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2 EMMA
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4 By Jane Austen
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9 VOLUME I
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13 CHAPTER I
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16 Emma Woodhouse, handsome, clever, and rich, with a comfortable home
17 and happy disposition, seemed to unite some of the best blessings of
18 existence; and had lived nearly twenty-one years in the world with very
19 little to distress or vex her.
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21 She was the youngest of the two daughters of a most affectionate,
22 indulgent father; and had, in consequence of her sister’s marriage, been
23 mistress of his house from a very early period. Her mother had died
24 too long ago for her to have more than an indistinct remembrance of
25 her caresses; and her place had been supplied by an excellent woman as
26 governess, who had fallen little short of a mother in affection.
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28 Sixteen years had Miss Taylor been in Mr. Woodhouse’s family, less as a
29 governess than a friend, very fond of both daughters, but particularly
30 of Emma. Between _them_ it was more the intimacy of sisters. Even before
31 Miss Taylor had ceased to hold the nominal office of governess, the
32 mildness of her temper had hardly allowed her to impose any restraint;
33 and the shadow of authority being now long passed away, they had been
34 living together as friend and friend very mutually attached, and Emma
35 doing just what she liked; highly esteeming Miss Taylor’s judgment, but
36 directed chiefly by her own.
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38 The real evils, indeed, of Emma’s situation were the power of having
39 rather too much her own way, and a disposition to think a little too
40 well of herself; these were the disadvantages which threatened alloy to
41 her many enjoyments. The danger, however, was at present so unperceived,
42 that they did not by any means rank as misfortunes with her.
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44 Sorrow came--a gentle sorrow--but not at all in the shape of any
45 disagreeable consciousness.--Miss Taylor married. It was Miss Taylor’s
46 loss which first brought grief. It was on the wedding-day of this
47 beloved friend that Emma first sat in mournful thought of any
48 continuance. The wedding over, and the bride-people gone, her father and
49 herself were left to dine together, with no prospect of a third to cheer
50 a long evening. Her father composed himself to sleep after dinner, as
51 usual, and she had then only to sit and think of what she had lost.
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53 The event had every promise of happiness for her friend. Mr. Weston
54 was a man of unexceptionable character, easy fortune, suitable age, and
55 pleasant manners; and there was some satisfaction in considering
56 with what self-denying, generous friendship she had always wished and
57 promoted the match; but it was a black morning’s work for her. The want
58 of Miss Taylor would be felt every hour of every day. She recalled her
59 past kindness--the kindness, the affection of sixteen years--how she had
60 taught and how she had played with her from five years old--how she had
61 devoted all her powers to attach and amuse her in health--and how
62 nursed her through the various illnesses of childhood. A large debt of
63 gratitude was owing here; but the intercourse of the last seven
64 years, the equal footing and perfect unreserve which had soon followed
65 Isabella’s marriage, on their being left to each other, was yet a
66 dearer, tenderer recollection. She had been a friend and companion such
67 as few possessed: intelligent, well-informed, useful, gentle, knowing
68 all the ways of the family, interested in all its concerns, and
69 peculiarly interested in herself, in every pleasure, every scheme of
70 hers--one to whom she could speak every thought as it arose, and who had
71 such an affection for her as could never find fault.
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73 How was she to bear the change?--It was true that her friend was going
74 only half a mile from them; but Emma was aware that great must be the
75 difference between a Mrs. Weston, only half a mile from them, and a Miss
76 Taylor in the house; and with all her advantages, natural and domestic,
77 she was now in great danger of suffering from intellectual solitude. She
78 dearly loved her father, but he was no companion for her. He could not
79 meet her in conversation, rational or playful.
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81 The evil of the actual disparity in their ages (and Mr. Woodhouse had
82 not married early) was much increased by his constitution and habits;
83 for having been a valetudinarian all his life, without activity of
84 mind or body, he was a much older man in ways than in years; and though
85 everywhere beloved for the friendliness of his heart and his amiable
86 temper, his talents could not have recommended him at any time.
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88 Her sister, though comparatively but little removed by matrimony, being
89 settled in London, only sixteen miles off, was much beyond her daily
90 reach; and many a long October and November evening must be struggled
91 through at Hartfield, before Christmas brought the next visit from
92 Isabella and her husband, and their little children, to fill the house,
93 and give her pleasant society again.
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95 Highbury, the large and populous village, almost amounting to a town,
96 to which Hartfield, in spite of its separate lawn, and shrubberies, and
97 name, did really belong, afforded her no equals. The Woodhouses
98 were first in consequence there. All looked up to them. She had many
99 acquaintance in the place, for her father was universally civil, but
100 not one among them who could be accepted in lieu of Miss Taylor for even
101 half a day. It was a melancholy change; and Emma could not but sigh over
102 it, and wish for impossible things, till her father awoke, and made it
103 necessary to be cheerful. His spirits required support. He was a nervous
104 man, easily depressed; fond of every body that he was used to, and
105 hating to part with them; hating change of every kind. Matrimony, as the
106 origin of change, was always disagreeable; and he was by no means yet
107 reconciled to his own daughter’s marrying, nor could ever speak of her
108 but with compassion, though it had been entirely a match of affection,
109 when he was now obliged to part with Miss Taylor too; and from his
110 habits of gentle selfishness, and of being never able to suppose that
111 other people could feel differently from himself, he was very much
112 disposed to think Miss Taylor had done as sad a thing for herself as for
113 them, and would have been a great deal happier if she had spent all the
114 rest of her life at Hartfield. Emma smiled and chatted as cheerfully
115 as she could, to keep him from such thoughts; but when tea came, it was
116 impossible for him not to say exactly as he had said at dinner,
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118 “Poor Miss Taylor!--I wish she were here again. What a pity it is that
119 Mr. Weston ever thought of her!”
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121 “I cannot agree with you, papa; you know I cannot. Mr. Weston is such
122 a good-humoured, pleasant, excellent man, that he thoroughly deserves
123 a good wife;--and you would not have had Miss Taylor live with us for
124 ever, and bear all my odd humours, when she might have a house of her
125 own?”
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127 “A house of her own!--But where is the advantage of a house of her own?
128 This is three times as large.--And you have never any odd humours, my
129 dear.”
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131 “How often we shall be going to see them, and they coming to see us!--We
132 shall be always meeting! _We_ must begin; we must go and pay wedding
133 visit very soon.”
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135 “My dear, how am I to get so far? Randalls is such a distance. I could
136 not walk half so far.”
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138 “No, papa, nobody thought of your walking. We must go in the carriage,
139 to be sure.”
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141 “The carriage! But James will not like to put the horses to for such a
142 little way;--and where are the poor horses to be while we are paying our
143 visit?”
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145 “They are to be put into Mr. Weston’s stable, papa. You know we have
146 settled all that already. We talked it all over with Mr. Weston last
147 night. And as for James, you may be very sure he will always like going
148 to Randalls, because of his daughter’s being housemaid there. I only
149 doubt whether he will ever take us anywhere else. That was your doing,
150 papa. You got Hannah that good place. Nobody thought of Hannah till you
151 mentioned her--James is so obliged to you!”
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153 “I am very glad I did think of her. It was very lucky, for I would not
154 have had poor James think himself slighted upon any account; and I am
155 sure she will make a very good servant: she is a civil, pretty-spoken
156 girl; I have a great opinion of her. Whenever I see her, she always
157 curtseys and asks me how I do, in a very pretty manner; and when you
158 have had her here to do needlework, I observe she always turns the lock
159 of the door the right way and never bangs it. I am sure she will be an
160 excellent servant; and it will be a great comfort to poor Miss Taylor
161 to have somebody about her that she is used to see. Whenever James goes
162 over to see his daughter, you know, she will be hearing of us. He will
163 be able to tell her how we all are.”
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165 Emma spared no exertions to maintain this happier flow of ideas, and
166 hoped, by the help of backgammon, to get her father tolerably
167 through the evening, and be attacked by no regrets but her own. The
168 backgammon-table was placed; but a visitor immediately afterwards walked
169 in and made it unnecessary.
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171 Mr. Knightley, a sensible man about seven or eight-and-thirty, was not
172 only a very old and intimate friend of the family, but particularly
173 connected with it, as the elder brother of Isabella’s husband. He lived
174 about a mile from Highbury, was a frequent visitor, and always welcome,
175 and at this time more welcome than usual, as coming directly from their
176 mutual connexions in London. He had returned to a late dinner, after
177 some days’ absence, and now walked up to Hartfield to say that all were
178 well in Brunswick Square. It was a happy circumstance, and animated
179 Mr. Woodhouse for some time. Mr. Knightley had a cheerful manner, which
180 always did him good; and his many inquiries after “poor Isabella” and
181 her children were answered most satisfactorily. When this was over, Mr.
182 Woodhouse gratefully observed, “It is very kind of you, Mr. Knightley,
183 to come out at this late hour to call upon us. I am afraid you must have
184 had a shocking walk.”
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186 “Not at all, sir. It is a beautiful moonlight night; and so mild that I
187 must draw back from your great fire.”
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189 “But you must have found it very damp and dirty. I wish you may not
190 catch cold.”
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192 “Dirty, sir! Look at my shoes. Not a speck on them.”
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194 “Well! that is quite surprising, for we have had a vast deal of rain
195 here. It rained dreadfully hard for half an hour while we were at
196 breakfast. I wanted them to put off the wedding.”
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198 “By the bye--I have not wished you joy. Being pretty well aware of what
199 sort of joy you must both be feeling, I have been in no hurry with my
200 congratulations; but I hope it all went off tolerably well. How did you
201 all behave? Who cried most?”
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203 “Ah! poor Miss Taylor! ‘Tis a sad business.”
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205 “Poor Mr. and Miss Woodhouse, if you please; but I cannot possibly say
206 ‘poor Miss Taylor.’ I have a great regard for you and Emma; but when it
207 comes to the question of dependence or independence!--At any rate, it
208 must be better to have only one to please than two.”
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210 “Especially when _one_ of those two is such a fanciful, troublesome
211 creature!” said Emma playfully. “That is what you have in your head, I
212 know--and what you would certainly say if my father were not by.”
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214 “I believe it is very true, my dear, indeed,” said Mr. Woodhouse, with a
215 sigh. “I am afraid I am sometimes very fanciful and troublesome.”
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217 “My dearest papa! You do not think I could mean _you_, or suppose Mr.
218 Knightley to mean _you_. What a horrible idea! Oh no! I meant only
219 myself. Mr. Knightley loves to find fault with me, you know--in a
220 joke--it is all a joke. We always say what we like to one another.”
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222 Mr. Knightley, in fact, was one of the few people who could see faults
223 in Emma Woodhouse, and the only one who ever told her of them: and
224 though this was not particularly agreeable to Emma herself, she knew
225 it would be so much less so to her father, that she would not have him
226 really suspect such a circumstance as her not being thought perfect by
227 every body.
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229 “Emma knows I never flatter her,” said Mr. Knightley, “but I meant no
230 reflection on any body. Miss Taylor has been used to have two persons
231 to please; she will now have but one. The chances are that she must be a
232 gainer.”
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234 “Well,” said Emma, willing to let it pass--“you want to hear about
235 the wedding; and I shall be happy to tell you, for we all behaved
236 charmingly. Every body was punctual, every body in their best looks: not
237 a tear, and hardly a long face to be seen. Oh no; we all felt that we
238 were going to be only half a mile apart, and were sure of meeting every
239 day.”
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241 “Dear Emma bears every thing so well,” said her father. “But, Mr.
242 Knightley, she is really very sorry to lose poor Miss Taylor, and I am
243 sure she _will_ miss her more than she thinks for.”
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245 Emma turned away her head, divided between tears and smiles. “It
246 is impossible that Emma should not miss such a companion,” said Mr.
247 Knightley. “We should not like her so well as we do, sir, if we could
248 suppose it; but she knows how much the marriage is to Miss Taylor’s
249 advantage; she knows how very acceptable it must be, at Miss Taylor’s
250 time of life, to be settled in a home of her own, and how important to
251 her to be secure of a comfortable provision, and therefore cannot allow
252 herself to feel so much pain as pleasure. Every friend of Miss Taylor
253 must be glad to have her so happily married.”
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255 “And you have forgotten one matter of joy to me,” said Emma, “and a very
256 considerable one--that I made the match myself. I made the match, you
257 know, four years ago; and to have it take place, and be proved in the
258 right, when so many people said Mr. Weston would never marry again, may
259 comfort me for any thing.”
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261 Mr. Knightley shook his head at her. Her father fondly replied, “Ah!
262 my dear, I wish you would not make matches and foretell things, for
263 whatever you say always comes to pass. Pray do not make any more
264 matches.”
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266 “I promise you to make none for myself, papa; but I must, indeed, for
267 other people. It is the greatest amusement in the world! And after such
268 success, you know!--Every body said that Mr. Weston would never marry
269 again. Oh dear, no! Mr. Weston, who had been a widower so long, and who
270 seemed so perfectly comfortable without a wife, so constantly occupied
271 either in his business in town or among his friends here, always
272 acceptable wherever he went, always cheerful--Mr. Weston need not spend
273 a single evening in the year alone if he did not like it. Oh no! Mr.
274 Weston certainly would never marry again. Some people even talked of a
275 promise to his wife on her deathbed, and others of the son and the
276 uncle not letting him. All manner of solemn nonsense was talked on the
277 subject, but I believed none of it.
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279 “Ever since the day--about four years ago--that Miss Taylor and I met
280 with him in Broadway Lane, when, because it began to drizzle, he darted
281 away with so much gallantry, and borrowed two umbrellas for us from
282 Farmer Mitchell’s, I made up my mind on the subject. I planned the match
283 from that hour; and when such success has blessed me in this instance,
284 dear papa, you cannot think that I shall leave off match-making.”
285
286 “I do not understand what you mean by ‘success,’” said Mr. Knightley.
287 “Success supposes endeavour. Your time has been properly and delicately
288 spent, if you have been endeavouring for the last four years to bring
289 about this marriage. A worthy employment for a young lady’s mind! But
290 if, which I rather imagine, your making the match, as you call it, means
291 only your planning it, your saying to yourself one idle day, ‘I think it
292 would be a very good thing for Miss Taylor if Mr. Weston were to marry
293 her,’ and saying it again to yourself every now and then afterwards, why
294 do you talk of success? Where is your merit? What are you proud of? You
295 made a lucky guess; and _that_ is all that can be said.”
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297 “And have you never known the pleasure and triumph of a lucky guess?--I
298 pity you.--I thought you cleverer--for, depend upon it a lucky guess is
299 never merely luck. There is always some talent in it. And as to my
300 poor word ‘success,’ which you quarrel with, I do not know that I am so
301 entirely without any claim to it. You have drawn two pretty pictures;
302 but I think there may be a third--a something between the do-nothing and
303 the do-all. If I had not promoted Mr. Weston’s visits here, and given
304 many little encouragements, and smoothed many little matters, it might
305 not have come to any thing after all. I think you must know Hartfield
306 enough to comprehend that.”
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308 “A straightforward, open-hearted man like Weston, and a rational,
309 unaffected woman like Miss Taylor, may be safely left to manage their
310 own concerns. You are more likely to have done harm to yourself, than
311 good to them, by interference.”
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313 “Emma never thinks of herself, if she can do good to others,” rejoined
314 Mr. Woodhouse, understanding but in part. “But, my dear, pray do not
315 make any more matches; they are silly things, and break up one’s family
316 circle grievously.”
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318 “Only one more, papa; only for Mr. Elton. Poor Mr. Elton! You like Mr.
319 Elton, papa,--I must look about for a wife for him. There is nobody in
320 Highbury who deserves him--and he has been here a whole year, and has
321 fitted up his house so comfortably, that it would be a shame to have him
322 single any longer--and I thought when he was joining their hands to-day,
323 he looked so very much as if he would like to have the same kind office
324 done for him! I think very well of Mr. Elton, and this is the only way I
325 have of doing him a service.”
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327 “Mr. Elton is a very pretty young man, to be sure, and a very good young
328 man, and I have a great regard for him. But if you want to shew him any
329 attention, my dear, ask him to come and dine with us some day. That will
330 be a much better thing. I dare say Mr. Knightley will be so kind as to
331 meet him.”
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333 “With a great deal of pleasure, sir, at any time,” said Mr. Knightley,
334 laughing, “and I agree with you entirely, that it will be a much better
335 thing. Invite him to dinner, Emma, and help him to the best of the fish
336 and the chicken, but leave him to chuse his own wife. Depend upon it, a
337 man of six or seven-and-twenty can take care of himself.”
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341 CHAPTER II
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344 Mr. Weston was a native of Highbury, and born of a respectable family,
345 which for the last two or three generations had been rising into
346 gentility and property. He had received a good education, but, on
347 succeeding early in life to a small independence, had become indisposed
348 for any of the more homely pursuits in which his brothers were engaged,
349 and had satisfied an active, cheerful mind and social temper by entering
350 into the militia of his county, then embodied.
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352 Captain Weston was a general favourite; and when the chances of his
353 military life had introduced him to Miss Churchill, of a great Yorkshire
354 family, and Miss Churchill fell in love with him, nobody was surprized,
355 except her brother and his wife, who had never seen him, and who were
356 full of pride and importance, which the connexion would offend.
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358 Miss Churchill, however, being of age, and with the full command of her
359 fortune--though her fortune bore no proportion to the family-estate--was
360 not to be dissuaded from the marriage, and it took place, to the
361 infinite mortification of Mr. and Mrs. Churchill, who threw her off with
362 due decorum. It was an unsuitable connexion, and did not produce much
363 happiness. Mrs. Weston ought to have found more in it, for she had a
364 husband whose warm heart and sweet temper made him think every thing due
365 to her in return for the great goodness of being in love with him;
366 but though she had one sort of spirit, she had not the best. She had
367 resolution enough to pursue her own will in spite of her brother,
368 but not enough to refrain from unreasonable regrets at that brother’s
369 unreasonable anger, nor from missing the luxuries of her former home.
370 They lived beyond their income, but still it was nothing in comparison
371 of Enscombe: she did not cease to love her husband, but she wanted at
372 once to be the wife of Captain Weston, and Miss Churchill of Enscombe.
373
374 Captain Weston, who had been considered, especially by the Churchills,
375 as making such an amazing match, was proved to have much the worst of
376 the bargain; for when his wife died, after a three years’ marriage, he
377 was rather a poorer man than at first, and with a child to maintain.
378 From the expense of the child, however, he was soon relieved. The boy
379 had, with the additional softening claim of a lingering illness of his
380 mother’s, been the means of a sort of reconciliation; and Mr. and Mrs.
381 Churchill, having no children of their own, nor any other young creature
382 of equal kindred to care for, offered to take the whole charge of the
383 little Frank soon after her decease. Some scruples and some reluctance
384 the widower-father may be supposed to have felt; but as they were
385 overcome by other considerations, the child was given up to the care and
386 the wealth of the Churchills, and he had only his own comfort to seek,
387 and his own situation to improve as he could.
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389 A complete change of life became desirable. He quitted the militia and
390 engaged in trade, having brothers already established in a good way in
391 London, which afforded him a favourable opening. It was a concern which
392 brought just employment enough. He had still a small house in Highbury,
393 where most of his leisure days were spent; and between useful occupation
394 and the pleasures of society, the next eighteen or twenty years of his
395 life passed cheerfully away. He had, by that time, realised an easy
396 competence--enough to secure the purchase of a little estate adjoining
397 Highbury, which he had always longed for--enough to marry a woman as
398 portionless even as Miss Taylor, and to live according to the wishes of
399 his own friendly and social disposition.
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401 It was now some time since Miss Taylor had begun to influence his
402 schemes; but as it was not the tyrannic influence of youth on youth,
403 it had not shaken his determination of never settling till he could
404 purchase Randalls, and the sale of Randalls was long looked forward to;
405 but he had gone steadily on, with these objects in view, till they were
406 accomplished. He had made his fortune, bought his house, and obtained
407 his wife; and was beginning a new period of existence, with every
408 probability of greater happiness than in any yet passed through. He had
409 never been an unhappy man; his own temper had secured him from that,
410 even in his first marriage; but his second must shew him how delightful
411 a well-judging and truly amiable woman could be, and must give him the
412 pleasantest proof of its being a great deal better to choose than to be
413 chosen, to excite gratitude than to feel it.
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415 He had only himself to please in his choice: his fortune was his own;
416 for as to Frank, it was more than being tacitly brought up as his
417 uncle’s heir, it had become so avowed an adoption as to have him assume
418 the name of Churchill on coming of age. It was most unlikely, therefore,
419 that he should ever want his father’s assistance. His father had no
420 apprehension of it. The aunt was a capricious woman, and governed her
421 husband entirely; but it was not in Mr. Weston’s nature to imagine that
422 any caprice could be strong enough to affect one so dear, and, as he
423 believed, so deservedly dear. He saw his son every year in London, and
424 was proud of him; and his fond report of him as a very fine young man
425 had made Highbury feel a sort of pride in him too. He was looked on as
426 sufficiently belonging to the place to make his merits and prospects a
427 kind of common concern.
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429 Mr. Frank Churchill was one of the boasts of Highbury, and a lively
430 curiosity to see him prevailed, though the compliment was so little
431 returned that he had never been there in his life. His coming to visit
432 his father had been often talked of but never achieved.
433
434 Now, upon his father’s marriage, it was very generally proposed, as a
435 most proper attention, that the visit should take place. There was not a
436 dissentient voice on the subject, either when Mrs. Perry drank tea with
437 Mrs. and Miss Bates, or when Mrs. and Miss Bates returned the visit. Now
438 was the time for Mr. Frank Churchill to come among them; and the hope
439 strengthened when it was understood that he had written to his new
440 mother on the occasion. For a few days, every morning visit in Highbury
441 included some mention of the handsome letter Mrs. Weston had received.
442 “I suppose you have heard of the handsome letter Mr. Frank Churchill
443 has written to Mrs. Weston? I understand it was a very handsome letter,
444 indeed. Mr. Woodhouse told me of it. Mr. Woodhouse saw the letter, and
445 he says he never saw such a handsome letter in his life.”
446
447 It was, indeed, a highly prized letter. Mrs. Weston had, of course,
448 formed a very favourable idea of the young man; and such a pleasing
449 attention was an irresistible proof of his great good sense, and a most
450 welcome addition to every source and every expression of congratulation
451 which her marriage had already secured. She felt herself a most
452 fortunate woman; and she had lived long enough to know how fortunate
453 she might well be thought, where the only regret was for a partial
454 separation from friends whose friendship for her had never cooled, and
455 who could ill bear to part with her.
456
457 She knew that at times she must be missed; and could not think, without
458 pain, of Emma’s losing a single pleasure, or suffering an hour’s ennui,
459 from the want of her companionableness: but dear Emma was of no feeble
460 character; she was more equal to her situation than most girls would
461 have been, and had sense, and energy, and spirits that might be hoped
462 would bear her well and happily through its little difficulties and
463 privations. And then there was such comfort in the very easy distance of
464 Randalls from Hartfield, so convenient for even solitary female walking,
465 and in Mr. Weston’s disposition and circumstances, which would make the
466 approaching season no hindrance to their spending half the evenings in
467 the week together.
468
469 Her situation was altogether the subject of hours of gratitude to Mrs.
470 Weston, and of moments only of regret; and her satisfaction--her more
471 than satisfaction--her cheerful enjoyment, was so just and so apparent,
472 that Emma, well as she knew her father, was sometimes taken by surprize
473 at his being still able to pity ‘poor Miss Taylor,’ when they left her
474 at Randalls in the centre of every domestic comfort, or saw her go away
475 in the evening attended by her pleasant husband to a carriage of her
476 own. But never did she go without Mr. Woodhouse’s giving a gentle sigh,
477 and saying, “Ah, poor Miss Taylor! She would be very glad to stay.”
478
479 There was no recovering Miss Taylor--nor much likelihood of ceasing to
480 pity her; but a few weeks brought some alleviation to Mr. Woodhouse.
481 The compliments of his neighbours were over; he was no longer teased by
482 being wished joy of so sorrowful an event; and the wedding-cake, which
483 had been a great distress to him, was all eat up. His own stomach
484 could bear nothing rich, and he could never believe other people to be
485 different from himself. What was unwholesome to him he regarded as unfit
486 for any body; and he had, therefore, earnestly tried to dissuade them
487 from having any wedding-cake at all, and when that proved vain, as
488 earnestly tried to prevent any body’s eating it. He had been at the
489 pains of consulting Mr. Perry, the apothecary, on the subject. Mr. Perry
490 was an intelligent, gentlemanlike man, whose frequent visits were one
491 of the comforts of Mr. Woodhouse’s life; and upon being applied to, he
492 could not but acknowledge (though it seemed rather against the bias
493 of inclination) that wedding-cake might certainly disagree with
494 many--perhaps with most people, unless taken moderately. With such an
495 opinion, in confirmation of his own, Mr. Woodhouse hoped to influence
496 every visitor of the newly married pair; but still the cake was eaten;
497 and there was no rest for his benevolent nerves till it was all gone.
498
499 There was a strange rumour in Highbury of all the little Perrys being
500 seen with a slice of Mrs. Weston’s wedding-cake in their hands: but Mr.
501 Woodhouse would never believe it.
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505 CHAPTER III
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508 Mr. Woodhouse was fond of society in his own way. He liked very much to
509 have his friends come and see him; and from various united causes, from
510 his long residence at Hartfield, and his good nature, from his fortune,
511 his house, and his daughter, he could command the visits of his
512 own little circle, in a great measure, as he liked. He had not much
513 intercourse with any families beyond that circle; his horror of late
514 hours, and large dinner-parties, made him unfit for any acquaintance but
515 such as would visit him on his own terms. Fortunately for him, Highbury,
516 including Randalls in the same parish, and Donwell Abbey in the parish
517 adjoining, the seat of Mr. Knightley, comprehended many such. Not
518 unfrequently, through Emma’s persuasion, he had some of the chosen and
519 the best to dine with him: but evening parties were what he preferred;
520 and, unless he fancied himself at any time unequal to company, there
521 was scarcely an evening in the week in which Emma could not make up a
522 card-table for him.
523
524 Real, long-standing regard brought the Westons and Mr. Knightley; and by
525 Mr. Elton, a young man living alone without liking it, the privilege
526 of exchanging any vacant evening of his own blank solitude for the
527 elegancies and society of Mr. Woodhouse’s drawing-room, and the smiles
528 of his lovely daughter, was in no danger of being thrown away.
529
530 After these came a second set; among the most come-at-able of whom were
531 Mrs. and Miss Bates, and Mrs. Goddard, three ladies almost always at
532 the service of an invitation from Hartfield, and who were fetched and
533 carried home so often, that Mr. Woodhouse thought it no hardship for
534 either James or the horses. Had it taken place only once a year, it
535 would have been a grievance.
536
537 Mrs. Bates, the widow of a former vicar of Highbury, was a very old
538 lady, almost past every thing but tea and quadrille. She lived with her
539 single daughter in a very small way, and was considered with all the
540 regard and respect which a harmless old lady, under such untoward
541 circumstances, can excite. Her daughter enjoyed a most uncommon degree
542 of popularity for a woman neither young, handsome, rich, nor married.
543 Miss Bates stood in the very worst predicament in the world for having
544 much of the public favour; and she had no intellectual superiority to
545 make atonement to herself, or frighten those who might hate her into
546 outward respect. She had never boasted either beauty or cleverness. Her
547 youth had passed without distinction, and her middle of life was devoted
548 to the care of a failing mother, and the endeavour to make a small
549 income go as far as possible. And yet she was a happy woman, and a woman
550 whom no one named without good-will. It was her own universal good-will
551 and contented temper which worked such wonders. She loved every body,
552 was interested in every body’s happiness, quicksighted to every body’s
553 merits; thought herself a most fortunate creature, and surrounded with
554 blessings in such an excellent mother, and so many good neighbours
555 and friends, and a home that wanted for nothing. The simplicity and
556 cheerfulness of her nature, her contented and grateful spirit, were a
557 recommendation to every body, and a mine of felicity to herself. She was
558 a great talker upon little matters, which exactly suited Mr. Woodhouse,
559 full of trivial communications and harmless gossip.
560
561 Mrs. Goddard was the mistress of a School--not of a seminary, or an
562 establishment, or any thing which professed, in long sentences of
563 refined nonsense, to combine liberal acquirements with elegant morality,
564 upon new principles and new systems--and where young ladies for enormous
565 pay might be screwed out of health and into vanity--but a real,
566 honest, old-fashioned Boarding-school, where a reasonable quantity of
567 accomplishments were sold at a reasonable price, and where girls might
568 be sent to be out of the way, and scramble themselves into a little
569 education, without any danger of coming back prodigies. Mrs. Goddard’s
570 school was in high repute--and very deservedly; for Highbury was
571 reckoned a particularly healthy spot: she had an ample house and garden,
572 gave the children plenty of wholesome food, let them run about a great
573 deal in the summer, and in winter dressed their chilblains with her own
574 hands. It was no wonder that a train of twenty young couple now walked
575 after her to church. She was a plain, motherly kind of woman, who
576 had worked hard in her youth, and now thought herself entitled to the
577 occasional holiday of a tea-visit; and having formerly owed much to Mr.
578 Woodhouse’s kindness, felt his particular claim on her to leave her neat
579 parlour, hung round with fancy-work, whenever she could, and win or lose
580 a few sixpences by his fireside.
581
582 These were the ladies whom Emma found herself very frequently able to
583 collect; and happy was she, for her father’s sake, in the power; though,
584 as far as she was herself concerned, it was no remedy for the absence of
585 Mrs. Weston. She was delighted to see her father look comfortable, and
586 very much pleased with herself for contriving things so well; but the
587 quiet prosings of three such women made her feel that every evening so
588 spent was indeed one of the long evenings she had fearfully anticipated.
589
590 As she sat one morning, looking forward to exactly such a close of the
591 present day, a note was brought from Mrs. Goddard, requesting, in most
592 respectful terms, to be allowed to bring Miss Smith with her; a most
593 welcome request: for Miss Smith was a girl of seventeen, whom Emma knew
594 very well by sight, and had long felt an interest in, on account of
595 her beauty. A very gracious invitation was returned, and the evening no
596 longer dreaded by the fair mistress of the mansion.
597
598 Harriet Smith was the natural daughter of somebody. Somebody had placed
599 her, several years back, at Mrs. Goddard’s school, and somebody
600 had lately raised her from the condition of scholar to that of
601 parlour-boarder. This was all that was generally known of her history.
602 She had no visible friends but what had been acquired at Highbury, and
603 was now just returned from a long visit in the country to some young
604 ladies who had been at school there with her.
605
606 She was a very pretty girl, and her beauty happened to be of a sort
607 which Emma particularly admired. She was short, plump, and fair, with a
608 fine bloom, blue eyes, light hair, regular features, and a look of great
609 sweetness, and, before the end of the evening, Emma was as much pleased
610 with her manners as her person, and quite determined to continue the
611 acquaintance.
612
613 She was not struck by any thing remarkably clever in Miss Smith’s
614 conversation, but she found her altogether very engaging--not
615 inconveniently shy, not unwilling to talk--and yet so far from pushing,
616 shewing so proper and becoming a deference, seeming so pleasantly
617 grateful for being admitted to Hartfield, and so artlessly impressed
618 by the appearance of every thing in so superior a style to what she had
619 been used to, that she must have good sense, and deserve encouragement.
620 Encouragement should be given. Those soft blue eyes, and all those
621 natural graces, should not be wasted on the inferior society of Highbury
622 and its connexions. The acquaintance she had already formed were
623 unworthy of her. The friends from whom she had just parted, though very
624 good sort of people, must be doing her harm. They were a family of the
625 name of Martin, whom Emma well knew by character, as renting a large
626 farm of Mr. Knightley, and residing in the parish of Donwell--very
627 creditably, she believed--she knew Mr. Knightley thought highly of
628 them--but they must be coarse and unpolished, and very unfit to be the
629 intimates of a girl who wanted only a little more knowledge and elegance
630 to be quite perfect. _She_ would notice her; she would improve her; she
631 would detach her from her bad acquaintance, and introduce her into good
632 society; she would form her opinions and her manners. It would be an
633 interesting, and certainly a very kind undertaking; highly becoming her
634 own situation in life, her leisure, and powers.
635
636 She was so busy in admiring those soft blue eyes, in talking and
637 listening, and forming all these schemes in the in-betweens, that the
638 evening flew away at a very unusual rate; and the supper-table, which
639 always closed such parties, and for which she had been used to sit and
640 watch the due time, was all set out and ready, and moved forwards to the
641 fire, before she was aware. With an alacrity beyond the common impulse
642 of a spirit which yet was never indifferent to the credit of doing every
643 thing well and attentively, with the real good-will of a mind delighted
644 with its own ideas, did she then do all the honours of the meal, and
645 help and recommend the minced chicken and scalloped oysters, with an
646 urgency which she knew would be acceptable to the early hours and civil
647 scruples of their guests.
648
649 Upon such occasions poor Mr. Woodhouse’s feelings were in sad warfare.
650 He loved to have the cloth laid, because it had been the fashion of his
651 youth, but his conviction of suppers being very unwholesome made him
652 rather sorry to see any thing put on it; and while his hospitality would
653 have welcomed his visitors to every thing, his care for their health
654 made him grieve that they would eat.
655
656 Such another small basin of thin gruel as his own was all that he could,
657 with thorough self-approbation, recommend; though he might constrain
658 himself, while the ladies were comfortably clearing the nicer things, to
659 say:
660
661 “Mrs. Bates, let me propose your venturing on one of these eggs. An egg
662 boiled very soft is not unwholesome. Serle understands boiling an egg
663 better than any body. I would not recommend an egg boiled by any body
664 else; but you need not be afraid, they are very small, you see--one of
665 our small eggs will not hurt you. Miss Bates, let Emma help you to a
666 _little_ bit of tart--a _very_ little bit. Ours are all apple-tarts. You
667 need not be afraid of unwholesome preserves here. I do not advise the
668 custard. Mrs. Goddard, what say you to _half_ a glass of wine? A
669 _small_ half-glass, put into a tumbler of water? I do not think it could
670 disagree with you.”
671
672 Emma allowed her father to talk--but supplied her visitors in a much
673 more satisfactory style, and on the present evening had particular
674 pleasure in sending them away happy. The happiness of Miss Smith was
675 quite equal to her intentions. Miss Woodhouse was so great a personage
676 in Highbury, that the prospect of the introduction had given as much
677 panic as pleasure; but the humble, grateful little girl went off with
678 highly gratified feelings, delighted with the affability with which Miss
679 Woodhouse had treated her all the evening, and actually shaken hands
680 with her at last!
681
682
683
684 CHAPTER IV
685
686
687 Harriet Smith’s intimacy at Hartfield was soon a settled thing. Quick
688 and decided in her ways, Emma lost no time in inviting, encouraging, and
689 telling her to come very often; and as their acquaintance increased, so
690 did their satisfaction in each other. As a walking companion, Emma had
691 very early foreseen how useful she might find her. In that respect
692 Mrs. Weston’s loss had been important. Her father never went beyond the
693 shrubbery, where two divisions of the ground sufficed him for his long
694 walk, or his short, as the year varied; and since Mrs. Weston’s marriage
695 her exercise had been too much confined. She had ventured once alone to
696 Randalls, but it was not pleasant; and a Harriet Smith, therefore,
697 one whom she could summon at any time to a walk, would be a valuable
698 addition to her privileges. But in every respect, as she saw more of
699 her, she approved her, and was confirmed in all her kind designs.
700
701 Harriet certainly was not clever, but she had a sweet, docile, grateful
702 disposition, was totally free from conceit, and only desiring to be
703 guided by any one she looked up to. Her early attachment to herself
704 was very amiable; and her inclination for good company, and power of
705 appreciating what was elegant and clever, shewed that there was no
706 want of taste, though strength of understanding must not be expected.
707 Altogether she was quite convinced of Harriet Smith’s being exactly the
708 young friend she wanted--exactly the something which her home required.
709 Such a friend as Mrs. Weston was out of the question. Two such could
710 never be granted. Two such she did not want. It was quite a different
711 sort of thing, a sentiment distinct and independent. Mrs. Weston was the
712 object of a regard which had its basis in gratitude and esteem. Harriet
713 would be loved as one to whom she could be useful. For Mrs. Weston there
714 was nothing to be done; for Harriet every thing.
715
716 Her first attempts at usefulness were in an endeavour to find out who
717 were the parents, but Harriet could not tell. She was ready to tell
718 every thing in her power, but on this subject questions were vain. Emma
719 was obliged to fancy what she liked--but she could never believe that in
720 the same situation _she_ should not have discovered the truth. Harriet
721 had no penetration. She had been satisfied to hear and believe just what
722 Mrs. Goddard chose to tell her; and looked no farther.
723
724 Mrs. Goddard, and the teachers, and the girls and the affairs of
725 the school in general, formed naturally a great part of the
726 conversation--and but for her acquaintance with the Martins of
727 Abbey-Mill Farm, it must have been the whole. But the Martins occupied
728 her thoughts a good deal; she had spent two very happy months with them,
729 and now loved to talk of the pleasures of her visit, and describe
730 the many comforts and wonders of the place. Emma encouraged her
731 talkativeness--amused by such a picture of another set of beings,
732 and enjoying the youthful simplicity which could speak with so much
733 exultation of Mrs. Martin’s having “_two_ parlours, two very good
734 parlours, indeed; one of them quite as large as Mrs. Goddard’s
735 drawing-room; and of her having an upper maid who had lived
736 five-and-twenty years with her; and of their having eight cows, two of
737 them Alderneys, and one a little Welch cow, a very pretty little Welch
738 cow indeed; and of Mrs. Martin’s saying as she was so fond of it,
739 it should be called _her_ cow; and of their having a very handsome
740 summer-house in their garden, where some day next year they were all to
741 drink tea:--a very handsome summer-house, large enough to hold a dozen
742 people.”
743
744 For some time she was amused, without thinking beyond the immediate
745 cause; but as she came to understand the family better, other feelings
746 arose. She had taken up a wrong idea, fancying it was a mother and
747 daughter, a son and son’s wife, who all lived together; but when it
748 appeared that the Mr. Martin, who bore a part in the narrative, and was
749 always mentioned with approbation for his great good-nature in doing
750 something or other, was a single man; that there was no young Mrs.
751 Martin, no wife in the case; she did suspect danger to her poor little
752 friend from all this hospitality and kindness, and that, if she were not
753 taken care of, she might be required to sink herself forever.
754
755 With this inspiriting notion, her questions increased in number and
756 meaning; and she particularly led Harriet to talk more of Mr. Martin,
757 and there was evidently no dislike to it. Harriet was very ready to
758 speak of the share he had had in their moonlight walks and merry evening
759 games; and dwelt a good deal upon his being so very good-humoured and
760 obliging. He had gone three miles round one day in order to bring her
761 some walnuts, because she had said how fond she was of them, and in
762 every thing else he was so very obliging. He had his shepherd’s son into
763 the parlour one night on purpose to sing to her. She was very fond
764 of singing. He could sing a little himself. She believed he was very
765 clever, and understood every thing. He had a very fine flock, and, while
766 she was with them, he had been bid more for his wool than any body in
767 the country. She believed every body spoke well of him. His mother and
768 sisters were very fond of him. Mrs. Martin had told her one day (and
769 there was a blush as she said it,) that it was impossible for any body
770 to be a better son, and therefore she was sure, whenever he married, he
771 would make a good husband. Not that she _wanted_ him to marry. She was
772 in no hurry at all.
773
774 “Well done, Mrs. Martin!” thought Emma. “You know what you are about.”
775
776 “And when she had come away, Mrs. Martin was so very kind as to send
777 Mrs. Goddard a beautiful goose--the finest goose Mrs. Goddard had ever
778 seen. Mrs. Goddard had dressed it on a Sunday, and asked all the three
779 teachers, Miss Nash, and Miss Prince, and Miss Richardson, to sup with
780 her.”
781
782 “Mr. Martin, I suppose, is not a man of information beyond the line of
783 his own business? He does not read?”
784
785 “Oh yes!--that is, no--I do not know--but I believe he has read a
786 good deal--but not what you would think any thing of. He reads the
787 Agricultural Reports, and some other books that lay in one of the window
788 seats--but he reads all _them_ to himself. But sometimes of an evening,
789 before we went to cards, he would read something aloud out of the
790 Elegant Extracts, very entertaining. And I know he has read the Vicar of
791 Wakefield. He never read the Romance of the Forest, nor The Children of
792 the Abbey. He had never heard of such books before I mentioned them, but
793 he is determined to get them now as soon as ever he can.”
794
795 The next question was--
796
797 “What sort of looking man is Mr. Martin?”
798
799 “Oh! not handsome--not at all handsome. I thought him very plain at
800 first, but I do not think him so plain now. One does not, you know,
801 after a time. But did you never see him? He is in Highbury every now and
802 then, and he is sure to ride through every week in his way to Kingston.
803 He has passed you very often.”
804
805 “That may be, and I may have seen him fifty times, but without having
806 any idea of his name. A young farmer, whether on horseback or on foot,
807 is the very last sort of person to raise my curiosity. The yeomanry are
808 precisely the order of people with whom I feel I can have nothing to do.
809 A degree or two lower, and a creditable appearance might interest me;
810 I might hope to be useful to their families in some way or other. But
811 a farmer can need none of my help, and is, therefore, in one sense, as
812 much above my notice as in every other he is below it.”
813
814 “To be sure. Oh yes! It is not likely you should ever have observed him;
815 but he knows you very well indeed--I mean by sight.”
816
817 “I have no doubt of his being a very respectable young man. I know,
818 indeed, that he is so, and, as such, wish him well. What do you imagine
819 his age to be?”
820
821 “He was four-and-twenty the 8th of last June, and my birthday is the
822 23rd just a fortnight and a day’s difference--which is very odd.”
823
824 “Only four-and-twenty. That is too young to settle. His mother is
825 perfectly right not to be in a hurry. They seem very comfortable as they
826 are, and if she were to take any pains to marry him, she would probably
827 repent it. Six years hence, if he could meet with a good sort of young
828 woman in the same rank as his own, with a little money, it might be very
829 desirable.”
830
831 “Six years hence! Dear Miss Woodhouse, he would be thirty years old!”
832
833 “Well, and that is as early as most men can afford to marry, who are not
834 born to an independence. Mr. Martin, I imagine, has his fortune entirely
835 to make--cannot be at all beforehand with the world. Whatever money he
836 might come into when his father died, whatever his share of the family
837 property, it is, I dare say, all afloat, all employed in his stock, and
838 so forth; and though, with diligence and good luck, he may be rich in
839 time, it is next to impossible that he should have realised any thing
840 yet.”
841
842 “To be sure, so it is. But they live very comfortably. They have no
843 indoors man, else they do not want for any thing; and Mrs. Martin talks
844 of taking a boy another year.”
845
846 “I wish you may not get into a scrape, Harriet, whenever he does
847 marry;--I mean, as to being acquainted with his wife--for though his
848 sisters, from a superior education, are not to be altogether objected
849 to, it does not follow that he might marry any body at all fit for you
850 to notice. The misfortune of your birth ought to make you particularly
851 careful as to your associates. There can be no doubt of your being a
852 gentleman’s daughter, and you must support your claim to that station by
853 every thing within your own power, or there will be plenty of people who
854 would take pleasure in degrading you.”
855
856 “Yes, to be sure, I suppose there are. But while I visit at Hartfield,
857 and you are so kind to me, Miss Woodhouse, I am not afraid of what any
858 body can do.”
859
860 “You understand the force of influence pretty well, Harriet; but I would
861 have you so firmly established in good society, as to be independent
862 even of Hartfield and Miss Woodhouse. I want to see you permanently
863 well connected, and to that end it will be advisable to have as few odd
864 acquaintance as may be; and, therefore, I say that if you should still
865 be in this country when Mr. Martin marries, I wish you may not be drawn
866 in by your intimacy with the sisters, to be acquainted with the wife,
867 who will probably be some mere farmer’s daughter, without education.”
868
869 “To be sure. Yes. Not that I think Mr. Martin would ever marry any body
870 but what had had some education--and been very well brought up. However,
871 I do not mean to set up my opinion against yours--and I am sure I shall
872 not wish for the acquaintance of his wife. I shall always have a great
873 regard for the Miss Martins, especially Elizabeth, and should be very
874 sorry to give them up, for they are quite as well educated as me. But
875 if he marries a very ignorant, vulgar woman, certainly I had better not
876 visit her, if I can help it.”
877
878 Emma watched her through the fluctuations of this speech, and saw no
879 alarming symptoms of love. The young man had been the first admirer, but
880 she trusted there was no other hold, and that there would be no serious
881 difficulty, on Harriet’s side, to oppose any friendly arrangement of her
882 own.
883
884 They met Mr. Martin the very next day, as they were walking on the
885 Donwell road. He was on foot, and after looking very respectfully at
886 her, looked with most unfeigned satisfaction at her companion. Emma was
887 not sorry to have such an opportunity of survey; and walking a few
888 yards forward, while they talked together, soon made her quick eye
889 sufficiently acquainted with Mr. Robert Martin. His appearance was very
890 neat, and he looked like a sensible young man, but his person had no
891 other advantage; and when he came to be contrasted with gentlemen,
892 she thought he must lose all the ground he had gained in Harriet’s
893 inclination. Harriet was not insensible of manner; she had voluntarily
894 noticed her father’s gentleness with admiration as well as wonder. Mr.
895 Martin looked as if he did not know what manner was.
896
897 They remained but a few minutes together, as Miss Woodhouse must not be
898 kept waiting; and Harriet then came running to her with a smiling face,
899 and in a flutter of spirits, which Miss Woodhouse hoped very soon to
900 compose.
901
902 “Only think of our happening to meet him!--How very odd! It was quite
903 a chance, he said, that he had not gone round by Randalls. He did not
904 think we ever walked this road. He thought we walked towards Randalls
905 most days. He has not been able to get the Romance of the Forest yet.
906 He was so busy the last time he was at Kingston that he quite forgot it,
907 but he goes again to-morrow. So very odd we should happen to meet! Well,
908 Miss Woodhouse, is he like what you expected? What do you think of him?
909 Do you think him so very plain?”
910
911 “He is very plain, undoubtedly--remarkably plain:--but that is nothing
912 compared with his entire want of gentility. I had no right to expect
913 much, and I did not expect much; but I had no idea that he could be so
914 very clownish, so totally without air. I had imagined him, I confess, a
915 degree or two nearer gentility.”
916
917 “To be sure,” said Harriet, in a mortified voice, “he is not so genteel
918 as real gentlemen.”
919
920 “I think, Harriet, since your acquaintance with us, you have been
921 repeatedly in the company of some such very real gentlemen, that you
922 must yourself be struck with the difference in Mr. Martin. At Hartfield,
923 you have had very good specimens of well educated, well bred men. I
924 should be surprized if, after seeing them, you could be in company
925 with Mr. Martin again without perceiving him to be a very inferior
926 creature--and rather wondering at yourself for having ever thought him
927 at all agreeable before. Do not you begin to feel that now? Were not
928 you struck? I am sure you must have been struck by his awkward look and
929 abrupt manner, and the uncouthness of a voice which I heard to be wholly
930 unmodulated as I stood here.”
931
932 “Certainly, he is not like Mr. Knightley. He has not such a fine air and
933 way of walking as Mr. Knightley. I see the difference plain enough. But
934 Mr. Knightley is so very fine a man!”
935
936 “Mr. Knightley’s air is so remarkably good that it is not fair to
937 compare Mr. Martin with _him_. You might not see one in a hundred with
938 _gentleman_ so plainly written as in Mr. Knightley. But he is not the
939 only gentleman you have been lately used to. What say you to Mr. Weston
940 and Mr. Elton? Compare Mr. Martin with either of _them_. Compare their
941 manner of carrying themselves; of walking; of speaking; of being silent.
942 You must see the difference.”
943
944 “Oh yes!--there is a great difference. But Mr. Weston is almost an old
945 man. Mr. Weston must be between forty and fifty.”
946
947 “Which makes his good manners the more valuable. The older a person
948 grows, Harriet, the more important it is that their manners should not
949 be bad; the more glaring and disgusting any loudness, or coarseness, or
950 awkwardness becomes. What is passable in youth is detestable in later
951 age. Mr. Martin is now awkward and abrupt; what will he be at Mr.
952 Weston’s time of life?”
953
954 “There is no saying, indeed,” replied Harriet rather solemnly.
955
956 “But there may be pretty good guessing. He will be a completely gross,
957 vulgar farmer, totally inattentive to appearances, and thinking of
958 nothing but profit and loss.”
959
960 “Will he, indeed? That will be very bad.”
961
962 “How much his business engrosses him already is very plain from the
963 circumstance of his forgetting to inquire for the book you recommended.
964 He was a great deal too full of the market to think of any thing
965 else--which is just as it should be, for a thriving man. What has he to
966 do with books? And I have no doubt that he _will_ thrive, and be a very
967 rich man in time--and his being illiterate and coarse need not disturb
968 _us_.”
969
970 “I wonder he did not remember the book”--was all Harriet’s answer, and
971 spoken with a degree of grave displeasure which Emma thought might be
972 safely left to itself. She, therefore, said no more for some time. Her
973 next beginning was,
974
975 “In one respect, perhaps, Mr. Elton’s manners are superior to Mr.
976 Knightley’s or Mr. Weston’s. They have more gentleness. They might be
977 more safely held up as a pattern. There is an openness, a quickness,
978 almost a bluntness in Mr. Weston, which every body likes in _him_,
979 because there is so much good-humour with it--but that would not do to
980 be copied. Neither would Mr. Knightley’s downright, decided, commanding
981 sort of manner, though it suits _him_ very well; his figure, and look,
982 and situation in life seem to allow it; but if any young man were to set
983 about copying him, he would not be sufferable. On the contrary, I think
984 a young man might be very safely recommended to take Mr. Elton as a
985 model. Mr. Elton is good-humoured, cheerful, obliging, and gentle.
986 He seems to me to be grown particularly gentle of late. I do not know
987 whether he has any design of ingratiating himself with either of us,
988 Harriet, by additional softness, but it strikes me that his manners are
989 softer than they used to be. If he means any thing, it must be to please
990 you. Did not I tell you what he said of you the other day?”
991
992 She then repeated some warm personal praise which she had drawn from Mr.
993 Elton, and now did full justice to; and Harriet blushed and smiled, and
994 said she had always thought Mr. Elton very agreeable.
995
996 Mr. Elton was the very person fixed on by Emma for driving the young
997 farmer out of Harriet’s head. She thought it would be an excellent
998 match; and only too palpably desirable, natural, and probable, for her
999 to have much merit in planning it. She feared it was what every body
1000 else must think of and predict. It was not likely, however, that any
1001 body should have equalled her in the date of the plan, as it had
1002 entered her brain during the very first evening of Harriet’s coming to
1003 Hartfield. The longer she considered it, the greater was her sense
1004 of its expediency. Mr. Elton’s situation was most suitable, quite the
1005 gentleman himself, and without low connexions; at the same time, not of
1006 any family that could fairly object to the doubtful birth of Harriet.
1007 He had a comfortable home for her, and Emma imagined a very sufficient
1008 income; for though the vicarage of Highbury was not large, he was known
1009 to have some independent property; and she thought very highly of him
1010 as a good-humoured, well-meaning, respectable young man, without any
1011 deficiency of useful understanding or knowledge of the world.
1012
1013 She had already satisfied herself that he thought Harriet a beautiful
1014 girl, which she trusted, with such frequent meetings at Hartfield, was
1015 foundation enough on his side; and on Harriet’s there could be little
1016 doubt that the idea of being preferred by him would have all the usual
1017 weight and efficacy. And he was really a very pleasing young man, a
1018 young man whom any woman not fastidious might like. He was reckoned very
1019 handsome; his person much admired in general, though not by her,
1020 there being a want of elegance of feature which she could not dispense
1021 with:--but the girl who could be gratified by a Robert Martin’s riding
1022 about the country to get walnuts for her might very well be conquered by
1023 Mr. Elton’s admiration.
1024
1025
1026
1027 CHAPTER V
1028
1029
1030 “I do not know what your opinion may be, Mrs. Weston,” said Mr.
1031 Knightley, “of this great intimacy between Emma and Harriet Smith, but I
1032 think it a bad thing.”
1033
1034 “A bad thing! Do you really think it a bad thing?--why so?”
1035
1036 “I think they will neither of them do the other any good.”
1037
1038 “You surprize me! Emma must do Harriet good: and by supplying her with a
1039 new object of interest, Harriet may be said to do Emma good. I have been
1040 seeing their intimacy with the greatest pleasure. How very differently
1041 we feel!--Not think they will do each other any good! This will
1042 certainly be the beginning of one of our quarrels about Emma, Mr.
1043 Knightley.”
1044
1045 “Perhaps you think I am come on purpose to quarrel with you, knowing
1046 Weston to be out, and that you must still fight your own battle.”
1047
1048 “Mr. Weston would undoubtedly support me, if he were here, for he thinks
1049 exactly as I do on the subject. We were speaking of it only yesterday,
1050 and agreeing how fortunate it was for Emma, that there should be such a
1051 girl in Highbury for her to associate with. Mr. Knightley, I shall not
1052 allow you to be a fair judge in this case. You are so much used to live
1053 alone, that you do not know the value of a companion; and, perhaps no
1054 man can be a good judge of the comfort a woman feels in the society of
1055 one of her own sex, after being used to it all her life. I can imagine
1056 your objection to Harriet Smith. She is not the superior young woman
1057 which Emma’s friend ought to be. But on the other hand, as Emma wants
1058 to see her better informed, it will be an inducement to her to read more
1059 herself. They will read together. She means it, I know.”
1060
1061 “Emma has been meaning to read more ever since she was twelve years old.
1062 I have seen a great many lists of her drawing-up at various times of
1063 books that she meant to read regularly through--and very good lists
1064 they were--very well chosen, and very neatly arranged--sometimes
1065 alphabetically, and sometimes by some other rule. The list she drew
1066 up when only fourteen--I remember thinking it did her judgment so much
1067 credit, that I preserved it some time; and I dare say she may have made
1068 out a very good list now. But I have done with expecting any course of
1069 steady reading from Emma. She will never submit to any thing
1070 requiring industry and patience, and a subjection of the fancy to the
1071 understanding. Where Miss Taylor failed to stimulate, I may safely
1072 affirm that Harriet Smith will do nothing.--You never could persuade her
1073 to read half so much as you wished.--You know you could not.”
1074
1075 “I dare say,” replied Mrs. Weston, smiling, “that I thought so
1076 _then_;--but since we have parted, I can never remember Emma’s omitting
1077 to do any thing I wished.”
1078
1079 “There is hardly any desiring to refresh such a memory as _that_,”--said
1080 Mr. Knightley, feelingly; and for a moment or two he had done. “But I,”
1081 he soon added, “who have had no such charm thrown over my senses, must
1082 still see, hear, and remember. Emma is spoiled by being the cleverest
1083 of her family. At ten years old, she had the misfortune of being able to
1084 answer questions which puzzled her sister at seventeen. She was always
1085 quick and assured: Isabella slow and diffident. And ever since she
1086 was twelve, Emma has been mistress of the house and of you all. In her
1087 mother she lost the only person able to cope with her. She inherits her
1088 mother’s talents, and must have been under subjection to her.”
1089
1090 “I should have been sorry, Mr. Knightley, to be dependent on _your_
1091 recommendation, had I quitted Mr. Woodhouse’s family and wanted another
1092 situation; I do not think you would have spoken a good word for me to
1093 any body. I am sure you always thought me unfit for the office I held.”
1094
1095 “Yes,” said he, smiling. “You are better placed _here_; very fit for a
1096 wife, but not at all for a governess. But you were preparing yourself to
1097 be an excellent wife all the time you were at Hartfield. You might
1098 not give Emma such a complete education as your powers would seem to
1099 promise; but you were receiving a very good education from _her_, on the
1100 very material matrimonial point of submitting your own will, and doing
1101 as you were bid; and if Weston had asked me to recommend him a wife, I
1102 should certainly have named Miss Taylor.”
1103
1104 “Thank you. There will be very little merit in making a good wife to
1105 such a man as Mr. Weston.”
1106
1107 “Why, to own the truth, I am afraid you are rather thrown away, and that
1108 with every disposition to bear, there will be nothing to be borne. We
1109 will not despair, however. Weston may grow cross from the wantonness of
1110 comfort, or his son may plague him.”
1111
1112 “I hope not _that_.--It is not likely. No, Mr. Knightley, do not
1113 foretell vexation from that quarter.”
1114
1115 “Not I, indeed. I only name possibilities. I do not pretend to Emma’s
1116 genius for foretelling and guessing. I hope, with all my heart, the
1117 young man may be a Weston in merit, and a Churchill in fortune.--But
1118 Harriet Smith--I have not half done about Harriet Smith. I think her the
1119 very worst sort of companion that Emma could possibly have. She knows
1120 nothing herself, and looks upon Emma as knowing every thing. She is a
1121 flatterer in all her ways; and so much the worse, because undesigned.
1122 Her ignorance is hourly flattery. How can Emma imagine she has any
1123 thing to learn herself, while Harriet is presenting such a delightful
1124 inferiority? And as for Harriet, I will venture to say that _she_ cannot
1125 gain by the acquaintance. Hartfield will only put her out of conceit
1126 with all the other places she belongs to. She will grow just refined
1127 enough to be uncomfortable with those among whom birth and circumstances
1128 have placed her home. I am much mistaken if Emma’s doctrines give any
1129 strength of mind, or tend at all to make a girl adapt herself rationally
1130 to the varieties of her situation in life.--They only give a little
1131 polish.”
1132
1133 “I either depend more upon Emma’s good sense than you do, or am more
1134 anxious for her present comfort; for I cannot lament the acquaintance.
1135 How well she looked last night!”
1136
1137 “Oh! you would rather talk of her person than her mind, would you? Very
1138 well; I shall not attempt to deny Emma’s being pretty.”
1139
1140 “Pretty! say beautiful rather. Can you imagine any thing nearer perfect
1141 beauty than Emma altogether--face and figure?”
1142
1143 “I do not know what I could imagine, but I confess that I have seldom
1144 seen a face or figure more pleasing to me than hers. But I am a partial
1145 old friend.”
1146
1147 “Such an eye!--the true hazle eye--and so brilliant! regular features,
1148 open countenance, with a complexion! oh! what a bloom of full health,
1149 and such a pretty height and size; such a firm and upright figure!
1150 There is health, not merely in her bloom, but in her air, her head, her
1151 glance. One hears sometimes of a child being ‘the picture of health;’
1152 now, Emma always gives me the idea of being the complete picture of
1153 grown-up health. She is loveliness itself. Mr. Knightley, is not she?”
1154
1155 “I have not a fault to find with her person,” he replied. “I think her
1156 all you describe. I love to look at her; and I will add this praise,
1157 that I do not think her personally vain. Considering how very handsome
1158 she is, she appears to be little occupied with it; her vanity lies
1159 another way. Mrs. Weston, I am not to be talked out of my dislike of
1160 Harriet Smith, or my dread of its doing them both harm.”
1161
1162 “And I, Mr. Knightley, am equally stout in my confidence of its not
1163 doing them any harm. With all dear Emma’s little faults, she is an
1164 excellent creature. Where shall we see a better daughter, or a kinder
1165 sister, or a truer friend? No, no; she has qualities which may be
1166 trusted; she will never lead any one really wrong; she will make no
1167 lasting blunder; where Emma errs once, she is in the right a hundred
1168 times.”
1169
1170 “Very well; I will not plague you any more. Emma shall be an angel, and
1171 I will keep my spleen to myself till Christmas brings John and Isabella.
1172 John loves Emma with a reasonable and therefore not a blind affection,
1173 and Isabella always thinks as he does; except when he is not quite
1174 frightened enough about the children. I am sure of having their opinions
1175 with me.”
1176
1177 “I know that you all love her really too well to be unjust or unkind;
1178 but excuse me, Mr. Knightley, if I take the liberty (I consider myself,
1179 you know, as having somewhat of the privilege of speech that Emma’s
1180 mother might have had) the liberty of hinting that I do not think any
1181 possible good can arise from Harriet Smith’s intimacy being made a
1182 matter of much discussion among you. Pray excuse me; but supposing any
1183 little inconvenience may be apprehended from the intimacy, it cannot be
1184 expected that Emma, accountable to nobody but her father, who perfectly
1185 approves the acquaintance, should put an end to it, so long as it is a
1186 source of pleasure to herself. It has been so many years my province to
1187 give advice, that you cannot be surprized, Mr. Knightley, at this little
1188 remains of office.”
1189
1190 “Not at all,” cried he; “I am much obliged to you for it. It is very
1191 good advice, and it shall have a better fate than your advice has often
1192 found; for it shall be attended to.”
1193
1194 “Mrs. John Knightley is easily alarmed, and might be made unhappy about
1195 her sister.”
1196
1197 “Be satisfied,” said he, “I will not raise any outcry. I will keep my
1198 ill-humour to myself. I have a very sincere interest in Emma. Isabella
1199 does not seem more my sister; has never excited a greater interest;
1200 perhaps hardly so great. There is an anxiety, a curiosity in what one
1201 feels for Emma. I wonder what will become of her!”
1202
1203 “So do I,” said Mrs. Weston gently, “very much.”
1204
1205 “She always declares she will never marry, which, of course, means just
1206 nothing at all. But I have no idea that she has yet ever seen a man she
1207 cared for. It would not be a bad thing for her to be very much in love
1208 with a proper object. I should like to see Emma in love, and in some
1209 doubt of a return; it would do her good. But there is nobody hereabouts
1210 to attach her; and she goes so seldom from home.”
1211
1212 “There does, indeed, seem as little to tempt her to break her resolution
1213 at present,” said Mrs. Weston, “as can well be; and while she is so
1214 happy at Hartfield, I cannot wish her to be forming any attachment which
1215 would be creating such difficulties on poor Mr. Woodhouse’s account. I
1216 do not recommend matrimony at present to Emma, though I mean no slight
1217 to the state, I assure you.”
1218
1219 Part of her meaning was to conceal some favourite thoughts of her own
1220 and Mr. Weston’s on the subject, as much as possible. There were wishes
1221 at Randalls respecting Emma’s destiny, but it was not desirable to
1222 have them suspected; and the quiet transition which Mr. Knightley soon
1223 afterwards made to “What does Weston think of the weather; shall we have
1224 rain?” convinced her that he had nothing more to say or surmise about
1225 Hartfield.
1226
1227
1228
1229 CHAPTER VI
1230
1231
1232 Emma could not feel a doubt of having given Harriet’s fancy a proper
1233 direction and raised the gratitude of her young vanity to a very good
1234 purpose, for she found her decidedly more sensible than before of Mr.
1235 Elton’s being a remarkably handsome man, with most agreeable manners;
1236 and as she had no hesitation in following up the assurance of his
1237 admiration by agreeable hints, she was soon pretty confident of creating
1238 as much liking on Harriet’s side, as there could be any occasion for.
1239 She was quite convinced of Mr. Elton’s being in the fairest way of
1240 falling in love, if not in love already. She had no scruple with regard
1241 to him. He talked of Harriet, and praised her so warmly, that she could
1242 not suppose any thing wanting which a little time would not add. His
1243 perception of the striking improvement of Harriet’s manner, since her
1244 introduction at Hartfield, was not one of the least agreeable proofs of
1245 his growing attachment.
1246
1247 “You have given Miss Smith all that she required,” said he; “you have
1248 made her graceful and easy. She was a beautiful creature when she
1249 came to you, but, in my opinion, the attractions you have added are
1250 infinitely superior to what she received from nature.”
1251
1252 “I am glad you think I have been useful to her; but Harriet only wanted
1253 drawing out, and receiving a few, very few hints. She had all the
1254 natural grace of sweetness of temper and artlessness in herself. I have
1255 done very little.”
1256
1257 “If it were admissible to contradict a lady,” said the gallant Mr.
1258 Elton--
1259
1260 “I have perhaps given her a little more decision of character, have
1261 taught her to think on points which had not fallen in her way before.”
1262
1263 “Exactly so; that is what principally strikes me. So much superadded
1264 decision of character! Skilful has been the hand!”
1265
1266 “Great has been the pleasure, I am sure. I never met with a disposition
1267 more truly amiable.”
1268
1269 “I have no doubt of it.” And it was spoken with a sort of sighing
1270 animation, which had a vast deal of the lover. She was not less pleased
1271 another day with the manner in which he seconded a sudden wish of hers,
1272 to have Harriet’s picture.
1273
1274 “Did you ever have your likeness taken, Harriet?” said she: “did you
1275 ever sit for your picture?”
1276
1277 Harriet was on the point of leaving the room, and only stopt to say,
1278 with a very interesting naivete,
1279
1280 “Oh! dear, no, never.”
1281
1282 No sooner was she out of sight, than Emma exclaimed,
1283
1284 “What an exquisite possession a good picture of her would be! I would
1285 give any money for it. I almost long to attempt her likeness myself.
1286 You do not know it I dare say, but two or three years ago I had a great
1287 passion for taking likenesses, and attempted several of my friends, and
1288 was thought to have a tolerable eye in general. But from one cause or
1289 another, I gave it up in disgust. But really, I could almost venture,
1290 if Harriet would sit to me. It would be such a delight to have her
1291 picture!”
1292
1293 “Let me entreat you,” cried Mr. Elton; “it would indeed be a delight!
1294 Let me entreat you, Miss Woodhouse, to exercise so charming a talent
1295 in favour of your friend. I know what your drawings are. How could
1296 you suppose me ignorant? Is not this room rich in specimens of your
1297 landscapes and flowers; and has not Mrs. Weston some inimitable
1298 figure-pieces in her drawing-room, at Randalls?”
1299
1300 Yes, good man!--thought Emma--but what has all that to do with taking
1301 likenesses? You know nothing of drawing. Don’t pretend to be in raptures
1302 about mine. Keep your raptures for Harriet’s face. “Well, if you give me
1303 such kind encouragement, Mr. Elton, I believe I shall try what I can do.
1304 Harriet’s features are very delicate, which makes a likeness difficult;
1305 and yet there is a peculiarity in the shape of the eye and the lines
1306 about the mouth which one ought to catch.”
1307
1308 “Exactly so--The shape of the eye and the lines about the mouth--I have
1309 not a doubt of your success. Pray, pray attempt it. As you will do it,
1310 it will indeed, to use your own words, be an exquisite possession.”
1311
1312 “But I am afraid, Mr. Elton, Harriet will not like to sit. She thinks
1313 so little of her own beauty. Did not you observe her manner of answering
1314 me? How completely it meant, ‘why should my picture be drawn?’”
1315
1316 “Oh! yes, I observed it, I assure you. It was not lost on me. But still
1317 I cannot imagine she would not be persuaded.”
1318
1319 Harriet was soon back again, and the proposal almost immediately made;
1320 and she had no scruples which could stand many minutes against the
1321 earnest pressing of both the others. Emma wished to go to work directly,
1322 and therefore produced the portfolio containing her various attempts at
1323 portraits, for not one of them had ever been finished, that they might
1324 decide together on the best size for Harriet. Her many beginnings were
1325 displayed. Miniatures, half-lengths, whole-lengths, pencil, crayon, and
1326 water-colours had been all tried in turn. She had always wanted to do
1327 every thing, and had made more progress both in drawing and music than
1328 many might have done with so little labour as she would ever submit to.
1329 She played and sang;--and drew in almost every style; but steadiness
1330 had always been wanting; and in nothing had she approached the degree of
1331 excellence which she would have been glad to command, and ought not to
1332 have failed of. She was not much deceived as to her own skill either
1333 as an artist or a musician, but she was not unwilling to have others
1334 deceived, or sorry to know her reputation for accomplishment often
1335 higher than it deserved.
1336
1337 There was merit in every drawing--in the least finished, perhaps the
1338 most; her style was spirited; but had there been much less, or had there
1339 been ten times more, the delight and admiration of her two companions
1340 would have been the same. They were both in ecstasies. A likeness
1341 pleases every body; and Miss Woodhouse’s performances must be capital.
1342
1343 “No great variety of faces for you,” said Emma. “I had only my own
1344 family to study from. There is my father--another of my father--but the
1345 idea of sitting for his picture made him so nervous, that I could only
1346 take him by stealth; neither of them very like therefore. Mrs. Weston
1347 again, and again, and again, you see. Dear Mrs. Weston! always my
1348 kindest friend on every occasion. She would sit whenever I asked her.
1349 There is my sister; and really quite her own little elegant figure!--and
1350 the face not unlike. I should have made a good likeness of her, if she
1351 would have sat longer, but she was in such a hurry to have me draw
1352 her four children that she would not be quiet. Then, here come all my
1353 attempts at three of those four children;--there they are, Henry and
1354 John and Bella, from one end of the sheet to the other, and any one of
1355 them might do for any one of the rest. She was so eager to have them
1356 drawn that I could not refuse; but there is no making children of three
1357 or four years old stand still you know; nor can it be very easy to take
1358 any likeness of them, beyond the air and complexion, unless they are
1359 coarser featured than any of mama’s children ever were. Here is my
1360 sketch of the fourth, who was a baby. I took him as he was sleeping on
1361 the sofa, and it is as strong a likeness of his cockade as you would
1362 wish to see. He had nestled down his head most conveniently. That’s very
1363 like. I am rather proud of little George. The corner of the sofa is very
1364 good. Then here is my last,”--unclosing a pretty sketch of a gentleman
1365 in small size, whole-length--“my last and my best--my brother, Mr. John
1366 Knightley.--This did not want much of being finished, when I put it away
1367 in a pet, and vowed I would never take another likeness. I could not
1368 help being provoked; for after all my pains, and when I had really made
1369 a very good likeness of it--(Mrs. Weston and I were quite agreed in
1370 thinking it _very_ like)--only too handsome--too flattering--but
1371 that was a fault on the right side”--after all this, came poor dear
1372 Isabella’s cold approbation of--“Yes, it was a little like--but to be
1373 sure it did not do him justice. We had had a great deal of trouble
1374 in persuading him to sit at all. It was made a great favour of; and
1375 altogether it was more than I could bear; and so I never would finish
1376 it, to have it apologised over as an unfavourable likeness, to every
1377 morning visitor in Brunswick Square;--and, as I said, I did then
1378 forswear ever drawing any body again. But for Harriet’s sake, or rather
1379 for my own, and as there are no husbands and wives in the case _at_
1380 _present_, I will break my resolution now.”
1381
1382 Mr. Elton seemed very properly struck and delighted by the idea, and was
1383 repeating, “No husbands and wives in the case at present indeed, as
1384 you observe. Exactly so. No husbands and wives,” with so interesting a
1385 consciousness, that Emma began to consider whether she had not better
1386 leave them together at once. But as she wanted to be drawing, the
1387 declaration must wait a little longer.
1388
1389 She had soon fixed on the size and sort of portrait. It was to be
1390 a whole-length in water-colours, like Mr. John Knightley’s, and was
1391 destined, if she could please herself, to hold a very honourable station
1392 over the mantelpiece.
1393
1394 The sitting began; and Harriet, smiling and blushing, and afraid of not
1395 keeping her attitude and countenance, presented a very sweet mixture of
1396 youthful expression to the steady eyes of the artist. But there was no
1397 doing any thing, with Mr. Elton fidgeting behind her and watching every
1398 touch. She gave him credit for stationing himself where he might gaze
1399 and gaze again without offence; but was really obliged to put an end to
1400 it, and request him to place himself elsewhere. It then occurred to her
1401 to employ him in reading.
1402
1403 “If he would be so good as to read to them, it would be a kindness
1404 indeed! It would amuse away the difficulties of her part, and lessen the
1405 irksomeness of Miss Smith’s.”
1406
1407 Mr. Elton was only too happy. Harriet listened, and Emma drew in peace.
1408 She must allow him to be still frequently coming to look; any thing less
1409 would certainly have been too little in a lover; and he was ready at the
1410 smallest intermission of the pencil, to jump up and see the progress,
1411 and be charmed.--There was no being displeased with such an encourager,
1412 for his admiration made him discern a likeness almost before it
1413 was possible. She could not respect his eye, but his love and his
1414 complaisance were unexceptionable.
1415
1416 The sitting was altogether very satisfactory; she was quite enough
1417 pleased with the first day’s sketch to wish to go on. There was no want
1418 of likeness, she had been fortunate in the attitude, and as she meant
1419 to throw in a little improvement to the figure, to give a little more
1420 height, and considerably more elegance, she had great confidence of
1421 its being in every way a pretty drawing at last, and of its filling
1422 its destined place with credit to them both--a standing memorial of the
1423 beauty of one, the skill of the other, and the friendship of both;
1424 with as many other agreeable associations as Mr. Elton’s very promising
1425 attachment was likely to add.
1426
1427 Harriet was to sit again the next day; and Mr. Elton, just as he ought,
1428 entreated for the permission of attending and reading to them again.
1429
1430 “By all means. We shall be most happy to consider you as one of the
1431 party.”
1432
1433 The same civilities and courtesies, the same success and satisfaction,
1434 took place on the morrow, and accompanied the whole progress of the
1435 picture, which was rapid and happy. Every body who saw it was pleased,
1436 but Mr. Elton was in continual raptures, and defended it through every
1437 criticism.
1438
1439 “Miss Woodhouse has given her friend the only beauty she
1440 wanted,”--observed Mrs. Weston to him--not in the least suspecting that
1441 she was addressing a lover.--“The expression of the eye is most correct,
1442 but Miss Smith has not those eyebrows and eyelashes. It is the fault of
1443 her face that she has them not.”
1444
1445 “Do you think so?” replied he. “I cannot agree with you. It appears
1446 to me a most perfect resemblance in every feature. I never saw such a
1447 likeness in my life. We must allow for the effect of shade, you know.”
1448
1449 “You have made her too tall, Emma,” said Mr. Knightley.
1450
1451 Emma knew that she had, but would not own it; and Mr. Elton warmly
1452 added,
1453
1454 “Oh no! certainly not too tall; not in the least too tall. Consider, she
1455 is sitting down--which naturally presents a different--which in short
1456 gives exactly the idea--and the proportions must be preserved, you know.
1457 Proportions, fore-shortening.--Oh no! it gives one exactly the idea of
1458 such a height as Miss Smith’s. Exactly so indeed!”
1459
1460 “It is very pretty,” said Mr. Woodhouse. “So prettily done! Just as your
1461 drawings always are, my dear. I do not know any body who draws so well
1462 as you do. The only thing I do not thoroughly like is, that she seems
1463 to be sitting out of doors, with only a little shawl over her
1464 shoulders--and it makes one think she must catch cold.”
1465
1466 “But, my dear papa, it is supposed to be summer; a warm day in summer.
1467 Look at the tree.”
1468
1469 “But it is never safe to sit out of doors, my dear.”
1470
1471 “You, sir, may say any thing,” cried Mr. Elton, “but I must confess that
1472 I regard it as a most happy thought, the placing of Miss Smith out of
1473 doors; and the tree is touched with such inimitable spirit! Any other
1474 situation would have been much less in character. The naivete of Miss
1475 Smith’s manners--and altogether--Oh, it is most admirable! I cannot keep
1476 my eyes from it. I never saw such a likeness.”
1477
1478 The next thing wanted was to get the picture framed; and here were a few
1479 difficulties. It must be done directly; it must be done in London; the
1480 order must go through the hands of some intelligent person whose taste
1481 could be depended on; and Isabella, the usual doer of all commissions,
1482 must not be applied to, because it was December, and Mr. Woodhouse
1483 could not bear the idea of her stirring out of her house in the fogs of
1484 December. But no sooner was the distress known to Mr. Elton, than it
1485 was removed. His gallantry was always on the alert. “Might he be trusted
1486 with the commission, what infinite pleasure should he have in executing
1487 it! he could ride to London at any time. It was impossible to say how
1488 much he should be gratified by being employed on such an errand.”
1489
1490 “He was too good!--she could not endure the thought!--she would not give
1491 him such a troublesome office for the world,”--brought on the desired
1492 repetition of entreaties and assurances,--and a very few minutes settled
1493 the business.
1494
1495 Mr. Elton was to take the drawing to London, chuse the frame, and give
1496 the directions; and Emma thought she could so pack it as to ensure its
1497 safety without much incommoding him, while he seemed mostly fearful of
1498 not being incommoded enough.
1499
1500 “What a precious deposit!” said he with a tender sigh, as he received
1501 it.
1502
1503 “This man is almost too gallant to be in love,” thought Emma. “I should
1504 say so, but that I suppose there may be a hundred different ways of
1505 being in love. He is an excellent young man, and will suit Harriet
1506 exactly; it will be an ‘Exactly so,’ as he says himself; but he does
1507 sigh and languish, and study for compliments rather more than I could
1508 endure as a principal. I come in for a pretty good share as a second.
1509 But it is his gratitude on Harriet’s account.”
1510
1511
1512
1513 CHAPTER VII
1514
1515
1516 The very day of Mr. Elton’s going to London produced a fresh occasion
1517 for Emma’s services towards her friend. Harriet had been at Hartfield,
1518 as usual, soon after breakfast; and, after a time, had gone home to
1519 return again to dinner: she returned, and sooner than had been
1520 talked of, and with an agitated, hurried look, announcing something
1521 extraordinary to have happened which she was longing to tell. Half a
1522 minute brought it all out. She had heard, as soon as she got back to
1523 Mrs. Goddard’s, that Mr. Martin had been there an hour before, and
1524 finding she was not at home, nor particularly expected, had left a
1525 little parcel for her from one of his sisters, and gone away; and on
1526 opening this parcel, she had actually found, besides the two songs which
1527 she had lent Elizabeth to copy, a letter to herself; and this letter was
1528 from him, from Mr. Martin, and contained a direct proposal of marriage.
1529 “Who could have thought it? She was so surprized she did not know what
1530 to do. Yes, quite a proposal of marriage; and a very good letter,
1531 at least she thought so. And he wrote as if he really loved her very
1532 much--but she did not know--and so, she was come as fast as she could to
1533 ask Miss Woodhouse what she should do.--” Emma was half-ashamed of her
1534 friend for seeming so pleased and so doubtful.
1535
1536 “Upon my word,” she cried, “the young man is determined not to lose any
1537 thing for want of asking. He will connect himself well if he can.”
1538
1539 “Will you read the letter?” cried Harriet. “Pray do. I’d rather you
1540 would.”
1541
1542 Emma was not sorry to be pressed. She read, and was surprized. The style
1543 of the letter was much above her expectation. There were not merely no
1544 grammatical errors, but as a composition it would not have disgraced a
1545 gentleman; the language, though plain, was strong and unaffected, and
1546 the sentiments it conveyed very much to the credit of the writer. It was
1547 short, but expressed good sense, warm attachment, liberality, propriety,
1548 even delicacy of feeling. She paused over it, while Harriet stood
1549 anxiously watching for her opinion, with a “Well, well,” and was at last
1550 forced to add, “Is it a good letter? or is it too short?”
1551
1552 “Yes, indeed, a very good letter,” replied Emma rather slowly--“so
1553 good a letter, Harriet, that every thing considered, I think one of his
1554 sisters must have helped him. I can hardly imagine the young man whom
1555 I saw talking with you the other day could express himself so well, if
1556 left quite to his own powers, and yet it is not the style of a woman;
1557 no, certainly, it is too strong and concise; not diffuse enough for a
1558 woman. No doubt he is a sensible man, and I suppose may have a natural
1559 talent for--thinks strongly and clearly--and when he takes a pen in
1560 hand, his thoughts naturally find proper words. It is so with some men.
1561 Yes, I understand the sort of mind. Vigorous, decided, with sentiments
1562 to a certain point, not coarse. A better written letter, Harriet
1563 (returning it,) than I had expected.”
1564
1565 “Well,” said the still waiting Harriet;--“well--and--and what shall I
1566 do?”
1567
1568 “What shall you do! In what respect? Do you mean with regard to this
1569 letter?”
1570
1571 “Yes.”
1572
1573 “But what are you in doubt of? You must answer it of course--and
1574 speedily.”
1575
1576 “Yes. But what shall I say? Dear Miss Woodhouse, do advise me.”
1577
1578 “Oh no, no! the letter had much better be all your own. You will express
1579 yourself very properly, I am sure. There is no danger of your not
1580 being intelligible, which is the first thing. Your meaning must be
1581 unequivocal; no doubts or demurs: and such expressions of gratitude
1582 and concern for the pain you are inflicting as propriety requires, will
1583 present themselves unbidden to _your_ mind, I am persuaded. You need
1584 not be prompted to write with the appearance of sorrow for his
1585 disappointment.”
1586
1587 “You think I ought to refuse him then,” said Harriet, looking down.
1588
1589 “Ought to refuse him! My dear Harriet, what do you mean? Are you in any
1590 doubt as to that? I thought--but I beg your pardon, perhaps I have been
1591 under a mistake. I certainly have been misunderstanding you, if you feel
1592 in doubt as to the _purport_ of your answer. I had imagined you were
1593 consulting me only as to the wording of it.”
1594
1595 Harriet was silent. With a little reserve of manner, Emma continued:
1596
1597 “You mean to return a favourable answer, I collect.”
1598
1599 “No, I do not; that is, I do not mean--What shall I do? What would you
1600 advise me to do? Pray, dear Miss Woodhouse, tell me what I ought to do.”
1601
1602 “I shall not give you any advice, Harriet. I will have nothing to do
1603 with it. This is a point which you must settle with your feelings.”
1604
1605 “I had no notion that he liked me so very much,” said Harriet,
1606 contemplating the letter. For a little while Emma persevered in her
1607 silence; but beginning to apprehend the bewitching flattery of that
1608 letter might be too powerful, she thought it best to say,
1609
1610 “I lay it down as a general rule, Harriet, that if a woman _doubts_ as
1611 to whether she should accept a man or not, she certainly ought to refuse
1612 him. If she can hesitate as to ‘Yes,’ she ought to say ‘No’ directly.
1613 It is not a state to be safely entered into with doubtful feelings, with
1614 half a heart. I thought it my duty as a friend, and older than yourself,
1615 to say thus much to you. But do not imagine that I want to influence
1616 you.”
1617
1618 “Oh! no, I am sure you are a great deal too kind to--but if you would
1619 just advise me what I had best do--No, no, I do not mean that--As
1620 you say, one’s mind ought to be quite made up--One should not be
1621 hesitating--It is a very serious thing.--It will be safer to say ‘No,’
1622 perhaps.--Do you think I had better say ‘No?’”
1623
1624 “Not for the world,” said Emma, smiling graciously, “would I advise you
1625 either way. You must be the best judge of your own happiness. If you
1626 prefer Mr. Martin to every other person; if you think him the most
1627 agreeable man you have ever been in company with, why should you
1628 hesitate? You blush, Harriet.--Does any body else occur to you at
1629 this moment under such a definition? Harriet, Harriet, do not deceive
1630 yourself; do not be run away with by gratitude and compassion. At this
1631 moment whom are you thinking of?”
1632
1633 The symptoms were favourable.--Instead of answering, Harriet turned away
1634 confused, and stood thoughtfully by the fire; and though the letter was
1635 still in her hand, it was now mechanically twisted about without regard.
1636 Emma waited the result with impatience, but not without strong hopes. At
1637 last, with some hesitation, Harriet said--
1638
1639 “Miss Woodhouse, as you will not give me your opinion, I must do as well
1640 as I can by myself; and I have now quite determined, and really almost
1641 made up my mind--to refuse Mr. Martin. Do you think I am right?”
1642
1643 “Perfectly, perfectly right, my dearest Harriet; you are doing just
1644 what you ought. While you were at all in suspense I kept my feelings to
1645 myself, but now that you are so completely decided I have no hesitation
1646 in approving. Dear Harriet, I give myself joy of this. It would
1647 have grieved me to lose your acquaintance, which must have been the
1648 consequence of your marrying Mr. Martin. While you were in the smallest
1649 degree wavering, I said nothing about it, because I would not influence;
1650 but it would have been the loss of a friend to me. I could not have
1651 visited Mrs. Robert Martin, of Abbey-Mill Farm. Now I am secure of you
1652 for ever.”
1653
1654 Harriet had not surmised her own danger, but the idea of it struck her
1655 forcibly.
1656
1657 “You could not have visited me!” she cried, looking aghast. “No, to be
1658 sure you could not; but I never thought of that before. That would have
1659 been too dreadful!--What an escape!--Dear Miss Woodhouse, I would not
1660 give up the pleasure and honour of being intimate with you for any thing
1661 in the world.”
1662
1663 “Indeed, Harriet, it would have been a severe pang to lose you; but it
1664 must have been. You would have thrown yourself out of all good society.
1665 I must have given you up.”
1666
1667 “Dear me!--How should I ever have borne it! It would have killed me
1668 never to come to Hartfield any more!”
1669
1670 “Dear affectionate creature!--_You_ banished to Abbey-Mill Farm!--_You_
1671 confined to the society of the illiterate and vulgar all your life! I
1672 wonder how the young man could have the assurance to ask it. He must
1673 have a pretty good opinion of himself.”
1674
1675 “I do not think he is conceited either, in general,” said Harriet, her
1676 conscience opposing such censure; “at least, he is very good natured,
1677 and I shall always feel much obliged to him, and have a great regard
1678 for--but that is quite a different thing from--and you know, though
1679 he may like me, it does not follow that I should--and certainly I must
1680 confess that since my visiting here I have seen people--and if one comes
1681 to compare them, person and manners, there is no comparison at all,
1682 _one_ is so very handsome and agreeable. However, I do really think Mr.
1683 Martin a very amiable young man, and have a great opinion of him; and
1684 his being so much attached to me--and his writing such a letter--but as
1685 to leaving you, it is what I would not do upon any consideration.”
1686
1687 “Thank you, thank you, my own sweet little friend. We will not be
1688 parted. A woman is not to marry a man merely because she is asked, or
1689 because he is attached to her, and can write a tolerable letter.”
1690
1691 “Oh no;--and it is but a short letter too.”
1692
1693 Emma felt the bad taste of her friend, but let it pass with a “very
1694 true; and it would be a small consolation to her, for the clownish
1695 manner which might be offending her every hour of the day, to know that
1696 her husband could write a good letter.”
1697
1698 “Oh! yes, very. Nobody cares for a letter; the thing is, to be always
1699 happy with pleasant companions. I am quite determined to refuse him. But
1700 how shall I do? What shall I say?”
1701
1702 Emma assured her there would be no difficulty in the answer, and advised
1703 its being written directly, which was agreed to, in the hope of her
1704 assistance; and though Emma continued to protest against any assistance
1705 being wanted, it was in fact given in the formation of every sentence.
1706 The looking over his letter again, in replying to it, had such a
1707 softening tendency, that it was particularly necessary to brace her up
1708 with a few decisive expressions; and she was so very much concerned at
1709 the idea of making him unhappy, and thought so much of what his mother
1710 and sisters would think and say, and was so anxious that they should not
1711 fancy her ungrateful, that Emma believed if the young man had come in
1712 her way at that moment, he would have been accepted after all.
1713
1714 This letter, however, was written, and sealed, and sent. The business
1715 was finished, and Harriet safe. She was rather low all the evening, but
1716 Emma could allow for her amiable regrets, and sometimes relieved them by
1717 speaking of her own affection, sometimes by bringing forward the idea of
1718 Mr. Elton.
1719
1720 “I shall never be invited to Abbey-Mill again,” was said in rather a
1721 sorrowful tone.
1722
1723 “Nor, if you were, could I ever bear to part with you, my Harriet. You
1724 are a great deal too necessary at Hartfield to be spared to Abbey-Mill.”
1725
1726 “And I am sure I should never want to go there; for I am never happy but
1727 at Hartfield.”
1728
1729 Some time afterwards it was, “I think Mrs. Goddard would be very much
1730 surprized if she knew what had happened. I am sure Miss Nash would--for
1731 Miss Nash thinks her own sister very well married, and it is only a
1732 linen-draper.”
1733
1734 “One should be sorry to see greater pride or refinement in the teacher
1735 of a school, Harriet. I dare say Miss Nash would envy you such an
1736 opportunity as this of being married. Even this conquest would appear
1737 valuable in her eyes. As to any thing superior for you, I suppose she
1738 is quite in the dark. The attentions of a certain person can hardly be
1739 among the tittle-tattle of Highbury yet. Hitherto I fancy you and I
1740 are the only people to whom his looks and manners have explained
1741 themselves.”
1742
1743 Harriet blushed and smiled, and said something about wondering that
1744 people should like her so much. The idea of Mr. Elton was certainly
1745 cheering; but still, after a time, she was tender-hearted again towards
1746 the rejected Mr. Martin.
1747
1748 “Now he has got my letter,” said she softly. “I wonder what they are all
1749 doing--whether his sisters know--if he is unhappy, they will be unhappy
1750 too. I hope he will not mind it so very much.”
1751
1752 “Let us think of those among our absent friends who are more cheerfully
1753 employed,” cried Emma. “At this moment, perhaps, Mr. Elton is shewing
1754 your picture to his mother and sisters, telling how much more beautiful
1755 is the original, and after being asked for it five or six times,
1756 allowing them to hear your name, your own dear name.”
1757
1758 “My picture!--But he has left my picture in Bond-street.”
1759
1760 “Has he so!--Then I know nothing of Mr. Elton. No, my dear little modest
1761 Harriet, depend upon it the picture will not be in Bond-street till
1762 just before he mounts his horse to-morrow. It is his companion all this
1763 evening, his solace, his delight. It opens his designs to his family,
1764 it introduces you among them, it diffuses through the party those
1765 pleasantest feelings of our nature, eager curiosity and warm
1766 prepossession. How cheerful, how animated, how suspicious, how busy
1767 their imaginations all are!”
1768
1769 Harriet smiled again, and her smiles grew stronger.
1770
1771
1772
1773 CHAPTER VIII
1774
1775
1776 Harriet slept at Hartfield that night. For some weeks past she had been
1777 spending more than half her time there, and gradually getting to have
1778 a bed-room appropriated to herself; and Emma judged it best in every
1779 respect, safest and kindest, to keep her with them as much as possible
1780 just at present. She was obliged to go the next morning for an hour or
1781 two to Mrs. Goddard’s, but it was then to be settled that she should
1782 return to Hartfield, to make a regular visit of some days.
1783
1784 While she was gone, Mr. Knightley called, and sat some time with Mr.
1785 Woodhouse and Emma, till Mr. Woodhouse, who had previously made up his
1786 mind to walk out, was persuaded by his daughter not to defer it, and was
1787 induced by the entreaties of both, though against the scruples of his
1788 own civility, to leave Mr. Knightley for that purpose. Mr. Knightley,
1789 who had nothing of ceremony about him, was offering by his short,
1790 decided answers, an amusing contrast to the protracted apologies and
1791 civil hesitations of the other.
1792
1793 “Well, I believe, if you will excuse me, Mr. Knightley, if you will not
1794 consider me as doing a very rude thing, I shall take Emma’s advice and
1795 go out for a quarter of an hour. As the sun is out, I believe I had
1796 better take my three turns while I can. I treat you without ceremony,
1797 Mr. Knightley. We invalids think we are privileged people.”
1798
1799 “My dear sir, do not make a stranger of me.”
1800
1801 “I leave an excellent substitute in my daughter. Emma will be happy to
1802 entertain you. And therefore I think I will beg your excuse and take my
1803 three turns--my winter walk.”
1804
1805 “You cannot do better, sir.”
1806
1807 “I would ask for the pleasure of your company, Mr. Knightley, but I am a
1808 very slow walker, and my pace would be tedious to you; and, besides, you
1809 have another long walk before you, to Donwell Abbey.”
1810
1811 “Thank you, sir, thank you; I am going this moment myself; and I think
1812 the sooner _you_ go the better. I will fetch your greatcoat and open the
1813 garden door for you.”
1814
1815 Mr. Woodhouse at last was off; but Mr. Knightley, instead of being
1816 immediately off likewise, sat down again, seemingly inclined for more
1817 chat. He began speaking of Harriet, and speaking of her with more
1818 voluntary praise than Emma had ever heard before.
1819
1820 “I cannot rate her beauty as you do,” said he; “but she is a
1821 pretty little creature, and I am inclined to think very well of her
1822 disposition. Her character depends upon those she is with; but in good
1823 hands she will turn out a valuable woman.”
1824
1825 “I am glad you think so; and the good hands, I hope, may not be
1826 wanting.”
1827
1828 “Come,” said he, “you are anxious for a compliment, so I will tell you
1829 that you have improved her. You have cured her of her school-girl’s
1830 giggle; she really does you credit.”
1831
1832 “Thank you. I should be mortified indeed if I did not believe I had been
1833 of some use; but it is not every body who will bestow praise where they
1834 may. _You_ do not often overpower me with it.”
1835
1836 “You are expecting her again, you say, this morning?”
1837
1838 “Almost every moment. She has been gone longer already than she
1839 intended.”
1840
1841 “Something has happened to delay her; some visitors perhaps.”
1842
1843 “Highbury gossips!--Tiresome wretches!”
1844
1845 “Harriet may not consider every body tiresome that you would.”
1846
1847 Emma knew this was too true for contradiction, and therefore said
1848 nothing. He presently added, with a smile,
1849
1850 “I do not pretend to fix on times or places, but I must tell you that
1851 I have good reason to believe your little friend will soon hear of
1852 something to her advantage.”
1853
1854 “Indeed! how so? of what sort?”
1855
1856 “A very serious sort, I assure you;” still smiling.
1857
1858 “Very serious! I can think of but one thing--Who is in love with her?
1859 Who makes you their confidant?”
1860
1861 Emma was more than half in hopes of Mr. Elton’s having dropt a hint.
1862 Mr. Knightley was a sort of general friend and adviser, and she knew Mr.
1863 Elton looked up to him.
1864
1865 “I have reason to think,” he replied, “that Harriet Smith will soon have
1866 an offer of marriage, and from a most unexceptionable quarter:--Robert
1867 Martin is the man. Her visit to Abbey-Mill, this summer, seems to have
1868 done his business. He is desperately in love and means to marry her.”
1869
1870 “He is very obliging,” said Emma; “but is he sure that Harriet means to
1871 marry him?”
1872
1873 “Well, well, means to make her an offer then. Will that do? He came to
1874 the Abbey two evenings ago, on purpose to consult me about it. He knows
1875 I have a thorough regard for him and all his family, and, I believe,
1876 considers me as one of his best friends. He came to ask me whether
1877 I thought it would be imprudent in him to settle so early; whether
1878 I thought her too young: in short, whether I approved his choice
1879 altogether; having some apprehension perhaps of her being considered
1880 (especially since _your_ making so much of her) as in a line of society
1881 above him. I was very much pleased with all that he said. I never hear
1882 better sense from any one than Robert Martin. He always speaks to the
1883 purpose; open, straightforward, and very well judging. He told me every
1884 thing; his circumstances and plans, and what they all proposed doing in
1885 the event of his marriage. He is an excellent young man, both as son and
1886 brother. I had no hesitation in advising him to marry. He proved to me
1887 that he could afford it; and that being the case, I was convinced he
1888 could not do better. I praised the fair lady too, and altogether sent
1889 him away very happy. If he had never esteemed my opinion before, he
1890 would have thought highly of me then; and, I dare say, left the house
1891 thinking me the best friend and counsellor man ever had. This happened
1892 the night before last. Now, as we may fairly suppose, he would not allow
1893 much time to pass before he spoke to the lady, and as he does not appear
1894 to have spoken yesterday, it is not unlikely that he should be at Mrs.
1895 Goddard’s to-day; and she may be detained by a visitor, without thinking
1896 him at all a tiresome wretch.”
1897
1898 “Pray, Mr. Knightley,” said Emma, who had been smiling to herself
1899 through a great part of this speech, “how do you know that Mr. Martin
1900 did not speak yesterday?”
1901
1902 “Certainly,” replied he, surprized, “I do not absolutely know it; but it
1903 may be inferred. Was not she the whole day with you?”
1904
1905 “Come,” said she, “I will tell you something, in return for what
1906 you have told me. He did speak yesterday--that is, he wrote, and was
1907 refused.”
1908
1909 This was obliged to be repeated before it could be believed; and Mr.
1910 Knightley actually looked red with surprize and displeasure, as he stood
1911 up, in tall indignation, and said,
1912
1913 “Then she is a greater simpleton than I ever believed her. What is the
1914 foolish girl about?”
1915
1916 “Oh! to be sure,” cried Emma, “it is always incomprehensible to a man
1917 that a woman should ever refuse an offer of marriage. A man always
1918 imagines a woman to be ready for any body who asks her.”
1919
1920 “Nonsense! a man does not imagine any such thing. But what is the
1921 meaning of this? Harriet Smith refuse Robert Martin? madness, if it is
1922 so; but I hope you are mistaken.”
1923
1924 “I saw her answer!--nothing could be clearer.”
1925
1926 “You saw her answer!--you wrote her answer too. Emma, this is your
1927 doing. You persuaded her to refuse him.”
1928
1929 “And if I did, (which, however, I am far from allowing) I should not
1930 feel that I had done wrong. Mr. Martin is a very respectable young man,
1931 but I cannot admit him to be Harriet’s equal; and am rather surprized
1932 indeed that he should have ventured to address her. By your account, he
1933 does seem to have had some scruples. It is a pity that they were ever
1934 got over.”
1935
1936 “Not Harriet’s equal!” exclaimed Mr. Knightley loudly and warmly; and
1937 with calmer asperity, added, a few moments afterwards, “No, he is
1938 not her equal indeed, for he is as much her superior in sense as in
1939 situation. Emma, your infatuation about that girl blinds you. What are
1940 Harriet Smith’s claims, either of birth, nature or education, to any
1941 connexion higher than Robert Martin? She is the natural daughter of
1942 nobody knows whom, with probably no settled provision at all, and
1943 certainly no respectable relations. She is known only as parlour-boarder
1944 at a common school. She is not a sensible girl, nor a girl of any
1945 information. She has been taught nothing useful, and is too young and
1946 too simple to have acquired any thing herself. At her age she can have
1947 no experience, and with her little wit, is not very likely ever to have
1948 any that can avail her. She is pretty, and she is good tempered, and
1949 that is all. My only scruple in advising the match was on his account,
1950 as being beneath his deserts, and a bad connexion for him. I felt that,
1951 as to fortune, in all probability he might do much better; and that as
1952 to a rational companion or useful helpmate, he could not do worse. But I
1953 could not reason so to a man in love, and was willing to trust to there
1954 being no harm in her, to her having that sort of disposition, which, in
1955 good hands, like his, might be easily led aright and turn out very well.
1956 The advantage of the match I felt to be all on her side; and had not the
1957 smallest doubt (nor have I now) that there would be a general cry-out
1958 upon her extreme good luck. Even _your_ satisfaction I made sure of.
1959 It crossed my mind immediately that you would not regret your friend’s
1960 leaving Highbury, for the sake of her being settled so well. I remember
1961 saying to myself, ‘Even Emma, with all her partiality for Harriet, will
1962 think this a good match.’”
1963
1964 “I cannot help wondering at your knowing so little of Emma as to say any
1965 such thing. What! think a farmer, (and with all his sense and all his
1966 merit Mr. Martin is nothing more,) a good match for my intimate friend!
1967 Not regret her leaving Highbury for the sake of marrying a man whom
1968 I could never admit as an acquaintance of my own! I wonder you should
1969 think it possible for me to have such feelings. I assure you mine are
1970 very different. I must think your statement by no means fair. You are
1971 not just to Harriet’s claims. They would be estimated very differently
1972 by others as well as myself; Mr. Martin may be the richest of the two,
1973 but he is undoubtedly her inferior as to rank in society.--The sphere in
1974 which she moves is much above his.--It would be a degradation.”
1975
1976 “A degradation to illegitimacy and ignorance, to be married to a
1977 respectable, intelligent gentleman-farmer!”
1978
1979 “As to the circumstances of her birth, though in a legal sense she may
1980 be called Nobody, it will not hold in common sense. She is not to pay
1981 for the offence of others, by being held below the level of those with
1982 whom she is brought up.--There can scarcely be a doubt that her father
1983 is a gentleman--and a gentleman of fortune.--Her allowance is
1984 very liberal; nothing has ever been grudged for her improvement or
1985 comfort.--That she is a gentleman’s daughter, is indubitable to me; that
1986 she associates with gentlemen’s daughters, no one, I apprehend, will
1987 deny.--She is superior to Mr. Robert Martin.”
1988
1989 “Whoever might be her parents,” said Mr. Knightley, “whoever may have
1990 had the charge of her, it does not appear to have been any part of
1991 their plan to introduce her into what you would call good society. After
1992 receiving a very indifferent education she is left in Mrs. Goddard’s
1993 hands to shift as she can;--to move, in short, in Mrs. Goddard’s line,
1994 to have Mrs. Goddard’s acquaintance. Her friends evidently thought
1995 this good enough for her; and it _was_ good enough. She desired nothing
1996 better herself. Till you chose to turn her into a friend, her mind had
1997 no distaste for her own set, nor any ambition beyond it. She was as
1998 happy as possible with the Martins in the summer. She had no sense of
1999 superiority then. If she has it now, you have given it. You have been no
2000 friend to Harriet Smith, Emma. Robert Martin would never have proceeded
2001 so far, if he had not felt persuaded of her not being disinclined to
2002 him. I know him well. He has too much real feeling to address any
2003 woman on the haphazard of selfish passion. And as to conceit, he is
2004 the farthest from it of any man I know. Depend upon it he had
2005 encouragement.”
2006
2007 It was most convenient to Emma not to make a direct reply to this
2008 assertion; she chose rather to take up her own line of the subject
2009 again.
2010
2011 “You are a very warm friend to Mr. Martin; but, as I said before,
2012 are unjust to Harriet. Harriet’s claims to marry well are not so
2013 contemptible as you represent them. She is not a clever girl, but she
2014 has better sense than you are aware of, and does not deserve to have her
2015 understanding spoken of so slightingly. Waiving that point, however, and
2016 supposing her to be, as you describe her, only pretty and good-natured,
2017 let me tell you, that in the degree she possesses them, they are not
2018 trivial recommendations to the world in general, for she is, in fact, a
2019 beautiful girl, and must be thought so by ninety-nine people out of an
2020 hundred; and till it appears that men are much more philosophic on the
2021 subject of beauty than they are generally supposed; till they do fall
2022 in love with well-informed minds instead of handsome faces, a girl, with
2023 such loveliness as Harriet, has a certainty of being admired and sought
2024 after, of having the power of chusing from among many, consequently a
2025 claim to be nice. Her good-nature, too, is not so very slight a claim,
2026 comprehending, as it does, real, thorough sweetness of temper and
2027 manner, a very humble opinion of herself, and a great readiness to
2028 be pleased with other people. I am very much mistaken if your sex in
2029 general would not think such beauty, and such temper, the highest claims
2030 a woman could possess.”
2031
2032 “Upon my word, Emma, to hear you abusing the reason you have, is almost
2033 enough to make me think so too. Better be without sense, than misapply
2034 it as you do.”
2035
2036 “To be sure!” cried she playfully. “I know _that_ is the feeling of
2037 you all. I know that such a girl as Harriet is exactly what every
2038 man delights in--what at once bewitches his senses and satisfies his
2039 judgment. Oh! Harriet may pick and chuse. Were you, yourself, ever to
2040 marry, she is the very woman for you. And is she, at seventeen, just
2041 entering into life, just beginning to be known, to be wondered at
2042 because she does not accept the first offer she receives? No--pray let
2043 her have time to look about her.”
2044
2045 “I have always thought it a very foolish intimacy,” said Mr. Knightley
2046 presently, “though I have kept my thoughts to myself; but I now perceive
2047 that it will be a very unfortunate one for Harriet. You will puff her up
2048 with such ideas of her own beauty, and of what she has a claim to, that,
2049 in a little while, nobody within her reach will be good enough for her.
2050 Vanity working on a weak head, produces every sort of mischief. Nothing
2051 so easy as for a young lady to raise her expectations too high. Miss
2052 Harriet Smith may not find offers of marriage flow in so fast, though
2053 she is a very pretty girl. Men of sense, whatever you may chuse to
2054 say, do not want silly wives. Men of family would not be very fond of
2055 connecting themselves with a girl of such obscurity--and most prudent
2056 men would be afraid of the inconvenience and disgrace they might be
2057 involved in, when the mystery of her parentage came to be revealed. Let
2058 her marry Robert Martin, and she is safe, respectable, and happy for
2059 ever; but if you encourage her to expect to marry greatly, and teach her
2060 to be satisfied with nothing less than a man of consequence and large
2061 fortune, she may be a parlour-boarder at Mrs. Goddard’s all the rest
2062 of her life--or, at least, (for Harriet Smith is a girl who will marry
2063 somebody or other,) till she grow desperate, and is glad to catch at the
2064 old writing-master’s son.”
2065
2066 “We think so very differently on this point, Mr. Knightley, that there
2067 can be no use in canvassing it. We shall only be making each other more
2068 angry. But as to my _letting_ her marry Robert Martin, it is impossible;
2069 she has refused him, and so decidedly, I think, as must prevent any
2070 second application. She must abide by the evil of having refused him,
2071 whatever it may be; and as to the refusal itself, I will not pretend to
2072 say that I might not influence her a little; but I assure you there
2073 was very little for me or for any body to do. His appearance is so much
2074 against him, and his manner so bad, that if she ever were disposed to
2075 favour him, she is not now. I can imagine, that before she had seen
2076 any body superior, she might tolerate him. He was the brother of her
2077 friends, and he took pains to please her; and altogether, having seen
2078 nobody better (that must have been his great assistant) she might not,
2079 while she was at Abbey-Mill, find him disagreeable. But the case
2080 is altered now. She knows now what gentlemen are; and nothing but a
2081 gentleman in education and manner has any chance with Harriet.”
2082
2083 “Nonsense, errant nonsense, as ever was talked!” cried Mr.
