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1 SILAS MARNER
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3 The Weaver of Raveloe
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6 by
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8 George Eliot
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10 (Mary Anne Evans)
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14 1861
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18 "A child, more than all other gifts
19 That earth can offer to declining man,
20 Brings hope with it, and forward-looking thoughts."
21 --WORDSWORTH.
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26 PART ONE
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30 CHAPTER I
31
32 In the days when the spinning-wheels hummed busily in the
33 farmhouses--and even great ladies, clothed in silk and thread-lace, had
34 their toy spinning-wheels of polished oak--there might be seen in
35 districts far away among the lanes, or deep in the bosom of the hills,
36 certain pallid undersized men, who, by the side of the brawny
37 country-folk, looked like the remnants of a disinherited race. The
38 shepherd's dog barked fiercely when one of these alien-looking men
39 appeared on the upland, dark against the early winter sunset; for what
40 dog likes a figure bent under a heavy bag?--and these pale men rarely
41 stirred abroad without that mysterious burden. The shepherd himself,
42 though he had good reason to believe that the bag held nothing but
43 flaxen thread, or else the long rolls of strong linen spun from that
44 thread, was not quite sure that this trade of weaving, indispensable
45 though it was, could be carried on entirely without the help of the
46 Evil One. In that far-off time superstition clung easily round every
47 person or thing that was at all unwonted, or even intermittent and
48 occasional merely, like the visits of the pedlar or the knife-grinder.
49 No one knew where wandering men had their homes or their origin; and
50 how was a man to be explained unless you at least knew somebody who
51 knew his father and mother? To the peasants of old times, the world
52 outside their own direct experience was a region of vagueness and
53 mystery: to their untravelled thought a state of wandering was a
54 conception as dim as the winter life of the swallows that came back
55 with the spring; and even a settler, if he came from distant parts,
56 hardly ever ceased to be viewed with a remnant of distrust, which would
57 have prevented any surprise if a long course of inoffensive conduct on
58 his part had ended in the commission of a crime; especially if he had
59 any reputation for knowledge, or showed any skill in handicraft. All
60 cleverness, whether in the rapid use of that difficult instrument the
61 tongue, or in some other art unfamiliar to villagers, was in itself
62 suspicious: honest folk, born and bred in a visible manner, were mostly
63 not overwise or clever--at least, not beyond such a matter as knowing
64 the signs of the weather; and the process by which rapidity and
65 dexterity of any kind were acquired was so wholly hidden, that they
66 partook of the nature of conjuring. In this way it came to pass that
67 those scattered linen-weavers--emigrants from the town into the
68 country--were to the last regarded as aliens by their rustic
69 neighbours, and usually contracted the eccentric habits which belong to
70 a state of loneliness.
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72 In the early years of this century, such a linen-weaver, named Silas
73 Marner, worked at his vocation in a stone cottage that stood among the
74 nutty hedgerows near the village of Raveloe, and not far from the edge
75 of a deserted stone-pit. The questionable sound of Silas's loom, so
76 unlike the natural cheerful trotting of the winnowing-machine, or the
77 simpler rhythm of the flail, had a half-fearful fascination for the
78 Raveloe boys, who would often leave off their nutting or birds'-nesting
79 to peep in at the window of the stone cottage, counterbalancing a
80 certain awe at the mysterious action of the loom, by a pleasant sense
81 of scornful superiority, drawn from the mockery of its alternating
82 noises, along with the bent, tread-mill attitude of the weaver. But
83 sometimes it happened that Marner, pausing to adjust an irregularity in
84 his thread, became aware of the small scoundrels, and, though chary of
85 his time, he liked their intrusion so ill that he would descend from
86 his loom, and, opening the door, would fix on them a gaze that was
87 always enough to make them take to their legs in terror. For how was
88 it possible to believe that those large brown protuberant eyes in Silas
89 Marner's pale face really saw nothing very distinctly that was not
90 close to them, and not rather that their dreadful stare could dart
91 cramp, or rickets, or a wry mouth at any boy who happened to be in the
92 rear? They had, perhaps, heard their fathers and mothers hint that
93 Silas Marner could cure folks' rheumatism if he had a mind, and add,
94 still more darkly, that if you could only speak the devil fair enough,
95 he might save you the cost of the doctor. Such strange lingering
96 echoes of the old demon-worship might perhaps even now be caught by the
97 diligent listener among the grey-haired peasantry; for the rude mind
98 with difficulty associates the ideas of power and benignity. A shadowy
99 conception of power that by much persuasion can be induced to refrain
100 from inflicting harm, is the shape most easily taken by the sense of
101 the Invisible in the minds of men who have always been pressed close by
102 primitive wants, and to whom a life of hard toil has never been
103 illuminated by any enthusiastic religious faith. To them pain and
104 mishap present a far wider range of possibilities than gladness and
105 enjoyment: their imagination is almost barren of the images that feed
106 desire and hope, but is all overgrown by recollections that are a
107 perpetual pasture to fear. "Is there anything you can fancy that you
108 would like to eat?" I once said to an old labouring man, who was in
109 his last illness, and who had refused all the food his wife had offered
110 him. "No," he answered, "I've never been used to nothing but common
111 victual, and I can't eat that." Experience had bred no fancies in him
112 that could raise the phantasm of appetite.
113
114 And Raveloe was a village where many of the old echoes lingered,
115 undrowned by new voices. Not that it was one of those barren parishes
116 lying on the outskirts of civilization--inhabited by meagre sheep and
117 thinly-scattered shepherds: on the contrary, it lay in the rich central
118 plain of what we are pleased to call Merry England, and held farms
119 which, speaking from a spiritual point of view, paid highly-desirable
120 tithes. But it was nestled in a snug well-wooded hollow, quite an
121 hour's journey on horseback from any turnpike, where it was never
122 reached by the vibrations of the coach-horn, or of public opinion. It
123 was an important-looking village, with a fine old church and large
124 churchyard in the heart of it, and two or three large brick-and-stone
125 homesteads, with well-walled orchards and ornamental weathercocks,
126 standing close upon the road, and lifting more imposing fronts than the
127 rectory, which peeped from among the trees on the other side of the
128 churchyard:--a village which showed at once the summits of its social
129 life, and told the practised eye that there was no great park and
130 manor-house in the vicinity, but that there were several chiefs in
131 Raveloe who could farm badly quite at their ease, drawing enough money
132 from their bad farming, in those war times, to live in a rollicking
133 fashion, and keep a jolly Christmas, Whitsun, and Easter tide.
134
135 It was fifteen years since Silas Marner had first come to Raveloe; he
136 was then simply a pallid young man, with prominent short-sighted brown
137 eyes, whose appearance would have had nothing strange for people of
138 average culture and experience, but for the villagers near whom he had
139 come to settle it had mysterious peculiarities which corresponded with
140 the exceptional nature of his occupation, and his advent from an
141 unknown region called "North'ard". So had his way of life:--he invited
142 no comer to step across his door-sill, and he never strolled into the
143 village to drink a pint at the Rainbow, or to gossip at the
144 wheelwright's: he sought no man or woman, save for the purposes of his
145 calling, or in order to supply himself with necessaries; and it was
146 soon clear to the Raveloe lasses that he would never urge one of them
147 to accept him against her will--quite as if he had heard them declare
148 that they would never marry a dead man come to life again. This view
149 of Marner's personality was not without another ground than his pale
150 face and unexampled eyes; for Jem Rodney, the mole-catcher, averred
151 that one evening as he was returning homeward, he saw Silas Marner
152 leaning against a stile with a heavy bag on his back, instead of
153 resting the bag on the stile as a man in his senses would have done;
154 and that, on coming up to him, he saw that Marner's eyes were set like
155 a dead man's, and he spoke to him, and shook him, and his limbs were
156 stiff, and his hands clutched the bag as if they'd been made of iron;
157 but just as he had made up his mind that the weaver was dead, he came
158 all right again, like, as you might say, in the winking of an eye, and
159 said "Good-night", and walked off. All this Jem swore he had seen,
160 more by token that it was the very day he had been mole-catching on
161 Squire Cass's land, down by the old saw-pit. Some said Marner must
162 have been in a "fit", a word which seemed to explain things otherwise
163 incredible; but the argumentative Mr. Macey, clerk of the parish, shook
164 his head, and asked if anybody was ever known to go off in a fit and
165 not fall down. A fit was a stroke, wasn't it? and it was in the
166 nature of a stroke to partly take away the use of a man's limbs and
167 throw him on the parish, if he'd got no children to look to. No, no;
168 it was no stroke that would let a man stand on his legs, like a horse
169 between the shafts, and then walk off as soon as you can say "Gee!"
170 But there might be such a thing as a man's soul being loose from his
171 body, and going out and in, like a bird out of its nest and back; and
172 that was how folks got over-wise, for they went to school in this
173 shell-less state to those who could teach them more than their
174 neighbours could learn with their five senses and the parson. And
175 where did Master Marner get his knowledge of herbs from--and charms
176 too, if he liked to give them away? Jem Rodney's story was no more
177 than what might have been expected by anybody who had seen how Marner
178 had cured Sally Oates, and made her sleep like a baby, when her heart
179 had been beating enough to burst her body, for two months and more,
180 while she had been under the doctor's care. He might cure more folks
181 if he would; but he was worth speaking fair, if it was only to keep him
182 from doing you a mischief.
183
184 It was partly to this vague fear that Marner was indebted for
185 protecting him from the persecution that his singularities might have
186 drawn upon him, but still more to the fact that, the old linen-weaver
187 in the neighbouring parish of Tarley being dead, his handicraft made
188 him a highly welcome settler to the richer housewives of the district,
189 and even to the more provident cottagers, who had their little stock of
190 yarn at the year's end. Their sense of his usefulness would have
191 counteracted any repugnance or suspicion which was not confirmed by a
192 deficiency in the quality or the tale of the cloth he wove for them.
193 And the years had rolled on without producing any change in the
194 impressions of the neighbours concerning Marner, except the change from
195 novelty to habit. At the end of fifteen years the Raveloe men said
196 just the same things about Silas Marner as at the beginning: they did
197 not say them quite so often, but they believed them much more strongly
198 when they did say them. There was only one important addition which
199 the years had brought: it was, that Master Marner had laid by a fine
200 sight of money somewhere, and that he could buy up "bigger men" than
201 himself.
202
203 But while opinion concerning him had remained nearly stationary, and
204 his daily habits had presented scarcely any visible change, Marner's
205 inward life had been a history and a metamorphosis, as that of every
206 fervid nature must be when it has fled, or been condemned, to solitude.
207 His life, before he came to Raveloe, had been filled with the movement,
208 the mental activity, and the close fellowship, which, in that day as in
209 this, marked the life of an artisan early incorporated in a narrow
210 religious sect, where the poorest layman has the chance of
211 distinguishing himself by gifts of speech, and has, at the very least,
212 the weight of a silent voter in the government of his community.
213 Marner was highly thought of in that little hidden world, known to
214 itself as the church assembling in Lantern Yard; he was believed to be
215 a young man of exemplary life and ardent faith; and a peculiar interest
216 had been centred in him ever since he had fallen, at a prayer-meeting,
217 into a mysterious rigidity and suspension of consciousness, which,
218 lasting for an hour or more, had been mistaken for death. To have
219 sought a medical explanation for this phenomenon would have been held
220 by Silas himself, as well as by his minister and fellow-members, a
221 wilful self-exclusion from the spiritual significance that might lie
222 therein. Silas was evidently a brother selected for a peculiar
223 discipline; and though the effort to interpret this discipline was
224 discouraged by the absence, on his part, of any spiritual vision during
225 his outward trance, yet it was believed by himself and others that its
226 effect was seen in an accession of light and fervour. A less truthful
227 man than he might have been tempted into the subsequent creation of a
228 vision in the form of resurgent memory; a less sane man might have
229 believed in such a creation; but Silas was both sane and honest,
230 though, as with many honest and fervent men, culture had not defined
231 any channels for his sense of mystery, and so it spread itself over the
232 proper pathway of inquiry and knowledge. He had inherited from his
233 mother some acquaintance with medicinal herbs and their preparation--a
234 little store of wisdom which she had imparted to him as a solemn
235 bequest--but of late years he had had doubts about the lawfulness of
236 applying this knowledge, believing that herbs could have no efficacy
237 without prayer, and that prayer might suffice without herbs; so that
238 the inherited delight he had in wandering in the fields in search of
239 foxglove and dandelion and coltsfoot, began to wear to him the
240 character of a temptation.
241
242 Among the members of his church there was one young man, a little older
243 than himself, with whom he had long lived in such close friendship that
244 it was the custom of their Lantern Yard brethren to call them David and
245 Jonathan. The real name of the friend was William Dane, and he, too,
246 was regarded as a shining instance of youthful piety, though somewhat
247 given to over-severity towards weaker brethren, and to be so dazzled by
248 his own light as to hold himself wiser than his teachers. But whatever
249 blemishes others might discern in William, to his friend's mind he was
250 faultless; for Marner had one of those impressible self-doubting
251 natures which, at an inexperienced age, admire imperativeness and lean
252 on contradiction. The expression of trusting simplicity in Marner's
253 face, heightened by that absence of special observation, that
254 defenceless, deer-like gaze which belongs to large prominent eyes, was
255 strongly contrasted by the self-complacent suppression of inward
256 triumph that lurked in the narrow slanting eyes and compressed lips of
257 William Dane. One of the most frequent topics of conversation between
258 the two friends was Assurance of salvation: Silas confessed that he
259 could never arrive at anything higher than hope mingled with fear, and
260 listened with longing wonder when William declared that he had
261 possessed unshaken assurance ever since, in the period of his
262 conversion, he had dreamed that he saw the words "calling and election
263 sure" standing by themselves on a white page in the open Bible. Such
264 colloquies have occupied many a pair of pale-faced weavers, whose
265 unnurtured souls have been like young winged things, fluttering
266 forsaken in the twilight.
267
268 It had seemed to the unsuspecting Silas that the friendship had
269 suffered no chill even from his formation of another attachment of a
270 closer kind. For some months he had been engaged to a young
271 servant-woman, waiting only for a little increase to their mutual
272 savings in order to their marriage; and it was a great delight to him
273 that Sarah did not object to William's occasional presence in their
274 Sunday interviews. It was at this point in their history that Silas's
275 cataleptic fit occurred during the prayer-meeting; and amidst the
276 various queries and expressions of interest addressed to him by his
277 fellow-members, William's suggestion alone jarred with the general
278 sympathy towards a brother thus singled out for special dealings. He
279 observed that, to him, this trance looked more like a visitation of
280 Satan than a proof of divine favour, and exhorted his friend to see
281 that he hid no accursed thing within his soul. Silas, feeling bound to
282 accept rebuke and admonition as a brotherly office, felt no resentment,
283 but only pain, at his friend's doubts concerning him; and to this was
284 soon added some anxiety at the perception that Sarah's manner towards
285 him began to exhibit a strange fluctuation between an effort at an
286 increased manifestation of regard and involuntary signs of shrinking
287 and dislike. He asked her if she wished to break off their engagement;
288 but she denied this: their engagement was known to the church, and had
289 been recognized in the prayer-meetings; it could not be broken off
290 without strict investigation, and Sarah could render no reason that
291 would be sanctioned by the feeling of the community. At this time the
292 senior deacon was taken dangerously ill, and, being a childless
293 widower, he was tended night and day by some of the younger brethren or
294 sisters. Silas frequently took his turn in the night-watching with
295 William, the one relieving the other at two in the morning. The old
296 man, contrary to expectation, seemed to be on the way to recovery, when
297 one night Silas, sitting up by his bedside, observed that his usual
298 audible breathing had ceased. The candle was burning low, and he had
299 to lift it to see the patient's face distinctly. Examination convinced
300 him that the deacon was dead--had been dead some time, for the limbs
301 were rigid. Silas asked himself if he had been asleep, and looked at
302 the clock: it was already four in the morning. How was it that William
303 had not come? In much anxiety he went to seek for help, and soon there
304 were several friends assembled in the house, the minister among them,
305 while Silas went away to his work, wishing he could have met William to
306 know the reason of his non-appearance. But at six o'clock, as he was
307 thinking of going to seek his friend, William came, and with him the
308 minister. They came to summon him to Lantern Yard, to meet the church
309 members there; and to his inquiry concerning the cause of the summons
310 the only reply was, "You will hear." Nothing further was said until
311 Silas was seated in the vestry, in front of the minister, with the eyes
312 of those who to him represented God's people fixed solemnly upon him.
