
8268 Emma perceived that the nature of his gallantry was a little
8269 self-willed, and that he would rather oppose than lose the pleasure of
8270 dancing with her; but she took the compliment, and forgave the rest.
8271 Had she intended ever to _marry_ him, it might have been worth while to
8272 pause and consider, and try to understand the value of his preference,
8273 and the character of his temper; but for all the purposes of their
8274 acquaintance, he was quite amiable enough.
8275
8276 Before the middle of the next day, he was at Hartfield; and he entered
8277 the room with such an agreeable smile as certified the continuance of
8278 the scheme. It soon appeared that he came to announce an improvement.
8279
8280 “Well, Miss Woodhouse,” he almost immediately began, “your inclination
8281 for dancing has not been quite frightened away, I hope, by the terrors
8282 of my father’s little rooms. I bring a new proposal on the subject:--a
8283 thought of my father’s, which waits only your approbation to be acted
8284 upon. May I hope for the honour of your hand for the two first dances
8285 of this little projected ball, to be given, not at Randalls, but at the
8286 Crown Inn?”
8287
8288 “The Crown!”
8289
8290 “Yes; if you and Mr. Woodhouse see no objection, and I trust you cannot,
8291 my father hopes his friends will be so kind as to visit him there.
8292 Better accommodations, he can promise them, and not a less grateful
8293 welcome than at Randalls. It is his own idea. Mrs. Weston sees no
8294 objection to it, provided you are satisfied. This is what we all feel.
8295 Oh! you were perfectly right! Ten couple, in either of the Randalls
8296 rooms, would have been insufferable!--Dreadful!--I felt how right you
8297 were the whole time, but was too anxious for securing _any_ _thing_
8298 to like to yield. Is not it a good exchange?--You consent--I hope you
8299 consent?”
8300
8301 “It appears to me a plan that nobody can object to, if Mr. and Mrs.
8302 Weston do not. I think it admirable; and, as far as I can answer for
8303 myself, shall be most happy--It seems the only improvement that could
8304 be. Papa, do you not think it an excellent improvement?”
8305
8306 She was obliged to repeat and explain it, before it was fully
8307 comprehended; and then, being quite new, farther representations were
8308 necessary to make it acceptable.
8309
8310 “No; he thought it very far from an improvement--a very bad plan--much
8311 worse than the other. A room at an inn was always damp and dangerous;
8312 never properly aired, or fit to be inhabited. If they must dance, they
8313 had better dance at Randalls. He had never been in the room at the Crown
8314 in his life--did not know the people who kept it by sight.--Oh! no--a
8315 very bad plan. They would catch worse colds at the Crown than anywhere.”
8316
8317 “I was going to observe, sir,” said Frank Churchill, “that one of the
8318 great recommendations of this change would be the very little danger
8319 of any body’s catching cold--so much less danger at the Crown than at
8320 Randalls! Mr. Perry might have reason to regret the alteration, but
8321 nobody else could.”
8322
8323 “Sir,” said Mr. Woodhouse, rather warmly, “you are very much mistaken
8324 if you suppose Mr. Perry to be that sort of character. Mr. Perry is
8325 extremely concerned when any of us are ill. But I do not understand how
8326 the room at the Crown can be safer for you than your father’s house.”
8327
8328 “From the very circumstance of its being larger, sir. We shall have no
8329 occasion to open the windows at all--not once the whole evening; and it
8330 is that dreadful habit of opening the windows, letting in cold air upon
8331 heated bodies, which (as you well know, sir) does the mischief.”
8332
8333 “Open the windows!--but surely, Mr. Churchill, nobody would think of
8334 opening the windows at Randalls. Nobody could be so imprudent! I never
8335 heard of such a thing. Dancing with open windows!--I am sure, neither
8336 your father nor Mrs. Weston (poor Miss Taylor that was) would suffer
8337 it.”
8338
8339 “Ah! sir--but a thoughtless young person will sometimes step behind a
8340 window-curtain, and throw up a sash, without its being suspected. I have
8341 often known it done myself.”
8342
8343 “Have you indeed, sir?--Bless me! I never could have supposed it. But I
8344 live out of the world, and am often astonished at what I hear. However,
8345 this does make a difference; and, perhaps, when we come to talk it
8346 over--but these sort of things require a good deal of consideration. One
8347 cannot resolve upon them in a hurry. If Mr. and Mrs. Weston will be so
8348 obliging as to call here one morning, we may talk it over, and see what
8349 can be done.”
8350
8351 “But, unfortunately, sir, my time is so limited--”
8352
8353 “Oh!” interrupted Emma, “there will be plenty of time for talking every
8354 thing over. There is no hurry at all. If it can be contrived to be at
8355 the Crown, papa, it will be very convenient for the horses. They will be
8356 so near their own stable.”
8357
8358 “So they will, my dear. That is a great thing. Not that James ever
8359 complains; but it is right to spare our horses when we can. If I could
8360 be sure of the rooms being thoroughly aired--but is Mrs. Stokes to be
8361 trusted? I doubt it. I do not know her, even by sight.”
8362
8363 “I can answer for every thing of that nature, sir, because it will be
8364 under Mrs. Weston’s care. Mrs. Weston undertakes to direct the whole.”
8365
8366 “There, papa!--Now you must be satisfied--Our own dear Mrs. Weston, who
8367 is carefulness itself. Do not you remember what Mr. Perry said, so many
8368 years ago, when I had the measles? ‘If _Miss_ _Taylor_ undertakes to
8369 wrap Miss Emma up, you need not have any fears, sir.’ How often have I
8370 heard you speak of it as such a compliment to her!”
8371
8372 “Aye, very true. Mr. Perry did say so. I shall never forget it. Poor
8373 little Emma! You were very bad with the measles; that is, you would have
8374 been very bad, but for Perry’s great attention. He came four times a day
8375 for a week. He said, from the first, it was a very good sort--which
8376 was our great comfort; but the measles are a dreadful complaint. I hope
8377 whenever poor Isabella’s little ones have the measles, she will send for
8378 Perry.”
8379
8380 “My father and Mrs. Weston are at the Crown at this moment,” said Frank
8381 Churchill, “examining the capabilities of the house. I left them there
8382 and came on to Hartfield, impatient for your opinion, and hoping you
8383 might be persuaded to join them and give your advice on the spot. I was
8384 desired to say so from both. It would be the greatest pleasure to
8385 them, if you could allow me to attend you there. They can do nothing
8386 satisfactorily without you.”
8387
8388 Emma was most happy to be called to such a council; and her father,
8389 engaging to think it all over while she was gone, the two young people
8390 set off together without delay for the Crown. There were Mr. and Mrs.
8391 Weston; delighted to see her and receive her approbation, very busy and
8392 very happy in their different way; she, in some little distress; and he,
8393 finding every thing perfect.
8394
8395 “Emma,” said she, “this paper is worse than I expected. Look! in places
8396 you see it is dreadfully dirty; and the wainscot is more yellow and
8397 forlorn than any thing I could have imagined.”
8398
8399 “My dear, you are too particular,” said her husband. “What does all that
8400 signify? You will see nothing of it by candlelight. It will be as
8401 clean as Randalls by candlelight. We never see any thing of it on our
8402 club-nights.”
8403
8404 The ladies here probably exchanged looks which meant, “Men never know
8405 when things are dirty or not;” and the gentlemen perhaps thought each to
8406 himself, “Women will have their little nonsenses and needless cares.”
8407
8408 One perplexity, however, arose, which the gentlemen did not disdain.
8409 It regarded a supper-room. At the time of the ballroom’s being built,
8410 suppers had not been in question; and a small card-room adjoining, was
8411 the only addition. What was to be done? This card-room would be wanted
8412 as a card-room now; or, if cards were conveniently voted unnecessary
8413 by their four selves, still was it not too small for any comfortable
8414 supper? Another room of much better size might be secured for the
8415 purpose; but it was at the other end of the house, and a long awkward
8416 passage must be gone through to get at it. This made a difficulty. Mrs.
8417 Weston was afraid of draughts for the young people in that passage;
8418 and neither Emma nor the gentlemen could tolerate the prospect of being
8419 miserably crowded at supper.
8420
8421 Mrs. Weston proposed having no regular supper; merely sandwiches,
8422 &c., set out in the little room; but that was scouted as a wretched
8423 suggestion. A private dance, without sitting down to supper, was
8424 pronounced an infamous fraud upon the rights of men and women; and
8425 Mrs. Weston must not speak of it again. She then took another line of
8426 expediency, and looking into the doubtful room, observed,
8427
8428 “I do not think it _is_ so very small. We shall not be many, you know.”
8429
8430 And Mr. Weston at the same time, walking briskly with long steps through
8431 the passage, was calling out,
8432
8433 “You talk a great deal of the length of this passage, my dear. It is a
8434 mere nothing after all; and not the least draught from the stairs.”
8435
8436 “I wish,” said Mrs. Weston, “one could know which arrangement our guests
8437 in general would like best. To do what would be most generally pleasing
8438 must be our object--if one could but tell what that would be.”
8439
8440 “Yes, very true,” cried Frank, “very true. You want your neighbours’
8441 opinions. I do not wonder at you. If one could ascertain what the chief
8442 of them--the Coles, for instance. They are not far off. Shall I call
8443 upon them? Or Miss Bates? She is still nearer.--And I do not know
8444 whether Miss Bates is not as likely to understand the inclinations of
8445 the rest of the people as any body. I think we do want a larger council.
8446 Suppose I go and invite Miss Bates to join us?”
8447
8448 “Well--if you please,” said Mrs. Weston rather hesitating, “if you think
8449 she will be of any use.”
8450
8451 “You will get nothing to the purpose from Miss Bates,” said Emma. “She
8452 will be all delight and gratitude, but she will tell you nothing. She
8453 will not even listen to your questions. I see no advantage in consulting
8454 Miss Bates.”
8455
8456 “But she is so amusing, so extremely amusing! I am very fond of hearing
8457 Miss Bates talk. And I need not bring the whole family, you know.”
8458
8459 Here Mr. Weston joined them, and on hearing what was proposed, gave it
8460 his decided approbation.
8461
8462 “Aye, do, Frank.--Go and fetch Miss Bates, and let us end the matter at
8463 once. She will enjoy the scheme, I am sure; and I do not know a properer
8464 person for shewing us how to do away difficulties. Fetch Miss Bates.
8465 We are growing a little too nice. She is a standing lesson of how to be
8466 happy. But fetch them both. Invite them both.”
8467
8468 “Both sir! Can the old lady?”...
8469
8470 “The old lady! No, the young lady, to be sure. I shall think you a great
8471 blockhead, Frank, if you bring the aunt without the niece.”
8472
8473 “Oh! I beg your pardon, sir. I did not immediately recollect.
8474 Undoubtedly if you wish it, I will endeavour to persuade them both.” And
8475 away he ran.
8476
8477 Long before he reappeared, attending the short, neat, brisk-moving aunt,
8478 and her elegant niece,--Mrs. Weston, like a sweet-tempered woman and
8479 a good wife, had examined the passage again, and found the evils of it
8480 much less than she had supposed before--indeed very trifling; and here
8481 ended the difficulties of decision. All the rest, in speculation at
8482 least, was perfectly smooth. All the minor arrangements of table and
8483 chair, lights and music, tea and supper, made themselves; or were left
8484 as mere trifles to be settled at any time between Mrs. Weston and Mrs.
8485 Stokes.--Every body invited, was certainly to come; Frank had already
8486 written to Enscombe to propose staying a few days beyond his fortnight,
8487 which could not possibly be refused. And a delightful dance it was to
8488 be.
8489
8490 Most cordially, when Miss Bates arrived, did she agree that it must.
8491 As a counsellor she was not wanted; but as an approver, (a much safer
8492 character,) she was truly welcome. Her approbation, at once general
8493 and minute, warm and incessant, could not but please; and for another
8494 half-hour they were all walking to and fro, between the different rooms,
8495 some suggesting, some attending, and all in happy enjoyment of the
8496 future. The party did not break up without Emma’s being positively
8497 secured for the two first dances by the hero of the evening, nor without
8498 her overhearing Mr. Weston whisper to his wife, “He has asked her, my
8499 dear. That’s right. I knew he would!”
8500
8501
8502
8503 CHAPTER XII
8504
8505
8506 One thing only was wanting to make the prospect of the ball completely
8507 satisfactory to Emma--its being fixed for a day within the granted
8508 term of Frank Churchill’s stay in Surry; for, in spite of Mr. Weston’s
8509 confidence, she could not think it so very impossible that the
8510 Churchills might not allow their nephew to remain a day beyond his
8511 fortnight. But this was not judged feasible. The preparations must take
8512 their time, nothing could be properly ready till the third week were
8513 entered on, and for a few days they must be planning, proceeding and
8514 hoping in uncertainty--at the risk--in her opinion, the great risk, of
8515 its being all in vain.
8516
8517 Enscombe however was gracious, gracious in fact, if not in word. His
8518 wish of staying longer evidently did not please; but it was not opposed.
8519 All was safe and prosperous; and as the removal of one solicitude
8520 generally makes way for another, Emma, being now certain of her
8521 ball, began to adopt as the next vexation Mr. Knightley’s provoking
8522 indifference about it. Either because he did not dance himself, or
8523 because the plan had been formed without his being consulted, he
8524 seemed resolved that it should not interest him, determined against its
8525 exciting any present curiosity, or affording him any future amusement.
8526 To her voluntary communications Emma could get no more approving reply,
8527 than,
8528
8529 “Very well. If the Westons think it worth while to be at all this
8530 trouble for a few hours of noisy entertainment, I have nothing to say
8531 against it, but that they shall not chuse pleasures for me.--Oh! yes,
8532 I must be there; I could not refuse; and I will keep as much awake as
8533 I can; but I would rather be at home, looking over William Larkins’s
8534 week’s account; much rather, I confess.--Pleasure in seeing
8535 dancing!--not I, indeed--I never look at it--I do not know who
8536 does.--Fine dancing, I believe, like virtue, must be its own reward.
8537 Those who are standing by are usually thinking of something very
8538 different.”
8539
8540 This Emma felt was aimed at her; and it made her quite angry. It was not
8541 in compliment to Jane Fairfax however that he was so indifferent, or so
8542 indignant; he was not guided by _her_ feelings in reprobating the ball,
8543 for _she_ enjoyed the thought of it to an extraordinary degree. It made
8544 her animated--open hearted--she voluntarily said;--
8545
8546 “Oh! Miss Woodhouse, I hope nothing may happen to prevent the ball.
8547 What a disappointment it would be! I do look forward to it, I own, with
8548 _very_ great pleasure.”
8549
8550 It was not to oblige Jane Fairfax therefore that he would have preferred
8551 the society of William Larkins. No!--she was more and more convinced
8552 that Mrs. Weston was quite mistaken in that surmise. There was a great
8553 deal of friendly and of compassionate attachment on his side--but no
8554 love.
8555
8556 Alas! there was soon no leisure for quarrelling with Mr. Knightley. Two
8557 days of joyful security were immediately followed by the over-throw of
8558 every thing. A letter arrived from Mr. Churchill to urge his nephew’s
8559 instant return. Mrs. Churchill was unwell--far too unwell to do without
8560 him; she had been in a very suffering state (so said her husband)
8561 when writing to her nephew two days before, though from her usual
8562 unwillingness to give pain, and constant habit of never thinking of
8563 herself, she had not mentioned it; but now she was too ill to trifle,
8564 and must entreat him to set off for Enscombe without delay.
8565
8566 The substance of this letter was forwarded to Emma, in a note from Mrs.
8567 Weston, instantly. As to his going, it was inevitable. He must be gone
8568 within a few hours, though without feeling any real alarm for his aunt,
8569 to lessen his repugnance. He knew her illnesses; they never occurred but
8570 for her own convenience.
8571
8572 Mrs. Weston added, “that he could only allow himself time to hurry to
8573 Highbury, after breakfast, and take leave of the few friends there
8574 whom he could suppose to feel any interest in him; and that he might be
8575 expected at Hartfield very soon.”
8576
8577 This wretched note was the finale of Emma’s breakfast. When once it had
8578 been read, there was no doing any thing, but lament and exclaim. The
8579 loss of the ball--the loss of the young man--and all that the young man
8580 might be feeling!--It was too wretched!--Such a delightful evening as
8581 it would have been!--Every body so happy! and she and her partner the
8582 happiest!--“I said it would be so,” was the only consolation.
8583
8584 Her father’s feelings were quite distinct. He thought principally of
8585 Mrs. Churchill’s illness, and wanted to know how she was treated; and as
8586 for the ball, it was shocking to have dear Emma disappointed; but they
8587 would all be safer at home.
8588
8589 Emma was ready for her visitor some time before he appeared; but if this
8590 reflected at all upon his impatience, his sorrowful look and total want
8591 of spirits when he did come might redeem him. He felt the going away
8592 almost too much to speak of it. His dejection was most evident. He
8593 sat really lost in thought for the first few minutes; and when rousing
8594 himself, it was only to say,
8595
8596 “Of all horrid things, leave-taking is the worst.”
8597
8598 “But you will come again,” said Emma. “This will not be your only visit
8599 to Randalls.”
8600
8601 “Ah!--(shaking his head)--the uncertainty of when I may be able to
8602 return!--I shall try for it with a zeal!--It will be the object of
8603 all my thoughts and cares!--and if my uncle and aunt go to town this
8604 spring--but I am afraid--they did not stir last spring--I am afraid it
8605 is a custom gone for ever.”
8606
8607 “Our poor ball must be quite given up.”
8608
8609 “Ah! that ball!--why did we wait for any thing?--why not seize the
8610 pleasure at once?--How often is happiness destroyed by preparation,
8611 foolish preparation!--You told us it would be so.--Oh! Miss Woodhouse,
8612 why are you always so right?”
8613
8614 “Indeed, I am very sorry to be right in this instance. I would much
8615 rather have been merry than wise.”
8616
8617 “If I can come again, we are still to have our ball. My father depends
8618 on it. Do not forget your engagement.”
8619
8620 Emma looked graciously.
8621
8622 “Such a fortnight as it has been!” he continued; “every day more
8623 precious and more delightful than the day before!--every day making
8624 me less fit to bear any other place. Happy those, who can remain at
8625 Highbury!”
8626
8627 “As you do us such ample justice now,” said Emma, laughing, “I will
8628 venture to ask, whether you did not come a little doubtfully at first?
8629 Do not we rather surpass your expectations? I am sure we do. I am sure
8630 you did not much expect to like us. You would not have been so long in
8631 coming, if you had had a pleasant idea of Highbury.”
8632
8633 He laughed rather consciously; and though denying the sentiment, Emma
8634 was convinced that it had been so.
8635
8636 “And you must be off this very morning?”
8637
8638 “Yes; my father is to join me here: we shall walk back together, and I
8639 must be off immediately. I am almost afraid that every moment will bring
8640 him.”
8641
8642 “Not five minutes to spare even for your friends Miss Fairfax and Miss
8643 Bates? How unlucky! Miss Bates’s powerful, argumentative mind might have
8644 strengthened yours.”
8645
8646 “Yes--I _have_ called there; passing the door, I thought it better. It
8647 was a right thing to do. I went in for three minutes, and was detained
8648 by Miss Bates’s being absent. She was out; and I felt it impossible not
8649 to wait till she came in. She is a woman that one may, that one _must_
8650 laugh at; but that one would not wish to slight. It was better to pay my
8651 visit, then”--
8652
8653 He hesitated, got up, walked to a window.
8654
8655 “In short,” said he, “perhaps, Miss Woodhouse--I think you can hardly be
8656 quite without suspicion”--
8657
8658 He looked at her, as if wanting to read her thoughts. She hardly knew
8659 what to say. It seemed like the forerunner of something absolutely
8660 serious, which she did not wish. Forcing herself to speak, therefore, in
8661 the hope of putting it by, she calmly said,
8662
8663 “You are quite in the right; it was most natural to pay your visit,
8664 then”--
8665
8666 He was silent. She believed he was looking at her; probably reflecting
8667 on what she had said, and trying to understand the manner. She heard
8668 him sigh. It was natural for him to feel that he had _cause_ to sigh.
8669 He could not believe her to be encouraging him. A few awkward moments
8670 passed, and he sat down again; and in a more determined manner said,
8671
8672 “It was something to feel that all the rest of my time might be given to
8673 Hartfield. My regard for Hartfield is most warm”--
8674
8675 He stopt again, rose again, and seemed quite embarrassed.--He was more
8676 in love with her than Emma had supposed; and who can say how it might
8677 have ended, if his father had not made his appearance? Mr. Woodhouse
8678 soon followed; and the necessity of exertion made him composed.
8679
8680 A very few minutes more, however, completed the present trial. Mr.
8681 Weston, always alert when business was to be done, and as incapable of
8682 procrastinating any evil that was inevitable, as of foreseeing any that
8683 was doubtful, said, “It was time to go;” and the young man, though he
8684 might and did sigh, could not but agree, to take leave.
8685
8686 “I shall hear about you all,” said he; “that is my chief consolation.
8687 I shall hear of every thing that is going on among you. I have engaged
8688 Mrs. Weston to correspond with me. She has been so kind as to promise
8689 it. Oh! the blessing of a female correspondent, when one is really
8690 interested in the absent!--she will tell me every thing. In her letters
8691 I shall be at dear Highbury again.”
8692
8693 A very friendly shake of the hand, a very earnest “Good-bye,” closed the
8694 speech, and the door had soon shut out Frank Churchill. Short had been
8695 the notice--short their meeting; he was gone; and Emma felt so sorry
8696 to part, and foresaw so great a loss to their little society from his
8697 absence as to begin to be afraid of being too sorry, and feeling it too
8698 much.
8699
8700 It was a sad change. They had been meeting almost every day since his
8701 arrival. Certainly his being at Randalls had given great spirit to
8702 the last two weeks--indescribable spirit; the idea, the expectation
8703 of seeing him which every morning had brought, the assurance of his
8704 attentions, his liveliness, his manners! It had been a very happy
8705 fortnight, and forlorn must be the sinking from it into the common
8706 course of Hartfield days. To complete every other recommendation, he had
8707 _almost_ told her that he loved her. What strength, or what constancy of
8708 affection he might be subject to, was another point; but at present
8709 she could not doubt his having a decidedly warm admiration, a conscious
8710 preference of herself; and this persuasion, joined to all the rest,
8711 made her think that she _must_ be a little in love with him, in spite of
8712 every previous determination against it.
8713
8714 “I certainly must,” said she. “This sensation of listlessness,
8715 weariness, stupidity, this disinclination to sit down and employ myself,
8716 this feeling of every thing’s being dull and insipid about the house!--
8717 I must be in love; I should be the oddest creature in the world if I
8718 were not--for a few weeks at least. Well! evil to some is always good to
8719 others. I shall have many fellow-mourners for the ball, if not for Frank
8720 Churchill; but Mr. Knightley will be happy. He may spend the evening
8721 with his dear William Larkins now if he likes.”
8722
8723 Mr. Knightley, however, shewed no triumphant happiness. He could not say
8724 that he was sorry on his own account; his very cheerful look would have
8725 contradicted him if he had; but he said, and very steadily, that he
8726 was sorry for the disappointment of the others, and with considerable
8727 kindness added,
8728
8729 “You, Emma, who have so few opportunities of dancing, you are really out
8730 of luck; you are very much out of luck!”
8731
8732 It was some days before she saw Jane Fairfax, to judge of her honest
8733 regret in this woeful change; but when they did meet, her composure
8734 was odious. She had been particularly unwell, however, suffering from
8735 headache to a degree, which made her aunt declare, that had the ball
8736 taken place, she did not think Jane could have attended it; and it was
8737 charity to impute some of her unbecoming indifference to the languor of
8738 ill-health.
8739
8740
8741
8742 CHAPTER XIII
8743
8744
8745 Emma continued to entertain no doubt of her being in love. Her ideas
8746 only varied as to the how much. At first, she thought it was a good
8747 deal; and afterwards, but little. She had great pleasure in hearing
8748 Frank Churchill talked of; and, for his sake, greater pleasure than ever
8749 in seeing Mr. and Mrs. Weston; she was very often thinking of him, and
8750 quite impatient for a letter, that she might know how he was, how were
8751 his spirits, how was his aunt, and what was the chance of his coming to
8752 Randalls again this spring. But, on the other hand, she could not admit
8753 herself to be unhappy, nor, after the first morning, to be less disposed
8754 for employment than usual; she was still busy and cheerful; and,
8755 pleasing as he was, she could yet imagine him to have faults; and
8756 farther, though thinking of him so much, and, as she sat drawing or
8757 working, forming a thousand amusing schemes for the progress and close
8758 of their attachment, fancying interesting dialogues, and inventing
8759 elegant letters; the conclusion of every imaginary declaration on his
8760 side was that she _refused_ _him_. Their affection was always to subside
8761 into friendship. Every thing tender and charming was to mark their
8762 parting; but still they were to part. When she became sensible of this,
8763 it struck her that she could not be very much in love; for in spite of
8764 her previous and fixed determination never to quit her father, never
8765 to marry, a strong attachment certainly must produce more of a struggle
8766 than she could foresee in her own feelings.
8767
8768 “I do not find myself making any use of the word _sacrifice_,” said
8769 she.--“In not one of all my clever replies, my delicate negatives, is
8770 there any allusion to making a sacrifice. I do suspect that he is not
8771 really necessary to my happiness. So much the better. I certainly will
8772 not persuade myself to feel more than I do. I am quite enough in love. I
8773 should be sorry to be more.”
8774
8775 Upon the whole, she was equally contented with her view of his feelings.
8776
8777 “_He_ is undoubtedly very much in love--every thing denotes it--very
8778 much in love indeed!--and when he comes again, if his affection
8779 continue, I must be on my guard not to encourage it.--It would be most
8780 inexcusable to do otherwise, as my own mind is quite made up. Not that I
8781 imagine he can think I have been encouraging him hitherto. No, if he
8782 had believed me at all to share his feelings, he would not have been
8783 so wretched. Could he have thought himself encouraged, his looks and
8784 language at parting would have been different.--Still, however, I must
8785 be on my guard. This is in the supposition of his attachment continuing
8786 what it now is; but I do not know that I expect it will; I do not look
8787 upon him to be quite the sort of man--I do not altogether build upon
8788 his steadiness or constancy.--His feelings are warm, but I can imagine
8789 them rather changeable.--Every consideration of the subject, in short,
8790 makes me thankful that my happiness is not more deeply involved.--I
8791 shall do very well again after a little while--and then, it will be a
8792 good thing over; for they say every body is in love once in their lives,
8793 and I shall have been let off easily.”
8794
8795 When his letter to Mrs. Weston arrived, Emma had the perusal of it; and
8796 she read it with a degree of pleasure and admiration which made her
8797 at first shake her head over her own sensations, and think she had
8798 undervalued their strength. It was a long, well-written letter, giving
8799 the particulars of his journey and of his feelings, expressing all the
8800 affection, gratitude, and respect which was natural and honourable,
8801 and describing every thing exterior and local that could be supposed
8802 attractive, with spirit and precision. No suspicious flourishes now of
8803 apology or concern; it was the language of real feeling towards Mrs.
8804 Weston; and the transition from Highbury to Enscombe, the contrast
8805 between the places in some of the first blessings of social life was
8806 just enough touched on to shew how keenly it was felt, and how much more
8807 might have been said but for the restraints of propriety.--The charm
8808 of her own name was not wanting. _Miss_ _Woodhouse_ appeared more than
8809 once, and never without a something of pleasing connexion, either a
8810 compliment to her taste, or a remembrance of what she had said; and in
8811 the very last time of its meeting her eye, unadorned as it was by any
8812 such broad wreath of gallantry, she yet could discern the effect of
8813 her influence and acknowledge the greatest compliment perhaps of all
8814 conveyed. Compressed into the very lowest vacant corner were these
8815 words--“I had not a spare moment on Tuesday, as you know, for Miss
8816 Woodhouse’s beautiful little friend. Pray make my excuses and adieus
8817 to her.” This, Emma could not doubt, was all for herself. Harriet was
8818 remembered only from being _her_ friend. His information and prospects
8819 as to Enscombe were neither worse nor better than had been anticipated;
8820 Mrs. Churchill was recovering, and he dared not yet, even in his own
8821 imagination, fix a time for coming to Randalls again.
8822
8823 Gratifying, however, and stimulative as was the letter in the material
8824 part, its sentiments, she yet found, when it was folded up and returned
8825 to Mrs. Weston, that it had not added any lasting warmth, that she could
8826 still do without the writer, and that he must learn to do without her.
8827 Her intentions were unchanged. Her resolution of refusal only grew more
8828 interesting by the addition of a scheme for his subsequent consolation
8829 and happiness. His recollection of Harriet, and the words which
8830 clothed it, the “beautiful little friend,” suggested to her the
8831 idea of Harriet’s succeeding her in his affections. Was it
8832 impossible?--No.--Harriet undoubtedly was greatly his inferior in
8833 understanding; but he had been very much struck with the loveliness
8834 of her face and the warm simplicity of her manner; and all the
8835 probabilities of circumstance and connexion were in her favour.--For
8836 Harriet, it would be advantageous and delightful indeed.
8837
8838 “I must not dwell upon it,” said she.--“I must not think of it. I know
8839 the danger of indulging such speculations. But stranger things have
8840 happened; and when we cease to care for each other as we do now, it
8841 will be the means of confirming us in that sort of true disinterested
8842 friendship which I can already look forward to with pleasure.”
8843
8844 It was well to have a comfort in store on Harriet’s behalf, though it
8845 might be wise to let the fancy touch it seldom; for evil in that quarter
8846 was at hand. As Frank Churchill’s arrival had succeeded Mr. Elton’s
8847 engagement in the conversation of Highbury, as the latest interest
8848 had entirely borne down the first, so now upon Frank Churchill’s
8849 disappearance, Mr. Elton’s concerns were assuming the most irresistible
8850 form.--His wedding-day was named. He would soon be among them again; Mr.
8851 Elton and his bride. There was hardly time to talk over the first letter
8852 from Enscombe before “Mr. Elton and his bride” was in every body’s
8853 mouth, and Frank Churchill was forgotten. Emma grew sick at the sound.
8854 She had had three weeks of happy exemption from Mr. Elton; and Harriet’s
8855 mind, she had been willing to hope, had been lately gaining strength.
8856 With Mr. Weston’s ball in view at least, there had been a great deal of
8857 insensibility to other things; but it was now too evident that she had
8858 not attained such a state of composure as could stand against the actual
8859 approach--new carriage, bell-ringing, and all.
8860
8861 Poor Harriet was in a flutter of spirits which required all the
8862 reasonings and soothings and attentions of every kind that Emma could
8863 give. Emma felt that she could not do too much for her, that Harriet had
8864 a right to all her ingenuity and all her patience; but it was heavy work
8865 to be for ever convincing without producing any effect, for ever agreed
8866 to, without being able to make their opinions the same. Harriet listened
8867 submissively, and said “it was very true--it was just as Miss Woodhouse
8868 described--it was not worth while to think about them--and she would not
8869 think about them any longer” but no change of subject could avail, and
8870 the next half-hour saw her as anxious and restless about the Eltons as
8871 before. At last Emma attacked her on another ground.
8872
8873 “Your allowing yourself to be so occupied and so unhappy about Mr.
8874 Elton’s marrying, Harriet, is the strongest reproach you can make _me_.
8875 You could not give me a greater reproof for the mistake I fell into.
8876 It was all my doing, I know. I have not forgotten it, I assure
8877 you.--Deceived myself, I did very miserably deceive you--and it will
8878 be a painful reflection to me for ever. Do not imagine me in danger of
8879 forgetting it.”
8880
8881 Harriet felt this too much to utter more than a few words of eager
8882 exclamation. Emma continued,
8883
8884 “I have not said, exert yourself Harriet for my sake; think less, talk
8885 less of Mr. Elton for my sake; because for your own sake rather, I
8886 would wish it to be done, for the sake of what is more important than my
8887 comfort, a habit of self-command in you, a consideration of what is your
8888 duty, an attention to propriety, an endeavour to avoid the suspicions of
8889 others, to save your health and credit, and restore your tranquillity.
8890 These are the motives which I have been pressing on you. They are very
8891 important--and sorry I am that you cannot feel them sufficiently to act
8892 upon them. My being saved from pain is a very secondary consideration.
8893 I want you to save yourself from greater pain. Perhaps I may sometimes
8894 have felt that Harriet would not forget what was due--or rather what
8895 would be kind by me.”
8896
8897 This appeal to her affections did more than all the rest. The idea of
8898 wanting gratitude and consideration for Miss Woodhouse, whom she really
8899 loved extremely, made her wretched for a while, and when the violence
8900 of grief was comforted away, still remained powerful enough to prompt to
8901 what was right and support her in it very tolerably.
8902
8903 “You, who have been the best friend I ever had in my life--Want
8904 gratitude to you!--Nobody is equal to you!--I care for nobody as I do
8905 for you!--Oh! Miss Woodhouse, how ungrateful I have been!”
8906
8907 Such expressions, assisted as they were by every thing that look and
8908 manner could do, made Emma feel that she had never loved Harriet so
8909 well, nor valued her affection so highly before.
8910
8911 “There is no charm equal to tenderness of heart,” said she afterwards to
8912 herself. “There is nothing to be compared to it. Warmth and tenderness
8913 of heart, with an affectionate, open manner, will beat all the
8914 clearness of head in the world, for attraction, I am sure it will. It
8915 is tenderness of heart which makes my dear father so generally
8916 beloved--which gives Isabella all her popularity.--I have it not--but
8917 I know how to prize and respect it.--Harriet is my superior in all the
8918 charm and all the felicity it gives. Dear Harriet!--I would not change
8919 you for the clearest-headed, longest-sighted, best-judging female
8920 breathing. Oh! the coldness of a Jane Fairfax!--Harriet is worth a
8921 hundred such--And for a wife--a sensible man’s wife--it is invaluable. I
8922 mention no names; but happy the man who changes Emma for Harriet!”
8923
8924
8925
8926 CHAPTER XIV
8927
8928
8929 Mrs. Elton was first seen at church: but though devotion might be
8930 interrupted, curiosity could not be satisfied by a bride in a pew, and
8931 it must be left for the visits in form which were then to be paid, to
8932 settle whether she were very pretty indeed, or only rather pretty, or
8933 not pretty at all.
8934
8935 Emma had feelings, less of curiosity than of pride or propriety, to make
8936 her resolve on not being the last to pay her respects; and she made a
8937 point of Harriet’s going with her, that the worst of the business might
8938 be gone through as soon as possible.
8939
8940 She could not enter the house again, could not be in the same room to
8941 which she had with such vain artifice retreated three months ago, to
8942 lace up her boot, without _recollecting_. A thousand vexatious thoughts
8943 would recur. Compliments, charades, and horrible blunders; and it was
8944 not to be supposed that poor Harriet should not be recollecting too; but
8945 she behaved very well, and was only rather pale and silent. The visit
8946 was of course short; and there was so much embarrassment and occupation
8947 of mind to shorten it, that Emma would not allow herself entirely to
8948 form an opinion of the lady, and on no account to give one, beyond the
8949 nothing-meaning terms of being “elegantly dressed, and very pleasing.”
8950
8951 She did not really like her. She would not be in a hurry to find fault,
8952 but she suspected that there was no elegance;--ease, but not elegance.--
8953 She was almost sure that for a young woman, a stranger, a bride, there
8954 was too much ease. Her person was rather good; her face not unpretty;
8955 but neither feature, nor air, nor voice, nor manner, were elegant. Emma
8956 thought at least it would turn out so.
8957
8958 As for Mr. Elton, his manners did not appear--but no, she would not
8959 permit a hasty or a witty word from herself about his manners. It was an
8960 awkward ceremony at any time to be receiving wedding visits, and a man
8961 had need be all grace to acquit himself well through it. The woman
8962 was better off; she might have the assistance of fine clothes, and the
8963 privilege of bashfulness, but the man had only his own good sense to
8964 depend on; and when she considered how peculiarly unlucky poor Mr.
8965 Elton was in being in the same room at once with the woman he had just
8966 married, the woman he had wanted to marry, and the woman whom he had
8967 been expected to marry, she must allow him to have the right to look as
8968 little wise, and to be as much affectedly, and as little really easy as
8969 could be.
8970
8971 “Well, Miss Woodhouse,” said Harriet, when they had quitted the
8972 house, and after waiting in vain for her friend to begin; “Well, Miss
8973 Woodhouse, (with a gentle sigh,) what do you think of her?--Is not she
8974 very charming?”
8975
8976 There was a little hesitation in Emma’s answer.
8977
8978 “Oh! yes--very--a very pleasing young woman.”
8979
8980 “I think her beautiful, quite beautiful.”
8981
8982 “Very nicely dressed, indeed; a remarkably elegant gown.”
8983
8984 “I am not at all surprized that he should have fallen in love.”
8985
8986 “Oh! no--there is nothing to surprize one at all.--A pretty fortune; and
8987 she came in his way.”
8988
8989 “I dare say,” returned Harriet, sighing again, “I dare say she was very
8990 much attached to him.”
8991
8992 “Perhaps she might; but it is not every man’s fate to marry the woman
8993 who loves him best. Miss Hawkins perhaps wanted a home, and thought this
8994 the best offer she was likely to have.”
8995
8996 “Yes,” said Harriet earnestly, “and well she might, nobody could ever
8997 have a better. Well, I wish them happy with all my heart. And now, Miss
8998 Woodhouse, I do not think I shall mind seeing them again. He is just as
8999 superior as ever;--but being married, you know, it is quite a different
9000 thing. No, indeed, Miss Woodhouse, you need not be afraid; I can sit and
9001 admire him now without any great misery. To know that he has not thrown
9002 himself away, is such a comfort!--She does seem a charming young woman,
9003 just what he deserves. Happy creature! He called her ‘Augusta.’ How
9004 delightful!”
9005
9006 When the visit was returned, Emma made up her mind. She could then see
9007 more and judge better. From Harriet’s happening not to be at Hartfield,
9008 and her father’s being present to engage Mr. Elton, she had a quarter
9009 of an hour of the lady’s conversation to herself, and could composedly
9010 attend to her; and the quarter of an hour quite convinced her that
9011 Mrs. Elton was a vain woman, extremely well satisfied with herself, and
9012 thinking much of her own importance; that she meant to shine and be very
9013 superior, but with manners which had been formed in a bad school, pert
9014 and familiar; that all her notions were drawn from one set of people,
9015 and one style of living; that if not foolish she was ignorant, and that
9016 her society would certainly do Mr. Elton no good.
9017
9018 Harriet would have been a better match. If not wise or refined herself,
9019 she would have connected him with those who were; but Miss Hawkins, it
9020 might be fairly supposed from her easy conceit, had been the best of
9021 her own set. The rich brother-in-law near Bristol was the pride of the
9022 alliance, and his place and his carriages were the pride of him.
9023
9024 The very first subject after being seated was Maple Grove, “My brother
9025 Mr. Suckling’s seat;”--a comparison of Hartfield to Maple Grove. The
9026 grounds of Hartfield were small, but neat and pretty; and the house was
9027 modern and well-built. Mrs. Elton seemed most favourably impressed
9028 by the size of the room, the entrance, and all that she could see or
9029 imagine. “Very like Maple Grove indeed!--She was quite struck by the
9030 likeness!--That room was the very shape and size of the morning-room
9031 at Maple Grove; her sister’s favourite room.”--Mr. Elton was appealed
9032 to.--“Was not it astonishingly like?--She could really almost fancy
9033 herself at Maple Grove.”
9034
9035 “And the staircase--You know, as I came in, I observed how very like the
9036 staircase was; placed exactly in the same part of the house. I really
9037 could not help exclaiming! I assure you, Miss Woodhouse, it is very
9038 delightful to me, to be reminded of a place I am so extremely partial to
9039 as Maple Grove. I have spent so many happy months there! (with a little
9040 sigh of sentiment). A charming place, undoubtedly. Every body who
9041 sees it is struck by its beauty; but to me, it has been quite a home.
9042 Whenever you are transplanted, like me, Miss Woodhouse, you will
9043 understand how very delightful it is to meet with any thing at all like
9044 what one has left behind. I always say this is quite one of the evils of
9045 matrimony.”
9046
9047 Emma made as slight a reply as she could; but it was fully sufficient
9048 for Mrs. Elton, who only wanted to be talking herself.
9049
9050 “So extremely like Maple Grove! And it is not merely the house--the
9051 grounds, I assure you, as far as I could observe, are strikingly like.
9052 The laurels at Maple Grove are in the same profusion as here, and stand
9053 very much in the same way--just across the lawn; and I had a glimpse
9054 of a fine large tree, with a bench round it, which put me so exactly in
9055 mind! My brother and sister will be enchanted with this place. People
9056 who have extensive grounds themselves are always pleased with any thing
9057 in the same style.”
9058
9059 Emma doubted the truth of this sentiment. She had a great idea that
9060 people who had extensive grounds themselves cared very little for the
9061 extensive grounds of any body else; but it was not worth while to attack
9062 an error so double-dyed, and therefore only said in reply,
9063
9064 “When you have seen more of this country, I am afraid you will think you
9065 have overrated Hartfield. Surry is full of beauties.”
9066
9067 “Oh! yes, I am quite aware of that. It is the garden of England, you
9068 know. Surry is the garden of England.”
9069
9070 “Yes; but we must not rest our claims on that distinction. Many
9071 counties, I believe, are called the garden of England, as well as
9072 Surry.”
9073
9074 “No, I fancy not,” replied Mrs. Elton, with a most satisfied smile.
9075 “I never heard any county but Surry called so.”
9076
9077 Emma was silenced.
9078
9079 “My brother and sister have promised us a visit in the spring, or summer
9080 at farthest,” continued Mrs. Elton; “and that will be our time for
9081 exploring. While they are with us, we shall explore a great deal, I dare
9082 say. They will have their barouche-landau, of course, which holds four
9083 perfectly; and therefore, without saying any thing of _our_ carriage,
9084 we should be able to explore the different beauties extremely well. They
9085 would hardly come in their chaise, I think, at that season of the
9086 year. Indeed, when the time draws on, I shall decidedly recommend their
9087 bringing the barouche-landau; it will be so very much preferable.
9088 When people come into a beautiful country of this sort, you know, Miss
9089 Woodhouse, one naturally wishes them to see as much as possible; and Mr.
9090 Suckling is extremely fond of exploring. We explored to King’s-Weston
9091 twice last summer, in that way, most delightfully, just after their
9092 first having the barouche-landau. You have many parties of that kind
9093 here, I suppose, Miss Woodhouse, every summer?”
9094
9095 “No; not immediately here. We are rather out of distance of the very
9096 striking beauties which attract the sort of parties you speak of; and we
9097 are a very quiet set of people, I believe; more disposed to stay at home
9098 than engage in schemes of pleasure.”
9099
9100 “Ah! there is nothing like staying at home for real comfort. Nobody can
9101 be more devoted to home than I am. I was quite a proverb for it at Maple
9102 Grove. Many a time has Selina said, when she has been going to Bristol,
9103 ‘I really cannot get this girl to move from the house. I absolutely must
9104 go in by myself, though I hate being stuck up in the barouche-landau
9105 without a companion; but Augusta, I believe, with her own good-will,
9106 would never stir beyond the park paling.’ Many a time has she said so;
9107 and yet I am no advocate for entire seclusion. I think, on the contrary,
9108 when people shut themselves up entirely from society, it is a very
9109 bad thing; and that it is much more advisable to mix in the world in
9110 a proper degree, without living in it either too much or too little. I
9111 perfectly understand your situation, however, Miss Woodhouse--(looking
9112 towards Mr. Woodhouse), Your father’s state of health must be a great
9113 drawback. Why does not he try Bath?--Indeed he should. Let me recommend
9114 Bath to you. I assure you I have no doubt of its doing Mr. Woodhouse
9115 good.”
9116
9117 “My father tried it more than once, formerly; but without receiving any
9118 benefit; and Mr. Perry, whose name, I dare say, is not unknown to you,
9119 does not conceive it would be at all more likely to be useful now.”
9120
9121 “Ah! that’s a great pity; for I assure you, Miss Woodhouse, where the
9122 waters do agree, it is quite wonderful the relief they give. In my Bath
9123 life, I have seen such instances of it! And it is so cheerful a place,
9124 that it could not fail of being of use to Mr. Woodhouse’s spirits,
9125 which, I understand, are sometimes much depressed. And as to its
9126 recommendations to _you_, I fancy I need not take much pains to dwell
9127 on them. The advantages of Bath to the young are pretty generally
9128 understood. It would be a charming introduction for you, who have lived
9129 so secluded a life; and I could immediately secure you some of the best
9130 society in the place. A line from me would bring you a little host of
9131 acquaintance; and my particular friend, Mrs. Partridge, the lady I have
9132 always resided with when in Bath, would be most happy to shew you any
9133 attentions, and would be the very person for you to go into public
9134 with.”
9135
9136 It was as much as Emma could bear, without being impolite. The idea
9137 of her being indebted to Mrs. Elton for what was called an
9138 _introduction_--of her going into public under the auspices of a friend
9139 of Mrs. Elton’s--probably some vulgar, dashing widow, who, with the
9140 help of a boarder, just made a shift to live!--The dignity of Miss
9141 Woodhouse, of Hartfield, was sunk indeed!
9142
9143 She restrained herself, however, from any of the reproofs she could have
9144 given, and only thanked Mrs. Elton coolly; “but their going to Bath was
9145 quite out of the question; and she was not perfectly convinced that
9146 the place might suit her better than her father.” And then, to prevent
9147 farther outrage and indignation, changed the subject directly.
9148
9149 “I do not ask whether you are musical, Mrs. Elton. Upon these occasions,
9150 a lady’s character generally precedes her; and Highbury has long known
9151 that you are a superior performer.”
9152
9153 “Oh! no, indeed; I must protest against any such idea. A superior
9154 performer!--very far from it, I assure you. Consider from how partial
9155 a quarter your information came. I am doatingly fond of
9156 music--passionately fond;--and my friends say I am not entirely devoid
9157 of taste; but as to any thing else, upon my honour my performance is
9158 _mediocre_ to the last degree. You, Miss Woodhouse, I well know, play
9159 delightfully. I assure you it has been the greatest satisfaction,
9160 comfort, and delight to me, to hear what a musical society I am got
9161 into. I absolutely cannot do without music. It is a necessary of life to
9162 me; and having always been used to a very musical society, both at
9163 Maple Grove and in Bath, it would have been a most serious sacrifice. I
9164 honestly said as much to Mr. E. when he was speaking of my future
9165 home, and expressing his fears lest the retirement of it should be
9166 disagreeable; and the inferiority of the house too--knowing what I had
9167 been accustomed to--of course he was not wholly without apprehension.
9168 When he was speaking of it in that way, I honestly said that _the_
9169 _world_ I could give up--parties, balls, plays--for I had no fear of
9170 retirement. Blessed with so many resources within myself, the world was
9171 not necessary to _me_. I could do very well without it. To those who had
9172 no resources it was a different thing; but my resources made me quite
9173 independent. And as to smaller-sized rooms than I had been used to, I
9174 really could not give it a thought. I hoped I was perfectly equal to any
9175 sacrifice of that description. Certainly I had been accustomed to every
9176 luxury at Maple Grove; but I did assure him that two carriages were not
9177 necessary to my happiness, nor were spacious apartments. ‘But,’ said I,
9178 ‘to be quite honest, I do not think I can live without something of a
9179 musical society. I condition for nothing else; but without music, life
9180 would be a blank to me.’”
9181
9182 “We cannot suppose,” said Emma, smiling, “that Mr. Elton would hesitate
9183 to assure you of there being a _very_ musical society in Highbury; and
9184 I hope you will not find he has outstepped the truth more than may be
9185 pardoned, in consideration of the motive.”
9186
9187 “No, indeed, I have no doubts at all on that head. I am delighted to
9188 find myself in such a circle. I hope we shall have many sweet little
9189 concerts together. I think, Miss Woodhouse, you and I must establish a
9190 musical club, and have regular weekly meetings at your house, or ours.
9191 Will not it be a good plan? If _we_ exert ourselves, I think we shall
9192 not be long in want of allies. Something of that nature would be
9193 particularly desirable for _me_, as an inducement to keep me in
9194 practice; for married women, you know--there is a sad story against
9195 them, in general. They are but too apt to give up music.”
9196
9197 “But you, who are so extremely fond of it--there can be no danger,
9198 surely?”
9199
9200 “I should hope not; but really when I look around among my acquaintance,
9201 I tremble. Selina has entirely given up music--never touches the
9202 instrument--though she played sweetly. And the same may be said of Mrs.
9203 Jeffereys--Clara Partridge, that was--and of the two Milmans, now Mrs.
9204 Bird and Mrs. James Cooper; and of more than I can enumerate. Upon my
9205 word it is enough to put one in a fright. I used to be quite angry with
9206 Selina; but really I begin now to comprehend that a married woman has
9207 many things to call her attention. I believe I was half an hour this
9208 morning shut up with my housekeeper.”
9209
9210 “But every thing of that kind,” said Emma, “will soon be in so regular a
9211 train--”
9212
9213 “Well,” said Mrs. Elton, laughing, “we shall see.”
9214
9215 Emma, finding her so determined upon neglecting her music, had nothing
9216 more to say; and, after a moment’s pause, Mrs. Elton chose another
9217 subject.
9218
9219 “We have been calling at Randalls,” said she, “and found them both at
9220 home; and very pleasant people they seem to be. I like them extremely.
9221 Mr. Weston seems an excellent creature--quite a first-rate favourite
9222 with me already, I assure you. And _she_ appears so truly good--there is
9223 something so motherly and kind-hearted about her, that it wins upon one
9224 directly. She was your governess, I think?”
9225
9226 Emma was almost too much astonished to answer; but Mrs. Elton hardly
9227 waited for the affirmative before she went on.
9228
9229 “Having understood as much, I was rather astonished to find her so very
9230 lady-like! But she is really quite the gentlewoman.”
9231
9232 “Mrs. Weston’s manners,” said Emma, “were always particularly good.
9233 Their propriety, simplicity, and elegance, would make them the safest
9234 model for any young woman.”
9235
9236 “And who do you think came in while we were there?”
9237
9238 Emma was quite at a loss. The tone implied some old acquaintance--and
9239 how could she possibly guess?
9240
9241 “Knightley!” continued Mrs. Elton; “Knightley himself!--Was not it
9242 lucky?--for, not being within when he called the other day, I had never
9243 seen him before; and of course, as so particular a friend of Mr. E.’s,
9244 I had a great curiosity. ‘My friend Knightley’ had been so often
9245 mentioned, that I was really impatient to see him; and I must do my
9246 caro sposo the justice to say that he need not be ashamed of his friend.
9247 Knightley is quite the gentleman. I like him very much. Decidedly, I
9248 think, a very gentleman-like man.”
9249
9250 Happily, it was now time to be gone. They were off; and Emma could
9251 breathe.
9252
9253 “Insufferable woman!” was her immediate exclamation. “Worse than I had
9254 supposed. Absolutely insufferable! Knightley!--I could not have
9255 believed it. Knightley!--never seen him in her life before, and call
9256 him Knightley!--and discover that he is a gentleman! A little upstart,
9257 vulgar being, with her Mr. E., and her _caro_ _sposo_, and her
9258 resources, and all her airs of pert pretension and underbred finery.
9259 Actually to discover that Mr. Knightley is a gentleman! I doubt whether
9260 he will return the compliment, and discover her to be a lady. I could
9261 not have believed it! And to propose that she and I should unite to
9262 form a musical club! One would fancy we were bosom friends! And Mrs.
9263 Weston!--Astonished that the person who had brought me up should be a
9264 gentlewoman! Worse and worse. I never met with her equal. Much beyond
9265 my hopes. Harriet is disgraced by any comparison. Oh! what would Frank
9266 Churchill say to her, if he were here? How angry and how diverted he
9267 would be! Ah! there I am--thinking of him directly. Always the first
9268 person to be thought of! How I catch myself out! Frank Churchill comes
9269 as regularly into my mind!”--
9270
9271 All this ran so glibly through her thoughts, that by the time her father
9272 had arranged himself, after the bustle of the Eltons’ departure, and was
9273 ready to speak, she was very tolerably capable of attending.
9274
9275 “Well, my dear,” he deliberately began, “considering we never saw her
9276 before, she seems a very pretty sort of young lady; and I dare say she
9277 was very much pleased with you. She speaks a little too quick. A little
9278 quickness of voice there is which rather hurts the ear. But I believe
9279 I am nice; I do not like strange voices; and nobody speaks like you and
9280 poor Miss Taylor. However, she seems a very obliging, pretty-behaved
9281 young lady, and no doubt will make him a very good wife. Though I think
9282 he had better not have married. I made the best excuses I could for not
9283 having been able to wait on him and Mrs. Elton on this happy occasion; I
9284 said that I hoped I _should_ in the course of the summer. But I ought to
9285 have gone before. Not to wait upon a bride is very remiss. Ah! it shews
9286 what a sad invalid I am! But I do not like the corner into Vicarage
9287 Lane.”
9288
9289 “I dare say your apologies were accepted, sir. Mr. Elton knows you.”