2084 Knightley.--“Robert Martin’s manners have sense, sincerity, and
2085 good-humour to recommend them; and his mind has more true gentility than
2086 Harriet Smith could understand.”
2087
2088 Emma made no answer, and tried to look cheerfully unconcerned, but was
2089 really feeling uncomfortable and wanting him very much to be gone. She
2090 did not repent what she had done; she still thought herself a better
2091 judge of such a point of female right and refinement than he could be;
2092 but yet she had a sort of habitual respect for his judgment in general,
2093 which made her dislike having it so loudly against her; and to have him
2094 sitting just opposite to her in angry state, was very disagreeable.
2095 Some minutes passed in this unpleasant silence, with only one attempt
2096 on Emma’s side to talk of the weather, but he made no answer. He was
2097 thinking. The result of his thoughts appeared at last in these words.
2098
2099 “Robert Martin has no great loss--if he can but think so; and I hope it
2100 will not be long before he does. Your views for Harriet are best known
2101 to yourself; but as you make no secret of your love of match-making, it
2102 is fair to suppose that views, and plans, and projects you have;--and as
2103 a friend I shall just hint to you that if Elton is the man, I think it
2104 will be all labour in vain.”
2105
2106 Emma laughed and disclaimed. He continued,
2107
2108 “Depend upon it, Elton will not do. Elton is a very good sort of man,
2109 and a very respectable vicar of Highbury, but not at all likely to make
2110 an imprudent match. He knows the value of a good income as well as any
2111 body. Elton may talk sentimentally, but he will act rationally. He is
2112 as well acquainted with his own claims, as you can be with Harriet’s.
2113 He knows that he is a very handsome young man, and a great favourite
2114 wherever he goes; and from his general way of talking in unreserved
2115 moments, when there are only men present, I am convinced that he does
2116 not mean to throw himself away. I have heard him speak with great
2117 animation of a large family of young ladies that his sisters are
2118 intimate with, who have all twenty thousand pounds apiece.”
2119
2120 “I am very much obliged to you,” said Emma, laughing again. “If I had
2121 set my heart on Mr. Elton’s marrying Harriet, it would have been very
2122 kind to open my eyes; but at present I only want to keep Harriet to
2123 myself. I have done with match-making indeed. I could never hope to
2124 equal my own doings at Randalls. I shall leave off while I am well.”
2125
2126 “Good morning to you,”--said he, rising and walking off abruptly. He was
2127 very much vexed. He felt the disappointment of the young man, and was
2128 mortified to have been the means of promoting it, by the sanction he had
2129 given; and the part which he was persuaded Emma had taken in the affair,
2130 was provoking him exceedingly.
2131
2132 Emma remained in a state of vexation too; but there was more
2133 indistinctness in the causes of her’s, than in his. She did not always
2134 feel so absolutely satisfied with herself, so entirely convinced that
2135 her opinions were right and her adversary’s wrong, as Mr. Knightley. He
2136 walked off in more complete self-approbation than he left for her. She
2137 was not so materially cast down, however, but that a little time and
2138 the return of Harriet were very adequate restoratives. Harriet’s staying
2139 away so long was beginning to make her uneasy. The possibility of the
2140 young man’s coming to Mrs. Goddard’s that morning, and meeting with
2141 Harriet and pleading his own cause, gave alarming ideas. The dread
2142 of such a failure after all became the prominent uneasiness; and when
2143 Harriet appeared, and in very good spirits, and without having any
2144 such reason to give for her long absence, she felt a satisfaction which
2145 settled her with her own mind, and convinced her, that let Mr.
2146 Knightley think or say what he would, she had done nothing which woman’s
2147 friendship and woman’s feelings would not justify.
2148
2149 He had frightened her a little about Mr. Elton; but when she considered
2150 that Mr. Knightley could not have observed him as she had done, neither
2151 with the interest, nor (she must be allowed to tell herself, in spite of
2152 Mr. Knightley’s pretensions) with the skill of such an observer on such
2153 a question as herself, that he had spoken it hastily and in anger, she
2154 was able to believe, that he had rather said what he wished resentfully
2155 to be true, than what he knew any thing about. He certainly might have
2156 heard Mr. Elton speak with more unreserve than she had ever done, and
2157 Mr. Elton might not be of an imprudent, inconsiderate disposition as to
2158 money matters; he might naturally be rather attentive than otherwise
2159 to them; but then, Mr. Knightley did not make due allowance for the
2160 influence of a strong passion at war with all interested motives. Mr.
2161 Knightley saw no such passion, and of course thought nothing of its
2162 effects; but she saw too much of it to feel a doubt of its overcoming
2163 any hesitations that a reasonable prudence might originally suggest; and
2164 more than a reasonable, becoming degree of prudence, she was very sure
2165 did not belong to Mr. Elton.
2166
2167 Harriet’s cheerful look and manner established hers: she came back, not
2168 to think of Mr. Martin, but to talk of Mr. Elton. Miss Nash had been
2169 telling her something, which she repeated immediately with great
2170 delight. Mr. Perry had been to Mrs. Goddard’s to attend a sick child,
2171 and Miss Nash had seen him, and he had told Miss Nash, that as he was
2172 coming back yesterday from Clayton Park, he had met Mr. Elton, and
2173 found to his great surprize, that Mr. Elton was actually on his road
2174 to London, and not meaning to return till the morrow, though it was the
2175 whist-club night, which he had been never known to miss before; and Mr.
2176 Perry had remonstrated with him about it, and told him how shabby it
2177 was in him, their best player, to absent himself, and tried very much to
2178 persuade him to put off his journey only one day; but it would not
2179 do; Mr. Elton had been determined to go on, and had said in a _very_
2180 _particular_ way indeed, that he was going on business which he would
2181 not put off for any inducement in the world; and something about a
2182 very enviable commission, and being the bearer of something exceedingly
2183 precious. Mr. Perry could not quite understand him, but he was very sure
2184 there must be a _lady_ in the case, and he told him so; and Mr. Elton
2185 only looked very conscious and smiling, and rode off in great spirits.
2186 Miss Nash had told her all this, and had talked a great deal more about
2187 Mr. Elton; and said, looking so very significantly at her, “that she did
2188 not pretend to understand what his business might be, but she only
2189 knew that any woman whom Mr. Elton could prefer, she should think the
2190 luckiest woman in the world; for, beyond a doubt, Mr. Elton had not his
2191 equal for beauty or agreeableness.”
2192
2193
2194
2195 CHAPTER IX
2196
2197
2198 Mr. Knightley might quarrel with her, but Emma could not quarrel with
2199 herself. He was so much displeased, that it was longer than usual before
2200 he came to Hartfield again; and when they did meet, his grave looks
2201 shewed that she was not forgiven. She was sorry, but could not repent.
2202 On the contrary, her plans and proceedings were more and more justified
2203 and endeared to her by the general appearances of the next few days.
2204
2205 The Picture, elegantly framed, came safely to hand soon after Mr.
2206 Elton’s return, and being hung over the mantelpiece of the common
2207 sitting-room, he got up to look at it, and sighed out his half sentences
2208 of admiration just as he ought; and as for Harriet’s feelings, they were
2209 visibly forming themselves into as strong and steady an attachment as
2210 her youth and sort of mind admitted. Emma was soon perfectly satisfied
2211 of Mr. Martin’s being no otherwise remembered, than as he furnished a
2212 contrast with Mr. Elton, of the utmost advantage to the latter.
2213
2214 Her views of improving her little friend’s mind, by a great deal of
2215 useful reading and conversation, had never yet led to more than a few
2216 first chapters, and the intention of going on to-morrow. It was much
2217 easier to chat than to study; much pleasanter to let her imagination
2218 range and work at Harriet’s fortune, than to be labouring to enlarge
2219 her comprehension or exercise it on sober facts; and the only literary
2220 pursuit which engaged Harriet at present, the only mental provision she
2221 was making for the evening of life, was the collecting and transcribing
2222 all the riddles of every sort that she could meet with, into a thin
2223 quarto of hot-pressed paper, made up by her friend, and ornamented with
2224 ciphers and trophies.
2225
2226 In this age of literature, such collections on a very grand scale are
2227 not uncommon. Miss Nash, head-teacher at Mrs. Goddard’s, had written out
2228 at least three hundred; and Harriet, who had taken the first hint of it
2229 from her, hoped, with Miss Woodhouse’s help, to get a great many more.
2230 Emma assisted with her invention, memory and taste; and as Harriet wrote
2231 a very pretty hand, it was likely to be an arrangement of the first
2232 order, in form as well as quantity.
2233
2234 Mr. Woodhouse was almost as much interested in the business as the
2235 girls, and tried very often to recollect something worth their putting
2236 in. “So many clever riddles as there used to be when he was young--he
2237 wondered he could not remember them! but he hoped he should in time.”
2238 And it always ended in “Kitty, a fair but frozen maid.”
2239
2240 His good friend Perry, too, whom he had spoken to on the subject,
2241 did not at present recollect any thing of the riddle kind; but he
2242 had desired Perry to be upon the watch, and as he went about so much,
2243 something, he thought, might come from that quarter.
2244
2245 It was by no means his daughter’s wish that the intellects of Highbury
2246 in general should be put under requisition. Mr. Elton was the only one
2247 whose assistance she asked. He was invited to contribute any really good
2248 enigmas, charades, or conundrums that he might recollect; and she had
2249 the pleasure of seeing him most intently at work with his recollections;
2250 and at the same time, as she could perceive, most earnestly careful that
2251 nothing ungallant, nothing that did not breathe a compliment to the
2252 sex should pass his lips. They owed to him their two or three politest
2253 puzzles; and the joy and exultation with which at last he recalled, and
2254 rather sentimentally recited, that well-known charade,
2255
2256 My first doth affliction denote,
2257 Which my second is destin’d to feel
2258 And my whole is the best antidote
2259 That affliction to soften and heal.--
2260
2261 made her quite sorry to acknowledge that they had transcribed it some
2262 pages ago already.
2263
2264 “Why will not you write one yourself for us, Mr. Elton?” said she; “that
2265 is the only security for its freshness; and nothing could be easier to
2266 you.”
2267
2268 “Oh no! he had never written, hardly ever, any thing of the kind in his
2269 life. The stupidest fellow! He was afraid not even Miss Woodhouse”--he
2270 stopt a moment--“or Miss Smith could inspire him.”
2271
2272 The very next day however produced some proof of inspiration. He
2273 called for a few moments, just to leave a piece of paper on the table
2274 containing, as he said, a charade, which a friend of his had addressed
2275 to a young lady, the object of his admiration, but which, from his
2276 manner, Emma was immediately convinced must be his own.
2277
2278 “I do not offer it for Miss Smith’s collection,” said he. “Being my
2279 friend’s, I have no right to expose it in any degree to the public eye,
2280 but perhaps you may not dislike looking at it.”
2281
2282 The speech was more to Emma than to Harriet, which Emma could
2283 understand. There was deep consciousness about him, and he found
2284 it easier to meet her eye than her friend’s. He was gone the next
2285 moment:--after another moment’s pause,
2286
2287 “Take it,” said Emma, smiling, and pushing the paper towards
2288 Harriet--“it is for you. Take your own.”
2289
2290 But Harriet was in a tremor, and could not touch it; and Emma, never
2291 loth to be first, was obliged to examine it herself.
2292
2293 To Miss--
2294
2295 CHARADE.
2296
2297 My first displays the wealth and pomp of kings,
2298 Lords of the earth! their luxury and ease.
2299 Another view of man, my second brings,
2300 Behold him there, the monarch of the seas!
2301
2302 But ah! united, what reverse we have!
2303 Man’s boasted power and freedom, all are flown;
2304 Lord of the earth and sea, he bends a slave,
2305 And woman, lovely woman, reigns alone.
2306
2307 Thy ready wit the word will soon supply,
2308 May its approval beam in that soft eye!
2309
2310 She cast her eye over it, pondered, caught the meaning, read it through
2311 again to be quite certain, and quite mistress of the lines, and then
2312 passing it to Harriet, sat happily smiling, and saying to herself, while
2313 Harriet was puzzling over the paper in all the confusion of hope and
2314 dulness, “Very well, Mr. Elton, very well indeed. I have read worse
2315 charades. _Courtship_--a very good hint. I give you credit for it. This
2316 is feeling your way. This is saying very plainly--‘Pray, Miss Smith,
2317 give me leave to pay my addresses to you. Approve my charade and my
2318 intentions in the same glance.’
2319
2320 May its approval beam in that soft eye!
2321
2322 Harriet exactly. Soft is the very word for her eye--of all epithets, the
2323 justest that could be given.
2324
2325 Thy ready wit the word will soon supply.
2326
2327 Humph--Harriet’s ready wit! All the better. A man must be very much in
2328 love, indeed, to describe her so. Ah! Mr. Knightley, I wish you had the
2329 benefit of this; I think this would convince you. For once in your life
2330 you would be obliged to own yourself mistaken. An excellent charade
2331 indeed! and very much to the purpose. Things must come to a crisis soon
2332 now.”
2333
2334 She was obliged to break off from these very pleasant observations,
2335 which were otherwise of a sort to run into great length, by the
2336 eagerness of Harriet’s wondering questions.
2337
2338 “What can it be, Miss Woodhouse?--what can it be? I have not an idea--I
2339 cannot guess it in the least. What can it possibly be? Do try to find
2340 it out, Miss Woodhouse. Do help me. I never saw any thing so hard. Is it
2341 kingdom? I wonder who the friend was--and who could be the young lady.
2342 Do you think it is a good one? Can it be woman?
2343
2344 And woman, lovely woman, reigns alone.
2345
2346 Can it be Neptune?
2347
2348 Behold him there, the monarch of the seas!
2349
2350 Or a trident? or a mermaid? or a shark? Oh, no! shark is only one
2351 syllable. It must be very clever, or he would not have brought it. Oh!
2352 Miss Woodhouse, do you think we shall ever find it out?”
2353
2354 “Mermaids and sharks! Nonsense! My dear Harriet, what are you thinking
2355 of? Where would be the use of his bringing us a charade made by a friend
2356 upon a mermaid or a shark? Give me the paper and listen.
2357
2358 For Miss ------, read Miss Smith.
2359
2360 My first displays the wealth and pomp of kings,
2361 Lords of the earth! their luxury and ease.
2362
2363 That is _court_.
2364
2365 Another view of man, my second brings;
2366 Behold him there, the monarch of the seas!
2367
2368 That is _ship_;--plain as it can be.--Now for the cream.
2369
2370 But ah! united, (_courtship_, you know,) what reverse we have!
2371 Man’s boasted power and freedom, all are flown.
2372 Lord of the earth and sea, he bends a slave,
2373 And woman, lovely woman, reigns alone.
2374
2375 A very proper compliment!--and then follows the application, which
2376 I think, my dear Harriet, you cannot find much difficulty in
2377 comprehending. Read it in comfort to yourself. There can be no doubt of
2378 its being written for you and to you.”
2379
2380 Harriet could not long resist so delightful a persuasion. She read
2381 the concluding lines, and was all flutter and happiness. She could not
2382 speak. But she was not wanted to speak. It was enough for her to feel.
2383 Emma spoke for her.
2384
2385 “There is so pointed, and so particular a meaning in this compliment,”
2386 said she, “that I cannot have a doubt as to Mr. Elton’s intentions. You
2387 are his object--and you will soon receive the completest proof of it. I
2388 thought it must be so. I thought I could not be so deceived; but now, it
2389 is clear; the state of his mind is as clear and decided, as my wishes on
2390 the subject have been ever since I knew you. Yes, Harriet, just so long
2391 have I been wanting the very circumstance to happen that has happened.
2392 I could never tell whether an attachment between you and Mr. Elton were
2393 most desirable or most natural. Its probability and its eligibility have
2394 really so equalled each other! I am very happy. I congratulate you, my
2395 dear Harriet, with all my heart. This is an attachment which a woman may
2396 well feel pride in creating. This is a connexion which offers nothing
2397 but good. It will give you every thing that you want--consideration,
2398 independence, a proper home--it will fix you in the centre of all your
2399 real friends, close to Hartfield and to me, and confirm our intimacy
2400 for ever. This, Harriet, is an alliance which can never raise a blush in
2401 either of us.”
2402
2403 “Dear Miss Woodhouse!”--and “Dear Miss Woodhouse,” was all that Harriet,
2404 with many tender embraces could articulate at first; but when they did
2405 arrive at something more like conversation, it was sufficiently clear to
2406 her friend that she saw, felt, anticipated, and remembered just as she
2407 ought. Mr. Elton’s superiority had very ample acknowledgment.
2408
2409 “Whatever you say is always right,” cried Harriet, “and therefore I
2410 suppose, and believe, and hope it must be so; but otherwise I could not
2411 have imagined it. It is so much beyond any thing I deserve. Mr. Elton,
2412 who might marry any body! There cannot be two opinions about _him_. He
2413 is so very superior. Only think of those sweet verses--‘To Miss ------.’
2414 Dear me, how clever!--Could it really be meant for me?”
2415
2416 “I cannot make a question, or listen to a question about that. It is a
2417 certainty. Receive it on my judgment. It is a sort of prologue to
2418 the play, a motto to the chapter; and will be soon followed by
2419 matter-of-fact prose.”
2420
2421 “It is a sort of thing which nobody could have expected. I am sure,
2422 a month ago, I had no more idea myself!--The strangest things do take
2423 place!”
2424
2425 “When Miss Smiths and Mr. Eltons get acquainted--they do indeed--and
2426 really it is strange; it is out of the common course that what is so
2427 evidently, so palpably desirable--what courts the pre-arrangement of
2428 other people, should so immediately shape itself into the proper form.
2429 You and Mr. Elton are by situation called together; you belong to one
2430 another by every circumstance of your respective homes. Your marrying
2431 will be equal to the match at Randalls. There does seem to be a
2432 something in the air of Hartfield which gives love exactly the right
2433 direction, and sends it into the very channel where it ought to flow.
2434
2435 The course of true love never did run smooth--
2436
2437 A Hartfield edition of Shakespeare would have a long note on that
2438 passage.”
2439
2440 “That Mr. Elton should really be in love with me,--me, of all people,
2441 who did not know him, to speak to him, at Michaelmas! And he, the very
2442 handsomest man that ever was, and a man that every body looks up to,
2443 quite like Mr. Knightley! His company so sought after, that every body
2444 says he need not eat a single meal by himself if he does not chuse it;
2445 that he has more invitations than there are days in the week. And so
2446 excellent in the Church! Miss Nash has put down all the texts he has
2447 ever preached from since he came to Highbury. Dear me! When I look back
2448 to the first time I saw him! How little did I think!--The two Abbots and
2449 I ran into the front room and peeped through the blind when we heard he
2450 was going by, and Miss Nash came and scolded us away, and staid to look
2451 through herself; however, she called me back presently, and let me
2452 look too, which was very good-natured. And how beautiful we thought he
2453 looked! He was arm-in-arm with Mr. Cole.”
2454
2455 “This is an alliance which, whoever--whatever your friends may be, must
2456 be agreeable to them, provided at least they have common sense; and we
2457 are not to be addressing our conduct to fools. If they are anxious to
2458 see you _happily_ married, here is a man whose amiable character gives
2459 every assurance of it;--if they wish to have you settled in the same
2460 country and circle which they have chosen to place you in, here it will
2461 be accomplished; and if their only object is that you should, in the
2462 common phrase, be _well_ married, here is the comfortable fortune, the
2463 respectable establishment, the rise in the world which must satisfy
2464 them.”
2465
2466 “Yes, very true. How nicely you talk; I love to hear you. You understand
2467 every thing. You and Mr. Elton are one as clever as the other. This
2468 charade!--If I had studied a twelvemonth, I could never have made any
2469 thing like it.”
2470
2471 “I thought he meant to try his skill, by his manner of declining it
2472 yesterday.”
2473
2474 “I do think it is, without exception, the best charade I ever read.”
2475
2476 “I never read one more to the purpose, certainly.”
2477
2478 “It is as long again as almost all we have had before.”
2479
2480 “I do not consider its length as particularly in its favour. Such things
2481 in general cannot be too short.”
2482
2483 Harriet was too intent on the lines to hear. The most satisfactory
2484 comparisons were rising in her mind.
2485
2486 “It is one thing,” said she, presently--her cheeks in a glow--“to have
2487 very good sense in a common way, like every body else, and if there is
2488 any thing to say, to sit down and write a letter, and say just what you
2489 must, in a short way; and another, to write verses and charades like
2490 this.”
2491
2492 Emma could not have desired a more spirited rejection of Mr. Martin’s
2493 prose.
2494
2495 “Such sweet lines!” continued Harriet--“these two last!--But how shall I
2496 ever be able to return the paper, or say I have found it out?--Oh! Miss
2497 Woodhouse, what can we do about that?”
2498
2499 “Leave it to me. You do nothing. He will be here this evening, I dare
2500 say, and then I will give it him back, and some nonsense or other will
2501 pass between us, and you shall not be committed.--Your soft eyes shall
2502 chuse their own time for beaming. Trust to me.”
2503
2504 “Oh! Miss Woodhouse, what a pity that I must not write this beautiful
2505 charade into my book! I am sure I have not got one half so good.”
2506
2507 “Leave out the two last lines, and there is no reason why you should not
2508 write it into your book.”
2509
2510 “Oh! but those two lines are”--
2511
2512 --“The best of all. Granted;--for private enjoyment; and for private
2513 enjoyment keep them. They are not at all the less written you know,
2514 because you divide them. The couplet does not cease to be, nor does its
2515 meaning change. But take it away, and all _appropriation_ ceases, and a
2516 very pretty gallant charade remains, fit for any collection. Depend upon
2517 it, he would not like to have his charade slighted, much better than his
2518 passion. A poet in love must be encouraged in both capacities, or
2519 neither. Give me the book, I will write it down, and then there can be
2520 no possible reflection on you.”
2521
2522 Harriet submitted, though her mind could hardly separate the parts,
2523 so as to feel quite sure that her friend were not writing down a
2524 declaration of love. It seemed too precious an offering for any degree
2525 of publicity.
2526
2527 “I shall never let that book go out of my own hands,” said she.
2528
2529 “Very well,” replied Emma; “a most natural feeling; and the longer it
2530 lasts, the better I shall be pleased. But here is my father coming: you
2531 will not object to my reading the charade to him. It will be giving him
2532 so much pleasure! He loves any thing of the sort, and especially any
2533 thing that pays woman a compliment. He has the tenderest spirit of
2534 gallantry towards us all!--You must let me read it to him.”
2535
2536 Harriet looked grave.
2537
2538 “My dear Harriet, you must not refine too much upon this charade.--You
2539 will betray your feelings improperly, if you are too conscious and too
2540 quick, and appear to affix more meaning, or even quite all the meaning
2541 which may be affixed to it. Do not be overpowered by such a little
2542 tribute of admiration. If he had been anxious for secrecy, he would not
2543 have left the paper while I was by; but he rather pushed it towards me
2544 than towards you. Do not let us be too solemn on the business. He has
2545 encouragement enough to proceed, without our sighing out our souls over
2546 this charade.”
2547
2548 “Oh! no--I hope I shall not be ridiculous about it. Do as you please.”
2549
2550 Mr. Woodhouse came in, and very soon led to the subject again, by the
2551 recurrence of his very frequent inquiry of “Well, my dears, how does
2552 your book go on?--Have you got any thing fresh?”
2553
2554 “Yes, papa; we have something to read you, something quite fresh. A
2555 piece of paper was found on the table this morning--(dropt, we suppose,
2556 by a fairy)--containing a very pretty charade, and we have just copied
2557 it in.”
2558
2559 She read it to him, just as he liked to have any thing read, slowly and
2560 distinctly, and two or three times over, with explanations of every
2561 part as she proceeded--and he was very much pleased, and, as she had
2562 foreseen, especially struck with the complimentary conclusion.
2563
2564 “Aye, that’s very just, indeed, that’s very properly said. Very true.
2565 ‘Woman, lovely woman.’ It is such a pretty charade, my dear, that I
2566 can easily guess what fairy brought it.--Nobody could have written so
2567 prettily, but you, Emma.”
2568
2569 Emma only nodded, and smiled.--After a little thinking, and a very
2570 tender sigh, he added,
2571
2572 “Ah! it is no difficulty to see who you take after! Your dear mother
2573 was so clever at all those things! If I had but her memory! But I can
2574 remember nothing;--not even that particular riddle which you have
2575 heard me mention; I can only recollect the first stanza; and there are
2576 several.
2577
2578 Kitty, a fair but frozen maid,
2579 Kindled a flame I yet deplore,
2580 The hood-wink’d boy I called to aid,
2581 Though of his near approach afraid,
2582 So fatal to my suit before.
2583
2584 And that is all that I can recollect of it--but it is very clever all
2585 the way through. But I think, my dear, you said you had got it.”
2586
2587 “Yes, papa, it is written out in our second page. We copied it from the
2588 Elegant Extracts. It was Garrick’s, you know.”
2589
2590 “Aye, very true.--I wish I could recollect more of it.
2591
2592 Kitty, a fair but frozen maid.
2593
2594 The name makes me think of poor Isabella; for she was very near being
2595 christened Catherine after her grandmama. I hope we shall have her here
2596 next week. Have you thought, my dear, where you shall put her--and what
2597 room there will be for the children?”
2598
2599 “Oh! yes--she will have her own room, of course; the room she always
2600 has;--and there is the nursery for the children,--just as usual, you
2601 know. Why should there be any change?”
2602
2603 “I do not know, my dear--but it is so long since she was here!--not
2604 since last Easter, and then only for a few days.--Mr. John Knightley’s
2605 being a lawyer is very inconvenient.--Poor Isabella!--she is sadly taken
2606 away from us all!--and how sorry she will be when she comes, not to see
2607 Miss Taylor here!”
2608
2609 “She will not be surprized, papa, at least.”
2610
2611 “I do not know, my dear. I am sure I was very much surprized when I
2612 first heard she was going to be married.”
2613
2614 “We must ask Mr. and Mrs. Weston to dine with us, while Isabella is
2615 here.”
2616
2617 “Yes, my dear, if there is time.--But--(in a very depressed tone)--she
2618 is coming for only one week. There will not be time for any thing.”
2619
2620 “It is unfortunate that they cannot stay longer--but it seems a case of
2621 necessity. Mr. John Knightley must be in town again on the 28th, and we
2622 ought to be thankful, papa, that we are to have the whole of the time
2623 they can give to the country, that two or three days are not to be taken
2624 out for the Abbey. Mr. Knightley promises to give up his claim this
2625 Christmas--though you know it is longer since they were with him, than
2626 with us.”
2627
2628 “It would be very hard, indeed, my dear, if poor Isabella were to be
2629 anywhere but at Hartfield.”
2630
2631 Mr. Woodhouse could never allow for Mr. Knightley’s claims on his
2632 brother, or any body’s claims on Isabella, except his own. He sat musing
2633 a little while, and then said,
2634
2635 “But I do not see why poor Isabella should be obliged to go back so
2636 soon, though he does. I think, Emma, I shall try and persuade her to
2637 stay longer with us. She and the children might stay very well.”
2638
2639 “Ah! papa--that is what you never have been able to accomplish, and I
2640 do not think you ever will. Isabella cannot bear to stay behind her
2641 husband.”
2642
2643 This was too true for contradiction. Unwelcome as it was, Mr. Woodhouse
2644 could only give a submissive sigh; and as Emma saw his spirits affected
2645 by the idea of his daughter’s attachment to her husband, she immediately
2646 led to such a branch of the subject as must raise them.
2647
2648 “Harriet must give us as much of her company as she can while my brother
2649 and sister are here. I am sure she will be pleased with the children.
2650 We are very proud of the children, are not we, papa? I wonder which she
2651 will think the handsomest, Henry or John?”
2652
2653 “Aye, I wonder which she will. Poor little dears, how glad they will be
2654 to come. They are very fond of being at Hartfield, Harriet.”
2655
2656 “I dare say they are, sir. I am sure I do not know who is not.”
2657
2658 “Henry is a fine boy, but John is very like his mama. Henry is the
2659 eldest, he was named after me, not after his father. John, the second,
2660 is named after his father. Some people are surprized, I believe, that
2661 the eldest was not, but Isabella would have him called Henry, which I
2662 thought very pretty of her. And he is a very clever boy, indeed. They
2663 are all remarkably clever; and they have so many pretty ways. They will
2664 come and stand by my chair, and say, ‘Grandpapa, can you give me a bit
2665 of string?’ and once Henry asked me for a knife, but I told him knives
2666 were only made for grandpapas. I think their father is too rough with
2667 them very often.”
2668
2669 “He appears rough to you,” said Emma, “because you are so very gentle
2670 yourself; but if you could compare him with other papas, you would not
2671 think him rough. He wishes his boys to be active and hardy; and if
2672 they misbehave, can give them a sharp word now and then; but he is an
2673 affectionate father--certainly Mr. John Knightley is an affectionate
2674 father. The children are all fond of him.”
2675
2676 “And then their uncle comes in, and tosses them up to the ceiling in a
2677 very frightful way!”
2678
2679 “But they like it, papa; there is nothing they like so much. It is such
2680 enjoyment to them, that if their uncle did not lay down the rule of
2681 their taking turns, whichever began would never give way to the other.”
2682
2683 “Well, I cannot understand it.”
2684
2685 “That is the case with us all, papa. One half of the world cannot
2686 understand the pleasures of the other.”
2687
2688 Later in the morning, and just as the girls were going to separate
2689 in preparation for the regular four o’clock dinner, the hero of this
2690 inimitable charade walked in again. Harriet turned away; but Emma could
2691 receive him with the usual smile, and her quick eye soon discerned in
2692 his the consciousness of having made a push--of having thrown a die;
2693 and she imagined he was come to see how it might turn up. His ostensible
2694 reason, however, was to ask whether Mr. Woodhouse’s party could be made
2695 up in the evening without him, or whether he should be in the smallest
2696 degree necessary at Hartfield. If he were, every thing else must give
2697 way; but otherwise his friend Cole had been saying so much about his
2698 dining with him--had made such a point of it, that he had promised him
2699 conditionally to come.
2700
2701 Emma thanked him, but could not allow of his disappointing his friend
2702 on their account; her father was sure of his rubber. He re-urged--she
2703 re-declined; and he seemed then about to make his bow, when taking the
2704 paper from the table, she returned it--
2705
2706 “Oh! here is the charade you were so obliging as to leave with us; thank
2707 you for the sight of it. We admired it so much, that I have ventured
2708 to write it into Miss Smith’s collection. Your friend will not take it
2709 amiss I hope. Of course I have not transcribed beyond the first eight
2710 lines.”
2711
2712 Mr. Elton certainly did not very well know what to say. He looked rather
2713 doubtingly--rather confused; said something about “honour,”--glanced at
2714 Emma and at Harriet, and then seeing the book open on the table, took
2715 it up, and examined it very attentively. With the view of passing off an
2716 awkward moment, Emma smilingly said,
2717
2718 “You must make my apologies to your friend; but so good a charade
2719 must not be confined to one or two. He may be sure of every woman’s
2720 approbation while he writes with such gallantry.”
2721
2722 “I have no hesitation in saying,” replied Mr. Elton, though hesitating
2723 a good deal while he spoke; “I have no hesitation in saying--at least
2724 if my friend feels at all as _I_ do--I have not the smallest doubt that,
2725 could he see his little effusion honoured as _I_ see it, (looking at the
2726 book again, and replacing it on the table), he would consider it as the
2727 proudest moment of his life.”
2728
2729 After this speech he was gone as soon as possible. Emma could not think
2730 it too soon; for with all his good and agreeable qualities, there was
2731 a sort of parade in his speeches which was very apt to incline her to
2732 laugh. She ran away to indulge the inclination, leaving the tender and
2733 the sublime of pleasure to Harriet’s share.
2734
2735
2736
2737 CHAPTER X
2738
2739
2740 Though now the middle of December, there had yet been no weather to
2741 prevent the young ladies from tolerably regular exercise; and on the
2742 morrow, Emma had a charitable visit to pay to a poor sick family, who
2743 lived a little way out of Highbury.
2744
2745 Their road to this detached cottage was down Vicarage Lane, a lane
2746 leading at right angles from the broad, though irregular, main street of
2747 the place; and, as may be inferred, containing the blessed abode of Mr.
2748 Elton. A few inferior dwellings were first to be passed, and then, about
2749 a quarter of a mile down the lane rose the Vicarage, an old and not
2750 very good house, almost as close to the road as it could be. It had
2751 no advantage of situation; but had been very much smartened up by the
2752 present proprietor; and, such as it was, there could be no possibility
2753 of the two friends passing it without a slackened pace and observing
2754 eyes.--Emma’s remark was--
2755
2756 “There it is. There go you and your riddle-book one of these
2757 days.”--Harriet’s was--
2758
2759 “Oh, what a sweet house!--How very beautiful!--There are the yellow
2760 curtains that Miss Nash admires so much.”
2761
2762 “I do not often walk this way _now_,” said Emma, as they proceeded, “but
2763 _then_ there will be an inducement, and I shall gradually get intimately
2764 acquainted with all the hedges, gates, pools and pollards of this part
2765 of Highbury.”
2766
2767 Harriet, she found, had never in her life been inside the Vicarage,
2768 and her curiosity to see it was so extreme, that, considering exteriors
2769 and probabilities, Emma could only class it, as a proof of love, with
2770 Mr. Elton’s seeing ready wit in her.
2771
2772 “I wish we could contrive it,” said she; “but I cannot think of any
2773 tolerable pretence for going in;--no servant that I want to inquire
2774 about of his housekeeper--no message from my father.”
2775
2776 She pondered, but could think of nothing. After a mutual silence of some
2777 minutes, Harriet thus began again--
2778
2779 “I do so wonder, Miss Woodhouse, that you should not be married, or
2780 going to be married! so charming as you are!”--
2781
2782 Emma laughed, and replied,
2783
2784 “My being charming, Harriet, is not quite enough to induce me to marry;
2785 I must find other people charming--one other person at least. And I
2786 am not only, not going to be married, at present, but have very little
2787 intention of ever marrying at all.”
2788
2789 “Ah!--so you say; but I cannot believe it.”
2790
2791 “I must see somebody very superior to any one I have seen yet, to be
2792 tempted; Mr. Elton, you know, (recollecting herself,) is out of the
2793 question: and I do _not_ wish to see any such person. I would rather not
2794 be tempted. I cannot really change for the better. If I were to marry, I
2795 must expect to repent it.”
2796
2797 “Dear me!--it is so odd to hear a woman talk so!”--
2798
2799 “I have none of the usual inducements of women to marry. Were I to fall
2800 in love, indeed, it would be a different thing! but I never have been in
2801 love; it is not my way, or my nature; and I do not think I ever shall.
2802 And, without love, I am sure I should be a fool to change such a
2803 situation as mine. Fortune I do not want; employment I do not want;
2804 consequence I do not want: I believe few married women are half as much
2805 mistress of their husband’s house as I am of Hartfield; and never, never
2806 could I expect to be so truly beloved and important; so always first and
2807 always right in any man’s eyes as I am in my father’s.”
2808
2809 “But then, to be an old maid at last, like Miss Bates!”
2810
2811 “That is as formidable an image as you could present, Harriet; and if
2812 I thought I should ever be like Miss Bates! so silly--so satisfied--so
2813 smiling--so prosing--so undistinguishing and unfastidious--and so apt
2814 to tell every thing relative to every body about me, I would marry
2815 to-morrow. But between _us_, I am convinced there never can be any
2816 likeness, except in being unmarried.”
2817
2818 “But still, you will be an old maid! and that’s so dreadful!”
2819
2820 “Never mind, Harriet, I shall not be a poor old maid; and it is poverty
2821 only which makes celibacy contemptible to a generous public! A single
2822 woman, with a very narrow income, must be a ridiculous, disagreeable old
2823 maid! the proper sport of boys and girls, but a single woman, of good
2824 fortune, is always respectable, and may be as sensible and pleasant
2825 as any body else. And the distinction is not quite so much against the
2826 candour and common sense of the world as appears at first; for a very
2827 narrow income has a tendency to contract the mind, and sour the temper.
2828 Those who can barely live, and who live perforce in a very small, and
2829 generally very inferior, society, may well be illiberal and cross. This
2830 does not apply, however, to Miss Bates; she is only too good natured and
2831 too silly to suit me; but, in general, she is very much to the taste
2832 of every body, though single and though poor. Poverty certainly has not
2833 contracted her mind: I really believe, if she had only a shilling in the
2834 world, she would be very likely to give away sixpence of it; and nobody
2835 is afraid of her: that is a great charm.”
2836
2837 “Dear me! but what shall you do? how shall you employ yourself when you
2838 grow old?”
2839
2840 “If I know myself, Harriet, mine is an active, busy mind, with a great
2841 many independent resources; and I do not perceive why I should be more
2842 in want of employment at forty or fifty than one-and-twenty. Woman’s
2843 usual occupations of hand and mind will be as open to me then as they
2844 are now; or with no important variation. If I draw less, I shall read
2845 more; if I give up music, I shall take to carpet-work. And as for
2846 objects of interest, objects for the affections, which is in truth the
2847 great point of inferiority, the want of which is really the great evil
2848 to be avoided in _not_ marrying, I shall be very well off, with all the
2849 children of a sister I love so much, to care about. There will be enough
2850 of them, in all probability, to supply every sort of sensation that
2851 declining life can need. There will be enough for every hope and every
2852 fear; and though my attachment to none can equal that of a parent, it
2853 suits my ideas of comfort better than what is warmer and blinder. My
2854 nephews and nieces!--I shall often have a niece with me.”
2855
2856 “Do you know Miss Bates’s niece? That is, I know you must have seen her
2857 a hundred times--but are you acquainted?”
2858
2859 “Oh! yes; we are always forced to be acquainted whenever she comes to
2860 Highbury. By the bye, _that_ is almost enough to put one out of conceit
2861 with a niece. Heaven forbid! at least, that I should ever bore people
2862 half so much about all the Knightleys together, as she does about Jane
2863 Fairfax. One is sick of the very name of Jane Fairfax. Every letter from
2864 her is read forty times over; her compliments to all friends go round
2865 and round again; and if she does but send her aunt the pattern of a
2866 stomacher, or knit a pair of garters for her grandmother, one hears of
2867 nothing else for a month. I wish Jane Fairfax very well; but she tires
2868 me to death.”
2869
2870 They were now approaching the cottage, and all idle topics were
2871 superseded. Emma was very compassionate; and the distresses of the poor
2872 were as sure of relief from her personal attention and kindness, her
2873 counsel and her patience, as from her purse. She understood their ways,
2874 could allow for their ignorance and their temptations, had no romantic
2875 expectations of extraordinary virtue from those for whom education had
2876 done so little; entered into their troubles with ready sympathy, and
2877 always gave her assistance with as much intelligence as good-will. In
2878 the present instance, it was sickness and poverty together which she
2879 came to visit; and after remaining there as long as she could give
2880 comfort or advice, she quitted the cottage with such an impression of
2881 the scene as made her say to Harriet, as they walked away,
2882
2883 “These are the sights, Harriet, to do one good. How trifling they make
2884 every thing else appear!--I feel now as if I could think of nothing but
2885 these poor creatures all the rest of the day; and yet, who can say how
2886 soon it may all vanish from my mind?”
2887
2888 “Very true,” said Harriet. “Poor creatures! one can think of nothing
2889 else.”
2890
2891 “And really, I do not think the impression will soon be over,” said
2892 Emma, as she crossed the low hedge, and tottering footstep which ended
2893 the narrow, slippery path through the cottage garden, and brought them
2894 into the lane again. “I do not think it will,” stopping to look once
2895 more at all the outward wretchedness of the place, and recall the still
2896 greater within.
2897
2898 “Oh! dear, no,” said her companion.
2899
2900 They walked on. The lane made a slight bend; and when that bend was
2901 passed, Mr. Elton was immediately in sight; and so near as to give Emma
2902 time only to say farther,
2903
2904 “Ah! Harriet, here comes a very sudden trial of our stability in good
2905 thoughts. Well, (smiling,) I hope it may be allowed that if compassion
2906 has produced exertion and relief to the sufferers, it has done all that
2907 is truly important. If we feel for the wretched, enough to do all we can
2908 for them, the rest is empty sympathy, only distressing to ourselves.”
2909
2910 Harriet could just answer, “Oh! dear, yes,” before the gentleman joined
2911 them. The wants and sufferings of the poor family, however, were the
2912 first subject on meeting. He had been going to call on them. His visit
2913 he would now defer; but they had a very interesting parley about
2914 what could be done and should be done. Mr. Elton then turned back to
2915 accompany them.
2916
2917 “To fall in with each other on such an errand as this,” thought Emma;
2918 “to meet in a charitable scheme; this will bring a great increase
2919 of love on each side. I should not wonder if it were to bring on the
2920 declaration. It must, if I were not here. I wish I were anywhere else.”
2921
2922 Anxious to separate herself from them as far as she could, she soon
2923 afterwards took possession of a narrow footpath, a little raised on one
2924 side of the lane, leaving them together in the main road. But she had
2925 not been there two minutes when she found that Harriet’s habits of
2926 dependence and imitation were bringing her up too, and that, in short,
2927 they would both be soon after her. This would not do; she immediately
2928 stopped, under pretence of having some alteration to make in the lacing
2929 of her half-boot, and stooping down in complete occupation of the
2930 footpath, begged them to have the goodness to walk on, and she would
2931 follow in half a minute. They did as they were desired; and by the time
2932 she judged it reasonable to have done with her boot, she had the comfort
2933 of farther delay in her power, being overtaken by a child from the
2934 cottage, setting out, according to orders, with her pitcher, to fetch
2935 broth from Hartfield. To walk by the side of this child, and talk to
2936 and question her, was the most natural thing in the world, or would have
2937 been the most natural, had she been acting just then without design;
2938 and by this means the others were still able to keep ahead, without
2939 any obligation of waiting for her. She gained on them, however,
2940 involuntarily: the child’s pace was quick, and theirs rather slow;
2941 and she was the more concerned at it, from their being evidently in
2942 a conversation which interested them. Mr. Elton was speaking with
2943 animation, Harriet listening with a very pleased attention; and Emma,
2944 having sent the child on, was beginning to think how she might draw back
2945 a little more, when they both looked around, and she was obliged to join
2946 them.
2947
2948 Mr. Elton was still talking, still engaged in some interesting detail;
2949 and Emma experienced some disappointment when she found that he was only
2950 giving his fair companion an account of the yesterday’s party at his
2951 friend Cole’s, and that she was come in herself for the Stilton cheese,
2952 the north Wiltshire, the butter, the celery, the beet-root, and all the
2953 dessert.
2954
2955 “This would soon have led to something better, of course,” was her
2956 consoling reflection; “any thing interests between those who love; and
2957 any thing will serve as introduction to what is near the heart. If I
2958 could but have kept longer away!”
2959
2960 They now walked on together quietly, till within view of the vicarage
2961 pales, when a sudden resolution, of at least getting Harriet into the
2962 house, made her again find something very much amiss about her boot, and
2963 fall behind to arrange it once more. She then broke the lace off short,
2964 and dexterously throwing it into a ditch, was presently obliged to
2965 entreat them to stop, and acknowledged her inability to put herself to
2966 rights so as to be able to walk home in tolerable comfort.
2967
2968 “Part of my lace is gone,” said she, “and I do not know how I am to
2969 contrive. I really am a most troublesome companion to you both, but I
2970 hope I am not often so ill-equipped. Mr. Elton, I must beg leave to stop
2971 at your house, and ask your housekeeper for a bit of ribband or string,
2972 or any thing just to keep my boot on.”
2973
2974 Mr. Elton looked all happiness at this proposition; and nothing could
2975 exceed his alertness and attention in conducting them into his house and
2976 endeavouring to make every thing appear to advantage. The room they were
2977 taken into was the one he chiefly occupied, and looking forwards; behind
2978 it was another with which it immediately communicated; the door between
2979 them was open, and Emma passed into it with the housekeeper to receive
2980 her assistance in the most comfortable manner. She was obliged to leave
2981 the door ajar as she found it; but she fully intended that Mr. Elton
2982 should close it. It was not closed, however, it still remained ajar; but
2983 by engaging the housekeeper in incessant conversation, she hoped to make
2984 it practicable for him to chuse his own subject in the adjoining
2985 room. For ten minutes she could hear nothing but herself. It could be
2986 protracted no longer. She was then obliged to be finished, and make her
2987 appearance.
2988
2989 The lovers were standing together at one of the windows. It had a most
2990 favourable aspect; and, for half a minute, Emma felt the glory of having
2991 schemed successfully. But it would not do; he had not come to the point.
2992 He had been most agreeable, most delightful; he had told Harriet that
2993 he had seen them go by, and had purposely followed them; other little
2994 gallantries and allusions had been dropt, but nothing serious.
2995
2996 “Cautious, very cautious,” thought Emma; “he advances inch by inch, and
2997 will hazard nothing till he believes himself secure.”
2998
2999 Still, however, though every thing had not been accomplished by her
3000 ingenious device, she could not but flatter herself that it had been
3001 the occasion of much present enjoyment to both, and must be leading them
3002 forward to the great event.
3003
3004
3005
3006 CHAPTER XI
3007
3008
3009 Mr. Elton must now be left to himself. It was no longer in Emma’s power
3010 to superintend his happiness or quicken his measures. The coming of her
3011 sister’s family was so very near at hand, that first in anticipation,
3012 and then in reality, it became henceforth her prime object of interest;
3013 and during the ten days of their stay at Hartfield it was not to be
3014 expected--she did not herself expect--that any thing beyond occasional,
3015 fortuitous assistance could be afforded by her to the lovers. They might
3016 advance rapidly if they would, however; they must advance somehow or
3017 other whether they would or no. She hardly wished to have more leisure
3018 for them. There are people, who the more you do for them, the less they
3019 will do for themselves.
3020
3021 Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley, from having been longer than usual absent
3022 from Surry, were exciting of course rather more than the usual interest.
3023 Till this year, every long vacation since their marriage had been
3024 divided between Hartfield and Donwell Abbey; but all the holidays of
3025 this autumn had been given to sea-bathing for the children, and it was
3026 therefore many months since they had been seen in a regular way by their
3027 Surry connexions, or seen at all by Mr. Woodhouse, who could not be
3028 induced to get so far as London, even for poor Isabella’s sake; and
3029 who consequently was now most nervously and apprehensively happy in
3030 forestalling this too short visit.
3031
3032 He thought much of the evils of the journey for her, and not a little
3033 of the fatigues of his own horses and coachman who were to bring some
3034 of the party the last half of the way; but his alarms were needless;
3035 the sixteen miles being happily accomplished, and Mr. and Mrs. John
3036 Knightley, their five children, and a competent number of nursery-maids,
3037 all reaching Hartfield in safety. The bustle and joy of such an arrival,
3038 the many to be talked to, welcomed, encouraged, and variously dispersed
3039 and disposed of, produced a noise and confusion which his nerves could
3040 not have borne under any other cause, nor have endured much longer even
3041 for this; but the ways of Hartfield and the feelings of her father
3042 were so respected by Mrs. John Knightley, that in spite of maternal
3043 solicitude for the immediate enjoyment of her little ones, and for their
3044 having instantly all the liberty and attendance, all the eating and
3045 drinking, and sleeping and playing, which they could possibly wish for,
3046 without the smallest delay, the children were never allowed to be long
3047 a disturbance to him, either in themselves or in any restless attendance
3048 on them.
3049
3050 Mrs. John Knightley was a pretty, elegant little woman, of gentle, quiet
3051 manners, and a disposition remarkably amiable and affectionate; wrapt
3052 up in her family; a devoted wife, a doating mother, and so tenderly
3053 attached to her father and sister that, but for these higher ties, a
3054 warmer love might have seemed impossible. She could never see a fault
3055 in any of them. She was not a woman of strong understanding or any
3056 quickness; and with this resemblance of her father, she inherited also
3057 much of his constitution; was delicate in her own health, over-careful
3058 of that of her children, had many fears and many nerves, and was as fond
3059 of her own Mr. Wingfield in town as her father could be of Mr. Perry.
3060 They were alike too, in a general benevolence of temper, and a strong
3061 habit of regard for every old acquaintance.
3062
3063 Mr. John Knightley was a tall, gentleman-like, and very clever man;
3064 rising in his profession, domestic, and respectable in his private
3065 character; but with reserved manners which prevented his being generally
3066 pleasing; and capable of being sometimes out of humour. He was not an
3067 ill-tempered man, not so often unreasonably cross as to deserve such a
3068 reproach; but his temper was not his great perfection; and, indeed, with
3069 such a worshipping wife, it was hardly possible that any natural defects
3070 in it should not be increased. The extreme sweetness of her temper
3071 must hurt his. He had all the clearness and quickness of mind which she
3072 wanted, and he could sometimes act an ungracious, or say a severe thing.
3073
3074 He was not a great favourite with his fair sister-in-law. Nothing wrong
3075 in him escaped her. She was quick in feeling the little injuries to
3076 Isabella, which Isabella never felt herself. Perhaps she might have
3077 passed over more had his manners been flattering to Isabella’s sister,
3078 but they were only those of a calmly kind brother and friend, without
3079 praise and without blindness; but hardly any degree of personal
3080 compliment could have made her regardless of that greatest fault of
3081 all in her eyes which he sometimes fell into, the want of respectful
3082 forbearance towards her father. There he had not always the patience
3083 that could have been wished. Mr. Woodhouse’s peculiarities and
3084 fidgetiness were sometimes provoking him to a rational remonstrance or
3085 sharp retort equally ill-bestowed. It did not often happen; for Mr. John
3086 Knightley had really a great regard for his father-in-law, and generally
3087 a strong sense of what was due to him; but it was too often for Emma’s
3088 charity, especially as there was all the pain of apprehension frequently
3089 to be endured, though the offence came not. The beginning, however, of
3090 every visit displayed none but the properest feelings, and this being of
3091 necessity so short might be hoped to pass away in unsullied cordiality.
3092 They had not been long seated and composed when Mr. Woodhouse, with a
3093 melancholy shake of the head and a sigh, called his daughter’s attention
3094 to the sad change at Hartfield since she had been there last.
3095
3096 “Ah, my dear,” said he, “poor Miss Taylor--It is a grievous business.”
3097
3098 “Oh yes, sir,” cried she with ready sympathy, “how you must miss her!
3099 And dear Emma, too!--What a dreadful loss to you both!--I have been so
3100 grieved for you.--I could not imagine how you could possibly do without
3101 her.--It is a sad change indeed.--But I hope she is pretty well, sir.”
3102
3103 “Pretty well, my dear--I hope--pretty well.--I do not know but that the
3104 place agrees with her tolerably.”
3105
3106 Mr. John Knightley here asked Emma quietly whether there were any doubts
3107 of the air of Randalls.
3108
3109 “Oh! no--none in the least. I never saw Mrs. Weston better in my
3110 life--never looking so well. Papa is only speaking his own regret.”
3111
3112 “Very much to the honour of both,” was the handsome reply.
3113
3114 “And do you see her, sir, tolerably often?” asked Isabella in the
3115 plaintive tone which just suited her father.
3116
3117 Mr. Woodhouse hesitated.--“Not near so often, my dear, as I could wish.”
3118
3119 “Oh! papa, we have missed seeing them but one entire day since they
3120 married. Either in the morning or evening of every day, excepting one,
3121 have we seen either Mr. Weston or Mrs. Weston, and generally both,
3122 either at Randalls or here--and as you may suppose, Isabella, most
3123 frequently here. They are very, very kind in their visits. Mr. Weston
3124 is really as kind as herself. Papa, if you speak in that melancholy way,
3125 you will be giving Isabella a false idea of us all. Every body must be
3126 aware that Miss Taylor must be missed, but every body ought also to be
3127 assured that Mr. and Mrs. Weston do really prevent our missing her by
3128 any means to the extent we ourselves anticipated--which is the exact
3129 truth.”
3130
3131 “Just as it should be,” said Mr. John Knightley, “and just as I hoped
3132 it was from your letters. Her wish of shewing you attention could not be
3133 doubted, and his being a disengaged and social man makes it all easy. I
3134 have been always telling you, my love, that I had no idea of the change
3135 being so very material to Hartfield as you apprehended; and now you have
3136 Emma’s account, I hope you will be satisfied.”
3137
3138 “Why, to be sure,” said Mr. Woodhouse--“yes, certainly--I cannot
3139 deny that Mrs. Weston, poor Mrs. Weston, does come and see us pretty
3140 often--but then--she is always obliged to go away again.”
3141
3142 “It would be very hard upon Mr. Weston if she did not, papa.--You quite
3143 forget poor Mr. Weston.”
3144
3145 “I think, indeed,” said John Knightley pleasantly, “that Mr. Weston has
3146 some little claim. You and I, Emma, will venture to take the part of the
3147 poor husband. I, being a husband, and you not being a wife, the claims
3148 of the man may very likely strike us with equal force. As for Isabella,
3149 she has been married long enough to see the convenience of putting all
3150 the Mr. Westons aside as much as she can.”
3151
3152 “Me, my love,” cried his wife, hearing and understanding only in part.--
3153 “Are you talking about me?--I am sure nobody ought to be, or can be, a
3154 greater advocate for matrimony than I am; and if it had not been for
3155 the misery of her leaving Hartfield, I should never have thought of Miss
3156 Taylor but as the most fortunate woman in the world; and as to slighting
3157 Mr. Weston, that excellent Mr. Weston, I think there is nothing he does
3158 not deserve. I believe he is one of the very best-tempered men that ever
3159 existed. Excepting yourself and your brother, I do not know his equal
3160 for temper. I shall never forget his flying Henry’s kite for him that
3161 very windy day last Easter--and ever since his particular kindness last
3162 September twelvemonth in writing that note, at twelve o’clock at night,
3163 on purpose to assure me that there was no scarlet fever at Cobham, I
3164 have been convinced there could not be a more feeling heart nor a better
3165 man in existence.--If any body can deserve him, it must be Miss Taylor.”
3166
3167 “Where is the young man?” said John Knightley. “Has he been here on this
3168 occasion--or has he not?”
3169
3170 “He has not been here yet,” replied Emma. “There was a strong
3171 expectation of his coming soon after the marriage, but it ended in
3172 nothing; and I have not heard him mentioned lately.”
3173
3174 “But you should tell them of the letter, my dear,” said her father.
3175 “He wrote a letter to poor Mrs. Weston, to congratulate her, and a very
3176 proper, handsome letter it was. She shewed it to me. I thought it very
3177 well done of him indeed. Whether it was his own idea you know, one
3178 cannot tell. He is but young, and his uncle, perhaps--”
3179
3180 “My dear papa, he is three-and-twenty. You forget how time passes.”
3181
3182 “Three-and-twenty!--is he indeed?--Well, I could not have thought
3183 it--and he was but two years old when he lost his poor mother! Well,
3184 time does fly indeed!--and my memory is very bad. However, it was an
3185 exceeding good, pretty letter, and gave Mr. and Mrs. Weston a great deal
3186 of pleasure. I remember it was written from Weymouth, and dated Sept.
3187 28th--and began, ‘My dear Madam,’ but I forget how it went on; and it
3188 was signed ‘F. C. Weston Churchill.’--I remember that perfectly.”
3189
3190 “How very pleasing and proper of him!” cried the good-hearted Mrs. John
3191 Knightley. “I have no doubt of his being a most amiable young man. But
3192 how sad it is that he should not live at home with his father! There is
3193 something so shocking in a child’s being taken away from his parents and
3194 natural home! I never could comprehend how Mr. Weston could part with
3195 him. To give up one’s child! I really never could think well of any body
3196 who proposed such a thing to any body else.”
3197
3198 “Nobody ever did think well of the Churchills, I fancy,” observed Mr.
3199 John Knightley coolly. “But you need not imagine Mr. Weston to have felt
3200 what you would feel in giving up Henry or John. Mr. Weston is rather
3201 an easy, cheerful-tempered man, than a man of strong feelings; he takes
3202 things as he finds them, and makes enjoyment of them somehow or other,
3203 depending, I suspect, much more upon what is called society for his
3204 comforts, that is, upon the power of eating and drinking, and playing
3205 whist with his neighbours five times a week, than upon family affection,
3206 or any thing that home affords.”
3207
3208 Emma could not like what bordered on a reflection on Mr. Weston, and had
3209 half a mind to take it up; but she struggled, and let it pass. She
3210 would keep the peace if possible; and there was something honourable and
3211 valuable in the strong domestic habits, the all-sufficiency of home to
3212 himself, whence resulted her brother’s disposition to look down on
3213 the common rate of social intercourse, and those to whom it was
3214 important.--It had a high claim to forbearance.
3215
3216
3217
3218 CHAPTER XII
3219
3220
3221 Mr. Knightley was to dine with them--rather against the inclination of
3222 Mr. Woodhouse, who did not like that any one should share with him in
3223 Isabella’s first day. Emma’s sense of right however had decided it;
3224 and besides the consideration of what was due to each brother, she had
3225 particular pleasure, from the circumstance of the late disagreement
3226 between Mr. Knightley and herself, in procuring him the proper
3227 invitation.
3228
3229 She hoped they might now become friends again. She thought it was time
3230 to make up. Making-up indeed would not do. _She_ certainly had not been
3231 in the wrong, and _he_ would never own that he had. Concession must be
3232 out of the question; but it was time to appear to forget that they had
3233 ever quarrelled; and she hoped it might rather assist the restoration of
3234 friendship, that when he came into the room she had one of the children
3235 with her--the youngest, a nice little girl about eight months old, who
3236 was now making her first visit to Hartfield, and very happy to be danced
3237 about in her aunt’s arms. It did assist; for though he began with grave
3238 looks and short questions, he was soon led on to talk of them all in
3239 the usual way, and to take the child out of her arms with all the
3240 unceremoniousness of perfect amity. Emma felt they were friends again;
3241 and the conviction giving her at first great satisfaction, and then
3242 a little sauciness, she could not help saying, as he was admiring the
3243 baby,
3244
3245 “What a comfort it is, that we think alike about our nephews and nieces.
3246 As to men and women, our opinions are sometimes very different; but with
3247 regard to these children, I observe we never disagree.”
3248
3249 “If you were as much guided by nature in your estimate of men and women,
3250 and as little under the power of fancy and whim in your dealings with
3251 them, as you are where these children are concerned, we might always
3252 think alike.”
3253
3254 “To be sure--our discordancies must always arise from my being in the
3255 wrong.”
3256
3257 “Yes,” said he, smiling--“and reason good. I was sixteen years old when
3258 you were born.”
3259
3260 “A material difference then,” she replied--“and no doubt you were much
3261 my superior in judgment at that period of our lives; but does not the
3262 lapse of one-and-twenty years bring our understandings a good deal
3263 nearer?”
3264
3265 “Yes--a good deal _nearer_.”
3266
3267 “But still, not near enough to give me a chance of being right, if we
3268 think differently.”
3269
3270 “I have still the advantage of you by sixteen years’ experience, and by
3271 not being a pretty young woman and a spoiled child. Come, my dear Emma,
3272 let us be friends, and say no more about it. Tell your aunt, little
3273 Emma, that she ought to set you a better example than to be renewing old
3274 grievances, and that if she were not wrong before, she is now.”
3275
3276 “That’s true,” she cried--“very true. Little Emma, grow up a better
3277 woman than your aunt. Be infinitely cleverer and not half so conceited.
3278 Now, Mr. Knightley, a word or two more, and I have done. As far as good
3279 intentions went, we were _both_ right, and I must say that no effects on
3280 my side of the argument have yet proved wrong. I only want to know that
3281 Mr. Martin is not very, very bitterly disappointed.”
3282
3283 “A man cannot be more so,” was his short, full answer.
3284
3285 “Ah!--Indeed I am very sorry.--Come, shake hands with me.”
3286
3287 This had just taken place and with great cordiality, when John Knightley
3288 made his appearance, and “How d’ye do, George?” and “John, how are
3289 you?” succeeded in the true English style, burying under a calmness that
3290 seemed all but indifference, the real attachment which would have led
3291 either of them, if requisite, to do every thing for the good of the
3292 other.
3293
3294 The evening was quiet and conversable, as Mr. Woodhouse declined cards
3295 entirely for the sake of comfortable talk with his dear Isabella, and
3296 the little party made two natural divisions; on one side he and his
3297 daughter; on the other the two Mr. Knightleys; their subjects totally
3298 distinct, or very rarely mixing--and Emma only occasionally joining in
3299 one or the other.
3300
3301 The brothers talked of their own concerns and pursuits, but principally
3302 of those of the elder, whose temper was by much the most communicative,
3303 and who was always the greater talker. As a magistrate, he had generally
3304 some point of law to consult John about, or, at least, some curious
3305 anecdote to give; and as a farmer, as keeping in hand the home-farm at
3306 Donwell, he had to tell what every field was to bear next year, and to
3307 give all such local information as could not fail of being interesting
3308 to a brother whose home it had equally been the longest part of his
3309 life, and whose attachments were strong. The plan of a drain, the change
3310 of a fence, the felling of a tree, and the destination of every acre for
3311 wheat, turnips, or spring corn, was entered into with as much equality
3312 of interest by John, as his cooler manners rendered possible; and if his
3313 willing brother ever left him any thing to inquire about, his inquiries
3314 even approached a tone of eagerness.
3315
3316 While they were thus comfortably occupied, Mr. Woodhouse was enjoying a
3317 full flow of happy regrets and fearful affection with his daughter.
3318
3319 “My poor dear Isabella,” said he, fondly taking her hand, and
3320 interrupting, for a few moments, her busy labours for some one of her
3321 five children--“How long it is, how terribly long since you were here!
3322 And how tired you must be after your journey! You must go to bed early,
3323 my dear--and I recommend a little gruel to you before you go.--You and
3324 I will have a nice basin of gruel together. My dear Emma, suppose we all
3325 have a little gruel.”
3326
3327 Emma could not suppose any such thing, knowing as she did, that both the
3328 Mr. Knightleys were as unpersuadable on that article as herself;--and
3329 two basins only were ordered. After a little more discourse in praise of
3330 gruel, with some wondering at its not being taken every evening by every
3331 body, he proceeded to say, with an air of grave reflection,
3332
3333 “It was an awkward business, my dear, your spending the autumn at South
3334 End instead of coming here. I never had much opinion of the sea air.”
3335
3336 “Mr. Wingfield most strenuously recommended it, sir--or we should not
3337 have gone. He recommended it for all the children, but particularly for
3338 the weakness in little Bella’s throat,--both sea air and bathing.”
3339
3340 “Ah! my dear, but Perry had many doubts about the sea doing her any
3341 good; and as to myself, I have been long perfectly convinced, though
3342 perhaps I never told you so before, that the sea is very rarely of use
3343 to any body. I am sure it almost killed me once.”
3344
3345 “Come, come,” cried Emma, feeling this to be an unsafe subject, “I must
3346 beg you not to talk of the sea. It makes me envious and miserable;--I
3347 who have never seen it! South End is prohibited, if you please. My dear
3348 Isabella, I have not heard you make one inquiry about Mr. Perry yet; and
3349 he never forgets you.”
3350
3351 “Oh! good Mr. Perry--how is he, sir?”
3352
3353 “Why, pretty well; but not quite well. Poor Perry is bilious, and he has
3354 not time to take care of himself--he tells me he has not time to take
3355 care of himself--which is very sad--but he is always wanted all round
3356 the country. I suppose there is not a man in such practice anywhere. But
3357 then there is not so clever a man any where.”
3358
3359 “And Mrs. Perry and the children, how are they? do the children grow?
3360 I have a great regard for Mr. Perry. I hope he will be calling soon. He
3361 will be so pleased to see my little ones.”
3362
3363 “I hope he will be here to-morrow, for I have a question or two to ask
3364 him about myself of some consequence. And, my dear, whenever he comes,
3365 you had better let him look at little Bella’s throat.”
3366
3367 “Oh! my dear sir, her throat is so much better that I have hardly any
3368 uneasiness about it. Either bathing has been of the greatest service to
3369 her, or else it is to be attributed to an excellent embrocation of Mr.
3370 Wingfield’s, which we have been applying at times ever since August.”
3371
3372 “It is not very likely, my dear, that bathing should have been of use
3373 to her--and if I had known you were wanting an embrocation, I would have
3374 spoken to--
3375
3376 “You seem to me to have forgotten Mrs. and Miss Bates,” said Emma, “I
3377 have not heard one inquiry after them.”
3378
3379 “Oh! the good Bateses--I am quite ashamed of myself--but you mention
3380 them in most of your letters. I hope they are quite well. Good old Mrs.
3381 Bates--I will call upon her to-morrow, and take my children.--They
3382 are always so pleased to see my children.--And that excellent Miss
3383 Bates!--such thorough worthy people!--How are they, sir?”
3384
3385 “Why, pretty well, my dear, upon the whole. But poor Mrs. Bates had a
3386 bad cold about a month ago.”
3387
3388 “How sorry I am! But colds were never so prevalent as they have been
3389 this autumn. Mr. Wingfield told me that he has never known them more
3390 general or heavy--except when it has been quite an influenza.”
3391
3392 “That has been a good deal the case, my dear; but not to the degree you
3393 mention. Perry says that colds have been very general, but not so heavy
3394 as he has very often known them in November. Perry does not call it
3395 altogether a sickly season.”
3396
3397 “No, I do not know that Mr. Wingfield considers it _very_ sickly
3398 except--
3399
3400 “Ah! my poor dear child, the truth is, that in London it is always
3401 a sickly season. Nobody is healthy in London, nobody can be. It is a
3402 dreadful thing to have you forced to live there! so far off!--and the
3403 air so bad!”
3404
3405 “No, indeed--_we_ are not at all in a bad air. Our part of London is
3406 very superior to most others!--You must not confound us with London
3407 in general, my dear sir. The neighbourhood of Brunswick Square is very
3408 different from almost all the rest. We are so very airy! I should be
3409 unwilling, I own, to live in any other part of the town;--there is
3410 hardly any other that I could be satisfied to have my children in:
3411 but _we_ are so remarkably airy!--Mr. Wingfield thinks the vicinity of
3412 Brunswick Square decidedly the most favourable as to air.”
3413
3414 “Ah! my dear, it is not like Hartfield. You make the best of it--but
3415 after you have been a week at Hartfield, you are all of you different
3416 creatures; you do not look like the same. Now I cannot say, that I think
3417 you are any of you looking well at present.”
3418
3419 “I am sorry to hear you say so, sir; but I assure you, excepting those
3420 little nervous head-aches and palpitations which I am never entirely
3421 free from anywhere, I am quite well myself; and if the children were
3422 rather pale before they went to bed, it was only because they were a
3423 little more tired than usual, from their journey and the happiness of
3424 coming. I hope you will think better of their looks to-morrow; for I
3425 assure you Mr. Wingfield told me, that he did not believe he had ever
3426 sent us off altogether, in such good case. I trust, at least, that
3427 you do not think Mr. Knightley looking ill,” turning her eyes with
3428 affectionate anxiety towards her husband.
3429
3430 “Middling, my dear; I cannot compliment you. I think Mr. John Knightley
3431 very far from looking well.”
3432
3433 “What is the matter, sir?--Did you speak to me?” cried Mr. John
3434 Knightley, hearing his own name.
3435
3436 “I am sorry to find, my love, that my father does not think you looking
3437 well--but I hope it is only from being a little fatigued. I could have
3438 wished, however, as you know, that you had seen Mr. Wingfield before you
3439 left home.”
3440
3441 “My dear Isabella,”--exclaimed he hastily--“pray do not concern yourself
3442 about my looks. Be satisfied with doctoring and coddling yourself and
3443 the children, and let me look as I chuse.”
3444
3445 “I did not thoroughly understand what you were telling your brother,”
3446 cried Emma, “about your friend Mr. Graham’s intending to have a bailiff
3447 from Scotland, to look after his new estate. What will it answer? Will
3448 not the old prejudice be too strong?”
3449
3450 And she talked in this way so long and successfully that, when forced to
3451 give her attention again to her father and sister, she had nothing
3452 worse to hear than Isabella’s kind inquiry after Jane Fairfax; and Jane
3453 Fairfax, though no great favourite with her in general, she was at that
3454 moment very happy to assist in praising.
3455
3456 “That sweet, amiable Jane Fairfax!” said Mrs. John Knightley.--“It
3457 is so long since I have seen her, except now and then for a moment
3458 accidentally in town! What happiness it must be to her good old
3459 grandmother and excellent aunt, when she comes to visit them! I always
3460 regret excessively on dear Emma’s account that she cannot be more at
3461 Highbury; but now their daughter is married, I suppose Colonel and Mrs.
3462 Campbell will not be able to part with her at all. She would be such a
3463 delightful companion for Emma.”
3464
3465 Mr. Woodhouse agreed to it all, but added,
3466
3467 “Our little friend Harriet Smith, however, is just such another pretty
3468 kind of young person. You will like Harriet. Emma could not have a
3469 better companion than Harriet.”
3470
3471 “I am most happy to hear it--but only Jane Fairfax one knows to be so
3472 very accomplished and superior!--and exactly Emma’s age.”
3473
3474 This topic was discussed very happily, and others succeeded of similar
3475 moment, and passed away with similar harmony; but the evening did not
3476 close without a little return of agitation. The gruel came and supplied
3477 a great deal to be said--much praise and many comments--undoubting
3478 decision of its wholesomeness for every constitution, and pretty
3479 severe Philippics upon the many houses where it was never met with
3480 tolerably;--but, unfortunately, among the failures which the daughter
3481 had to instance, the most recent, and therefore most prominent, was in
3482 her own cook at South End, a young woman hired for the time, who never
3483 had been able to understand what she meant by a basin of nice smooth
3484 gruel, thin, but not too thin. Often as she had wished for and ordered
3485 it, she had never been able to get any thing tolerable. Here was a
3486 dangerous opening.
3487
3488 “Ah!” said Mr. Woodhouse, shaking his head and fixing his eyes on her
3489 with tender concern.--The ejaculation in Emma’s ear expressed, “Ah!
3490 there is no end of the sad consequences of your going to South End. It
3491 does not bear talking of.” And for a little while she hoped he would not
3492 talk of it, and that a silent rumination might suffice to restore him to
3493 the relish of his own smooth gruel. After an interval of some minutes,
3494 however, he began with,
3495
3496 “I shall always be very sorry that you went to the sea this autumn,
3497 instead of coming here.”
3498
3499 “But why should you be sorry, sir?--I assure you, it did the children a
3500 great deal of good.”
3501
3502 “And, moreover, if you must go to the sea, it had better not have been
3503 to South End. South End is an unhealthy place. Perry was surprized to
3504 hear you had fixed upon South End.”
3505
3506 “I know there is such an idea with many people, but indeed it is quite
3507 a mistake, sir.--We all had our health perfectly well there, never
3508 found the least inconvenience from the mud; and Mr. Wingfield says it is
3509 entirely a mistake to suppose the place unhealthy; and I am sure he may
3510 be depended on, for he thoroughly understands the nature of the air, and
3511 his own brother and family have been there repeatedly.”
3512
3513 “You should have gone to Cromer, my dear, if you went anywhere.--Perry
3514 was a week at Cromer once, and he holds it to be the best of all the
3515 sea-bathing places. A fine open sea, he says, and very pure air. And, by
3516 what I understand, you might have had lodgings there quite away from
3517 the sea--a quarter of a mile off--very comfortable. You should have
3518 consulted Perry.”
3519
3520 “But, my dear sir, the difference of the journey;--only consider how
3521 great it would have been.--An hundred miles, perhaps, instead of forty.”
3522
3523 “Ah! my dear, as Perry says, where health is at stake, nothing else
3524 should be considered; and if one is to travel, there is not much to
3525 chuse between forty miles and an hundred.--Better not move at all,
3526 better stay in London altogether than travel forty miles to get into
3527 a worse air. This is just what Perry said. It seemed to him a very
3528 ill-judged measure.”
3529
3530 Emma’s attempts to stop her father had been vain; and when he
3531 had reached such a point as this, she could not wonder at her
3532 brother-in-law’s breaking out.
3533
3534 “Mr. Perry,” said he, in a voice of very strong displeasure, “would do
3535 as well to keep his opinion till it is asked for. Why does he make it
3536 any business of his, to wonder at what I do?--at my taking my family to
3537 one part of the coast or another?--I may be allowed, I hope, the use of
3538 my judgment as well as Mr. Perry.--I want his directions no more than
3539 his drugs.” He paused--and growing cooler in a moment, added, with only
3540 sarcastic dryness, “If Mr. Perry can tell me how to convey a wife and
3541 five children a distance of an hundred and thirty miles with no greater
3542 expense or inconvenience than a distance of forty, I should be as
3543 willing to prefer Cromer to South End as he could himself.”
3544
3545 “True, true,” cried Mr. Knightley, with most ready interposition--“very
3546 true. That’s a consideration indeed.--But John, as to what I was telling
3547 you of my idea of moving the path to Langham, of turning it more to the
3548 right that it may not cut through the home meadows, I cannot conceive
3549 any difficulty. I should not attempt it, if it were to be the means of
3550 inconvenience to the Highbury people, but if you call to mind exactly
3551 the present line of the path.... The only way of proving it, however,
3552 will be to turn to our maps. I shall see you at the Abbey to-morrow
3553 morning I hope, and then we will look them over, and you shall give me
3554 your opinion.”
3555
3556 Mr. Woodhouse was rather agitated by such harsh reflections on his
3557 friend Perry, to whom he had, in fact, though unconsciously, been
3558 attributing many of his own feelings and expressions;--but the soothing
3559 attentions of his daughters gradually removed the present evil, and
3560 the immediate alertness of one brother, and better recollections of the
3561 other, prevented any renewal of it.
3562
3563
3564
3565 CHAPTER XIII
3566
3567
3568 There could hardly be a happier creature in the world than Mrs. John
3569 Knightley, in this short visit to Hartfield, going about every morning
3570 among her old acquaintance with her five children, and talking over what
3571 she had done every evening with her father and sister. She had nothing
3572 to wish otherwise, but that the days did not pass so swiftly. It was a
3573 delightful visit;--perfect, in being much too short.
3574
3575 In general their evenings were less engaged with friends than their
3576 mornings; but one complete dinner engagement, and out of the house too,
3577 there was no avoiding, though at Christmas. Mr. Weston would take no
3578 denial; they must all dine at Randalls one day;--even Mr. Woodhouse was
3579 persuaded to think it a possible thing in preference to a division of
3580 the party.
3581
3582 How they were all to be conveyed, he would have made a difficulty if he
3583 could, but as his son and daughter’s carriage and horses were actually
3584 at Hartfield, he was not able to make more than a simple question on
3585 that head; it hardly amounted to a doubt; nor did it occupy Emma long
3586 to convince him that they might in one of the carriages find room for
3587 Harriet also.
3588
3589 Harriet, Mr. Elton, and Mr. Knightley, their own especial set, were the
3590 only persons invited to meet them;--the hours were to be early, as
3591 well as the numbers few; Mr. Woodhouse’s habits and inclination being
3592 consulted in every thing.
3593
3594 The evening before this great event (for it was a very great event that
3595 Mr. Woodhouse should dine out, on the 24th of December) had been spent
3596 by Harriet at Hartfield, and she had gone home so much indisposed with
3597 a cold, that, but for her own earnest wish of being nursed by Mrs.
3598 Goddard, Emma could not have allowed her to leave the house. Emma called
3599 on her the next day, and found her doom already signed with regard to
3600 Randalls. She was very feverish and had a bad sore throat: Mrs. Goddard
3601 was full of care and affection, Mr. Perry was talked of, and Harriet
3602 herself was too ill and low to resist the authority which excluded her
3603 from this delightful engagement, though she could not speak of her loss
3604 without many tears.
3605
3606 Emma sat with her as long as she could, to attend her in Mrs. Goddard’s
3607 unavoidable absences, and raise her spirits by representing how much Mr.
3608 Elton’s would be depressed when he knew her state; and left her at last
3609 tolerably comfortable, in the sweet dependence of his having a most
3610 comfortless visit, and of their all missing her very much. She had not
3611 advanced many yards from Mrs. Goddard’s door, when she was met by Mr.
3612 Elton himself, evidently coming towards it, and as they walked on slowly
3613 together in conversation about the invalid--of whom he, on the rumour
3614 of considerable illness, had been going to inquire, that he might
3615 carry some report of her to Hartfield--they were overtaken by Mr. John
3616 Knightley returning from the daily visit to Donwell, with his two eldest
3617 boys, whose healthy, glowing faces shewed all the benefit of a country
3618 run, and seemed to ensure a quick despatch of the roast mutton and rice
3619 pudding they were hastening home for. They joined company and
3620 proceeded together. Emma was just describing the nature of her friend’s
3621 complaint;--“a throat very much inflamed, with a great deal of heat
3622 about her, a quick, low pulse, &c. and she was sorry to find from Mrs.
3623 Goddard that Harriet was liable to very bad sore-throats, and had often
3624 alarmed her with them.” Mr. Elton looked all alarm on the occasion, as
3625 he exclaimed,
3626
3627 “A sore-throat!--I hope not infectious. I hope not of a putrid
3628 infectious sort. Has Perry seen her? Indeed you should take care of
3629 yourself as well as of your friend. Let me entreat you to run no risks.
3630 Why does not Perry see her?”
3631
3632 Emma, who was not really at all frightened herself, tranquillised this
3633 excess of apprehension by assurances of Mrs. Goddard’s experience and
3634 care; but as there must still remain a degree of uneasiness which she
3635 could not wish to reason away, which she would rather feed and assist
3636 than not, she added soon afterwards--as if quite another subject,
3637
3638 “It is so cold, so very cold--and looks and feels so very much like
3639 snow, that if it were to any other place or with any other party, I
3640 should really try not to go out to-day--and dissuade my father from
3641 venturing; but as he has made up his mind, and does not seem to feel the
3642 cold himself, I do not like to interfere, as I know it would be so great
3643 a disappointment to Mr. and Mrs. Weston. But, upon my word, Mr. Elton,
3644 in your case, I should certainly excuse myself. You appear to me a
3645 little hoarse already, and when you consider what demand of voice and
3646 what fatigues to-morrow will bring, I think it would be no more than
3647 common prudence to stay at home and take care of yourself to-night.”
3648
3649 Mr. Elton looked as if he did not very well know what answer to make;
3650 which was exactly the case; for though very much gratified by the kind
3651 care of such a fair lady, and not liking to resist any advice of her’s,
3652 he had not really the least inclination to give up the visit;--but Emma,
3653 too eager and busy in her own previous conceptions and views to hear him
3654 impartially, or see him with clear vision, was very well satisfied with
3655 his muttering acknowledgment of its being “very cold, certainly very
3656 cold,” and walked on, rejoicing in having extricated him from Randalls,
3657 and secured him the power of sending to inquire after Harriet every hour
3658 of the evening.
3659
3660 “You do quite right,” said she;--“we will make your apologies to Mr. and
3661 Mrs. Weston.”
3662
3663 But hardly had she so spoken, when she found her brother was civilly
3664 offering a seat in his carriage, if the weather were Mr. Elton’s only
3665 objection, and Mr. Elton actually accepting the offer with much prompt
3666 satisfaction. It was a done thing; Mr. Elton was to go, and never had
3667 his broad handsome face expressed more pleasure than at this moment;
3668 never had his smile been stronger, nor his eyes more exulting than when
3669 he next looked at her.
3670
3671 “Well,” said she to herself, “this is most strange!--After I had got
3672 him off so well, to chuse to go into company, and leave Harriet ill
3673 behind!--Most strange indeed!--But there is, I believe, in many men,
3674 especially single men, such an inclination--such a passion for dining
3675 out--a dinner engagement is so high in the class of their pleasures,
3676 their employments, their dignities, almost their duties, that any
3677 thing gives way to it--and this must be the case with Mr. Elton; a most
3678 valuable, amiable, pleasing young man undoubtedly, and very much in love
3679 with Harriet; but still, he cannot refuse an invitation, he must dine
3680 out wherever he is asked. What a strange thing love is! he can see ready
3681 wit in Harriet, but will not dine alone for her.”
3682
3683 Soon afterwards Mr. Elton quitted them, and she could not but do him
3684 the justice of feeling that there was a great deal of sentiment in his
3685 manner of naming Harriet at parting; in the tone of his voice while
3686 assuring her that he should call at Mrs. Goddard’s for news of her fair
3687 friend, the last thing before he prepared for the happiness of meeting
3688 her again, when he hoped to be able to give a better report; and
3689 he sighed and smiled himself off in a way that left the balance of
3690 approbation much in his favour.
3691
3692 After a few minutes of entire silence between them, John Knightley began
3693 with--
3694
3695 “I never in my life saw a man more intent on being agreeable than Mr.
3696 Elton. It is downright labour to him where ladies are concerned. With
3697 men he can be rational and unaffected, but when he has ladies to please,
3698 every feature works.”
3699
3700 “Mr. Elton’s manners are not perfect,” replied Emma; “but where there is
3701 a wish to please, one ought to overlook, and one does overlook a great
3702 deal. Where a man does his best with only moderate powers, he will
3703 have the advantage over negligent superiority. There is such perfect
3704 good-temper and good-will in Mr. Elton as one cannot but value.”
3705
3706 “Yes,” said Mr. John Knightley presently, with some slyness, “he seems
3707 to have a great deal of good-will towards you.”
3708
3709 “Me!” she replied with a smile of astonishment, “are you imagining me to
3710 be Mr. Elton’s object?”
3711
3712 “Such an imagination has crossed me, I own, Emma; and if it never
3713 occurred to you before, you may as well take it into consideration now.”
3714
3715 “Mr. Elton in love with me!--What an idea!”
3716
3717 “I do not say it is so; but you will do well to consider whether it
3718 is so or not, and to regulate your behaviour accordingly. I think your
3719 manners to him encouraging. I speak as a friend, Emma. You had better
3720 look about you, and ascertain what you do, and what you mean to do.”
3721
3722 “I thank you; but I assure you you are quite mistaken. Mr. Elton and
3723 I are very good friends, and nothing more;” and she walked on, amusing
3724 herself in the consideration of the blunders which often arise from a
3725 partial knowledge of circumstances, of the mistakes which people of high
3726 pretensions to judgment are for ever falling into; and not very well
3727 pleased with her brother for imagining her blind and ignorant, and in
3728 want of counsel. He said no more.
3729
3730 Mr. Woodhouse had so completely made up his mind to the visit, that in
3731 spite of the increasing coldness, he seemed to have no idea of shrinking
3732 from it, and set forward at last most punctually with his eldest
3733 daughter in his own carriage, with less apparent consciousness of the
3734 weather than either of the others; too full of the wonder of his own
3735 going, and the pleasure it was to afford at Randalls to see that it was
3736 cold, and too well wrapt up to feel it. The cold, however, was severe;
3737 and by the time the second carriage was in motion, a few flakes of snow
3738 were finding their way down, and the sky had the appearance of being so
3739 overcharged as to want only a milder air to produce a very white world
3740 in a very short time.
3741
3742 Emma soon saw that her companion was not in the happiest humour. The
3743 preparing and the going abroad in such weather, with the sacrifice of
3744 his children after dinner, were evils, were disagreeables at least,
3745 which Mr. John Knightley did not by any means like; he anticipated
3746 nothing in the visit that could be at all worth the purchase; and the
3747 whole of their drive to the vicarage was spent by him in expressing his
3748 discontent.
3749
3750 “A man,” said he, “must have a very good opinion of himself when he asks
3751 people to leave their own fireside, and encounter such a day as
3752 this, for the sake of coming to see him. He must think himself a most
3753 agreeable fellow; I could not do such a thing. It is the greatest
3754 absurdity--Actually snowing at this moment!--The folly of not allowing
3755 people to be comfortable at home--and the folly of people’s not staying
3756 comfortably at home when they can! If we were obliged to go out such
3757 an evening as this, by any call of duty or business, what a hardship we
3758 should deem it;--and here are we, probably with rather thinner clothing
3759 than usual, setting forward voluntarily, without excuse, in defiance of
3760 the voice of nature, which tells man, in every thing given to his view
3761 or his feelings, to stay at home himself, and keep all under shelter
3762 that he can;--here are we setting forward to spend five dull hours in
3763 another man’s house, with nothing to say or to hear that was not said
3764 and heard yesterday, and may not be said and heard again to-morrow.
3765 Going in dismal weather, to return probably in worse;--four horses and
3766 four servants taken out for nothing but to convey five idle, shivering
3767 creatures into colder rooms and worse company than they might have had
3768 at home.”
3769
3770 Emma did not find herself equal to give the pleased assent, which no
3771 doubt he was in the habit of receiving, to emulate the “Very true,
3772 my love,” which must have been usually administered by his travelling
3773 companion; but she had resolution enough to refrain from making
3774 any answer at all. She could not be complying, she dreaded being
3775 quarrelsome; her heroism reached only to silence. She allowed him to
3776 talk, and arranged the glasses, and wrapped herself up, without opening
3777 her lips.
3778
3779 They arrived, the carriage turned, the step was let down, and Mr. Elton,
3780 spruce, black, and smiling, was with them instantly. Emma thought with
3781 pleasure of some change of subject. Mr. Elton was all obligation and
3782 cheerfulness; he was so very cheerful in his civilities indeed, that she
3783 began to think he must have received a different account of Harriet from
3784 what had reached her. She had sent while dressing, and the answer had
3785 been, “Much the same--not better.”
3786
3787 “_My_ report from Mrs. Goddard’s,” said she presently, “was not so
3788 pleasant as I had hoped--‘Not better’ was _my_ answer.”
3789
3790 His face lengthened immediately; and his voice was the voice of
3791 sentiment as he answered.
3792
3793 “Oh! no--I am grieved to find--I was on the point of telling you that
3794 when I called at Mrs. Goddard’s door, which I did the very last thing
3795 before I returned to dress, I was told that Miss Smith was not better,
3796 by no means better, rather worse. Very much grieved and concerned--I
3797 had flattered myself that she must be better after such a cordial as I
3798 knew had been given her in the morning.”
3799
3800 Emma smiled and answered--“My visit was of use to the nervous part of
3801 her complaint, I hope; but not even I can charm away a sore throat;
3802 it is a most severe cold indeed. Mr. Perry has been with her, as you
3803 probably heard.”
3804
3805 “Yes--I imagined--that is--I did not--”
3806
3807 “He has been used to her in these complaints, and I hope to-morrow
3808 morning will bring us both a more comfortable report. But it is
3809 impossible not to feel uneasiness. Such a sad loss to our party to-day!”
3810
3811 “Dreadful!--Exactly so, indeed.--She will be missed every moment.”
3812
3813 This was very proper; the sigh which accompanied it was really
3814 estimable; but it should have lasted longer. Emma was rather in dismay
3815 when only half a minute afterwards he began to speak of other things,
3816 and in a voice of the greatest alacrity and enjoyment.
3817
3818 “What an excellent device,” said he, “the use of a sheepskin for
3819 carriages. How very comfortable they make it;--impossible to feel cold
3820 with such precautions. The contrivances of modern days indeed have
3821 rendered a gentleman’s carriage perfectly complete. One is so fenced
3822 and guarded from the weather, that not a breath of air can find its way
3823 unpermitted. Weather becomes absolutely of no consequence. It is a very
3824 cold afternoon--but in this carriage we know nothing of the matter.--Ha!
3825 snows a little I see.”
3826
3827 “Yes,” said John Knightley, “and I think we shall have a good deal of
3828 it.”
3829
3830 “Christmas weather,” observed Mr. Elton. “Quite seasonable; and
3831 extremely fortunate we may think ourselves that it did not begin
3832 yesterday, and prevent this day’s party, which it might very possibly
3833 have done, for Mr. Woodhouse would hardly have ventured had there been
3834 much snow on the ground; but now it is of no consequence. This is quite
3835 the season indeed for friendly meetings. At Christmas every body invites
3836 their friends about them, and people think little of even the worst
3837 weather. I was snowed up at a friend’s house once for a week. Nothing
3838 could be pleasanter. I went for only one night, and could not get away
3839 till that very day se’nnight.”
3840
3841 Mr. John Knightley looked as if he did not comprehend the pleasure, but
3842 said only, coolly,
3843
3844 “I cannot wish to be snowed up a week at Randalls.”
3845
3846 At another time Emma might have been amused, but she was too much
3847 astonished now at Mr. Elton’s spirits for other feelings. Harriet seemed
3848 quite forgotten in the expectation of a pleasant party.
3849
3850 “We are sure of excellent fires,” continued he, “and every thing in the
3851 greatest comfort. Charming people, Mr. and Mrs. Weston;--Mrs. Weston
3852 indeed is much beyond praise, and he is exactly what one values, so
3853 hospitable, and so fond of society;--it will be a small party, but where
3854 small parties are select, they are perhaps the most agreeable of any.
3855 Mr. Weston’s dining-room does not accommodate more than ten comfortably;
3856 and for my part, I would rather, under such circumstances, fall short by
3857 two than exceed by two. I think you will agree with me, (turning with
3858 a soft air to Emma,) I think I shall certainly have your approbation,
3859 though Mr. Knightley perhaps, from being used to the large parties of
3860 London, may not quite enter into our feelings.”
3861
3862 “I know nothing of the large parties of London, sir--I never dine with
3863 any body.”
3864
3865 “Indeed! (in a tone of wonder and pity,) I had no idea that the law had
3866 been so great a slavery. Well, sir, the time must come when you will
3867 be paid for all this, when you will have little labour and great
3868 enjoyment.”
3869
3870 “My first enjoyment,” replied John Knightley, as they passed through the
3871 sweep-gate, “will be to find myself safe at Hartfield again.”
3872
3873
3874
3875 CHAPTER XIV
3876
3877
3878 Some change of countenance was necessary for each gentleman as they
3879 walked into Mrs. Weston’s drawing-room;--Mr. Elton must compose his
3880 joyous looks, and Mr. John Knightley disperse his ill-humour. Mr.
3881 Elton must smile less, and Mr. John Knightley more, to fit them for the
3882 place.--Emma only might be as nature prompted, and shew herself just as
3883 happy as she was. To her it was real enjoyment to be with the Westons.
3884 Mr. Weston was a great favourite, and there was not a creature in the
3885 world to whom she spoke with such unreserve, as to his wife; not any
3886 one, to whom she related with such conviction of being listened to and
3887 understood, of being always interesting and always intelligible, the
3888 little affairs, arrangements, perplexities, and pleasures of her father
3889 and herself. She could tell nothing of Hartfield, in which Mrs. Weston
3890 had not a lively concern; and half an hour’s uninterrupted communication
3891 of all those little matters on which the daily happiness of private life
3892 depends, was one of the first gratifications of each.
3893
3894 This was a pleasure which perhaps the whole day’s visit might not
3895 afford, which certainly did not belong to the present half-hour; but the
3896 very sight of Mrs. Weston, her smile, her touch, her voice was grateful
3897 to Emma, and she determined to think as little as possible of Mr.
3898 Elton’s oddities, or of any thing else unpleasant, and enjoy all that
3899 was enjoyable to the utmost.
3900
3901 The misfortune of Harriet’s cold had been pretty well gone through
3902 before her arrival. Mr. Woodhouse had been safely seated long enough
3903 to give the history of it, besides all the history of his own and
3904 Isabella’s coming, and of Emma’s being to follow, and had indeed just
3905 got to the end of his satisfaction that James should come and see his
3906 daughter, when the others appeared, and Mrs. Weston, who had been almost
3907 wholly engrossed by her attentions to him, was able to turn away and
3908 welcome her dear Emma.
3909
3910 Emma’s project of forgetting Mr. Elton for a while made her rather sorry
3911 to find, when they had all taken their places, that he was close to her.
3912 The difficulty was great of driving his strange insensibility towards
3913 Harriet, from her mind, while he not only sat at her elbow, but
3914 was continually obtruding his happy countenance on her notice, and
3915 solicitously addressing her upon every occasion. Instead of forgetting
3916 him, his behaviour was such that she could not avoid the internal
3917 suggestion of “Can it really be as my brother imagined? can it be
3918 possible for this man to be beginning to transfer his affections from
3919 Harriet to me?--Absurd and insufferable!”--Yet he would be so anxious
3920 for her being perfectly warm, would be so interested about her father,
3921 and so delighted with Mrs. Weston; and at last would begin admiring her
3922 drawings with so much zeal and so little knowledge as seemed terribly
3923 like a would-be lover, and made it some effort with her to preserve her
3924 good manners. For her own sake she could not be rude; and for Harriet’s,
3925 in the hope that all would yet turn out right, she was even positively
3926 civil; but it was an effort; especially as something was going on
3927 amongst the others, in the most overpowering period of Mr. Elton’s
3928 nonsense, which she particularly wished to listen to. She heard enough
3929 to know that Mr. Weston was giving some information about his son; she
3930 heard the words “my son,” and “Frank,” and “my son,” repeated several
3931 times over; and, from a few other half-syllables very much suspected
3932 that he was announcing an early visit from his son; but before she could
3933 quiet Mr. Elton, the subject was so completely past that any reviving
3934 question from her would have been awkward.
3935
3936 Now, it so happened that in spite of Emma’s resolution of never
3937 marrying, there was something in the name, in the idea of Mr.
3938 Frank Churchill, which always interested her. She had frequently
3939 thought--especially since his father’s marriage with Miss Taylor--that
3940 if she _were_ to marry, he was the very person to suit her in age,
3941 character and condition. He seemed by this connexion between the
3942 families, quite to belong to her. She could not but suppose it to be
3943 a match that every body who knew them must think of. That Mr. and Mrs.
3944 Weston did think of it, she was very strongly persuaded; and though
3945 not meaning to be induced by him, or by any body else, to give up a
3946 situation which she believed more replete with good than any she could
3947 change it for, she had a great curiosity to see him, a decided intention
3948 of finding him pleasant, of being liked by him to a certain degree, and
3949 a sort of pleasure in the idea of their being coupled in their friends’
3950 imaginations.
3951
3952 With such sensations, Mr. Elton’s civilities were dreadfully ill-timed;
3953 but she had the comfort of appearing very polite, while feeling very
3954 cross--and of thinking that the rest of the visit could not possibly
3955 pass without bringing forward the same information again, or the
3956 substance of it, from the open-hearted Mr. Weston.--So it proved;--for
3957 when happily released from Mr. Elton, and seated by Mr. Weston,
3958 at dinner, he made use of the very first interval in the cares of
3959 hospitality, the very first leisure from the saddle of mutton, to say to
3960 her,
3961
3962 “We want only two more to be just the right number. I should like to see
3963 two more here,--your pretty little friend, Miss Smith, and my son--and
3964 then I should say we were quite complete. I believe you did not hear me
3965 telling the others in the drawing-room that we are expecting Frank.
3966 I had a letter from him this morning, and he will be with us within a
3967 fortnight.”
3968
3969 Emma spoke with a very proper degree of pleasure; and fully assented to
3970 his proposition of Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Smith making their party
3971 quite complete.
3972
3973 “He has been wanting to come to us,” continued Mr. Weston, “ever since
3974 September: every letter has been full of it; but he cannot command his
3975 own time. He has those to please who must be pleased, and who (between
3976 ourselves) are sometimes to be pleased only by a good many sacrifices.
3977 But now I have no doubt of seeing him here about the second week in
3978 January.”
3979
3980 “What a very great pleasure it will be to you! and Mrs. Weston is so
3981 anxious to be acquainted with him, that she must be almost as happy as
3982 yourself.”
3983
3984 “Yes, she would be, but that she thinks there will be another put-off.
3985 She does not depend upon his coming so much as I do: but she does not
3986 know the parties so well as I do. The case, you see, is--(but this is
3987 quite between ourselves: I did not mention a syllable of it in the other
3988 room. There are secrets in all families, you know)--The case is, that a
3989 party of friends are invited to pay a visit at Enscombe in January; and
3990 that Frank’s coming depends upon their being put off. If they are not
3991 put off, he cannot stir. But I know they will, because it is a family
3992 that a certain lady, of some consequence, at Enscombe, has a particular
3993 dislike to: and though it is thought necessary to invite them once in
3994 two or three years, they always are put off when it comes to the point.
3995 I have not the smallest doubt of the issue. I am as confident of seeing
3996 Frank here before the middle of January, as I am of being here myself:
3997 but your good friend there (nodding towards the upper end of the table)
3998 has so few vagaries herself, and has been so little used to them at
3999 Hartfield, that she cannot calculate on their effects, as I have been
4000 long in the practice of doing.”
4001
4002 “I am sorry there should be any thing like doubt in the case,” replied
4003 Emma; “but am disposed to side with you, Mr. Weston. If you think he
4004 will come, I shall think so too; for you know Enscombe.”
4005
4006 “Yes--I have some right to that knowledge; though I have never been at
4007 the place in my life.--She is an odd woman!--But I never allow myself
4008 to speak ill of her, on Frank’s account; for I do believe her to be very
4009 fond of him. I used to think she was not capable of being fond of
4010 any body, except herself: but she has always been kind to him (in her
4011 way--allowing for little whims and caprices, and expecting every thing
4012 to be as she likes). And it is no small credit, in my opinion, to him,
4013 that he should excite such an affection; for, though I would not say
4014 it to any body else, she has no more heart than a stone to people in
4015 general; and the devil of a temper.”
4016
4017 Emma liked the subject so well, that she began upon it, to Mrs. Weston,
4018 very soon after their moving into the drawing-room: wishing her joy--yet
4019 observing, that she knew the first meeting must be rather alarming.--
4020 Mrs. Weston agreed to it; but added, that she should be very glad to be
4021 secure of undergoing the anxiety of a first meeting at the time talked
4022 of: “for I cannot depend upon his coming. I cannot be so sanguine as
4023 Mr. Weston. I am very much afraid that it will all end in nothing. Mr.
4024 Weston, I dare say, has been telling you exactly how the matter stands?”
4025
4026 “Yes--it seems to depend upon nothing but the ill-humour of Mrs.
4027 Churchill, which I imagine to be the most certain thing in the world.”
4028
4029 “My Emma!” replied Mrs. Weston, smiling, “what is the certainty
4030 of caprice?” Then turning to Isabella, who had not been attending
4031 before--“You must know, my dear Mrs. Knightley, that we are by no means
4032 so sure of seeing Mr. Frank Churchill, in my opinion, as his father
4033 thinks. It depends entirely upon his aunt’s spirits and pleasure; in
4034 short, upon her temper. To you--to my two daughters--I may venture on
4035 the truth. Mrs. Churchill rules at Enscombe, and is a very odd-tempered
4036 woman; and his coming now, depends upon her being willing to spare him.”
4037
4038 “Oh, Mrs. Churchill; every body knows Mrs. Churchill,” replied Isabella:
4039 “and I am sure I never think of that poor young man without the greatest
4040 compassion. To be constantly living with an ill-tempered person, must
4041 be dreadful. It is what we happily have never known any thing of; but
4042 it must be a life of misery. What a blessing, that she never had any
4043 children! Poor little creatures, how unhappy she would have made them!”
4044
4045 Emma wished she had been alone with Mrs. Weston. She should then have
4046 heard more: Mrs. Weston would speak to her, with a degree of unreserve
4047 which she would not hazard with Isabella; and, she really believed,
4048 would scarcely try to conceal any thing relative to the Churchills
4049 from her, excepting those views on the young man, of which her own
4050 imagination had already given her such instinctive knowledge. But at
4051 present there was nothing more to be said. Mr. Woodhouse very soon
4052 followed them into the drawing-room. To be sitting long after
4053 dinner, was a confinement that he could not endure. Neither wine nor
4054 conversation was any thing to him; and gladly did he move to those with
4055 whom he was always comfortable.
4056
4057 While he talked to Isabella, however, Emma found an opportunity of
4058 saying,
4059
4060 “And so you do not consider this visit from your son as by any means
4061 certain. I am sorry for it. The introduction must be unpleasant,
4062 whenever it takes place; and the sooner it could be over, the better.”
4063
4064 “Yes; and every delay makes one more apprehensive of other delays. Even
4065 if this family, the Braithwaites, are put off, I am still afraid that
4066 some excuse may be found for disappointing us. I cannot bear to imagine
4067 any reluctance on his side; but I am sure there is a great wish on
4068 the Churchills’ to keep him to themselves. There is jealousy. They
4069 are jealous even of his regard for his father. In short, I can feel no
4070 dependence on his coming, and I wish Mr. Weston were less sanguine.”
4071
4072 “He ought to come,” said Emma. “If he could stay only a couple of days,
4073 he ought to come; and one can hardly conceive a young man’s not having
4074 it in his power to do as much as that. A young _woman_, if she fall into
4075 bad hands, may be teased, and kept at a distance from those she wants
4076 to be with; but one cannot comprehend a young _man_‘s being under such
4077 restraint, as not to be able to spend a week with his father, if he
4078 likes it.”
4079
4080 “One ought to be at Enscombe, and know the ways of the family, before
4081 one decides upon what he can do,” replied Mrs. Weston. “One ought to
4082 use the same caution, perhaps, in judging of the conduct of any one
4083 individual of any one family; but Enscombe, I believe, certainly must
4084 not be judged by general rules: _she_ is so very unreasonable; and every
4085 thing gives way to her.”
4086
4087 “But she is so fond of the nephew: he is so very great a favourite. Now,
4088 according to my idea of Mrs. Churchill, it would be most natural, that
4089 while she makes no sacrifice for the comfort of the husband, to whom she
4090 owes every thing, while she exercises incessant caprice towards _him_,
4091 she should frequently be governed by the nephew, to whom she owes
4092 nothing at all.”
4093
4094 “My dearest Emma, do not pretend, with your sweet temper, to understand
4095 a bad one, or to lay down rules for it: you must let it go its own way.
4096 I have no doubt of his having, at times, considerable influence; but it
4097 may be perfectly impossible for him to know beforehand _when_ it will
4098 be.”
4099
4100 Emma listened, and then coolly said, “I shall not be satisfied, unless
4101 he comes.”
4102
4103 “He may have a great deal of influence on some points,” continued Mrs.
4104 Weston, “and on others, very little: and among those, on which she is
4105 beyond his reach, it is but too likely, may be this very circumstance of
4106 his coming away from them to visit us.”
4107
4108
4109
4110 CHAPTER XV
4111
4112
4113 Mr. Woodhouse was soon ready for his tea; and when he had drank his
4114 tea he was quite ready to go home; and it was as much as his three
4115 companions could do, to entertain away his notice of the lateness of
4116 the hour, before the other gentlemen appeared. Mr. Weston was chatty and
4117 convivial, and no friend to early separations of any sort; but at last
4118 the drawing-room party did receive an augmentation. Mr. Elton, in very
4119 good spirits, was one of the first to walk in. Mrs. Weston and Emma
4120 were sitting together on a sofa. He joined them immediately, and, with
4121 scarcely an invitation, seated himself between them.
4122
4123 Emma, in good spirits too, from the amusement afforded her mind by
4124 the expectation of Mr. Frank Churchill, was willing to forget his late
4125 improprieties, and be as well satisfied with him as before, and on his
4126 making Harriet his very first subject, was ready to listen with most
4127 friendly smiles.
4128
4129 He professed himself extremely anxious about her fair friend--her fair,
4130 lovely, amiable friend. “Did she know?--had she heard any thing about
4131 her, since their being at Randalls?--he felt much anxiety--he must
4132 confess that the nature of her complaint alarmed him considerably.”
4133 And in this style he talked on for some time very properly, not much
4134 attending to any answer, but altogether sufficiently awake to the terror
4135 of a bad sore throat; and Emma was quite in charity with him.
4136
4137 But at last there seemed a perverse turn; it seemed all at once as if he
4138 were more afraid of its being a bad sore throat on her account, than on
4139 Harriet’s--more anxious that she should escape the infection, than
4140 that there should be no infection in the complaint. He began with great
4141 earnestness to entreat her to refrain from visiting the sick-chamber
4142 again, for the present--to entreat her to _promise_ _him_ not to venture
4143 into such hazard till he had seen Mr. Perry and learnt his opinion; and
4144 though she tried to laugh it off and bring the subject back into its
4145 proper course, there was no putting an end to his extreme solicitude
4146 about her. She was vexed. It did appear--there was no concealing
4147 it--exactly like the pretence of being in love with her, instead of
4148 Harriet; an inconstancy, if real, the most contemptible and abominable!
4149 and she had difficulty in behaving with temper. He turned to Mrs. Weston
4150 to implore her assistance, “Would not she give him her support?--would
4151 not she add her persuasions to his, to induce Miss Woodhouse not to go
4152 to Mrs. Goddard’s till it were certain that Miss Smith’s disorder had
4153 no infection? He could not be satisfied without a promise--would not she
4154 give him her influence in procuring it?”
4155
4156 “So scrupulous for others,” he continued, “and yet so careless for
4157 herself! She wanted me to nurse my cold by staying at home to-day, and
4158 yet will not promise to avoid the danger of catching an ulcerated sore
4159 throat herself. Is this fair, Mrs. Weston?--Judge between us. Have not I
4160 some right to complain? I am sure of your kind support and aid.”
4161
4162 Emma saw Mrs. Weston’s surprize, and felt that it must be great, at an
4163 address which, in words and manner, was assuming to himself the right of
4164 first interest in her; and as for herself, she was too much provoked and
4165 offended to have the power of directly saying any thing to the purpose.
4166 She could only give him a look; but it was such a look as she thought
4167 must restore him to his senses, and then left the sofa, removing to a
4168 seat by her sister, and giving her all her attention.
4169
4170 She had not time to know how Mr. Elton took the reproof, so rapidly did
4171 another subject succeed; for Mr. John Knightley now came into the room
4172 from examining the weather, and opened on them all with the information
4173 of the ground being covered with snow, and of its still snowing
4174 fast, with a strong drifting wind; concluding with these words to Mr.
4175 Woodhouse:
4176
4177 “This will prove a spirited beginning of your winter engagements,
4178 sir. Something new for your coachman and horses to be making their way
4179 through a storm of snow.”