313 Then the minister, taking out a pocket-knife, showed it to Silas, and
314 asked him if he knew where he had left that knife? Silas said, he did
315 not know that he had left it anywhere out of his own pocket--but he was
316 trembling at this strange interrogation. He was then exhorted not to
317 hide his sin, but to confess and repent. The knife had been found in
318 the bureau by the departed deacon's bedside--found in the place where
319 the little bag of church money had lain, which the minister himself had
320 seen the day before. Some hand had removed that bag; and whose hand
321 could it be, if not that of the man to whom the knife belonged? For
322 some time Silas was mute with astonishment: then he said, "God will
323 clear me: I know nothing about the knife being there, or the money
324 being gone. Search me and my dwelling; you will find nothing but three
325 pound five of my own savings, which William Dane knows I have had these
326 six months." At this William groaned, but the minister said, "The
327 proof is heavy against you, brother Marner. The money was taken in the
328 night last past, and no man was with our departed brother but you, for
329 William Dane declares to us that he was hindered by sudden sickness
330 from going to take his place as usual, and you yourself said that he
331 had not come; and, moreover, you neglected the dead body."
332
333 "I must have slept," said Silas. Then, after a pause, he added, "Or I
334 must have had another visitation like that which you have all seen me
335 under, so that the thief must have come and gone while I was not in the
336 body, but out of the body. But, I say again, search me and my
337 dwelling, for I have been nowhere else."
338
339 The search was made, and it ended--in William Dane's finding the
340 well-known bag, empty, tucked behind the chest of drawers in Silas's
341 chamber! On this William exhorted his friend to confess, and not to
342 hide his sin any longer. Silas turned a look of keen reproach on him,
343 and said, "William, for nine years that we have gone in and out
344 together, have you ever known me tell a lie? But God will clear me."
345
346 "Brother," said William, "how do I know what you may have done in the
347 secret chambers of your heart, to give Satan an advantage over you?"
348
349 Silas was still looking at his friend. Suddenly a deep flush came over
350 his face, and he was about to speak impetuously, when he seemed checked
351 again by some inward shock, that sent the flush back and made him
352 tremble. But at last he spoke feebly, looking at William.
353
354 "I remember now--the knife wasn't in my pocket."
355
356 William said, "I know nothing of what you mean." The other persons
357 present, however, began to inquire where Silas meant to say that the
358 knife was, but he would give no further explanation: he only said, "I
359 am sore stricken; I can say nothing. God will clear me."
360
361 On their return to the vestry there was further deliberation. Any
362 resort to legal measures for ascertaining the culprit was contrary to
363 the principles of the church in Lantern Yard, according to which
364 prosecution was forbidden to Christians, even had the case held less
365 scandal to the community. But the members were bound to take other
366 measures for finding out the truth, and they resolved on praying and
367 drawing lots. This resolution can be a ground of surprise only to
368 those who are unacquainted with that obscure religious life which has
369 gone on in the alleys of our towns. Silas knelt with his brethren,
370 relying on his own innocence being certified by immediate divine
371 interference, but feeling that there was sorrow and mourning behind for
372 him even then--that his trust in man had been cruelly bruised. _The
373 lots declared that Silas Marner was guilty._ He was solemnly suspended
374 from church-membership, and called upon to render up the stolen money:
375 only on confession, as the sign of repentance, could he be received
376 once more within the folds of the church. Marner listened in silence.
377 At last, when everyone rose to depart, he went towards William Dane and
378 said, in a voice shaken by agitation--
379
380 "The last time I remember using my knife, was when I took it out to cut
381 a strap for you. I don't remember putting it in my pocket again.
382 _You_ stole the money, and you have woven a plot to lay the sin at my
383 door. But you may prosper, for all that: there is no just God that
384 governs the earth righteously, but a God of lies, that bears witness
385 against the innocent."
386
387 There was a general shudder at this blasphemy.
388
389 William said meekly, "I leave our brethren to judge whether this is the
390 voice of Satan or not. I can do nothing but pray for you, Silas."
391
392 Poor Marner went out with that despair in his soul--that shaken trust
393 in God and man, which is little short of madness to a loving nature.
394 In the bitterness of his wounded spirit, he said to himself, "_She_
395 will cast me off too." And he reflected that, if she did not believe
396 the testimony against him, her whole faith must be upset as his was.
397 To people accustomed to reason about the forms in which their religious
398 feeling has incorporated itself, it is difficult to enter into that
399 simple, untaught state of mind in which the form and the feeling have
400 never been severed by an act of reflection. We are apt to think it
401 inevitable that a man in Marner's position should have begun to
402 question the validity of an appeal to the divine judgment by drawing
403 lots; but to him this would have been an effort of independent thought
404 such as he had never known; and he must have made the effort at a
405 moment when all his energies were turned into the anguish of
406 disappointed faith. If there is an angel who records the sorrows of
407 men as well as their sins, he knows how many and deep are the sorrows
408 that spring from false ideas for which no man is culpable.
409
410 Marner went home, and for a whole day sat alone, stunned by despair,
411 without any impulse to go to Sarah and attempt to win her belief in his
412 innocence. The second day he took refuge from benumbing unbelief, by
413 getting into his loom and working away as usual; and before many hours
414 were past, the minister and one of the deacons came to him with the
415 message from Sarah, that she held her engagement to him at an end.
416 Silas received the message mutely, and then turned away from the
417 messengers to work at his loom again. In little more than a month from
418 that time, Sarah was married to William Dane; and not long afterwards
419 it was known to the brethren in Lantern Yard that Silas Marner had
420 departed from the town.
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423
424 CHAPTER II
425
426 Even people whose lives have been made various by learning, sometimes
427 find it hard to keep a fast hold on their habitual views of life, on
428 their faith in the Invisible, nay, on the sense that their past joys
429 and sorrows are a real experience, when they are suddenly transported
430 to a new land, where the beings around them know nothing of their
431 history, and share none of their ideas--where their mother earth shows
432 another lap, and human life has other forms than those on which their
433 souls have been nourished. Minds that have been unhinged from their
434 old faith and love, have perhaps sought this Lethean influence of
435 exile, in which the past becomes dreamy because its symbols have all
436 vanished, and the present too is dreamy because it is linked with no
437 memories. But even _their_ experience may hardly enable them
438 thoroughly to imagine what was the effect on a simple weaver like Silas
439 Marner, when he left his own country and people and came to settle in
440 Raveloe. Nothing could be more unlike his native town, set within
441 sight of the widespread hillsides, than this low, wooded region, where
442 he felt hidden even from the heavens by the screening trees and
443 hedgerows. There was nothing here, when he rose in the deep morning
444 quiet and looked out on the dewy brambles and rank tufted grass, that
445 seemed to have any relation with that life centring in Lantern Yard,
446 which had once been to him the altar-place of high dispensations. The
447 whitewashed walls; the little pews where well-known figures entered
448 with a subdued rustling, and where first one well-known voice and then
449 another, pitched in a peculiar key of petition, uttered phrases at once
450 occult and familiar, like the amulet worn on the heart; the pulpit
451 where the minister delivered unquestioned doctrine, and swayed to and
452 fro, and handled the book in a long accustomed manner; the very pauses
453 between the couplets of the hymn, as it was given out, and the
454 recurrent swell of voices in song: these things had been the channel of
455 divine influences to Marner--they were the fostering home of his
456 religious emotions--they were Christianity and God's kingdom upon
457 earth. A weaver who finds hard words in his hymn-book knows nothing of
458 abstractions; as the little child knows nothing of parental love, but
459 only knows one face and one lap towards which it stretches its arms for
460 refuge and nurture.
461
462 And what could be more unlike that Lantern Yard world than the world in
463 Raveloe?--orchards looking lazy with neglected plenty; the large church
464 in the wide churchyard, which men gazed at lounging at their own doors
465 in service-time; the purple-faced farmers jogging along the lanes or
466 turning in at the Rainbow; homesteads, where men supped heavily and
467 slept in the light of the evening hearth, and where women seemed to be
468 laying up a stock of linen for the life to come. There were no lips in
469 Raveloe from which a word could fall that would stir Silas Marner's
470 benumbed faith to a sense of pain. In the early ages of the world, we
471 know, it was believed that each territory was inhabited and ruled by
472 its own divinities, so that a man could cross the bordering heights and
473 be out of the reach of his native gods, whose presence was confined to
474 the streams and the groves and the hills among which he had lived from
475 his birth. And poor Silas was vaguely conscious of something not
476 unlike the feeling of primitive men, when they fled thus, in fear or in
477 sullenness, from the face of an unpropitious deity. It seemed to him
478 that the Power he had vainly trusted in among the streets and at the
479 prayer-meetings, was very far away from this land in which he had taken
480 refuge, where men lived in careless abundance, knowing and needing
481 nothing of that trust, which, for him, had been turned to bitterness.
482 The little light he possessed spread its beams so narrowly, that
483 frustrated belief was a curtain broad enough to create for him the
484 blackness of night.
485
486 His first movement after the shock had been to work in his loom; and he
487 went on with this unremittingly, never asking himself why, now he was
488 come to Raveloe, he worked far on into the night to finish the tale of
489 Mrs. Osgood's table-linen sooner than she expected--without
490 contemplating beforehand the money she would put into his hand for the
491 work. He seemed to weave, like the spider, from pure impulse, without
492 reflection. Every man's work, pursued steadily, tends in this way to
493 become an end in itself, and so to bridge over the loveless chasms of
494 his life. Silas's hand satisfied itself with throwing the shuttle, and
495 his eye with seeing the little squares in the cloth complete themselves
496 under his effort. Then there were the calls of hunger; and Silas, in
497 his solitude, had to provide his own breakfast, dinner, and supper, to
498 fetch his own water from the well, and put his own kettle on the fire;
499 and all these immediate promptings helped, along with the weaving, to
500 reduce his life to the unquestioning activity of a spinning insect. He
501 hated the thought of the past; there was nothing that called out his
502 love and fellowship toward the strangers he had come amongst; and the
503 future was all dark, for there was no Unseen Love that cared for him.
504 Thought was arrested by utter bewilderment, now its old narrow pathway
505 was closed, and affection seemed to have died under the bruise that had
506 fallen on its keenest nerves.
507
508 But at last Mrs. Osgood's table-linen was finished, and Silas was paid
509 in gold. His earnings in his native town, where he worked for a
510 wholesale dealer, had been after a lower rate; he had been paid weekly,
511 and of his weekly earnings a large proportion had gone to objects of
512 piety and charity. Now, for the first time in his life, he had five
513 bright guineas put into his hand; no man expected a share of them, and
514 he loved no man that he should offer him a share. But what were the
515 guineas to him who saw no vista beyond countless days of weaving? It
516 was needless for him to ask that, for it was pleasant to him to feel
517 them in his palm, and look at their bright faces, which were all his
518 own: it was another element of life, like the weaving and the
519 satisfaction of hunger, subsisting quite aloof from the life of belief
520 and love from which he had been cut off. The weaver's hand had known
521 the touch of hard-won money even before the palm had grown to its full
522 breadth; for twenty years, mysterious money had stood to him as the
523 symbol of earthly good, and the immediate object of toil. He had
524 seemed to love it little in the years when every penny had its purpose
525 for him; for he loved the _purpose_ then. But now, when all purpose
526 was gone, that habit of looking towards the money and grasping it with
527 a sense of fulfilled effort made a loam that was deep enough for the
528 seeds of desire; and as Silas walked homeward across the fields in the
529 twilight, he drew out the money and thought it was brighter in the
530 gathering gloom.
531
532 About this time an incident happened which seemed to open a possibility
533 of some fellowship with his neighbours. One day, taking a pair of
534 shoes to be mended, he saw the cobbler's wife seated by the fire,
535 suffering from the terrible symptoms of heart-disease and dropsy, which
536 he had witnessed as the precursors of his mother's death. He felt a
537 rush of pity at the mingled sight and remembrance, and, recalling the
538 relief his mother had found from a simple preparation of foxglove, he
539 promised Sally Oates to bring her something that would ease her, since
540 the doctor did her no good. In this office of charity, Silas felt, for
541 the first time since he had come to Raveloe, a sense of unity between
542 his past and present life, which might have been the beginning of his
543 rescue from the insect-like existence into which his nature had shrunk.
544 But Sally Oates's disease had raised her into a personage of much
545 interest and importance among the neighbours, and the fact of her
546 having found relief from drinking Silas Marner's "stuff" became a
547 matter of general discourse. When Doctor Kimble gave physic, it was
548 natural that it should have an effect; but when a weaver, who came from
549 nobody knew where, worked wonders with a bottle of brown waters, the
550 occult character of the process was evident. Such a sort of thing had
551 not been known since the Wise Woman at Tarley died; and she had charms
552 as well as "stuff": everybody went to her when their children had fits.
553 Silas Marner must be a person of the same sort, for how did he know
554 what would bring back Sally Oates's breath, if he didn't know a fine
555 sight more than that? The Wise Woman had words that she muttered to
556 herself, so that you couldn't hear what they were, and if she tied a
557 bit of red thread round the child's toe the while, it would keep off
558 the water in the head. There were women in Raveloe, at that present
559 time, who had worn one of the Wise Woman's little bags round their
560 necks, and, in consequence, had never had an idiot child, as Ann
561 Coulter had. Silas Marner could very likely do as much, and more; and
562 now it was all clear how he should have come from unknown parts, and be
563 so "comical-looking". But Sally Oates must mind and not tell the
564 doctor, for he would be sure to set his face against Marner: he was
565 always angry about the Wise Woman, and used to threaten those who went
566 to her that they should have none of his help any more.
567
568 Silas now found himself and his cottage suddenly beset by mothers who
569 wanted him to charm away the whooping-cough, or bring back the milk,
570 and by men who wanted stuff against the rheumatics or the knots in the
571 hands; and, to secure themselves against a refusal, the applicants
572 brought silver in their palms. Silas might have driven a profitable
573 trade in charms as well as in his small list of drugs; but money on
574 this condition was no temptation to him: he had never known an impulse
575 towards falsity, and he drove one after another away with growing
576 irritation, for the news of him as a wise man had spread even to
577 Tarley, and it was long before people ceased to take long walks for the
578 sake of asking his aid. But the hope in his wisdom was at length
579 changed into dread, for no one believed him when he said he knew no
580 charms and could work no cures, and every man and woman who had an
581 accident or a new attack after applying to him, set the misfortune down
582 to Master Marner's ill-will and irritated glances. Thus it came to
583 pass that his movement of pity towards Sally Oates, which had given him
584 a transient sense of brotherhood, heightened the repulsion between him
585 and his neighbours, and made his isolation more complete.