9290
9291 “Yes: but a young lady--a bride--I ought to have paid my respects to her
9292 if possible. It was being very deficient.”
9293
9294 “But, my dear papa, you are no friend to matrimony; and therefore why
9295 should you be so anxious to pay your respects to a _bride_? It ought to
9296 be no recommendation to _you_. It is encouraging people to marry if you
9297 make so much of them.”
9298
9299 “No, my dear, I never encouraged any body to marry, but I would always
9300 wish to pay every proper attention to a lady--and a bride, especially,
9301 is never to be neglected. More is avowedly due to _her_. A bride, you
9302 know, my dear, is always the first in company, let the others be who
9303 they may.”
9304
9305 “Well, papa, if this is not encouragement to marry, I do not know what
9306 is. And I should never have expected you to be lending your sanction to
9307 such vanity-baits for poor young ladies.”
9308
9309 “My dear, you do not understand me. This is a matter of mere
9310 common politeness and good-breeding, and has nothing to do with any
9311 encouragement to people to marry.”
9312
9313 Emma had done. Her father was growing nervous, and could not understand
9314 _her_. Her mind returned to Mrs. Elton’s offences, and long, very long,
9315 did they occupy her.
9316
9317
9318
9319 CHAPTER XV
9320
9321
9322 Emma was not required, by any subsequent discovery, to retract her ill
9323 opinion of Mrs. Elton. Her observation had been pretty correct. Such as
9324 Mrs. Elton appeared to her on this second interview, such she appeared
9325 whenever they met again,--self-important, presuming, familiar, ignorant,
9326 and ill-bred. She had a little beauty and a little accomplishment,
9327 but so little judgment that she thought herself coming with superior
9328 knowledge of the world, to enliven and improve a country neighbourhood;
9329 and conceived Miss Hawkins to have held such a place in society as Mrs.
9330 Elton’s consequence only could surpass.
9331
9332 There was no reason to suppose Mr. Elton thought at all differently from
9333 his wife. He seemed not merely happy with her, but proud. He had the air
9334 of congratulating himself on having brought such a woman to Highbury,
9335 as not even Miss Woodhouse could equal; and the greater part of her
9336 new acquaintance, disposed to commend, or not in the habit of judging,
9337 following the lead of Miss Bates’s good-will, or taking it for granted
9338 that the bride must be as clever and as agreeable as she professed
9339 herself, were very well satisfied; so that Mrs. Elton’s praise
9340 passed from one mouth to another as it ought to do, unimpeded by Miss
9341 Woodhouse, who readily continued her first contribution and talked with
9342 a good grace of her being “very pleasant and very elegantly dressed.”
9343
9344 In one respect Mrs. Elton grew even worse than she had appeared at
9345 first. Her feelings altered towards Emma.--Offended, probably, by the
9346 little encouragement which her proposals of intimacy met with, she drew
9347 back in her turn and gradually became much more cold and distant; and
9348 though the effect was agreeable, the ill-will which produced it was
9349 necessarily increasing Emma’s dislike. Her manners, too--and Mr.
9350 Elton’s, were unpleasant towards Harriet. They were sneering and
9351 negligent. Emma hoped it must rapidly work Harriet’s cure; but the
9352 sensations which could prompt such behaviour sunk them both very
9353 much.--It was not to be doubted that poor Harriet’s attachment had been
9354 an offering to conjugal unreserve, and her own share in the story, under
9355 a colouring the least favourable to her and the most soothing to him,
9356 had in all likelihood been given also. She was, of course, the object
9357 of their joint dislike.--When they had nothing else to say, it must be
9358 always easy to begin abusing Miss Woodhouse; and the enmity which
9359 they dared not shew in open disrespect to her, found a broader vent in
9360 contemptuous treatment of Harriet.
9361
9362 Mrs. Elton took a great fancy to Jane Fairfax; and from the first. Not
9363 merely when a state of warfare with one young lady might be supposed to
9364 recommend the other, but from the very first; and she was not satisfied
9365 with expressing a natural and reasonable admiration--but without
9366 solicitation, or plea, or privilege, she must be wanting to assist and
9367 befriend her.--Before Emma had forfeited her confidence, and about the
9368 third time of their meeting, she heard all Mrs. Elton’s knight-errantry
9369 on the subject.--
9370
9371 “Jane Fairfax is absolutely charming, Miss Woodhouse.--I quite rave
9372 about Jane Fairfax.--A sweet, interesting creature. So mild and
9373 ladylike--and with such talents!--I assure you I think she has very
9374 extraordinary talents. I do not scruple to say that she plays extremely
9375 well. I know enough of music to speak decidedly on that point. Oh! she
9376 is absolutely charming! You will laugh at my warmth--but, upon my word,
9377 I talk of nothing but Jane Fairfax.--And her situation is so calculated
9378 to affect one!--Miss Woodhouse, we must exert ourselves and endeavour
9379 to do something for her. We must bring her forward. Such talent as hers
9380 must not be suffered to remain unknown.--I dare say you have heard those
9381 charming lines of the poet,
9382
9383 ‘Full many a flower is born to blush unseen,
9384 ‘And waste its fragrance on the desert air.’
9385
9386 We must not allow them to be verified in sweet Jane Fairfax.”
9387
9388 “I cannot think there is any danger of it,” was Emma’s calm answer--“and
9389 when you are better acquainted with Miss Fairfax’s situation and
9390 understand what her home has been, with Colonel and Mrs. Campbell, I
9391 have no idea that you will suppose her talents can be unknown.”
9392
9393 “Oh! but dear Miss Woodhouse, she is now in such retirement, such
9394 obscurity, so thrown away.--Whatever advantages she may have enjoyed
9395 with the Campbells are so palpably at an end! And I think she feels it.
9396 I am sure she does. She is very timid and silent. One can see that she
9397 feels the want of encouragement. I like her the better for it. I
9398 must confess it is a recommendation to me. I am a great advocate for
9399 timidity--and I am sure one does not often meet with it.--But in those
9400 who are at all inferior, it is extremely prepossessing. Oh! I assure
9401 you, Jane Fairfax is a very delightful character, and interests me more
9402 than I can express.”
9403
9404 “You appear to feel a great deal--but I am not aware how you or any of
9405 Miss Fairfax’s acquaintance here, any of those who have known her longer
9406 than yourself, can shew her any other attention than”--
9407
9408 “My dear Miss Woodhouse, a vast deal may be done by those who dare to
9409 act. You and I need not be afraid. If _we_ set the example, many will
9410 follow it as far as they can; though all have not our situations. _We_
9411 have carriages to fetch and convey her home, and _we_ live in a style
9412 which could not make the addition of Jane Fairfax, at any time, the
9413 least inconvenient.--I should be extremely displeased if Wright were to
9414 send us up such a dinner, as could make me regret having asked _more_
9415 than Jane Fairfax to partake of it. I have no idea of that sort of
9416 thing. It is not likely that I _should_, considering what I have been
9417 used to. My greatest danger, perhaps, in housekeeping, may be quite the
9418 other way, in doing too much, and being too careless of expense. Maple
9419 Grove will probably be my model more than it ought to be--for we do not
9420 at all affect to equal my brother, Mr. Suckling, in income.--However, my
9421 resolution is taken as to noticing Jane Fairfax.--I shall certainly have
9422 her very often at my house, shall introduce her wherever I can, shall
9423 have musical parties to draw out her talents, and shall be constantly
9424 on the watch for an eligible situation. My acquaintance is so very
9425 extensive, that I have little doubt of hearing of something to suit
9426 her shortly.--I shall introduce her, of course, very particularly to my
9427 brother and sister when they come to us. I am sure they will like her
9428 extremely; and when she gets a little acquainted with them, her fears
9429 will completely wear off, for there really is nothing in the manners
9430 of either but what is highly conciliating.--I shall have her very often
9431 indeed while they are with me, and I dare say we shall sometimes find a
9432 seat for her in the barouche-landau in some of our exploring parties.”
9433
9434 “Poor Jane Fairfax!”--thought Emma.--“You have not deserved this. You
9435 may have done wrong with regard to Mr. Dixon, but this is a punishment
9436 beyond what you can have merited!--The kindness and protection of Mrs.
9437 Elton!--‘Jane Fairfax and Jane Fairfax.’ Heavens! Let me not suppose
9438 that she dares go about, Emma Woodhouse-ing me!--But upon my honour,
9439 there seems no limits to the licentiousness of that woman’s tongue!”
9440
9441 Emma had not to listen to such paradings again--to any so exclusively
9442 addressed to herself--so disgustingly decorated with a “dear Miss
9443 Woodhouse.” The change on Mrs. Elton’s side soon afterwards appeared,
9444 and she was left in peace--neither forced to be the very particular
9445 friend of Mrs. Elton, nor, under Mrs. Elton’s guidance, the very active
9446 patroness of Jane Fairfax, and only sharing with others in a general
9447 way, in knowing what was felt, what was meditated, what was done.
9448
9449 She looked on with some amusement.--Miss Bates’s gratitude for
9450 Mrs. Elton’s attentions to Jane was in the first style of guileless
9451 simplicity and warmth. She was quite one of her worthies--the
9452 most amiable, affable, delightful woman--just as accomplished and
9453 condescending as Mrs. Elton meant to be considered. Emma’s only surprize
9454 was that Jane Fairfax should accept those attentions and tolerate Mrs.
9455 Elton as she seemed to do. She heard of her walking with the Eltons,
9456 sitting with the Eltons, spending a day with the Eltons! This was
9457 astonishing!--She could not have believed it possible that the taste or
9458 the pride of Miss Fairfax could endure such society and friendship as
9459 the Vicarage had to offer.
9460
9461 “She is a riddle, quite a riddle!” said she.--“To chuse to remain here
9462 month after month, under privations of every sort! And now to chuse the
9463 mortification of Mrs. Elton’s notice and the penury of her conversation,
9464 rather than return to the superior companions who have always loved her
9465 with such real, generous affection.”
9466
9467 Jane had come to Highbury professedly for three months; the Campbells
9468 were gone to Ireland for three months; but now the Campbells had
9469 promised their daughter to stay at least till Midsummer, and fresh
9470 invitations had arrived for her to join them there. According to Miss
9471 Bates--it all came from her--Mrs. Dixon had written most pressingly.
9472 Would Jane but go, means were to be found, servants sent, friends
9473 contrived--no travelling difficulty allowed to exist; but still she had
9474 declined it!
9475
9476 “She must have some motive, more powerful than appears, for refusing
9477 this invitation,” was Emma’s conclusion. “She must be under some sort
9478 of penance, inflicted either by the Campbells or herself. There is great
9479 fear, great caution, great resolution somewhere.--She is _not_ to be
9480 with the _Dixons_. The decree is issued by somebody. But why must she
9481 consent to be with the Eltons?--Here is quite a separate puzzle.”
9482
9483 Upon her speaking her wonder aloud on that part of the subject, before
9484 the few who knew her opinion of Mrs. Elton, Mrs. Weston ventured this
9485 apology for Jane.
9486
9487 “We cannot suppose that she has any great enjoyment at the Vicarage,
9488 my dear Emma--but it is better than being always at home. Her aunt is a
9489 good creature, but, as a constant companion, must be very tiresome. We
9490 must consider what Miss Fairfax quits, before we condemn her taste for
9491 what she goes to.”
9492
9493 “You are right, Mrs. Weston,” said Mr. Knightley warmly, “Miss Fairfax
9494 is as capable as any of us of forming a just opinion of Mrs. Elton.
9495 Could she have chosen with whom to associate, she would not have chosen
9496 her. But (with a reproachful smile at Emma) she receives attentions from
9497 Mrs. Elton, which nobody else pays her.”
9498
9499 Emma felt that Mrs. Weston was giving her a momentary glance; and she
9500 was herself struck by his warmth. With a faint blush, she presently
9501 replied,
9502
9503 “Such attentions as Mrs. Elton’s, I should have imagined, would rather
9504 disgust than gratify Miss Fairfax. Mrs. Elton’s invitations I should
9505 have imagined any thing but inviting.”
9506
9507 “I should not wonder,” said Mrs. Weston, “if Miss Fairfax were to have
9508 been drawn on beyond her own inclination, by her aunt’s eagerness in
9509 accepting Mrs. Elton’s civilities for her. Poor Miss Bates may
9510 very likely have committed her niece and hurried her into a greater
9511 appearance of intimacy than her own good sense would have dictated, in
9512 spite of the very natural wish of a little change.”
9513
9514 Both felt rather anxious to hear him speak again; and after a few
9515 minutes silence, he said,
9516
9517 “Another thing must be taken into consideration too--Mrs. Elton does
9518 not talk _to_ Miss Fairfax as she speaks _of_ her. We all know the
9519 difference between the pronouns he or she and thou, the plainest spoken
9520 amongst us; we all feel the influence of a something beyond common
9521 civility in our personal intercourse with each other--a something more
9522 early implanted. We cannot give any body the disagreeable hints that we
9523 may have been very full of the hour before. We feel things differently.
9524 And besides the operation of this, as a general principle, you may be
9525 sure that Miss Fairfax awes Mrs. Elton by her superiority both of mind
9526 and manner; and that, face to face, Mrs. Elton treats her with all the
9527 respect which she has a claim to. Such a woman as Jane Fairfax probably
9528 never fell in Mrs. Elton’s way before--and no degree of vanity can
9529 prevent her acknowledging her own comparative littleness in action, if
9530 not in consciousness.”
9531
9532 “I know how highly you think of Jane Fairfax,” said Emma. Little Henry
9533 was in her thoughts, and a mixture of alarm and delicacy made her
9534 irresolute what else to say.
9535
9536 “Yes,” he replied, “any body may know how highly I think of her.”
9537
9538 “And yet,” said Emma, beginning hastily and with an arch look, but soon
9539 stopping--it was better, however, to know the worst at once--she hurried
9540 on--“And yet, perhaps, you may hardly be aware yourself how highly it
9541 is. The extent of your admiration may take you by surprize some day or
9542 other.”
9543
9544 Mr. Knightley was hard at work upon the lower buttons of his thick
9545 leather gaiters, and either the exertion of getting them together, or
9546 some other cause, brought the colour into his face, as he answered,
9547
9548 “Oh! are you there?--But you are miserably behindhand. Mr. Cole gave me
9549 a hint of it six weeks ago.”
9550
9551 He stopped.--Emma felt her foot pressed by Mrs. Weston, and did not
9552 herself know what to think. In a moment he went on--
9553
9554 “That will never be, however, I can assure you. Miss Fairfax, I dare
9555 say, would not have me if I were to ask her--and I am very sure I shall
9556 never ask her.”
9557
9558 Emma returned her friend’s pressure with interest; and was pleased
9559 enough to exclaim,
9560
9561 “You are not vain, Mr. Knightley. I will say that for you.”
9562
9563 He seemed hardly to hear her; he was thoughtful--and in a manner which
9564 shewed him not pleased, soon afterwards said,
9565
9566 “So you have been settling that I should marry Jane Fairfax?”
9567
9568 “No indeed I have not. You have scolded me too much for match-making,
9569 for me to presume to take such a liberty with you. What I said just now,
9570 meant nothing. One says those sort of things, of course, without any
9571 idea of a serious meaning. Oh! no, upon my word I have not the smallest
9572 wish for your marrying Jane Fairfax or Jane any body. You would not come
9573 in and sit with us in this comfortable way, if you were married.”
9574
9575 Mr. Knightley was thoughtful again. The result of his reverie was, “No,
9576 Emma, I do not think the extent of my admiration for her will ever take
9577 me by surprize.--I never had a thought of her in that way, I assure
9578 you.” And soon afterwards, “Jane Fairfax is a very charming young
9579 woman--but not even Jane Fairfax is perfect. She has a fault. She has
9580 not the open temper which a man would wish for in a wife.”
9581
9582 Emma could not but rejoice to hear that she had a fault. “Well,” said
9583 she, “and you soon silenced Mr. Cole, I suppose?”
9584
9585 “Yes, very soon. He gave me a quiet hint; I told him he was mistaken;
9586 he asked my pardon and said no more. Cole does not want to be wiser or
9587 wittier than his neighbours.”
9588
9589 “In that respect how unlike dear Mrs. Elton, who wants to be wiser and
9590 wittier than all the world! I wonder how she speaks of the Coles--what
9591 she calls them! How can she find any appellation for them, deep enough
9592 in familiar vulgarity? She calls you, Knightley--what can she do for
9593 Mr. Cole? And so I am not to be surprized that Jane Fairfax accepts
9594 her civilities and consents to be with her. Mrs. Weston, your argument
9595 weighs most with me. I can much more readily enter into the temptation
9596 of getting away from Miss Bates, than I can believe in the triumph of
9597 Miss Fairfax’s mind over Mrs. Elton. I have no faith in Mrs. Elton’s
9598 acknowledging herself the inferior in thought, word, or deed; or in her
9599 being under any restraint beyond her own scanty rule of good-breeding.
9600 I cannot imagine that she will not be continually insulting her visitor
9601 with praise, encouragement, and offers of service; that she will not be
9602 continually detailing her magnificent intentions, from the procuring her
9603 a permanent situation to the including her in those delightful exploring
9604 parties which are to take place in the barouche-landau.”
9605
9606 “Jane Fairfax has feeling,” said Mr. Knightley--“I do not accuse her
9607 of want of feeling. Her sensibilities, I suspect, are strong--and her
9608 temper excellent in its power of forbearance, patience, self-control;
9609 but it wants openness. She is reserved, more reserved, I think, than
9610 she used to be--And I love an open temper. No--till Cole alluded to my
9611 supposed attachment, it had never entered my head. I saw Jane Fairfax
9612 and conversed with her, with admiration and pleasure always--but with no
9613 thought beyond.”
9614
9615 “Well, Mrs. Weston,” said Emma triumphantly when he left them, “what do
9616 you say now to Mr. Knightley’s marrying Jane Fairfax?”
9617
9618 “Why, really, dear Emma, I say that he is so very much occupied by the
9619 idea of _not_ being in love with her, that I should not wonder if it
9620 were to end in his being so at last. Do not beat me.”
9621
9622
9623
9624 CHAPTER XVI
9625
9626
9627 Every body in and about Highbury who had ever visited Mr. Elton, was
9628 disposed to pay him attention on his marriage. Dinner-parties and
9629 evening-parties were made for him and his lady; and invitations flowed
9630 in so fast that she had soon the pleasure of apprehending they were
9631 never to have a disengaged day.
9632
9633 “I see how it is,” said she. “I see what a life I am to lead among you.
9634 Upon my word we shall be absolutely dissipated. We really seem quite
9635 the fashion. If this is living in the country, it is nothing very
9636 formidable. From Monday next to Saturday, I assure you we have not a
9637 disengaged day!--A woman with fewer resources than I have, need not have
9638 been at a loss.”
9639
9640 No invitation came amiss to her. Her Bath habits made evening-parties
9641 perfectly natural to her, and Maple Grove had given her a taste for
9642 dinners. She was a little shocked at the want of two drawing rooms, at
9643 the poor attempt at rout-cakes, and there being no ice in the Highbury
9644 card-parties. Mrs. Bates, Mrs. Perry, Mrs. Goddard and others, were a
9645 good deal behind-hand in knowledge of the world, but she would soon shew
9646 them how every thing ought to be arranged. In the course of the spring
9647 she must return their civilities by one very superior party--in which
9648 her card-tables should be set out with their separate candles and
9649 unbroken packs in the true style--and more waiters engaged for the
9650 evening than their own establishment could furnish, to carry round the
9651 refreshments at exactly the proper hour, and in the proper order.
9652
9653 Emma, in the meanwhile, could not be satisfied without a dinner at
9654 Hartfield for the Eltons. They must not do less than others, or she
9655 should be exposed to odious suspicions, and imagined capable of pitiful
9656 resentment. A dinner there must be. After Emma had talked about it for
9657 ten minutes, Mr. Woodhouse felt no unwillingness, and only made the
9658 usual stipulation of not sitting at the bottom of the table himself,
9659 with the usual regular difficulty of deciding who should do it for him.
9660
9661 The persons to be invited, required little thought. Besides the
9662 Eltons, it must be the Westons and Mr. Knightley; so far it was all of
9663 course--and it was hardly less inevitable that poor little Harriet must
9664 be asked to make the eighth:--but this invitation was not given with
9665 equal satisfaction, and on many accounts Emma was particularly pleased
9666 by Harriet’s begging to be allowed to decline it. “She would rather not
9667 be in his company more than she could help. She was not yet quite
9668 able to see him and his charming happy wife together, without feeling
9669 uncomfortable. If Miss Woodhouse would not be displeased, she would
9670 rather stay at home.” It was precisely what Emma would have wished, had
9671 she deemed it possible enough for wishing. She was delighted with the
9672 fortitude of her little friend--for fortitude she knew it was in her to
9673 give up being in company and stay at home; and she could now invite the
9674 very person whom she really wanted to make the eighth, Jane Fairfax.--
9675 Since her last conversation with Mrs. Weston and Mr. Knightley, she
9676 was more conscience-stricken about Jane Fairfax than she had often
9677 been.--Mr. Knightley’s words dwelt with her. He had said that Jane
9678 Fairfax received attentions from Mrs. Elton which nobody else paid her.
9679
9680 “This is very true,” said she, “at least as far as relates to me, which
9681 was all that was meant--and it is very shameful.--Of the same age--and
9682 always knowing her--I ought to have been more her friend.--She will
9683 never like me now. I have neglected her too long. But I will shew her
9684 greater attention than I have done.”
9685
9686 Every invitation was successful. They were all disengaged and all
9687 happy.--The preparatory interest of this dinner, however, was not yet
9688 over. A circumstance rather unlucky occurred. The two eldest little
9689 Knightleys were engaged to pay their grandpapa and aunt a visit of some
9690 weeks in the spring, and their papa now proposed bringing them, and
9691 staying one whole day at Hartfield--which one day would be the very day
9692 of this party.--His professional engagements did not allow of his being
9693 put off, but both father and daughter were disturbed by its happening
9694 so. Mr. Woodhouse considered eight persons at dinner together as the
9695 utmost that his nerves could bear--and here would be a ninth--and Emma
9696 apprehended that it would be a ninth very much out of humour at not
9697 being able to come even to Hartfield for forty-eight hours without
9698 falling in with a dinner-party.
9699
9700 She comforted her father better than she could comfort herself, by
9701 representing that though he certainly would make them nine, yet
9702 he always said so little, that the increase of noise would be very
9703 immaterial. She thought it in reality a sad exchange for herself, to
9704 have him with his grave looks and reluctant conversation opposed to her
9705 instead of his brother.
9706
9707 The event was more favourable to Mr. Woodhouse than to Emma. John
9708 Knightley came; but Mr. Weston was unexpectedly summoned to town and
9709 must be absent on the very day. He might be able to join them in the
9710 evening, but certainly not to dinner. Mr. Woodhouse was quite at ease;
9711 and the seeing him so, with the arrival of the little boys and the
9712 philosophic composure of her brother on hearing his fate, removed the
9713 chief of even Emma’s vexation.
9714
9715 The day came, the party were punctually assembled, and Mr. John
9716 Knightley seemed early to devote himself to the business of being
9717 agreeable. Instead of drawing his brother off to a window while they
9718 waited for dinner, he was talking to Miss Fairfax. Mrs. Elton,
9719 as elegant as lace and pearls could make her, he looked at in
9720 silence--wanting only to observe enough for Isabella’s information--but
9721 Miss Fairfax was an old acquaintance and a quiet girl, and he could talk
9722 to her. He had met her before breakfast as he was returning from a walk
9723 with his little boys, when it had been just beginning to rain. It was
9724 natural to have some civil hopes on the subject, and he said,
9725
9726 “I hope you did not venture far, Miss Fairfax, this morning, or I am
9727 sure you must have been wet.--We scarcely got home in time. I hope you
9728 turned directly.”
9729
9730 “I went only to the post-office,” said she, “and reached home before the
9731 rain was much. It is my daily errand. I always fetch the letters when
9732 I am here. It saves trouble, and is a something to get me out. A walk
9733 before breakfast does me good.”
9734
9735 “Not a walk in the rain, I should imagine.”
9736
9737 “No, but it did not absolutely rain when I set out.”
9738
9739 Mr. John Knightley smiled, and replied,
9740
9741 “That is to say, you chose to have your walk, for you were not six yards
9742 from your own door when I had the pleasure of meeting you; and Henry
9743 and John had seen more drops than they could count long before. The
9744 post-office has a great charm at one period of our lives. When you have
9745 lived to my age, you will begin to think letters are never worth going
9746 through the rain for.”
9747
9748 There was a little blush, and then this answer,
9749
9750 “I must not hope to be ever situated as you are, in the midst of every
9751 dearest connexion, and therefore I cannot expect that simply growing
9752 older should make me indifferent about letters.”
9753
9754 “Indifferent! Oh! no--I never conceived you could become indifferent.
9755 Letters are no matter of indifference; they are generally a very
9756 positive curse.”
9757
9758 “You are speaking of letters of business; mine are letters of
9759 friendship.”
9760
9761 “I have often thought them the worst of the two,” replied he coolly.
9762 “Business, you know, may bring money, but friendship hardly ever does.”
9763
9764 “Ah! you are not serious now. I know Mr. John Knightley too well--I am
9765 very sure he understands the value of friendship as well as any body. I
9766 can easily believe that letters are very little to you, much less than
9767 to me, but it is not your being ten years older than myself which
9768 makes the difference, it is not age, but situation. You have every
9769 body dearest to you always at hand, I, probably, never shall again;
9770 and therefore till I have outlived all my affections, a post-office,
9771 I think, must always have power to draw me out, in worse weather than
9772 to-day.”
9773
9774 “When I talked of your being altered by time, by the progress of years,”
9775 said John Knightley, “I meant to imply the change of situation which
9776 time usually brings. I consider one as including the other. Time will
9777 generally lessen the interest of every attachment not within the daily
9778 circle--but that is not the change I had in view for you. As an old
9779 friend, you will allow me to hope, Miss Fairfax, that ten years hence
9780 you may have as many concentrated objects as I have.”
9781
9782 It was kindly said, and very far from giving offence. A pleasant “thank
9783 you” seemed meant to laugh it off, but a blush, a quivering lip, a tear
9784 in the eye, shewed that it was felt beyond a laugh. Her attention was
9785 now claimed by Mr. Woodhouse, who being, according to his custom on such
9786 occasions, making the circle of his guests, and paying his particular
9787 compliments to the ladies, was ending with her--and with all his mildest
9788 urbanity, said,
9789
9790 “I am very sorry to hear, Miss Fairfax, of your being out this morning
9791 in the rain. Young ladies should take care of themselves.--Young ladies
9792 are delicate plants. They should take care of their health and their
9793 complexion. My dear, did you change your stockings?”
9794
9795 “Yes, sir, I did indeed; and I am very much obliged by your kind
9796 solicitude about me.”
9797
9798 “My dear Miss Fairfax, young ladies are very sure to be cared for.--I
9799 hope your good grand-mama and aunt are well. They are some of my very
9800 old friends. I wish my health allowed me to be a better neighbour. You
9801 do us a great deal of honour to-day, I am sure. My daughter and I
9802 are both highly sensible of your goodness, and have the greatest
9803 satisfaction in seeing you at Hartfield.”
9804
9805 The kind-hearted, polite old man might then sit down and feel that he
9806 had done his duty, and made every fair lady welcome and easy.
9807
9808 By this time, the walk in the rain had reached Mrs. Elton, and her
9809 remonstrances now opened upon Jane.
9810
9811 “My dear Jane, what is this I hear?--Going to the post-office in the
9812 rain!--This must not be, I assure you.--You sad girl, how could you do
9813 such a thing?--It is a sign I was not there to take care of you.”
9814
9815 Jane very patiently assured her that she had not caught any cold.
9816
9817 “Oh! do not tell _me_. You really are a very sad girl, and do not know
9818 how to take care of yourself.--To the post-office indeed! Mrs. Weston,
9819 did you ever hear the like? You and I must positively exert our
9820 authority.”
9821
9822 “My advice,” said Mrs. Weston kindly and persuasively, “I certainly do
9823 feel tempted to give. Miss Fairfax, you must not run such risks.--Liable
9824 as you have been to severe colds, indeed you ought to be particularly
9825 careful, especially at this time of year. The spring I always think
9826 requires more than common care. Better wait an hour or two, or even
9827 half a day for your letters, than run the risk of bringing on your cough
9828 again. Now do not you feel that you had? Yes, I am sure you are much too
9829 reasonable. You look as if you would not do such a thing again.”
9830
9831 “Oh! she _shall_ _not_ do such a thing again,” eagerly rejoined Mrs.
9832 Elton. “We will not allow her to do such a thing again:”--and nodding
9833 significantly--“there must be some arrangement made, there must indeed.
9834 I shall speak to Mr. E. The man who fetches our letters every morning
9835 (one of our men, I forget his name) shall inquire for yours too and
9836 bring them to you. That will obviate all difficulties you know; and from
9837 _us_ I really think, my dear Jane, you can have no scruple to accept
9838 such an accommodation.”
9839
9840 “You are extremely kind,” said Jane; “but I cannot give up my early
9841 walk. I am advised to be out of doors as much as I can, I must walk
9842 somewhere, and the post-office is an object; and upon my word, I have
9843 scarcely ever had a bad morning before.”
9844
9845 “My dear Jane, say no more about it. The thing is determined, that is
9846 (laughing affectedly) as far as I can presume to determine any thing
9847 without the concurrence of my lord and master. You know, Mrs. Weston,
9848 you and I must be cautious how we express ourselves. But I do flatter
9849 myself, my dear Jane, that my influence is not entirely worn out. If I
9850 meet with no insuperable difficulties therefore, consider that point as
9851 settled.”
9852
9853 “Excuse me,” said Jane earnestly, “I cannot by any means consent to such
9854 an arrangement, so needlessly troublesome to your servant. If the errand
9855 were not a pleasure to me, it could be done, as it always is when I am
9856 not here, by my grandmama’s.”
9857
9858 “Oh! my dear; but so much as Patty has to do!--And it is a kindness to
9859 employ our men.”
9860
9861 Jane looked as if she did not mean to be conquered; but instead of
9862 answering, she began speaking again to Mr. John Knightley.
9863
9864 “The post-office is a wonderful establishment!” said she.--“The
9865 regularity and despatch of it! If one thinks of all that it has to do,
9866 and all that it does so well, it is really astonishing!”
9867
9868 “It is certainly very well regulated.”
9869
9870 “So seldom that any negligence or blunder appears! So seldom that
9871 a letter, among the thousands that are constantly passing about the
9872 kingdom, is even carried wrong--and not one in a million, I suppose,
9873 actually lost! And when one considers the variety of hands, and of bad
9874 hands too, that are to be deciphered, it increases the wonder.”
9875
9876 “The clerks grow expert from habit.--They must begin with some quickness
9877 of sight and hand, and exercise improves them. If you want any farther
9878 explanation,” continued he, smiling, “they are paid for it. That is
9879 the key to a great deal of capacity. The public pays and must be served
9880 well.”
9881
9882 The varieties of handwriting were farther talked of, and the usual
9883 observations made.
9884
9885 “I have heard it asserted,” said John Knightley, “that the same sort
9886 of handwriting often prevails in a family; and where the same master
9887 teaches, it is natural enough. But for that reason, I should imagine
9888 the likeness must be chiefly confined to the females, for boys have very
9889 little teaching after an early age, and scramble into any hand they can
9890 get. Isabella and Emma, I think, do write very much alike. I have not
9891 always known their writing apart.”
9892
9893 “Yes,” said his brother hesitatingly, “there is a likeness. I know what
9894 you mean--but Emma’s hand is the strongest.”
9895
9896 “Isabella and Emma both write beautifully,” said Mr. Woodhouse; “and
9897 always did. And so does poor Mrs. Weston”--with half a sigh and half a
9898 smile at her.
9899
9900 “I never saw any gentleman’s handwriting”--Emma began, looking also at
9901 Mrs. Weston; but stopped, on perceiving that Mrs. Weston was attending
9902 to some one else--and the pause gave her time to reflect, “Now, how am
9903 I going to introduce him?--Am I unequal to speaking his name at once
9904 before all these people? Is it necessary for me to use any roundabout
9905 phrase?--Your Yorkshire friend--your correspondent in Yorkshire;--that
9906 would be the way, I suppose, if I were very bad.--No, I can pronounce
9907 his name without the smallest distress. I certainly get better and
9908 better.--Now for it.”
9909
9910 Mrs. Weston was disengaged and Emma began again--“Mr. Frank Churchill
9911 writes one of the best gentleman’s hands I ever saw.”
9912
9913 “I do not admire it,” said Mr. Knightley. “It is too small--wants
9914 strength. It is like a woman’s writing.”
9915
9916 This was not submitted to by either lady. They vindicated him against
9917 the base aspersion. “No, it by no means wanted strength--it was not a
9918 large hand, but very clear and certainly strong. Had not Mrs. Weston any
9919 letter about her to produce?” No, she had heard from him very lately,
9920 but having answered the letter, had put it away.
9921
9922 “If we were in the other room,” said Emma, “if I had my writing-desk, I
9923 am sure I could produce a specimen. I have a note of his.--Do not you
9924 remember, Mrs. Weston, employing him to write for you one day?”
9925
9926 “He chose to say he was employed”--
9927
9928 “Well, well, I have that note; and can shew it after dinner to convince
9929 Mr. Knightley.”
9930
9931 “Oh! when a gallant young man, like Mr. Frank Churchill,” said Mr.
9932 Knightley dryly, “writes to a fair lady like Miss Woodhouse, he will, of
9933 course, put forth his best.”
9934
9935 Dinner was on table.--Mrs. Elton, before she could be spoken to, was
9936 ready; and before Mr. Woodhouse had reached her with his request to be
9937 allowed to hand her into the dining-parlour, was saying--
9938
9939 “Must I go first? I really am ashamed of always leading the way.”
9940
9941 Jane’s solicitude about fetching her own letters had not escaped Emma.
9942 She had heard and seen it all; and felt some curiosity to know whether
9943 the wet walk of this morning had produced any. She suspected that it
9944 _had_; that it would not have been so resolutely encountered but in full
9945 expectation of hearing from some one very dear, and that it had not been
9946 in vain. She thought there was an air of greater happiness than usual--a
9947 glow both of complexion and spirits.
9948
9949 She could have made an inquiry or two, as to the expedition and the
9950 expense of the Irish mails;--it was at her tongue’s end--but she
9951 abstained. She was quite determined not to utter a word that should hurt
9952 Jane Fairfax’s feelings; and they followed the other ladies out of the
9953 room, arm in arm, with an appearance of good-will highly becoming to the
9954 beauty and grace of each.
9955
9956
9957
9958 CHAPTER XVII
9959
9960
9961 When the ladies returned to the drawing-room after dinner, Emma found it
9962 hardly possible to prevent their making two distinct parties;--with so
9963 much perseverance in judging and behaving ill did Mrs. Elton engross
9964 Jane Fairfax and slight herself. She and Mrs. Weston were obliged to
9965 be almost always either talking together or silent together. Mrs. Elton
9966 left them no choice. If Jane repressed her for a little time, she
9967 soon began again; and though much that passed between them was in a
9968 half-whisper, especially on Mrs. Elton’s side, there was no avoiding
9969 a knowledge of their principal subjects: The post-office--catching
9970 cold--fetching letters--and friendship, were long under discussion;
9971 and to them succeeded one, which must be at least equally unpleasant
9972 to Jane--inquiries whether she had yet heard of any situation likely to
9973 suit her, and professions of Mrs. Elton’s meditated activity.
9974
9975 “Here is April come!” said she, “I get quite anxious about you. June
9976 will soon be here.”
9977
9978 “But I have never fixed on June or any other month--merely looked
9979 forward to the summer in general.”
9980
9981 “But have you really heard of nothing?”
9982
9983 “I have not even made any inquiry; I do not wish to make any yet.”
9984
9985 “Oh! my dear, we cannot begin too early; you are not aware of the
9986 difficulty of procuring exactly the desirable thing.”
9987
9988 “I not aware!” said Jane, shaking her head; “dear Mrs. Elton, who can
9989 have thought of it as I have done?”
9990
9991 “But you have not seen so much of the world as I have. You do not know
9992 how many candidates there always are for the _first_ situations. I saw
9993 a vast deal of that in the neighbourhood round Maple Grove. A cousin of
9994 Mr. Suckling, Mrs. Bragge, had such an infinity of applications; every
9995 body was anxious to be in her family, for she moves in the first circle.
9996 Wax-candles in the schoolroom! You may imagine how desirable! Of all
9997 houses in the kingdom Mrs. Bragge’s is the one I would most wish to see
9998 you in.”
9999
10000 “Colonel and Mrs. Campbell are to be in town again by midsummer,”
10001 said Jane. “I must spend some time with them; I am sure they will want
10002 it;--afterwards I may probably be glad to dispose of myself. But I would
10003 not wish you to take the trouble of making any inquiries at present.”
10004
10005 “Trouble! aye, I know your scruples. You are afraid of giving me
10006 trouble; but I assure you, my dear Jane, the Campbells can hardly be
10007 more interested about you than I am. I shall write to Mrs. Partridge in
10008 a day or two, and shall give her a strict charge to be on the look-out
10009 for any thing eligible.”
10010
10011 “Thank you, but I would rather you did not mention the subject to
10012 her; till the time draws nearer, I do not wish to be giving any body
10013 trouble.”
10014
10015 “But, my dear child, the time is drawing near; here is April, and June,
10016 or say even July, is very near, with such business to accomplish before
10017 us. Your inexperience really amuses me! A situation such as you deserve,
10018 and your friends would require for you, is no everyday occurrence,
10019 is not obtained at a moment’s notice; indeed, indeed, we must begin
10020 inquiring directly.”
10021
10022 “Excuse me, ma’am, but this is by no means my intention; I make no
10023 inquiry myself, and should be sorry to have any made by my friends. When
10024 I am quite determined as to the time, I am not at all afraid of being
10025 long unemployed. There are places in town, offices, where inquiry
10026 would soon produce something--Offices for the sale--not quite of human
10027 flesh--but of human intellect.”
10028
10029 “Oh! my dear, human flesh! You quite shock me; if you mean a fling at
10030 the slave-trade, I assure you Mr. Suckling was always rather a friend to
10031 the abolition.”
10032
10033 “I did not mean, I was not thinking of the slave-trade,” replied Jane;
10034 “governess-trade, I assure you, was all that I had in view; widely
10035 different certainly as to the guilt of those who carry it on; but as to
10036 the greater misery of the victims, I do not know where it lies. But
10037 I only mean to say that there are advertising offices, and that by
10038 applying to them I should have no doubt of very soon meeting with
10039 something that would do.”
10040
10041 “Something that would do!” repeated Mrs. Elton. “Aye, _that_ may suit
10042 your humble ideas of yourself;--I know what a modest creature you are;
10043 but it will not satisfy your friends to have you taking up with any
10044 thing that may offer, any inferior, commonplace situation, in a family
10045 not moving in a certain circle, or able to command the elegancies of
10046 life.”
10047
10048 “You are very obliging; but as to all that, I am very indifferent;
10049 it would be no object to me to be with the rich; my mortifications, I
10050 think, would only be the greater; I should suffer more from comparison.
10051 A gentleman’s family is all that I should condition for.”
10052
10053 “I know you, I know you; you would take up with any thing; but I shall
10054 be a little more nice, and I am sure the good Campbells will be quite
10055 on my side; with your superior talents, you have a right to move in the
10056 first circle. Your musical knowledge alone would entitle you to name
10057 your own terms, have as many rooms as you like, and mix in the family
10058 as much as you chose;--that is--I do not know--if you knew the harp, you
10059 might do all that, I am very sure; but you sing as well as play;--yes, I
10060 really believe you might, even without the harp, stipulate for what
10061 you chose;--and you must and shall be delightfully, honourably and
10062 comfortably settled before the Campbells or I have any rest.”
10063
10064 “You may well class the delight, the honour, and the comfort of such
10065 a situation together,” said Jane, “they are pretty sure to be equal;
10066 however, I am very serious in not wishing any thing to be attempted
10067 at present for me. I am exceedingly obliged to you, Mrs. Elton, I am
10068 obliged to any body who feels for me, but I am quite serious in wishing
10069 nothing to be done till the summer. For two or three months longer I
10070 shall remain where I am, and as I am.”
10071
10072 “And I am quite serious too, I assure you,” replied Mrs. Elton gaily,
10073 “in resolving to be always on the watch, and employing my friends to
10074 watch also, that nothing really unexceptionable may pass us.”
10075
10076 In this style she ran on; never thoroughly stopped by any thing till Mr.
10077 Woodhouse came into the room; her vanity had then a change of object,
10078 and Emma heard her saying in the same half-whisper to Jane,
10079
10080 “Here comes this dear old beau of mine, I protest!--Only think of his
10081 gallantry in coming away before the other men!--what a dear creature
10082 he is;--I assure you I like him excessively. I admire all that quaint,
10083 old-fashioned politeness; it is much more to my taste than modern ease;
10084 modern ease often disgusts me. But this good old Mr. Woodhouse, I wish
10085 you had heard his gallant speeches to me at dinner. Oh! I assure you I
10086 began to think my caro sposo would be absolutely jealous. I fancy I
10087 am rather a favourite; he took notice of my gown. How do you like
10088 it?--Selina’s choice--handsome, I think, but I do not know whether it
10089 is not over-trimmed; I have the greatest dislike to the idea of being
10090 over-trimmed--quite a horror of finery. I must put on a few ornaments
10091 now, because it is expected of me. A bride, you know, must appear like
10092 a bride, but my natural taste is all for simplicity; a simple style
10093 of dress is so infinitely preferable to finery. But I am quite in the
10094 minority, I believe; few people seem to value simplicity of dress,--show
10095 and finery are every thing. I have some notion of putting such a
10096 trimming as this to my white and silver poplin. Do you think it will
10097 look well?”
10098
10099 The whole party were but just reassembled in the drawing-room when Mr.
10100 Weston made his appearance among them. He had returned to a late dinner,
10101 and walked to Hartfield as soon as it was over. He had been too much
10102 expected by the best judges, for surprize--but there was great joy. Mr.
10103 Woodhouse was almost as glad to see him now, as he would have been sorry
10104 to see him before. John Knightley only was in mute astonishment.--That
10105 a man who might have spent his evening quietly at home after a day
10106 of business in London, should set off again, and walk half a mile
10107 to another man’s house, for the sake of being in mixed company till
10108 bed-time, of finishing his day in the efforts of civility and the noise
10109 of numbers, was a circumstance to strike him deeply. A man who had been
10110 in motion since eight o’clock in the morning, and might now have been
10111 still, who had been long talking, and might have been silent, who had
10112 been in more than one crowd, and might have been alone!--Such a man, to
10113 quit the tranquillity and independence of his own fireside, and on the
10114 evening of a cold sleety April day rush out again into the world!--Could
10115 he by a touch of his finger have instantly taken back his wife, there
10116 would have been a motive; but his coming would probably prolong rather
10117 than break up the party. John Knightley looked at him with amazement,
10118 then shrugged his shoulders, and said, “I could not have believed it
10119 even of _him_.”
10120
10121 Mr. Weston meanwhile, perfectly unsuspicious of the indignation he was
10122 exciting, happy and cheerful as usual, and with all the right of being
10123 principal talker, which a day spent anywhere from home confers, was
10124 making himself agreeable among the rest; and having satisfied the
10125 inquiries of his wife as to his dinner, convincing her that none of all
10126 her careful directions to the servants had been forgotten, and spread
10127 abroad what public news he had heard, was proceeding to a family
10128 communication, which, though principally addressed to Mrs. Weston, he
10129 had not the smallest doubt of being highly interesting to every body in
10130 the room. He gave her a letter, it was from Frank, and to herself; he
10131 had met with it in his way, and had taken the liberty of opening it.
10132
10133 “Read it, read it,” said he, “it will give you pleasure; only a few
10134 lines--will not take you long; read it to Emma.”
10135
10136 The two ladies looked over it together; and he sat smiling and talking
10137 to them the whole time, in a voice a little subdued, but very audible to
10138 every body.
10139
10140 “Well, he is coming, you see; good news, I think. Well, what do you say
10141 to it?--I always told you he would be here again soon, did not I?--Anne,
10142 my dear, did not I always tell you so, and you would not believe me?--In
10143 town next week, you see--at the latest, I dare say; for _she_ is as
10144 impatient as the black gentleman when any thing is to be done; most
10145 likely they will be there to-morrow or Saturday. As to her illness, all
10146 nothing of course. But it is an excellent thing to have Frank among us
10147 again, so near as town. They will stay a good while when they do come,
10148 and he will be half his time with us. This is precisely what I wanted.
10149 Well, pretty good news, is not it? Have you finished it? Has Emma read
10150 it all? Put it up, put it up; we will have a good talk about it some
10151 other time, but it will not do now. I shall only just mention the
10152 circumstance to the others in a common way.”
10153
10154 Mrs. Weston was most comfortably pleased on the occasion. Her looks
10155 and words had nothing to restrain them. She was happy, she knew she was
10156 happy, and knew she ought to be happy. Her congratulations were warm and
10157 open; but Emma could not speak so fluently. _She_ was a little occupied
10158 in weighing her own feelings, and trying to understand the degree of her
10159 agitation, which she rather thought was considerable.
10160
10161 Mr. Weston, however, too eager to be very observant, too communicative
10162 to want others to talk, was very well satisfied with what she did say,
10163 and soon moved away to make the rest of his friends happy by a partial
10164 communication of what the whole room must have overheard already.
10165
10166 It was well that he took every body’s joy for granted, or he might
10167 not have thought either Mr. Woodhouse or Mr. Knightley particularly
10168 delighted. They were the first entitled, after Mrs. Weston and Emma, to
10169 be made happy;--from them he would have proceeded to Miss Fairfax, but
10170 she was so deep in conversation with John Knightley, that it would have
10171 been too positive an interruption; and finding himself close to Mrs.
10172 Elton, and her attention disengaged, he necessarily began on the subject
10173 with her.
10174
10175
10176
10177 CHAPTER XVIII
10178
10179
10180 “I hope I shall soon have the pleasure of introducing my son to you,”
10181 said Mr. Weston.
10182
10183 Mrs. Elton, very willing to suppose a particular compliment intended her
10184 by such a hope, smiled most graciously.
10185
10186 “You have heard of a certain Frank Churchill, I presume,” he
10187 continued--“and know him to be my son, though he does not bear my name.”
10188
10189 “Oh! yes, and I shall be very happy in his acquaintance. I am sure Mr.
10190 Elton will lose no time in calling on him; and we shall both have great
10191 pleasure in seeing him at the Vicarage.”
10192
10193 “You are very obliging.--Frank will be extremely happy, I am sure.--
10194 He is to be in town next week, if not sooner. We have notice of it in a
10195 letter to-day. I met the letters in my way this morning, and seeing my
10196 son’s hand, presumed to open it--though it was not directed to me--it
10197 was to Mrs. Weston. She is his principal correspondent, I assure you. I
10198 hardly ever get a letter.”
10199
10200 “And so you absolutely opened what was directed to her! Oh! Mr.
10201 Weston--(laughing affectedly) I must protest against that.--A most
10202 dangerous precedent indeed!--I beg you will not let your neighbours
10203 follow your example.--Upon my word, if this is what I am to expect, we
10204 married women must begin to exert ourselves!--Oh! Mr. Weston, I could
10205 not have believed it of you!”
10206
10207 “Aye, we men are sad fellows. You must take care of yourself, Mrs.
10208 Elton.--This letter tells us--it is a short letter--written in a hurry,
10209 merely to give us notice--it tells us that they are all coming up to
10210 town directly, on Mrs. Churchill’s account--she has not been well the
10211 whole winter, and thinks Enscombe too cold for her--so they are all to
10212 move southward without loss of time.”
10213
10214 “Indeed!--from Yorkshire, I think. Enscombe is in Yorkshire?”
10215
10216 “Yes, they are about one hundred and ninety miles from London, a
10217 considerable journey.”
10218
10219 “Yes, upon my word, very considerable. Sixty-five miles farther than
10220 from Maple Grove to London. But what is distance, Mr. Weston, to people
10221 of large fortune?--You would be amazed to hear how my brother, Mr.
10222 Suckling, sometimes flies about. You will hardly believe me--but twice
10223 in one week he and Mr. Bragge went to London and back again with four
10224 horses.”
10225
10226 “The evil of the distance from Enscombe,” said Mr. Weston, “is, that
10227 Mrs. Churchill, _as_ _we_ _understand_, has not been able to leave the
10228 sofa for a week together. In Frank’s last letter she complained, he
10229 said, of being too weak to get into her conservatory without having
10230 both his arm and his uncle’s! This, you know, speaks a great degree of
10231 weakness--but now she is so impatient to be in town, that she means to
10232 sleep only two nights on the road.--So Frank writes word. Certainly,
10233 delicate ladies have very extraordinary constitutions, Mrs. Elton. You
10234 must grant me that.”
10235
10236 “No, indeed, I shall grant you nothing. I always take the part of my
10237 own sex. I do indeed. I give you notice--You will find me a formidable
10238 antagonist on that point. I always stand up for women--and I assure you,
10239 if you knew how Selina feels with respect to sleeping at an inn, you
10240 would not wonder at Mrs. Churchill’s making incredible exertions to
10241 avoid it. Selina says it is quite horror to her--and I believe I have
10242 caught a little of her nicety. She always travels with her own sheets;
10243 an excellent precaution. Does Mrs. Churchill do the same?”
10244
10245 “Depend upon it, Mrs. Churchill does every thing that any other fine
10246 lady ever did. Mrs. Churchill will not be second to any lady in the land
10247 for”--
10248
10249 Mrs. Elton eagerly interposed with,
10250
10251 “Oh! Mr. Weston, do not mistake me. Selina is no fine lady, I assure
10252 you. Do not run away with such an idea.”
10253
10254 “Is not she? Then she is no rule for Mrs. Churchill, who is as thorough
10255 a fine lady as any body ever beheld.”
10256
10257 Mrs. Elton began to think she had been wrong in disclaiming so warmly.
10258 It was by no means her object to have it believed that her sister was
10259 _not_ a fine lady; perhaps there was want of spirit in the pretence of
10260 it;--and she was considering in what way she had best retract, when Mr.
10261 Weston went on.
10262
10263 “Mrs. Churchill is not much in my good graces, as you may suspect--but
10264 this is quite between ourselves. She is very fond of Frank, and
10265 therefore I would not speak ill of her. Besides, she is out of health
10266 now; but _that_ indeed, by her own account, she has always been. I would
10267 not say so to every body, Mrs. Elton, but I have not much faith in Mrs.
10268 Churchill’s illness.”
10269
10270 “If she is really ill, why not go to Bath, Mr. Weston?--To Bath, or to
10271 Clifton?” “She has taken it into her head that Enscombe is too cold for
10272 her. The fact is, I suppose, that she is tired of Enscombe. She has now
10273 been a longer time stationary there, than she ever was before, and she
10274 begins to want change. It is a retired place. A fine place, but very
10275 retired.”
10276
10277 “Aye--like Maple Grove, I dare say. Nothing can stand more retired from
10278 the road than Maple Grove. Such an immense plantation all round it! You
10279 seem shut out from every thing--in the most complete retirement.--And
10280 Mrs. Churchill probably has not health or spirits like Selina to enjoy
10281 that sort of seclusion. Or, perhaps she may not have resources enough in
10282 herself to be qualified for a country life. I always say a woman cannot
10283 have too many resources--and I feel very thankful that I have so many
10284 myself as to be quite independent of society.”
10285
10286 “Frank was here in February for a fortnight.”
10287
10288 “So I remember to have heard. He will find an _addition_ to the society
10289 of Highbury when he comes again; that is, if I may presume to call
10290 myself an addition. But perhaps he may never have heard of there being
10291 such a creature in the world.”
10292
10293 This was too loud a call for a compliment to be passed by, and Mr.
10294 Weston, with a very good grace, immediately exclaimed,
10295
10296 “My dear madam! Nobody but yourself could imagine such a thing possible.
10297 Not heard of you!--I believe Mrs. Weston’s letters lately have been full
10298 of very little else than Mrs. Elton.”