4180
4181 Poor Mr. Woodhouse was silent from consternation; but every body else
4182 had something to say; every body was either surprized or not surprized,
4183 and had some question to ask, or some comfort to offer. Mrs. Weston
4184 and Emma tried earnestly to cheer him and turn his attention from his
4185 son-in-law, who was pursuing his triumph rather unfeelingly.
4186
4187 “I admired your resolution very much, sir,” said he, “in venturing out
4188 in such weather, for of course you saw there would be snow very soon.
4189 Every body must have seen the snow coming on. I admired your spirit; and
4190 I dare say we shall get home very well. Another hour or two’s snow can
4191 hardly make the road impassable; and we are two carriages; if one is
4192 blown over in the bleak part of the common field there will be the other
4193 at hand. I dare say we shall be all safe at Hartfield before midnight.”
4194
4195 Mr. Weston, with triumph of a different sort, was confessing that he
4196 had known it to be snowing some time, but had not said a word, lest
4197 it should make Mr. Woodhouse uncomfortable, and be an excuse for his
4198 hurrying away. As to there being any quantity of snow fallen or likely
4199 to fall to impede their return, that was a mere joke; he was afraid they
4200 would find no difficulty. He wished the road might be impassable, that
4201 he might be able to keep them all at Randalls; and with the utmost
4202 good-will was sure that accommodation might be found for every body,
4203 calling on his wife to agree with him, that with a little contrivance,
4204 every body might be lodged, which she hardly knew how to do, from the
4205 consciousness of there being but two spare rooms in the house.
4206
4207 “What is to be done, my dear Emma?--what is to be done?” was Mr.
4208 Woodhouse’s first exclamation, and all that he could say for some
4209 time. To her he looked for comfort; and her assurances of safety, her
4210 representation of the excellence of the horses, and of James, and of
4211 their having so many friends about them, revived him a little.
4212
4213 His eldest daughter’s alarm was equal to his own. The horror of being
4214 blocked up at Randalls, while her children were at Hartfield, was full
4215 in her imagination; and fancying the road to be now just passable for
4216 adventurous people, but in a state that admitted no delay, she was eager
4217 to have it settled, that her father and Emma should remain at Randalls,
4218 while she and her husband set forward instantly through all the possible
4219 accumulations of drifted snow that might impede them.
4220
4221 “You had better order the carriage directly, my love,” said she; “I dare
4222 say we shall be able to get along, if we set off directly; and if we
4223 do come to any thing very bad, I can get out and walk. I am not at all
4224 afraid. I should not mind walking half the way. I could change my shoes,
4225 you know, the moment I got home; and it is not the sort of thing that
4226 gives me cold.”
4227
4228 “Indeed!” replied he. “Then, my dear Isabella, it is the most
4229 extraordinary sort of thing in the world, for in general every thing
4230 does give you cold. Walk home!--you are prettily shod for walking home,
4231 I dare say. It will be bad enough for the horses.”
4232
4233 Isabella turned to Mrs. Weston for her approbation of the plan. Mrs.
4234 Weston could only approve. Isabella then went to Emma; but Emma could
4235 not so entirely give up the hope of their being all able to get away;
4236 and they were still discussing the point, when Mr. Knightley, who had
4237 left the room immediately after his brother’s first report of the snow,
4238 came back again, and told them that he had been out of doors to examine,
4239 and could answer for there not being the smallest difficulty in their
4240 getting home, whenever they liked it, either now or an hour hence. He
4241 had gone beyond the sweep--some way along the Highbury road--the snow
4242 was nowhere above half an inch deep--in many places hardly enough to
4243 whiten the ground; a very few flakes were falling at present, but the
4244 clouds were parting, and there was every appearance of its being soon
4245 over. He had seen the coachmen, and they both agreed with him in there
4246 being nothing to apprehend.
4247
4248 To Isabella, the relief of such tidings was very great, and they were
4249 scarcely less acceptable to Emma on her father’s account, who
4250 was immediately set as much at ease on the subject as his nervous
4251 constitution allowed; but the alarm that had been raised could not be
4252 appeased so as to admit of any comfort for him while he continued at
4253 Randalls. He was satisfied of there being no present danger in returning
4254 home, but no assurances could convince him that it was safe to stay; and
4255 while the others were variously urging and recommending, Mr. Knightley
4256 and Emma settled it in a few brief sentences: thus--
4257
4258 “Your father will not be easy; why do not you go?”
4259
4260 “I am ready, if the others are.”
4261
4262 “Shall I ring the bell?”
4263
4264 “Yes, do.”
4265
4266 And the bell was rung, and the carriages spoken for. A few minutes more,
4267 and Emma hoped to see one troublesome companion deposited in his own
4268 house, to get sober and cool, and the other recover his temper and
4269 happiness when this visit of hardship were over.
4270
4271 The carriage came: and Mr. Woodhouse, always the first object on such
4272 occasions, was carefully attended to his own by Mr. Knightley and Mr.
4273 Weston; but not all that either could say could prevent some renewal
4274 of alarm at the sight of the snow which had actually fallen, and the
4275 discovery of a much darker night than he had been prepared for. “He was
4276 afraid they should have a very bad drive. He was afraid poor Isabella
4277 would not like it. And there would be poor Emma in the carriage behind.
4278 He did not know what they had best do. They must keep as much together
4279 as they could;” and James was talked to, and given a charge to go very
4280 slow and wait for the other carriage.
4281
4282 Isabella stept in after her father; John Knightley, forgetting that he
4283 did not belong to their party, stept in after his wife very naturally;
4284 so that Emma found, on being escorted and followed into the second
4285 carriage by Mr. Elton, that the door was to be lawfully shut on them,
4286 and that they were to have a tete-a-tete drive. It would not have been
4287 the awkwardness of a moment, it would have been rather a pleasure,
4288 previous to the suspicions of this very day; she could have talked to
4289 him of Harriet, and the three-quarters of a mile would have seemed but
4290 one. But now, she would rather it had not happened. She believed he had
4291 been drinking too much of Mr. Weston’s good wine, and felt sure that he
4292 would want to be talking nonsense.
4293
4294 To restrain him as much as might be, by her own manners, she was
4295 immediately preparing to speak with exquisite calmness and gravity of
4296 the weather and the night; but scarcely had she begun, scarcely had they
4297 passed the sweep-gate and joined the other carriage, than she found her
4298 subject cut up--her hand seized--her attention demanded, and Mr. Elton
4299 actually making violent love to her: availing himself of the precious
4300 opportunity, declaring sentiments which must be already well known,
4301 hoping--fearing--adoring--ready to die if she refused him; but
4302 flattering himself that his ardent attachment and unequalled love and
4303 unexampled passion could not fail of having some effect, and in short,
4304 very much resolved on being seriously accepted as soon as possible. It
4305 really was so. Without scruple--without apology--without much apparent
4306 diffidence, Mr. Elton, the lover of Harriet, was professing himself
4307 _her_ lover. She tried to stop him; but vainly; he would go on, and say
4308 it all. Angry as she was, the thought of the moment made her resolve to
4309 restrain herself when she did speak. She felt that half this folly must
4310 be drunkenness, and therefore could hope that it might belong only to
4311 the passing hour. Accordingly, with a mixture of the serious and the
4312 playful, which she hoped would best suit his half and half state, she
4313 replied,
4314
4315 “I am very much astonished, Mr. Elton. This to _me_! you forget
4316 yourself--you take me for my friend--any message to Miss Smith I shall
4317 be happy to deliver; but no more of this to _me_, if you please.”
4318
4319 “Miss Smith!--message to Miss Smith!--What could she possibly
4320 mean!”--And he repeated her words with such assurance of accent, such
4321 boastful pretence of amazement, that she could not help replying with
4322 quickness,
4323
4324 “Mr. Elton, this is the most extraordinary conduct! and I can account
4325 for it only in one way; you are not yourself, or you could not speak
4326 either to me, or of Harriet, in such a manner. Command yourself enough
4327 to say no more, and I will endeavour to forget it.”
4328
4329 But Mr. Elton had only drunk wine enough to elevate his spirits, not at
4330 all to confuse his intellects. He perfectly knew his own meaning; and
4331 having warmly protested against her suspicion as most injurious, and
4332 slightly touched upon his respect for Miss Smith as her friend,--but
4333 acknowledging his wonder that Miss Smith should be mentioned at all,--he
4334 resumed the subject of his own passion, and was very urgent for a
4335 favourable answer.
4336
4337 As she thought less of his inebriety, she thought more of his
4338 inconstancy and presumption; and with fewer struggles for politeness,
4339 replied,
4340
4341 “It is impossible for me to doubt any longer. You have made yourself
4342 too clear. Mr. Elton, my astonishment is much beyond any thing I can
4343 express. After such behaviour, as I have witnessed during the last
4344 month, to Miss Smith--such attentions as I have been in the daily
4345 habit of observing--to be addressing me in this manner--this is an
4346 unsteadiness of character, indeed, which I had not supposed possible!
4347 Believe me, sir, I am far, very far, from gratified in being the object
4348 of such professions.”
4349
4350 “Good Heaven!” cried Mr. Elton, “what can be the meaning of this?--Miss
4351 Smith!--I never thought of Miss Smith in the whole course of my
4352 existence--never paid her any attentions, but as your friend: never
4353 cared whether she were dead or alive, but as your friend. If she
4354 has fancied otherwise, her own wishes have misled her, and I am very
4355 sorry--extremely sorry--But, Miss Smith, indeed!--Oh! Miss Woodhouse!
4356 who can think of Miss Smith, when Miss Woodhouse is near! No, upon my
4357 honour, there is no unsteadiness of character. I have thought only of
4358 you. I protest against having paid the smallest attention to any one
4359 else. Every thing that I have said or done, for many weeks past, has
4360 been with the sole view of marking my adoration of yourself. You
4361 cannot really, seriously, doubt it. No!--(in an accent meant to be
4362 insinuating)--I am sure you have seen and understood me.”
4363
4364 It would be impossible to say what Emma felt, on hearing this--which
4365 of all her unpleasant sensations was uppermost. She was too completely
4366 overpowered to be immediately able to reply: and two moments of silence
4367 being ample encouragement for Mr. Elton’s sanguine state of mind, he
4368 tried to take her hand again, as he joyously exclaimed--
4369
4370 “Charming Miss Woodhouse! allow me to interpret this interesting
4371 silence. It confesses that you have long understood me.”
4372
4373 “No, sir,” cried Emma, “it confesses no such thing. So far from having
4374 long understood you, I have been in a most complete error with respect
4375 to your views, till this moment. As to myself, I am very sorry that you
4376 should have been giving way to any feelings--Nothing could be farther
4377 from my wishes--your attachment to my friend Harriet--your pursuit of
4378 her, (pursuit, it appeared,) gave me great pleasure, and I have been
4379 very earnestly wishing you success: but had I supposed that she were not
4380 your attraction to Hartfield, I should certainly have thought you judged
4381 ill in making your visits so frequent. Am I to believe that you have
4382 never sought to recommend yourself particularly to Miss Smith?--that you
4383 have never thought seriously of her?”
4384
4385 “Never, madam,” cried he, affronted in his turn: “never, I assure you.
4386 _I_ think seriously of Miss Smith!--Miss Smith is a very good sort of
4387 girl; and I should be happy to see her respectably settled. I wish
4388 her extremely well: and, no doubt, there are men who might not object
4389 to--Every body has their level: but as for myself, I am not, I think,
4390 quite so much at a loss. I need not so totally despair of an equal
4391 alliance, as to be addressing myself to Miss Smith!--No, madam, my
4392 visits to Hartfield have been for yourself only; and the encouragement I
4393 received--”
4394
4395 “Encouragement!--I give you encouragement!--Sir, you have been entirely
4396 mistaken in supposing it. I have seen you only as the admirer of my
4397 friend. In no other light could you have been more to me than a common
4398 acquaintance. I am exceedingly sorry: but it is well that the mistake
4399 ends where it does. Had the same behaviour continued, Miss Smith might
4400 have been led into a misconception of your views; not being aware,
4401 probably, any more than myself, of the very great inequality which you
4402 are so sensible of. But, as it is, the disappointment is single, and, I
4403 trust, will not be lasting. I have no thoughts of matrimony at present.”
4404
4405 He was too angry to say another word; her manner too decided to invite
4406 supplication; and in this state of swelling resentment, and mutually
4407 deep mortification, they had to continue together a few minutes longer,
4408 for the fears of Mr. Woodhouse had confined them to a foot-pace. If
4409 there had not been so much anger, there would have been desperate
4410 awkwardness; but their straightforward emotions left no room for the
4411 little zigzags of embarrassment. Without knowing when the carriage
4412 turned into Vicarage Lane, or when it stopped, they found themselves,
4413 all at once, at the door of his house; and he was out before another
4414 syllable passed.--Emma then felt it indispensable to wish him a good
4415 night. The compliment was just returned, coldly and proudly; and, under
4416 indescribable irritation of spirits, she was then conveyed to Hartfield.
4417
4418 There she was welcomed, with the utmost delight, by her father, who
4419 had been trembling for the dangers of a solitary drive from Vicarage
4420 Lane--turning a corner which he could never bear to think of--and in
4421 strange hands--a mere common coachman--no James; and there it seemed as
4422 if her return only were wanted to make every thing go well: for Mr.
4423 John Knightley, ashamed of his ill-humour, was now all kindness and
4424 attention; and so particularly solicitous for the comfort of her
4425 father, as to seem--if not quite ready to join him in a basin of
4426 gruel--perfectly sensible of its being exceedingly wholesome; and the
4427 day was concluding in peace and comfort to all their little party,
4428 except herself.--But her mind had never been in such perturbation; and
4429 it needed a very strong effort to appear attentive and cheerful till the
4430 usual hour of separating allowed her the relief of quiet reflection.
4431
4432
4433
4434 CHAPTER XVI
4435
4436
4437 The hair was curled, and the maid sent away, and Emma sat down to think
4438 and be miserable.--It was a wretched business indeed!--Such an overthrow
4439 of every thing she had been wishing for!--Such a development of every
4440 thing most unwelcome!--Such a blow for Harriet!--that was the worst
4441 of all. Every part of it brought pain and humiliation, of some sort or
4442 other; but, compared with the evil to Harriet, all was light; and
4443 she would gladly have submitted to feel yet more mistaken--more in
4444 error--more disgraced by mis-judgment, than she actually was, could the
4445 effects of her blunders have been confined to herself.
4446
4447 “If I had not persuaded Harriet into liking the man, I could have
4448 borne any thing. He might have doubled his presumption to me--but poor
4449 Harriet!”
4450
4451 How she could have been so deceived!--He protested that he had never
4452 thought seriously of Harriet--never! She looked back as well as
4453 she could; but it was all confusion. She had taken up the idea, she
4454 supposed, and made every thing bend to it. His manners, however, must
4455 have been unmarked, wavering, dubious, or she could not have been so
4456 misled.
4457
4458 The picture!--How eager he had been about the picture!--and the
4459 charade!--and an hundred other circumstances;--how clearly they had
4460 seemed to point at Harriet. To be sure, the charade, with its “ready
4461 wit”--but then the “soft eyes”--in fact it suited neither; it was
4462 a jumble without taste or truth. Who could have seen through such
4463 thick-headed nonsense?
4464
4465 Certainly she had often, especially of late, thought his manners to
4466 herself unnecessarily gallant; but it had passed as his way, as a mere
4467 error of judgment, of knowledge, of taste, as one proof among others
4468 that he had not always lived in the best society, that with all the
4469 gentleness of his address, true elegance was sometimes wanting; but,
4470 till this very day, she had never, for an instant, suspected it to mean
4471 any thing but grateful respect to her as Harriet’s friend.
4472
4473 To Mr. John Knightley was she indebted for her first idea on the
4474 subject, for the first start of its possibility. There was no denying
4475 that those brothers had penetration. She remembered what Mr. Knightley
4476 had once said to her about Mr. Elton, the caution he had given,
4477 the conviction he had professed that Mr. Elton would never marry
4478 indiscreetly; and blushed to think how much truer a knowledge of his
4479 character had been there shewn than any she had reached herself. It
4480 was dreadfully mortifying; but Mr. Elton was proving himself, in many
4481 respects, the very reverse of what she had meant and believed him;
4482 proud, assuming, conceited; very full of his own claims, and little
4483 concerned about the feelings of others.
4484
4485 Contrary to the usual course of things, Mr. Elton’s wanting to pay his
4486 addresses to her had sunk him in her opinion. His professions and his
4487 proposals did him no service. She thought nothing of his attachment,
4488 and was insulted by his hopes. He wanted to marry well, and having the
4489 arrogance to raise his eyes to her, pretended to be in love; but she was
4490 perfectly easy as to his not suffering any disappointment that need be
4491 cared for. There had been no real affection either in his language or
4492 manners. Sighs and fine words had been given in abundance; but she could
4493 hardly devise any set of expressions, or fancy any tone of voice, less
4494 allied with real love. She need not trouble herself to pity him. He
4495 only wanted to aggrandise and enrich himself; and if Miss Woodhouse
4496 of Hartfield, the heiress of thirty thousand pounds, were not quite so
4497 easily obtained as he had fancied, he would soon try for Miss Somebody
4498 else with twenty, or with ten.
4499
4500 But--that he should talk of encouragement, should consider her as aware
4501 of his views, accepting his attentions, meaning (in short), to marry
4502 him!--should suppose himself her equal in connexion or mind!--look down
4503 upon her friend, so well understanding the gradations of rank below
4504 him, and be so blind to what rose above, as to fancy himself shewing no
4505 presumption in addressing her!--It was most provoking.
4506
4507 Perhaps it was not fair to expect him to feel how very much he was her
4508 inferior in talent, and all the elegancies of mind. The very want of
4509 such equality might prevent his perception of it; but he must know that
4510 in fortune and consequence she was greatly his superior. He must
4511 know that the Woodhouses had been settled for several generations at
4512 Hartfield, the younger branch of a very ancient family--and that the
4513 Eltons were nobody. The landed property of Hartfield certainly was
4514 inconsiderable, being but a sort of notch in the Donwell Abbey estate,
4515 to which all the rest of Highbury belonged; but their fortune, from
4516 other sources, was such as to make them scarcely secondary to Donwell
4517 Abbey itself, in every other kind of consequence; and the Woodhouses had
4518 long held a high place in the consideration of the neighbourhood which
4519 Mr. Elton had first entered not two years ago, to make his way as he
4520 could, without any alliances but in trade, or any thing to recommend him
4521 to notice but his situation and his civility.--But he had fancied her
4522 in love with him; that evidently must have been his dependence; and
4523 after raving a little about the seeming incongruity of gentle manners
4524 and a conceited head, Emma was obliged in common honesty to stop
4525 and admit that her own behaviour to him had been so complaisant and
4526 obliging, so full of courtesy and attention, as (supposing her real
4527 motive unperceived) might warrant a man of ordinary observation and
4528 delicacy, like Mr. Elton, in fancying himself a very decided favourite.
4529 If _she_ had so misinterpreted his feelings, she had little right to
4530 wonder that _he_, with self-interest to blind him, should have mistaken
4531 hers.
4532
4533 The first error and the worst lay at her door. It was foolish, it was
4534 wrong, to take so active a part in bringing any two people together. It
4535 was adventuring too far, assuming too much, making light of what
4536 ought to be serious, a trick of what ought to be simple. She was quite
4537 concerned and ashamed, and resolved to do such things no more.
4538
4539 “Here have I,” said she, “actually talked poor Harriet into being very
4540 much attached to this man. She might never have thought of him but for
4541 me; and certainly never would have thought of him with hope, if I had
4542 not assured her of his attachment, for she is as modest and humble as I
4543 used to think him. Oh! that I had been satisfied with persuading her not
4544 to accept young Martin. There I was quite right. That was well done
4545 of me; but there I should have stopped, and left the rest to time and
4546 chance. I was introducing her into good company, and giving her the
4547 opportunity of pleasing some one worth having; I ought not to have
4548 attempted more. But now, poor girl, her peace is cut up for some time.
4549 I have been but half a friend to her; and if she were _not_ to feel this
4550 disappointment so very much, I am sure I have not an idea of any body
4551 else who would be at all desirable for her;--William Coxe--Oh! no, I
4552 could not endure William Coxe--a pert young lawyer.”
4553
4554 She stopt to blush and laugh at her own relapse, and then resumed a more
4555 serious, more dispiriting cogitation upon what had been, and might be,
4556 and must be. The distressing explanation she had to make to Harriet, and
4557 all that poor Harriet would be suffering, with the awkwardness of
4558 future meetings, the difficulties of continuing or discontinuing the
4559 acquaintance, of subduing feelings, concealing resentment, and avoiding
4560 eclat, were enough to occupy her in most unmirthful reflections some
4561 time longer, and she went to bed at last with nothing settled but the
4562 conviction of her having blundered most dreadfully.
4563
4564 To youth and natural cheerfulness like Emma’s, though under temporary
4565 gloom at night, the return of day will hardly fail to bring return of
4566 spirits. The youth and cheerfulness of morning are in happy analogy,
4567 and of powerful operation; and if the distress be not poignant enough
4568 to keep the eyes unclosed, they will be sure to open to sensations of
4569 softened pain and brighter hope.
4570
4571 Emma got up on the morrow more disposed for comfort than she had gone
4572 to bed, more ready to see alleviations of the evil before her, and to
4573 depend on getting tolerably out of it.
4574
4575 It was a great consolation that Mr. Elton should not be really in
4576 love with her, or so particularly amiable as to make it shocking to
4577 disappoint him--that Harriet’s nature should not be of that superior
4578 sort in which the feelings are most acute and retentive--and that there
4579 could be no necessity for any body’s knowing what had passed except the
4580 three principals, and especially for her father’s being given a moment’s
4581 uneasiness about it.
4582
4583 These were very cheering thoughts; and the sight of a great deal of snow
4584 on the ground did her further service, for any thing was welcome that
4585 might justify their all three being quite asunder at present.
4586
4587 The weather was most favourable for her; though Christmas Day, she
4588 could not go to church. Mr. Woodhouse would have been miserable had his
4589 daughter attempted it, and she was therefore safe from either exciting
4590 or receiving unpleasant and most unsuitable ideas. The ground covered
4591 with snow, and the atmosphere in that unsettled state between frost and
4592 thaw, which is of all others the most unfriendly for exercise, every
4593 morning beginning in rain or snow, and every evening setting in to
4594 freeze, she was for many days a most honourable prisoner. No intercourse
4595 with Harriet possible but by note; no church for her on Sunday any
4596 more than on Christmas Day; and no need to find excuses for Mr. Elton’s
4597 absenting himself.
4598
4599 It was weather which might fairly confine every body at home; and though
4600 she hoped and believed him to be really taking comfort in some society
4601 or other, it was very pleasant to have her father so well satisfied with
4602 his being all alone in his own house, too wise to stir out; and to
4603 hear him say to Mr. Knightley, whom no weather could keep entirely from
4604 them,--
4605
4606 “Ah! Mr. Knightley, why do not you stay at home like poor Mr. Elton?”
4607
4608 These days of confinement would have been, but for her private
4609 perplexities, remarkably comfortable, as such seclusion exactly suited
4610 her brother, whose feelings must always be of great importance to
4611 his companions; and he had, besides, so thoroughly cleared off his
4612 ill-humour at Randalls, that his amiableness never failed him during the
4613 rest of his stay at Hartfield. He was always agreeable and obliging,
4614 and speaking pleasantly of every body. But with all the hopes of
4615 cheerfulness, and all the present comfort of delay, there was still such
4616 an evil hanging over her in the hour of explanation with Harriet, as
4617 made it impossible for Emma to be ever perfectly at ease.
4618
4619
4620
4621 CHAPTER XVII
4622
4623
4624 Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley were not detained long at Hartfield. The
4625 weather soon improved enough for those to move who must move; and Mr.
4626 Woodhouse having, as usual, tried to persuade his daughter to stay
4627 behind with all her children, was obliged to see the whole party
4628 set off, and return to his lamentations over the destiny of poor
4629 Isabella;--which poor Isabella, passing her life with those she doated
4630 on, full of their merits, blind to their faults, and always innocently
4631 busy, might have been a model of right feminine happiness.
4632
4633 The evening of the very day on which they went brought a note from Mr.
4634 Elton to Mr. Woodhouse, a long, civil, ceremonious note, to say, with
4635 Mr. Elton’s best compliments, “that he was proposing to leave Highbury
4636 the following morning in his way to Bath; where, in compliance with
4637 the pressing entreaties of some friends, he had engaged to spend a few
4638 weeks, and very much regretted the impossibility he was under, from
4639 various circumstances of weather and business, of taking a personal
4640 leave of Mr. Woodhouse, of whose friendly civilities he should ever
4641 retain a grateful sense--and had Mr. Woodhouse any commands, should be
4642 happy to attend to them.”
4643
4644 Emma was most agreeably surprized.--Mr. Elton’s absence just at this
4645 time was the very thing to be desired. She admired him for contriving
4646 it, though not able to give him much credit for the manner in which it
4647 was announced. Resentment could not have been more plainly spoken than
4648 in a civility to her father, from which she was so pointedly excluded.
4649 She had not even a share in his opening compliments.--Her name was not
4650 mentioned;--and there was so striking a change in all this, and such an
4651 ill-judged solemnity of leave-taking in his graceful acknowledgments, as
4652 she thought, at first, could not escape her father’s suspicion.
4653
4654 It did, however.--Her father was quite taken up with the surprize of so
4655 sudden a journey, and his fears that Mr. Elton might never get safely to
4656 the end of it, and saw nothing extraordinary in his language. It was a
4657 very useful note, for it supplied them with fresh matter for thought
4658 and conversation during the rest of their lonely evening. Mr. Woodhouse
4659 talked over his alarms, and Emma was in spirits to persuade them away
4660 with all her usual promptitude.
4661
4662 She now resolved to keep Harriet no longer in the dark. She had reason
4663 to believe her nearly recovered from her cold, and it was desirable that
4664 she should have as much time as possible for getting the better of
4665 her other complaint before the gentleman’s return. She went to Mrs.
4666 Goddard’s accordingly the very next day, to undergo the necessary
4667 penance of communication; and a severe one it was.--She had to destroy
4668 all the hopes which she had been so industriously feeding--to appear in
4669 the ungracious character of the one preferred--and acknowledge herself
4670 grossly mistaken and mis-judging in all her ideas on one subject, all
4671 her observations, all her convictions, all her prophecies for the last
4672 six weeks.
4673
4674 The confession completely renewed her first shame--and the sight of
4675 Harriet’s tears made her think that she should never be in charity with
4676 herself again.
4677
4678 Harriet bore the intelligence very well--blaming nobody--and in every
4679 thing testifying such an ingenuousness of disposition and lowly opinion
4680 of herself, as must appear with particular advantage at that moment to
4681 her friend.
4682
4683 Emma was in the humour to value simplicity and modesty to the utmost;
4684 and all that was amiable, all that ought to be attaching, seemed on
4685 Harriet’s side, not her own. Harriet did not consider herself as having
4686 any thing to complain of. The affection of such a man as Mr. Elton
4687 would have been too great a distinction.--She never could have deserved
4688 him--and nobody but so partial and kind a friend as Miss Woodhouse would
4689 have thought it possible.
4690
4691 Her tears fell abundantly--but her grief was so truly artless, that
4692 no dignity could have made it more respectable in Emma’s eyes--and
4693 she listened to her and tried to console her with all her heart and
4694 understanding--really for the time convinced that Harriet was the
4695 superior creature of the two--and that to resemble her would be more for
4696 her own welfare and happiness than all that genius or intelligence could
4697 do.
4698
4699 It was rather too late in the day to set about being simple-minded and
4700 ignorant; but she left her with every previous resolution confirmed of
4701 being humble and discreet, and repressing imagination all the rest of
4702 her life. Her second duty now, inferior only to her father’s claims, was
4703 to promote Harriet’s comfort, and endeavour to prove her own affection
4704 in some better method than by match-making. She got her to Hartfield,
4705 and shewed her the most unvarying kindness, striving to occupy and
4706 amuse her, and by books and conversation, to drive Mr. Elton from her
4707 thoughts.
4708
4709 Time, she knew, must be allowed for this being thoroughly done; and
4710 she could suppose herself but an indifferent judge of such matters in
4711 general, and very inadequate to sympathise in an attachment to Mr. Elton
4712 in particular; but it seemed to her reasonable that at Harriet’s age,
4713 and with the entire extinction of all hope, such a progress might be
4714 made towards a state of composure by the time of Mr. Elton’s return, as
4715 to allow them all to meet again in the common routine of acquaintance,
4716 without any danger of betraying sentiments or increasing them.
4717
4718 Harriet did think him all perfection, and maintained the non-existence
4719 of any body equal to him in person or goodness--and did, in truth,
4720 prove herself more resolutely in love than Emma had foreseen; but yet
4721 it appeared to her so natural, so inevitable to strive against an
4722 inclination of that sort _unrequited_, that she could not comprehend its
4723 continuing very long in equal force.
4724
4725 If Mr. Elton, on his return, made his own indifference as evident and
4726 indubitable as she could not doubt he would anxiously do, she could not
4727 imagine Harriet’s persisting to place her happiness in the sight or the
4728 recollection of him.
4729
4730 Their being fixed, so absolutely fixed, in the same place, was bad for
4731 each, for all three. Not one of them had the power of removal, or of
4732 effecting any material change of society. They must encounter each
4733 other, and make the best of it.
4734
4735 Harriet was farther unfortunate in the tone of her companions at Mrs.
4736 Goddard’s; Mr. Elton being the adoration of all the teachers and great
4737 girls in the school; and it must be at Hartfield only that she could
4738 have any chance of hearing him spoken of with cooling moderation or
4739 repellent truth. Where the wound had been given, there must the cure be
4740 found if anywhere; and Emma felt that, till she saw her in the way of
4741 cure, there could be no true peace for herself.
4742
4743
4744
4745 CHAPTER XVIII
4746
4747
4748 Mr. Frank Churchill did not come. When the time proposed drew near, Mrs.
4749 Weston’s fears were justified in the arrival of a letter of excuse. For
4750 the present, he could not be spared, to his “very great mortification
4751 and regret; but still he looked forward with the hope of coming to
4752 Randalls at no distant period.”
4753
4754 Mrs. Weston was exceedingly disappointed--much more disappointed, in
4755 fact, than her husband, though her dependence on seeing the young man
4756 had been so much more sober: but a sanguine temper, though for ever
4757 expecting more good than occurs, does not always pay for its hopes by
4758 any proportionate depression. It soon flies over the present failure,
4759 and begins to hope again. For half an hour Mr. Weston was surprized and
4760 sorry; but then he began to perceive that Frank’s coming two or three
4761 months later would be a much better plan; better time of year;
4762 better weather; and that he would be able, without any doubt, to stay
4763 considerably longer with them than if he had come sooner.
4764
4765 These feelings rapidly restored his comfort, while Mrs. Weston, of
4766 a more apprehensive disposition, foresaw nothing but a repetition of
4767 excuses and delays; and after all her concern for what her husband was
4768 to suffer, suffered a great deal more herself.
4769
4770 Emma was not at this time in a state of spirits to care really about Mr.
4771 Frank Churchill’s not coming, except as a disappointment at Randalls.
4772 The acquaintance at present had no charm for her. She wanted, rather, to
4773 be quiet, and out of temptation; but still, as it was desirable that she
4774 should appear, in general, like her usual self, she took care to express
4775 as much interest in the circumstance, and enter as warmly into Mr.
4776 and Mrs. Weston’s disappointment, as might naturally belong to their
4777 friendship.
4778
4779 She was the first to announce it to Mr. Knightley; and exclaimed quite
4780 as much as was necessary, (or, being acting a part, perhaps rather
4781 more,) at the conduct of the Churchills, in keeping him away. She then
4782 proceeded to say a good deal more than she felt, of the advantage of
4783 such an addition to their confined society in Surry; the pleasure of
4784 looking at somebody new; the gala-day to Highbury entire, which the
4785 sight of him would have made; and ending with reflections on the
4786 Churchills again, found herself directly involved in a disagreement
4787 with Mr. Knightley; and, to her great amusement, perceived that she was
4788 taking the other side of the question from her real opinion, and making
4789 use of Mrs. Weston’s arguments against herself.
4790
4791 “The Churchills are very likely in fault,” said Mr. Knightley, coolly;
4792 “but I dare say he might come if he would.”
4793
4794 “I do not know why you should say so. He wishes exceedingly to come; but
4795 his uncle and aunt will not spare him.”
4796
4797 “I cannot believe that he has not the power of coming, if he made a
4798 point of it. It is too unlikely, for me to believe it without proof.”
4799
4800 “How odd you are! What has Mr. Frank Churchill done, to make you suppose
4801 him such an unnatural creature?”
4802
4803 “I am not supposing him at all an unnatural creature, in suspecting that
4804 he may have learnt to be above his connexions, and to care very little
4805 for any thing but his own pleasure, from living with those who have
4806 always set him the example of it. It is a great deal more natural than
4807 one could wish, that a young man, brought up by those who are proud,
4808 luxurious, and selfish, should be proud, luxurious, and selfish too. If
4809 Frank Churchill had wanted to see his father, he would have contrived it
4810 between September and January. A man at his age--what is he?--three or
4811 four-and-twenty--cannot be without the means of doing as much as that.
4812 It is impossible.”
4813
4814 “That’s easily said, and easily felt by you, who have always been your
4815 own master. You are the worst judge in the world, Mr. Knightley, of the
4816 difficulties of dependence. You do not know what it is to have tempers
4817 to manage.”
4818
4819 “It is not to be conceived that a man of three or four-and-twenty
4820 should not have liberty of mind or limb to that amount. He cannot want
4821 money--he cannot want leisure. We know, on the contrary, that he has so
4822 much of both, that he is glad to get rid of them at the idlest haunts in
4823 the kingdom. We hear of him for ever at some watering-place or other. A
4824 little while ago, he was at Weymouth. This proves that he can leave the
4825 Churchills.”
4826
4827 “Yes, sometimes he can.”
4828
4829 “And those times are whenever he thinks it worth his while; whenever
4830 there is any temptation of pleasure.”
4831
4832 “It is very unfair to judge of any body’s conduct, without an intimate
4833 knowledge of their situation. Nobody, who has not been in the interior
4834 of a family, can say what the difficulties of any individual of that
4835 family may be. We ought to be acquainted with Enscombe, and with Mrs.
4836 Churchill’s temper, before we pretend to decide upon what her nephew
4837 can do. He may, at times, be able to do a great deal more than he can at
4838 others.”
4839
4840 “There is one thing, Emma, which a man can always do, if he chuses, and
4841 that is, his duty; not by manoeuvring and finessing, but by vigour and
4842 resolution. It is Frank Churchill’s duty to pay this attention to his
4843 father. He knows it to be so, by his promises and messages; but if he
4844 wished to do it, it might be done. A man who felt rightly would say at
4845 once, simply and resolutely, to Mrs. Churchill--‘Every sacrifice of
4846 mere pleasure you will always find me ready to make to your convenience;
4847 but I must go and see my father immediately. I know he would be hurt by
4848 my failing in such a mark of respect to him on the present occasion.
4849 I shall, therefore, set off to-morrow.’--If he would say so to her
4850 at once, in the tone of decision becoming a man, there would be no
4851 opposition made to his going.”
4852
4853 “No,” said Emma, laughing; “but perhaps there might be some made to his
4854 coming back again. Such language for a young man entirely dependent, to
4855 use!--Nobody but you, Mr. Knightley, would imagine it possible. But you
4856 have not an idea of what is requisite in situations directly opposite to
4857 your own. Mr. Frank Churchill to be making such a speech as that to
4858 the uncle and aunt, who have brought him up, and are to provide for
4859 him!--Standing up in the middle of the room, I suppose, and speaking as
4860 loud as he could!--How can you imagine such conduct practicable?”
4861
4862 “Depend upon it, Emma, a sensible man would find no difficulty in it. He
4863 would feel himself in the right; and the declaration--made, of course,
4864 as a man of sense would make it, in a proper manner--would do him more
4865 good, raise him higher, fix his interest stronger with the people he
4866 depended on, than all that a line of shifts and expedients can ever do.
4867 Respect would be added to affection. They would feel that they could
4868 trust him; that the nephew who had done rightly by his father, would do
4869 rightly by them; for they know, as well as he does, as well as all the
4870 world must know, that he ought to pay this visit to his father; and
4871 while meanly exerting their power to delay it, are in their hearts not
4872 thinking the better of him for submitting to their whims. Respect for
4873 right conduct is felt by every body. If he would act in this sort of
4874 manner, on principle, consistently, regularly, their little minds would
4875 bend to his.”
4876
4877 “I rather doubt that. You are very fond of bending little minds; but
4878 where little minds belong to rich people in authority, I think they have
4879 a knack of swelling out, till they are quite as unmanageable as great
4880 ones. I can imagine, that if you, as you are, Mr. Knightley, were to be
4881 transported and placed all at once in Mr. Frank Churchill’s situation,
4882 you would be able to say and do just what you have been recommending for
4883 him; and it might have a very good effect. The Churchills might not have
4884 a word to say in return; but then, you would have no habits of early
4885 obedience and long observance to break through. To him who has, it might
4886 not be so easy to burst forth at once into perfect independence, and set
4887 all their claims on his gratitude and regard at nought. He may have as
4888 strong a sense of what would be right, as you can have, without being so
4889 equal, under particular circumstances, to act up to it.”
4890
4891 “Then it would not be so strong a sense. If it failed to produce equal
4892 exertion, it could not be an equal conviction.”
4893
4894 “Oh, the difference of situation and habit! I wish you would try to
4895 understand what an amiable young man may be likely to feel in directly
4896 opposing those, whom as child and boy he has been looking up to all his
4897 life.”
4898
4899 “Our amiable young man is a very weak young man, if this be the first
4900 occasion of his carrying through a resolution to do right against the
4901 will of others. It ought to have been a habit with him by this time, of
4902 following his duty, instead of consulting expediency. I can allow for
4903 the fears of the child, but not of the man. As he became rational, he
4904 ought to have roused himself and shaken off all that was unworthy in
4905 their authority. He ought to have opposed the first attempt on their
4906 side to make him slight his father. Had he begun as he ought, there
4907 would have been no difficulty now.”
4908
4909 “We shall never agree about him,” cried Emma; “but that is nothing
4910 extraordinary. I have not the least idea of his being a weak young man:
4911 I feel sure that he is not. Mr. Weston would not be blind to folly,
4912 though in his own son; but he is very likely to have a more yielding,
4913 complying, mild disposition than would suit your notions of man’s
4914 perfection. I dare say he has; and though it may cut him off from some
4915 advantages, it will secure him many others.”
4916
4917 “Yes; all the advantages of sitting still when he ought to move, and
4918 of leading a life of mere idle pleasure, and fancying himself extremely
4919 expert in finding excuses for it. He can sit down and write a fine
4920 flourishing letter, full of professions and falsehoods, and persuade
4921 himself that he has hit upon the very best method in the world of
4922 preserving peace at home and preventing his father’s having any right to
4923 complain. His letters disgust me.”
4924
4925 “Your feelings are singular. They seem to satisfy every body else.”
4926
4927 “I suspect they do not satisfy Mrs. Weston. They hardly can satisfy
4928 a woman of her good sense and quick feelings: standing in a mother’s
4929 place, but without a mother’s affection to blind her. It is on her
4930 account that attention to Randalls is doubly due, and she must doubly
4931 feel the omission. Had she been a person of consequence herself, he
4932 would have come I dare say; and it would not have signified whether
4933 he did or no. Can you think your friend behindhand in these sort of
4934 considerations? Do you suppose she does not often say all this to
4935 herself? No, Emma, your amiable young man can be amiable only in French,
4936 not in English. He may be very ‘amiable,’ have very good manners, and be
4937 very agreeable; but he can have no English delicacy towards the feelings
4938 of other people: nothing really amiable about him.”
4939
4940 “You seem determined to think ill of him.”
4941
4942 “Me!--not at all,” replied Mr. Knightley, rather displeased; “I do not
4943 want to think ill of him. I should be as ready to acknowledge his merits
4944 as any other man; but I hear of none, except what are merely personal;
4945 that he is well-grown and good-looking, with smooth, plausible manners.”
4946
4947 “Well, if he have nothing else to recommend him, he will be a treasure
4948 at Highbury. We do not often look upon fine young men, well-bred and
4949 agreeable. We must not be nice and ask for all the virtues into the
4950 bargain. Cannot you imagine, Mr. Knightley, what a _sensation_ his
4951 coming will produce? There will be but one subject throughout the
4952 parishes of Donwell and Highbury; but one interest--one object of
4953 curiosity; it will be all Mr. Frank Churchill; we shall think and speak
4954 of nobody else.”
4955
4956 “You will excuse my being so much over-powered. If I find him
4957 conversable, I shall be glad of his acquaintance; but if he is only a
4958 chattering coxcomb, he will not occupy much of my time or thoughts.”
4959
4960 “My idea of him is, that he can adapt his conversation to the taste of
4961 every body, and has the power as well as the wish of being universally
4962 agreeable. To you, he will talk of farming; to me, of drawing or music;
4963 and so on to every body, having that general information on all subjects
4964 which will enable him to follow the lead, or take the lead, just as
4965 propriety may require, and to speak extremely well on each; that is my
4966 idea of him.”
4967
4968 “And mine,” said Mr. Knightley warmly, “is, that if he turn out any
4969 thing like it, he will be the most insufferable fellow breathing! What!
4970 at three-and-twenty to be the king of his company--the great man--the
4971 practised politician, who is to read every body’s character, and make
4972 every body’s talents conduce to the display of his own superiority; to
4973 be dispensing his flatteries around, that he may make all appear like
4974 fools compared with himself! My dear Emma, your own good sense could not
4975 endure such a puppy when it came to the point.”
4976
4977 “I will say no more about him,” cried Emma, “you turn every thing to
4978 evil. We are both prejudiced; you against, I for him; and we have no
4979 chance of agreeing till he is really here.”
4980
4981 “Prejudiced! I am not prejudiced.”
4982
4983 “But I am very much, and without being at all ashamed of it. My love for
4984 Mr. and Mrs. Weston gives me a decided prejudice in his favour.”
4985
4986 “He is a person I never think of from one month’s end to another,” said
4987 Mr. Knightley, with a degree of vexation, which made Emma immediately
4988 talk of something else, though she could not comprehend why he should be
4989 angry.
4990
4991 To take a dislike to a young man, only because he appeared to be of a
4992 different disposition from himself, was unworthy the real liberality of
4993 mind which she was always used to acknowledge in him; for with all the
4994 high opinion of himself, which she had often laid to his charge, she had
4995 never before for a moment supposed it could make him unjust to the merit
4996 of another.
4997
4998
4999
5000
5001 VOLUME II
5002
5003
5004
5005 CHAPTER I
5006
5007
5008 Emma and Harriet had been walking together one morning, and, in Emma’s
5009 opinion, had been talking enough of Mr. Elton for that day. She could
5010 not think that Harriet’s solace or her own sins required more; and
5011 she was therefore industriously getting rid of the subject as they
5012 returned;--but it burst out again when she thought she had succeeded,
5013 and after speaking some time of what the poor must suffer in winter, and
5014 receiving no other answer than a very plaintive--“Mr. Elton is so good
5015 to the poor!” she found something else must be done.
5016
5017 They were just approaching the house where lived Mrs. and Miss Bates.
5018 She determined to call upon them and seek safety in numbers. There was
5019 always sufficient reason for such an attention; Mrs. and Miss Bates
5020 loved to be called on, and she knew she was considered by the very few
5021 who presumed ever to see imperfection in her, as rather negligent in
5022 that respect, and as not contributing what she ought to the stock of
5023 their scanty comforts.
5024
5025 She had had many a hint from Mr. Knightley and some from her own heart,
5026 as to her deficiency--but none were equal to counteract the persuasion
5027 of its being very disagreeable,--a waste of time--tiresome women--and
5028 all the horror of being in danger of falling in with the second-rate and
5029 third-rate of Highbury, who were calling on them for ever, and therefore
5030 she seldom went near them. But now she made the sudden resolution of not
5031 passing their door without going in--observing, as she proposed it to
5032 Harriet, that, as well as she could calculate, they were just now quite
5033 safe from any letter from Jane Fairfax.
5034
5035 The house belonged to people in business. Mrs. and Miss Bates occupied
5036 the drawing-room floor; and there, in the very moderate-sized apartment,
5037 which was every thing to them, the visitors were most cordially and even
5038 gratefully welcomed; the quiet neat old lady, who with her knitting was
5039 seated in the warmest corner, wanting even to give up her place to
5040 Miss Woodhouse, and her more active, talking daughter, almost ready
5041 to overpower them with care and kindness, thanks for their visit,
5042 solicitude for their shoes, anxious inquiries after Mr. Woodhouse’s
5043 health, cheerful communications about her mother’s, and sweet-cake from
5044 the beaufet--“Mrs. Cole had just been there, just called in for ten
5045 minutes, and had been so good as to sit an hour with them, and _she_ had
5046 taken a piece of cake and been so kind as to say she liked it very much;
5047 and, therefore, she hoped Miss Woodhouse and Miss Smith would do them
5048 the favour to eat a piece too.”
5049
5050 The mention of the Coles was sure to be followed by that of Mr. Elton.
5051 There was intimacy between them, and Mr. Cole had heard from Mr. Elton
5052 since his going away. Emma knew what was coming; they must have the
5053 letter over again, and settle how long he had been gone, and how much
5054 he was engaged in company, and what a favourite he was wherever he went,
5055 and how full the Master of the Ceremonies’ ball had been; and she went
5056 through it very well, with all the interest and all the commendation
5057 that could be requisite, and always putting forward to prevent Harriet’s
5058 being obliged to say a word.
5059
5060 This she had been prepared for when she entered the house; but meant,
5061 having once talked him handsomely over, to be no farther incommoded by
5062 any troublesome topic, and to wander at large amongst all the Mistresses
5063 and Misses of Highbury, and their card-parties. She had not been
5064 prepared to have Jane Fairfax succeed Mr. Elton; but he was actually
5065 hurried off by Miss Bates, she jumped away from him at last abruptly to
5066 the Coles, to usher in a letter from her niece.
5067
5068 “Oh! yes--Mr. Elton, I understand--certainly as to dancing--Mrs. Cole
5069 was telling me that dancing at the rooms at Bath was--Mrs. Cole was so
5070 kind as to sit some time with us, talking of Jane; for as soon as
5071 she came in, she began inquiring after her, Jane is so very great a
5072 favourite there. Whenever she is with us, Mrs. Cole does not know how to
5073 shew her kindness enough; and I must say that Jane deserves it as much
5074 as any body can. And so she began inquiring after her directly, saying,
5075 ‘I know you cannot have heard from Jane lately, because it is not her
5076 time for writing;’ and when I immediately said, ‘But indeed we have, we
5077 had a letter this very morning,’ I do not know that I ever saw any body
5078 more surprized. ‘Have you, upon your honour?’ said she; ‘well, that is
5079 quite unexpected. Do let me hear what she says.’”
5080
5081 Emma’s politeness was at hand directly, to say, with smiling interest--
5082
5083 “Have you heard from Miss Fairfax so lately? I am extremely happy. I
5084 hope she is well?”
5085
5086 “Thank you. You are so kind!” replied the happily deceived aunt, while
5087 eagerly hunting for the letter.--“Oh! here it is. I was sure it could
5088 not be far off; but I had put my huswife upon it, you see, without being
5089 aware, and so it was quite hid, but I had it in my hand so very lately
5090 that I was almost sure it must be on the table. I was reading it to Mrs.
5091 Cole, and since she went away, I was reading it again to my mother, for
5092 it is such a pleasure to her--a letter from Jane--that she can never
5093 hear it often enough; so I knew it could not be far off, and here it is,
5094 only just under my huswife--and since you are so kind as to wish to hear
5095 what she says;--but, first of all, I really must, in justice to
5096 Jane, apologise for her writing so short a letter--only two pages you
5097 see--hardly two--and in general she fills the whole paper and crosses
5098 half. My mother often wonders that I can make it out so well. She often
5099 says, when the letter is first opened, ‘Well, Hetty, now I think
5100 you will be put to it to make out all that checker-work’--don’t you,
5101 ma’am?--And then I tell her, I am sure she would contrive to make it out
5102 herself, if she had nobody to do it for her--every word of it--I am sure
5103 she would pore over it till she had made out every word. And, indeed,
5104 though my mother’s eyes are not so good as they were, she can see
5105 amazingly well still, thank God! with the help of spectacles. It is such
5106 a blessing! My mother’s are really very good indeed. Jane often says,
5107 when she is here, ‘I am sure, grandmama, you must have had very strong
5108 eyes to see as you do--and so much fine work as you have done too!--I
5109 only wish my eyes may last me as well.’”
5110
5111 All this spoken extremely fast obliged Miss Bates to stop for breath;
5112 and Emma said something very civil about the excellence of Miss
5113 Fairfax’s handwriting.
5114
5115 “You are extremely kind,” replied Miss Bates, highly gratified; “you who
5116 are such a judge, and write so beautifully yourself. I am sure there is
5117 nobody’s praise that could give us so much pleasure as Miss Woodhouse’s.
5118 My mother does not hear; she is a little deaf you know. Ma’am,”
5119 addressing her, “do you hear what Miss Woodhouse is so obliging to say
5120 about Jane’s handwriting?”
5121
5122 And Emma had the advantage of hearing her own silly compliment repeated
5123 twice over before the good old lady could comprehend it. She was
5124 pondering, in the meanwhile, upon the possibility, without seeming very
5125 rude, of making her escape from Jane Fairfax’s letter, and had almost
5126 resolved on hurrying away directly under some slight excuse, when Miss
5127 Bates turned to her again and seized her attention.
5128
5129 “My mother’s deafness is very trifling you see--just nothing at all. By
5130 only raising my voice, and saying any thing two or three times over,
5131 she is sure to hear; but then she is used to my voice. But it is very
5132 remarkable that she should always hear Jane better than she does me.
5133 Jane speaks so distinct! However, she will not find her grandmama at all
5134 deafer than she was two years ago; which is saying a great deal at my
5135 mother’s time of life--and it really is full two years, you know, since
5136 she was here. We never were so long without seeing her before, and as
5137 I was telling Mrs. Cole, we shall hardly know how to make enough of her
5138 now.”
5139
5140 “Are you expecting Miss Fairfax here soon?”
5141
5142 “Oh yes; next week.”
5143
5144 “Indeed!--that must be a very great pleasure.”
5145
5146 “Thank you. You are very kind. Yes, next week. Every body is so
5147 surprized; and every body says the same obliging things. I am sure she
5148 will be as happy to see her friends at Highbury, as they can be to see
5149 her. Yes, Friday or Saturday; she cannot say which, because Colonel
5150 Campbell will be wanting the carriage himself one of those days. So very
5151 good of them to send her the whole way! But they always do, you know. Oh
5152 yes, Friday or Saturday next. That is what she writes about. That is
5153 the reason of her writing out of rule, as we call it; for, in the
5154 common course, we should not have heard from her before next Tuesday or
5155 Wednesday.”
5156
5157 “Yes, so I imagined. I was afraid there could be little chance of my
5158 hearing any thing of Miss Fairfax to-day.”
5159
5160 “So obliging of you! No, we should not have heard, if it had not been
5161 for this particular circumstance, of her being to come here so soon. My
5162 mother is so delighted!--for she is to be three months with us at
5163 least. Three months, she says so, positively, as I am going to have the
5164 pleasure of reading to you. The case is, you see, that the Campbells are
5165 going to Ireland. Mrs. Dixon has persuaded her father and mother to come
5166 over and see her directly. They had not intended to go over till the
5167 summer, but she is so impatient to see them again--for till she married,
5168 last October, she was never away from them so much as a week, which must
5169 make it very strange to be in different kingdoms, I was going to say,
5170 but however different countries, and so she wrote a very urgent letter
5171 to her mother--or her father, I declare I do not know which it was, but
5172 we shall see presently in Jane’s letter--wrote in Mr. Dixon’s name as
5173 well as her own, to press their coming over directly, and they would
5174 give them the meeting in Dublin, and take them back to their country
5175 seat, Baly-craig, a beautiful place, I fancy. Jane has heard a great
5176 deal of its beauty; from Mr. Dixon, I mean--I do not know that she ever
5177 heard about it from any body else; but it was very natural, you know,
5178 that he should like to speak of his own place while he was paying his
5179 addresses--and as Jane used to be very often walking out with them--for
5180 Colonel and Mrs. Campbell were very particular about their daughter’s
5181 not walking out often with only Mr. Dixon, for which I do not at all
5182 blame them; of course she heard every thing he might be telling Miss
5183 Campbell about his own home in Ireland; and I think she wrote us word
5184 that he had shewn them some drawings of the place, views that he had
5185 taken himself. He is a most amiable, charming young man, I believe. Jane
5186 was quite longing to go to Ireland, from his account of things.”
5187
5188 At this moment, an ingenious and animating suspicion entering Emma’s
5189 brain with regard to Jane Fairfax, this charming Mr. Dixon, and the
5190 not going to Ireland, she said, with the insidious design of farther
5191 discovery,
5192
5193 “You must feel it very fortunate that Miss Fairfax should be allowed to
5194 come to you at such a time. Considering the very particular friendship
5195 between her and Mrs. Dixon, you could hardly have expected her to be
5196 excused from accompanying Colonel and Mrs. Campbell.”
5197
5198 “Very true, very true, indeed. The very thing that we have always been
5199 rather afraid of; for we should not have liked to have her at such a
5200 distance from us, for months together--not able to come if any thing was
5201 to happen. But you see, every thing turns out for the best. They want
5202 her (Mr. and Mrs. Dixon) excessively to come over with Colonel and Mrs.
5203 Campbell; quite depend upon it; nothing can be more kind or pressing
5204 than their _joint_ invitation, Jane says, as you will hear presently;
5205 Mr. Dixon does not seem in the least backward in any attention. He is
5206 a most charming young man. Ever since the service he rendered Jane at
5207 Weymouth, when they were out in that party on the water, and she, by the
5208 sudden whirling round of something or other among the sails, would have
5209 been dashed into the sea at once, and actually was all but gone, if he
5210 had not, with the greatest presence of mind, caught hold of her habit--
5211 (I can never think of it without trembling!)--But ever since we had the
5212 history of that day, I have been so fond of Mr. Dixon!”
5213
5214 “But, in spite of all her friends’ urgency, and her own wish of seeing
5215 Ireland, Miss Fairfax prefers devoting the time to you and Mrs. Bates?”
5216
5217 “Yes--entirely her own doing, entirely her own choice; and Colonel
5218 and Mrs. Campbell think she does quite right, just what they should
5219 recommend; and indeed they particularly _wish_ her to try her native
5220 air, as she has not been quite so well as usual lately.”
5221
5222 “I am concerned to hear of it. I think they judge wisely. But Mrs.
5223 Dixon must be very much disappointed. Mrs. Dixon, I understand, has
5224 no remarkable degree of personal beauty; is not, by any means, to be
5225 compared with Miss Fairfax.”
5226
5227 “Oh! no. You are very obliging to say such things--but certainly not.
5228 There is no comparison between them. Miss Campbell always was absolutely
5229 plain--but extremely elegant and amiable.”
5230
5231 “Yes, that of course.”
5232
5233 “Jane caught a bad cold, poor thing! so long ago as the 7th of November,
5234 (as I am going to read to you,) and has never been well since. A long
5235 time, is not it, for a cold to hang upon her? She never mentioned
5236 it before, because she would not alarm us. Just like her! so
5237 considerate!--But however, she is so far from well, that her kind
5238 friends the Campbells think she had better come home, and try an air
5239 that always agrees with her; and they have no doubt that three or four
5240 months at Highbury will entirely cure her--and it is certainly a great
5241 deal better that she should come here, than go to Ireland, if she is
5242 unwell. Nobody could nurse her, as we should do.”
5243
5244 “It appears to me the most desirable arrangement in the world.”
5245
5246 “And so she is to come to us next Friday or Saturday, and the Campbells
5247 leave town in their way to Holyhead the Monday following--as you will
5248 find from Jane’s letter. So sudden!--You may guess, dear Miss Woodhouse,
5249 what a flurry it has thrown me in! If it was not for the drawback of
5250 her illness--but I am afraid we must expect to see her grown thin, and
5251 looking very poorly. I must tell you what an unlucky thing happened to
5252 me, as to that. I always make a point of reading Jane’s letters through
5253 to myself first, before I read them aloud to my mother, you know, for
5254 fear of there being any thing in them to distress her. Jane desired me
5255 to do it, so I always do: and so I began to-day with my usual caution;
5256 but no sooner did I come to the mention of her being unwell, than I
5257 burst out, quite frightened, with ‘Bless me! poor Jane is ill!’--which
5258 my mother, being on the watch, heard distinctly, and was sadly alarmed
5259 at. However, when I read on, I found it was not near so bad as I had
5260 fancied at first; and I make so light of it now to her, that she does
5261 not think much about it. But I cannot imagine how I could be so off my
5262 guard. If Jane does not get well soon, we will call in Mr. Perry. The
5263 expense shall not be thought of; and though he is so liberal, and so
5264 fond of Jane that I dare say he would not mean to charge any thing for
5265 attendance, we could not suffer it to be so, you know. He has a wife and
5266 family to maintain, and is not to be giving away his time. Well, now I
5267 have just given you a hint of what Jane writes about, we will turn to
5268 her letter, and I am sure she tells her own story a great deal better
5269 than I can tell it for her.”
5270
5271 “I am afraid we must be running away,” said Emma, glancing at Harriet,
5272 and beginning to rise--“My father will be expecting us. I had no
5273 intention, I thought I had no power of staying more than five minutes,
5274 when I first entered the house. I merely called, because I would not
5275 pass the door without inquiring after Mrs. Bates; but I have been so
5276 pleasantly detained! Now, however, we must wish you and Mrs. Bates good
5277 morning.”
5278
5279 And not all that could be urged to detain her succeeded. She regained
5280 the street--happy in this, that though much had been forced on her
5281 against her will, though she had in fact heard the whole substance of
5282 Jane Fairfax’s letter, she had been able to escape the letter itself.
5283
5284
5285
5286 CHAPTER II
5287
5288
5289 Jane Fairfax was an orphan, the only child of Mrs. Bates’s youngest
5290 daughter.
5291
5292 The marriage of Lieut. Fairfax of the ----regiment of infantry,
5293 and Miss Jane Bates, had had its day of fame and pleasure, hope
5294 and interest; but nothing now remained of it, save the melancholy
5295 remembrance of him dying in action abroad--of his widow sinking under
5296 consumption and grief soon afterwards--and this girl.
5297
5298 By birth she belonged to Highbury: and when at three years old, on
5299 losing her mother, she became the property, the charge, the consolation,
5300 the foundling of her grandmother and aunt, there had seemed every
5301 probability of her being permanently fixed there; of her being taught
5302 only what very limited means could command, and growing up with no
5303 advantages of connexion or improvement, to be engrafted on what
5304 nature had given her in a pleasing person, good understanding, and
5305 warm-hearted, well-meaning relations.
5306
5307 But the compassionate feelings of a friend of her father gave a change
5308 to her destiny. This was Colonel Campbell, who had very highly regarded
5309 Fairfax, as an excellent officer and most deserving young man; and
5310 farther, had been indebted to him for such attentions, during a severe
5311 camp-fever, as he believed had saved his life. These were claims which
5312 he did not learn to overlook, though some years passed away from the
5313 death of poor Fairfax, before his own return to England put any thing in
5314 his power. When he did return, he sought out the child and took notice
5315 of her. He was a married man, with only one living child, a girl, about
5316 Jane’s age: and Jane became their guest, paying them long visits and
5317 growing a favourite with all; and before she was nine years old, his
5318 daughter’s great fondness for her, and his own wish of being a real
5319 friend, united to produce an offer from Colonel Campbell of undertaking
5320 the whole charge of her education. It was accepted; and from that period
5321 Jane had belonged to Colonel Campbell’s family, and had lived with them
5322 entirely, only visiting her grandmother from time to time.
5323
5324 The plan was that she should be brought up for educating others; the
5325 very few hundred pounds which she inherited from her father making
5326 independence impossible. To provide for her otherwise was out of Colonel
5327 Campbell’s power; for though his income, by pay and appointments, was
5328 handsome, his fortune was moderate and must be all his daughter’s;
5329 but, by giving her an education, he hoped to be supplying the means of
5330 respectable subsistence hereafter.
5331
5332 Such was Jane Fairfax’s history. She had fallen into good hands, known
5333 nothing but kindness from the Campbells, and been given an excellent
5334 education. Living constantly with right-minded and well-informed people,
5335 her heart and understanding had received every advantage of discipline
5336 and culture; and Colonel Campbell’s residence being in London, every
5337 lighter talent had been done full justice to, by the attendance of
5338 first-rate masters. Her disposition and abilities were equally worthy
5339 of all that friendship could do; and at eighteen or nineteen she was,
5340 as far as such an early age can be qualified for the care of children,
5341 fully competent to the office of instruction herself; but she was too
5342 much beloved to be parted with. Neither father nor mother could promote,
5343 and the daughter could not endure it. The evil day was put off. It was
5344 easy to decide that she was still too young; and Jane remained with
5345 them, sharing, as another daughter, in all the rational pleasures of
5346 an elegant society, and a judicious mixture of home and amusement, with
5347 only the drawback of the future, the sobering suggestions of her own
5348 good understanding to remind her that all this might soon be over.
5349
5350 The affection of the whole family, the warm attachment of Miss
5351 Campbell in particular, was the more honourable to each party from
5352 the circumstance of Jane’s decided superiority both in beauty and
5353 acquirements. That nature had given it in feature could not be unseen
5354 by the young woman, nor could her higher powers of mind be unfelt by the
5355 parents. They continued together with unabated regard however, till the
5356 marriage of Miss Campbell, who by that chance, that luck which so often
5357 defies anticipation in matrimonial affairs, giving attraction to what is
5358 moderate rather than to what is superior, engaged the affections of
5359 Mr. Dixon, a young man, rich and agreeable, almost as soon as they were
5360 acquainted; and was eligibly and happily settled, while Jane Fairfax had
5361 yet her bread to earn.
5362
5363 This event had very lately taken place; too lately for any thing to be
5364 yet attempted by her less fortunate friend towards entering on her path
5365 of duty; though she had now reached the age which her own judgment had
5366 fixed on for beginning. She had long resolved that one-and-twenty
5367 should be the period. With the fortitude of a devoted novitiate, she had
5368 resolved at one-and-twenty to complete the sacrifice, and retire from
5369 all the pleasures of life, of rational intercourse, equal society, peace
5370 and hope, to penance and mortification for ever.
5371
5372 The good sense of Colonel and Mrs. Campbell could not oppose such
5373 a resolution, though their feelings did. As long as they lived, no
5374 exertions would be necessary, their home might be hers for ever; and for
5375 their own comfort they would have retained her wholly; but this would
5376 be selfishness:--what must be at last, had better be soon. Perhaps they
5377 began to feel it might have been kinder and wiser to have resisted the
5378 temptation of any delay, and spared her from a taste of such enjoyments
5379 of ease and leisure as must now be relinquished. Still, however,
5380 affection was glad to catch at any reasonable excuse for not hurrying
5381 on the wretched moment. She had never been quite well since the time of
5382 their daughter’s marriage; and till she should have completely recovered
5383 her usual strength, they must forbid her engaging in duties, which, so
5384 far from being compatible with a weakened frame and varying spirits,
5385 seemed, under the most favourable circumstances, to require something
5386 more than human perfection of body and mind to be discharged with
5387 tolerable comfort.
5388
5389 With regard to her not accompanying them to Ireland, her account to her
5390 aunt contained nothing but truth, though there might be some truths
5391 not told. It was her own choice to give the time of their absence to
5392 Highbury; to spend, perhaps, her last months of perfect liberty with
5393 those kind relations to whom she was so very dear: and the Campbells,
5394 whatever might be their motive or motives, whether single, or double, or
5395 treble, gave the arrangement their ready sanction, and said, that they
5396 depended more on a few months spent in her native air, for the recovery
5397 of her health, than on any thing else. Certain it was that she was to
5398 come; and that Highbury, instead of welcoming that perfect novelty which
5399 had been so long promised it--Mr. Frank Churchill--must put up for the
5400 present with Jane Fairfax, who could bring only the freshness of a two
5401 years’ absence.
5402
5403 Emma was sorry;--to have to pay civilities to a person she did not like
5404 through three long months!--to be always doing more than she wished,
5405 and less than she ought! Why she did not like Jane Fairfax might be a
5406 difficult question to answer; Mr. Knightley had once told her it was
5407 because she saw in her the really accomplished young woman, which she
5408 wanted to be thought herself; and though the accusation had been eagerly
5409 refuted at the time, there were moments of self-examination in which
5410 her conscience could not quite acquit her. But “she could never get
5411 acquainted with her: she did not know how it was, but there was such
5412 coldness and reserve--such apparent indifference whether she pleased or
5413 not--and then, her aunt was such an eternal talker!--and she was made
5414 such a fuss with by every body!--and it had been always imagined that
5415 they were to be so intimate--because their ages were the same, every
5416 body had supposed they must be so fond of each other.” These were her
5417 reasons--she had no better.
5418
5419 It was a dislike so little just--every imputed fault was so magnified
5420 by fancy, that she never saw Jane Fairfax the first time after any
5421 considerable absence, without feeling that she had injured her; and
5422 now, when the due visit was paid, on her arrival, after a two years’
5423 interval, she was particularly struck with the very appearance and
5424 manners, which for those two whole years she had been depreciating. Jane
5425 Fairfax was very elegant, remarkably elegant; and she had herself the
5426 highest value for elegance. Her height was pretty, just such as almost
5427 every body would think tall, and nobody could think very tall; her
5428 figure particularly graceful; her size a most becoming medium, between
5429 fat and thin, though a slight appearance of ill-health seemed to point
5430 out the likeliest evil of the two. Emma could not but feel all this; and
5431 then, her face--her features--there was more beauty in them altogether
5432 than she had remembered; it was not regular, but it was very pleasing
5433 beauty. Her eyes, a deep grey, with dark eye-lashes and eyebrows, had
5434 never been denied their praise; but the skin, which she had been used to
5435 cavil at, as wanting colour, had a clearness and delicacy which really
5436 needed no fuller bloom. It was a style of beauty, of which elegance was
5437 the reigning character, and as such, she must, in honour, by all her
5438 principles, admire it:--elegance, which, whether of person or of mind,
5439 she saw so little in Highbury. There, not to be vulgar, was distinction,
5440 and merit.
5441
5442 In short, she sat, during the first visit, looking at Jane Fairfax with
5443 twofold complacency; the sense of pleasure and the sense of rendering
5444 justice, and was determining that she would dislike her no longer. When
5445 she took in her history, indeed, her situation, as well as her beauty;
5446 when she considered what all this elegance was destined to, what she was
5447 going to sink from, how she was going to live, it seemed impossible
5448 to feel any thing but compassion and respect; especially, if to every
5449 well-known particular entitling her to interest, were added the highly
5450 probable circumstance of an attachment to Mr. Dixon, which she had
5451 so naturally started to herself. In that case, nothing could be more
5452 pitiable or more honourable than the sacrifices she had resolved on.
5453 Emma was very willing now to acquit her of having seduced Mr. Dixon’s
5454 actions from his wife, or of any thing mischievous which her imagination
5455 had suggested at first. If it were love, it might be simple, single,
5456 successless love on her side alone. She might have been unconsciously
5457 sucking in the sad poison, while a sharer of his conversation with her
5458 friend; and from the best, the purest of motives, might now be
5459 denying herself this visit to Ireland, and resolving to divide herself
5460 effectually from him and his connexions by soon beginning her career of
5461 laborious duty.
5462
5463 Upon the whole, Emma left her with such softened, charitable feelings,
5464 as made her look around in walking home, and lament that Highbury
5465 afforded no young man worthy of giving her independence; nobody that she
5466 could wish to scheme about for her.
5467
5468 These were charming feelings--but not lasting. Before she had committed
5469 herself by any public profession of eternal friendship for Jane Fairfax,
5470 or done more towards a recantation of past prejudices and errors, than
5471 saying to Mr. Knightley, “She certainly is handsome; she is better than
5472 handsome!” Jane had spent an evening at Hartfield with her grandmother
5473 and aunt, and every thing was relapsing much into its usual state.
5474 Former provocations reappeared. The aunt was as tiresome as ever; more
5475 tiresome, because anxiety for her health was now added to admiration
5476 of her powers; and they had to listen to the description of exactly how
5477 little bread and butter she ate for breakfast, and how small a slice
5478 of mutton for dinner, as well as to see exhibitions of new caps and new
5479 workbags for her mother and herself; and Jane’s offences rose again.
5480 They had music; Emma was obliged to play; and the thanks and praise
5481 which necessarily followed appeared to her an affectation of candour, an
5482 air of greatness, meaning only to shew off in higher style her own very
5483 superior performance. She was, besides, which was the worst of all, so
5484 cold, so cautious! There was no getting at her real opinion. Wrapt up in
5485 a cloak of politeness, she seemed determined to hazard nothing. She was
5486 disgustingly, was suspiciously reserved.
5487
5488 If any thing could be more, where all was most, she was more reserved on
5489 the subject of Weymouth and the Dixons than any thing. She seemed bent
5490 on giving no real insight into Mr. Dixon’s character, or her own value
5491 for his company, or opinion of the suitableness of the match. It was all
5492 general approbation and smoothness; nothing delineated or distinguished.
5493 It did her no service however. Her caution was thrown away. Emma saw
5494 its artifice, and returned to her first surmises. There probably _was_
5495 something more to conceal than her own preference; Mr. Dixon, perhaps,
5496 had been very near changing one friend for the other, or been fixed only
5497 to Miss Campbell, for the sake of the future twelve thousand pounds.
5498
5499 The like reserve prevailed on other topics. She and Mr. Frank Churchill
5500 had been at Weymouth at the same time. It was known that they were a
5501 little acquainted; but not a syllable of real information could Emma
5502 procure as to what he truly was. “Was he handsome?”--“She believed
5503 he was reckoned a very fine young man.” “Was he agreeable?”--“He was
5504 generally thought so.” “Did he appear a sensible young man; a young
5505 man of information?”--“At a watering-place, or in a common London
5506 acquaintance, it was difficult to decide on such points. Manners were
5507 all that could be safely judged of, under a much longer knowledge than
5508 they had yet had of Mr. Churchill. She believed every body found his
5509 manners pleasing.” Emma could not forgive her.
5510
5511
5512
5513 CHAPTER III
5514
5515
5516 Emma could not forgive her;--but as neither provocation nor resentment
5517 were discerned by Mr. Knightley, who had been of the party, and had
5518 seen only proper attention and pleasing behaviour on each side, he was
5519 expressing the next morning, being at Hartfield again on business with
5520 Mr. Woodhouse, his approbation of the whole; not so openly as he might
5521 have done had her father been out of the room, but speaking plain enough
5522 to be very intelligible to Emma. He had been used to think her unjust to
5523 Jane, and had now great pleasure in marking an improvement.
5524
5525 “A very pleasant evening,” he began, as soon as Mr. Woodhouse had been
5526 talked into what was necessary, told that he understood, and the papers
5527 swept away;--“particularly pleasant. You and Miss Fairfax gave us some
5528 very good music. I do not know a more luxurious state, sir, than sitting
5529 at one’s ease to be entertained a whole evening by two such young women;
5530 sometimes with music and sometimes with conversation. I am sure Miss
5531 Fairfax must have found the evening pleasant, Emma. You left nothing
5532 undone. I was glad you made her play so much, for having no instrument
5533 at her grandmother’s, it must have been a real indulgence.”
5534
5535 “I am happy you approved,” said Emma, smiling; “but I hope I am not
5536 often deficient in what is due to guests at Hartfield.”
5537
5538 “No, my dear,” said her father instantly; “_that_ I am sure you are not.
5539 There is nobody half so attentive and civil as you are. If any thing,
5540 you are too attentive. The muffin last night--if it had been handed
5541 round once, I think it would have been enough.”
5542
5543 “No,” said Mr. Knightley, nearly at the same time; “you are not often
5544 deficient; not often deficient either in manner or comprehension. I
5545 think you understand me, therefore.”
5546
5547 An arch look expressed--“I understand you well enough;” but she said
5548 only, “Miss Fairfax is reserved.”
5549
5550 “I always told you she was--a little; but you will soon overcome all
5551 that part of her reserve which ought to be overcome, all that has its
5552 foundation in diffidence. What arises from discretion must be honoured.”
5553
5554 “You think her diffident. I do not see it.”
5555
5556 “My dear Emma,” said he, moving from his chair into one close by her,
5557 “you are not going to tell me, I hope, that you had not a pleasant
5558 evening.”
5559
5560 “Oh! no; I was pleased with my own perseverance in asking questions; and
5561 amused to think how little information I obtained.”
5562
5563 “I am disappointed,” was his only answer.
5564
5565 “I hope every body had a pleasant evening,” said Mr. Woodhouse, in his
5566 quiet way. “I had. Once, I felt the fire rather too much; but then I
5567 moved back my chair a little, a very little, and it did not disturb me.
5568 Miss Bates was very chatty and good-humoured, as she always is, though
5569 she speaks rather too quick. However, she is very agreeable, and Mrs.
5570 Bates too, in a different way. I like old friends; and Miss Jane
5571 Fairfax is a very pretty sort of young lady, a very pretty and a
5572 very well-behaved young lady indeed. She must have found the evening
5573 agreeable, Mr. Knightley, because she had Emma.”
5574
5575 “True, sir; and Emma, because she had Miss Fairfax.”
5576
5577 Emma saw his anxiety, and wishing to appease it, at least for the
5578 present, said, and with a sincerity which no one could question--
5579
5580 “She is a sort of elegant creature that one cannot keep one’s eyes from.
5581 I am always watching her to admire; and I do pity her from my heart.”
5582
5583 Mr. Knightley looked as if he were more gratified than he cared to
5584 express; and before he could make any reply, Mr. Woodhouse, whose
5585 thoughts were on the Bates’s, said--
5586
5587 “It is a great pity that their circumstances should be so confined! a
5588 great pity indeed! and I have often wished--but it is so little one can
5589 venture to do--small, trifling presents, of any thing uncommon--Now we
5590 have killed a porker, and Emma thinks of sending them a loin or a leg;
5591 it is very small and delicate--Hartfield pork is not like any other
5592 pork--but still it is pork--and, my dear Emma, unless one could be sure
5593 of their making it into steaks, nicely fried, as ours are fried, without
5594 the smallest grease, and not roast it, for no stomach can bear roast
5595 pork--I think we had better send the leg--do not you think so, my dear?”
5596
5597 “My dear papa, I sent the whole hind-quarter. I knew you would wish it.
5598 There will be the leg to be salted, you know, which is so very nice, and
5599 the loin to be dressed directly in any manner they like.”
5600
5601 “That’s right, my dear, very right. I had not thought of it before, but
5602 that is the best way. They must not over-salt the leg; and then, if it
5603 is not over-salted, and if it is very thoroughly boiled, just as Serle
5604 boils ours, and eaten very moderately of, with a boiled turnip, and a
5605 little carrot or parsnip, I do not consider it unwholesome.”
5606
5607 “Emma,” said Mr. Knightley presently, “I have a piece of news for you.
5608 You like news--and I heard an article in my way hither that I think will
5609 interest you.”
5610
5611 “News! Oh! yes, I always like news. What is it?--why do you smile
5612 so?--where did you hear it?--at Randalls?”
5613
5614 He had time only to say,
5615
5616 “No, not at Randalls; I have not been near Randalls,” when the door was
5617 thrown open, and Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax walked into the room. Full
5618 of thanks, and full of news, Miss Bates knew not which to give quickest.
5619 Mr. Knightley soon saw that he had lost his moment, and that not another
5620 syllable of communication could rest with him.
5621
5622 “Oh! my dear sir, how are you this morning? My dear Miss Woodhouse--I
5623 come quite over-powered. Such a beautiful hind-quarter of pork! You
5624 are too bountiful! Have you heard the news? Mr. Elton is going to be
5625 married.”
5626
5627 Emma had not had time even to think of Mr. Elton, and she was so
5628 completely surprized that she could not avoid a little start, and a
5629 little blush, at the sound.
5630
5631 “There is my news:--I thought it would interest you,” said Mr.
5632 Knightley, with a smile which implied a conviction of some part of what
5633 had passed between them.
5634
5635 “But where could _you_ hear it?” cried Miss Bates. “Where could you
5636 possibly hear it, Mr. Knightley? For it is not five minutes since I
5637 received Mrs. Cole’s note--no, it cannot be more than five--or at least
5638 ten--for I had got my bonnet and spencer on, just ready to come out--I
5639 was only gone down to speak to Patty again about the pork--Jane was
5640 standing in the passage--were not you, Jane?--for my mother was so
5641 afraid that we had not any salting-pan large enough. So I said I would
5642 go down and see, and Jane said, ‘Shall I go down instead? for I think
5643 you have a little cold, and Patty has been washing the kitchen.’--‘Oh!
5644 my dear,’ said I--well, and just then came the note. A Miss
5645 Hawkins--that’s all I know. A Miss Hawkins of Bath. But, Mr. Knightley,
5646 how could you possibly have heard it? for the very moment Mr. Cole told
5647 Mrs. Cole of it, she sat down and wrote to me. A Miss Hawkins--”
5648
5649 “I was with Mr. Cole on business an hour and a half ago. He had just
5650 read Elton’s letter as I was shewn in, and handed it to me directly.”
5651
5652 “Well! that is quite--I suppose there never was a piece of news more
5653 generally interesting. My dear sir, you really are too bountiful. My
5654 mother desires her very best compliments and regards, and a thousand
5655 thanks, and says you really quite oppress her.”
5656
5657 “We consider our Hartfield pork,” replied Mr. Woodhouse--“indeed it
5658 certainly is, so very superior to all other pork, that Emma and I cannot
5659 have a greater pleasure than--”
5660
5661 “Oh! my dear sir, as my mother says, our friends are only too good
5662 to us. If ever there were people who, without having great wealth
5663 themselves, had every thing they could wish for, I am sure it is us.
5664 We may well say that ‘our lot is cast in a goodly heritage.’ Well, Mr.
5665 Knightley, and so you actually saw the letter; well--”
5666
5667 “It was short--merely to announce--but cheerful, exulting, of course.”--
5668 Here was a sly glance at Emma. “He had been so fortunate as to--I forget
5669 the precise words--one has no business to remember them. The information
5670 was, as you state, that he was going to be married to a Miss Hawkins. By
5671 his style, I should imagine it just settled.”
5672
5673 “Mr. Elton going to be married!” said Emma, as soon as she could speak.
5674 “He will have every body’s wishes for his happiness.”
5675
5676 “He is very young to settle,” was Mr. Woodhouse’s observation. “He had
5677 better not be in a hurry. He seemed to me very well off as he was. We
5678 were always glad to see him at Hartfield.”
5679
5680 “A new neighbour for us all, Miss Woodhouse!” said Miss Bates, joyfully;
5681 “my mother is so pleased!--she says she cannot bear to have the poor old
5682 Vicarage without a mistress. This is great news, indeed. Jane, you have
5683 never seen Mr. Elton!--no wonder that you have such a curiosity to see
5684 him.”
5685
5686 Jane’s curiosity did not appear of that absorbing nature as wholly to
5687 occupy her.
5688
5689 “No--I have never seen Mr. Elton,” she replied, starting on this appeal;
5690 “is he--is he a tall man?”
5691
5692 “Who shall answer that question?” cried Emma. “My father would say
5693 ‘yes,’ Mr. Knightley ‘no;’ and Miss Bates and I that he is just the
5694 happy medium. When you have been here a little longer, Miss Fairfax,
5695 you will understand that Mr. Elton is the standard of perfection in
5696 Highbury, both in person and mind.”
5697
5698 “Very true, Miss Woodhouse, so she will. He is the very best young
5699 man--But, my dear Jane, if you remember, I told you yesterday he
5700 was precisely the height of Mr. Perry. Miss Hawkins,--I dare say, an
5701 excellent young woman. His extreme attention to my mother--wanting
5702 her to sit in the vicarage pew, that she might hear the better, for my
5703 mother is a little deaf, you know--it is not much, but she does not
5704 hear quite quick. Jane says that Colonel Campbell is a little deaf. He
5705 fancied bathing might be good for it--the warm bath--but she says it did
5706 him no lasting benefit. Colonel Campbell, you know, is quite our angel.
5707 And Mr. Dixon seems a very charming young man, quite worthy of him. It
5708 is such a happiness when good people get together--and they always do.
5709 Now, here will be Mr. Elton and Miss Hawkins; and there are the Coles,
5710 such very good people; and the Perrys--I suppose there never was a
5711 happier or a better couple than Mr. and Mrs. Perry. I say, sir,” turning
5712 to Mr. Woodhouse, “I think there are few places with such society as
5713 Highbury. I always say, we are quite blessed in our neighbours.--My dear
5714 sir, if there is one thing my mother loves better than another, it is
5715 pork--a roast loin of pork--”
5716
5717 “As to who, or what Miss Hawkins is, or how long he has been acquainted
5718 with her,” said Emma, “nothing I suppose can be known. One feels that it
5719 cannot be a very long acquaintance. He has been gone only four weeks.”
5720
5721 Nobody had any information to give; and, after a few more wonderings,
5722 Emma said,
5723
5724 “You are silent, Miss Fairfax--but I hope you mean to take an interest
5725 in this news. You, who have been hearing and seeing so much of late
5726 on these subjects, who must have been so deep in the business on Miss
5727 Campbell’s account--we shall not excuse your being indifferent about Mr.
5728 Elton and Miss Hawkins.”
5729
5730 “When I have seen Mr. Elton,” replied Jane, “I dare say I shall be
5731 interested--but I believe it requires _that_ with me. And as it is some
5732 months since Miss Campbell married, the impression may be a little worn
5733 off.”
5734
5735 “Yes, he has been gone just four weeks, as you observe, Miss Woodhouse,”
5736 said Miss Bates, “four weeks yesterday.--A Miss Hawkins!--Well, I had
5737 always rather fancied it would be some young lady hereabouts; not that
5738 I ever--Mrs. Cole once whispered to me--but I immediately said, ‘No, Mr.
5739 Elton is a most worthy young man--but’--In short, I do not think I am
5740 particularly quick at those sort of discoveries. I do not pretend to it.
5741 What is before me, I see. At the same time, nobody could wonder if
5742 Mr. Elton should have aspired--Miss Woodhouse lets me chatter on, so
5743 good-humouredly. She knows I would not offend for the world. How does
5744 Miss Smith do? She seems quite recovered now. Have you heard from Mrs.
5745 John Knightley lately? Oh! those dear little children. Jane, do you
5746 know I always fancy Mr. Dixon like Mr. John Knightley. I mean in
5747 person--tall, and with that sort of look--and not very talkative.”
5748
5749 “Quite wrong, my dear aunt; there is no likeness at all.”
5750
5751 “Very odd! but one never does form a just idea of any body beforehand.
5752 One takes up a notion, and runs away with it. Mr. Dixon, you say, is
5753 not, strictly speaking, handsome?”
5754
5755 “Handsome! Oh! no--far from it--certainly plain. I told you he was
5756 plain.”
5757
5758 “My dear, you said that Miss Campbell would not allow him to be plain,
5759 and that you yourself--”
5760
5761 “Oh! as for me, my judgment is worth nothing. Where I have a regard,
5762 I always think a person well-looking. But I gave what I believed the
5763 general opinion, when I called him plain.”
5764
5765 “Well, my dear Jane, I believe we must be running away. The weather does
5766 not look well, and grandmama will be uneasy. You are too obliging, my
5767 dear Miss Woodhouse; but we really must take leave. This has been a most
5768 agreeable piece of news indeed. I shall just go round by Mrs. Cole’s;
5769 but I shall not stop three minutes: and, Jane, you had better go home
5770 directly--I would not have you out in a shower!--We think she is the
5771 better for Highbury already. Thank you, we do indeed. I shall not
5772 attempt calling on Mrs. Goddard, for I really do not think she cares for
5773 any thing but _boiled_ pork: when we dress the leg it will be another
5774 thing. Good morning to you, my dear sir. Oh! Mr. Knightley is coming
5775 too. Well, that is so very!--I am sure if Jane is tired, you will be
5776 so kind as to give her your arm.--Mr. Elton, and Miss Hawkins!--Good
5777 morning to you.”
5778
5779 Emma, alone with her father, had half her attention wanted by him while
5780 he lamented that young people would be in such a hurry to marry--and to
5781 marry strangers too--and the other half she could give to her own view
5782 of the subject. It was to herself an amusing and a very welcome piece
5783 of news, as proving that Mr. Elton could not have suffered long; but she
5784 was sorry for Harriet: Harriet must feel it--and all that she could hope
5785 was, by giving the first information herself, to save her from hearing
5786 it abruptly from others. It was now about the time that she was likely
5787 to call. If she were to meet Miss Bates in her way!--and upon its
5788 beginning to rain, Emma was obliged to expect that the weather would
5789 be detaining her at Mrs. Goddard’s, and that the intelligence would
5790 undoubtedly rush upon her without preparation.
5791
5792 The shower was heavy, but short; and it had not been over five minutes,
5793 when in came Harriet, with just the heated, agitated look which
5794 hurrying thither with a full heart was likely to give; and the “Oh! Miss
5795 Woodhouse, what do you think has happened!” which instantly burst forth,
5796 had all the evidence of corresponding perturbation. As the blow was
5797 given, Emma felt that she could not now shew greater kindness than in
5798 listening; and Harriet, unchecked, ran eagerly through what she had to
5799 tell. “She had set out from Mrs. Goddard’s half an hour ago--she had
5800 been afraid it would rain--she had been afraid it would pour down
5801 every moment--but she thought she might get to Hartfield first--she
5802 had hurried on as fast as possible; but then, as she was passing by the
5803 house where a young woman was making up a gown for her, she thought she
5804 would just step in and see how it went on; and though she did not seem
5805 to stay half a moment there, soon after she came out it began to rain,
5806 and she did not know what to do; so she ran on directly, as fast as
5807 she could, and took shelter at Ford’s.”--Ford’s was the principal
5808 woollen-draper, linen-draper, and haberdasher’s shop united; the shop
5809 first in size and fashion in the place.--“And so, there she had
5810 set, without an idea of any thing in the world, full ten minutes,
5811 perhaps--when, all of a sudden, who should come in--to be sure it was
5812 so very odd!--but they always dealt at Ford’s--who should come in, but
5813 Elizabeth Martin and her brother!--Dear Miss Woodhouse! only think. I
5814 thought I should have fainted. I did not know what to do. I was sitting
5815 near the door--Elizabeth saw me directly; but he did not; he was busy
5816 with the umbrella. I am sure she saw me, but she looked away directly,
5817 and took no notice; and they both went to quite the farther end of the
5818 shop; and I kept sitting near the door!--Oh! dear; I was so miserable!
5819 I am sure I must have been as white as my gown. I could not go away
5820 you know, because of the rain; but I did so wish myself anywhere in the
5821 world but there.--Oh! dear, Miss Woodhouse--well, at last, I fancy, he
5822 looked round and saw me; for instead of going on with her buyings, they
5823 began whispering to one another. I am sure they were talking of me; and
5824 I could not help thinking that he was persuading her to speak to me--(do
5825 you think he was, Miss Woodhouse?)--for presently she came forward--came
5826 quite up to me, and asked me how I did, and seemed ready to shake hands,
5827 if I would. She did not do any of it in the same way that she used; I
5828 could see she was altered; but, however, she seemed to _try_ to be very
5829 friendly, and we shook hands, and stood talking some time; but I know no
5830 more what I said--I was in such a tremble!--I remember she said she
5831 was sorry we never met now; which I thought almost too kind! Dear, Miss
5832 Woodhouse, I was absolutely miserable! By that time, it was beginning to
5833 hold up, and I was determined that nothing should stop me from getting
5834 away--and then--only think!--I found he was coming up towards me
5835 too--slowly you know, and as if he did not quite know what to do; and
5836 so he came and spoke, and I answered--and I stood for a minute, feeling
5837 dreadfully, you know, one can’t tell how; and then I took courage, and
5838 said it did not rain, and I must go; and so off I set; and I had not got
5839 three yards from the door, when he came after me, only to say, if I was
5840 going to Hartfield, he thought I had much better go round by Mr. Cole’s
5841 stables, for I should find the near way quite floated by this rain. Oh!
5842 dear, I thought it would have been the death of me! So I said, I was
5843 very much obliged to him: you know I could not do less; and then he went
5844 back to Elizabeth, and I came round by the stables--I believe I did--but
5845 I hardly knew where I was, or any thing about it. Oh! Miss Woodhouse,
5846 I would rather done any thing than have it happen: and yet, you know,
5847 there was a sort of satisfaction in seeing him behave so pleasantly and
5848 so kindly. And Elizabeth, too. Oh! Miss Woodhouse, do talk to me and
5849 make me comfortable again.”
5850
5851 Very sincerely did Emma wish to do so; but it was not immediately in
5852 her power. She was obliged to stop and think. She was not thoroughly
5853 comfortable herself. The young man’s conduct, and his sister’s, seemed
5854 the result of real feeling, and she could not but pity them. As Harriet
5855 described it, there had been an interesting mixture of wounded affection
5856 and genuine delicacy in their behaviour. But she had believed them to be
5857 well-meaning, worthy people before; and what difference did this make
5858 in the evils of the connexion? It was folly to be disturbed by it. Of
5859 course, he must be sorry to lose her--they must be all sorry. Ambition,
5860 as well as love, had probably been mortified. They might all have hoped
5861 to rise by Harriet’s acquaintance: and besides, what was the value of
5862 Harriet’s description?--So easily pleased--so little discerning;--what
5863 signified her praise?
5864
5865 She exerted herself, and did try to make her comfortable, by considering
5866 all that had passed as a mere trifle, and quite unworthy of being dwelt
5867 on,
5868
5869 “It might be distressing, for the moment,” said she; “but you seem to
5870 have behaved extremely well; and it is over--and may never--can never,
5871 as a first meeting, occur again, and therefore you need not think about
5872 it.”
5873
5874 Harriet said, “very true,” and she “would not think about it;” but still
5875 she talked of it--still she could talk of nothing else; and Emma, at
5876 last, in order to put the Martins out of her head, was obliged to hurry
5877 on the news, which she had meant to give with so much tender caution;
5878 hardly knowing herself whether to rejoice or be angry, ashamed or only
5879 amused, at such a state of mind in poor Harriet--such a conclusion of
5880 Mr. Elton’s importance with her!
5881
5882 Mr. Elton’s rights, however, gradually revived. Though she did not feel
5883 the first intelligence as she might have done the day before, or an hour
5884 before, its interest soon increased; and before their first conversation
5885 was over, she had talked herself into all the sensations of curiosity,
5886 wonder and regret, pain and pleasure, as to this fortunate Miss Hawkins,
5887 which could conduce to place the Martins under proper subordination in
5888 her fancy.
5889
5890 Emma learned to be rather glad that there had been such a meeting. It
5891 had been serviceable in deadening the first shock, without retaining any
5892 influence to alarm. As Harriet now lived, the Martins could not get
5893 at her, without seeking her, where hitherto they had wanted either the
5894 courage or the condescension to seek her; for since her refusal of the
5895 brother, the sisters never had been at Mrs. Goddard’s; and a twelvemonth
5896 might pass without their being thrown together again, with any
5897 necessity, or even any power of speech.
5898
5899
5900
5901 CHAPTER IV
5902
5903
5904 Human nature is so well disposed towards those who are in interesting
5905 situations, that a young person, who either marries or dies, is sure of
5906 being kindly spoken of.
5907
5908 A week had not passed since Miss Hawkins’s name was first mentioned in
5909 Highbury, before she was, by some means or other, discovered to have
5910 every recommendation of person and mind; to be handsome, elegant, highly
5911 accomplished, and perfectly amiable: and when Mr. Elton himself arrived
5912 to triumph in his happy prospects, and circulate the fame of her merits,
5913 there was very little more for him to do, than to tell her Christian
5914 name, and say whose music she principally played.
5915
5916 Mr. Elton returned, a very happy man. He had gone away rejected and
5917 mortified--disappointed in a very sanguine hope, after a series of what
5918 appeared to him strong encouragement; and not only losing the right
5919 lady, but finding himself debased to the level of a very wrong one. He
5920 had gone away deeply offended--he came back engaged to another--and
5921 to another as superior, of course, to the first, as under such
5922 circumstances what is gained always is to what is lost. He came back gay
5923 and self-satisfied, eager and busy, caring nothing for Miss Woodhouse,
5924 and defying Miss Smith.
5925
5926 The charming Augusta Hawkins, in addition to all the usual advantages of
5927 perfect beauty and merit, was in possession of an independent fortune,
5928 of so many thousands as would always be called ten; a point of some
5929 dignity, as well as some convenience: the story told well; he had not
5930 thrown himself away--he had gained a woman of 10,000 l. or thereabouts;
5931 and he had gained her with such delightful rapidity--the first hour of
5932 introduction had been so very soon followed by distinguishing notice;
5933 the history which he had to give Mrs. Cole of the rise and progress
5934 of the affair was so glorious--the steps so quick, from the accidental
5935 rencontre, to the dinner at Mr. Green’s, and the party at Mrs.
5936 Brown’s--smiles and blushes rising in importance--with consciousness and
5937 agitation richly scattered--the lady had been so easily impressed--so
5938 sweetly disposed--had in short, to use a most intelligible phrase,
5939 been so very ready to have him, that vanity and prudence were equally
5940 contented.
5941
5942 He had caught both substance and shadow--both fortune and affection, and
5943 was just the happy man he ought to be; talking only of himself and
5944 his own concerns--expecting to be congratulated--ready to be laughed
5945 at--and, with cordial, fearless smiles, now addressing all the young
5946 ladies of the place, to whom, a few weeks ago, he would have been more
5947 cautiously gallant.
5948
5949 The wedding was no distant event, as the parties had only themselves to
5950 please, and nothing but the necessary preparations to wait for; and
5951 when he set out for Bath again, there was a general expectation, which
5952 a certain glance of Mrs. Cole’s did not seem to contradict, that when he
5953 next entered Highbury he would bring his bride.
5954
5955 During his present short stay, Emma had barely seen him; but just enough
5956 to feel that the first meeting was over, and to give her the impression
5957 of his not being improved by the mixture of pique and pretension, now
5958 spread over his air. She was, in fact, beginning very much to wonder
5959 that she had ever thought him pleasing at all; and his sight was so
5960 inseparably connected with some very disagreeable feelings, that,
5961 except in a moral light, as a penance, a lesson, a source of profitable
5962 humiliation to her own mind, she would have been thankful to be assured
5963 of never seeing him again. She wished him very well; but he gave
5964 her pain, and his welfare twenty miles off would administer most
5965 satisfaction.
5966
5967 The pain of his continued residence in Highbury, however, must
5968 certainly be lessened by his marriage. Many vain solicitudes would be
5969 prevented--many awkwardnesses smoothed by it. A _Mrs._ _Elton_ would
5970 be an excuse for any change of intercourse; former intimacy might sink
5971 without remark. It would be almost beginning their life of civility
5972 again.
5973
5974 Of the lady, individually, Emma thought very little. She was good enough
5975 for Mr. Elton, no doubt; accomplished enough for Highbury--handsome
5976 enough--to look plain, probably, by Harriet’s side. As to connexion,
5977 there Emma was perfectly easy; persuaded, that after all his own vaunted
5978 claims and disdain of Harriet, he had done nothing. On that article,
5979 truth seemed attainable. _What_ she was, must be uncertain; but _who_
5980 she was, might be found out; and setting aside the 10,000 l., it did not
5981 appear that she was at all Harriet’s superior. She brought no name, no
5982 blood, no alliance. Miss Hawkins was the youngest of the two daughters
5983 of a Bristol--merchant, of course, he must be called; but, as the whole
5984 of the profits of his mercantile life appeared so very moderate, it
5985 was not unfair to guess the dignity of his line of trade had been very
5986 moderate also. Part of every winter she had been used to spend in Bath;
5987 but Bristol was her home, the very heart of Bristol; for though the
5988 father and mother had died some years ago, an uncle remained--in the law
5989 line--nothing more distinctly honourable was hazarded of him, than
5990 that he was in the law line; and with him the daughter had lived. Emma
5991 guessed him to be the drudge of some attorney, and too stupid to rise.
5992 And all the grandeur of the connexion seemed dependent on the elder
5993 sister, who was _very_ _well_ _married_, to a gentleman in a _great_
5994 _way_, near Bristol, who kept two carriages! That was the wind-up of the
5995 history; that was the glory of Miss Hawkins.
5996
5997 Could she but have given Harriet her feelings about it all! She had
5998 talked her into love; but, alas! she was not so easily to be talked out
5999 of it. The charm of an object to occupy the many vacancies of Harriet’s
6000 mind was not to be talked away. He might be superseded by another; he
6001 certainly would indeed; nothing could be clearer; even a Robert Martin
6002 would have been sufficient; but nothing else, she feared, would cure
6003 her. Harriet was one of those, who, having once begun, would be always
6004 in love. And now, poor girl! she was considerably worse from this
6005 reappearance of Mr. Elton. She was always having a glimpse of him
6006 somewhere or other. Emma saw him only once; but two or three times every
6007 day Harriet was sure _just_ to meet with him, or _just_ to miss him,
6008 _just_ to hear his voice, or see his shoulder, _just_ to have something
6009 occur to preserve him in her fancy, in all the favouring warmth of
6010 surprize and conjecture. She was, moreover, perpetually hearing about
6011 him; for, excepting when at Hartfield, she was always among those who
6012 saw no fault in Mr. Elton, and found nothing so interesting as
6013 the discussion of his concerns; and every report, therefore, every
6014 guess--all that had already occurred, all that might occur in the
6015 arrangement of his affairs, comprehending income, servants, and
6016 furniture, was continually in agitation around her. Her regard was
6017 receiving strength by invariable praise of him, and her regrets kept
6018 alive, and feelings irritated by ceaseless repetitions of Miss
6019 Hawkins’s happiness, and continual observation of, how much he seemed
6020 attached!--his air as he walked by the house--the very sitting of his
6021 hat, being all in proof of how much he was in love!
6022
6023 Had it been allowable entertainment, had there been no pain to her
6024 friend, or reproach to herself, in the waverings of Harriet’s mind,
6025 Emma would have been amused by its variations. Sometimes Mr. Elton
6026 predominated, sometimes the Martins; and each was occasionally useful
6027 as a check to the other. Mr. Elton’s engagement had been the cure of
6028 the agitation of meeting Mr. Martin. The unhappiness produced by the
6029 knowledge of that engagement had been a little put aside by Elizabeth
6030 Martin’s calling at Mrs. Goddard’s a few days afterwards. Harriet had
6031 not been at home; but a note had been prepared and left for her, written
6032 in the very style to touch; a small mixture of reproach, with a great
6033 deal of kindness; and till Mr. Elton himself appeared, she had been much
6034 occupied by it, continually pondering over what could be done in return,
6035 and wishing to do more than she dared to confess. But Mr. Elton, in
6036 person, had driven away all such cares. While he staid, the Martins were
6037 forgotten; and on the very morning of his setting off for Bath again,
6038 Emma, to dissipate some of the distress it occasioned, judged it best
6039 for her to return Elizabeth Martin’s visit.
6040
6041 How that visit was to be acknowledged--what would be necessary--and
6042 what might be safest, had been a point of some doubtful consideration.
6043 Absolute neglect of the mother and sisters, when invited to come, would
6044 be ingratitude. It must not be: and yet the danger of a renewal of the
6045 acquaintance--!
6046
6047 After much thinking, she could determine on nothing better, than
6048 Harriet’s returning the visit; but in a way that, if they had
6049 understanding, should convince them that it was to be only a formal
6050 acquaintance. She meant to take her in the carriage, leave her at the
6051 Abbey Mill, while she drove a little farther, and call for her again
6052 so soon, as to allow no time for insidious applications or dangerous
6053 recurrences to the past, and give the most decided proof of what degree
6054 of intimacy was chosen for the future.
6055
6056 She could think of nothing better: and though there was something in it
6057 which her own heart could not approve--something of ingratitude, merely
6058 glossed over--it must be done, or what would become of Harriet?
6059
6060
6061
6062 CHAPTER V
6063
6064
6065 Small heart had Harriet for visiting. Only half an hour before her
6066 friend called for her at Mrs. Goddard’s, her evil stars had led her
6067 to the very spot where, at that moment, a trunk, directed to _The Rev.
6068 Philip Elton, White-Hart, Bath_, was to be seen under the operation of
6069 being lifted into the butcher’s cart, which was to convey it to where
6070 the coaches past; and every thing in this world, excepting that trunk
6071 and the direction, was consequently a blank.
6072
6073 She went, however; and when they reached the farm, and she was to be
6074 put down, at the end of the broad, neat gravel walk, which led between
6075 espalier apple-trees to the front door, the sight of every thing which
6076 had given her so much pleasure the autumn before, was beginning to
6077 revive a little local agitation; and when they parted, Emma observed her
6078 to be looking around with a sort of fearful curiosity, which determined
6079 her not to allow the visit to exceed the proposed quarter of an hour.
6080 She went on herself, to give that portion of time to an old servant who
6081 was married, and settled in Donwell.
6082
6083 The quarter of an hour brought her punctually to the white gate again;
6084 and Miss Smith receiving her summons, was with her without delay, and
6085 unattended by any alarming young man. She came solitarily down the
6086 gravel walk--a Miss Martin just appearing at the door, and parting with
6087 her seemingly with ceremonious civility.
6088
6089 Harriet could not very soon give an intelligible account. She was
6090 feeling too much; but at last Emma collected from her enough to
6091 understand the sort of meeting, and the sort of pain it was creating.
6092 She had seen only Mrs. Martin and the two girls. They had received her
6093 doubtingly, if not coolly; and nothing beyond the merest commonplace had
6094 been talked almost all the time--till just at last, when Mrs. Martin’s
6095 saying, all of a sudden, that she thought Miss Smith was grown, had
6096 brought on a more interesting subject, and a warmer manner. In that very
6097 room she had been measured last September, with her two friends. There
6098 were the pencilled marks and memorandums on the wainscot by the window.
6099 _He_ had done it. They all seemed to remember the day, the hour,
6100 the party, the occasion--to feel the same consciousness, the same
6101 regrets--to be ready to return to the same good understanding; and they
6102 were just growing again like themselves, (Harriet, as Emma must suspect,
6103 as ready as the best of them to be cordial and happy,) when the carriage
6104 reappeared, and all was over. The style of the visit, and the shortness
6105 of it, were then felt to be decisive. Fourteen minutes to be given
6106 to those with whom she had thankfully passed six weeks not six months
6107 ago!--Emma could not but picture it all, and feel how justly they might
6108 resent, how naturally Harriet must suffer. It was a bad business. She
6109 would have given a great deal, or endured a great deal, to have had
6110 the Martins in a higher rank of life. They were so deserving, that a
6111 _little_ higher should have been enough: but as it was, how could she
6112 have done otherwise?--Impossible!--She could not repent. They must be
6113 separated; but there was a great deal of pain in the process--so much
6114 to herself at this time, that she soon felt the necessity of a little
6115 consolation, and resolved on going home by way of Randalls to
6116 procure it. Her mind was quite sick of Mr. Elton and the Martins. The
6117 refreshment of Randalls was absolutely necessary.
6118
6119 It was a good scheme; but on driving to the door they heard that neither
6120 “master nor mistress was at home;” they had both been out some time; the
6121 man believed they were gone to Hartfield.
6122
6123 “This is too bad,” cried Emma, as they turned away. “And now we shall
6124 just miss them; too provoking!--I do not know when I have been so
6125 disappointed.” And she leaned back in the corner, to indulge her
6126 murmurs, or to reason them away; probably a little of both--such being
6127 the commonest process of a not ill-disposed mind. Presently the carriage
6128 stopt; she looked up; it was stopt by Mr. and Mrs. Weston, who were
6129 standing to speak to her. There was instant pleasure in the sight of
6130 them, and still greater pleasure was conveyed in sound--for Mr. Weston
6131 immediately accosted her with,
6132
6133 “How d’ye do?--how d’ye do?--We have been sitting with your father--glad
6134 to see him so well. Frank comes to-morrow--I had a letter this
6135 morning--we see him to-morrow by dinner-time to a certainty--he is at
6136 Oxford to-day, and he comes for a whole fortnight; I knew it would be
6137 so. If he had come at Christmas he could not have staid three days; I
6138 was always glad he did not come at Christmas; now we are going to have
6139 just the right weather for him, fine, dry, settled weather. We shall
6140 enjoy him completely; every thing has turned out exactly as we could
6141 wish.”
6142
6143 There was no resisting such news, no possibility of avoiding the
6144 influence of such a happy face as Mr. Weston’s, confirmed as it all was
6145 by the words and the countenance of his wife, fewer and quieter, but not
6146 less to the purpose. To know that _she_ thought his coming certain was
6147 enough to make Emma consider it so, and sincerely did she rejoice in
6148 their joy. It was a most delightful reanimation of exhausted spirits.
6149 The worn-out past was sunk in the freshness of what was coming; and in
6150 the rapidity of half a moment’s thought, she hoped Mr. Elton would now
6151 be talked of no more.
6152
6153 Mr. Weston gave her the history of the engagements at Enscombe, which
6154 allowed his son to answer for having an entire fortnight at his command,
6155 as well as the route and the method of his journey; and she listened,
6156 and smiled, and congratulated.
6157
6158 “I shall soon bring him over to Hartfield,” said he, at the conclusion.
6159
6160 Emma could imagine she saw a touch of the arm at this speech, from his
6161 wife.
6162
6163 “We had better move on, Mr. Weston,” said she, “we are detaining the
6164 girls.”