586
587 Gradually the guineas, the crowns, and the half-crowns grew to a heap,
588 and Marner drew less and less for his own wants, trying to solve the
589 problem of keeping himself strong enough to work sixteen hours a-day on
590 as small an outlay as possible. Have not men, shut up in solitary
591 imprisonment, found an interest in marking the moments by straight
592 strokes of a certain length on the wall, until the growth of the sum of
593 straight strokes, arranged in triangles, has become a mastering
594 purpose? Do we not wile away moments of inanity or fatigued waiting by
595 repeating some trivial movement or sound, until the repetition has bred
596 a want, which is incipient habit? That will help us to understand how
597 the love of accumulating money grows an absorbing passion in men whose
598 imaginations, even in the very beginning of their hoard, showed them no
599 purpose beyond it. Marner wanted the heaps of ten to grow into a
600 square, and then into a larger square; and every added guinea, while it
601 was itself a satisfaction, bred a new desire. In this strange world,
602 made a hopeless riddle to him, he might, if he had had a less intense
603 nature, have sat weaving, weaving--looking towards the end of his
604 pattern, or towards the end of his web, till he forgot the riddle, and
605 everything else but his immediate sensations; but the money had come to
606 mark off his weaving into periods, and the money not only grew, but it
607 remained with him. He began to think it was conscious of him, as his
608 loom was, and he would on no account have exchanged those coins, which
609 had become his familiars, for other coins with unknown faces. He
610 handled them, he counted them, till their form and colour were like the
611 satisfaction of a thirst to him; but it was only in the night, when his
612 work was done, that he drew them out to enjoy their companionship. He
613 had taken up some bricks in his floor underneath his loom, and here he
614 had made a hole in which he set the iron pot that contained his guineas
615 and silver coins, covering the bricks with sand whenever he replaced
616 them. Not that the idea of being robbed presented itself often or
617 strongly to his mind: hoarding was common in country districts in those
618 days; there were old labourers in the parish of Raveloe who were known
619 to have their savings by them, probably inside their flock-beds; but
620 their rustic neighbours, though not all of them as honest as their
621 ancestors in the days of King Alfred, had not imaginations bold enough
622 to lay a plan of burglary. How could they have spent the money in
623 their own village without betraying themselves? They would be obliged
624 to "run away"--a course as dark and dubious as a balloon journey.
625
626 So, year after year, Silas Marner had lived in this solitude, his
627 guineas rising in the iron pot, and his life narrowing and hardening
628 itself more and more into a mere pulsation of desire and satisfaction
629 that had no relation to any other being. His life had reduced itself
630 to the functions of weaving and hoarding, without any contemplation of
631 an end towards which the functions tended. The same sort of process
632 has perhaps been undergone by wiser men, when they have been cut off
633 from faith and love--only, instead of a loom and a heap of guineas,
634 they have had some erudite research, some ingenious project, or some
635 well-knit theory. Strangely Marner's face and figure shrank and bent
636 themselves into a constant mechanical relation to the objects of his
637 life, so that he produced the same sort of impression as a handle or a
638 crooked tube, which has no meaning standing apart. The prominent eyes
639 that used to look trusting and dreamy, now looked as if they had been
640 made to see only one kind of thing that was very small, like tiny
641 grain, for which they hunted everywhere: and he was so withered and
642 yellow, that, though he was not yet forty, the children always called
643 him "Old Master Marner".
644
645 Yet even in this stage of withering a little incident happened, which
646 showed that the sap of affection was not all gone. It was one of his
647 daily tasks to fetch his water from a well a couple of fields off, and
648 for this purpose, ever since he came to Raveloe, he had had a brown
649 earthenware pot, which he held as his most precious utensil among the
650 very few conveniences he had granted himself. It had been his
651 companion for twelve years, always standing on the same spot, always
652 lending its handle to him in the early morning, so that its form had an
653 expression for him of willing helpfulness, and the impress of its
654 handle on his palm gave a satisfaction mingled with that of having the
655 fresh clear water. One day as he was returning from the well, he
656 stumbled against the step of the stile, and his brown pot, falling with
657 force against the stones that overarched the ditch below him, was
658 broken in three pieces. Silas picked up the pieces and carried them
659 home with grief in his heart. The brown pot could never be of use to
660 him any more, but he stuck the bits together and propped the ruin in
661 its old place for a memorial.
662
663 This is the history of Silas Marner, until the fifteenth year after he
664 came to Raveloe. The livelong day he sat in his loom, his ear filled
665 with its monotony, his eyes bent close down on the slow growth of
666 sameness in the brownish web, his muscles moving with such even
667 repetition that their pause seemed almost as much a constraint as the
668 holding of his breath. But at night came his revelry: at night he
669 closed his shutters, and made fast his doors, and drew forth his gold.
670 Long ago the heap of coins had become too large for the iron pot to
671 hold them, and he had made for them two thick leather bags, which
672 wasted no room in their resting-place, but lent themselves flexibly to
673 every corner. How the guineas shone as they came pouring out of the
674 dark leather mouths! The silver bore no large proportion in amount to
675 the gold, because the long pieces of linen which formed his chief work
676 were always partly paid for in gold, and out of the silver he supplied
677 his own bodily wants, choosing always the shillings and sixpences to
678 spend in this way. He loved the guineas best, but he would not change
679 the silver--the crowns and half-crowns that were his own earnings,
680 begotten by his labour; he loved them all. He spread them out in heaps
681 and bathed his hands in them; then he counted them and set them up in
682 regular piles, and felt their rounded outline between his thumb and
683 fingers, and thought fondly of the guineas that were only half-earned
684 by the work in his loom, as if they had been unborn children--thought
685 of the guineas that were coming slowly through the coming years,
686 through all his life, which spread far away before him, the end quite
687 hidden by countless days of weaving. No wonder his thoughts were still
688 with his loom and his money when he made his journeys through the
689 fields and the lanes to fetch and carry home his work, so that his
690 steps never wandered to the hedge-banks and the lane-side in search of
691 the once familiar herbs: these too belonged to the past, from which his
692 life had shrunk away, like a rivulet that has sunk far down from the
693 grassy fringe of its old breadth into a little shivering thread, that
694 cuts a groove for itself in the barren sand.
695
696 But about the Christmas of that fifteenth year, a second great change
697 came over Marner's life, and his history became blent in a singular
698 manner with the life of his neighbours.
699
700
701
702 CHAPTER III
703
704 The greatest man in Raveloe was Squire Cass, who lived in the large red
705 house with the handsome flight of stone steps in front and the high
706 stables behind it, nearly opposite the church. He was only one among
707 several landed parishioners, but he alone was honoured with the title
708 of Squire; for though Mr. Osgood's family was also understood to be of
709 timeless origin--the Raveloe imagination having never ventured back to
710 that fearful blank when there were no Osgoods--still, he merely owned
711 the farm he occupied; whereas Squire Cass had a tenant or two, who
712 complained of the game to him quite as if he had been a lord.
713
714 It was still that glorious war-time which was felt to be a peculiar
715 favour of Providence towards the landed interest, and the fall of
716 prices had not yet come to carry the race of small squires and yeomen
717 down that road to ruin for which extravagant habits and bad husbandry
718 were plentifully anointing their wheels. I am speaking now in relation
719 to Raveloe and the parishes that resembled it; for our old-fashioned
720 country life had many different aspects, as all life must have when it
721 is spread over a various surface, and breathed on variously by
722 multitudinous currents, from the winds of heaven to the thoughts of
723 men, which are for ever moving and crossing each other with
724 incalculable results. Raveloe lay low among the bushy trees and the
725 rutted lanes, aloof from the currents of industrial energy and Puritan
726 earnestness: the rich ate and drank freely, accepting gout and apoplexy
727 as things that ran mysteriously in respectable families, and the poor
728 thought that the rich were entirely in the right of it to lead a jolly
729 life; besides, their feasting caused a multiplication of orts, which
730 were the heirlooms of the poor. Betty Jay scented the boiling of
731 Squire Cass's hams, but her longing was arrested by the unctuous liquor
732 in which they were boiled; and when the seasons brought round the great
733 merry-makings, they were regarded on all hands as a fine thing for the
734 poor. For the Raveloe feasts were like the rounds of beef and the
735 barrels of ale--they were on a large scale, and lasted a good while,
736 especially in the winter-time. After ladies had packed up their best
737 gowns and top-knots in bandboxes, and had incurred the risk of fording
738 streams on pillions with the precious burden in rainy or snowy weather,
739 when there was no knowing how high the water would rise, it was not to
740 be supposed that they looked forward to a brief pleasure. On this
741 ground it was always contrived in the dark seasons, when there was
742 little work to be done, and the hours were long, that several
743 neighbours should keep open house in succession. So soon as Squire
744 Cass's standing dishes diminished in plenty and freshness, his guests
745 had nothing to do but to walk a little higher up the village to Mr.
746 Osgood's, at the Orchards, and they found hams and chines uncut,
747 pork-pies with the scent of the fire in them, spun butter in all its
748 freshness--everything, in fact, that appetites at leisure could desire,
749 in perhaps greater perfection, though not in greater abundance, than at
750 Squire Cass's.
751
752 For the Squire's wife had died long ago, and the Red House was without
753 that presence of the wife and mother which is the fountain of wholesome
754 love and fear in parlour and kitchen; and this helped to account not
755 only for there being more profusion than finished excellence in the
756 holiday provisions, but also for the frequency with which the proud
757 Squire condescended to preside in the parlour of the Rainbow rather
758 than under the shadow of his own dark wainscot; perhaps, also, for the
759 fact that his sons had turned out rather ill. Raveloe was not a place
760 where moral censure was severe, but it was thought a weakness in the
761 Squire that he had kept all his sons at home in idleness; and though
762 some licence was to be allowed to young men whose fathers could afford
763 it, people shook their heads at the courses of the second son, Dunstan,
764 commonly called Dunsey Cass, whose taste for swopping and betting might
765 turn out to be a sowing of something worse than wild oats. To be sure,
766 the neighbours said, it was no matter what became of Dunsey--a spiteful
767 jeering fellow, who seemed to enjoy his drink the more when other
768 people went dry--always provided that his doings did not bring trouble
769 on a family like Squire Cass's, with a monument in the church, and
770 tankards older than King George. But it would be a thousand pities if
771 Mr. Godfrey, the eldest, a fine open-faced good-natured young man who
772 was to come into the land some day, should take to going along the same
773 road with his brother, as he had seemed to do of late. If he went on
774 in that way, he would lose Miss Nancy Lammeter; for it was well known
775 that she had looked very shyly on him ever since last Whitsuntide
776 twelvemonth, when there was so much talk about his being away from home
777 days and days together. There was something wrong, more than
778 common--that was quite clear; for Mr. Godfrey didn't look half so
779 fresh-coloured and open as he used to do. At one time everybody was
780 saying, What a handsome couple he and Miss Nancy Lammeter would make!
781 and if she could come to be mistress at the Red House, there would be a
782 fine change, for the Lammeters had been brought up in that way, that
783 they never suffered a pinch of salt to be wasted, and yet everybody in
784 their household had of the best, according to his place. Such a
785 daughter-in-law would be a saving to the old Squire, if she never
786 brought a penny to her fortune; for it was to be feared that,
787 notwithstanding his incomings, there were more holes in his pocket than
788 the one where he put his own hand in. But if Mr. Godfrey didn't turn
789 over a new leaf, he might say "Good-bye" to Miss Nancy Lammeter.
790
791 It was the once hopeful Godfrey who was standing, with his hands in his
792 side-pockets and his back to the fire, in the dark wainscoted parlour,
793 one late November afternoon in that fifteenth year of Silas Marner's
794 life at Raveloe. The fading grey light fell dimly on the walls
795 decorated with guns, whips, and foxes' brushes, on coats and hats flung
796 on the chairs, on tankards sending forth a scent of flat ale, and on a
797 half-choked fire, with pipes propped up in the chimney-corners: signs
798 of a domestic life destitute of any hallowing charm, with which the
799 look of gloomy vexation on Godfrey's blond face was in sad accordance.
800 He seemed to be waiting and listening for some one's approach, and
801 presently the sound of a heavy step, with an accompanying whistle, was
802 heard across the large empty entrance-hall.
803
804 The door opened, and a thick-set, heavy-looking young man entered, with
805 the flushed face and the gratuitously elated bearing which mark the
806 first stage of intoxication. It was Dunsey, and at the sight of him
807 Godfrey's face parted with some of its gloom to take on the more active
808 expression of hatred. The handsome brown spaniel that lay on the
809 hearth retreated under the chair in the chimney-corner.
810
811 "Well, Master Godfrey, what do you want with me?" said Dunsey, in a
812 mocking tone. "You're my elders and betters, you know; I was obliged
813 to come when you sent for me."
814
815 "Why, this is what I want--and just shake yourself sober and listen,
816 will you?" said Godfrey, savagely. He had himself been drinking more
817 than was good for him, trying to turn his gloom into uncalculating
818 anger. "I want to tell you, I must hand over that rent of Fowler's to
819 the Squire, or else tell him I gave it you; for he's threatening to
820 distrain for it, and it'll all be out soon, whether I tell him or not.
821 He said, just now, before he went out, he should send word to Cox to
822 distrain, if Fowler didn't come and pay up his arrears this week. The
823 Squire's short o' cash, and in no humour to stand any nonsense; and you
824 know what he threatened, if ever he found you making away with his
825 money again. So, see and get the money, and pretty quickly, will you?"
826
827 "Oh!" said Dunsey, sneeringly, coming nearer to his brother and
828 looking in his face. "Suppose, now, you get the money yourself, and
829 save me the trouble, eh? Since you was so kind as to hand it over to
830 me, you'll not refuse me the kindness to pay it back for me: it was
831 your brotherly love made you do it, you know."
832
833 Godfrey bit his lips and clenched his fist. "Don't come near me with
834 that look, else I'll knock you down."
835
836 "Oh no, you won't," said Dunsey, turning away on his heel, however.
837 "Because I'm such a good-natured brother, you know. I might get you
838 turned out of house and home, and cut off with a shilling any day. I
839 might tell the Squire how his handsome son was married to that nice
840 young woman, Molly Farren, and was very unhappy because he couldn't
841 live with his drunken wife, and I should slip into your place as
842 comfortable as could be. But you see, I don't do it--I'm so easy and
843 good-natured. You'll take any trouble for me. You'll get the hundred
844 pounds for me--I know you will."
845
846 "How can I get the money?" said Godfrey, quivering. "I haven't a
847 shilling to bless myself with. And it's a lie that you'd slip into my
848 place: you'd get yourself turned out too, that's all. For if you begin
849 telling tales, I'll follow. Bob's my father's favourite--you know that
850 very well. He'd only think himself well rid of you."