10299
10300 He had done his duty and could return to his son.
10301
10302 “When Frank left us,” continued he, “it was quite uncertain when we
10303 might see him again, which makes this day’s news doubly welcome. It has
10304 been completely unexpected. That is, _I_ always had a strong persuasion
10305 he would be here again soon, I was sure something favourable would turn
10306 up--but nobody believed me. He and Mrs. Weston were both dreadfully
10307 desponding. ‘How could he contrive to come? And how could it be supposed
10308 that his uncle and aunt would spare him again?’ and so forth--I always
10309 felt that something would happen in our favour; and so it has, you see.
10310 I have observed, Mrs. Elton, in the course of my life, that if things
10311 are going untowardly one month, they are sure to mend the next.”
10312
10313 “Very true, Mr. Weston, perfectly true. It is just what I used to say to
10314 a certain gentleman in company in the days of courtship, when, because
10315 things did not go quite right, did not proceed with all the rapidity
10316 which suited his feelings, he was apt to be in despair, and exclaim that
10317 he was sure at this rate it would be _May_ before Hymen’s saffron robe
10318 would be put on for us. Oh! the pains I have been at to dispel those
10319 gloomy ideas and give him cheerfuller views! The carriage--we had
10320 disappointments about the carriage;--one morning, I remember, he came to
10321 me quite in despair.”
10322
10323 She was stopped by a slight fit of coughing, and Mr. Weston instantly
10324 seized the opportunity of going on.
10325
10326 “You were mentioning May. May is the very month which Mrs. Churchill
10327 is ordered, or has ordered herself, to spend in some warmer place than
10328 Enscombe--in short, to spend in London; so that we have the agreeable
10329 prospect of frequent visits from Frank the whole spring--precisely the
10330 season of the year which one should have chosen for it: days almost at
10331 the longest; weather genial and pleasant, always inviting one out, and
10332 never too hot for exercise. When he was here before, we made the best
10333 of it; but there was a good deal of wet, damp, cheerless weather;
10334 there always is in February, you know, and we could not do half that we
10335 intended. Now will be the time. This will be complete enjoyment; and I
10336 do not know, Mrs. Elton, whether the uncertainty of our meetings, the
10337 sort of constant expectation there will be of his coming in to-day or
10338 to-morrow, and at any hour, may not be more friendly to happiness than
10339 having him actually in the house. I think it is so. I think it is the
10340 state of mind which gives most spirit and delight. I hope you will be
10341 pleased with my son; but you must not expect a prodigy. He is generally
10342 thought a fine young man, but do not expect a prodigy. Mrs. Weston’s
10343 partiality for him is very great, and, as you may suppose, most
10344 gratifying to me. She thinks nobody equal to him.”
10345
10346 “And I assure you, Mr. Weston, I have very little doubt that my opinion
10347 will be decidedly in his favour. I have heard so much in praise of Mr.
10348 Frank Churchill.--At the same time it is fair to observe, that I am one
10349 of those who always judge for themselves, and are by no means implicitly
10350 guided by others. I give you notice that as I find your son, so I shall
10351 judge of him.--I am no flatterer.”
10352
10353 Mr. Weston was musing.
10354
10355 “I hope,” said he presently, “I have not been severe upon poor Mrs.
10356 Churchill. If she is ill I should be sorry to do her injustice; but
10357 there are some traits in her character which make it difficult for me to
10358 speak of her with the forbearance I could wish. You cannot be ignorant,
10359 Mrs. Elton, of my connexion with the family, nor of the treatment I have
10360 met with; and, between ourselves, the whole blame of it is to be laid
10361 to her. She was the instigator. Frank’s mother would never have been
10362 slighted as she was but for her. Mr. Churchill has pride; but his pride
10363 is nothing to his wife’s: his is a quiet, indolent, gentlemanlike sort
10364 of pride that would harm nobody, and only make himself a little helpless
10365 and tiresome; but her pride is arrogance and insolence! And what
10366 inclines one less to bear, she has no fair pretence of family or blood.
10367 She was nobody when he married her, barely the daughter of a gentleman;
10368 but ever since her being turned into a Churchill she has out-Churchill’d
10369 them all in high and mighty claims: but in herself, I assure you, she is
10370 an upstart.”
10371
10372 “Only think! well, that must be infinitely provoking! I have quite
10373 a horror of upstarts. Maple Grove has given me a thorough disgust to
10374 people of that sort; for there is a family in that neighbourhood who
10375 are such an annoyance to my brother and sister from the airs they give
10376 themselves! Your description of Mrs. Churchill made me think of them
10377 directly. People of the name of Tupman, very lately settled there, and
10378 encumbered with many low connexions, but giving themselves immense airs,
10379 and expecting to be on a footing with the old established families.
10380 A year and a half is the very utmost that they can have lived at West
10381 Hall; and how they got their fortune nobody knows. They came from
10382 Birmingham, which is not a place to promise much, you know, Mr. Weston.
10383 One has not great hopes from Birmingham. I always say there is something
10384 direful in the sound: but nothing more is positively known of the
10385 Tupmans, though a good many things I assure you are suspected; and
10386 yet by their manners they evidently think themselves equal even to
10387 my brother, Mr. Suckling, who happens to be one of their nearest
10388 neighbours. It is infinitely too bad. Mr. Suckling, who has been eleven
10389 years a resident at Maple Grove, and whose father had it before him--I
10390 believe, at least--I am almost sure that old Mr. Suckling had completed
10391 the purchase before his death.”
10392
10393 They were interrupted. Tea was carrying round, and Mr. Weston, having
10394 said all that he wanted, soon took the opportunity of walking away.
10395
10396 After tea, Mr. and Mrs. Weston, and Mr. Elton sat down with Mr.
10397 Woodhouse to cards. The remaining five were left to their own powers,
10398 and Emma doubted their getting on very well; for Mr. Knightley seemed
10399 little disposed for conversation; Mrs. Elton was wanting notice, which
10400 nobody had inclination to pay, and she was herself in a worry of spirits
10401 which would have made her prefer being silent.
10402
10403 Mr. John Knightley proved more talkative than his brother. He was to
10404 leave them early the next day; and he soon began with--
10405
10406 “Well, Emma, I do not believe I have any thing more to say about the
10407 boys; but you have your sister’s letter, and every thing is down at full
10408 length there we may be sure. My charge would be much more concise than
10409 her’s, and probably not much in the same spirit; all that I have to
10410 recommend being comprised in, do not spoil them, and do not physic
10411 them.”
10412
10413 “I rather hope to satisfy you both,” said Emma, “for I shall do all
10414 in my power to make them happy, which will be enough for Isabella; and
10415 happiness must preclude false indulgence and physic.”
10416
10417 “And if you find them troublesome, you must send them home again.”
10418
10419 “That is very likely. You think so, do not you?”
10420
10421 “I hope I am aware that they may be too noisy for your father--or even
10422 may be some encumbrance to you, if your visiting engagements continue to
10423 increase as much as they have done lately.”
10424
10425 “Increase!”
10426
10427 “Certainly; you must be sensible that the last half-year has made a
10428 great difference in your way of life.”
10429
10430 “Difference! No indeed I am not.”
10431
10432 “There can be no doubt of your being much more engaged with company than
10433 you used to be. Witness this very time. Here am I come down for only
10434 one day, and you are engaged with a dinner-party!--When did it happen
10435 before, or any thing like it? Your neighbourhood is increasing, and you
10436 mix more with it. A little while ago, every letter to Isabella brought
10437 an account of fresh gaieties; dinners at Mr. Cole’s, or balls at the
10438 Crown. The difference which Randalls, Randalls alone makes in your
10439 goings-on, is very great.”
10440
10441 “Yes,” said his brother quickly, “it is Randalls that does it all.”
10442
10443 “Very well--and as Randalls, I suppose, is not likely to have less
10444 influence than heretofore, it strikes me as a possible thing, Emma, that
10445 Henry and John may be sometimes in the way. And if they are, I only beg
10446 you to send them home.”
10447
10448 “No,” cried Mr. Knightley, “that need not be the consequence. Let them
10449 be sent to Donwell. I shall certainly be at leisure.”
10450
10451 “Upon my word,” exclaimed Emma, “you amuse me! I should like to know how
10452 many of all my numerous engagements take place without your being of
10453 the party; and why I am to be supposed in danger of wanting leisure to
10454 attend to the little boys. These amazing engagements of mine--what have
10455 they been? Dining once with the Coles--and having a ball talked of,
10456 which never took place. I can understand you--(nodding at Mr. John
10457 Knightley)--your good fortune in meeting with so many of your friends at
10458 once here, delights you too much to pass unnoticed. But you, (turning to
10459 Mr. Knightley,) who know how very, very seldom I am ever two hours from
10460 Hartfield, why you should foresee such a series of dissipation for me, I
10461 cannot imagine. And as to my dear little boys, I must say, that if Aunt
10462 Emma has not time for them, I do not think they would fare much better
10463 with Uncle Knightley, who is absent from home about five hours where she
10464 is absent one--and who, when he is at home, is either reading to himself
10465 or settling his accounts.”
10466
10467 Mr. Knightley seemed to be trying not to smile; and succeeded without
10468 difficulty, upon Mrs. Elton’s beginning to talk to him.
10469
10470
10471
10472
10473 VOLUME III
10474
10475
10476
10477 CHAPTER I
10478
10479
10480 A very little quiet reflection was enough to satisfy Emma as to the
10481 nature of her agitation on hearing this news of Frank Churchill. She
10482 was soon convinced that it was not for herself she was feeling at all
10483 apprehensive or embarrassed; it was for him. Her own attachment had
10484 really subsided into a mere nothing; it was not worth thinking of;--but
10485 if he, who had undoubtedly been always so much the most in love of the
10486 two, were to be returning with the same warmth of sentiment which he had
10487 taken away, it would be very distressing. If a separation of two
10488 months should not have cooled him, there were dangers and evils before
10489 her:--caution for him and for herself would be necessary. She did
10490 not mean to have her own affections entangled again, and it would be
10491 incumbent on her to avoid any encouragement of his.
10492
10493 She wished she might be able to keep him from an absolute declaration.
10494 That would be so very painful a conclusion of their present
10495 acquaintance! and yet, she could not help rather anticipating something
10496 decisive. She felt as if the spring would not pass without bringing a
10497 crisis, an event, a something to alter her present composed and tranquil
10498 state.
10499
10500 It was not very long, though rather longer than Mr. Weston had foreseen,
10501 before she had the power of forming some opinion of Frank Churchill’s
10502 feelings. The Enscombe family were not in town quite so soon as had been
10503 imagined, but he was at Highbury very soon afterwards. He rode down
10504 for a couple of hours; he could not yet do more; but as he came from
10505 Randalls immediately to Hartfield, she could then exercise all her quick
10506 observation, and speedily determine how he was influenced, and how she
10507 must act. They met with the utmost friendliness. There could be no doubt
10508 of his great pleasure in seeing her. But she had an almost instant doubt
10509 of his caring for her as he had done, of his feeling the same tenderness
10510 in the same degree. She watched him well. It was a clear thing he was
10511 less in love than he had been. Absence, with the conviction probably
10512 of her indifference, had produced this very natural and very desirable
10513 effect.
10514
10515 He was in high spirits; as ready to talk and laugh as ever, and seemed
10516 delighted to speak of his former visit, and recur to old stories: and he
10517 was not without agitation. It was not in his calmness that she read
10518 his comparative difference. He was not calm; his spirits were evidently
10519 fluttered; there was restlessness about him. Lively as he was, it seemed
10520 a liveliness that did not satisfy himself; but what decided her belief
10521 on the subject, was his staying only a quarter of an hour, and hurrying
10522 away to make other calls in Highbury. “He had seen a group of old
10523 acquaintance in the street as he passed--he had not stopped, he would
10524 not stop for more than a word--but he had the vanity to think they would
10525 be disappointed if he did not call, and much as he wished to stay longer
10526 at Hartfield, he must hurry off.” She had no doubt as to his being less
10527 in love--but neither his agitated spirits, nor his hurrying away, seemed
10528 like a perfect cure; and she was rather inclined to think it implied a
10529 dread of her returning power, and a discreet resolution of not trusting
10530 himself with her long.
10531
10532 This was the only visit from Frank Churchill in the course of ten days.
10533 He was often hoping, intending to come--but was always prevented. His
10534 aunt could not bear to have him leave her. Such was his own account at
10535 Randall’s. If he were quite sincere, if he really tried to come, it was
10536 to be inferred that Mrs. Churchill’s removal to London had been of no
10537 service to the wilful or nervous part of her disorder. That she was
10538 really ill was very certain; he had declared himself convinced of it, at
10539 Randalls. Though much might be fancy, he could not doubt, when he looked
10540 back, that she was in a weaker state of health than she had been half a
10541 year ago. He did not believe it to proceed from any thing that care
10542 and medicine might not remove, or at least that she might not have many
10543 years of existence before her; but he could not be prevailed on, by all
10544 his father’s doubts, to say that her complaints were merely imaginary,
10545 or that she was as strong as ever.
10546
10547 It soon appeared that London was not the place for her. She could
10548 not endure its noise. Her nerves were under continual irritation and
10549 suffering; and by the ten days’ end, her nephew’s letter to Randalls
10550 communicated a change of plan. They were going to remove immediately to
10551 Richmond. Mrs. Churchill had been recommended to the medical skill of
10552 an eminent person there, and had otherwise a fancy for the place. A
10553 ready-furnished house in a favourite spot was engaged, and much benefit
10554 expected from the change.
10555
10556 Emma heard that Frank wrote in the highest spirits of this arrangement,
10557 and seemed most fully to appreciate the blessing of having two months
10558 before him of such near neighbourhood to many dear friends--for the
10559 house was taken for May and June. She was told that now he wrote with
10560 the greatest confidence of being often with them, almost as often as he
10561 could even wish.
10562
10563 Emma saw how Mr. Weston understood these joyous prospects. He was
10564 considering her as the source of all the happiness they offered. She
10565 hoped it was not so. Two months must bring it to the proof.
10566
10567 Mr. Weston’s own happiness was indisputable. He was quite delighted.
10568 It was the very circumstance he could have wished for. Now, it would be
10569 really having Frank in their neighbourhood. What were nine miles to
10570 a young man?--An hour’s ride. He would be always coming over. The
10571 difference in that respect of Richmond and London was enough to make
10572 the whole difference of seeing him always and seeing him never. Sixteen
10573 miles--nay, eighteen--it must be full eighteen to Manchester-street--was
10574 a serious obstacle. Were he ever able to get away, the day would be
10575 spent in coming and returning. There was no comfort in having him in
10576 London; he might as well be at Enscombe; but Richmond was the very
10577 distance for easy intercourse. Better than nearer!
10578
10579 One good thing was immediately brought to a certainty by this
10580 removal,--the ball at the Crown. It had not been forgotten before,
10581 but it had been soon acknowledged vain to attempt to fix a day. Now,
10582 however, it was absolutely to be; every preparation was resumed, and
10583 very soon after the Churchills had removed to Richmond, a few lines from
10584 Frank, to say that his aunt felt already much better for the change, and
10585 that he had no doubt of being able to join them for twenty-four hours at
10586 any given time, induced them to name as early a day as possible.
10587
10588 Mr. Weston’s ball was to be a real thing. A very few to-morrows stood
10589 between the young people of Highbury and happiness.
10590
10591 Mr. Woodhouse was resigned. The time of year lightened the evil to him.
10592 May was better for every thing than February. Mrs. Bates was engaged to
10593 spend the evening at Hartfield, James had due notice, and he sanguinely
10594 hoped that neither dear little Henry nor dear little John would have any
10595 thing the matter with them, while dear Emma were gone.
10596
10597
10598
10599 CHAPTER II
10600
10601
10602 No misfortune occurred, again to prevent the ball. The day approached,
10603 the day arrived; and after a morning of some anxious watching, Frank
10604 Churchill, in all the certainty of his own self, reached Randalls before
10605 dinner, and every thing was safe.
10606
10607 No second meeting had there yet been between him and Emma. The room
10608 at the Crown was to witness it;--but it would be better than a
10609 common meeting in a crowd. Mr. Weston had been so very earnest in his
10610 entreaties for her arriving there as soon as possible after themselves,
10611 for the purpose of taking her opinion as to the propriety and comfort of
10612 the rooms before any other persons came, that she could not refuse him,
10613 and must therefore spend some quiet interval in the young man’s company.
10614 She was to convey Harriet, and they drove to the Crown in good time, the
10615 Randalls party just sufficiently before them.
10616
10617 Frank Churchill seemed to have been on the watch; and though he did not
10618 say much, his eyes declared that he meant to have a delightful evening.
10619 They all walked about together, to see that every thing was as it should
10620 be; and within a few minutes were joined by the contents of another
10621 carriage, which Emma could not hear the sound of at first, without great
10622 surprize. “So unreasonably early!” she was going to exclaim; but she
10623 presently found that it was a family of old friends, who were coming,
10624 like herself, by particular desire, to help Mr. Weston’s judgment; and
10625 they were so very closely followed by another carriage of cousins,
10626 who had been entreated to come early with the same distinguishing
10627 earnestness, on the same errand, that it seemed as if half the company
10628 might soon be collected together for the purpose of preparatory
10629 inspection.
10630
10631 Emma perceived that her taste was not the only taste on which Mr. Weston
10632 depended, and felt, that to be the favourite and intimate of a man
10633 who had so many intimates and confidantes, was not the very first
10634 distinction in the scale of vanity. She liked his open manners, but
10635 a little less of open-heartedness would have made him a higher
10636 character.--General benevolence, but not general friendship, made a
10637 man what he ought to be.--She could fancy such a man. The whole party
10638 walked about, and looked, and praised again; and then, having nothing
10639 else to do, formed a sort of half-circle round the fire, to observe
10640 in their various modes, till other subjects were started, that, though
10641 _May_, a fire in the evening was still very pleasant.
10642
10643 Emma found that it was not Mr. Weston’s fault that the number of privy
10644 councillors was not yet larger. They had stopped at Mrs. Bates’s door
10645 to offer the use of their carriage, but the aunt and niece were to be
10646 brought by the Eltons.
10647
10648 Frank was standing by her, but not steadily; there was a restlessness,
10649 which shewed a mind not at ease. He was looking about, he was going to
10650 the door, he was watching for the sound of other carriages,--impatient
10651 to begin, or afraid of being always near her.
10652
10653 Mrs. Elton was spoken of. “I think she must be here soon,” said he. “I
10654 have a great curiosity to see Mrs. Elton, I have heard so much of her.
10655 It cannot be long, I think, before she comes.”
10656
10657 A carriage was heard. He was on the move immediately; but coming back,
10658 said,
10659
10660 “I am forgetting that I am not acquainted with her. I have never seen
10661 either Mr. or Mrs. Elton. I have no business to put myself forward.”
10662
10663 Mr. and Mrs. Elton appeared; and all the smiles and the proprieties
10664 passed.
10665
10666 “But Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax!” said Mr. Weston, looking about. “We
10667 thought you were to bring them.”
10668
10669 The mistake had been slight. The carriage was sent for them now. Emma
10670 longed to know what Frank’s first opinion of Mrs. Elton might be; how
10671 he was affected by the studied elegance of her dress, and her smiles of
10672 graciousness. He was immediately qualifying himself to form an opinion,
10673 by giving her very proper attention, after the introduction had passed.
10674
10675 In a few minutes the carriage returned.--Somebody talked of rain.--“I
10676 will see that there are umbrellas, sir,” said Frank to his father:
10677 “Miss Bates must not be forgotten:” and away he went. Mr. Weston was
10678 following; but Mrs. Elton detained him, to gratify him by her opinion
10679 of his son; and so briskly did she begin, that the young man himself,
10680 though by no means moving slowly, could hardly be out of hearing.
10681
10682 “A very fine young man indeed, Mr. Weston. You know I candidly told you
10683 I should form my own opinion; and I am happy to say that I am extremely
10684 pleased with him.--You may believe me. I never compliment. I think him
10685 a very handsome young man, and his manners are precisely what I like and
10686 approve--so truly the gentleman, without the least conceit or puppyism.
10687 You must know I have a vast dislike to puppies--quite a horror of them.
10688 They were never tolerated at Maple Grove. Neither Mr. Suckling nor
10689 me had ever any patience with them; and we used sometimes to say very
10690 cutting things! Selina, who is mild almost to a fault, bore with them
10691 much better.”
10692
10693 While she talked of his son, Mr. Weston’s attention was chained; but
10694 when she got to Maple Grove, he could recollect that there were ladies
10695 just arriving to be attended to, and with happy smiles must hurry away.
10696
10697 Mrs. Elton turned to Mrs. Weston. “I have no doubt of its being our
10698 carriage with Miss Bates and Jane. Our coachman and horses are so
10699 extremely expeditious!--I believe we drive faster than any body.--What
10700 a pleasure it is to send one’s carriage for a friend!--I understand you
10701 were so kind as to offer, but another time it will be quite unnecessary.
10702 You may be very sure I shall always take care of _them_.”
10703
10704 Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax, escorted by the two gentlemen, walked into
10705 the room; and Mrs. Elton seemed to think it as much her duty as Mrs.
10706 Weston’s to receive them. Her gestures and movements might be understood
10707 by any one who looked on like Emma; but her words, every body’s words,
10708 were soon lost under the incessant flow of Miss Bates, who came in
10709 talking, and had not finished her speech under many minutes after her
10710 being admitted into the circle at the fire. As the door opened she was
10711 heard,
10712
10713 “So very obliging of you!--No rain at all. Nothing to signify. I do not
10714 care for myself. Quite thick shoes. And Jane declares--Well!--(as soon
10715 as she was within the door) Well! This is brilliant indeed!--This is
10716 admirable!--Excellently contrived, upon my word. Nothing wanting. Could
10717 not have imagined it.--So well lighted up!--Jane, Jane, look!--did you
10718 ever see any thing? Oh! Mr. Weston, you must really have had Aladdin’s
10719 lamp. Good Mrs. Stokes would not know her own room again. I saw her as
10720 I came in; she was standing in the entrance. ‘Oh! Mrs. Stokes,’ said
10721 I--but I had not time for more.” She was now met by Mrs. Weston.--“Very
10722 well, I thank you, ma’am. I hope you are quite well. Very happy to hear
10723 it. So afraid you might have a headache!--seeing you pass by so often,
10724 and knowing how much trouble you must have. Delighted to hear it indeed.
10725 Ah! dear Mrs. Elton, so obliged to you for the carriage!--excellent
10726 time. Jane and I quite ready. Did not keep the horses a moment. Most
10727 comfortable carriage.--Oh! and I am sure our thanks are due to you,
10728 Mrs. Weston, on that score. Mrs. Elton had most kindly sent Jane a note,
10729 or we should have been.--But two such offers in one day!--Never were
10730 such neighbours. I said to my mother, ‘Upon my word, ma’am--.’ Thank
10731 you, my mother is remarkably well. Gone to Mr. Woodhouse’s. I made her
10732 take her shawl--for the evenings are not warm--her large new shawl--
10733 Mrs. Dixon’s wedding-present.--So kind of her to think of my mother!
10734 Bought at Weymouth, you know--Mr. Dixon’s choice. There were three
10735 others, Jane says, which they hesitated about some time. Colonel
10736 Campbell rather preferred an olive. My dear Jane, are you sure you did
10737 not wet your feet?--It was but a drop or two, but I am so afraid:--but
10738 Mr. Frank Churchill was so extremely--and there was a mat to step
10739 upon--I shall never forget his extreme politeness.--Oh! Mr. Frank
10740 Churchill, I must tell you my mother’s spectacles have never been in
10741 fault since; the rivet never came out again. My mother often talks of
10742 your good-nature. Does not she, Jane?--Do not we often talk of Mr. Frank
10743 Churchill?--Ah! here’s Miss Woodhouse.--Dear Miss Woodhouse, how do
10744 you do?--Very well I thank you, quite well. This is meeting quite
10745 in fairy-land!--Such a transformation!--Must not compliment, I know
10746 (eyeing Emma most complacently)--that would be rude--but upon my word,
10747 Miss Woodhouse, you do look--how do you like Jane’s hair?--You are
10748 a judge.--She did it all herself. Quite wonderful how she does her
10749 hair!--No hairdresser from London I think could.--Ah! Dr. Hughes I
10750 declare--and Mrs. Hughes. Must go and speak to Dr. and Mrs. Hughes for a
10751 moment.--How do you do? How do you do?--Very well, I thank you. This
10752 is delightful, is not it?--Where’s dear Mr. Richard?--Oh! there he is.
10753 Don’t disturb him. Much better employed talking to the young ladies. How
10754 do you do, Mr. Richard?--I saw you the other day as you rode through
10755 the town--Mrs. Otway, I protest!--and good Mr. Otway, and Miss Otway
10756 and Miss Caroline.--Such a host of friends!--and Mr. George and Mr.
10757 Arthur!--How do you do? How do you all do?--Quite well, I am much
10758 obliged to you. Never better.--Don’t I hear another carriage?--Who can
10759 this be?--very likely the worthy Coles.--Upon my word, this is charming
10760 to be standing about among such friends! And such a noble fire!--I am
10761 quite roasted. No coffee, I thank you, for me--never take coffee.--A
10762 little tea if you please, sir, by and bye,--no hurry--Oh! here it comes.
10763 Every thing so good!”
10764
10765 Frank Churchill returned to his station by Emma; and as soon as Miss
10766 Bates was quiet, she found herself necessarily overhearing the discourse
10767 of Mrs. Elton and Miss Fairfax, who were standing a little way behind
10768 her.--He was thoughtful. Whether he were overhearing too, she could not
10769 determine. After a good many compliments to Jane on her dress and look,
10770 compliments very quietly and properly taken, Mrs. Elton was evidently
10771 wanting to be complimented herself--and it was, “How do you like
10772 my gown?--How do you like my trimming?--How has Wright done my
10773 hair?”--with many other relative questions, all answered with patient
10774 politeness. Mrs. Elton then said, “Nobody can think less of dress in
10775 general than I do--but upon such an occasion as this, when every body’s
10776 eyes are so much upon me, and in compliment to the Westons--who I have
10777 no doubt are giving this ball chiefly to do me honour--I would not wish
10778 to be inferior to others. And I see very few pearls in the room except
10779 mine.--So Frank Churchill is a capital dancer, I understand.--We shall
10780 see if our styles suit.--A fine young man certainly is Frank Churchill.
10781 I like him very well.”
10782
10783 At this moment Frank began talking so vigorously, that Emma could not
10784 but imagine he had overheard his own praises, and did not want to hear
10785 more;--and the voices of the ladies were drowned for a while, till
10786 another suspension brought Mrs. Elton’s tones again distinctly
10787 forward.--Mr. Elton had just joined them, and his wife was exclaiming,
10788
10789 “Oh! you have found us out at last, have you, in our seclusion?--I was
10790 this moment telling Jane, I thought you would begin to be impatient for
10791 tidings of us.”
10792
10793 “Jane!”--repeated Frank Churchill, with a look of surprize and
10794 displeasure.--“That is easy--but Miss Fairfax does not disapprove it, I
10795 suppose.”
10796
10797 “How do you like Mrs. Elton?” said Emma in a whisper.
10798
10799 “Not at all.”
10800
10801 “You are ungrateful.”
10802
10803 “Ungrateful!--What do you mean?” Then changing from a frown to a
10804 smile--“No, do not tell me--I do not want to know what you mean.--Where
10805 is my father?--When are we to begin dancing?”
10806
10807 Emma could hardly understand him; he seemed in an odd humour. He walked
10808 off to find his father, but was quickly back again with both Mr. and
10809 Mrs. Weston. He had met with them in a little perplexity, which must be
10810 laid before Emma. It had just occurred to Mrs. Weston that Mrs. Elton
10811 must be asked to begin the ball; that she would expect it; which
10812 interfered with all their wishes of giving Emma that distinction.--Emma
10813 heard the sad truth with fortitude.
10814
10815 “And what are we to do for a proper partner for her?” said Mr. Weston.
10816 “She will think Frank ought to ask her.”
10817
10818 Frank turned instantly to Emma, to claim her former promise; and
10819 boasted himself an engaged man, which his father looked his most perfect
10820 approbation of--and it then appeared that Mrs. Weston was wanting _him_
10821 to dance with Mrs. Elton himself, and that their business was to help to
10822 persuade him into it, which was done pretty soon.--Mr. Weston and Mrs.
10823 Elton led the way, Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Woodhouse followed.
10824 Emma must submit to stand second to Mrs. Elton, though she had always
10825 considered the ball as peculiarly for her. It was almost enough to make
10826 her think of marrying. Mrs. Elton had undoubtedly the advantage, at this
10827 time, in vanity completely gratified; for though she had intended to
10828 begin with Frank Churchill, she could not lose by the change. Mr. Weston
10829 might be his son’s superior.--In spite of this little rub, however,
10830 Emma was smiling with enjoyment, delighted to see the respectable length
10831 of the set as it was forming, and to feel that she had so many hours
10832 of unusual festivity before her.--She was more disturbed by Mr.
10833 Knightley’s not dancing than by any thing else.--There he was, among
10834 the standers-by, where he ought not to be; he ought to be dancing,--not
10835 classing himself with the husbands, and fathers, and whist-players, who
10836 were pretending to feel an interest in the dance till their rubbers were
10837 made up,--so young as he looked!--He could not have appeared to greater
10838 advantage perhaps anywhere, than where he had placed himself. His tall,
10839 firm, upright figure, among the bulky forms and stooping shoulders of
10840 the elderly men, was such as Emma felt must draw every body’s eyes;
10841 and, excepting her own partner, there was not one among the whole row of
10842 young men who could be compared with him.--He moved a few steps nearer,
10843 and those few steps were enough to prove in how gentlemanlike a manner,
10844 with what natural grace, he must have danced, would he but take the
10845 trouble.--Whenever she caught his eye, she forced him to smile; but
10846 in general he was looking grave. She wished he could love a ballroom
10847 better, and could like Frank Churchill better.--He seemed often
10848 observing her. She must not flatter herself that he thought of her
10849 dancing, but if he were criticising her behaviour, she did not feel
10850 afraid. There was nothing like flirtation between her and her partner.
10851 They seemed more like cheerful, easy friends, than lovers. That Frank
10852 Churchill thought less of her than he had done, was indubitable.
10853
10854 The ball proceeded pleasantly. The anxious cares, the incessant
10855 attentions of Mrs. Weston, were not thrown away. Every body seemed
10856 happy; and the praise of being a delightful ball, which is seldom
10857 bestowed till after a ball has ceased to be, was repeatedly given in
10858 the very beginning of the existence of this. Of very important, very
10859 recordable events, it was not more productive than such meetings usually
10860 are. There was one, however, which Emma thought something of.--The two
10861 last dances before supper were begun, and Harriet had no partner;--the
10862 only young lady sitting down;--and so equal had been hitherto the
10863 number of dancers, that how there could be any one disengaged was the
10864 wonder!--But Emma’s wonder lessened soon afterwards, on seeing Mr. Elton
10865 sauntering about. He would not ask Harriet to dance if it were possible
10866 to be avoided: she was sure he would not--and she was expecting him
10867 every moment to escape into the card-room.
10868
10869 Escape, however, was not his plan. He came to the part of the room where
10870 the sitters-by were collected, spoke to some, and walked about in front
10871 of them, as if to shew his liberty, and his resolution of maintaining
10872 it. He did not omit being sometimes directly before Miss Smith, or
10873 speaking to those who were close to her.--Emma saw it. She was not yet
10874 dancing; she was working her way up from the bottom, and had therefore
10875 leisure to look around, and by only turning her head a little she saw
10876 it all. When she was half-way up the set, the whole group were exactly
10877 behind her, and she would no longer allow her eyes to watch; but Mr.
10878 Elton was so near, that she heard every syllable of a dialogue which
10879 just then took place between him and Mrs. Weston; and she perceived that
10880 his wife, who was standing immediately above her, was not only
10881 listening also, but even encouraging him by significant glances.--The
10882 kind-hearted, gentle Mrs. Weston had left her seat to join him and say,
10883 “Do not you dance, Mr. Elton?” to which his prompt reply was, “Most
10884 readily, Mrs. Weston, if you will dance with me.”
10885
10886 “Me!--oh! no--I would get you a better partner than myself. I am no
10887 dancer.”
10888
10889 “If Mrs. Gilbert wishes to dance,” said he, “I shall have great
10890 pleasure, I am sure--for, though beginning to feel myself rather an old
10891 married man, and that my dancing days are over, it would give me very
10892 great pleasure at any time to stand up with an old friend like Mrs.
10893 Gilbert.”
10894
10895 “Mrs. Gilbert does not mean to dance, but there is a young lady
10896 disengaged whom I should be very glad to see dancing--Miss Smith.” “Miss
10897 Smith!--oh!--I had not observed.--You are extremely obliging--and if I
10898 were not an old married man.--But my dancing days are over, Mrs. Weston.
10899 You will excuse me. Any thing else I should be most happy to do, at your
10900 command--but my dancing days are over.”
10901
10902 Mrs. Weston said no more; and Emma could imagine with what surprize and
10903 mortification she must be returning to her seat. This was Mr. Elton! the
10904 amiable, obliging, gentle Mr. Elton.--She looked round for a moment; he
10905 had joined Mr. Knightley at a little distance, and was arranging himself
10906 for settled conversation, while smiles of high glee passed between him
10907 and his wife.
10908
10909 She would not look again. Her heart was in a glow, and she feared her
10910 face might be as hot.
10911
10912 In another moment a happier sight caught her;--Mr. Knightley leading
10913 Harriet to the set!--Never had she been more surprized, seldom more
10914 delighted, than at that instant. She was all pleasure and gratitude,
10915 both for Harriet and herself, and longed to be thanking him; and though
10916 too distant for speech, her countenance said much, as soon as she could
10917 catch his eye again.
10918
10919 His dancing proved to be just what she had believed it, extremely good;
10920 and Harriet would have seemed almost too lucky, if it had not been for
10921 the cruel state of things before, and for the very complete enjoyment
10922 and very high sense of the distinction which her happy features
10923 announced. It was not thrown away on her, she bounded higher than ever,
10924 flew farther down the middle, and was in a continual course of smiles.
10925
10926 Mr. Elton had retreated into the card-room, looking (Emma trusted) very
10927 foolish. She did not think he was quite so hardened as his wife, though
10928 growing very like her;--_she_ spoke some of her feelings, by observing
10929 audibly to her partner,
10930
10931 “Knightley has taken pity on poor little Miss Smith!--Very good-natured,
10932 I declare.”
10933
10934 Supper was announced. The move began; and Miss Bates might be heard from
10935 that moment, without interruption, till her being seated at table and
10936 taking up her spoon.
10937
10938 “Jane, Jane, my dear Jane, where are you?--Here is your tippet. Mrs.
10939 Weston begs you to put on your tippet. She says she is afraid there will
10940 be draughts in the passage, though every thing has been done--One door
10941 nailed up--Quantities of matting--My dear Jane, indeed you must.
10942 Mr. Churchill, oh! you are too obliging! How well you put it on!--so
10943 gratified! Excellent dancing indeed!--Yes, my dear, I ran home, as I
10944 said I should, to help grandmama to bed, and got back again, and
10945 nobody missed me.--I set off without saying a word, just as I told you.
10946 Grandmama was quite well, had a charming evening with Mr. Woodhouse, a
10947 vast deal of chat, and backgammon.--Tea was made downstairs, biscuits
10948 and baked apples and wine before she came away: amazing luck in some
10949 of her throws: and she inquired a great deal about you, how you were
10950 amused, and who were your partners. ‘Oh!’ said I, ‘I shall not forestall
10951 Jane; I left her dancing with Mr. George Otway; she will love to tell
10952 you all about it herself to-morrow: her first partner was Mr. Elton,
10953 I do not know who will ask her next, perhaps Mr. William Cox.’ My dear
10954 sir, you are too obliging.--Is there nobody you would not rather?--I am
10955 not helpless. Sir, you are most kind. Upon my word, Jane on one arm, and
10956 me on the other!--Stop, stop, let us stand a little back, Mrs. Elton is
10957 going; dear Mrs. Elton, how elegant she looks!--Beautiful lace!--Now we
10958 all follow in her train. Quite the queen of the evening!--Well, here we
10959 are at the passage. Two steps, Jane, take care of the two steps. Oh! no,
10960 there is but one. Well, I was persuaded there were two. How very odd!
10961 I was convinced there were two, and there is but one. I never saw any
10962 thing equal to the comfort and style--Candles everywhere.--I was telling
10963 you of your grandmama, Jane,--There was a little disappointment.--The
10964 baked apples and biscuits, excellent in their way, you know; but there
10965 was a delicate fricassee of sweetbread and some asparagus brought in at
10966 first, and good Mr. Woodhouse, not thinking the asparagus quite boiled
10967 enough, sent it all out again. Now there is nothing grandmama loves
10968 better than sweetbread and asparagus--so she was rather disappointed,
10969 but we agreed we would not speak of it to any body, for fear of
10970 its getting round to dear Miss Woodhouse, who would be so very much
10971 concerned!--Well, this is brilliant! I am all amazement! could not have
10972 supposed any thing!--Such elegance and profusion!--I have seen nothing
10973 like it since--Well, where shall we sit? where shall we sit? Anywhere,
10974 so that Jane is not in a draught. Where _I_ sit is of no consequence.
10975 Oh! do you recommend this side?--Well, I am sure, Mr. Churchill--only
10976 it seems too good--but just as you please. What you direct in this house
10977 cannot be wrong. Dear Jane, how shall we ever recollect half the dishes
10978 for grandmama? Soup too! Bless me! I should not be helped so soon, but
10979 it smells most excellent, and I cannot help beginning.”
10980
10981 Emma had no opportunity of speaking to Mr. Knightley till after supper;
10982 but, when they were all in the ballroom again, her eyes invited
10983 him irresistibly to come to her and be thanked. He was warm in his
10984 reprobation of Mr. Elton’s conduct; it had been unpardonable rudeness;
10985 and Mrs. Elton’s looks also received the due share of censure.
10986
10987 “They aimed at wounding more than Harriet,” said he. “Emma, why is it
10988 that they are your enemies?”
10989
10990 He looked with smiling penetration; and, on receiving no answer, added,
10991 “_She_ ought not to be angry with you, I suspect, whatever he may
10992 be.--To that surmise, you say nothing, of course; but confess, Emma,
10993 that you did want him to marry Harriet.”
10994
10995 “I did,” replied Emma, “and they cannot forgive me.”
10996
10997 He shook his head; but there was a smile of indulgence with it, and he
10998 only said,
10999
11000 “I shall not scold you. I leave you to your own reflections.”
11001
11002 “Can you trust me with such flatterers?--Does my vain spirit ever tell
11003 me I am wrong?”
11004
11005 “Not your vain spirit, but your serious spirit.--If one leads you wrong,
11006 I am sure the other tells you of it.”
11007
11008 “I do own myself to have been completely mistaken in Mr. Elton. There is
11009 a littleness about him which you discovered, and which I did not: and I
11010 was fully convinced of his being in love with Harriet. It was through a
11011 series of strange blunders!”
11012
11013 “And, in return for your acknowledging so much, I will do you the
11014 justice to say, that you would have chosen for him better than he has
11015 chosen for himself.--Harriet Smith has some first-rate qualities, which
11016 Mrs. Elton is totally without. An unpretending, single-minded, artless
11017 girl--infinitely to be preferred by any man of sense and taste to such a
11018 woman as Mrs. Elton. I found Harriet more conversable than I expected.”
11019
11020 Emma was extremely gratified.--They were interrupted by the bustle of
11021 Mr. Weston calling on every body to begin dancing again.
11022
11023 “Come Miss Woodhouse, Miss Otway, Miss Fairfax, what are you all
11024 doing?--Come Emma, set your companions the example. Every body is lazy!
11025 Every body is asleep!”
11026
11027 “I am ready,” said Emma, “whenever I am wanted.”
11028
11029 “Whom are you going to dance with?” asked Mr. Knightley.
11030
11031 She hesitated a moment, and then replied, “With you, if you will ask
11032 me.”
11033
11034 “Will you?” said he, offering his hand.
11035
11036 “Indeed I will. You have shewn that you can dance, and you know we are
11037 not really so much brother and sister as to make it at all improper.”
11038
11039 “Brother and sister! no, indeed.”
11040
11041
11042
11043 CHAPTER III
11044
11045
11046 This little explanation with Mr. Knightley gave Emma considerable
11047 pleasure. It was one of the agreeable recollections of the ball, which
11048 she walked about the lawn the next morning to enjoy.--She was extremely
11049 glad that they had come to so good an understanding respecting the
11050 Eltons, and that their opinions of both husband and wife were so much
11051 alike; and his praise of Harriet, his concession in her favour, was
11052 peculiarly gratifying. The impertinence of the Eltons, which for a few
11053 minutes had threatened to ruin the rest of her evening, had been the
11054 occasion of some of its highest satisfactions; and she looked forward
11055 to another happy result--the cure of Harriet’s infatuation.--From
11056 Harriet’s manner of speaking of the circumstance before they quitted the
11057 ballroom, she had strong hopes. It seemed as if her eyes were suddenly
11058 opened, and she were enabled to see that Mr. Elton was not the superior
11059 creature she had believed him. The fever was over, and Emma could
11060 harbour little fear of the pulse being quickened again by injurious
11061 courtesy. She depended on the evil feelings of the Eltons for
11062 supplying all the discipline of pointed neglect that could be farther
11063 requisite.--Harriet rational, Frank Churchill not too much in love, and
11064 Mr. Knightley not wanting to quarrel with her, how very happy a summer
11065 must be before her!
11066
11067 She was not to see Frank Churchill this morning. He had told her that he
11068 could not allow himself the pleasure of stopping at Hartfield, as he was
11069 to be at home by the middle of the day. She did not regret it.
11070
11071 Having arranged all these matters, looked them through, and put them all
11072 to rights, she was just turning to the house with spirits freshened up
11073 for the demands of the two little boys, as well as of their grandpapa,
11074 when the great iron sweep-gate opened, and two persons entered whom she
11075 had never less expected to see together--Frank Churchill, with Harriet
11076 leaning on his arm--actually Harriet!--A moment sufficed to convince
11077 her that something extraordinary had happened. Harriet looked white
11078 and frightened, and he was trying to cheer her.--The iron gates and the
11079 front-door were not twenty yards asunder;--they were all three soon in
11080 the hall, and Harriet immediately sinking into a chair fainted away.
11081
11082 A young lady who faints, must be recovered; questions must be answered,
11083 and surprizes be explained. Such events are very interesting, but the
11084 suspense of them cannot last long. A few minutes made Emma acquainted
11085 with the whole.
11086
11087 Miss Smith, and Miss Bickerton, another parlour boarder at Mrs.
11088 Goddard’s, who had been also at the ball, had walked out together, and
11089 taken a road, the Richmond road, which, though apparently public enough
11090 for safety, had led them into alarm.--About half a mile beyond Highbury,
11091 making a sudden turn, and deeply shaded by elms on each side, it became
11092 for a considerable stretch very retired; and when the young ladies
11093 had advanced some way into it, they had suddenly perceived at a small
11094 distance before them, on a broader patch of greensward by the side, a
11095 party of gipsies. A child on the watch, came towards them to beg; and
11096 Miss Bickerton, excessively frightened, gave a great scream, and calling
11097 on Harriet to follow her, ran up a steep bank, cleared a slight hedge at
11098 the top, and made the best of her way by a short cut back to Highbury.
11099 But poor Harriet could not follow. She had suffered very much from cramp
11100 after dancing, and her first attempt to mount the bank brought on such
11101 a return of it as made her absolutely powerless--and in this state, and
11102 exceedingly terrified, she had been obliged to remain.
11103
11104 How the trampers might have behaved, had the young ladies been more
11105 courageous, must be doubtful; but such an invitation for attack could
11106 not be resisted; and Harriet was soon assailed by half a dozen children,
11107 headed by a stout woman and a great boy, all clamorous, and impertinent
11108 in look, though not absolutely in word.--More and more frightened, she
11109 immediately promised them money, and taking out her purse, gave them a
11110 shilling, and begged them not to want more, or to use her ill.--She
11111 was then able to walk, though but slowly, and was moving away--but her
11112 terror and her purse were too tempting, and she was followed, or rather
11113 surrounded, by the whole gang, demanding more.
11114
11115 In this state Frank Churchill had found her, she trembling and
11116 conditioning, they loud and insolent. By a most fortunate chance his
11117 leaving Highbury had been delayed so as to bring him to her assistance
11118 at this critical moment. The pleasantness of the morning had induced
11119 him to walk forward, and leave his horses to meet him by another road,
11120 a mile or two beyond Highbury--and happening to have borrowed a pair
11121 of scissors the night before of Miss Bates, and to have forgotten to
11122 restore them, he had been obliged to stop at her door, and go in for a
11123 few minutes: he was therefore later than he had intended; and being
11124 on foot, was unseen by the whole party till almost close to them. The
11125 terror which the woman and boy had been creating in Harriet was then
11126 their own portion. He had left them completely frightened; and Harriet
11127 eagerly clinging to him, and hardly able to speak, had just strength
11128 enough to reach Hartfield, before her spirits were quite overcome.
11129 It was his idea to bring her to Hartfield: he had thought of no other
11130 place.
11131
11132 This was the amount of the whole story,--of his communication and of
11133 Harriet’s as soon as she had recovered her senses and speech.--He dared
11134 not stay longer than to see her well; these several delays left him
11135 not another minute to lose; and Emma engaging to give assurance of her
11136 safety to Mrs. Goddard, and notice of there being such a set of people
11137 in the neighbourhood to Mr. Knightley, he set off, with all the grateful
11138 blessings that she could utter for her friend and herself.
11139
11140 Such an adventure as this,--a fine young man and a lovely young woman
11141 thrown together in such a way, could hardly fail of suggesting certain
11142 ideas to the coldest heart and the steadiest brain. So Emma thought, at
11143 least. Could a linguist, could a grammarian, could even a mathematician
11144 have seen what she did, have witnessed their appearance together, and
11145 heard their history of it, without feeling that circumstances had been
11146 at work to make them peculiarly interesting to each other?--How much
11147 more must an imaginist, like herself, be on fire with speculation and
11148 foresight!--especially with such a groundwork of anticipation as her
11149 mind had already made.
11150
11151 It was a very extraordinary thing! Nothing of the sort had ever
11152 occurred before to any young ladies in the place, within her memory; no
11153 rencontre, no alarm of the kind;--and now it had happened to the very
11154 person, and at the very hour, when the other very person was chancing
11155 to pass by to rescue her!--It certainly was very extraordinary!--And
11156 knowing, as she did, the favourable state of mind of each at this
11157 period, it struck her the more. He was wishing to get the better of his
11158 attachment to herself, she just recovering from her mania for Mr. Elton.
11159 It seemed as if every thing united to promise the most interesting
11160 consequences. It was not possible that the occurrence should not be
11161 strongly recommending each to the other.
11162
11163 In the few minutes’ conversation which she had yet had with him, while
11164 Harriet had been partially insensible, he had spoken of her terror,
11165 her naivete, her fervour as she seized and clung to his arm, with a
11166 sensibility amused and delighted; and just at last, after Harriet’s
11167 own account had been given, he had expressed his indignation at the
11168 abominable folly of Miss Bickerton in the warmest terms. Every thing was
11169 to take its natural course, however, neither impelled nor assisted.
11170 She would not stir a step, nor drop a hint. No, she had had enough of
11171 interference. There could be no harm in a scheme, a mere passive scheme.
11172 It was no more than a wish. Beyond it she would on no account proceed.
11173
11174 Emma’s first resolution was to keep her father from the knowledge of
11175 what had passed,--aware of the anxiety and alarm it would occasion: but
11176 she soon felt that concealment must be impossible. Within half an hour
11177 it was known all over Highbury. It was the very event to engage those
11178 who talk most, the young and the low; and all the youth and servants in
11179 the place were soon in the happiness of frightful news. The last night’s
11180 ball seemed lost in the gipsies. Poor Mr. Woodhouse trembled as he sat,
11181 and, as Emma had foreseen, would scarcely be satisfied without their
11182 promising never to go beyond the shrubbery again. It was some comfort
11183 to him that many inquiries after himself and Miss Woodhouse (for his
11184 neighbours knew that he loved to be inquired after), as well as Miss
11185 Smith, were coming in during the rest of the day; and he had
11186 the pleasure of returning for answer, that they were all very
11187 indifferent--which, though not exactly true, for she was perfectly well,
11188 and Harriet not much otherwise, Emma would not interfere with. She had
11189 an unhappy state of health in general for the child of such a man,
11190 for she hardly knew what indisposition was; and if he did not invent
11191 illnesses for her, she could make no figure in a message.
11192
11193 The gipsies did not wait for the operations of justice; they took
11194 themselves off in a hurry. The young ladies of Highbury might have
11195 walked again in safety before their panic began, and the whole history
11196 dwindled soon into a matter of little importance but to Emma and her
11197 nephews:--in her imagination it maintained its ground, and Henry and
11198 John were still asking every day for the story of Harriet and the
11199 gipsies, and still tenaciously setting her right if she varied in the
11200 slightest particular from the original recital.
11201
11202
11203
11204 CHAPTER IV
11205
11206
11207 A very few days had passed after this adventure, when Harriet came one
11208 morning to Emma with a small parcel in her hand, and after sitting down
11209 and hesitating, thus began:
11210
11211 “Miss Woodhouse--if you are at leisure--I have something that I should
11212 like to tell you--a sort of confession to make--and then, you know, it
11213 will be over.”
11214
11215 Emma was a good deal surprized; but begged her to speak. There was a
11216 seriousness in Harriet’s manner which prepared her, quite as much as her
11217 words, for something more than ordinary.
11218
11219 “It is my duty, and I am sure it is my wish,” she continued, “to have
11220 no reserves with you on this subject. As I am happily quite an altered
11221 creature in _one_ _respect_, it is very fit that you should have
11222 the satisfaction of knowing it. I do not want to say more than is
11223 necessary--I am too much ashamed of having given way as I have done, and
11224 I dare say you understand me.”
11225
11226 “Yes,” said Emma, “I hope I do.”
11227
11228 “How I could so long a time be fancying myself!...” cried Harriet,
11229 warmly. “It seems like madness! I can see nothing at all extraordinary
11230 in him now.--I do not care whether I meet him or not--except that of the
11231 two I had rather not see him--and indeed I would go any distance round
11232 to avoid him--but I do not envy his wife in the least; I neither admire
11233 her nor envy her, as I have done: she is very charming, I dare say, and
11234 all that, but I think her very ill-tempered and disagreeable--I shall
11235 never forget her look the other night!--However, I assure you, Miss
11236 Woodhouse, I wish her no evil.--No, let them be ever so happy together,
11237 it will not give me another moment’s pang: and to convince you that I
11238 have been speaking truth, I am now going to destroy--what I ought to
11239 have destroyed long ago--what I ought never to have kept--I know that
11240 very well (blushing as she spoke).--However, now I will destroy it
11241 all--and it is my particular wish to do it in your presence, that you
11242 may see how rational I am grown. Cannot you guess what this parcel
11243 holds?” said she, with a conscious look.
11244
11245 “Not the least in the world.--Did he ever give you any thing?”
11246
11247 “No--I cannot call them gifts; but they are things that I have valued
11248 very much.”
11249
11250 She held the parcel towards her, and Emma read the words _Most_
11251 _precious_ _treasures_ on the top. Her curiosity was greatly excited.
11252 Harriet unfolded the parcel, and she looked on with impatience. Within
11253 abundance of silver paper was a pretty little Tunbridge-ware box,
11254 which Harriet opened: it was well lined with the softest cotton; but,
11255 excepting the cotton, Emma saw only a small piece of court-plaister.
11256
11257 “Now,” said Harriet, “you _must_ recollect.”
11258
11259 “No, indeed I do not.”
11260
11261 “Dear me! I should not have thought it possible you could forget what
11262 passed in this very room about court-plaister, one of the very last
11263 times we ever met in it!--It was but a very few days before I had my
11264 sore throat--just before Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley came--I think the
11265 very evening.--Do not you remember his cutting his finger with your new
11266 penknife, and your recommending court-plaister?--But, as you had none
11267 about you, and knew I had, you desired me to supply him; and so I took
11268 mine out and cut him a piece; but it was a great deal too large, and he
11269 cut it smaller, and kept playing some time with what was left, before he
11270 gave it back to me. And so then, in my nonsense, I could not help making
11271 a treasure of it--so I put it by never to be used, and looked at it now
11272 and then as a great treat.”
11273
11274 “My dearest Harriet!” cried Emma, putting her hand before her face,
11275 and jumping up, “you make me more ashamed of myself than I can bear.
11276 Remember it? Aye, I remember it all now; all, except your saving this
11277 relic--I knew nothing of that till this moment--but the cutting the
11278 finger, and my recommending court-plaister, and saying I had none
11279 about me!--Oh! my sins, my sins!--And I had plenty all the while in my
11280 pocket!--One of my senseless tricks!--I deserve to be under a continual
11281 blush all the rest of my life.--Well--(sitting down again)--go on--what
11282 else?”