6165
6166 “Well, well, I am ready;”--and turning again to Emma, “but you must
6167 not be expecting such a _very_ fine young man; you have only
6168 had _my_ account you know; I dare say he is really nothing
6169 extraordinary:”--though his own sparkling eyes at the moment were
6170 speaking a very different conviction.
6171
6172 Emma could look perfectly unconscious and innocent, and answer in a
6173 manner that appropriated nothing.
6174
6175 “Think of me to-morrow, my dear Emma, about four o’clock,” was Mrs.
6176 Weston’s parting injunction; spoken with some anxiety, and meant only
6177 for her.
6178
6179 “Four o’clock!--depend upon it he will be here by three,” was Mr.
6180 Weston’s quick amendment; and so ended a most satisfactory meeting.
6181 Emma’s spirits were mounted quite up to happiness; every thing wore
6182 a different air; James and his horses seemed not half so sluggish as
6183 before. When she looked at the hedges, she thought the elder at least
6184 must soon be coming out; and when she turned round to Harriet, she saw
6185 something like a look of spring, a tender smile even there.
6186
6187 “Will Mr. Frank Churchill pass through Bath as well as Oxford?”--was a
6188 question, however, which did not augur much.
6189
6190 But neither geography nor tranquillity could come all at once, and Emma
6191 was now in a humour to resolve that they should both come in time.
6192
6193 The morning of the interesting day arrived, and Mrs. Weston’s faithful
6194 pupil did not forget either at ten, or eleven, or twelve o’clock, that
6195 she was to think of her at four.
6196
6197 “My dear, dear anxious friend,”--said she, in mental soliloquy, while
6198 walking downstairs from her own room, “always overcareful for every
6199 body’s comfort but your own; I see you now in all your little fidgets,
6200 going again and again into his room, to be sure that all is right.”
6201 The clock struck twelve as she passed through the hall. “‘Tis twelve;
6202 I shall not forget to think of you four hours hence; and by this
6203 time to-morrow, perhaps, or a little later, I may be thinking of the
6204 possibility of their all calling here. I am sure they will bring him
6205 soon.”
6206
6207 She opened the parlour door, and saw two gentlemen sitting with her
6208 father--Mr. Weston and his son. They had been arrived only a few
6209 minutes, and Mr. Weston had scarcely finished his explanation of Frank’s
6210 being a day before his time, and her father was yet in the midst of his
6211 very civil welcome and congratulations, when she appeared, to have her
6212 share of surprize, introduction, and pleasure.
6213
6214 The Frank Churchill so long talked of, so high in interest, was actually
6215 before her--he was presented to her, and she did not think too much had
6216 been said in his praise; he was a _very_ good looking young man; height,
6217 air, address, all were unexceptionable, and his countenance had a great
6218 deal of the spirit and liveliness of his father’s; he looked quick and
6219 sensible. She felt immediately that she should like him; and there was
6220 a well-bred ease of manner, and a readiness to talk, which convinced her
6221 that he came intending to be acquainted with her, and that acquainted
6222 they soon must be.
6223
6224 He had reached Randalls the evening before. She was pleased with the
6225 eagerness to arrive which had made him alter his plan, and travel
6226 earlier, later, and quicker, that he might gain half a day.
6227
6228 “I told you yesterday,” cried Mr. Weston with exultation, “I told you
6229 all that he would be here before the time named. I remembered what I
6230 used to do myself. One cannot creep upon a journey; one cannot help
6231 getting on faster than one has planned; and the pleasure of coming in
6232 upon one’s friends before the look-out begins, is worth a great deal
6233 more than any little exertion it needs.”
6234
6235 “It is a great pleasure where one can indulge in it,” said the young
6236 man, “though there are not many houses that I should presume on so far;
6237 but in coming _home_ I felt I might do any thing.”
6238
6239 The word _home_ made his father look on him with fresh complacency.
6240 Emma was directly sure that he knew how to make himself agreeable; the
6241 conviction was strengthened by what followed. He was very much pleased
6242 with Randalls, thought it a most admirably arranged house, would hardly
6243 allow it even to be very small, admired the situation, the walk to
6244 Highbury, Highbury itself, Hartfield still more, and professed himself
6245 to have always felt the sort of interest in the country which none but
6246 one’s _own_ country gives, and the greatest curiosity to visit it. That
6247 he should never have been able to indulge so amiable a feeling before,
6248 passed suspiciously through Emma’s brain; but still, if it were a
6249 falsehood, it was a pleasant one, and pleasantly handled. His manner had
6250 no air of study or exaggeration. He did really look and speak as if in a
6251 state of no common enjoyment.
6252
6253 Their subjects in general were such as belong to an opening
6254 acquaintance. On his side were the inquiries,--“Was she a
6255 horsewoman?--Pleasant rides?--Pleasant walks?--Had they a large
6256 neighbourhood?--Highbury, perhaps, afforded society enough?--There were
6257 several very pretty houses in and about it.--Balls--had they balls?--Was
6258 it a musical society?”
6259
6260 But when satisfied on all these points, and their acquaintance
6261 proportionably advanced, he contrived to find an opportunity, while
6262 their two fathers were engaged with each other, of introducing his
6263 mother-in-law, and speaking of her with so much handsome praise, so much
6264 warm admiration, so much gratitude for the happiness she secured to his
6265 father, and her very kind reception of himself, as was an additional
6266 proof of his knowing how to please--and of his certainly thinking it
6267 worth while to try to please her. He did not advance a word of praise
6268 beyond what she knew to be thoroughly deserved by Mrs. Weston; but,
6269 undoubtedly he could know very little of the matter. He understood
6270 what would be welcome; he could be sure of little else. “His father’s
6271 marriage,” he said, “had been the wisest measure, every friend must
6272 rejoice in it; and the family from whom he had received such a blessing
6273 must be ever considered as having conferred the highest obligation on
6274 him.”
6275
6276 He got as near as he could to thanking her for Miss Taylor’s merits,
6277 without seeming quite to forget that in the common course of things it
6278 was to be rather supposed that Miss Taylor had formed Miss Woodhouse’s
6279 character, than Miss Woodhouse Miss Taylor’s. And at last, as if
6280 resolved to qualify his opinion completely for travelling round to its
6281 object, he wound it all up with astonishment at the youth and beauty of
6282 her person.
6283
6284 “Elegant, agreeable manners, I was prepared for,” said he; “but I
6285 confess that, considering every thing, I had not expected more than a
6286 very tolerably well-looking woman of a certain age; I did not know that
6287 I was to find a pretty young woman in Mrs. Weston.”
6288
6289 “You cannot see too much perfection in Mrs. Weston for my feelings,”
6290 said Emma; “were you to guess her to be _eighteen_, I should listen with
6291 pleasure; but _she_ would be ready to quarrel with you for using such
6292 words. Don’t let her imagine that you have spoken of her as a pretty
6293 young woman.”
6294
6295 “I hope I should know better,” he replied; “no, depend upon it, (with a
6296 gallant bow,) that in addressing Mrs. Weston I should understand whom
6297 I might praise without any danger of being thought extravagant in my
6298 terms.”
6299
6300 Emma wondered whether the same suspicion of what might be expected from
6301 their knowing each other, which had taken strong possession of her mind,
6302 had ever crossed his; and whether his compliments were to be considered
6303 as marks of acquiescence, or proofs of defiance. She must see more
6304 of him to understand his ways; at present she only felt they were
6305 agreeable.
6306
6307 She had no doubt of what Mr. Weston was often thinking about. His quick
6308 eye she detected again and again glancing towards them with a happy
6309 expression; and even, when he might have determined not to look, she was
6310 confident that he was often listening.
6311
6312 Her own father’s perfect exemption from any thought of the kind, the
6313 entire deficiency in him of all such sort of penetration or suspicion,
6314 was a most comfortable circumstance. Happily he was not farther from
6315 approving matrimony than from foreseeing it.--Though always objecting
6316 to every marriage that was arranged, he never suffered beforehand from
6317 the apprehension of any; it seemed as if he could not think so ill of
6318 any two persons’ understanding as to suppose they meant to marry till it
6319 were proved against them. She blessed the favouring blindness. He could
6320 now, without the drawback of a single unpleasant surmise, without a
6321 glance forward at any possible treachery in his guest, give way to all
6322 his natural kind-hearted civility in solicitous inquiries after Mr.
6323 Frank Churchill’s accommodation on his journey, through the sad evils
6324 of sleeping two nights on the road, and express very genuine unmixed
6325 anxiety to know that he had certainly escaped catching cold--which,
6326 however, he could not allow him to feel quite assured of himself till
6327 after another night.
6328
6329 A reasonable visit paid, Mr. Weston began to move.--“He must be going.
6330 He had business at the Crown about his hay, and a great many errands for
6331 Mrs. Weston at Ford’s, but he need not hurry any body else.” His son,
6332 too well bred to hear the hint, rose immediately also, saying,
6333
6334 “As you are going farther on business, sir, I will take the opportunity
6335 of paying a visit, which must be paid some day or other, and therefore
6336 may as well be paid now. I have the honour of being acquainted with
6337 a neighbour of yours, (turning to Emma,) a lady residing in or near
6338 Highbury; a family of the name of Fairfax. I shall have no difficulty,
6339 I suppose, in finding the house; though Fairfax, I believe, is not
6340 the proper name--I should rather say Barnes, or Bates. Do you know any
6341 family of that name?”
6342
6343 “To be sure we do,” cried his father; “Mrs. Bates--we passed her
6344 house--I saw Miss Bates at the window. True, true, you are acquainted
6345 with Miss Fairfax; I remember you knew her at Weymouth, and a fine girl
6346 she is. Call upon her, by all means.”
6347
6348 “There is no necessity for my calling this morning,” said the young man;
6349 “another day would do as well; but there was that degree of acquaintance
6350 at Weymouth which--”
6351
6352 “Oh! go to-day, go to-day. Do not defer it. What is right to be done
6353 cannot be done too soon. And, besides, I must give you a hint, Frank;
6354 any want of attention to her _here_ should be carefully avoided. You saw
6355 her with the Campbells, when she was the equal of every body she mixed
6356 with, but here she is with a poor old grandmother, who has barely enough
6357 to live on. If you do not call early it will be a slight.”
6358
6359 The son looked convinced.
6360
6361 “I have heard her speak of the acquaintance,” said Emma; “she is a very
6362 elegant young woman.”
6363
6364 He agreed to it, but with so quiet a “Yes,” as inclined her almost to
6365 doubt his real concurrence; and yet there must be a very distinct sort
6366 of elegance for the fashionable world, if Jane Fairfax could be thought
6367 only ordinarily gifted with it.
6368
6369 “If you were never particularly struck by her manners before,” said she,
6370 “I think you will to-day. You will see her to advantage; see her and
6371 hear her--no, I am afraid you will not hear her at all, for she has an
6372 aunt who never holds her tongue.”
6373
6374 “You are acquainted with Miss Jane Fairfax, sir, are you?” said Mr.
6375 Woodhouse, always the last to make his way in conversation; “then give
6376 me leave to assure you that you will find her a very agreeable young
6377 lady. She is staying here on a visit to her grandmama and aunt, very
6378 worthy people; I have known them all my life. They will be extremely
6379 glad to see you, I am sure; and one of my servants shall go with you to
6380 shew you the way.”
6381
6382 “My dear sir, upon no account in the world; my father can direct me.”
6383
6384 “But your father is not going so far; he is only going to the Crown,
6385 quite on the other side of the street, and there are a great many
6386 houses; you might be very much at a loss, and it is a very dirty walk,
6387 unless you keep on the footpath; but my coachman can tell you where you
6388 had best cross the street.”
6389
6390 Mr. Frank Churchill still declined it, looking as serious as he could,
6391 and his father gave his hearty support by calling out, “My good friend,
6392 this is quite unnecessary; Frank knows a puddle of water when he sees
6393 it, and as to Mrs. Bates’s, he may get there from the Crown in a hop,
6394 step, and jump.”
6395
6396 They were permitted to go alone; and with a cordial nod from one, and a
6397 graceful bow from the other, the two gentlemen took leave. Emma remained
6398 very well pleased with this beginning of the acquaintance, and could now
6399 engage to think of them all at Randalls any hour of the day, with full
6400 confidence in their comfort.
6401
6402
6403
6404 CHAPTER VI
6405
6406
6407 The next morning brought Mr. Frank Churchill again. He came with Mrs.
6408 Weston, to whom and to Highbury he seemed to take very cordially. He had
6409 been sitting with her, it appeared, most companionably at home, till
6410 her usual hour of exercise; and on being desired to chuse their walk,
6411 immediately fixed on Highbury.--“He did not doubt there being very
6412 pleasant walks in every direction, but if left to him, he should always
6413 chuse the same. Highbury, that airy, cheerful, happy-looking Highbury,
6414 would be his constant attraction.”--Highbury, with Mrs. Weston, stood
6415 for Hartfield; and she trusted to its bearing the same construction with
6416 him. They walked thither directly.
6417
6418 Emma had hardly expected them: for Mr. Weston, who had called in for
6419 half a minute, in order to hear that his son was very handsome, knew
6420 nothing of their plans; and it was an agreeable surprize to her,
6421 therefore, to perceive them walking up to the house together, arm in
6422 arm. She was wanting to see him again, and especially to see him in
6423 company with Mrs. Weston, upon his behaviour to whom her opinion of him
6424 was to depend. If he were deficient there, nothing should make amends
6425 for it. But on seeing them together, she became perfectly satisfied. It
6426 was not merely in fine words or hyperbolical compliment that he paid his
6427 duty; nothing could be more proper or pleasing than his whole manner to
6428 her--nothing could more agreeably denote his wish of considering her as
6429 a friend and securing her affection. And there was time enough for Emma
6430 to form a reasonable judgment, as their visit included all the rest of
6431 the morning. They were all three walking about together for an hour
6432 or two--first round the shrubberies of Hartfield, and afterwards
6433 in Highbury. He was delighted with every thing; admired Hartfield
6434 sufficiently for Mr. Woodhouse’s ear; and when their going farther was
6435 resolved on, confessed his wish to be made acquainted with the whole
6436 village, and found matter of commendation and interest much oftener than
6437 Emma could have supposed.
6438
6439 Some of the objects of his curiosity spoke very amiable feelings. He
6440 begged to be shewn the house which his father had lived in so long, and
6441 which had been the home of his father’s father; and on recollecting that
6442 an old woman who had nursed him was still living, walked in quest of
6443 her cottage from one end of the street to the other; and though in
6444 some points of pursuit or observation there was no positive merit, they
6445 shewed, altogether, a good-will towards Highbury in general, which must
6446 be very like a merit to those he was with.
6447
6448 Emma watched and decided, that with such feelings as were now shewn, it
6449 could not be fairly supposed that he had been ever voluntarily absenting
6450 himself; that he had not been acting a part, or making a parade of
6451 insincere professions; and that Mr. Knightley certainly had not done him
6452 justice.
6453
6454 Their first pause was at the Crown Inn, an inconsiderable house, though
6455 the principal one of the sort, where a couple of pair of post-horses
6456 were kept, more for the convenience of the neighbourhood than from any
6457 run on the road; and his companions had not expected to be detained by
6458 any interest excited there; but in passing it they gave the history of
6459 the large room visibly added; it had been built many years ago for
6460 a ball-room, and while the neighbourhood had been in a particularly
6461 populous, dancing state, had been occasionally used as such;--but such
6462 brilliant days had long passed away, and now the highest purpose for
6463 which it was ever wanted was to accommodate a whist club established
6464 among the gentlemen and half-gentlemen of the place. He was immediately
6465 interested. Its character as a ball-room caught him; and instead of
6466 passing on, he stopt for several minutes at the two superior sashed
6467 windows which were open, to look in and contemplate its capabilities,
6468 and lament that its original purpose should have ceased. He saw no fault
6469 in the room, he would acknowledge none which they suggested. No, it
6470 was long enough, broad enough, handsome enough. It would hold the
6471 very number for comfort. They ought to have balls there at least every
6472 fortnight through the winter. Why had not Miss Woodhouse revived
6473 the former good old days of the room?--She who could do any thing in
6474 Highbury! The want of proper families in the place, and the conviction
6475 that none beyond the place and its immediate environs could be tempted
6476 to attend, were mentioned; but he was not satisfied. He could not be
6477 persuaded that so many good-looking houses as he saw around him, could
6478 not furnish numbers enough for such a meeting; and even when particulars
6479 were given and families described, he was still unwilling to admit that
6480 the inconvenience of such a mixture would be any thing, or that there
6481 would be the smallest difficulty in every body’s returning into their
6482 proper place the next morning. He argued like a young man very much bent
6483 on dancing; and Emma was rather surprized to see the constitution of
6484 the Weston prevail so decidedly against the habits of the Churchills.
6485 He seemed to have all the life and spirit, cheerful feelings, and social
6486 inclinations of his father, and nothing of the pride or reserve of
6487 Enscombe. Of pride, indeed, there was, perhaps, scarcely enough; his
6488 indifference to a confusion of rank, bordered too much on inelegance of
6489 mind. He could be no judge, however, of the evil he was holding cheap.
6490 It was but an effusion of lively spirits.
6491
6492 At last he was persuaded to move on from the front of the Crown;
6493 and being now almost facing the house where the Bateses lodged, Emma
6494 recollected his intended visit the day before, and asked him if he had
6495 paid it.
6496
6497 “Yes, oh! yes”--he replied; “I was just going to mention it. A very
6498 successful visit:--I saw all the three ladies; and felt very much
6499 obliged to you for your preparatory hint. If the talking aunt had taken
6500 me quite by surprize, it must have been the death of me. As it was, I
6501 was only betrayed into paying a most unreasonable visit. Ten minutes
6502 would have been all that was necessary, perhaps all that was proper; and
6503 I had told my father I should certainly be at home before him--but there
6504 was no getting away, no pause; and, to my utter astonishment, I found,
6505 when he (finding me nowhere else) joined me there at last, that I had
6506 been actually sitting with them very nearly three-quarters of an hour.
6507 The good lady had not given me the possibility of escape before.”
6508
6509 “And how did you think Miss Fairfax looking?”
6510
6511 “Ill, very ill--that is, if a young lady can ever be allowed to look
6512 ill. But the expression is hardly admissible, Mrs. Weston, is it? Ladies
6513 can never look ill. And, seriously, Miss Fairfax is naturally so
6514 pale, as almost always to give the appearance of ill health.--A most
6515 deplorable want of complexion.”
6516
6517 Emma would not agree to this, and began a warm defence of Miss Fairfax’s
6518 complexion. “It was certainly never brilliant, but she would not
6519 allow it to have a sickly hue in general; and there was a softness and
6520 delicacy in her skin which gave peculiar elegance to the character of
6521 her face.” He listened with all due deference; acknowledged that he had
6522 heard many people say the same--but yet he must confess, that to him
6523 nothing could make amends for the want of the fine glow of health. Where
6524 features were indifferent, a fine complexion gave beauty to them all;
6525 and where they were good, the effect was--fortunately he need not
6526 attempt to describe what the effect was.
6527
6528 “Well,” said Emma, “there is no disputing about taste.--At least you
6529 admire her except her complexion.”
6530
6531 He shook his head and laughed.--“I cannot separate Miss Fairfax and her
6532 complexion.”
6533
6534 “Did you see her often at Weymouth? Were you often in the same society?”
6535
6536 At this moment they were approaching Ford’s, and he hastily exclaimed,
6537 “Ha! this must be the very shop that every body attends every day of
6538 their lives, as my father informs me. He comes to Highbury himself, he
6539 says, six days out of the seven, and has always business at Ford’s.
6540 If it be not inconvenient to you, pray let us go in, that I may prove
6541 myself to belong to the place, to be a true citizen of Highbury. I must
6542 buy something at Ford’s. It will be taking out my freedom.--I dare say
6543 they sell gloves.”
6544
6545 “Oh! yes, gloves and every thing. I do admire your patriotism. You will
6546 be adored in Highbury. You were very popular before you came, because
6547 you were Mr. Weston’s son--but lay out half a guinea at Ford’s, and your
6548 popularity will stand upon your own virtues.”
6549
6550 They went in; and while the sleek, well-tied parcels of “Men’s Beavers”
6551 and “York Tan” were bringing down and displaying on the counter, he
6552 said--“But I beg your pardon, Miss Woodhouse, you were speaking to me,
6553 you were saying something at the very moment of this burst of my _amor_
6554 _patriae_. Do not let me lose it. I assure you the utmost stretch of
6555 public fame would not make me amends for the loss of any happiness in
6556 private life.”
6557
6558 “I merely asked, whether you had known much of Miss Fairfax and her
6559 party at Weymouth.”
6560
6561 “And now that I understand your question, I must pronounce it to be a
6562 very unfair one. It is always the lady’s right to decide on the degree
6563 of acquaintance. Miss Fairfax must already have given her account.--I
6564 shall not commit myself by claiming more than she may chuse to allow.”
6565
6566 “Upon my word! you answer as discreetly as she could do herself. But
6567 her account of every thing leaves so much to be guessed, she is so very
6568 reserved, so very unwilling to give the least information about any
6569 body, that I really think you may say what you like of your acquaintance
6570 with her.”
6571
6572 “May I, indeed?--Then I will speak the truth, and nothing suits me so
6573 well. I met her frequently at Weymouth. I had known the Campbells a
6574 little in town; and at Weymouth we were very much in the same set.
6575 Colonel Campbell is a very agreeable man, and Mrs. Campbell a friendly,
6576 warm-hearted woman. I like them all.”
6577
6578 “You know Miss Fairfax’s situation in life, I conclude; what she is
6579 destined to be?”
6580
6581 “Yes--(rather hesitatingly)--I believe I do.”
6582
6583 “You get upon delicate subjects, Emma,” said Mrs. Weston smiling;
6584 “remember that I am here.--Mr. Frank Churchill hardly knows what to say
6585 when you speak of Miss Fairfax’s situation in life. I will move a little
6586 farther off.”
6587
6588 “I certainly do forget to think of _her_,” said Emma, “as having ever
6589 been any thing but my friend and my dearest friend.”
6590
6591 He looked as if he fully understood and honoured such a sentiment.
6592
6593 When the gloves were bought, and they had quitted the shop again, “Did
6594 you ever hear the young lady we were speaking of, play?” said Frank
6595 Churchill.
6596
6597 “Ever hear her!” repeated Emma. “You forget how much she belongs to
6598 Highbury. I have heard her every year of our lives since we both began.
6599 She plays charmingly.”
6600
6601 “You think so, do you?--I wanted the opinion of some one who
6602 could really judge. She appeared to me to play well, that is, with
6603 considerable taste, but I know nothing of the matter myself.--I am
6604 excessively fond of music, but without the smallest skill or right
6605 of judging of any body’s performance.--I have been used to hear her’s
6606 admired; and I remember one proof of her being thought to play well:--a
6607 man, a very musical man, and in love with another woman--engaged to
6608 her--on the point of marriage--would yet never ask that other woman
6609 to sit down to the instrument, if the lady in question could sit down
6610 instead--never seemed to like to hear one if he could hear the other.
6611 That, I thought, in a man of known musical talent, was some proof.”
6612
6613 “Proof indeed!” said Emma, highly amused.--“Mr. Dixon is very musical,
6614 is he? We shall know more about them all, in half an hour, from you,
6615 than Miss Fairfax would have vouchsafed in half a year.”
6616
6617 “Yes, Mr. Dixon and Miss Campbell were the persons; and I thought it a
6618 very strong proof.”
6619
6620 “Certainly--very strong it was; to own the truth, a great deal stronger
6621 than, if _I_ had been Miss Campbell, would have been at all agreeable
6622 to me. I could not excuse a man’s having more music than love--more ear
6623 than eye--a more acute sensibility to fine sounds than to my feelings.
6624 How did Miss Campbell appear to like it?”
6625
6626 “It was her very particular friend, you know.”
6627
6628 “Poor comfort!” said Emma, laughing. “One would rather have a stranger
6629 preferred than one’s very particular friend--with a stranger it might
6630 not recur again--but the misery of having a very particular friend
6631 always at hand, to do every thing better than one does oneself!--Poor
6632 Mrs. Dixon! Well, I am glad she is gone to settle in Ireland.”
6633
6634 “You are right. It was not very flattering to Miss Campbell; but she
6635 really did not seem to feel it.”
6636
6637 “So much the better--or so much the worse:--I do not know which. But
6638 be it sweetness or be it stupidity in her--quickness of friendship, or
6639 dulness of feeling--there was one person, I think, who must have felt
6640 it: Miss Fairfax herself. She must have felt the improper and dangerous
6641 distinction.”
6642
6643 “As to that--I do not--”
6644
6645 “Oh! do not imagine that I expect an account of Miss Fairfax’s
6646 sensations from you, or from any body else. They are known to no human
6647 being, I guess, but herself. But if she continued to play whenever she
6648 was asked by Mr. Dixon, one may guess what one chuses.”
6649
6650 “There appeared such a perfectly good understanding among them all--”
6651 he began rather quickly, but checking himself, added, “however, it is
6652 impossible for me to say on what terms they really were--how it might
6653 all be behind the scenes. I can only say that there was smoothness
6654 outwardly. But you, who have known Miss Fairfax from a child, must be
6655 a better judge of her character, and of how she is likely to conduct
6656 herself in critical situations, than I can be.”
6657
6658 “I have known her from a child, undoubtedly; we have been children
6659 and women together; and it is natural to suppose that we should be
6660 intimate,--that we should have taken to each other whenever she visited
6661 her friends. But we never did. I hardly know how it has happened; a
6662 little, perhaps, from that wickedness on my side which was prone to take
6663 disgust towards a girl so idolized and so cried up as she always was,
6664 by her aunt and grandmother, and all their set. And then, her reserve--I
6665 never could attach myself to any one so completely reserved.”
6666
6667 “It is a most repulsive quality, indeed,” said he. “Oftentimes very
6668 convenient, no doubt, but never pleasing. There is safety in reserve,
6669 but no attraction. One cannot love a reserved person.”
6670
6671 “Not till the reserve ceases towards oneself; and then the attraction
6672 may be the greater. But I must be more in want of a friend, or an
6673 agreeable companion, than I have yet been, to take the trouble of
6674 conquering any body’s reserve to procure one. Intimacy between Miss
6675 Fairfax and me is quite out of the question. I have no reason to think
6676 ill of her--not the least--except that such extreme and perpetual
6677 cautiousness of word and manner, such a dread of giving a distinct idea
6678 about any body, is apt to suggest suspicions of there being something to
6679 conceal.”
6680
6681 He perfectly agreed with her: and after walking together so long, and
6682 thinking so much alike, Emma felt herself so well acquainted with him,
6683 that she could hardly believe it to be only their second meeting. He was
6684 not exactly what she had expected; less of the man of the world in some
6685 of his notions, less of the spoiled child of fortune, therefore better
6686 than she had expected. His ideas seemed more moderate--his feelings
6687 warmer. She was particularly struck by his manner of considering Mr.
6688 Elton’s house, which, as well as the church, he would go and look at,
6689 and would not join them in finding much fault with. No, he could not
6690 believe it a bad house; not such a house as a man was to be pitied for
6691 having. If it were to be shared with the woman he loved, he could not
6692 think any man to be pitied for having that house. There must be ample
6693 room in it for every real comfort. The man must be a blockhead who
6694 wanted more.
6695
6696 Mrs. Weston laughed, and said he did not know what he was talking about.
6697 Used only to a large house himself, and without ever thinking how many
6698 advantages and accommodations were attached to its size, he could be no
6699 judge of the privations inevitably belonging to a small one. But Emma,
6700 in her own mind, determined that he _did_ know what he was talking
6701 about, and that he shewed a very amiable inclination to settle early in
6702 life, and to marry, from worthy motives. He might not be aware of the
6703 inroads on domestic peace to be occasioned by no housekeeper’s room, or
6704 a bad butler’s pantry, but no doubt he did perfectly feel that Enscombe
6705 could not make him happy, and that whenever he were attached, he would
6706 willingly give up much of wealth to be allowed an early establishment.
6707
6708
6709
6710 CHAPTER VII
6711
6712
6713 Emma’s very good opinion of Frank Churchill was a little shaken the
6714 following day, by hearing that he was gone off to London, merely to have
6715 his hair cut. A sudden freak seemed to have seized him at breakfast, and
6716 he had sent for a chaise and set off, intending to return to dinner,
6717 but with no more important view that appeared than having his hair cut.
6718 There was certainly no harm in his travelling sixteen miles twice over
6719 on such an errand; but there was an air of foppery and nonsense in it
6720 which she could not approve. It did not accord with the rationality of
6721 plan, the moderation in expense, or even the unselfish warmth of heart,
6722 which she had believed herself to discern in him yesterday. Vanity,
6723 extravagance, love of change, restlessness of temper, which must be
6724 doing something, good or bad; heedlessness as to the pleasure of his
6725 father and Mrs. Weston, indifferent as to how his conduct might appear
6726 in general; he became liable to all these charges. His father only
6727 called him a coxcomb, and thought it a very good story; but that Mrs.
6728 Weston did not like it, was clear enough, by her passing it over as
6729 quickly as possible, and making no other comment than that “all young
6730 people would have their little whims.”
6731
6732 With the exception of this little blot, Emma found that his visit
6733 hitherto had given her friend only good ideas of him. Mrs. Weston
6734 was very ready to say how attentive and pleasant a companion he made
6735 himself--how much she saw to like in his disposition altogether. He
6736 appeared to have a very open temper--certainly a very cheerful and
6737 lively one; she could observe nothing wrong in his notions, a great deal
6738 decidedly right; he spoke of his uncle with warm regard, was fond of
6739 talking of him--said he would be the best man in the world if he were
6740 left to himself; and though there was no being attached to the aunt, he
6741 acknowledged her kindness with gratitude, and seemed to mean always to
6742 speak of her with respect. This was all very promising; and, but for
6743 such an unfortunate fancy for having his hair cut, there was nothing to
6744 denote him unworthy of the distinguished honour which her imagination
6745 had given him; the honour, if not of being really in love with her,
6746 of being at least very near it, and saved only by her own
6747 indifference--(for still her resolution held of never marrying)--the
6748 honour, in short, of being marked out for her by all their joint
6749 acquaintance.
6750
6751 Mr. Weston, on his side, added a virtue to the account which must
6752 have some weight. He gave her to understand that Frank admired her
6753 extremely--thought her very beautiful and very charming; and with so
6754 much to be said for him altogether, she found she must not judge him
6755 harshly. As Mrs. Weston observed, “all young people would have their
6756 little whims.”
6757
6758 There was one person among his new acquaintance in Surry, not so
6759 leniently disposed. In general he was judged, throughout the parishes of
6760 Donwell and Highbury, with great candour; liberal allowances were made
6761 for the little excesses of such a handsome young man--one who smiled so
6762 often and bowed so well; but there was one spirit among them not to be
6763 softened, from its power of censure, by bows or smiles--Mr. Knightley.
6764 The circumstance was told him at Hartfield; for the moment, he was
6765 silent; but Emma heard him almost immediately afterwards say to himself,
6766 over a newspaper he held in his hand, “Hum! just the trifling, silly
6767 fellow I took him for.” She had half a mind to resent; but an instant’s
6768 observation convinced her that it was really said only to relieve his
6769 own feelings, and not meant to provoke; and therefore she let it pass.
6770
6771 Although in one instance the bearers of not good tidings, Mr. and
6772 Mrs. Weston’s visit this morning was in another respect particularly
6773 opportune. Something occurred while they were at Hartfield, to make Emma
6774 want their advice; and, which was still more lucky, she wanted exactly
6775 the advice they gave.
6776
6777 This was the occurrence:--The Coles had been settled some years in
6778 Highbury, and were very good sort of people--friendly, liberal, and
6779 unpretending; but, on the other hand, they were of low origin, in trade,
6780 and only moderately genteel. On their first coming into the country,
6781 they had lived in proportion to their income, quietly, keeping little
6782 company, and that little unexpensively; but the last year or two had
6783 brought them a considerable increase of means--the house in town had
6784 yielded greater profits, and fortune in general had smiled on them. With
6785 their wealth, their views increased; their want of a larger house, their
6786 inclination for more company. They added to their house, to their number
6787 of servants, to their expenses of every sort; and by this time were,
6788 in fortune and style of living, second only to the family at Hartfield.
6789 Their love of society, and their new dining-room, prepared every body
6790 for their keeping dinner-company; and a few parties, chiefly among the
6791 single men, had already taken place. The regular and best families Emma
6792 could hardly suppose they would presume to invite--neither Donwell, nor
6793 Hartfield, nor Randalls. Nothing should tempt _her_ to go, if they did;
6794 and she regretted that her father’s known habits would be giving
6795 her refusal less meaning than she could wish. The Coles were very
6796 respectable in their way, but they ought to be taught that it was not
6797 for them to arrange the terms on which the superior families would visit
6798 them. This lesson, she very much feared, they would receive only from
6799 herself; she had little hope of Mr. Knightley, none of Mr. Weston.
6800
6801 But she had made up her mind how to meet this presumption so many weeks
6802 before it appeared, that when the insult came at last, it found her
6803 very differently affected. Donwell and Randalls had received their
6804 invitation, and none had come for her father and herself; and Mrs.
6805 Weston’s accounting for it with “I suppose they will not take the
6806 liberty with you; they know you do not dine out,” was not quite
6807 sufficient. She felt that she should like to have had the power of
6808 refusal; and afterwards, as the idea of the party to be assembled there,
6809 consisting precisely of those whose society was dearest to her, occurred
6810 again and again, she did not know that she might not have been tempted
6811 to accept. Harriet was to be there in the evening, and the Bateses. They
6812 had been speaking of it as they walked about Highbury the day before,
6813 and Frank Churchill had most earnestly lamented her absence. Might
6814 not the evening end in a dance? had been a question of his. The bare
6815 possibility of it acted as a farther irritation on her spirits; and
6816 her being left in solitary grandeur, even supposing the omission to be
6817 intended as a compliment, was but poor comfort.
6818
6819 It was the arrival of this very invitation while the Westons were at
6820 Hartfield, which made their presence so acceptable; for though her first
6821 remark, on reading it, was that “of course it must be declined,” she so
6822 very soon proceeded to ask them what they advised her to do, that their
6823 advice for her going was most prompt and successful.
6824
6825 She owned that, considering every thing, she was not absolutely
6826 without inclination for the party. The Coles expressed themselves so
6827 properly--there was so much real attention in the manner of it--so much
6828 consideration for her father. “They would have solicited the honour
6829 earlier, but had been waiting the arrival of a folding-screen from
6830 London, which they hoped might keep Mr. Woodhouse from any draught of
6831 air, and therefore induce him the more readily to give them the honour
6832 of his company.” Upon the whole, she was very persuadable; and it being
6833 briefly settled among themselves how it might be done without neglecting
6834 his comfort--how certainly Mrs. Goddard, if not Mrs. Bates, might be
6835 depended on for bearing him company--Mr. Woodhouse was to be talked
6836 into an acquiescence of his daughter’s going out to dinner on a day now
6837 near at hand, and spending the whole evening away from him. As for _his_
6838 going, Emma did not wish him to think it possible, the hours would be
6839 too late, and the party too numerous. He was soon pretty well resigned.
6840
6841 “I am not fond of dinner-visiting,” said he--“I never was. No more is
6842 Emma. Late hours do not agree with us. I am sorry Mr. and Mrs. Cole
6843 should have done it. I think it would be much better if they would come
6844 in one afternoon next summer, and take their tea with us--take us
6845 in their afternoon walk; which they might do, as our hours are so
6846 reasonable, and yet get home without being out in the damp of the
6847 evening. The dews of a summer evening are what I would not expose any
6848 body to. However, as they are so very desirous to have dear Emma dine
6849 with them, and as you will both be there, and Mr. Knightley too, to take
6850 care of her, I cannot wish to prevent it, provided the weather be what
6851 it ought, neither damp, nor cold, nor windy.” Then turning to Mrs.
6852 Weston, with a look of gentle reproach--“Ah! Miss Taylor, if you had not
6853 married, you would have staid at home with me.”
6854
6855 “Well, sir,” cried Mr. Weston, “as I took Miss Taylor away, it is
6856 incumbent on me to supply her place, if I can; and I will step to Mrs.
6857 Goddard in a moment, if you wish it.”
6858
6859 But the idea of any thing to be done in a _moment_, was increasing,
6860 not lessening, Mr. Woodhouse’s agitation. The ladies knew better how
6861 to allay it. Mr. Weston must be quiet, and every thing deliberately
6862 arranged.
6863
6864 With this treatment, Mr. Woodhouse was soon composed enough for talking
6865 as usual. “He should be happy to see Mrs. Goddard. He had a great regard
6866 for Mrs. Goddard; and Emma should write a line, and invite her. James
6867 could take the note. But first of all, there must be an answer written
6868 to Mrs. Cole.”
6869
6870 “You will make my excuses, my dear, as civilly as possible. You will say
6871 that I am quite an invalid, and go no where, and therefore must decline
6872 their obliging invitation; beginning with my _compliments_, of course.
6873 But you will do every thing right. I need not tell you what is to be
6874 done. We must remember to let James know that the carriage will be
6875 wanted on Tuesday. I shall have no fears for you with him. We have never
6876 been there above once since the new approach was made; but still I have
6877 no doubt that James will take you very safely. And when you get there,
6878 you must tell him at what time you would have him come for you again;
6879 and you had better name an early hour. You will not like staying late.
6880 You will get very tired when tea is over.”
6881
6882 “But you would not wish me to come away before I am tired, papa?”
6883
6884 “Oh! no, my love; but you will soon be tired. There will be a great many
6885 people talking at once. You will not like the noise.”
6886
6887 “But, my dear sir,” cried Mr. Weston, “if Emma comes away early, it will
6888 be breaking up the party.”
6889
6890 “And no great harm if it does,” said Mr. Woodhouse. “The sooner every
6891 party breaks up, the better.”
6892
6893 “But you do not consider how it may appear to the Coles. Emma’s going
6894 away directly after tea might be giving offence. They are good-natured
6895 people, and think little of their own claims; but still they must
6896 feel that any body’s hurrying away is no great compliment; and Miss
6897 Woodhouse’s doing it would be more thought of than any other person’s in
6898 the room. You would not wish to disappoint and mortify the Coles, I am
6899 sure, sir; friendly, good sort of people as ever lived, and who have
6900 been your neighbours these _ten_ years.”
6901
6902 “No, upon no account in the world, Mr. Weston; I am much obliged to
6903 you for reminding me. I should be extremely sorry to be giving them any
6904 pain. I know what worthy people they are. Perry tells me that Mr. Cole
6905 never touches malt liquor. You would not think it to look at him, but
6906 he is bilious--Mr. Cole is very bilious. No, I would not be the means
6907 of giving them any pain. My dear Emma, we must consider this. I am sure,
6908 rather than run the risk of hurting Mr. and Mrs. Cole, you would stay a
6909 little longer than you might wish. You will not regard being tired. You
6910 will be perfectly safe, you know, among your friends.”
6911
6912 “Oh yes, papa. I have no fears at all for myself; and I should have no
6913 scruples of staying as late as Mrs. Weston, but on your account. I am
6914 only afraid of your sitting up for me. I am not afraid of your not being
6915 exceedingly comfortable with Mrs. Goddard. She loves piquet, you
6916 know; but when she is gone home, I am afraid you will be sitting up by
6917 yourself, instead of going to bed at your usual time--and the idea of
6918 that would entirely destroy my comfort. You must promise me not to sit
6919 up.”
6920
6921 He did, on the condition of some promises on her side: such as that,
6922 if she came home cold, she would be sure to warm herself thoroughly; if
6923 hungry, that she would take something to eat; that her own maid should
6924 sit up for her; and that Serle and the butler should see that every
6925 thing were safe in the house, as usual.
6926
6927
6928
6929 CHAPTER VIII
6930
6931
6932 Frank Churchill came back again; and if he kept his father’s dinner
6933 waiting, it was not known at Hartfield; for Mrs. Weston was too anxious
6934 for his being a favourite with Mr. Woodhouse, to betray any imperfection
6935 which could be concealed.
6936
6937 He came back, had had his hair cut, and laughed at himself with a very
6938 good grace, but without seeming really at all ashamed of what he had
6939 done. He had no reason to wish his hair longer, to conceal any confusion
6940 of face; no reason to wish the money unspent, to improve his spirits.
6941 He was quite as undaunted and as lively as ever; and, after seeing him,
6942 Emma thus moralised to herself:--
6943
6944 “I do not know whether it ought to be so, but certainly silly things
6945 do cease to be silly if they are done by sensible people in an impudent
6946 way. Wickedness is always wickedness, but folly is not always folly.--It
6947 depends upon the character of those who handle it. Mr. Knightley, he is
6948 _not_ a trifling, silly young man. If he were, he would have done this
6949 differently. He would either have gloried in the achievement, or
6950 been ashamed of it. There would have been either the ostentation of
6951 a coxcomb, or the evasions of a mind too weak to defend its own
6952 vanities.--No, I am perfectly sure that he is not trifling or silly.”
6953
6954 With Tuesday came the agreeable prospect of seeing him again, and for
6955 a longer time than hitherto; of judging of his general manners, and by
6956 inference, of the meaning of his manners towards herself; of guessing
6957 how soon it might be necessary for her to throw coldness into her air;
6958 and of fancying what the observations of all those might be, who were
6959 now seeing them together for the first time.
6960
6961 She meant to be very happy, in spite of the scene being laid at Mr.
6962 Cole’s; and without being able to forget that among the failings of Mr.
6963 Elton, even in the days of his favour, none had disturbed her more than
6964 his propensity to dine with Mr. Cole.
6965
6966 Her father’s comfort was amply secured, Mrs. Bates as well as Mrs.
6967 Goddard being able to come; and her last pleasing duty, before she left
6968 the house, was to pay her respects to them as they sat together after
6969 dinner; and while her father was fondly noticing the beauty of her
6970 dress, to make the two ladies all the amends in her power, by helping
6971 them to large slices of cake and full glasses of wine, for whatever
6972 unwilling self-denial his care of their constitution might have obliged
6973 them to practise during the meal.--She had provided a plentiful dinner
6974 for them; she wished she could know that they had been allowed to eat
6975 it.
6976
6977 She followed another carriage to Mr. Cole’s door; and was pleased to see
6978 that it was Mr. Knightley’s; for Mr. Knightley keeping no horses,
6979 having little spare money and a great deal of health, activity, and
6980 independence, was too apt, in Emma’s opinion, to get about as he could,
6981 and not use his carriage so often as became the owner of Donwell Abbey.
6982 She had an opportunity now of speaking her approbation while warm from
6983 her heart, for he stopped to hand her out.
6984
6985 “This is coming as you should do,” said she; “like a gentleman.--I am
6986 quite glad to see you.”
6987
6988 He thanked her, observing, “How lucky that we should arrive at the same
6989 moment! for, if we had met first in the drawing-room, I doubt whether
6990 you would have discerned me to be more of a gentleman than usual.--You
6991 might not have distinguished how I came, by my look or manner.”
6992
6993 “Yes I should, I am sure I should. There is always a look of
6994 consciousness or bustle when people come in a way which they know to be
6995 beneath them. You think you carry it off very well, I dare say, but
6996 with you it is a sort of bravado, an air of affected unconcern; I always
6997 observe it whenever I meet you under those circumstances. _Now_ you have
6998 nothing to try for. You are not afraid of being supposed ashamed. You
6999 are not striving to look taller than any body else. _Now_ I shall really
7000 be very happy to walk into the same room with you.”
7001
7002 “Nonsensical girl!” was his reply, but not at all in anger.
7003
7004 Emma had as much reason to be satisfied with the rest of the party as
7005 with Mr. Knightley. She was received with a cordial respect which could
7006 not but please, and given all the consequence she could wish for.
7007 When the Westons arrived, the kindest looks of love, the strongest of
7008 admiration were for her, from both husband and wife; the son approached
7009 her with a cheerful eagerness which marked her as his peculiar object,
7010 and at dinner she found him seated by her--and, as she firmly believed,
7011 not without some dexterity on his side.
7012
7013 The party was rather large, as it included one other family, a proper
7014 unobjectionable country family, whom the Coles had the advantage of
7015 naming among their acquaintance, and the male part of Mr. Cox’s family,
7016 the lawyer of Highbury. The less worthy females were to come in the
7017 evening, with Miss Bates, Miss Fairfax, and Miss Smith; but already,
7018 at dinner, they were too numerous for any subject of conversation to be
7019 general; and, while politics and Mr. Elton were talked over, Emma could
7020 fairly surrender all her attention to the pleasantness of her neighbour.
7021 The first remote sound to which she felt herself obliged to attend, was
7022 the name of Jane Fairfax. Mrs. Cole seemed to be relating something of
7023 her that was expected to be very interesting. She listened, and found
7024 it well worth listening to. That very dear part of Emma, her fancy,
7025 received an amusing supply. Mrs. Cole was telling that she had been
7026 calling on Miss Bates, and as soon as she entered the room had
7027 been struck by the sight of a pianoforte--a very elegant looking
7028 instrument--not a grand, but a large-sized square pianoforte; and the
7029 substance of the story, the end of all the dialogue which ensued of
7030 surprize, and inquiry, and congratulations on her side, and explanations
7031 on Miss Bates’s, was, that this pianoforte had arrived from
7032 Broadwood’s the day before, to the great astonishment of both aunt and
7033 niece--entirely unexpected; that at first, by Miss Bates’s account,
7034 Jane herself was quite at a loss, quite bewildered to think who could
7035 possibly have ordered it--but now, they were both perfectly satisfied
7036 that it could be from only one quarter;--of course it must be from
7037 Colonel Campbell.
7038
7039 “One can suppose nothing else,” added Mrs. Cole, “and I was only
7040 surprized that there could ever have been a doubt. But Jane, it seems,
7041 had a letter from them very lately, and not a word was said about it.
7042 She knows their ways best; but I should not consider their silence as
7043 any reason for their not meaning to make the present. They might chuse
7044 to surprize her.”
7045
7046 Mrs. Cole had many to agree with her; every body who spoke on the
7047 subject was equally convinced that it must come from Colonel Campbell,
7048 and equally rejoiced that such a present had been made; and there were
7049 enough ready to speak to allow Emma to think her own way, and still
7050 listen to Mrs. Cole.
7051
7052 “I declare, I do not know when I have heard any thing that has given me
7053 more satisfaction!--It always has quite hurt me that Jane Fairfax, who
7054 plays so delightfully, should not have an instrument. It seemed quite
7055 a shame, especially considering how many houses there are where fine
7056 instruments are absolutely thrown away. This is like giving ourselves
7057 a slap, to be sure! and it was but yesterday I was telling Mr. Cole,
7058 I really was ashamed to look at our new grand pianoforte in the
7059 drawing-room, while I do not know one note from another, and our little
7060 girls, who are but just beginning, perhaps may never make any thing of
7061 it; and there is poor Jane Fairfax, who is mistress of music, has not
7062 any thing of the nature of an instrument, not even the pitifullest old
7063 spinet in the world, to amuse herself with.--I was saying this to
7064 Mr. Cole but yesterday, and he quite agreed with me; only he is so
7065 particularly fond of music that he could not help indulging himself
7066 in the purchase, hoping that some of our good neighbours might be so
7067 obliging occasionally to put it to a better use than we can; and that
7068 really is the reason why the instrument was bought--or else I am sure
7069 we ought to be ashamed of it.--We are in great hopes that Miss Woodhouse
7070 may be prevailed with to try it this evening.”
7071
7072 Miss Woodhouse made the proper acquiescence; and finding that nothing
7073 more was to be entrapped from any communication of Mrs. Cole’s, turned
7074 to Frank Churchill.
7075
7076 “Why do you smile?” said she.
7077
7078 “Nay, why do you?”
7079
7080 “Me!--I suppose I smile for pleasure at Colonel Campbell’s being so rich
7081 and so liberal.--It is a handsome present.”
7082
7083 “Very.”
7084
7085 “I rather wonder that it was never made before.”
7086
7087 “Perhaps Miss Fairfax has never been staying here so long before.”
7088
7089 “Or that he did not give her the use of their own instrument--which must
7090 now be shut up in London, untouched by any body.”
7091
7092 “That is a grand pianoforte, and he might think it too large for Mrs.
7093 Bates’s house.”
7094
7095 “You may _say_ what you chuse--but your countenance testifies that your
7096 _thoughts_ on this subject are very much like mine.”
7097
7098 “I do not know. I rather believe you are giving me more credit for
7099 acuteness than I deserve. I smile because you smile, and shall probably
7100 suspect whatever I find you suspect; but at present I do not see what
7101 there is to question. If Colonel Campbell is not the person, who can
7102 be?”
7103
7104 “What do you say to Mrs. Dixon?”
7105
7106 “Mrs. Dixon! very true indeed. I had not thought of Mrs. Dixon. She must
7107 know as well as her father, how acceptable an instrument would be; and
7108 perhaps the mode of it, the mystery, the surprize, is more like a young
7109 woman’s scheme than an elderly man’s. It is Mrs. Dixon, I dare say. I
7110 told you that your suspicions would guide mine.”
7111
7112 “If so, you must extend your suspicions and comprehend _Mr_. Dixon in
7113 them.”
7114
7115 “Mr. Dixon.--Very well. Yes, I immediately perceive that it must be the
7116 joint present of Mr. and Mrs. Dixon. We were speaking the other day, you
7117 know, of his being so warm an admirer of her performance.”
7118
7119 “Yes, and what you told me on that head, confirmed an idea which I had
7120 entertained before.--I do not mean to reflect upon the good intentions
7121 of either Mr. Dixon or Miss Fairfax, but I cannot help suspecting either
7122 that, after making his proposals to her friend, he had the misfortune
7123 to fall in love with _her_, or that he became conscious of a little
7124 attachment on her side. One might guess twenty things without guessing
7125 exactly the right; but I am sure there must be a particular cause for
7126 her chusing to come to Highbury instead of going with the Campbells
7127 to Ireland. Here, she must be leading a life of privation and penance;
7128 there it would have been all enjoyment. As to the pretence of trying her
7129 native air, I look upon that as a mere excuse.--In the summer it might
7130 have passed; but what can any body’s native air do for them in the
7131 months of January, February, and March? Good fires and carriages would
7132 be much more to the purpose in most cases of delicate health, and I dare
7133 say in her’s. I do not require you to adopt all my suspicions, though
7134 you make so noble a profession of doing it, but I honestly tell you what
7135 they are.”
7136
7137 “And, upon my word, they have an air of great probability. Mr. Dixon’s
7138 preference of her music to her friend’s, I can answer for being very
7139 decided.”
7140
7141 “And then, he saved her life. Did you ever hear of that?--A water
7142 party; and by some accident she was falling overboard. He caught her.”
7143
7144 “He did. I was there--one of the party.”
7145
7146 “Were you really?--Well!--But you observed nothing of course, for it
7147 seems to be a new idea to you.--If I had been there, I think I should
7148 have made some discoveries.”
7149
7150 “I dare say you would; but I, simple I, saw nothing but the fact, that
7151 Miss Fairfax was nearly dashed from the vessel and that Mr. Dixon caught
7152 her.--It was the work of a moment. And though the consequent shock and
7153 alarm was very great and much more durable--indeed I believe it was
7154 half an hour before any of us were comfortable again--yet that was too
7155 general a sensation for any thing of peculiar anxiety to be
7156 observable. I do not mean to say, however, that you might not have made
7157 discoveries.”
7158
7159 The conversation was here interrupted. They were called on to share
7160 in the awkwardness of a rather long interval between the courses, and
7161 obliged to be as formal and as orderly as the others; but when the table
7162 was again safely covered, when every corner dish was placed exactly
7163 right, and occupation and ease were generally restored, Emma said,
7164
7165 “The arrival of this pianoforte is decisive with me. I wanted to know
7166 a little more, and this tells me quite enough. Depend upon it, we shall
7167 soon hear that it is a present from Mr. and Mrs. Dixon.”
7168
7169 “And if the Dixons should absolutely deny all knowledge of it we must
7170 conclude it to come from the Campbells.”
7171
7172 “No, I am sure it is not from the Campbells. Miss Fairfax knows it is
7173 not from the Campbells, or they would have been guessed at first. She
7174 would not have been puzzled, had she dared fix on them. I may not have
7175 convinced you perhaps, but I am perfectly convinced myself that Mr.
7176 Dixon is a principal in the business.”
7177
7178 “Indeed you injure me if you suppose me unconvinced. Your reasonings
7179 carry my judgment along with them entirely. At first, while I supposed
7180 you satisfied that Colonel Campbell was the giver, I saw it only as
7181 paternal kindness, and thought it the most natural thing in the world.
7182 But when you mentioned Mrs. Dixon, I felt how much more probable that it
7183 should be the tribute of warm female friendship. And now I can see it in
7184 no other light than as an offering of love.”
7185
7186 There was no occasion to press the matter farther. The conviction seemed
7187 real; he looked as if he felt it. She said no more, other subjects
7188 took their turn; and the rest of the dinner passed away; the dessert
7189 succeeded, the children came in, and were talked to and admired amid the
7190 usual rate of conversation; a few clever things said, a few downright
7191 silly, but by much the larger proportion neither the one nor the
7192 other--nothing worse than everyday remarks, dull repetitions, old news,
7193 and heavy jokes.
7194
7195 The ladies had not been long in the drawing-room, before the other
7196 ladies, in their different divisions, arrived. Emma watched the entree
7197 of her own particular little friend; and if she could not exult in her
7198 dignity and grace, she could not only love the blooming sweetness and
7199 the artless manner, but could most heartily rejoice in that light,
7200 cheerful, unsentimental disposition which allowed her so many
7201 alleviations of pleasure, in the midst of the pangs of disappointed
7202 affection. There she sat--and who would have guessed how many tears she
7203 had been lately shedding? To be in company, nicely dressed herself and
7204 seeing others nicely dressed, to sit and smile and look pretty, and say
7205 nothing, was enough for the happiness of the present hour. Jane Fairfax
7206 did look and move superior; but Emma suspected she might have been
7207 glad to change feelings with Harriet, very glad to have purchased the
7208 mortification of having loved--yes, of having loved even Mr. Elton in
7209 vain--by the surrender of all the dangerous pleasure of knowing herself
7210 beloved by the husband of her friend.
7211
7212 In so large a party it was not necessary that Emma should approach her.
7213 She did not wish to speak of the pianoforte, she felt too much in the
7214 secret herself, to think the appearance of curiosity or interest fair,
7215 and therefore purposely kept at a distance; but by the others, the
7216 subject was almost immediately introduced, and she saw the blush of
7217 consciousness with which congratulations were received, the blush
7218 of guilt which accompanied the name of “my excellent friend Colonel
7219 Campbell.”
7220
7221 Mrs. Weston, kind-hearted and musical, was particularly interested
7222 by the circumstance, and Emma could not help being amused at her
7223 perseverance in dwelling on the subject; and having so much to ask and
7224 to say as to tone, touch, and pedal, totally unsuspicious of that wish
7225 of saying as little about it as possible, which she plainly read in the
7226 fair heroine’s countenance.
7227
7228 They were soon joined by some of the gentlemen; and the very first
7229 of the early was Frank Churchill. In he walked, the first and the
7230 handsomest; and after paying his compliments en passant to Miss Bates
7231 and her niece, made his way directly to the opposite side of the circle,
7232 where sat Miss Woodhouse; and till he could find a seat by her, would
7233 not sit at all. Emma divined what every body present must be thinking.
7234 She was his object, and every body must perceive it. She introduced him
7235 to her friend, Miss Smith, and, at convenient moments afterwards, heard
7236 what each thought of the other. “He had never seen so lovely a face, and
7237 was delighted with her naivete.” And she, “Only to be sure it was paying
7238 him too great a compliment, but she did think there were some looks a
7239 little like Mr. Elton.” Emma restrained her indignation, and only turned
7240 from her in silence.
7241
7242 Smiles of intelligence passed between her and the gentleman on first
7243 glancing towards Miss Fairfax; but it was most prudent to avoid speech.
7244 He told her that he had been impatient to leave the dining-room--hated
7245 sitting long--was always the first to move when he could--that his
7246 father, Mr. Knightley, Mr. Cox, and Mr. Cole, were left very busy over
7247 parish business--that as long as he had staid, however, it had been
7248 pleasant enough, as he had found them in general a set of gentlemanlike,
7249 sensible men; and spoke so handsomely of Highbury altogether--thought it
7250 so abundant in agreeable families--that Emma began to feel she had been
7251 used to despise the place rather too much. She questioned him as to the
7252 society in Yorkshire--the extent of the neighbourhood about Enscombe,
7253 and the sort; and could make out from his answers that, as far as
7254 Enscombe was concerned, there was very little going on, that their
7255 visitings were among a range of great families, none very near; and
7256 that even when days were fixed, and invitations accepted, it was an even
7257 chance that Mrs. Churchill were not in health and spirits for going;
7258 that they made a point of visiting no fresh person; and that, though
7259 he had his separate engagements, it was not without difficulty, without
7260 considerable address _at_ _times_, that he could get away, or introduce
7261 an acquaintance for a night.
7262
7263 She saw that Enscombe could not satisfy, and that Highbury, taken at
7264 its best, might reasonably please a young man who had more retirement at
7265 home than he liked. His importance at Enscombe was very evident. He did
7266 not boast, but it naturally betrayed itself, that he had persuaded his
7267 aunt where his uncle could do nothing, and on her laughing and noticing
7268 it, he owned that he believed (excepting one or two points) he could
7269 _with_ _time_ persuade her to any thing. One of those points on which
7270 his influence failed, he then mentioned. He had wanted very much to
7271 go abroad--had been very eager indeed to be allowed to travel--but she
7272 would not hear of it. This had happened the year before. _Now_, he said,
7273 he was beginning to have no longer the same wish.
7274
7275 The unpersuadable point, which he did not mention, Emma guessed to be
7276 good behaviour to his father.
7277
7278 “I have made a most wretched discovery,” said he, after a short pause.--
7279 “I have been here a week to-morrow--half my time. I never knew days fly
7280 so fast. A week to-morrow!--And I have hardly begun to enjoy myself.
7281 But just got acquainted with Mrs. Weston, and others!--I hate the
7282 recollection.”
7283
7284 “Perhaps you may now begin to regret that you spent one whole day, out
7285 of so few, in having your hair cut.”
7286
7287 “No,” said he, smiling, “that is no subject of regret at all. I have
7288 no pleasure in seeing my friends, unless I can believe myself fit to be
7289 seen.”
7290
7291 The rest of the gentlemen being now in the room, Emma found herself
7292 obliged to turn from him for a few minutes, and listen to Mr. Cole. When
7293 Mr. Cole had moved away, and her attention could be restored as before,
7294 she saw Frank Churchill looking intently across the room at Miss
7295 Fairfax, who was sitting exactly opposite.
7296
7297 “What is the matter?” said she.
7298
7299 He started. “Thank you for rousing me,” he replied. “I believe I have
7300 been very rude; but really Miss Fairfax has done her hair in so odd a
7301 way--so very odd a way--that I cannot keep my eyes from her. I never saw
7302 any thing so outree!--Those curls!--This must be a fancy of her own. I
7303 see nobody else looking like her!--I must go and ask her whether it
7304 is an Irish fashion. Shall I?--Yes, I will--I declare I will--and you
7305 shall see how she takes it;--whether she colours.”
7306
7307 He was gone immediately; and Emma soon saw him standing before Miss
7308 Fairfax, and talking to her; but as to its effect on the young lady,
7309 as he had improvidently placed himself exactly between them, exactly in
7310 front of Miss Fairfax, she could absolutely distinguish nothing.
7311
7312 Before he could return to his chair, it was taken by Mrs. Weston.
7313
7314 “This is the luxury of a large party,” said she:--“one can get near
7315 every body, and say every thing. My dear Emma, I am longing to talk
7316 to you. I have been making discoveries and forming plans, just like
7317 yourself, and I must tell them while the idea is fresh. Do you know how
7318 Miss Bates and her niece came here?”
7319
7320 “How?--They were invited, were not they?”
7321
7322 “Oh! yes--but how they were conveyed hither?--the manner of their
7323 coming?”
7324
7325 “They walked, I conclude. How else could they come?”
7326
7327 “Very true.--Well, a little while ago it occurred to me how very sad
7328 it would be to have Jane Fairfax walking home again, late at night, and
7329 cold as the nights are now. And as I looked at her, though I never saw
7330 her appear to more advantage, it struck me that she was heated, and
7331 would therefore be particularly liable to take cold. Poor girl! I could
7332 not bear the idea of it; so, as soon as Mr. Weston came into the room,
7333 and I could get at him, I spoke to him about the carriage. You may guess
7334 how readily he came into my wishes; and having his approbation, I made
7335 my way directly to Miss Bates, to assure her that the carriage would be
7336 at her service before it took us home; for I thought it would be making
7337 her comfortable at once. Good soul! she was as grateful as possible, you
7338 may be sure. ‘Nobody was ever so fortunate as herself!’--but with many,
7339 many thanks--‘there was no occasion to trouble us, for Mr. Knightley’s
7340 carriage had brought, and was to take them home again.’ I was quite
7341 surprized;--very glad, I am sure; but really quite surprized. Such a
7342 very kind attention--and so thoughtful an attention!--the sort of thing
7343 that so few men would think of. And, in short, from knowing his
7344 usual ways, I am very much inclined to think that it was for their
7345 accommodation the carriage was used at all. I do suspect he would not
7346 have had a pair of horses for himself, and that it was only as an excuse
7347 for assisting them.”
7348
7349 “Very likely,” said Emma--“nothing more likely. I know no man more
7350 likely than Mr. Knightley to do the sort of thing--to do any thing
7351 really good-natured, useful, considerate, or benevolent. He is not a
7352 gallant man, but he is a very humane one; and this, considering Jane
7353 Fairfax’s ill-health, would appear a case of humanity to him;--and for
7354 an act of unostentatious kindness, there is nobody whom I would fix on
7355 more than on Mr. Knightley. I know he had horses to-day--for we arrived
7356 together; and I laughed at him about it, but he said not a word that
7357 could betray.”
7358
7359 “Well,” said Mrs. Weston, smiling, “you give him credit for more simple,
7360 disinterested benevolence in this instance than I do; for while Miss
7361 Bates was speaking, a suspicion darted into my head, and I have never
7362 been able to get it out again. The more I think of it, the more probable
7363 it appears. In short, I have made a match between Mr. Knightley and Jane
7364 Fairfax. See the consequence of keeping you company!--What do you say to
7365 it?”
7366
7367 “Mr. Knightley and Jane Fairfax!” exclaimed Emma. “Dear Mrs. Weston, how
7368 could you think of such a thing?--Mr. Knightley!--Mr. Knightley must not
7369 marry!--You would not have little Henry cut out from Donwell?--Oh! no,
7370 no, Henry must have Donwell. I cannot at all consent to Mr. Knightley’s
7371 marrying; and I am sure it is not at all likely. I am amazed that you
7372 should think of such a thing.”
7373
7374 “My dear Emma, I have told you what led me to think of it. I do not want
7375 the match--I do not want to injure dear little Henry--but the idea has
7376 been given me by circumstances; and if Mr. Knightley really wished to
7377 marry, you would not have him refrain on Henry’s account, a boy of six
7378 years old, who knows nothing of the matter?”
7379
7380 “Yes, I would. I could not bear to have Henry supplanted.--Mr.
7381 Knightley marry!--No, I have never had such an idea, and I cannot adopt
7382 it now. And Jane Fairfax, too, of all women!”
7383
7384 “Nay, she has always been a first favourite with him, as you very well
7385 know.”
7386
7387 “But the imprudence of such a match!”
7388
7389 “I am not speaking of its prudence; merely its probability.”
7390
7391 “I see no probability in it, unless you have any better foundation than
7392 what you mention. His good-nature, his humanity, as I tell you, would
7393 be quite enough to account for the horses. He has a great regard for the
7394 Bateses, you know, independent of Jane Fairfax--and is always glad to
7395 shew them attention. My dear Mrs. Weston, do not take to match-making.
7396 You do it very ill. Jane Fairfax mistress of the Abbey!--Oh! no,
7397 no;--every feeling revolts. For his own sake, I would not have him do so
7398 mad a thing.”
7399
7400 “Imprudent, if you please--but not mad. Excepting inequality of fortune,
7401 and perhaps a little disparity of age, I can see nothing unsuitable.”
7402
7403 “But Mr. Knightley does not want to marry. I am sure he has not the
7404 least idea of it. Do not put it into his head. Why should he marry?--He
7405 is as happy as possible by himself; with his farm, and his sheep, and
7406 his library, and all the parish to manage; and he is extremely fond of
7407 his brother’s children. He has no occasion to marry, either to fill up
7408 his time or his heart.”
7409
7410 “My dear Emma, as long as he thinks so, it is so; but if he really loves
7411 Jane Fairfax--”
7412
7413 “Nonsense! He does not care about Jane Fairfax. In the way of love, I am
7414 sure he does not. He would do any good to her, or her family; but--”
7415
7416 “Well,” said Mrs. Weston, laughing, “perhaps the greatest good he could
7417 do them, would be to give Jane such a respectable home.”
7418
7419 “If it would be good to her, I am sure it would be evil to himself; a
7420 very shameful and degrading connexion. How would he bear to have Miss
7421 Bates belonging to him?--To have her haunting the Abbey, and thanking
7422 him all day long for his great kindness in marrying Jane?--‘So very
7423 kind and obliging!--But he always had been such a very kind neighbour!’
7424 And then fly off, through half a sentence, to her mother’s old
7425 petticoat. ‘Not that it was such a very old petticoat either--for still
7426 it would last a great while--and, indeed, she must thankfully say that
7427 their petticoats were all very strong.’”
7428
7429 “For shame, Emma! Do not mimic her. You divert me against my conscience.
7430 And, upon my word, I do not think Mr. Knightley would be much disturbed
7431 by Miss Bates. Little things do not irritate him. She might talk on; and
7432 if he wanted to say any thing himself, he would only talk louder, and
7433 drown her voice. But the question is not, whether it would be a bad
7434 connexion for him, but whether he wishes it; and I think he does. I have
7435 heard him speak, and so must you, so very highly of Jane Fairfax! The
7436 interest he takes in her--his anxiety about her health--his concern that
7437 she should have no happier prospect! I have heard him express himself
7438 so warmly on those points!--Such an admirer of her performance on the
7439 pianoforte, and of her voice! I have heard him say that he could listen
7440 to her for ever. Oh! and I had almost forgotten one idea that occurred
7441 to me--this pianoforte that has been sent here by somebody--though
7442 we have all been so well satisfied to consider it a present from the
7443 Campbells, may it not be from Mr. Knightley? I cannot help suspecting
7444 him. I think he is just the person to do it, even without being in
7445 love.”
7446
7447 “Then it can be no argument to prove that he is in love. But I do not
7448 think it is at all a likely thing for him to do. Mr. Knightley does
7449 nothing mysteriously.”
7450
7451 “I have heard him lamenting her having no instrument repeatedly; oftener
7452 than I should suppose such a circumstance would, in the common course of
7453 things, occur to him.”
7454
7455 “Very well; and if he had intended to give her one, he would have told
7456 her so.”
7457
7458 “There might be scruples of delicacy, my dear Emma. I have a very strong
7459 notion that it comes from him. I am sure he was particularly silent when
7460 Mrs. Cole told us of it at dinner.”
7461
7462 “You take up an idea, Mrs. Weston, and run away with it; as you have
7463 many a time reproached me with doing. I see no sign of attachment--I
7464 believe nothing of the pianoforte--and proof only shall convince me that
7465 Mr. Knightley has any thought of marrying Jane Fairfax.”
7466
7467 They combated the point some time longer in the same way; Emma rather
7468 gaining ground over the mind of her friend; for Mrs. Weston was the most
7469 used of the two to yield; till a little bustle in the room shewed them
7470 that tea was over, and the instrument in preparation;--and at the same
7471 moment Mr. Cole approaching to entreat Miss Woodhouse would do them the
7472 honour of trying it. Frank Churchill, of whom, in the eagerness of her
7473 conversation with Mrs. Weston, she had been seeing nothing, except that
7474 he had found a seat by Miss Fairfax, followed Mr. Cole, to add his very
7475 pressing entreaties; and as, in every respect, it suited Emma best to
7476 lead, she gave a very proper compliance.
7477
7478 She knew the limitations of her own powers too well to attempt more than
7479 she could perform with credit; she wanted neither taste nor spirit in
7480 the little things which are generally acceptable, and could accompany
7481 her own voice well. One accompaniment to her song took her agreeably by
7482 surprize--a second, slightly but correctly taken by Frank Churchill. Her
7483 pardon was duly begged at the close of the song, and every thing usual
7484 followed. He was accused of having a delightful voice, and a perfect
7485 knowledge of music; which was properly denied; and that he knew nothing
7486 of the matter, and had no voice at all, roundly asserted. They sang
7487 together once more; and Emma would then resign her place to Miss
7488 Fairfax, whose performance, both vocal and instrumental, she never could
7489 attempt to conceal from herself, was infinitely superior to her own.
7490
7491 With mixed feelings, she seated herself at a little distance from the
7492 numbers round the instrument, to listen. Frank Churchill sang again.
7493 They had sung together once or twice, it appeared, at Weymouth. But the
7494 sight of Mr. Knightley among the most attentive, soon drew away half
7495 Emma’s mind; and she fell into a train of thinking on the subject of
7496 Mrs. Weston’s suspicions, to which the sweet sounds of the united voices
7497 gave only momentary interruptions. Her objections to Mr. Knightley’s
7498 marrying did not in the least subside. She could see nothing but evil
7499 in it. It would be a great disappointment to Mr. John Knightley;
7500 consequently to Isabella. A real injury to the children--a most
7501 mortifying change, and material loss to them all;--a very great
7502 deduction from her father’s daily comfort--and, as to herself, she could
7503 not at all endure the idea of Jane Fairfax at Donwell Abbey. A Mrs.
7504 Knightley for them all to give way to!--No--Mr. Knightley must never
7505 marry. Little Henry must remain the heir of Donwell.
7506
7507 Presently Mr. Knightley looked back, and came and sat down by her. They
7508 talked at first only of the performance. His admiration was certainly
7509 very warm; yet she thought, but for Mrs. Weston, it would not have
7510 struck her. As a sort of touchstone, however, she began to speak of his
7511 kindness in conveying the aunt and niece; and though his answer was in
7512 the spirit of cutting the matter short, she believed it to indicate only
7513 his disinclination to dwell on any kindness of his own.
7514
7515 “I often feel concern,” said she, “that I dare not make our carriage
7516 more useful on such occasions. It is not that I am without the wish; but
7517 you know how impossible my father would deem it that James should put-to
7518 for such a purpose.”
7519
7520 “Quite out of the question, quite out of the question,” he
7521 replied;--“but you must often wish it, I am sure.” And he smiled with
7522 such seeming pleasure at the conviction, that she must proceed another
7523 step.
7524
7525 “This present from the Campbells,” said she--“this pianoforte is very
7526 kindly given.”
7527
7528 “Yes,” he replied, and without the smallest apparent
7529 embarrassment.--“But they would have done better had they given
7530 her notice of it. Surprizes are foolish things. The pleasure is not
7531 enhanced, and the inconvenience is often considerable. I should have
7532 expected better judgment in Colonel Campbell.”
7533
7534 From that moment, Emma could have taken her oath that Mr. Knightley had
7535 had no concern in giving the instrument. But whether he were
7536 entirely free from peculiar attachment--whether there were no actual
7537 preference--remained a little longer doubtful. Towards the end of Jane’s
7538 second song, her voice grew thick.
7539
7540 “That will do,” said he, when it was finished, thinking aloud--“you have
7541 sung quite enough for one evening--now be quiet.”
7542
7543 Another song, however, was soon begged for. “One more;--they would not
7544 fatigue Miss Fairfax on any account, and would only ask for one more.”
7545 And Frank Churchill was heard to say, “I think you could manage this
7546 without effort; the first part is so very trifling. The strength of the
7547 song falls on the second.”
7548
7549 Mr. Knightley grew angry.
7550
7551 “That fellow,” said he, indignantly, “thinks of nothing but shewing off
7552 his own voice. This must not be.” And touching Miss Bates, who at that
7553 moment passed near--“Miss Bates, are you mad, to let your niece sing
7554 herself hoarse in this manner? Go, and interfere. They have no mercy on
7555 her.”
7556
7557 Miss Bates, in her real anxiety for Jane, could hardly stay even to
7558 be grateful, before she stept forward and put an end to all farther
7559 singing. Here ceased the concert part of the evening, for Miss Woodhouse
7560 and Miss Fairfax were the only young lady performers; but soon (within
7561 five minutes) the proposal of dancing--originating nobody exactly knew
7562 where--was so effectually promoted by Mr. and Mrs. Cole, that every
7563 thing was rapidly clearing away, to give proper space. Mrs. Weston,
7564 capital in her country-dances, was seated, and beginning an irresistible
7565 waltz; and Frank Churchill, coming up with most becoming gallantry to
7566 Emma, had secured her hand, and led her up to the top.
7567
7568 While waiting till the other young people could pair themselves off,
7569 Emma found time, in spite of the compliments she was receiving on
7570 her voice and her taste, to look about, and see what became of Mr.
7571 Knightley. This would be a trial. He was no dancer in general. If he
7572 were to be very alert in engaging Jane Fairfax now, it might augur
7573 something. There was no immediate appearance. No; he was talking to Mrs.
7574 Cole--he was looking on unconcerned; Jane was asked by somebody else,
7575 and he was still talking to Mrs. Cole.
7576
7577 Emma had no longer an alarm for Henry; his interest was yet safe; and
7578 she led off the dance with genuine spirit and enjoyment. Not more than
7579 five couple could be mustered; but the rarity and the suddenness of
7580 it made it very delightful, and she found herself well matched in a
7581 partner. They were a couple worth looking at.
7582
7583 Two dances, unfortunately, were all that could be allowed. It was
7584 growing late, and Miss Bates became anxious to get home, on her mother’s
7585 account. After some attempts, therefore, to be permitted to begin again,
7586 they were obliged to thank Mrs. Weston, look sorrowful, and have done.
7587
7588 “Perhaps it is as well,” said Frank Churchill, as he attended Emma to
7589 her carriage. “I must have asked Miss Fairfax, and her languid dancing
7590 would not have agreed with me, after yours.”
7591
7592
7593
7594 CHAPTER IX
7595
7596
7597 Emma did not repent her condescension in going to the Coles. The visit
7598 afforded her many pleasant recollections the next day; and all that she
7599 might be supposed to have lost on the side of dignified seclusion, must
7600 be amply repaid in the splendour of popularity. She must have delighted
7601 the Coles--worthy people, who deserved to be made happy!--And left a
7602 name behind her that would not soon die away.
7603
7604 Perfect happiness, even in memory, is not common; and there were two
7605 points on which she was not quite easy. She doubted whether she had not
7606 transgressed the duty of woman by woman, in betraying her suspicions of
7607 Jane Fairfax’s feelings to Frank Churchill. It was hardly right; but it
7608 had been so strong an idea, that it would escape her, and his submission
7609 to all that she told, was a compliment to her penetration, which made
7610 it difficult for her to be quite certain that she ought to have held her
7611 tongue.
7612
7613 The other circumstance of regret related also to Jane Fairfax; and
7614 there she had no doubt. She did unfeignedly and unequivocally regret the
7615 inferiority of her own playing and singing. She did most heartily
7616 grieve over the idleness of her childhood--and sat down and practised
7617 vigorously an hour and a half.
7618
7619 She was then interrupted by Harriet’s coming in; and if Harriet’s praise
7620 could have satisfied her, she might soon have been comforted.
7621
7622 “Oh! if I could but play as well as you and Miss Fairfax!”
7623
7624 “Don’t class us together, Harriet. My playing is no more like her’s,
7625 than a lamp is like sunshine.”
7626
7627 “Oh! dear--I think you play the best of the two. I think you play quite
7628 as well as she does. I am sure I had much rather hear you. Every body
7629 last night said how well you played.”
7630
7631 “Those who knew any thing about it, must have felt the difference. The
7632 truth is, Harriet, that my playing is just good enough to be praised,
7633 but Jane Fairfax’s is much beyond it.”
7634
7635 “Well, I always shall think that you play quite as well as she does, or
7636 that if there is any difference nobody would ever find it out. Mr. Cole
7637 said how much taste you had; and Mr. Frank Churchill talked a great deal
7638 about your taste, and that he valued taste much more than execution.”
7639
7640 “Ah! but Jane Fairfax has them both, Harriet.”
7641
7642 “Are you sure? I saw she had execution, but I did not know she had any
7643 taste. Nobody talked about it. And I hate Italian singing.--There is no
7644 understanding a word of it. Besides, if she does play so very well, you
7645 know, it is no more than she is obliged to do, because she will have to
7646 teach. The Coxes were wondering last night whether she would get into
7647 any great family. How did you think the Coxes looked?”
7648
7649 “Just as they always do--very vulgar.”
7650
7651 “They told me something,” said Harriet rather hesitatingly; “but it is
7652 nothing of any consequence.”
7653
7654 Emma was obliged to ask what they had told her, though fearful of its
7655 producing Mr. Elton.
7656
7657 “They told me--that Mr. Martin dined with them last Saturday.”
7658
7659 “Oh!”
7660
7661 “He came to their father upon some business, and he asked him to stay to
7662 dinner.”
7663
7664 “Oh!”
7665
7666 “They talked a great deal about him, especially Anne Cox. I do not know
7667 what she meant, but she asked me if I thought I should go and stay there
7668 again next summer.”
7669
7670 “She meant to be impertinently curious, just as such an Anne Cox should
7671 be.”
7672
7673 “She said he was very agreeable the day he dined there. He sat by her at
7674 dinner. Miss Nash thinks either of the Coxes would be very glad to marry
7675 him.”
7676
7677 “Very likely.--I think they are, without exception, the most vulgar
7678 girls in Highbury.”
7679
7680 Harriet had business at Ford’s.--Emma thought it most prudent to go with
7681 her. Another accidental meeting with the Martins was possible, and in
7682 her present state, would be dangerous.
7683
7684 Harriet, tempted by every thing and swayed by half a word, was always
7685 very long at a purchase; and while she was still hanging over muslins
7686 and changing her mind, Emma went to the door for amusement.--Much could
7687 not be hoped from the traffic of even the busiest part of Highbury;--Mr.
7688 Perry walking hastily by, Mr. William Cox letting himself in at the
7689 office-door, Mr. Cole’s carriage-horses returning from exercise, or a
7690 stray letter-boy on an obstinate mule, were the liveliest objects she
7691 could presume to expect; and when her eyes fell only on the butcher with
7692 his tray, a tidy old woman travelling homewards from shop with her full
7693 basket, two curs quarrelling over a dirty bone, and a string of dawdling
7694 children round the baker’s little bow-window eyeing the gingerbread, she
7695 knew she had no reason to complain, and was amused enough; quite enough
7696 still to stand at the door. A mind lively and at ease, can do with
7697 seeing nothing, and can see nothing that does not answer.
7698
7699 She looked down the Randalls road. The scene enlarged; two persons
7700 appeared; Mrs. Weston and her son-in-law; they were walking into
7701 Highbury;--to Hartfield of course. They were stopping, however, in the
7702 first place at Mrs. Bates’s; whose house was a little nearer
7703 Randalls than Ford’s; and had all but knocked, when Emma caught their
7704 eye.--Immediately they crossed the road and came forward to her; and the
7705 agreeableness of yesterday’s engagement seemed to give fresh pleasure to
7706 the present meeting. Mrs. Weston informed her that she was going to call
7707 on the Bateses, in order to hear the new instrument.
7708
7709 “For my companion tells me,” said she, “that I absolutely promised Miss
7710 Bates last night, that I would come this morning. I was not aware of it
7711 myself. I did not know that I had fixed a day, but as he says I did, I
7712 am going now.”
7713
7714 “And while Mrs. Weston pays her visit, I may be allowed, I hope,” said
7715 Frank Churchill, “to join your party and wait for her at Hartfield--if
7716 you are going home.”
7717
7718 Mrs. Weston was disappointed.
7719
7720 “I thought you meant to go with me. They would be very much pleased.”
7721
7722 “Me! I should be quite in the way. But, perhaps--I may be equally in the
7723 way here. Miss Woodhouse looks as if she did not want me. My aunt always
7724 sends me off when she is shopping. She says I fidget her to death; and
7725 Miss Woodhouse looks as if she could almost say the same. What am I to
7726 do?”
7727
7728 “I am here on no business of my own,” said Emma; “I am only waiting for
7729 my friend. She will probably have soon done, and then we shall go home.
7730 But you had better go with Mrs. Weston and hear the instrument.”
7731
7732 “Well--if you advise it.--But (with a smile) if Colonel Campbell should
7733 have employed a careless friend, and if it should prove to have an
7734 indifferent tone--what shall I say? I shall be no support to Mrs.
7735 Weston. She might do very well by herself. A disagreeable truth would be
7736 palatable through her lips, but I am the wretchedest being in the world
7737 at a civil falsehood.”
7738
7739 “I do not believe any such thing,” replied Emma.--“I am persuaded that
7740 you can be as insincere as your neighbours, when it is necessary; but
7741 there is no reason to suppose the instrument is indifferent. Quite
7742 otherwise indeed, if I understood Miss Fairfax’s opinion last night.”
7743
7744 “Do come with me,” said Mrs. Weston, “if it be not very disagreeable to
7745 you. It need not detain us long. We will go to Hartfield afterwards.
7746 We will follow them to Hartfield. I really wish you to call with me. It
7747 will be felt so great an attention! and I always thought you meant it.”
7748
7749 He could say no more; and with the hope of Hartfield to reward him,
7750 returned with Mrs. Weston to Mrs. Bates’s door. Emma watched them in,
7751 and then joined Harriet at the interesting counter,--trying, with all
7752 the force of her own mind, to convince her that if she wanted plain
7753 muslin it was of no use to look at figured; and that a blue ribbon, be
7754 it ever so beautiful, would still never match her yellow pattern. At
7755 last it was all settled, even to the destination of the parcel.
7756
7757 “Should I send it to Mrs. Goddard’s, ma’am?” asked Mrs.
7758 Ford.--“Yes--no--yes, to Mrs. Goddard’s. Only my pattern gown is at
7759 Hartfield. No, you shall send it to Hartfield, if you please. But then,
7760 Mrs. Goddard will want to see it.--And I could take the pattern gown
7761 home any day. But I shall want the ribbon directly--so it had better go
7762 to Hartfield--at least the ribbon. You could make it into two parcels,
7763 Mrs. Ford, could not you?”
7764
7765 “It is not worth while, Harriet, to give Mrs. Ford the trouble of two
7766 parcels.”
7767
7768 “No more it is.”
7769
7770 “No trouble in the world, ma’am,” said the obliging Mrs. Ford.
7771
7772 “Oh! but indeed I would much rather have it only in one. Then, if you
7773 please, you shall send it all to Mrs. Goddard’s--I do not know--No, I
7774 think, Miss Woodhouse, I may just as well have it sent to Hartfield, and
7775 take it home with me at night. What do you advise?”
7776
7777 “That you do not give another half-second to the subject. To Hartfield,
7778 if you please, Mrs. Ford.”
7779
7780 “Aye, that will be much best,” said Harriet, quite satisfied, “I should
7781 not at all like to have it sent to Mrs. Goddard’s.”
7782
7783 Voices approached the shop--or rather one voice and two ladies: Mrs.
7784 Weston and Miss Bates met them at the door.
7785
7786 “My dear Miss Woodhouse,” said the latter, “I am just run across to
7787 entreat the favour of you to come and sit down with us a little while,
7788 and give us your opinion of our new instrument; you and Miss Smith. How
7789 do you do, Miss Smith?--Very well I thank you.--And I begged Mrs. Weston
7790 to come with me, that I might be sure of succeeding.”
7791
7792 “I hope Mrs. Bates and Miss Fairfax are--”
7793
7794 “Very well, I am much obliged to you. My mother is delightfully well;
7795 and Jane caught no cold last night. How is Mr. Woodhouse?--I am so glad
7796 to hear such a good account. Mrs. Weston told me you were here.--Oh!
7797 then, said I, I must run across, I am sure Miss Woodhouse will allow me
7798 just to run across and entreat her to come in; my mother will be so
7799 very happy to see her--and now we are such a nice party, she cannot
7800 refuse.--‘Aye, pray do,’ said Mr. Frank Churchill, ‘Miss Woodhouse’s
7801 opinion of the instrument will be worth having.’--But, said I, I shall
7802 be more sure of succeeding if one of you will go with me.--‘Oh,’ said
7803 he, ‘wait half a minute, till I have finished my job;’--For, would you
7804 believe it, Miss Woodhouse, there he is, in the most obliging manner in
7805 the world, fastening in the rivet of my mother’s spectacles.--The rivet
7806 came out, you know, this morning.--So very obliging!--For my mother had
7807 no use of her spectacles--could not put them on. And, by the bye, every
7808 body ought to have two pair of spectacles; they should indeed. Jane said
7809 so. I meant to take them over to John Saunders the first thing I did,
7810 but something or other hindered me all the morning; first one thing,
7811 then another, there is no saying what, you know. At one time Patty came
7812 to say she thought the kitchen chimney wanted sweeping. Oh, said I,
7813 Patty do not come with your bad news to me. Here is the rivet of your
7814 mistress’s spectacles out. Then the baked apples came home, Mrs. Wallis
7815 sent them by her boy; they are extremely civil and obliging to us, the
7816 Wallises, always--I have heard some people say that Mrs. Wallis can be
7817 uncivil and give a very rude answer, but we have never known any thing
7818 but the greatest attention from them. And it cannot be for the value
7819 of our custom now, for what is our consumption of bread, you know?
7820 Only three of us.--besides dear Jane at present--and she really eats
7821 nothing--makes such a shocking breakfast, you would be quite frightened
7822 if you saw it. I dare not let my mother know how little she eats--so I
7823 say one thing and then I say another, and it passes off. But about the
7824 middle of the day she gets hungry, and there is nothing she likes so
7825 well as these baked apples, and they are extremely wholesome, for I took
7826 the opportunity the other day of asking Mr. Perry; I happened to meet
7827 him in the street. Not that I had any doubt before--I have so often
7828 heard Mr. Woodhouse recommend a baked apple. I believe it is the only
7829 way that Mr. Woodhouse thinks the fruit thoroughly wholesome. We
7830 have apple-dumplings, however, very often. Patty makes an excellent
7831 apple-dumpling. Well, Mrs. Weston, you have prevailed, I hope, and these
7832 ladies will oblige us.”
7833
7834 Emma would be “very happy to wait on Mrs. Bates, &c.,” and they did at
7835 last move out of the shop, with no farther delay from Miss Bates than,
7836
7837 “How do you do, Mrs. Ford? I beg your pardon. I did not see you before.
7838 I hear you have a charming collection of new ribbons from town. Jane
7839 came back delighted yesterday. Thank ye, the gloves do very well--only a
7840 little too large about the wrist; but Jane is taking them in.”
7841
7842 “What was I talking of?” said she, beginning again when they were all in
7843 the street.
7844
7845 Emma wondered on what, of all the medley, she would fix.
7846
7847 “I declare I cannot recollect what I was talking of.--Oh! my mother’s
7848 spectacles. So very obliging of Mr. Frank Churchill! ‘Oh!’ said he,
7849 ‘I do think I can fasten the rivet; I like a job of this kind
7850 excessively.’--Which you know shewed him to be so very.... Indeed I must
7851 say that, much as I had heard of him before and much as I had expected,
7852 he very far exceeds any thing.... I do congratulate you, Mrs. Weston,
7853 most warmly. He seems every thing the fondest parent could....
7854 ‘Oh!’ said he, ‘I can fasten the rivet. I like a job of that sort
7855 excessively.’ I never shall forget his manner. And when I brought out
7856 the baked apples from the closet, and hoped our friends would be so very
7857 obliging as to take some, ‘Oh!’ said he directly, ‘there is nothing
7858 in the way of fruit half so good, and these are the finest-looking
7859 home-baked apples I ever saw in my life.’ That, you know, was so
7860 very.... And I am sure, by his manner, it was no compliment. Indeed they
7861 are very delightful apples, and Mrs. Wallis does them full justice--only
7862 we do not have them baked more than twice, and Mr. Woodhouse made us
7863 promise to have them done three times--but Miss Woodhouse will be so
7864 good as not to mention it. The apples themselves are the very finest
7865 sort for baking, beyond a doubt; all from Donwell--some of Mr.
7866 Knightley’s most liberal supply. He sends us a sack every year; and
7867 certainly there never was such a keeping apple anywhere as one of his
7868 trees--I believe there is two of them. My mother says the orchard was
7869 always famous in her younger days. But I was really quite shocked the
7870 other day--for Mr. Knightley called one morning, and Jane was eating
7871 these apples, and we talked about them and said how much she enjoyed
7872 them, and he asked whether we were not got to the end of our stock. ‘I
7873 am sure you must be,’ said he, ‘and I will send you another supply; for
7874 I have a great many more than I can ever use. William Larkins let me
7875 keep a larger quantity than usual this year. I will send you some more,
7876 before they get good for nothing.’ So I begged he would not--for really
7877 as to ours being gone, I could not absolutely say that we had a great
7878 many left--it was but half a dozen indeed; but they should be all kept
7879 for Jane; and I could not at all bear that he should be sending us more,
7880 so liberal as he had been already; and Jane said the same. And when
7881 he was gone, she almost quarrelled with me--No, I should not say
7882 quarrelled, for we never had a quarrel in our lives; but she was quite
7883 distressed that I had owned the apples were so nearly gone; she wished
7884 I had made him believe we had a great many left. Oh, said I, my dear,
7885 I did say as much as I could. However, the very same evening William
7886 Larkins came over with a large basket of apples, the same sort of
7887 apples, a bushel at least, and I was very much obliged, and went down
7888 and spoke to William Larkins and said every thing, as you may suppose.
7889 William Larkins is such an old acquaintance! I am always glad to see
7890 him. But, however, I found afterwards from Patty, that William said it
7891 was all the apples of _that_ sort his master had; he had brought them
7892 all--and now his master had not one left to bake or boil. William did
7893 not seem to mind it himself, he was so pleased to think his master had
7894 sold so many; for William, you know, thinks more of his master’s profit
7895 than any thing; but Mrs. Hodges, he said, was quite displeased at their
7896 being all sent away. She could not bear that her master should not be
7897 able to have another apple-tart this spring. He told Patty this, but bid
7898 her not mind it, and be sure not to say any thing to us about it, for
7899 Mrs. Hodges _would_ be cross sometimes, and as long as so many sacks
7900 were sold, it did not signify who ate the remainder. And so Patty told
7901 me, and I was excessively shocked indeed! I would not have Mr. Knightley
7902 know any thing about it for the world! He would be so very.... I wanted
7903 to keep it from Jane’s knowledge; but, unluckily, I had mentioned it
7904 before I was aware.”
7905
7906 Miss Bates had just done as Patty opened the door; and her visitors
7907 walked upstairs without having any regular narration to attend to,
7908 pursued only by the sounds of her desultory good-will.
7909
7910 “Pray take care, Mrs. Weston, there is a step at the turning. Pray take
7911 care, Miss Woodhouse, ours is rather a dark staircase--rather darker
7912 and narrower than one could wish. Miss Smith, pray take care. Miss
7913 Woodhouse, I am quite concerned, I am sure you hit your foot. Miss
7914 Smith, the step at the turning.”
7915
7916
7917
7918 CHAPTER X
7919
7920
7921 The appearance of the little sitting-room as they entered, was
7922 tranquillity itself; Mrs. Bates, deprived of her usual employment,
7923 slumbering on one side of the fire, Frank Churchill, at a table near
7924 her, most deedily occupied about her spectacles, and Jane Fairfax,
7925 standing with her back to them, intent on her pianoforte.
7926
7927 Busy as he was, however, the young man was yet able to shew a most happy
7928 countenance on seeing Emma again.
7929
7930 “This is a pleasure,” said he, in rather a low voice, “coming at least
7931 ten minutes earlier than I had calculated. You find me trying to be
7932 useful; tell me if you think I shall succeed.”
7933
7934 “What!” said Mrs. Weston, “have not you finished it yet? you would not
7935 earn a very good livelihood as a working silversmith at this rate.”
7936
7937 “I have not been working uninterruptedly,” he replied, “I have been
7938 assisting Miss Fairfax in trying to make her instrument stand steadily,
7939 it was not quite firm; an unevenness in the floor, I believe. You see
7940 we have been wedging one leg with paper. This was very kind of you to be
7941 persuaded to come. I was almost afraid you would be hurrying home.”
7942
7943 He contrived that she should be seated by him; and was sufficiently
7944 employed in looking out the best baked apple for her, and trying to make
7945 her help or advise him in his work, till Jane Fairfax was quite ready
7946 to sit down to the pianoforte again. That she was not immediately ready,
7947 Emma did suspect to arise from the state of her nerves; she had not yet
7948 possessed the instrument long enough to touch it without emotion; she
7949 must reason herself into the power of performance; and Emma could not
7950 but pity such feelings, whatever their origin, and could not but resolve
7951 never to expose them to her neighbour again.
7952
7953 At last Jane began, and though the first bars were feebly given, the
7954 powers of the instrument were gradually done full justice to. Mrs.
7955 Weston had been delighted before, and was delighted again; Emma
7956 joined her in all her praise; and the pianoforte, with every proper
7957 discrimination, was pronounced to be altogether of the highest promise.
7958
7959 “Whoever Colonel Campbell might employ,” said Frank Churchill, with a
7960 smile at Emma, “the person has not chosen ill. I heard a good deal of
7961 Colonel Campbell’s taste at Weymouth; and the softness of the upper
7962 notes I am sure is exactly what he and _all_ _that_ _party_ would
7963 particularly prize. I dare say, Miss Fairfax, that he either gave his
7964 friend very minute directions, or wrote to Broadwood himself. Do not you
7965 think so?”
7966
7967 Jane did not look round. She was not obliged to hear. Mrs. Weston had
7968 been speaking to her at the same moment.
7969
7970 “It is not fair,” said Emma, in a whisper; “mine was a random guess. Do
7971 not distress her.”
7972
7973 He shook his head with a smile, and looked as if he had very little
7974 doubt and very little mercy. Soon afterwards he began again,
7975
7976 “How much your friends in Ireland must be enjoying your pleasure on this
7977 occasion, Miss Fairfax. I dare say they often think of you, and wonder
7978 which will be the day, the precise day of the instrument’s coming to
7979 hand. Do you imagine Colonel Campbell knows the business to be going
7980 forward just at this time?--Do you imagine it to be the consequence
7981 of an immediate commission from him, or that he may have sent only
7982 a general direction, an order indefinite as to time, to depend upon
7983 contingencies and conveniences?”
7984
7985 He paused. She could not but hear; she could not avoid answering,
7986
7987 “Till I have a letter from Colonel Campbell,” said she, in a voice of
7988 forced calmness, “I can imagine nothing with any confidence. It must be
7989 all conjecture.”
7990
7991 “Conjecture--aye, sometimes one conjectures right, and sometimes one
7992 conjectures wrong. I wish I could conjecture how soon I shall make this
7993 rivet quite firm. What nonsense one talks, Miss Woodhouse, when hard
7994 at work, if one talks at all;--your real workmen, I suppose, hold their
7995 tongues; but we gentlemen labourers if we get hold of a word--Miss
7996 Fairfax said something about conjecturing. There, it is done. I have the
7997 pleasure, madam, (to Mrs. Bates,) of restoring your spectacles, healed
7998 for the present.”
7999
8000 He was very warmly thanked both by mother and daughter; to escape a
8001 little from the latter, he went to the pianoforte, and begged Miss
8002 Fairfax, who was still sitting at it, to play something more.
8003
8004 “If you are very kind,” said he, “it will be one of the waltzes we
8005 danced last night;--let me live them over again. You did not enjoy them
8006 as I did; you appeared tired the whole time. I believe you were glad we
8007 danced no longer; but I would have given worlds--all the worlds one ever
8008 has to give--for another half-hour.”
8009
8010 She played.
8011
8012 “What felicity it is to hear a tune again which _has_ made one
8013 happy!--If I mistake not that was danced at Weymouth.”
8014
8015 She looked up at him for a moment, coloured deeply, and played something
8016 else. He took some music from a chair near the pianoforte, and turning
8017 to Emma, said,
8018
8019 “Here is something quite new to me. Do you know it?--Cramer.--And here
8020 are a new set of Irish melodies. That, from such a quarter, one might
8021 expect. This was all sent with the instrument. Very thoughtful of
8022 Colonel Campbell, was not it?--He knew Miss Fairfax could have no music
8023 here. I honour that part of the attention particularly; it shews it to
8024 have been so thoroughly from the heart. Nothing hastily done; nothing
8025 incomplete. True affection only could have prompted it.”
8026
8027 Emma wished he would be less pointed, yet could not help being amused;
8028 and when on glancing her eye towards Jane Fairfax she caught the remains
8029 of a smile, when she saw that with all the deep blush of consciousness,
8030 there had been a smile of secret delight, she had less scruple in the
8031 amusement, and much less compunction with respect to her.--This
8032 amiable, upright, perfect Jane Fairfax was apparently cherishing very
8033 reprehensible feelings.
8034
8035 He brought all the music to her, and they looked it over together.--Emma
8036 took the opportunity of whispering,
8037
8038 “You speak too plain. She must understand you.”
8039
8040 “I hope she does. I would have her understand me. I am not in the least
8041 ashamed of my meaning.”
8042
8043 “But really, I am half ashamed, and wish I had never taken up the idea.”
8044
8045 “I am very glad you did, and that you communicated it to me. I have now
8046 a key to all her odd looks and ways. Leave shame to her. If she does
8047 wrong, she ought to feel it.”
8048
8049 “She is not entirely without it, I think.”
8050
8051 “I do not see much sign of it. She is playing _Robin_ _Adair_ at this
8052 moment--_his_ favourite.”
8053
8054 Shortly afterwards Miss Bates, passing near the window, descried Mr.
8055 Knightley on horse-back not far off.
8056
8057 “Mr. Knightley I declare!--I must speak to him if possible, just to
8058 thank him. I will not open the window here; it would give you all cold;
8059 but I can go into my mother’s room you know. I dare say he will come
8060 in when he knows who is here. Quite delightful to have you all meet
8061 so!--Our little room so honoured!”
8062
8063 She was in the adjoining chamber while she still spoke, and opening the
8064 casement there, immediately called Mr. Knightley’s attention, and every
8065 syllable of their conversation was as distinctly heard by the others, as
8066 if it had passed within the same apartment.
8067
8068 “How d’ ye do?--how d’ye do?--Very well, I thank you. So obliged to you
8069 for the carriage last night. We were just in time; my mother just ready
8070 for us. Pray come in; do come in. You will find some friends here.”
8071
8072 So began Miss Bates; and Mr. Knightley seemed determined to be heard in
8073 his turn, for most resolutely and commandingly did he say,
8074
8075 “How is your niece, Miss Bates?--I want to inquire after you all, but
8076 particularly your niece. How is Miss Fairfax?--I hope she caught no cold
8077 last night. How is she to-day? Tell me how Miss Fairfax is.”
8078
8079 And Miss Bates was obliged to give a direct answer before he would hear
8080 her in any thing else. The listeners were amused; and Mrs. Weston gave
8081 Emma a look of particular meaning. But Emma still shook her head in
8082 steady scepticism.
8083
8084 “So obliged to you!--so very much obliged to you for the carriage,”
8085 resumed Miss Bates.
8086
8087 He cut her short with,
8088
8089 “I am going to Kingston. Can I do any thing for you?”
8090
8091 “Oh! dear, Kingston--are you?--Mrs. Cole was saying the other day she
8092 wanted something from Kingston.”
8093
8094 “Mrs. Cole has servants to send. Can I do any thing for _you_?”
8095
8096 “No, I thank you. But do come in. Who do you think is here?--Miss
8097 Woodhouse and Miss Smith; so kind as to call to hear the new pianoforte.
8098 Do put up your horse at the Crown, and come in.”
8099
8100 “Well,” said he, in a deliberating manner, “for five minutes, perhaps.”
8101
8102 “And here is Mrs. Weston and Mr. Frank Churchill too!--Quite delightful;
8103 so many friends!”
8104
8105 “No, not now, I thank you. I could not stay two minutes. I must get on
8106 to Kingston as fast as I can.”
8107
8108 “Oh! do come in. They will be so very happy to see you.”
8109
8110 “No, no; your room is full enough. I will call another day, and hear the
8111 pianoforte.”
8112
8113 “Well, I am so sorry!--Oh! Mr. Knightley, what a delightful party last
8114 night; how extremely pleasant.--Did you ever see such dancing?--Was not
8115 it delightful?--Miss Woodhouse and Mr. Frank Churchill; I never saw any
8116 thing equal to it.”
8117
8118 “Oh! very delightful indeed; I can say nothing less, for I suppose Miss
8119 Woodhouse and Mr. Frank Churchill are hearing every thing that passes.
8120 And (raising his voice still more) I do not see why Miss Fairfax should
8121 not be mentioned too. I think Miss Fairfax dances very well; and Mrs.
8122 Weston is the very best country-dance player, without exception,
8123 in England. Now, if your friends have any gratitude, they will say
8124 something pretty loud about you and me in return; but I cannot stay to
8125 hear it.”
8126
8127 “Oh! Mr. Knightley, one moment more; something of consequence--so
8128 shocked!--Jane and I are both so shocked about the apples!”
8129
8130 “What is the matter now?”
8131
8132 “To think of your sending us all your store apples. You said you had
8133 a great many, and now you have not one left. We really are so shocked!
8134 Mrs. Hodges may well be angry. William Larkins mentioned it here. You
8135 should not have done it, indeed you should not. Ah! he is off. He never
8136 can bear to be thanked. But I thought he would have staid now, and it
8137 would have been a pity not to have mentioned.... Well, (returning to the
8138 room,) I have not been able to succeed. Mr. Knightley cannot stop. He is
8139 going to Kingston. He asked me if he could do any thing....”
8140
8141 “Yes,” said Jane, “we heard his kind offers, we heard every thing.”
8142
8143 “Oh! yes, my dear, I dare say you might, because you know, the door was
8144 open, and the window was open, and Mr. Knightley spoke loud. You must
8145 have heard every thing to be sure. ‘Can I do any thing for you at
8146 Kingston?’ said he; so I just mentioned.... Oh! Miss Woodhouse, must you
8147 be going?--You seem but just come--so very obliging of you.”
8148
8149 Emma found it really time to be at home; the visit had already lasted
8150 long; and on examining watches, so much of the morning was perceived
8151 to be gone, that Mrs. Weston and her companion taking leave also, could
8152 allow themselves only to walk with the two young ladies to Hartfield
8153 gates, before they set off for Randalls.
8154
8155
8156
8157 CHAPTER XI
8158
8159
8160 It may be possible to do without dancing entirely. Instances have been
8161 known of young people passing many, many months successively, without
8162 being at any ball of any description, and no material injury accrue
8163 either to body or mind;--but when a beginning is made--when the
8164 felicities of rapid motion have once been, though slightly, felt--it
8165 must be a very heavy set that does not ask for more.
8166
8167 Frank Churchill had danced once at Highbury, and longed to dance again;
8168 and the last half-hour of an evening which Mr. Woodhouse was persuaded
8169 to spend with his daughter at Randalls, was passed by the two young
8170 people in schemes on the subject. Frank’s was the first idea; and his
8171 the greatest zeal in pursuing it; for the lady was the best judge of the
8172 difficulties, and the most solicitous for accommodation and appearance.
8173 But still she had inclination enough for shewing people again how
8174 delightfully Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Woodhouse danced--for
8175 doing that in which she need not blush to compare herself with Jane
8176 Fairfax--and even for simple dancing itself, without any of the wicked
8177 aids of vanity--to assist him first in pacing out the room they were in
8178 to see what it could be made to hold--and then in taking the dimensions
8179 of the other parlour, in the hope of discovering, in spite of all that
8180 Mr. Weston could say of their exactly equal size, that it was a little
8181 the largest.
8182
8183 His first proposition and request, that the dance begun at Mr. Cole’s
8184 should be finished there--that the same party should be collected,
8185 and the same musician engaged, met with the readiest acquiescence. Mr.
8186 Weston entered into the idea with thorough enjoyment, and Mrs. Weston
8187 most willingly undertook to play as long as they could wish to dance;
8188 and the interesting employment had followed, of reckoning up exactly who
8189 there would be, and portioning out the indispensable division of space
8190 to every couple.
8191
8192 “You and Miss Smith, and Miss Fairfax, will be three, and the two Miss
8193 Coxes five,” had been repeated many times over. “And there will be the
8194 two Gilberts, young Cox, my father, and myself, besides Mr. Knightley.
8195 Yes, that will be quite enough for pleasure. You and Miss Smith, and
8196 Miss Fairfax, will be three, and the two Miss Coxes five; and for five
8197 couple there will be plenty of room.”
8198
8199 But soon it came to be on one side,
8200
8201 “But will there be good room for five couple?--I really do not think
8202 there will.”
8203
8204 On another,
8205
8206 “And after all, five couple are not enough to make it worth while to
8207 stand up. Five couple are nothing, when one thinks seriously about it.
8208 It will not do to _invite_ five couple. It can be allowable only as the
8209 thought of the moment.”
8210
8211 Somebody said that _Miss_ Gilbert was expected at her brother’s, and
8212 must be invited with the rest. Somebody else believed _Mrs_. Gilbert
8213 would have danced the other evening, if she had been asked. A word was
8214 put in for a second young Cox; and at last, Mr. Weston naming one family
8215 of cousins who must be included, and another of very old acquaintance
8216 who could not be left out, it became a certainty that the five couple
8217 would be at least ten, and a very interesting speculation in what
8218 possible manner they could be disposed of.