851
852 "Never mind," said Dunsey, nodding his head sideways as he looked out
853 of the window. "It 'ud be very pleasant to me to go in your
854 company--you're such a handsome brother, and we've always been so fond
855 of quarrelling with one another, I shouldn't know what to do without
856 you. But you'd like better for us both to stay at home together; I
857 know you would. So you'll manage to get that little sum o' money, and
858 I'll bid you good-bye, though I'm sorry to part."
859
860 Dunstan was moving off, but Godfrey rushed after him and seized him by
861 the arm, saying, with an oath--
862
863 "I tell you, I have no money: I can get no money."
864
865 "Borrow of old Kimble."
866
867 "I tell you, he won't lend me any more, and I shan't ask him."
868
869 "Well, then, sell Wildfire."
870
871 "Yes, that's easy talking. I must have the money directly."
872
873 "Well, you've only got to ride him to the hunt to-morrow. There'll be
874 Bryce and Keating there, for sure. You'll get more bids than one."
875
876 "I daresay, and get back home at eight o'clock, splashed up to the
877 chin. I'm going to Mrs. Osgood's birthday dance."
878
879 "Oho!" said Dunsey, turning his head on one side, and trying to speak
880 in a small mincing treble. "And there's sweet Miss Nancy coming; and
881 we shall dance with her, and promise never to be naughty again, and be
882 taken into favour, and--"
883
884 "Hold your tongue about Miss Nancy, you fool," said Godfrey, turning
885 red, "else I'll throttle you."
886
887 "What for?" said Dunsey, still in an artificial tone, but taking a
888 whip from the table and beating the butt-end of it on his palm. "You've
889 a very good chance. I'd advise you to creep up her sleeve again: it
890 'ud be saving time, if Molly should happen to take a drop too much
891 laudanum some day, and make a widower of you. Miss Nancy wouldn't mind
892 being a second, if she didn't know it. And you've got a good-natured
893 brother, who'll keep your secret well, because you'll be so very
894 obliging to him."
895
896 "I'll tell you what it is," said Godfrey, quivering, and pale again,
897 "my patience is pretty near at an end. If you'd a little more
898 sharpness in you, you might know that you may urge a man a bit too far,
899 and make one leap as easy as another. I don't know but what it is so
900 now: I may as well tell the Squire everything myself--I should get you
901 off my back, if I got nothing else. And, after all, he'll know some
902 time. She's been threatening to come herself and tell him. So, don't
903 flatter yourself that your secrecy's worth any price you choose to ask.
904 You drain me of money till I have got nothing to pacify _her_ with, and
905 she'll do as she threatens some day. It's all one. I'll tell my
906 father everything myself, and you may go to the devil."
907
908 Dunsey perceived that he had overshot his mark, and that there was a
909 point at which even the hesitating Godfrey might be driven into
910 decision. But he said, with an air of unconcern--
911
912 "As you please; but I'll have a draught of ale first." And ringing the
913 bell, he threw himself across two chairs, and began to rap the
914 window-seat with the handle of his whip.
915
916 Godfrey stood, still with his back to the fire, uneasily moving his
917 fingers among the contents of his side-pockets, and looking at the
918 floor. That big muscular frame of his held plenty of animal courage,
919 but helped him to no decision when the dangers to be braved were such
920 as could neither be knocked down nor throttled. His natural
921 irresolution and moral cowardice were exaggerated by a position in
922 which dreaded consequences seemed to press equally on all sides, and
923 his irritation had no sooner provoked him to defy Dunstan and
924 anticipate all possible betrayals, than the miseries he must bring on
925 himself by such a step seemed more unendurable to him than the present
926 evil. The results of confession were not contingent, they were
927 certain; whereas betrayal was not certain. From the near vision of that
928 certainty he fell back on suspense and vacillation with a sense of
929 repose. The disinherited son of a small squire, equally disinclined to
930 dig and to beg, was almost as helpless as an uprooted tree, which, by
931 the favour of earth and sky, has grown to a handsome bulk on the spot
932 where it first shot upward. Perhaps it would have been possible to
933 think of digging with some cheerfulness if Nancy Lammeter were to be
934 won on those terms; but, since he must irrevocably lose _her_ as well
935 as the inheritance, and must break every tie but the one that degraded
936 him and left him without motive for trying to recover his better self,
937 he could imagine no future for himself on the other side of confession
938 but that of "'listing for a soldier"--the most desperate step, short of
939 suicide, in the eyes of respectable families. No! he would rather
940 trust to casualties than to his own resolve--rather go on sitting at
941 the feast, and sipping the wine he loved, though with the sword hanging
942 over him and terror in his heart, than rush away into the cold darkness
943 where there was no pleasure left. The utmost concession to Dunstan
944 about the horse began to seem easy, compared with the fulfilment of his
945 own threat. But his pride would not let him recommence the
946 conversation otherwise than by continuing the quarrel. Dunstan was
947 waiting for this, and took his ale in shorter draughts than usual.
948
949 "It's just like you," Godfrey burst out, in a bitter tone, "to talk
950 about my selling Wildfire in that cool way--the last thing I've got to
951 call my own, and the best bit of horse-flesh I ever had in my life.
952 And if you'd got a spark of pride in you, you'd be ashamed to see the
953 stables emptied, and everybody sneering about it. But it's my belief
954 you'd sell yourself, if it was only for the pleasure of making somebody
955 feel he'd got a bad bargain."
956
957 "Aye, aye," said Dunstan, very placably, "you do me justice, I see.
958 You know I'm a jewel for 'ticing people into bargains. For which
959 reason I advise you to let _me_ sell Wildfire. I'd ride him to the
960 hunt to-morrow for you, with pleasure. I shouldn't look so handsome as
961 you in the saddle, but it's the horse they'll bid for, and not the
962 rider."
963
964 "Yes, I daresay--trust my horse to you!"
965
966 "As you please," said Dunstan, rapping the window-seat again with an
967 air of great unconcern. "It's _you_ have got to pay Fowler's money;
968 it's none of my business. You received the money from him when you
969 went to Bramcote, and _you_ told the Squire it wasn't paid. I'd nothing
970 to do with that; you chose to be so obliging as to give it me, that was
971 all. If you don't want to pay the money, let it alone; it's all one to
972 me. But I was willing to accommodate you by undertaking to sell the
973 horse, seeing it's not convenient to you to go so far to-morrow."
974
975 Godfrey was silent for some moments. He would have liked to spring on
976 Dunstan, wrench the whip from his hand, and flog him to within an inch
977 of his life; and no bodily fear could have deterred him; but he was
978 mastered by another sort of fear, which was fed by feelings stronger
979 even than his resentment. When he spoke again, it was in a
980 half-conciliatory tone.
981
982 "Well, you mean no nonsense about the horse, eh? You'll sell him all
983 fair, and hand over the money? If you don't, you know, everything 'ull
984 go to smash, for I've got nothing else to trust to. And you'll have
985 less pleasure in pulling the house over my head, when your own skull's
986 to be broken too."
987
988 "Aye, aye," said Dunstan, rising; "all right. I thought you'd come
989 round. I'm the fellow to bring old Bryce up to the scratch. I'll get
990 you a hundred and twenty for him, if I get you a penny."
991
992 "But it'll perhaps rain cats and dogs to-morrow, as it did yesterday,
993 and then you can't go," said Godfrey, hardly knowing whether he wished
994 for that obstacle or not.
995
996 "Not _it_," said Dunstan. "I'm always lucky in my weather. It might
997 rain if you wanted to go yourself. You never hold trumps, you know--I
998 always do. You've got the beauty, you see, and I've got the luck, so
999 you must keep me by you for your crooked sixpence; you'll _ne_-ver get
1000 along without me."
1001
1002 "Confound you, hold your tongue!" said Godfrey, impetuously. "And take
1003 care to keep sober to-morrow, else you'll get pitched on your head
1004 coming home, and Wildfire might be the worse for it."
1005
1006 "Make your tender heart easy," said Dunstan, opening the door. "You
1007 never knew me see double when I'd got a bargain to make; it 'ud spoil
1008 the fun. Besides, whenever I fall, I'm warranted to fall on my legs."
1009
1010 With that, Dunstan slammed the door behind him, and left Godfrey to
1011 that bitter rumination on his personal circumstances which was now
1012 unbroken from day to day save by the excitement of sporting, drinking,
1013 card-playing, or the rarer and less oblivious pleasure of seeing Miss
1014 Nancy Lammeter. The subtle and varied pains springing from the higher
1015 sensibility that accompanies higher culture, are perhaps less pitiable
1016 than that dreary absence of impersonal enjoyment and consolation which
1017 leaves ruder minds to the perpetual urgent companionship of their own
1018 griefs and discontents. The lives of those rural forefathers, whom we
1019 are apt to think very prosaic figures--men whose only work was to ride
1020 round their land, getting heavier and heavier in their saddles, and who
1021 passed the rest of their days in the half-listless gratification of
1022 senses dulled by monotony--had a certain pathos in them nevertheless.
1023 Calamities came to _them_ too, and their early errors carried hard
1024 consequences: perhaps the love of some sweet maiden, the image of
1025 purity, order, and calm, had opened their eyes to the vision of a life
1026 in which the days would not seem too long, even without rioting; but
1027 the maiden was lost, and the vision passed away, and then what was left
1028 to them, especially when they had become too heavy for the hunt, or for
1029 carrying a gun over the furrows, but to drink and get merry, or to
1030 drink and get angry, so that they might be independent of variety, and
1031 say over again with eager emphasis the things they had said already any
1032 time that twelvemonth? Assuredly, among these flushed and dull-eyed men
1033 there were some whom--thanks to their native human-kindness--even riot
1034 could never drive into brutality; men who, when their cheeks were
1035 fresh, had felt the keen point of sorrow or remorse, had been pierced
1036 by the reeds they leaned on, or had lightly put their limbs in fetters
1037 from which no struggle could loose them; and under these sad
1038 circumstances, common to us all, their thoughts could find no
1039 resting-place outside the ever-trodden round of their own petty history.
1040
1041 That, at least, was the condition of Godfrey Cass in this
1042 six-and-twentieth year of his life. A movement of compunction, helped
1043 by those small indefinable influences which every personal relation
1044 exerts on a pliant nature, had urged him into a secret marriage, which
1045 was a blight on his life. It was an ugly story of low passion,
1046 delusion, and waking from delusion, which needs not to be dragged from
1047 the privacy of Godfrey's bitter memory. He had long known that the
1048 delusion was partly due to a trap laid for him by Dunstan, who saw in
1049 his brother's degrading marriage the means of gratifying at once his
1050 jealous hate and his cupidity. And if Godfrey could have felt himself
1051 simply a victim, the iron bit that destiny had put into his mouth would
1052 have chafed him less intolerably. If the curses he muttered half aloud
1053 when he was alone had had no other object than Dunstan's diabolical
1054 cunning, he might have shrunk less from the consequences of avowal.
1055 But he had something else to curse--his own vicious folly, which now
1056 seemed as mad and unaccountable to him as almost all our follies and
1057 vices do when their promptings have long passed away. For four years
1058 he had thought of Nancy Lammeter, and wooed her with tacit patient
1059 worship, as the woman who made him think of the future with joy: she
1060 would be his wife, and would make home lovely to him, as his father's
1061 home had never been; and it would be easy, when she was always near, to
1062 shake off those foolish habits that were no pleasures, but only a
1063 feverish way of annulling vacancy. Godfrey's was an essentially
1064 domestic nature, bred up in a home where the hearth had no smiles, and
1065 where the daily habits were not chastised by the presence of household
1066 order. His easy disposition made him fall in unresistingly with the
1067 family courses, but the need of some tender permanent affection, the
1068 longing for some influence that would make the good he preferred easy
1069 to pursue, caused the neatness, purity, and liberal orderliness of the
1070 Lammeter household, sunned by the smile of Nancy, to seem like those
1071 fresh bright hours of the morning when temptations go to sleep and
1072 leave the ear open to the voice of the good angel, inviting to
1073 industry, sobriety, and peace. And yet the hope of this paradise had
1074 not been enough to save him from a course which shut him out of it for
1075 ever. Instead of keeping fast hold of the strong silken rope by which
1076 Nancy would have drawn him safe to the green banks where it was easy to
1077 step firmly, he had let himself be dragged back into mud and slime, in
1078 which it was useless to struggle. He had made ties for himself which
1079 robbed him of all wholesome motive, and were a constant exasperation.
1080
1081 Still, there was one position worse than the present: it was the
1082 position he would be in when the ugly secret was disclosed; and the
1083 desire that continually triumphed over every other was that of warding
1084 off the evil day, when he would have to bear the consequences of his
1085 father's violent resentment for the wound inflicted on his family
1086 pride--would have, perhaps, to turn his back on that hereditary ease
1087 and dignity which, after all, was a sort of reason for living, and
1088 would carry with him the certainty that he was banished for ever from
1089 the sight and esteem of Nancy Lammeter. The longer the interval, the
1090 more chance there was of deliverance from some, at least, of the
1091 hateful consequences to which he had sold himself; the more
1092 opportunities remained for him to snatch the strange gratification of
1093 seeing Nancy, and gathering some faint indications of her lingering
1094 regard. Towards this gratification he was impelled, fitfully, every
1095 now and then, after having passed weeks in which he had avoided her as
1096 the far-off bright-winged prize that only made him spring forward and
1097 find his chain all the more galling. One of those fits of yearning was
1098 on him now, and it would have been strong enough to have persuaded him
1099 to trust Wildfire to Dunstan rather than disappoint the yearning, even
1100 if he had not had another reason for his disinclination towards the
1101 morrow's hunt. That other reason was the fact that the morning's meet
1102 was near Batherley, the market-town where the unhappy woman lived,
1103 whose image became more odious to him every day; and to his thought the
1104 whole vicinage was haunted by her. The yoke a man creates for himself
1105 by wrong-doing will breed hate in the kindliest nature; and the
1106 good-humoured, affectionate-hearted Godfrey Cass was fast becoming a
1107 bitter man, visited by cruel wishes, that seemed to enter, and depart,
1108 and enter again, like demons who had found in him a ready-garnished
1109 home.
1110
1111 What was he to do this evening to pass the time? He might as well go
1112 to the Rainbow, and hear the talk about the cock-fighting: everybody
1113 was there, and what else was there to be done? Though, for his own
1114 part, he did not care a button for cock-fighting. Snuff, the brown
1115 spaniel, who had placed herself in front of him, and had been watching
1116 him for some time, now jumped up in impatience for the expected caress.
1117 But Godfrey thrust her away without looking at her, and left the room,
1118 followed humbly by the unresenting Snuff--perhaps because she saw no
1119 other career open to her.
1120
1121
1122
1123 CHAPTER IV
1124
1125 Dunstan Cass, setting off in the raw morning, at the judiciously quiet
1126 pace of a man who is obliged to ride to cover on his hunter, had to
1127 take his way along the lane which, at its farther extremity, passed by
1128 the piece of unenclosed ground called the Stone-pit, where stood the
1129 cottage, once a stone-cutter's shed, now for fifteen years inhabited by
1130 Silas Marner. The spot looked very dreary at this season, with the
1131 moist trodden clay about it, and the red, muddy water high up in the
1132 deserted quarry. That was Dunstan's first thought as he approached it;
1133 the second was, that the old fool of a weaver, whose loom he heard
1134 rattling already, had a great deal of money hidden somewhere. How was
1135 it that he, Dunstan Cass, who had often heard talk of Marner's
1136 miserliness, had never thought of suggesting to Godfrey that he should
1137 frighten or persuade the old fellow into lending the money on the
1138 excellent security of the young Squire's prospects? The resource
1139 occurred to him now as so easy and agreeable, especially as Marner's
1140 hoard was likely to be large enough to leave Godfrey a handsome surplus
1141 beyond his immediate needs, and enable him to accommodate his faithful
1142 brother, that he had almost turned the horse's head towards home again.