11283
11284 “And had you really some at hand yourself? I am sure I never suspected
11285 it, you did it so naturally.”
11286
11287 “And so you actually put this piece of court-plaister by for his sake!”
11288 said Emma, recovering from her state of shame and feeling divided
11289 between wonder and amusement. And secretly she added to herself, “Lord
11290 bless me! when should I ever have thought of putting by in cotton a
11291 piece of court-plaister that Frank Churchill had been pulling about! I
11292 never was equal to this.”
11293
11294 “Here,” resumed Harriet, turning to her box again, “here is something
11295 still more valuable, I mean that _has_ _been_ more valuable, because
11296 this is what did really once belong to him, which the court-plaister
11297 never did.”
11298
11299 Emma was quite eager to see this superior treasure. It was the end of an
11300 old pencil,--the part without any lead.
11301
11302 “This was really his,” said Harriet.--“Do not you remember one
11303 morning?--no, I dare say you do not. But one morning--I forget exactly
11304 the day--but perhaps it was the Tuesday or Wednesday before _that_
11305 _evening_, he wanted to make a memorandum in his pocket-book; it was
11306 about spruce-beer. Mr. Knightley had been telling him something about
11307 brewing spruce-beer, and he wanted to put it down; but when he took out
11308 his pencil, there was so little lead that he soon cut it all away, and
11309 it would not do, so you lent him another, and this was left upon the
11310 table as good for nothing. But I kept my eye on it; and, as soon as I
11311 dared, caught it up, and never parted with it again from that moment.”
11312
11313 “I do remember it,” cried Emma; “I perfectly remember it.--Talking
11314 about spruce-beer.--Oh! yes--Mr. Knightley and I both saying we
11315 liked it, and Mr. Elton’s seeming resolved to learn to like it too. I
11316 perfectly remember it.--Stop; Mr. Knightley was standing just here, was
11317 not he? I have an idea he was standing just here.”
11318
11319 “Ah! I do not know. I cannot recollect.--It is very odd, but I cannot
11320 recollect.--Mr. Elton was sitting here, I remember, much about where I
11321 am now.”--
11322
11323 “Well, go on.”
11324
11325 “Oh! that’s all. I have nothing more to shew you, or to say--except that
11326 I am now going to throw them both behind the fire, and I wish you to see
11327 me do it.”
11328
11329 “My poor dear Harriet! and have you actually found happiness in
11330 treasuring up these things?”
11331
11332 “Yes, simpleton as I was!--but I am quite ashamed of it now, and wish I
11333 could forget as easily as I can burn them. It was very wrong of me, you
11334 know, to keep any remembrances, after he was married. I knew it was--but
11335 had not resolution enough to part with them.”
11336
11337 “But, Harriet, is it necessary to burn the court-plaister?--I have not
11338 a word to say for the bit of old pencil, but the court-plaister might be
11339 useful.”
11340
11341 “I shall be happier to burn it,” replied Harriet. “It has a disagreeable
11342 look to me. I must get rid of every thing.--There it goes, and there is
11343 an end, thank Heaven! of Mr. Elton.”
11344
11345 “And when,” thought Emma, “will there be a beginning of Mr. Churchill?”
11346
11347 She had soon afterwards reason to believe that the beginning was already
11348 made, and could not but hope that the gipsy, though she had _told_ no
11349 fortune, might be proved to have made Harriet’s.--About a fortnight
11350 after the alarm, they came to a sufficient explanation, and quite
11351 undesignedly. Emma was not thinking of it at the moment, which made the
11352 information she received more valuable. She merely said, in the course
11353 of some trivial chat, “Well, Harriet, whenever you marry I would advise
11354 you to do so and so”--and thought no more of it, till after a minute’s
11355 silence she heard Harriet say in a very serious tone, “I shall never
11356 marry.”
11357
11358 Emma then looked up, and immediately saw how it was; and after a
11359 moment’s debate, as to whether it should pass unnoticed or not, replied,
11360
11361 “Never marry!--This is a new resolution.”
11362
11363 “It is one that I shall never change, however.”
11364
11365 After another short hesitation, “I hope it does not proceed from--I hope
11366 it is not in compliment to Mr. Elton?”
11367
11368 “Mr. Elton indeed!” cried Harriet indignantly.--“Oh! no”--and Emma could
11369 just catch the words, “so superior to Mr. Elton!”
11370
11371 She then took a longer time for consideration. Should she proceed no
11372 farther?--should she let it pass, and seem to suspect nothing?--Perhaps
11373 Harriet might think her cold or angry if she did; or perhaps if she were
11374 totally silent, it might only drive Harriet into asking her to hear too
11375 much; and against any thing like such an unreserve as had been, such
11376 an open and frequent discussion of hopes and chances, she was perfectly
11377 resolved.--She believed it would be wiser for her to say and know at
11378 once, all that she meant to say and know. Plain dealing was always
11379 best. She had previously determined how far she would proceed, on any
11380 application of the sort; and it would be safer for both, to have the
11381 judicious law of her own brain laid down with speed.--She was decided,
11382 and thus spoke--
11383
11384 “Harriet, I will not affect to be in doubt of your meaning. Your
11385 resolution, or rather your expectation of never marrying, results from
11386 an idea that the person whom you might prefer, would be too greatly your
11387 superior in situation to think of you. Is not it so?”
11388
11389 “Oh! Miss Woodhouse, believe me I have not the presumption to suppose--
11390 Indeed I am not so mad.--But it is a pleasure to me to admire him at a
11391 distance--and to think of his infinite superiority to all the rest of
11392 the world, with the gratitude, wonder, and veneration, which are so
11393 proper, in me especially.”
11394
11395 “I am not at all surprized at you, Harriet. The service he rendered you
11396 was enough to warm your heart.”
11397
11398 “Service! oh! it was such an inexpressible obligation!--The very
11399 recollection of it, and all that I felt at the time--when I saw him
11400 coming--his noble look--and my wretchedness before. Such a change! In
11401 one moment such a change! From perfect misery to perfect happiness!”
11402
11403 “It is very natural. It is natural, and it is honourable.--Yes,
11404 honourable, I think, to chuse so well and so gratefully.--But that
11405 it will be a fortunate preference is more than I can promise. I do not
11406 advise you to give way to it, Harriet. I do not by any means engage
11407 for its being returned. Consider what you are about. Perhaps it will be
11408 wisest in you to check your feelings while you can: at any rate do not
11409 let them carry you far, unless you are persuaded of his liking you. Be
11410 observant of him. Let his behaviour be the guide of your sensations. I
11411 give you this caution now, because I shall never speak to you again on
11412 the subject. I am determined against all interference. Henceforward I
11413 know nothing of the matter. Let no name ever pass our lips. We were very
11414 wrong before; we will be cautious now.--He is your superior, no doubt,
11415 and there do seem objections and obstacles of a very serious nature; but
11416 yet, Harriet, more wonderful things have taken place, there have been
11417 matches of greater disparity. But take care of yourself. I would not
11418 have you too sanguine; though, however it may end, be assured your
11419 raising your thoughts to _him_, is a mark of good taste which I shall
11420 always know how to value.”
11421
11422 Harriet kissed her hand in silent and submissive gratitude. Emma was
11423 very decided in thinking such an attachment no bad thing for her friend.
11424 Its tendency would be to raise and refine her mind--and it must be
11425 saving her from the danger of degradation.
11426
11427
11428
11429 CHAPTER V
11430
11431
11432 In this state of schemes, and hopes, and connivance, June opened upon
11433 Hartfield. To Highbury in general it brought no material change. The
11434 Eltons were still talking of a visit from the Sucklings, and of the use
11435 to be made of their barouche-landau; and Jane Fairfax was still at her
11436 grandmother’s; and as the return of the Campbells from Ireland was again
11437 delayed, and August, instead of Midsummer, fixed for it, she was likely
11438 to remain there full two months longer, provided at least she were able
11439 to defeat Mrs. Elton’s activity in her service, and save herself from
11440 being hurried into a delightful situation against her will.
11441
11442 Mr. Knightley, who, for some reason best known to himself, had certainly
11443 taken an early dislike to Frank Churchill, was only growing to dislike
11444 him more. He began to suspect him of some double dealing in his pursuit
11445 of Emma. That Emma was his object appeared indisputable. Every thing
11446 declared it; his own attentions, his father’s hints, his mother-in-law’s
11447 guarded silence; it was all in unison; words, conduct, discretion, and
11448 indiscretion, told the same story. But while so many were devoting him
11449 to Emma, and Emma herself making him over to Harriet, Mr. Knightley
11450 began to suspect him of some inclination to trifle with Jane Fairfax. He
11451 could not understand it; but there were symptoms of intelligence between
11452 them--he thought so at least--symptoms of admiration on his side, which,
11453 having once observed, he could not persuade himself to think entirely
11454 void of meaning, however he might wish to escape any of Emma’s errors
11455 of imagination. _She_ was not present when the suspicion first arose.
11456 He was dining with the Randalls family, and Jane, at the Eltons’; and he
11457 had seen a look, more than a single look, at Miss Fairfax, which, from
11458 the admirer of Miss Woodhouse, seemed somewhat out of place. When he was
11459 again in their company, he could not help remembering what he had seen;
11460 nor could he avoid observations which, unless it were like Cowper and
11461 his fire at twilight,
11462
11463 “Myself creating what I saw,”
11464
11465 brought him yet stronger suspicion of there being a something of private
11466 liking, of private understanding even, between Frank Churchill and Jane.
11467
11468 He had walked up one day after dinner, as he very often did, to spend
11469 his evening at Hartfield. Emma and Harriet were going to walk; he joined
11470 them; and, on returning, they fell in with a larger party, who, like
11471 themselves, judged it wisest to take their exercise early, as the
11472 weather threatened rain; Mr. and Mrs. Weston and their son, Miss Bates
11473 and her niece, who had accidentally met. They all united; and, on
11474 reaching Hartfield gates, Emma, who knew it was exactly the sort of
11475 visiting that would be welcome to her father, pressed them all to go in
11476 and drink tea with him. The Randalls party agreed to it immediately; and
11477 after a pretty long speech from Miss Bates, which few persons listened
11478 to, she also found it possible to accept dear Miss Woodhouse’s most
11479 obliging invitation.
11480
11481 As they were turning into the grounds, Mr. Perry passed by on horseback.
11482 The gentlemen spoke of his horse.
11483
11484 “By the bye,” said Frank Churchill to Mrs. Weston presently, “what
11485 became of Mr. Perry’s plan of setting up his carriage?”
11486
11487 Mrs. Weston looked surprized, and said, “I did not know that he ever had
11488 any such plan.”
11489
11490 “Nay, I had it from you. You wrote me word of it three months ago.”
11491
11492 “Me! impossible!”
11493
11494 “Indeed you did. I remember it perfectly. You mentioned it as what
11495 was certainly to be very soon. Mrs. Perry had told somebody, and was
11496 extremely happy about it. It was owing to _her_ persuasion, as she
11497 thought his being out in bad weather did him a great deal of harm. You
11498 must remember it now?”
11499
11500 “Upon my word I never heard of it till this moment.”
11501
11502 “Never! really, never!--Bless me! how could it be?--Then I must have
11503 dreamt it--but I was completely persuaded--Miss Smith, you walk as if
11504 you were tired. You will not be sorry to find yourself at home.”
11505
11506 “What is this?--What is this?” cried Mr. Weston, “about Perry and a
11507 carriage? Is Perry going to set up his carriage, Frank? I am glad he can
11508 afford it. You had it from himself, had you?”
11509
11510 “No, sir,” replied his son, laughing, “I seem to have had it from
11511 nobody.--Very odd!--I really was persuaded of Mrs. Weston’s having
11512 mentioned it in one of her letters to Enscombe, many weeks ago, with all
11513 these particulars--but as she declares she never heard a syllable of
11514 it before, of course it must have been a dream. I am a great dreamer.
11515 I dream of every body at Highbury when I am away--and when I have gone
11516 through my particular friends, then I begin dreaming of Mr. and Mrs.
11517 Perry.”
11518
11519 “It is odd though,” observed his father, “that you should have had such
11520 a regular connected dream about people whom it was not very likely you
11521 should be thinking of at Enscombe. Perry’s setting up his carriage! and
11522 his wife’s persuading him to it, out of care for his health--just
11523 what will happen, I have no doubt, some time or other; only a little
11524 premature. What an air of probability sometimes runs through a dream!
11525 And at others, what a heap of absurdities it is! Well, Frank, your dream
11526 certainly shews that Highbury is in your thoughts when you are absent.
11527 Emma, you are a great dreamer, I think?”
11528
11529 Emma was out of hearing. She had hurried on before her guests to
11530 prepare her father for their appearance, and was beyond the reach of Mr.
11531 Weston’s hint.
11532
11533 “Why, to own the truth,” cried Miss Bates, who had been trying in vain
11534 to be heard the last two minutes, “if I must speak on this subject,
11535 there is no denying that Mr. Frank Churchill might have--I do not mean
11536 to say that he did not dream it--I am sure I have sometimes the oddest
11537 dreams in the world--but if I am questioned about it, I must acknowledge
11538 that there was such an idea last spring; for Mrs. Perry herself
11539 mentioned it to my mother, and the Coles knew of it as well as
11540 ourselves--but it was quite a secret, known to nobody else, and only
11541 thought of about three days. Mrs. Perry was very anxious that he should
11542 have a carriage, and came to my mother in great spirits one morning
11543 because she thought she had prevailed. Jane, don’t you remember
11544 grandmama’s telling us of it when we got home? I forget where we
11545 had been walking to--very likely to Randalls; yes, I think it was to
11546 Randalls. Mrs. Perry was always particularly fond of my mother--indeed
11547 I do not know who is not--and she had mentioned it to her in confidence;
11548 she had no objection to her telling us, of course, but it was not to go
11549 beyond: and, from that day to this, I never mentioned it to a soul that
11550 I know of. At the same time, I will not positively answer for my having
11551 never dropt a hint, because I know I do sometimes pop out a thing before
11552 I am aware. I am a talker, you know; I am rather a talker; and now and
11553 then I have let a thing escape me which I should not. I am not like
11554 Jane; I wish I were. I will answer for it _she_ never betrayed the least
11555 thing in the world. Where is she?--Oh! just behind. Perfectly remember
11556 Mrs. Perry’s coming.--Extraordinary dream, indeed!”
11557
11558 They were entering the hall. Mr. Knightley’s eyes had preceded Miss
11559 Bates’s in a glance at Jane. From Frank Churchill’s face, where
11560 he thought he saw confusion suppressed or laughed away, he had
11561 involuntarily turned to hers; but she was indeed behind, and too busy
11562 with her shawl. Mr. Weston had walked in. The two other gentlemen waited
11563 at the door to let her pass. Mr. Knightley suspected in Frank
11564 Churchill the determination of catching her eye--he seemed watching her
11565 intently--in vain, however, if it were so--Jane passed between them
11566 into the hall, and looked at neither.
11567
11568 There was no time for farther remark or explanation. The dream must be
11569 borne with, and Mr. Knightley must take his seat with the rest round the
11570 large modern circular table which Emma had introduced at Hartfield, and
11571 which none but Emma could have had power to place there and persuade her
11572 father to use, instead of the small-sized Pembroke, on which two of his
11573 daily meals had, for forty years been crowded. Tea passed pleasantly,
11574 and nobody seemed in a hurry to move.
11575
11576 “Miss Woodhouse,” said Frank Churchill, after examining a table behind
11577 him, which he could reach as he sat, “have your nephews taken away their
11578 alphabets--their box of letters? It used to stand here. Where is it?
11579 This is a sort of dull-looking evening, that ought to be treated rather
11580 as winter than summer. We had great amusement with those letters one
11581 morning. I want to puzzle you again.”
11582
11583 Emma was pleased with the thought; and producing the box, the table
11584 was quickly scattered over with alphabets, which no one seemed so much
11585 disposed to employ as their two selves. They were rapidly forming words
11586 for each other, or for any body else who would be puzzled. The quietness
11587 of the game made it particularly eligible for Mr. Woodhouse, who had
11588 often been distressed by the more animated sort, which Mr. Weston had
11589 occasionally introduced, and who now sat happily occupied in lamenting,
11590 with tender melancholy, over the departure of the “poor little boys,”
11591 or in fondly pointing out, as he took up any stray letter near him, how
11592 beautifully Emma had written it.
11593
11594 Frank Churchill placed a word before Miss Fairfax. She gave a slight
11595 glance round the table, and applied herself to it. Frank was next to
11596 Emma, Jane opposite to them--and Mr. Knightley so placed as to see them
11597 all; and it was his object to see as much as he could, with as little
11598 apparent observation. The word was discovered, and with a faint smile
11599 pushed away. If meant to be immediately mixed with the others, and
11600 buried from sight, she should have looked on the table instead of
11601 looking just across, for it was not mixed; and Harriet, eager after
11602 every fresh word, and finding out none, directly took it up, and fell to
11603 work. She was sitting by Mr. Knightley, and turned to him for help. The
11604 word was _blunder_; and as Harriet exultingly proclaimed it, there was a
11605 blush on Jane’s cheek which gave it a meaning not otherwise ostensible.
11606 Mr. Knightley connected it with the dream; but how it could all be,
11607 was beyond his comprehension. How the delicacy, the discretion of his
11608 favourite could have been so lain asleep! He feared there must be some
11609 decided involvement. Disingenuousness and double dealing seemed to meet
11610 him at every turn. These letters were but the vehicle for gallantry and
11611 trick. It was a child’s play, chosen to conceal a deeper game on Frank
11612 Churchill’s part.
11613
11614 With great indignation did he continue to observe him; with great alarm
11615 and distrust, to observe also his two blinded companions. He saw a short
11616 word prepared for Emma, and given to her with a look sly and demure. He
11617 saw that Emma had soon made it out, and found it highly entertaining,
11618 though it was something which she judged it proper to appear to censure;
11619 for she said, “Nonsense! for shame!” He heard Frank Churchill next say,
11620 with a glance towards Jane, “I will give it to her--shall I?”--and as
11621 clearly heard Emma opposing it with eager laughing warmth. “No, no, you
11622 must not; you shall not, indeed.”
11623
11624 It was done however. This gallant young man, who seemed to love without
11625 feeling, and to recommend himself without complaisance, directly handed
11626 over the word to Miss Fairfax, and with a particular degree of sedate
11627 civility entreated her to study it. Mr. Knightley’s excessive curiosity
11628 to know what this word might be, made him seize every possible moment
11629 for darting his eye towards it, and it was not long before he saw it
11630 to be _Dixon_. Jane Fairfax’s perception seemed to accompany his;
11631 her comprehension was certainly more equal to the covert meaning,
11632 the superior intelligence, of those five letters so arranged. She was
11633 evidently displeased; looked up, and seeing herself watched, blushed
11634 more deeply than he had ever perceived her, and saying only, “I did not
11635 know that proper names were allowed,” pushed away the letters with even
11636 an angry spirit, and looked resolved to be engaged by no other word
11637 that could be offered. Her face was averted from those who had made the
11638 attack, and turned towards her aunt.
11639
11640 “Aye, very true, my dear,” cried the latter, though Jane had not spoken
11641 a word--“I was just going to say the same thing. It is time for us to be
11642 going indeed. The evening is closing in, and grandmama will be looking
11643 for us. My dear sir, you are too obliging. We really must wish you good
11644 night.”
11645
11646 Jane’s alertness in moving, proved her as ready as her aunt had
11647 preconceived. She was immediately up, and wanting to quit the table; but
11648 so many were also moving, that she could not get away; and Mr. Knightley
11649 thought he saw another collection of letters anxiously pushed towards
11650 her, and resolutely swept away by her unexamined. She was afterwards
11651 looking for her shawl--Frank Churchill was looking also--it was growing
11652 dusk, and the room was in confusion; and how they parted, Mr. Knightley
11653 could not tell.
11654
11655 He remained at Hartfield after all the rest, his thoughts full of
11656 what he had seen; so full, that when the candles came to assist his
11657 observations, he must--yes, he certainly must, as a friend--an anxious
11658 friend--give Emma some hint, ask her some question. He could not see her
11659 in a situation of such danger, without trying to preserve her. It was
11660 his duty.
11661
11662 “Pray, Emma,” said he, “may I ask in what lay the great amusement, the
11663 poignant sting of the last word given to you and Miss Fairfax? I saw the
11664 word, and am curious to know how it could be so very entertaining to the
11665 one, and so very distressing to the other.”
11666
11667 Emma was extremely confused. She could not endure to give him the true
11668 explanation; for though her suspicions were by no means removed, she was
11669 really ashamed of having ever imparted them.
11670
11671 “Oh!” she cried in evident embarrassment, “it all meant nothing; a mere
11672 joke among ourselves.”
11673
11674 “The joke,” he replied gravely, “seemed confined to you and Mr.
11675 Churchill.”
11676
11677 He had hoped she would speak again, but she did not. She would rather
11678 busy herself about any thing than speak. He sat a little while in
11679 doubt. A variety of evils crossed his mind. Interference--fruitless
11680 interference. Emma’s confusion, and the acknowledged intimacy, seemed to
11681 declare her affection engaged. Yet he would speak. He owed it to her,
11682 to risk any thing that might be involved in an unwelcome interference,
11683 rather than her welfare; to encounter any thing, rather than the
11684 remembrance of neglect in such a cause.
11685
11686 “My dear Emma,” said he at last, with earnest kindness, “do you
11687 think you perfectly understand the degree of acquaintance between the
11688 gentleman and lady we have been speaking of?”
11689
11690 “Between Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Fairfax? Oh! yes, perfectly.--Why
11691 do you make a doubt of it?”
11692
11693 “Have you never at any time had reason to think that he admired her, or
11694 that she admired him?”
11695
11696 “Never, never!” she cried with a most open eagerness--“Never, for the
11697 twentieth part of a moment, did such an idea occur to me. And how could
11698 it possibly come into your head?”
11699
11700 “I have lately imagined that I saw symptoms of attachment between
11701 them--certain expressive looks, which I did not believe meant to be
11702 public.”
11703
11704 “Oh! you amuse me excessively. I am delighted to find that you can
11705 vouchsafe to let your imagination wander--but it will not do--very sorry
11706 to check you in your first essay--but indeed it will not do. There is no
11707 admiration between them, I do assure you; and the appearances which
11708 have caught you, have arisen from some peculiar circumstances--feelings
11709 rather of a totally different nature--it is impossible exactly to
11710 explain:--there is a good deal of nonsense in it--but the part which is
11711 capable of being communicated, which is sense, is, that they are as far
11712 from any attachment or admiration for one another, as any two beings in
11713 the world can be. That is, I _presume_ it to be so on her side, and I
11714 can _answer_ for its being so on his. I will answer for the gentleman’s
11715 indifference.”
11716
11717 She spoke with a confidence which staggered, with a satisfaction
11718 which silenced, Mr. Knightley. She was in gay spirits, and would have
11719 prolonged the conversation, wanting to hear the particulars of his
11720 suspicions, every look described, and all the wheres and hows of a
11721 circumstance which highly entertained her: but his gaiety did not meet
11722 hers. He found he could not be useful, and his feelings were too much
11723 irritated for talking. That he might not be irritated into an absolute
11724 fever, by the fire which Mr. Woodhouse’s tender habits required almost
11725 every evening throughout the year, he soon afterwards took a hasty
11726 leave, and walked home to the coolness and solitude of Donwell Abbey.
11727
11728
11729
11730 CHAPTER VI
11731
11732
11733 After being long fed with hopes of a speedy visit from Mr. and Mrs.
11734 Suckling, the Highbury world were obliged to endure the mortification
11735 of hearing that they could not possibly come till the autumn. No such
11736 importation of novelties could enrich their intellectual stores at
11737 present. In the daily interchange of news, they must be again restricted
11738 to the other topics with which for a while the Sucklings’ coming had
11739 been united, such as the last accounts of Mrs. Churchill, whose health
11740 seemed every day to supply a different report, and the situation of Mrs.
11741 Weston, whose happiness it was to be hoped might eventually be as much
11742 increased by the arrival of a child, as that of all her neighbours was
11743 by the approach of it.
11744
11745 Mrs. Elton was very much disappointed. It was the delay of a great deal
11746 of pleasure and parade. Her introductions and recommendations must all
11747 wait, and every projected party be still only talked of. So she thought
11748 at first;--but a little consideration convinced her that every thing
11749 need not be put off. Why should not they explore to Box Hill though
11750 the Sucklings did not come? They could go there again with them in the
11751 autumn. It was settled that they should go to Box Hill. That there was
11752 to be such a party had been long generally known: it had even given the
11753 idea of another. Emma had never been to Box Hill; she wished to see what
11754 every body found so well worth seeing, and she and Mr. Weston had agreed
11755 to chuse some fine morning and drive thither. Two or three more of the
11756 chosen only were to be admitted to join them, and it was to be done in a
11757 quiet, unpretending, elegant way, infinitely superior to the bustle and
11758 preparation, the regular eating and drinking, and picnic parade of the
11759 Eltons and the Sucklings.
11760
11761 This was so very well understood between them, that Emma could not but
11762 feel some surprise, and a little displeasure, on hearing from Mr. Weston
11763 that he had been proposing to Mrs. Elton, as her brother and sister had
11764 failed her, that the two parties should unite, and go together; and that
11765 as Mrs. Elton had very readily acceded to it, so it was to be, if she
11766 had no objection. Now, as her objection was nothing but her very great
11767 dislike of Mrs. Elton, of which Mr. Weston must already be perfectly
11768 aware, it was not worth bringing forward again:--it could not be done
11769 without a reproof to him, which would be giving pain to his wife; and
11770 she found herself therefore obliged to consent to an arrangement which
11771 she would have done a great deal to avoid; an arrangement which would
11772 probably expose her even to the degradation of being said to be of Mrs.
11773 Elton’s party! Every feeling was offended; and the forbearance of her
11774 outward submission left a heavy arrear due of secret severity in her
11775 reflections on the unmanageable goodwill of Mr. Weston’s temper.
11776
11777 “I am glad you approve of what I have done,” said he very comfortably.
11778 “But I thought you would. Such schemes as these are nothing without
11779 numbers. One cannot have too large a party. A large party secures its
11780 own amusement. And she is a good-natured woman after all. One could not
11781 leave her out.”
11782
11783 Emma denied none of it aloud, and agreed to none of it in private.
11784
11785 It was now the middle of June, and the weather fine; and Mrs. Elton
11786 was growing impatient to name the day, and settle with Mr. Weston as to
11787 pigeon-pies and cold lamb, when a lame carriage-horse threw every thing
11788 into sad uncertainty. It might be weeks, it might be only a few days,
11789 before the horse were useable; but no preparations could be ventured
11790 on, and it was all melancholy stagnation. Mrs. Elton’s resources were
11791 inadequate to such an attack.
11792
11793 “Is not this most vexatious, Knightley?” she cried.--“And such weather
11794 for exploring!--These delays and disappointments are quite odious. What
11795 are we to do?--The year will wear away at this rate, and nothing
11796 done. Before this time last year I assure you we had had a delightful
11797 exploring party from Maple Grove to Kings Weston.”
11798
11799 “You had better explore to Donwell,” replied Mr. Knightley. “That may
11800 be done without horses. Come, and eat my strawberries. They are ripening
11801 fast.”
11802
11803 If Mr. Knightley did not begin seriously, he was obliged to proceed so,
11804 for his proposal was caught at with delight; and the “Oh! I should like
11805 it of all things,” was not plainer in words than manner. Donwell was
11806 famous for its strawberry-beds, which seemed a plea for the invitation:
11807 but no plea was necessary; cabbage-beds would have been enough to tempt
11808 the lady, who only wanted to be going somewhere. She promised him again
11809 and again to come--much oftener than he doubted--and was extremely
11810 gratified by such a proof of intimacy, such a distinguishing compliment
11811 as she chose to consider it.
11812
11813 “You may depend upon me,” said she. “I certainly will come. Name your
11814 day, and I will come. You will allow me to bring Jane Fairfax?”
11815
11816 “I cannot name a day,” said he, “till I have spoken to some others whom
11817 I would wish to meet you.”
11818
11819 “Oh! leave all that to me. Only give me a carte-blanche.--I am Lady
11820 Patroness, you know. It is my party. I will bring friends with me.”
11821
11822 “I hope you will bring Elton,” said he: “but I will not trouble you to
11823 give any other invitations.”
11824
11825 “Oh! now you are looking very sly. But consider--you need not be afraid
11826 of delegating power to _me_. I am no young lady on her preferment.
11827 Married women, you know, may be safely authorised. It is my party. Leave
11828 it all to me. I will invite your guests.”
11829
11830 “No,”--he calmly replied,--“there is but one married woman in the world
11831 whom I can ever allow to invite what guests she pleases to Donwell, and
11832 that one is--”
11833
11834 “--Mrs. Weston, I suppose,” interrupted Mrs. Elton, rather mortified.
11835
11836 “No--Mrs. Knightley;--and till she is in being, I will manage such
11837 matters myself.”
11838
11839 “Ah! you are an odd creature!” she cried, satisfied to have no one
11840 preferred to herself.--“You are a humourist, and may say what you
11841 like. Quite a humourist. Well, I shall bring Jane with me--Jane and her
11842 aunt.--The rest I leave to you. I have no objections at all to meeting
11843 the Hartfield family. Don’t scruple. I know you are attached to them.”
11844
11845 “You certainly will meet them if I can prevail; and I shall call on Miss
11846 Bates in my way home.”
11847
11848 “That’s quite unnecessary; I see Jane every day:--but as you like. It
11849 is to be a morning scheme, you know, Knightley; quite a simple thing. I
11850 shall wear a large bonnet, and bring one of my little baskets hanging
11851 on my arm. Here,--probably this basket with pink ribbon. Nothing can be
11852 more simple, you see. And Jane will have such another. There is to be
11853 no form or parade--a sort of gipsy party. We are to walk about
11854 your gardens, and gather the strawberries ourselves, and sit under
11855 trees;--and whatever else you may like to provide, it is to be all out
11856 of doors--a table spread in the shade, you know. Every thing as natural
11857 and simple as possible. Is not that your idea?”
11858
11859 “Not quite. My idea of the simple and the natural will be to have
11860 the table spread in the dining-room. The nature and the simplicity of
11861 gentlemen and ladies, with their servants and furniture, I think is
11862 best observed by meals within doors. When you are tired of eating
11863 strawberries in the garden, there shall be cold meat in the house.”
11864
11865 “Well--as you please; only don’t have a great set out. And, by the bye,
11866 can I or my housekeeper be of any use to you with our opinion?--Pray be
11867 sincere, Knightley. If you wish me to talk to Mrs. Hodges, or to inspect
11868 anything--”
11869
11870 “I have not the least wish for it, I thank you.”
11871
11872 “Well--but if any difficulties should arise, my housekeeper is extremely
11873 clever.”
11874
11875 “I will answer for it, that mine thinks herself full as clever, and
11876 would spurn any body’s assistance.”
11877
11878 “I wish we had a donkey. The thing would be for us all to come on
11879 donkeys, Jane, Miss Bates, and me--and my caro sposo walking by. I
11880 really must talk to him about purchasing a donkey. In a country life
11881 I conceive it to be a sort of necessary; for, let a woman have ever
11882 so many resources, it is not possible for her to be always shut up at
11883 home;--and very long walks, you know--in summer there is dust, and in
11884 winter there is dirt.”
11885
11886 “You will not find either, between Donwell and Highbury. Donwell Lane is
11887 never dusty, and now it is perfectly dry. Come on a donkey, however, if
11888 you prefer it. You can borrow Mrs. Cole’s. I would wish every thing to
11889 be as much to your taste as possible.”
11890
11891 “That I am sure you would. Indeed I do you justice, my good friend.
11892 Under that peculiar sort of dry, blunt manner, I know you have the
11893 warmest heart. As I tell Mr. E., you are a thorough humourist.--Yes,
11894 believe me, Knightley, I am fully sensible of your attention to me in
11895 the whole of this scheme. You have hit upon the very thing to please
11896 me.”
11897
11898 Mr. Knightley had another reason for avoiding a table in the shade. He
11899 wished to persuade Mr. Woodhouse, as well as Emma, to join the party;
11900 and he knew that to have any of them sitting down out of doors to
11901 eat would inevitably make him ill. Mr. Woodhouse must not, under the
11902 specious pretence of a morning drive, and an hour or two spent at
11903 Donwell, be tempted away to his misery.
11904
11905 He was invited on good faith. No lurking horrors were to upbraid him for
11906 his easy credulity. He did consent. He had not been at Donwell for two
11907 years. “Some very fine morning, he, and Emma, and Harriet, could go
11908 very well; and he could sit still with Mrs. Weston, while the dear girls
11909 walked about the gardens. He did not suppose they could be damp now,
11910 in the middle of the day. He should like to see the old house again
11911 exceedingly, and should be very happy to meet Mr. and Mrs. Elton, and
11912 any other of his neighbours.--He could not see any objection at all to
11913 his, and Emma’s, and Harriet’s going there some very fine morning. He
11914 thought it very well done of Mr. Knightley to invite them--very kind
11915 and sensible--much cleverer than dining out.--He was not fond of dining
11916 out.”
11917
11918 Mr. Knightley was fortunate in every body’s most ready concurrence. The
11919 invitation was everywhere so well received, that it seemed as if, like
11920 Mrs. Elton, they were all taking the scheme as a particular compliment
11921 to themselves.--Emma and Harriet professed very high expectations of
11922 pleasure from it; and Mr. Weston, unasked, promised to get Frank over to
11923 join them, if possible; a proof of approbation and gratitude which could
11924 have been dispensed with.--Mr. Knightley was then obliged to say that
11925 he should be glad to see him; and Mr. Weston engaged to lose no time in
11926 writing, and spare no arguments to induce him to come.
11927
11928 In the meanwhile the lame horse recovered so fast, that the party to
11929 Box Hill was again under happy consideration; and at last Donwell was
11930 settled for one day, and Box Hill for the next,--the weather appearing
11931 exactly right.
11932
11933 Under a bright mid-day sun, at almost Midsummer, Mr. Woodhouse was
11934 safely conveyed in his carriage, with one window down, to partake of
11935 this al-fresco party; and in one of the most comfortable rooms in the
11936 Abbey, especially prepared for him by a fire all the morning, he was
11937 happily placed, quite at his ease, ready to talk with pleasure of what
11938 had been achieved, and advise every body to come and sit down, and not
11939 to heat themselves.--Mrs. Weston, who seemed to have walked there on
11940 purpose to be tired, and sit all the time with him, remained, when
11941 all the others were invited or persuaded out, his patient listener and
11942 sympathiser.
11943
11944 It was so long since Emma had been at the Abbey, that as soon as she was
11945 satisfied of her father’s comfort, she was glad to leave him, and look
11946 around her; eager to refresh and correct her memory with more particular
11947 observation, more exact understanding of a house and grounds which must
11948 ever be so interesting to her and all her family.
11949
11950 She felt all the honest pride and complacency which her alliance with
11951 the present and future proprietor could fairly warrant, as she viewed
11952 the respectable size and style of the building, its suitable, becoming,
11953 characteristic situation, low and sheltered--its ample gardens
11954 stretching down to meadows washed by a stream, of which the Abbey, with
11955 all the old neglect of prospect, had scarcely a sight--and its abundance
11956 of timber in rows and avenues, which neither fashion nor extravagance
11957 had rooted up.--The house was larger than Hartfield, and totally unlike
11958 it, covering a good deal of ground, rambling and irregular, with many
11959 comfortable, and one or two handsome rooms.--It was just what it ought
11960 to be, and it looked what it was--and Emma felt an increasing respect
11961 for it, as the residence of a family of such true gentility, untainted
11962 in blood and understanding.--Some faults of temper John Knightley had;
11963 but Isabella had connected herself unexceptionably. She had given them
11964 neither men, nor names, nor places, that could raise a blush. These were
11965 pleasant feelings, and she walked about and indulged them till it
11966 was necessary to do as the others did, and collect round the
11967 strawberry-beds.--The whole party were assembled, excepting Frank
11968 Churchill, who was expected every moment from Richmond; and Mrs. Elton,
11969 in all her apparatus of happiness, her large bonnet and her basket,
11970 was very ready to lead the way in gathering, accepting, or
11971 talking--strawberries, and only strawberries, could now be thought or
11972 spoken of.--“The best fruit in England--every body’s favourite--always
11973 wholesome.--These the finest beds and finest sorts.--Delightful to
11974 gather for one’s self--the only way of really enjoying them.--Morning
11975 decidedly the best time--never tired--every sort good--hautboy
11976 infinitely superior--no comparison--the others hardly eatable--hautboys
11977 very scarce--Chili preferred--white wood finest flavour of all--price
11978 of strawberries in London--abundance about Bristol--Maple
11979 Grove--cultivation--beds when to be renewed--gardeners thinking exactly
11980 different--no general rule--gardeners never to be put out of their
11981 way--delicious fruit--only too rich to be eaten much of--inferior
11982 to cherries--currants more refreshing--only objection to gathering
11983 strawberries the stooping--glaring sun--tired to death--could bear it no
11984 longer--must go and sit in the shade.”
11985
11986 Such, for half an hour, was the conversation--interrupted only once by
11987 Mrs. Weston, who came out, in her solicitude after her son-in-law, to
11988 inquire if he were come--and she was a little uneasy.--She had some
11989 fears of his horse.
11990
11991 Seats tolerably in the shade were found; and now Emma was obliged
11992 to overhear what Mrs. Elton and Jane Fairfax were talking of.--A
11993 situation, a most desirable situation, was in question. Mrs. Elton had
11994 received notice of it that morning, and was in raptures. It was not
11995 with Mrs. Suckling, it was not with Mrs. Bragge, but in felicity and
11996 splendour it fell short only of them: it was with a cousin of Mrs.
11997 Bragge, an acquaintance of Mrs. Suckling, a lady known at Maple Grove.
11998 Delightful, charming, superior, first circles, spheres, lines, ranks,
11999 every thing--and Mrs. Elton was wild to have the offer closed with
12000 immediately.--On her side, all was warmth, energy, and triumph--and she
12001 positively refused to take her friend’s negative, though Miss Fairfax
12002 continued to assure her that she would not at present engage in any
12003 thing, repeating the same motives which she had been heard to urge
12004 before.--Still Mrs. Elton insisted on being authorised to write an
12005 acquiescence by the morrow’s post.--How Jane could bear it at all, was
12006 astonishing to Emma.--She did look vexed, she did speak pointedly--and
12007 at last, with a decision of action unusual to her, proposed a
12008 removal.--“Should not they walk? Would not Mr. Knightley shew them the
12009 gardens--all the gardens?--She wished to see the whole extent.”--The
12010 pertinacity of her friend seemed more than she could bear.
12011
12012 It was hot; and after walking some time over the gardens in a scattered,
12013 dispersed way, scarcely any three together, they insensibly followed one
12014 another to the delicious shade of a broad short avenue of limes, which
12015 stretching beyond the garden at an equal distance from the river, seemed
12016 the finish of the pleasure grounds.--It led to nothing; nothing but a
12017 view at the end over a low stone wall with high pillars, which seemed
12018 intended, in their erection, to give the appearance of an approach to
12019 the house, which never had been there. Disputable, however, as might be
12020 the taste of such a termination, it was in itself a charming walk, and
12021 the view which closed it extremely pretty.--The considerable slope, at
12022 nearly the foot of which the Abbey stood, gradually acquired a steeper
12023 form beyond its grounds; and at half a mile distant was a bank of
12024 considerable abruptness and grandeur, well clothed with wood;--and at
12025 the bottom of this bank, favourably placed and sheltered, rose the
12026 Abbey Mill Farm, with meadows in front, and the river making a close and
12027 handsome curve around it.
12028
12029 It was a sweet view--sweet to the eye and the mind. English verdure,
12030 English culture, English comfort, seen under a sun bright, without being
12031 oppressive.
12032
12033 In this walk Emma and Mr. Weston found all the others assembled; and
12034 towards this view she immediately perceived Mr. Knightley and Harriet
12035 distinct from the rest, quietly leading the way. Mr. Knightley and
12036 Harriet!--It was an odd tete-a-tete; but she was glad to see it.--There
12037 had been a time when he would have scorned her as a companion, and
12038 turned from her with little ceremony. Now they seemed in pleasant
12039 conversation. There had been a time also when Emma would have been sorry
12040 to see Harriet in a spot so favourable for the Abbey Mill Farm; but now
12041 she feared it not. It might be safely viewed with all its appendages of
12042 prosperity and beauty, its rich pastures, spreading flocks, orchard in
12043 blossom, and light column of smoke ascending.--She joined them at the
12044 wall, and found them more engaged in talking than in looking around. He
12045 was giving Harriet information as to modes of agriculture, etc. and Emma
12046 received a smile which seemed to say, “These are my own concerns. I have
12047 a right to talk on such subjects, without being suspected of
12048 introducing Robert Martin.”--She did not suspect him. It was too old
12049 a story.--Robert Martin had probably ceased to think of Harriet.--They
12050 took a few turns together along the walk.--The shade was most
12051 refreshing, and Emma found it the pleasantest part of the day.
12052
12053 The next remove was to the house; they must all go in and eat;--and they
12054 were all seated and busy, and still Frank Churchill did not come. Mrs.
12055 Weston looked, and looked in vain. His father would not own himself
12056 uneasy, and laughed at her fears; but she could not be cured of wishing
12057 that he would part with his black mare. He had expressed himself as to
12058 coming, with more than common certainty. “His aunt was so much better,
12059 that he had not a doubt of getting over to them.”--Mrs. Churchill’s
12060 state, however, as many were ready to remind her, was liable to such
12061 sudden variation as might disappoint her nephew in the most reasonable
12062 dependence--and Mrs. Weston was at last persuaded to believe, or to say,
12063 that it must be by some attack of Mrs. Churchill that he was
12064 prevented coming.--Emma looked at Harriet while the point was under
12065 consideration; she behaved very well, and betrayed no emotion.
12066
12067 The cold repast was over, and the party were to go out once more to see
12068 what had not yet been seen, the old Abbey fish-ponds; perhaps get as far
12069 as the clover, which was to be begun cutting on the morrow, or, at
12070 any rate, have the pleasure of being hot, and growing cool again.--Mr.
12071 Woodhouse, who had already taken his little round in the highest part
12072 of the gardens, where no damps from the river were imagined even by him,
12073 stirred no more; and his daughter resolved to remain with him, that
12074 Mrs. Weston might be persuaded away by her husband to the exercise and
12075 variety which her spirits seemed to need.
12076
12077 Mr. Knightley had done all in his power for Mr. Woodhouse’s
12078 entertainment. Books of engravings, drawers of medals, cameos, corals,
12079 shells, and every other family collection within his cabinets, had been
12080 prepared for his old friend, to while away the morning; and the kindness
12081 had perfectly answered. Mr. Woodhouse had been exceedingly well amused.
12082 Mrs. Weston had been shewing them all to him, and now he would shew them
12083 all to Emma;--fortunate in having no other resemblance to a child, than
12084 in a total want of taste for what he saw, for he was slow, constant, and
12085 methodical.--Before this second looking over was begun, however, Emma
12086 walked into the hall for the sake of a few moments’ free observation of
12087 the entrance and ground-plot of the house--and was hardly there, when
12088 Jane Fairfax appeared, coming quickly in from the garden, and with a
12089 look of escape.--Little expecting to meet Miss Woodhouse so soon, there
12090 was a start at first; but Miss Woodhouse was the very person she was in
12091 quest of.
12092
12093 “Will you be so kind,” said she, “when I am missed, as to say that I am
12094 gone home?--I am going this moment.--My aunt is not aware how late it
12095 is, nor how long we have been absent--but I am sure we shall be wanted,
12096 and I am determined to go directly.--I have said nothing about it to any
12097 body. It would only be giving trouble and distress. Some are gone to the
12098 ponds, and some to the lime walk. Till they all come in I shall not be
12099 missed; and when they do, will you have the goodness to say that I am
12100 gone?”
12101
12102 “Certainly, if you wish it;--but you are not going to walk to Highbury
12103 alone?”
12104
12105 “Yes--what should hurt me?--I walk fast. I shall be at home in twenty
12106 minutes.”
12107
12108 “But it is too far, indeed it is, to be walking quite alone. Let my
12109 father’s servant go with you.--Let me order the carriage. It can be
12110 round in five minutes.”
12111
12112 “Thank you, thank you--but on no account.--I would rather walk.--And
12113 for _me_ to be afraid of walking alone!--I, who may so soon have to
12114 guard others!”
12115
12116 She spoke with great agitation; and Emma very feelingly replied, “That
12117 can be no reason for your being exposed to danger now. I must order the
12118 carriage. The heat even would be danger.--You are fatigued already.”
12119
12120 “I am,”--she answered--“I am fatigued; but it is not the sort of
12121 fatigue--quick walking will refresh me.--Miss Woodhouse, we all know
12122 at times what it is to be wearied in spirits. Mine, I confess, are
12123 exhausted. The greatest kindness you can shew me, will be to let me have
12124 my own way, and only say that I am gone when it is necessary.”
12125
12126 Emma had not another word to oppose. She saw it all; and entering into
12127 her feelings, promoted her quitting the house immediately, and
12128 watched her safely off with the zeal of a friend. Her parting look was
12129 grateful--and her parting words, “Oh! Miss Woodhouse, the comfort of
12130 being sometimes alone!”--seemed to burst from an overcharged heart, and
12131 to describe somewhat of the continual endurance to be practised by her,
12132 even towards some of those who loved her best.
12133
12134 “Such a home, indeed! such an aunt!” said Emma, as she turned back into
12135 the hall again. “I do pity you. And the more sensibility you betray of
12136 their just horrors, the more I shall like you.”
12137
12138 Jane had not been gone a quarter of an hour, and they had only
12139 accomplished some views of St. Mark’s Place, Venice, when Frank
12140 Churchill entered the room. Emma had not been thinking of him, she had
12141 forgotten to think of him--but she was very glad to see him. Mrs. Weston
12142 would be at ease. The black mare was blameless; _they_ were right
12143 who had named Mrs. Churchill as the cause. He had been detained by
12144 a temporary increase of illness in her; a nervous seizure, which had
12145 lasted some hours--and he had quite given up every thought of coming,
12146 till very late;--and had he known how hot a ride he should have, and
12147 how late, with all his hurry, he must be, he believed he should not have
12148 come at all. The heat was excessive; he had never suffered any thing
12149 like it--almost wished he had staid at home--nothing killed him
12150 like heat--he could bear any degree of cold, etc., but heat was
12151 intolerable--and he sat down, at the greatest possible distance from the
12152 slight remains of Mr. Woodhouse’s fire, looking very deplorable.
12153
12154 “You will soon be cooler, if you sit still,” said Emma.
12155
12156 “As soon as I am cooler I shall go back again. I could very ill be
12157 spared--but such a point had been made of my coming! You will all be
12158 going soon I suppose; the whole party breaking up. I met _one_ as I
12159 came--Madness in such weather!--absolute madness!”
12160
12161 Emma listened, and looked, and soon perceived that Frank Churchill’s
12162 state might be best defined by the expressive phrase of being out of
12163 humour. Some people were always cross when they were hot. Such might be
12164 his constitution; and as she knew that eating and drinking were often
12165 the cure of such incidental complaints, she recommended his taking
12166 some refreshment; he would find abundance of every thing in the
12167 dining-room--and she humanely pointed out the door.
12168
12169 “No--he should not eat. He was not hungry; it would only make him
12170 hotter.” In two minutes, however, he relented in his own favour; and
12171 muttering something about spruce-beer, walked off. Emma returned all her
12172 attention to her father, saying in secret--
12173
12174 “I am glad I have done being in love with him. I should not like a man
12175 who is so soon discomposed by a hot morning. Harriet’s sweet easy temper
12176 will not mind it.”
12177
12178 He was gone long enough to have had a very comfortable meal, and came
12179 back all the better--grown quite cool--and, with good manners, like
12180 himself--able to draw a chair close to them, take an interest in their
12181 employment; and regret, in a reasonable way, that he should be so late.
12182 He was not in his best spirits, but seemed trying to improve them; and,
12183 at last, made himself talk nonsense very agreeably. They were looking
12184 over views in Swisserland.
12185
12186 “As soon as my aunt gets well, I shall go abroad,” said he. “I shall
12187 never be easy till I have seen some of these places. You will have my
12188 sketches, some time or other, to look at--or my tour to read--or my
12189 poem. I shall do something to expose myself.”
12190
12191 “That may be--but not by sketches in Swisserland. You will never go to
12192 Swisserland. Your uncle and aunt will never allow you to leave England.”
12193
12194 “They may be induced to go too. A warm climate may be prescribed for
12195 her. I have more than half an expectation of our all going abroad. I
12196 assure you I have. I feel a strong persuasion, this morning, that I
12197 shall soon be abroad. I ought to travel. I am tired of doing nothing. I
12198 want a change. I am serious, Miss Woodhouse, whatever your penetrating
12199 eyes may fancy--I am sick of England--and would leave it to-morrow, if
12200 I could.”
12201
12202 “You are sick of prosperity and indulgence. Cannot you invent a few
12203 hardships for yourself, and be contented to stay?”
12204
12205 “_I_ sick of prosperity and indulgence! You are quite mistaken. I do
12206 not look upon myself as either prosperous or indulged. I am thwarted
12207 in every thing material. I do not consider myself at all a fortunate
12208 person.”
12209
12210 “You are not quite so miserable, though, as when you first came. Go and
12211 eat and drink a little more, and you will do very well. Another slice of
12212 cold meat, another draught of Madeira and water, will make you nearly on
12213 a par with the rest of us.”
12214
12215 “No--I shall not stir. I shall sit by you. You are my best cure.”
12216
12217 “We are going to Box Hill to-morrow;--you will join us. It is not
12218 Swisserland, but it will be something for a young man so much in want of
12219 a change. You will stay, and go with us?”
12220
12221 “No, certainly not; I shall go home in the cool of the evening.”
12222
12223 “But you may come again in the cool of to-morrow morning.”
12224
12225 “No--It will not be worth while. If I come, I shall be cross.”
12226
12227 “Then pray stay at Richmond.”
12228
12229 “But if I do, I shall be crosser still. I can never bear to think of you
12230 all there without me.”
12231
12232 “These are difficulties which you must settle for yourself. Chuse your
12233 own degree of crossness. I shall press you no more.”
12234
12235 The rest of the party were now returning, and all were soon collected.
12236 With some there was great joy at the sight of Frank Churchill; others
12237 took it very composedly; but there was a very general distress and
12238 disturbance on Miss Fairfax’s disappearance being explained. That it was
12239 time for every body to go, concluded the subject; and with a short final
12240 arrangement for the next day’s scheme, they parted. Frank Churchill’s
12241 little inclination to exclude himself increased so much, that his last
12242 words to Emma were,
12243
12244 “Well;--if _you_ wish me to stay and join the party, I will.”
12245
12246 She smiled her acceptance; and nothing less than a summons from Richmond
12247 was to take him back before the following evening.
12248
12249
12250
12251 CHAPTER VII
12252
12253
12254 They had a very fine day for Box Hill; and all the other outward
12255 circumstances of arrangement, accommodation, and punctuality, were in
12256 favour of a pleasant party. Mr. Weston directed the whole, officiating
12257 safely between Hartfield and the Vicarage, and every body was in good
12258 time. Emma and Harriet went together; Miss Bates and her niece, with
12259 the Eltons; the gentlemen on horseback. Mrs. Weston remained with Mr.
12260 Woodhouse. Nothing was wanting but to be happy when they got there.
12261 Seven miles were travelled in expectation of enjoyment, and every body
12262 had a burst of admiration on first arriving; but in the general amount
12263 of the day there was deficiency. There was a languor, a want of spirits,
12264 a want of union, which could not be got over. They separated too much
12265 into parties. The Eltons walked together; Mr. Knightley took charge of
12266 Miss Bates and Jane; and Emma and Harriet belonged to Frank Churchill.
12267 And Mr. Weston tried, in vain, to make them harmonise better. It seemed
12268 at first an accidental division, but it never materially varied. Mr. and
12269 Mrs. Elton, indeed, shewed no unwillingness to mix, and be as agreeable
12270 as they could; but during the two whole hours that were spent on the
12271 hill, there seemed a principle of separation, between the other parties,
12272 too strong for any fine prospects, or any cold collation, or any
12273 cheerful Mr. Weston, to remove.
12274
12275 At first it was downright dulness to Emma. She had never seen Frank
12276 Churchill so silent and stupid. He said nothing worth hearing--looked
12277 without seeing--admired without intelligence--listened without knowing
12278 what she said. While he was so dull, it was no wonder that Harriet
12279 should be dull likewise; and they were both insufferable.