8219
8220 The doors of the two rooms were just opposite each other. “Might not
8221 they use both rooms, and dance across the passage?” It seemed the
8222 best scheme; and yet it was not so good but that many of them wanted a
8223 better. Emma said it would be awkward; Mrs. Weston was in distress about
8224 the supper; and Mr. Woodhouse opposed it earnestly, on the score of
8225 health. It made him so very unhappy, indeed, that it could not be
8226 persevered in.
8227
8228 “Oh! no,” said he; “it would be the extreme of imprudence. I could not
8229 bear it for Emma!--Emma is not strong. She would catch a dreadful cold.
8230 So would poor little Harriet. So you would all. Mrs. Weston, you would
8231 be quite laid up; do not let them talk of such a wild thing. Pray do
8232 not let them talk of it. That young man (speaking lower) is very
8233 thoughtless. Do not tell his father, but that young man is not quite
8234 the thing. He has been opening the doors very often this evening,
8235 and keeping them open very inconsiderately. He does not think of the
8236 draught. I do not mean to set you against him, but indeed he is not
8237 quite the thing!”
8238
8239 Mrs. Weston was sorry for such a charge. She knew the importance of
8240 it, and said every thing in her power to do it away. Every door was now
8241 closed, the passage plan given up, and the first scheme of dancing only
8242 in the room they were in resorted to again; and with such good-will on
8243 Frank Churchill’s part, that the space which a quarter of an hour before
8244 had been deemed barely sufficient for five couple, was now endeavoured
8245 to be made out quite enough for ten.
8246
8247 “We were too magnificent,” said he. “We allowed unnecessary room. Ten
8248 couple may stand here very well.”
8249
8250 Emma demurred. “It would be a crowd--a sad crowd; and what could be
8251 worse than dancing without space to turn in?”
8252
8253 “Very true,” he gravely replied; “it was very bad.” But still he went on
8254 measuring, and still he ended with,
8255
8256 “I think there will be very tolerable room for ten couple.”
8257
8258 “No, no,” said she, “you are quite unreasonable. It would be dreadful
8259 to be standing so close! Nothing can be farther from pleasure than to be
8260 dancing in a crowd--and a crowd in a little room!”
8261
8262 “There is no denying it,” he replied. “I agree with you exactly. A crowd
8263 in a little room--Miss Woodhouse, you have the art of giving pictures
8264 in a few words. Exquisite, quite exquisite!--Still, however, having
8265 proceeded so far, one is unwilling to give the matter up. It would be
8266 a disappointment to my father--and altogether--I do not know that--I am
8267 rather of opinion that ten couple might stand here very well.”
8268
8269 Emma perceived that the nature of his gallantry was a little
8270 self-willed, and that he would rather oppose than lose the pleasure of
8271 dancing with her; but she took the compliment, and forgave the rest.
8272 Had she intended ever to _marry_ him, it might have been worth while to
8273 pause and consider, and try to understand the value of his preference,
8274 and the character of his temper; but for all the purposes of their
8275 acquaintance, he was quite amiable enough.
8276
8277 Before the middle of the next day, he was at Hartfield; and he entered
8278 the room with such an agreeable smile as certified the continuance of
8279 the scheme. It soon appeared that he came to announce an improvement.
8280
8281 “Well, Miss Woodhouse,” he almost immediately began, “your inclination
8282 for dancing has not been quite frightened away, I hope, by the terrors
8283 of my father’s little rooms. I bring a new proposal on the subject:--a
8284 thought of my father’s, which waits only your approbation to be acted
8285 upon. May I hope for the honour of your hand for the two first dances
8286 of this little projected ball, to be given, not at Randalls, but at the
8287 Crown Inn?”
8288
8289 “The Crown!”
8290
8291 “Yes; if you and Mr. Woodhouse see no objection, and I trust you cannot,
8292 my father hopes his friends will be so kind as to visit him there.
8293 Better accommodations, he can promise them, and not a less grateful
8294 welcome than at Randalls. It is his own idea. Mrs. Weston sees no
8295 objection to it, provided you are satisfied. This is what we all feel.
8296 Oh! you were perfectly right! Ten couple, in either of the Randalls
8297 rooms, would have been insufferable!--Dreadful!--I felt how right you
8298 were the whole time, but was too anxious for securing _any_ _thing_
8299 to like to yield. Is not it a good exchange?--You consent--I hope you
8300 consent?”
8301
8302 “It appears to me a plan that nobody can object to, if Mr. and Mrs.
8303 Weston do not. I think it admirable; and, as far as I can answer for
8304 myself, shall be most happy--It seems the only improvement that could
8305 be. Papa, do you not think it an excellent improvement?”
8306
8307 She was obliged to repeat and explain it, before it was fully
8308 comprehended; and then, being quite new, farther representations were
8309 necessary to make it acceptable.
8310
8311 “No; he thought it very far from an improvement--a very bad plan--much
8312 worse than the other. A room at an inn was always damp and dangerous;
8313 never properly aired, or fit to be inhabited. If they must dance, they
8314 had better dance at Randalls. He had never been in the room at the Crown
8315 in his life--did not know the people who kept it by sight.--Oh! no--a
8316 very bad plan. They would catch worse colds at the Crown than anywhere.”
8317
8318 “I was going to observe, sir,” said Frank Churchill, “that one of the
8319 great recommendations of this change would be the very little danger
8320 of any body’s catching cold--so much less danger at the Crown than at
8321 Randalls! Mr. Perry might have reason to regret the alteration, but
8322 nobody else could.”
8323
8324 “Sir,” said Mr. Woodhouse, rather warmly, “you are very much mistaken
8325 if you suppose Mr. Perry to be that sort of character. Mr. Perry is
8326 extremely concerned when any of us are ill. But I do not understand how
8327 the room at the Crown can be safer for you than your father’s house.”
8328
8329 “From the very circumstance of its being larger, sir. We shall have no
8330 occasion to open the windows at all--not once the whole evening; and it
8331 is that dreadful habit of opening the windows, letting in cold air upon
8332 heated bodies, which (as you well know, sir) does the mischief.”
8333
8334 “Open the windows!--but surely, Mr. Churchill, nobody would think of
8335 opening the windows at Randalls. Nobody could be so imprudent! I never
8336 heard of such a thing. Dancing with open windows!--I am sure, neither
8337 your father nor Mrs. Weston (poor Miss Taylor that was) would suffer
8338 it.”
8339
8340 “Ah! sir--but a thoughtless young person will sometimes step behind a
8341 window-curtain, and throw up a sash, without its being suspected. I have
8342 often known it done myself.”
8343
8344 “Have you indeed, sir?--Bless me! I never could have supposed it. But I
8345 live out of the world, and am often astonished at what I hear. However,
8346 this does make a difference; and, perhaps, when we come to talk it
8347 over--but these sort of things require a good deal of consideration. One
8348 cannot resolve upon them in a hurry. If Mr. and Mrs. Weston will be so
8349 obliging as to call here one morning, we may talk it over, and see what
8350 can be done.”
8351
8352 “But, unfortunately, sir, my time is so limited--”
8353
8354 “Oh!” interrupted Emma, “there will be plenty of time for talking every
8355 thing over. There is no hurry at all. If it can be contrived to be at
8356 the Crown, papa, it will be very convenient for the horses. They will be
8357 so near their own stable.”
8358
8359 “So they will, my dear. That is a great thing. Not that James ever
8360 complains; but it is right to spare our horses when we can. If I could
8361 be sure of the rooms being thoroughly aired--but is Mrs. Stokes to be
8362 trusted? I doubt it. I do not know her, even by sight.”
8363
8364 “I can answer for every thing of that nature, sir, because it will be
8365 under Mrs. Weston’s care. Mrs. Weston undertakes to direct the whole.”
8366
8367 “There, papa!--Now you must be satisfied--Our own dear Mrs. Weston, who
8368 is carefulness itself. Do not you remember what Mr. Perry said, so many
8369 years ago, when I had the measles? ‘If _Miss_ _Taylor_ undertakes to
8370 wrap Miss Emma up, you need not have any fears, sir.’ How often have I
8371 heard you speak of it as such a compliment to her!”
8372
8373 “Aye, very true. Mr. Perry did say so. I shall never forget it. Poor
8374 little Emma! You were very bad with the measles; that is, you would have
8375 been very bad, but for Perry’s great attention. He came four times a day
8376 for a week. He said, from the first, it was a very good sort--which
8377 was our great comfort; but the measles are a dreadful complaint. I hope
8378 whenever poor Isabella’s little ones have the measles, she will send for
8379 Perry.”
8380
8381 “My father and Mrs. Weston are at the Crown at this moment,” said Frank
8382 Churchill, “examining the capabilities of the house. I left them there
8383 and came on to Hartfield, impatient for your opinion, and hoping you
8384 might be persuaded to join them and give your advice on the spot. I was
8385 desired to say so from both. It would be the greatest pleasure to
8386 them, if you could allow me to attend you there. They can do nothing
8387 satisfactorily without you.”
8388
8389 Emma was most happy to be called to such a council; and her father,
8390 engaging to think it all over while she was gone, the two young people
8391 set off together without delay for the Crown. There were Mr. and Mrs.
8392 Weston; delighted to see her and receive her approbation, very busy and
8393 very happy in their different way; she, in some little distress; and he,
8394 finding every thing perfect.
8395
8396 “Emma,” said she, “this paper is worse than I expected. Look! in places
8397 you see it is dreadfully dirty; and the wainscot is more yellow and
8398 forlorn than any thing I could have imagined.”
8399
8400 “My dear, you are too particular,” said her husband. “What does all that
8401 signify? You will see nothing of it by candlelight. It will be as
8402 clean as Randalls by candlelight. We never see any thing of it on our
8403 club-nights.”
8404
8405 The ladies here probably exchanged looks which meant, “Men never know
8406 when things are dirty or not;” and the gentlemen perhaps thought each to
8407 himself, “Women will have their little nonsenses and needless cares.”
8408
8409 One perplexity, however, arose, which the gentlemen did not disdain.
8410 It regarded a supper-room. At the time of the ballroom’s being built,
8411 suppers had not been in question; and a small card-room adjoining, was
8412 the only addition. What was to be done? This card-room would be wanted
8413 as a card-room now; or, if cards were conveniently voted unnecessary
8414 by their four selves, still was it not too small for any comfortable
8415 supper? Another room of much better size might be secured for the
8416 purpose; but it was at the other end of the house, and a long awkward
8417 passage must be gone through to get at it. This made a difficulty. Mrs.
8418 Weston was afraid of draughts for the young people in that passage;
8419 and neither Emma nor the gentlemen could tolerate the prospect of being
8420 miserably crowded at supper.
8421
8422 Mrs. Weston proposed having no regular supper; merely sandwiches,
8423 &c., set out in the little room; but that was scouted as a wretched
8424 suggestion. A private dance, without sitting down to supper, was
8425 pronounced an infamous fraud upon the rights of men and women; and
8426 Mrs. Weston must not speak of it again. She then took another line of
8427 expediency, and looking into the doubtful room, observed,
8428
8429 “I do not think it _is_ so very small. We shall not be many, you know.”
8430
8431 And Mr. Weston at the same time, walking briskly with long steps through
8432 the passage, was calling out,
8433
8434 “You talk a great deal of the length of this passage, my dear. It is a
8435 mere nothing after all; and not the least draught from the stairs.”
8436
8437 “I wish,” said Mrs. Weston, “one could know which arrangement our guests
8438 in general would like best. To do what would be most generally pleasing
8439 must be our object--if one could but tell what that would be.”
8440
8441 “Yes, very true,” cried Frank, “very true. You want your neighbours’
8442 opinions. I do not wonder at you. If one could ascertain what the chief
8443 of them--the Coles, for instance. They are not far off. Shall I call
8444 upon them? Or Miss Bates? She is still nearer.--And I do not know
8445 whether Miss Bates is not as likely to understand the inclinations of
8446 the rest of the people as any body. I think we do want a larger council.
8447 Suppose I go and invite Miss Bates to join us?”
8448
8449 “Well--if you please,” said Mrs. Weston rather hesitating, “if you think
8450 she will be of any use.”
8451
8452 “You will get nothing to the purpose from Miss Bates,” said Emma. “She
8453 will be all delight and gratitude, but she will tell you nothing. She
8454 will not even listen to your questions. I see no advantage in consulting
8455 Miss Bates.”
8456
8457 “But she is so amusing, so extremely amusing! I am very fond of hearing
8458 Miss Bates talk. And I need not bring the whole family, you know.”
8459
8460 Here Mr. Weston joined them, and on hearing what was proposed, gave it
8461 his decided approbation.
8462
8463 “Aye, do, Frank.--Go and fetch Miss Bates, and let us end the matter at
8464 once. She will enjoy the scheme, I am sure; and I do not know a properer
8465 person for shewing us how to do away difficulties. Fetch Miss Bates.
8466 We are growing a little too nice. She is a standing lesson of how to be
8467 happy. But fetch them both. Invite them both.”
8468
8469 “Both sir! Can the old lady?”...
8470
8471 “The old lady! No, the young lady, to be sure. I shall think you a great
8472 blockhead, Frank, if you bring the aunt without the niece.”
8473
8474 “Oh! I beg your pardon, sir. I did not immediately recollect.
8475 Undoubtedly if you wish it, I will endeavour to persuade them both.” And
8476 away he ran.
8477
8478 Long before he reappeared, attending the short, neat, brisk-moving aunt,
8479 and her elegant niece,--Mrs. Weston, like a sweet-tempered woman and
8480 a good wife, had examined the passage again, and found the evils of it
8481 much less than she had supposed before--indeed very trifling; and here
8482 ended the difficulties of decision. All the rest, in speculation at
8483 least, was perfectly smooth. All the minor arrangements of table and
8484 chair, lights and music, tea and supper, made themselves; or were left
8485 as mere trifles to be settled at any time between Mrs. Weston and Mrs.
8486 Stokes.--Every body invited, was certainly to come; Frank had already
8487 written to Enscombe to propose staying a few days beyond his fortnight,
8488 which could not possibly be refused. And a delightful dance it was to
8489 be.
8490
8491 Most cordially, when Miss Bates arrived, did she agree that it must.
8492 As a counsellor she was not wanted; but as an approver, (a much safer
8493 character,) she was truly welcome. Her approbation, at once general
8494 and minute, warm and incessant, could not but please; and for another
8495 half-hour they were all walking to and fro, between the different rooms,
8496 some suggesting, some attending, and all in happy enjoyment of the
8497 future. The party did not break up without Emma’s being positively
8498 secured for the two first dances by the hero of the evening, nor without
8499 her overhearing Mr. Weston whisper to his wife, “He has asked her, my
8500 dear. That’s right. I knew he would!”
8501
8502
8503
8504 CHAPTER XII
8505
8506
8507 One thing only was wanting to make the prospect of the ball completely
8508 satisfactory to Emma--its being fixed for a day within the granted
8509 term of Frank Churchill’s stay in Surry; for, in spite of Mr. Weston’s
8510 confidence, she could not think it so very impossible that the
8511 Churchills might not allow their nephew to remain a day beyond his
8512 fortnight. But this was not judged feasible. The preparations must take
8513 their time, nothing could be properly ready till the third week were
8514 entered on, and for a few days they must be planning, proceeding and
8515 hoping in uncertainty--at the risk--in her opinion, the great risk, of
8516 its being all in vain.
8517
8518 Enscombe however was gracious, gracious in fact, if not in word. His
8519 wish of staying longer evidently did not please; but it was not opposed.
8520 All was safe and prosperous; and as the removal of one solicitude
8521 generally makes way for another, Emma, being now certain of her
8522 ball, began to adopt as the next vexation Mr. Knightley’s provoking
8523 indifference about it. Either because he did not dance himself, or
8524 because the plan had been formed without his being consulted, he
8525 seemed resolved that it should not interest him, determined against its
8526 exciting any present curiosity, or affording him any future amusement.
8527 To her voluntary communications Emma could get no more approving reply,
8528 than,
8529
8530 “Very well. If the Westons think it worth while to be at all this
8531 trouble for a few hours of noisy entertainment, I have nothing to say
8532 against it, but that they shall not chuse pleasures for me.--Oh! yes,
8533 I must be there; I could not refuse; and I will keep as much awake as
8534 I can; but I would rather be at home, looking over William Larkins’s
8535 week’s account; much rather, I confess.--Pleasure in seeing
8536 dancing!--not I, indeed--I never look at it--I do not know who
8537 does.--Fine dancing, I believe, like virtue, must be its own reward.
8538 Those who are standing by are usually thinking of something very
8539 different.”
8540
8541 This Emma felt was aimed at her; and it made her quite angry. It was not
8542 in compliment to Jane Fairfax however that he was so indifferent, or so
8543 indignant; he was not guided by _her_ feelings in reprobating the ball,
8544 for _she_ enjoyed the thought of it to an extraordinary degree. It made
8545 her animated--open hearted--she voluntarily said;--
8546
8547 “Oh! Miss Woodhouse, I hope nothing may happen to prevent the ball.
8548 What a disappointment it would be! I do look forward to it, I own, with
8549 _very_ great pleasure.”
8550
8551 It was not to oblige Jane Fairfax therefore that he would have preferred
8552 the society of William Larkins. No!--she was more and more convinced
8553 that Mrs. Weston was quite mistaken in that surmise. There was a great
8554 deal of friendly and of compassionate attachment on his side--but no
8555 love.
8556
8557 Alas! there was soon no leisure for quarrelling with Mr. Knightley. Two
8558 days of joyful security were immediately followed by the over-throw of
8559 every thing. A letter arrived from Mr. Churchill to urge his nephew’s
8560 instant return. Mrs. Churchill was unwell--far too unwell to do without
8561 him; she had been in a very suffering state (so said her husband)
8562 when writing to her nephew two days before, though from her usual
8563 unwillingness to give pain, and constant habit of never thinking of
8564 herself, she had not mentioned it; but now she was too ill to trifle,
8565 and must entreat him to set off for Enscombe without delay.
8566
8567 The substance of this letter was forwarded to Emma, in a note from Mrs.
8568 Weston, instantly. As to his going, it was inevitable. He must be gone
8569 within a few hours, though without feeling any real alarm for his aunt,
8570 to lessen his repugnance. He knew her illnesses; they never occurred but
8571 for her own convenience.
8572
8573 Mrs. Weston added, “that he could only allow himself time to hurry to
8574 Highbury, after breakfast, and take leave of the few friends there
8575 whom he could suppose to feel any interest in him; and that he might be
8576 expected at Hartfield very soon.”
8577
8578 This wretched note was the finale of Emma’s breakfast. When once it had
8579 been read, there was no doing any thing, but lament and exclaim. The
8580 loss of the ball--the loss of the young man--and all that the young man
8581 might be feeling!--It was too wretched!--Such a delightful evening as
8582 it would have been!--Every body so happy! and she and her partner the
8583 happiest!--“I said it would be so,” was the only consolation.
8584
8585 Her father’s feelings were quite distinct. He thought principally of
8586 Mrs. Churchill’s illness, and wanted to know how she was treated; and as
8587 for the ball, it was shocking to have dear Emma disappointed; but they
8588 would all be safer at home.
8589
8590 Emma was ready for her visitor some time before he appeared; but if this
8591 reflected at all upon his impatience, his sorrowful look and total want
8592 of spirits when he did come might redeem him. He felt the going away
8593 almost too much to speak of it. His dejection was most evident. He
8594 sat really lost in thought for the first few minutes; and when rousing
8595 himself, it was only to say,
8596
8597 “Of all horrid things, leave-taking is the worst.”
8598
8599 “But you will come again,” said Emma. “This will not be your only visit
8600 to Randalls.”
8601
8602 “Ah!--(shaking his head)--the uncertainty of when I may be able to
8603 return!--I shall try for it with a zeal!--It will be the object of
8604 all my thoughts and cares!--and if my uncle and aunt go to town this
8605 spring--but I am afraid--they did not stir last spring--I am afraid it
8606 is a custom gone for ever.”
8607
8608 “Our poor ball must be quite given up.”
8609
8610 “Ah! that ball!--why did we wait for any thing?--why not seize the
8611 pleasure at once?--How often is happiness destroyed by preparation,
8612 foolish preparation!--You told us it would be so.--Oh! Miss Woodhouse,
8613 why are you always so right?”
8614
8615 “Indeed, I am very sorry to be right in this instance. I would much
8616 rather have been merry than wise.”
8617
8618 “If I can come again, we are still to have our ball. My father depends
8619 on it. Do not forget your engagement.”
8620
8621 Emma looked graciously.
8622
8623 “Such a fortnight as it has been!” he continued; “every day more
8624 precious and more delightful than the day before!--every day making
8625 me less fit to bear any other place. Happy those, who can remain at
8626 Highbury!”
8627
8628 “As you do us such ample justice now,” said Emma, laughing, “I will
8629 venture to ask, whether you did not come a little doubtfully at first?
8630 Do not we rather surpass your expectations? I am sure we do. I am sure
8631 you did not much expect to like us. You would not have been so long in
8632 coming, if you had had a pleasant idea of Highbury.”
8633
8634 He laughed rather consciously; and though denying the sentiment, Emma
8635 was convinced that it had been so.
8636
8637 “And you must be off this very morning?”
8638
8639 “Yes; my father is to join me here: we shall walk back together, and I
8640 must be off immediately. I am almost afraid that every moment will bring
8641 him.”
8642
8643 “Not five minutes to spare even for your friends Miss Fairfax and Miss
8644 Bates? How unlucky! Miss Bates’s powerful, argumentative mind might have
8645 strengthened yours.”
8646
8647 “Yes--I _have_ called there; passing the door, I thought it better. It
8648 was a right thing to do. I went in for three minutes, and was detained
8649 by Miss Bates’s being absent. She was out; and I felt it impossible not
8650 to wait till she came in. She is a woman that one may, that one _must_
8651 laugh at; but that one would not wish to slight. It was better to pay my
8652 visit, then”--
8653
8654 He hesitated, got up, walked to a window.
8655
8656 “In short,” said he, “perhaps, Miss Woodhouse--I think you can hardly be
8657 quite without suspicion”--
8658
8659 He looked at her, as if wanting to read her thoughts. She hardly knew
8660 what to say. It seemed like the forerunner of something absolutely
8661 serious, which she did not wish. Forcing herself to speak, therefore, in
8662 the hope of putting it by, she calmly said,
8663
8664 “You are quite in the right; it was most natural to pay your visit,
8665 then”--
8666
8667 He was silent. She believed he was looking at her; probably reflecting
8668 on what she had said, and trying to understand the manner. She heard
8669 him sigh. It was natural for him to feel that he had _cause_ to sigh.
8670 He could not believe her to be encouraging him. A few awkward moments
8671 passed, and he sat down again; and in a more determined manner said,
8672
8673 “It was something to feel that all the rest of my time might be given to
8674 Hartfield. My regard for Hartfield is most warm”--
8675
8676 He stopt again, rose again, and seemed quite embarrassed.--He was more
8677 in love with her than Emma had supposed; and who can say how it might
8678 have ended, if his father had not made his appearance? Mr. Woodhouse
8679 soon followed; and the necessity of exertion made him composed.
8680
8681 A very few minutes more, however, completed the present trial. Mr.
8682 Weston, always alert when business was to be done, and as incapable of
8683 procrastinating any evil that was inevitable, as of foreseeing any that
8684 was doubtful, said, “It was time to go;” and the young man, though he
8685 might and did sigh, could not but agree, to take leave.
8686
8687 “I shall hear about you all,” said he; “that is my chief consolation.
8688 I shall hear of every thing that is going on among you. I have engaged
8689 Mrs. Weston to correspond with me. She has been so kind as to promise
8690 it. Oh! the blessing of a female correspondent, when one is really
8691 interested in the absent!--she will tell me every thing. In her letters
8692 I shall be at dear Highbury again.”
8693
8694 A very friendly shake of the hand, a very earnest “Good-bye,” closed the
8695 speech, and the door had soon shut out Frank Churchill. Short had been
8696 the notice--short their meeting; he was gone; and Emma felt so sorry
8697 to part, and foresaw so great a loss to their little society from his
8698 absence as to begin to be afraid of being too sorry, and feeling it too
8699 much.
8700
8701 It was a sad change. They had been meeting almost every day since his
8702 arrival. Certainly his being at Randalls had given great spirit to
8703 the last two weeks--indescribable spirit; the idea, the expectation
8704 of seeing him which every morning had brought, the assurance of his
8705 attentions, his liveliness, his manners! It had been a very happy
8706 fortnight, and forlorn must be the sinking from it into the common
8707 course of Hartfield days. To complete every other recommendation, he had
8708 _almost_ told her that he loved her. What strength, or what constancy of
8709 affection he might be subject to, was another point; but at present
8710 she could not doubt his having a decidedly warm admiration, a conscious
8711 preference of herself; and this persuasion, joined to all the rest,
8712 made her think that she _must_ be a little in love with him, in spite of
8713 every previous determination against it.
8714
8715 “I certainly must,” said she. “This sensation of listlessness,
8716 weariness, stupidity, this disinclination to sit down and employ myself,
8717 this feeling of every thing’s being dull and insipid about the house!--
8718 I must be in love; I should be the oddest creature in the world if I
8719 were not--for a few weeks at least. Well! evil to some is always good to
8720 others. I shall have many fellow-mourners for the ball, if not for Frank
8721 Churchill; but Mr. Knightley will be happy. He may spend the evening
8722 with his dear William Larkins now if he likes.”
8723
8724 Mr. Knightley, however, shewed no triumphant happiness. He could not say
8725 that he was sorry on his own account; his very cheerful look would have
8726 contradicted him if he had; but he said, and very steadily, that he
8727 was sorry for the disappointment of the others, and with considerable
8728 kindness added,
8729
8730 “You, Emma, who have so few opportunities of dancing, you are really out
8731 of luck; you are very much out of luck!”
8732
8733 It was some days before she saw Jane Fairfax, to judge of her honest
8734 regret in this woeful change; but when they did meet, her composure
8735 was odious. She had been particularly unwell, however, suffering from
8736 headache to a degree, which made her aunt declare, that had the ball
8737 taken place, she did not think Jane could have attended it; and it was
8738 charity to impute some of her unbecoming indifference to the languor of
8739 ill-health.
8740
8741
8742
8743 CHAPTER XIII
8744
8745
8746 Emma continued to entertain no doubt of her being in love. Her ideas
8747 only varied as to the how much. At first, she thought it was a good
8748 deal; and afterwards, but little. She had great pleasure in hearing
8749 Frank Churchill talked of; and, for his sake, greater pleasure than ever
8750 in seeing Mr. and Mrs. Weston; she was very often thinking of him, and
8751 quite impatient for a letter, that she might know how he was, how were
8752 his spirits, how was his aunt, and what was the chance of his coming to
8753 Randalls again this spring. But, on the other hand, she could not admit
8754 herself to be unhappy, nor, after the first morning, to be less disposed
8755 for employment than usual; she was still busy and cheerful; and,
8756 pleasing as he was, she could yet imagine him to have faults; and
8757 farther, though thinking of him so much, and, as she sat drawing or
8758 working, forming a thousand amusing schemes for the progress and close
8759 of their attachment, fancying interesting dialogues, and inventing
8760 elegant letters; the conclusion of every imaginary declaration on his
8761 side was that she _refused_ _him_. Their affection was always to subside
8762 into friendship. Every thing tender and charming was to mark their
8763 parting; but still they were to part. When she became sensible of this,
8764 it struck her that she could not be very much in love; for in spite of
8765 her previous and fixed determination never to quit her father, never
8766 to marry, a strong attachment certainly must produce more of a struggle
8767 than she could foresee in her own feelings.
8768
8769 “I do not find myself making any use of the word _sacrifice_,” said
8770 she.--“In not one of all my clever replies, my delicate negatives, is
8771 there any allusion to making a sacrifice. I do suspect that he is not
8772 really necessary to my happiness. So much the better. I certainly will
8773 not persuade myself to feel more than I do. I am quite enough in love. I
8774 should be sorry to be more.”
8775
8776 Upon the whole, she was equally contented with her view of his feelings.
8777
8778 “_He_ is undoubtedly very much in love--every thing denotes it--very
8779 much in love indeed!--and when he comes again, if his affection
8780 continue, I must be on my guard not to encourage it.--It would be most
8781 inexcusable to do otherwise, as my own mind is quite made up. Not that I
8782 imagine he can think I have been encouraging him hitherto. No, if he
8783 had believed me at all to share his feelings, he would not have been
8784 so wretched. Could he have thought himself encouraged, his looks and
8785 language at parting would have been different.--Still, however, I must
8786 be on my guard. This is in the supposition of his attachment continuing
8787 what it now is; but I do not know that I expect it will; I do not look
8788 upon him to be quite the sort of man--I do not altogether build upon
8789 his steadiness or constancy.--His feelings are warm, but I can imagine
8790 them rather changeable.--Every consideration of the subject, in short,
8791 makes me thankful that my happiness is not more deeply involved.--I
8792 shall do very well again after a little while--and then, it will be a
8793 good thing over; for they say every body is in love once in their lives,
8794 and I shall have been let off easily.”
8795
8796 When his letter to Mrs. Weston arrived, Emma had the perusal of it; and
8797 she read it with a degree of pleasure and admiration which made her
8798 at first shake her head over her own sensations, and think she had
8799 undervalued their strength. It was a long, well-written letter, giving
8800 the particulars of his journey and of his feelings, expressing all the
8801 affection, gratitude, and respect which was natural and honourable,
8802 and describing every thing exterior and local that could be supposed
8803 attractive, with spirit and precision. No suspicious flourishes now of
8804 apology or concern; it was the language of real feeling towards Mrs.
8805 Weston; and the transition from Highbury to Enscombe, the contrast
8806 between the places in some of the first blessings of social life was
8807 just enough touched on to shew how keenly it was felt, and how much more
8808 might have been said but for the restraints of propriety.--The charm
8809 of her own name was not wanting. _Miss_ _Woodhouse_ appeared more than
8810 once, and never without a something of pleasing connexion, either a
8811 compliment to her taste, or a remembrance of what she had said; and in
8812 the very last time of its meeting her eye, unadorned as it was by any
8813 such broad wreath of gallantry, she yet could discern the effect of
8814 her influence and acknowledge the greatest compliment perhaps of all
8815 conveyed. Compressed into the very lowest vacant corner were these
8816 words--“I had not a spare moment on Tuesday, as you know, for Miss
8817 Woodhouse’s beautiful little friend. Pray make my excuses and adieus
8818 to her.” This, Emma could not doubt, was all for herself. Harriet was
8819 remembered only from being _her_ friend. His information and prospects
8820 as to Enscombe were neither worse nor better than had been anticipated;
8821 Mrs. Churchill was recovering, and he dared not yet, even in his own
8822 imagination, fix a time for coming to Randalls again.
8823
8824 Gratifying, however, and stimulative as was the letter in the material
8825 part, its sentiments, she yet found, when it was folded up and returned
8826 to Mrs. Weston, that it had not added any lasting warmth, that she could
8827 still do without the writer, and that he must learn to do without her.
8828 Her intentions were unchanged. Her resolution of refusal only grew more
8829 interesting by the addition of a scheme for his subsequent consolation
8830 and happiness. His recollection of Harriet, and the words which
8831 clothed it, the “beautiful little friend,” suggested to her the
8832 idea of Harriet’s succeeding her in his affections. Was it
8833 impossible?--No.--Harriet undoubtedly was greatly his inferior in
8834 understanding; but he had been very much struck with the loveliness
8835 of her face and the warm simplicity of her manner; and all the
8836 probabilities of circumstance and connexion were in her favour.--For
8837 Harriet, it would be advantageous and delightful indeed.
8838
8839 “I must not dwell upon it,” said she.--“I must not think of it. I know
8840 the danger of indulging such speculations. But stranger things have
8841 happened; and when we cease to care for each other as we do now, it
8842 will be the means of confirming us in that sort of true disinterested
8843 friendship which I can already look forward to with pleasure.”
8844
8845 It was well to have a comfort in store on Harriet’s behalf, though it
8846 might be wise to let the fancy touch it seldom; for evil in that quarter
8847 was at hand. As Frank Churchill’s arrival had succeeded Mr. Elton’s
8848 engagement in the conversation of Highbury, as the latest interest
8849 had entirely borne down the first, so now upon Frank Churchill’s
8850 disappearance, Mr. Elton’s concerns were assuming the most irresistible
8851 form.--His wedding-day was named. He would soon be among them again; Mr.
8852 Elton and his bride. There was hardly time to talk over the first letter
8853 from Enscombe before “Mr. Elton and his bride” was in every body’s
8854 mouth, and Frank Churchill was forgotten. Emma grew sick at the sound.
8855 She had had three weeks of happy exemption from Mr. Elton; and Harriet’s
8856 mind, she had been willing to hope, had been lately gaining strength.
8857 With Mr. Weston’s ball in view at least, there had been a great deal of
8858 insensibility to other things; but it was now too evident that she had
8859 not attained such a state of composure as could stand against the actual
8860 approach--new carriage, bell-ringing, and all.
8861
8862 Poor Harriet was in a flutter of spirits which required all the
8863 reasonings and soothings and attentions of every kind that Emma could
8864 give. Emma felt that she could not do too much for her, that Harriet had
8865 a right to all her ingenuity and all her patience; but it was heavy work
8866 to be for ever convincing without producing any effect, for ever agreed
8867 to, without being able to make their opinions the same. Harriet listened
8868 submissively, and said “it was very true--it was just as Miss Woodhouse
8869 described--it was not worth while to think about them--and she would not
8870 think about them any longer” but no change of subject could avail, and
8871 the next half-hour saw her as anxious and restless about the Eltons as
8872 before. At last Emma attacked her on another ground.
8873
8874 “Your allowing yourself to be so occupied and so unhappy about Mr.
8875 Elton’s marrying, Harriet, is the strongest reproach you can make _me_.
8876 You could not give me a greater reproof for the mistake I fell into.
8877 It was all my doing, I know. I have not forgotten it, I assure
8878 you.--Deceived myself, I did very miserably deceive you--and it will
8879 be a painful reflection to me for ever. Do not imagine me in danger of
8880 forgetting it.”
8881
8882 Harriet felt this too much to utter more than a few words of eager
8883 exclamation. Emma continued,
8884
8885 “I have not said, exert yourself Harriet for my sake; think less, talk
8886 less of Mr. Elton for my sake; because for your own sake rather, I
8887 would wish it to be done, for the sake of what is more important than my
8888 comfort, a habit of self-command in you, a consideration of what is your
8889 duty, an attention to propriety, an endeavour to avoid the suspicions of
8890 others, to save your health and credit, and restore your tranquillity.
8891 These are the motives which I have been pressing on you. They are very
8892 important--and sorry I am that you cannot feel them sufficiently to act
8893 upon them. My being saved from pain is a very secondary consideration.
8894 I want you to save yourself from greater pain. Perhaps I may sometimes
8895 have felt that Harriet would not forget what was due--or rather what
8896 would be kind by me.”
8897
8898 This appeal to her affections did more than all the rest. The idea of
8899 wanting gratitude and consideration for Miss Woodhouse, whom she really
8900 loved extremely, made her wretched for a while, and when the violence
8901 of grief was comforted away, still remained powerful enough to prompt to
8902 what was right and support her in it very tolerably.
8903
8904 “You, who have been the best friend I ever had in my life--Want
8905 gratitude to you!--Nobody is equal to you!--I care for nobody as I do
8906 for you!--Oh! Miss Woodhouse, how ungrateful I have been!”
8907
8908 Such expressions, assisted as they were by every thing that look and
8909 manner could do, made Emma feel that she had never loved Harriet so
8910 well, nor valued her affection so highly before.
8911
8912 “There is no charm equal to tenderness of heart,” said she afterwards to
8913 herself. “There is nothing to be compared to it. Warmth and tenderness
8914 of heart, with an affectionate, open manner, will beat all the
8915 clearness of head in the world, for attraction, I am sure it will. It
8916 is tenderness of heart which makes my dear father so generally
8917 beloved--which gives Isabella all her popularity.--I have it not--but
8918 I know how to prize and respect it.--Harriet is my superior in all the
8919 charm and all the felicity it gives. Dear Harriet!--I would not change
8920 you for the clearest-headed, longest-sighted, best-judging female
8921 breathing. Oh! the coldness of a Jane Fairfax!--Harriet is worth a
8922 hundred such--And for a wife--a sensible man’s wife--it is invaluable. I
8923 mention no names; but happy the man who changes Emma for Harriet!”
8924
8925
8926
8927 CHAPTER XIV
8928
8929
8930 Mrs. Elton was first seen at church: but though devotion might be
8931 interrupted, curiosity could not be satisfied by a bride in a pew, and
8932 it must be left for the visits in form which were then to be paid, to
8933 settle whether she were very pretty indeed, or only rather pretty, or
8934 not pretty at all.
8935
8936 Emma had feelings, less of curiosity than of pride or propriety, to make
8937 her resolve on not being the last to pay her respects; and she made a
8938 point of Harriet’s going with her, that the worst of the business might
8939 be gone through as soon as possible.
8940
8941 She could not enter the house again, could not be in the same room to
8942 which she had with such vain artifice retreated three months ago, to
8943 lace up her boot, without _recollecting_. A thousand vexatious thoughts
8944 would recur. Compliments, charades, and horrible blunders; and it was
8945 not to be supposed that poor Harriet should not be recollecting too; but
8946 she behaved very well, and was only rather pale and silent. The visit
8947 was of course short; and there was so much embarrassment and occupation
8948 of mind to shorten it, that Emma would not allow herself entirely to
8949 form an opinion of the lady, and on no account to give one, beyond the
8950 nothing-meaning terms of being “elegantly dressed, and very pleasing.”
8951
8952 She did not really like her. She would not be in a hurry to find fault,
8953 but she suspected that there was no elegance;--ease, but not elegance.--
8954 She was almost sure that for a young woman, a stranger, a bride, there
8955 was too much ease. Her person was rather good; her face not unpretty;
8956 but neither feature, nor air, nor voice, nor manner, were elegant. Emma
8957 thought at least it would turn out so.
8958
8959 As for Mr. Elton, his manners did not appear--but no, she would not
8960 permit a hasty or a witty word from herself about his manners. It was an
8961 awkward ceremony at any time to be receiving wedding visits, and a man
8962 had need be all grace to acquit himself well through it. The woman
8963 was better off; she might have the assistance of fine clothes, and the
8964 privilege of bashfulness, but the man had only his own good sense to
8965 depend on; and when she considered how peculiarly unlucky poor Mr.
8966 Elton was in being in the same room at once with the woman he had just
8967 married, the woman he had wanted to marry, and the woman whom he had
8968 been expected to marry, she must allow him to have the right to look as
8969 little wise, and to be as much affectedly, and as little really easy as
8970 could be.
8971
8972 “Well, Miss Woodhouse,” said Harriet, when they had quitted the
8973 house, and after waiting in vain for her friend to begin; “Well, Miss
8974 Woodhouse, (with a gentle sigh,) what do you think of her?--Is not she
8975 very charming?”
8976
8977 There was a little hesitation in Emma’s answer.
8978
8979 “Oh! yes--very--a very pleasing young woman.”
8980
8981 “I think her beautiful, quite beautiful.”
8982
8983 “Very nicely dressed, indeed; a remarkably elegant gown.”
8984
8985 “I am not at all surprized that he should have fallen in love.”
8986
8987 “Oh! no--there is nothing to surprize one at all.--A pretty fortune; and
8988 she came in his way.”
8989
8990 “I dare say,” returned Harriet, sighing again, “I dare say she was very
8991 much attached to him.”
8992
8993 “Perhaps she might; but it is not every man’s fate to marry the woman
8994 who loves him best. Miss Hawkins perhaps wanted a home, and thought this
8995 the best offer she was likely to have.”
8996
8997 “Yes,” said Harriet earnestly, “and well she might, nobody could ever
8998 have a better. Well, I wish them happy with all my heart. And now, Miss
8999 Woodhouse, I do not think I shall mind seeing them again. He is just as
9000 superior as ever;--but being married, you know, it is quite a different
9001 thing. No, indeed, Miss Woodhouse, you need not be afraid; I can sit and
9002 admire him now without any great misery. To know that he has not thrown
9003 himself away, is such a comfort!--She does seem a charming young woman,
9004 just what he deserves. Happy creature! He called her ‘Augusta.’ How
9005 delightful!”
9006
9007 When the visit was returned, Emma made up her mind. She could then see
9008 more and judge better. From Harriet’s happening not to be at Hartfield,
9009 and her father’s being present to engage Mr. Elton, she had a quarter
9010 of an hour of the lady’s conversation to herself, and could composedly
9011 attend to her; and the quarter of an hour quite convinced her that
9012 Mrs. Elton was a vain woman, extremely well satisfied with herself, and
9013 thinking much of her own importance; that she meant to shine and be very
9014 superior, but with manners which had been formed in a bad school, pert
9015 and familiar; that all her notions were drawn from one set of people,
9016 and one style of living; that if not foolish she was ignorant, and that
9017 her society would certainly do Mr. Elton no good.
9018
9019 Harriet would have been a better match. If not wise or refined herself,
9020 she would have connected him with those who were; but Miss Hawkins, it
9021 might be fairly supposed from her easy conceit, had been the best of
9022 her own set. The rich brother-in-law near Bristol was the pride of the
9023 alliance, and his place and his carriages were the pride of him.
9024
9025 The very first subject after being seated was Maple Grove, “My brother
9026 Mr. Suckling’s seat;”--a comparison of Hartfield to Maple Grove. The
9027 grounds of Hartfield were small, but neat and pretty; and the house was
9028 modern and well-built. Mrs. Elton seemed most favourably impressed
9029 by the size of the room, the entrance, and all that she could see or
9030 imagine. “Very like Maple Grove indeed!--She was quite struck by the
9031 likeness!--That room was the very shape and size of the morning-room
9032 at Maple Grove; her sister’s favourite room.”--Mr. Elton was appealed
9033 to.--“Was not it astonishingly like?--She could really almost fancy
9034 herself at Maple Grove.”
9035
9036 “And the staircase--You know, as I came in, I observed how very like the
9037 staircase was; placed exactly in the same part of the house. I really
9038 could not help exclaiming! I assure you, Miss Woodhouse, it is very
9039 delightful to me, to be reminded of a place I am so extremely partial to
9040 as Maple Grove. I have spent so many happy months there! (with a little
9041 sigh of sentiment). A charming place, undoubtedly. Every body who
9042 sees it is struck by its beauty; but to me, it has been quite a home.
9043 Whenever you are transplanted, like me, Miss Woodhouse, you will
9044 understand how very delightful it is to meet with any thing at all like
9045 what one has left behind. I always say this is quite one of the evils of
9046 matrimony.”
9047
9048 Emma made as slight a reply as she could; but it was fully sufficient
9049 for Mrs. Elton, who only wanted to be talking herself.
9050
9051 “So extremely like Maple Grove! And it is not merely the house--the
9052 grounds, I assure you, as far as I could observe, are strikingly like.
9053 The laurels at Maple Grove are in the same profusion as here, and stand
9054 very much in the same way--just across the lawn; and I had a glimpse
9055 of a fine large tree, with a bench round it, which put me so exactly in
9056 mind! My brother and sister will be enchanted with this place. People
9057 who have extensive grounds themselves are always pleased with any thing
9058 in the same style.”
9059
9060 Emma doubted the truth of this sentiment. She had a great idea that
9061 people who had extensive grounds themselves cared very little for the
9062 extensive grounds of any body else; but it was not worth while to attack
9063 an error so double-dyed, and therefore only said in reply,
9064
9065 “When you have seen more of this country, I am afraid you will think you
9066 have overrated Hartfield. Surry is full of beauties.”
9067
9068 “Oh! yes, I am quite aware of that. It is the garden of England, you
9069 know. Surry is the garden of England.”
9070
9071 “Yes; but we must not rest our claims on that distinction. Many
9072 counties, I believe, are called the garden of England, as well as
9073 Surry.”
9074
9075 “No, I fancy not,” replied Mrs. Elton, with a most satisfied smile.
9076 “I never heard any county but Surry called so.”
9077
9078 Emma was silenced.
9079
9080 “My brother and sister have promised us a visit in the spring, or summer
9081 at farthest,” continued Mrs. Elton; “and that will be our time for
9082 exploring. While they are with us, we shall explore a great deal, I dare
9083 say. They will have their barouche-landau, of course, which holds four
9084 perfectly; and therefore, without saying any thing of _our_ carriage,
9085 we should be able to explore the different beauties extremely well. They
9086 would hardly come in their chaise, I think, at that season of the
9087 year. Indeed, when the time draws on, I shall decidedly recommend their
9088 bringing the barouche-landau; it will be so very much preferable.
9089 When people come into a beautiful country of this sort, you know, Miss
9090 Woodhouse, one naturally wishes them to see as much as possible; and Mr.
9091 Suckling is extremely fond of exploring. We explored to King’s-Weston
9092 twice last summer, in that way, most delightfully, just after their
9093 first having the barouche-landau. You have many parties of that kind
9094 here, I suppose, Miss Woodhouse, every summer?”
9095
9096 “No; not immediately here. We are rather out of distance of the very
9097 striking beauties which attract the sort of parties you speak of; and we
9098 are a very quiet set of people, I believe; more disposed to stay at home
9099 than engage in schemes of pleasure.”
9100
9101 “Ah! there is nothing like staying at home for real comfort. Nobody can
9102 be more devoted to home than I am. I was quite a proverb for it at Maple
9103 Grove. Many a time has Selina said, when she has been going to Bristol,
9104 ‘I really cannot get this girl to move from the house. I absolutely must
9105 go in by myself, though I hate being stuck up in the barouche-landau
9106 without a companion; but Augusta, I believe, with her own good-will,
9107 would never stir beyond the park paling.’ Many a time has she said so;
9108 and yet I am no advocate for entire seclusion. I think, on the contrary,
9109 when people shut themselves up entirely from society, it is a very
9110 bad thing; and that it is much more advisable to mix in the world in
9111 a proper degree, without living in it either too much or too little. I
9112 perfectly understand your situation, however, Miss Woodhouse--(looking
9113 towards Mr. Woodhouse), Your father’s state of health must be a great
9114 drawback. Why does not he try Bath?--Indeed he should. Let me recommend
9115 Bath to you. I assure you I have no doubt of its doing Mr. Woodhouse
9116 good.”
9117
9118 “My father tried it more than once, formerly; but without receiving any
9119 benefit; and Mr. Perry, whose name, I dare say, is not unknown to you,
9120 does not conceive it would be at all more likely to be useful now.”
9121
9122 “Ah! that’s a great pity; for I assure you, Miss Woodhouse, where the
9123 waters do agree, it is quite wonderful the relief they give. In my Bath
9124 life, I have seen such instances of it! And it is so cheerful a place,
9125 that it could not fail of being of use to Mr. Woodhouse’s spirits,
9126 which, I understand, are sometimes much depressed. And as to its
9127 recommendations to _you_, I fancy I need not take much pains to dwell
9128 on them. The advantages of Bath to the young are pretty generally
9129 understood. It would be a charming introduction for you, who have lived
9130 so secluded a life; and I could immediately secure you some of the best
9131 society in the place. A line from me would bring you a little host of
9132 acquaintance; and my particular friend, Mrs. Partridge, the lady I have
9133 always resided with when in Bath, would be most happy to shew you any
9134 attentions, and would be the very person for you to go into public
9135 with.”
9136
9137 It was as much as Emma could bear, without being impolite. The idea
9138 of her being indebted to Mrs. Elton for what was called an
9139 _introduction_--of her going into public under the auspices of a friend
9140 of Mrs. Elton’s--probably some vulgar, dashing widow, who, with the
9141 help of a boarder, just made a shift to live!--The dignity of Miss
9142 Woodhouse, of Hartfield, was sunk indeed!
9143
9144 She restrained herself, however, from any of the reproofs she could have
9145 given, and only thanked Mrs. Elton coolly; “but their going to Bath was
9146 quite out of the question; and she was not perfectly convinced that
9147 the place might suit her better than her father.” And then, to prevent
9148 farther outrage and indignation, changed the subject directly.
9149
9150 “I do not ask whether you are musical, Mrs. Elton. Upon these occasions,
9151 a lady’s character generally precedes her; and Highbury has long known
9152 that you are a superior performer.”
9153
9154 “Oh! no, indeed; I must protest against any such idea. A superior
9155 performer!--very far from it, I assure you. Consider from how partial
9156 a quarter your information came. I am doatingly fond of
9157 music--passionately fond;--and my friends say I am not entirely devoid
9158 of taste; but as to any thing else, upon my honour my performance is
9159 _mediocre_ to the last degree. You, Miss Woodhouse, I well know, play
9160 delightfully. I assure you it has been the greatest satisfaction,
9161 comfort, and delight to me, to hear what a musical society I am got
9162 into. I absolutely cannot do without music. It is a necessary of life to
9163 me; and having always been used to a very musical society, both at
9164 Maple Grove and in Bath, it would have been a most serious sacrifice. I
9165 honestly said as much to Mr. E. when he was speaking of my future
9166 home, and expressing his fears lest the retirement of it should be
9167 disagreeable; and the inferiority of the house too--knowing what I had
9168 been accustomed to--of course he was not wholly without apprehension.
9169 When he was speaking of it in that way, I honestly said that _the_
9170 _world_ I could give up--parties, balls, plays--for I had no fear of
9171 retirement. Blessed with so many resources within myself, the world was
9172 not necessary to _me_. I could do very well without it. To those who had
9173 no resources it was a different thing; but my resources made me quite
9174 independent. And as to smaller-sized rooms than I had been used to, I
9175 really could not give it a thought. I hoped I was perfectly equal to any
9176 sacrifice of that description. Certainly I had been accustomed to every
9177 luxury at Maple Grove; but I did assure him that two carriages were not
9178 necessary to my happiness, nor were spacious apartments. ‘But,’ said I,
9179 ‘to be quite honest, I do not think I can live without something of a
9180 musical society. I condition for nothing else; but without music, life
9181 would be a blank to me.’”
9182
9183 “We cannot suppose,” said Emma, smiling, “that Mr. Elton would hesitate
9184 to assure you of there being a _very_ musical society in Highbury; and
9185 I hope you will not find he has outstepped the truth more than may be
9186 pardoned, in consideration of the motive.”
9187
9188 “No, indeed, I have no doubts at all on that head. I am delighted to
9189 find myself in such a circle. I hope we shall have many sweet little
9190 concerts together. I think, Miss Woodhouse, you and I must establish a
9191 musical club, and have regular weekly meetings at your house, or ours.
9192 Will not it be a good plan? If _we_ exert ourselves, I think we shall
9193 not be long in want of allies. Something of that nature would be
9194 particularly desirable for _me_, as an inducement to keep me in
9195 practice; for married women, you know--there is a sad story against
9196 them, in general. They are but too apt to give up music.”
9197
9198 “But you, who are so extremely fond of it--there can be no danger,
9199 surely?”
9200
9201 “I should hope not; but really when I look around among my acquaintance,
9202 I tremble. Selina has entirely given up music--never touches the
9203 instrument--though she played sweetly. And the same may be said of Mrs.
9204 Jeffereys--Clara Partridge, that was--and of the two Milmans, now Mrs.
9205 Bird and Mrs. James Cooper; and of more than I can enumerate. Upon my
9206 word it is enough to put one in a fright. I used to be quite angry with
9207 Selina; but really I begin now to comprehend that a married woman has
9208 many things to call her attention. I believe I was half an hour this
9209 morning shut up with my housekeeper.”
9210
9211 “But every thing of that kind,” said Emma, “will soon be in so regular a
9212 train--”
9213
9214 “Well,” said Mrs. Elton, laughing, “we shall see.”
9215
9216 Emma, finding her so determined upon neglecting her music, had nothing
9217 more to say; and, after a moment’s pause, Mrs. Elton chose another
9218 subject.
9219
9220 “We have been calling at Randalls,” said she, “and found them both at
9221 home; and very pleasant people they seem to be. I like them extremely.
9222 Mr. Weston seems an excellent creature--quite a first-rate favourite
9223 with me already, I assure you. And _she_ appears so truly good--there is
9224 something so motherly and kind-hearted about her, that it wins upon one
9225 directly. She was your governess, I think?”
9226
9227 Emma was almost too much astonished to answer; but Mrs. Elton hardly
9228 waited for the affirmative before she went on.
9229
9230 “Having understood as much, I was rather astonished to find her so very
9231 lady-like! But she is really quite the gentlewoman.”
9232
9233 “Mrs. Weston’s manners,” said Emma, “were always particularly good.
9234 Their propriety, simplicity, and elegance, would make them the safest
9235 model for any young woman.”
9236
9237 “And who do you think came in while we were there?”
9238
9239 Emma was quite at a loss. The tone implied some old acquaintance--and
9240 how could she possibly guess?
9241
9242 “Knightley!” continued Mrs. Elton; “Knightley himself!--Was not it
9243 lucky?--for, not being within when he called the other day, I had never
9244 seen him before; and of course, as so particular a friend of Mr. E.’s,
9245 I had a great curiosity. ‘My friend Knightley’ had been so often
9246 mentioned, that I was really impatient to see him; and I must do my
9247 caro sposo the justice to say that he need not be ashamed of his friend.
9248 Knightley is quite the gentleman. I like him very much. Decidedly, I
9249 think, a very gentleman-like man.”
9250
9251 Happily, it was now time to be gone. They were off; and Emma could
9252 breathe.
9253
9254 “Insufferable woman!” was her immediate exclamation. “Worse than I had
9255 supposed. Absolutely insufferable! Knightley!--I could not have
9256 believed it. Knightley!--never seen him in her life before, and call
9257 him Knightley!--and discover that he is a gentleman! A little upstart,
9258 vulgar being, with her Mr. E., and her _caro_ _sposo_, and her
9259 resources, and all her airs of pert pretension and underbred finery.
9260 Actually to discover that Mr. Knightley is a gentleman! I doubt whether
9261 he will return the compliment, and discover her to be a lady. I could
9262 not have believed it! And to propose that she and I should unite to
9263 form a musical club! One would fancy we were bosom friends! And Mrs.
9264 Weston!--Astonished that the person who had brought me up should be a
9265 gentlewoman! Worse and worse. I never met with her equal. Much beyond
9266 my hopes. Harriet is disgraced by any comparison. Oh! what would Frank
9267 Churchill say to her, if he were here? How angry and how diverted he
9268 would be! Ah! there I am--thinking of him directly. Always the first
9269 person to be thought of! How I catch myself out! Frank Churchill comes
9270 as regularly into my mind!”--
9271
9272 All this ran so glibly through her thoughts, that by the time her father
9273 had arranged himself, after the bustle of the Eltons’ departure, and was
9274 ready to speak, she was very tolerably capable of attending.
9275
9276 “Well, my dear,” he deliberately began, “considering we never saw her
9277 before, she seems a very pretty sort of young lady; and I dare say she
9278 was very much pleased with you. She speaks a little too quick. A little
9279 quickness of voice there is which rather hurts the ear. But I believe
9280 I am nice; I do not like strange voices; and nobody speaks like you and
9281 poor Miss Taylor. However, she seems a very obliging, pretty-behaved
9282 young lady, and no doubt will make him a very good wife. Though I think
9283 he had better not have married. I made the best excuses I could for not
9284 having been able to wait on him and Mrs. Elton on this happy occasion; I
9285 said that I hoped I _should_ in the course of the summer. But I ought to
9286 have gone before. Not to wait upon a bride is very remiss. Ah! it shews
9287 what a sad invalid I am! But I do not like the corner into Vicarage
9288 Lane.”
9289
9290 “I dare say your apologies were accepted, sir. Mr. Elton knows you.”
9291
9292 “Yes: but a young lady--a bride--I ought to have paid my respects to her
9293 if possible. It was being very deficient.”
9294
9295 “But, my dear papa, you are no friend to matrimony; and therefore why
9296 should you be so anxious to pay your respects to a _bride_? It ought to
9297 be no recommendation to _you_. It is encouraging people to marry if you
9298 make so much of them.”
9299
9300 “No, my dear, I never encouraged any body to marry, but I would always
9301 wish to pay every proper attention to a lady--and a bride, especially,
9302 is never to be neglected. More is avowedly due to _her_. A bride, you
9303 know, my dear, is always the first in company, let the others be who
9304 they may.”
9305
9306 “Well, papa, if this is not encouragement to marry, I do not know what
9307 is. And I should never have expected you to be lending your sanction to
9308 such vanity-baits for poor young ladies.”
9309
9310 “My dear, you do not understand me. This is a matter of mere
9311 common politeness and good-breeding, and has nothing to do with any
9312 encouragement to people to marry.”
9313
9314 Emma had done. Her father was growing nervous, and could not understand
9315 _her_. Her mind returned to Mrs. Elton’s offences, and long, very long,
9316 did they occupy her.
9317
9318
9319
9320 CHAPTER XV
9321
9322
9323 Emma was not required, by any subsequent discovery, to retract her ill
9324 opinion of Mrs. Elton. Her observation had been pretty correct. Such as
9325 Mrs. Elton appeared to her on this second interview, such she appeared
9326 whenever they met again,--self-important, presuming, familiar, ignorant,
9327 and ill-bred. She had a little beauty and a little accomplishment,
9328 but so little judgment that she thought herself coming with superior
9329 knowledge of the world, to enliven and improve a country neighbourhood;
9330 and conceived Miss Hawkins to have held such a place in society as Mrs.
9331 Elton’s consequence only could surpass.
9332
9333 There was no reason to suppose Mr. Elton thought at all differently from
9334 his wife. He seemed not merely happy with her, but proud. He had the air
9335 of congratulating himself on having brought such a woman to Highbury,
9336 as not even Miss Woodhouse could equal; and the greater part of her
9337 new acquaintance, disposed to commend, or not in the habit of judging,
9338 following the lead of Miss Bates’s good-will, or taking it for granted
9339 that the bride must be as clever and as agreeable as she professed
9340 herself, were very well satisfied; so that Mrs. Elton’s praise
9341 passed from one mouth to another as it ought to do, unimpeded by Miss
9342 Woodhouse, who readily continued her first contribution and talked with
9343 a good grace of her being “very pleasant and very elegantly dressed.”
9344
9345 In one respect Mrs. Elton grew even worse than she had appeared at
9346 first. Her feelings altered towards Emma.--Offended, probably, by the
9347 little encouragement which her proposals of intimacy met with, she drew
9348 back in her turn and gradually became much more cold and distant; and
9349 though the effect was agreeable, the ill-will which produced it was
9350 necessarily increasing Emma’s dislike. Her manners, too--and Mr.
9351 Elton’s, were unpleasant towards Harriet. They were sneering and
9352 negligent. Emma hoped it must rapidly work Harriet’s cure; but the
9353 sensations which could prompt such behaviour sunk them both very
9354 much.--It was not to be doubted that poor Harriet’s attachment had been
9355 an offering to conjugal unreserve, and her own share in the story, under
9356 a colouring the least favourable to her and the most soothing to him,
9357 had in all likelihood been given also. She was, of course, the object
9358 of their joint dislike.--When they had nothing else to say, it must be
9359 always easy to begin abusing Miss Woodhouse; and the enmity which
9360 they dared not shew in open disrespect to her, found a broader vent in
9361 contemptuous treatment of Harriet.
9362
9363 Mrs. Elton took a great fancy to Jane Fairfax; and from the first. Not
9364 merely when a state of warfare with one young lady might be supposed to
9365 recommend the other, but from the very first; and she was not satisfied
9366 with expressing a natural and reasonable admiration--but without
9367 solicitation, or plea, or privilege, she must be wanting to assist and
9368 befriend her.--Before Emma had forfeited her confidence, and about the
9369 third time of their meeting, she heard all Mrs. Elton’s knight-errantry
9370 on the subject.--
9371
9372 “Jane Fairfax is absolutely charming, Miss Woodhouse.--I quite rave
9373 about Jane Fairfax.--A sweet, interesting creature. So mild and
9374 ladylike--and with such talents!--I assure you I think she has very
9375 extraordinary talents. I do not scruple to say that she plays extremely
9376 well. I know enough of music to speak decidedly on that point. Oh! she
9377 is absolutely charming! You will laugh at my warmth--but, upon my word,
9378 I talk of nothing but Jane Fairfax.--And her situation is so calculated
9379 to affect one!--Miss Woodhouse, we must exert ourselves and endeavour
9380 to do something for her. We must bring her forward. Such talent as hers
9381 must not be suffered to remain unknown.--I dare say you have heard those
9382 charming lines of the poet,
9383
9384 ‘Full many a flower is born to blush unseen,
9385 ‘And waste its fragrance on the desert air.’
9386
9387 We must not allow them to be verified in sweet Jane Fairfax.”
9388
9389 “I cannot think there is any danger of it,” was Emma’s calm answer--“and
9390 when you are better acquainted with Miss Fairfax’s situation and
9391 understand what her home has been, with Colonel and Mrs. Campbell, I
9392 have no idea that you will suppose her talents can be unknown.”
9393
9394 “Oh! but dear Miss Woodhouse, she is now in such retirement, such
9395 obscurity, so thrown away.--Whatever advantages she may have enjoyed
9396 with the Campbells are so palpably at an end! And I think she feels it.
9397 I am sure she does. She is very timid and silent. One can see that she
9398 feels the want of encouragement. I like her the better for it. I
9399 must confess it is a recommendation to me. I am a great advocate for
9400 timidity--and I am sure one does not often meet with it.--But in those
9401 who are at all inferior, it is extremely prepossessing. Oh! I assure
9402 you, Jane Fairfax is a very delightful character, and interests me more
9403 than I can express.”
9404
9405 “You appear to feel a great deal--but I am not aware how you or any of
9406 Miss Fairfax’s acquaintance here, any of those who have known her longer
9407 than yourself, can shew her any other attention than”--
9408
9409 “My dear Miss Woodhouse, a vast deal may be done by those who dare to
9410 act. You and I need not be afraid. If _we_ set the example, many will
9411 follow it as far as they can; though all have not our situations. _We_
9412 have carriages to fetch and convey her home, and _we_ live in a style
9413 which could not make the addition of Jane Fairfax, at any time, the
9414 least inconvenient.--I should be extremely displeased if Wright were to
9415 send us up such a dinner, as could make me regret having asked _more_
9416 than Jane Fairfax to partake of it. I have no idea of that sort of
9417 thing. It is not likely that I _should_, considering what I have been
9418 used to. My greatest danger, perhaps, in housekeeping, may be quite the
9419 other way, in doing too much, and being too careless of expense. Maple
9420 Grove will probably be my model more than it ought to be--for we do not
9421 at all affect to equal my brother, Mr. Suckling, in income.--However, my
9422 resolution is taken as to noticing Jane Fairfax.--I shall certainly have
9423 her very often at my house, shall introduce her wherever I can, shall
9424 have musical parties to draw out her talents, and shall be constantly
9425 on the watch for an eligible situation. My acquaintance is so very
9426 extensive, that I have little doubt of hearing of something to suit
9427 her shortly.--I shall introduce her, of course, very particularly to my
9428 brother and sister when they come to us. I am sure they will like her
9429 extremely; and when she gets a little acquainted with them, her fears
9430 will completely wear off, for there really is nothing in the manners
9431 of either but what is highly conciliating.--I shall have her very often
9432 indeed while they are with me, and I dare say we shall sometimes find a
9433 seat for her in the barouche-landau in some of our exploring parties.”
9434
9435 “Poor Jane Fairfax!”--thought Emma.--“You have not deserved this. You
9436 may have done wrong with regard to Mr. Dixon, but this is a punishment
9437 beyond what you can have merited!--The kindness and protection of Mrs.
9438 Elton!--‘Jane Fairfax and Jane Fairfax.’ Heavens! Let me not suppose
9439 that she dares go about, Emma Woodhouse-ing me!--But upon my honour,
9440 there seems no limits to the licentiousness of that woman’s tongue!”
9441
9442 Emma had not to listen to such paradings again--to any so exclusively
9443 addressed to herself--so disgustingly decorated with a “dear Miss
9444 Woodhouse.” The change on Mrs. Elton’s side soon afterwards appeared,
9445 and she was left in peace--neither forced to be the very particular
9446 friend of Mrs. Elton, nor, under Mrs. Elton’s guidance, the very active
9447 patroness of Jane Fairfax, and only sharing with others in a general
9448 way, in knowing what was felt, what was meditated, what was done.
9449
9450 She looked on with some amusement.--Miss Bates’s gratitude for
9451 Mrs. Elton’s attentions to Jane was in the first style of guileless
9452 simplicity and warmth. She was quite one of her worthies--the
9453 most amiable, affable, delightful woman--just as accomplished and
9454 condescending as Mrs. Elton meant to be considered. Emma’s only surprize
9455 was that Jane Fairfax should accept those attentions and tolerate Mrs.
9456 Elton as she seemed to do. She heard of her walking with the Eltons,
9457 sitting with the Eltons, spending a day with the Eltons! This was
9458 astonishing!--She could not have believed it possible that the taste or
9459 the pride of Miss Fairfax could endure such society and friendship as
9460 the Vicarage had to offer.
9461
9462 “She is a riddle, quite a riddle!” said she.--“To chuse to remain here
9463 month after month, under privations of every sort! And now to chuse the
9464 mortification of Mrs. Elton’s notice and the penury of her conversation,
9465 rather than return to the superior companions who have always loved her
9466 with such real, generous affection.”
9467
9468 Jane had come to Highbury professedly for three months; the Campbells
9469 were gone to Ireland for three months; but now the Campbells had
9470 promised their daughter to stay at least till Midsummer, and fresh
9471 invitations had arrived for her to join them there. According to Miss
9472 Bates--it all came from her--Mrs. Dixon had written most pressingly.
9473 Would Jane but go, means were to be found, servants sent, friends
9474 contrived--no travelling difficulty allowed to exist; but still she had
9475 declined it!
9476
9477 “She must have some motive, more powerful than appears, for refusing
9478 this invitation,” was Emma’s conclusion. “She must be under some sort
9479 of penance, inflicted either by the Campbells or herself. There is great
9480 fear, great caution, great resolution somewhere.--She is _not_ to be
9481 with the _Dixons_. The decree is issued by somebody. But why must she
9482 consent to be with the Eltons?--Here is quite a separate puzzle.”
9483
9484 Upon her speaking her wonder aloud on that part of the subject, before
9485 the few who knew her opinion of Mrs. Elton, Mrs. Weston ventured this
9486 apology for Jane.
9487
9488 “We cannot suppose that she has any great enjoyment at the Vicarage,
9489 my dear Emma--but it is better than being always at home. Her aunt is a
9490 good creature, but, as a constant companion, must be very tiresome. We
9491 must consider what Miss Fairfax quits, before we condemn her taste for
9492 what she goes to.”
9493
9494 “You are right, Mrs. Weston,” said Mr. Knightley warmly, “Miss Fairfax
9495 is as capable as any of us of forming a just opinion of Mrs. Elton.
9496 Could she have chosen with whom to associate, she would not have chosen
9497 her. But (with a reproachful smile at Emma) she receives attentions from
9498 Mrs. Elton, which nobody else pays her.”
9499
9500 Emma felt that Mrs. Weston was giving her a momentary glance; and she
9501 was herself struck by his warmth. With a faint blush, she presently
9502 replied,
9503
9504 “Such attentions as Mrs. Elton’s, I should have imagined, would rather
9505 disgust than gratify Miss Fairfax. Mrs. Elton’s invitations I should
9506 have imagined any thing but inviting.”
9507
9508 “I should not wonder,” said Mrs. Weston, “if Miss Fairfax were to have
9509 been drawn on beyond her own inclination, by her aunt’s eagerness in
9510 accepting Mrs. Elton’s civilities for her. Poor Miss Bates may
9511 very likely have committed her niece and hurried her into a greater
9512 appearance of intimacy than her own good sense would have dictated, in
9513 spite of the very natural wish of a little change.”
9514
9515 Both felt rather anxious to hear him speak again; and after a few
9516 minutes silence, he said,
9517
9518 “Another thing must be taken into consideration too--Mrs. Elton does
9519 not talk _to_ Miss Fairfax as she speaks _of_ her. We all know the
9520 difference between the pronouns he or she and thou, the plainest spoken
9521 amongst us; we all feel the influence of a something beyond common
9522 civility in our personal intercourse with each other--a something more
9523 early implanted. We cannot give any body the disagreeable hints that we
9524 may have been very full of the hour before. We feel things differently.
9525 And besides the operation of this, as a general principle, you may be
9526 sure that Miss Fairfax awes Mrs. Elton by her superiority both of mind
9527 and manner; and that, face to face, Mrs. Elton treats her with all the
9528 respect which she has a claim to. Such a woman as Jane Fairfax probably
9529 never fell in Mrs. Elton’s way before--and no degree of vanity can
9530 prevent her acknowledging her own comparative littleness in action, if
9531 not in consciousness.”
9532
9533 “I know how highly you think of Jane Fairfax,” said Emma. Little Henry
9534 was in her thoughts, and a mixture of alarm and delicacy made her
9535 irresolute what else to say.
9536
9537 “Yes,” he replied, “any body may know how highly I think of her.”
9538
9539 “And yet,” said Emma, beginning hastily and with an arch look, but soon
9540 stopping--it was better, however, to know the worst at once--she hurried
9541 on--“And yet, perhaps, you may hardly be aware yourself how highly it
9542 is. The extent of your admiration may take you by surprize some day or
9543 other.”
9544
9545 Mr. Knightley was hard at work upon the lower buttons of his thick
9546 leather gaiters, and either the exertion of getting them together, or
9547 some other cause, brought the colour into his face, as he answered,
9548
9549 “Oh! are you there?--But you are miserably behindhand. Mr. Cole gave me
9550 a hint of it six weeks ago.”
9551
9552 He stopped.--Emma felt her foot pressed by Mrs. Weston, and did not
9553 herself know what to think. In a moment he went on--
9554
9555 “That will never be, however, I can assure you. Miss Fairfax, I dare
9556 say, would not have me if I were to ask her--and I am very sure I shall
9557 never ask her.”
9558
9559 Emma returned her friend’s pressure with interest; and was pleased
9560 enough to exclaim,
9561
9562 “You are not vain, Mr. Knightley. I will say that for you.”
9563
9564 He seemed hardly to hear her; he was thoughtful--and in a manner which
9565 shewed him not pleased, soon afterwards said,
9566
9567 “So you have been settling that I should marry Jane Fairfax?”
9568
9569 “No indeed I have not. You have scolded me too much for match-making,
9570 for me to presume to take such a liberty with you. What I said just now,
9571 meant nothing. One says those sort of things, of course, without any
9572 idea of a serious meaning. Oh! no, upon my word I have not the smallest
9573 wish for your marrying Jane Fairfax or Jane any body. You would not come
9574 in and sit with us in this comfortable way, if you were married.”
9575
9576 Mr. Knightley was thoughtful again. The result of his reverie was, “No,
9577 Emma, I do not think the extent of my admiration for her will ever take
9578 me by surprize.--I never had a thought of her in that way, I assure
9579 you.” And soon afterwards, “Jane Fairfax is a very charming young
9580 woman--but not even Jane Fairfax is perfect. She has a fault. She has
9581 not the open temper which a man would wish for in a wife.”
9582
9583 Emma could not but rejoice to hear that she had a fault. “Well,” said
9584 she, “and you soon silenced Mr. Cole, I suppose?”
9585
9586 “Yes, very soon. He gave me a quiet hint; I told him he was mistaken;
9587 he asked my pardon and said no more. Cole does not want to be wiser or
9588 wittier than his neighbours.”
9589
9590 “In that respect how unlike dear Mrs. Elton, who wants to be wiser and
9591 wittier than all the world! I wonder how she speaks of the Coles--what
9592 she calls them! How can she find any appellation for them, deep enough
9593 in familiar vulgarity? She calls you, Knightley--what can she do for
9594 Mr. Cole? And so I am not to be surprized that Jane Fairfax accepts
9595 her civilities and consents to be with her. Mrs. Weston, your argument
9596 weighs most with me. I can much more readily enter into the temptation
9597 of getting away from Miss Bates, than I can believe in the triumph of
9598 Miss Fairfax’s mind over Mrs. Elton. I have no faith in Mrs. Elton’s
9599 acknowledging herself the inferior in thought, word, or deed; or in her
9600 being under any restraint beyond her own scanty rule of good-breeding.
9601 I cannot imagine that she will not be continually insulting her visitor
9602 with praise, encouragement, and offers of service; that she will not be
9603 continually detailing her magnificent intentions, from the procuring her
9604 a permanent situation to the including her in those delightful exploring
9605 parties which are to take place in the barouche-landau.”
9606
9607 “Jane Fairfax has feeling,” said Mr. Knightley--“I do not accuse her
9608 of want of feeling. Her sensibilities, I suspect, are strong--and her
9609 temper excellent in its power of forbearance, patience, self-control;
9610 but it wants openness. She is reserved, more reserved, I think, than
9611 she used to be--And I love an open temper. No--till Cole alluded to my
9612 supposed attachment, it had never entered my head. I saw Jane Fairfax
9613 and conversed with her, with admiration and pleasure always--but with no
9614 thought beyond.”
9615
9616 “Well, Mrs. Weston,” said Emma triumphantly when he left them, “what do
9617 you say now to Mr. Knightley’s marrying Jane Fairfax?”
9618
9619 “Why, really, dear Emma, I say that he is so very much occupied by the
9620 idea of _not_ being in love with her, that I should not wonder if it
9621 were to end in his being so at last. Do not beat me.”
9622
9623
9624
9625 CHAPTER XVI
9626
9627
9628 Every body in and about Highbury who had ever visited Mr. Elton, was
9629 disposed to pay him attention on his marriage. Dinner-parties and
9630 evening-parties were made for him and his lady; and invitations flowed
9631 in so fast that she had soon the pleasure of apprehending they were
9632 never to have a disengaged day.
9633
9634 “I see how it is,” said she. “I see what a life I am to lead among you.
9635 Upon my word we shall be absolutely dissipated. We really seem quite
9636 the fashion. If this is living in the country, it is nothing very
9637 formidable. From Monday next to Saturday, I assure you we have not a
9638 disengaged day!--A woman with fewer resources than I have, need not have
9639 been at a loss.”
9640
9641 No invitation came amiss to her. Her Bath habits made evening-parties
9642 perfectly natural to her, and Maple Grove had given her a taste for
9643 dinners. She was a little shocked at the want of two drawing rooms, at
9644 the poor attempt at rout-cakes, and there being no ice in the Highbury
9645 card-parties. Mrs. Bates, Mrs. Perry, Mrs. Goddard and others, were a
9646 good deal behind-hand in knowledge of the world, but she would soon shew
9647 them how every thing ought to be arranged. In the course of the spring
9648 she must return their civilities by one very superior party--in which
9649 her card-tables should be set out with their separate candles and
9650 unbroken packs in the true style--and more waiters engaged for the
9651 evening than their own establishment could furnish, to carry round the
9652 refreshments at exactly the proper hour, and in the proper order.
9653
9654 Emma, in the meanwhile, could not be satisfied without a dinner at
9655 Hartfield for the Eltons. They must not do less than others, or she
9656 should be exposed to odious suspicions, and imagined capable of pitiful
9657 resentment. A dinner there must be. After Emma had talked about it for
9658 ten minutes, Mr. Woodhouse felt no unwillingness, and only made the
9659 usual stipulation of not sitting at the bottom of the table himself,
9660 with the usual regular difficulty of deciding who should do it for him.
9661
9662 The persons to be invited, required little thought. Besides the
9663 Eltons, it must be the Westons and Mr. Knightley; so far it was all of
9664 course--and it was hardly less inevitable that poor little Harriet must
9665 be asked to make the eighth:--but this invitation was not given with
9666 equal satisfaction, and on many accounts Emma was particularly pleased
9667 by Harriet’s begging to be allowed to decline it. “She would rather not
9668 be in his company more than she could help. She was not yet quite
9669 able to see him and his charming happy wife together, without feeling
9670 uncomfortable. If Miss Woodhouse would not be displeased, she would
9671 rather stay at home.” It was precisely what Emma would have wished, had
9672 she deemed it possible enough for wishing. She was delighted with the
9673 fortitude of her little friend--for fortitude she knew it was in her to
9674 give up being in company and stay at home; and she could now invite the
9675 very person whom she really wanted to make the eighth, Jane Fairfax.--
9676 Since her last conversation with Mrs. Weston and Mr. Knightley, she
9677 was more conscience-stricken about Jane Fairfax than she had often
9678 been.--Mr. Knightley’s words dwelt with her. He had said that Jane
9679 Fairfax received attentions from Mrs. Elton which nobody else paid her.
9680
9681 “This is very true,” said she, “at least as far as relates to me, which
9682 was all that was meant--and it is very shameful.--Of the same age--and
9683 always knowing her--I ought to have been more her friend.--She will
9684 never like me now. I have neglected her too long. But I will shew her
9685 greater attention than I have done.”
9686
9687 Every invitation was successful. They were all disengaged and all
9688 happy.--The preparatory interest of this dinner, however, was not yet
9689 over. A circumstance rather unlucky occurred. The two eldest little
9690 Knightleys were engaged to pay their grandpapa and aunt a visit of some
9691 weeks in the spring, and their papa now proposed bringing them, and
9692 staying one whole day at Hartfield--which one day would be the very day
9693 of this party.--His professional engagements did not allow of his being
9694 put off, but both father and daughter were disturbed by its happening
9695 so. Mr. Woodhouse considered eight persons at dinner together as the
9696 utmost that his nerves could bear--and here would be a ninth--and Emma
9697 apprehended that it would be a ninth very much out of humour at not
9698 being able to come even to Hartfield for forty-eight hours without
9699 falling in with a dinner-party.
9700
9701 She comforted her father better than she could comfort herself, by
9702 representing that though he certainly would make them nine, yet
9703 he always said so little, that the increase of noise would be very
9704 immaterial. She thought it in reality a sad exchange for herself, to
9705 have him with his grave looks and reluctant conversation opposed to her
9706 instead of his brother.
9707
9708 The event was more favourable to Mr. Woodhouse than to Emma. John
9709 Knightley came; but Mr. Weston was unexpectedly summoned to town and
9710 must be absent on the very day. He might be able to join them in the
9711 evening, but certainly not to dinner. Mr. Woodhouse was quite at ease;
9712 and the seeing him so, with the arrival of the little boys and the
9713 philosophic composure of her brother on hearing his fate, removed the
9714 chief of even Emma’s vexation.
9715
9716 The day came, the party were punctually assembled, and Mr. John
9717 Knightley seemed early to devote himself to the business of being
9718 agreeable. Instead of drawing his brother off to a window while they
9719 waited for dinner, he was talking to Miss Fairfax. Mrs. Elton,
9720 as elegant as lace and pearls could make her, he looked at in
9721 silence--wanting only to observe enough for Isabella’s information--but
9722 Miss Fairfax was an old acquaintance and a quiet girl, and he could talk
9723 to her. He had met her before breakfast as he was returning from a walk
9724 with his little boys, when it had been just beginning to rain. It was
9725 natural to have some civil hopes on the subject, and he said,
9726
9727 “I hope you did not venture far, Miss Fairfax, this morning, or I am
9728 sure you must have been wet.--We scarcely got home in time. I hope you
9729 turned directly.”
9730
9731 “I went only to the post-office,” said she, “and reached home before the
9732 rain was much. It is my daily errand. I always fetch the letters when
9733 I am here. It saves trouble, and is a something to get me out. A walk
9734 before breakfast does me good.”
9735
9736 “Not a walk in the rain, I should imagine.”
9737
9738 “No, but it did not absolutely rain when I set out.”
9739
9740 Mr. John Knightley smiled, and replied,
9741
9742 “That is to say, you chose to have your walk, for you were not six yards
9743 from your own door when I had the pleasure of meeting you; and Henry
9744 and John had seen more drops than they could count long before. The
9745 post-office has a great charm at one period of our lives. When you have
9746 lived to my age, you will begin to think letters are never worth going
9747 through the rain for.”
9748
9749 There was a little blush, and then this answer,
9750
9751 “I must not hope to be ever situated as you are, in the midst of every
9752 dearest connexion, and therefore I cannot expect that simply growing
9753 older should make me indifferent about letters.”
9754
9755 “Indifferent! Oh! no--I never conceived you could become indifferent.
9756 Letters are no matter of indifference; they are generally a very
9757 positive curse.”
9758
9759 “You are speaking of letters of business; mine are letters of
9760 friendship.”
9761
9762 “I have often thought them the worst of the two,” replied he coolly.
9763 “Business, you know, may bring money, but friendship hardly ever does.”
9764
9765 “Ah! you are not serious now. I know Mr. John Knightley too well--I am
9766 very sure he understands the value of friendship as well as any body. I
9767 can easily believe that letters are very little to you, much less than
9768 to me, but it is not your being ten years older than myself which
9769 makes the difference, it is not age, but situation. You have every
9770 body dearest to you always at hand, I, probably, never shall again;
9771 and therefore till I have outlived all my affections, a post-office,
9772 I think, must always have power to draw me out, in worse weather than
9773 to-day.”
9774
9775 “When I talked of your being altered by time, by the progress of years,”
9776 said John Knightley, “I meant to imply the change of situation which
9777 time usually brings. I consider one as including the other. Time will
9778 generally lessen the interest of every attachment not within the daily
9779 circle--but that is not the change I had in view for you. As an old
9780 friend, you will allow me to hope, Miss Fairfax, that ten years hence
9781 you may have as many concentrated objects as I have.”
9782
9783 It was kindly said, and very far from giving offence. A pleasant “thank
9784 you” seemed meant to laugh it off, but a blush, a quivering lip, a tear
9785 in the eye, shewed that it was felt beyond a laugh. Her attention was
9786 now claimed by Mr. Woodhouse, who being, according to his custom on such
9787 occasions, making the circle of his guests, and paying his particular
9788 compliments to the ladies, was ending with her--and with all his mildest
9789 urbanity, said,
9790
9791 “I am very sorry to hear, Miss Fairfax, of your being out this morning
9792 in the rain. Young ladies should take care of themselves.--Young ladies
9793 are delicate plants. They should take care of their health and their
9794 complexion. My dear, did you change your stockings?”
9795
9796 “Yes, sir, I did indeed; and I am very much obliged by your kind
9797 solicitude about me.”
9798
9799 “My dear Miss Fairfax, young ladies are very sure to be cared for.--I
9800 hope your good grand-mama and aunt are well. They are some of my very
9801 old friends. I wish my health allowed me to be a better neighbour. You
9802 do us a great deal of honour to-day, I am sure. My daughter and I
9803 are both highly sensible of your goodness, and have the greatest
9804 satisfaction in seeing you at Hartfield.”
9805
9806 The kind-hearted, polite old man might then sit down and feel that he
9807 had done his duty, and made every fair lady welcome and easy.
9808
9809 By this time, the walk in the rain had reached Mrs. Elton, and her
9810 remonstrances now opened upon Jane.
9811
9812 “My dear Jane, what is this I hear?--Going to the post-office in the
9813 rain!--This must not be, I assure you.--You sad girl, how could you do
9814 such a thing?--It is a sign I was not there to take care of you.”
9815
9816 Jane very patiently assured her that she had not caught any cold.
9817
9818 “Oh! do not tell _me_. You really are a very sad girl, and do not know
9819 how to take care of yourself.--To the post-office indeed! Mrs. Weston,
9820 did you ever hear the like? You and I must positively exert our
9821 authority.”
9822
9823 “My advice,” said Mrs. Weston kindly and persuasively, “I certainly do
9824 feel tempted to give. Miss Fairfax, you must not run such risks.--Liable
9825 as you have been to severe colds, indeed you ought to be particularly
9826 careful, especially at this time of year. The spring I always think
9827 requires more than common care. Better wait an hour or two, or even
9828 half a day for your letters, than run the risk of bringing on your cough
9829 again. Now do not you feel that you had? Yes, I am sure you are much too
9830 reasonable. You look as if you would not do such a thing again.”
9831
9832 “Oh! she _shall_ _not_ do such a thing again,” eagerly rejoined Mrs.
9833 Elton. “We will not allow her to do such a thing again:”--and nodding
9834 significantly--“there must be some arrangement made, there must indeed.
9835 I shall speak to Mr. E. The man who fetches our letters every morning
9836 (one of our men, I forget his name) shall inquire for yours too and
9837 bring them to you. That will obviate all difficulties you know; and from
9838 _us_ I really think, my dear Jane, you can have no scruple to accept
9839 such an accommodation.”
9840
9841 “You are extremely kind,” said Jane; “but I cannot give up my early
9842 walk. I am advised to be out of doors as much as I can, I must walk
9843 somewhere, and the post-office is an object; and upon my word, I have
9844 scarcely ever had a bad morning before.”
9845
9846 “My dear Jane, say no more about it. The thing is determined, that is
9847 (laughing affectedly) as far as I can presume to determine any thing
9848 without the concurrence of my lord and master. You know, Mrs. Weston,
9849 you and I must be cautious how we express ourselves. But I do flatter
9850 myself, my dear Jane, that my influence is not entirely worn out. If I
9851 meet with no insuperable difficulties therefore, consider that point as
9852 settled.”
9853
9854 “Excuse me,” said Jane earnestly, “I cannot by any means consent to such
9855 an arrangement, so needlessly troublesome to your servant. If the errand
9856 were not a pleasure to me, it could be done, as it always is when I am
9857 not here, by my grandmama’s.”
9858
9859 “Oh! my dear; but so much as Patty has to do!--And it is a kindness to
9860 employ our men.”
9861
9862 Jane looked as if she did not mean to be conquered; but instead of
9863 answering, she began speaking again to Mr. John Knightley.
9864
9865 “The post-office is a wonderful establishment!” said she.--“The
9866 regularity and despatch of it! If one thinks of all that it has to do,
9867 and all that it does so well, it is really astonishing!”
9868
9869 “It is certainly very well regulated.”
9870
9871 “So seldom that any negligence or blunder appears! So seldom that
9872 a letter, among the thousands that are constantly passing about the
9873 kingdom, is even carried wrong--and not one in a million, I suppose,
9874 actually lost! And when one considers the variety of hands, and of bad
9875 hands too, that are to be deciphered, it increases the wonder.”
9876
9877 “The clerks grow expert from habit.--They must begin with some quickness
9878 of sight and hand, and exercise improves them. If you want any farther
9879 explanation,” continued he, smiling, “they are paid for it. That is
9880 the key to a great deal of capacity. The public pays and must be served
9881 well.”
9882
9883 The varieties of handwriting were farther talked of, and the usual
9884 observations made.
9885
9886 “I have heard it asserted,” said John Knightley, “that the same sort
9887 of handwriting often prevails in a family; and where the same master
9888 teaches, it is natural enough. But for that reason, I should imagine
9889 the likeness must be chiefly confined to the females, for boys have very
9890 little teaching after an early age, and scramble into any hand they can
9891 get. Isabella and Emma, I think, do write very much alike. I have not
9892 always known their writing apart.”
9893
9894 “Yes,” said his brother hesitatingly, “there is a likeness. I know what
9895 you mean--but Emma’s hand is the strongest.”
9896
9897 “Isabella and Emma both write beautifully,” said Mr. Woodhouse; “and
9898 always did. And so does poor Mrs. Weston”--with half a sigh and half a
9899 smile at her.
9900
9901 “I never saw any gentleman’s handwriting”--Emma began, looking also at
9902 Mrs. Weston; but stopped, on perceiving that Mrs. Weston was attending
9903 to some one else--and the pause gave her time to reflect, “Now, how am
9904 I going to introduce him?--Am I unequal to speaking his name at once
9905 before all these people? Is it necessary for me to use any roundabout
9906 phrase?--Your Yorkshire friend--your correspondent in Yorkshire;--that
9907 would be the way, I suppose, if I were very bad.--No, I can pronounce
9908 his name without the smallest distress. I certainly get better and
9909 better.--Now for it.”
9910
9911 Mrs. Weston was disengaged and Emma began again--“Mr. Frank Churchill
9912 writes one of the best gentleman’s hands I ever saw.”
9913
9914 “I do not admire it,” said Mr. Knightley. “It is too small--wants
9915 strength. It is like a woman’s writing.”
9916
9917 This was not submitted to by either lady. They vindicated him against
9918 the base aspersion. “No, it by no means wanted strength--it was not a
9919 large hand, but very clear and certainly strong. Had not Mrs. Weston any
9920 letter about her to produce?” No, she had heard from him very lately,
9921 but having answered the letter, had put it away.
9922
9923 “If we were in the other room,” said Emma, “if I had my writing-desk, I
9924 am sure I could produce a specimen. I have a note of his.--Do not you
9925 remember, Mrs. Weston, employing him to write for you one day?”
9926
9927 “He chose to say he was employed”--
9928
9929 “Well, well, I have that note; and can shew it after dinner to convince
9930 Mr. Knightley.”
9931
9932 “Oh! when a gallant young man, like Mr. Frank Churchill,” said Mr.
9933 Knightley dryly, “writes to a fair lady like Miss Woodhouse, he will, of
9934 course, put forth his best.”
9935
9936 Dinner was on table.--Mrs. Elton, before she could be spoken to, was
9937 ready; and before Mr. Woodhouse had reached her with his request to be
9938 allowed to hand her into the dining-parlour, was saying--
9939
9940 “Must I go first? I really am ashamed of always leading the way.”
9941
9942 Jane’s solicitude about fetching her own letters had not escaped Emma.
9943 She had heard and seen it all; and felt some curiosity to know whether
9944 the wet walk of this morning had produced any. She suspected that it
9945 _had_; that it would not have been so resolutely encountered but in full
9946 expectation of hearing from some one very dear, and that it had not been
9947 in vain. She thought there was an air of greater happiness than usual--a
9948 glow both of complexion and spirits.
9949
9950 She could have made an inquiry or two, as to the expedition and the
9951 expense of the Irish mails;--it was at her tongue’s end--but she
9952 abstained. She was quite determined not to utter a word that should hurt
9953 Jane Fairfax’s feelings; and they followed the other ladies out of the
9954 room, arm in arm, with an appearance of good-will highly becoming to the
9955 beauty and grace of each.
9956
9957
9958
9959 CHAPTER XVII
9960
9961
9962 When the ladies returned to the drawing-room after dinner, Emma found it
9963 hardly possible to prevent their making two distinct parties;--with so
9964 much perseverance in judging and behaving ill did Mrs. Elton engross
9965 Jane Fairfax and slight herself. She and Mrs. Weston were obliged to
9966 be almost always either talking together or silent together. Mrs. Elton
9967 left them no choice. If Jane repressed her for a little time, she
9968 soon began again; and though much that passed between them was in a
9969 half-whisper, especially on Mrs. Elton’s side, there was no avoiding
9970 a knowledge of their principal subjects: The post-office--catching
9971 cold--fetching letters--and friendship, were long under discussion;
9972 and to them succeeded one, which must be at least equally unpleasant
9973 to Jane--inquiries whether she had yet heard of any situation likely to
9974 suit her, and professions of Mrs. Elton’s meditated activity.
9975
9976 “Here is April come!” said she, “I get quite anxious about you. June
9977 will soon be here.”
9978
9979 “But I have never fixed on June or any other month--merely looked
9980 forward to the summer in general.”
9981
9982 “But have you really heard of nothing?”
9983
9984 “I have not even made any inquiry; I do not wish to make any yet.”
9985
9986 “Oh! my dear, we cannot begin too early; you are not aware of the
9987 difficulty of procuring exactly the desirable thing.”
9988
9989 “I not aware!” said Jane, shaking her head; “dear Mrs. Elton, who can
9990 have thought of it as I have done?”
9991
9992 “But you have not seen so much of the world as I have. You do not know
9993 how many candidates there always are for the _first_ situations. I saw
9994 a vast deal of that in the neighbourhood round Maple Grove. A cousin of
9995 Mr. Suckling, Mrs. Bragge, had such an infinity of applications; every
9996 body was anxious to be in her family, for she moves in the first circle.
9997 Wax-candles in the schoolroom! You may imagine how desirable! Of all
9998 houses in the kingdom Mrs. Bragge’s is the one I would most wish to see
9999 you in.”
10000
10001 “Colonel and Mrs. Campbell are to be in town again by midsummer,”
10002 said Jane. “I must spend some time with them; I am sure they will want
10003 it;--afterwards I may probably be glad to dispose of myself. But I would
10004 not wish you to take the trouble of making any inquiries at present.”
10005
10006 “Trouble! aye, I know your scruples. You are afraid of giving me
10007 trouble; but I assure you, my dear Jane, the Campbells can hardly be
10008 more interested about you than I am. I shall write to Mrs. Partridge in
10009 a day or two, and shall give her a strict charge to be on the look-out
10010 for any thing eligible.”
10011
10012 “Thank you, but I would rather you did not mention the subject to
10013 her; till the time draws nearer, I do not wish to be giving any body
10014 trouble.”
10015
10016 “But, my dear child, the time is drawing near; here is April, and June,
10017 or say even July, is very near, with such business to accomplish before
10018 us. Your inexperience really amuses me! A situation such as you deserve,
10019 and your friends would require for you, is no everyday occurrence,
10020 is not obtained at a moment’s notice; indeed, indeed, we must begin
10021 inquiring directly.”
10022
10023 “Excuse me, ma’am, but this is by no means my intention; I make no
10024 inquiry myself, and should be sorry to have any made by my friends. When
10025 I am quite determined as to the time, I am not at all afraid of being
10026 long unemployed. There are places in town, offices, where inquiry
10027 would soon produce something--Offices for the sale--not quite of human
10028 flesh--but of human intellect.”
10029
10030 “Oh! my dear, human flesh! You quite shock me; if you mean a fling at
10031 the slave-trade, I assure you Mr. Suckling was always rather a friend to
10032 the abolition.”
10033
10034 “I did not mean, I was not thinking of the slave-trade,” replied Jane;
10035 “governess-trade, I assure you, was all that I had in view; widely
10036 different certainly as to the guilt of those who carry it on; but as to
10037 the greater misery of the victims, I do not know where it lies. But
10038 I only mean to say that there are advertising offices, and that by
10039 applying to them I should have no doubt of very soon meeting with
10040 something that would do.”
10041
10042 “Something that would do!” repeated Mrs. Elton. “Aye, _that_ may suit
10043 your humble ideas of yourself;--I know what a modest creature you are;
10044 but it will not satisfy your friends to have you taking up with any
10045 thing that may offer, any inferior, commonplace situation, in a family
10046 not moving in a certain circle, or able to command the elegancies of
10047 life.”
10048
10049 “You are very obliging; but as to all that, I am very indifferent;
10050 it would be no object to me to be with the rich; my mortifications, I
10051 think, would only be the greater; I should suffer more from comparison.
10052 A gentleman’s family is all that I should condition for.”
10053
10054 “I know you, I know you; you would take up with any thing; but I shall
10055 be a little more nice, and I am sure the good Campbells will be quite
10056 on my side; with your superior talents, you have a right to move in the
10057 first circle. Your musical knowledge alone would entitle you to name
10058 your own terms, have as many rooms as you like, and mix in the family
10059 as much as you chose;--that is--I do not know--if you knew the harp, you
10060 might do all that, I am very sure; but you sing as well as play;--yes, I
10061 really believe you might, even without the harp, stipulate for what
10062 you chose;--and you must and shall be delightfully, honourably and
10063 comfortably settled before the Campbells or I have any rest.”
10064
10065 “You may well class the delight, the honour, and the comfort of such
10066 a situation together,” said Jane, “they are pretty sure to be equal;
10067 however, I am very serious in not wishing any thing to be attempted
10068 at present for me. I am exceedingly obliged to you, Mrs. Elton, I am
10069 obliged to any body who feels for me, but I am quite serious in wishing
10070 nothing to be done till the summer. For two or three months longer I
10071 shall remain where I am, and as I am.”
10072
10073 “And I am quite serious too, I assure you,” replied Mrs. Elton gaily,
10074 “in resolving to be always on the watch, and employing my friends to
10075 watch also, that nothing really unexceptionable may pass us.”
10076
10077 In this style she ran on; never thoroughly stopped by any thing till Mr.
10078 Woodhouse came into the room; her vanity had then a change of object,
10079 and Emma heard her saying in the same half-whisper to Jane,
10080
10081 “Here comes this dear old beau of mine, I protest!--Only think of his
10082 gallantry in coming away before the other men!--what a dear creature
10083 he is;--I assure you I like him excessively. I admire all that quaint,
10084 old-fashioned politeness; it is much more to my taste than modern ease;
10085 modern ease often disgusts me. But this good old Mr. Woodhouse, I wish
10086 you had heard his gallant speeches to me at dinner. Oh! I assure you I
10087 began to think my caro sposo would be absolutely jealous. I fancy I
10088 am rather a favourite; he took notice of my gown. How do you like
10089 it?--Selina’s choice--handsome, I think, but I do not know whether it
10090 is not over-trimmed; I have the greatest dislike to the idea of being
10091 over-trimmed--quite a horror of finery. I must put on a few ornaments
10092 now, because it is expected of me. A bride, you know, must appear like
10093 a bride, but my natural taste is all for simplicity; a simple style
10094 of dress is so infinitely preferable to finery. But I am quite in the
10095 minority, I believe; few people seem to value simplicity of dress,--show
10096 and finery are every thing. I have some notion of putting such a
10097 trimming as this to my white and silver poplin. Do you think it will
10098 look well?”
10099
10100 The whole party were but just reassembled in the drawing-room when Mr.
10101 Weston made his appearance among them. He had returned to a late dinner,
10102 and walked to Hartfield as soon as it was over. He had been too much
10103 expected by the best judges, for surprize--but there was great joy. Mr.
10104 Woodhouse was almost as glad to see him now, as he would have been sorry
10105 to see him before. John Knightley only was in mute astonishment.--That
10106 a man who might have spent his evening quietly at home after a day
10107 of business in London, should set off again, and walk half a mile
10108 to another man’s house, for the sake of being in mixed company till
10109 bed-time, of finishing his day in the efforts of civility and the noise
10110 of numbers, was a circumstance to strike him deeply. A man who had been
10111 in motion since eight o’clock in the morning, and might now have been
10112 still, who had been long talking, and might have been silent, who had
10113 been in more than one crowd, and might have been alone!--Such a man, to
10114 quit the tranquillity and independence of his own fireside, and on the
10115 evening of a cold sleety April day rush out again into the world!--Could
10116 he by a touch of his finger have instantly taken back his wife, there
10117 would have been a motive; but his coming would probably prolong rather
10118 than break up the party. John Knightley looked at him with amazement,
10119 then shrugged his shoulders, and said, “I could not have believed it
10120 even of _him_.”
10121
10122 Mr. Weston meanwhile, perfectly unsuspicious of the indignation he was
10123 exciting, happy and cheerful as usual, and with all the right of being
10124 principal talker, which a day spent anywhere from home confers, was
10125 making himself agreeable among the rest; and having satisfied the
10126 inquiries of his wife as to his dinner, convincing her that none of all
10127 her careful directions to the servants had been forgotten, and spread
10128 abroad what public news he had heard, was proceeding to a family
10129 communication, which, though principally addressed to Mrs. Weston, he
10130 had not the smallest doubt of being highly interesting to every body in
10131 the room. He gave her a letter, it was from Frank, and to herself; he
10132 had met with it in his way, and had taken the liberty of opening it.
10133
10134 “Read it, read it,” said he, “it will give you pleasure; only a few
10135 lines--will not take you long; read it to Emma.”
10136
10137 The two ladies looked over it together; and he sat smiling and talking
10138 to them the whole time, in a voice a little subdued, but very audible to
10139 every body.
10140
10141 “Well, he is coming, you see; good news, I think. Well, what do you say
10142 to it?--I always told you he would be here again soon, did not I?--Anne,
10143 my dear, did not I always tell you so, and you would not believe me?--In
10144 town next week, you see--at the latest, I dare say; for _she_ is as
10145 impatient as the black gentleman when any thing is to be done; most
10146 likely they will be there to-morrow or Saturday. As to her illness, all
10147 nothing of course. But it is an excellent thing to have Frank among us
10148 again, so near as town. They will stay a good while when they do come,
10149 and he will be half his time with us. This is precisely what I wanted.
10150 Well, pretty good news, is not it? Have you finished it? Has Emma read
10151 it all? Put it up, put it up; we will have a good talk about it some
10152 other time, but it will not do now. I shall only just mention the
10153 circumstance to the others in a common way.”
10154
10155 Mrs. Weston was most comfortably pleased on the occasion. Her looks
10156 and words had nothing to restrain them. She was happy, she knew she was
10157 happy, and knew she ought to be happy. Her congratulations were warm and
10158 open; but Emma could not speak so fluently. _She_ was a little occupied
10159 in weighing her own feelings, and trying to understand the degree of her
10160 agitation, which she rather thought was considerable.
10161
10162 Mr. Weston, however, too eager to be very observant, too communicative
10163 to want others to talk, was very well satisfied with what she did say,
10164 and soon moved away to make the rest of his friends happy by a partial
10165 communication of what the whole room must have overheard already.
10166
10167 It was well that he took every body’s joy for granted, or he might
10168 not have thought either Mr. Woodhouse or Mr. Knightley particularly
10169 delighted. They were the first entitled, after Mrs. Weston and Emma, to
10170 be made happy;--from them he would have proceeded to Miss Fairfax, but
10171 she was so deep in conversation with John Knightley, that it would have
10172 been too positive an interruption; and finding himself close to Mrs.
10173 Elton, and her attention disengaged, he necessarily began on the subject
10174 with her.
10175
10176
10177
10178 CHAPTER XVIII
10179
10180
10181 “I hope I shall soon have the pleasure of introducing my son to you,”
10182 said Mr. Weston.
10183
10184 Mrs. Elton, very willing to suppose a particular compliment intended her
10185 by such a hope, smiled most graciously.
10186
10187 “You have heard of a certain Frank Churchill, I presume,” he
10188 continued--“and know him to be my son, though he does not bear my name.”
10189
10190 “Oh! yes, and I shall be very happy in his acquaintance. I am sure Mr.
10191 Elton will lose no time in calling on him; and we shall both have great
10192 pleasure in seeing him at the Vicarage.”
10193
10194 “You are very obliging.--Frank will be extremely happy, I am sure.--
10195 He is to be in town next week, if not sooner. We have notice of it in a
10196 letter to-day. I met the letters in my way this morning, and seeing my
10197 son’s hand, presumed to open it--though it was not directed to me--it
10198 was to Mrs. Weston. She is his principal correspondent, I assure you. I
10199 hardly ever get a letter.”
10200
10201 “And so you absolutely opened what was directed to her! Oh! Mr.
10202 Weston--(laughing affectedly) I must protest against that.--A most
10203 dangerous precedent indeed!--I beg you will not let your neighbours
10204 follow your example.--Upon my word, if this is what I am to expect, we
10205 married women must begin to exert ourselves!--Oh! Mr. Weston, I could
10206 not have believed it of you!”
10207
10208 “Aye, we men are sad fellows. You must take care of yourself, Mrs.
10209 Elton.--This letter tells us--it is a short letter--written in a hurry,
10210 merely to give us notice--it tells us that they are all coming up to
10211 town directly, on Mrs. Churchill’s account--she has not been well the
10212 whole winter, and thinks Enscombe too cold for her--so they are all to
10213 move southward without loss of time.”
10214
10215 “Indeed!--from Yorkshire, I think. Enscombe is in Yorkshire?”
10216
10217 “Yes, they are about one hundred and ninety miles from London, a
10218 considerable journey.”
10219
10220 “Yes, upon my word, very considerable. Sixty-five miles farther than
10221 from Maple Grove to London. But what is distance, Mr. Weston, to people
10222 of large fortune?--You would be amazed to hear how my brother, Mr.
10223 Suckling, sometimes flies about. You will hardly believe me--but twice
10224 in one week he and Mr. Bragge went to London and back again with four
10225 horses.”
10226
10227 “The evil of the distance from Enscombe,” said Mr. Weston, “is, that
10228 Mrs. Churchill, _as_ _we_ _understand_, has not been able to leave the
10229 sofa for a week together. In Frank’s last letter she complained, he
10230 said, of being too weak to get into her conservatory without having
10231 both his arm and his uncle’s! This, you know, speaks a great degree of
10232 weakness--but now she is so impatient to be in town, that she means to
10233 sleep only two nights on the road.--So Frank writes word. Certainly,
10234 delicate ladies have very extraordinary constitutions, Mrs. Elton. You
10235 must grant me that.”
10236
10237 “No, indeed, I shall grant you nothing. I always take the part of my
10238 own sex. I do indeed. I give you notice--You will find me a formidable
10239 antagonist on that point. I always stand up for women--and I assure you,
10240 if you knew how Selina feels with respect to sleeping at an inn, you
10241 would not wonder at Mrs. Churchill’s making incredible exertions to
10242 avoid it. Selina says it is quite horror to her--and I believe I have
10243 caught a little of her nicety. She always travels with her own sheets;
10244 an excellent precaution. Does Mrs. Churchill do the same?”
10245
10246 “Depend upon it, Mrs. Churchill does every thing that any other fine
10247 lady ever did. Mrs. Churchill will not be second to any lady in the land
10248 for”--
10249
10250 Mrs. Elton eagerly interposed with,
10251
10252 “Oh! Mr. Weston, do not mistake me. Selina is no fine lady, I assure
10253 you. Do not run away with such an idea.”
10254
10255 “Is not she? Then she is no rule for Mrs. Churchill, who is as thorough
10256 a fine lady as any body ever beheld.”
10257
10258 Mrs. Elton began to think she had been wrong in disclaiming so warmly.
10259 It was by no means her object to have it believed that her sister was
10260 _not_ a fine lady; perhaps there was want of spirit in the pretence of
10261 it;--and she was considering in what way she had best retract, when Mr.
10262 Weston went on.
10263
10264 “Mrs. Churchill is not much in my good graces, as you may suspect--but
10265 this is quite between ourselves. She is very fond of Frank, and
10266 therefore I would not speak ill of her. Besides, she is out of health
10267 now; but _that_ indeed, by her own account, she has always been. I would
10268 not say so to every body, Mrs. Elton, but I have not much faith in Mrs.