1143 Godfrey would be ready enough to accept the suggestion: he would snatch
1144 eagerly at a plan that might save him from parting with Wildfire. But
1145 when Dunstan's meditation reached this point, the inclination to go on
1146 grew strong and prevailed. He didn't want to give Godfrey that
1147 pleasure: he preferred that Master Godfrey should be vexed. Moreover,
1148 Dunstan enjoyed the self-important consciousness of having a horse to
1149 sell, and the opportunity of driving a bargain, swaggering, and
1150 possibly taking somebody in. He might have all the satisfaction
1151 attendant on selling his brother's horse, and not the less have the
1152 further satisfaction of setting Godfrey to borrow Marner's money. So
1153 he rode on to cover.
1154
1155 Bryce and Keating were there, as Dunstan was quite sure they would
1156 be--he was such a lucky fellow.
1157
1158 "Heyday!" said Bryce, who had long had his eye on Wildfire, "you're on
1159 your brother's horse to-day: how's that?"
1160
1161 "Oh, I've swopped with him," said Dunstan, whose delight in lying,
1162 grandly independent of utility, was not to be diminished by the
1163 likelihood that his hearer would not believe him--"Wildfire's mine now."
1164
1165 "What! has he swopped with you for that big-boned hack of yours?" said
1166 Bryce, quite aware that he should get another lie in answer.
1167
1168 "Oh, there was a little account between us," said Dunsey, carelessly,
1169 "and Wildfire made it even. I accommodated him by taking the horse,
1170 though it was against my will, for I'd got an itch for a mare o'
1171 Jortin's--as rare a bit o' blood as ever you threw your leg across.
1172 But I shall keep Wildfire, now I've got him, though I'd a bid of a
1173 hundred and fifty for him the other day, from a man over at
1174 Flitton--he's buying for Lord Cromleck--a fellow with a cast in his
1175 eye, and a green waistcoat. But I mean to stick to Wildfire: I shan't
1176 get a better at a fence in a hurry. The mare's got more blood, but
1177 she's a bit too weak in the hind-quarters."
1178
1179 Bryce of course divined that Dunstan wanted to sell the horse, and
1180 Dunstan knew that he divined it (horse-dealing is only one of many
1181 human transactions carried on in this ingenious manner); and they both
1182 considered that the bargain was in its first stage, when Bryce replied
1183 ironically--
1184
1185 "I wonder at that now; I wonder you mean to keep him; for I never heard
1186 of a man who didn't want to sell his horse getting a bid of half as
1187 much again as the horse was worth. You'll be lucky if you get a
1188 hundred."
1189
1190 Keating rode up now, and the transaction became more complicated. It
1191 ended in the purchase of the horse by Bryce for a hundred and twenty,
1192 to be paid on the delivery of Wildfire, safe and sound, at the
1193 Batherley stables. It did occur to Dunsey that it might be wise for
1194 him to give up the day's hunting, proceed at once to Batherley, and,
1195 having waited for Bryce's return, hire a horse to carry him home with
1196 the money in his pocket. But the inclination for a run, encouraged by
1197 confidence in his luck, and by a draught of brandy from his
1198 pocket-pistol at the conclusion of the bargain, was not easy to
1199 overcome, especially with a horse under him that would take the fences
1200 to the admiration of the field. Dunstan, however, took one fence too
1201 many, and got his horse pierced with a hedge-stake. His own
1202 ill-favoured person, which was quite unmarketable, escaped without
1203 injury; but poor Wildfire, unconscious of his price, turned on his
1204 flank and painfully panted his last. It happened that Dunstan, a short
1205 time before, having had to get down to arrange his stirrup, had
1206 muttered a good many curses at this interruption, which had thrown him
1207 in the rear of the hunt near the moment of glory, and under this
1208 exasperation had taken the fences more blindly. He would soon have
1209 been up with the hounds again, when the fatal accident happened; and
1210 hence he was between eager riders in advance, not troubling themselves
1211 about what happened behind them, and far-off stragglers, who were as
1212 likely as not to pass quite aloof from the line of road in which
1213 Wildfire had fallen. Dunstan, whose nature it was to care more for
1214 immediate annoyances than for remote consequences, no sooner recovered
1215 his legs, and saw that it was all over with Wildfire, than he felt a
1216 satisfaction at the absence of witnesses to a position which no
1217 swaggering could make enviable. Reinforcing himself, after his shake,
1218 with a little brandy and much swearing, he walked as fast as he could
1219 to a coppice on his right hand, through which it occurred to him that
1220 he could make his way to Batherley without danger of encountering any
1221 member of the hunt. His first intention was to hire a horse there and
1222 ride home forthwith, for to walk many miles without a gun in his hand,
1223 and along an ordinary road, was as much out of the question to him as
1224 to other spirited young men of his kind. He did not much mind about
1225 taking the bad news to Godfrey, for he had to offer him at the same
1226 time the resource of Marner's money; and if Godfrey kicked, as he
1227 always did, at the notion of making a fresh debt from which he himself
1228 got the smallest share of advantage, why, he wouldn't kick long:
1229 Dunstan felt sure he could worry Godfrey into anything. The idea of
1230 Marner's money kept growing in vividness, now the want of it had become
1231 immediate; the prospect of having to make his appearance with the muddy
1232 boots of a pedestrian at Batherley, and to encounter the grinning
1233 queries of stablemen, stood unpleasantly in the way of his impatience
1234 to be back at Raveloe and carry out his felicitous plan; and a casual
1235 visitation of his waistcoat-pocket, as he was ruminating, awakened his
1236 memory to the fact that the two or three small coins his forefinger
1237 encountered there were of too pale a colour to cover that small debt,
1238 without payment of which the stable-keeper had declared he would never
1239 do any more business with Dunsey Cass. After all, according to the
1240 direction in which the run had brought him, he was not so very much
1241 farther from home than he was from Batherley; but Dunsey, not being
1242 remarkable for clearness of head, was only led to this conclusion by
1243 the gradual perception that there were other reasons for choosing the
1244 unprecedented course of walking home. It was now nearly four o'clock,
1245 and a mist was gathering: the sooner he got into the road the better.
1246 He remembered having crossed the road and seen the finger-post only a
1247 little while before Wildfire broke down; so, buttoning his coat,
1248 twisting the lash of his hunting-whip compactly round the handle, and
1249 rapping the tops of his boots with a self-possessed air, as if to
1250 assure himself that he was not at all taken by surprise, he set off
1251 with the sense that he was undertaking a remarkable feat of bodily
1252 exertion, which somehow and at some time he should be able to dress up
1253 and magnify to the admiration of a select circle at the Rainbow. When
1254 a young gentleman like Dunsey is reduced to so exceptional a mode of
1255 locomotion as walking, a whip in his hand is a desirable corrective to
1256 a too bewildering dreamy sense of unwontedness in his position; and
1257 Dunstan, as he went along through the gathering mist, was always
1258 rapping his whip somewhere. It was Godfrey's whip, which he had chosen
1259 to take without leave because it had a gold handle; of course no one
1260 could see, when Dunstan held it, that the name _Godfrey Cass_ was cut
1261 in deep letters on that gold handle--they could only see that it was a
1262 very handsome whip. Dunsey was not without fear that he might meet some
1263 acquaintance in whose eyes he would cut a pitiable figure, for mist is
1264 no screen when people get close to each other; but when he at last
1265 found himself in the well-known Raveloe lanes without having met a
1266 soul, he silently remarked that that was part of his usual good luck.
1267 But now the mist, helped by the evening darkness, was more of a screen
1268 than he desired, for it hid the ruts into which his feet were liable to
1269 slip--hid everything, so that he had to guide his steps by dragging his
1270 whip along the low bushes in advance of the hedgerow. He must soon, he
1271 thought, be getting near the opening at the Stone-pits: he should find
1272 it out by the break in the hedgerow. He found it out, however, by
1273 another circumstance which he had not expected--namely, by certain
1274 gleams of light, which he presently guessed to proceed from Silas
1275 Marner's cottage. That cottage and the money hidden within it had been
1276 in his mind continually during his walk, and he had been imagining ways
1277 of cajoling and tempting the weaver to part with the immediate
1278 possession of his money for the sake of receiving interest. Dunstan
1279 felt as if there must be a little frightening added to the cajolery,
1280 for his own arithmetical convictions were not clear enough to afford
1281 him any forcible demonstration as to the advantages of interest; and as
1282 for security, he regarded it vaguely as a means of cheating a man by
1283 making him believe that he would be paid. Altogether, the operation on
1284 the miser's mind was a task that Godfrey would be sure to hand over to
1285 his more daring and cunning brother: Dunstan had made up his mind to
1286 that; and by the time he saw the light gleaming through the chinks of
1287 Marner's shutters, the idea of a dialogue with the weaver had become so
1288 familiar to him, that it occurred to him as quite a natural thing to
1289 make the acquaintance forthwith. There might be several conveniences
1290 attending this course: the weaver had possibly got a lantern, and
1291 Dunstan was tired of feeling his way. He was still nearly
1292 three-quarters of a mile from home, and the lane was becoming
1293 unpleasantly slippery, for the mist was passing into rain. He turned up
1294 the bank, not without some fear lest he might miss the right way, since
1295 he was not certain whether the light were in front or on the side of
1296 the cottage. But he felt the ground before him cautiously with his
1297 whip-handle, and at last arrived safely at the door. He knocked
1298 loudly, rather enjoying the idea that the old fellow would be
1299 frightened at the sudden noise. He heard no movement in reply: all was
1300 silence in the cottage. Was the weaver gone to bed, then? If so, why
1301 had he left a light? That was a strange forgetfulness in a miser.
1302 Dunstan knocked still more loudly, and, without pausing for a reply,
1303 pushed his fingers through the latch-hole, intending to shake the door
1304 and pull the latch-string up and down, not doubting that the door was
1305 fastened. But, to his surprise, at this double motion the door opened,
1306 and he found himself in front of a bright fire which lit up every
1307 corner of the cottage--the bed, the loom, the three chairs, and the
1308 table--and showed him that Marner was not there.
1309
1310 Nothing at that moment could be much more inviting to Dunsey than the
1311 bright fire on the brick hearth: he walked in and seated himself by it
1312 at once. There was something in front of the fire, too, that would
1313 have been inviting to a hungry man, if it had been in a different stage
1314 of cooking. It was a small bit of pork suspended from the
1315 kettle-hanger by a string passed through a large door-key, in a way
1316 known to primitive housekeepers unpossessed of jacks. But the pork had
1317 been hung at the farthest extremity of the hanger, apparently to
1318 prevent the roasting from proceeding too rapidly during the owner's
1319 absence. The old staring simpleton had hot meat for his supper, then?
1320 thought Dunstan. People had always said he lived on mouldy bread, on
1321 purpose to check his appetite. But where could he be at this time, and
1322 on such an evening, leaving his supper in this stage of preparation,
1323 and his door unfastened? Dunstan's own recent difficulty in making his
1324 way suggested to him that the weaver had perhaps gone outside his
1325 cottage to fetch in fuel, or for some such brief purpose, and had
1326 slipped into the Stone-pit. That was an interesting idea to Dunstan,
1327 carrying consequences of entire novelty. If the weaver was dead, who
1328 had a right to his money? Who would know where his money was hidden?
1329 _Who would know that anybody had come to take it away?_ He went no
1330 farther into the subtleties of evidence: the pressing question, "Where
1331 _is_ the money?" now took such entire possession of him as to make him
1332 quite forget that the weaver's death was not a certainty. A dull mind,
1333 once arriving at an inference that flatters a desire, is rarely able to
1334 retain the impression that the notion from which the inference started
1335 was purely problematic. And Dunstan's mind was as dull as the mind of
1336 a possible felon usually is. There were only three hiding-places where
1337 he had ever heard of cottagers' hoards being found: the thatch, the
1338 bed, and a hole in the floor. Marner's cottage had no thatch; and
1339 Dunstan's first act, after a train of thought made rapid by the
1340 stimulus of cupidity, was to go up to the bed; but while he did so, his
1341 eyes travelled eagerly over the floor, where the bricks, distinct in
1342 the fire-light, were discernible under the sprinkling of sand. But not
1343 everywhere; for there was one spot, and one only, which was quite
1344 covered with sand, and sand showing the marks of fingers, which had
1345 apparently been careful to spread it over a given space. It was near
1346 the treddles of the loom. In an instant Dunstan darted to that spot,
1347 swept away the sand with his whip, and, inserting the thin end of the
1348 hook between the bricks, found that they were loose. In haste he
1349 lifted up two bricks, and saw what he had no doubt was the object of
1350 his search; for what could there be but money in those two leathern
1351 bags? And, from their weight, they must be filled with guineas.
1352 Dunstan felt round the hole, to be certain that it held no more; then
1353 hastily replaced the bricks, and spread the sand over them. Hardly
1354 more than five minutes had passed since he entered the cottage, but it
1355 seemed to Dunstan like a long while; and though he was without any
1356 distinct recognition of the possibility that Marner might be alive, and
1357 might re-enter the cottage at any moment, he felt an undefinable dread
1358 laying hold on him, as he rose to his feet with the bags in his hand.
1359 He would hasten out into the darkness, and then consider what he should
1360 do with the bags. He closed the door behind him immediately, that he
1361 might shut in the stream of light: a few steps would be enough to carry
1362 him beyond betrayal by the gleams from the shutter-chinks and the
1363 latch-hole. The rain and darkness had got thicker, and he was glad of
1364 it; though it was awkward walking with both hands filled, so that it
1365 was as much as he could do to grasp his whip along with one of the
1366 bags. But when he had gone a yard or two, he might take his time. So
1367 he stepped forward into the darkness.
1368
1369
1370
1371 CHAPTER V
1372
1373 When Dunstan Cass turned his back on the cottage, Silas Marner was not
1374 more than a hundred yards away from it, plodding along from the village
1375 with a sack thrown round his shoulders as an overcoat, and with a horn
1376 lantern in his hand. His legs were weary, but his mind was at ease,
1377 free from the presentiment of change. The sense of security more
1378 frequently springs from habit than from conviction, and for this reason
1379 it often subsists after such a change in the conditions as might have
1380 been expected to suggest alarm. The lapse of time during which a given
1381 event has not happened, is, in this logic of habit, constantly alleged
1382 as a reason why the event should never happen, even when the lapse of
1383 time is precisely the added condition which makes the event imminent.