12280
12281 When they all sat down it was better; to her taste a great deal better,
12282 for Frank Churchill grew talkative and gay, making her his first object.
12283 Every distinguishing attention that could be paid, was paid to her.
12284 To amuse her, and be agreeable in her eyes, seemed all that he cared
12285 for--and Emma, glad to be enlivened, not sorry to be flattered, was gay
12286 and easy too, and gave him all the friendly encouragement, the admission
12287 to be gallant, which she had ever given in the first and most animating
12288 period of their acquaintance; but which now, in her own estimation,
12289 meant nothing, though in the judgment of most people looking on it must
12290 have had such an appearance as no English word but flirtation could very
12291 well describe. “Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Woodhouse flirted together
12292 excessively.” They were laying themselves open to that very phrase--and
12293 to having it sent off in a letter to Maple Grove by one lady, to
12294 Ireland by another. Not that Emma was gay and thoughtless from any
12295 real felicity; it was rather because she felt less happy than she had
12296 expected. She laughed because she was disappointed; and though she liked
12297 him for his attentions, and thought them all, whether in friendship,
12298 admiration, or playfulness, extremely judicious, they were not winning
12299 back her heart. She still intended him for her friend.
12300
12301 “How much I am obliged to you,” said he, “for telling me to come
12302 to-day!--If it had not been for you, I should certainly have lost all
12303 the happiness of this party. I had quite determined to go away again.”
12304
12305 “Yes, you were very cross; and I do not know what about, except that you
12306 were too late for the best strawberries. I was a kinder friend than you
12307 deserved. But you were humble. You begged hard to be commanded to come.”
12308
12309 “Don’t say I was cross. I was fatigued. The heat overcame me.”
12310
12311 “It is hotter to-day.”
12312
12313 “Not to my feelings. I am perfectly comfortable to-day.”
12314
12315 “You are comfortable because you are under command.”
12316
12317 “Your command?--Yes.”
12318
12319 “Perhaps I intended you to say so, but I meant self-command. You had,
12320 somehow or other, broken bounds yesterday, and run away from your own
12321 management; but to-day you are got back again--and as I cannot be always
12322 with you, it is best to believe your temper under your own command
12323 rather than mine.”
12324
12325 “It comes to the same thing. I can have no self-command without a
12326 motive. You order me, whether you speak or not. And you can be always
12327 with me. You are always with me.”
12328
12329 “Dating from three o’clock yesterday. My perpetual influence could not
12330 begin earlier, or you would not have been so much out of humour before.”
12331
12332 “Three o’clock yesterday! That is your date. I thought I had seen you
12333 first in February.”
12334
12335 “Your gallantry is really unanswerable. But (lowering her voice)--nobody
12336 speaks except ourselves, and it is rather too much to be talking
12337 nonsense for the entertainment of seven silent people.”
12338
12339 “I say nothing of which I am ashamed,” replied he, with lively
12340 impudence. “I saw you first in February. Let every body on the Hill
12341 hear me if they can. Let my accents swell to Mickleham on one side,
12342 and Dorking on the other. I saw you first in February.” And then
12343 whispering--“Our companions are excessively stupid. What shall we do
12344 to rouse them? Any nonsense will serve. They _shall_ talk. Ladies
12345 and gentlemen, I am ordered by Miss Woodhouse (who, wherever she is,
12346 presides) to say, that she desires to know what you are all thinking
12347 of?”
12348
12349 Some laughed, and answered good-humouredly. Miss Bates said a great
12350 deal; Mrs. Elton swelled at the idea of Miss Woodhouse’s presiding; Mr.
12351 Knightley’s answer was the most distinct.
12352
12353 “Is Miss Woodhouse sure that she would like to hear what we are all
12354 thinking of?”
12355
12356 “Oh! no, no”--cried Emma, laughing as carelessly as she could--“Upon no
12357 account in the world. It is the very last thing I would stand the brunt
12358 of just now. Let me hear any thing rather than what you are all thinking
12359 of. I will not say quite all. There are one or two, perhaps, (glancing
12360 at Mr. Weston and Harriet,) whose thoughts I might not be afraid of
12361 knowing.”
12362
12363 “It is a sort of thing,” cried Mrs. Elton emphatically, “which _I_
12364 should not have thought myself privileged to inquire into. Though,
12365 perhaps, as the _Chaperon_ of the party--_I_ never was in any
12366 circle--exploring parties--young ladies--married women--”
12367
12368 Her mutterings were chiefly to her husband; and he murmured, in reply,
12369
12370 “Very true, my love, very true. Exactly so, indeed--quite unheard
12371 of--but some ladies say any thing. Better pass it off as a joke. Every
12372 body knows what is due to _you_.”
12373
12374 “It will not do,” whispered Frank to Emma; “they are most of them
12375 affronted. I will attack them with more address. Ladies and gentlemen--I
12376 am ordered by Miss Woodhouse to say, that she waives her right of
12377 knowing exactly what you may all be thinking of, and only requires
12378 something very entertaining from each of you, in a general way. Here
12379 are seven of you, besides myself, (who, she is pleased to say, am very
12380 entertaining already,) and she only demands from each of you either one
12381 thing very clever, be it prose or verse, original or repeated--or two
12382 things moderately clever--or three things very dull indeed, and she
12383 engages to laugh heartily at them all.”
12384
12385 “Oh! very well,” exclaimed Miss Bates, “then I need not be uneasy.
12386 ‘Three things very dull indeed.’ That will just do for me, you know. I
12387 shall be sure to say three dull things as soon as ever I open my mouth,
12388 shan’t I? (looking round with the most good-humoured dependence on every
12389 body’s assent)--Do not you all think I shall?”
12390
12391 Emma could not resist.
12392
12393 “Ah! ma’am, but there may be a difficulty. Pardon me--but you will be
12394 limited as to number--only three at once.”
12395
12396 Miss Bates, deceived by the mock ceremony of her manner, did not
12397 immediately catch her meaning; but, when it burst on her, it could not
12398 anger, though a slight blush shewed that it could pain her.
12399
12400 “Ah!--well--to be sure. Yes, I see what she means, (turning to Mr.
12401 Knightley,) and I will try to hold my tongue. I must make myself very
12402 disagreeable, or she would not have said such a thing to an old friend.”
12403
12404 “I like your plan,” cried Mr. Weston. “Agreed, agreed. I will do my
12405 best. I am making a conundrum. How will a conundrum reckon?”
12406
12407 “Low, I am afraid, sir, very low,” answered his son;--“but we shall be
12408 indulgent--especially to any one who leads the way.”
12409
12410 “No, no,” said Emma, “it will not reckon low. A conundrum of Mr.
12411 Weston’s shall clear him and his next neighbour. Come, sir, pray let me
12412 hear it.”
12413
12414 “I doubt its being very clever myself,” said Mr. Weston. “It is too much
12415 a matter of fact, but here it is.--What two letters of the alphabet are
12416 there, that express perfection?”
12417
12418 “What two letters!--express perfection! I am sure I do not know.”
12419
12420 “Ah! you will never guess. You, (to Emma), I am certain, will never
12421 guess.--I will tell you.--M. and A.--Em-ma.--Do you understand?”
12422
12423 Understanding and gratification came together. It might be a very
12424 indifferent piece of wit, but Emma found a great deal to laugh at and
12425 enjoy in it--and so did Frank and Harriet.--It did not seem to touch
12426 the rest of the party equally; some looked very stupid about it, and Mr.
12427 Knightley gravely said,
12428
12429 “This explains the sort of clever thing that is wanted, and Mr. Weston
12430 has done very well for himself; but he must have knocked up every body
12431 else. _Perfection_ should not have come quite so soon.”
12432
12433 “Oh! for myself, I protest I must be excused,” said Mrs. Elton; “_I_
12434 really cannot attempt--I am not at all fond of the sort of thing. I had
12435 an acrostic once sent to me upon my own name, which I was not at all
12436 pleased with. I knew who it came from. An abominable puppy!--You know
12437 who I mean (nodding to her husband). These kind of things are very
12438 well at Christmas, when one is sitting round the fire; but quite out of
12439 place, in my opinion, when one is exploring about the country in summer.
12440 Miss Woodhouse must excuse me. I am not one of those who have witty
12441 things at every body’s service. I do not pretend to be a wit. I have a
12442 great deal of vivacity in my own way, but I really must be allowed to
12443 judge when to speak and when to hold my tongue. Pass us, if you please,
12444 Mr. Churchill. Pass Mr. E., Knightley, Jane, and myself. We have nothing
12445 clever to say--not one of us.
12446
12447 “Yes, yes, pray pass _me_,” added her husband, with a sort of sneering
12448 consciousness; “_I_ have nothing to say that can entertain Miss
12449 Woodhouse, or any other young lady. An old married man--quite good for
12450 nothing. Shall we walk, Augusta?”
12451
12452 “With all my heart. I am really tired of exploring so long on one spot.
12453 Come, Jane, take my other arm.”
12454
12455 Jane declined it, however, and the husband and wife walked off.
12456 “Happy couple!” said Frank Churchill, as soon as they were out of
12457 hearing:--“How well they suit one another!--Very lucky--marrying as they
12458 did, upon an acquaintance formed only in a public place!--They only knew
12459 each other, I think, a few weeks in Bath! Peculiarly lucky!--for as to
12460 any real knowledge of a person’s disposition that Bath, or any public
12461 place, can give--it is all nothing; there can be no knowledge. It is
12462 only by seeing women in their own homes, among their own set, just as
12463 they always are, that you can form any just judgment. Short of that, it
12464 is all guess and luck--and will generally be ill-luck. How many a man
12465 has committed himself on a short acquaintance, and rued it all the rest
12466 of his life!”
12467
12468 Miss Fairfax, who had seldom spoken before, except among her own
12469 confederates, spoke now.
12470
12471 “Such things do occur, undoubtedly.”--She was stopped by a cough. Frank
12472 Churchill turned towards her to listen.
12473
12474 “You were speaking,” said he, gravely. She recovered her voice.
12475
12476 “I was only going to observe, that though such unfortunate circumstances
12477 do sometimes occur both to men and women, I cannot imagine them to be
12478 very frequent. A hasty and imprudent attachment may arise--but there is
12479 generally time to recover from it afterwards. I would be understood to
12480 mean, that it can be only weak, irresolute characters, (whose happiness
12481 must be always at the mercy of chance,) who will suffer an unfortunate
12482 acquaintance to be an inconvenience, an oppression for ever.”
12483
12484 He made no answer; merely looked, and bowed in submission; and soon
12485 afterwards said, in a lively tone,
12486
12487 “Well, I have so little confidence in my own judgment, that whenever I
12488 marry, I hope some body will chuse my wife for me. Will you? (turning to
12489 Emma.) Will you chuse a wife for me?--I am sure I should like any body
12490 fixed on by you. You provide for the family, you know, (with a smile at
12491 his father). Find some body for me. I am in no hurry. Adopt her, educate
12492 her.”
12493
12494 “And make her like myself.”
12495
12496 “By all means, if you can.”
12497
12498 “Very well. I undertake the commission. You shall have a charming wife.”
12499
12500 “She must be very lively, and have hazle eyes. I care for nothing else.
12501 I shall go abroad for a couple of years--and when I return, I shall come
12502 to you for my wife. Remember.”
12503
12504 Emma was in no danger of forgetting. It was a commission to touch every
12505 favourite feeling. Would not Harriet be the very creature described?
12506 Hazle eyes excepted, two years more might make her all that he wished.
12507 He might even have Harriet in his thoughts at the moment; who could say?
12508 Referring the education to her seemed to imply it.
12509
12510 “Now, ma’am,” said Jane to her aunt, “shall we join Mrs. Elton?”
12511
12512 “If you please, my dear. With all my heart. I am quite ready. I was
12513 ready to have gone with her, but this will do just as well. We shall
12514 soon overtake her. There she is--no, that’s somebody else. That’s one
12515 of the ladies in the Irish car party, not at all like her.--Well, I
12516 declare--”
12517
12518 They walked off, followed in half a minute by Mr. Knightley. Mr. Weston,
12519 his son, Emma, and Harriet, only remained; and the young man’s spirits
12520 now rose to a pitch almost unpleasant. Even Emma grew tired at last of
12521 flattery and merriment, and wished herself rather walking quietly about
12522 with any of the others, or sitting almost alone, and quite unattended
12523 to, in tranquil observation of the beautiful views beneath her. The
12524 appearance of the servants looking out for them to give notice of the
12525 carriages was a joyful sight; and even the bustle of collecting and
12526 preparing to depart, and the solicitude of Mrs. Elton to have _her_
12527 carriage first, were gladly endured, in the prospect of the quiet drive
12528 home which was to close the very questionable enjoyments of this day of
12529 pleasure. Such another scheme, composed of so many ill-assorted people,
12530 she hoped never to be betrayed into again.
12531
12532 While waiting for the carriage, she found Mr. Knightley by her side. He
12533 looked around, as if to see that no one were near, and then said,
12534
12535 “Emma, I must once more speak to you as I have been used to do: a
12536 privilege rather endured than allowed, perhaps, but I must still use it.
12537 I cannot see you acting wrong, without a remonstrance. How could you be
12538 so unfeeling to Miss Bates? How could you be so insolent in your wit to
12539 a woman of her character, age, and situation?--Emma, I had not thought
12540 it possible.”
12541
12542 Emma recollected, blushed, was sorry, but tried to laugh it off.
12543
12544 “Nay, how could I help saying what I did?--Nobody could have helped it.
12545 It was not so very bad. I dare say she did not understand me.”
12546
12547 “I assure you she did. She felt your full meaning. She has talked of
12548 it since. I wish you could have heard how she talked of it--with what
12549 candour and generosity. I wish you could have heard her honouring your
12550 forbearance, in being able to pay her such attentions, as she was for
12551 ever receiving from yourself and your father, when her society must be
12552 so irksome.”
12553
12554 “Oh!” cried Emma, “I know there is not a better creature in the world:
12555 but you must allow, that what is good and what is ridiculous are most
12556 unfortunately blended in her.”
12557
12558 “They are blended,” said he, “I acknowledge; and, were she prosperous,
12559 I could allow much for the occasional prevalence of the ridiculous over
12560 the good. Were she a woman of fortune, I would leave every harmless
12561 absurdity to take its chance, I would not quarrel with you for any
12562 liberties of manner. Were she your equal in situation--but, Emma,
12563 consider how far this is from being the case. She is poor; she has sunk
12564 from the comforts she was born to; and, if she live to old age, must
12565 probably sink more. Her situation should secure your compassion. It was
12566 badly done, indeed! You, whom she had known from an infant, whom she had
12567 seen grow up from a period when her notice was an honour, to have you
12568 now, in thoughtless spirits, and the pride of the moment, laugh at her,
12569 humble her--and before her niece, too--and before others, many of whom
12570 (certainly _some_,) would be entirely guided by _your_ treatment
12571 of her.--This is not pleasant to you, Emma--and it is very far from
12572 pleasant to me; but I must, I will,--I will tell you truths while I can;
12573 satisfied with proving myself your friend by very faithful counsel, and
12574 trusting that you will some time or other do me greater justice than you
12575 can do now.”
12576
12577 While they talked, they were advancing towards the carriage; it was
12578 ready; and, before she could speak again, he had handed her in. He had
12579 misinterpreted the feelings which had kept her face averted, and her
12580 tongue motionless. They were combined only of anger against herself,
12581 mortification, and deep concern. She had not been able to speak; and, on
12582 entering the carriage, sunk back for a moment overcome--then reproaching
12583 herself for having taken no leave, making no acknowledgment, parting in
12584 apparent sullenness, she looked out with voice and hand eager to shew a
12585 difference; but it was just too late. He had turned away, and the horses
12586 were in motion. She continued to look back, but in vain; and soon, with
12587 what appeared unusual speed, they were half way down the hill, and
12588 every thing left far behind. She was vexed beyond what could have been
12589 expressed--almost beyond what she could conceal. Never had she felt so
12590 agitated, mortified, grieved, at any circumstance in her life. She was
12591 most forcibly struck. The truth of this representation there was no
12592 denying. She felt it at her heart. How could she have been so brutal,
12593 so cruel to Miss Bates! How could she have exposed herself to such ill
12594 opinion in any one she valued! And how suffer him to leave her without
12595 saying one word of gratitude, of concurrence, of common kindness!
12596
12597 Time did not compose her. As she reflected more, she seemed but to feel
12598 it more. She never had been so depressed. Happily it was not necessary
12599 to speak. There was only Harriet, who seemed not in spirits herself,
12600 fagged, and very willing to be silent; and Emma felt the tears running
12601 down her cheeks almost all the way home, without being at any trouble to
12602 check them, extraordinary as they were.
12603
12604
12605
12606 CHAPTER VIII
12607
12608
12609 The wretchedness of a scheme to Box Hill was in Emma’s thoughts all the
12610 evening. How it might be considered by the rest of the party, she could
12611 not tell. They, in their different homes, and their different ways,
12612 might be looking back on it with pleasure; but in her view it was
12613 a morning more completely misspent, more totally bare of rational
12614 satisfaction at the time, and more to be abhorred in recollection, than
12615 any she had ever passed. A whole evening of back-gammon with her father,
12616 was felicity to it. _There_, indeed, lay real pleasure, for there she
12617 was giving up the sweetest hours of the twenty-four to his comfort; and
12618 feeling that, unmerited as might be the degree of his fond affection and
12619 confiding esteem, she could not, in her general conduct, be open to any
12620 severe reproach. As a daughter, she hoped she was not without a heart.
12621 She hoped no one could have said to her, “How could you be so unfeeling
12622 to your father?--I must, I will tell you truths while I can.” Miss
12623 Bates should never again--no, never! If attention, in future, could do
12624 away the past, she might hope to be forgiven. She had been often remiss,
12625 her conscience told her so; remiss, perhaps, more in thought than fact;
12626 scornful, ungracious. But it should be so no more. In the warmth of true
12627 contrition, she would call upon her the very next morning, and it should
12628 be the beginning, on her side, of a regular, equal, kindly intercourse.
12629
12630 She was just as determined when the morrow came, and went early, that
12631 nothing might prevent her. It was not unlikely, she thought, that she
12632 might see Mr. Knightley in her way; or, perhaps, he might come in
12633 while she were paying her visit. She had no objection. She would not be
12634 ashamed of the appearance of the penitence, so justly and truly hers.
12635 Her eyes were towards Donwell as she walked, but she saw him not.
12636
12637 “The ladies were all at home.” She had never rejoiced at the sound
12638 before, nor ever before entered the passage, nor walked up the stairs,
12639 with any wish of giving pleasure, but in conferring obligation, or of
12640 deriving it, except in subsequent ridicule.
12641
12642 There was a bustle on her approach; a good deal of moving and talking.
12643 She heard Miss Bates’s voice, something was to be done in a hurry; the
12644 maid looked frightened and awkward; hoped she would be pleased to wait a
12645 moment, and then ushered her in too soon. The aunt and niece seemed both
12646 escaping into the adjoining room. Jane she had a distinct glimpse of,
12647 looking extremely ill; and, before the door had shut them out, she heard
12648 Miss Bates saying, “Well, my dear, I shall _say_ you are laid down upon
12649 the bed, and I am sure you are ill enough.”
12650
12651 Poor old Mrs. Bates, civil and humble as usual, looked as if she did not
12652 quite understand what was going on.
12653
12654 “I am afraid Jane is not very well,” said she, “but I do not know; they
12655 _tell_ me she is well. I dare say my daughter will be here presently,
12656 Miss Woodhouse. I hope you find a chair. I wish Hetty had not gone. I am
12657 very little able--Have you a chair, ma’am? Do you sit where you like? I
12658 am sure she will be here presently.”
12659
12660 Emma seriously hoped she would. She had a moment’s fear of Miss Bates
12661 keeping away from her. But Miss Bates soon came--“Very happy and
12662 obliged”--but Emma’s conscience told her that there was not the same
12663 cheerful volubility as before--less ease of look and manner. A very
12664 friendly inquiry after Miss Fairfax, she hoped, might lead the way to a
12665 return of old feelings. The touch seemed immediate.
12666
12667 “Ah! Miss Woodhouse, how kind you are!--I suppose you have heard--and
12668 are come to give us joy. This does not seem much like joy, indeed, in
12669 me--(twinkling away a tear or two)--but it will be very trying for us
12670 to part with her, after having had her so long, and she has a dreadful
12671 headache just now, writing all the morning:--such long letters, you
12672 know, to be written to Colonel Campbell, and Mrs. Dixon. ‘My dear,’ said
12673 I, ‘you will blind yourself’--for tears were in her eyes perpetually.
12674 One cannot wonder, one cannot wonder. It is a great change; and though
12675 she is amazingly fortunate--such a situation, I suppose, as no
12676 young woman before ever met with on first going out--do not think us
12677 ungrateful, Miss Woodhouse, for such surprising good fortune--(again
12678 dispersing her tears)--but, poor dear soul! if you were to see what a
12679 headache she has. When one is in great pain, you know one cannot feel
12680 any blessing quite as it may deserve. She is as low as possible. To
12681 look at her, nobody would think how delighted and happy she is to have
12682 secured such a situation. You will excuse her not coming to you--she is
12683 not able--she is gone into her own room--I want her to lie down upon the
12684 bed. ‘My dear,’ said I, ‘I shall say you are laid down upon the bed:’
12685 but, however, she is not; she is walking about the room. But, now that
12686 she has written her letters, she says she shall soon be well. She will
12687 be extremely sorry to miss seeing you, Miss Woodhouse, but your
12688 kindness will excuse her. You were kept waiting at the door--I was quite
12689 ashamed--but somehow there was a little bustle--for it so happened that
12690 we had not heard the knock, and till you were on the stairs, we did not
12691 know any body was coming. ‘It is only Mrs. Cole,’ said I, ‘depend upon
12692 it. Nobody else would come so early.’ ‘Well,’ said she, ‘it must be
12693 borne some time or other, and it may as well be now.’ But then Patty
12694 came in, and said it was you. ‘Oh!’ said I, ‘it is Miss Woodhouse: I am
12695 sure you will like to see her.’--‘I can see nobody,’ said she; and
12696 up she got, and would go away; and that was what made us keep you
12697 waiting--and extremely sorry and ashamed we were. ‘If you must go, my
12698 dear,’ said I, ‘you must, and I will say you are laid down upon the
12699 bed.’”
12700
12701 Emma was most sincerely interested. Her heart had been long growing
12702 kinder towards Jane; and this picture of her present sufferings acted
12703 as a cure of every former ungenerous suspicion, and left her nothing but
12704 pity; and the remembrance of the less just and less gentle sensations of
12705 the past, obliged her to admit that Jane might very naturally resolve on
12706 seeing Mrs. Cole or any other steady friend, when she might not bear
12707 to see herself. She spoke as she felt, with earnest regret and
12708 solicitude--sincerely wishing that the circumstances which she collected
12709 from Miss Bates to be now actually determined on, might be as much for
12710 Miss Fairfax’s advantage and comfort as possible. “It must be a severe
12711 trial to them all. She had understood it was to be delayed till Colonel
12712 Campbell’s return.”
12713
12714 “So very kind!” replied Miss Bates. “But you are always kind.”
12715
12716 There was no bearing such an “always;” and to break through her dreadful
12717 gratitude, Emma made the direct inquiry of--
12718
12719 “Where--may I ask?--is Miss Fairfax going?”
12720
12721 “To a Mrs. Smallridge--charming woman--most superior--to have the charge
12722 of her three little girls--delightful children. Impossible that any
12723 situation could be more replete with comfort; if we except, perhaps,
12724 Mrs. Suckling’s own family, and Mrs. Bragge’s; but Mrs. Smallridge is
12725 intimate with both, and in the very same neighbourhood:--lives only four
12726 miles from Maple Grove. Jane will be only four miles from Maple Grove.”
12727
12728 “Mrs. Elton, I suppose, has been the person to whom Miss Fairfax owes--”
12729
12730 “Yes, our good Mrs. Elton. The most indefatigable, true friend. She
12731 would not take a denial. She would not let Jane say, ‘No;’ for when Jane
12732 first heard of it, (it was the day before yesterday, the very morning
12733 we were at Donwell,) when Jane first heard of it, she was quite decided
12734 against accepting the offer, and for the reasons you mention; exactly
12735 as you say, she had made up her mind to close with nothing till Colonel
12736 Campbell’s return, and nothing should induce her to enter into any
12737 engagement at present--and so she told Mrs. Elton over and over
12738 again--and I am sure I had no more idea that she would change her
12739 mind!--but that good Mrs. Elton, whose judgment never fails her, saw
12740 farther than I did. It is not every body that would have stood out in
12741 such a kind way as she did, and refuse to take Jane’s answer; but she
12742 positively declared she would _not_ write any such denial yesterday, as
12743 Jane wished her; she would wait--and, sure enough, yesterday evening it
12744 was all settled that Jane should go. Quite a surprize to me! I had not
12745 the least idea!--Jane took Mrs. Elton aside, and told her at once, that
12746 upon thinking over the advantages of Mrs. Smallridge’s situation, she
12747 had come to the resolution of accepting it.--I did not know a word of it
12748 till it was all settled.”
12749
12750 “You spent the evening with Mrs. Elton?”
12751
12752 “Yes, all of us; Mrs. Elton would have us come. It was settled so, upon
12753 the hill, while we were walking about with Mr. Knightley. ‘You _must_
12754 _all_ spend your evening with us,’ said she--‘I positively must have you
12755 _all_ come.’”
12756
12757 “Mr. Knightley was there too, was he?”
12758
12759 “No, not Mr. Knightley; he declined it from the first; and though I
12760 thought he would come, because Mrs. Elton declared she would not let him
12761 off, he did not;--but my mother, and Jane, and I, were all there, and
12762 a very agreeable evening we had. Such kind friends, you know, Miss
12763 Woodhouse, one must always find agreeable, though every body seemed
12764 rather fagged after the morning’s party. Even pleasure, you know, is
12765 fatiguing--and I cannot say that any of them seemed very much to have
12766 enjoyed it. However, _I_ shall always think it a very pleasant party,
12767 and feel extremely obliged to the kind friends who included me in it.”
12768
12769 “Miss Fairfax, I suppose, though you were not aware of it, had been
12770 making up her mind the whole day?”
12771
12772 “I dare say she had.”
12773
12774 “Whenever the time may come, it must be unwelcome to her and all her
12775 friends--but I hope her engagement will have every alleviation that is
12776 possible--I mean, as to the character and manners of the family.”
12777
12778 “Thank you, dear Miss Woodhouse. Yes, indeed, there is every thing
12779 in the world that can make her happy in it. Except the Sucklings and
12780 Bragges, there is not such another nursery establishment, so liberal
12781 and elegant, in all Mrs. Elton’s acquaintance. Mrs. Smallridge, a most
12782 delightful woman!--A style of living almost equal to Maple Grove--and as
12783 to the children, except the little Sucklings and little Bragges, there
12784 are not such elegant sweet children anywhere. Jane will be treated with
12785 such regard and kindness!--It will be nothing but pleasure, a life of
12786 pleasure.--And her salary!--I really cannot venture to name her salary
12787 to you, Miss Woodhouse. Even you, used as you are to great sums, would
12788 hardly believe that so much could be given to a young person like Jane.”
12789
12790 “Ah! madam,” cried Emma, “if other children are at all like what I
12791 remember to have been myself, I should think five times the amount of
12792 what I have ever yet heard named as a salary on such occasions, dearly
12793 earned.”
12794
12795 “You are so noble in your ideas!”
12796
12797 “And when is Miss Fairfax to leave you?”
12798
12799 “Very soon, very soon, indeed; that’s the worst of it. Within a
12800 fortnight. Mrs. Smallridge is in a great hurry. My poor mother does not
12801 know how to bear it. So then, I try to put it out of her thoughts, and
12802 say, Come ma’am, do not let us think about it any more.”
12803
12804 “Her friends must all be sorry to lose her; and will not Colonel and
12805 Mrs. Campbell be sorry to find that she has engaged herself before their
12806 return?”
12807
12808 “Yes; Jane says she is sure they will; but yet, this is such a situation
12809 as she cannot feel herself justified in declining. I was so astonished
12810 when she first told me what she had been saying to Mrs. Elton, and when
12811 Mrs. Elton at the same moment came congratulating me upon it! It was
12812 before tea--stay--no, it could not be before tea, because we were
12813 just going to cards--and yet it was before tea, because I remember
12814 thinking--Oh! no, now I recollect, now I have it; something happened
12815 before tea, but not that. Mr. Elton was called out of the room before
12816 tea, old John Abdy’s son wanted to speak with him. Poor old John, I
12817 have a great regard for him; he was clerk to my poor father twenty-seven
12818 years; and now, poor old man, he is bed-ridden, and very poorly with the
12819 rheumatic gout in his joints--I must go and see him to-day; and so will
12820 Jane, I am sure, if she gets out at all. And poor John’s son came to
12821 talk to Mr. Elton about relief from the parish; he is very well to do
12822 himself, you know, being head man at the Crown, ostler, and every thing
12823 of that sort, but still he cannot keep his father without some help;
12824 and so, when Mr. Elton came back, he told us what John ostler had been
12825 telling him, and then it came out about the chaise having been sent to
12826 Randalls to take Mr. Frank Churchill to Richmond. That was what happened
12827 before tea. It was after tea that Jane spoke to Mrs. Elton.”
12828
12829 Miss Bates would hardly give Emma time to say how perfectly new this
12830 circumstance was to her; but as without supposing it possible that she
12831 could be ignorant of any of the particulars of Mr. Frank Churchill’s
12832 going, she proceeded to give them all, it was of no consequence.
12833
12834 What Mr. Elton had learned from the ostler on the subject, being the
12835 accumulation of the ostler’s own knowledge, and the knowledge of the
12836 servants at Randalls, was, that a messenger had come over from Richmond
12837 soon after the return of the party from Box Hill--which messenger,
12838 however, had been no more than was expected; and that Mr. Churchill had
12839 sent his nephew a few lines, containing, upon the whole, a tolerable
12840 account of Mrs. Churchill, and only wishing him not to delay coming
12841 back beyond the next morning early; but that Mr. Frank Churchill having
12842 resolved to go home directly, without waiting at all, and his horse
12843 seeming to have got a cold, Tom had been sent off immediately for the
12844 Crown chaise, and the ostler had stood out and seen it pass by, the boy
12845 going a good pace, and driving very steady.
12846
12847 There was nothing in all this either to astonish or interest, and it
12848 caught Emma’s attention only as it united with the subject which already
12849 engaged her mind. The contrast between Mrs. Churchill’s importance in
12850 the world, and Jane Fairfax’s, struck her; one was every thing, the
12851 other nothing--and she sat musing on the difference of woman’s destiny,
12852 and quite unconscious on what her eyes were fixed, till roused by Miss
12853 Bates’s saying,
12854
12855 “Aye, I see what you are thinking of, the pianoforte. What is to become
12856 of that?--Very true. Poor dear Jane was talking of it just now.--‘You
12857 must go,’ said she. ‘You and I must part. You will have no business
12858 here.--Let it stay, however,’ said she; ‘give it houseroom till Colonel
12859 Campbell comes back. I shall talk about it to him; he will settle for
12860 me; he will help me out of all my difficulties.’--And to this day, I do
12861 believe, she knows not whether it was his present or his daughter’s.”
12862
12863 Now Emma was obliged to think of the pianoforte; and the remembrance of
12864 all her former fanciful and unfair conjectures was so little pleasing,
12865 that she soon allowed herself to believe her visit had been long enough;
12866 and, with a repetition of every thing that she could venture to say of
12867 the good wishes which she really felt, took leave.
12868
12869
12870
12871 CHAPTER IX
12872
12873
12874 Emma’s pensive meditations, as she walked home, were not interrupted;
12875 but on entering the parlour, she found those who must rouse her. Mr.
12876 Knightley and Harriet had arrived during her absence, and were sitting
12877 with her father.--Mr. Knightley immediately got up, and in a manner
12878 decidedly graver than usual, said,
12879
12880 “I would not go away without seeing you, but I have no time to spare,
12881 and therefore must now be gone directly. I am going to London, to spend
12882 a few days with John and Isabella. Have you any thing to send or say,
12883 besides the ‘love,’ which nobody carries?”
12884
12885 “Nothing at all. But is not this a sudden scheme?”
12886
12887 “Yes--rather--I have been thinking of it some little time.”
12888
12889 Emma was sure he had not forgiven her; he looked unlike himself. Time,
12890 however, she thought, would tell him that they ought to be friends
12891 again. While he stood, as if meaning to go, but not going--her father
12892 began his inquiries.
12893
12894 “Well, my dear, and did you get there safely?--And how did you find my
12895 worthy old friend and her daughter?--I dare say they must have been very
12896 much obliged to you for coming. Dear Emma has been to call on Mrs.
12897 and Miss Bates, Mr. Knightley, as I told you before. She is always so
12898 attentive to them!”
12899
12900 Emma’s colour was heightened by this unjust praise; and with a
12901 smile, and shake of the head, which spoke much, she looked at Mr.
12902 Knightley.--It seemed as if there were an instantaneous impression in
12903 her favour, as if his eyes received the truth from hers, and all that
12904 had passed of good in her feelings were at once caught and honoured.--
12905 He looked at her with a glow of regard. She was warmly gratified--and in
12906 another moment still more so, by a little movement of more than common
12907 friendliness on his part.--He took her hand;--whether she had not
12908 herself made the first motion, she could not say--she might, perhaps,
12909 have rather offered it--but he took her hand, pressed it, and certainly
12910 was on the point of carrying it to his lips--when, from some fancy or
12911 other, he suddenly let it go.--Why he should feel such a scruple, why
12912 he should change his mind when it was all but done, she could not
12913 perceive.--He would have judged better, she thought, if he had not
12914 stopped.--The intention, however, was indubitable; and whether it was
12915 that his manners had in general so little gallantry, or however else it
12916 happened, but she thought nothing became him more.--It was with him,
12917 of so simple, yet so dignified a nature.--She could not but recall the
12918 attempt with great satisfaction. It spoke such perfect amity.--He left
12919 them immediately afterwards--gone in a moment. He always moved with the
12920 alertness of a mind which could neither be undecided nor dilatory, but
12921 now he seemed more sudden than usual in his disappearance.
12922
12923 Emma could not regret her having gone to Miss Bates, but she wished she
12924 had left her ten minutes earlier;--it would have been a great pleasure
12925 to talk over Jane Fairfax’s situation with Mr. Knightley.--Neither
12926 would she regret that he should be going to Brunswick Square, for she
12927 knew how much his visit would be enjoyed--but it might have happened
12928 at a better time--and to have had longer notice of it, would have been
12929 pleasanter.--They parted thorough friends, however; she could not
12930 be deceived as to the meaning of his countenance, and his unfinished
12931 gallantry;--it was all done to assure her that she had fully recovered
12932 his good opinion.--He had been sitting with them half an hour, she
12933 found. It was a pity that she had not come back earlier!
12934
12935 In the hope of diverting her father’s thoughts from the disagreeableness
12936 of Mr. Knightley’s going to London; and going so suddenly; and going on
12937 horseback, which she knew would be all very bad; Emma communicated her
12938 news of Jane Fairfax, and her dependence on the effect was justified;
12939 it supplied a very useful check,--interested, without disturbing him. He
12940 had long made up his mind to Jane Fairfax’s going out as governess, and
12941 could talk of it cheerfully, but Mr. Knightley’s going to London had
12942 been an unexpected blow.
12943
12944 “I am very glad, indeed, my dear, to hear she is to be so comfortably
12945 settled. Mrs. Elton is very good-natured and agreeable, and I dare say
12946 her acquaintance are just what they ought to be. I hope it is a dry
12947 situation, and that her health will be taken good care of. It ought to
12948 be a first object, as I am sure poor Miss Taylor’s always was with me.
12949 You know, my dear, she is going to be to this new lady what Miss Taylor
12950 was to us. And I hope she will be better off in one respect, and not be
12951 induced to go away after it has been her home so long.”
12952
12953 The following day brought news from Richmond to throw every thing else
12954 into the background. An express arrived at Randalls to announce the
12955 death of Mrs. Churchill! Though her nephew had had no particular reason
12956 to hasten back on her account, she had not lived above six-and-thirty
12957 hours after his return. A sudden seizure of a different nature from any
12958 thing foreboded by her general state, had carried her off after a short
12959 struggle. The great Mrs. Churchill was no more.
12960
12961 It was felt as such things must be felt. Every body had a degree of
12962 gravity and sorrow; tenderness towards the departed, solicitude for the
12963 surviving friends; and, in a reasonable time, curiosity to know where
12964 she would be buried. Goldsmith tells us, that when lovely woman stoops
12965 to folly, she has nothing to do but to die; and when she stoops to be
12966 disagreeable, it is equally to be recommended as a clearer of ill-fame.
12967 Mrs. Churchill, after being disliked at least twenty-five years, was
12968 now spoken of with compassionate allowances. In one point she was fully
12969 justified. She had never been admitted before to be seriously ill. The
12970 event acquitted her of all the fancifulness, and all the selfishness of
12971 imaginary complaints.
12972
12973 “Poor Mrs. Churchill! no doubt she had been suffering a great deal:
12974 more than any body had ever supposed--and continual pain would try the
12975 temper. It was a sad event--a great shock--with all her faults, what
12976 would Mr. Churchill do without her? Mr. Churchill’s loss would be
12977 dreadful indeed. Mr. Churchill would never get over it.”--Even Mr.
12978 Weston shook his head, and looked solemn, and said, “Ah! poor woman,
12979 who would have thought it!” and resolved, that his mourning should be as
12980 handsome as possible; and his wife sat sighing and moralising over her
12981 broad hems with a commiseration and good sense, true and steady. How it
12982 would affect Frank was among the earliest thoughts of both. It was also
12983 a very early speculation with Emma. The character of Mrs. Churchill,
12984 the grief of her husband--her mind glanced over them both with awe and
12985 compassion--and then rested with lightened feelings on how Frank might
12986 be affected by the event, how benefited, how freed. She saw in a moment
12987 all the possible good. Now, an attachment to Harriet Smith would have
12988 nothing to encounter. Mr. Churchill, independent of his wife, was feared
12989 by nobody; an easy, guidable man, to be persuaded into any thing by his
12990 nephew. All that remained to be wished was, that the nephew should form
12991 the attachment, as, with all her goodwill in the cause, Emma could feel
12992 no certainty of its being already formed.
12993
12994 Harriet behaved extremely well on the occasion, with great self-command.
12995 What ever she might feel of brighter hope, she betrayed nothing. Emma
12996 was gratified, to observe such a proof in her of strengthened character,
12997 and refrained from any allusion that might endanger its maintenance.
12998 They spoke, therefore, of Mrs. Churchill’s death with mutual
12999 forbearance.
13000
13001 Short letters from Frank were received at Randalls, communicating all
13002 that was immediately important of their state and plans. Mr. Churchill
13003 was better than could be expected; and their first removal, on the
13004 departure of the funeral for Yorkshire, was to be to the house of a very
13005 old friend in Windsor, to whom Mr. Churchill had been promising a
13006 visit the last ten years. At present, there was nothing to be done for
13007 Harriet; good wishes for the future were all that could yet be possible
13008 on Emma’s side.
13009
13010 It was a more pressing concern to shew attention to Jane Fairfax, whose
13011 prospects were closing, while Harriet’s opened, and whose engagements
13012 now allowed of no delay in any one at Highbury, who wished to shew her
13013 kindness--and with Emma it was grown into a first wish. She had scarcely
13014 a stronger regret than for her past coldness; and the person, whom she
13015 had been so many months neglecting, was now the very one on whom she
13016 would have lavished every distinction of regard or sympathy. She wanted
13017 to be of use to her; wanted to shew a value for her society, and testify
13018 respect and consideration. She resolved to prevail on her to spend a day
13019 at Hartfield. A note was written to urge it. The invitation was refused,
13020 and by a verbal message. “Miss Fairfax was not well enough to write;”
13021 and when Mr. Perry called at Hartfield, the same morning, it appeared
13022 that she was so much indisposed as to have been visited, though against
13023 her own consent, by himself, and that she was suffering under severe
13024 headaches, and a nervous fever to a degree, which made him doubt the
13025 possibility of her going to Mrs. Smallridge’s at the time proposed.
13026 Her health seemed for the moment completely deranged--appetite quite
13027 gone--and though there were no absolutely alarming symptoms, nothing
13028 touching the pulmonary complaint, which was the standing apprehension
13029 of the family, Mr. Perry was uneasy about her. He thought she had
13030 undertaken more than she was equal to, and that she felt it so herself,
13031 though she would not own it. Her spirits seemed overcome. Her
13032 present home, he could not but observe, was unfavourable to a nervous
13033 disorder:--confined always to one room;--he could have wished it
13034 otherwise--and her good aunt, though his very old friend, he must
13035 acknowledge to be not the best companion for an invalid of that
13036 description. Her care and attention could not be questioned; they were,
13037 in fact, only too great. He very much feared that Miss Fairfax derived
13038 more evil than good from them. Emma listened with the warmest concern;
13039 grieved for her more and more, and looked around eager to discover some
13040 way of being useful. To take her--be it only an hour or two--from
13041 her aunt, to give her change of air and scene, and quiet rational
13042 conversation, even for an hour or two, might do her good; and the
13043 following morning she wrote again to say, in the most feeling language
13044 she could command, that she would call for her in the carriage at any
13045 hour that Jane would name--mentioning that she had Mr. Perry’s decided
13046 opinion, in favour of such exercise for his patient. The answer was only
13047 in this short note:
13048
13049 “Miss Fairfax’s compliments and thanks, but is quite unequal to any
13050 exercise.”
13051
13052 Emma felt that her own note had deserved something better; but it was
13053 impossible to quarrel with words, whose tremulous inequality shewed
13054 indisposition so plainly, and she thought only of how she might best
13055 counteract this unwillingness to be seen or assisted. In spite of the
13056 answer, therefore, she ordered the carriage, and drove to Mrs. Bates’s,
13057 in the hope that Jane would be induced to join her--but it would not
13058 do;--Miss Bates came to the carriage door, all gratitude, and agreeing
13059 with her most earnestly in thinking an airing might be of the greatest
13060 service--and every thing that message could do was tried--but all in
13061 vain. Miss Bates was obliged to return without success; Jane was
13062 quite unpersuadable; the mere proposal of going out seemed to make her
13063 worse.--Emma wished she could have seen her, and tried her own powers;
13064 but, almost before she could hint the wish, Miss Bates made it appear
13065 that she had promised her niece on no account to let Miss Woodhouse in.
13066 “Indeed, the truth was, that poor dear Jane could not bear to see any
13067 body--any body at all--Mrs. Elton, indeed, could not be denied--and
13068 Mrs. Cole had made such a point--and Mrs. Perry had said so much--but,
13069 except them, Jane would really see nobody.”
13070
13071 Emma did not want to be classed with the Mrs. Eltons, the Mrs. Perrys,
13072 and the Mrs. Coles, who would force themselves anywhere; neither could
13073 she feel any right of preference herself--she submitted, therefore, and
13074 only questioned Miss Bates farther as to her niece’s appetite and diet,
13075 which she longed to be able to assist. On that subject poor Miss Bates
13076 was very unhappy, and very communicative; Jane would hardly eat any
13077 thing:--Mr. Perry recommended nourishing food; but every thing
13078 they could command (and never had any body such good neighbours) was
13079 distasteful.
13080
13081 Emma, on reaching home, called the housekeeper directly, to an
13082 examination of her stores; and some arrowroot of very superior quality
13083 was speedily despatched to Miss Bates with a most friendly note. In half
13084 an hour the arrowroot was returned, with a thousand thanks from Miss
13085 Bates, but “dear Jane would not be satisfied without its being sent
13086 back; it was a thing she could not take--and, moreover, she insisted on
13087 her saying, that she was not at all in want of any thing.”
13088
13089 When Emma afterwards heard that Jane Fairfax had been seen wandering
13090 about the meadows, at some distance from Highbury, on the afternoon of
13091 the very day on which she had, under the plea of being unequal to any
13092 exercise, so peremptorily refused to go out with her in the carriage,
13093 she could have no doubt--putting every thing together--that Jane was
13094 resolved to receive no kindness from _her_. She was sorry, very sorry.
13095 Her heart was grieved for a state which seemed but the more pitiable
13096 from this sort of irritation of spirits, inconsistency of action, and
13097 inequality of powers; and it mortified her that she was given so little
13098 credit for proper feeling, or esteemed so little worthy as a friend: but
13099 she had the consolation of knowing that her intentions were good, and of
13100 being able to say to herself, that could Mr. Knightley have been privy
13101 to all her attempts of assisting Jane Fairfax, could he even have seen
13102 into her heart, he would not, on this occasion, have found any thing to
13103 reprove.
13104
13105
13106
13107 CHAPTER X
13108
13109
13110 One morning, about ten days after Mrs. Churchill’s decease, Emma was
13111 called downstairs to Mr. Weston, who “could not stay five minutes,
13112 and wanted particularly to speak with her.”--He met her at the
13113 parlour-door, and hardly asking her how she did, in the natural key of
13114 his voice, sunk it immediately, to say, unheard by her father,
13115
13116 “Can you come to Randalls at any time this morning?--Do, if it be
13117 possible. Mrs. Weston wants to see you. She must see you.”
13118
13119 “Is she unwell?”
13120
13121 “No, no, not at all--only a little agitated. She would have ordered the
13122 carriage, and come to you, but she must see you _alone_, and that you
13123 know--(nodding towards her father)--Humph!--Can you come?”
13124
13125 “Certainly. This moment, if you please. It is impossible to refuse what
13126 you ask in such a way. But what can be the matter?--Is she really not
13127 ill?”
13128
13129 “Depend upon me--but ask no more questions. You will know it all in
13130 time. The most unaccountable business! But hush, hush!”
13131
13132 To guess what all this meant, was impossible even for Emma. Something
13133 really important seemed announced by his looks; but, as her friend was
13134 well, she endeavoured not to be uneasy, and settling it with her father,
13135 that she would take her walk now, she and Mr. Weston were soon out of
13136 the house together and on their way at a quick pace for Randalls.
13137
13138 “Now,”--said Emma, when they were fairly beyond the sweep gates,--“now
13139 Mr. Weston, do let me know what has happened.”
13140
13141 “No, no,”--he gravely replied.--“Don’t ask me. I promised my wife to
13142 leave it all to her. She will break it to you better than I can. Do not
13143 be impatient, Emma; it will all come out too soon.”
13144
13145 “Break it to me,” cried Emma, standing still with terror.--“Good
13146 God!--Mr. Weston, tell me at once.--Something has happened in Brunswick
13147 Square. I know it has. Tell me, I charge you tell me this moment what it
13148 is.”
13149
13150 “No, indeed you are mistaken.”--
13151
13152 “Mr. Weston do not trifle with me.--Consider how many of my dearest
13153 friends are now in Brunswick Square. Which of them is it?--I charge you
13154 by all that is sacred, not to attempt concealment.”
13155
13156 “Upon my word, Emma.”--
13157
13158 “Your word!--why not your honour!--why not say upon your honour, that
13159 it has nothing to do with any of them? Good Heavens!--What can be to be
13160 _broke_ to me, that does not relate to one of that family?”
13161
13162 “Upon my honour,” said he very seriously, “it does not. It is not in
13163 the smallest degree connected with any human being of the name of
13164 Knightley.”
13165
13166 Emma’s courage returned, and she walked on.
13167
13168 “I was wrong,” he continued, “in talking of its being _broke_ to you.
13169 I should not have used the expression. In fact, it does not concern
13170 you--it concerns only myself,--that is, we hope.--Humph!--In short, my
13171 dear Emma, there is no occasion to be so uneasy about it. I don’t
13172 say that it is not a disagreeable business--but things might be much
13173 worse.--If we walk fast, we shall soon be at Randalls.”
13174
13175 Emma found that she must wait; and now it required little effort. She
13176 asked no more questions therefore, merely employed her own fancy, and
13177 that soon pointed out to her the probability of its being some money
13178 concern--something just come to light, of a disagreeable nature in the
13179 circumstances of the family,--something which the late event at Richmond
13180 had brought forward. Her fancy was very active. Half a dozen natural
13181 children, perhaps--and poor Frank cut off!--This, though very
13182 undesirable, would be no matter of agony to her. It inspired little more
13183 than an animating curiosity.
13184
13185 “Who is that gentleman on horseback?” said she, as they
13186 proceeded--speaking more to assist Mr. Weston in keeping his secret,
13187 than with any other view.
13188
13189 “I do not know.--One of the Otways.--Not Frank;--it is not Frank, I
13190 assure you. You will not see him. He is half way to Windsor by this
13191 time.”
13192
13193 “Has your son been with you, then?”
13194
13195 “Oh! yes--did not you know?--Well, well, never mind.”
13196
13197 For a moment he was silent; and then added, in a tone much more guarded
13198 and demure,
13199
13200 “Yes, Frank came over this morning, just to ask us how we did.”
13201
13202 They hurried on, and were speedily at Randalls.--“Well, my dear,” said
13203 he, as they entered the room--“I have brought her, and now I hope you
13204 will soon be better. I shall leave you together. There is no use in
13205 delay. I shall not be far off, if you want me.”--And Emma distinctly
13206 heard him add, in a lower tone, before he quitted the room,--“I have
13207 been as good as my word. She has not the least idea.”
13208
13209 Mrs. Weston was looking so ill, and had an air of so much perturbation,
13210 that Emma’s uneasiness increased; and the moment they were alone, she
13211 eagerly said,
13212
13213 “What is it my dear friend? Something of a very unpleasant nature, I
13214 find, has occurred;--do let me know directly what it is. I have been
13215 walking all this way in complete suspense. We both abhor suspense.
13216 Do not let mine continue longer. It will do you good to speak of your
13217 distress, whatever it may be.”
13218
13219 “Have you indeed no idea?” said Mrs. Weston in a trembling voice.
13220 “Cannot you, my dear Emma--cannot you form a guess as to what you are to
13221 hear?”
13222
13223 “So far as that it relates to Mr. Frank Churchill, I do guess.”
13224
13225 “You are right. It does relate to him, and I will tell you directly;”
13226 (resuming her work, and seeming resolved against looking up.) “He has
13227 been here this very morning, on a most extraordinary errand. It is
13228 impossible to express our surprize. He came to speak to his father on a
13229 subject,--to announce an attachment--”
13230
13231 She stopped to breathe. Emma thought first of herself, and then of
13232 Harriet.
13233
13234 “More than an attachment, indeed,” resumed Mrs. Weston; “an
13235 engagement--a positive engagement.--What will you say, Emma--what will
13236 any body say, when it is known that Frank Churchill and Miss Fairfax are
13237 engaged;--nay, that they have been long engaged!”
13238
13239 Emma even jumped with surprize;--and, horror-struck, exclaimed,
13240
13241 “Jane Fairfax!--Good God! You are not serious? You do not mean it?”
13242
13243 “You may well be amazed,” returned Mrs. Weston, still averting her eyes,
13244 and talking on with eagerness, that Emma might have time to recover--
13245 “You may well be amazed. But it is even so. There has been a solemn
13246 engagement between them ever since October--formed at Weymouth, and
13247 kept a secret from every body. Not a creature knowing it but
13248 themselves--neither the Campbells, nor her family, nor his.--It is so
13249 wonderful, that though perfectly convinced of the fact, it is yet almost
13250 incredible to myself. I can hardly believe it.--I thought I knew him.”
13251
13252 Emma scarcely heard what was said.--Her mind was divided between two
13253 ideas--her own former conversations with him about Miss Fairfax; and
13254 poor Harriet;--and for some time she could only exclaim, and require
13255 confirmation, repeated confirmation.
13256
13257 “Well,” said she at last, trying to recover herself; “this is a
13258 circumstance which I must think of at least half a day, before I can at
13259 all comprehend it. What!--engaged to her all the winter--before either
13260 of them came to Highbury?”
13261
13262 “Engaged since October,--secretly engaged.--It has hurt me, Emma, very
13263 much. It has hurt his father equally. _Some_ _part_ of his conduct we
13264 cannot excuse.”
13265
13266 Emma pondered a moment, and then replied, “I will not pretend _not_ to
13267 understand you; and to give you all the relief in my power, be assured
13268 that no such effect has followed his attentions to me, as you are
13269 apprehensive of.”
13270
13271 Mrs. Weston looked up, afraid to believe; but Emma’s countenance was as
13272 steady as her words.
13273
13274 “That you may have less difficulty in believing this boast, of my
13275 present perfect indifference,” she continued, “I will farther tell you,
13276 that there was a period in the early part of our acquaintance, when I
13277 did like him, when I was very much disposed to be attached to him--nay,
13278 was attached--and how it came to cease, is perhaps the wonder.