10269 Churchill’s illness.”
10270
10271 “If she is really ill, why not go to Bath, Mr. Weston?--To Bath, or to
10272 Clifton?” “She has taken it into her head that Enscombe is too cold for
10273 her. The fact is, I suppose, that she is tired of Enscombe. She has now
10274 been a longer time stationary there, than she ever was before, and she
10275 begins to want change. It is a retired place. A fine place, but very
10276 retired.”
10277
10278 “Aye--like Maple Grove, I dare say. Nothing can stand more retired from
10279 the road than Maple Grove. Such an immense plantation all round it! You
10280 seem shut out from every thing--in the most complete retirement.--And
10281 Mrs. Churchill probably has not health or spirits like Selina to enjoy
10282 that sort of seclusion. Or, perhaps she may not have resources enough in
10283 herself to be qualified for a country life. I always say a woman cannot
10284 have too many resources--and I feel very thankful that I have so many
10285 myself as to be quite independent of society.”
10286
10287 “Frank was here in February for a fortnight.”
10288
10289 “So I remember to have heard. He will find an _addition_ to the society
10290 of Highbury when he comes again; that is, if I may presume to call
10291 myself an addition. But perhaps he may never have heard of there being
10292 such a creature in the world.”
10293
10294 This was too loud a call for a compliment to be passed by, and Mr.
10295 Weston, with a very good grace, immediately exclaimed,
10296
10297 “My dear madam! Nobody but yourself could imagine such a thing possible.
10298 Not heard of you!--I believe Mrs. Weston’s letters lately have been full
10299 of very little else than Mrs. Elton.”
10300
10301 He had done his duty and could return to his son.
10302
10303 “When Frank left us,” continued he, “it was quite uncertain when we
10304 might see him again, which makes this day’s news doubly welcome. It has
10305 been completely unexpected. That is, _I_ always had a strong persuasion
10306 he would be here again soon, I was sure something favourable would turn
10307 up--but nobody believed me. He and Mrs. Weston were both dreadfully
10308 desponding. ‘How could he contrive to come? And how could it be supposed
10309 that his uncle and aunt would spare him again?’ and so forth--I always
10310 felt that something would happen in our favour; and so it has, you see.
10311 I have observed, Mrs. Elton, in the course of my life, that if things
10312 are going untowardly one month, they are sure to mend the next.”
10313
10314 “Very true, Mr. Weston, perfectly true. It is just what I used to say to
10315 a certain gentleman in company in the days of courtship, when, because
10316 things did not go quite right, did not proceed with all the rapidity
10317 which suited his feelings, he was apt to be in despair, and exclaim that
10318 he was sure at this rate it would be _May_ before Hymen’s saffron robe
10319 would be put on for us. Oh! the pains I have been at to dispel those
10320 gloomy ideas and give him cheerfuller views! The carriage--we had
10321 disappointments about the carriage;--one morning, I remember, he came to
10322 me quite in despair.”
10323
10324 She was stopped by a slight fit of coughing, and Mr. Weston instantly
10325 seized the opportunity of going on.
10326
10327 “You were mentioning May. May is the very month which Mrs. Churchill
10328 is ordered, or has ordered herself, to spend in some warmer place than
10329 Enscombe--in short, to spend in London; so that we have the agreeable
10330 prospect of frequent visits from Frank the whole spring--precisely the
10331 season of the year which one should have chosen for it: days almost at
10332 the longest; weather genial and pleasant, always inviting one out, and
10333 never too hot for exercise. When he was here before, we made the best
10334 of it; but there was a good deal of wet, damp, cheerless weather;
10335 there always is in February, you know, and we could not do half that we
10336 intended. Now will be the time. This will be complete enjoyment; and I
10337 do not know, Mrs. Elton, whether the uncertainty of our meetings, the
10338 sort of constant expectation there will be of his coming in to-day or
10339 to-morrow, and at any hour, may not be more friendly to happiness than
10340 having him actually in the house. I think it is so. I think it is the
10341 state of mind which gives most spirit and delight. I hope you will be
10342 pleased with my son; but you must not expect a prodigy. He is generally
10343 thought a fine young man, but do not expect a prodigy. Mrs. Weston’s
10344 partiality for him is very great, and, as you may suppose, most
10345 gratifying to me. She thinks nobody equal to him.”
10346
10347 “And I assure you, Mr. Weston, I have very little doubt that my opinion
10348 will be decidedly in his favour. I have heard so much in praise of Mr.
10349 Frank Churchill.--At the same time it is fair to observe, that I am one
10350 of those who always judge for themselves, and are by no means implicitly
10351 guided by others. I give you notice that as I find your son, so I shall
10352 judge of him.--I am no flatterer.”
10353
10354 Mr. Weston was musing.
10355
10356 “I hope,” said he presently, “I have not been severe upon poor Mrs.
10357 Churchill. If she is ill I should be sorry to do her injustice; but
10358 there are some traits in her character which make it difficult for me to
10359 speak of her with the forbearance I could wish. You cannot be ignorant,
10360 Mrs. Elton, of my connexion with the family, nor of the treatment I have
10361 met with; and, between ourselves, the whole blame of it is to be laid
10362 to her. She was the instigator. Frank’s mother would never have been
10363 slighted as she was but for her. Mr. Churchill has pride; but his pride
10364 is nothing to his wife’s: his is a quiet, indolent, gentlemanlike sort
10365 of pride that would harm nobody, and only make himself a little helpless
10366 and tiresome; but her pride is arrogance and insolence! And what
10367 inclines one less to bear, she has no fair pretence of family or blood.
10368 She was nobody when he married her, barely the daughter of a gentleman;
10369 but ever since her being turned into a Churchill she has out-Churchill’d
10370 them all in high and mighty claims: but in herself, I assure you, she is
10371 an upstart.”
10372
10373 “Only think! well, that must be infinitely provoking! I have quite
10374 a horror of upstarts. Maple Grove has given me a thorough disgust to
10375 people of that sort; for there is a family in that neighbourhood who
10376 are such an annoyance to my brother and sister from the airs they give
10377 themselves! Your description of Mrs. Churchill made me think of them
10378 directly. People of the name of Tupman, very lately settled there, and
10379 encumbered with many low connexions, but giving themselves immense airs,
10380 and expecting to be on a footing with the old established families.
10381 A year and a half is the very utmost that they can have lived at West
10382 Hall; and how they got their fortune nobody knows. They came from
10383 Birmingham, which is not a place to promise much, you know, Mr. Weston.
10384 One has not great hopes from Birmingham. I always say there is something
10385 direful in the sound: but nothing more is positively known of the
10386 Tupmans, though a good many things I assure you are suspected; and
10387 yet by their manners they evidently think themselves equal even to
10388 my brother, Mr. Suckling, who happens to be one of their nearest
10389 neighbours. It is infinitely too bad. Mr. Suckling, who has been eleven
10390 years a resident at Maple Grove, and whose father had it before him--I
10391 believe, at least--I am almost sure that old Mr. Suckling had completed
10392 the purchase before his death.”
10393
10394 They were interrupted. Tea was carrying round, and Mr. Weston, having
10395 said all that he wanted, soon took the opportunity of walking away.
10396
10397 After tea, Mr. and Mrs. Weston, and Mr. Elton sat down with Mr.
10398 Woodhouse to cards. The remaining five were left to their own powers,
10399 and Emma doubted their getting on very well; for Mr. Knightley seemed
10400 little disposed for conversation; Mrs. Elton was wanting notice, which
10401 nobody had inclination to pay, and she was herself in a worry of spirits
10402 which would have made her prefer being silent.
10403
10404 Mr. John Knightley proved more talkative than his brother. He was to
10405 leave them early the next day; and he soon began with--
10406
10407 “Well, Emma, I do not believe I have any thing more to say about the
10408 boys; but you have your sister’s letter, and every thing is down at full
10409 length there we may be sure. My charge would be much more concise than
10410 her’s, and probably not much in the same spirit; all that I have to
10411 recommend being comprised in, do not spoil them, and do not physic
10412 them.”
10413
10414 “I rather hope to satisfy you both,” said Emma, “for I shall do all
10415 in my power to make them happy, which will be enough for Isabella; and
10416 happiness must preclude false indulgence and physic.”
10417
10418 “And if you find them troublesome, you must send them home again.”
10419
10420 “That is very likely. You think so, do not you?”
10421
10422 “I hope I am aware that they may be too noisy for your father--or even
10423 may be some encumbrance to you, if your visiting engagements continue to
10424 increase as much as they have done lately.”
10425
10426 “Increase!”
10427
10428 “Certainly; you must be sensible that the last half-year has made a
10429 great difference in your way of life.”
10430
10431 “Difference! No indeed I am not.”
10432
10433 “There can be no doubt of your being much more engaged with company than
10434 you used to be. Witness this very time. Here am I come down for only
10435 one day, and you are engaged with a dinner-party!--When did it happen
10436 before, or any thing like it? Your neighbourhood is increasing, and you
10437 mix more with it. A little while ago, every letter to Isabella brought
10438 an account of fresh gaieties; dinners at Mr. Cole’s, or balls at the
10439 Crown. The difference which Randalls, Randalls alone makes in your
10440 goings-on, is very great.”
10441
10442 “Yes,” said his brother quickly, “it is Randalls that does it all.”
10443
10444 “Very well--and as Randalls, I suppose, is not likely to have less
10445 influence than heretofore, it strikes me as a possible thing, Emma, that
10446 Henry and John may be sometimes in the way. And if they are, I only beg
10447 you to send them home.”
10448
10449 “No,” cried Mr. Knightley, “that need not be the consequence. Let them
10450 be sent to Donwell. I shall certainly be at leisure.”
10451
10452 “Upon my word,” exclaimed Emma, “you amuse me! I should like to know how
10453 many of all my numerous engagements take place without your being of
10454 the party; and why I am to be supposed in danger of wanting leisure to
10455 attend to the little boys. These amazing engagements of mine--what have
10456 they been? Dining once with the Coles--and having a ball talked of,
10457 which never took place. I can understand you--(nodding at Mr. John
10458 Knightley)--your good fortune in meeting with so many of your friends at
10459 once here, delights you too much to pass unnoticed. But you, (turning to
10460 Mr. Knightley,) who know how very, very seldom I am ever two hours from
10461 Hartfield, why you should foresee such a series of dissipation for me, I
10462 cannot imagine. And as to my dear little boys, I must say, that if Aunt
10463 Emma has not time for them, I do not think they would fare much better
10464 with Uncle Knightley, who is absent from home about five hours where she
10465 is absent one--and who, when he is at home, is either reading to himself
10466 or settling his accounts.”
10467
10468 Mr. Knightley seemed to be trying not to smile; and succeeded without
10469 difficulty, upon Mrs. Elton’s beginning to talk to him.
10470
10471
10472
10473
10474 VOLUME III
10475
10476
10477
10478 CHAPTER I
10479
10480
10481 A very little quiet reflection was enough to satisfy Emma as to the
10482 nature of her agitation on hearing this news of Frank Churchill. She
10483 was soon convinced that it was not for herself she was feeling at all
10484 apprehensive or embarrassed; it was for him. Her own attachment had
10485 really subsided into a mere nothing; it was not worth thinking of;--but
10486 if he, who had undoubtedly been always so much the most in love of the
10487 two, were to be returning with the same warmth of sentiment which he had
10488 taken away, it would be very distressing. If a separation of two
10489 months should not have cooled him, there were dangers and evils before
10490 her:--caution for him and for herself would be necessary. She did
10491 not mean to have her own affections entangled again, and it would be
10492 incumbent on her to avoid any encouragement of his.
10493
10494 She wished she might be able to keep him from an absolute declaration.
10495 That would be so very painful a conclusion of their present
10496 acquaintance! and yet, she could not help rather anticipating something
10497 decisive. She felt as if the spring would not pass without bringing a
10498 crisis, an event, a something to alter her present composed and tranquil
10499 state.
10500
10501 It was not very long, though rather longer than Mr. Weston had foreseen,
10502 before she had the power of forming some opinion of Frank Churchill’s
10503 feelings. The Enscombe family were not in town quite so soon as had been
10504 imagined, but he was at Highbury very soon afterwards. He rode down
10505 for a couple of hours; he could not yet do more; but as he came from
10506 Randalls immediately to Hartfield, she could then exercise all her quick
10507 observation, and speedily determine how he was influenced, and how she
10508 must act. They met with the utmost friendliness. There could be no doubt
10509 of his great pleasure in seeing her. But she had an almost instant doubt
10510 of his caring for her as he had done, of his feeling the same tenderness
10511 in the same degree. She watched him well. It was a clear thing he was
10512 less in love than he had been. Absence, with the conviction probably
10513 of her indifference, had produced this very natural and very desirable
10514 effect.
10515
10516 He was in high spirits; as ready to talk and laugh as ever, and seemed
10517 delighted to speak of his former visit, and recur to old stories: and he
10518 was not without agitation. It was not in his calmness that she read
10519 his comparative difference. He was not calm; his spirits were evidently
10520 fluttered; there was restlessness about him. Lively as he was, it seemed
10521 a liveliness that did not satisfy himself; but what decided her belief
10522 on the subject, was his staying only a quarter of an hour, and hurrying
10523 away to make other calls in Highbury. “He had seen a group of old
10524 acquaintance in the street as he passed--he had not stopped, he would
10525 not stop for more than a word--but he had the vanity to think they would
10526 be disappointed if he did not call, and much as he wished to stay longer
10527 at Hartfield, he must hurry off.” She had no doubt as to his being less
10528 in love--but neither his agitated spirits, nor his hurrying away, seemed
10529 like a perfect cure; and she was rather inclined to think it implied a
10530 dread of her returning power, and a discreet resolution of not trusting
10531 himself with her long.
10532
10533 This was the only visit from Frank Churchill in the course of ten days.
10534 He was often hoping, intending to come--but was always prevented. His
10535 aunt could not bear to have him leave her. Such was his own account at
10536 Randall’s. If he were quite sincere, if he really tried to come, it was
10537 to be inferred that Mrs. Churchill’s removal to London had been of no
10538 service to the wilful or nervous part of her disorder. That she was
10539 really ill was very certain; he had declared himself convinced of it, at
10540 Randalls. Though much might be fancy, he could not doubt, when he looked
10541 back, that she was in a weaker state of health than she had been half a
10542 year ago. He did not believe it to proceed from any thing that care
10543 and medicine might not remove, or at least that she might not have many
10544 years of existence before her; but he could not be prevailed on, by all
10545 his father’s doubts, to say that her complaints were merely imaginary,
10546 or that she was as strong as ever.
10547
10548 It soon appeared that London was not the place for her. She could
10549 not endure its noise. Her nerves were under continual irritation and
10550 suffering; and by the ten days’ end, her nephew’s letter to Randalls
10551 communicated a change of plan. They were going to remove immediately to
10552 Richmond. Mrs. Churchill had been recommended to the medical skill of
10553 an eminent person there, and had otherwise a fancy for the place. A
10554 ready-furnished house in a favourite spot was engaged, and much benefit
10555 expected from the change.
10556
10557 Emma heard that Frank wrote in the highest spirits of this arrangement,
10558 and seemed most fully to appreciate the blessing of having two months
10559 before him of such near neighbourhood to many dear friends--for the
10560 house was taken for May and June. She was told that now he wrote with
10561 the greatest confidence of being often with them, almost as often as he
10562 could even wish.
10563
10564 Emma saw how Mr. Weston understood these joyous prospects. He was
10565 considering her as the source of all the happiness they offered. She
10566 hoped it was not so. Two months must bring it to the proof.
10567
10568 Mr. Weston’s own happiness was indisputable. He was quite delighted.
10569 It was the very circumstance he could have wished for. Now, it would be
10570 really having Frank in their neighbourhood. What were nine miles to
10571 a young man?--An hour’s ride. He would be always coming over. The
10572 difference in that respect of Richmond and London was enough to make
10573 the whole difference of seeing him always and seeing him never. Sixteen
10574 miles--nay, eighteen--it must be full eighteen to Manchester-street--was
10575 a serious obstacle. Were he ever able to get away, the day would be
10576 spent in coming and returning. There was no comfort in having him in
10577 London; he might as well be at Enscombe; but Richmond was the very
10578 distance for easy intercourse. Better than nearer!
10579
10580 One good thing was immediately brought to a certainty by this
10581 removal,--the ball at the Crown. It had not been forgotten before,
10582 but it had been soon acknowledged vain to attempt to fix a day. Now,
10583 however, it was absolutely to be; every preparation was resumed, and
10584 very soon after the Churchills had removed to Richmond, a few lines from
10585 Frank, to say that his aunt felt already much better for the change, and
10586 that he had no doubt of being able to join them for twenty-four hours at
10587 any given time, induced them to name as early a day as possible.
10588
10589 Mr. Weston’s ball was to be a real thing. A very few to-morrows stood
10590 between the young people of Highbury and happiness.
10591
10592 Mr. Woodhouse was resigned. The time of year lightened the evil to him.
10593 May was better for every thing than February. Mrs. Bates was engaged to
10594 spend the evening at Hartfield, James had due notice, and he sanguinely
10595 hoped that neither dear little Henry nor dear little John would have any
10596 thing the matter with them, while dear Emma were gone.
10597
10598
10599
10600 CHAPTER II
10601
10602
10603 No misfortune occurred, again to prevent the ball. The day approached,
10604 the day arrived; and after a morning of some anxious watching, Frank
10605 Churchill, in all the certainty of his own self, reached Randalls before
10606 dinner, and every thing was safe.
10607
10608 No second meeting had there yet been between him and Emma. The room
10609 at the Crown was to witness it;--but it would be better than a
10610 common meeting in a crowd. Mr. Weston had been so very earnest in his
10611 entreaties for her arriving there as soon as possible after themselves,
10612 for the purpose of taking her opinion as to the propriety and comfort of
10613 the rooms before any other persons came, that she could not refuse him,
10614 and must therefore spend some quiet interval in the young man’s company.
10615 She was to convey Harriet, and they drove to the Crown in good time, the
10616 Randalls party just sufficiently before them.
10617
10618 Frank Churchill seemed to have been on the watch; and though he did not
10619 say much, his eyes declared that he meant to have a delightful evening.
10620 They all walked about together, to see that every thing was as it should
10621 be; and within a few minutes were joined by the contents of another
10622 carriage, which Emma could not hear the sound of at first, without great
10623 surprize. “So unreasonably early!” she was going to exclaim; but she
10624 presently found that it was a family of old friends, who were coming,
10625 like herself, by particular desire, to help Mr. Weston’s judgment; and
10626 they were so very closely followed by another carriage of cousins,
10627 who had been entreated to come early with the same distinguishing
10628 earnestness, on the same errand, that it seemed as if half the company
10629 might soon be collected together for the purpose of preparatory
10630 inspection.
10631
10632 Emma perceived that her taste was not the only taste on which Mr. Weston
10633 depended, and felt, that to be the favourite and intimate of a man
10634 who had so many intimates and confidantes, was not the very first
10635 distinction in the scale of vanity. She liked his open manners, but
10636 a little less of open-heartedness would have made him a higher
10637 character.--General benevolence, but not general friendship, made a
10638 man what he ought to be.--She could fancy such a man. The whole party
10639 walked about, and looked, and praised again; and then, having nothing
10640 else to do, formed a sort of half-circle round the fire, to observe
10641 in their various modes, till other subjects were started, that, though
10642 _May_, a fire in the evening was still very pleasant.
10643
10644 Emma found that it was not Mr. Weston’s fault that the number of privy
10645 councillors was not yet larger. They had stopped at Mrs. Bates’s door
10646 to offer the use of their carriage, but the aunt and niece were to be
10647 brought by the Eltons.
10648
10649 Frank was standing by her, but not steadily; there was a restlessness,
10650 which shewed a mind not at ease. He was looking about, he was going to
10651 the door, he was watching for the sound of other carriages,--impatient
10652 to begin, or afraid of being always near her.
10653
10654 Mrs. Elton was spoken of. “I think she must be here soon,” said he. “I
10655 have a great curiosity to see Mrs. Elton, I have heard so much of her.
10656 It cannot be long, I think, before she comes.”
10657
10658 A carriage was heard. He was on the move immediately; but coming back,
10659 said,
10660
10661 “I am forgetting that I am not acquainted with her. I have never seen
10662 either Mr. or Mrs. Elton. I have no business to put myself forward.”
10663
10664 Mr. and Mrs. Elton appeared; and all the smiles and the proprieties
10665 passed.
10666
10667 “But Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax!” said Mr. Weston, looking about. “We
10668 thought you were to bring them.”
10669
10670 The mistake had been slight. The carriage was sent for them now. Emma
10671 longed to know what Frank’s first opinion of Mrs. Elton might be; how
10672 he was affected by the studied elegance of her dress, and her smiles of
10673 graciousness. He was immediately qualifying himself to form an opinion,
10674 by giving her very proper attention, after the introduction had passed.
10675
10676 In a few minutes the carriage returned.--Somebody talked of rain.--“I
10677 will see that there are umbrellas, sir,” said Frank to his father:
10678 “Miss Bates must not be forgotten:” and away he went. Mr. Weston was
10679 following; but Mrs. Elton detained him, to gratify him by her opinion
10680 of his son; and so briskly did she begin, that the young man himself,
10681 though by no means moving slowly, could hardly be out of hearing.
10682
10683 “A very fine young man indeed, Mr. Weston. You know I candidly told you
10684 I should form my own opinion; and I am happy to say that I am extremely
10685 pleased with him.--You may believe me. I never compliment. I think him
10686 a very handsome young man, and his manners are precisely what I like and
10687 approve--so truly the gentleman, without the least conceit or puppyism.
10688 You must know I have a vast dislike to puppies--quite a horror of them.
10689 They were never tolerated at Maple Grove. Neither Mr. Suckling nor
10690 me had ever any patience with them; and we used sometimes to say very
10691 cutting things! Selina, who is mild almost to a fault, bore with them
10692 much better.”
10693
10694 While she talked of his son, Mr. Weston’s attention was chained; but
10695 when she got to Maple Grove, he could recollect that there were ladies
10696 just arriving to be attended to, and with happy smiles must hurry away.
10697
10698 Mrs. Elton turned to Mrs. Weston. “I have no doubt of its being our
10699 carriage with Miss Bates and Jane. Our coachman and horses are so
10700 extremely expeditious!--I believe we drive faster than any body.--What
10701 a pleasure it is to send one’s carriage for a friend!--I understand you
10702 were so kind as to offer, but another time it will be quite unnecessary.
10703 You may be very sure I shall always take care of _them_.”
10704
10705 Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax, escorted by the two gentlemen, walked into
10706 the room; and Mrs. Elton seemed to think it as much her duty as Mrs.
10707 Weston’s to receive them. Her gestures and movements might be understood
10708 by any one who looked on like Emma; but her words, every body’s words,
10709 were soon lost under the incessant flow of Miss Bates, who came in
10710 talking, and had not finished her speech under many minutes after her
10711 being admitted into the circle at the fire. As the door opened she was
10712 heard,
10713
10714 “So very obliging of you!--No rain at all. Nothing to signify. I do not
10715 care for myself. Quite thick shoes. And Jane declares--Well!--(as soon
10716 as she was within the door) Well! This is brilliant indeed!--This is
10717 admirable!--Excellently contrived, upon my word. Nothing wanting. Could
10718 not have imagined it.--So well lighted up!--Jane, Jane, look!--did you
10719 ever see any thing? Oh! Mr. Weston, you must really have had Aladdin’s
10720 lamp. Good Mrs. Stokes would not know her own room again. I saw her as
10721 I came in; she was standing in the entrance. ‘Oh! Mrs. Stokes,’ said
10722 I--but I had not time for more.” She was now met by Mrs. Weston.--“Very
10723 well, I thank you, ma’am. I hope you are quite well. Very happy to hear
10724 it. So afraid you might have a headache!--seeing you pass by so often,
10725 and knowing how much trouble you must have. Delighted to hear it indeed.
10726 Ah! dear Mrs. Elton, so obliged to you for the carriage!--excellent
10727 time. Jane and I quite ready. Did not keep the horses a moment. Most
10728 comfortable carriage.--Oh! and I am sure our thanks are due to you,
10729 Mrs. Weston, on that score. Mrs. Elton had most kindly sent Jane a note,
10730 or we should have been.--But two such offers in one day!--Never were
10731 such neighbours. I said to my mother, ‘Upon my word, ma’am--.’ Thank
10732 you, my mother is remarkably well. Gone to Mr. Woodhouse’s. I made her
10733 take her shawl--for the evenings are not warm--her large new shawl--
10734 Mrs. Dixon’s wedding-present.--So kind of her to think of my mother!
10735 Bought at Weymouth, you know--Mr. Dixon’s choice. There were three
10736 others, Jane says, which they hesitated about some time. Colonel
10737 Campbell rather preferred an olive. My dear Jane, are you sure you did
10738 not wet your feet?--It was but a drop or two, but I am so afraid:--but
10739 Mr. Frank Churchill was so extremely--and there was a mat to step
10740 upon--I shall never forget his extreme politeness.--Oh! Mr. Frank
10741 Churchill, I must tell you my mother’s spectacles have never been in
10742 fault since; the rivet never came out again. My mother often talks of
10743 your good-nature. Does not she, Jane?--Do not we often talk of Mr. Frank
10744 Churchill?--Ah! here’s Miss Woodhouse.--Dear Miss Woodhouse, how do
10745 you do?--Very well I thank you, quite well. This is meeting quite
10746 in fairy-land!--Such a transformation!--Must not compliment, I know
10747 (eyeing Emma most complacently)--that would be rude--but upon my word,
10748 Miss Woodhouse, you do look--how do you like Jane’s hair?--You are
10749 a judge.--She did it all herself. Quite wonderful how she does her
10750 hair!--No hairdresser from London I think could.--Ah! Dr. Hughes I
10751 declare--and Mrs. Hughes. Must go and speak to Dr. and Mrs. Hughes for a
10752 moment.--How do you do? How do you do?--Very well, I thank you. This
10753 is delightful, is not it?--Where’s dear Mr. Richard?--Oh! there he is.
10754 Don’t disturb him. Much better employed talking to the young ladies. How
10755 do you do, Mr. Richard?--I saw you the other day as you rode through
10756 the town--Mrs. Otway, I protest!--and good Mr. Otway, and Miss Otway
10757 and Miss Caroline.--Such a host of friends!--and Mr. George and Mr.
10758 Arthur!--How do you do? How do you all do?--Quite well, I am much
10759 obliged to you. Never better.--Don’t I hear another carriage?--Who can
10760 this be?--very likely the worthy Coles.--Upon my word, this is charming
10761 to be standing about among such friends! And such a noble fire!--I am
10762 quite roasted. No coffee, I thank you, for me--never take coffee.--A
10763 little tea if you please, sir, by and bye,--no hurry--Oh! here it comes.
10764 Every thing so good!”
10765
10766 Frank Churchill returned to his station by Emma; and as soon as Miss
10767 Bates was quiet, she found herself necessarily overhearing the discourse
10768 of Mrs. Elton and Miss Fairfax, who were standing a little way behind
10769 her.--He was thoughtful. Whether he were overhearing too, she could not
10770 determine. After a good many compliments to Jane on her dress and look,
10771 compliments very quietly and properly taken, Mrs. Elton was evidently
10772 wanting to be complimented herself--and it was, “How do you like
10773 my gown?--How do you like my trimming?--How has Wright done my
10774 hair?”--with many other relative questions, all answered with patient
10775 politeness. Mrs. Elton then said, “Nobody can think less of dress in
10776 general than I do--but upon such an occasion as this, when every body’s
10777 eyes are so much upon me, and in compliment to the Westons--who I have
10778 no doubt are giving this ball chiefly to do me honour--I would not wish
10779 to be inferior to others. And I see very few pearls in the room except
10780 mine.--So Frank Churchill is a capital dancer, I understand.--We shall
10781 see if our styles suit.--A fine young man certainly is Frank Churchill.
10782 I like him very well.”
10783
10784 At this moment Frank began talking so vigorously, that Emma could not
10785 but imagine he had overheard his own praises, and did not want to hear
10786 more;--and the voices of the ladies were drowned for a while, till
10787 another suspension brought Mrs. Elton’s tones again distinctly
10788 forward.--Mr. Elton had just joined them, and his wife was exclaiming,
10789
10790 “Oh! you have found us out at last, have you, in our seclusion?--I was
10791 this moment telling Jane, I thought you would begin to be impatient for
10792 tidings of us.”
10793
10794 “Jane!”--repeated Frank Churchill, with a look of surprize and
10795 displeasure.--“That is easy--but Miss Fairfax does not disapprove it, I
10796 suppose.”
10797
10798 “How do you like Mrs. Elton?” said Emma in a whisper.
10799
10800 “Not at all.”
10801
10802 “You are ungrateful.”
10803
10804 “Ungrateful!--What do you mean?” Then changing from a frown to a
10805 smile--“No, do not tell me--I do not want to know what you mean.--Where
10806 is my father?--When are we to begin dancing?”
10807
10808 Emma could hardly understand him; he seemed in an odd humour. He walked
10809 off to find his father, but was quickly back again with both Mr. and
10810 Mrs. Weston. He had met with them in a little perplexity, which must be
10811 laid before Emma. It had just occurred to Mrs. Weston that Mrs. Elton
10812 must be asked to begin the ball; that she would expect it; which
10813 interfered with all their wishes of giving Emma that distinction.--Emma
10814 heard the sad truth with fortitude.
10815
10816 “And what are we to do for a proper partner for her?” said Mr. Weston.
10817 “She will think Frank ought to ask her.”
10818
10819 Frank turned instantly to Emma, to claim her former promise; and
10820 boasted himself an engaged man, which his father looked his most perfect
10821 approbation of--and it then appeared that Mrs. Weston was wanting _him_
10822 to dance with Mrs. Elton himself, and that their business was to help to
10823 persuade him into it, which was done pretty soon.--Mr. Weston and Mrs.
10824 Elton led the way, Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Woodhouse followed.
10825 Emma must submit to stand second to Mrs. Elton, though she had always
10826 considered the ball as peculiarly for her. It was almost enough to make
10827 her think of marrying. Mrs. Elton had undoubtedly the advantage, at this
10828 time, in vanity completely gratified; for though she had intended to
10829 begin with Frank Churchill, she could not lose by the change. Mr. Weston
10830 might be his son’s superior.--In spite of this little rub, however,
10831 Emma was smiling with enjoyment, delighted to see the respectable length
10832 of the set as it was forming, and to feel that she had so many hours
10833 of unusual festivity before her.--She was more disturbed by Mr.
10834 Knightley’s not dancing than by any thing else.--There he was, among
10835 the standers-by, where he ought not to be; he ought to be dancing,--not
10836 classing himself with the husbands, and fathers, and whist-players, who
10837 were pretending to feel an interest in the dance till their rubbers were
10838 made up,--so young as he looked!--He could not have appeared to greater
10839 advantage perhaps anywhere, than where he had placed himself. His tall,
10840 firm, upright figure, among the bulky forms and stooping shoulders of
10841 the elderly men, was such as Emma felt must draw every body’s eyes;
10842 and, excepting her own partner, there was not one among the whole row of
10843 young men who could be compared with him.--He moved a few steps nearer,
10844 and those few steps were enough to prove in how gentlemanlike a manner,
10845 with what natural grace, he must have danced, would he but take the
10846 trouble.--Whenever she caught his eye, she forced him to smile; but
10847 in general he was looking grave. She wished he could love a ballroom
10848 better, and could like Frank Churchill better.--He seemed often
10849 observing her. She must not flatter herself that he thought of her
10850 dancing, but if he were criticising her behaviour, she did not feel
10851 afraid. There was nothing like flirtation between her and her partner.
10852 They seemed more like cheerful, easy friends, than lovers. That Frank
10853 Churchill thought less of her than he had done, was indubitable.
10854
10855 The ball proceeded pleasantly. The anxious cares, the incessant
10856 attentions of Mrs. Weston, were not thrown away. Every body seemed
10857 happy; and the praise of being a delightful ball, which is seldom
10858 bestowed till after a ball has ceased to be, was repeatedly given in
10859 the very beginning of the existence of this. Of very important, very
10860 recordable events, it was not more productive than such meetings usually
10861 are. There was one, however, which Emma thought something of.--The two
10862 last dances before supper were begun, and Harriet had no partner;--the
10863 only young lady sitting down;--and so equal had been hitherto the
10864 number of dancers, that how there could be any one disengaged was the
10865 wonder!--But Emma’s wonder lessened soon afterwards, on seeing Mr. Elton
10866 sauntering about. He would not ask Harriet to dance if it were possible
10867 to be avoided: she was sure he would not--and she was expecting him
10868 every moment to escape into the card-room.
10869
10870 Escape, however, was not his plan. He came to the part of the room where
10871 the sitters-by were collected, spoke to some, and walked about in front
10872 of them, as if to shew his liberty, and his resolution of maintaining
10873 it. He did not omit being sometimes directly before Miss Smith, or
10874 speaking to those who were close to her.--Emma saw it. She was not yet
10875 dancing; she was working her way up from the bottom, and had therefore
10876 leisure to look around, and by only turning her head a little she saw
10877 it all. When she was half-way up the set, the whole group were exactly
10878 behind her, and she would no longer allow her eyes to watch; but Mr.
10879 Elton was so near, that she heard every syllable of a dialogue which
10880 just then took place between him and Mrs. Weston; and she perceived that
10881 his wife, who was standing immediately above her, was not only
10882 listening also, but even encouraging him by significant glances.--The
10883 kind-hearted, gentle Mrs. Weston had left her seat to join him and say,
10884 “Do not you dance, Mr. Elton?” to which his prompt reply was, “Most
10885 readily, Mrs. Weston, if you will dance with me.”
10886
10887 “Me!--oh! no--I would get you a better partner than myself. I am no
10888 dancer.”
10889
10890 “If Mrs. Gilbert wishes to dance,” said he, “I shall have great
10891 pleasure, I am sure--for, though beginning to feel myself rather an old
10892 married man, and that my dancing days are over, it would give me very
10893 great pleasure at any time to stand up with an old friend like Mrs.
10894 Gilbert.”
10895
10896 “Mrs. Gilbert does not mean to dance, but there is a young lady
10897 disengaged whom I should be very glad to see dancing--Miss Smith.” “Miss
10898 Smith!--oh!--I had not observed.--You are extremely obliging--and if I
10899 were not an old married man.--But my dancing days are over, Mrs. Weston.
10900 You will excuse me. Any thing else I should be most happy to do, at your
10901 command--but my dancing days are over.”
10902
10903 Mrs. Weston said no more; and Emma could imagine with what surprize and
10904 mortification she must be returning to her seat. This was Mr. Elton! the
10905 amiable, obliging, gentle Mr. Elton.--She looked round for a moment; he
10906 had joined Mr. Knightley at a little distance, and was arranging himself
10907 for settled conversation, while smiles of high glee passed between him
10908 and his wife.
10909
10910 She would not look again. Her heart was in a glow, and she feared her
10911 face might be as hot.
10912
10913 In another moment a happier sight caught her;--Mr. Knightley leading
10914 Harriet to the set!--Never had she been more surprized, seldom more
10915 delighted, than at that instant. She was all pleasure and gratitude,
10916 both for Harriet and herself, and longed to be thanking him; and though
10917 too distant for speech, her countenance said much, as soon as she could
10918 catch his eye again.
10919
10920 His dancing proved to be just what she had believed it, extremely good;
10921 and Harriet would have seemed almost too lucky, if it had not been for
10922 the cruel state of things before, and for the very complete enjoyment
10923 and very high sense of the distinction which her happy features
10924 announced. It was not thrown away on her, she bounded higher than ever,
10925 flew farther down the middle, and was in a continual course of smiles.
10926
10927 Mr. Elton had retreated into the card-room, looking (Emma trusted) very
10928 foolish. She did not think he was quite so hardened as his wife, though
10929 growing very like her;--_she_ spoke some of her feelings, by observing
10930 audibly to her partner,
10931
10932 “Knightley has taken pity on poor little Miss Smith!--Very good-natured,
10933 I declare.”
10934
10935 Supper was announced. The move began; and Miss Bates might be heard from
10936 that moment, without interruption, till her being seated at table and
10937 taking up her spoon.
10938
10939 “Jane, Jane, my dear Jane, where are you?--Here is your tippet. Mrs.
10940 Weston begs you to put on your tippet. She says she is afraid there will
10941 be draughts in the passage, though every thing has been done--One door
10942 nailed up--Quantities of matting--My dear Jane, indeed you must.
10943 Mr. Churchill, oh! you are too obliging! How well you put it on!--so
10944 gratified! Excellent dancing indeed!--Yes, my dear, I ran home, as I
10945 said I should, to help grandmama to bed, and got back again, and
10946 nobody missed me.--I set off without saying a word, just as I told you.
10947 Grandmama was quite well, had a charming evening with Mr. Woodhouse, a
10948 vast deal of chat, and backgammon.--Tea was made downstairs, biscuits
10949 and baked apples and wine before she came away: amazing luck in some
10950 of her throws: and she inquired a great deal about you, how you were
10951 amused, and who were your partners. ‘Oh!’ said I, ‘I shall not forestall
10952 Jane; I left her dancing with Mr. George Otway; she will love to tell
10953 you all about it herself to-morrow: her first partner was Mr. Elton,
10954 I do not know who will ask her next, perhaps Mr. William Cox.’ My dear
10955 sir, you are too obliging.--Is there nobody you would not rather?--I am
10956 not helpless. Sir, you are most kind. Upon my word, Jane on one arm, and
10957 me on the other!--Stop, stop, let us stand a little back, Mrs. Elton is
10958 going; dear Mrs. Elton, how elegant she looks!--Beautiful lace!--Now we
10959 all follow in her train. Quite the queen of the evening!--Well, here we
10960 are at the passage. Two steps, Jane, take care of the two steps. Oh! no,
10961 there is but one. Well, I was persuaded there were two. How very odd!
10962 I was convinced there were two, and there is but one. I never saw any
10963 thing equal to the comfort and style--Candles everywhere.--I was telling
10964 you of your grandmama, Jane,--There was a little disappointment.--The
10965 baked apples and biscuits, excellent in their way, you know; but there
10966 was a delicate fricassee of sweetbread and some asparagus brought in at
10967 first, and good Mr. Woodhouse, not thinking the asparagus quite boiled
10968 enough, sent it all out again. Now there is nothing grandmama loves
10969 better than sweetbread and asparagus--so she was rather disappointed,
10970 but we agreed we would not speak of it to any body, for fear of
10971 its getting round to dear Miss Woodhouse, who would be so very much
10972 concerned!--Well, this is brilliant! I am all amazement! could not have
10973 supposed any thing!--Such elegance and profusion!--I have seen nothing
10974 like it since--Well, where shall we sit? where shall we sit? Anywhere,
10975 so that Jane is not in a draught. Where _I_ sit is of no consequence.
10976 Oh! do you recommend this side?--Well, I am sure, Mr. Churchill--only
10977 it seems too good--but just as you please. What you direct in this house
10978 cannot be wrong. Dear Jane, how shall we ever recollect half the dishes
10979 for grandmama? Soup too! Bless me! I should not be helped so soon, but
10980 it smells most excellent, and I cannot help beginning.”
10981
10982 Emma had no opportunity of speaking to Mr. Knightley till after supper;
10983 but, when they were all in the ballroom again, her eyes invited
10984 him irresistibly to come to her and be thanked. He was warm in his
10985 reprobation of Mr. Elton’s conduct; it had been unpardonable rudeness;
10986 and Mrs. Elton’s looks also received the due share of censure.
10987
10988 “They aimed at wounding more than Harriet,” said he. “Emma, why is it
10989 that they are your enemies?”
10990
10991 He looked with smiling penetration; and, on receiving no answer, added,
10992 “_She_ ought not to be angry with you, I suspect, whatever he may
10993 be.--To that surmise, you say nothing, of course; but confess, Emma,
10994 that you did want him to marry Harriet.”
10995
10996 “I did,” replied Emma, “and they cannot forgive me.”
10997
10998 He shook his head; but there was a smile of indulgence with it, and he
10999 only said,
11000
11001 “I shall not scold you. I leave you to your own reflections.”
11002
11003 “Can you trust me with such flatterers?--Does my vain spirit ever tell
11004 me I am wrong?”
11005
11006 “Not your vain spirit, but your serious spirit.--If one leads you wrong,
11007 I am sure the other tells you of it.”
11008
11009 “I do own myself to have been completely mistaken in Mr. Elton. There is
11010 a littleness about him which you discovered, and which I did not: and I
11011 was fully convinced of his being in love with Harriet. It was through a
11012 series of strange blunders!”
11013
11014 “And, in return for your acknowledging so much, I will do you the
11015 justice to say, that you would have chosen for him better than he has
11016 chosen for himself.--Harriet Smith has some first-rate qualities, which
11017 Mrs. Elton is totally without. An unpretending, single-minded, artless
11018 girl--infinitely to be preferred by any man of sense and taste to such a
11019 woman as Mrs. Elton. I found Harriet more conversable than I expected.”
11020
11021 Emma was extremely gratified.--They were interrupted by the bustle of
11022 Mr. Weston calling on every body to begin dancing again.
11023
11024 “Come Miss Woodhouse, Miss Otway, Miss Fairfax, what are you all
11025 doing?--Come Emma, set your companions the example. Every body is lazy!
11026 Every body is asleep!”
11027
11028 “I am ready,” said Emma, “whenever I am wanted.”
11029
11030 “Whom are you going to dance with?” asked Mr. Knightley.
11031
11032 She hesitated a moment, and then replied, “With you, if you will ask
11033 me.”
11034
11035 “Will you?” said he, offering his hand.
11036
11037 “Indeed I will. You have shewn that you can dance, and you know we are
11038 not really so much brother and sister as to make it at all improper.”
11039
11040 “Brother and sister! no, indeed.”
11041
11042
11043
11044 CHAPTER III
11045
11046
11047 This little explanation with Mr. Knightley gave Emma considerable
11048 pleasure. It was one of the agreeable recollections of the ball, which
11049 she walked about the lawn the next morning to enjoy.--She was extremely
11050 glad that they had come to so good an understanding respecting the
11051 Eltons, and that their opinions of both husband and wife were so much
11052 alike; and his praise of Harriet, his concession in her favour, was
11053 peculiarly gratifying. The impertinence of the Eltons, which for a few
11054 minutes had threatened to ruin the rest of her evening, had been the
11055 occasion of some of its highest satisfactions; and she looked forward
11056 to another happy result--the cure of Harriet’s infatuation.--From
11057 Harriet’s manner of speaking of the circumstance before they quitted the
11058 ballroom, she had strong hopes. It seemed as if her eyes were suddenly
11059 opened, and she were enabled to see that Mr. Elton was not the superior
11060 creature she had believed him. The fever was over, and Emma could
11061 harbour little fear of the pulse being quickened again by injurious
11062 courtesy. She depended on the evil feelings of the Eltons for
11063 supplying all the discipline of pointed neglect that could be farther
11064 requisite.--Harriet rational, Frank Churchill not too much in love, and
11065 Mr. Knightley not wanting to quarrel with her, how very happy a summer
11066 must be before her!
11067
11068 She was not to see Frank Churchill this morning. He had told her that he
11069 could not allow himself the pleasure of stopping at Hartfield, as he was
11070 to be at home by the middle of the day. She did not regret it.
11071
11072 Having arranged all these matters, looked them through, and put them all
11073 to rights, she was just turning to the house with spirits freshened up
11074 for the demands of the two little boys, as well as of their grandpapa,
11075 when the great iron sweep-gate opened, and two persons entered whom she
11076 had never less expected to see together--Frank Churchill, with Harriet
11077 leaning on his arm--actually Harriet!--A moment sufficed to convince
11078 her that something extraordinary had happened. Harriet looked white
11079 and frightened, and he was trying to cheer her.--The iron gates and the
11080 front-door were not twenty yards asunder;--they were all three soon in
11081 the hall, and Harriet immediately sinking into a chair fainted away.
11082
11083 A young lady who faints, must be recovered; questions must be answered,
11084 and surprizes be explained. Such events are very interesting, but the
11085 suspense of them cannot last long. A few minutes made Emma acquainted
11086 with the whole.
11087
11088 Miss Smith, and Miss Bickerton, another parlour boarder at Mrs.
11089 Goddard’s, who had been also at the ball, had walked out together, and
11090 taken a road, the Richmond road, which, though apparently public enough
11091 for safety, had led them into alarm.--About half a mile beyond Highbury,
11092 making a sudden turn, and deeply shaded by elms on each side, it became
11093 for a considerable stretch very retired; and when the young ladies
11094 had advanced some way into it, they had suddenly perceived at a small
11095 distance before them, on a broader patch of greensward by the side, a
11096 party of gipsies. A child on the watch, came towards them to beg; and
11097 Miss Bickerton, excessively frightened, gave a great scream, and calling
11098 on Harriet to follow her, ran up a steep bank, cleared a slight hedge at
11099 the top, and made the best of her way by a short cut back to Highbury.
11100 But poor Harriet could not follow. She had suffered very much from cramp
11101 after dancing, and her first attempt to mount the bank brought on such
11102 a return of it as made her absolutely powerless--and in this state, and
11103 exceedingly terrified, she had been obliged to remain.
11104
11105 How the trampers might have behaved, had the young ladies been more
11106 courageous, must be doubtful; but such an invitation for attack could
11107 not be resisted; and Harriet was soon assailed by half a dozen children,
11108 headed by a stout woman and a great boy, all clamorous, and impertinent
11109 in look, though not absolutely in word.--More and more frightened, she
11110 immediately promised them money, and taking out her purse, gave them a
11111 shilling, and begged them not to want more, or to use her ill.--She
11112 was then able to walk, though but slowly, and was moving away--but her
11113 terror and her purse were too tempting, and she was followed, or rather
11114 surrounded, by the whole gang, demanding more.
11115
11116 In this state Frank Churchill had found her, she trembling and
11117 conditioning, they loud and insolent. By a most fortunate chance his
11118 leaving Highbury had been delayed so as to bring him to her assistance
11119 at this critical moment. The pleasantness of the morning had induced
11120 him to walk forward, and leave his horses to meet him by another road,
11121 a mile or two beyond Highbury--and happening to have borrowed a pair
11122 of scissors the night before of Miss Bates, and to have forgotten to
11123 restore them, he had been obliged to stop at her door, and go in for a
11124 few minutes: he was therefore later than he had intended; and being
11125 on foot, was unseen by the whole party till almost close to them. The
11126 terror which the woman and boy had been creating in Harriet was then
11127 their own portion. He had left them completely frightened; and Harriet
11128 eagerly clinging to him, and hardly able to speak, had just strength
11129 enough to reach Hartfield, before her spirits were quite overcome.
11130 It was his idea to bring her to Hartfield: he had thought of no other
11131 place.
11132
11133 This was the amount of the whole story,--of his communication and of
11134 Harriet’s as soon as she had recovered her senses and speech.--He dared
11135 not stay longer than to see her well; these several delays left him
11136 not another minute to lose; and Emma engaging to give assurance of her
11137 safety to Mrs. Goddard, and notice of there being such a set of people
11138 in the neighbourhood to Mr. Knightley, he set off, with all the grateful
11139 blessings that she could utter for her friend and herself.
11140
11141 Such an adventure as this,--a fine young man and a lovely young woman
11142 thrown together in such a way, could hardly fail of suggesting certain
11143 ideas to the coldest heart and the steadiest brain. So Emma thought, at
11144 least. Could a linguist, could a grammarian, could even a mathematician
11145 have seen what she did, have witnessed their appearance together, and
11146 heard their history of it, without feeling that circumstances had been
11147 at work to make them peculiarly interesting to each other?--How much
11148 more must an imaginist, like herself, be on fire with speculation and
11149 foresight!--especially with such a groundwork of anticipation as her
11150 mind had already made.
11151
11152 It was a very extraordinary thing! Nothing of the sort had ever
11153 occurred before to any young ladies in the place, within her memory; no
11154 rencontre, no alarm of the kind;--and now it had happened to the very
11155 person, and at the very hour, when the other very person was chancing
11156 to pass by to rescue her!--It certainly was very extraordinary!--And
11157 knowing, as she did, the favourable state of mind of each at this
11158 period, it struck her the more. He was wishing to get the better of his
11159 attachment to herself, she just recovering from her mania for Mr. Elton.
11160 It seemed as if every thing united to promise the most interesting
11161 consequences. It was not possible that the occurrence should not be
11162 strongly recommending each to the other.
11163
11164 In the few minutes’ conversation which she had yet had with him, while
11165 Harriet had been partially insensible, he had spoken of her terror,
11166 her naivete, her fervour as she seized and clung to his arm, with a
11167 sensibility amused and delighted; and just at last, after Harriet’s
11168 own account had been given, he had expressed his indignation at the
11169 abominable folly of Miss Bickerton in the warmest terms. Every thing was
11170 to take its natural course, however, neither impelled nor assisted.
11171 She would not stir a step, nor drop a hint. No, she had had enough of
11172 interference. There could be no harm in a scheme, a mere passive scheme.
11173 It was no more than a wish. Beyond it she would on no account proceed.
11174
11175 Emma’s first resolution was to keep her father from the knowledge of
11176 what had passed,--aware of the anxiety and alarm it would occasion: but
11177 she soon felt that concealment must be impossible. Within half an hour
11178 it was known all over Highbury. It was the very event to engage those
11179 who talk most, the young and the low; and all the youth and servants in
11180 the place were soon in the happiness of frightful news. The last night’s
11181 ball seemed lost in the gipsies. Poor Mr. Woodhouse trembled as he sat,
11182 and, as Emma had foreseen, would scarcely be satisfied without their
11183 promising never to go beyond the shrubbery again. It was some comfort
11184 to him that many inquiries after himself and Miss Woodhouse (for his
11185 neighbours knew that he loved to be inquired after), as well as Miss
11186 Smith, were coming in during the rest of the day; and he had
11187 the pleasure of returning for answer, that they were all very
11188 indifferent--which, though not exactly true, for she was perfectly well,
11189 and Harriet not much otherwise, Emma would not interfere with. She had
11190 an unhappy state of health in general for the child of such a man,
11191 for she hardly knew what indisposition was; and if he did not invent
11192 illnesses for her, she could make no figure in a message.
11193
11194 The gipsies did not wait for the operations of justice; they took
11195 themselves off in a hurry. The young ladies of Highbury might have
11196 walked again in safety before their panic began, and the whole history
11197 dwindled soon into a matter of little importance but to Emma and her
11198 nephews:--in her imagination it maintained its ground, and Henry and
11199 John were still asking every day for the story of Harriet and the
11200 gipsies, and still tenaciously setting her right if she varied in the
11201 slightest particular from the original recital.
11202
11203
11204
11205 CHAPTER IV
11206
11207
11208 A very few days had passed after this adventure, when Harriet came one
11209 morning to Emma with a small parcel in her hand, and after sitting down
11210 and hesitating, thus began:
11211
11212 “Miss Woodhouse--if you are at leisure--I have something that I should
11213 like to tell you--a sort of confession to make--and then, you know, it
11214 will be over.”
11215
11216 Emma was a good deal surprized; but begged her to speak. There was a
11217 seriousness in Harriet’s manner which prepared her, quite as much as her
11218 words, for something more than ordinary.
11219
11220 “It is my duty, and I am sure it is my wish,” she continued, “to have
11221 no reserves with you on this subject. As I am happily quite an altered
11222 creature in _one_ _respect_, it is very fit that you should have
11223 the satisfaction of knowing it. I do not want to say more than is
11224 necessary--I am too much ashamed of having given way as I have done, and
11225 I dare say you understand me.”
11226
11227 “Yes,” said Emma, “I hope I do.”
11228
11229 “How I could so long a time be fancying myself!...” cried Harriet,
11230 warmly. “It seems like madness! I can see nothing at all extraordinary
11231 in him now.--I do not care whether I meet him or not--except that of the
11232 two I had rather not see him--and indeed I would go any distance round
11233 to avoid him--but I do not envy his wife in the least; I neither admire
11234 her nor envy her, as I have done: she is very charming, I dare say, and
11235 all that, but I think her very ill-tempered and disagreeable--I shall
11236 never forget her look the other night!--However, I assure you, Miss
11237 Woodhouse, I wish her no evil.--No, let them be ever so happy together,
11238 it will not give me another moment’s pang: and to convince you that I
11239 have been speaking truth, I am now going to destroy--what I ought to
11240 have destroyed long ago--what I ought never to have kept--I know that
11241 very well (blushing as she spoke).--However, now I will destroy it
11242 all--and it is my particular wish to do it in your presence, that you
11243 may see how rational I am grown. Cannot you guess what this parcel
11244 holds?” said she, with a conscious look.
11245
11246 “Not the least in the world.--Did he ever give you any thing?”
11247
11248 “No--I cannot call them gifts; but they are things that I have valued
11249 very much.”
11250
11251 She held the parcel towards her, and Emma read the words _Most_
11252 _precious_ _treasures_ on the top. Her curiosity was greatly excited.
11253 Harriet unfolded the parcel, and she looked on with impatience. Within
11254 abundance of silver paper was a pretty little Tunbridge-ware box,
11255 which Harriet opened: it was well lined with the softest cotton; but,
11256 excepting the cotton, Emma saw only a small piece of court-plaister.
11257
11258 “Now,” said Harriet, “you _must_ recollect.”
11259
11260 “No, indeed I do not.”
11261
11262 “Dear me! I should not have thought it possible you could forget what
11263 passed in this very room about court-plaister, one of the very last
11264 times we ever met in it!--It was but a very few days before I had my
11265 sore throat--just before Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley came--I think the
11266 very evening.--Do not you remember his cutting his finger with your new
11267 penknife, and your recommending court-plaister?--But, as you had none
11268 about you, and knew I had, you desired me to supply him; and so I took
11269 mine out and cut him a piece; but it was a great deal too large, and he
11270 cut it smaller, and kept playing some time with what was left, before he
11271 gave it back to me. And so then, in my nonsense, I could not help making
11272 a treasure of it--so I put it by never to be used, and looked at it now
11273 and then as a great treat.”
11274
11275 “My dearest Harriet!” cried Emma, putting her hand before her face,
11276 and jumping up, “you make me more ashamed of myself than I can bear.
11277 Remember it? Aye, I remember it all now; all, except your saving this
11278 relic--I knew nothing of that till this moment--but the cutting the
11279 finger, and my recommending court-plaister, and saying I had none
11280 about me!--Oh! my sins, my sins!--And I had plenty all the while in my
11281 pocket!--One of my senseless tricks!--I deserve to be under a continual
11282 blush all the rest of my life.--Well--(sitting down again)--go on--what
11283 else?”
11284
11285 “And had you really some at hand yourself? I am sure I never suspected
11286 it, you did it so naturally.”
11287
11288 “And so you actually put this piece of court-plaister by for his sake!”
11289 said Emma, recovering from her state of shame and feeling divided
11290 between wonder and amusement. And secretly she added to herself, “Lord
11291 bless me! when should I ever have thought of putting by in cotton a
11292 piece of court-plaister that Frank Churchill had been pulling about! I
11293 never was equal to this.”
11294
11295 “Here,” resumed Harriet, turning to her box again, “here is something
11296 still more valuable, I mean that _has_ _been_ more valuable, because
11297 this is what did really once belong to him, which the court-plaister
11298 never did.”
11299
11300 Emma was quite eager to see this superior treasure. It was the end of an
11301 old pencil,--the part without any lead.
11302
11303 “This was really his,” said Harriet.--“Do not you remember one
11304 morning?--no, I dare say you do not. But one morning--I forget exactly
11305 the day--but perhaps it was the Tuesday or Wednesday before _that_
11306 _evening_, he wanted to make a memorandum in his pocket-book; it was
11307 about spruce-beer. Mr. Knightley had been telling him something about
11308 brewing spruce-beer, and he wanted to put it down; but when he took out
11309 his pencil, there was so little lead that he soon cut it all away, and
11310 it would not do, so you lent him another, and this was left upon the
11311 table as good for nothing. But I kept my eye on it; and, as soon as I
11312 dared, caught it up, and never parted with it again from that moment.”
11313
11314 “I do remember it,” cried Emma; “I perfectly remember it.--Talking
11315 about spruce-beer.--Oh! yes--Mr. Knightley and I both saying we
11316 liked it, and Mr. Elton’s seeming resolved to learn to like it too. I
11317 perfectly remember it.--Stop; Mr. Knightley was standing just here, was
11318 not he? I have an idea he was standing just here.”
11319
11320 “Ah! I do not know. I cannot recollect.--It is very odd, but I cannot
11321 recollect.--Mr. Elton was sitting here, I remember, much about where I
11322 am now.”--
11323
11324 “Well, go on.”
11325
11326 “Oh! that’s all. I have nothing more to shew you, or to say--except that
11327 I am now going to throw them both behind the fire, and I wish you to see
11328 me do it.”
11329
11330 “My poor dear Harriet! and have you actually found happiness in
11331 treasuring up these things?”
11332
11333 “Yes, simpleton as I was!--but I am quite ashamed of it now, and wish I
11334 could forget as easily as I can burn them. It was very wrong of me, you
11335 know, to keep any remembrances, after he was married. I knew it was--but
11336 had not resolution enough to part with them.”
11337
11338 “But, Harriet, is it necessary to burn the court-plaister?--I have not
11339 a word to say for the bit of old pencil, but the court-plaister might be
11340 useful.”
11341
11342 “I shall be happier to burn it,” replied Harriet. “It has a disagreeable
11343 look to me. I must get rid of every thing.--There it goes, and there is
11344 an end, thank Heaven! of Mr. Elton.”
11345
11346 “And when,” thought Emma, “will there be a beginning of Mr. Churchill?”
11347
11348 She had soon afterwards reason to believe that the beginning was already
11349 made, and could not but hope that the gipsy, though she had _told_ no
11350 fortune, might be proved to have made Harriet’s.--About a fortnight
11351 after the alarm, they came to a sufficient explanation, and quite
11352 undesignedly. Emma was not thinking of it at the moment, which made the
11353 information she received more valuable. She merely said, in the course
11354 of some trivial chat, “Well, Harriet, whenever you marry I would advise
11355 you to do so and so”--and thought no more of it, till after a minute’s
11356 silence she heard Harriet say in a very serious tone, “I shall never
11357 marry.”
11358
11359 Emma then looked up, and immediately saw how it was; and after a
11360 moment’s debate, as to whether it should pass unnoticed or not, replied,
11361
11362 “Never marry!--This is a new resolution.”
11363
11364 “It is one that I shall never change, however.”
11365
11366 After another short hesitation, “I hope it does not proceed from--I hope
11367 it is not in compliment to Mr. Elton?”
11368
11369 “Mr. Elton indeed!” cried Harriet indignantly.--“Oh! no”--and Emma could
11370 just catch the words, “so superior to Mr. Elton!”
11371
11372 She then took a longer time for consideration. Should she proceed no
11373 farther?--should she let it pass, and seem to suspect nothing?--Perhaps
11374 Harriet might think her cold or angry if she did; or perhaps if she were
11375 totally silent, it might only drive Harriet into asking her to hear too
11376 much; and against any thing like such an unreserve as had been, such
11377 an open and frequent discussion of hopes and chances, she was perfectly
11378 resolved.--She believed it would be wiser for her to say and know at
11379 once, all that she meant to say and know. Plain dealing was always
11380 best. She had previously determined how far she would proceed, on any
11381 application of the sort; and it would be safer for both, to have the
11382 judicious law of her own brain laid down with speed.--She was decided,
11383 and thus spoke--
11384
11385 “Harriet, I will not affect to be in doubt of your meaning. Your
11386 resolution, or rather your expectation of never marrying, results from
11387 an idea that the person whom you might prefer, would be too greatly your
11388 superior in situation to think of you. Is not it so?”
11389
11390 “Oh! Miss Woodhouse, believe me I have not the presumption to suppose--
11391 Indeed I am not so mad.--But it is a pleasure to me to admire him at a
11392 distance--and to think of his infinite superiority to all the rest of
11393 the world, with the gratitude, wonder, and veneration, which are so
11394 proper, in me especially.”
11395
11396 “I am not at all surprized at you, Harriet. The service he rendered you
11397 was enough to warm your heart.”
11398
11399 “Service! oh! it was such an inexpressible obligation!--The very
11400 recollection of it, and all that I felt at the time--when I saw him
11401 coming--his noble look--and my wretchedness before. Such a change! In
11402 one moment such a change! From perfect misery to perfect happiness!”
11403
11404 “It is very natural. It is natural, and it is honourable.--Yes,
11405 honourable, I think, to chuse so well and so gratefully.--But that
11406 it will be a fortunate preference is more than I can promise. I do not
11407 advise you to give way to it, Harriet. I do not by any means engage
11408 for its being returned. Consider what you are about. Perhaps it will be
11409 wisest in you to check your feelings while you can: at any rate do not
11410 let them carry you far, unless you are persuaded of his liking you. Be
11411 observant of him. Let his behaviour be the guide of your sensations. I
11412 give you this caution now, because I shall never speak to you again on
11413 the subject. I am determined against all interference. Henceforward I
11414 know nothing of the matter. Let no name ever pass our lips. We were very
11415 wrong before; we will be cautious now.--He is your superior, no doubt,
11416 and there do seem objections and obstacles of a very serious nature; but
11417 yet, Harriet, more wonderful things have taken place, there have been
11418 matches of greater disparity. But take care of yourself. I would not
11419 have you too sanguine; though, however it may end, be assured your
11420 raising your thoughts to _him_, is a mark of good taste which I shall
11421 always know how to value.”
11422
11423 Harriet kissed her hand in silent and submissive gratitude. Emma was
11424 very decided in thinking such an attachment no bad thing for her friend.
11425 Its tendency would be to raise and refine her mind--and it must be
11426 saving her from the danger of degradation.
11427
11428
11429
11430 CHAPTER V
11431
11432
11433 In this state of schemes, and hopes, and connivance, June opened upon
11434 Hartfield. To Highbury in general it brought no material change. The
11435 Eltons were still talking of a visit from the Sucklings, and of the use
11436 to be made of their barouche-landau; and Jane Fairfax was still at her
11437 grandmother’s; and as the return of the Campbells from Ireland was again
11438 delayed, and August, instead of Midsummer, fixed for it, she was likely
11439 to remain there full two months longer, provided at least she were able
11440 to defeat Mrs. Elton’s activity in her service, and save herself from
11441 being hurried into a delightful situation against her will.
11442
11443 Mr. Knightley, who, for some reason best known to himself, had certainly
11444 taken an early dislike to Frank Churchill, was only growing to dislike
11445 him more. He began to suspect him of some double dealing in his pursuit
11446 of Emma. That Emma was his object appeared indisputable. Every thing
11447 declared it; his own attentions, his father’s hints, his mother-in-law’s
11448 guarded silence; it was all in unison; words, conduct, discretion, and
11449 indiscretion, told the same story. But while so many were devoting him
11450 to Emma, and Emma herself making him over to Harriet, Mr. Knightley
11451 began to suspect him of some inclination to trifle with Jane Fairfax. He
11452 could not understand it; but there were symptoms of intelligence between
11453 them--he thought so at least--symptoms of admiration on his side, which,
11454 having once observed, he could not persuade himself to think entirely
11455 void of meaning, however he might wish to escape any of Emma’s errors
11456 of imagination. _She_ was not present when the suspicion first arose.
11457 He was dining with the Randalls family, and Jane, at the Eltons’; and he
11458 had seen a look, more than a single look, at Miss Fairfax, which, from
11459 the admirer of Miss Woodhouse, seemed somewhat out of place. When he was
11460 again in their company, he could not help remembering what he had seen;
11461 nor could he avoid observations which, unless it were like Cowper and
11462 his fire at twilight,
11463
11464 “Myself creating what I saw,”
11465
11466 brought him yet stronger suspicion of there being a something of private
11467 liking, of private understanding even, between Frank Churchill and Jane.
11468
11469 He had walked up one day after dinner, as he very often did, to spend
11470 his evening at Hartfield. Emma and Harriet were going to walk; he joined
11471 them; and, on returning, they fell in with a larger party, who, like
11472 themselves, judged it wisest to take their exercise early, as the
11473 weather threatened rain; Mr. and Mrs. Weston and their son, Miss Bates
11474 and her niece, who had accidentally met. They all united; and, on
11475 reaching Hartfield gates, Emma, who knew it was exactly the sort of
11476 visiting that would be welcome to her father, pressed them all to go in
11477 and drink tea with him. The Randalls party agreed to it immediately; and
11478 after a pretty long speech from Miss Bates, which few persons listened
11479 to, she also found it possible to accept dear Miss Woodhouse’s most
11480 obliging invitation.
11481
11482 As they were turning into the grounds, Mr. Perry passed by on horseback.
11483 The gentlemen spoke of his horse.
11484
11485 “By the bye,” said Frank Churchill to Mrs. Weston presently, “what
11486 became of Mr. Perry’s plan of setting up his carriage?”
11487
11488 Mrs. Weston looked surprized, and said, “I did not know that he ever had
11489 any such plan.”
11490
11491 “Nay, I had it from you. You wrote me word of it three months ago.”
11492
11493 “Me! impossible!”
11494
11495 “Indeed you did. I remember it perfectly. You mentioned it as what
11496 was certainly to be very soon. Mrs. Perry had told somebody, and was
11497 extremely happy about it. It was owing to _her_ persuasion, as she
11498 thought his being out in bad weather did him a great deal of harm. You
11499 must remember it now?”
11500
11501 “Upon my word I never heard of it till this moment.”
11502
11503 “Never! really, never!--Bless me! how could it be?--Then I must have
11504 dreamt it--but I was completely persuaded--Miss Smith, you walk as if
11505 you were tired. You will not be sorry to find yourself at home.”
11506
11507 “What is this?--What is this?” cried Mr. Weston, “about Perry and a
11508 carriage? Is Perry going to set up his carriage, Frank? I am glad he can
11509 afford it. You had it from himself, had you?”
11510
11511 “No, sir,” replied his son, laughing, “I seem to have had it from
11512 nobody.--Very odd!--I really was persuaded of Mrs. Weston’s having
11513 mentioned it in one of her letters to Enscombe, many weeks ago, with all
11514 these particulars--but as she declares she never heard a syllable of
11515 it before, of course it must have been a dream. I am a great dreamer.
11516 I dream of every body at Highbury when I am away--and when I have gone
11517 through my particular friends, then I begin dreaming of Mr. and Mrs.
11518 Perry.”
11519
11520 “It is odd though,” observed his father, “that you should have had such
11521 a regular connected dream about people whom it was not very likely you
11522 should be thinking of at Enscombe. Perry’s setting up his carriage! and
11523 his wife’s persuading him to it, out of care for his health--just
11524 what will happen, I have no doubt, some time or other; only a little
11525 premature. What an air of probability sometimes runs through a dream!
11526 And at others, what a heap of absurdities it is! Well, Frank, your dream
11527 certainly shews that Highbury is in your thoughts when you are absent.
11528 Emma, you are a great dreamer, I think?”
11529
11530 Emma was out of hearing. She had hurried on before her guests to
11531 prepare her father for their appearance, and was beyond the reach of Mr.
11532 Weston’s hint.
11533
11534 “Why, to own the truth,” cried Miss Bates, who had been trying in vain
11535 to be heard the last two minutes, “if I must speak on this subject,
11536 there is no denying that Mr. Frank Churchill might have--I do not mean
11537 to say that he did not dream it--I am sure I have sometimes the oddest
11538 dreams in the world--but if I am questioned about it, I must acknowledge
11539 that there was such an idea last spring; for Mrs. Perry herself
11540 mentioned it to my mother, and the Coles knew of it as well as
11541 ourselves--but it was quite a secret, known to nobody else, and only
11542 thought of about three days. Mrs. Perry was very anxious that he should
11543 have a carriage, and came to my mother in great spirits one morning
11544 because she thought she had prevailed. Jane, don’t you remember
11545 grandmama’s telling us of it when we got home? I forget where we
11546 had been walking to--very likely to Randalls; yes, I think it was to
11547 Randalls. Mrs. Perry was always particularly fond of my mother--indeed
11548 I do not know who is not--and she had mentioned it to her in confidence;
11549 she had no objection to her telling us, of course, but it was not to go
11550 beyond: and, from that day to this, I never mentioned it to a soul that
11551 I know of. At the same time, I will not positively answer for my having
11552 never dropt a hint, because I know I do sometimes pop out a thing before
11553 I am aware. I am a talker, you know; I am rather a talker; and now and
11554 then I have let a thing escape me which I should not. I am not like
11555 Jane; I wish I were. I will answer for it _she_ never betrayed the least
11556 thing in the world. Where is she?--Oh! just behind. Perfectly remember
11557 Mrs. Perry’s coming.--Extraordinary dream, indeed!”
11558
11559 They were entering the hall. Mr. Knightley’s eyes had preceded Miss
11560 Bates’s in a glance at Jane. From Frank Churchill’s face, where
11561 he thought he saw confusion suppressed or laughed away, he had
11562 involuntarily turned to hers; but she was indeed behind, and too busy
11563 with her shawl. Mr. Weston had walked in. The two other gentlemen waited
11564 at the door to let her pass. Mr. Knightley suspected in Frank
11565 Churchill the determination of catching her eye--he seemed watching her
11566 intently--in vain, however, if it were so--Jane passed between them
11567 into the hall, and looked at neither.
11568
11569 There was no time for farther remark or explanation. The dream must be
11570 borne with, and Mr. Knightley must take his seat with the rest round the
11571 large modern circular table which Emma had introduced at Hartfield, and
11572 which none but Emma could have had power to place there and persuade her
11573 father to use, instead of the small-sized Pembroke, on which two of his
11574 daily meals had, for forty years been crowded. Tea passed pleasantly,
11575 and nobody seemed in a hurry to move.
11576
11577 “Miss Woodhouse,” said Frank Churchill, after examining a table behind
11578 him, which he could reach as he sat, “have your nephews taken away their
11579 alphabets--their box of letters? It used to stand here. Where is it?
11580 This is a sort of dull-looking evening, that ought to be treated rather
11581 as winter than summer. We had great amusement with those letters one
11582 morning. I want to puzzle you again.”
11583
11584 Emma was pleased with the thought; and producing the box, the table
11585 was quickly scattered over with alphabets, which no one seemed so much
11586 disposed to employ as their two selves. They were rapidly forming words
11587 for each other, or for any body else who would be puzzled. The quietness
11588 of the game made it particularly eligible for Mr. Woodhouse, who had
11589 often been distressed by the more animated sort, which Mr. Weston had
11590 occasionally introduced, and who now sat happily occupied in lamenting,
11591 with tender melancholy, over the departure of the “poor little boys,”
11592 or in fondly pointing out, as he took up any stray letter near him, how
11593 beautifully Emma had written it.
11594
11595 Frank Churchill placed a word before Miss Fairfax. She gave a slight
11596 glance round the table, and applied herself to it. Frank was next to
11597 Emma, Jane opposite to them--and Mr. Knightley so placed as to see them
11598 all; and it was his object to see as much as he could, with as little
11599 apparent observation. The word was discovered, and with a faint smile
11600 pushed away. If meant to be immediately mixed with the others, and
11601 buried from sight, she should have looked on the table instead of
11602 looking just across, for it was not mixed; and Harriet, eager after
11603 every fresh word, and finding out none, directly took it up, and fell to
11604 work. She was sitting by Mr. Knightley, and turned to him for help. The
11605 word was _blunder_; and as Harriet exultingly proclaimed it, there was a
11606 blush on Jane’s cheek which gave it a meaning not otherwise ostensible.
11607 Mr. Knightley connected it with the dream; but how it could all be,
11608 was beyond his comprehension. How the delicacy, the discretion of his
11609 favourite could have been so lain asleep! He feared there must be some
11610 decided involvement. Disingenuousness and double dealing seemed to meet
11611 him at every turn. These letters were but the vehicle for gallantry and
11612 trick. It was a child’s play, chosen to conceal a deeper game on Frank
11613 Churchill’s part.
11614
11615 With great indignation did he continue to observe him; with great alarm
11616 and distrust, to observe also his two blinded companions. He saw a short
11617 word prepared for Emma, and given to her with a look sly and demure. He
11618 saw that Emma had soon made it out, and found it highly entertaining,
11619 though it was something which she judged it proper to appear to censure;
11620 for she said, “Nonsense! for shame!” He heard Frank Churchill next say,
11621 with a glance towards Jane, “I will give it to her--shall I?”--and as
11622 clearly heard Emma opposing it with eager laughing warmth. “No, no, you
11623 must not; you shall not, indeed.”
11624
11625 It was done however. This gallant young man, who seemed to love without
11626 feeling, and to recommend himself without complaisance, directly handed
11627 over the word to Miss Fairfax, and with a particular degree of sedate
11628 civility entreated her to study it. Mr. Knightley’s excessive curiosity
11629 to know what this word might be, made him seize every possible moment
11630 for darting his eye towards it, and it was not long before he saw it
11631 to be _Dixon_. Jane Fairfax’s perception seemed to accompany his;
11632 her comprehension was certainly more equal to the covert meaning,
11633 the superior intelligence, of those five letters so arranged. She was
11634 evidently displeased; looked up, and seeing herself watched, blushed
11635 more deeply than he had ever perceived her, and saying only, “I did not
11636 know that proper names were allowed,” pushed away the letters with even
11637 an angry spirit, and looked resolved to be engaged by no other word
11638 that could be offered. Her face was averted from those who had made the
11639 attack, and turned towards her aunt.
11640
11641 “Aye, very true, my dear,” cried the latter, though Jane had not spoken
11642 a word--“I was just going to say the same thing. It is time for us to be
11643 going indeed. The evening is closing in, and grandmama will be looking
11644 for us. My dear sir, you are too obliging. We really must wish you good
11645 night.”
11646
11647 Jane’s alertness in moving, proved her as ready as her aunt had
11648 preconceived. She was immediately up, and wanting to quit the table; but
11649 so many were also moving, that she could not get away; and Mr. Knightley
11650 thought he saw another collection of letters anxiously pushed towards
11651 her, and resolutely swept away by her unexamined. She was afterwards
11652 looking for her shawl--Frank Churchill was looking also--it was growing
11653 dusk, and the room was in confusion; and how they parted, Mr. Knightley
11654 could not tell.
11655
11656 He remained at Hartfield after all the rest, his thoughts full of
11657 what he had seen; so full, that when the candles came to assist his
11658 observations, he must--yes, he certainly must, as a friend--an anxious
11659 friend--give Emma some hint, ask her some question. He could not see her
11660 in a situation of such danger, without trying to preserve her. It was
11661 his duty.
11662
11663 “Pray, Emma,” said he, “may I ask in what lay the great amusement, the
11664 poignant sting of the last word given to you and Miss Fairfax? I saw the
11665 word, and am curious to know how it could be so very entertaining to the
11666 one, and so very distressing to the other.”
11667
11668 Emma was extremely confused. She could not endure to give him the true
11669 explanation; for though her suspicions were by no means removed, she was
11670 really ashamed of having ever imparted them.
11671
11672 “Oh!” she cried in evident embarrassment, “it all meant nothing; a mere
11673 joke among ourselves.”
11674
11675 “The joke,” he replied gravely, “seemed confined to you and Mr.
11676 Churchill.”
11677
11678 He had hoped she would speak again, but she did not. She would rather
11679 busy herself about any thing than speak. He sat a little while in
11680 doubt. A variety of evils crossed his mind. Interference--fruitless
11681 interference. Emma’s confusion, and the acknowledged intimacy, seemed to
11682 declare her affection engaged. Yet he would speak. He owed it to her,
11683 to risk any thing that might be involved in an unwelcome interference,
11684 rather than her welfare; to encounter any thing, rather than the
11685 remembrance of neglect in such a cause.
11686
11687 “My dear Emma,” said he at last, with earnest kindness, “do you
11688 think you perfectly understand the degree of acquaintance between the
11689 gentleman and lady we have been speaking of?”
11690
11691 “Between Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Fairfax? Oh! yes, perfectly.--Why
11692 do you make a doubt of it?”
11693
11694 “Have you never at any time had reason to think that he admired her, or
11695 that she admired him?”
11696
11697 “Never, never!” she cried with a most open eagerness--“Never, for the
11698 twentieth part of a moment, did such an idea occur to me. And how could
11699 it possibly come into your head?”
11700
11701 “I have lately imagined that I saw symptoms of attachment between
11702 them--certain expressive looks, which I did not believe meant to be
11703 public.”
11704
11705 “Oh! you amuse me excessively. I am delighted to find that you can
11706 vouchsafe to let your imagination wander--but it will not do--very sorry
11707 to check you in your first essay--but indeed it will not do. There is no
11708 admiration between them, I do assure you; and the appearances which
11709 have caught you, have arisen from some peculiar circumstances--feelings
11710 rather of a totally different nature--it is impossible exactly to
11711 explain:--there is a good deal of nonsense in it--but the part which is
11712 capable of being communicated, which is sense, is, that they are as far
11713 from any attachment or admiration for one another, as any two beings in
11714 the world can be. That is, I _presume_ it to be so on her side, and I
11715 can _answer_ for its being so on his. I will answer for the gentleman’s
11716 indifference.”
11717
11718 She spoke with a confidence which staggered, with a satisfaction
11719 which silenced, Mr. Knightley. She was in gay spirits, and would have
11720 prolonged the conversation, wanting to hear the particulars of his
11721 suspicions, every look described, and all the wheres and hows of a
11722 circumstance which highly entertained her: but his gaiety did not meet
11723 hers. He found he could not be useful, and his feelings were too much
11724 irritated for talking. That he might not be irritated into an absolute
11725 fever, by the fire which Mr. Woodhouse’s tender habits required almost
11726 every evening throughout the year, he soon afterwards took a hasty
11727 leave, and walked home to the coolness and solitude of Donwell Abbey.
11728
11729
11730
11731 CHAPTER VI
11732
11733
11734 After being long fed with hopes of a speedy visit from Mr. and Mrs.
11735 Suckling, the Highbury world were obliged to endure the mortification
11736 of hearing that they could not possibly come till the autumn. No such
11737 importation of novelties could enrich their intellectual stores at
11738 present. In the daily interchange of news, they must be again restricted
11739 to the other topics with which for a while the Sucklings’ coming had
11740 been united, such as the last accounts of Mrs. Churchill, whose health
11741 seemed every day to supply a different report, and the situation of Mrs.
11742 Weston, whose happiness it was to be hoped might eventually be as much
11743 increased by the arrival of a child, as that of all her neighbours was
11744 by the approach of it.
11745
11746 Mrs. Elton was very much disappointed. It was the delay of a great deal
11747 of pleasure and parade. Her introductions and recommendations must all
11748 wait, and every projected party be still only talked of. So she thought
11749 at first;--but a little consideration convinced her that every thing
11750 need not be put off. Why should not they explore to Box Hill though
11751 the Sucklings did not come? They could go there again with them in the
11752 autumn. It was settled that they should go to Box Hill. That there was
11753 to be such a party had been long generally known: it had even given the
11754 idea of another. Emma had never been to Box Hill; she wished to see what
11755 every body found so well worth seeing, and she and Mr. Weston had agreed
11756 to chuse some fine morning and drive thither. Two or three more of the
11757 chosen only were to be admitted to join them, and it was to be done in a
11758 quiet, unpretending, elegant way, infinitely superior to the bustle and
11759 preparation, the regular eating and drinking, and picnic parade of the
11760 Eltons and the Sucklings.
11761
11762 This was so very well understood between them, that Emma could not but
11763 feel some surprise, and a little displeasure, on hearing from Mr. Weston
11764 that he had been proposing to Mrs. Elton, as her brother and sister had
11765 failed her, that the two parties should unite, and go together; and that
11766 as Mrs. Elton had very readily acceded to it, so it was to be, if she
11767 had no objection. Now, as her objection was nothing but her very great
11768 dislike of Mrs. Elton, of which Mr. Weston must already be perfectly
11769 aware, it was not worth bringing forward again:--it could not be done
11770 without a reproof to him, which would be giving pain to his wife; and
11771 she found herself therefore obliged to consent to an arrangement which
11772 she would have done a great deal to avoid; an arrangement which would
11773 probably expose her even to the degradation of being said to be of Mrs.
11774 Elton’s party! Every feeling was offended; and the forbearance of her
11775 outward submission left a heavy arrear due of secret severity in her
11776 reflections on the unmanageable goodwill of Mr. Weston’s temper.
11777
11778 “I am glad you approve of what I have done,” said he very comfortably.
11779 “But I thought you would. Such schemes as these are nothing without
11780 numbers. One cannot have too large a party. A large party secures its
11781 own amusement. And she is a good-natured woman after all. One could not
11782 leave her out.”
11783
11784 Emma denied none of it aloud, and agreed to none of it in private.
11785
11786 It was now the middle of June, and the weather fine; and Mrs. Elton
11787 was growing impatient to name the day, and settle with Mr. Weston as to
11788 pigeon-pies and cold lamb, when a lame carriage-horse threw every thing
11789 into sad uncertainty. It might be weeks, it might be only a few days,
11790 before the horse were useable; but no preparations could be ventured
11791 on, and it was all melancholy stagnation. Mrs. Elton’s resources were
11792 inadequate to such an attack.
11793
11794 “Is not this most vexatious, Knightley?” she cried.--“And such weather
11795 for exploring!--These delays and disappointments are quite odious. What
11796 are we to do?--The year will wear away at this rate, and nothing
11797 done. Before this time last year I assure you we had had a delightful
11798 exploring party from Maple Grove to Kings Weston.”
11799
11800 “You had better explore to Donwell,” replied Mr. Knightley. “That may
11801 be done without horses. Come, and eat my strawberries. They are ripening
11802 fast.”
11803
11804 If Mr. Knightley did not begin seriously, he was obliged to proceed so,
11805 for his proposal was caught at with delight; and the “Oh! I should like
11806 it of all things,” was not plainer in words than manner. Donwell was
11807 famous for its strawberry-beds, which seemed a plea for the invitation:
11808 but no plea was necessary; cabbage-beds would have been enough to tempt
11809 the lady, who only wanted to be going somewhere. She promised him again
11810 and again to come--much oftener than he doubted--and was extremely
11811 gratified by such a proof of intimacy, such a distinguishing compliment
11812 as she chose to consider it.
11813
11814 “You may depend upon me,” said she. “I certainly will come. Name your
11815 day, and I will come. You will allow me to bring Jane Fairfax?”
11816
11817 “I cannot name a day,” said he, “till I have spoken to some others whom
11818 I would wish to meet you.”
11819
11820 “Oh! leave all that to me. Only give me a carte-blanche.--I am Lady
11821 Patroness, you know. It is my party. I will bring friends with me.”
11822
11823 “I hope you will bring Elton,” said he: “but I will not trouble you to
11824 give any other invitations.”
11825
11826 “Oh! now you are looking very sly. But consider--you need not be afraid
11827 of delegating power to _me_. I am no young lady on her preferment.
11828 Married women, you know, may be safely authorised. It is my party. Leave
11829 it all to me. I will invite your guests.”
11830
11831 “No,”--he calmly replied,--“there is but one married woman in the world
11832 whom I can ever allow to invite what guests she pleases to Donwell, and
11833 that one is--”
11834
11835 “--Mrs. Weston, I suppose,” interrupted Mrs. Elton, rather mortified.
11836
11837 “No--Mrs. Knightley;--and till she is in being, I will manage such
11838 matters myself.”
11839
11840 “Ah! you are an odd creature!” she cried, satisfied to have no one
11841 preferred to herself.--“You are a humourist, and may say what you
11842 like. Quite a humourist. Well, I shall bring Jane with me--Jane and her
11843 aunt.--The rest I leave to you. I have no objections at all to meeting
11844 the Hartfield family. Don’t scruple. I know you are attached to them.”
11845
11846 “You certainly will meet them if I can prevail; and I shall call on Miss
11847 Bates in my way home.”
11848
11849 “That’s quite unnecessary; I see Jane every day:--but as you like. It
11850 is to be a morning scheme, you know, Knightley; quite a simple thing. I
11851 shall wear a large bonnet, and bring one of my little baskets hanging
11852 on my arm. Here,--probably this basket with pink ribbon. Nothing can be
11853 more simple, you see. And Jane will have such another. There is to be
11854 no form or parade--a sort of gipsy party. We are to walk about
11855 your gardens, and gather the strawberries ourselves, and sit under
11856 trees;--and whatever else you may like to provide, it is to be all out
11857 of doors--a table spread in the shade, you know. Every thing as natural
11858 and simple as possible. Is not that your idea?”
11859
11860 “Not quite. My idea of the simple and the natural will be to have
11861 the table spread in the dining-room. The nature and the simplicity of
11862 gentlemen and ladies, with their servants and furniture, I think is
11863 best observed by meals within doors. When you are tired of eating
11864 strawberries in the garden, there shall be cold meat in the house.”
11865
11866 “Well--as you please; only don’t have a great set out. And, by the bye,
11867 can I or my housekeeper be of any use to you with our opinion?--Pray be
11868 sincere, Knightley. If you wish me to talk to Mrs. Hodges, or to inspect
11869 anything--”
11870
11871 “I have not the least wish for it, I thank you.”
11872
11873 “Well--but if any difficulties should arise, my housekeeper is extremely
11874 clever.”
11875
11876 “I will answer for it, that mine thinks herself full as clever, and
11877 would spurn any body’s assistance.”
11878
11879 “I wish we had a donkey. The thing would be for us all to come on
11880 donkeys, Jane, Miss Bates, and me--and my caro sposo walking by. I
11881 really must talk to him about purchasing a donkey. In a country life
11882 I conceive it to be a sort of necessary; for, let a woman have ever
11883 so many resources, it is not possible for her to be always shut up at
11884 home;--and very long walks, you know--in summer there is dust, and in
11885 winter there is dirt.”
11886
11887 “You will not find either, between Donwell and Highbury. Donwell Lane is
11888 never dusty, and now it is perfectly dry. Come on a donkey, however, if
11889 you prefer it. You can borrow Mrs. Cole’s. I would wish every thing to
11890 be as much to your taste as possible.”
11891
11892 “That I am sure you would. Indeed I do you justice, my good friend.
11893 Under that peculiar sort of dry, blunt manner, I know you have the
11894 warmest heart. As I tell Mr. E., you are a thorough humourist.--Yes,
11895 believe me, Knightley, I am fully sensible of your attention to me in
11896 the whole of this scheme. You have hit upon the very thing to please
11897 me.”
11898
11899 Mr. Knightley had another reason for avoiding a table in the shade. He
11900 wished to persuade Mr. Woodhouse, as well as Emma, to join the party;
11901 and he knew that to have any of them sitting down out of doors to
11902 eat would inevitably make him ill. Mr. Woodhouse must not, under the
11903 specious pretence of a morning drive, and an hour or two spent at
11904 Donwell, be tempted away to his misery.
11905
11906 He was invited on good faith. No lurking horrors were to upbraid him for
11907 his easy credulity. He did consent. He had not been at Donwell for two
11908 years. “Some very fine morning, he, and Emma, and Harriet, could go
11909 very well; and he could sit still with Mrs. Weston, while the dear girls
11910 walked about the gardens. He did not suppose they could be damp now,
11911 in the middle of the day. He should like to see the old house again
11912 exceedingly, and should be very happy to meet Mr. and Mrs. Elton, and
11913 any other of his neighbours.--He could not see any objection at all to
11914 his, and Emma’s, and Harriet’s going there some very fine morning. He
11915 thought it very well done of Mr. Knightley to invite them--very kind
11916 and sensible--much cleverer than dining out.--He was not fond of dining
11917 out.”
11918
11919 Mr. Knightley was fortunate in every body’s most ready concurrence. The
11920 invitation was everywhere so well received, that it seemed as if, like
11921 Mrs. Elton, they were all taking the scheme as a particular compliment
11922 to themselves.--Emma and Harriet professed very high expectations of
11923 pleasure from it; and Mr. Weston, unasked, promised to get Frank over to
11924 join them, if possible; a proof of approbation and gratitude which could
11925 have been dispensed with.--Mr. Knightley was then obliged to say that
11926 he should be glad to see him; and Mr. Weston engaged to lose no time in
11927 writing, and spare no arguments to induce him to come.
11928
11929 In the meanwhile the lame horse recovered so fast, that the party to
11930 Box Hill was again under happy consideration; and at last Donwell was
11931 settled for one day, and Box Hill for the next,--the weather appearing
11932 exactly right.
11933
11934 Under a bright mid-day sun, at almost Midsummer, Mr. Woodhouse was
11935 safely conveyed in his carriage, with one window down, to partake of
11936 this al-fresco party; and in one of the most comfortable rooms in the
11937 Abbey, especially prepared for him by a fire all the morning, he was
11938 happily placed, quite at his ease, ready to talk with pleasure of what
11939 had been achieved, and advise every body to come and sit down, and not
11940 to heat themselves.--Mrs. Weston, who seemed to have walked there on
11941 purpose to be tired, and sit all the time with him, remained, when
11942 all the others were invited or persuaded out, his patient listener and
11943 sympathiser.
11944
11945 It was so long since Emma had been at the Abbey, that as soon as she was
11946 satisfied of her father’s comfort, she was glad to leave him, and look
11947 around her; eager to refresh and correct her memory with more particular
11948 observation, more exact understanding of a house and grounds which must
11949 ever be so interesting to her and all her family.
11950
11951 She felt all the honest pride and complacency which her alliance with
11952 the present and future proprietor could fairly warrant, as she viewed
11953 the respectable size and style of the building, its suitable, becoming,
11954 characteristic situation, low and sheltered--its ample gardens
11955 stretching down to meadows washed by a stream, of which the Abbey, with
11956 all the old neglect of prospect, had scarcely a sight--and its abundance
11957 of timber in rows and avenues, which neither fashion nor extravagance
11958 had rooted up.--The house was larger than Hartfield, and totally unlike
11959 it, covering a good deal of ground, rambling and irregular, with many
11960 comfortable, and one or two handsome rooms.--It was just what it ought
11961 to be, and it looked what it was--and Emma felt an increasing respect
11962 for it, as the residence of a family of such true gentility, untainted
11963 in blood and understanding.--Some faults of temper John Knightley had;
11964 but Isabella had connected herself unexceptionably. She had given them
11965 neither men, nor names, nor places, that could raise a blush. These were
11966 pleasant feelings, and she walked about and indulged them till it
11967 was necessary to do as the others did, and collect round the
11968 strawberry-beds.--The whole party were assembled, excepting Frank
11969 Churchill, who was expected every moment from Richmond; and Mrs. Elton,
11970 in all her apparatus of happiness, her large bonnet and her basket,
11971 was very ready to lead the way in gathering, accepting, or
11972 talking--strawberries, and only strawberries, could now be thought or
11973 spoken of.--“The best fruit in England--every body’s favourite--always
11974 wholesome.--These the finest beds and finest sorts.--Delightful to
11975 gather for one’s self--the only way of really enjoying them.--Morning
11976 decidedly the best time--never tired--every sort good--hautboy
11977 infinitely superior--no comparison--the others hardly eatable--hautboys
11978 very scarce--Chili preferred--white wood finest flavour of all--price
11979 of strawberries in London--abundance about Bristol--Maple
11980 Grove--cultivation--beds when to be renewed--gardeners thinking exactly
11981 different--no general rule--gardeners never to be put out of their
11982 way--delicious fruit--only too rich to be eaten much of--inferior
11983 to cherries--currants more refreshing--only objection to gathering
11984 strawberries the stooping--glaring sun--tired to death--could bear it no
11985 longer--must go and sit in the shade.”
11986
11987 Such, for half an hour, was the conversation--interrupted only once by
11988 Mrs. Weston, who came out, in her solicitude after her son-in-law, to
11989 inquire if he were come--and she was a little uneasy.--She had some
11990 fears of his horse.
11991
11992 Seats tolerably in the shade were found; and now Emma was obliged
11993 to overhear what Mrs. Elton and Jane Fairfax were talking of.--A
11994 situation, a most desirable situation, was in question. Mrs. Elton had
11995 received notice of it that morning, and was in raptures. It was not
11996 with Mrs. Suckling, it was not with Mrs. Bragge, but in felicity and
11997 splendour it fell short only of them: it was with a cousin of Mrs.
11998 Bragge, an acquaintance of Mrs. Suckling, a lady known at Maple Grove.
11999 Delightful, charming, superior, first circles, spheres, lines, ranks,
12000 every thing--and Mrs. Elton was wild to have the offer closed with
12001 immediately.--On her side, all was warmth, energy, and triumph--and she
12002 positively refused to take her friend’s negative, though Miss Fairfax
12003 continued to assure her that she would not at present engage in any
12004 thing, repeating the same motives which she had been heard to urge
12005 before.--Still Mrs. Elton insisted on being authorised to write an
12006 acquiescence by the morrow’s post.--How Jane could bear it at all, was
12007 astonishing to Emma.--She did look vexed, she did speak pointedly--and
12008 at last, with a decision of action unusual to her, proposed a
12009 removal.--“Should not they walk? Would not Mr. Knightley shew them the
12010 gardens--all the gardens?--She wished to see the whole extent.”--The
12011 pertinacity of her friend seemed more than she could bear.
12012
12013 It was hot; and after walking some time over the gardens in a scattered,
12014 dispersed way, scarcely any three together, they insensibly followed one
12015 another to the delicious shade of a broad short avenue of limes, which
12016 stretching beyond the garden at an equal distance from the river, seemed
12017 the finish of the pleasure grounds.--It led to nothing; nothing but a
12018 view at the end over a low stone wall with high pillars, which seemed
12019 intended, in their erection, to give the appearance of an approach to
12020 the house, which never had been there. Disputable, however, as might be
12021 the taste of such a termination, it was in itself a charming walk, and
12022 the view which closed it extremely pretty.--The considerable slope, at
12023 nearly the foot of which the Abbey stood, gradually acquired a steeper
12024 form beyond its grounds; and at half a mile distant was a bank of
12025 considerable abruptness and grandeur, well clothed with wood;--and at
12026 the bottom of this bank, favourably placed and sheltered, rose the
12027 Abbey Mill Farm, with meadows in front, and the river making a close and
12028 handsome curve around it.
12029
12030 It was a sweet view--sweet to the eye and the mind. English verdure,
12031 English culture, English comfort, seen under a sun bright, without being
12032 oppressive.
12033
12034 In this walk Emma and Mr. Weston found all the others assembled; and
12035 towards this view she immediately perceived Mr. Knightley and Harriet
12036 distinct from the rest, quietly leading the way. Mr. Knightley and
12037 Harriet!--It was an odd tete-a-tete; but she was glad to see it.--There
12038 had been a time when he would have scorned her as a companion, and
12039 turned from her with little ceremony. Now they seemed in pleasant
12040 conversation. There had been a time also when Emma would have been sorry
12041 to see Harriet in a spot so favourable for the Abbey Mill Farm; but now
12042 she feared it not. It might be safely viewed with all its appendages of
12043 prosperity and beauty, its rich pastures, spreading flocks, orchard in
12044 blossom, and light column of smoke ascending.--She joined them at the
12045 wall, and found them more engaged in talking than in looking around. He
12046 was giving Harriet information as to modes of agriculture, etc. and Emma
12047 received a smile which seemed to say, “These are my own concerns. I have
12048 a right to talk on such subjects, without being suspected of
12049 introducing Robert Martin.”--She did not suspect him. It was too old
12050 a story.--Robert Martin had probably ceased to think of Harriet.--They
12051 took a few turns together along the walk.--The shade was most
12052 refreshing, and Emma found it the pleasantest part of the day.
12053
12054 The next remove was to the house; they must all go in and eat;--and they
12055 were all seated and busy, and still Frank Churchill did not come. Mrs.
12056 Weston looked, and looked in vain. His father would not own himself
12057 uneasy, and laughed at her fears; but she could not be cured of wishing
12058 that he would part with his black mare. He had expressed himself as to
12059 coming, with more than common certainty. “His aunt was so much better,
12060 that he had not a doubt of getting over to them.”--Mrs. Churchill’s
12061 state, however, as many were ready to remind her, was liable to such
12062 sudden variation as might disappoint her nephew in the most reasonable
12063 dependence--and Mrs. Weston was at last persuaded to believe, or to say,
12064 that it must be by some attack of Mrs. Churchill that he was
12065 prevented coming.--Emma looked at Harriet while the point was under
12066 consideration; she behaved very well, and betrayed no emotion.
12067
12068 The cold repast was over, and the party were to go out once more to see
12069 what had not yet been seen, the old Abbey fish-ponds; perhaps get as far
12070 as the clover, which was to be begun cutting on the morrow, or, at
12071 any rate, have the pleasure of being hot, and growing cool again.--Mr.
12072 Woodhouse, who had already taken his little round in the highest part
12073 of the gardens, where no damps from the river were imagined even by him,
12074 stirred no more; and his daughter resolved to remain with him, that
12075 Mrs. Weston might be persuaded away by her husband to the exercise and
12076 variety which her spirits seemed to need.
12077
12078 Mr. Knightley had done all in his power for Mr. Woodhouse’s
12079 entertainment. Books of engravings, drawers of medals, cameos, corals,
12080 shells, and every other family collection within his cabinets, had been
12081 prepared for his old friend, to while away the morning; and the kindness
12082 had perfectly answered. Mr. Woodhouse had been exceedingly well amused.
12083 Mrs. Weston had been shewing them all to him, and now he would shew them
12084 all to Emma;--fortunate in having no other resemblance to a child, than
12085 in a total want of taste for what he saw, for he was slow, constant, and
12086 methodical.--Before this second looking over was begun, however, Emma
12087 walked into the hall for the sake of a few moments’ free observation of
12088 the entrance and ground-plot of the house--and was hardly there, when
12089 Jane Fairfax appeared, coming quickly in from the garden, and with a
12090 look of escape.--Little expecting to meet Miss Woodhouse so soon, there
12091 was a start at first; but Miss Woodhouse was the very person she was in
12092 quest of.
12093
12094 “Will you be so kind,” said she, “when I am missed, as to say that I am
12095 gone home?--I am going this moment.--My aunt is not aware how late it
12096 is, nor how long we have been absent--but I am sure we shall be wanted,
12097 and I am determined to go directly.--I have said nothing about it to any
12098 body. It would only be giving trouble and distress. Some are gone to the
12099 ponds, and some to the lime walk. Till they all come in I shall not be
12100 missed; and when they do, will you have the goodness to say that I am
12101 gone?”
12102
12103 “Certainly, if you wish it;--but you are not going to walk to Highbury
12104 alone?”
12105
12106 “Yes--what should hurt me?--I walk fast. I shall be at home in twenty
12107 minutes.”
12108
12109 “But it is too far, indeed it is, to be walking quite alone. Let my
12110 father’s servant go with you.--Let me order the carriage. It can be
12111 round in five minutes.”
12112
12113 “Thank you, thank you--but on no account.--I would rather walk.--And
12114 for _me_ to be afraid of walking alone!--I, who may so soon have to
12115 guard others!”
12116
12117 She spoke with great agitation; and Emma very feelingly replied, “That
12118 can be no reason for your being exposed to danger now. I must order the
12119 carriage. The heat even would be danger.--You are fatigued already.”
12120
12121 “I am,”--she answered--“I am fatigued; but it is not the sort of
12122 fatigue--quick walking will refresh me.--Miss Woodhouse, we all know
12123 at times what it is to be wearied in spirits. Mine, I confess, are
12124 exhausted. The greatest kindness you can shew me, will be to let me have
12125 my own way, and only say that I am gone when it is necessary.”
12126
12127 Emma had not another word to oppose. She saw it all; and entering into
12128 her feelings, promoted her quitting the house immediately, and
12129 watched her safely off with the zeal of a friend. Her parting look was
12130 grateful--and her parting words, “Oh! Miss Woodhouse, the comfort of
12131 being sometimes alone!”--seemed to burst from an overcharged heart, and
12132 to describe somewhat of the continual endurance to be practised by her,
12133 even towards some of those who loved her best.
12134
12135 “Such a home, indeed! such an aunt!” said Emma, as she turned back into
12136 the hall again. “I do pity you. And the more sensibility you betray of
12137 their just horrors, the more I shall like you.”
12138
12139 Jane had not been gone a quarter of an hour, and they had only
12140 accomplished some views of St. Mark’s Place, Venice, when Frank
12141 Churchill entered the room. Emma had not been thinking of him, she had
12142 forgotten to think of him--but she was very glad to see him. Mrs. Weston
12143 would be at ease. The black mare was blameless; _they_ were right
12144 who had named Mrs. Churchill as the cause. He had been detained by
12145 a temporary increase of illness in her; a nervous seizure, which had
12146 lasted some hours--and he had quite given up every thought of coming,
12147 till very late;--and had he known how hot a ride he should have, and
12148 how late, with all his hurry, he must be, he believed he should not have
12149 come at all. The heat was excessive; he had never suffered any thing
12150 like it--almost wished he had staid at home--nothing killed him
12151 like heat--he could bear any degree of cold, etc., but heat was
12152 intolerable--and he sat down, at the greatest possible distance from the
12153 slight remains of Mr. Woodhouse’s fire, looking very deplorable.
12154
12155 “You will soon be cooler, if you sit still,” said Emma.
12156
12157 “As soon as I am cooler I shall go back again. I could very ill be
12158 spared--but such a point had been made of my coming! You will all be
12159 going soon I suppose; the whole party breaking up. I met _one_ as I
12160 came--Madness in such weather!--absolute madness!”
12161
12162 Emma listened, and looked, and soon perceived that Frank Churchill’s
12163 state might be best defined by the expressive phrase of being out of
12164 humour. Some people were always cross when they were hot. Such might be
12165 his constitution; and as she knew that eating and drinking were often
12166 the cure of such incidental complaints, she recommended his taking
12167 some refreshment; he would find abundance of every thing in the
12168 dining-room--and she humanely pointed out the door.
12169
12170 “No--he should not eat. He was not hungry; it would only make him
12171 hotter.” In two minutes, however, he relented in his own favour; and
12172 muttering something about spruce-beer, walked off. Emma returned all her
12173 attention to her father, saying in secret--
12174
12175 “I am glad I have done being in love with him. I should not like a man
12176 who is so soon discomposed by a hot morning. Harriet’s sweet easy temper
12177 will not mind it.”
12178
12179 He was gone long enough to have had a very comfortable meal, and came
12180 back all the better--grown quite cool--and, with good manners, like
12181 himself--able to draw a chair close to them, take an interest in their
12182 employment; and regret, in a reasonable way, that he should be so late.
12183 He was not in his best spirits, but seemed trying to improve them; and,
12184 at last, made himself talk nonsense very agreeably. They were looking
12185 over views in Swisserland.
12186
12187 “As soon as my aunt gets well, I shall go abroad,” said he. “I shall
12188 never be easy till I have seen some of these places. You will have my
12189 sketches, some time or other, to look at--or my tour to read--or my
12190 poem. I shall do something to expose myself.”
12191
12192 “That may be--but not by sketches in Swisserland. You will never go to
12193 Swisserland. Your uncle and aunt will never allow you to leave England.”
12194
12195 “They may be induced to go too. A warm climate may be prescribed for
12196 her. I have more than half an expectation of our all going abroad. I
12197 assure you I have. I feel a strong persuasion, this morning, that I
12198 shall soon be abroad. I ought to travel. I am tired of doing nothing. I
12199 want a change. I am serious, Miss Woodhouse, whatever your penetrating
12200 eyes may fancy--I am sick of England--and would leave it to-morrow, if
12201 I could.”
12202
12203 “You are sick of prosperity and indulgence. Cannot you invent a few
12204 hardships for yourself, and be contented to stay?”
12205
12206 “_I_ sick of prosperity and indulgence! You are quite mistaken. I do
12207 not look upon myself as either prosperous or indulged. I am thwarted
12208 in every thing material. I do not consider myself at all a fortunate
12209 person.”
12210
12211 “You are not quite so miserable, though, as when you first came. Go and
12212 eat and drink a little more, and you will do very well. Another slice of
12213 cold meat, another draught of Madeira and water, will make you nearly on
12214 a par with the rest of us.”
12215
12216 “No--I shall not stir. I shall sit by you. You are my best cure.”
12217
12218 “We are going to Box Hill to-morrow;--you will join us. It is not
12219 Swisserland, but it will be something for a young man so much in want of
12220 a change. You will stay, and go with us?”
12221
12222 “No, certainly not; I shall go home in the cool of the evening.”
12223
12224 “But you may come again in the cool of to-morrow morning.”
12225
12226 “No--It will not be worth while. If I come, I shall be cross.”
12227
12228 “Then pray stay at Richmond.”
12229
12230 “But if I do, I shall be crosser still. I can never bear to think of you
12231 all there without me.”
12232
12233 “These are difficulties which you must settle for yourself. Chuse your
12234 own degree of crossness. I shall press you no more.”
12235
12236 The rest of the party were now returning, and all were soon collected.
12237 With some there was great joy at the sight of Frank Churchill; others
12238 took it very composedly; but there was a very general distress and
12239 disturbance on Miss Fairfax’s disappearance being explained. That it was
12240 time for every body to go, concluded the subject; and with a short final
12241 arrangement for the next day’s scheme, they parted. Frank Churchill’s
12242 little inclination to exclude himself increased so much, that his last
12243 words to Emma were,
12244
12245 “Well;--if _you_ wish me to stay and join the party, I will.”
12246
12247 She smiled her acceptance; and nothing less than a summons from Richmond
12248 was to take him back before the following evening.
12249
12250
12251
12252 CHAPTER VII
12253
12254
12255 They had a very fine day for Box Hill; and all the other outward
12256 circumstances of arrangement, accommodation, and punctuality, were in
12257 favour of a pleasant party. Mr. Weston directed the whole, officiating
12258 safely between Hartfield and the Vicarage, and every body was in good
12259 time. Emma and Harriet went together; Miss Bates and her niece, with
12260 the Eltons; the gentlemen on horseback. Mrs. Weston remained with Mr.