1384 A man will tell you that he has worked in a mine for forty years unhurt
1385 by an accident as a reason why he should apprehend no danger, though
1386 the roof is beginning to sink; and it is often observable, that the
1387 older a man gets, the more difficult it is to him to retain a believing
1388 conception of his own death. This influence of habit was necessarily
1389 strong in a man whose life was so monotonous as Marner's--who saw no
1390 new people and heard of no new events to keep alive in him the idea of
1391 the unexpected and the changeful; and it explains simply enough, why
1392 his mind could be at ease, though he had left his house and his
1393 treasure more defenceless than usual. Silas was thinking with double
1394 complacency of his supper: first, because it would be hot and savoury;
1395 and secondly, because it would cost him nothing. For the little bit of
1396 pork was a present from that excellent housewife, Miss Priscilla
1397 Lammeter, to whom he had this day carried home a handsome piece of
1398 linen; and it was only on occasion of a present like this, that Silas
1399 indulged himself with roast-meat. Supper was his favourite meal,
1400 because it came at his time of revelry, when his heart warmed over his
1401 gold; whenever he had roast-meat, he always chose to have it for
1402 supper. But this evening, he had no sooner ingeniously knotted his
1403 string fast round his bit of pork, twisted the string according to rule
1404 over his door-key, passed it through the handle, and made it fast on
1405 the hanger, than he remembered that a piece of very fine twine was
1406 indispensable to his "setting up" a new piece of work in his loom early
1407 in the morning. It had slipped his memory, because, in coming from Mr.
1408 Lammeter's, he had not had to pass through the village; but to lose
1409 time by going on errands in the morning was out of the question. It
1410 was a nasty fog to turn out into, but there were things Silas loved
1411 better than his own comfort; so, drawing his pork to the extremity of
1412 the hanger, and arming himself with his lantern and his old sack, he
1413 set out on what, in ordinary weather, would have been a twenty minutes'
1414 errand. He could not have locked his door without undoing his
1415 well-knotted string and retarding his supper; it was not worth his
1416 while to make that sacrifice. What thief would find his way to the
1417 Stone-pits on such a night as this? and why should he come on this
1418 particular night, when he had never come through all the fifteen years
1419 before? These questions were not distinctly present in Silas's mind;
1420 they merely serve to represent the vaguely-felt foundation of his
1421 freedom from anxiety.
1422
1423 He reached his door in much satisfaction that his errand was done: he
1424 opened it, and to his short-sighted eyes everything remained as he had
1425 left it, except that the fire sent out a welcome increase of heat. He
1426 trod about the floor while putting by his lantern and throwing aside
1427 his hat and sack, so as to merge the marks of Dunstan's feet on the
1428 sand in the marks of his own nailed boots. Then he moved his pork
1429 nearer to the fire, and sat down to the agreeable business of tending
1430 the meat and warming himself at the same time.
1431
1432 Any one who had looked at him as the red light shone upon his pale
1433 face, strange straining eyes, and meagre form, would perhaps have
1434 understood the mixture of contemptuous pity, dread, and suspicion with
1435 which he was regarded by his neighbours in Raveloe. Yet few men could
1436 be more harmless than poor Marner. In his truthful simple soul, not
1437 even the growing greed and worship of gold could beget any vice
1438 directly injurious to others. The light of his faith quite put out,
1439 and his affections made desolate, he had clung with all the force of
1440 his nature to his work and his money; and like all objects to which a
1441 man devotes himself, they had fashioned him into correspondence with
1442 themselves. His loom, as he wrought in it without ceasing, had in its
1443 turn wrought on him, and confirmed more and more the monotonous craving
1444 for its monotonous response. His gold, as he hung over it and saw it
1445 grow, gathered his power of loving together into a hard isolation like
1446 its own.
1447
1448 As soon as he was warm he began to think it would be a long while to
1449 wait till after supper before he drew out his guineas, and it would be
1450 pleasant to see them on the table before him as he ate his unwonted
1451 feast. For joy is the best of wine, and Silas's guineas were a golden
1452 wine of that sort.
1453
1454 He rose and placed his candle unsuspectingly on the floor near his
1455 loom, swept away the sand without noticing any change, and removed the
1456 bricks. The sight of the empty hole made his heart leap violently, but
1457 the belief that his gold was gone could not come at once--only terror,
1458 and the eager effort to put an end to the terror. He passed his
1459 trembling hand all about the hole, trying to think it possible that his
1460 eyes had deceived him; then he held the candle in the hole and examined
1461 it curiously, trembling more and more. At last he shook so violently
1462 that he let fall the candle, and lifted his hands to his head, trying
1463 to steady himself, that he might think. Had he put his gold somewhere
1464 else, by a sudden resolution last night, and then forgotten it? A man
1465 falling into dark waters seeks a momentary footing even on sliding
1466 stones; and Silas, by acting as if he believed in false hopes, warded
1467 off the moment of despair. He searched in every corner, he turned his
1468 bed over, and shook it, and kneaded it; he looked in his brick oven
1469 where he laid his sticks. When there was no other place to be
1470 searched, he kneeled down again and felt once more all round the hole.
1471 There was no untried refuge left for a moment's shelter from the
1472 terrible truth.
1473
1474 Yes, there was a sort of refuge which always comes with the prostration
1475 of thought under an overpowering passion: it was that expectation of
1476 impossibilities, that belief in contradictory images, which is still
1477 distinct from madness, because it is capable of being dissipated by the
1478 external fact. Silas got up from his knees trembling, and looked round
1479 at the table: didn't the gold lie there after all? The table was bare.
1480 Then he turned and looked behind him--looked all round his dwelling,
1481 seeming to strain his brown eyes after some possible appearance of the
1482 bags where he had already sought them in vain. He could see every
1483 object in his cottage--and his gold was not there.
1484
1485 Again he put his trembling hands to his head, and gave a wild ringing
1486 scream, the cry of desolation. For a few moments after, he stood
1487 motionless; but the cry had relieved him from the first maddening
1488 pressure of the truth. He turned, and tottered towards his loom, and
1489 got into the seat where he worked, instinctively seeking this as the
1490 strongest assurance of reality.
1491
1492 And now that all the false hopes had vanished, and the first shock of
1493 certainty was past, the idea of a thief began to present itself, and he
1494 entertained it eagerly, because a thief might be caught and made to
1495 restore the gold. The thought brought some new strength with it, and
1496 he started from his loom to the door. As he opened it the rain beat in
1497 upon him, for it was falling more and more heavily. There were no
1498 footsteps to be tracked on such a night--footsteps? When had the thief
1499 come? During Silas's absence in the daytime the door had been locked,
1500 and there had been no marks of any inroad on his return by daylight.
1501 And in the evening, too, he said to himself, everything was the same as
1502 when he had left it. The sand and bricks looked as if they had not
1503 been moved. _Was_ it a thief who had taken the bags? or was it a
1504 cruel power that no hands could reach, which had delighted in making
1505 him a second time desolate? He shrank from this vaguer dread, and
1506 fixed his mind with struggling effort on the robber with hands, who
1507 could be reached by hands. His thoughts glanced at all the neighbours
1508 who had made any remarks, or asked any questions which he might now
1509 regard as a ground of suspicion. There was Jem Rodney, a known
1510 poacher, and otherwise disreputable: he had often met Marner in his
1511 journeys across the fields, and had said something jestingly about the
1512 weaver's money; nay, he had once irritated Marner, by lingering at the
1513 fire when he called to light his pipe, instead of going about his
1514 business. Jem Rodney was the man--there was ease in the thought. Jem
1515 could be found and made to restore the money: Marner did not want to
1516 punish him, but only to get back his gold which had gone from him, and
1517 left his soul like a forlorn traveller on an unknown desert. The
1518 robber must be laid hold of. Marner's ideas of legal authority were
1519 confused, but he felt that he must go and proclaim his loss; and the
1520 great people in the village--the clergyman, the constable, and Squire
1521 Cass--would make Jem Rodney, or somebody else, deliver up the stolen
1522 money. He rushed out in the rain, under the stimulus of this hope,
1523 forgetting to cover his head, not caring to fasten his door; for he
1524 felt as if he had nothing left to lose. He ran swiftly, till want of
1525 breath compelled him to slacken his pace as he was entering the village
1526 at the turning close to the Rainbow.
1527
1528 The Rainbow, in Marner's view, was a place of luxurious resort for rich
1529 and stout husbands, whose wives had superfluous stores of linen; it was
1530 the place where he was likely to find the powers and dignities of
1531 Raveloe, and where he could most speedily make his loss public. He
1532 lifted the latch, and turned into the bright bar or kitchen on the
1533 right hand, where the less lofty customers of the house were in the
1534 habit of assembling, the parlour on the left being reserved for the
1535 more select society in which Squire Cass frequently enjoyed the double
1536 pleasure of conviviality and condescension. But the parlour was dark
1537 to-night, the chief personages who ornamented its circle being all at
1538 Mrs. Osgood's birthday dance, as Godfrey Cass was. And in consequence
1539 of this, the party on the high-screened seats in the kitchen was more
1540 numerous than usual; several personages, who would otherwise have been
1541 admitted into the parlour and enlarged the opportunity of hectoring and
1542 condescension for their betters, being content this evening to vary
1543 their enjoyment by taking their spirits-and-water where they could
1544 themselves hector and condescend in company that called for beer.
1545
1546
1547
1548 CHAPTER VI
1549
1550 The conversation, which was at a high pitch of animation when Silas
1551 approached the door of the Rainbow, had, as usual, been slow and
1552 intermittent when the company first assembled. The pipes began to be
1553 puffed in a silence which had an air of severity; the more important
1554 customers, who drank spirits and sat nearest the fire, staring at each
1555 other as if a bet were depending on the first man who winked; while the
1556 beer-drinkers, chiefly men in fustian jackets and smock-frocks, kept
1557 their eyelids down and rubbed their hands across their mouths, as if
1558 their draughts of beer were a funereal duty attended with embarrassing
1559 sadness. At last Mr. Snell, the landlord, a man of a neutral
1560 disposition, accustomed to stand aloof from human differences as those
1561 of beings who were all alike in need of liquor, broke silence, by
1562 saying in a doubtful tone to his cousin the butcher--
1563
1564 "Some folks 'ud say that was a fine beast you druv in yesterday, Bob?"
1565
1566 The butcher, a jolly, smiling, red-haired man, was not disposed to
1567 answer rashly. He gave a few puffs before he spat and replied, "And
1568 they wouldn't be fur wrong, John."
1569
1570 After this feeble delusive thaw, the silence set in as severely as
1571 before.
1572
1573 "Was it a red Durham?" said the farrier, taking up the thread of
1574 discourse after the lapse of a few minutes.
1575
1576 The farrier looked at the landlord, and the landlord looked at the
1577 butcher, as the person who must take the responsibility of answering.
1578
1579 "Red it was," said the butcher, in his good-humoured husky treble--"and
1580 a Durham it was."
1581
1582 "Then you needn't tell _me_ who you bought it of," said the farrier,
1583 looking round with some triumph; "I know who it is has got the red
1584 Durhams o' this country-side. And she'd a white star on her brow, I'll
1585 bet a penny?" The farrier leaned forward with his hands on his knees
1586 as he put this question, and his eyes twinkled knowingly.
1587
1588 "Well; yes--she might," said the butcher, slowly, considering that he
1589 was giving a decided affirmative. "I don't say contrairy."
1590
1591 "I knew that very well," said the farrier, throwing himself backward
1592 again, and speaking defiantly; "if _I_ don't know Mr. Lammeter's cows,
1593 I should like to know who does--that's all. And as for the cow you've
1594 bought, bargain or no bargain, I've been at the drenching of
1595 her--contradick me who will."
1596
1597 The farrier looked fierce, and the mild butcher's conversational spirit
1598 was roused a little.
1599
1600 "I'm not for contradicking no man," he said; "I'm for peace and
1601 quietness. Some are for cutting long ribs--I'm for cutting 'em short
1602 myself; but _I_ don't quarrel with 'em. All I say is, it's a lovely
1603 carkiss--and anybody as was reasonable, it 'ud bring tears into their
1604 eyes to look at it."
1605
1606 "Well, it's the cow as I drenched, whatever it is," pursued the
1607 farrier, angrily; "and it was Mr. Lammeter's cow, else you told a lie
1608 when you said it was a red Durham."
1609
1610 "I tell no lies," said the butcher, with the same mild huskiness as
1611 before, "and I contradick none--not if a man was to swear himself
1612 black: he's no meat o' mine, nor none o' my bargains. All I say is,
1613 it's a lovely carkiss. And what I say, I'll stick to; but I'll quarrel
1614 wi' no man."
1615
1616 "No," said the farrier, with bitter sarcasm, looking at the company
1617 generally; "and p'rhaps you aren't pig-headed; and p'rhaps you didn't
1618 say the cow was a red Durham; and p'rhaps you didn't say she'd got a
1619 star on her brow--stick to that, now you're at it."
1620
1621 "Come, come," said the landlord; "let the cow alone. The truth lies
1622 atween you: you're both right and both wrong, as I allays say. And as
1623 for the cow's being Mr. Lammeter's, I say nothing to that; but this I
1624 say, as the Rainbow's the Rainbow. And for the matter o' that, if the
1625 talk is to be o' the Lammeters, _you_ know the most upo' that head, eh,
1626 Mr. Macey? You remember when first Mr. Lammeter's father come into
1627 these parts, and took the Warrens?"
1628
1629 Mr. Macey, tailor and parish-clerk, the latter of which functions
1630 rheumatism had of late obliged him to share with a small-featured young
1631 man who sat opposite him, held his white head on one side, and twirled
1632 his thumbs with an air of complacency, slightly seasoned with
1633 criticism. He smiled pityingly, in answer to the landlord's appeal,
1634 and said--
1635
1636 "Aye, aye; I know, I know; but I let other folks talk. I've laid by
1637 now, and gev up to the young uns. Ask them as have been to school at
1638 Tarley: they've learnt pernouncing; that's come up since my day."
1639
1640 "If you're pointing at me, Mr. Macey," said the deputy clerk, with an
1641 air of anxious propriety, "I'm nowise a man to speak out of my place.
1642 As the psalm says--
1643
1644 "I know what's right, nor only so,
1645 But also practise what I know."
1646
1647
1648 "Well, then, I wish you'd keep hold o' the tune, when it's set for you;
1649 if you're for prac_tis_ing, I wish you'd prac_tise_ that," said a large
1650 jocose-looking man, an excellent wheelwright in his week-day capacity,
1651 but on Sundays leader of the choir. He winked, as he spoke, at two of
1652 the company, who were known officially as the "bassoon" and the
1653 "key-bugle", in the confidence that he was expressing the sense of the
1654 musical profession in Raveloe.
1655
1656 Mr. Tookey, the deputy-clerk, who shared the unpopularity common to
1657 deputies, turned very red, but replied, with careful moderation--"Mr.
1658 Winthrop, if you'll bring me any proof as I'm in the wrong, I'm not the
1659 man to say I won't alter. But there's people set up their own ears for
1660 a standard, and expect the whole choir to follow 'em. There may be two
1661 opinions, I hope."
1662
1663 "Aye, aye," said Mr. Macey, who felt very well satisfied with this
1664 attack on youthful presumption; "you're right there, Tookey: there's
1665 allays two 'pinions; there's the 'pinion a man has of himsen, and
1666 there's the 'pinion other folks have on him. There'd be two 'pinions
1667 about a cracked bell, if the bell could hear itself."
1668
1669 "Well, Mr. Macey," said poor Tookey, serious amidst the general
1670 laughter, "I undertook to partially fill up the office of parish-clerk
1671 by Mr. Crackenthorp's desire, whenever your infirmities should make you
1672 unfitting; and it's one of the rights thereof to sing in the
1673 choir--else why have you done the same yourself?"