13279 Fortunately, however, it did cease. I have really for some time past,
13280 for at least these three months, cared nothing about him. You may
13281 believe me, Mrs. Weston. This is the simple truth.”
13282
13283 Mrs. Weston kissed her with tears of joy; and when she could find
13284 utterance, assured her, that this protestation had done her more good
13285 than any thing else in the world could do.
13286
13287 “Mr. Weston will be almost as much relieved as myself,” said she. “On
13288 this point we have been wretched. It was our darling wish that you
13289 might be attached to each other--and we were persuaded that it was so.--
13290 Imagine what we have been feeling on your account.”
13291
13292 “I have escaped; and that I should escape, may be a matter of grateful
13293 wonder to you and myself. But this does not acquit _him_, Mrs. Weston;
13294 and I must say, that I think him greatly to blame. What right had he
13295 to come among us with affection and faith engaged, and with manners
13296 so _very_ disengaged? What right had he to endeavour to please, as
13297 he certainly did--to distinguish any one young woman with persevering
13298 attention, as he certainly did--while he really belonged to
13299 another?--How could he tell what mischief he might be doing?--How could
13300 he tell that he might not be making me in love with him?--very wrong,
13301 very wrong indeed.”
13302
13303 “From something that he said, my dear Emma, I rather imagine--”
13304
13305 “And how could _she_ bear such behaviour! Composure with a witness!
13306 to look on, while repeated attentions were offering to another woman,
13307 before her face, and not resent it.--That is a degree of placidity,
13308 which I can neither comprehend nor respect.”
13309
13310 “There were misunderstandings between them, Emma; he said so expressly.
13311 He had not time to enter into much explanation. He was here only a
13312 quarter of an hour, and in a state of agitation which did not allow
13313 the full use even of the time he could stay--but that there had been
13314 misunderstandings he decidedly said. The present crisis, indeed,
13315 seemed to be brought on by them; and those misunderstandings might very
13316 possibly arise from the impropriety of his conduct.”
13317
13318 “Impropriety! Oh! Mrs. Weston--it is too calm a censure. Much, much
13319 beyond impropriety!--It has sunk him, I cannot say how it has sunk him
13320 in my opinion. So unlike what a man should be!--None of that upright
13321 integrity, that strict adherence to truth and principle, that disdain of
13322 trick and littleness, which a man should display in every transaction of
13323 his life.”
13324
13325 “Nay, dear Emma, now I must take his part; for though he has been wrong
13326 in this instance, I have known him long enough to answer for his having
13327 many, very many, good qualities; and--”
13328
13329 “Good God!” cried Emma, not attending to her.--“Mrs. Smallridge, too!
13330 Jane actually on the point of going as governess! What could he mean by
13331 such horrible indelicacy? To suffer her to engage herself--to suffer her
13332 even to think of such a measure!”
13333
13334 “He knew nothing about it, Emma. On this article I can fully acquit
13335 him. It was a private resolution of hers, not communicated to him--or at
13336 least not communicated in a way to carry conviction.--Till yesterday, I
13337 know he said he was in the dark as to her plans. They burst on him, I do
13338 not know how, but by some letter or message--and it was the discovery of
13339 what she was doing, of this very project of hers, which determined him
13340 to come forward at once, own it all to his uncle, throw himself on
13341 his kindness, and, in short, put an end to the miserable state of
13342 concealment that had been carrying on so long.”
13343
13344 Emma began to listen better.
13345
13346 “I am to hear from him soon,” continued Mrs. Weston. “He told me at
13347 parting, that he should soon write; and he spoke in a manner which
13348 seemed to promise me many particulars that could not be given now. Let
13349 us wait, therefore, for this letter. It may bring many extenuations. It
13350 may make many things intelligible and excusable which now are not to
13351 be understood. Don’t let us be severe, don’t let us be in a hurry to
13352 condemn him. Let us have patience. I must love him; and now that I am
13353 satisfied on one point, the one material point, I am sincerely anxious
13354 for its all turning out well, and ready to hope that it may. They must
13355 both have suffered a great deal under such a system of secresy and
13356 concealment.”
13357
13358 “_His_ sufferings,” replied Emma dryly, “do not appear to have done him
13359 much harm. Well, and how did Mr. Churchill take it?”
13360
13361 “Most favourably for his nephew--gave his consent with scarcely a
13362 difficulty. Conceive what the events of a week have done in that family!
13363 While poor Mrs. Churchill lived, I suppose there could not have been a
13364 hope, a chance, a possibility;--but scarcely are her remains at rest in
13365 the family vault, than her husband is persuaded to act exactly opposite
13366 to what she would have required. What a blessing it is, when undue
13367 influence does not survive the grave!--He gave his consent with very
13368 little persuasion.”
13369
13370 “Ah!” thought Emma, “he would have done as much for Harriet.”
13371
13372 “This was settled last night, and Frank was off with the light this
13373 morning. He stopped at Highbury, at the Bates’s, I fancy, some time--and
13374 then came on hither; but was in such a hurry to get back to his uncle,
13375 to whom he is just now more necessary than ever, that, as I tell you,
13376 he could stay with us but a quarter of an hour.--He was very much
13377 agitated--very much, indeed--to a degree that made him appear quite
13378 a different creature from any thing I had ever seen him before.--In
13379 addition to all the rest, there had been the shock of finding her so
13380 very unwell, which he had had no previous suspicion of--and there was
13381 every appearance of his having been feeling a great deal.”
13382
13383 “And do you really believe the affair to have been carrying on with such
13384 perfect secresy?--The Campbells, the Dixons, did none of them know of
13385 the engagement?”
13386
13387 Emma could not speak the name of Dixon without a little blush.
13388
13389 “None; not one. He positively said that it had been known to no being in
13390 the world but their two selves.”
13391
13392 “Well,” said Emma, “I suppose we shall gradually grow reconciled to the
13393 idea, and I wish them very happy. But I shall always think it a
13394 very abominable sort of proceeding. What has it been but a system of
13395 hypocrisy and deceit,--espionage, and treachery?--To come among us with
13396 professions of openness and simplicity; and such a league in secret
13397 to judge us all!--Here have we been, the whole winter and spring,
13398 completely duped, fancying ourselves all on an equal footing of truth
13399 and honour, with two people in the midst of us who may have been
13400 carrying round, comparing and sitting in judgment on sentiments and
13401 words that were never meant for both to hear.--They must take the
13402 consequence, if they have heard each other spoken of in a way not
13403 perfectly agreeable!”
13404
13405 “I am quite easy on that head,” replied Mrs. Weston. “I am very sure
13406 that I never said any thing of either to the other, which both might not
13407 have heard.”
13408
13409 “You are in luck.--Your only blunder was confined to my ear, when you
13410 imagined a certain friend of ours in love with the lady.”
13411
13412 “True. But as I have always had a thoroughly good opinion of Miss
13413 Fairfax, I never could, under any blunder, have spoken ill of her; and
13414 as to speaking ill of him, there I must have been safe.”
13415
13416 At this moment Mr. Weston appeared at a little distance from the window,
13417 evidently on the watch. His wife gave him a look which invited him
13418 in; and, while he was coming round, added, “Now, dearest Emma, let me
13419 intreat you to say and look every thing that may set his heart at ease,
13420 and incline him to be satisfied with the match. Let us make the best of
13421 it--and, indeed, almost every thing may be fairly said in her favour. It
13422 is not a connexion to gratify; but if Mr. Churchill does not feel that,
13423 why should we? and it may be a very fortunate circumstance for him, for
13424 Frank, I mean, that he should have attached himself to a girl of such
13425 steadiness of character and good judgment as I have always given her
13426 credit for--and still am disposed to give her credit for, in spite of
13427 this one great deviation from the strict rule of right. And how much may
13428 be said in her situation for even that error!”
13429
13430 “Much, indeed!” cried Emma feelingly. “If a woman can ever be
13431 excused for thinking only of herself, it is in a situation like Jane
13432 Fairfax’s.--Of such, one may almost say, that ‘the world is not their’s,
13433 nor the world’s law.’”
13434
13435 She met Mr. Weston on his entrance, with a smiling countenance,
13436 exclaiming,
13437
13438 “A very pretty trick you have been playing me, upon my word! This was a
13439 device, I suppose, to sport with my curiosity, and exercise my talent of
13440 guessing. But you really frightened me. I thought you had lost half
13441 your property, at least. And here, instead of its being a matter of
13442 condolence, it turns out to be one of congratulation.--I congratulate
13443 you, Mr. Weston, with all my heart, on the prospect of having one of the
13444 most lovely and accomplished young women in England for your daughter.”
13445
13446 A glance or two between him and his wife, convinced him that all was as
13447 right as this speech proclaimed; and its happy effect on his spirits was
13448 immediate. His air and voice recovered their usual briskness: he shook
13449 her heartily and gratefully by the hand, and entered on the subject in
13450 a manner to prove, that he now only wanted time and persuasion to think
13451 the engagement no very bad thing. His companions suggested only what
13452 could palliate imprudence, or smooth objections; and by the time they
13453 had talked it all over together, and he had talked it all over again
13454 with Emma, in their walk back to Hartfield, he was become perfectly
13455 reconciled, and not far from thinking it the very best thing that Frank
13456 could possibly have done.
13457
13458
13459
13460 CHAPTER XI
13461
13462
13463 “Harriet, poor Harriet!”--Those were the words; in them lay the
13464 tormenting ideas which Emma could not get rid of, and which constituted
13465 the real misery of the business to her. Frank Churchill had behaved very
13466 ill by herself--very ill in many ways,--but it was not so much _his_
13467 behaviour as her _own_, which made her so angry with him. It was the
13468 scrape which he had drawn her into on Harriet’s account, that gave the
13469 deepest hue to his offence.--Poor Harriet! to be a second time the
13470 dupe of her misconceptions and flattery. Mr. Knightley had spoken
13471 prophetically, when he once said, “Emma, you have been no friend
13472 to Harriet Smith.”--She was afraid she had done her nothing but
13473 disservice.--It was true that she had not to charge herself, in this
13474 instance as in the former, with being the sole and original author of
13475 the mischief; with having suggested such feelings as might otherwise
13476 never have entered Harriet’s imagination; for Harriet had acknowledged
13477 her admiration and preference of Frank Churchill before she had ever
13478 given her a hint on the subject; but she felt completely guilty
13479 of having encouraged what she might have repressed. She might have
13480 prevented the indulgence and increase of such sentiments. Her influence
13481 would have been enough. And now she was very conscious that she ought
13482 to have prevented them.--She felt that she had been risking her friend’s
13483 happiness on most insufficient grounds. Common sense would have directed
13484 her to tell Harriet, that she must not allow herself to think of him,
13485 and that there were five hundred chances to one against his ever caring
13486 for her.--“But, with common sense,” she added, “I am afraid I have had
13487 little to do.”
13488
13489 She was extremely angry with herself. If she could not have been angry
13490 with Frank Churchill too, it would have been dreadful.--As for Jane
13491 Fairfax, she might at least relieve her feelings from any present
13492 solicitude on her account. Harriet would be anxiety enough; she need
13493 no longer be unhappy about Jane, whose troubles and whose ill-health
13494 having, of course, the same origin, must be equally under cure.--Her
13495 days of insignificance and evil were over.--She would soon be well, and
13496 happy, and prosperous.--Emma could now imagine why her own attentions
13497 had been slighted. This discovery laid many smaller matters open. No
13498 doubt it had been from jealousy.--In Jane’s eyes she had been a rival;
13499 and well might any thing she could offer of assistance or regard be
13500 repulsed. An airing in the Hartfield carriage would have been the rack,
13501 and arrowroot from the Hartfield storeroom must have been poison. She
13502 understood it all; and as far as her mind could disengage itself from
13503 the injustice and selfishness of angry feelings, she acknowledged that
13504 Jane Fairfax would have neither elevation nor happiness beyond her
13505 desert. But poor Harriet was such an engrossing charge! There was little
13506 sympathy to be spared for any body else. Emma was sadly fearful
13507 that this second disappointment would be more severe than the first.
13508 Considering the very superior claims of the object, it ought; and
13509 judging by its apparently stronger effect on Harriet’s mind, producing
13510 reserve and self-command, it would.--She must communicate the painful
13511 truth, however, and as soon as possible. An injunction of secresy had
13512 been among Mr. Weston’s parting words. “For the present, the whole
13513 affair was to be completely a secret. Mr. Churchill had made a point of
13514 it, as a token of respect to the wife he had so very recently lost;
13515 and every body admitted it to be no more than due decorum.”--Emma had
13516 promised; but still Harriet must be excepted. It was her superior duty.
13517
13518 In spite of her vexation, she could not help feeling it almost
13519 ridiculous, that she should have the very same distressing and delicate
13520 office to perform by Harriet, which Mrs. Weston had just gone through by
13521 herself. The intelligence, which had been so anxiously announced to her,
13522 she was now to be anxiously announcing to another. Her heart beat quick
13523 on hearing Harriet’s footstep and voice; so, she supposed, had poor Mrs.
13524 Weston felt when _she_ was approaching Randalls. Could the event of
13525 the disclosure bear an equal resemblance!--But of that, unfortunately,
13526 there could be no chance.
13527
13528 “Well, Miss Woodhouse!” cried Harriet, coming eagerly into the room--“is
13529 not this the oddest news that ever was?”
13530
13531 “What news do you mean?” replied Emma, unable to guess, by look or
13532 voice, whether Harriet could indeed have received any hint.
13533
13534 “About Jane Fairfax. Did you ever hear any thing so strange? Oh!--you
13535 need not be afraid of owning it to me, for Mr. Weston has told me
13536 himself. I met him just now. He told me it was to be a great secret;
13537 and, therefore, I should not think of mentioning it to any body but you,
13538 but he said you knew it.”
13539
13540 “What did Mr. Weston tell you?”--said Emma, still perplexed.
13541
13542 “Oh! he told me all about it; that Jane Fairfax and Mr. Frank Churchill
13543 are to be married, and that they have been privately engaged to one
13544 another this long while. How very odd!”
13545
13546 It was, indeed, so odd; Harriet’s behaviour was so extremely odd,
13547 that Emma did not know how to understand it. Her character appeared
13548 absolutely changed. She seemed to propose shewing no agitation, or
13549 disappointment, or peculiar concern in the discovery. Emma looked at
13550 her, quite unable to speak.
13551
13552 “Had you any idea,” cried Harriet, “of his being in love with her?--You,
13553 perhaps, might.--You (blushing as she spoke) who can see into every
13554 body’s heart; but nobody else--”
13555
13556 “Upon my word,” said Emma, “I begin to doubt my having any such talent.
13557 Can you seriously ask me, Harriet, whether I imagined him attached
13558 to another woman at the very time that I was--tacitly, if not
13559 openly--encouraging you to give way to your own feelings?--I never
13560 had the slightest suspicion, till within the last hour, of Mr. Frank
13561 Churchill’s having the least regard for Jane Fairfax. You may be very
13562 sure that if I had, I should have cautioned you accordingly.”
13563
13564 “Me!” cried Harriet, colouring, and astonished. “Why should you caution
13565 me?--You do not think I care about Mr. Frank Churchill.”
13566
13567 “I am delighted to hear you speak so stoutly on the subject,” replied
13568 Emma, smiling; “but you do not mean to deny that there was a time--and
13569 not very distant either--when you gave me reason to understand that you
13570 did care about him?”
13571
13572 “Him!--never, never. Dear Miss Woodhouse, how could you so mistake me?”
13573 turning away distressed.
13574
13575 “Harriet!” cried Emma, after a moment’s pause--“What do you mean?--Good
13576 Heaven! what do you mean?--Mistake you!--Am I to suppose then?--”
13577
13578 She could not speak another word.--Her voice was lost; and she sat down,
13579 waiting in great terror till Harriet should answer.
13580
13581 Harriet, who was standing at some distance, and with face turned from
13582 her, did not immediately say any thing; and when she did speak, it was
13583 in a voice nearly as agitated as Emma’s.
13584
13585 “I should not have thought it possible,” she began, “that you could have
13586 misunderstood me! I know we agreed never to name him--but considering
13587 how infinitely superior he is to every body else, I should not have
13588 thought it possible that I could be supposed to mean any other person.
13589 Mr. Frank Churchill, indeed! I do not know who would ever look at him in
13590 the company of the other. I hope I have a better taste than to think of
13591 Mr. Frank Churchill, who is like nobody by his side. And that you should
13592 have been so mistaken, is amazing!--I am sure, but for believing that
13593 you entirely approved and meant to encourage me in my attachment, I
13594 should have considered it at first too great a presumption almost,
13595 to dare to think of him. At first, if you had not told me that more
13596 wonderful things had happened; that there had been matches of greater
13597 disparity (those were your very words);--I should not have dared to
13598 give way to--I should not have thought it possible--But if _you_, who
13599 had been always acquainted with him--”
13600
13601 “Harriet!” cried Emma, collecting herself resolutely--“Let us understand
13602 each other now, without the possibility of farther mistake. Are you
13603 speaking of--Mr. Knightley?”
13604
13605 “To be sure I am. I never could have an idea of any body else--and so
13606 I thought you knew. When we talked about him, it was as clear as
13607 possible.”
13608
13609 “Not quite,” returned Emma, with forced calmness, “for all that you then
13610 said, appeared to me to relate to a different person. I could almost
13611 assert that you had _named_ Mr. Frank Churchill. I am sure the service
13612 Mr. Frank Churchill had rendered you, in protecting you from the
13613 gipsies, was spoken of.”
13614
13615 “Oh! Miss Woodhouse, how you do forget!”
13616
13617 “My dear Harriet, I perfectly remember the substance of what I said on
13618 the occasion. I told you that I did not wonder at your attachment;
13619 that considering the service he had rendered you, it was extremely
13620 natural:--and you agreed to it, expressing yourself very warmly as to
13621 your sense of that service, and mentioning even what your sensations had
13622 been in seeing him come forward to your rescue.--The impression of it is
13623 strong on my memory.”
13624
13625 “Oh, dear,” cried Harriet, “now I recollect what you mean; but I
13626 was thinking of something very different at the time. It was not the
13627 gipsies--it was not Mr. Frank Churchill that I meant. No! (with some
13628 elevation) I was thinking of a much more precious circumstance--of Mr.
13629 Knightley’s coming and asking me to dance, when Mr. Elton would not
13630 stand up with me; and when there was no other partner in the room. That
13631 was the kind action; that was the noble benevolence and generosity; that
13632 was the service which made me begin to feel how superior he was to every
13633 other being upon earth.”
13634
13635 “Good God!” cried Emma, “this has been a most unfortunate--most
13636 deplorable mistake!--What is to be done?”
13637
13638 “You would not have encouraged me, then, if you had understood me? At
13639 least, however, I cannot be worse off than I should have been, if the
13640 other had been the person; and now--it _is_ possible--”
13641
13642 She paused a few moments. Emma could not speak.
13643
13644 “I do not wonder, Miss Woodhouse,” she resumed, “that you should feel a
13645 great difference between the two, as to me or as to any body. You must
13646 think one five hundred million times more above me than the other. But
13647 I hope, Miss Woodhouse, that supposing--that if--strange as it may
13648 appear--. But you know they were your own words, that _more_ wonderful
13649 things had happened, matches of _greater_ disparity had taken place than
13650 between Mr. Frank Churchill and me; and, therefore, it seems as if such
13651 a thing even as this, may have occurred before--and if I should be so
13652 fortunate, beyond expression, as to--if Mr. Knightley should really--if
13653 _he_ does not mind the disparity, I hope, dear Miss Woodhouse, you will
13654 not set yourself against it, and try to put difficulties in the way. But
13655 you are too good for that, I am sure.”
13656
13657 Harriet was standing at one of the windows. Emma turned round to look at
13658 her in consternation, and hastily said,
13659
13660 “Have you any idea of Mr. Knightley’s returning your affection?”
13661
13662 “Yes,” replied Harriet modestly, but not fearfully--“I must say that I
13663 have.”
13664
13665 Emma’s eyes were instantly withdrawn; and she sat silently meditating,
13666 in a fixed attitude, for a few minutes. A few minutes were sufficient
13667 for making her acquainted with her own heart. A mind like hers,
13668 once opening to suspicion, made rapid progress. She touched--she
13669 admitted--she acknowledged the whole truth. Why was it so much worse
13670 that Harriet should be in love with Mr. Knightley, than with Frank
13671 Churchill? Why was the evil so dreadfully increased by Harriet’s having
13672 some hope of a return? It darted through her, with the speed of an
13673 arrow, that Mr. Knightley must marry no one but herself!
13674
13675 Her own conduct, as well as her own heart, was before her in the same
13676 few minutes. She saw it all with a clearness which had never blessed
13677 her before. How improperly had she been acting by Harriet! How
13678 inconsiderate, how indelicate, how irrational, how unfeeling had been
13679 her conduct! What blindness, what madness, had led her on! It struck her
13680 with dreadful force, and she was ready to give it every bad name in the
13681 world. Some portion of respect for herself, however, in spite of all
13682 these demerits--some concern for her own appearance, and a strong sense
13683 of justice by Harriet--(there would be no need of _compassion_ to the
13684 girl who believed herself loved by Mr. Knightley--but justice required
13685 that she should not be made unhappy by any coldness now,) gave Emma the
13686 resolution to sit and endure farther with calmness, with even apparent
13687 kindness.--For her own advantage indeed, it was fit that the utmost
13688 extent of Harriet’s hopes should be enquired into; and Harriet had done
13689 nothing to forfeit the regard and interest which had been so voluntarily
13690 formed and maintained--or to deserve to be slighted by the person, whose
13691 counsels had never led her right.--Rousing from reflection, therefore,
13692 and subduing her emotion, she turned to Harriet again, and, in a more
13693 inviting accent, renewed the conversation; for as to the subject which
13694 had first introduced it, the wonderful story of Jane Fairfax, that was
13695 quite sunk and lost.--Neither of them thought but of Mr. Knightley and
13696 themselves.
13697
13698 Harriet, who had been standing in no unhappy reverie, was yet very glad
13699 to be called from it, by the now encouraging manner of such a judge, and
13700 such a friend as Miss Woodhouse, and only wanted invitation, to give
13701 the history of her hopes with great, though trembling delight.--Emma’s
13702 tremblings as she asked, and as she listened, were better concealed than
13703 Harriet’s, but they were not less. Her voice was not unsteady; but her
13704 mind was in all the perturbation that such a development of self, such
13705 a burst of threatening evil, such a confusion of sudden and perplexing
13706 emotions, must create.--She listened with much inward suffering, but
13707 with great outward patience, to Harriet’s detail.--Methodical, or well
13708 arranged, or very well delivered, it could not be expected to be; but it
13709 contained, when separated from all the feebleness and tautology of
13710 the narration, a substance to sink her spirit--especially with the
13711 corroborating circumstances, which her own memory brought in favour of
13712 Mr. Knightley’s most improved opinion of Harriet.
13713
13714 Harriet had been conscious of a difference in his behaviour ever since
13715 those two decisive dances.--Emma knew that he had, on that occasion,
13716 found her much superior to his expectation. From that evening, or at
13717 least from the time of Miss Woodhouse’s encouraging her to think of him,
13718 Harriet had begun to be sensible of his talking to her much more than he
13719 had been used to do, and of his having indeed quite a different manner
13720 towards her; a manner of kindness and sweetness!--Latterly she had been
13721 more and more aware of it. When they had been all walking together,
13722 he had so often come and walked by her, and talked so very
13723 delightfully!--He seemed to want to be acquainted with her. Emma knew it
13724 to have been very much the case. She had often observed the change, to
13725 almost the same extent.--Harriet repeated expressions of approbation
13726 and praise from him--and Emma felt them to be in the closest agreement
13727 with what she had known of his opinion of Harriet. He praised her for
13728 being without art or affectation, for having simple, honest, generous,
13729 feelings.--She knew that he saw such recommendations in Harriet; he
13730 had dwelt on them to her more than once.--Much that lived in Harriet’s
13731 memory, many little particulars of the notice she had received from
13732 him, a look, a speech, a removal from one chair to another, a compliment
13733 implied, a preference inferred, had been unnoticed, because unsuspected,
13734 by Emma. Circumstances that might swell to half an hour’s relation,
13735 and contained multiplied proofs to her who had seen them, had passed
13736 undiscerned by her who now heard them; but the two latest occurrences to
13737 be mentioned, the two of strongest promise to Harriet, were not without
13738 some degree of witness from Emma herself.--The first, was his walking
13739 with her apart from the others, in the lime-walk at Donwell, where they
13740 had been walking some time before Emma came, and he had taken pains (as
13741 she was convinced) to draw her from the rest to himself--and at first,
13742 he had talked to her in a more particular way than he had ever done
13743 before, in a very particular way indeed!--(Harriet could not recall
13744 it without a blush.) He seemed to be almost asking her, whether her
13745 affections were engaged.--But as soon as she (Miss Woodhouse) appeared
13746 likely to join them, he changed the subject, and began talking about
13747 farming:--The second, was his having sat talking with her nearly half
13748 an hour before Emma came back from her visit, the very last morning of
13749 his being at Hartfield--though, when he first came in, he had said that
13750 he could not stay five minutes--and his having told her, during their
13751 conversation, that though he must go to London, it was very much against
13752 his inclination that he left home at all, which was much more (as
13753 Emma felt) than he had acknowledged to _her_. The superior degree of
13754 confidence towards Harriet, which this one article marked, gave her
13755 severe pain.
13756
13757 On the subject of the first of the two circumstances, she did, after a
13758 little reflection, venture the following question. “Might he not?--Is
13759 not it possible, that when enquiring, as you thought, into the state of
13760 your affections, he might be alluding to Mr. Martin--he might have
13761 Mr. Martin’s interest in view? But Harriet rejected the suspicion with
13762 spirit.
13763
13764 “Mr. Martin! No indeed!--There was not a hint of Mr. Martin. I hope I
13765 know better now, than to care for Mr. Martin, or to be suspected of it.”
13766
13767 When Harriet had closed her evidence, she appealed to her dear Miss
13768 Woodhouse, to say whether she had not good ground for hope.
13769
13770 “I never should have presumed to think of it at first,” said she, “but
13771 for you. You told me to observe him carefully, and let his behaviour
13772 be the rule of mine--and so I have. But now I seem to feel that I may
13773 deserve him; and that if he does chuse me, it will not be any thing so
13774 very wonderful.”
13775
13776 The bitter feelings occasioned by this speech, the many bitter feelings,
13777 made the utmost exertion necessary on Emma’s side, to enable her to say
13778 on reply,
13779
13780 “Harriet, I will only venture to declare, that Mr. Knightley is the last
13781 man in the world, who would intentionally give any woman the idea of his
13782 feeling for her more than he really does.”
13783
13784 Harriet seemed ready to worship her friend for a sentence so
13785 satisfactory; and Emma was only saved from raptures and fondness, which
13786 at that moment would have been dreadful penance, by the sound of her
13787 father’s footsteps. He was coming through the hall. Harriet was too
13788 much agitated to encounter him. “She could not compose herself--
13789 Mr. Woodhouse would be alarmed--she had better go;”--with most ready
13790 encouragement from her friend, therefore, she passed off through another
13791 door--and the moment she was gone, this was the spontaneous burst of
13792 Emma’s feelings: “Oh God! that I had never seen her!”
13793
13794 The rest of the day, the following night, were hardly enough for her
13795 thoughts.--She was bewildered amidst the confusion of all that had
13796 rushed on her within the last few hours. Every moment had brought a
13797 fresh surprize; and every surprize must be matter of humiliation to
13798 her.--How to understand it all! How to understand the deceptions she had
13799 been thus practising on herself, and living under!--The blunders, the
13800 blindness of her own head and heart!--she sat still, she walked about,
13801 she tried her own room, she tried the shrubbery--in every place, every
13802 posture, she perceived that she had acted most weakly; that she had
13803 been imposed on by others in a most mortifying degree; that she had
13804 been imposing on herself in a degree yet more mortifying; that she
13805 was wretched, and should probably find this day but the beginning of
13806 wretchedness.
13807
13808 To understand, thoroughly understand her own heart, was the first
13809 endeavour. To that point went every leisure moment which her father’s
13810 claims on her allowed, and every moment of involuntary absence of mind.
13811
13812 How long had Mr. Knightley been so dear to her, as every feeling
13813 declared him now to be? When had his influence, such influence begun?--
13814 When had he succeeded to that place in her affection, which Frank
13815 Churchill had once, for a short period, occupied?--She looked back;
13816 she compared the two--compared them, as they had always stood in her
13817 estimation, from the time of the latter’s becoming known to her--and as
13818 they must at any time have been compared by her, had it--oh! had it, by
13819 any blessed felicity, occurred to her, to institute the comparison.--She
13820 saw that there never had been a time when she did not consider Mr.
13821 Knightley as infinitely the superior, or when his regard for her had not
13822 been infinitely the most dear. She saw, that in persuading herself,
13823 in fancying, in acting to the contrary, she had been entirely under a
13824 delusion, totally ignorant of her own heart--and, in short, that she had
13825 never really cared for Frank Churchill at all!
13826
13827 This was the conclusion of the first series of reflection. This was
13828 the knowledge of herself, on the first question of inquiry, which
13829 she reached; and without being long in reaching it.--She was most
13830 sorrowfully indignant; ashamed of every sensation but the one revealed
13831 to her--her affection for Mr. Knightley.--Every other part of her mind
13832 was disgusting.
13833
13834 With insufferable vanity had she believed herself in the secret of every
13835 body’s feelings; with unpardonable arrogance proposed to arrange every
13836 body’s destiny. She was proved to have been universally mistaken; and
13837 she had not quite done nothing--for she had done mischief. She had
13838 brought evil on Harriet, on herself, and she too much feared, on Mr.
13839 Knightley.--Were this most unequal of all connexions to take place, on
13840 her must rest all the reproach of having given it a beginning; for his
13841 attachment, she must believe to be produced only by a consciousness of
13842 Harriet’s;--and even were this not the case, he would never have known
13843 Harriet at all but for her folly.
13844
13845 Mr. Knightley and Harriet Smith!--It was a union to distance every
13846 wonder of the kind.--The attachment of Frank Churchill and Jane Fairfax
13847 became commonplace, threadbare, stale in the comparison, exciting no
13848 surprize, presenting no disparity, affording nothing to be said or
13849 thought.--Mr. Knightley and Harriet Smith!--Such an elevation on her
13850 side! Such a debasement on his! It was horrible to Emma to think how it
13851 must sink him in the general opinion, to foresee the smiles, the sneers,
13852 the merriment it would prompt at his expense; the mortification and
13853 disdain of his brother, the thousand inconveniences to himself.--Could
13854 it be?--No; it was impossible. And yet it was far, very far, from
13855 impossible.--Was it a new circumstance for a man of first-rate abilities
13856 to be captivated by very inferior powers? Was it new for one, perhaps
13857 too busy to seek, to be the prize of a girl who would seek him?--Was
13858 it new for any thing in this world to be unequal, inconsistent,
13859 incongruous--or for chance and circumstance (as second causes) to direct
13860 the human fate?
13861
13862 Oh! had she never brought Harriet forward! Had she left her where she
13863 ought, and where he had told her she ought!--Had she not, with a
13864 folly which no tongue could express, prevented her marrying the
13865 unexceptionable young man who would have made her happy and respectable
13866 in the line of life to which she ought to belong--all would have been
13867 safe; none of this dreadful sequel would have been.
13868
13869 How Harriet could ever have had the presumption to raise her thoughts to
13870 Mr. Knightley!--How she could dare to fancy herself the chosen of such
13871 a man till actually assured of it!--But Harriet was less humble, had
13872 fewer scruples than formerly.--Her inferiority, whether of mind or
13873 situation, seemed little felt.--She had seemed more sensible of Mr.
13874 Elton’s being to stoop in marrying her, than she now seemed of Mr.
13875 Knightley’s.--Alas! was not that her own doing too? Who had been at
13876 pains to give Harriet notions of self-consequence but herself?--Who but
13877 herself had taught her, that she was to elevate herself if possible,
13878 and that her claims were great to a high worldly establishment?--If
13879 Harriet, from being humble, were grown vain, it was her doing too.
13880
13881
13882
13883 CHAPTER XII
13884
13885
13886 Till now that she was threatened with its loss, Emma had never known
13887 how much of her happiness depended on being _first_ with Mr. Knightley,
13888 first in interest and affection.--Satisfied that it was so, and feeling
13889 it her due, she had enjoyed it without reflection; and only in the
13890 dread of being supplanted, found how inexpressibly important it had
13891 been.--Long, very long, she felt she had been first; for, having no
13892 female connexions of his own, there had been only Isabella whose claims
13893 could be compared with hers, and she had always known exactly how far
13894 he loved and esteemed Isabella. She had herself been first with him for
13895 many years past. She had not deserved it; she had often been negligent
13896 or perverse, slighting his advice, or even wilfully opposing him,
13897 insensible of half his merits, and quarrelling with him because he would
13898 not acknowledge her false and insolent estimate of her own--but still,
13899 from family attachment and habit, and thorough excellence of mind, he
13900 had loved her, and watched over her from a girl, with an endeavour to
13901 improve her, and an anxiety for her doing right, which no other creature
13902 had at all shared. In spite of all her faults, she knew she was dear
13903 to him; might she not say, very dear?--When the suggestions of hope,
13904 however, which must follow here, presented themselves, she could not
13905 presume to indulge them. Harriet Smith might think herself not unworthy
13906 of being peculiarly, exclusively, passionately loved by Mr. Knightley.
13907 _She_ could not. She could not flatter herself with any idea of
13908 blindness in his attachment to _her_. She had received a very recent
13909 proof of its impartiality.--How shocked had he been by her behaviour to
13910 Miss Bates! How directly, how strongly had he expressed himself to her
13911 on the subject!--Not too strongly for the offence--but far, far too
13912 strongly to issue from any feeling softer than upright justice and
13913 clear-sighted goodwill.--She had no hope, nothing to deserve the name
13914 of hope, that he could have that sort of affection for herself which was
13915 now in question; but there was a hope (at times a slight one, at
13916 times much stronger,) that Harriet might have deceived herself, and be
13917 overrating his regard for _her_.--Wish it she must, for his sake--be the
13918 consequence nothing to herself, but his remaining single all his life.
13919 Could she be secure of that, indeed, of his never marrying at all, she
13920 believed she should be perfectly satisfied.--Let him but continue the
13921 same Mr. Knightley to her and her father, the same Mr. Knightley to
13922 all the world; let Donwell and Hartfield lose none of their precious
13923 intercourse of friendship and confidence, and her peace would be
13924 fully secured.--Marriage, in fact, would not do for her. It would be
13925 incompatible with what she owed to her father, and with what she felt
13926 for him. Nothing should separate her from her father. She would not
13927 marry, even if she were asked by Mr. Knightley.
13928
13929 It must be her ardent wish that Harriet might be disappointed; and she
13930 hoped, that when able to see them together again, she might at least
13931 be able to ascertain what the chances for it were.--She should see them
13932 henceforward with the closest observance; and wretchedly as she had
13933 hitherto misunderstood even those she was watching, she did not know how
13934 to admit that she could be blinded here.--He was expected back every
13935 day. The power of observation would be soon given--frightfully soon it
13936 appeared when her thoughts were in one course. In the meanwhile, she
13937 resolved against seeing Harriet.--It would do neither of them good,
13938 it would do the subject no good, to be talking of it farther.--She was
13939 resolved not to be convinced, as long as she could doubt, and yet had
13940 no authority for opposing Harriet’s confidence. To talk would be only to
13941 irritate.--She wrote to her, therefore, kindly, but decisively, to beg
13942 that she would not, at present, come to Hartfield; acknowledging it to
13943 be her conviction, that all farther confidential discussion of _one_
13944 topic had better be avoided; and hoping, that if a few days were allowed
13945 to pass before they met again, except in the company of others--she
13946 objected only to a tete-a-tete--they might be able to act as if they
13947 had forgotten the conversation of yesterday.--Harriet submitted, and
13948 approved, and was grateful.
13949
13950 This point was just arranged, when a visitor arrived to tear Emma’s
13951 thoughts a little from the one subject which had engrossed them,
13952 sleeping or waking, the last twenty-four hours--Mrs. Weston, who had
13953 been calling on her daughter-in-law elect, and took Hartfield in her
13954 way home, almost as much in duty to Emma as in pleasure to herself, to
13955 relate all the particulars of so interesting an interview.
13956
13957 Mr. Weston had accompanied her to Mrs. Bates’s, and gone through his
13958 share of this essential attention most handsomely; but she having then
13959 induced Miss Fairfax to join her in an airing, was now returned with
13960 much more to say, and much more to say with satisfaction, than a quarter
13961 of an hour spent in Mrs. Bates’s parlour, with all the encumbrance of
13962 awkward feelings, could have afforded.
13963
13964 A little curiosity Emma had; and she made the most of it while her
13965 friend related. Mrs. Weston had set off to pay the visit in a good deal
13966 of agitation herself; and in the first place had wished not to go at all
13967 at present, to be allowed merely to write to Miss Fairfax instead, and
13968 to defer this ceremonious call till a little time had passed, and Mr.
13969 Churchill could be reconciled to the engagement’s becoming known; as,
13970 considering every thing, she thought such a visit could not be paid
13971 without leading to reports:--but Mr. Weston had thought differently; he
13972 was extremely anxious to shew his approbation to Miss Fairfax and her
13973 family, and did not conceive that any suspicion could be excited by it;
13974 or if it were, that it would be of any consequence; for “such things,”
13975 he observed, “always got about.” Emma smiled, and felt that Mr. Weston
13976 had very good reason for saying so. They had gone, in short--and very
13977 great had been the evident distress and confusion of the lady. She had
13978 hardly been able to speak a word, and every look and action had shewn
13979 how deeply she was suffering from consciousness. The quiet, heart-felt
13980 satisfaction of the old lady, and the rapturous delight of her
13981 daughter--who proved even too joyous to talk as usual, had been a
13982 gratifying, yet almost an affecting, scene. They were both so truly
13983 respectable in their happiness, so disinterested in every sensation;
13984 thought so much of Jane; so much of every body, and so little of
13985 themselves, that every kindly feeling was at work for them. Miss
13986 Fairfax’s recent illness had offered a fair plea for Mrs. Weston to
13987 invite her to an airing; she had drawn back and declined at first, but,
13988 on being pressed had yielded; and, in the course of their drive,
13989 Mrs. Weston had, by gentle encouragement, overcome so much of her
13990 embarrassment, as to bring her to converse on the important subject.
13991 Apologies for her seemingly ungracious silence in their first reception,
13992 and the warmest expressions of the gratitude she was always feeling
13993 towards herself and Mr. Weston, must necessarily open the cause; but
13994 when these effusions were put by, they had talked a good deal of the
13995 present and of the future state of the engagement. Mrs. Weston was
13996 convinced that such conversation must be the greatest relief to her
13997 companion, pent up within her own mind as every thing had so long been,
13998 and was very much pleased with all that she had said on the subject.
13999
14000 “On the misery of what she had suffered, during the concealment of so
14001 many months,” continued Mrs. Weston, “she was energetic. This was one
14002 of her expressions. ‘I will not say, that since I entered into the
14003 engagement I have not had some happy moments; but I can say, that I have
14004 never known the blessing of one tranquil hour:’--and the quivering lip,
14005 Emma, which uttered it, was an attestation that I felt at my heart.”
14006
14007 “Poor girl!” said Emma. “She thinks herself wrong, then, for having
14008 consented to a private engagement?”
14009
14010 “Wrong! No one, I believe, can blame her more than she is disposed
14011 to blame herself. ‘The consequence,’ said she, ‘has been a state of
14012 perpetual suffering to me; and so it ought. But after all the punishment
14013 that misconduct can bring, it is still not less misconduct. Pain is no
14014 expiation. I never can be blameless. I have been acting contrary to all
14015 my sense of right; and the fortunate turn that every thing has taken,
14016 and the kindness I am now receiving, is what my conscience tells me
14017 ought not to be.’ ‘Do not imagine, madam,’ she continued, ‘that I was
14018 taught wrong. Do not let any reflection fall on the principles or the
14019 care of the friends who brought me up. The error has been all my own;
14020 and I do assure you that, with all the excuse that present circumstances
14021 may appear to give, I shall yet dread making the story known to Colonel
14022 Campbell.’”
14023
14024 “Poor girl!” said Emma again. “She loves him then excessively, I
14025 suppose. It must have been from attachment only, that she could be
14026 led to form the engagement. Her affection must have overpowered her
14027 judgment.”
14028
14029 “Yes, I have no doubt of her being extremely attached to him.”
14030
14031 “I am afraid,” returned Emma, sighing, “that I must often have
14032 contributed to make her unhappy.”
14033
14034 “On your side, my love, it was very innocently done. But she
14035 probably had something of that in her thoughts, when alluding to the
14036 misunderstandings which he had given us hints of before. One natural
14037 consequence of the evil she had involved herself in,” she said, “was
14038 that of making her _unreasonable_. The consciousness of having done
14039 amiss, had exposed her to a thousand inquietudes, and made her captious
14040 and irritable to a degree that must have been--that had been--hard for
14041 him to bear. ‘I did not make the allowances,’ said she, ‘which I ought
14042 to have done, for his temper and spirits--his delightful spirits, and
14043 that gaiety, that playfulness of disposition, which, under any other
14044 circumstances, would, I am sure, have been as constantly bewitching to
14045 me, as they were at first.’ She then began to speak of you, and of the
14046 great kindness you had shewn her during her illness; and with a blush
14047 which shewed me how it was all connected, desired me, whenever I had
14048 an opportunity, to thank you--I could not thank you too much--for every
14049 wish and every endeavour to do her good. She was sensible that you had
14050 never received any proper acknowledgment from herself.”
14051
14052 “If I did not know her to be happy now,” said Emma, seriously, “which,
14053 in spite of every little drawback from her scrupulous conscience, she
14054 must be, I could not bear these thanks;--for, oh! Mrs. Weston, if there
14055 were an account drawn up of the evil and the good I have done Miss
14056 Fairfax!--Well (checking herself, and trying to be more lively), this
14057 is all to be forgotten. You are very kind to bring me these interesting
14058 particulars. They shew her to the greatest advantage. I am sure she is
14059 very good--I hope she will be very happy. It is fit that the fortune
14060 should be on his side, for I think the merit will be all on hers.”
14061
14062 Such a conclusion could not pass unanswered by Mrs. Weston. She thought
14063 well of Frank in almost every respect; and, what was more, she loved him
14064 very much, and her defence was, therefore, earnest. She talked with a
14065 great deal of reason, and at least equal affection--but she had too much
14066 to urge for Emma’s attention; it was soon gone to Brunswick Square or
14067 to Donwell; she forgot to attempt to listen; and when Mrs. Weston ended
14068 with, “We have not yet had the letter we are so anxious for, you know,
14069 but I hope it will soon come,” she was obliged to pause before she
14070 answered, and at last obliged to answer at random, before she could at
14071 all recollect what letter it was which they were so anxious for.
14072
14073 “Are you well, my Emma?” was Mrs. Weston’s parting question.
14074
14075 “Oh! perfectly. I am always well, you know. Be sure to give me
14076 intelligence of the letter as soon as possible.”
14077
14078 Mrs. Weston’s communications furnished Emma with more food for
14079 unpleasant reflection, by increasing her esteem and compassion, and her
14080 sense of past injustice towards Miss Fairfax. She bitterly regretted
14081 not having sought a closer acquaintance with her, and blushed for the
14082 envious feelings which had certainly been, in some measure, the cause.
14083 Had she followed Mr. Knightley’s known wishes, in paying that attention
14084 to Miss Fairfax, which was every way her due; had she tried to know her
14085 better; had she done her part towards intimacy; had she endeavoured
14086 to find a friend there instead of in Harriet Smith; she must, in all
14087 probability, have been spared from every pain which pressed on her
14088 now.--Birth, abilities, and education, had been equally marking one as
14089 an associate for her, to be received with gratitude; and the other--what
14090 was she?--Supposing even that they had never become intimate friends;
14091 that she had never been admitted into Miss Fairfax’s confidence on this
14092 important matter--which was most probable--still, in knowing her as
14093 she ought, and as she might, she must have been preserved from the
14094 abominable suspicions of an improper attachment to Mr. Dixon, which she
14095 had not only so foolishly fashioned and harboured herself, but had so
14096 unpardonably imparted; an idea which she greatly feared had been made a
14097 subject of material distress to the delicacy of Jane’s feelings, by the
14098 levity or carelessness of Frank Churchill’s. Of all the sources of evil
14099 surrounding the former, since her coming to Highbury, she was persuaded
14100 that she must herself have been the worst. She must have been a
14101 perpetual enemy. They never could have been all three together, without
14102 her having stabbed Jane Fairfax’s peace in a thousand instances; and on
14103 Box Hill, perhaps, it had been the agony of a mind that would bear no
14104 more.
14105
14106 The evening of this day was very long, and melancholy, at Hartfield.
14107 The weather added what it could of gloom. A cold stormy rain set in, and
14108 nothing of July appeared but in the trees and shrubs, which the wind was
14109 despoiling, and the length of the day, which only made such cruel sights
14110 the longer visible.
14111
14112 The weather affected Mr. Woodhouse, and he could only be kept tolerably
14113 comfortable by almost ceaseless attention on his daughter’s side, and by
14114 exertions which had never cost her half so much before. It reminded
14115 her of their first forlorn tete-a-tete, on the evening of Mrs. Weston’s
14116 wedding-day; but Mr. Knightley had walked in then, soon after tea,
14117 and dissipated every melancholy fancy. Alas! such delightful proofs of
14118 Hartfield’s attraction, as those sort of visits conveyed, might shortly
14119 be over. The picture which she had then drawn of the privations of the
14120 approaching winter, had proved erroneous; no friends had deserted them,
14121 no pleasures had been lost.--But her present forebodings she feared
14122 would experience no similar contradiction. The prospect before her now,
14123 was threatening to a degree that could not be entirely dispelled--that
14124 might not be even partially brightened. If all took place that
14125 might take place among the circle of her friends, Hartfield must be
14126 comparatively deserted; and she left to cheer her father with the
14127 spirits only of ruined happiness.
14128
14129 The child to be born at Randalls must be a tie there even dearer than
14130 herself; and Mrs. Weston’s heart and time would be occupied by it.
14131 They should lose her; and, probably, in great measure, her husband
14132 also.--Frank Churchill would return among them no more; and Miss
14133 Fairfax, it was reasonable to suppose, would soon cease to belong to
14134 Highbury. They would be married, and settled either at or near Enscombe.
14135 All that were good would be withdrawn; and if to these losses, the
14136 loss of Donwell were to be added, what would remain of cheerful or
14137 of rational society within their reach? Mr. Knightley to be no longer
14138 coming there for his evening comfort!--No longer walking in at all
14139 hours, as if ever willing to change his own home for their’s!--How was
14140 it to be endured? And if he were to be lost to them for Harriet’s sake;
14141 if he were to be thought of hereafter, as finding in Harriet’s society
14142 all that he wanted; if Harriet were to be the chosen, the first,
14143 the dearest, the friend, the wife to whom he looked for all the best
14144 blessings of existence; what could be increasing Emma’s wretchedness but
14145 the reflection never far distant from her mind, that it had been all her
14146 own work?
14147
14148 When it came to such a pitch as this, she was not able to refrain from
14149 a start, or a heavy sigh, or even from walking about the room for a
14150 few seconds--and the only source whence any thing like consolation
14151 or composure could be drawn, was in the resolution of her own better
14152 conduct, and the hope that, however inferior in spirit and gaiety might
14153 be the following and every future winter of her life to the past, it
14154 would yet find her more rational, more acquainted with herself, and
14155 leave her less to regret when it were gone.
14156
14157
14158
14159 CHAPTER XIII
14160
14161
14162 The weather continued much the same all the following morning; and
14163 the same loneliness, and the same melancholy, seemed to reign at
14164 Hartfield--but in the afternoon it cleared; the wind changed into a
14165 softer quarter; the clouds were carried off; the sun appeared; it was
14166 summer again. With all the eagerness which such a transition gives, Emma
14167 resolved to be out of doors as soon as possible. Never had the exquisite
14168 sight, smell, sensation of nature, tranquil, warm, and brilliant after
14169 a storm, been more attractive to her. She longed for the serenity they
14170 might gradually introduce; and on Mr. Perry’s coming in soon after
14171 dinner, with a disengaged hour to give her father, she lost no time
14172 in hurrying into the shrubbery.--There, with spirits freshened, and
14173 thoughts a little relieved, she had taken a few turns, when she saw Mr.
14174 Knightley passing through the garden door, and coming towards her.--It
14175 was the first intimation of his being returned from London. She had
14176 been thinking of him the moment before, as unquestionably sixteen miles
14177 distant.--There was time only for the quickest arrangement of mind. She
14178 must be collected and calm. In half a minute they were together. The
14179 “How d’ye do’s” were quiet and constrained on each side. She asked after
14180 their mutual friends; they were all well.--When had he left them?--Only
14181 that morning. He must have had a wet ride.--Yes.--He meant to walk with
14182 her, she found. “He had just looked into the dining-room, and as he was
14183 not wanted there, preferred being out of doors.”--She thought he neither
14184 looked nor spoke cheerfully; and the first possible cause for it,
14185 suggested by her fears, was, that he had perhaps been communicating his
14186 plans to his brother, and was pained by the manner in which they had
14187 been received.
14188
14189 They walked together. He was silent. She thought he was often looking
14190 at her, and trying for a fuller view of her face than it suited her to
14191 give. And this belief produced another dread. Perhaps he wanted to
14192 speak to her, of his attachment to Harriet; he might be watching for
14193 encouragement to begin.--She did not, could not, feel equal to lead the
14194 way to any such subject. He must do it all himself. Yet she could
14195 not bear this silence. With him it was most unnatural. She
14196 considered--resolved--and, trying to smile, began--
14197
14198 “You have some news to hear, now you are come back, that will rather
14199 surprize you.”
14200
14201 “Have I?” said he quietly, and looking at her; “of what nature?”
14202
14203 “Oh! the best nature in the world--a wedding.”
14204
14205 After waiting a moment, as if to be sure she intended to say no more, he
14206 replied,
14207
14208 “If you mean Miss Fairfax and Frank Churchill, I have heard that
14209 already.”
14210
14211 “How is it possible?” cried Emma, turning her glowing cheeks towards
14212 him; for, while she spoke, it occurred to her that he might have called
14213 at Mrs. Goddard’s in his way.
14214
14215 “I had a few lines on parish business from Mr. Weston this morning, and
14216 at the end of them he gave me a brief account of what had happened.”
14217
14218 Emma was quite relieved, and could presently say, with a little more
14219 composure,
14220
14221 “_You_ probably have been less surprized than any of us, for you have
14222 had your suspicions.--I have not forgotten that you once tried to give
14223 me a caution.--I wish I had attended to it--but--(with a sinking voice
14224 and a heavy sigh) I seem to have been doomed to blindness.”
14225
14226 For a moment or two nothing was said, and she was unsuspicious of having
14227 excited any particular interest, till she found her arm drawn within
14228 his, and pressed against his heart, and heard him thus saying, in a tone
14229 of great sensibility, speaking low,
14230
14231 “Time, my dearest Emma, time will heal the wound.--Your own excellent
14232 sense--your exertions for your father’s sake--I know you will not allow
14233 yourself--.” Her arm was pressed again, as he added, in a more
14234 broken and subdued accent, “The feelings of the warmest
14235 friendship--Indignation--Abominable scoundrel!”--And in a louder,
14236 steadier tone, he concluded with, “He will soon be gone. They will soon
14237 be in Yorkshire. I am sorry for _her_. She deserves a better fate.”
14238
14239 Emma understood him; and as soon as she could recover from the flutter
14240 of pleasure, excited by such tender consideration, replied,
14241
14242 “You are very kind--but you are mistaken--and I must set you right.--
14243 I am not in want of that sort of compassion. My blindness to what was
14244 going on, led me to act by them in a way that I must always be ashamed
14245 of, and I was very foolishly tempted to say and do many things which may
14246 well lay me open to unpleasant conjectures, but I have no other reason
14247 to regret that I was not in the secret earlier.”
14248
14249 “Emma!” cried he, looking eagerly at her, “are you, indeed?”--but
14250 checking himself--“No, no, I understand you--forgive me--I am pleased
14251 that you can say even so much.--He is no object of regret, indeed! and
14252 it will not be very long, I hope, before that becomes the acknowledgment
14253 of more than your reason.--Fortunate that your affections were not
14254 farther entangled!--I could never, I confess, from your manners, assure
14255 myself as to the degree of what you felt--I could only be certain that
14256 there was a preference--and a preference which I never believed him to
14257 deserve.--He is a disgrace to the name of man.--And is he to be rewarded
14258 with that sweet young woman?--Jane, Jane, you will be a miserable
14259 creature.”