12261 Woodhouse. Nothing was wanting but to be happy when they got there.
12262 Seven miles were travelled in expectation of enjoyment, and every body
12263 had a burst of admiration on first arriving; but in the general amount
12264 of the day there was deficiency. There was a languor, a want of spirits,
12265 a want of union, which could not be got over. They separated too much
12266 into parties. The Eltons walked together; Mr. Knightley took charge of
12267 Miss Bates and Jane; and Emma and Harriet belonged to Frank Churchill.
12268 And Mr. Weston tried, in vain, to make them harmonise better. It seemed
12269 at first an accidental division, but it never materially varied. Mr. and
12270 Mrs. Elton, indeed, shewed no unwillingness to mix, and be as agreeable
12271 as they could; but during the two whole hours that were spent on the
12272 hill, there seemed a principle of separation, between the other parties,
12273 too strong for any fine prospects, or any cold collation, or any
12274 cheerful Mr. Weston, to remove.
12275
12276 At first it was downright dulness to Emma. She had never seen Frank
12277 Churchill so silent and stupid. He said nothing worth hearing--looked
12278 without seeing--admired without intelligence--listened without knowing
12279 what she said. While he was so dull, it was no wonder that Harriet
12280 should be dull likewise; and they were both insufferable.
12281
12282 When they all sat down it was better; to her taste a great deal better,
12283 for Frank Churchill grew talkative and gay, making her his first object.
12284 Every distinguishing attention that could be paid, was paid to her.
12285 To amuse her, and be agreeable in her eyes, seemed all that he cared
12286 for--and Emma, glad to be enlivened, not sorry to be flattered, was gay
12287 and easy too, and gave him all the friendly encouragement, the admission
12288 to be gallant, which she had ever given in the first and most animating
12289 period of their acquaintance; but which now, in her own estimation,
12290 meant nothing, though in the judgment of most people looking on it must
12291 have had such an appearance as no English word but flirtation could very
12292 well describe. “Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Woodhouse flirted together
12293 excessively.” They were laying themselves open to that very phrase--and
12294 to having it sent off in a letter to Maple Grove by one lady, to
12295 Ireland by another. Not that Emma was gay and thoughtless from any
12296 real felicity; it was rather because she felt less happy than she had
12297 expected. She laughed because she was disappointed; and though she liked
12298 him for his attentions, and thought them all, whether in friendship,
12299 admiration, or playfulness, extremely judicious, they were not winning
12300 back her heart. She still intended him for her friend.
12301
12302 “How much I am obliged to you,” said he, “for telling me to come
12303 to-day!--If it had not been for you, I should certainly have lost all
12304 the happiness of this party. I had quite determined to go away again.”
12305
12306 “Yes, you were very cross; and I do not know what about, except that you
12307 were too late for the best strawberries. I was a kinder friend than you
12308 deserved. But you were humble. You begged hard to be commanded to come.”
12309
12310 “Don’t say I was cross. I was fatigued. The heat overcame me.”
12311
12312 “It is hotter to-day.”
12313
12314 “Not to my feelings. I am perfectly comfortable to-day.”
12315
12316 “You are comfortable because you are under command.”
12317
12318 “Your command?--Yes.”
12319
12320 “Perhaps I intended you to say so, but I meant self-command. You had,
12321 somehow or other, broken bounds yesterday, and run away from your own
12322 management; but to-day you are got back again--and as I cannot be always
12323 with you, it is best to believe your temper under your own command
12324 rather than mine.”
12325
12326 “It comes to the same thing. I can have no self-command without a
12327 motive. You order me, whether you speak or not. And you can be always
12328 with me. You are always with me.”
12329
12330 “Dating from three o’clock yesterday. My perpetual influence could not
12331 begin earlier, or you would not have been so much out of humour before.”
12332
12333 “Three o’clock yesterday! That is your date. I thought I had seen you
12334 first in February.”
12335
12336 “Your gallantry is really unanswerable. But (lowering her voice)--nobody
12337 speaks except ourselves, and it is rather too much to be talking
12338 nonsense for the entertainment of seven silent people.”
12339
12340 “I say nothing of which I am ashamed,” replied he, with lively
12341 impudence. “I saw you first in February. Let every body on the Hill
12342 hear me if they can. Let my accents swell to Mickleham on one side,
12343 and Dorking on the other. I saw you first in February.” And then
12344 whispering--“Our companions are excessively stupid. What shall we do
12345 to rouse them? Any nonsense will serve. They _shall_ talk. Ladies
12346 and gentlemen, I am ordered by Miss Woodhouse (who, wherever she is,
12347 presides) to say, that she desires to know what you are all thinking
12348 of?”
12349
12350 Some laughed, and answered good-humouredly. Miss Bates said a great
12351 deal; Mrs. Elton swelled at the idea of Miss Woodhouse’s presiding; Mr.
12352 Knightley’s answer was the most distinct.
12353
12354 “Is Miss Woodhouse sure that she would like to hear what we are all
12355 thinking of?”
12356
12357 “Oh! no, no”--cried Emma, laughing as carelessly as she could--“Upon no
12358 account in the world. It is the very last thing I would stand the brunt
12359 of just now. Let me hear any thing rather than what you are all thinking
12360 of. I will not say quite all. There are one or two, perhaps, (glancing
12361 at Mr. Weston and Harriet,) whose thoughts I might not be afraid of
12362 knowing.”
12363
12364 “It is a sort of thing,” cried Mrs. Elton emphatically, “which _I_
12365 should not have thought myself privileged to inquire into. Though,
12366 perhaps, as the _Chaperon_ of the party--_I_ never was in any
12367 circle--exploring parties--young ladies--married women--”
12368
12369 Her mutterings were chiefly to her husband; and he murmured, in reply,
12370
12371 “Very true, my love, very true. Exactly so, indeed--quite unheard
12372 of--but some ladies say any thing. Better pass it off as a joke. Every
12373 body knows what is due to _you_.”
12374
12375 “It will not do,” whispered Frank to Emma; “they are most of them
12376 affronted. I will attack them with more address. Ladies and gentlemen--I
12377 am ordered by Miss Woodhouse to say, that she waives her right of
12378 knowing exactly what you may all be thinking of, and only requires
12379 something very entertaining from each of you, in a general way. Here
12380 are seven of you, besides myself, (who, she is pleased to say, am very
12381 entertaining already,) and she only demands from each of you either one
12382 thing very clever, be it prose or verse, original or repeated--or two
12383 things moderately clever--or three things very dull indeed, and she
12384 engages to laugh heartily at them all.”
12385
12386 “Oh! very well,” exclaimed Miss Bates, “then I need not be uneasy.
12387 ‘Three things very dull indeed.’ That will just do for me, you know. I
12388 shall be sure to say three dull things as soon as ever I open my mouth,
12389 shan’t I? (looking round with the most good-humoured dependence on every
12390 body’s assent)--Do not you all think I shall?”
12391
12392 Emma could not resist.
12393
12394 “Ah! ma’am, but there may be a difficulty. Pardon me--but you will be
12395 limited as to number--only three at once.”
12396
12397 Miss Bates, deceived by the mock ceremony of her manner, did not
12398 immediately catch her meaning; but, when it burst on her, it could not
12399 anger, though a slight blush shewed that it could pain her.
12400
12401 “Ah!--well--to be sure. Yes, I see what she means, (turning to Mr.
12402 Knightley,) and I will try to hold my tongue. I must make myself very
12403 disagreeable, or she would not have said such a thing to an old friend.”
12404
12405 “I like your plan,” cried Mr. Weston. “Agreed, agreed. I will do my
12406 best. I am making a conundrum. How will a conundrum reckon?”
12407
12408 “Low, I am afraid, sir, very low,” answered his son;--“but we shall be
12409 indulgent--especially to any one who leads the way.”
12410
12411 “No, no,” said Emma, “it will not reckon low. A conundrum of Mr.
12412 Weston’s shall clear him and his next neighbour. Come, sir, pray let me
12413 hear it.”
12414
12415 “I doubt its being very clever myself,” said Mr. Weston. “It is too much
12416 a matter of fact, but here it is.--What two letters of the alphabet are
12417 there, that express perfection?”
12418
12419 “What two letters!--express perfection! I am sure I do not know.”
12420
12421 “Ah! you will never guess. You, (to Emma), I am certain, will never
12422 guess.--I will tell you.--M. and A.--Em-ma.--Do you understand?”
12423
12424 Understanding and gratification came together. It might be a very
12425 indifferent piece of wit, but Emma found a great deal to laugh at and
12426 enjoy in it--and so did Frank and Harriet.--It did not seem to touch
12427 the rest of the party equally; some looked very stupid about it, and Mr.
12428 Knightley gravely said,
12429
12430 “This explains the sort of clever thing that is wanted, and Mr. Weston
12431 has done very well for himself; but he must have knocked up every body
12432 else. _Perfection_ should not have come quite so soon.”
12433
12434 “Oh! for myself, I protest I must be excused,” said Mrs. Elton; “_I_
12435 really cannot attempt--I am not at all fond of the sort of thing. I had
12436 an acrostic once sent to me upon my own name, which I was not at all
12437 pleased with. I knew who it came from. An abominable puppy!--You know
12438 who I mean (nodding to her husband). These kind of things are very
12439 well at Christmas, when one is sitting round the fire; but quite out of
12440 place, in my opinion, when one is exploring about the country in summer.
12441 Miss Woodhouse must excuse me. I am not one of those who have witty
12442 things at every body’s service. I do not pretend to be a wit. I have a
12443 great deal of vivacity in my own way, but I really must be allowed to
12444 judge when to speak and when to hold my tongue. Pass us, if you please,
12445 Mr. Churchill. Pass Mr. E., Knightley, Jane, and myself. We have nothing
12446 clever to say--not one of us.
12447
12448 “Yes, yes, pray pass _me_,” added her husband, with a sort of sneering
12449 consciousness; “_I_ have nothing to say that can entertain Miss
12450 Woodhouse, or any other young lady. An old married man--quite good for
12451 nothing. Shall we walk, Augusta?”
12452
12453 “With all my heart. I am really tired of exploring so long on one spot.
12454 Come, Jane, take my other arm.”
12455
12456 Jane declined it, however, and the husband and wife walked off.
12457 “Happy couple!” said Frank Churchill, as soon as they were out of
12458 hearing:--“How well they suit one another!--Very lucky--marrying as they
12459 did, upon an acquaintance formed only in a public place!--They only knew
12460 each other, I think, a few weeks in Bath! Peculiarly lucky!--for as to
12461 any real knowledge of a person’s disposition that Bath, or any public
12462 place, can give--it is all nothing; there can be no knowledge. It is
12463 only by seeing women in their own homes, among their own set, just as
12464 they always are, that you can form any just judgment. Short of that, it
12465 is all guess and luck--and will generally be ill-luck. How many a man
12466 has committed himself on a short acquaintance, and rued it all the rest
12467 of his life!”
12468
12469 Miss Fairfax, who had seldom spoken before, except among her own
12470 confederates, spoke now.
12471
12472 “Such things do occur, undoubtedly.”--She was stopped by a cough. Frank
12473 Churchill turned towards her to listen.
12474
12475 “You were speaking,” said he, gravely. She recovered her voice.
12476
12477 “I was only going to observe, that though such unfortunate circumstances
12478 do sometimes occur both to men and women, I cannot imagine them to be
12479 very frequent. A hasty and imprudent attachment may arise--but there is
12480 generally time to recover from it afterwards. I would be understood to
12481 mean, that it can be only weak, irresolute characters, (whose happiness
12482 must be always at the mercy of chance,) who will suffer an unfortunate
12483 acquaintance to be an inconvenience, an oppression for ever.”
12484
12485 He made no answer; merely looked, and bowed in submission; and soon
12486 afterwards said, in a lively tone,
12487
12488 “Well, I have so little confidence in my own judgment, that whenever I
12489 marry, I hope some body will chuse my wife for me. Will you? (turning to
12490 Emma.) Will you chuse a wife for me?--I am sure I should like any body
12491 fixed on by you. You provide for the family, you know, (with a smile at
12492 his father). Find some body for me. I am in no hurry. Adopt her, educate
12493 her.”
12494
12495 “And make her like myself.”
12496
12497 “By all means, if you can.”
12498
12499 “Very well. I undertake the commission. You shall have a charming wife.”
12500
12501 “She must be very lively, and have hazle eyes. I care for nothing else.
12502 I shall go abroad for a couple of years--and when I return, I shall come
12503 to you for my wife. Remember.”
12504
12505 Emma was in no danger of forgetting. It was a commission to touch every
12506 favourite feeling. Would not Harriet be the very creature described?
12507 Hazle eyes excepted, two years more might make her all that he wished.
12508 He might even have Harriet in his thoughts at the moment; who could say?
12509 Referring the education to her seemed to imply it.
12510
12511 “Now, ma’am,” said Jane to her aunt, “shall we join Mrs. Elton?”
12512
12513 “If you please, my dear. With all my heart. I am quite ready. I was
12514 ready to have gone with her, but this will do just as well. We shall
12515 soon overtake her. There she is--no, that’s somebody else. That’s one
12516 of the ladies in the Irish car party, not at all like her.--Well, I
12517 declare--”
12518
12519 They walked off, followed in half a minute by Mr. Knightley. Mr. Weston,
12520 his son, Emma, and Harriet, only remained; and the young man’s spirits
12521 now rose to a pitch almost unpleasant. Even Emma grew tired at last of
12522 flattery and merriment, and wished herself rather walking quietly about
12523 with any of the others, or sitting almost alone, and quite unattended
12524 to, in tranquil observation of the beautiful views beneath her. The
12525 appearance of the servants looking out for them to give notice of the
12526 carriages was a joyful sight; and even the bustle of collecting and
12527 preparing to depart, and the solicitude of Mrs. Elton to have _her_
12528 carriage first, were gladly endured, in the prospect of the quiet drive
12529 home which was to close the very questionable enjoyments of this day of
12530 pleasure. Such another scheme, composed of so many ill-assorted people,
12531 she hoped never to be betrayed into again.
12532
12533 While waiting for the carriage, she found Mr. Knightley by her side. He
12534 looked around, as if to see that no one were near, and then said,
12535
12536 “Emma, I must once more speak to you as I have been used to do: a
12537 privilege rather endured than allowed, perhaps, but I must still use it.
12538 I cannot see you acting wrong, without a remonstrance. How could you be
12539 so unfeeling to Miss Bates? How could you be so insolent in your wit to
12540 a woman of her character, age, and situation?--Emma, I had not thought
12541 it possible.”
12542
12543 Emma recollected, blushed, was sorry, but tried to laugh it off.
12544
12545 “Nay, how could I help saying what I did?--Nobody could have helped it.
12546 It was not so very bad. I dare say she did not understand me.”
12547
12548 “I assure you she did. She felt your full meaning. She has talked of
12549 it since. I wish you could have heard how she talked of it--with what
12550 candour and generosity. I wish you could have heard her honouring your
12551 forbearance, in being able to pay her such attentions, as she was for
12552 ever receiving from yourself and your father, when her society must be
12553 so irksome.”
12554
12555 “Oh!” cried Emma, “I know there is not a better creature in the world:
12556 but you must allow, that what is good and what is ridiculous are most
12557 unfortunately blended in her.”
12558
12559 “They are blended,” said he, “I acknowledge; and, were she prosperous,
12560 I could allow much for the occasional prevalence of the ridiculous over
12561 the good. Were she a woman of fortune, I would leave every harmless
12562 absurdity to take its chance, I would not quarrel with you for any
12563 liberties of manner. Were she your equal in situation--but, Emma,
12564 consider how far this is from being the case. She is poor; she has sunk
12565 from the comforts she was born to; and, if she live to old age, must
12566 probably sink more. Her situation should secure your compassion. It was
12567 badly done, indeed! You, whom she had known from an infant, whom she had
12568 seen grow up from a period when her notice was an honour, to have you
12569 now, in thoughtless spirits, and the pride of the moment, laugh at her,
12570 humble her--and before her niece, too--and before others, many of whom
12571 (certainly _some_,) would be entirely guided by _your_ treatment
12572 of her.--This is not pleasant to you, Emma--and it is very far from
12573 pleasant to me; but I must, I will,--I will tell you truths while I can;
12574 satisfied with proving myself your friend by very faithful counsel, and
12575 trusting that you will some time or other do me greater justice than you
12576 can do now.”
12577
12578 While they talked, they were advancing towards the carriage; it was
12579 ready; and, before she could speak again, he had handed her in. He had
12580 misinterpreted the feelings which had kept her face averted, and her
12581 tongue motionless. They were combined only of anger against herself,
12582 mortification, and deep concern. She had not been able to speak; and, on
12583 entering the carriage, sunk back for a moment overcome--then reproaching
12584 herself for having taken no leave, making no acknowledgment, parting in
12585 apparent sullenness, she looked out with voice and hand eager to shew a
12586 difference; but it was just too late. He had turned away, and the horses
12587 were in motion. She continued to look back, but in vain; and soon, with
12588 what appeared unusual speed, they were half way down the hill, and
12589 every thing left far behind. She was vexed beyond what could have been
12590 expressed--almost beyond what she could conceal. Never had she felt so
12591 agitated, mortified, grieved, at any circumstance in her life. She was
12592 most forcibly struck. The truth of this representation there was no
12593 denying. She felt it at her heart. How could she have been so brutal,
12594 so cruel to Miss Bates! How could she have exposed herself to such ill
12595 opinion in any one she valued! And how suffer him to leave her without
12596 saying one word of gratitude, of concurrence, of common kindness!
12597
12598 Time did not compose her. As she reflected more, she seemed but to feel
12599 it more. She never had been so depressed. Happily it was not necessary
12600 to speak. There was only Harriet, who seemed not in spirits herself,
12601 fagged, and very willing to be silent; and Emma felt the tears running
12602 down her cheeks almost all the way home, without being at any trouble to
12603 check them, extraordinary as they were.
12604
12605
12606
12607 CHAPTER VIII
12608
12609
12610 The wretchedness of a scheme to Box Hill was in Emma’s thoughts all the
12611 evening. How it might be considered by the rest of the party, she could
12612 not tell. They, in their different homes, and their different ways,
12613 might be looking back on it with pleasure; but in her view it was
12614 a morning more completely misspent, more totally bare of rational
12615 satisfaction at the time, and more to be abhorred in recollection, than
12616 any she had ever passed. A whole evening of back-gammon with her father,
12617 was felicity to it. _There_, indeed, lay real pleasure, for there she
12618 was giving up the sweetest hours of the twenty-four to his comfort; and
12619 feeling that, unmerited as might be the degree of his fond affection and
12620 confiding esteem, she could not, in her general conduct, be open to any
12621 severe reproach. As a daughter, she hoped she was not without a heart.
12622 She hoped no one could have said to her, “How could you be so unfeeling
12623 to your father?--I must, I will tell you truths while I can.” Miss
12624 Bates should never again--no, never! If attention, in future, could do
12625 away the past, she might hope to be forgiven. She had been often remiss,
12626 her conscience told her so; remiss, perhaps, more in thought than fact;
12627 scornful, ungracious. But it should be so no more. In the warmth of true
12628 contrition, she would call upon her the very next morning, and it should
12629 be the beginning, on her side, of a regular, equal, kindly intercourse.
12630
12631 She was just as determined when the morrow came, and went early, that
12632 nothing might prevent her. It was not unlikely, she thought, that she
12633 might see Mr. Knightley in her way; or, perhaps, he might come in
12634 while she were paying her visit. She had no objection. She would not be
12635 ashamed of the appearance of the penitence, so justly and truly hers.
12636 Her eyes were towards Donwell as she walked, but she saw him not.
12637
12638 “The ladies were all at home.” She had never rejoiced at the sound
12639 before, nor ever before entered the passage, nor walked up the stairs,
12640 with any wish of giving pleasure, but in conferring obligation, or of
12641 deriving it, except in subsequent ridicule.
12642
12643 There was a bustle on her approach; a good deal of moving and talking.
12644 She heard Miss Bates’s voice, something was to be done in a hurry; the
12645 maid looked frightened and awkward; hoped she would be pleased to wait a
12646 moment, and then ushered her in too soon. The aunt and niece seemed both
12647 escaping into the adjoining room. Jane she had a distinct glimpse of,
12648 looking extremely ill; and, before the door had shut them out, she heard
12649 Miss Bates saying, “Well, my dear, I shall _say_ you are laid down upon
12650 the bed, and I am sure you are ill enough.”
12651
12652 Poor old Mrs. Bates, civil and humble as usual, looked as if she did not
12653 quite understand what was going on.
12654
12655 “I am afraid Jane is not very well,” said she, “but I do not know; they
12656 _tell_ me she is well. I dare say my daughter will be here presently,
12657 Miss Woodhouse. I hope you find a chair. I wish Hetty had not gone. I am
12658 very little able--Have you a chair, ma’am? Do you sit where you like? I
12659 am sure she will be here presently.”
12660
12661 Emma seriously hoped she would. She had a moment’s fear of Miss Bates
12662 keeping away from her. But Miss Bates soon came--“Very happy and
12663 obliged”--but Emma’s conscience told her that there was not the same
12664 cheerful volubility as before--less ease of look and manner. A very
12665 friendly inquiry after Miss Fairfax, she hoped, might lead the way to a
12666 return of old feelings. The touch seemed immediate.
12667
12668 “Ah! Miss Woodhouse, how kind you are!--I suppose you have heard--and
12669 are come to give us joy. This does not seem much like joy, indeed, in
12670 me--(twinkling away a tear or two)--but it will be very trying for us
12671 to part with her, after having had her so long, and she has a dreadful
12672 headache just now, writing all the morning:--such long letters, you
12673 know, to be written to Colonel Campbell, and Mrs. Dixon. ‘My dear,’ said
12674 I, ‘you will blind yourself’--for tears were in her eyes perpetually.
12675 One cannot wonder, one cannot wonder. It is a great change; and though
12676 she is amazingly fortunate--such a situation, I suppose, as no
12677 young woman before ever met with on first going out--do not think us
12678 ungrateful, Miss Woodhouse, for such surprising good fortune--(again
12679 dispersing her tears)--but, poor dear soul! if you were to see what a
12680 headache she has. When one is in great pain, you know one cannot feel
12681 any blessing quite as it may deserve. She is as low as possible. To
12682 look at her, nobody would think how delighted and happy she is to have
12683 secured such a situation. You will excuse her not coming to you--she is
12684 not able--she is gone into her own room--I want her to lie down upon the
12685 bed. ‘My dear,’ said I, ‘I shall say you are laid down upon the bed:’
12686 but, however, she is not; she is walking about the room. But, now that
12687 she has written her letters, she says she shall soon be well. She will
12688 be extremely sorry to miss seeing you, Miss Woodhouse, but your
12689 kindness will excuse her. You were kept waiting at the door--I was quite
12690 ashamed--but somehow there was a little bustle--for it so happened that
12691 we had not heard the knock, and till you were on the stairs, we did not
12692 know any body was coming. ‘It is only Mrs. Cole,’ said I, ‘depend upon
12693 it. Nobody else would come so early.’ ‘Well,’ said she, ‘it must be
12694 borne some time or other, and it may as well be now.’ But then Patty
12695 came in, and said it was you. ‘Oh!’ said I, ‘it is Miss Woodhouse: I am
12696 sure you will like to see her.’--‘I can see nobody,’ said she; and
12697 up she got, and would go away; and that was what made us keep you
12698 waiting--and extremely sorry and ashamed we were. ‘If you must go, my
12699 dear,’ said I, ‘you must, and I will say you are laid down upon the
12700 bed.’”
12701
12702 Emma was most sincerely interested. Her heart had been long growing
12703 kinder towards Jane; and this picture of her present sufferings acted
12704 as a cure of every former ungenerous suspicion, and left her nothing but
12705 pity; and the remembrance of the less just and less gentle sensations of
12706 the past, obliged her to admit that Jane might very naturally resolve on
12707 seeing Mrs. Cole or any other steady friend, when she might not bear
12708 to see herself. She spoke as she felt, with earnest regret and
12709 solicitude--sincerely wishing that the circumstances which she collected
12710 from Miss Bates to be now actually determined on, might be as much for
12711 Miss Fairfax’s advantage and comfort as possible. “It must be a severe
12712 trial to them all. She had understood it was to be delayed till Colonel
12713 Campbell’s return.”
12714
12715 “So very kind!” replied Miss Bates. “But you are always kind.”
12716
12717 There was no bearing such an “always;” and to break through her dreadful
12718 gratitude, Emma made the direct inquiry of--
12719
12720 “Where--may I ask?--is Miss Fairfax going?”
12721
12722 “To a Mrs. Smallridge--charming woman--most superior--to have the charge
12723 of her three little girls--delightful children. Impossible that any
12724 situation could be more replete with comfort; if we except, perhaps,
12725 Mrs. Suckling’s own family, and Mrs. Bragge’s; but Mrs. Smallridge is
12726 intimate with both, and in the very same neighbourhood:--lives only four
12727 miles from Maple Grove. Jane will be only four miles from Maple Grove.”
12728
12729 “Mrs. Elton, I suppose, has been the person to whom Miss Fairfax owes--”
12730
12731 “Yes, our good Mrs. Elton. The most indefatigable, true friend. She
12732 would not take a denial. She would not let Jane say, ‘No;’ for when Jane
12733 first heard of it, (it was the day before yesterday, the very morning
12734 we were at Donwell,) when Jane first heard of it, she was quite decided
12735 against accepting the offer, and for the reasons you mention; exactly
12736 as you say, she had made up her mind to close with nothing till Colonel
12737 Campbell’s return, and nothing should induce her to enter into any
12738 engagement at present--and so she told Mrs. Elton over and over
12739 again--and I am sure I had no more idea that she would change her
12740 mind!--but that good Mrs. Elton, whose judgment never fails her, saw
12741 farther than I did. It is not every body that would have stood out in
12742 such a kind way as she did, and refuse to take Jane’s answer; but she
12743 positively declared she would _not_ write any such denial yesterday, as
12744 Jane wished her; she would wait--and, sure enough, yesterday evening it
12745 was all settled that Jane should go. Quite a surprize to me! I had not
12746 the least idea!--Jane took Mrs. Elton aside, and told her at once, that
12747 upon thinking over the advantages of Mrs. Smallridge’s situation, she
12748 had come to the resolution of accepting it.--I did not know a word of it
12749 till it was all settled.”
12750
12751 “You spent the evening with Mrs. Elton?”
12752
12753 “Yes, all of us; Mrs. Elton would have us come. It was settled so, upon
12754 the hill, while we were walking about with Mr. Knightley. ‘You _must_
12755 _all_ spend your evening with us,’ said she--‘I positively must have you
12756 _all_ come.’”
12757
12758 “Mr. Knightley was there too, was he?”
12759
12760 “No, not Mr. Knightley; he declined it from the first; and though I
12761 thought he would come, because Mrs. Elton declared she would not let him
12762 off, he did not;--but my mother, and Jane, and I, were all there, and
12763 a very agreeable evening we had. Such kind friends, you know, Miss
12764 Woodhouse, one must always find agreeable, though every body seemed
12765 rather fagged after the morning’s party. Even pleasure, you know, is
12766 fatiguing--and I cannot say that any of them seemed very much to have
12767 enjoyed it. However, _I_ shall always think it a very pleasant party,
12768 and feel extremely obliged to the kind friends who included me in it.”
12769
12770 “Miss Fairfax, I suppose, though you were not aware of it, had been
12771 making up her mind the whole day?”
12772
12773 “I dare say she had.”
12774
12775 “Whenever the time may come, it must be unwelcome to her and all her
12776 friends--but I hope her engagement will have every alleviation that is
12777 possible--I mean, as to the character and manners of the family.”
12778
12779 “Thank you, dear Miss Woodhouse. Yes, indeed, there is every thing
12780 in the world that can make her happy in it. Except the Sucklings and
12781 Bragges, there is not such another nursery establishment, so liberal
12782 and elegant, in all Mrs. Elton’s acquaintance. Mrs. Smallridge, a most
12783 delightful woman!--A style of living almost equal to Maple Grove--and as
12784 to the children, except the little Sucklings and little Bragges, there
12785 are not such elegant sweet children anywhere. Jane will be treated with
12786 such regard and kindness!--It will be nothing but pleasure, a life of
12787 pleasure.--And her salary!--I really cannot venture to name her salary
12788 to you, Miss Woodhouse. Even you, used as you are to great sums, would
12789 hardly believe that so much could be given to a young person like Jane.”
12790
12791 “Ah! madam,” cried Emma, “if other children are at all like what I
12792 remember to have been myself, I should think five times the amount of
12793 what I have ever yet heard named as a salary on such occasions, dearly
12794 earned.”
12795
12796 “You are so noble in your ideas!”
12797
12798 “And when is Miss Fairfax to leave you?”
12799
12800 “Very soon, very soon, indeed; that’s the worst of it. Within a
12801 fortnight. Mrs. Smallridge is in a great hurry. My poor mother does not
12802 know how to bear it. So then, I try to put it out of her thoughts, and
12803 say, Come ma’am, do not let us think about it any more.”
12804
12805 “Her friends must all be sorry to lose her; and will not Colonel and
12806 Mrs. Campbell be sorry to find that she has engaged herself before their
12807 return?”
12808
12809 “Yes; Jane says she is sure they will; but yet, this is such a situation
12810 as she cannot feel herself justified in declining. I was so astonished
12811 when she first told me what she had been saying to Mrs. Elton, and when
12812 Mrs. Elton at the same moment came congratulating me upon it! It was
12813 before tea--stay--no, it could not be before tea, because we were
12814 just going to cards--and yet it was before tea, because I remember
12815 thinking--Oh! no, now I recollect, now I have it; something happened
12816 before tea, but not that. Mr. Elton was called out of the room before
12817 tea, old John Abdy’s son wanted to speak with him. Poor old John, I
12818 have a great regard for him; he was clerk to my poor father twenty-seven
12819 years; and now, poor old man, he is bed-ridden, and very poorly with the
12820 rheumatic gout in his joints--I must go and see him to-day; and so will
12821 Jane, I am sure, if she gets out at all. And poor John’s son came to
12822 talk to Mr. Elton about relief from the parish; he is very well to do
12823 himself, you know, being head man at the Crown, ostler, and every thing
12824 of that sort, but still he cannot keep his father without some help;
12825 and so, when Mr. Elton came back, he told us what John ostler had been
12826 telling him, and then it came out about the chaise having been sent to
12827 Randalls to take Mr. Frank Churchill to Richmond. That was what happened
12828 before tea. It was after tea that Jane spoke to Mrs. Elton.”
12829
12830 Miss Bates would hardly give Emma time to say how perfectly new this
12831 circumstance was to her; but as without supposing it possible that she
12832 could be ignorant of any of the particulars of Mr. Frank Churchill’s
12833 going, she proceeded to give them all, it was of no consequence.
12834
12835 What Mr. Elton had learned from the ostler on the subject, being the
12836 accumulation of the ostler’s own knowledge, and the knowledge of the
12837 servants at Randalls, was, that a messenger had come over from Richmond
12838 soon after the return of the party from Box Hill--which messenger,
12839 however, had been no more than was expected; and that Mr. Churchill had
12840 sent his nephew a few lines, containing, upon the whole, a tolerable
12841 account of Mrs. Churchill, and only wishing him not to delay coming
12842 back beyond the next morning early; but that Mr. Frank Churchill having
12843 resolved to go home directly, without waiting at all, and his horse
12844 seeming to have got a cold, Tom had been sent off immediately for the
12845 Crown chaise, and the ostler had stood out and seen it pass by, the boy
12846 going a good pace, and driving very steady.
12847
12848 There was nothing in all this either to astonish or interest, and it
12849 caught Emma’s attention only as it united with the subject which already
12850 engaged her mind. The contrast between Mrs. Churchill’s importance in
12851 the world, and Jane Fairfax’s, struck her; one was every thing, the
12852 other nothing--and she sat musing on the difference of woman’s destiny,
12853 and quite unconscious on what her eyes were fixed, till roused by Miss
12854 Bates’s saying,
12855
12856 “Aye, I see what you are thinking of, the pianoforte. What is to become
12857 of that?--Very true. Poor dear Jane was talking of it just now.--‘You
12858 must go,’ said she. ‘You and I must part. You will have no business
12859 here.--Let it stay, however,’ said she; ‘give it houseroom till Colonel
12860 Campbell comes back. I shall talk about it to him; he will settle for
12861 me; he will help me out of all my difficulties.’--And to this day, I do
12862 believe, she knows not whether it was his present or his daughter’s.”
12863
12864 Now Emma was obliged to think of the pianoforte; and the remembrance of
12865 all her former fanciful and unfair conjectures was so little pleasing,
12866 that she soon allowed herself to believe her visit had been long enough;
12867 and, with a repetition of every thing that she could venture to say of
12868 the good wishes which she really felt, took leave.
12869
12870
12871
12872 CHAPTER IX
12873
12874
12875 Emma’s pensive meditations, as she walked home, were not interrupted;
12876 but on entering the parlour, she found those who must rouse her. Mr.
12877 Knightley and Harriet had arrived during her absence, and were sitting
12878 with her father.--Mr. Knightley immediately got up, and in a manner
12879 decidedly graver than usual, said,
12880
12881 “I would not go away without seeing you, but I have no time to spare,
12882 and therefore must now be gone directly. I am going to London, to spend
12883 a few days with John and Isabella. Have you any thing to send or say,
12884 besides the ‘love,’ which nobody carries?”
12885
12886 “Nothing at all. But is not this a sudden scheme?”
12887
12888 “Yes--rather--I have been thinking of it some little time.”
12889
12890 Emma was sure he had not forgiven her; he looked unlike himself. Time,
12891 however, she thought, would tell him that they ought to be friends
12892 again. While he stood, as if meaning to go, but not going--her father
12893 began his inquiries.
12894
12895 “Well, my dear, and did you get there safely?--And how did you find my
12896 worthy old friend and her daughter?--I dare say they must have been very
12897 much obliged to you for coming. Dear Emma has been to call on Mrs.
12898 and Miss Bates, Mr. Knightley, as I told you before. She is always so
12899 attentive to them!”
12900
12901 Emma’s colour was heightened by this unjust praise; and with a
12902 smile, and shake of the head, which spoke much, she looked at Mr.
12903 Knightley.--It seemed as if there were an instantaneous impression in
12904 her favour, as if his eyes received the truth from hers, and all that
12905 had passed of good in her feelings were at once caught and honoured.--
12906 He looked at her with a glow of regard. She was warmly gratified--and in
12907 another moment still more so, by a little movement of more than common
12908 friendliness on his part.--He took her hand;--whether she had not
12909 herself made the first motion, she could not say--she might, perhaps,
12910 have rather offered it--but he took her hand, pressed it, and certainly
12911 was on the point of carrying it to his lips--when, from some fancy or
12912 other, he suddenly let it go.--Why he should feel such a scruple, why
12913 he should change his mind when it was all but done, she could not
12914 perceive.--He would have judged better, she thought, if he had not
12915 stopped.--The intention, however, was indubitable; and whether it was
12916 that his manners had in general so little gallantry, or however else it
12917 happened, but she thought nothing became him more.--It was with him,
12918 of so simple, yet so dignified a nature.--She could not but recall the
12919 attempt with great satisfaction. It spoke such perfect amity.--He left
12920 them immediately afterwards--gone in a moment. He always moved with the
12921 alertness of a mind which could neither be undecided nor dilatory, but
12922 now he seemed more sudden than usual in his disappearance.
12923
12924 Emma could not regret her having gone to Miss Bates, but she wished she
12925 had left her ten minutes earlier;--it would have been a great pleasure
12926 to talk over Jane Fairfax’s situation with Mr. Knightley.--Neither
12927 would she regret that he should be going to Brunswick Square, for she
12928 knew how much his visit would be enjoyed--but it might have happened
12929 at a better time--and to have had longer notice of it, would have been
12930 pleasanter.--They parted thorough friends, however; she could not
12931 be deceived as to the meaning of his countenance, and his unfinished
12932 gallantry;--it was all done to assure her that she had fully recovered
12933 his good opinion.--He had been sitting with them half an hour, she
12934 found. It was a pity that she had not come back earlier!
12935
12936 In the hope of diverting her father’s thoughts from the disagreeableness
12937 of Mr. Knightley’s going to London; and going so suddenly; and going on
12938 horseback, which she knew would be all very bad; Emma communicated her
12939 news of Jane Fairfax, and her dependence on the effect was justified;
12940 it supplied a very useful check,--interested, without disturbing him. He
12941 had long made up his mind to Jane Fairfax’s going out as governess, and
12942 could talk of it cheerfully, but Mr. Knightley’s going to London had
12943 been an unexpected blow.
12944
12945 “I am very glad, indeed, my dear, to hear she is to be so comfortably
12946 settled. Mrs. Elton is very good-natured and agreeable, and I dare say
12947 her acquaintance are just what they ought to be. I hope it is a dry
12948 situation, and that her health will be taken good care of. It ought to
12949 be a first object, as I am sure poor Miss Taylor’s always was with me.
12950 You know, my dear, she is going to be to this new lady what Miss Taylor
12951 was to us. And I hope she will be better off in one respect, and not be
12952 induced to go away after it has been her home so long.”
12953
12954 The following day brought news from Richmond to throw every thing else
12955 into the background. An express arrived at Randalls to announce the
12956 death of Mrs. Churchill! Though her nephew had had no particular reason
12957 to hasten back on her account, she had not lived above six-and-thirty
12958 hours after his return. A sudden seizure of a different nature from any
12959 thing foreboded by her general state, had carried her off after a short
12960 struggle. The great Mrs. Churchill was no more.
12961
12962 It was felt as such things must be felt. Every body had a degree of
12963 gravity and sorrow; tenderness towards the departed, solicitude for the
12964 surviving friends; and, in a reasonable time, curiosity to know where
12965 she would be buried. Goldsmith tells us, that when lovely woman stoops
12966 to folly, she has nothing to do but to die; and when she stoops to be
12967 disagreeable, it is equally to be recommended as a clearer of ill-fame.
12968 Mrs. Churchill, after being disliked at least twenty-five years, was
12969 now spoken of with compassionate allowances. In one point she was fully
12970 justified. She had never been admitted before to be seriously ill. The
12971 event acquitted her of all the fancifulness, and all the selfishness of
12972 imaginary complaints.
12973
12974 “Poor Mrs. Churchill! no doubt she had been suffering a great deal:
12975 more than any body had ever supposed--and continual pain would try the
12976 temper. It was a sad event--a great shock--with all her faults, what
12977 would Mr. Churchill do without her? Mr. Churchill’s loss would be
12978 dreadful indeed. Mr. Churchill would never get over it.”--Even Mr.
12979 Weston shook his head, and looked solemn, and said, “Ah! poor woman,
12980 who would have thought it!” and resolved, that his mourning should be as
12981 handsome as possible; and his wife sat sighing and moralising over her
12982 broad hems with a commiseration and good sense, true and steady. How it
12983 would affect Frank was among the earliest thoughts of both. It was also
12984 a very early speculation with Emma. The character of Mrs. Churchill,
12985 the grief of her husband--her mind glanced over them both with awe and
12986 compassion--and then rested with lightened feelings on how Frank might
12987 be affected by the event, how benefited, how freed. She saw in a moment
12988 all the possible good. Now, an attachment to Harriet Smith would have
12989 nothing to encounter. Mr. Churchill, independent of his wife, was feared
12990 by nobody; an easy, guidable man, to be persuaded into any thing by his
12991 nephew. All that remained to be wished was, that the nephew should form
12992 the attachment, as, with all her goodwill in the cause, Emma could feel
12993 no certainty of its being already formed.
12994
12995 Harriet behaved extremely well on the occasion, with great self-command.
12996 What ever she might feel of brighter hope, she betrayed nothing. Emma
12997 was gratified, to observe such a proof in her of strengthened character,
12998 and refrained from any allusion that might endanger its maintenance.
12999 They spoke, therefore, of Mrs. Churchill’s death with mutual
13000 forbearance.
13001
13002 Short letters from Frank were received at Randalls, communicating all
13003 that was immediately important of their state and plans. Mr. Churchill
13004 was better than could be expected; and their first removal, on the
13005 departure of the funeral for Yorkshire, was to be to the house of a very
13006 old friend in Windsor, to whom Mr. Churchill had been promising a
13007 visit the last ten years. At present, there was nothing to be done for
13008 Harriet; good wishes for the future were all that could yet be possible
13009 on Emma’s side.
13010
13011 It was a more pressing concern to shew attention to Jane Fairfax, whose
13012 prospects were closing, while Harriet’s opened, and whose engagements
13013 now allowed of no delay in any one at Highbury, who wished to shew her
13014 kindness--and with Emma it was grown into a first wish. She had scarcely
13015 a stronger regret than for her past coldness; and the person, whom she
13016 had been so many months neglecting, was now the very one on whom she
13017 would have lavished every distinction of regard or sympathy. She wanted
13018 to be of use to her; wanted to shew a value for her society, and testify
13019 respect and consideration. She resolved to prevail on her to spend a day
13020 at Hartfield. A note was written to urge it. The invitation was refused,
13021 and by a verbal message. “Miss Fairfax was not well enough to write;”
13022 and when Mr. Perry called at Hartfield, the same morning, it appeared
13023 that she was so much indisposed as to have been visited, though against
13024 her own consent, by himself, and that she was suffering under severe
13025 headaches, and a nervous fever to a degree, which made him doubt the
13026 possibility of her going to Mrs. Smallridge’s at the time proposed.
13027 Her health seemed for the moment completely deranged--appetite quite
13028 gone--and though there were no absolutely alarming symptoms, nothing
13029 touching the pulmonary complaint, which was the standing apprehension
13030 of the family, Mr. Perry was uneasy about her. He thought she had
13031 undertaken more than she was equal to, and that she felt it so herself,
13032 though she would not own it. Her spirits seemed overcome. Her
13033 present home, he could not but observe, was unfavourable to a nervous
13034 disorder:--confined always to one room;--he could have wished it
13035 otherwise--and her good aunt, though his very old friend, he must
13036 acknowledge to be not the best companion for an invalid of that
13037 description. Her care and attention could not be questioned; they were,
13038 in fact, only too great. He very much feared that Miss Fairfax derived
13039 more evil than good from them. Emma listened with the warmest concern;
13040 grieved for her more and more, and looked around eager to discover some
13041 way of being useful. To take her--be it only an hour or two--from
13042 her aunt, to give her change of air and scene, and quiet rational
13043 conversation, even for an hour or two, might do her good; and the
13044 following morning she wrote again to say, in the most feeling language
13045 she could command, that she would call for her in the carriage at any
13046 hour that Jane would name--mentioning that she had Mr. Perry’s decided
13047 opinion, in favour of such exercise for his patient. The answer was only
13048 in this short note:
13049
13050 “Miss Fairfax’s compliments and thanks, but is quite unequal to any
13051 exercise.”
13052
13053 Emma felt that her own note had deserved something better; but it was
13054 impossible to quarrel with words, whose tremulous inequality shewed
13055 indisposition so plainly, and she thought only of how she might best
13056 counteract this unwillingness to be seen or assisted. In spite of the
13057 answer, therefore, she ordered the carriage, and drove to Mrs. Bates’s,
13058 in the hope that Jane would be induced to join her--but it would not
13059 do;--Miss Bates came to the carriage door, all gratitude, and agreeing
13060 with her most earnestly in thinking an airing might be of the greatest
13061 service--and every thing that message could do was tried--but all in
13062 vain. Miss Bates was obliged to return without success; Jane was
13063 quite unpersuadable; the mere proposal of going out seemed to make her
13064 worse.--Emma wished she could have seen her, and tried her own powers;
13065 but, almost before she could hint the wish, Miss Bates made it appear
13066 that she had promised her niece on no account to let Miss Woodhouse in.
13067 “Indeed, the truth was, that poor dear Jane could not bear to see any
13068 body--any body at all--Mrs. Elton, indeed, could not be denied--and
13069 Mrs. Cole had made such a point--and Mrs. Perry had said so much--but,
13070 except them, Jane would really see nobody.”
13071
13072 Emma did not want to be classed with the Mrs. Eltons, the Mrs. Perrys,
13073 and the Mrs. Coles, who would force themselves anywhere; neither could
13074 she feel any right of preference herself--she submitted, therefore, and
13075 only questioned Miss Bates farther as to her niece’s appetite and diet,
13076 which she longed to be able to assist. On that subject poor Miss Bates
13077 was very unhappy, and very communicative; Jane would hardly eat any
13078 thing:--Mr. Perry recommended nourishing food; but every thing
13079 they could command (and never had any body such good neighbours) was
13080 distasteful.
13081
13082 Emma, on reaching home, called the housekeeper directly, to an
13083 examination of her stores; and some arrowroot of very superior quality
13084 was speedily despatched to Miss Bates with a most friendly note. In half
13085 an hour the arrowroot was returned, with a thousand thanks from Miss
13086 Bates, but “dear Jane would not be satisfied without its being sent
13087 back; it was a thing she could not take--and, moreover, she insisted on
13088 her saying, that she was not at all in want of any thing.”
13089
13090 When Emma afterwards heard that Jane Fairfax had been seen wandering
13091 about the meadows, at some distance from Highbury, on the afternoon of
13092 the very day on which she had, under the plea of being unequal to any
13093 exercise, so peremptorily refused to go out with her in the carriage,
13094 she could have no doubt--putting every thing together--that Jane was
13095 resolved to receive no kindness from _her_. She was sorry, very sorry.
13096 Her heart was grieved for a state which seemed but the more pitiable
13097 from this sort of irritation of spirits, inconsistency of action, and
13098 inequality of powers; and it mortified her that she was given so little
13099 credit for proper feeling, or esteemed so little worthy as a friend: but
13100 she had the consolation of knowing that her intentions were good, and of
13101 being able to say to herself, that could Mr. Knightley have been privy
13102 to all her attempts of assisting Jane Fairfax, could he even have seen
13103 into her heart, he would not, on this occasion, have found any thing to
13104 reprove.
13105
13106
13107
13108 CHAPTER X
13109
13110
13111 One morning, about ten days after Mrs. Churchill’s decease, Emma was
13112 called downstairs to Mr. Weston, who “could not stay five minutes,
13113 and wanted particularly to speak with her.”--He met her at the
13114 parlour-door, and hardly asking her how she did, in the natural key of
13115 his voice, sunk it immediately, to say, unheard by her father,
13116
13117 “Can you come to Randalls at any time this morning?--Do, if it be
13118 possible. Mrs. Weston wants to see you. She must see you.”
13119
13120 “Is she unwell?”
13121
13122 “No, no, not at all--only a little agitated. She would have ordered the
13123 carriage, and come to you, but she must see you _alone_, and that you
13124 know--(nodding towards her father)--Humph!--Can you come?”
13125
13126 “Certainly. This moment, if you please. It is impossible to refuse what
13127 you ask in such a way. But what can be the matter?--Is she really not
13128 ill?”
13129
13130 “Depend upon me--but ask no more questions. You will know it all in
13131 time. The most unaccountable business! But hush, hush!”
13132
13133 To guess what all this meant, was impossible even for Emma. Something
13134 really important seemed announced by his looks; but, as her friend was
13135 well, she endeavoured not to be uneasy, and settling it with her father,
13136 that she would take her walk now, she and Mr. Weston were soon out of
13137 the house together and on their way at a quick pace for Randalls.
13138
13139 “Now,”--said Emma, when they were fairly beyond the sweep gates,--“now
13140 Mr. Weston, do let me know what has happened.”
13141
13142 “No, no,”--he gravely replied.--“Don’t ask me. I promised my wife to
13143 leave it all to her. She will break it to you better than I can. Do not
13144 be impatient, Emma; it will all come out too soon.”
13145
13146 “Break it to me,” cried Emma, standing still with terror.--“Good
13147 God!--Mr. Weston, tell me at once.--Something has happened in Brunswick
13148 Square. I know it has. Tell me, I charge you tell me this moment what it
13149 is.”
13150
13151 “No, indeed you are mistaken.”--
13152
13153 “Mr. Weston do not trifle with me.--Consider how many of my dearest
13154 friends are now in Brunswick Square. Which of them is it?--I charge you
13155 by all that is sacred, not to attempt concealment.”
13156
13157 “Upon my word, Emma.”--
13158
13159 “Your word!--why not your honour!--why not say upon your honour, that
13160 it has nothing to do with any of them? Good Heavens!--What can be to be
13161 _broke_ to me, that does not relate to one of that family?”
13162
13163 “Upon my honour,” said he very seriously, “it does not. It is not in
13164 the smallest degree connected with any human being of the name of
13165 Knightley.”
13166
13167 Emma’s courage returned, and she walked on.
13168
13169 “I was wrong,” he continued, “in talking of its being _broke_ to you.
13170 I should not have used the expression. In fact, it does not concern
13171 you--it concerns only myself,--that is, we hope.--Humph!--In short, my
13172 dear Emma, there is no occasion to be so uneasy about it. I don’t
13173 say that it is not a disagreeable business--but things might be much
13174 worse.--If we walk fast, we shall soon be at Randalls.”
13175
13176 Emma found that she must wait; and now it required little effort. She
13177 asked no more questions therefore, merely employed her own fancy, and
13178 that soon pointed out to her the probability of its being some money
13179 concern--something just come to light, of a disagreeable nature in the
13180 circumstances of the family,--something which the late event at Richmond
13181 had brought forward. Her fancy was very active. Half a dozen natural
13182 children, perhaps--and poor Frank cut off!--This, though very
13183 undesirable, would be no matter of agony to her. It inspired little more
13184 than an animating curiosity.
13185
13186 “Who is that gentleman on horseback?” said she, as they
13187 proceeded--speaking more to assist Mr. Weston in keeping his secret,
13188 than with any other view.
13189
13190 “I do not know.--One of the Otways.--Not Frank;--it is not Frank, I
13191 assure you. You will not see him. He is half way to Windsor by this
13192 time.”
13193
13194 “Has your son been with you, then?”
13195
13196 “Oh! yes--did not you know?--Well, well, never mind.”
13197
13198 For a moment he was silent; and then added, in a tone much more guarded
13199 and demure,
13200
13201 “Yes, Frank came over this morning, just to ask us how we did.”
13202
13203 They hurried on, and were speedily at Randalls.--“Well, my dear,” said
13204 he, as they entered the room--“I have brought her, and now I hope you
13205 will soon be better. I shall leave you together. There is no use in
13206 delay. I shall not be far off, if you want me.”--And Emma distinctly
13207 heard him add, in a lower tone, before he quitted the room,--“I have
13208 been as good as my word. She has not the least idea.”
13209
13210 Mrs. Weston was looking so ill, and had an air of so much perturbation,
13211 that Emma’s uneasiness increased; and the moment they were alone, she
13212 eagerly said,
13213
13214 “What is it my dear friend? Something of a very unpleasant nature, I
13215 find, has occurred;--do let me know directly what it is. I have been
13216 walking all this way in complete suspense. We both abhor suspense.
13217 Do not let mine continue longer. It will do you good to speak of your
13218 distress, whatever it may be.”
13219
13220 “Have you indeed no idea?” said Mrs. Weston in a trembling voice.
13221 “Cannot you, my dear Emma--cannot you form a guess as to what you are to
13222 hear?”
13223
13224 “So far as that it relates to Mr. Frank Churchill, I do guess.”
13225
13226 “You are right. It does relate to him, and I will tell you directly;”
13227 (resuming her work, and seeming resolved against looking up.) “He has
13228 been here this very morning, on a most extraordinary errand. It is
13229 impossible to express our surprize. He came to speak to his father on a
13230 subject,--to announce an attachment--”
13231
13232 She stopped to breathe. Emma thought first of herself, and then of
13233 Harriet.
13234
13235 “More than an attachment, indeed,” resumed Mrs. Weston; “an
13236 engagement--a positive engagement.--What will you say, Emma--what will
13237 any body say, when it is known that Frank Churchill and Miss Fairfax are
13238 engaged;--nay, that they have been long engaged!”
13239
13240 Emma even jumped with surprize;--and, horror-struck, exclaimed,
13241
13242 “Jane Fairfax!--Good God! You are not serious? You do not mean it?”
13243
13244 “You may well be amazed,” returned Mrs. Weston, still averting her eyes,
13245 and talking on with eagerness, that Emma might have time to recover--
13246 “You may well be amazed. But it is even so. There has been a solemn
13247 engagement between them ever since October--formed at Weymouth, and
13248 kept a secret from every body. Not a creature knowing it but
13249 themselves--neither the Campbells, nor her family, nor his.--It is so
13250 wonderful, that though perfectly convinced of the fact, it is yet almost
13251 incredible to myself. I can hardly believe it.--I thought I knew him.”
13252
13253 Emma scarcely heard what was said.--Her mind was divided between two
13254 ideas--her own former conversations with him about Miss Fairfax; and
13255 poor Harriet;--and for some time she could only exclaim, and require
13256 confirmation, repeated confirmation.
13257
13258 “Well,” said she at last, trying to recover herself; “this is a
13259 circumstance which I must think of at least half a day, before I can at
13260 all comprehend it. What!--engaged to her all the winter--before either
13261 of them came to Highbury?”
13262
13263 “Engaged since October,--secretly engaged.--It has hurt me, Emma, very
13264 much. It has hurt his father equally. _Some_ _part_ of his conduct we
13265 cannot excuse.”
13266
13267 Emma pondered a moment, and then replied, “I will not pretend _not_ to
13268 understand you; and to give you all the relief in my power, be assured
13269 that no such effect has followed his attentions to me, as you are
13270 apprehensive of.”
13271
13272 Mrs. Weston looked up, afraid to believe; but Emma’s countenance was as
13273 steady as her words.
13274
13275 “That you may have less difficulty in believing this boast, of my
13276 present perfect indifference,” she continued, “I will farther tell you,
13277 that there was a period in the early part of our acquaintance, when I
13278 did like him, when I was very much disposed to be attached to him--nay,
13279 was attached--and how it came to cease, is perhaps the wonder.
13280 Fortunately, however, it did cease. I have really for some time past,
13281 for at least these three months, cared nothing about him. You may
13282 believe me, Mrs. Weston. This is the simple truth.”
13283
13284 Mrs. Weston kissed her with tears of joy; and when she could find
13285 utterance, assured her, that this protestation had done her more good
13286 than any thing else in the world could do.
13287
13288 “Mr. Weston will be almost as much relieved as myself,” said she. “On
13289 this point we have been wretched. It was our darling wish that you
13290 might be attached to each other--and we were persuaded that it was so.--
13291 Imagine what we have been feeling on your account.”
13292
13293 “I have escaped; and that I should escape, may be a matter of grateful
13294 wonder to you and myself. But this does not acquit _him_, Mrs. Weston;
13295 and I must say, that I think him greatly to blame. What right had he
13296 to come among us with affection and faith engaged, and with manners
13297 so _very_ disengaged? What right had he to endeavour to please, as
13298 he certainly did--to distinguish any one young woman with persevering
13299 attention, as he certainly did--while he really belonged to
13300 another?--How could he tell what mischief he might be doing?--How could
13301 he tell that he might not be making me in love with him?--very wrong,
13302 very wrong indeed.”
13303
13304 “From something that he said, my dear Emma, I rather imagine--”
13305
13306 “And how could _she_ bear such behaviour! Composure with a witness!
13307 to look on, while repeated attentions were offering to another woman,
13308 before her face, and not resent it.--That is a degree of placidity,
13309 which I can neither comprehend nor respect.”
13310
13311 “There were misunderstandings between them, Emma; he said so expressly.
13312 He had not time to enter into much explanation. He was here only a
13313 quarter of an hour, and in a state of agitation which did not allow
13314 the full use even of the time he could stay--but that there had been
13315 misunderstandings he decidedly said. The present crisis, indeed,
13316 seemed to be brought on by them; and those misunderstandings might very
13317 possibly arise from the impropriety of his conduct.”
13318
13319 “Impropriety! Oh! Mrs. Weston--it is too calm a censure. Much, much
13320 beyond impropriety!--It has sunk him, I cannot say how it has sunk him
13321 in my opinion. So unlike what a man should be!--None of that upright
13322 integrity, that strict adherence to truth and principle, that disdain of
13323 trick and littleness, which a man should display in every transaction of
13324 his life.”
13325
13326 “Nay, dear Emma, now I must take his part; for though he has been wrong
13327 in this instance, I have known him long enough to answer for his having
13328 many, very many, good qualities; and--”
13329
13330 “Good God!” cried Emma, not attending to her.--“Mrs. Smallridge, too!
13331 Jane actually on the point of going as governess! What could he mean by
13332 such horrible indelicacy? To suffer her to engage herself--to suffer her
13333 even to think of such a measure!”
13334
13335 “He knew nothing about it, Emma. On this article I can fully acquit
13336 him. It was a private resolution of hers, not communicated to him--or at
13337 least not communicated in a way to carry conviction.--Till yesterday, I
13338 know he said he was in the dark as to her plans. They burst on him, I do
13339 not know how, but by some letter or message--and it was the discovery of
13340 what she was doing, of this very project of hers, which determined him
13341 to come forward at once, own it all to his uncle, throw himself on
13342 his kindness, and, in short, put an end to the miserable state of
13343 concealment that had been carrying on so long.”
13344
13345 Emma began to listen better.
13346
13347 “I am to hear from him soon,” continued Mrs. Weston. “He told me at
13348 parting, that he should soon write; and he spoke in a manner which
13349 seemed to promise me many particulars that could not be given now. Let
13350 us wait, therefore, for this letter. It may bring many extenuations. It
13351 may make many things intelligible and excusable which now are not to
13352 be understood. Don’t let us be severe, don’t let us be in a hurry to
13353 condemn him. Let us have patience. I must love him; and now that I am
13354 satisfied on one point, the one material point, I am sincerely anxious
13355 for its all turning out well, and ready to hope that it may. They must
13356 both have suffered a great deal under such a system of secresy and
13357 concealment.”
13358
13359 “_His_ sufferings,” replied Emma dryly, “do not appear to have done him
13360 much harm. Well, and how did Mr. Churchill take it?”
13361
13362 “Most favourably for his nephew--gave his consent with scarcely a
13363 difficulty. Conceive what the events of a week have done in that family!
13364 While poor Mrs. Churchill lived, I suppose there could not have been a
13365 hope, a chance, a possibility;--but scarcely are her remains at rest in
13366 the family vault, than her husband is persuaded to act exactly opposite
13367 to what she would have required. What a blessing it is, when undue
13368 influence does not survive the grave!--He gave his consent with very
13369 little persuasion.”
13370
13371 “Ah!” thought Emma, “he would have done as much for Harriet.”
13372
13373 “This was settled last night, and Frank was off with the light this
13374 morning. He stopped at Highbury, at the Bates’s, I fancy, some time--and
13375 then came on hither; but was in such a hurry to get back to his uncle,
13376 to whom he is just now more necessary than ever, that, as I tell you,
13377 he could stay with us but a quarter of an hour.--He was very much
13378 agitated--very much, indeed--to a degree that made him appear quite
13379 a different creature from any thing I had ever seen him before.--In
13380 addition to all the rest, there had been the shock of finding her so
13381 very unwell, which he had had no previous suspicion of--and there was
13382 every appearance of his having been feeling a great deal.”
13383
13384 “And do you really believe the affair to have been carrying on with such
13385 perfect secresy?--The Campbells, the Dixons, did none of them know of
13386 the engagement?”
13387
13388 Emma could not speak the name of Dixon without a little blush.
13389
13390 “None; not one. He positively said that it had been known to no being in
13391 the world but their two selves.”
13392
13393 “Well,” said Emma, “I suppose we shall gradually grow reconciled to the
13394 idea, and I wish them very happy. But I shall always think it a
13395 very abominable sort of proceeding. What has it been but a system of
13396 hypocrisy and deceit,--espionage, and treachery?--To come among us with
13397 professions of openness and simplicity; and such a league in secret
13398 to judge us all!--Here have we been, the whole winter and spring,
13399 completely duped, fancying ourselves all on an equal footing of truth
13400 and honour, with two people in the midst of us who may have been
13401 carrying round, comparing and sitting in judgment on sentiments and
13402 words that were never meant for both to hear.--They must take the
13403 consequence, if they have heard each other spoken of in a way not
13404 perfectly agreeable!”
13405
13406 “I am quite easy on that head,” replied Mrs. Weston. “I am very sure
13407 that I never said any thing of either to the other, which both might not
13408 have heard.”
13409
13410 “You are in luck.--Your only blunder was confined to my ear, when you
13411 imagined a certain friend of ours in love with the lady.”
13412
13413 “True. But as I have always had a thoroughly good opinion of Miss
13414 Fairfax, I never could, under any blunder, have spoken ill of her; and
13415 as to speaking ill of him, there I must have been safe.”
13416
13417 At this moment Mr. Weston appeared at a little distance from the window,
13418 evidently on the watch. His wife gave him a look which invited him
13419 in; and, while he was coming round, added, “Now, dearest Emma, let me
13420 intreat you to say and look every thing that may set his heart at ease,
13421 and incline him to be satisfied with the match. Let us make the best of
13422 it--and, indeed, almost every thing may be fairly said in her favour. It
13423 is not a connexion to gratify; but if Mr. Churchill does not feel that,
13424 why should we? and it may be a very fortunate circumstance for him, for
13425 Frank, I mean, that he should have attached himself to a girl of such
13426 steadiness of character and good judgment as I have always given her
13427 credit for--and still am disposed to give her credit for, in spite of
13428 this one great deviation from the strict rule of right. And how much may
13429 be said in her situation for even that error!”
13430
13431 “Much, indeed!” cried Emma feelingly. “If a woman can ever be
13432 excused for thinking only of herself, it is in a situation like Jane
13433 Fairfax’s.--Of such, one may almost say, that ‘the world is not their’s,
13434 nor the world’s law.’”
13435
13436 She met Mr. Weston on his entrance, with a smiling countenance,
13437 exclaiming,
13438
13439 “A very pretty trick you have been playing me, upon my word! This was a
13440 device, I suppose, to sport with my curiosity, and exercise my talent of
13441 guessing. But you really frightened me. I thought you had lost half
13442 your property, at least. And here, instead of its being a matter of
13443 condolence, it turns out to be one of congratulation.--I congratulate
13444 you, Mr. Weston, with all my heart, on the prospect of having one of the
13445 most lovely and accomplished young women in England for your daughter.”
13446
13447 A glance or two between him and his wife, convinced him that all was as
13448 right as this speech proclaimed; and its happy effect on his spirits was
13449 immediate. His air and voice recovered their usual briskness: he shook
13450 her heartily and gratefully by the hand, and entered on the subject in
13451 a manner to prove, that he now only wanted time and persuasion to think
13452 the engagement no very bad thing. His companions suggested only what
13453 could palliate imprudence, or smooth objections; and by the time they
13454 had talked it all over together, and he had talked it all over again
13455 with Emma, in their walk back to Hartfield, he was become perfectly
13456 reconciled, and not far from thinking it the very best thing that Frank
13457 could possibly have done.
13458
13459
13460
13461 CHAPTER XI
13462
13463
13464 “Harriet, poor Harriet!”--Those were the words; in them lay the
13465 tormenting ideas which Emma could not get rid of, and which constituted
13466 the real misery of the business to her. Frank Churchill had behaved very
13467 ill by herself--very ill in many ways,--but it was not so much _his_
13468 behaviour as her _own_, which made her so angry with him. It was the
13469 scrape which he had drawn her into on Harriet’s account, that gave the
13470 deepest hue to his offence.--Poor Harriet! to be a second time the
13471 dupe of her misconceptions and flattery. Mr. Knightley had spoken
13472 prophetically, when he once said, “Emma, you have been no friend
13473 to Harriet Smith.”--She was afraid she had done her nothing but
13474 disservice.--It was true that she had not to charge herself, in this
13475 instance as in the former, with being the sole and original author of
13476 the mischief; with having suggested such feelings as might otherwise
13477 never have entered Harriet’s imagination; for Harriet had acknowledged
13478 her admiration and preference of Frank Churchill before she had ever
13479 given her a hint on the subject; but she felt completely guilty
13480 of having encouraged what she might have repressed. She might have
13481 prevented the indulgence and increase of such sentiments. Her influence
13482 would have been enough. And now she was very conscious that she ought
13483 to have prevented them.--She felt that she had been risking her friend’s
13484 happiness on most insufficient grounds. Common sense would have directed
13485 her to tell Harriet, that she must not allow herself to think of him,
13486 and that there were five hundred chances to one against his ever caring
13487 for her.--“But, with common sense,” she added, “I am afraid I have had
13488 little to do.”
13489
13490 She was extremely angry with herself. If she could not have been angry
13491 with Frank Churchill too, it would have been dreadful.--As for Jane
13492 Fairfax, she might at least relieve her feelings from any present
13493 solicitude on her account. Harriet would be anxiety enough; she need
13494 no longer be unhappy about Jane, whose troubles and whose ill-health
13495 having, of course, the same origin, must be equally under cure.--Her
13496 days of insignificance and evil were over.--She would soon be well, and
13497 happy, and prosperous.--Emma could now imagine why her own attentions
13498 had been slighted. This discovery laid many smaller matters open. No
13499 doubt it had been from jealousy.--In Jane’s eyes she had been a rival;
13500 and well might any thing she could offer of assistance or regard be
13501 repulsed. An airing in the Hartfield carriage would have been the rack,
13502 and arrowroot from the Hartfield storeroom must have been poison. She
13503 understood it all; and as far as her mind could disengage itself from
13504 the injustice and selfishness of angry feelings, she acknowledged that
13505 Jane Fairfax would have neither elevation nor happiness beyond her
13506 desert. But poor Harriet was such an engrossing charge! There was little
13507 sympathy to be spared for any body else. Emma was sadly fearful
13508 that this second disappointment would be more severe than the first.
13509 Considering the very superior claims of the object, it ought; and
13510 judging by its apparently stronger effect on Harriet’s mind, producing
13511 reserve and self-command, it would.--She must communicate the painful
13512 truth, however, and as soon as possible. An injunction of secresy had
13513 been among Mr. Weston’s parting words. “For the present, the whole
13514 affair was to be completely a secret. Mr. Churchill had made a point of
13515 it, as a token of respect to the wife he had so very recently lost;
13516 and every body admitted it to be no more than due decorum.”--Emma had
13517 promised; but still Harriet must be excepted. It was her superior duty.
13518
13519 In spite of her vexation, she could not help feeling it almost
13520 ridiculous, that she should have the very same distressing and delicate
13521 office to perform by Harriet, which Mrs. Weston had just gone through by
13522 herself. The intelligence, which had been so anxiously announced to her,
13523 she was now to be anxiously announcing to another. Her heart beat quick
13524 on hearing Harriet’s footstep and voice; so, she supposed, had poor Mrs.
13525 Weston felt when _she_ was approaching Randalls. Could the event of
13526 the disclosure bear an equal resemblance!--But of that, unfortunately,
13527 there could be no chance.
13528
13529 “Well, Miss Woodhouse!” cried Harriet, coming eagerly into the room--“is
13530 not this the oddest news that ever was?”
13531
13532 “What news do you mean?” replied Emma, unable to guess, by look or
13533 voice, whether Harriet could indeed have received any hint.
13534
13535 “About Jane Fairfax. Did you ever hear any thing so strange? Oh!--you
13536 need not be afraid of owning it to me, for Mr. Weston has told me
13537 himself. I met him just now. He told me it was to be a great secret;
13538 and, therefore, I should not think of mentioning it to any body but you,
13539 but he said you knew it.”
13540
13541 “What did Mr. Weston tell you?”--said Emma, still perplexed.
13542
13543 “Oh! he told me all about it; that Jane Fairfax and Mr. Frank Churchill
13544 are to be married, and that they have been privately engaged to one
13545 another this long while. How very odd!”
13546
13547 It was, indeed, so odd; Harriet’s behaviour was so extremely odd,
13548 that Emma did not know how to understand it. Her character appeared
13549 absolutely changed. She seemed to propose shewing no agitation, or
13550 disappointment, or peculiar concern in the discovery. Emma looked at
13551 her, quite unable to speak.
13552
13553 “Had you any idea,” cried Harriet, “of his being in love with her?--You,
13554 perhaps, might.--You (blushing as she spoke) who can see into every
13555 body’s heart; but nobody else--”
13556
13557 “Upon my word,” said Emma, “I begin to doubt my having any such talent.
13558 Can you seriously ask me, Harriet, whether I imagined him attached
13559 to another woman at the very time that I was--tacitly, if not
13560 openly--encouraging you to give way to your own feelings?--I never
13561 had the slightest suspicion, till within the last hour, of Mr. Frank
13562 Churchill’s having the least regard for Jane Fairfax. You may be very
13563 sure that if I had, I should have cautioned you accordingly.”
13564
13565 “Me!” cried Harriet, colouring, and astonished. “Why should you caution
13566 me?--You do not think I care about Mr. Frank Churchill.”
13567
13568 “I am delighted to hear you speak so stoutly on the subject,” replied
13569 Emma, smiling; “but you do not mean to deny that there was a time--and
13570 not very distant either--when you gave me reason to understand that you
13571 did care about him?”
13572
13573 “Him!--never, never. Dear Miss Woodhouse, how could you so mistake me?”
13574 turning away distressed.
13575
13576 “Harriet!” cried Emma, after a moment’s pause--“What do you mean?--Good
13577 Heaven! what do you mean?--Mistake you!--Am I to suppose then?--”
13578
13579 She could not speak another word.--Her voice was lost; and she sat down,
13580 waiting in great terror till Harriet should answer.
13581
13582 Harriet, who was standing at some distance, and with face turned from
13583 her, did not immediately say any thing; and when she did speak, it was
13584 in a voice nearly as agitated as Emma’s.
13585
13586 “I should not have thought it possible,” she began, “that you could have
13587 misunderstood me! I know we agreed never to name him--but considering
13588 how infinitely superior he is to every body else, I should not have
13589 thought it possible that I could be supposed to mean any other person.
13590 Mr. Frank Churchill, indeed! I do not know who would ever look at him in
13591 the company of the other. I hope I have a better taste than to think of
13592 Mr. Frank Churchill, who is like nobody by his side. And that you should
13593 have been so mistaken, is amazing!--I am sure, but for believing that
13594 you entirely approved and meant to encourage me in my attachment, I
13595 should have considered it at first too great a presumption almost,
13596 to dare to think of him. At first, if you had not told me that more
13597 wonderful things had happened; that there had been matches of greater
13598 disparity (those were your very words);--I should not have dared to
13599 give way to--I should not have thought it possible--But if _you_, who
13600 had been always acquainted with him--”
13601
13602 “Harriet!” cried Emma, collecting herself resolutely--“Let us understand
13603 each other now, without the possibility of farther mistake. Are you
13604 speaking of--Mr. Knightley?”
13605
13606 “To be sure I am. I never could have an idea of any body else--and so
13607 I thought you knew. When we talked about him, it was as clear as
13608 possible.”
13609
13610 “Not quite,” returned Emma, with forced calmness, “for all that you then
13611 said, appeared to me to relate to a different person. I could almost
13612 assert that you had _named_ Mr. Frank Churchill. I am sure the service
13613 Mr. Frank Churchill had rendered you, in protecting you from the
13614 gipsies, was spoken of.”
13615
13616 “Oh! Miss Woodhouse, how you do forget!”
13617
13618 “My dear Harriet, I perfectly remember the substance of what I said on
13619 the occasion. I told you that I did not wonder at your attachment;
13620 that considering the service he had rendered you, it was extremely
13621 natural:--and you agreed to it, expressing yourself very warmly as to
13622 your sense of that service, and mentioning even what your sensations had
13623 been in seeing him come forward to your rescue.--The impression of it is
13624 strong on my memory.”
13625
13626 “Oh, dear,” cried Harriet, “now I recollect what you mean; but I
13627 was thinking of something very different at the time. It was not the
13628 gipsies--it was not Mr. Frank Churchill that I meant. No! (with some
13629 elevation) I was thinking of a much more precious circumstance--of Mr.
13630 Knightley’s coming and asking me to dance, when Mr. Elton would not
13631 stand up with me; and when there was no other partner in the room. That
13632 was the kind action; that was the noble benevolence and generosity; that
13633 was the service which made me begin to feel how superior he was to every
13634 other being upon earth.”
13635
13636 “Good God!” cried Emma, “this has been a most unfortunate--most
13637 deplorable mistake!--What is to be done?”
13638
13639 “You would not have encouraged me, then, if you had understood me? At
13640 least, however, I cannot be worse off than I should have been, if the
13641 other had been the person; and now--it _is_ possible--”
13642
13643 She paused a few moments. Emma could not speak.
13644
13645 “I do not wonder, Miss Woodhouse,” she resumed, “that you should feel a
13646 great difference between the two, as to me or as to any body. You must
13647 think one five hundred million times more above me than the other. But
13648 I hope, Miss Woodhouse, that supposing--that if--strange as it may
13649 appear--. But you know they were your own words, that _more_ wonderful
13650 things had happened, matches of _greater_ disparity had taken place than
13651 between Mr. Frank Churchill and me; and, therefore, it seems as if such
13652 a thing even as this, may have occurred before--and if I should be so
13653 fortunate, beyond expression, as to--if Mr. Knightley should really--if
13654 _he_ does not mind the disparity, I hope, dear Miss Woodhouse, you will
13655 not set yourself against it, and try to put difficulties in the way. But
13656 you are too good for that, I am sure.”
13657
13658 Harriet was standing at one of the windows. Emma turned round to look at
13659 her in consternation, and hastily said,
13660
13661 “Have you any idea of Mr. Knightley’s returning your affection?”
13662
13663 “Yes,” replied Harriet modestly, but not fearfully--“I must say that I
13664 have.”
13665
13666 Emma’s eyes were instantly withdrawn; and she sat silently meditating,
13667 in a fixed attitude, for a few minutes. A few minutes were sufficient
13668 for making her acquainted with her own heart. A mind like hers,
13669 once opening to suspicion, made rapid progress. She touched--she
13670 admitted--she acknowledged the whole truth. Why was it so much worse
13671 that Harriet should be in love with Mr. Knightley, than with Frank
13672 Churchill? Why was the evil so dreadfully increased by Harriet’s having
13673 some hope of a return? It darted through her, with the speed of an
13674 arrow, that Mr. Knightley must marry no one but herself!
13675
13676 Her own conduct, as well as her own heart, was before her in the same
13677 few minutes. She saw it all with a clearness which had never blessed
13678 her before. How improperly had she been acting by Harriet! How
13679 inconsiderate, how indelicate, how irrational, how unfeeling had been
13680 her conduct! What blindness, what madness, had led her on! It struck her
13681 with dreadful force, and she was ready to give it every bad name in the
13682 world. Some portion of respect for herself, however, in spite of all
13683 these demerits--some concern for her own appearance, and a strong sense
13684 of justice by Harriet--(there would be no need of _compassion_ to the
13685 girl who believed herself loved by Mr. Knightley--but justice required
13686 that she should not be made unhappy by any coldness now,) gave Emma the
13687 resolution to sit and endure farther with calmness, with even apparent
13688 kindness.--For her own advantage indeed, it was fit that the utmost
13689 extent of Harriet’s hopes should be enquired into; and Harriet had done
13690 nothing to forfeit the regard and interest which had been so voluntarily
13691 formed and maintained--or to deserve to be slighted by the person, whose
13692 counsels had never led her right.--Rousing from reflection, therefore,
13693 and subduing her emotion, she turned to Harriet again, and, in a more
13694 inviting accent, renewed the conversation; for as to the subject which
13695 had first introduced it, the wonderful story of Jane Fairfax, that was
13696 quite sunk and lost.--Neither of them thought but of Mr. Knightley and
13697 themselves.
13698
13699 Harriet, who had been standing in no unhappy reverie, was yet very glad
13700 to be called from it, by the now encouraging manner of such a judge, and
13701 such a friend as Miss Woodhouse, and only wanted invitation, to give
13702 the history of her hopes with great, though trembling delight.--Emma’s
13703 tremblings as she asked, and as she listened, were better concealed than
13704 Harriet’s, but they were not less. Her voice was not unsteady; but her
13705 mind was in all the perturbation that such a development of self, such
13706 a burst of threatening evil, such a confusion of sudden and perplexing
13707 emotions, must create.--She listened with much inward suffering, but
13708 with great outward patience, to Harriet’s detail.--Methodical, or well
13709 arranged, or very well delivered, it could not be expected to be; but it
13710 contained, when separated from all the feebleness and tautology of
13711 the narration, a substance to sink her spirit--especially with the
13712 corroborating circumstances, which her own memory brought in favour of
13713 Mr. Knightley’s most improved opinion of Harriet.
13714
13715 Harriet had been conscious of a difference in his behaviour ever since
13716 those two decisive dances.--Emma knew that he had, on that occasion,
13717 found her much superior to his expectation. From that evening, or at
13718 least from the time of Miss Woodhouse’s encouraging her to think of him,
13719 Harriet had begun to be sensible of his talking to her much more than he
13720 had been used to do, and of his having indeed quite a different manner
13721 towards her; a manner of kindness and sweetness!--Latterly she had been
13722 more and more aware of it. When they had been all walking together,
13723 he had so often come and walked by her, and talked so very
13724 delightfully!--He seemed to want to be acquainted with her. Emma knew it
13725 to have been very much the case. She had often observed the change, to
13726 almost the same extent.--Harriet repeated expressions of approbation
13727 and praise from him--and Emma felt them to be in the closest agreement
13728 with what she had known of his opinion of Harriet. He praised her for
13729 being without art or affectation, for having simple, honest, generous,
13730 feelings.--She knew that he saw such recommendations in Harriet; he
13731 had dwelt on them to her more than once.--Much that lived in Harriet’s
13732 memory, many little particulars of the notice she had received from
13733 him, a look, a speech, a removal from one chair to another, a compliment
13734 implied, a preference inferred, had been unnoticed, because unsuspected,
13735 by Emma. Circumstances that might swell to half an hour’s relation,
13736 and contained multiplied proofs to her who had seen them, had passed
13737 undiscerned by her who now heard them; but the two latest occurrences to
13738 be mentioned, the two of strongest promise to Harriet, were not without
13739 some degree of witness from Emma herself.--The first, was his walking
13740 with her apart from the others, in the lime-walk at Donwell, where they
13741 had been walking some time before Emma came, and he had taken pains (as
13742 she was convinced) to draw her from the rest to himself--and at first,
13743 he had talked to her in a more particular way than he had ever done
13744 before, in a very particular way indeed!--(Harriet could not recall
13745 it without a blush.) He seemed to be almost asking her, whether her
13746 affections were engaged.--But as soon as she (Miss Woodhouse) appeared
13747 likely to join them, he changed the subject, and began talking about
13748 farming:--The second, was his having sat talking with her nearly half
13749 an hour before Emma came back from her visit, the very last morning of
13750 his being at Hartfield--though, when he first came in, he had said that
13751 he could not stay five minutes--and his having told her, during their
13752 conversation, that though he must go to London, it was very much against
13753 his inclination that he left home at all, which was much more (as
13754 Emma felt) than he had acknowledged to _her_. The superior degree of
13755 confidence towards Harriet, which this one article marked, gave her
13756 severe pain.
13757
13758 On the subject of the first of the two circumstances, she did, after a
13759 little reflection, venture the following question. “Might he not?--Is
13760 not it possible, that when enquiring, as you thought, into the state of
13761 your affections, he might be alluding to Mr. Martin--he might have
13762 Mr. Martin’s interest in view? But Harriet rejected the suspicion with
13763 spirit.
13764
13765 “Mr. Martin! No indeed!--There was not a hint of Mr. Martin. I hope I
13766 know better now, than to care for Mr. Martin, or to be suspected of it.”
13767
13768 When Harriet had closed her evidence, she appealed to her dear Miss
13769 Woodhouse, to say whether she had not good ground for hope.
13770
13771 “I never should have presumed to think of it at first,” said she, “but
13772 for you. You told me to observe him carefully, and let his behaviour
13773 be the rule of mine--and so I have. But now I seem to feel that I may
13774 deserve him; and that if he does chuse me, it will not be any thing so
13775 very wonderful.”
13776
13777 The bitter feelings occasioned by this speech, the many bitter feelings,
13778 made the utmost exertion necessary on Emma’s side, to enable her to say
13779 on reply,
13780
13781 “Harriet, I will only venture to declare, that Mr. Knightley is the last
13782 man in the world, who would intentionally give any woman the idea of his
13783 feeling for her more than he really does.”
13784
13785 Harriet seemed ready to worship her friend for a sentence so
13786 satisfactory; and Emma was only saved from raptures and fondness, which
13787 at that moment would have been dreadful penance, by the sound of her
13788 father’s footsteps. He was coming through the hall. Harriet was too
13789 much agitated to encounter him. “She could not compose herself--
13790 Mr. Woodhouse would be alarmed--she had better go;”--with most ready
13791 encouragement from her friend, therefore, she passed off through another
13792 door--and the moment she was gone, this was the spontaneous burst of
13793 Emma’s feelings: “Oh God! that I had never seen her!”
13794
13795 The rest of the day, the following night, were hardly enough for her
13796 thoughts.--She was bewildered amidst the confusion of all that had
13797 rushed on her within the last few hours. Every moment had brought a
13798 fresh surprize; and every surprize must be matter of humiliation to
13799 her.--How to understand it all! How to understand the deceptions she had
13800 been thus practising on herself, and living under!--The blunders, the
13801 blindness of her own head and heart!--she sat still, she walked about,
13802 she tried her own room, she tried the shrubbery--in every place, every
13803 posture, she perceived that she had acted most weakly; that she had
13804 been imposed on by others in a most mortifying degree; that she had
13805 been imposing on herself in a degree yet more mortifying; that she
13806 was wretched, and should probably find this day but the beginning of
13807 wretchedness.
13808
13809 To understand, thoroughly understand her own heart, was the first
13810 endeavour. To that point went every leisure moment which her father’s
13811 claims on her allowed, and every moment of involuntary absence of mind.
13812
13813 How long had Mr. Knightley been so dear to her, as every feeling
13814 declared him now to be? When had his influence, such influence begun?--
13815 When had he succeeded to that place in her affection, which Frank
13816 Churchill had once, for a short period, occupied?--She looked back;
13817 she compared the two--compared them, as they had always stood in her
13818 estimation, from the time of the latter’s becoming known to her--and as
13819 they must at any time have been compared by her, had it--oh! had it, by
13820 any blessed felicity, occurred to her, to institute the comparison.--She
13821 saw that there never had been a time when she did not consider Mr.
13822 Knightley as infinitely the superior, or when his regard for her had not
13823 been infinitely the most dear. She saw, that in persuading herself,
13824 in fancying, in acting to the contrary, she had been entirely under a
13825 delusion, totally ignorant of her own heart--and, in short, that she had
13826 never really cared for Frank Churchill at all!
13827
13828 This was the conclusion of the first series of reflection. This was
13829 the knowledge of herself, on the first question of inquiry, which
13830 she reached; and without being long in reaching it.--She was most
13831 sorrowfully indignant; ashamed of every sensation but the one revealed
13832 to her--her affection for Mr. Knightley.--Every other part of her mind
13833 was disgusting.
13834
13835 With insufferable vanity had she believed herself in the secret of every
13836 body’s feelings; with unpardonable arrogance proposed to arrange every
13837 body’s destiny. She was proved to have been universally mistaken; and
13838 she had not quite done nothing--for she had done mischief. She had
13839 brought evil on Harriet, on herself, and she too much feared, on Mr.
13840 Knightley.--Were this most unequal of all connexions to take place, on
13841 her must rest all the reproach of having given it a beginning; for his
13842 attachment, she must believe to be produced only by a consciousness of
13843 Harriet’s;--and even were this not the case, he would never have known
13844 Harriet at all but for her folly.
13845
13846 Mr. Knightley and Harriet Smith!--It was a union to distance every
13847 wonder of the kind.--The attachment of Frank Churchill and Jane Fairfax
13848 became commonplace, threadbare, stale in the comparison, exciting no
13849 surprize, presenting no disparity, affording nothing to be said or
13850 thought.--Mr. Knightley and Harriet Smith!--Such an elevation on her
13851 side! Such a debasement on his! It was horrible to Emma to think how it
13852 must sink him in the general opinion, to foresee the smiles, the sneers,
13853 the merriment it would prompt at his expense; the mortification and
13854 disdain of his brother, the thousand inconveniences to himself.--Could
13855 it be?--No; it was impossible. And yet it was far, very far, from
13856 impossible.--Was it a new circumstance for a man of first-rate abilities
13857 to be captivated by very inferior powers? Was it new for one, perhaps
13858 too busy to seek, to be the prize of a girl who would seek him?--Was
13859 it new for any thing in this world to be unequal, inconsistent,
13860 incongruous--or for chance and circumstance (as second causes) to direct
13861 the human fate?
13862
13863 Oh! had she never brought Harriet forward! Had she left her where she
13864 ought, and where he had told her she ought!--Had she not, with a
13865 folly which no tongue could express, prevented her marrying the
13866 unexceptionable young man who would have made her happy and respectable
13867 in the line of life to which she ought to belong--all would have been
13868 safe; none of this dreadful sequel would have been.
13869
13870 How Harriet could ever have had the presumption to raise her thoughts to
13871 Mr. Knightley!--How she could dare to fancy herself the chosen of such
13872 a man till actually assured of it!--But Harriet was less humble, had
13873 fewer scruples than formerly.--Her inferiority, whether of mind or
13874 situation, seemed little felt.--She had seemed more sensible of Mr.
13875 Elton’s being to stoop in marrying her, than she now seemed of Mr.
13876 Knightley’s.--Alas! was not that her own doing too? Who had been at
13877 pains to give Harriet notions of self-consequence but herself?--Who but
13878 herself had taught her, that she was to elevate herself if possible,
13879 and that her claims were great to a high worldly establishment?--If
13880 Harriet, from being humble, were grown vain, it was her doing too.
13881
13882
13883
13884 CHAPTER XII
13885
13886
13887 Till now that she was threatened with its loss, Emma had never known
13888 how much of her happiness depended on being _first_ with Mr. Knightley,
13889 first in interest and affection.--Satisfied that it was so, and feeling
13890 it her due, she had enjoyed it without reflection; and only in the
13891 dread of being supplanted, found how inexpressibly important it had
13892 been.--Long, very long, she felt she had been first; for, having no
13893 female connexions of his own, there had been only Isabella whose claims
13894 could be compared with hers, and she had always known exactly how far
13895 he loved and esteemed Isabella. She had herself been first with him for
13896 many years past. She had not deserved it; she had often been negligent
13897 or perverse, slighting his advice, or even wilfully opposing him,
13898 insensible of half his merits, and quarrelling with him because he would
13899 not acknowledge her false and insolent estimate of her own--but still,
13900 from family attachment and habit, and thorough excellence of mind, he
13901 had loved her, and watched over her from a girl, with an endeavour to
13902 improve her, and an anxiety for her doing right, which no other creature
13903 had at all shared. In spite of all her faults, she knew she was dear
13904 to him; might she not say, very dear?--When the suggestions of hope,
13905 however, which must follow here, presented themselves, she could not
13906 presume to indulge them. Harriet Smith might think herself not unworthy
13907 of being peculiarly, exclusively, passionately loved by Mr. Knightley.
13908 _She_ could not. She could not flatter herself with any idea of
13909 blindness in his attachment to _her_. She had received a very recent
13910 proof of its impartiality.--How shocked had he been by her behaviour to
13911 Miss Bates! How directly, how strongly had he expressed himself to her
13912 on the subject!--Not too strongly for the offence--but far, far too
13913 strongly to issue from any feeling softer than upright justice and
13914 clear-sighted goodwill.--She had no hope, nothing to deserve the name
13915 of hope, that he could have that sort of affection for herself which was
13916 now in question; but there was a hope (at times a slight one, at
13917 times much stronger,) that Harriet might have deceived herself, and be
13918 overrating his regard for _her_.--Wish it she must, for his sake--be the
13919 consequence nothing to herself, but his remaining single all his life.
13920 Could she be secure of that, indeed, of his never marrying at all, she
13921 believed she should be perfectly satisfied.--Let him but continue the
13922 same Mr. Knightley to her and her father, the same Mr. Knightley to
13923 all the world; let Donwell and Hartfield lose none of their precious
13924 intercourse of friendship and confidence, and her peace would be
13925 fully secured.--Marriage, in fact, would not do for her. It would be
13926 incompatible with what she owed to her father, and with what she felt
13927 for him. Nothing should separate her from her father. She would not
13928 marry, even if she were asked by Mr. Knightley.
13929
13930 It must be her ardent wish that Harriet might be disappointed; and she
13931 hoped, that when able to see them together again, she might at least
13932 be able to ascertain what the chances for it were.--She should see them
13933 henceforward with the closest observance; and wretchedly as she had
13934 hitherto misunderstood even those she was watching, she did not know how
13935 to admit that she could be blinded here.--He was expected back every
13936 day. The power of observation would be soon given--frightfully soon it
13937 appeared when her thoughts were in one course. In the meanwhile, she
13938 resolved against seeing Harriet.--It would do neither of them good,
13939 it would do the subject no good, to be talking of it farther.--She was
13940 resolved not to be convinced, as long as she could doubt, and yet had
13941 no authority for opposing Harriet’s confidence. To talk would be only to
13942 irritate.--She wrote to her, therefore, kindly, but decisively, to beg
13943 that she would not, at present, come to Hartfield; acknowledging it to
13944 be her conviction, that all farther confidential discussion of _one_
13945 topic had better be avoided; and hoping, that if a few days were allowed
13946 to pass before they met again, except in the company of others--she
13947 objected only to a tete-a-tete--they might be able to act as if they
13948 had forgotten the conversation of yesterday.--Harriet submitted, and
13949 approved, and was grateful.
13950
13951 This point was just arranged, when a visitor arrived to tear Emma’s
13952 thoughts a little from the one subject which had engrossed them,
13953 sleeping or waking, the last twenty-four hours--Mrs. Weston, who had
13954 been calling on her daughter-in-law elect, and took Hartfield in her
13955 way home, almost as much in duty to Emma as in pleasure to herself, to
13956 relate all the particulars of so interesting an interview.
13957
13958 Mr. Weston had accompanied her to Mrs. Bates’s, and gone through his
13959 share of this essential attention most handsomely; but she having then
13960 induced Miss Fairfax to join her in an airing, was now returned with
13961 much more to say, and much more to say with satisfaction, than a quarter
13962 of an hour spent in Mrs. Bates’s parlour, with all the encumbrance of
13963 awkward feelings, could have afforded.
13964
13965 A little curiosity Emma had; and she made the most of it while her
13966 friend related. Mrs. Weston had set off to pay the visit in a good deal
13967 of agitation herself; and in the first place had wished not to go at all
13968 at present, to be allowed merely to write to Miss Fairfax instead, and
13969 to defer this ceremonious call till a little time had passed, and Mr.
13970 Churchill could be reconciled to the engagement’s becoming known; as,
13971 considering every thing, she thought such a visit could not be paid
13972 without leading to reports:--but Mr. Weston had thought differently; he
13973 was extremely anxious to shew his approbation to Miss Fairfax and her
13974 family, and did not conceive that any suspicion could be excited by it;
13975 or if it were, that it would be of any consequence; for “such things,”
13976 he observed, “always got about.” Emma smiled, and felt that Mr. Weston
13977 had very good reason for saying so. They had gone, in short--and very
13978 great had been the evident distress and confusion of the lady. She had
13979 hardly been able to speak a word, and every look and action had shewn
13980 how deeply she was suffering from consciousness. The quiet, heart-felt
13981 satisfaction of the old lady, and the rapturous delight of her
13982 daughter--who proved even too joyous to talk as usual, had been a
13983 gratifying, yet almost an affecting, scene. They were both so truly
13984 respectable in their happiness, so disinterested in every sensation;
13985 thought so much of Jane; so much of every body, and so little of
13986 themselves, that every kindly feeling was at work for them. Miss
13987 Fairfax’s recent illness had offered a fair plea for Mrs. Weston to
13988 invite her to an airing; she had drawn back and declined at first, but,
13989 on being pressed had yielded; and, in the course of their drive,
13990 Mrs. Weston had, by gentle encouragement, overcome so much of her
13991 embarrassment, as to bring her to converse on the important subject.
13992 Apologies for her seemingly ungracious silence in their first reception,
13993 and the warmest expressions of the gratitude she was always feeling
13994 towards herself and Mr. Weston, must necessarily open the cause; but
13995 when these effusions were put by, they had talked a good deal of the
13996 present and of the future state of the engagement. Mrs. Weston was
13997 convinced that such conversation must be the greatest relief to her
13998 companion, pent up within her own mind as every thing had so long been,
13999 and was very much pleased with all that she had said on the subject.
14000
14001 “On the misery of what she had suffered, during the concealment of so
14002 many months,” continued Mrs. Weston, “she was energetic. This was one
14003 of her expressions. ‘I will not say, that since I entered into the
14004 engagement I have not had some happy moments; but I can say, that I have
14005 never known the blessing of one tranquil hour:’--and the quivering lip,
14006 Emma, which uttered it, was an attestation that I felt at my heart.”
14007
14008 “Poor girl!” said Emma. “She thinks herself wrong, then, for having
14009 consented to a private engagement?”
14010
14011 “Wrong! No one, I believe, can blame her more than she is disposed
14012 to blame herself. ‘The consequence,’ said she, ‘has been a state of
14013 perpetual suffering to me; and so it ought. But after all the punishment
14014 that misconduct can bring, it is still not less misconduct. Pain is no
14015 expiation. I never can be blameless. I have been acting contrary to all
14016 my sense of right; and the fortunate turn that every thing has taken,
14017 and the kindness I am now receiving, is what my conscience tells me
14018 ought not to be.’ ‘Do not imagine, madam,’ she continued, ‘that I was
14019 taught wrong. Do not let any reflection fall on the principles or the
14020 care of the friends who brought me up. The error has been all my own;
14021 and I do assure you that, with all the excuse that present circumstances
14022 may appear to give, I shall yet dread making the story known to Colonel
14023 Campbell.’”
14024
14025 “Poor girl!” said Emma again. “She loves him then excessively, I
14026 suppose. It must have been from attachment only, that she could be
14027 led to form the engagement. Her affection must have overpowered her
14028 judgment.”
14029
14030 “Yes, I have no doubt of her being extremely attached to him.”
14031
14032 “I am afraid,” returned Emma, sighing, “that I must often have
14033 contributed to make her unhappy.”
14034
14035 “On your side, my love, it was very innocently done. But she
14036 probably had something of that in her thoughts, when alluding to the
14037 misunderstandings which he had given us hints of before. One natural
14038 consequence of the evil she had involved herself in,” she said, “was
14039 that of making her _unreasonable_. The consciousness of having done
14040 amiss, had exposed her to a thousand inquietudes, and made her captious
14041 and irritable to a degree that must have been--that had been--hard for
14042 him to bear. ‘I did not make the allowances,’ said she, ‘which I ought
14043 to have done, for his temper and spirits--his delightful spirits, and
14044 that gaiety, that playfulness of disposition, which, under any other
14045 circumstances, would, I am sure, have been as constantly bewitching to
14046 me, as they were at first.’ She then began to speak of you, and of the
14047 great kindness you had shewn her during her illness; and with a blush
14048 which shewed me how it was all connected, desired me, whenever I had
14049 an opportunity, to thank you--I could not thank you too much--for every
14050 wish and every endeavour to do her good. She was sensible that you had
14051 never received any proper acknowledgment from herself.”
14052
14053 “If I did not know her to be happy now,” said Emma, seriously, “which,
14054 in spite of every little drawback from her scrupulous conscience, she
14055 must be, I could not bear these thanks;--for, oh! Mrs. Weston, if there
14056 were an account drawn up of the evil and the good I have done Miss
14057 Fairfax!--Well (checking herself, and trying to be more lively), this
14058 is all to be forgotten. You are very kind to bring me these interesting
14059 particulars. They shew her to the greatest advantage. I am sure she is
14060 very good--I hope she will be very happy. It is fit that the fortune
14061 should be on his side, for I think the merit will be all on hers.”
14062
14063 Such a conclusion could not pass unanswered by Mrs. Weston. She thought
14064 well of Frank in almost every respect; and, what was more, she loved him
14065 very much, and her defence was, therefore, earnest. She talked with a
14066 great deal of reason, and at least equal affection--but she had too much
14067 to urge for Emma’s attention; it was soon gone to Brunswick Square or
14068 to Donwell; she forgot to attempt to listen; and when Mrs. Weston ended
14069 with, “We have not yet had the letter we are so anxious for, you know,
14070 but I hope it will soon come,” she was obliged to pause before she
14071 answered, and at last obliged to answer at random, before she could at
14072 all recollect what letter it was which they were so anxious for.
14073
14074 “Are you well, my Emma?” was Mrs. Weston’s parting question.
14075
14076 “Oh! perfectly. I am always well, you know. Be sure to give me
14077 intelligence of the letter as soon as possible.”
14078
14079 Mrs. Weston’s communications furnished Emma with more food for
14080 unpleasant reflection, by increasing her esteem and compassion, and her
14081 sense of past injustice towards Miss Fairfax. She bitterly regretted
14082 not having sought a closer acquaintance with her, and blushed for the
14083 envious feelings which had certainly been, in some measure, the cause.
14084 Had she followed Mr. Knightley’s known wishes, in paying that attention
14085 to Miss Fairfax, which was every way her due; had she tried to know her
14086 better; had she done her part towards intimacy; had she endeavoured
14087 to find a friend there instead of in Harriet Smith; she must, in all
14088 probability, have been spared from every pain which pressed on her
14089 now.--Birth, abilities, and education, had been equally marking one as
14090 an associate for her, to be received with gratitude; and the other--what
14091 was she?--Supposing even that they had never become intimate friends;
14092 that she had never been admitted into Miss Fairfax’s confidence on this
14093 important matter--which was most probable--still, in knowing her as
14094 she ought, and as she might, she must have been preserved from the
14095 abominable suspicions of an improper attachment to Mr. Dixon, which she
14096 had not only so foolishly fashioned and harboured herself, but had so
14097 unpardonably imparted; an idea which she greatly feared had been made a
14098 subject of material distress to the delicacy of Jane’s feelings, by the
14099 levity or carelessness of Frank Churchill’s. Of all the sources of evil
14100 surrounding the former, since her coming to Highbury, she was persuaded
14101 that she must herself have been the worst. She must have been a
14102 perpetual enemy. They never could have been all three together, without
14103 her having stabbed Jane Fairfax’s peace in a thousand instances; and on
14104 Box Hill, perhaps, it had been the agony of a mind that would bear no
14105 more.
14106
14107 The evening of this day was very long, and melancholy, at Hartfield.
14108 The weather added what it could of gloom. A cold stormy rain set in, and
14109 nothing of July appeared but in the trees and shrubs, which the wind was
14110 despoiling, and the length of the day, which only made such cruel sights
14111 the longer visible.
14112
14113 The weather affected Mr. Woodhouse, and he could only be kept tolerably
14114 comfortable by almost ceaseless attention on his daughter’s side, and by
14115 exertions which had never cost her half so much before. It reminded
14116 her of their first forlorn tete-a-tete, on the evening of Mrs. Weston’s
14117 wedding-day; but Mr. Knightley had walked in then, soon after tea,
14118 and dissipated every melancholy fancy. Alas! such delightful proofs of
14119 Hartfield’s attraction, as those sort of visits conveyed, might shortly
14120 be over. The picture which she had then drawn of the privations of the
14121 approaching winter, had proved erroneous; no friends had deserted them,
14122 no pleasures had been lost.--But her present forebodings she feared
14123 would experience no similar contradiction. The prospect before her now,
14124 was threatening to a degree that could not be entirely dispelled--that
14125 might not be even partially brightened. If all took place that
14126 might take place among the circle of her friends, Hartfield must be
14127 comparatively deserted; and she left to cheer her father with the
14128 spirits only of ruined happiness.
14129
14130 The child to be born at Randalls must be a tie there even dearer than
14131 herself; and Mrs. Weston’s heart and time would be occupied by it.
14132 They should lose her; and, probably, in great measure, her husband
14133 also.--Frank Churchill would return among them no more; and Miss
14134 Fairfax, it was reasonable to suppose, would soon cease to belong to
14135 Highbury. They would be married, and settled either at or near Enscombe.
14136 All that were good would be withdrawn; and if to these losses, the
14137 loss of Donwell were to be added, what would remain of cheerful or
14138 of rational society within their reach? Mr. Knightley to be no longer
14139 coming there for his evening comfort!--No longer walking in at all
14140 hours, as if ever willing to change his own home for their’s!--How was
14141 it to be endured? And if he were to be lost to them for Harriet’s sake;
14142 if he were to be thought of hereafter, as finding in Harriet’s society
14143 all that he wanted; if Harriet were to be the chosen, the first,
14144 the dearest, the friend, the wife to whom he looked for all the best
14145 blessings of existence; what could be increasing Emma’s wretchedness but
14146 the reflection never far distant from her mind, that it had been all her
14147 own work?
14148
14149 When it came to such a pitch as this, she was not able to refrain from
14150 a start, or a heavy sigh, or even from walking about the room for a
14151 few seconds--and the only source whence any thing like consolation
14152 or composure could be drawn, was in the resolution of her own better
14153 conduct, and the hope that, however inferior in spirit and gaiety might
14154 be the following and every future winter of her life to the past, it
14155 would yet find her more rational, more acquainted with herself, and
14156 leave her less to regret when it were gone.
14157
14158
14159
14160 CHAPTER XIII
14161
14162
14163 The weather continued much the same all the following morning; and
14164 the same loneliness, and the same melancholy, seemed to reign at
14165 Hartfield--but in the afternoon it cleared; the wind changed into a
14166 softer quarter; the clouds were carried off; the sun appeared; it was
14167 summer again. With all the eagerness which such a transition gives, Emma
14168 resolved to be out of doors as soon as possible. Never had the exquisite
14169 sight, smell, sensation of nature, tranquil, warm, and brilliant after
14170 a storm, been more attractive to her. She longed for the serenity they
14171 might gradually introduce; and on Mr. Perry’s coming in soon after
14172 dinner, with a disengaged hour to give her father, she lost no time
14173 in hurrying into the shrubbery.--There, with spirits freshened, and
14174 thoughts a little relieved, she had taken a few turns, when she saw Mr.
14175 Knightley passing through the garden door, and coming towards her.--It
14176 was the first intimation of his being returned from London. She had
14177 been thinking of him the moment before, as unquestionably sixteen miles
14178 distant.--There was time only for the quickest arrangement of mind. She
14179 must be collected and calm. In half a minute they were together. The
14180 “How d’ye do’s” were quiet and constrained on each side. She asked after
14181 their mutual friends; they were all well.--When had he left them?--Only
14182 that morning. He must have had a wet ride.--Yes.--He meant to walk with
14183 her, she found. “He had just looked into the dining-room, and as he was
14184 not wanted there, preferred being out of doors.”--She thought he neither
14185 looked nor spoke cheerfully; and the first possible cause for it,
14186 suggested by her fears, was, that he had perhaps been communicating his
14187 plans to his brother, and was pained by the manner in which they had
14188 been received.
14189
14190 They walked together. He was silent. She thought he was often looking
14191 at her, and trying for a fuller view of her face than it suited her to
14192 give. And this belief produced another dread. Perhaps he wanted to
14193 speak to her, of his attachment to Harriet; he might be watching for
14194 encouragement to begin.--She did not, could not, feel equal to lead the
14195 way to any such subject. He must do it all himself. Yet she could
14196 not bear this silence. With him it was most unnatural. She
14197 considered--resolved--and, trying to smile, began--
14198
14199 “You have some news to hear, now you are come back, that will rather
14200 surprize you.”
14201
14202 “Have I?” said he quietly, and looking at her; “of what nature?”
14203
14204 “Oh! the best nature in the world--a wedding.”
14205
14206 After waiting a moment, as if to be sure she intended to say no more, he
14207 replied,
14208
14209 “If you mean Miss Fairfax and Frank Churchill, I have heard that
14210 already.”
14211
14212 “How is it possible?” cried Emma, turning her glowing cheeks towards
14213 him; for, while she spoke, it occurred to her that he might have called
14214 at Mrs. Goddard’s in his way.
14215
14216 “I had a few lines on parish business from Mr. Weston this morning, and
14217 at the end of them he gave me a brief account of what had happened.”
14218
14219 Emma was quite relieved, and could presently say, with a little more
14220 composure,
14221
14222 “_You_ probably have been less surprized than any of us, for you have
14223 had your suspicions.--I have not forgotten that you once tried to give
14224 me a caution.--I wish I had attended to it--but--(with a sinking voice
14225 and a heavy sigh) I seem to have been doomed to blindness.”
14226
14227 For a moment or two nothing was said, and she was unsuspicious of having
14228 excited any particular interest, till she found her arm drawn within
14229 his, and pressed against his heart, and heard him thus saying, in a tone
14230 of great sensibility, speaking low,
14231
14232 “Time, my dearest Emma, time will heal the wound.--Your own excellent
14233 sense--your exertions for your father’s sake--I know you will not allow
14234 yourself--.” Her arm was pressed again, as he added, in a more
14235 broken and subdued accent, “The feelings of the warmest
14236 friendship--Indignation--Abominable scoundrel!”--And in a louder,
14237 steadier tone, he concluded with, “He will soon be gone. They will soon
14238 be in Yorkshire. I am sorry for _her_. She deserves a better fate.”
14239
14240 Emma understood him; and as soon as she could recover from the flutter
14241 of pleasure, excited by such tender consideration, replied,
14242
14243 “You are very kind--but you are mistaken--and I must set you right.--
14244 I am not in want of that sort of compassion. My blindness to what was
14245 going on, led me to act by them in a way that I must always be ashamed
14246 of, and I was very foolishly tempted to say and do many things which may
14247 well lay me open to unpleasant conjectures, but I have no other reason
14248 to regret that I was not in the secret earlier.”