1674
1675 "Ah! but the old gentleman and you are two folks," said Ben Winthrop.
1676 "The old gentleman's got a gift. Why, the Squire used to invite him to
1677 take a glass, only to hear him sing the "Red Rovier"; didn't he, Mr.
1678 Macey? It's a nat'ral gift. There's my little lad Aaron, he's got a
1679 gift--he can sing a tune off straight, like a throstle. But as for
1680 you, Master Tookey, you'd better stick to your "Amens": your voice is
1681 well enough when you keep it up in your nose. It's your inside as
1682 isn't right made for music: it's no better nor a hollow stalk."
1683
1684 This kind of unflinching frankness was the most piquant form of joke to
1685 the company at the Rainbow, and Ben Winthrop's insult was felt by
1686 everybody to have capped Mr. Macey's epigram.
1687
1688 "I see what it is plain enough," said Mr. Tookey, unable to keep cool
1689 any longer. "There's a consperacy to turn me out o' the choir, as I
1690 shouldn't share the Christmas money--that's where it is. But I shall
1691 speak to Mr. Crackenthorp; I'll not be put upon by no man."
1692
1693 "Nay, nay, Tookey," said Ben Winthrop. "We'll pay you your share to
1694 keep out of it--that's what we'll do. There's things folks 'ud pay to
1695 be rid on, besides varmin."
1696
1697 "Come, come," said the landlord, who felt that paying people for their
1698 absence was a principle dangerous to society; "a joke's a joke. We're
1699 all good friends here, I hope. We must give and take. You're both
1700 right and you're both wrong, as I say. I agree wi' Mr. Macey here, as
1701 there's two opinions; and if mine was asked, I should say they're both
1702 right. Tookey's right and Winthrop's right, and they've only got to
1703 split the difference and make themselves even."
1704
1705 The farrier was puffing his pipe rather fiercely, in some contempt at
1706 this trivial discussion. He had no ear for music himself, and never
1707 went to church, as being of the medical profession, and likely to be in
1708 requisition for delicate cows. But the butcher, having music in his
1709 soul, had listened with a divided desire for Tookey's defeat and for
1710 the preservation of the peace.
1711
1712 "To be sure," he said, following up the landlord's conciliatory view,
1713 "we're fond of our old clerk; it's nat'ral, and him used to be such a
1714 singer, and got a brother as is known for the first fiddler in this
1715 country-side. Eh, it's a pity but what Solomon lived in our village,
1716 and could give us a tune when we liked; eh, Mr. Macey? I'd keep him in
1717 liver and lights for nothing--that I would."
1718
1719 "Aye, aye," said Mr. Macey, in the height of complacency; "our family's
1720 been known for musicianers as far back as anybody can tell. But them
1721 things are dying out, as I tell Solomon every time he comes round;
1722 there's no voices like what there used to be, and there's nobody
1723 remembers what we remember, if it isn't the old crows."
1724
1725 "Aye, you remember when first Mr. Lammeter's father come into these
1726 parts, don't you, Mr. Macey?" said the landlord.
1727
1728 "I should think I did," said the old man, who had now gone through that
1729 complimentary process necessary to bring him up to the point of
1730 narration; "and a fine old gentleman he was--as fine, and finer nor the
1731 Mr. Lammeter as now is. He came from a bit north'ard, so far as I
1732 could ever make out. But there's nobody rightly knows about those
1733 parts: only it couldn't be far north'ard, nor much different from this
1734 country, for he brought a fine breed o' sheep with him, so there must
1735 be pastures there, and everything reasonable. We heared tell as he'd
1736 sold his own land to come and take the Warrens, and that seemed odd for
1737 a man as had land of his own, to come and rent a farm in a strange
1738 place. But they said it was along of his wife's dying; though there's
1739 reasons in things as nobody knows on--that's pretty much what I've made
1740 out; yet some folks are so wise, they'll find you fifty reasons
1741 straight off, and all the while the real reason's winking at 'em in the
1742 corner, and they niver see't. Howsomever, it was soon seen as we'd got
1743 a new parish'ner as know'd the rights and customs o' things, and kep a
1744 good house, and was well looked on by everybody. And the young
1745 man--that's the Mr. Lammeter as now is, for he'd niver a sister--soon
1746 begun to court Miss Osgood, that's the sister o' the Mr. Osgood as now
1747 is, and a fine handsome lass she was--eh, you can't think--they pretend
1748 this young lass is like her, but that's the way wi' people as don't
1749 know what come before 'em. _I_ should know, for I helped the old
1750 rector, Mr. Drumlow as was, I helped him marry 'em."
1751
1752 Here Mr. Macey paused; he always gave his narrative in instalments,
1753 expecting to be questioned according to precedent.
1754
1755 "Aye, and a partic'lar thing happened, didn't it, Mr. Macey, so as you
1756 were likely to remember that marriage?" said the landlord, in a
1757 congratulatory tone.
1758
1759 "I should think there did--a _very_ partic'lar thing," said Mr. Macey,
1760 nodding sideways. "For Mr. Drumlow--poor old gentleman, I was fond on
1761 him, though he'd got a bit confused in his head, what wi' age and wi'
1762 taking a drop o' summat warm when the service come of a cold morning.
1763 And young Mr. Lammeter, he'd have no way but he must be married in
1764 Janiwary, which, to be sure, 's a unreasonable time to be married in,
1765 for it isn't like a christening or a burying, as you can't help; and so
1766 Mr. Drumlow--poor old gentleman, I was fond on him--but when he come to
1767 put the questions, he put 'em by the rule o' contrairy, like, and he
1768 says, "Wilt thou have this man to thy wedded wife?" says he, and then
1769 he says, "Wilt thou have this woman to thy wedded husband?" says he.
1770 But the partic'larest thing of all is, as nobody took any notice on it
1771 but me, and they answered straight off "yes", like as if it had been me
1772 saying "Amen" i' the right place, without listening to what went
1773 before."
1774
1775 "But _you_ knew what was going on well enough, didn't you, Mr. Macey?
1776 You were live enough, eh?" said the butcher.
1777
1778 "Lor bless you!" said Mr. Macey, pausing, and smiling in pity at the
1779 impotence of his hearer's imagination--"why, I was all of a tremble: it
1780 was as if I'd been a coat pulled by the two tails, like; for I couldn't
1781 stop the parson, I couldn't take upon me to do that; and yet I said to
1782 myself, I says, "Suppose they shouldn't be fast married, 'cause the
1783 words are contrairy?" and my head went working like a mill, for I was
1784 allays uncommon for turning things over and seeing all round 'em; and I
1785 says to myself, "Is't the meanin' or the words as makes folks fast i'
1786 wedlock?" For the parson meant right, and the bride and bridegroom
1787 meant right. But then, when I come to think on it, meanin' goes but a
1788 little way i' most things, for you may mean to stick things together
1789 and your glue may be bad, and then where are you? And so I says to
1790 mysen, "It isn't the meanin', it's the glue." And I was worreted as if
1791 I'd got three bells to pull at once, when we went into the vestry, and
1792 they begun to sign their names. But where's the use o' talking?--you
1793 can't think what goes on in a 'cute man's inside."
1794
1795 "But you held in for all that, didn't you, Mr. Macey?" said the
1796 landlord.
1797
1798 "Aye, I held in tight till I was by mysen wi' Mr. Drumlow, and then I
1799 out wi' everything, but respectful, as I allays did. And he made light
1800 on it, and he says, "Pooh, pooh, Macey, make yourself easy," he says;
1801 "it's neither the meaning nor the words--it's the re_ges_ter does
1802 it--that's the glue." So you see he settled it easy; for parsons and
1803 doctors know everything by heart, like, so as they aren't worreted wi'
1804 thinking what's the rights and wrongs o' things, as I'n been many and
1805 many's the time. And sure enough the wedding turned out all right,
1806 on'y poor Mrs. Lammeter--that's Miss Osgood as was--died afore the
1807 lasses was growed up; but for prosperity and everything respectable,
1808 there's no family more looked on."
1809
1810 Every one of Mr. Macey's audience had heard this story many times, but
1811 it was listened to as if it had been a favourite tune, and at certain
1812 points the puffing of the pipes was momentarily suspended, that the
1813 listeners might give their whole minds to the expected words. But
1814 there was more to come; and Mr. Snell, the landlord, duly put the
1815 leading question.
1816
1817 "Why, old Mr. Lammeter had a pretty fortin, didn't they say, when he
1818 come into these parts?"
1819
1820 "Well, yes," said Mr. Macey; "but I daresay it's as much as this Mr.
1821 Lammeter's done to keep it whole. For there was allays a talk as
1822 nobody could get rich on the Warrens: though he holds it cheap, for
1823 it's what they call Charity Land."
1824
1825 "Aye, and there's few folks know so well as you how it come to be
1826 Charity Land, eh, Mr. Macey?" said the butcher.
1827
1828 "How should they?" said the old clerk, with some contempt. "Why, my
1829 grandfather made the grooms' livery for that Mr. Cliff as came and
1830 built the big stables at the Warrens. Why, they're stables four times
1831 as big as Squire Cass's, for he thought o' nothing but hosses and
1832 hunting, Cliff didn't--a Lunnon tailor, some folks said, as had gone
1833 mad wi' cheating. For he couldn't ride; lor bless you! they said he'd
1834 got no more grip o' the hoss than if his legs had been cross-sticks: my
1835 grandfather heared old Squire Cass say so many and many a time. But
1836 ride he would, as if Old Harry had been a-driving him; and he'd a son,
1837 a lad o' sixteen; and nothing would his father have him do, but he must
1838 ride and ride--though the lad was frighted, they said. And it was a
1839 common saying as the father wanted to ride the tailor out o' the lad,
1840 and make a gentleman on him--not but what I'm a tailor myself, but in
1841 respect as God made me such, I'm proud on it, for "Macey, tailor", 's
1842 been wrote up over our door since afore the Queen's heads went out on
1843 the shillings. But Cliff, he was ashamed o' being called a tailor, and
1844 he was sore vexed as his riding was laughed at, and nobody o' the
1845 gentlefolks hereabout could abide him. Howsomever, the poor lad got
1846 sickly and died, and the father didn't live long after him, for he got
1847 queerer nor ever, and they said he used to go out i' the dead o' the
1848 night, wi' a lantern in his hand, to the stables, and set a lot o'
1849 lights burning, for he got as he couldn't sleep; and there he'd stand,
1850 cracking his whip and looking at his hosses; and they said it was a
1851 mercy as the stables didn't get burnt down wi' the poor dumb creaturs
1852 in 'em. But at last he died raving, and they found as he'd left all
1853 his property, Warrens and all, to a Lunnon Charity, and that's how the
1854 Warrens come to be Charity Land; though, as for the stables, Mr.
1855 Lammeter never uses 'em--they're out o' all charicter--lor bless you!
1856 if you was to set the doors a-banging in 'em, it 'ud sound like thunder
1857 half o'er the parish."
1858
1859 "Aye, but there's more going on in the stables than what folks see by
1860 daylight, eh, Mr. Macey?" said the landlord.
1861
1862 "Aye, aye; go that way of a dark night, that's all," said Mr. Macey,
1863 winking mysteriously, "and then make believe, if you like, as you
1864 didn't see lights i' the stables, nor hear the stamping o' the hosses,
1865 nor the cracking o' the whips, and howling, too, if it's tow'rt
1866 daybreak. "Cliff's Holiday" has been the name of it ever sin' I were a
1867 boy; that's to say, some said as it was the holiday Old Harry gev him
1868 from roasting, like. That's what my father told me, and he was a
1869 reasonable man, though there's folks nowadays know what happened afore
1870 they were born better nor they know their own business."
1871
1872 "What do you say to that, eh, Dowlas?" said the landlord, turning to
1873 the farrier, who was swelling with impatience for his cue. "There's a
1874 nut for _you_ to crack."
1875
1876 Mr. Dowlas was the negative spirit in the company, and was proud of his
1877 position.
1878
1879 "Say? I say what a man _should_ say as doesn't shut his eyes to look
1880 at a finger-post. I say, as I'm ready to wager any man ten pound, if
1881 he'll stand out wi' me any dry night in the pasture before the Warren
1882 stables, as we shall neither see lights nor hear noises, if it isn't
1883 the blowing of our own noses. That's what I say, and I've said it many
1884 a time; but there's nobody 'ull ventur a ten-pun' note on their ghos'es
1885 as they make so sure of."
1886
1887 "Why, Dowlas, that's easy betting, that is," said Ben Winthrop. "You
1888 might as well bet a man as he wouldn't catch the rheumatise if he stood
1889 up to 's neck in the pool of a frosty night. It 'ud be fine fun for a
1890 man to win his bet as he'd catch the rheumatise. Folks as believe in
1891 Cliff's Holiday aren't agoing to ventur near it for a matter o' ten
1892 pound."
1893
1894 "If Master Dowlas wants to know the truth on it," said Mr. Macey, with
1895 a sarcastic smile, tapping his thumbs together, "he's no call to lay
1896 any bet--let him go and stan' by himself--there's nobody 'ull hinder
1897 him; and then he can let the parish'ners know if they're wrong."
1898
1899 "Thank you! I'm obliged to you," said the farrier, with a snort of
1900 scorn. "If folks are fools, it's no business o' mine. _I_ don't want
1901 to make out the truth about ghos'es: I know it a'ready. But I'm not
1902 against a bet--everything fair and open. Let any man bet me ten pound
1903 as I shall see Cliff's Holiday, and I'll go and stand by myself. I
1904 want no company. I'd as lief do it as I'd fill this pipe."
1905
1906 "Ah, but who's to watch you, Dowlas, and see you do it? That's no fair
1907 bet," said the butcher.
1908
1909 "No fair bet?" replied Mr. Dowlas, angrily. "I should like to hear
1910 any man stand up and say I want to bet unfair. Come now, Master Lundy,
1911 I should like to hear you say it."
1912
1913 "Very like you would," said the butcher. "But it's no business o'
1914 mine. You're none o' my bargains, and I aren't a-going to try and
1915 'bate your price. If anybody 'll bid for you at your own vallying, let
1916 him. I'm for peace and quietness, I am."
1917
1918 "Yes, that's what every yapping cur is, when you hold a stick up at
1919 him," said the farrier. "But I'm afraid o' neither man nor ghost, and
1920 I'm ready to lay a fair bet. _I_ aren't a turn-tail cur."
1921
1922 "Aye, but there's this in it, Dowlas," said the landlord, speaking in a
1923 tone of much candour and tolerance. "There's folks, i' my opinion,
1924 they can't see ghos'es, not if they stood as plain as a pike-staff
1925 before 'em. And there's reason i' that. For there's my wife, now,
1926 can't smell, not if she'd the strongest o' cheese under her nose. I
1927 never see'd a ghost myself; but then I says to myself, "Very like I
1928 haven't got the smell for 'em." I mean, putting a ghost for a smell,
1929 or else contrairiways. And so, I'm for holding with both sides; for,
1930 as I say, the truth lies between 'em. And if Dowlas was to go and
1931 stand, and say he'd never seen a wink o' Cliff's Holiday all the night
1932 through, I'd back him; and if anybody said as Cliff's Holiday was
1933 certain sure, for all that, I'd back _him_ too. For the smell's what I
1934 go by."