14260
14261 “Mr. Knightley,” said Emma, trying to be lively, but really confused--“I
14262 am in a very extraordinary situation. I cannot let you continue in your
14263 error; and yet, perhaps, since my manners gave such an impression, I
14264 have as much reason to be ashamed of confessing that I never have been
14265 at all attached to the person we are speaking of, as it might be natural
14266 for a woman to feel in confessing exactly the reverse.--But I never
14267 have.”
14268
14269 He listened in perfect silence. She wished him to speak, but he would
14270 not. She supposed she must say more before she were entitled to his
14271 clemency; but it was a hard case to be obliged still to lower herself in
14272 his opinion. She went on, however.
14273
14274 “I have very little to say for my own conduct.--I was tempted by his
14275 attentions, and allowed myself to appear pleased.--An old story,
14276 probably--a common case--and no more than has happened to hundreds of my
14277 sex before; and yet it may not be the more excusable in one who sets up
14278 as I do for Understanding. Many circumstances assisted the temptation.
14279 He was the son of Mr. Weston--he was continually here--I always found
14280 him very pleasant--and, in short, for (with a sigh) let me swell out the
14281 causes ever so ingeniously, they all centre in this at last--my vanity
14282 was flattered, and I allowed his attentions. Latterly, however--for some
14283 time, indeed--I have had no idea of their meaning any thing.--I thought
14284 them a habit, a trick, nothing that called for seriousness on my side.
14285 He has imposed on me, but he has not injured me. I have never been
14286 attached to him. And now I can tolerably comprehend his behaviour. He
14287 never wished to attach me. It was merely a blind to conceal his real
14288 situation with another.--It was his object to blind all about him; and
14289 no one, I am sure, could be more effectually blinded than myself--except
14290 that I was _not_ blinded--that it was my good fortune--that, in short, I
14291 was somehow or other safe from him.”
14292
14293 She had hoped for an answer here--for a few words to say that her
14294 conduct was at least intelligible; but he was silent; and, as far as she
14295 could judge, deep in thought. At last, and tolerably in his usual tone,
14296 he said,
14297
14298 “I have never had a high opinion of Frank Churchill.--I can suppose,
14299 however, that I may have underrated him. My acquaintance with him has
14300 been but trifling.--And even if I have not underrated him hitherto, he
14301 may yet turn out well.--With such a woman he has a chance.--I have no
14302 motive for wishing him ill--and for her sake, whose happiness will be
14303 involved in his good character and conduct, I shall certainly wish him
14304 well.”
14305
14306 “I have no doubt of their being happy together,” said Emma; “I believe
14307 them to be very mutually and very sincerely attached.”
14308
14309 “He is a most fortunate man!” returned Mr. Knightley, with energy. “So
14310 early in life--at three-and-twenty--a period when, if a man chuses a
14311 wife, he generally chuses ill. At three-and-twenty to have drawn such
14312 a prize! What years of felicity that man, in all human calculation,
14313 has before him!--Assured of the love of such a woman--the disinterested
14314 love, for Jane Fairfax’s character vouches for her disinterestedness;
14315 every thing in his favour,--equality of situation--I mean, as far as
14316 regards society, and all the habits and manners that are important;
14317 equality in every point but one--and that one, since the purity of her
14318 heart is not to be doubted, such as must increase his felicity, for it
14319 will be his to bestow the only advantages she wants.--A man would always
14320 wish to give a woman a better home than the one he takes her from;
14321 and he who can do it, where there is no doubt of _her_ regard, must,
14322 I think, be the happiest of mortals.--Frank Churchill is, indeed, the
14323 favourite of fortune. Every thing turns out for his good.--He meets
14324 with a young woman at a watering-place, gains her affection, cannot even
14325 weary her by negligent treatment--and had he and all his family sought
14326 round the world for a perfect wife for him, they could not have found
14327 her superior.--His aunt is in the way.--His aunt dies.--He has only to
14328 speak.--His friends are eager to promote his happiness.--He had used
14329 every body ill--and they are all delighted to forgive him.--He is a
14330 fortunate man indeed!”
14331
14332 “You speak as if you envied him.”
14333
14334 “And I do envy him, Emma. In one respect he is the object of my envy.”
14335
14336 Emma could say no more. They seemed to be within half a sentence
14337 of Harriet, and her immediate feeling was to avert the subject, if
14338 possible. She made her plan; she would speak of something totally
14339 different--the children in Brunswick Square; and she only waited for
14340 breath to begin, when Mr. Knightley startled her, by saying,
14341
14342 “You will not ask me what is the point of envy.--You are determined, I
14343 see, to have no curiosity.--You are wise--but _I_ cannot be wise. Emma,
14344 I must tell you what you will not ask, though I may wish it unsaid the
14345 next moment.”
14346
14347 “Oh! then, don’t speak it, don’t speak it,” she eagerly cried. “Take a
14348 little time, consider, do not commit yourself.”
14349
14350 “Thank you,” said he, in an accent of deep mortification, and not
14351 another syllable followed.
14352
14353 Emma could not bear to give him pain. He was wishing to confide in
14354 her--perhaps to consult her;--cost her what it would, she would listen.
14355 She might assist his resolution, or reconcile him to it; she might give
14356 just praise to Harriet, or, by representing to him his own independence,
14357 relieve him from that state of indecision, which must be more
14358 intolerable than any alternative to such a mind as his.--They had
14359 reached the house.
14360
14361 “You are going in, I suppose?” said he.
14362
14363 “No,”--replied Emma--quite confirmed by the depressed manner in which
14364 he still spoke--“I should like to take another turn. Mr. Perry is not
14365 gone.” And, after proceeding a few steps, she added--“I stopped you
14366 ungraciously, just now, Mr. Knightley, and, I am afraid, gave you
14367 pain.--But if you have any wish to speak openly to me as a friend, or
14368 to ask my opinion of any thing that you may have in contemplation--as
14369 a friend, indeed, you may command me.--I will hear whatever you like. I
14370 will tell you exactly what I think.”
14371
14372 “As a friend!”--repeated Mr. Knightley.--“Emma, that I fear is a
14373 word--No, I have no wish--Stay, yes, why should I hesitate?--I
14374 have gone too far already for concealment.--Emma, I accept your
14375 offer--Extraordinary as it may seem, I accept it, and refer myself to
14376 you as a friend.--Tell me, then, have I no chance of ever succeeding?”
14377
14378 He stopped in his earnestness to look the question, and the expression
14379 of his eyes overpowered her.
14380
14381 “My dearest Emma,” said he, “for dearest you will always be, whatever
14382 the event of this hour’s conversation, my dearest, most beloved
14383 Emma--tell me at once. Say ‘No,’ if it is to be said.”--She could
14384 really say nothing.--“You are silent,” he cried, with great animation;
14385 “absolutely silent! at present I ask no more.”
14386
14387 Emma was almost ready to sink under the agitation of this moment. The
14388 dread of being awakened from the happiest dream, was perhaps the most
14389 prominent feeling.
14390
14391 “I cannot make speeches, Emma:” he soon resumed; and in a tone of
14392 such sincere, decided, intelligible tenderness as was tolerably
14393 convincing.--“If I loved you less, I might be able to talk about it
14394 more. But you know what I am.--You hear nothing but truth from me.--I
14395 have blamed you, and lectured you, and you have borne it as no other
14396 woman in England would have borne it.--Bear with the truths I would
14397 tell you now, dearest Emma, as well as you have borne with them. The
14398 manner, perhaps, may have as little to recommend them. God knows, I have
14399 been a very indifferent lover.--But you understand me.--Yes, you see,
14400 you understand my feelings--and will return them if you can. At present,
14401 I ask only to hear, once to hear your voice.”
14402
14403 While he spoke, Emma’s mind was most busy, and, with all the wonderful
14404 velocity of thought, had been able--and yet without losing a word--to
14405 catch and comprehend the exact truth of the whole; to see that Harriet’s
14406 hopes had been entirely groundless, a mistake, a delusion, as complete a
14407 delusion as any of her own--that Harriet was nothing; that she was every
14408 thing herself; that what she had been saying relative to Harriet
14409 had been all taken as the language of her own feelings; and that her
14410 agitation, her doubts, her reluctance, her discouragement, had been all
14411 received as discouragement from herself.--And not only was there time
14412 for these convictions, with all their glow of attendant happiness; there
14413 was time also to rejoice that Harriet’s secret had not escaped her, and
14414 to resolve that it need not, and should not.--It was all the service
14415 she could now render her poor friend; for as to any of that heroism of
14416 sentiment which might have prompted her to entreat him to transfer his
14417 affection from herself to Harriet, as infinitely the most worthy of the
14418 two--or even the more simple sublimity of resolving to refuse him at
14419 once and for ever, without vouchsafing any motive, because he could not
14420 marry them both, Emma had it not. She felt for Harriet, with pain and
14421 with contrition; but no flight of generosity run mad, opposing all that
14422 could be probable or reasonable, entered her brain. She had led her
14423 friend astray, and it would be a reproach to her for ever; but her
14424 judgment was as strong as her feelings, and as strong as it had ever
14425 been before, in reprobating any such alliance for him, as most unequal
14426 and degrading. Her way was clear, though not quite smooth.--She spoke
14427 then, on being so entreated.--What did she say?--Just what she ought,
14428 of course. A lady always does.--She said enough to shew there need not
14429 be despair--and to invite him to say more himself. He _had_ despaired at
14430 one period; he had received such an injunction to caution and silence,
14431 as for the time crushed every hope;--she had begun by refusing to hear
14432 him.--The change had perhaps been somewhat sudden;--her proposal of
14433 taking another turn, her renewing the conversation which she had
14434 just put an end to, might be a little extraordinary!--She felt its
14435 inconsistency; but Mr. Knightley was so obliging as to put up with it,
14436 and seek no farther explanation.
14437
14438 Seldom, very seldom, does complete truth belong to any human disclosure;
14439 seldom can it happen that something is not a little disguised, or a
14440 little mistaken; but where, as in this case, though the conduct is
14441 mistaken, the feelings are not, it may not be very material.--Mr.
14442 Knightley could not impute to Emma a more relenting heart than she
14443 possessed, or a heart more disposed to accept of his.
14444
14445 He had, in fact, been wholly unsuspicious of his own influence. He had
14446 followed her into the shrubbery with no idea of trying it. He had come,
14447 in his anxiety to see how she bore Frank Churchill’s engagement, with no
14448 selfish view, no view at all, but of endeavouring, if she allowed him an
14449 opening, to soothe or to counsel her.--The rest had been the work of
14450 the moment, the immediate effect of what he heard, on his feelings. The
14451 delightful assurance of her total indifference towards Frank Churchill,
14452 of her having a heart completely disengaged from him, had given birth
14453 to the hope, that, in time, he might gain her affection himself;--but
14454 it had been no present hope--he had only, in the momentary conquest of
14455 eagerness over judgment, aspired to be told that she did not forbid his
14456 attempt to attach her.--The superior hopes which gradually opened were
14457 so much the more enchanting.--The affection, which he had been asking
14458 to be allowed to create, if he could, was already his!--Within half
14459 an hour, he had passed from a thoroughly distressed state of mind, to
14460 something so like perfect happiness, that it could bear no other name.
14461
14462 _Her_ change was equal.--This one half-hour had given to each the same
14463 precious certainty of being beloved, had cleared from each the same
14464 degree of ignorance, jealousy, or distrust.--On his side, there had been
14465 a long-standing jealousy, old as the arrival, or even the expectation,
14466 of Frank Churchill.--He had been in love with Emma, and jealous of Frank
14467 Churchill, from about the same period, one sentiment having probably
14468 enlightened him as to the other. It was his jealousy of Frank Churchill
14469 that had taken him from the country.--The Box Hill party had decided
14470 him on going away. He would save himself from witnessing again
14471 such permitted, encouraged attentions.--He had gone to learn to be
14472 indifferent.--But he had gone to a wrong place. There was too much
14473 domestic happiness in his brother’s house; woman wore too amiable a form
14474 in it; Isabella was too much like Emma--differing only in those striking
14475 inferiorities, which always brought the other in brilliancy before
14476 him, for much to have been done, even had his time been longer.--He had
14477 stayed on, however, vigorously, day after day--till this very morning’s
14478 post had conveyed the history of Jane Fairfax.--Then, with the gladness
14479 which must be felt, nay, which he did not scruple to feel, having never
14480 believed Frank Churchill to be at all deserving Emma, was there so much
14481 fond solicitude, so much keen anxiety for her, that he could stay no
14482 longer. He had ridden home through the rain; and had walked up directly
14483 after dinner, to see how this sweetest and best of all creatures,
14484 faultless in spite of all her faults, bore the discovery.
14485
14486 He had found her agitated and low.--Frank Churchill was a villain.--
14487 He heard her declare that she had never loved him. Frank Churchill’s
14488 character was not desperate.--She was his own Emma, by hand and word,
14489 when they returned into the house; and if he could have thought of Frank
14490 Churchill then, he might have deemed him a very good sort of fellow.
14491
14492
14493
14494 CHAPTER XIV
14495
14496
14497 What totally different feelings did Emma take back into the house from
14498 what she had brought out!--she had then been only daring to hope for
14499 a little respite of suffering;--she was now in an exquisite flutter of
14500 happiness, and such happiness moreover as she believed must still be
14501 greater when the flutter should have passed away.
14502
14503 They sat down to tea--the same party round the same table--how often
14504 it had been collected!--and how often had her eyes fallen on the same
14505 shrubs in the lawn, and observed the same beautiful effect of the
14506 western sun!--But never in such a state of spirits, never in any thing
14507 like it; and it was with difficulty that she could summon enough of her
14508 usual self to be the attentive lady of the house, or even the attentive
14509 daughter.
14510
14511 Poor Mr. Woodhouse little suspected what was plotting against him in the
14512 breast of that man whom he was so cordially welcoming, and so anxiously
14513 hoping might not have taken cold from his ride.--Could he have seen the
14514 heart, he would have cared very little for the lungs; but without the
14515 most distant imagination of the impending evil, without the slightest
14516 perception of any thing extraordinary in the looks or ways of either,
14517 he repeated to them very comfortably all the articles of news he had
14518 received from Mr. Perry, and talked on with much self-contentment,
14519 totally unsuspicious of what they could have told him in return.
14520
14521 As long as Mr. Knightley remained with them, Emma’s fever continued;
14522 but when he was gone, she began to be a little tranquillised and
14523 subdued--and in the course of the sleepless night, which was the tax
14524 for such an evening, she found one or two such very serious points
14525 to consider, as made her feel, that even her happiness must have some
14526 alloy. Her father--and Harriet. She could not be alone without feeling
14527 the full weight of their separate claims; and how to guard the comfort
14528 of both to the utmost, was the question. With respect to her father,
14529 it was a question soon answered. She hardly knew yet what Mr. Knightley
14530 would ask; but a very short parley with her own heart produced the most
14531 solemn resolution of never quitting her father.--She even wept over
14532 the idea of it, as a sin of thought. While he lived, it must be only an
14533 engagement; but she flattered herself, that if divested of the danger of
14534 drawing her away, it might become an increase of comfort to him.--How
14535 to do her best by Harriet, was of more difficult decision;--how to spare
14536 her from any unnecessary pain; how to make her any possible atonement;
14537 how to appear least her enemy?--On these subjects, her perplexity
14538 and distress were very great--and her mind had to pass again and
14539 again through every bitter reproach and sorrowful regret that had ever
14540 surrounded it.--She could only resolve at last, that she would still
14541 avoid a meeting with her, and communicate all that need be told by
14542 letter; that it would be inexpressibly desirable to have her removed
14543 just now for a time from Highbury, and--indulging in one scheme
14544 more--nearly resolve, that it might be practicable to get an invitation
14545 for her to Brunswick Square.--Isabella had been pleased with Harriet;
14546 and a few weeks spent in London must give her some amusement.--She did
14547 not think it in Harriet’s nature to escape being benefited by novelty
14548 and variety, by the streets, the shops, and the children.--At any rate,
14549 it would be a proof of attention and kindness in herself, from whom
14550 every thing was due; a separation for the present; an averting of the
14551 evil day, when they must all be together again.
14552
14553 She rose early, and wrote her letter to Harriet; an employment which
14554 left her so very serious, so nearly sad, that Mr. Knightley, in walking
14555 up to Hartfield to breakfast, did not arrive at all too soon; and half
14556 an hour stolen afterwards to go over the same ground again with him,
14557 literally and figuratively, was quite necessary to reinstate her in a
14558 proper share of the happiness of the evening before.
14559
14560 He had not left her long, by no means long enough for her to have the
14561 slightest inclination for thinking of any body else, when a letter was
14562 brought her from Randalls--a very thick letter;--she guessed what it
14563 must contain, and deprecated the necessity of reading it.--She was now
14564 in perfect charity with Frank Churchill; she wanted no explanations, she
14565 wanted only to have her thoughts to herself--and as for understanding
14566 any thing he wrote, she was sure she was incapable of it.--It must be
14567 waded through, however. She opened the packet; it was too surely so;--a
14568 note from Mrs. Weston to herself, ushered in the letter from Frank to
14569 Mrs. Weston.
14570
14571 “I have the greatest pleasure, my dear Emma, in forwarding to you the
14572 enclosed. I know what thorough justice you will do it, and have scarcely
14573 a doubt of its happy effect.--I think we shall never materially disagree
14574 about the writer again; but I will not delay you by a long preface.--We
14575 are quite well.--This letter has been the cure of all the little
14576 nervousness I have been feeling lately.--I did not quite like your looks
14577 on Tuesday, but it was an ungenial morning; and though you will never
14578 own being affected by weather, I think every body feels a north-east
14579 wind.--I felt for your dear father very much in the storm of Tuesday
14580 afternoon and yesterday morning, but had the comfort of hearing last
14581 night, by Mr. Perry, that it had not made him ill.
14582
14583 “Yours ever,
14584 “A. W.”
14585
14586 [To Mrs. Weston.]
14587
14588
14589 WINDSOR-JULY.
14590 MY DEAR MADAM,
14591
14592 “If I made myself intelligible yesterday, this letter will be
14593 expected; but expected or not, I know it will be read with candour and
14594 indulgence.--You are all goodness, and I believe there will be need of
14595 even all your goodness to allow for some parts of my past conduct.--But
14596 I have been forgiven by one who had still more to resent. My courage
14597 rises while I write. It is very difficult for the prosperous to be
14598 humble. I have already met with such success in two applications for
14599 pardon, that I may be in danger of thinking myself too sure of yours,
14600 and of those among your friends who have had any ground of offence.--You
14601 must all endeavour to comprehend the exact nature of my situation when I
14602 first arrived at Randalls; you must consider me as having a secret which
14603 was to be kept at all hazards. This was the fact. My right to place
14604 myself in a situation requiring such concealment, is another question.
14605 I shall not discuss it here. For my temptation to _think_ it a right,
14606 I refer every caviller to a brick house, sashed windows below, and
14607 casements above, in Highbury. I dared not address her openly; my
14608 difficulties in the then state of Enscombe must be too well known to
14609 require definition; and I was fortunate enough to prevail, before we
14610 parted at Weymouth, and to induce the most upright female mind in the
14611 creation to stoop in charity to a secret engagement.--Had she refused, I
14612 should have gone mad.--But you will be ready to say, what was your
14613 hope in doing this?--What did you look forward to?--To any thing, every
14614 thing--to time, chance, circumstance, slow effects, sudden bursts,
14615 perseverance and weariness, health and sickness. Every possibility of
14616 good was before me, and the first of blessings secured, in obtaining her
14617 promises of faith and correspondence. If you need farther explanation,
14618 I have the honour, my dear madam, of being your husband’s son, and
14619 the advantage of inheriting a disposition to hope for good, which no
14620 inheritance of houses or lands can ever equal the value of.--See
14621 me, then, under these circumstances, arriving on my first visit to
14622 Randalls;--and here I am conscious of wrong, for that visit might have
14623 been sooner paid. You will look back and see that I did not come till
14624 Miss Fairfax was in Highbury; and as _you_ were the person slighted, you
14625 will forgive me instantly; but I must work on my father’s compassion, by
14626 reminding him, that so long as I absented myself from his house, so long
14627 I lost the blessing of knowing you. My behaviour, during the very
14628 happy fortnight which I spent with you, did not, I hope, lay me open to
14629 reprehension, excepting on one point. And now I come to the principal,
14630 the only important part of my conduct while belonging to you, which
14631 excites my own anxiety, or requires very solicitous explanation. With
14632 the greatest respect, and the warmest friendship, do I mention Miss
14633 Woodhouse; my father perhaps will think I ought to add, with the deepest
14634 humiliation.--A few words which dropped from him yesterday spoke his
14635 opinion, and some censure I acknowledge myself liable to.--My behaviour
14636 to Miss Woodhouse indicated, I believe, more than it ought.--In order to
14637 assist a concealment so essential to me, I was led on to make more than
14638 an allowable use of the sort of intimacy into which we were immediately
14639 thrown.--I cannot deny that Miss Woodhouse was my ostensible object--but
14640 I am sure you will believe the declaration, that had I not been
14641 convinced of her indifference, I would not have been induced by any
14642 selfish views to go on.--Amiable and delightful as Miss Woodhouse is,
14643 she never gave me the idea of a young woman likely to be attached; and
14644 that she was perfectly free from any tendency to being attached to me,
14645 was as much my conviction as my wish.--She received my attentions with
14646 an easy, friendly, goodhumoured playfulness, which exactly suited me.
14647 We seemed to understand each other. From our relative situation, those
14648 attentions were her due, and were felt to be so.--Whether Miss Woodhouse
14649 began really to understand me before the expiration of that fortnight,
14650 I cannot say;--when I called to take leave of her, I remember that I was
14651 within a moment of confessing the truth, and I then fancied she was not
14652 without suspicion; but I have no doubt of her having since detected me,
14653 at least in some degree.--She may not have surmised the whole, but her
14654 quickness must have penetrated a part. I cannot doubt it. You will find,
14655 whenever the subject becomes freed from its present restraints, that it
14656 did not take her wholly by surprize. She frequently gave me hints of it.
14657 I remember her telling me at the ball, that I owed Mrs. Elton gratitude
14658 for her attentions to Miss Fairfax.--I hope this history of my conduct
14659 towards her will be admitted by you and my father as great extenuation
14660 of what you saw amiss. While you considered me as having sinned against
14661 Emma Woodhouse, I could deserve nothing from either. Acquit me here, and
14662 procure for me, when it is allowable, the acquittal and good wishes
14663 of that said Emma Woodhouse, whom I regard with so much brotherly
14664 affection, as to long to have her as deeply and as happily in love as
14665 myself.--Whatever strange things I said or did during that fortnight,
14666 you have now a key to. My heart was in Highbury, and my business was to
14667 get my body thither as often as might be, and with the least suspicion.
14668 If you remember any queernesses, set them all to the right account.--Of
14669 the pianoforte so much talked of, I feel it only necessary to say, that
14670 its being ordered was absolutely unknown to Miss F--, who would never
14671 have allowed me to send it, had any choice been given her.--The
14672 delicacy of her mind throughout the whole engagement, my dear madam,
14673 is much beyond my power of doing justice to. You will soon, I earnestly
14674 hope, know her thoroughly yourself.--No description can describe her.
14675 She must tell you herself what she is--yet not by word, for never
14676 was there a human creature who would so designedly suppress her own
14677 merit.--Since I began this letter, which will be longer than I foresaw,
14678 I have heard from her.--She gives a good account of her own health; but
14679 as she never complains, I dare not depend. I want to have your opinion
14680 of her looks. I know you will soon call on her; she is living in dread
14681 of the visit. Perhaps it is paid already. Let me hear from you without
14682 delay; I am impatient for a thousand particulars. Remember how few
14683 minutes I was at Randalls, and in how bewildered, how mad a state: and
14684 I am not much better yet; still insane either from happiness or
14685 misery. When I think of the kindness and favour I have met with, of her
14686 excellence and patience, and my uncle’s generosity, I am mad with joy:
14687 but when I recollect all the uneasiness I occasioned her, and how little
14688 I deserve to be forgiven, I am mad with anger. If I could but see her
14689 again!--But I must not propose it yet. My uncle has been too good for me
14690 to encroach.--I must still add to this long letter. You have not heard
14691 all that you ought to hear. I could not give any connected detail
14692 yesterday; but the suddenness, and, in one light, the unseasonableness
14693 with which the affair burst out, needs explanation; for though the event
14694 of the 26th ult., as you will conclude, immediately opened to me the
14695 happiest prospects, I should not have presumed on such early measures,
14696 but from the very particular circumstances, which left me not an hour to
14697 lose. I should myself have shrunk from any thing so hasty, and she
14698 would have felt every scruple of mine with multiplied strength and
14699 refinement.--But I had no choice. The hasty engagement she had entered
14700 into with that woman--Here, my dear madam, I was obliged to leave off
14701 abruptly, to recollect and compose myself.--I have been walking over
14702 the country, and am now, I hope, rational enough to make the rest of
14703 my letter what it ought to be.--It is, in fact, a most mortifying
14704 retrospect for me. I behaved shamefully. And here I can admit, that
14705 my manners to Miss W., in being unpleasant to Miss F., were highly
14706 blameable. _She_ disapproved them, which ought to have been enough.--My
14707 plea of concealing the truth she did not think sufficient.--She was
14708 displeased; I thought unreasonably so: I thought her, on a thousand
14709 occasions, unnecessarily scrupulous and cautious: I thought her even
14710 cold. But she was always right. If I had followed her judgment, and
14711 subdued my spirits to the level of what she deemed proper, I should have
14712 escaped the greatest unhappiness I have ever known.--We quarrelled.--
14713 Do you remember the morning spent at Donwell?--_There_ every little
14714 dissatisfaction that had occurred before came to a crisis. I was late;
14715 I met her walking home by herself, and wanted to walk with her, but she
14716 would not suffer it. She absolutely refused to allow me, which I then
14717 thought most unreasonable. Now, however, I see nothing in it but a very
14718 natural and consistent degree of discretion. While I, to blind the
14719 world to our engagement, was behaving one hour with objectionable
14720 particularity to another woman, was she to be consenting the next to a
14721 proposal which might have made every previous caution useless?--Had we
14722 been met walking together between Donwell and Highbury, the truth must
14723 have been suspected.--I was mad enough, however, to resent.--I doubted
14724 her affection. I doubted it more the next day on Box Hill; when,
14725 provoked by such conduct on my side, such shameful, insolent neglect
14726 of her, and such apparent devotion to Miss W., as it would have been
14727 impossible for any woman of sense to endure, she spoke her resentment in
14728 a form of words perfectly intelligible to me.--In short, my dear
14729 madam, it was a quarrel blameless on her side, abominable on mine; and
14730 I returned the same evening to Richmond, though I might have staid with
14731 you till the next morning, merely because I would be as angry with
14732 her as possible. Even then, I was not such a fool as not to mean to
14733 be reconciled in time; but I was the injured person, injured by her
14734 coldness, and I went away determined that she should make the first
14735 advances.--I shall always congratulate myself that you were not of
14736 the Box Hill party. Had you witnessed my behaviour there, I can hardly
14737 suppose you would ever have thought well of me again. Its effect upon
14738 her appears in the immediate resolution it produced: as soon as she
14739 found I was really gone from Randalls, she closed with the offer of that
14740 officious Mrs. Elton; the whole system of whose treatment of her, by the
14741 bye, has ever filled me with indignation and hatred. I must not quarrel
14742 with a spirit of forbearance which has been so richly extended towards
14743 myself; but, otherwise, I should loudly protest against the share of it
14744 which that woman has known.--‘Jane,’ indeed!--You will observe that I
14745 have not yet indulged myself in calling her by that name, even to you.
14746 Think, then, what I must have endured in hearing it bandied between
14747 the Eltons with all the vulgarity of needless repetition, and all the
14748 insolence of imaginary superiority. Have patience with me, I shall soon
14749 have done.--She closed with this offer, resolving to break with me
14750 entirely, and wrote the next day to tell me that we never were to meet
14751 again.--_She_ _felt_ _the_ _engagement_ _to_ _be_ _a_ _source_ _of_
14752 _repentance_ _and_ _misery_ _to_ _each_: _she_ _dissolved_ _it_.--This
14753 letter reached me on the very morning of my poor aunt’s death. I
14754 answered it within an hour; but from the confusion of my mind, and the
14755 multiplicity of business falling on me at once, my answer, instead of
14756 being sent with all the many other letters of that day, was locked up in
14757 my writing-desk; and I, trusting that I had written enough, though but
14758 a few lines, to satisfy her, remained without any uneasiness.--I was
14759 rather disappointed that I did not hear from her again speedily; but I
14760 made excuses for her, and was too busy, and--may I add?--too cheerful
14761 in my views to be captious.--We removed to Windsor; and two
14762 days afterwards I received a parcel from her, my own letters all
14763 returned!--and a few lines at the same time by the post, stating her
14764 extreme surprize at not having had the smallest reply to her last; and
14765 adding, that as silence on such a point could not be misconstrued,
14766 and as it must be equally desirable to both to have every subordinate
14767 arrangement concluded as soon as possible, she now sent me, by a safe
14768 conveyance, all my letters, and requested, that if I could not directly
14769 command hers, so as to send them to Highbury within a week, I would
14770 forward them after that period to her at--: in short, the full direction
14771 to Mr. Smallridge’s, near Bristol, stared me in the face. I knew the
14772 name, the place, I knew all about it, and instantly saw what she had
14773 been doing. It was perfectly accordant with that resolution of character
14774 which I knew her to possess; and the secrecy she had maintained, as to
14775 any such design in her former letter, was equally descriptive of its
14776 anxious delicacy. For the world would not she have seemed to threaten
14777 me.--Imagine the shock; imagine how, till I had actually detected my
14778 own blunder, I raved at the blunders of the post.--What was to be
14779 done?--One thing only.--I must speak to my uncle. Without his sanction I
14780 could not hope to be listened to again.--I spoke; circumstances were
14781 in my favour; the late event had softened away his pride, and he was,
14782 earlier than I could have anticipated, wholly reconciled and complying;
14783 and could say at last, poor man! with a deep sigh, that he wished I
14784 might find as much happiness in the marriage state as he had done.--I
14785 felt that it would be of a different sort.--Are you disposed to pity
14786 me for what I must have suffered in opening the cause to him, for my
14787 suspense while all was at stake?--No; do not pity me till I reached
14788 Highbury, and saw how ill I had made her. Do not pity me till I saw her
14789 wan, sick looks.--I reached Highbury at the time of day when, from my
14790 knowledge of their late breakfast hour, I was certain of a good chance
14791 of finding her alone.--I was not disappointed; and at last I was not
14792 disappointed either in the object of my journey. A great deal of very
14793 reasonable, very just displeasure I had to persuade away. But it is
14794 done; we are reconciled, dearer, much dearer, than ever, and no moment’s
14795 uneasiness can ever occur between us again. Now, my dear madam, I will
14796 release you; but I could not conclude before. A thousand and a thousand
14797 thanks for all the kindness you have ever shewn me, and ten thousand for
14798 the attentions your heart will dictate towards her.--If you think me in
14799 a way to be happier than I deserve, I am quite of your opinion.--Miss
14800 W. calls me the child of good fortune. I hope she is right.--In one
14801 respect, my good fortune is undoubted, that of being able to subscribe
14802 myself,
14803
14804 Your obliged and affectionate Son,
14805
14806 F. C. WESTON CHURCHILL.
14807
14808
14809
14810 CHAPTER XV
14811
14812
14813 This letter must make its way to Emma’s feelings. She was obliged, in
14814 spite of her previous determination to the contrary, to do it all the
14815 justice that Mrs. Weston foretold. As soon as she came to her own name,
14816 it was irresistible; every line relating to herself was interesting,
14817 and almost every line agreeable; and when this charm ceased, the subject
14818 could still maintain itself, by the natural return of her former regard
14819 for the writer, and the very strong attraction which any picture of
14820 love must have for her at that moment. She never stopt till she had gone
14821 through the whole; and though it was impossible not to feel that he had
14822 been wrong, yet he had been less wrong than she had supposed--and he had
14823 suffered, and was very sorry--and he was so grateful to Mrs. Weston, and
14824 so much in love with Miss Fairfax, and she was so happy herself, that
14825 there was no being severe; and could he have entered the room, she must
14826 have shaken hands with him as heartily as ever.
14827
14828 She thought so well of the letter, that when Mr. Knightley came again,
14829 she desired him to read it. She was sure of Mrs. Weston’s wishing it to
14830 be communicated; especially to one, who, like Mr. Knightley, had seen so
14831 much to blame in his conduct.
14832
14833 “I shall be very glad to look it over,” said he; “but it seems long. I
14834 will take it home with me at night.”
14835
14836 But that would not do. Mr. Weston was to call in the evening, and she
14837 must return it by him.
14838
14839 “I would rather be talking to you,” he replied; “but as it seems a
14840 matter of justice, it shall be done.”
14841
14842 He began--stopping, however, almost directly to say, “Had I been offered
14843 the sight of one of this gentleman’s letters to his mother-in-law a few
14844 months ago, Emma, it would not have been taken with such indifference.”
14845
14846 He proceeded a little farther, reading to himself; and then, with a
14847 smile, observed, “Humph! a fine complimentary opening: But it is his
14848 way. One man’s style must not be the rule of another’s. We will not be
14849 severe.”
14850
14851 “It will be natural for me,” he added shortly afterwards, “to speak my
14852 opinion aloud as I read. By doing it, I shall feel that I am near you.
14853 It will not be so great a loss of time: but if you dislike it--”
14854
14855 “Not at all. I should wish it.”
14856
14857 Mr. Knightley returned to his reading with greater alacrity.
14858
14859 “He trifles here,” said he, “as to the temptation. He knows he is wrong,
14860 and has nothing rational to urge.--Bad.--He ought not to have formed the
14861 engagement.--‘His father’s disposition:’--he is unjust, however, to his
14862 father. Mr. Weston’s sanguine temper was a blessing on all his upright
14863 and honourable exertions; but Mr. Weston earned every present comfort
14864 before he endeavoured to gain it.--Very true; he did not come till Miss
14865 Fairfax was here.”
14866
14867 “And I have not forgotten,” said Emma, “how sure you were that he might
14868 have come sooner if he would. You pass it over very handsomely--but you
14869 were perfectly right.”
14870
14871 “I was not quite impartial in my judgment, Emma:--but yet, I think--had
14872 _you_ not been in the case--I should still have distrusted him.”
14873
14874 When he came to Miss Woodhouse, he was obliged to read the whole of it
14875 aloud--all that related to her, with a smile; a look; a shake of the
14876 head; a word or two of assent, or disapprobation; or merely of love, as
14877 the subject required; concluding, however, seriously, and, after steady
14878 reflection, thus--
14879
14880 “Very bad--though it might have been worse.--Playing a most dangerous
14881 game. Too much indebted to the event for his acquittal.--No judge of
14882 his own manners by you.--Always deceived in fact by his own wishes, and
14883 regardless of little besides his own convenience.--Fancying you to have
14884 fathomed his secret. Natural enough!--his own mind full of intrigue,
14885 that he should suspect it in others.--Mystery; Finesse--how they pervert
14886 the understanding! My Emma, does not every thing serve to prove more
14887 and more the beauty of truth and sincerity in all our dealings with each
14888 other?”
14889
14890 Emma agreed to it, and with a blush of sensibility on Harriet’s account,
14891 which she could not give any sincere explanation of.
14892
14893 “You had better go on,” said she.
14894
14895 He did so, but very soon stopt again to say, “the pianoforte! Ah! That
14896 was the act of a very, very young man, one too young to consider whether
14897 the inconvenience of it might not very much exceed the pleasure. A
14898 boyish scheme, indeed!--I cannot comprehend a man’s wishing to give a
14899 woman any proof of affection which he knows she would rather dispense
14900 with; and he did know that she would have prevented the instrument’s
14901 coming if she could.”
14902
14903 After this, he made some progress without any pause. Frank Churchill’s
14904 confession of having behaved shamefully was the first thing to call for
14905 more than a word in passing.
14906
14907 “I perfectly agree with you, sir,”--was then his remark. “You did behave
14908 very shamefully. You never wrote a truer line.” And having gone through
14909 what immediately followed of the basis of their disagreement, and his
14910 persisting to act in direct opposition to Jane Fairfax’s sense of right,
14911 he made a fuller pause to say, “This is very bad.--He had induced her
14912 to place herself, for his sake, in a situation of extreme difficulty and
14913 uneasiness, and it should have been his first object to prevent her from
14914 suffering unnecessarily.--She must have had much more to contend
14915 with, in carrying on the correspondence, than he could. He should have
14916 respected even unreasonable scruples, had there been such; but hers were
14917 all reasonable. We must look to her one fault, and remember that she
14918 had done a wrong thing in consenting to the engagement, to bear that she
14919 should have been in such a state of punishment.”
14920
14921 Emma knew that he was now getting to the Box Hill party, and grew
14922 uncomfortable. Her own behaviour had been so very improper! She was
14923 deeply ashamed, and a little afraid of his next look. It was all read,
14924 however, steadily, attentively, and without the smallest remark; and,
14925 excepting one momentary glance at her, instantly withdrawn, in the fear
14926 of giving pain--no remembrance of Box Hill seemed to exist.
14927
14928 “There is no saying much for the delicacy of our good friends, the
14929 Eltons,” was his next observation.--“His feelings are natural.--What!
14930 actually resolve to break with him entirely!--She felt the engagement to
14931 be a source of repentance and misery to each--she dissolved it.--What a
14932 view this gives of her sense of his behaviour!--Well, he must be a most
14933 extraordinary--”
14934
14935 “Nay, nay, read on.--You will find how very much he suffers.”
14936
14937 “I hope he does,” replied Mr. Knightley coolly, and resuming the letter.
14938 “‘Smallridge!’--What does this mean? What is all this?”
14939
14940 “She had engaged to go as governess to Mrs. Smallridge’s children--a
14941 dear friend of Mrs. Elton’s--a neighbour of Maple Grove; and, by the
14942 bye, I wonder how Mrs. Elton bears the disappointment?”
14943
14944 “Say nothing, my dear Emma, while you oblige me to read--not even of
14945 Mrs. Elton. Only one page more. I shall soon have done. What a letter
14946 the man writes!”
14947
14948 “I wish you would read it with a kinder spirit towards him.”
14949
14950 “Well, there _is_ feeling here.--He does seem to have suffered in
14951 finding her ill.--Certainly, I can have no doubt of his being fond of
14952 her. ‘Dearer, much dearer than ever.’ I hope he may long continue to
14953 feel all the value of such a reconciliation.--He is a very liberal
14954 thanker, with his thousands and tens of thousands.--‘Happier than I
14955 deserve.’ Come, he knows himself there. ‘Miss Woodhouse calls me the
14956 child of good fortune.’--Those were Miss Woodhouse’s words, were they?--
14957 And a fine ending--and there is the letter. The child of good fortune!
14958 That was your name for him, was it?”
14959
14960 “You do not appear so well satisfied with his letter as I am; but still
14961 you must, at least I hope you must, think the better of him for it. I
14962 hope it does him some service with you.”
14963
14964 “Yes, certainly it does. He has had great faults, faults of
14965 inconsideration and thoughtlessness; and I am very much of his opinion
14966 in thinking him likely to be happier than he deserves: but still as he
14967 is, beyond a doubt, really attached to Miss Fairfax, and will soon, it
14968 may be hoped, have the advantage of being constantly with her, I am very
14969 ready to believe his character will improve, and acquire from hers the
14970 steadiness and delicacy of principle that it wants. And now, let me talk
14971 to you of something else. I have another person’s interest at present
14972 so much at heart, that I cannot think any longer about Frank Churchill.
14973 Ever since I left you this morning, Emma, my mind has been hard at work
14974 on one subject.”
14975
14976 The subject followed; it was in plain, unaffected, gentlemanlike
14977 English, such as Mr. Knightley used even to the woman he was in love
14978 with, how to be able to ask her to marry him, without attacking the
14979 happiness of her father. Emma’s answer was ready at the first word.
14980 “While her dear father lived, any change of condition must be impossible
14981 for her. She could never quit him.” Part only of this answer, however,
14982 was admitted. The impossibility of her quitting her father, Mr.
14983 Knightley felt as strongly as herself; but the inadmissibility of any
14984 other change, he could not agree to. He had been thinking it over most
14985 deeply, most intently; he had at first hoped to induce Mr. Woodhouse to
14986 remove with her to Donwell; he had wanted to believe it feasible, but
14987 his knowledge of Mr. Woodhouse would not suffer him to deceive himself
14988 long; and now he confessed his persuasion, that such a transplantation
14989 would be a risk of her father’s comfort, perhaps even of his life, which
14990 must not be hazarded. Mr. Woodhouse taken from Hartfield!--No, he felt
14991 that it ought not to be attempted. But the plan which had arisen on the
14992 sacrifice of this, he trusted his dearest Emma would not find in any
14993 respect objectionable; it was, that he should be received at Hartfield;
14994 that so long as her father’s happiness--in other words, his life--required
14995 Hartfield to continue her home, it should be his likewise.
14996
14997 Of their all removing to Donwell, Emma had already had her own passing
14998 thoughts. Like him, she had tried the scheme and rejected it; but such
14999 an alternative as this had not occurred to her. She was sensible of all
15000 the affection it evinced. She felt that, in quitting Donwell, he must
15001 be sacrificing a great deal of independence of hours and habits; that
15002 in living constantly with her father, and in no house of his own, there
15003 would be much, very much, to be borne with. She promised to think of it,
15004 and advised him to think of it more; but he was fully convinced, that no
15005 reflection could alter his wishes or his opinion on the subject. He had
15006 given it, he could assure her, very long and calm consideration; he had
15007 been walking away from William Larkins the whole morning, to have his
15008 thoughts to himself.
15009
15010 “Ah! there is one difficulty unprovided for,” cried Emma. “I am sure
15011 William Larkins will not like it. You must get his consent before you
15012 ask mine.”
15013
15014 She promised, however, to think of it; and pretty nearly promised,
15015 moreover, to think of it, with the intention of finding it a very good
15016 scheme.
15017
15018 It is remarkable, that Emma, in the many, very many, points of view in
15019 which she was now beginning to consider Donwell Abbey, was never
15020 struck with any sense of injury to her nephew Henry, whose rights as
15021 heir-expectant had formerly been so tenaciously regarded. Think she must
15022 of the possible difference to the poor little boy; and yet she only
15023 gave herself a saucy conscious smile about it, and found amusement in
15024 detecting the real cause of that violent dislike of Mr. Knightley’s
15025 marrying Jane Fairfax, or any body else, which at the time she had
15026 wholly imputed to the amiable solicitude of the sister and the aunt.
15027
15028 This proposal of his, this plan of marrying and continuing at
15029 Hartfield--the more she contemplated it, the more pleasing it became.
15030 His evils seemed to lessen, her own advantages to increase, their mutual
15031 good to outweigh every drawback. Such a companion for herself in the
15032 periods of anxiety and cheerlessness before her!--Such a partner in
15033 all those duties and cares to which time must be giving increase of
15034 melancholy!
15035
15036 She would have been too happy but for poor Harriet; but every blessing
15037 of her own seemed to involve and advance the sufferings of her friend,
15038 who must now be even excluded from Hartfield. The delightful family
15039 party which Emma was securing for herself, poor Harriet must, in mere
15040 charitable caution, be kept at a distance from. She would be a loser in
15041 every way. Emma could not deplore her future absence as any deduction
15042 from her own enjoyment. In such a party, Harriet would be rather a
15043 dead weight than otherwise; but for the poor girl herself, it seemed a
15044 peculiarly cruel necessity that was to be placing her in such a state of
15045 unmerited punishment.
15046
15047 In time, of course, Mr. Knightley would be forgotten, that is,
15048 supplanted; but this could not be expected to happen very early. Mr.
15049 Knightley himself would be doing nothing to assist the cure;--not
15050 like Mr. Elton. Mr. Knightley, always so kind, so feeling, so truly
15051 considerate for every body, would never deserve to be less worshipped
15052 than now; and it really was too much to hope even of Harriet, that she
15053 could be in love with more than _three_ men in one year.
15054
15055
15056
15057 CHAPTER XVI
15058
15059
15060 It was a very great relief to Emma to find Harriet as desirous as
15061 herself to avoid a meeting. Their intercourse was painful enough by
15062 letter. How much worse, had they been obliged to meet!
15063
15064 Harriet expressed herself very much as might be supposed, without
15065 reproaches, or apparent sense of ill-usage; and yet Emma fancied there
15066 was a something of resentment, a something bordering on it in her style,
15067 which increased the desirableness of their being separate.--It might be
15068 only her own consciousness; but it seemed as if an angel only could have
15069 been quite without resentment under such a stroke.
15070
15071 She had no difficulty in procuring Isabella’s invitation; and she was
15072 fortunate in having a sufficient reason for asking it, without resorting
15073 to invention.--There was a tooth amiss. Harriet really wished, and
15074 had wished some time, to consult a dentist. Mrs. John Knightley was
15075 delighted to be of use; any thing of ill health was a recommendation to
15076 her--and though not so fond of a dentist as of a Mr. Wingfield, she was
15077 quite eager to have Harriet under her care.--When it was thus settled
15078 on her sister’s side, Emma proposed it to her friend, and found her
15079 very persuadable.--Harriet was to go; she was invited for at least a
15080 fortnight; she was to be conveyed in Mr. Woodhouse’s carriage.--It was
15081 all arranged, it was all completed, and Harriet was safe in Brunswick
15082 Square.
15083
15084 Now Emma could, indeed, enjoy Mr. Knightley’s visits; now she could
15085 talk, and she could listen with true happiness, unchecked by that sense
15086 of injustice, of guilt, of something most painful, which had haunted her
15087 when remembering how disappointed a heart was near her, how much might
15088 at that moment, and at a little distance, be enduring by the feelings
15089 which she had led astray herself.
15090
15091 The difference of Harriet at Mrs. Goddard’s, or in London, made perhaps
15092 an unreasonable difference in Emma’s sensations; but she could not think
15093 of her in London without objects of curiosity and employment, which must
15094 be averting the past, and carrying her out of herself.
15095
15096 She would not allow any other anxiety to succeed directly to the place
15097 in her mind which Harriet had occupied. There was a communication before
15098 her, one which _she_ only could be competent to make--the confession of
15099 her engagement to her father; but she would have nothing to do with it
15100 at present.--She had resolved to defer the disclosure till Mrs. Weston
15101 were safe and well. No additional agitation should be thrown at this
15102 period among those she loved--and the evil should not act on herself
15103 by anticipation before the appointed time.--A fortnight, at least, of
15104 leisure and peace of mind, to crown every warmer, but more agitating,
15105 delight, should be hers.
15106
15107 She soon resolved, equally as a duty and a pleasure, to employ half an
15108 hour of this holiday of spirits in calling on Miss Fairfax.--She ought
15109 to go--and she was longing to see her; the resemblance of their present
15110 situations increasing every other motive of goodwill. It would be a
15111 _secret_ satisfaction; but the consciousness of a similarity of prospect
15112 would certainly add to the interest with which she should attend to any
15113 thing Jane might communicate.
15114
15115 She went--she had driven once unsuccessfully to the door, but had not
15116 been into the house since the morning after Box Hill, when poor Jane had
15117 been in such distress as had filled her with compassion, though all the
15118 worst of her sufferings had been unsuspected.--The fear of being still
15119 unwelcome, determined her, though assured of their being at home, to
15120 wait in the passage, and send up her name.--She heard Patty announcing
15121 it; but no such bustle succeeded as poor Miss Bates had before made so
15122 happily intelligible.--No; she heard nothing but the instant reply of,
15123 “Beg her to walk up;”--and a moment afterwards she was met on the stairs
15124 by Jane herself, coming eagerly forward, as if no other reception of her
15125 were felt sufficient.--Emma had never seen her look so well, so lovely,
15126 so engaging. There was consciousness, animation, and warmth; there was
15127 every thing which her countenance or manner could ever have wanted.--
15128 She came forward with an offered hand; and said, in a low, but very
15129 feeling tone,
15130
15131 “This is most kind, indeed!--Miss Woodhouse, it is impossible for me
15132 to express--I hope you will believe--Excuse me for being so entirely
15133 without words.”
15134
15135 Emma was gratified, and would soon have shewn no want of words, if the
15136 sound of Mrs. Elton’s voice from the sitting-room had not checked
15137 her, and made it expedient to compress all her friendly and all her
15138 congratulatory sensations into a very, very earnest shake of the hand.
15139
15140 Mrs. Bates and Mrs. Elton were together. Miss Bates was out, which
15141 accounted for the previous tranquillity. Emma could have wished Mrs.
15142 Elton elsewhere; but she was in a humour to have patience with every
15143 body; and as Mrs. Elton met her with unusual graciousness, she hoped the
15144 rencontre would do them no harm.
15145
15146 She soon believed herself to penetrate Mrs. Elton’s thoughts, and
15147 understand why she was, like herself, in happy spirits; it was being in
15148 Miss Fairfax’s confidence, and fancying herself acquainted with what was
15149 still a secret to other people. Emma saw symptoms of it immediately in
15150 the expression of her face; and while paying her own compliments to Mrs.
15151 Bates, and appearing to attend to the good old lady’s replies, she saw
15152 her with a sort of anxious parade of mystery fold up a letter which she
15153 had apparently been reading aloud to Miss Fairfax, and return it into
15154 the purple and gold reticule by her side, saying, with significant nods,
15155
15156 “We can finish this some other time, you know. You and I shall not want
15157 opportunities. And, in fact, you have heard all the essential already. I
15158 only wanted to prove to you that Mrs. S. admits our apology, and is
15159 not offended. You see how delightfully she writes. Oh! she is a sweet
15160 creature! You would have doated on her, had you gone.--But not a word
15161 more. Let us be discreet--quite on our good behaviour.--Hush!--You
15162 remember those lines--I forget the poem at this moment:
15163
15164 “For when a lady’s in the case,
15165 “You know all other things give place.”
15166
15167 Now I say, my dear, in _our_ case, for _lady_, read----mum! a word to
15168 the wise.--I am in a fine flow of spirits, an’t I? But I want to set
15169 your heart at ease as to Mrs. S.--_My_ representation, you see, has
15170 quite appeased her.”
15171
15172 And again, on Emma’s merely turning her head to look at Mrs. Bates’s
15173 knitting, she added, in a half whisper,
15174
15175 “I mentioned no _names_, you will observe.--Oh! no; cautious as a
15176 minister of state. I managed it extremely well.”
15177
15178 Emma could not doubt. It was a palpable display, repeated on every
15179 possible occasion. When they had all talked a little while in harmony of
15180 the weather and Mrs. Weston, she found herself abruptly addressed with,
15181
15182 “Do not you think, Miss Woodhouse, our saucy little friend here is
15183 charmingly recovered?--Do not you think her cure does Perry the highest
15184 credit?--(here was a side-glance of great meaning at Jane.) Upon my
15185 word, Perry has restored her in a wonderful short time!--Oh! if you had
15186 seen her, as I did, when she was at the worst!”--And when Mrs. Bates
15187 was saying something to Emma, whispered farther, “We do not say a word
15188 of any _assistance_ that Perry might have; not a word of a certain young
15189 physician from Windsor.--Oh! no; Perry shall have all the credit.”
15190
15191 “I have scarce had the pleasure of seeing you, Miss Woodhouse,” she
15192 shortly afterwards began, “since the party to Box Hill. Very pleasant
15193 party. But yet I think there was something wanting. Things did not
15194 seem--that is, there seemed a little cloud upon the spirits of some.--So
15195 it appeared to me at least, but I might be mistaken. However, I think
15196 it answered so far as to tempt one to go again. What say you both to our
15197 collecting the same party, and exploring to Box Hill again, while the
15198 fine weather lasts?--It must be the same party, you know, quite the
15199 same party, not _one_ exception.”
15200
15201 Soon after this Miss Bates came in, and Emma could not help being
15202 diverted by the perplexity of her first answer to herself, resulting,
15203 she supposed, from doubt of what might be said, and impatience to say
15204 every thing.
15205
15206 “Thank you, dear Miss Woodhouse, you are all kindness.--It is impossible
15207 to say--Yes, indeed, I quite understand--dearest Jane’s prospects--that
15208 is, I do not mean.--But she is charmingly recovered.--How is Mr.