14249
14250 “Emma!” cried he, looking eagerly at her, “are you, indeed?”--but
14251 checking himself--“No, no, I understand you--forgive me--I am pleased
14252 that you can say even so much.--He is no object of regret, indeed! and
14253 it will not be very long, I hope, before that becomes the acknowledgment
14254 of more than your reason.--Fortunate that your affections were not
14255 farther entangled!--I could never, I confess, from your manners, assure
14256 myself as to the degree of what you felt--I could only be certain that
14257 there was a preference--and a preference which I never believed him to
14258 deserve.--He is a disgrace to the name of man.--And is he to be rewarded
14259 with that sweet young woman?--Jane, Jane, you will be a miserable
14260 creature.”
14261
14262 “Mr. Knightley,” said Emma, trying to be lively, but really confused--“I
14263 am in a very extraordinary situation. I cannot let you continue in your
14264 error; and yet, perhaps, since my manners gave such an impression, I
14265 have as much reason to be ashamed of confessing that I never have been
14266 at all attached to the person we are speaking of, as it might be natural
14267 for a woman to feel in confessing exactly the reverse.--But I never
14268 have.”
14269
14270 He listened in perfect silence. She wished him to speak, but he would
14271 not. She supposed she must say more before she were entitled to his
14272 clemency; but it was a hard case to be obliged still to lower herself in
14273 his opinion. She went on, however.
14274
14275 “I have very little to say for my own conduct.--I was tempted by his
14276 attentions, and allowed myself to appear pleased.--An old story,
14277 probably--a common case--and no more than has happened to hundreds of my
14278 sex before; and yet it may not be the more excusable in one who sets up
14279 as I do for Understanding. Many circumstances assisted the temptation.
14280 He was the son of Mr. Weston--he was continually here--I always found
14281 him very pleasant--and, in short, for (with a sigh) let me swell out the
14282 causes ever so ingeniously, they all centre in this at last--my vanity
14283 was flattered, and I allowed his attentions. Latterly, however--for some
14284 time, indeed--I have had no idea of their meaning any thing.--I thought
14285 them a habit, a trick, nothing that called for seriousness on my side.
14286 He has imposed on me, but he has not injured me. I have never been
14287 attached to him. And now I can tolerably comprehend his behaviour. He
14288 never wished to attach me. It was merely a blind to conceal his real
14289 situation with another.--It was his object to blind all about him; and
14290 no one, I am sure, could be more effectually blinded than myself--except
14291 that I was _not_ blinded--that it was my good fortune--that, in short, I
14292 was somehow or other safe from him.”
14293
14294 She had hoped for an answer here--for a few words to say that her
14295 conduct was at least intelligible; but he was silent; and, as far as she
14296 could judge, deep in thought. At last, and tolerably in his usual tone,
14297 he said,
14298
14299 “I have never had a high opinion of Frank Churchill.--I can suppose,
14300 however, that I may have underrated him. My acquaintance with him has
14301 been but trifling.--And even if I have not underrated him hitherto, he
14302 may yet turn out well.--With such a woman he has a chance.--I have no
14303 motive for wishing him ill--and for her sake, whose happiness will be
14304 involved in his good character and conduct, I shall certainly wish him
14305 well.”
14306
14307 “I have no doubt of their being happy together,” said Emma; “I believe
14308 them to be very mutually and very sincerely attached.”
14309
14310 “He is a most fortunate man!” returned Mr. Knightley, with energy. “So
14311 early in life--at three-and-twenty--a period when, if a man chuses a
14312 wife, he generally chuses ill. At three-and-twenty to have drawn such
14313 a prize! What years of felicity that man, in all human calculation,
14314 has before him!--Assured of the love of such a woman--the disinterested
14315 love, for Jane Fairfax’s character vouches for her disinterestedness;
14316 every thing in his favour,--equality of situation--I mean, as far as
14317 regards society, and all the habits and manners that are important;
14318 equality in every point but one--and that one, since the purity of her
14319 heart is not to be doubted, such as must increase his felicity, for it
14320 will be his to bestow the only advantages she wants.--A man would always
14321 wish to give a woman a better home than the one he takes her from;
14322 and he who can do it, where there is no doubt of _her_ regard, must,
14323 I think, be the happiest of mortals.--Frank Churchill is, indeed, the
14324 favourite of fortune. Every thing turns out for his good.--He meets
14325 with a young woman at a watering-place, gains her affection, cannot even
14326 weary her by negligent treatment--and had he and all his family sought
14327 round the world for a perfect wife for him, they could not have found
14328 her superior.--His aunt is in the way.--His aunt dies.--He has only to
14329 speak.--His friends are eager to promote his happiness.--He had used
14330 every body ill--and they are all delighted to forgive him.--He is a
14331 fortunate man indeed!”
14332
14333 “You speak as if you envied him.”
14334
14335 “And I do envy him, Emma. In one respect he is the object of my envy.”
14336
14337 Emma could say no more. They seemed to be within half a sentence
14338 of Harriet, and her immediate feeling was to avert the subject, if
14339 possible. She made her plan; she would speak of something totally
14340 different--the children in Brunswick Square; and she only waited for
14341 breath to begin, when Mr. Knightley startled her, by saying,
14342
14343 “You will not ask me what is the point of envy.--You are determined, I
14344 see, to have no curiosity.--You are wise--but _I_ cannot be wise. Emma,
14345 I must tell you what you will not ask, though I may wish it unsaid the
14346 next moment.”
14347
14348 “Oh! then, don’t speak it, don’t speak it,” she eagerly cried. “Take a
14349 little time, consider, do not commit yourself.”
14350
14351 “Thank you,” said he, in an accent of deep mortification, and not
14352 another syllable followed.
14353
14354 Emma could not bear to give him pain. He was wishing to confide in
14355 her--perhaps to consult her;--cost her what it would, she would listen.
14356 She might assist his resolution, or reconcile him to it; she might give
14357 just praise to Harriet, or, by representing to him his own independence,
14358 relieve him from that state of indecision, which must be more
14359 intolerable than any alternative to such a mind as his.--They had
14360 reached the house.
14361
14362 “You are going in, I suppose?” said he.
14363
14364 “No,”--replied Emma--quite confirmed by the depressed manner in which
14365 he still spoke--“I should like to take another turn. Mr. Perry is not
14366 gone.” And, after proceeding a few steps, she added--“I stopped you
14367 ungraciously, just now, Mr. Knightley, and, I am afraid, gave you
14368 pain.--But if you have any wish to speak openly to me as a friend, or
14369 to ask my opinion of any thing that you may have in contemplation--as
14370 a friend, indeed, you may command me.--I will hear whatever you like. I
14371 will tell you exactly what I think.”
14372
14373 “As a friend!”--repeated Mr. Knightley.--“Emma, that I fear is a
14374 word--No, I have no wish--Stay, yes, why should I hesitate?--I
14375 have gone too far already for concealment.--Emma, I accept your
14376 offer--Extraordinary as it may seem, I accept it, and refer myself to
14377 you as a friend.--Tell me, then, have I no chance of ever succeeding?”
14378
14379 He stopped in his earnestness to look the question, and the expression
14380 of his eyes overpowered her.
14381
14382 “My dearest Emma,” said he, “for dearest you will always be, whatever
14383 the event of this hour’s conversation, my dearest, most beloved
14384 Emma--tell me at once. Say ‘No,’ if it is to be said.”--She could
14385 really say nothing.--“You are silent,” he cried, with great animation;
14386 “absolutely silent! at present I ask no more.”
14387
14388 Emma was almost ready to sink under the agitation of this moment. The
14389 dread of being awakened from the happiest dream, was perhaps the most
14390 prominent feeling.
14391
14392 “I cannot make speeches, Emma:” he soon resumed; and in a tone of
14393 such sincere, decided, intelligible tenderness as was tolerably
14394 convincing.--“If I loved you less, I might be able to talk about it
14395 more. But you know what I am.--You hear nothing but truth from me.--I
14396 have blamed you, and lectured you, and you have borne it as no other
14397 woman in England would have borne it.--Bear with the truths I would
14398 tell you now, dearest Emma, as well as you have borne with them. The
14399 manner, perhaps, may have as little to recommend them. God knows, I have
14400 been a very indifferent lover.--But you understand me.--Yes, you see,
14401 you understand my feelings--and will return them if you can. At present,
14402 I ask only to hear, once to hear your voice.”
14403
14404 While he spoke, Emma’s mind was most busy, and, with all the wonderful
14405 velocity of thought, had been able--and yet without losing a word--to
14406 catch and comprehend the exact truth of the whole; to see that Harriet’s
14407 hopes had been entirely groundless, a mistake, a delusion, as complete a
14408 delusion as any of her own--that Harriet was nothing; that she was every
14409 thing herself; that what she had been saying relative to Harriet
14410 had been all taken as the language of her own feelings; and that her
14411 agitation, her doubts, her reluctance, her discouragement, had been all
14412 received as discouragement from herself.--And not only was there time
14413 for these convictions, with all their glow of attendant happiness; there
14414 was time also to rejoice that Harriet’s secret had not escaped her, and
14415 to resolve that it need not, and should not.--It was all the service
14416 she could now render her poor friend; for as to any of that heroism of
14417 sentiment which might have prompted her to entreat him to transfer his
14418 affection from herself to Harriet, as infinitely the most worthy of the
14419 two--or even the more simple sublimity of resolving to refuse him at
14420 once and for ever, without vouchsafing any motive, because he could not
14421 marry them both, Emma had it not. She felt for Harriet, with pain and
14422 with contrition; but no flight of generosity run mad, opposing all that
14423 could be probable or reasonable, entered her brain. She had led her
14424 friend astray, and it would be a reproach to her for ever; but her
14425 judgment was as strong as her feelings, and as strong as it had ever
14426 been before, in reprobating any such alliance for him, as most unequal
14427 and degrading. Her way was clear, though not quite smooth.--She spoke
14428 then, on being so entreated.--What did she say?--Just what she ought,
14429 of course. A lady always does.--She said enough to shew there need not
14430 be despair--and to invite him to say more himself. He _had_ despaired at
14431 one period; he had received such an injunction to caution and silence,
14432 as for the time crushed every hope;--she had begun by refusing to hear
14433 him.--The change had perhaps been somewhat sudden;--her proposal of
14434 taking another turn, her renewing the conversation which she had
14435 just put an end to, might be a little extraordinary!--She felt its
14436 inconsistency; but Mr. Knightley was so obliging as to put up with it,
14437 and seek no farther explanation.
14438
14439 Seldom, very seldom, does complete truth belong to any human disclosure;
14440 seldom can it happen that something is not a little disguised, or a
14441 little mistaken; but where, as in this case, though the conduct is
14442 mistaken, the feelings are not, it may not be very material.--Mr.
14443 Knightley could not impute to Emma a more relenting heart than she
14444 possessed, or a heart more disposed to accept of his.
14445
14446 He had, in fact, been wholly unsuspicious of his own influence. He had
14447 followed her into the shrubbery with no idea of trying it. He had come,
14448 in his anxiety to see how she bore Frank Churchill’s engagement, with no
14449 selfish view, no view at all, but of endeavouring, if she allowed him an
14450 opening, to soothe or to counsel her.--The rest had been the work of
14451 the moment, the immediate effect of what he heard, on his feelings. The
14452 delightful assurance of her total indifference towards Frank Churchill,
14453 of her having a heart completely disengaged from him, had given birth
14454 to the hope, that, in time, he might gain her affection himself;--but
14455 it had been no present hope--he had only, in the momentary conquest of
14456 eagerness over judgment, aspired to be told that she did not forbid his
14457 attempt to attach her.--The superior hopes which gradually opened were
14458 so much the more enchanting.--The affection, which he had been asking
14459 to be allowed to create, if he could, was already his!--Within half
14460 an hour, he had passed from a thoroughly distressed state of mind, to
14461 something so like perfect happiness, that it could bear no other name.
14462
14463 _Her_ change was equal.--This one half-hour had given to each the same
14464 precious certainty of being beloved, had cleared from each the same
14465 degree of ignorance, jealousy, or distrust.--On his side, there had been
14466 a long-standing jealousy, old as the arrival, or even the expectation,
14467 of Frank Churchill.--He had been in love with Emma, and jealous of Frank
14468 Churchill, from about the same period, one sentiment having probably
14469 enlightened him as to the other. It was his jealousy of Frank Churchill
14470 that had taken him from the country.--The Box Hill party had decided
14471 him on going away. He would save himself from witnessing again
14472 such permitted, encouraged attentions.--He had gone to learn to be
14473 indifferent.--But he had gone to a wrong place. There was too much
14474 domestic happiness in his brother’s house; woman wore too amiable a form
14475 in it; Isabella was too much like Emma--differing only in those striking
14476 inferiorities, which always brought the other in brilliancy before
14477 him, for much to have been done, even had his time been longer.--He had
14478 stayed on, however, vigorously, day after day--till this very morning’s
14479 post had conveyed the history of Jane Fairfax.--Then, with the gladness
14480 which must be felt, nay, which he did not scruple to feel, having never
14481 believed Frank Churchill to be at all deserving Emma, was there so much
14482 fond solicitude, so much keen anxiety for her, that he could stay no
14483 longer. He had ridden home through the rain; and had walked up directly
14484 after dinner, to see how this sweetest and best of all creatures,
14485 faultless in spite of all her faults, bore the discovery.
14486
14487 He had found her agitated and low.--Frank Churchill was a villain.--
14488 He heard her declare that she had never loved him. Frank Churchill’s
14489 character was not desperate.--She was his own Emma, by hand and word,
14490 when they returned into the house; and if he could have thought of Frank
14491 Churchill then, he might have deemed him a very good sort of fellow.
14492
14493
14494
14495 CHAPTER XIV
14496
14497
14498 What totally different feelings did Emma take back into the house from
14499 what she had brought out!--she had then been only daring to hope for
14500 a little respite of suffering;--she was now in an exquisite flutter of
14501 happiness, and such happiness moreover as she believed must still be
14502 greater when the flutter should have passed away.
14503
14504 They sat down to tea--the same party round the same table--how often
14505 it had been collected!--and how often had her eyes fallen on the same
14506 shrubs in the lawn, and observed the same beautiful effect of the
14507 western sun!--But never in such a state of spirits, never in any thing
14508 like it; and it was with difficulty that she could summon enough of her
14509 usual self to be the attentive lady of the house, or even the attentive
14510 daughter.
14511
14512 Poor Mr. Woodhouse little suspected what was plotting against him in the
14513 breast of that man whom he was so cordially welcoming, and so anxiously
14514 hoping might not have taken cold from his ride.--Could he have seen the
14515 heart, he would have cared very little for the lungs; but without the
14516 most distant imagination of the impending evil, without the slightest
14517 perception of any thing extraordinary in the looks or ways of either,
14518 he repeated to them very comfortably all the articles of news he had
14519 received from Mr. Perry, and talked on with much self-contentment,
14520 totally unsuspicious of what they could have told him in return.
14521
14522 As long as Mr. Knightley remained with them, Emma’s fever continued;
14523 but when he was gone, she began to be a little tranquillised and
14524 subdued--and in the course of the sleepless night, which was the tax
14525 for such an evening, she found one or two such very serious points
14526 to consider, as made her feel, that even her happiness must have some
14527 alloy. Her father--and Harriet. She could not be alone without feeling
14528 the full weight of their separate claims; and how to guard the comfort
14529 of both to the utmost, was the question. With respect to her father,
14530 it was a question soon answered. She hardly knew yet what Mr. Knightley
14531 would ask; but a very short parley with her own heart produced the most
14532 solemn resolution of never quitting her father.--She even wept over
14533 the idea of it, as a sin of thought. While he lived, it must be only an
14534 engagement; but she flattered herself, that if divested of the danger of
14535 drawing her away, it might become an increase of comfort to him.--How
14536 to do her best by Harriet, was of more difficult decision;--how to spare
14537 her from any unnecessary pain; how to make her any possible atonement;
14538 how to appear least her enemy?--On these subjects, her perplexity
14539 and distress were very great--and her mind had to pass again and
14540 again through every bitter reproach and sorrowful regret that had ever
14541 surrounded it.--She could only resolve at last, that she would still
14542 avoid a meeting with her, and communicate all that need be told by
14543 letter; that it would be inexpressibly desirable to have her removed
14544 just now for a time from Highbury, and--indulging in one scheme
14545 more--nearly resolve, that it might be practicable to get an invitation
14546 for her to Brunswick Square.--Isabella had been pleased with Harriet;
14547 and a few weeks spent in London must give her some amusement.--She did
14548 not think it in Harriet’s nature to escape being benefited by novelty
14549 and variety, by the streets, the shops, and the children.--At any rate,
14550 it would be a proof of attention and kindness in herself, from whom
14551 every thing was due; a separation for the present; an averting of the
14552 evil day, when they must all be together again.
14553
14554 She rose early, and wrote her letter to Harriet; an employment which
14555 left her so very serious, so nearly sad, that Mr. Knightley, in walking
14556 up to Hartfield to breakfast, did not arrive at all too soon; and half
14557 an hour stolen afterwards to go over the same ground again with him,
14558 literally and figuratively, was quite necessary to reinstate her in a
14559 proper share of the happiness of the evening before.
14560
14561 He had not left her long, by no means long enough for her to have the
14562 slightest inclination for thinking of any body else, when a letter was
14563 brought her from Randalls--a very thick letter;--she guessed what it
14564 must contain, and deprecated the necessity of reading it.--She was now
14565 in perfect charity with Frank Churchill; she wanted no explanations, she
14566 wanted only to have her thoughts to herself--and as for understanding
14567 any thing he wrote, she was sure she was incapable of it.--It must be
14568 waded through, however. She opened the packet; it was too surely so;--a
14569 note from Mrs. Weston to herself, ushered in the letter from Frank to
14570 Mrs. Weston.
14571
14572 “I have the greatest pleasure, my dear Emma, in forwarding to you the
14573 enclosed. I know what thorough justice you will do it, and have scarcely
14574 a doubt of its happy effect.--I think we shall never materially disagree
14575 about the writer again; but I will not delay you by a long preface.--We
14576 are quite well.--This letter has been the cure of all the little
14577 nervousness I have been feeling lately.--I did not quite like your looks
14578 on Tuesday, but it was an ungenial morning; and though you will never
14579 own being affected by weather, I think every body feels a north-east
14580 wind.--I felt for your dear father very much in the storm of Tuesday
14581 afternoon and yesterday morning, but had the comfort of hearing last
14582 night, by Mr. Perry, that it had not made him ill.
14583
14584 “Yours ever,
14585 “A. W.”
14586
14587 [To Mrs. Weston.]
14588
14589
14590 WINDSOR-JULY.
14591 MY DEAR MADAM,
14592
14593 “If I made myself intelligible yesterday, this letter will be
14594 expected; but expected or not, I know it will be read with candour and
14595 indulgence.--You are all goodness, and I believe there will be need of
14596 even all your goodness to allow for some parts of my past conduct.--But
14597 I have been forgiven by one who had still more to resent. My courage
14598 rises while I write. It is very difficult for the prosperous to be
14599 humble. I have already met with such success in two applications for
14600 pardon, that I may be in danger of thinking myself too sure of yours,
14601 and of those among your friends who have had any ground of offence.--You
14602 must all endeavour to comprehend the exact nature of my situation when I
14603 first arrived at Randalls; you must consider me as having a secret which
14604 was to be kept at all hazards. This was the fact. My right to place
14605 myself in a situation requiring such concealment, is another question.
14606 I shall not discuss it here. For my temptation to _think_ it a right,
14607 I refer every caviller to a brick house, sashed windows below, and
14608 casements above, in Highbury. I dared not address her openly; my
14609 difficulties in the then state of Enscombe must be too well known to
14610 require definition; and I was fortunate enough to prevail, before we
14611 parted at Weymouth, and to induce the most upright female mind in the
14612 creation to stoop in charity to a secret engagement.--Had she refused, I
14613 should have gone mad.--But you will be ready to say, what was your
14614 hope in doing this?--What did you look forward to?--To any thing, every
14615 thing--to time, chance, circumstance, slow effects, sudden bursts,
14616 perseverance and weariness, health and sickness. Every possibility of
14617 good was before me, and the first of blessings secured, in obtaining her
14618 promises of faith and correspondence. If you need farther explanation,
14619 I have the honour, my dear madam, of being your husband’s son, and
14620 the advantage of inheriting a disposition to hope for good, which no
14621 inheritance of houses or lands can ever equal the value of.--See
14622 me, then, under these circumstances, arriving on my first visit to
14623 Randalls;--and here I am conscious of wrong, for that visit might have
14624 been sooner paid. You will look back and see that I did not come till
14625 Miss Fairfax was in Highbury; and as _you_ were the person slighted, you
14626 will forgive me instantly; but I must work on my father’s compassion, by
14627 reminding him, that so long as I absented myself from his house, so long
14628 I lost the blessing of knowing you. My behaviour, during the very
14629 happy fortnight which I spent with you, did not, I hope, lay me open to
14630 reprehension, excepting on one point. And now I come to the principal,
14631 the only important part of my conduct while belonging to you, which
14632 excites my own anxiety, or requires very solicitous explanation. With
14633 the greatest respect, and the warmest friendship, do I mention Miss
14634 Woodhouse; my father perhaps will think I ought to add, with the deepest
14635 humiliation.--A few words which dropped from him yesterday spoke his
14636 opinion, and some censure I acknowledge myself liable to.--My behaviour
14637 to Miss Woodhouse indicated, I believe, more than it ought.--In order to
14638 assist a concealment so essential to me, I was led on to make more than
14639 an allowable use of the sort of intimacy into which we were immediately
14640 thrown.--I cannot deny that Miss Woodhouse was my ostensible object--but
14641 I am sure you will believe the declaration, that had I not been
14642 convinced of her indifference, I would not have been induced by any
14643 selfish views to go on.--Amiable and delightful as Miss Woodhouse is,
14644 she never gave me the idea of a young woman likely to be attached; and
14645 that she was perfectly free from any tendency to being attached to me,
14646 was as much my conviction as my wish.--She received my attentions with
14647 an easy, friendly, goodhumoured playfulness, which exactly suited me.
14648 We seemed to understand each other. From our relative situation, those
14649 attentions were her due, and were felt to be so.--Whether Miss Woodhouse
14650 began really to understand me before the expiration of that fortnight,
14651 I cannot say;--when I called to take leave of her, I remember that I was
14652 within a moment of confessing the truth, and I then fancied she was not
14653 without suspicion; but I have no doubt of her having since detected me,
14654 at least in some degree.--She may not have surmised the whole, but her
14655 quickness must have penetrated a part. I cannot doubt it. You will find,
14656 whenever the subject becomes freed from its present restraints, that it
14657 did not take her wholly by surprize. She frequently gave me hints of it.
14658 I remember her telling me at the ball, that I owed Mrs. Elton gratitude
14659 for her attentions to Miss Fairfax.--I hope this history of my conduct
14660 towards her will be admitted by you and my father as great extenuation
14661 of what you saw amiss. While you considered me as having sinned against
14662 Emma Woodhouse, I could deserve nothing from either. Acquit me here, and
14663 procure for me, when it is allowable, the acquittal and good wishes
14664 of that said Emma Woodhouse, whom I regard with so much brotherly
14665 affection, as to long to have her as deeply and as happily in love as
14666 myself.--Whatever strange things I said or did during that fortnight,
14667 you have now a key to. My heart was in Highbury, and my business was to
14668 get my body thither as often as might be, and with the least suspicion.
14669 If you remember any queernesses, set them all to the right account.--Of
14670 the pianoforte so much talked of, I feel it only necessary to say, that
14671 its being ordered was absolutely unknown to Miss F--, who would never
14672 have allowed me to send it, had any choice been given her.--The
14673 delicacy of her mind throughout the whole engagement, my dear madam,
14674 is much beyond my power of doing justice to. You will soon, I earnestly
14675 hope, know her thoroughly yourself.--No description can describe her.
14676 She must tell you herself what she is--yet not by word, for never
14677 was there a human creature who would so designedly suppress her own
14678 merit.--Since I began this letter, which will be longer than I foresaw,
14679 I have heard from her.--She gives a good account of her own health; but
14680 as she never complains, I dare not depend. I want to have your opinion
14681 of her looks. I know you will soon call on her; she is living in dread
14682 of the visit. Perhaps it is paid already. Let me hear from you without
14683 delay; I am impatient for a thousand particulars. Remember how few
14684 minutes I was at Randalls, and in how bewildered, how mad a state: and
14685 I am not much better yet; still insane either from happiness or
14686 misery. When I think of the kindness and favour I have met with, of her
14687 excellence and patience, and my uncle’s generosity, I am mad with joy:
14688 but when I recollect all the uneasiness I occasioned her, and how little
14689 I deserve to be forgiven, I am mad with anger. If I could but see her
14690 again!--But I must not propose it yet. My uncle has been too good for me
14691 to encroach.--I must still add to this long letter. You have not heard
14692 all that you ought to hear. I could not give any connected detail
14693 yesterday; but the suddenness, and, in one light, the unseasonableness
14694 with which the affair burst out, needs explanation; for though the event
14695 of the 26th ult., as you will conclude, immediately opened to me the
14696 happiest prospects, I should not have presumed on such early measures,
14697 but from the very particular circumstances, which left me not an hour to
14698 lose. I should myself have shrunk from any thing so hasty, and she
14699 would have felt every scruple of mine with multiplied strength and
14700 refinement.--But I had no choice. The hasty engagement she had entered
14701 into with that woman--Here, my dear madam, I was obliged to leave off
14702 abruptly, to recollect and compose myself.--I have been walking over
14703 the country, and am now, I hope, rational enough to make the rest of
14704 my letter what it ought to be.--It is, in fact, a most mortifying
14705 retrospect for me. I behaved shamefully. And here I can admit, that
14706 my manners to Miss W., in being unpleasant to Miss F., were highly
14707 blameable. _She_ disapproved them, which ought to have been enough.--My
14708 plea of concealing the truth she did not think sufficient.--She was
14709 displeased; I thought unreasonably so: I thought her, on a thousand
14710 occasions, unnecessarily scrupulous and cautious: I thought her even
14711 cold. But she was always right. If I had followed her judgment, and
14712 subdued my spirits to the level of what she deemed proper, I should have
14713 escaped the greatest unhappiness I have ever known.--We quarrelled.--
14714 Do you remember the morning spent at Donwell?--_There_ every little
14715 dissatisfaction that had occurred before came to a crisis. I was late;
14716 I met her walking home by herself, and wanted to walk with her, but she
14717 would not suffer it. She absolutely refused to allow me, which I then
14718 thought most unreasonable. Now, however, I see nothing in it but a very
14719 natural and consistent degree of discretion. While I, to blind the
14720 world to our engagement, was behaving one hour with objectionable
14721 particularity to another woman, was she to be consenting the next to a
14722 proposal which might have made every previous caution useless?--Had we
14723 been met walking together between Donwell and Highbury, the truth must
14724 have been suspected.--I was mad enough, however, to resent.--I doubted
14725 her affection. I doubted it more the next day on Box Hill; when,
14726 provoked by such conduct on my side, such shameful, insolent neglect
14727 of her, and such apparent devotion to Miss W., as it would have been
14728 impossible for any woman of sense to endure, she spoke her resentment in
14729 a form of words perfectly intelligible to me.--In short, my dear
14730 madam, it was a quarrel blameless on her side, abominable on mine; and
14731 I returned the same evening to Richmond, though I might have staid with
14732 you till the next morning, merely because I would be as angry with
14733 her as possible. Even then, I was not such a fool as not to mean to
14734 be reconciled in time; but I was the injured person, injured by her
14735 coldness, and I went away determined that she should make the first
14736 advances.--I shall always congratulate myself that you were not of
14737 the Box Hill party. Had you witnessed my behaviour there, I can hardly
14738 suppose you would ever have thought well of me again. Its effect upon
14739 her appears in the immediate resolution it produced: as soon as she
14740 found I was really gone from Randalls, she closed with the offer of that
14741 officious Mrs. Elton; the whole system of whose treatment of her, by the
14742 bye, has ever filled me with indignation and hatred. I must not quarrel
14743 with a spirit of forbearance which has been so richly extended towards
14744 myself; but, otherwise, I should loudly protest against the share of it
14745 which that woman has known.--‘Jane,’ indeed!--You will observe that I
14746 have not yet indulged myself in calling her by that name, even to you.
14747 Think, then, what I must have endured in hearing it bandied between
14748 the Eltons with all the vulgarity of needless repetition, and all the
14749 insolence of imaginary superiority. Have patience with me, I shall soon
14750 have done.--She closed with this offer, resolving to break with me
14751 entirely, and wrote the next day to tell me that we never were to meet
14752 again.--_She_ _felt_ _the_ _engagement_ _to_ _be_ _a_ _source_ _of_
14753 _repentance_ _and_ _misery_ _to_ _each_: _she_ _dissolved_ _it_.--This
14754 letter reached me on the very morning of my poor aunt’s death. I
14755 answered it within an hour; but from the confusion of my mind, and the
14756 multiplicity of business falling on me at once, my answer, instead of
14757 being sent with all the many other letters of that day, was locked up in
14758 my writing-desk; and I, trusting that I had written enough, though but
14759 a few lines, to satisfy her, remained without any uneasiness.--I was
14760 rather disappointed that I did not hear from her again speedily; but I
14761 made excuses for her, and was too busy, and--may I add?--too cheerful
14762 in my views to be captious.--We removed to Windsor; and two
14763 days afterwards I received a parcel from her, my own letters all
14764 returned!--and a few lines at the same time by the post, stating her
14765 extreme surprize at not having had the smallest reply to her last; and
14766 adding, that as silence on such a point could not be misconstrued,
14767 and as it must be equally desirable to both to have every subordinate
14768 arrangement concluded as soon as possible, she now sent me, by a safe
14769 conveyance, all my letters, and requested, that if I could not directly
14770 command hers, so as to send them to Highbury within a week, I would
14771 forward them after that period to her at--: in short, the full direction
14772 to Mr. Smallridge’s, near Bristol, stared me in the face. I knew the
14773 name, the place, I knew all about it, and instantly saw what she had
14774 been doing. It was perfectly accordant with that resolution of character
14775 which I knew her to possess; and the secrecy she had maintained, as to
14776 any such design in her former letter, was equally descriptive of its
14777 anxious delicacy. For the world would not she have seemed to threaten
14778 me.--Imagine the shock; imagine how, till I had actually detected my
14779 own blunder, I raved at the blunders of the post.--What was to be
14780 done?--One thing only.--I must speak to my uncle. Without his sanction I
14781 could not hope to be listened to again.--I spoke; circumstances were
14782 in my favour; the late event had softened away his pride, and he was,
14783 earlier than I could have anticipated, wholly reconciled and complying;
14784 and could say at last, poor man! with a deep sigh, that he wished I
14785 might find as much happiness in the marriage state as he had done.--I
14786 felt that it would be of a different sort.--Are you disposed to pity
14787 me for what I must have suffered in opening the cause to him, for my
14788 suspense while all was at stake?--No; do not pity me till I reached
14789 Highbury, and saw how ill I had made her. Do not pity me till I saw her
14790 wan, sick looks.--I reached Highbury at the time of day when, from my
14791 knowledge of their late breakfast hour, I was certain of a good chance
14792 of finding her alone.--I was not disappointed; and at last I was not
14793 disappointed either in the object of my journey. A great deal of very
14794 reasonable, very just displeasure I had to persuade away. But it is
14795 done; we are reconciled, dearer, much dearer, than ever, and no moment’s
14796 uneasiness can ever occur between us again. Now, my dear madam, I will
14797 release you; but I could not conclude before. A thousand and a thousand
14798 thanks for all the kindness you have ever shewn me, and ten thousand for
14799 the attentions your heart will dictate towards her.--If you think me in
14800 a way to be happier than I deserve, I am quite of your opinion.--Miss
14801 W. calls me the child of good fortune. I hope she is right.--In one
14802 respect, my good fortune is undoubted, that of being able to subscribe
14803 myself,
14804
14805 Your obliged and affectionate Son,
14806
14807 F. C. WESTON CHURCHILL.
14808
14809
14810
14811 CHAPTER XV
14812
14813
14814 This letter must make its way to Emma’s feelings. She was obliged, in
14815 spite of her previous determination to the contrary, to do it all the
14816 justice that Mrs. Weston foretold. As soon as she came to her own name,
14817 it was irresistible; every line relating to herself was interesting,
14818 and almost every line agreeable; and when this charm ceased, the subject
14819 could still maintain itself, by the natural return of her former regard
14820 for the writer, and the very strong attraction which any picture of
14821 love must have for her at that moment. She never stopt till she had gone
14822 through the whole; and though it was impossible not to feel that he had
14823 been wrong, yet he had been less wrong than she had supposed--and he had
14824 suffered, and was very sorry--and he was so grateful to Mrs. Weston, and
14825 so much in love with Miss Fairfax, and she was so happy herself, that
14826 there was no being severe; and could he have entered the room, she must
14827 have shaken hands with him as heartily as ever.
14828
14829 She thought so well of the letter, that when Mr. Knightley came again,
14830 she desired him to read it. She was sure of Mrs. Weston’s wishing it to
14831 be communicated; especially to one, who, like Mr. Knightley, had seen so
14832 much to blame in his conduct.
14833
14834 “I shall be very glad to look it over,” said he; “but it seems long. I
14835 will take it home with me at night.”
14836
14837 But that would not do. Mr. Weston was to call in the evening, and she
14838 must return it by him.
14839
14840 “I would rather be talking to you,” he replied; “but as it seems a
14841 matter of justice, it shall be done.”
14842
14843 He began--stopping, however, almost directly to say, “Had I been offered
14844 the sight of one of this gentleman’s letters to his mother-in-law a few
14845 months ago, Emma, it would not have been taken with such indifference.”
14846
14847 He proceeded a little farther, reading to himself; and then, with a
14848 smile, observed, “Humph! a fine complimentary opening: But it is his
14849 way. One man’s style must not be the rule of another’s. We will not be
14850 severe.”
14851
14852 “It will be natural for me,” he added shortly afterwards, “to speak my
14853 opinion aloud as I read. By doing it, I shall feel that I am near you.
14854 It will not be so great a loss of time: but if you dislike it--”
14855
14856 “Not at all. I should wish it.”
14857
14858 Mr. Knightley returned to his reading with greater alacrity.
14859
14860 “He trifles here,” said he, “as to the temptation. He knows he is wrong,
14861 and has nothing rational to urge.--Bad.--He ought not to have formed the
14862 engagement.--‘His father’s disposition:’--he is unjust, however, to his
14863 father. Mr. Weston’s sanguine temper was a blessing on all his upright
14864 and honourable exertions; but Mr. Weston earned every present comfort
14865 before he endeavoured to gain it.--Very true; he did not come till Miss
14866 Fairfax was here.”
14867
14868 “And I have not forgotten,” said Emma, “how sure you were that he might
14869 have come sooner if he would. You pass it over very handsomely--but you
14870 were perfectly right.”
14871
14872 “I was not quite impartial in my judgment, Emma:--but yet, I think--had
14873 _you_ not been in the case--I should still have distrusted him.”
14874
14875 When he came to Miss Woodhouse, he was obliged to read the whole of it
14876 aloud--all that related to her, with a smile; a look; a shake of the
14877 head; a word or two of assent, or disapprobation; or merely of love, as
14878 the subject required; concluding, however, seriously, and, after steady
14879 reflection, thus--
14880
14881 “Very bad--though it might have been worse.--Playing a most dangerous
14882 game. Too much indebted to the event for his acquittal.--No judge of
14883 his own manners by you.--Always deceived in fact by his own wishes, and
14884 regardless of little besides his own convenience.--Fancying you to have
14885 fathomed his secret. Natural enough!--his own mind full of intrigue,
14886 that he should suspect it in others.--Mystery; Finesse--how they pervert
14887 the understanding! My Emma, does not every thing serve to prove more
14888 and more the beauty of truth and sincerity in all our dealings with each
14889 other?”
14890
14891 Emma agreed to it, and with a blush of sensibility on Harriet’s account,
14892 which she could not give any sincere explanation of.
14893
14894 “You had better go on,” said she.
14895
14896 He did so, but very soon stopt again to say, “the pianoforte! Ah! That
14897 was the act of a very, very young man, one too young to consider whether
14898 the inconvenience of it might not very much exceed the pleasure. A
14899 boyish scheme, indeed!--I cannot comprehend a man’s wishing to give a
14900 woman any proof of affection which he knows she would rather dispense
14901 with; and he did know that she would have prevented the instrument’s
14902 coming if she could.”
14903
14904 After this, he made some progress without any pause. Frank Churchill’s
14905 confession of having behaved shamefully was the first thing to call for
14906 more than a word in passing.
14907
14908 “I perfectly agree with you, sir,”--was then his remark. “You did behave
14909 very shamefully. You never wrote a truer line.” And having gone through
14910 what immediately followed of the basis of their disagreement, and his
14911 persisting to act in direct opposition to Jane Fairfax’s sense of right,
14912 he made a fuller pause to say, “This is very bad.--He had induced her
14913 to place herself, for his sake, in a situation of extreme difficulty and
14914 uneasiness, and it should have been his first object to prevent her from
14915 suffering unnecessarily.--She must have had much more to contend
14916 with, in carrying on the correspondence, than he could. He should have
14917 respected even unreasonable scruples, had there been such; but hers were
14918 all reasonable. We must look to her one fault, and remember that she
14919 had done a wrong thing in consenting to the engagement, to bear that she
14920 should have been in such a state of punishment.”
14921
14922 Emma knew that he was now getting to the Box Hill party, and grew
14923 uncomfortable. Her own behaviour had been so very improper! She was
14924 deeply ashamed, and a little afraid of his next look. It was all read,
14925 however, steadily, attentively, and without the smallest remark; and,
14926 excepting one momentary glance at her, instantly withdrawn, in the fear
14927 of giving pain--no remembrance of Box Hill seemed to exist.
14928
14929 “There is no saying much for the delicacy of our good friends, the
14930 Eltons,” was his next observation.--“His feelings are natural.--What!
14931 actually resolve to break with him entirely!--She felt the engagement to
14932 be a source of repentance and misery to each--she dissolved it.--What a
14933 view this gives of her sense of his behaviour!--Well, he must be a most
14934 extraordinary--”
14935
14936 “Nay, nay, read on.--You will find how very much he suffers.”
14937
14938 “I hope he does,” replied Mr. Knightley coolly, and resuming the letter.
14939 “‘Smallridge!’--What does this mean? What is all this?”
14940
14941 “She had engaged to go as governess to Mrs. Smallridge’s children--a
14942 dear friend of Mrs. Elton’s--a neighbour of Maple Grove; and, by the
14943 bye, I wonder how Mrs. Elton bears the disappointment?”
14944
14945 “Say nothing, my dear Emma, while you oblige me to read--not even of
14946 Mrs. Elton. Only one page more. I shall soon have done. What a letter
14947 the man writes!”
14948
14949 “I wish you would read it with a kinder spirit towards him.”
14950
14951 “Well, there _is_ feeling here.--He does seem to have suffered in
14952 finding her ill.--Certainly, I can have no doubt of his being fond of
14953 her. ‘Dearer, much dearer than ever.’ I hope he may long continue to
14954 feel all the value of such a reconciliation.--He is a very liberal
14955 thanker, with his thousands and tens of thousands.--‘Happier than I
14956 deserve.’ Come, he knows himself there. ‘Miss Woodhouse calls me the
14957 child of good fortune.’--Those were Miss Woodhouse’s words, were they?--
14958 And a fine ending--and there is the letter. The child of good fortune!
14959 That was your name for him, was it?”
14960
14961 “You do not appear so well satisfied with his letter as I am; but still
14962 you must, at least I hope you must, think the better of him for it. I
14963 hope it does him some service with you.”
14964
14965 “Yes, certainly it does. He has had great faults, faults of
14966 inconsideration and thoughtlessness; and I am very much of his opinion
14967 in thinking him likely to be happier than he deserves: but still as he
14968 is, beyond a doubt, really attached to Miss Fairfax, and will soon, it
14969 may be hoped, have the advantage of being constantly with her, I am very
14970 ready to believe his character will improve, and acquire from hers the
14971 steadiness and delicacy of principle that it wants. And now, let me talk
14972 to you of something else. I have another person’s interest at present
14973 so much at heart, that I cannot think any longer about Frank Churchill.
14974 Ever since I left you this morning, Emma, my mind has been hard at work
14975 on one subject.”
14976
14977 The subject followed; it was in plain, unaffected, gentlemanlike
14978 English, such as Mr. Knightley used even to the woman he was in love
14979 with, how to be able to ask her to marry him, without attacking the
14980 happiness of her father. Emma’s answer was ready at the first word.
14981 “While her dear father lived, any change of condition must be impossible
14982 for her. She could never quit him.” Part only of this answer, however,
14983 was admitted. The impossibility of her quitting her father, Mr.
14984 Knightley felt as strongly as herself; but the inadmissibility of any
14985 other change, he could not agree to. He had been thinking it over most
14986 deeply, most intently; he had at first hoped to induce Mr. Woodhouse to
14987 remove with her to Donwell; he had wanted to believe it feasible, but
14988 his knowledge of Mr. Woodhouse would not suffer him to deceive himself
14989 long; and now he confessed his persuasion, that such a transplantation
14990 would be a risk of her father’s comfort, perhaps even of his life, which
14991 must not be hazarded. Mr. Woodhouse taken from Hartfield!--No, he felt
14992 that it ought not to be attempted. But the plan which had arisen on the
14993 sacrifice of this, he trusted his dearest Emma would not find in any
14994 respect objectionable; it was, that he should be received at Hartfield;
14995 that so long as her father’s happiness--in other words, his life--required
14996 Hartfield to continue her home, it should be his likewise.
14997
14998 Of their all removing to Donwell, Emma had already had her own passing
14999 thoughts. Like him, she had tried the scheme and rejected it; but such
15000 an alternative as this had not occurred to her. She was sensible of all
15001 the affection it evinced. She felt that, in quitting Donwell, he must
15002 be sacrificing a great deal of independence of hours and habits; that
15003 in living constantly with her father, and in no house of his own, there
15004 would be much, very much, to be borne with. She promised to think of it,
15005 and advised him to think of it more; but he was fully convinced, that no
15006 reflection could alter his wishes or his opinion on the subject. He had
15007 given it, he could assure her, very long and calm consideration; he had
15008 been walking away from William Larkins the whole morning, to have his
15009 thoughts to himself.
15010
15011 “Ah! there is one difficulty unprovided for,” cried Emma. “I am sure
15012 William Larkins will not like it. You must get his consent before you
15013 ask mine.”
15014
15015 She promised, however, to think of it; and pretty nearly promised,
15016 moreover, to think of it, with the intention of finding it a very good
15017 scheme.
15018
15019 It is remarkable, that Emma, in the many, very many, points of view in
15020 which she was now beginning to consider Donwell Abbey, was never
15021 struck with any sense of injury to her nephew Henry, whose rights as
15022 heir-expectant had formerly been so tenaciously regarded. Think she must
15023 of the possible difference to the poor little boy; and yet she only
15024 gave herself a saucy conscious smile about it, and found amusement in
15025 detecting the real cause of that violent dislike of Mr. Knightley’s
15026 marrying Jane Fairfax, or any body else, which at the time she had
15027 wholly imputed to the amiable solicitude of the sister and the aunt.
15028
15029 This proposal of his, this plan of marrying and continuing at
15030 Hartfield--the more she contemplated it, the more pleasing it became.
15031 His evils seemed to lessen, her own advantages to increase, their mutual
15032 good to outweigh every drawback. Such a companion for herself in the
15033 periods of anxiety and cheerlessness before her!--Such a partner in
15034 all those duties and cares to which time must be giving increase of
15035 melancholy!
15036
15037 She would have been too happy but for poor Harriet; but every blessing
15038 of her own seemed to involve and advance the sufferings of her friend,
15039 who must now be even excluded from Hartfield. The delightful family
15040 party which Emma was securing for herself, poor Harriet must, in mere
15041 charitable caution, be kept at a distance from. She would be a loser in
15042 every way. Emma could not deplore her future absence as any deduction
15043 from her own enjoyment. In such a party, Harriet would be rather a
15044 dead weight than otherwise; but for the poor girl herself, it seemed a
15045 peculiarly cruel necessity that was to be placing her in such a state of
15046 unmerited punishment.
15047
15048 In time, of course, Mr. Knightley would be forgotten, that is,
15049 supplanted; but this could not be expected to happen very early. Mr.
15050 Knightley himself would be doing nothing to assist the cure;--not
15051 like Mr. Elton. Mr. Knightley, always so kind, so feeling, so truly
15052 considerate for every body, would never deserve to be less worshipped
15053 than now; and it really was too much to hope even of Harriet, that she
15054 could be in love with more than _three_ men in one year.
15055
15056
15057
15058 CHAPTER XVI
15059
15060
15061 It was a very great relief to Emma to find Harriet as desirous as
15062 herself to avoid a meeting. Their intercourse was painful enough by
15063 letter. How much worse, had they been obliged to meet!
15064
15065 Harriet expressed herself very much as might be supposed, without
15066 reproaches, or apparent sense of ill-usage; and yet Emma fancied there
15067 was a something of resentment, a something bordering on it in her style,
15068 which increased the desirableness of their being separate.--It might be
15069 only her own consciousness; but it seemed as if an angel only could have
15070 been quite without resentment under such a stroke.
15071
15072 She had no difficulty in procuring Isabella’s invitation; and she was
15073 fortunate in having a sufficient reason for asking it, without resorting
15074 to invention.--There was a tooth amiss. Harriet really wished, and
15075 had wished some time, to consult a dentist. Mrs. John Knightley was
15076 delighted to be of use; any thing of ill health was a recommendation to
15077 her--and though not so fond of a dentist as of a Mr. Wingfield, she was
15078 quite eager to have Harriet under her care.--When it was thus settled
15079 on her sister’s side, Emma proposed it to her friend, and found her
15080 very persuadable.--Harriet was to go; she was invited for at least a
15081 fortnight; she was to be conveyed in Mr. Woodhouse’s carriage.--It was
15082 all arranged, it was all completed, and Harriet was safe in Brunswick
15083 Square.
15084
15085 Now Emma could, indeed, enjoy Mr. Knightley’s visits; now she could
15086 talk, and she could listen with true happiness, unchecked by that sense
15087 of injustice, of guilt, of something most painful, which had haunted her
15088 when remembering how disappointed a heart was near her, how much might
15089 at that moment, and at a little distance, be enduring by the feelings
15090 which she had led astray herself.
15091
15092 The difference of Harriet at Mrs. Goddard’s, or in London, made perhaps
15093 an unreasonable difference in Emma’s sensations; but she could not think
15094 of her in London without objects of curiosity and employment, which must
15095 be averting the past, and carrying her out of herself.
15096
15097 She would not allow any other anxiety to succeed directly to the place
15098 in her mind which Harriet had occupied. There was a communication before
15099 her, one which _she_ only could be competent to make--the confession of
15100 her engagement to her father; but she would have nothing to do with it
15101 at present.--She had resolved to defer the disclosure till Mrs. Weston
15102 were safe and well. No additional agitation should be thrown at this
15103 period among those she loved--and the evil should not act on herself
15104 by anticipation before the appointed time.--A fortnight, at least, of
15105 leisure and peace of mind, to crown every warmer, but more agitating,
15106 delight, should be hers.
15107
15108 She soon resolved, equally as a duty and a pleasure, to employ half an
15109 hour of this holiday of spirits in calling on Miss Fairfax.--She ought
15110 to go--and she was longing to see her; the resemblance of their present
15111 situations increasing every other motive of goodwill. It would be a
15112 _secret_ satisfaction; but the consciousness of a similarity of prospect
15113 would certainly add to the interest with which she should attend to any
15114 thing Jane might communicate.
15115
15116 She went--she had driven once unsuccessfully to the door, but had not
15117 been into the house since the morning after Box Hill, when poor Jane had
15118 been in such distress as had filled her with compassion, though all the
15119 worst of her sufferings had been unsuspected.--The fear of being still
15120 unwelcome, determined her, though assured of their being at home, to
15121 wait in the passage, and send up her name.--She heard Patty announcing
15122 it; but no such bustle succeeded as poor Miss Bates had before made so
15123 happily intelligible.--No; she heard nothing but the instant reply of,
15124 “Beg her to walk up;”--and a moment afterwards she was met on the stairs
15125 by Jane herself, coming eagerly forward, as if no other reception of her
15126 were felt sufficient.--Emma had never seen her look so well, so lovely,
15127 so engaging. There was consciousness, animation, and warmth; there was
15128 every thing which her countenance or manner could ever have wanted.--
15129 She came forward with an offered hand; and said, in a low, but very
15130 feeling tone,
15131
15132 “This is most kind, indeed!--Miss Woodhouse, it is impossible for me
15133 to express--I hope you will believe--Excuse me for being so entirely
15134 without words.”
15135
15136 Emma was gratified, and would soon have shewn no want of words, if the
15137 sound of Mrs. Elton’s voice from the sitting-room had not checked
15138 her, and made it expedient to compress all her friendly and all her
15139 congratulatory sensations into a very, very earnest shake of the hand.
15140
15141 Mrs. Bates and Mrs. Elton were together. Miss Bates was out, which
15142 accounted for the previous tranquillity. Emma could have wished Mrs.
15143 Elton elsewhere; but she was in a humour to have patience with every
15144 body; and as Mrs. Elton met her with unusual graciousness, she hoped the
15145 rencontre would do them no harm.
15146
15147 She soon believed herself to penetrate Mrs. Elton’s thoughts, and
15148 understand why she was, like herself, in happy spirits; it was being in
15149 Miss Fairfax’s confidence, and fancying herself acquainted with what was
15150 still a secret to other people. Emma saw symptoms of it immediately in
15151 the expression of her face; and while paying her own compliments to Mrs.
15152 Bates, and appearing to attend to the good old lady’s replies, she saw
15153 her with a sort of anxious parade of mystery fold up a letter which she
15154 had apparently been reading aloud to Miss Fairfax, and return it into
15155 the purple and gold reticule by her side, saying, with significant nods,
15156
15157 “We can finish this some other time, you know. You and I shall not want
15158 opportunities. And, in fact, you have heard all the essential already. I
15159 only wanted to prove to you that Mrs. S. admits our apology, and is
15160 not offended. You see how delightfully she writes. Oh! she is a sweet
15161 creature! You would have doated on her, had you gone.--But not a word
15162 more. Let us be discreet--quite on our good behaviour.--Hush!--You
15163 remember those lines--I forget the poem at this moment:
15164
15165 “For when a lady’s in the case,
15166 “You know all other things give place.”
15167
15168 Now I say, my dear, in _our_ case, for _lady_, read----mum! a word to
15169 the wise.--I am in a fine flow of spirits, an’t I? But I want to set
15170 your heart at ease as to Mrs. S.--_My_ representation, you see, has
15171 quite appeased her.”
15172
15173 And again, on Emma’s merely turning her head to look at Mrs. Bates’s
15174 knitting, she added, in a half whisper,
15175
15176 “I mentioned no _names_, you will observe.--Oh! no; cautious as a
15177 minister of state. I managed it extremely well.”
15178
15179 Emma could not doubt. It was a palpable display, repeated on every
15180 possible occasion. When they had all talked a little while in harmony of
15181 the weather and Mrs. Weston, she found herself abruptly addressed with,
15182
15183 “Do not you think, Miss Woodhouse, our saucy little friend here is
15184 charmingly recovered?--Do not you think her cure does Perry the highest
15185 credit?--(here was a side-glance of great meaning at Jane.) Upon my
15186 word, Perry has restored her in a wonderful short time!--Oh! if you had
15187 seen her, as I did, when she was at the worst!”--And when Mrs. Bates
15188 was saying something to Emma, whispered farther, “We do not say a word
15189 of any _assistance_ that Perry might have; not a word of a certain young
15190 physician from Windsor.--Oh! no; Perry shall have all the credit.”
15191
15192 “I have scarce had the pleasure of seeing you, Miss Woodhouse,” she
15193 shortly afterwards began, “since the party to Box Hill. Very pleasant
15194 party. But yet I think there was something wanting. Things did not
15195 seem--that is, there seemed a little cloud upon the spirits of some.--So
15196 it appeared to me at least, but I might be mistaken. However, I think
15197 it answered so far as to tempt one to go again. What say you both to our
15198 collecting the same party, and exploring to Box Hill again, while the
15199 fine weather lasts?--It must be the same party, you know, quite the
15200 same party, not _one_ exception.”
15201
15202 Soon after this Miss Bates came in, and Emma could not help being
15203 diverted by the perplexity of her first answer to herself, resulting,
15204 she supposed, from doubt of what might be said, and impatience to say
15205 every thing.
15206
15207 “Thank you, dear Miss Woodhouse, you are all kindness.--It is impossible
15208 to say--Yes, indeed, I quite understand--dearest Jane’s prospects--that
15209 is, I do not mean.--But she is charmingly recovered.--How is Mr.
15210 Woodhouse?--I am so glad.--Quite out of my power.--Such a happy little
15211 circle as you find us here.--Yes, indeed.--Charming young man!--that
15212 is--so very friendly; I mean good Mr. Perry!--such attention to
15213 Jane!”--And from her great, her more than commonly thankful delight
15214 towards Mrs. Elton for being there, Emma guessed that there had been a
15215 little show of resentment towards Jane, from the vicarage quarter,
15216 which was now graciously overcome.--After a few whispers, indeed, which
15217 placed it beyond a guess, Mrs. Elton, speaking louder, said,
15218
15219 “Yes, here I am, my good friend; and here I have been so long, that
15220 anywhere else I should think it necessary to apologise; but, the truth
15221 is, that I am waiting for my lord and master. He promised to join me
15222 here, and pay his respects to you.”
15223
15224 “What! are we to have the pleasure of a call from Mr. Elton?--That will
15225 be a favour indeed! for I know gentlemen do not like morning visits, and
15226 Mr. Elton’s time is so engaged.”
15227
15228 “Upon my word it is, Miss Bates.--He really is engaged from morning to
15229 night.--There is no end of people’s coming to him, on some pretence or
15230 other.--The magistrates, and overseers, and churchwardens, are always
15231 wanting his opinion. They seem not able to do any thing without
15232 him.--‘Upon my word, Mr. E.,’ I often say, ‘rather you than I.--I do
15233 not know what would become of my crayons and my instrument, if I had
15234 half so many applicants.’--Bad enough as it is, for I absolutely neglect
15235 them both to an unpardonable degree.--I believe I have not played a bar
15236 this fortnight.--However, he is coming, I assure you: yes, indeed, on
15237 purpose to wait on you all.” And putting up her hand to screen her
15238 words from Emma--“A congratulatory visit, you know.--Oh! yes, quite
15239 indispensable.”
15240
15241 Miss Bates looked about her, so happily--!
15242
15243 “He promised to come to me as soon as he could disengage himself
15244 from Knightley; but he and Knightley are shut up together in deep
15245 consultation.--Mr. E. is Knightley’s right hand.”
15246
15247 Emma would not have smiled for the world, and only said, “Is Mr. Elton
15248 gone on foot to Donwell?--He will have a hot walk.”
15249
15250 “Oh! no, it is a meeting at the Crown, a regular meeting. Weston and
15251 Cole will be there too; but one is apt to speak only of those who
15252 lead.--I fancy Mr. E. and Knightley have every thing their own way.”
15253
15254 “Have not you mistaken the day?” said Emma. “I am almost certain that
15255 the meeting at the Crown is not till to-morrow.--Mr. Knightley was at
15256 Hartfield yesterday, and spoke of it as for Saturday.”
15257
15258 “Oh! no, the meeting is certainly to-day,” was the abrupt answer, which
15259 denoted the impossibility of any blunder on Mrs. Elton’s side.--“I do
15260 believe,” she continued, “this is the most troublesome parish that ever
15261 was. We never heard of such things at Maple Grove.”
15262
15263 “Your parish there was small,” said Jane.
15264
15265 “Upon my word, my dear, I do not know, for I never heard the subject
15266 talked of.”
15267
15268 “But it is proved by the smallness of the school, which I have heard
15269 you speak of, as under the patronage of your sister and Mrs. Bragge; the
15270 only school, and not more than five-and-twenty children.”
15271
15272 “Ah! you clever creature, that’s very true. What a thinking brain you
15273 have! I say, Jane, what a perfect character you and I should make, if we
15274 could be shaken together. My liveliness and your solidity would produce
15275 perfection.--Not that I presume to insinuate, however, that _some_
15276 people may not think _you_ perfection already.--But hush!--not a word,
15277 if you please.”
15278
15279 It seemed an unnecessary caution; Jane was wanting to give her words,
15280 not to Mrs. Elton, but to Miss Woodhouse, as the latter plainly saw.
15281 The wish of distinguishing her, as far as civility permitted, was very
15282 evident, though it could not often proceed beyond a look.
15283
15284 Mr. Elton made his appearance. His lady greeted him with some of her
15285 sparkling vivacity.
15286
15287 “Very pretty, sir, upon my word; to send me on here, to be an
15288 encumbrance to my friends, so long before you vouchsafe to come!--But
15289 you knew what a dutiful creature you had to deal with. You knew I should
15290 not stir till my lord and master appeared.--Here have I been sitting
15291 this hour, giving these young ladies a sample of true conjugal
15292 obedience--for who can say, you know, how soon it may be wanted?”
15293
15294 Mr. Elton was so hot and tired, that all this wit seemed thrown away.
15295 His civilities to the other ladies must be paid; but his subsequent
15296 object was to lament over himself for the heat he was suffering, and the
15297 walk he had had for nothing.
15298
15299 “When I got to Donwell,” said he, “Knightley could not be found. Very
15300 odd! very unaccountable! after the note I sent him this morning, and the
15301 message he returned, that he should certainly be at home till one.”
15302
15303 “Donwell!” cried his wife.--“My dear Mr. E., you have not been to
15304 Donwell!--You mean the Crown; you come from the meeting at the Crown.”
15305
15306 “No, no, that’s to-morrow; and I particularly wanted to see Knightley
15307 to-day on that very account.--Such a dreadful broiling morning!--I went
15308 over the fields too--(speaking in a tone of great ill-usage,) which made
15309 it so much the worse. And then not to find him at home! I assure you
15310 I am not at all pleased. And no apology left, no message for me. The
15311 housekeeper declared she knew nothing of my being expected.--Very
15312 extraordinary!--And nobody knew at all which way he was gone. Perhaps
15313 to Hartfield, perhaps to the Abbey Mill, perhaps into his woods.--Miss
15314 Woodhouse, this is not like our friend Knightley!--Can you explain it?”
15315
15316 Emma amused herself by protesting that it was very extraordinary,
15317 indeed, and that she had not a syllable to say for him.
15318
15319 “I cannot imagine,” said Mrs. Elton, (feeling the indignity as a wife
15320 ought to do,) “I cannot imagine how he could do such a thing by you, of
15321 all people in the world! The very last person whom one should expect to
15322 be forgotten!--My dear Mr. E., he must have left a message for you, I am
15323 sure he must.--Not even Knightley could be so very eccentric;--and his
15324 servants forgot it. Depend upon it, that was the case: and very likely
15325 to happen with the Donwell servants, who are all, I have often observed,
15326 extremely awkward and remiss.--I am sure I would not have such a
15327 creature as his Harry stand at our sideboard for any consideration. And
15328 as for Mrs. Hodges, Wright holds her very cheap indeed.--She promised
15329 Wright a receipt, and never sent it.”
15330
15331 “I met William Larkins,” continued Mr. Elton, “as I got near the house,
15332 and he told me I should not find his master at home, but I did not
15333 believe him.--William seemed rather out of humour. He did not know what
15334 was come to his master lately, he said, but he could hardly ever get the
15335 speech of him. I have nothing to do with William’s wants, but it really
15336 is of very great importance that _I_ should see Knightley to-day; and it
15337 becomes a matter, therefore, of very serious inconvenience that I should
15338 have had this hot walk to no purpose.”
15339
15340 Emma felt that she could not do better than go home directly. In
15341 all probability she was at this very time waited for there; and Mr.
15342 Knightley might be preserved from sinking deeper in aggression towards
15343 Mr. Elton, if not towards William Larkins.
15344
15345 She was pleased, on taking leave, to find Miss Fairfax determined to
15346 attend her out of the room, to go with her even downstairs; it gave her
15347 an opportunity which she immediately made use of, to say,
15348
15349 “It is as well, perhaps, that I have not had the possibility. Had you
15350 not been surrounded by other friends, I might have been tempted to
15351 introduce a subject, to ask questions, to speak more openly than might
15352 have been strictly correct.--I feel that I should certainly have been
15353 impertinent.”
15354
15355 “Oh!” cried Jane, with a blush and an hesitation which Emma thought
15356 infinitely more becoming to her than all the elegance of all her usual
15357 composure--“there would have been no danger. The danger would have
15358 been of my wearying you. You could not have gratified me more than
15359 by expressing an interest--. Indeed, Miss Woodhouse, (speaking more
15360 collectedly,) with the consciousness which I have of misconduct, very
15361 great misconduct, it is particularly consoling to me to know that those
15362 of my friends, whose good opinion is most worth preserving, are not
15363 disgusted to such a degree as to--I have not time for half that I could
15364 wish to say. I long to make apologies, excuses, to urge something for
15365 myself. I feel it so very due. But, unfortunately--in short, if your
15366 compassion does not stand my friend--”
15367
15368 “Oh! you are too scrupulous, indeed you are,” cried Emma warmly, and
15369 taking her hand. “You owe me no apologies; and every body to whom you
15370 might be supposed to owe them, is so perfectly satisfied, so delighted
15371 even--”
15372
15373 “You are very kind, but I know what my manners were to you.--So
15374 cold and artificial!--I had always a part to act.--It was a life of
15375 deceit!--I know that I must have disgusted you.”
15376
15377 “Pray say no more. I feel that all the apologies should be on my side.
15378 Let us forgive each other at once. We must do whatever is to be done
15379 quickest, and I think our feelings will lose no time there. I hope you
15380 have pleasant accounts from Windsor?”
15381
15382 “Very.”
15383
15384 “And the next news, I suppose, will be, that we are to lose you--just as
15385 I begin to know you.”
15386
15387 “Oh! as to all that, of course nothing can be thought of yet. I am here
15388 till claimed by Colonel and Mrs. Campbell.”
15389
15390 “Nothing can be actually settled yet, perhaps,” replied Emma,
15391 smiling--“but, excuse me, it must be thought of.”
15392
15393 The smile was returned as Jane answered,
15394
15395 “You are very right; it has been thought of. And I will own to you, (I
15396 am sure it will be safe), that so far as our living with Mr. Churchill
15397 at Enscombe, it is settled. There must be three months, at least, of
15398 deep mourning; but when they are over, I imagine there will be nothing
15399 more to wait for.”
15400
15401 “Thank you, thank you.--This is just what I wanted to be assured
15402 of.--Oh! if you knew how much I love every thing that is decided and
15403 open!--Good-bye, good-bye.”
15404
15405
15406
15407 CHAPTER XVII
15408
15409
15410 Mrs. Weston’s friends were all made happy by her safety; and if the
15411 satisfaction of her well-doing could be increased to Emma, it was by
15412 knowing her to be the mother of a little girl. She had been decided in
15413 wishing for a Miss Weston. She would not acknowledge that it was with
15414 any view of making a match for her, hereafter, with either of Isabella’s
15415 sons; but she was convinced that a daughter would suit both father
15416 and mother best. It would be a great comfort to Mr. Weston, as he grew
15417 older--and even Mr. Weston might be growing older ten years hence--to
15418 have his fireside enlivened by the sports and the nonsense, the freaks
15419 and the fancies of a child never banished from home; and Mrs. Weston--no
15420 one could doubt that a daughter would be most to her; and it would be
15421 quite a pity that any one who so well knew how to teach, should not have
15422 their powers in exercise again.
15423
15424 “She has had the advantage, you know, of practising on me,” she
15425 continued--“like La Baronne d’Almane on La Comtesse d’Ostalis, in Madame
15426 de Genlis’ Adelaide and Theodore, and we shall now see her own little
15427 Adelaide educated on a more perfect plan.”
15428
15429 “That is,” replied Mr. Knightley, “she will indulge her even more than
15430 she did you, and believe that she does not indulge her at all. It will
15431 be the only difference.”
15432
15433 “Poor child!” cried Emma; “at that rate, what will become of her?”
15434
15435 “Nothing very bad.--The fate of thousands. She will be disagreeable
15436 in infancy, and correct herself as she grows older. I am losing all my
15437 bitterness against spoilt children, my dearest Emma. I, who am owing all
15438 my happiness to _you_, would not it be horrible ingratitude in me to be
15439 severe on them?”
15440
15441 Emma laughed, and replied: “But I had the assistance of all your
15442 endeavours to counteract the indulgence of other people. I doubt whether
15443 my own sense would have corrected me without it.”
15444
15445 “Do you?--I have no doubt. Nature gave you understanding:--Miss Taylor
15446 gave you principles. You must have done well. My interference was quite
15447 as likely to do harm as good. It was very natural for you to say, what
15448 right has he to lecture me?--and I am afraid very natural for you to
15449 feel that it was done in a disagreeable manner. I do not believe I did
15450 you any good. The good was all to myself, by making you an object of the
15451 tenderest affection to me. I could not think about you so much without
15452 doating on you, faults and all; and by dint of fancying so many errors,
15453 have been in love with you ever since you were thirteen at least.”
15454
15455 “I am sure you were of use to me,” cried Emma. “I was very often
15456 influenced rightly by you--oftener than I would own at the time. I
15457 am very sure you did me good. And if poor little Anna Weston is to be
15458 spoiled, it will be the greatest humanity in you to do as much for her
15459 as you have done for me, except falling in love with her when she is
15460 thirteen.”
15461
15462 “How often, when you were a girl, have you said to me, with one of your
15463 saucy looks--‘Mr. Knightley, I am going to do so-and-so; papa says I
15464 may, or I have Miss Taylor’s leave’--something which, you knew, I
15465 did not approve. In such cases my interference was giving you two bad
15466 feelings instead of one.”
15467
15468 “What an amiable creature I was!--No wonder you should hold my speeches
15469 in such affectionate remembrance.”
15470
15471 “‘Mr. Knightley.’--You always called me, ‘Mr. Knightley;’ and, from
15472 habit, it has not so very formal a sound.--And yet it is formal. I want
15473 you to call me something else, but I do not know what.”
15474
15475 “I remember once calling you ‘George,’ in one of my amiable fits, about
15476 ten years ago. I did it because I thought it would offend you; but, as
15477 you made no objection, I never did it again.”
15478
15479 “And cannot you call me ‘George’ now?”
15480
15481 “Impossible!--I never can call you any thing but ‘Mr. Knightley.’ I
15482 will not promise even to equal the elegant terseness of Mrs. Elton, by
15483 calling you Mr. K.--But I will promise,” she added presently, laughing
15484 and blushing--“I will promise to call you once by your Christian name.
15485 I do not say when, but perhaps you may guess where;--in the building in
15486 which N. takes M. for better, for worse.”
15487
15488 Emma grieved that she could not be more openly just to one important
15489 service which his better sense would have rendered her, to the
15490 advice which would have saved her from the worst of all her womanly
15491 follies--her wilful intimacy with Harriet Smith; but it was too tender a
15492 subject.--She could not enter on it.--Harriet was very seldom mentioned
15493 between them. This, on his side, might merely proceed from her not being
15494 thought of; but Emma was rather inclined to attribute it to delicacy,
15495 and a suspicion, from some appearances, that their friendship were
15496 declining. She was aware herself, that, parting under any other
15497 circumstances, they certainly should have corresponded more, and that
15498 her intelligence would not have rested, as it now almost wholly did, on
15499 Isabella’s letters. He might observe that it was so. The pain of being
15500 obliged to practise concealment towards him, was very little inferior to
15501 the pain of having made Harriet unhappy.
15502
15503 Isabella sent quite as good an account of her visitor as could be
15504 expected; on her first arrival she had thought her out of spirits, which
15505 appeared perfectly natural, as there was a dentist to be consulted; but,
15506 since that business had been over, she did not appear to find Harriet
15507 different from what she had known her before.--Isabella, to be sure,
15508 was no very quick observer; yet if Harriet had not been equal to playing
15509 with the children, it would not have escaped her. Emma’s comforts and
15510 hopes were most agreeably carried on, by Harriet’s being to stay longer;
15511 her fortnight was likely to be a month at least. Mr. and Mrs. John
15512 Knightley were to come down in August, and she was invited to remain
15513 till they could bring her back.
15514
15515 “John does not even mention your friend,” said Mr. Knightley. “Here is
15516 his answer, if you like to see it.”
15517
15518 It was the answer to the communication of his intended marriage. Emma
15519 accepted it with a very eager hand, with an impatience all alive to know
15520 what he would say about it, and not at all checked by hearing that her
15521 friend was unmentioned.
15522
15523 “John enters like a brother into my happiness,” continued Mr. Knightley,
15524 “but he is no complimenter; and though I well know him to have,
15525 likewise, a most brotherly affection for you, he is so far from making
15526 flourishes, that any other young woman might think him rather cool in
15527 her praise. But I am not afraid of your seeing what he writes.”
15528
15529 “He writes like a sensible man,” replied Emma, when she had read the
15530 letter. “I honour his sincerity. It is very plain that he considers the
15531 good fortune of the engagement as all on my side, but that he is not
15532 without hope of my growing, in time, as worthy of your affection, as
15533 you think me already. Had he said any thing to bear a different
15534 construction, I should not have believed him.”
15535
15536 “My Emma, he means no such thing. He only means--”
15537
15538 “He and I should differ very little in our estimation of the two,”
15539 interrupted she, with a sort of serious smile--“much less, perhaps, than
15540 he is aware of, if we could enter without ceremony or reserve on the
15541 subject.”
15542
15543 “Emma, my dear Emma--”
15544
15545 “Oh!” she cried with more thorough gaiety, “if you fancy your brother
15546 does not do me justice, only wait till my dear father is in the secret,
15547 and hear his opinion. Depend upon it, he will be much farther from doing
15548 _you_ justice. He will think all the happiness, all the advantage, on
15549 your side of the question; all the merit on mine. I wish I may not
15550 sink into ‘poor Emma’ with him at once.--His tender compassion towards
15551 oppressed worth can go no farther.”
15552
15553 “Ah!” he cried, “I wish your father might be half as easily convinced as
15554 John will be, of our having every right that equal worth can give, to be
15555 happy together. I am amused by one part of John’s letter--did you notice
15556 it?--where he says, that my information did not take him wholly by
15557 surprize, that he was rather in expectation of hearing something of the
15558 kind.”
15559
15560 “If I understand your brother, he only means so far as your having
15561 some thoughts of marrying. He had no idea of me. He seems perfectly
15562 unprepared for that.”
15563
15564 “Yes, yes--but I am amused that he should have seen so far into my
15565 feelings. What has he been judging by?--I am not conscious of any
15566 difference in my spirits or conversation that could prepare him at
15567 this time for my marrying any more than at another.--But it was so, I
15568 suppose. I dare say there was a difference when I was staying with them
15569 the other day. I believe I did not play with the children quite so much
15570 as usual. I remember one evening the poor boys saying, ‘Uncle seems
15571 always tired now.’”
15572
15573 The time was coming when the news must spread farther, and other
15574 persons’ reception of it tried. As soon as Mrs. Weston was sufficiently
15575 recovered to admit Mr. Woodhouse’s visits, Emma having it in view that
15576 her gentle reasonings should be employed in the cause, resolved first to
15577 announce it at home, and then at Randalls.--But how to break it to her
15578 father at last!--She had bound herself to do it, in such an hour of Mr.
15579 Knightley’s absence, or when it came to the point her heart would have
15580 failed her, and she must have put it off; but Mr. Knightley was to come
15581 at such a time, and follow up the beginning she was to make.--She was
15582 forced to speak, and to speak cheerfully too. She must not make it a
15583 more decided subject of misery to him, by a melancholy tone herself.
15584 She must not appear to think it a misfortune.--With all the spirits she
15585 could command, she prepared him first for something strange, and then,
15586 in a few words, said, that if his consent and approbation could be
15587 obtained--which, she trusted, would be attended with no difficulty,
15588 since it was a plan to promote the happiness of all--she and Mr.
15589 Knightley meant to marry; by which means Hartfield would receive the
15590 constant addition of that person’s company whom she knew he loved, next
15591 to his daughters and Mrs. Weston, best in the world.
15592
15593 Poor man!--it was at first a considerable shock to him, and he tried
15594 earnestly to dissuade her from it. She was reminded, more than once, of
15595 having always said she would never marry, and assured that it would be
15596 a great deal better for her to remain single; and told of poor Isabella,
15597 and poor Miss Taylor.--But it would not do. Emma hung about him
15598 affectionately, and smiled, and said it must be so; and that he must
15599 not class her with Isabella and Mrs. Weston, whose marriages taking them
15600 from Hartfield, had, indeed, made a melancholy change: but she was not
15601 going from Hartfield; she should be always there; she was introducing
15602 no change in their numbers or their comforts but for the better; and she
15603 was very sure that he would be a great deal the happier for having Mr.
15604 Knightley always at hand, when he were once got used to the idea.--Did
15605 he not love Mr. Knightley very much?--He would not deny that he did,
15606 she was sure.--Whom did he ever want to consult on business but Mr.
15607 Knightley?--Who was so useful to him, who so ready to write his letters,
15608 who so glad to assist him?--Who so cheerful, so attentive, so attached
15609 to him?--Would not he like to have him always on the spot?--Yes. That
15610 was all very true. Mr. Knightley could not be there too often; he should
15611 be glad to see him every day;--but they did see him every day as it
15612 was.--Why could not they go on as they had done?
15613
15614 Mr. Woodhouse could not be soon reconciled; but the worst was overcome,
15615 the idea was given; time and continual repetition must do the rest.--To
15616 Emma’s entreaties and assurances succeeded Mr. Knightley’s, whose fond
15617 praise of her gave the subject even a kind of welcome; and he was soon
15618 used to be talked to by each, on every fair occasion.--They had all
15619 the assistance which Isabella could give, by letters of the strongest
15620 approbation; and Mrs. Weston was ready, on the first meeting, to
15621 consider the subject in the most serviceable light--first, as a settled,
15622 and, secondly, as a good one--well aware of the nearly equal importance
15623 of the two recommendations to Mr. Woodhouse’s mind.--It was agreed
15624 upon, as what was to be; and every body by whom he was used to be
15625 guided assuring him that it would be for his happiness; and having some
15626 feelings himself which almost admitted it, he began to think that some
15627 time or other--in another year or two, perhaps--it might not be so very
15628 bad if the marriage did take place.
15629
15630 Mrs. Weston was acting no part, feigning no feelings in all that she
15631 said to him in favour of the event.--She had been extremely surprized,
15632 never more so, than when Emma first opened the affair to her; but she
15633 saw in it only increase of happiness to all, and had no scruple in
15634 urging him to the utmost.--She had such a regard for Mr. Knightley, as
15635 to think he deserved even her dearest Emma; and it was in every respect
15636 so proper, suitable, and unexceptionable a connexion, and in one
15637 respect, one point of the highest importance, so peculiarly eligible,
15638 so singularly fortunate, that now it seemed as if Emma could not safely
15639 have attached herself to any other creature, and that she had herself
15640 been the stupidest of beings in not having thought of it, and wished it
15641 long ago.--How very few of those men in a rank of life to address Emma
15642 would have renounced their own home for Hartfield! And who but Mr.
15643 Knightley could know and bear with Mr. Woodhouse, so as to make such
15644 an arrangement desirable!--The difficulty of disposing of poor Mr.
15645 Woodhouse had been always felt in her husband’s plans and her own, for
15646 a marriage between Frank and Emma. How to settle the claims of Enscombe
15647 and Hartfield had been a continual impediment--less acknowledged by Mr.
15648 Weston than by herself--but even he had never been able to finish
15649 the subject better than by saying--“Those matters will take care of
15650 themselves; the young people will find a way.” But here there was
15651 nothing to be shifted off in a wild speculation on the future. It was
15652 all right, all open, all equal. No sacrifice on any side worth the name.
15653 It was a union of the highest promise of felicity in itself, and without
15654 one real, rational difficulty to oppose or delay it.
15655
15656 Mrs. Weston, with her baby on her knee, indulging in such reflections
15657 as these, was one of the happiest women in the world. If any thing could
15658 increase her delight, it was perceiving that the baby would soon have
15659 outgrown its first set of caps.
15660
15661 The news was universally a surprize wherever it spread; and Mr. Weston
15662 had his five minutes share of it; but five minutes were enough to
15663 familiarise the idea to his quickness of mind.--He saw the advantages
15664 of the match, and rejoiced in them with all the constancy of his wife;
15665 but the wonder of it was very soon nothing; and by the end of an hour he
15666 was not far from believing that he had always foreseen it.
15667
15668 “It is to be a secret, I conclude,” said he. “These matters are always a
15669 secret, till it is found out that every body knows them. Only let me be
15670 told when I may speak out.--I wonder whether Jane has any suspicion.”
15671
15672 He went to Highbury the next morning, and satisfied himself on that
15673 point. He told her the news. Was not she like a daughter, his eldest
15674 daughter?--he must tell her; and Miss Bates being present, it passed,
15675 of course, to Mrs. Cole, Mrs. Perry, and Mrs. Elton, immediately
15676 afterwards. It was no more than the principals were prepared for; they
15677 had calculated from the time of its being known at Randalls, how soon it
15678 would be over Highbury; and were thinking of themselves, as the evening
15679 wonder in many a family circle, with great sagacity.
15680
15681 In general, it was a very well approved match. Some might think him, and
15682 others might think her, the most in luck. One set might recommend their
15683 all removing to Donwell, and leaving Hartfield for the John Knightleys;
15684 and another might predict disagreements among their servants; but yet,
15685 upon the whole, there was no serious objection raised, except in one
15686 habitation, the Vicarage.--There, the surprize was not softened by any
15687 satisfaction. Mr. Elton cared little about it, compared with his wife;
15688 he only hoped “the young lady’s pride would now be contented;” and
15689 supposed “she had always meant to catch Knightley if she could;” and,
15690 on the point of living at Hartfield, could daringly exclaim, “Rather
15691 he than I!”--But Mrs. Elton was very much discomposed indeed.--“Poor
15692 Knightley! poor fellow!--sad business for him.”--She was extremely
15693 concerned; for, though very eccentric, he had a thousand good
15694 qualities.--How could he be so taken in?--Did not think him at all in
15695 love--not in the least.--Poor Knightley!--There would be an end of all
15696 pleasant intercourse with him.--How happy he had been to come and dine
15697 with them whenever they asked him! But that would be all over now.--Poor
15698 fellow!--No more exploring parties to Donwell made for _her_. Oh!
15699 no; there would be a Mrs. Knightley to throw cold water on every
15700 thing.--Extremely disagreeable! But she was not at all sorry that
15701 she had abused the housekeeper the other day.--Shocking plan, living
15702 together. It would never do. She knew a family near Maple Grove who
15703 had tried it, and been obliged to separate before the end of the first
15704 quarter.
15705
15706
15707
15708 CHAPTER XVIII
15709
15710
15711 Time passed on. A few more to-morrows, and the party from London would
15712 be arriving. It was an alarming change; and Emma was thinking of it one
15713 morning, as what must bring a great deal to agitate and grieve her, when
15714 Mr. Knightley came in, and distressing thoughts were put by. After the
15715 first chat of pleasure he was silent; and then, in a graver tone, began
15716 with,
15717
15718 “I have something to tell you, Emma; some news.”
15719
15720 “Good or bad?” said she, quickly, looking up in his face.
15721
15722 “I do not know which it ought to be called.”
15723
15724 “Oh! good I am sure.--I see it in your countenance. You are trying not
15725 to smile.”
15726
15727 “I am afraid,” said he, composing his features, “I am very much afraid,
15728 my dear Emma, that you will not smile when you hear it.”
15729
15730 “Indeed! but why so?--I can hardly imagine that any thing which pleases
15731 or amuses you, should not please and amuse me too.”
15732
15733 “There is one subject,” he replied, “I hope but one, on which we do not
15734 think alike.” He paused a moment, again smiling, with his eyes fixed on
15735 her face. “Does nothing occur to you?--Do not you recollect?--Harriet
15736 Smith.”
15737
15738 Her cheeks flushed at the name, and she felt afraid of something, though
15739 she knew not what.
15740
15741 “Have you heard from her yourself this morning?” cried he. “You have, I
15742 believe, and know the whole.”
15743
15744 “No, I have not; I know nothing; pray tell me.”
15745
15746 “You are prepared for the worst, I see--and very bad it is. Harriet
15747 Smith marries Robert Martin.”
15748
15749 Emma gave a start, which did not seem like being prepared--and her eyes,
15750 in eager gaze, said, “No, this is impossible!” but her lips were closed.
15751
15752 “It is so, indeed,” continued Mr. Knightley; “I have it from Robert
15753 Martin himself. He left me not half an hour ago.”
15754
15755 She was still looking at him with the most speaking amazement.
15756
15757 “You like it, my Emma, as little as I feared.--I wish our opinions were
15758 the same. But in time they will. Time, you may be sure, will make one
15759 or the other of us think differently; and, in the meanwhile, we need not
15760 talk much on the subject.”
15761
15762 “You mistake me, you quite mistake me,” she replied, exerting herself.
15763 “It is not that such a circumstance would now make me unhappy, but I
15764 cannot believe it. It seems an impossibility!--You cannot mean to say,
15765 that Harriet Smith has accepted Robert Martin. You cannot mean that he
15766 has even proposed to her again--yet. You only mean, that he intends it.”
15767
15768 “I mean that he has done it,” answered Mr. Knightley, with smiling but
15769 determined decision, “and been accepted.”
15770
15771 “Good God!” she cried.--“Well!”--Then having recourse to her workbasket,
15772 in excuse for leaning down her face, and concealing all the exquisite
15773 feelings of delight and entertainment which she knew she must be
15774 expressing, she added, “Well, now tell me every thing; make this
15775 intelligible to me. How, where, when?--Let me know it all. I never was
15776 more surprized--but it does not make me unhappy, I assure you.--How--how
15777 has it been possible?”
15778
15779 “It is a very simple story. He went to town on business three days ago,
15780 and I got him to take charge of some papers which I was wanting to send
15781 to John.--He delivered these papers to John, at his chambers, and was
15782 asked by him to join their party the same evening to Astley’s. They were
15783 going to take the two eldest boys to Astley’s. The party was to be our
15784 brother and sister, Henry, John--and Miss Smith. My friend Robert could
15785 not resist. They called for him in their way; were all extremely amused;
15786 and my brother asked him to dine with them the next day--which he
15787 did--and in the course of that visit (as I understand) he found an
15788 opportunity of speaking to Harriet; and certainly did not speak
15789 in vain.--She made him, by her acceptance, as happy even as he is
15790 deserving. He came down by yesterday’s coach, and was with me this
15791 morning immediately after breakfast, to report his proceedings, first
15792 on my affairs, and then on his own. This is all that I can relate of
15793 the how, where, and when. Your friend Harriet will make a much
15794 longer history when you see her.--She will give you all the minute
15795 particulars, which only woman’s language can make interesting.--In our
15796 communications we deal only in the great.--However, I must say, that
15797 Robert Martin’s heart seemed for _him_, and to _me_, very overflowing;
15798 and that he did mention, without its being much to the purpose, that
15799 on quitting their box at Astley’s, my brother took charge of Mrs. John
15800 Knightley and little John, and he followed with Miss Smith and Henry;
15801 and that at one time they were in such a crowd, as to make Miss Smith
15802 rather uneasy.”
15803
15804 He stopped.--Emma dared not attempt any immediate reply. To speak, she
15805 was sure would be to betray a most unreasonable degree of happiness.
15806 She must wait a moment, or he would think her mad. Her silence disturbed
15807 him; and after observing her a little while, he added,
15808
15809 “Emma, my love, you said that this circumstance would not now make you
15810 unhappy; but I am afraid it gives you more pain than you expected. His
15811 situation is an evil--but you must consider it as what satisfies your
15812 friend; and I will answer for your thinking better and better of him
15813 as you know him more. His good sense and good principles would delight
15814 you.--As far as the man is concerned, you could not wish your friend
15815 in better hands. His rank in society I would alter if I could, which is
15816 saying a great deal I assure you, Emma.--You laugh at me about William
15817 Larkins; but I could quite as ill spare Robert Martin.”
15818
15819 He wanted her to look up and smile; and having now brought herself not
15820 to smile too broadly--she did--cheerfully answering,
15821
15822 “You need not be at any pains to reconcile me to the match. I think
15823 Harriet is doing extremely well. _Her_ connexions may be worse than
15824 _his_. In respectability of character, there can be no doubt that they
15825 are. I have been silent from surprize merely, excessive surprize. You
15826 cannot imagine how suddenly it has come on me! how peculiarly unprepared
15827 I was!--for I had reason to believe her very lately more determined
15828 against him, much more, than she was before.”
15829
15830 “You ought to know your friend best,” replied Mr. Knightley; “but I
15831 should say she was a good-tempered, soft-hearted girl, not likely to be
15832 very, very determined against any young man who told her he loved her.”
15833
15834 Emma could not help laughing as she answered, “Upon my word, I believe
15835 you know her quite as well as I do.--But, Mr. Knightley, are you
15836 perfectly sure that she has absolutely and downright _accepted_ him.
15837 I could suppose she might in time--but can she already?--Did not you
15838 misunderstand him?--You were both talking of other things; of business,
15839 shows of cattle, or new drills--and might not you, in the confusion of
15840 so many subjects, mistake him?--It was not Harriet’s hand that he was
15841 certain of--it was the dimensions of some famous ox.”
15842
15843 The contrast between the countenance and air of Mr. Knightley and Robert
15844 Martin was, at this moment, so strong to Emma’s feelings, and so strong
15845 was the recollection of all that had so recently passed on Harriet’s
15846 side, so fresh the sound of those words, spoken with such emphasis,
15847 “No, I hope I know better than to think of Robert Martin,” that she was
15848 really expecting the intelligence to prove, in some measure, premature.
15849 It could not be otherwise.
15850
15851 “Do you dare say this?” cried Mr. Knightley. “Do you dare to suppose me
15852 so great a blockhead, as not to know what a man is talking of?--What do
15853 you deserve?”
15854
15855 “Oh! I always deserve the best treatment, because I never put up with
15856 any other; and, therefore, you must give me a plain, direct answer. Are
15857 you quite sure that you understand the terms on which Mr. Martin and
15858 Harriet now are?”
15859
15860 “I am quite sure,” he replied, speaking very distinctly, “that he
15861 told me she had accepted him; and that there was no obscurity, nothing
15862 doubtful, in the words he used; and I think I can give you a proof that
15863 it must be so. He asked my opinion as to what he was now to do. He knew
15864 of no one but Mrs. Goddard to whom he could apply for information of
15865 her relations or friends. Could I mention any thing more fit to be done,
15866 than to go to Mrs. Goddard? I assured him that I could not. Then, he
15867 said, he would endeavour to see her in the course of this day.”
15868
15869 “I am perfectly satisfied,” replied Emma, with the brightest smiles,
15870 “and most sincerely wish them happy.”
15871
15872 “You are materially changed since we talked on this subject before.”
15873
15874 “I hope so--for at that time I was a fool.”
15875
15876 “And I am changed also; for I am now very willing to grant you all
15877 Harriet’s good qualities. I have taken some pains for your sake, and for
15878 Robert Martin’s sake, (whom I have always had reason to believe as much
15879 in love with her as ever,) to get acquainted with her. I have often
15880 talked to her a good deal. You must have seen that I did. Sometimes,
15881 indeed, I have thought you were half suspecting me of pleading poor
15882 Martin’s cause, which was never the case; but, from all my observations,
15883 I am convinced of her being an artless, amiable girl, with very good
15884 notions, very seriously good principles, and placing her happiness in
15885 the affections and utility of domestic life.--Much of this, I have no
15886 doubt, she may thank you for.”
15887
15888 “Me!” cried Emma, shaking her head.--“Ah! poor Harriet!”
15889
15890 She checked herself, however, and submitted quietly to a little more
15891 praise than she deserved.
15892
15893 Their conversation was soon afterwards closed by the entrance of her
15894 father. She was not sorry. She wanted to be alone. Her mind was in a
15895 state of flutter and wonder, which made it impossible for her to be
15896 collected. She was in dancing, singing, exclaiming spirits; and till she
15897 had moved about, and talked to herself, and laughed and reflected, she
15898 could be fit for nothing rational.
15899
15900 Her father’s business was to announce James’s being gone out to put the
15901 horses to, preparatory to their now daily drive to Randalls; and she
15902 had, therefore, an immediate excuse for disappearing.
15903
15904 The joy, the gratitude, the exquisite delight of her sensations may be
15905 imagined. The sole grievance and alloy thus removed in the prospect of
15906 Harriet’s welfare, she was really in danger of becoming too happy for
15907 security.--What had she to wish for? Nothing, but to grow more worthy of
15908 him, whose intentions and judgment had been ever so superior to her own.
15909 Nothing, but that the lessons of her past folly might teach her humility
15910 and circumspection in future.
15911
15912 Serious she was, very serious in her thankfulness, and in her
15913 resolutions; and yet there was no preventing a laugh, sometimes in the
15914 very midst of them. She must laugh at such a close! Such an end of the
15915 doleful disappointment of five weeks back! Such a heart--such a Harriet!
15916
15917 Now there would be pleasure in her returning--Every thing would be a
15918 pleasure. It would be a great pleasure to know Robert Martin.
15919
15920 High in the rank of her most serious and heartfelt felicities, was the
15921 reflection that all necessity of concealment from Mr. Knightley would
15922 soon be over. The disguise, equivocation, mystery, so hateful to her to
15923 practise, might soon be over. She could now look forward to giving him
15924 that full and perfect confidence which her disposition was most ready to
15925 welcome as a duty.
15926
15927 In the gayest and happiest spirits she set forward with her father; not
15928 always listening, but always agreeing to what he said; and, whether in
15929 speech or silence, conniving at the comfortable persuasion of his
15930 being obliged to go to Randalls every day, or poor Mrs. Weston would be
15931 disappointed.
15932
15933 They arrived.--Mrs. Weston was alone in the drawing-room:--but hardly
15934 had they been told of the baby, and Mr. Woodhouse received the thanks
15935 for coming, which he asked for, when a glimpse was caught through the
15936 blind, of two figures passing near the window.
15937
15938 “It is Frank and Miss Fairfax,” said Mrs. Weston. “I was just going to
15939 tell you of our agreeable surprize in seeing him arrive this morning. He
15940 stays till to-morrow, and Miss Fairfax has been persuaded to spend the
15941 day with us.--They are coming in, I hope.”
15942
15943 In half a minute they were in the room. Emma was extremely glad to
15944 see him--but there was a degree of confusion--a number of embarrassing
15945 recollections on each side. They met readily and smiling, but with a
15946 consciousness which at first allowed little to be said; and having all
15947 sat down again, there was for some time such a blank in the circle, that
15948 Emma began to doubt whether the wish now indulged, which she had long
15949 felt, of seeing Frank Churchill once more, and of seeing him with Jane,
15950 would yield its proportion of pleasure. When Mr. Weston joined the
15951 party, however, and when the baby was fetched, there was no longer a
15952 want of subject or animation--or of courage and opportunity for Frank
15953 Churchill to draw near her and say,
15954
15955 “I have to thank you, Miss Woodhouse, for a very kind forgiving message
15956 in one of Mrs. Weston’s letters. I hope time has not made you less
15957 willing to pardon. I hope you do not retract what you then said.”
15958
15959 “No, indeed,” cried Emma, most happy to begin, “not in the least. I am
15960 particularly glad to see and shake hands with you--and to give you joy
15961 in person.”
15962
15963 He thanked her with all his heart, and continued some time to speak with
15964 serious feeling of his gratitude and happiness.
15965
15966 “Is not she looking well?” said he, turning his eyes towards Jane.
15967 “Better than she ever used to do?--You see how my father and Mrs. Weston
15968 doat upon her.”
15969
15970 But his spirits were soon rising again, and with laughing eyes, after
15971 mentioning the expected return of the Campbells, he named the name of
15972 Dixon.--Emma blushed, and forbade its being pronounced in her hearing.
15973
15974 “I can never think of it,” she cried, “without extreme shame.”
15975
15976 “The shame,” he answered, “is all mine, or ought to be. But is it
15977 possible that you had no suspicion?--I mean of late. Early, I know, you
15978 had none.”
15979
15980 “I never had the smallest, I assure you.”
15981
15982 “That appears quite wonderful. I was once very near--and I wish I
15983 had--it would have been better. But though I was always doing wrong
15984 things, they were very bad wrong things, and such as did me no
15985 service.--It would have been a much better transgression had I broken
15986 the bond of secrecy and told you every thing.”
15987
15988 “It is not now worth a regret,” said Emma.
15989
15990 “I have some hope,” resumed he, “of my uncle’s being persuaded to pay a
15991 visit at Randalls; he wants to be introduced to her. When the Campbells
15992 are returned, we shall meet them in London, and continue there, I trust,
15993 till we may carry her northward.--But now, I am at such a distance from
15994 her--is not it hard, Miss Woodhouse?--Till this morning, we have not
15995 once met since the day of reconciliation. Do not you pity me?”
15996
15997 Emma spoke her pity so very kindly, that with a sudden accession of gay
15998 thought, he cried,
15999
16000 “Ah! by the bye,” then sinking his voice, and looking demure for the
16001 moment--“I hope Mr. Knightley is well?” He paused.--She coloured and
16002 laughed.--“I know you saw my letter, and think you may remember my wish
16003 in your favour. Let me return your congratulations.--I assure you that
16004 I have heard the news with the warmest interest and satisfaction.--He is
16005 a man whom I cannot presume to praise.”
16006
16007 Emma was delighted, and only wanted him to go on in the same style; but
16008 his mind was the next moment in his own concerns and with his own Jane,
16009 and his next words were,
16010
16011 “Did you ever see such a skin?--such smoothness! such delicacy!--and
16012 yet without being actually fair.--One cannot call her fair. It is a
16013 most uncommon complexion, with her dark eye-lashes and hair--a most
16014 distinguishing complexion! So peculiarly the lady in it.--Just colour
16015 enough for beauty.”
16016
16017 “I have always admired her complexion,” replied Emma, archly; “but
16018 do not I remember the time when you found fault with her for being so
16019 pale?--When we first began to talk of her.--Have you quite forgotten?”
16020
16021 “Oh! no--what an impudent dog I was!--How could I dare--”
16022
16023 But he laughed so heartily at the recollection, that Emma could not help
16024 saying,
16025
16026 “I do suspect that in the midst of your perplexities at that time, you
16027 had very great amusement in tricking us all.--I am sure you had.--I am
16028 sure it was a consolation to you.”
16029
16030 “Oh! no, no, no--how can you suspect me of such a thing? I was the most
16031 miserable wretch!”
16032
16033 “Not quite so miserable as to be insensible to mirth. I am sure it was a
16034 source of high entertainment to you, to feel that you were taking us
16035 all in.--Perhaps I am the readier to suspect, because, to tell you the
16036 truth, I think it might have been some amusement to myself in the same
16037 situation. I think there is a little likeness between us.”
16038
16039 He bowed.
16040
16041 “If not in our dispositions,” she presently added, with a look of true
16042 sensibility, “there is a likeness in our destiny; the destiny which bids
16043 fair to connect us with two characters so much superior to our own.”
16044
16045 “True, true,” he answered, warmly. “No, not true on your side. You can
16046 have no superior, but most true on mine.--She is a complete angel. Look
16047 at her. Is not she an angel in every gesture? Observe the turn of her
16048 throat. Observe her eyes, as she is looking up at my father.--You will
16049 be glad to hear (inclining his head, and whispering seriously) that my
16050 uncle means to give her all my aunt’s jewels. They are to be new set.
16051 I am resolved to have some in an ornament for the head. Will not it be
16052 beautiful in her dark hair?”
16053
16054 “Very beautiful, indeed,” replied Emma; and she spoke so kindly, that he
16055 gratefully burst out,
16056
16057 “How delighted I am to see you again! and to see you in such excellent
16058 looks!--I would not have missed this meeting for the world. I should
16059 certainly have called at Hartfield, had you failed to come.”
16060
16061 The others had been talking of the child, Mrs. Weston giving an account
16062 of a little alarm she had been under, the evening before, from the
16063 infant’s appearing not quite well. She believed she had been foolish,
16064 but it had alarmed her, and she had been within half a minute of sending
16065 for Mr. Perry. Perhaps she ought to be ashamed, but Mr. Weston had been
16066 almost as uneasy as herself.--In ten minutes, however, the child had
16067 been perfectly well again. This was her history; and particularly
16068 interesting it was to Mr. Woodhouse, who commended her very much for
16069 thinking of sending for Perry, and only regretted that she had not done
16070 it. “She should always send for Perry, if the child appeared in the
16071 slightest degree disordered, were it only for a moment. She could not be
16072 too soon alarmed, nor send for Perry too often. It was a pity, perhaps,
16073 that he had not come last night; for, though the child seemed well now,
16074 very well considering, it would probably have been better if Perry had
16075 seen it.”
16076
16077 Frank Churchill caught the name.
16078
16079 “Perry!” said he to Emma, and trying, as he spoke, to catch Miss
16080 Fairfax’s eye. “My friend Mr. Perry! What are they saying about Mr.
16081 Perry?--Has he been here this morning?--And how does he travel now?--Has
16082 he set up his carriage?”
16083
16084 Emma soon recollected, and understood him; and while she joined in the
16085 laugh, it was evident from Jane’s countenance that she too was really
16086 hearing him, though trying to seem deaf.
16087
16088 “Such an extraordinary dream of mine!” he cried. “I can never think of
16089 it without laughing.--She hears us, she hears us, Miss Woodhouse. I see
16090 it in her cheek, her smile, her vain attempt to frown. Look at her. Do
16091 not you see that, at this instant, the very passage of her own letter,
16092 which sent me the report, is passing under her eye--that the whole
16093 blunder is spread before her--that she can attend to nothing else,
16094 though pretending to listen to the others?”
16095
16096 Jane was forced to smile completely, for a moment; and the smile partly
16097 remained as she turned towards him, and said in a conscious, low, yet
16098 steady voice,
16099
16100 “How you can bear such recollections, is astonishing to me!--They
16101 _will_ sometimes obtrude--but how you can court them!”
16102
16103 He had a great deal to say in return, and very entertainingly; but
16104 Emma’s feelings were chiefly with Jane, in the argument; and on leaving
16105 Randalls, and falling naturally into a comparison of the two men, she
16106 felt, that pleased as she had been to see Frank Churchill, and really
16107 regarding him as she did with friendship, she had never been more
16108 sensible of Mr. Knightley’s high superiority of character. The happiness
16109 of this most happy day, received its completion, in the animated
16110 contemplation of his worth which this comparison produced.
16111
16112
16113
16114 CHAPTER XIX
16115
16116
16117 If Emma had still, at intervals, an anxious feeling for Harriet, a
16118 momentary doubt of its being possible for her to be really cured of her
16119 attachment to Mr. Knightley, and really able to accept another man from
16120 unbiased inclination, it was not long that she had to suffer from the
16121 recurrence of any such uncertainty. A very few days brought the party
16122 from London, and she had no sooner an opportunity of being one hour
16123 alone with Harriet, than she became perfectly satisfied--unaccountable
16124 as it was!--that Robert Martin had thoroughly supplanted Mr. Knightley,
16125 and was now forming all her views of happiness.
16126
16127 Harriet was a little distressed--did look a little foolish at first:
16128 but having once owned that she had been presumptuous and silly, and
16129 self-deceived, before, her pain and confusion seemed to die away with
16130 the words, and leave her without a care for the past, and with the
16131 fullest exultation in the present and future; for, as to her friend’s
16132 approbation, Emma had instantly removed every fear of that nature, by
16133 meeting her with the most unqualified congratulations.--Harriet was
16134 most happy to give every particular of the evening at Astley’s, and the
16135 dinner the next day; she could dwell on it all with the utmost delight.
16136 But what did such particulars explain?--The fact was, as Emma could now
16137 acknowledge, that Harriet had always liked Robert Martin; and that his
16138 continuing to love her had been irresistible.--Beyond this, it must ever
16139 be unintelligible to Emma.
16140
16141 The event, however, was most joyful; and every day was giving her fresh
16142 reason for thinking so.--Harriet’s parentage became known. She proved
16143 to be the daughter of a tradesman, rich enough to afford her the
16144 comfortable maintenance which had ever been hers, and decent enough to
16145 have always wished for concealment.--Such was the blood of gentility
16146 which Emma had formerly been so ready to vouch for!--It was likely to
16147 be as untainted, perhaps, as the blood of many a gentleman: but what
16148 a connexion had she been preparing for Mr. Knightley--or for the
16149 Churchills--or even for Mr. Elton!--The stain of illegitimacy,
16150 unbleached by nobility or wealth, would have been a stain indeed.
16151
16152 No objection was raised on the father’s side; the young man was treated
16153 liberally; it was all as it should be: and as Emma became acquainted
16154 with Robert Martin, who was now introduced at Hartfield, she fully
16155 acknowledged in him all the appearance of sense and worth which could
16156 bid fairest for her little friend. She had no doubt of Harriet’s
16157 happiness with any good-tempered man; but with him, and in the home he
16158 offered, there would be the hope of more, of security, stability, and
16159 improvement. She would be placed in the midst of those who loved her,
16160 and who had better sense than herself; retired enough for safety,
16161 and occupied enough for cheerfulness. She would be never led into
16162 temptation, nor left for it to find her out. She would be respectable
16163 and happy; and Emma admitted her to be the luckiest creature in the
16164 world, to have created so steady and persevering an affection in such a
16165 man;--or, if not quite the luckiest, to yield only to herself.
16166
16167 Harriet, necessarily drawn away by her engagements with the Martins,
16168 was less and less at Hartfield; which was not to be regretted.--The
16169 intimacy between her and Emma must sink; their friendship must change
16170 into a calmer sort of goodwill; and, fortunately, what ought to be,
16171 and must be, seemed already beginning, and in the most gradual, natural
16172 manner.
16173
16174 Before the end of September, Emma attended Harriet to church, and saw
16175 her hand bestowed on Robert Martin with so complete a satisfaction, as
16176 no remembrances, even connected with Mr. Elton as he stood before them,
16177 could impair.--Perhaps, indeed, at that time she scarcely saw Mr. Elton,
16178 but as the clergyman whose blessing at the altar might next fall on
16179 herself.--Robert Martin and Harriet Smith, the latest couple engaged of
16180 the three, were the first to be married.
16181
16182 Jane Fairfax had already quitted Highbury, and was restored to the
16183 comforts of her beloved home with the Campbells.--The Mr. Churchills
16184 were also in town; and they were only waiting for November.
16185
16186 The intermediate month was the one fixed on, as far as they dared, by
16187 Emma and Mr. Knightley.--They had determined that their marriage ought
16188 to be concluded while John and Isabella were still at Hartfield, to
16189 allow them the fortnight’s absence in a tour to the seaside, which was
16190 the plan.--John and Isabella, and every other friend, were agreed in
16191 approving it. But Mr. Woodhouse--how was Mr. Woodhouse to be induced
16192 to consent?--he, who had never yet alluded to their marriage but as a
16193 distant event.
16194
16195 When first sounded on the subject, he was so miserable, that they were
16196 almost hopeless.--A second allusion, indeed, gave less pain.--He
16197 began to think it was to be, and that he could not prevent it--a very
16198 promising step of the mind on its way to resignation. Still, however, he
16199 was not happy. Nay, he appeared so much otherwise, that his daughter’s
16200 courage failed. She could not bear to see him suffering, to know
16201 him fancying himself neglected; and though her understanding almost
16202 acquiesced in the assurance of both the Mr. Knightleys, that when
16203 once the event were over, his distress would be soon over too, she
16204 hesitated--she could not proceed.
16205
16206 In this state of suspense they were befriended, not by any sudden
16207 illumination of Mr. Woodhouse’s mind, or any wonderful change of his
16208 nervous system, but by the operation of the same system in another
16209 way.--Mrs. Weston’s poultry-house was robbed one night of all her
16210 turkeys--evidently by the ingenuity of man. Other poultry-yards in
16211 the neighbourhood also suffered.--Pilfering was _housebreaking_ to Mr.
16212 Woodhouse’s fears.--He was very uneasy; and but for the sense of his
16213 son-in-law’s protection, would have been under wretched alarm every
16214 night of his life. The strength, resolution, and presence of mind of the
16215 Mr. Knightleys, commanded his fullest dependence. While either of them
16216 protected him and his, Hartfield was safe.--But Mr. John Knightley must
16217 be in London again by the end of the first week in November.
16218
16219 The result of this distress was, that, with a much more voluntary,
16220 cheerful consent than his daughter had ever presumed to hope for at the
16221 moment, she was able to fix her wedding-day--and Mr. Elton was called
16222 on, within a month from the marriage of Mr. and Mrs. Robert Martin, to
16223 join the hands of Mr. Knightley and Miss Woodhouse.
16224
16225 The wedding was very much like other weddings, where the parties have
16226 no taste for finery or parade; and Mrs. Elton, from the particulars
16227 detailed by her husband, thought it all extremely shabby, and very
16228 inferior to her own.--“Very little white satin, very few lace veils; a
16229 most pitiful business!--Selina would stare when she heard of it.”--But,
16230 in spite of these deficiencies, the wishes, the hopes, the confidence,
16231 the predictions of the small band of true friends who witnessed the
16232 ceremony, were fully answered in the perfect happiness of the union.
16233
16234
16235
16236 FINIS