15209 Woodhouse?--I am so glad.--Quite out of my power.--Such a happy little
15210 circle as you find us here.--Yes, indeed.--Charming young man!--that
15211 is--so very friendly; I mean good Mr. Perry!--such attention to
15212 Jane!”--And from her great, her more than commonly thankful delight
15213 towards Mrs. Elton for being there, Emma guessed that there had been a
15214 little show of resentment towards Jane, from the vicarage quarter,
15215 which was now graciously overcome.--After a few whispers, indeed, which
15216 placed it beyond a guess, Mrs. Elton, speaking louder, said,
15217
15218 “Yes, here I am, my good friend; and here I have been so long, that
15219 anywhere else I should think it necessary to apologise; but, the truth
15220 is, that I am waiting for my lord and master. He promised to join me
15221 here, and pay his respects to you.”
15222
15223 “What! are we to have the pleasure of a call from Mr. Elton?--That will
15224 be a favour indeed! for I know gentlemen do not like morning visits, and
15225 Mr. Elton’s time is so engaged.”
15226
15227 “Upon my word it is, Miss Bates.--He really is engaged from morning to
15228 night.--There is no end of people’s coming to him, on some pretence or
15229 other.--The magistrates, and overseers, and churchwardens, are always
15230 wanting his opinion. They seem not able to do any thing without
15231 him.--‘Upon my word, Mr. E.,’ I often say, ‘rather you than I.--I do
15232 not know what would become of my crayons and my instrument, if I had
15233 half so many applicants.’--Bad enough as it is, for I absolutely neglect
15234 them both to an unpardonable degree.--I believe I have not played a bar
15235 this fortnight.--However, he is coming, I assure you: yes, indeed, on
15236 purpose to wait on you all.” And putting up her hand to screen her
15237 words from Emma--“A congratulatory visit, you know.--Oh! yes, quite
15238 indispensable.”
15239
15240 Miss Bates looked about her, so happily--!
15241
15242 “He promised to come to me as soon as he could disengage himself
15243 from Knightley; but he and Knightley are shut up together in deep
15244 consultation.--Mr. E. is Knightley’s right hand.”
15245
15246 Emma would not have smiled for the world, and only said, “Is Mr. Elton
15247 gone on foot to Donwell?--He will have a hot walk.”
15248
15249 “Oh! no, it is a meeting at the Crown, a regular meeting. Weston and
15250 Cole will be there too; but one is apt to speak only of those who
15251 lead.--I fancy Mr. E. and Knightley have every thing their own way.”
15252
15253 “Have not you mistaken the day?” said Emma. “I am almost certain that
15254 the meeting at the Crown is not till to-morrow.--Mr. Knightley was at
15255 Hartfield yesterday, and spoke of it as for Saturday.”
15256
15257 “Oh! no, the meeting is certainly to-day,” was the abrupt answer, which
15258 denoted the impossibility of any blunder on Mrs. Elton’s side.--“I do
15259 believe,” she continued, “this is the most troublesome parish that ever
15260 was. We never heard of such things at Maple Grove.”
15261
15262 “Your parish there was small,” said Jane.
15263
15264 “Upon my word, my dear, I do not know, for I never heard the subject
15265 talked of.”
15266
15267 “But it is proved by the smallness of the school, which I have heard
15268 you speak of, as under the patronage of your sister and Mrs. Bragge; the
15269 only school, and not more than five-and-twenty children.”
15270
15271 “Ah! you clever creature, that’s very true. What a thinking brain you
15272 have! I say, Jane, what a perfect character you and I should make, if we
15273 could be shaken together. My liveliness and your solidity would produce
15274 perfection.--Not that I presume to insinuate, however, that _some_
15275 people may not think _you_ perfection already.--But hush!--not a word,
15276 if you please.”
15277
15278 It seemed an unnecessary caution; Jane was wanting to give her words,
15279 not to Mrs. Elton, but to Miss Woodhouse, as the latter plainly saw.
15280 The wish of distinguishing her, as far as civility permitted, was very
15281 evident, though it could not often proceed beyond a look.
15282
15283 Mr. Elton made his appearance. His lady greeted him with some of her
15284 sparkling vivacity.
15285
15286 “Very pretty, sir, upon my word; to send me on here, to be an
15287 encumbrance to my friends, so long before you vouchsafe to come!--But
15288 you knew what a dutiful creature you had to deal with. You knew I should
15289 not stir till my lord and master appeared.--Here have I been sitting
15290 this hour, giving these young ladies a sample of true conjugal
15291 obedience--for who can say, you know, how soon it may be wanted?”
15292
15293 Mr. Elton was so hot and tired, that all this wit seemed thrown away.
15294 His civilities to the other ladies must be paid; but his subsequent
15295 object was to lament over himself for the heat he was suffering, and the
15296 walk he had had for nothing.
15297
15298 “When I got to Donwell,” said he, “Knightley could not be found. Very
15299 odd! very unaccountable! after the note I sent him this morning, and the
15300 message he returned, that he should certainly be at home till one.”
15301
15302 “Donwell!” cried his wife.--“My dear Mr. E., you have not been to
15303 Donwell!--You mean the Crown; you come from the meeting at the Crown.”
15304
15305 “No, no, that’s to-morrow; and I particularly wanted to see Knightley
15306 to-day on that very account.--Such a dreadful broiling morning!--I went
15307 over the fields too--(speaking in a tone of great ill-usage,) which made
15308 it so much the worse. And then not to find him at home! I assure you
15309 I am not at all pleased. And no apology left, no message for me. The
15310 housekeeper declared she knew nothing of my being expected.--Very
15311 extraordinary!--And nobody knew at all which way he was gone. Perhaps
15312 to Hartfield, perhaps to the Abbey Mill, perhaps into his woods.--Miss
15313 Woodhouse, this is not like our friend Knightley!--Can you explain it?”
15314
15315 Emma amused herself by protesting that it was very extraordinary,
15316 indeed, and that she had not a syllable to say for him.
15317
15318 “I cannot imagine,” said Mrs. Elton, (feeling the indignity as a wife
15319 ought to do,) “I cannot imagine how he could do such a thing by you, of
15320 all people in the world! The very last person whom one should expect to
15321 be forgotten!--My dear Mr. E., he must have left a message for you, I am
15322 sure he must.--Not even Knightley could be so very eccentric;--and his
15323 servants forgot it. Depend upon it, that was the case: and very likely
15324 to happen with the Donwell servants, who are all, I have often observed,
15325 extremely awkward and remiss.--I am sure I would not have such a
15326 creature as his Harry stand at our sideboard for any consideration. And
15327 as for Mrs. Hodges, Wright holds her very cheap indeed.--She promised
15328 Wright a receipt, and never sent it.”
15329
15330 “I met William Larkins,” continued Mr. Elton, “as I got near the house,
15331 and he told me I should not find his master at home, but I did not
15332 believe him.--William seemed rather out of humour. He did not know what
15333 was come to his master lately, he said, but he could hardly ever get the
15334 speech of him. I have nothing to do with William’s wants, but it really
15335 is of very great importance that _I_ should see Knightley to-day; and it
15336 becomes a matter, therefore, of very serious inconvenience that I should
15337 have had this hot walk to no purpose.”
15338
15339 Emma felt that she could not do better than go home directly. In
15340 all probability she was at this very time waited for there; and Mr.
15341 Knightley might be preserved from sinking deeper in aggression towards
15342 Mr. Elton, if not towards William Larkins.
15343
15344 She was pleased, on taking leave, to find Miss Fairfax determined to
15345 attend her out of the room, to go with her even downstairs; it gave her
15346 an opportunity which she immediately made use of, to say,
15347
15348 “It is as well, perhaps, that I have not had the possibility. Had you
15349 not been surrounded by other friends, I might have been tempted to
15350 introduce a subject, to ask questions, to speak more openly than might
15351 have been strictly correct.--I feel that I should certainly have been
15352 impertinent.”
15353
15354 “Oh!” cried Jane, with a blush and an hesitation which Emma thought
15355 infinitely more becoming to her than all the elegance of all her usual
15356 composure--“there would have been no danger. The danger would have
15357 been of my wearying you. You could not have gratified me more than
15358 by expressing an interest--. Indeed, Miss Woodhouse, (speaking more
15359 collectedly,) with the consciousness which I have of misconduct, very
15360 great misconduct, it is particularly consoling to me to know that those
15361 of my friends, whose good opinion is most worth preserving, are not
15362 disgusted to such a degree as to--I have not time for half that I could
15363 wish to say. I long to make apologies, excuses, to urge something for
15364 myself. I feel it so very due. But, unfortunately--in short, if your
15365 compassion does not stand my friend--”
15366
15367 “Oh! you are too scrupulous, indeed you are,” cried Emma warmly, and
15368 taking her hand. “You owe me no apologies; and every body to whom you
15369 might be supposed to owe them, is so perfectly satisfied, so delighted
15370 even--”
15371
15372 “You are very kind, but I know what my manners were to you.--So
15373 cold and artificial!--I had always a part to act.--It was a life of
15374 deceit!--I know that I must have disgusted you.”
15375
15376 “Pray say no more. I feel that all the apologies should be on my side.
15377 Let us forgive each other at once. We must do whatever is to be done
15378 quickest, and I think our feelings will lose no time there. I hope you
15379 have pleasant accounts from Windsor?”
15380
15381 “Very.”
15382
15383 “And the next news, I suppose, will be, that we are to lose you--just as
15384 I begin to know you.”
15385
15386 “Oh! as to all that, of course nothing can be thought of yet. I am here
15387 till claimed by Colonel and Mrs. Campbell.”
15388
15389 “Nothing can be actually settled yet, perhaps,” replied Emma,
15390 smiling--“but, excuse me, it must be thought of.”
15391
15392 The smile was returned as Jane answered,
15393
15394 “You are very right; it has been thought of. And I will own to you, (I
15395 am sure it will be safe), that so far as our living with Mr. Churchill
15396 at Enscombe, it is settled. There must be three months, at least, of
15397 deep mourning; but when they are over, I imagine there will be nothing
15398 more to wait for.”
15399
15400 “Thank you, thank you.--This is just what I wanted to be assured
15401 of.--Oh! if you knew how much I love every thing that is decided and
15402 open!--Good-bye, good-bye.”
15403
15404
15405
15406 CHAPTER XVII
15407
15408
15409 Mrs. Weston’s friends were all made happy by her safety; and if the
15410 satisfaction of her well-doing could be increased to Emma, it was by
15411 knowing her to be the mother of a little girl. She had been decided in
15412 wishing for a Miss Weston. She would not acknowledge that it was with
15413 any view of making a match for her, hereafter, with either of Isabella’s
15414 sons; but she was convinced that a daughter would suit both father
15415 and mother best. It would be a great comfort to Mr. Weston, as he grew
15416 older--and even Mr. Weston might be growing older ten years hence--to
15417 have his fireside enlivened by the sports and the nonsense, the freaks
15418 and the fancies of a child never banished from home; and Mrs. Weston--no
15419 one could doubt that a daughter would be most to her; and it would be
15420 quite a pity that any one who so well knew how to teach, should not have
15421 their powers in exercise again.
15422
15423 “She has had the advantage, you know, of practising on me,” she
15424 continued--“like La Baronne d’Almane on La Comtesse d’Ostalis, in Madame
15425 de Genlis’ Adelaide and Theodore, and we shall now see her own little
15426 Adelaide educated on a more perfect plan.”
15427
15428 “That is,” replied Mr. Knightley, “she will indulge her even more than
15429 she did you, and believe that she does not indulge her at all. It will
15430 be the only difference.”
15431
15432 “Poor child!” cried Emma; “at that rate, what will become of her?”
15433
15434 “Nothing very bad.--The fate of thousands. She will be disagreeable
15435 in infancy, and correct herself as she grows older. I am losing all my
15436 bitterness against spoilt children, my dearest Emma. I, who am owing all
15437 my happiness to _you_, would not it be horrible ingratitude in me to be
15438 severe on them?”
15439
15440 Emma laughed, and replied: “But I had the assistance of all your
15441 endeavours to counteract the indulgence of other people. I doubt whether
15442 my own sense would have corrected me without it.”
15443
15444 “Do you?--I have no doubt. Nature gave you understanding:--Miss Taylor
15445 gave you principles. You must have done well. My interference was quite
15446 as likely to do harm as good. It was very natural for you to say, what
15447 right has he to lecture me?--and I am afraid very natural for you to
15448 feel that it was done in a disagreeable manner. I do not believe I did
15449 you any good. The good was all to myself, by making you an object of the
15450 tenderest affection to me. I could not think about you so much without
15451 doating on you, faults and all; and by dint of fancying so many errors,
15452 have been in love with you ever since you were thirteen at least.”
15453
15454 “I am sure you were of use to me,” cried Emma. “I was very often
15455 influenced rightly by you--oftener than I would own at the time. I
15456 am very sure you did me good. And if poor little Anna Weston is to be
15457 spoiled, it will be the greatest humanity in you to do as much for her
15458 as you have done for me, except falling in love with her when she is
15459 thirteen.”
15460
15461 “How often, when you were a girl, have you said to me, with one of your
15462 saucy looks--‘Mr. Knightley, I am going to do so-and-so; papa says I
15463 may, or I have Miss Taylor’s leave’--something which, you knew, I
15464 did not approve. In such cases my interference was giving you two bad
15465 feelings instead of one.”
15466
15467 “What an amiable creature I was!--No wonder you should hold my speeches
15468 in such affectionate remembrance.”
15469
15470 “‘Mr. Knightley.’--You always called me, ‘Mr. Knightley;’ and, from
15471 habit, it has not so very formal a sound.--And yet it is formal. I want
15472 you to call me something else, but I do not know what.”
15473
15474 “I remember once calling you ‘George,’ in one of my amiable fits, about
15475 ten years ago. I did it because I thought it would offend you; but, as
15476 you made no objection, I never did it again.”
15477
15478 “And cannot you call me ‘George’ now?”
15479
15480 “Impossible!--I never can call you any thing but ‘Mr. Knightley.’ I
15481 will not promise even to equal the elegant terseness of Mrs. Elton, by
15482 calling you Mr. K.--But I will promise,” she added presently, laughing
15483 and blushing--“I will promise to call you once by your Christian name.
15484 I do not say when, but perhaps you may guess where;--in the building in
15485 which N. takes M. for better, for worse.”
15486
15487 Emma grieved that she could not be more openly just to one important
15488 service which his better sense would have rendered her, to the
15489 advice which would have saved her from the worst of all her womanly
15490 follies--her wilful intimacy with Harriet Smith; but it was too tender a
15491 subject.--She could not enter on it.--Harriet was very seldom mentioned
15492 between them. This, on his side, might merely proceed from her not being
15493 thought of; but Emma was rather inclined to attribute it to delicacy,
15494 and a suspicion, from some appearances, that their friendship were
15495 declining. She was aware herself, that, parting under any other
15496 circumstances, they certainly should have corresponded more, and that
15497 her intelligence would not have rested, as it now almost wholly did, on
15498 Isabella’s letters. He might observe that it was so. The pain of being
15499 obliged to practise concealment towards him, was very little inferior to
15500 the pain of having made Harriet unhappy.
15501
15502 Isabella sent quite as good an account of her visitor as could be
15503 expected; on her first arrival she had thought her out of spirits, which
15504 appeared perfectly natural, as there was a dentist to be consulted; but,
15505 since that business had been over, she did not appear to find Harriet
15506 different from what she had known her before.--Isabella, to be sure,
15507 was no very quick observer; yet if Harriet had not been equal to playing
15508 with the children, it would not have escaped her. Emma’s comforts and
15509 hopes were most agreeably carried on, by Harriet’s being to stay longer;
15510 her fortnight was likely to be a month at least. Mr. and Mrs. John
15511 Knightley were to come down in August, and she was invited to remain
15512 till they could bring her back.
15513
15514 “John does not even mention your friend,” said Mr. Knightley. “Here is
15515 his answer, if you like to see it.”
15516
15517 It was the answer to the communication of his intended marriage. Emma
15518 accepted it with a very eager hand, with an impatience all alive to know
15519 what he would say about it, and not at all checked by hearing that her
15520 friend was unmentioned.
15521
15522 “John enters like a brother into my happiness,” continued Mr. Knightley,
15523 “but he is no complimenter; and though I well know him to have,
15524 likewise, a most brotherly affection for you, he is so far from making
15525 flourishes, that any other young woman might think him rather cool in
15526 her praise. But I am not afraid of your seeing what he writes.”
15527
15528 “He writes like a sensible man,” replied Emma, when she had read the
15529 letter. “I honour his sincerity. It is very plain that he considers the
15530 good fortune of the engagement as all on my side, but that he is not
15531 without hope of my growing, in time, as worthy of your affection, as
15532 you think me already. Had he said any thing to bear a different
15533 construction, I should not have believed him.”
15534
15535 “My Emma, he means no such thing. He only means--”
15536
15537 “He and I should differ very little in our estimation of the two,”
15538 interrupted she, with a sort of serious smile--“much less, perhaps, than
15539 he is aware of, if we could enter without ceremony or reserve on the
15540 subject.”
15541
15542 “Emma, my dear Emma--”
15543
15544 “Oh!” she cried with more thorough gaiety, “if you fancy your brother
15545 does not do me justice, only wait till my dear father is in the secret,
15546 and hear his opinion. Depend upon it, he will be much farther from doing
15547 _you_ justice. He will think all the happiness, all the advantage, on
15548 your side of the question; all the merit on mine. I wish I may not
15549 sink into ‘poor Emma’ with him at once.--His tender compassion towards
15550 oppressed worth can go no farther.”
15551
15552 “Ah!” he cried, “I wish your father might be half as easily convinced as
15553 John will be, of our having every right that equal worth can give, to be
15554 happy together. I am amused by one part of John’s letter--did you notice
15555 it?--where he says, that my information did not take him wholly by
15556 surprize, that he was rather in expectation of hearing something of the
15557 kind.”
15558
15559 “If I understand your brother, he only means so far as your having
15560 some thoughts of marrying. He had no idea of me. He seems perfectly
15561 unprepared for that.”
15562
15563 “Yes, yes--but I am amused that he should have seen so far into my
15564 feelings. What has he been judging by?--I am not conscious of any
15565 difference in my spirits or conversation that could prepare him at
15566 this time for my marrying any more than at another.--But it was so, I
15567 suppose. I dare say there was a difference when I was staying with them
15568 the other day. I believe I did not play with the children quite so much
15569 as usual. I remember one evening the poor boys saying, ‘Uncle seems
15570 always tired now.’”
15571
15572 The time was coming when the news must spread farther, and other
15573 persons’ reception of it tried. As soon as Mrs. Weston was sufficiently
15574 recovered to admit Mr. Woodhouse’s visits, Emma having it in view that
15575 her gentle reasonings should be employed in the cause, resolved first to
15576 announce it at home, and then at Randalls.--But how to break it to her
15577 father at last!--She had bound herself to do it, in such an hour of Mr.
15578 Knightley’s absence, or when it came to the point her heart would have
15579 failed her, and she must have put it off; but Mr. Knightley was to come
15580 at such a time, and follow up the beginning she was to make.--She was
15581 forced to speak, and to speak cheerfully too. She must not make it a
15582 more decided subject of misery to him, by a melancholy tone herself.
15583 She must not appear to think it a misfortune.--With all the spirits she
15584 could command, she prepared him first for something strange, and then,
15585 in a few words, said, that if his consent and approbation could be
15586 obtained--which, she trusted, would be attended with no difficulty,
15587 since it was a plan to promote the happiness of all--she and Mr.
15588 Knightley meant to marry; by which means Hartfield would receive the
15589 constant addition of that person’s company whom she knew he loved, next
15590 to his daughters and Mrs. Weston, best in the world.
15591
15592 Poor man!--it was at first a considerable shock to him, and he tried
15593 earnestly to dissuade her from it. She was reminded, more than once, of
15594 having always said she would never marry, and assured that it would be
15595 a great deal better for her to remain single; and told of poor Isabella,
15596 and poor Miss Taylor.--But it would not do. Emma hung about him
15597 affectionately, and smiled, and said it must be so; and that he must
15598 not class her with Isabella and Mrs. Weston, whose marriages taking them
15599 from Hartfield, had, indeed, made a melancholy change: but she was not
15600 going from Hartfield; she should be always there; she was introducing
15601 no change in their numbers or their comforts but for the better; and she
15602 was very sure that he would be a great deal the happier for having Mr.
15603 Knightley always at hand, when he were once got used to the idea.--Did
15604 he not love Mr. Knightley very much?--He would not deny that he did,
15605 she was sure.--Whom did he ever want to consult on business but Mr.
15606 Knightley?--Who was so useful to him, who so ready to write his letters,
15607 who so glad to assist him?--Who so cheerful, so attentive, so attached
15608 to him?--Would not he like to have him always on the spot?--Yes. That
15609 was all very true. Mr. Knightley could not be there too often; he should
15610 be glad to see him every day;--but they did see him every day as it
15611 was.--Why could not they go on as they had done?
15612
15613 Mr. Woodhouse could not be soon reconciled; but the worst was overcome,
15614 the idea was given; time and continual repetition must do the rest.--To
15615 Emma’s entreaties and assurances succeeded Mr. Knightley’s, whose fond
15616 praise of her gave the subject even a kind of welcome; and he was soon
15617 used to be talked to by each, on every fair occasion.--They had all
15618 the assistance which Isabella could give, by letters of the strongest
15619 approbation; and Mrs. Weston was ready, on the first meeting, to
15620 consider the subject in the most serviceable light--first, as a settled,
15621 and, secondly, as a good one--well aware of the nearly equal importance
15622 of the two recommendations to Mr. Woodhouse’s mind.--It was agreed
15623 upon, as what was to be; and every body by whom he was used to be
15624 guided assuring him that it would be for his happiness; and having some
15625 feelings himself which almost admitted it, he began to think that some
15626 time or other--in another year or two, perhaps--it might not be so very
15627 bad if the marriage did take place.
15628
15629 Mrs. Weston was acting no part, feigning no feelings in all that she
15630 said to him in favour of the event.--She had been extremely surprized,
15631 never more so, than when Emma first opened the affair to her; but she
15632 saw in it only increase of happiness to all, and had no scruple in
15633 urging him to the utmost.--She had such a regard for Mr. Knightley, as
15634 to think he deserved even her dearest Emma; and it was in every respect
15635 so proper, suitable, and unexceptionable a connexion, and in one
15636 respect, one point of the highest importance, so peculiarly eligible,
15637 so singularly fortunate, that now it seemed as if Emma could not safely
15638 have attached herself to any other creature, and that she had herself
15639 been the stupidest of beings in not having thought of it, and wished it
15640 long ago.--How very few of those men in a rank of life to address Emma
15641 would have renounced their own home for Hartfield! And who but Mr.
15642 Knightley could know and bear with Mr. Woodhouse, so as to make such
15643 an arrangement desirable!--The difficulty of disposing of poor Mr.
15644 Woodhouse had been always felt in her husband’s plans and her own, for
15645 a marriage between Frank and Emma. How to settle the claims of Enscombe
15646 and Hartfield had been a continual impediment--less acknowledged by Mr.
15647 Weston than by herself--but even he had never been able to finish
15648 the subject better than by saying--“Those matters will take care of
15649 themselves; the young people will find a way.” But here there was
15650 nothing to be shifted off in a wild speculation on the future. It was
15651 all right, all open, all equal. No sacrifice on any side worth the name.
15652 It was a union of the highest promise of felicity in itself, and without
15653 one real, rational difficulty to oppose or delay it.
15654
15655 Mrs. Weston, with her baby on her knee, indulging in such reflections
15656 as these, was one of the happiest women in the world. If any thing could
15657 increase her delight, it was perceiving that the baby would soon have
15658 outgrown its first set of caps.
15659
15660 The news was universally a surprize wherever it spread; and Mr. Weston
15661 had his five minutes share of it; but five minutes were enough to
15662 familiarise the idea to his quickness of mind.--He saw the advantages
15663 of the match, and rejoiced in them with all the constancy of his wife;
15664 but the wonder of it was very soon nothing; and by the end of an hour he
15665 was not far from believing that he had always foreseen it.
15666
15667 “It is to be a secret, I conclude,” said he. “These matters are always a
15668 secret, till it is found out that every body knows them. Only let me be
15669 told when I may speak out.--I wonder whether Jane has any suspicion.”
15670
15671 He went to Highbury the next morning, and satisfied himself on that
15672 point. He told her the news. Was not she like a daughter, his eldest
15673 daughter?--he must tell her; and Miss Bates being present, it passed,
15674 of course, to Mrs. Cole, Mrs. Perry, and Mrs. Elton, immediately
15675 afterwards. It was no more than the principals were prepared for; they
15676 had calculated from the time of its being known at Randalls, how soon it
15677 would be over Highbury; and were thinking of themselves, as the evening
15678 wonder in many a family circle, with great sagacity.
15679
15680 In general, it was a very well approved match. Some might think him, and
15681 others might think her, the most in luck. One set might recommend their
15682 all removing to Donwell, and leaving Hartfield for the John Knightleys;
15683 and another might predict disagreements among their servants; but yet,
15684 upon the whole, there was no serious objection raised, except in one
15685 habitation, the Vicarage.--There, the surprize was not softened by any
15686 satisfaction. Mr. Elton cared little about it, compared with his wife;
15687 he only hoped “the young lady’s pride would now be contented;” and
15688 supposed “she had always meant to catch Knightley if she could;” and,
15689 on the point of living at Hartfield, could daringly exclaim, “Rather
15690 he than I!”--But Mrs. Elton was very much discomposed indeed.--“Poor
15691 Knightley! poor fellow!--sad business for him.”--She was extremely
15692 concerned; for, though very eccentric, he had a thousand good
15693 qualities.--How could he be so taken in?--Did not think him at all in
15694 love--not in the least.--Poor Knightley!--There would be an end of all
15695 pleasant intercourse with him.--How happy he had been to come and dine
15696 with them whenever they asked him! But that would be all over now.--Poor
15697 fellow!--No more exploring parties to Donwell made for _her_. Oh!
15698 no; there would be a Mrs. Knightley to throw cold water on every
15699 thing.--Extremely disagreeable! But she was not at all sorry that
15700 she had abused the housekeeper the other day.--Shocking plan, living
15701 together. It would never do. She knew a family near Maple Grove who
15702 had tried it, and been obliged to separate before the end of the first
15703 quarter.
15704
15705
15706
15707 CHAPTER XVIII
15708
15709
15710 Time passed on. A few more to-morrows, and the party from London would
15711 be arriving. It was an alarming change; and Emma was thinking of it one
15712 morning, as what must bring a great deal to agitate and grieve her, when
15713 Mr. Knightley came in, and distressing thoughts were put by. After the
15714 first chat of pleasure he was silent; and then, in a graver tone, began
15715 with,
15716
15717 “I have something to tell you, Emma; some news.”
15718
15719 “Good or bad?” said she, quickly, looking up in his face.
15720
15721 “I do not know which it ought to be called.”
15722
15723 “Oh! good I am sure.--I see it in your countenance. You are trying not
15724 to smile.”
15725
15726 “I am afraid,” said he, composing his features, “I am very much afraid,
15727 my dear Emma, that you will not smile when you hear it.”
15728
15729 “Indeed! but why so?--I can hardly imagine that any thing which pleases
15730 or amuses you, should not please and amuse me too.”
15731
15732 “There is one subject,” he replied, “I hope but one, on which we do not
15733 think alike.” He paused a moment, again smiling, with his eyes fixed on
15734 her face. “Does nothing occur to you?--Do not you recollect?--Harriet
15735 Smith.”
15736
15737 Her cheeks flushed at the name, and she felt afraid of something, though
15738 she knew not what.
15739
15740 “Have you heard from her yourself this morning?” cried he. “You have, I
15741 believe, and know the whole.”
15742
15743 “No, I have not; I know nothing; pray tell me.”
15744
15745 “You are prepared for the worst, I see--and very bad it is. Harriet
15746 Smith marries Robert Martin.”
15747
15748 Emma gave a start, which did not seem like being prepared--and her eyes,
15749 in eager gaze, said, “No, this is impossible!” but her lips were closed.
15750
15751 “It is so, indeed,” continued Mr. Knightley; “I have it from Robert
15752 Martin himself. He left me not half an hour ago.”
15753
15754 She was still looking at him with the most speaking amazement.
15755
15756 “You like it, my Emma, as little as I feared.--I wish our opinions were
15757 the same. But in time they will. Time, you may be sure, will make one
15758 or the other of us think differently; and, in the meanwhile, we need not
15759 talk much on the subject.”
15760
15761 “You mistake me, you quite mistake me,” she replied, exerting herself.
15762 “It is not that such a circumstance would now make me unhappy, but I
15763 cannot believe it. It seems an impossibility!--You cannot mean to say,
15764 that Harriet Smith has accepted Robert Martin. You cannot mean that he
15765 has even proposed to her again--yet. You only mean, that he intends it.”
15766
15767 “I mean that he has done it,” answered Mr. Knightley, with smiling but
15768 determined decision, “and been accepted.”
15769
15770 “Good God!” she cried.--“Well!”--Then having recourse to her workbasket,
15771 in excuse for leaning down her face, and concealing all the exquisite
15772 feelings of delight and entertainment which she knew she must be
15773 expressing, she added, “Well, now tell me every thing; make this
15774 intelligible to me. How, where, when?--Let me know it all. I never was
15775 more surprized--but it does not make me unhappy, I assure you.--How--how
15776 has it been possible?”
15777
15778 “It is a very simple story. He went to town on business three days ago,
15779 and I got him to take charge of some papers which I was wanting to send
15780 to John.--He delivered these papers to John, at his chambers, and was
15781 asked by him to join their party the same evening to Astley’s. They were
15782 going to take the two eldest boys to Astley’s. The party was to be our
15783 brother and sister, Henry, John--and Miss Smith. My friend Robert could
15784 not resist. They called for him in their way; were all extremely amused;
15785 and my brother asked him to dine with them the next day--which he
15786 did--and in the course of that visit (as I understand) he found an
15787 opportunity of speaking to Harriet; and certainly did not speak
15788 in vain.--She made him, by her acceptance, as happy even as he is
15789 deserving. He came down by yesterday’s coach, and was with me this
15790 morning immediately after breakfast, to report his proceedings, first
15791 on my affairs, and then on his own. This is all that I can relate of
15792 the how, where, and when. Your friend Harriet will make a much
15793 longer history when you see her.--She will give you all the minute
15794 particulars, which only woman’s language can make interesting.--In our
15795 communications we deal only in the great.--However, I must say, that
15796 Robert Martin’s heart seemed for _him_, and to _me_, very overflowing;
15797 and that he did mention, without its being much to the purpose, that
15798 on quitting their box at Astley’s, my brother took charge of Mrs. John
15799 Knightley and little John, and he followed with Miss Smith and Henry;
15800 and that at one time they were in such a crowd, as to make Miss Smith
15801 rather uneasy.”
15802
15803 He stopped.--Emma dared not attempt any immediate reply. To speak, she
15804 was sure would be to betray a most unreasonable degree of happiness.
15805 She must wait a moment, or he would think her mad. Her silence disturbed
15806 him; and after observing her a little while, he added,
15807
15808 “Emma, my love, you said that this circumstance would not now make you
15809 unhappy; but I am afraid it gives you more pain than you expected. His
15810 situation is an evil--but you must consider it as what satisfies your
15811 friend; and I will answer for your thinking better and better of him
15812 as you know him more. His good sense and good principles would delight
15813 you.--As far as the man is concerned, you could not wish your friend
15814 in better hands. His rank in society I would alter if I could, which is
15815 saying a great deal I assure you, Emma.--You laugh at me about William
15816 Larkins; but I could quite as ill spare Robert Martin.”
15817
15818 He wanted her to look up and smile; and having now brought herself not
15819 to smile too broadly--she did--cheerfully answering,
15820
15821 “You need not be at any pains to reconcile me to the match. I think
15822 Harriet is doing extremely well. _Her_ connexions may be worse than
15823 _his_. In respectability of character, there can be no doubt that they
15824 are. I have been silent from surprize merely, excessive surprize. You
15825 cannot imagine how suddenly it has come on me! how peculiarly unprepared
15826 I was!--for I had reason to believe her very lately more determined
15827 against him, much more, than she was before.”
15828
15829 “You ought to know your friend best,” replied Mr. Knightley; “but I
15830 should say she was a good-tempered, soft-hearted girl, not likely to be
15831 very, very determined against any young man who told her he loved her.”
15832
15833 Emma could not help laughing as she answered, “Upon my word, I believe
15834 you know her quite as well as I do.--But, Mr. Knightley, are you
15835 perfectly sure that she has absolutely and downright _accepted_ him.
15836 I could suppose she might in time--but can she already?--Did not you
15837 misunderstand him?--You were both talking of other things; of business,
15838 shows of cattle, or new drills--and might not you, in the confusion of
15839 so many subjects, mistake him?--It was not Harriet’s hand that he was
15840 certain of--it was the dimensions of some famous ox.”
15841
15842 The contrast between the countenance and air of Mr. Knightley and Robert
15843 Martin was, at this moment, so strong to Emma’s feelings, and so strong
15844 was the recollection of all that had so recently passed on Harriet’s
15845 side, so fresh the sound of those words, spoken with such emphasis,
15846 “No, I hope I know better than to think of Robert Martin,” that she was
15847 really expecting the intelligence to prove, in some measure, premature.
15848 It could not be otherwise.
15849
15850 “Do you dare say this?” cried Mr. Knightley. “Do you dare to suppose me
15851 so great a blockhead, as not to know what a man is talking of?--What do
15852 you deserve?”
15853
15854 “Oh! I always deserve the best treatment, because I never put up with
15855 any other; and, therefore, you must give me a plain, direct answer. Are
15856 you quite sure that you understand the terms on which Mr. Martin and
15857 Harriet now are?”
15858
15859 “I am quite sure,” he replied, speaking very distinctly, “that he
15860 told me she had accepted him; and that there was no obscurity, nothing
15861 doubtful, in the words he used; and I think I can give you a proof that
15862 it must be so. He asked my opinion as to what he was now to do. He knew
15863 of no one but Mrs. Goddard to whom he could apply for information of
15864 her relations or friends. Could I mention any thing more fit to be done,
15865 than to go to Mrs. Goddard? I assured him that I could not. Then, he
15866 said, he would endeavour to see her in the course of this day.”
15867
15868 “I am perfectly satisfied,” replied Emma, with the brightest smiles,
15869 “and most sincerely wish them happy.”
15870
15871 “You are materially changed since we talked on this subject before.”
15872
15873 “I hope so--for at that time I was a fool.”
15874
15875 “And I am changed also; for I am now very willing to grant you all
15876 Harriet’s good qualities. I have taken some pains for your sake, and for
15877 Robert Martin’s sake, (whom I have always had reason to believe as much
15878 in love with her as ever,) to get acquainted with her. I have often
15879 talked to her a good deal. You must have seen that I did. Sometimes,
15880 indeed, I have thought you were half suspecting me of pleading poor
15881 Martin’s cause, which was never the case; but, from all my observations,
15882 I am convinced of her being an artless, amiable girl, with very good
15883 notions, very seriously good principles, and placing her happiness in
15884 the affections and utility of domestic life.--Much of this, I have no
15885 doubt, she may thank you for.”
15886
15887 “Me!” cried Emma, shaking her head.--“Ah! poor Harriet!”
15888
15889 She checked herself, however, and submitted quietly to a little more
15890 praise than she deserved.
15891
15892 Their conversation was soon afterwards closed by the entrance of her
15893 father. She was not sorry. She wanted to be alone. Her mind was in a
15894 state of flutter and wonder, which made it impossible for her to be
15895 collected. She was in dancing, singing, exclaiming spirits; and till she
15896 had moved about, and talked to herself, and laughed and reflected, she
15897 could be fit for nothing rational.
15898
15899 Her father’s business was to announce James’s being gone out to put the
15900 horses to, preparatory to their now daily drive to Randalls; and she
15901 had, therefore, an immediate excuse for disappearing.
15902
15903 The joy, the gratitude, the exquisite delight of her sensations may be
15904 imagined. The sole grievance and alloy thus removed in the prospect of
15905 Harriet’s welfare, she was really in danger of becoming too happy for
15906 security.--What had she to wish for? Nothing, but to grow more worthy of
15907 him, whose intentions and judgment had been ever so superior to her own.
15908 Nothing, but that the lessons of her past folly might teach her humility
15909 and circumspection in future.
15910
15911 Serious she was, very serious in her thankfulness, and in her
15912 resolutions; and yet there was no preventing a laugh, sometimes in the
15913 very midst of them. She must laugh at such a close! Such an end of the
15914 doleful disappointment of five weeks back! Such a heart--such a Harriet!
15915
15916 Now there would be pleasure in her returning--Every thing would be a
15917 pleasure. It would be a great pleasure to know Robert Martin.
15918
15919 High in the rank of her most serious and heartfelt felicities, was the
15920 reflection that all necessity of concealment from Mr. Knightley would
15921 soon be over. The disguise, equivocation, mystery, so hateful to her to
15922 practise, might soon be over. She could now look forward to giving him
15923 that full and perfect confidence which her disposition was most ready to
15924 welcome as a duty.
15925
15926 In the gayest and happiest spirits she set forward with her father; not
15927 always listening, but always agreeing to what he said; and, whether in
15928 speech or silence, conniving at the comfortable persuasion of his
15929 being obliged to go to Randalls every day, or poor Mrs. Weston would be
15930 disappointed.
15931
15932 They arrived.--Mrs. Weston was alone in the drawing-room:--but hardly
15933 had they been told of the baby, and Mr. Woodhouse received the thanks
15934 for coming, which he asked for, when a glimpse was caught through the
15935 blind, of two figures passing near the window.
15936
15937 “It is Frank and Miss Fairfax,” said Mrs. Weston. “I was just going to
15938 tell you of our agreeable surprize in seeing him arrive this morning. He
15939 stays till to-morrow, and Miss Fairfax has been persuaded to spend the
15940 day with us.--They are coming in, I hope.”
15941
15942 In half a minute they were in the room. Emma was extremely glad to
15943 see him--but there was a degree of confusion--a number of embarrassing
15944 recollections on each side. They met readily and smiling, but with a
15945 consciousness which at first allowed little to be said; and having all
15946 sat down again, there was for some time such a blank in the circle, that
15947 Emma began to doubt whether the wish now indulged, which she had long
15948 felt, of seeing Frank Churchill once more, and of seeing him with Jane,
15949 would yield its proportion of pleasure. When Mr. Weston joined the
15950 party, however, and when the baby was fetched, there was no longer a
15951 want of subject or animation--or of courage and opportunity for Frank
15952 Churchill to draw near her and say,
15953
15954 “I have to thank you, Miss Woodhouse, for a very kind forgiving message
15955 in one of Mrs. Weston’s letters. I hope time has not made you less
15956 willing to pardon. I hope you do not retract what you then said.”
15957
15958 “No, indeed,” cried Emma, most happy to begin, “not in the least. I am
15959 particularly glad to see and shake hands with you--and to give you joy
15960 in person.”
15961
15962 He thanked her with all his heart, and continued some time to speak with
15963 serious feeling of his gratitude and happiness.
15964
15965 “Is not she looking well?” said he, turning his eyes towards Jane.
15966 “Better than she ever used to do?--You see how my father and Mrs. Weston
15967 doat upon her.”
15968
15969 But his spirits were soon rising again, and with laughing eyes, after
15970 mentioning the expected return of the Campbells, he named the name of
15971 Dixon.--Emma blushed, and forbade its being pronounced in her hearing.
15972
15973 “I can never think of it,” she cried, “without extreme shame.”
15974
15975 “The shame,” he answered, “is all mine, or ought to be. But is it
15976 possible that you had no suspicion?--I mean of late. Early, I know, you
15977 had none.”
15978
15979 “I never had the smallest, I assure you.”
15980
15981 “That appears quite wonderful. I was once very near--and I wish I
15982 had--it would have been better. But though I was always doing wrong
15983 things, they were very bad wrong things, and such as did me no
15984 service.--It would have been a much better transgression had I broken
15985 the bond of secrecy and told you every thing.”
15986
15987 “It is not now worth a regret,” said Emma.
15988
15989 “I have some hope,” resumed he, “of my uncle’s being persuaded to pay a
15990 visit at Randalls; he wants to be introduced to her. When the Campbells
15991 are returned, we shall meet them in London, and continue there, I trust,
15992 till we may carry her northward.--But now, I am at such a distance from
15993 her--is not it hard, Miss Woodhouse?--Till this morning, we have not
15994 once met since the day of reconciliation. Do not you pity me?”
15995
15996 Emma spoke her pity so very kindly, that with a sudden accession of gay
15997 thought, he cried,
15998
15999 “Ah! by the bye,” then sinking his voice, and looking demure for the
16000 moment--“I hope Mr. Knightley is well?” He paused.--She coloured and
16001 laughed.--“I know you saw my letter, and think you may remember my wish
16002 in your favour. Let me return your congratulations.--I assure you that
16003 I have heard the news with the warmest interest and satisfaction.--He is
16004 a man whom I cannot presume to praise.”
16005
16006 Emma was delighted, and only wanted him to go on in the same style; but
16007 his mind was the next moment in his own concerns and with his own Jane,
16008 and his next words were,
16009
16010 “Did you ever see such a skin?--such smoothness! such delicacy!--and
16011 yet without being actually fair.--One cannot call her fair. It is a
16012 most uncommon complexion, with her dark eye-lashes and hair--a most
16013 distinguishing complexion! So peculiarly the lady in it.--Just colour
16014 enough for beauty.”
16015
16016 “I have always admired her complexion,” replied Emma, archly; “but
16017 do not I remember the time when you found fault with her for being so
16018 pale?--When we first began to talk of her.--Have you quite forgotten?”
16019
16020 “Oh! no--what an impudent dog I was!--How could I dare--”
16021
16022 But he laughed so heartily at the recollection, that Emma could not help
16023 saying,
16024
16025 “I do suspect that in the midst of your perplexities at that time, you
16026 had very great amusement in tricking us all.--I am sure you had.--I am
16027 sure it was a consolation to you.”
16028
16029 “Oh! no, no, no--how can you suspect me of such a thing? I was the most
16030 miserable wretch!”
16031
16032 “Not quite so miserable as to be insensible to mirth. I am sure it was a
16033 source of high entertainment to you, to feel that you were taking us
16034 all in.--Perhaps I am the readier to suspect, because, to tell you the
16035 truth, I think it might have been some amusement to myself in the same
16036 situation. I think there is a little likeness between us.”
16037
16038 He bowed.
16039
16040 “If not in our dispositions,” she presently added, with a look of true
16041 sensibility, “there is a likeness in our destiny; the destiny which bids
16042 fair to connect us with two characters so much superior to our own.”
16043
16044 “True, true,” he answered, warmly. “No, not true on your side. You can
16045 have no superior, but most true on mine.--She is a complete angel. Look
16046 at her. Is not she an angel in every gesture? Observe the turn of her
16047 throat. Observe her eyes, as she is looking up at my father.--You will
16048 be glad to hear (inclining his head, and whispering seriously) that my
16049 uncle means to give her all my aunt’s jewels. They are to be new set.
16050 I am resolved to have some in an ornament for the head. Will not it be
16051 beautiful in her dark hair?”
16052
16053 “Very beautiful, indeed,” replied Emma; and she spoke so kindly, that he
16054 gratefully burst out,
16055
16056 “How delighted I am to see you again! and to see you in such excellent
16057 looks!--I would not have missed this meeting for the world. I should
16058 certainly have called at Hartfield, had you failed to come.”
16059
16060 The others had been talking of the child, Mrs. Weston giving an account
16061 of a little alarm she had been under, the evening before, from the
16062 infant’s appearing not quite well. She believed she had been foolish,
16063 but it had alarmed her, and she had been within half a minute of sending
16064 for Mr. Perry. Perhaps she ought to be ashamed, but Mr. Weston had been
16065 almost as uneasy as herself.--In ten minutes, however, the child had
16066 been perfectly well again. This was her history; and particularly
16067 interesting it was to Mr. Woodhouse, who commended her very much for
16068 thinking of sending for Perry, and only regretted that she had not done
16069 it. “She should always send for Perry, if the child appeared in the
16070 slightest degree disordered, were it only for a moment. She could not be
16071 too soon alarmed, nor send for Perry too often. It was a pity, perhaps,
16072 that he had not come last night; for, though the child seemed well now,
16073 very well considering, it would probably have been better if Perry had
16074 seen it.”
16075
16076 Frank Churchill caught the name.
16077
16078 “Perry!” said he to Emma, and trying, as he spoke, to catch Miss
16079 Fairfax’s eye. “My friend Mr. Perry! What are they saying about Mr.
16080 Perry?--Has he been here this morning?--And how does he travel now?--Has
16081 he set up his carriage?”
16082
16083 Emma soon recollected, and understood him; and while she joined in the
16084 laugh, it was evident from Jane’s countenance that she too was really
16085 hearing him, though trying to seem deaf.
16086
16087 “Such an extraordinary dream of mine!” he cried. “I can never think of
16088 it without laughing.--She hears us, she hears us, Miss Woodhouse. I see
16089 it in her cheek, her smile, her vain attempt to frown. Look at her. Do
16090 not you see that, at this instant, the very passage of her own letter,
16091 which sent me the report, is passing under her eye--that the whole
16092 blunder is spread before her--that she can attend to nothing else,
16093 though pretending to listen to the others?”
16094
16095 Jane was forced to smile completely, for a moment; and the smile partly
16096 remained as she turned towards him, and said in a conscious, low, yet
16097 steady voice,
16098
16099 “How you can bear such recollections, is astonishing to me!--They
16100 _will_ sometimes obtrude--but how you can court them!”
16101
16102 He had a great deal to say in return, and very entertainingly; but
16103 Emma’s feelings were chiefly with Jane, in the argument; and on leaving
16104 Randalls, and falling naturally into a comparison of the two men, she
16105 felt, that pleased as she had been to see Frank Churchill, and really
16106 regarding him as she did with friendship, she had never been more
16107 sensible of Mr. Knightley’s high superiority of character. The happiness
16108 of this most happy day, received its completion, in the animated
16109 contemplation of his worth which this comparison produced.
16110
16111
16112
16113 CHAPTER XIX
16114
16115
16116 If Emma had still, at intervals, an anxious feeling for Harriet, a
16117 momentary doubt of its being possible for her to be really cured of her
16118 attachment to Mr. Knightley, and really able to accept another man from
16119 unbiased inclination, it was not long that she had to suffer from the
16120 recurrence of any such uncertainty. A very few days brought the party
16121 from London, and she had no sooner an opportunity of being one hour
16122 alone with Harriet, than she became perfectly satisfied--unaccountable
16123 as it was!--that Robert Martin had thoroughly supplanted Mr. Knightley,
16124 and was now forming all her views of happiness.
16125
16126 Harriet was a little distressed--did look a little foolish at first:
16127 but having once owned that she had been presumptuous and silly, and
16128 self-deceived, before, her pain and confusion seemed to die away with
16129 the words, and leave her without a care for the past, and with the
16130 fullest exultation in the present and future; for, as to her friend’s
16131 approbation, Emma had instantly removed every fear of that nature, by
16132 meeting her with the most unqualified congratulations.--Harriet was
16133 most happy to give every particular of the evening at Astley’s, and the
16134 dinner the next day; she could dwell on it all with the utmost delight.
16135 But what did such particulars explain?--The fact was, as Emma could now
16136 acknowledge, that Harriet had always liked Robert Martin; and that his
16137 continuing to love her had been irresistible.--Beyond this, it must ever
16138 be unintelligible to Emma.
16139
16140 The event, however, was most joyful; and every day was giving her fresh
16141 reason for thinking so.--Harriet’s parentage became known. She proved
16142 to be the daughter of a tradesman, rich enough to afford her the
16143 comfortable maintenance which had ever been hers, and decent enough to
16144 have always wished for concealment.--Such was the blood of gentility
16145 which Emma had formerly been so ready to vouch for!--It was likely to
16146 be as untainted, perhaps, as the blood of many a gentleman: but what
16147 a connexion had she been preparing for Mr. Knightley--or for the
16148 Churchills--or even for Mr. Elton!--The stain of illegitimacy,
16149 unbleached by nobility or wealth, would have been a stain indeed.
16150
16151 No objection was raised on the father’s side; the young man was treated
16152 liberally; it was all as it should be: and as Emma became acquainted
16153 with Robert Martin, who was now introduced at Hartfield, she fully
16154 acknowledged in him all the appearance of sense and worth which could
16155 bid fairest for her little friend. She had no doubt of Harriet’s
16156 happiness with any good-tempered man; but with him, and in the home he
16157 offered, there would be the hope of more, of security, stability, and
16158 improvement. She would be placed in the midst of those who loved her,
16159 and who had better sense than herself; retired enough for safety,
16160 and occupied enough for cheerfulness. She would be never led into
16161 temptation, nor left for it to find her out. She would be respectable
16162 and happy; and Emma admitted her to be the luckiest creature in the
16163 world, to have created so steady and persevering an affection in such a
16164 man;--or, if not quite the luckiest, to yield only to herself.
16165
16166 Harriet, necessarily drawn away by her engagements with the Martins,
16167 was less and less at Hartfield; which was not to be regretted.--The
16168 intimacy between her and Emma must sink; their friendship must change
16169 into a calmer sort of goodwill; and, fortunately, what ought to be,
16170 and must be, seemed already beginning, and in the most gradual, natural
16171 manner.
16172
16173 Before the end of September, Emma attended Harriet to church, and saw
16174 her hand bestowed on Robert Martin with so complete a satisfaction, as
16175 no remembrances, even connected with Mr. Elton as he stood before them,
16176 could impair.--Perhaps, indeed, at that time she scarcely saw Mr. Elton,
16177 but as the clergyman whose blessing at the altar might next fall on
16178 herself.--Robert Martin and Harriet Smith, the latest couple engaged of
16179 the three, were the first to be married.
16180
16181 Jane Fairfax had already quitted Highbury, and was restored to the
16182 comforts of her beloved home with the Campbells.--The Mr. Churchills
16183 were also in town; and they were only waiting for November.
16184
16185 The intermediate month was the one fixed on, as far as they dared, by
16186 Emma and Mr. Knightley.--They had determined that their marriage ought
16187 to be concluded while John and Isabella were still at Hartfield, to
16188 allow them the fortnight’s absence in a tour to the seaside, which was
16189 the plan.--John and Isabella, and every other friend, were agreed in
16190 approving it. But Mr. Woodhouse--how was Mr. Woodhouse to be induced
16191 to consent?--he, who had never yet alluded to their marriage but as a
16192 distant event.
16193
16194 When first sounded on the subject, he was so miserable, that they were
16195 almost hopeless.--A second allusion, indeed, gave less pain.--He
16196 began to think it was to be, and that he could not prevent it--a very
16197 promising step of the mind on its way to resignation. Still, however, he
16198 was not happy. Nay, he appeared so much otherwise, that his daughter’s
16199 courage failed. She could not bear to see him suffering, to know
16200 him fancying himself neglected; and though her understanding almost
16201 acquiesced in the assurance of both the Mr. Knightleys, that when
16202 once the event were over, his distress would be soon over too, she
16203 hesitated--she could not proceed.
16204
16205 In this state of suspense they were befriended, not by any sudden
16206 illumination of Mr. Woodhouse’s mind, or any wonderful change of his
16207 nervous system, but by the operation of the same system in another
16208 way.--Mrs. Weston’s poultry-house was robbed one night of all her
16209 turkeys--evidently by the ingenuity of man. Other poultry-yards in
16210 the neighbourhood also suffered.--Pilfering was _housebreaking_ to Mr.
16211 Woodhouse’s fears.--He was very uneasy; and but for the sense of his
16212 son-in-law’s protection, would have been under wretched alarm every
16213 night of his life. The strength, resolution, and presence of mind of the
16214 Mr. Knightleys, commanded his fullest dependence. While either of them
16215 protected him and his, Hartfield was safe.--But Mr. John Knightley must
16216 be in London again by the end of the first week in November.
16217
16218 The result of this distress was, that, with a much more voluntary,
16219 cheerful consent than his daughter had ever presumed to hope for at the
16220 moment, she was able to fix her wedding-day--and Mr. Elton was called
16221 on, within a month from the marriage of Mr. and Mrs. Robert Martin, to
16222 join the hands of Mr. Knightley and Miss Woodhouse.
16223
16224 The wedding was very much like other weddings, where the parties have
16225 no taste for finery or parade; and Mrs. Elton, from the particulars
16226 detailed by her husband, thought it all extremely shabby, and very
16227 inferior to her own.--“Very little white satin, very few lace veils; a
16228 most pitiful business!--Selina would stare when she heard of it.”--But,
16229 in spite of these deficiencies, the wishes, the hopes, the confidence,
16230 the predictions of the small band of true friends who witnessed the
16231 ceremony, were fully answered in the perfect happiness of the union.
16232
16233
16234
16235 FINIS