1935
1936 The landlord's analogical argument was not well received by the
1937 farrier--a man intensely opposed to compromise.
1938
1939 "Tut, tut," he said, setting down his glass with refreshed irritation;
1940 "what's the smell got to do with it? Did ever a ghost give a man a
1941 black eye? That's what I should like to know. If ghos'es want me to
1942 believe in 'em, let 'em leave off skulking i' the dark and i' lone
1943 places--let 'em come where there's company and candles."
1944
1945 "As if ghos'es 'ud want to be believed in by anybody so ignirant!" said
1946 Mr. Macey, in deep disgust at the farrier's crass incompetence to
1947 apprehend the conditions of ghostly phenomena.
1948
1949
1950
1951 CHAPTER VII
1952
1953 Yet the next moment there seemed to be some evidence that ghosts had a
1954 more condescending disposition than Mr. Macey attributed to them; for
1955 the pale thin figure of Silas Marner was suddenly seen standing in the
1956 warm light, uttering no word, but looking round at the company with his
1957 strange unearthly eyes. The long pipes gave a simultaneous movement,
1958 like the antennae of startled insects, and every man present, not
1959 excepting even the sceptical farrier, had an impression that he saw,
1960 not Silas Marner in the flesh, but an apparition; for the door by which
1961 Silas had entered was hidden by the high-screened seats, and no one had
1962 noticed his approach. Mr. Macey, sitting a long way off the ghost,
1963 might be supposed to have felt an argumentative triumph, which would
1964 tend to neutralize his share of the general alarm. Had he not always
1965 said that when Silas Marner was in that strange trance of his, his soul
1966 went loose from his body? Here was the demonstration: nevertheless, on
1967 the whole, he would have been as well contented without it. For a few
1968 moments there was a dead silence, Marner's want of breath and agitation
1969 not allowing him to speak. The landlord, under the habitual sense that
1970 he was bound to keep his house open to all company, and confident in
1971 the protection of his unbroken neutrality, at last took on himself the
1972 task of adjuring the ghost.
1973
1974 "Master Marner," he said, in a conciliatory tone, "what's lacking to
1975 you? What's your business here?"
1976
1977 "Robbed!" said Silas, gaspingly. "I've been robbed! I want the
1978 constable--and the Justice--and Squire Cass--and Mr. Crackenthorp."
1979
1980 "Lay hold on him, Jem Rodney," said the landlord, the idea of a ghost
1981 subsiding; "he's off his head, I doubt. He's wet through."
1982
1983 Jem Rodney was the outermost man, and sat conveniently near Marner's
1984 standing-place; but he declined to give his services.
1985
1986 "Come and lay hold on him yourself, Mr. Snell, if you've a mind," said
1987 Jem, rather sullenly. "He's been robbed, and murdered too, for what I
1988 know," he added, in a muttering tone.
1989
1990 "Jem Rodney!" said Silas, turning and fixing his strange eyes on the
1991 suspected man.
1992
1993 "Aye, Master Marner, what do you want wi' me?" said Jem, trembling a
1994 little, and seizing his drinking-can as a defensive weapon.
1995
1996 "If it was you stole my money," said Silas, clasping his hands
1997 entreatingly, and raising his voice to a cry, "give it me back--and I
1998 won't meddle with you. I won't set the constable on you. Give it me
1999 back, and I'll let you--I'll let you have a guinea."
2000
2001 "Me stole your money!" said Jem, angrily. "I'll pitch this can at
2002 your eye if you talk o' _my_ stealing your money."
2003
2004 "Come, come, Master Marner," said the landlord, now rising resolutely,
2005 and seizing Marner by the shoulder, "if you've got any information to
2006 lay, speak it out sensible, and show as you're in your right mind, if
2007 you expect anybody to listen to you. You're as wet as a drownded rat.
2008 Sit down and dry yourself, and speak straight forrard."
2009
2010 "Ah, to be sure, man," said the farrier, who began to feel that he had
2011 not been quite on a par with himself and the occasion. "Let's have no
2012 more staring and screaming, else we'll have you strapped for a madman.
2013 That was why I didn't speak at the first--thinks I, the man's run mad."
2014
2015 "Aye, aye, make him sit down," said several voices at once, well
2016 pleased that the reality of ghosts remained still an open question.
2017
2018 The landlord forced Marner to take off his coat, and then to sit down
2019 on a chair aloof from every one else, in the centre of the circle and
2020 in the direct rays of the fire. The weaver, too feeble to have any
2021 distinct purpose beyond that of getting help to recover his money,
2022 submitted unresistingly. The transient fears of the company were now
2023 forgotten in their strong curiosity, and all faces were turned towards
2024 Silas, when the landlord, having seated himself again, said--
2025
2026 "Now then, Master Marner, what's this you've got to say--as you've been
2027 robbed? Speak out."
2028
2029 "He'd better not say again as it was me robbed him," cried Jem Rodney,
2030 hastily. "What could I ha' done with his money? I could as easy steal
2031 the parson's surplice, and wear it."
2032
2033 "Hold your tongue, Jem, and let's hear what he's got to say," said the
2034 landlord. "Now then, Master Marner."
2035
2036 Silas now told his story, under frequent questioning as the mysterious
2037 character of the robbery became evident.
2038
2039 This strangely novel situation of opening his trouble to his Raveloe
2040 neighbours, of sitting in the warmth of a hearth not his own, and
2041 feeling the presence of faces and voices which were his nearest promise
2042 of help, had doubtless its influence on Marner, in spite of his
2043 passionate preoccupation with his loss. Our consciousness rarely
2044 registers the beginning of a growth within us any more than without us:
2045 there have been many circulations of the sap before we detect the
2046 smallest sign of the bud.
2047
2048 The slight suspicion with which his hearers at first listened to him,
2049 gradually melted away before the convincing simplicity of his distress:
2050 it was impossible for the neighbours to doubt that Marner was telling
2051 the truth, not because they were capable of arguing at once from the
2052 nature of his statements to the absence of any motive for making them
2053 falsely, but because, as Mr. Macey observed, "Folks as had the devil to
2054 back 'em were not likely to be so mushed" as poor Silas was. Rather,
2055 from the strange fact that the robber had left no traces, and had
2056 happened to know the nick of time, utterly incalculable by mortal
2057 agents, when Silas would go away from home without locking his door,
2058 the more probable conclusion seemed to be, that his disreputable
2059 intimacy in that quarter, if it ever existed, had been broken up, and
2060 that, in consequence, this ill turn had been done to Marner by somebody
2061 it was quite in vain to set the constable after. Why this
2062 preternatural felon should be obliged to wait till the door was left
2063 unlocked, was a question which did not present itself.
2064
2065 "It isn't Jem Rodney as has done this work, Master Marner," said the
2066 landlord. "You mustn't be a-casting your eye at poor Jem. There may be
2067 a bit of a reckoning against Jem for the matter of a hare or so, if
2068 anybody was bound to keep their eyes staring open, and niver to wink;
2069 but Jem's been a-sitting here drinking his can, like the decentest man
2070 i' the parish, since before you left your house, Master Marner, by your
2071 own account."
2072
2073 "Aye, aye," said Mr. Macey; "let's have no accusing o' the innicent.
2074 That isn't the law. There must be folks to swear again' a man before
2075 he can be ta'en up. Let's have no accusing o' the innicent, Master
2076 Marner."
2077
2078 Memory was not so utterly torpid in Silas that it could not be awakened
2079 by these words. With a movement of compunction as new and strange to
2080 him as everything else within the last hour, he started from his chair
2081 and went close up to Jem, looking at him as if he wanted to assure
2082 himself of the expression in his face.
2083
2084 "I was wrong," he said--"yes, yes--I ought to have thought. There's
2085 nothing to witness against you, Jem. Only you'd been into my house
2086 oftener than anybody else, and so you came into my head. I don't accuse
2087 you--I won't accuse anybody--only," he added, lifting up his hands to
2088 his head, and turning away with bewildered misery, "I try--I try to
2089 think where my guineas can be."
2090
2091 "Aye, aye, they're gone where it's hot enough to melt 'em, I doubt,"
2092 said Mr. Macey.
2093
2094 "Tchuh!" said the farrier. And then he asked, with a cross-examining
2095 air, "How much money might there be in the bags, Master Marner?"
2096
2097 "Two hundred and seventy-two pounds, twelve and sixpence, last night
2098 when I counted it," said Silas, seating himself again, with a groan.
2099
2100 "Pooh! why, they'd be none so heavy to carry. Some tramp's been in,
2101 that's all; and as for the no footmarks, and the bricks and the sand
2102 being all right--why, your eyes are pretty much like a insect's, Master
2103 Marner; they're obliged to look so close, you can't see much at a time.
2104 It's my opinion as, if I'd been you, or you'd been me--for it comes to
2105 the same thing--you wouldn't have thought you'd found everything as you
2106 left it. But what I vote is, as two of the sensiblest o' the company
2107 should go with you to Master Kench, the constable's--he's ill i' bed, I
2108 know that much--and get him to appoint one of us his deppity; for
2109 that's the law, and I don't think anybody 'ull take upon him to
2110 contradick me there. It isn't much of a walk to Kench's; and then, if
2111 it's me as is deppity, I'll go back with you, Master Marner, and
2112 examine your premises; and if anybody's got any fault to find with
2113 that, I'll thank him to stand up and say it out like a man."
2114
2115 By this pregnant speech the farrier had re-established his
2116 self-complacency, and waited with confidence to hear himself named as
2117 one of the superlatively sensible men.
2118
2119 "Let us see how the night is, though," said the landlord, who also
2120 considered himself personally concerned in this proposition. "Why, it
2121 rains heavy still," he said, returning from the door.
2122
2123 "Well, I'm not the man to be afraid o' the rain," said the farrier.
2124 "For it'll look bad when Justice Malam hears as respectable men like us
2125 had a information laid before 'em and took no steps."
2126
2127 The landlord agreed with this view, and after taking the sense of the
2128 company, and duly rehearsing a small ceremony known in high
2129 ecclesiastical life as the _nolo episcopari_, he consented to take on
2130 himself the chill dignity of going to Kench's. But to the farrier's
2131 strong disgust, Mr. Macey now started an objection to his proposing
2132 himself as a deputy-constable; for that oracular old gentleman,
2133 claiming to know the law, stated, as a fact delivered to him by his
2134 father, that no doctor could be a constable.
2135
2136 "And you're a doctor, I reckon, though you're only a cow-doctor--for a
2137 fly's a fly, though it may be a hoss-fly," concluded Mr. Macey,
2138 wondering a little at his own "'cuteness".
2139
2140 There was a hot debate upon this, the farrier being of course
2141 indisposed to renounce the quality of doctor, but contending that a
2142 doctor could be a constable if he liked--the law meant, he needn't be
2143 one if he didn't like. Mr. Macey thought this was nonsense, since the
2144 law was not likely to be fonder of doctors than of other folks.
2145 Moreover, if it was in the nature of doctors more than of other men not
2146 to like being constables, how came Mr. Dowlas to be so eager to act in
2147 that capacity?
2148
2149 "_I_ don't want to act the constable," said the farrier, driven into a
2150 corner by this merciless reasoning; "and there's no man can say it of
2151 me, if he'd tell the truth. But if there's to be any jealousy and
2152 en_vy_ing about going to Kench's in the rain, let them go as like
2153 it--you won't get me to go, I can tell you."
2154
2155 By the landlord's intervention, however, the dispute was accommodated.
2156 Mr. Dowlas consented to go as a second person disinclined to act
2157 officially; and so poor Silas, furnished with some old coverings,
2158 turned out with his two companions into the rain again, thinking of the
2159 long night-hours before him, not as those do who long to rest, but as
2160 those who expect to "watch for the morning".
2161
2162
2163
2164 CHAPTER VIII
2165
2166 When Godfrey Cass returned from Mrs. Osgood's party at midnight, he was
2167 not much surprised to learn that Dunsey had not come home. Perhaps he
2168 had not sold Wildfire, and was waiting for another chance--perhaps, on
2169 that foggy afternoon, he had preferred housing himself at the Red Lion
2170 at Batherley for the night, if the run had kept him in that
2171 neighbourhood; for he was not likely to feel much concern about leaving
2172 his brother in suspense. Godfrey's mind was too full of Nancy
2173 Lammeter's looks and behaviour, too full of the exasperation against
2174 himself and his lot, which the sight of her always produced in him, for
2175 him to give much thought to Wildfire, or to the probabilities of
2176 Dunstan's conduct.
2177
2178 The next morning the whole village was excited by the story of the
2179 robbery, and Godfrey, like every one else, was occupied in gathering
2180 and discussing news about it, and in visiting the Stone-pits. The rain
2181 had washed away all possibility of distinguishing foot-marks, but a
2182 close investigation of the spot had disclosed, in the direction
2183 opposite to the village, a tinder-box, with a flint and steel, half
2184 sunk in the mud. It was not Silas's tinder-box, for the only one he
2185 had ever had was still standing on his shelf; and the inference
2186 generally accepted was, that the tinder-box in the ditch was somehow
2187 connected with the robbery. A small minority shook their heads, and
2188 intimated their opinion that it was not a robbery to have much light
2189 thrown on it by tinder-boxes, that Master Marner's tale had a queer
2190 look with it, and that such things had been known as a man's doing
2191 himself a mischief, and then setting the justice to look for the doer.
2192 But when questioned closely as to their grounds for this opinion, and
2193 what Master Marner had to gain by such false pretences, they only shook
2194 their heads as before, and observed that there was no knowing what some
2195 folks counted gain; moreover, that everybody had a right to their own
2196 opinions, grounds or no grounds, and that the weaver, as everybody
2197 knew, was partly crazy. Mr. Macey, though he joined in the defence of
2198 Marner against all suspicions of deceit, also pooh-poohed the
2199 tinder-box; indeed, repudiated it as a rather impious suggestion,
2200 tending to imply that everything must be done by human hands, and that
2201 there was no power which could make away with the guineas without
2202 moving the bricks. Nevertheless, he turned round rather sharply on Mr.
2203 Tookey, when the zealous deputy, feeling that this was a view of the
2204 case peculiarly suited to a parish-clerk, carried it still farther, and
2205 doubted whether it was right to inquire into a robbery at all when the
2206 circumstances were so mysterious.
2207
2208 "As if," concluded Mr. Tookey--"as if there was nothing but what could
2209 be made out by justices and constables."
2210
2211 "Now, don't you be for overshooting the mark, Tookey," said Mr. Macey,
2212 nodding his head aside admonishingly. "That's what you're allays at;
2213 if I throw a stone and hit, you think there's summat better than
2214 hitting, and you try to throw a stone beyond. What I said was against
2215 the tinder-box: I said nothing against justices and constables, for
2216 they're o' King George's making, and it 'ud be ill-becoming a man in a
2217 parish office to fly out again' King George."
2218
2219 While these discussions were going on amongst the group outside the
2220 Rainbow, a higher consultation was being carried on within, under the
2221 presidency of Mr. Crackenthorp, the rector, assisted by Squire Cass and
2222 other substantial parishioners. It had just occurred to Mr. Snell, the
2223 landlord--he being, as he observed, a man accustomed to put two and two
2224 together--to connect with the tinder-box, which, as deputy-constable,
2225 he himself had had the honourable distinction of finding, certain
2226 recollections of a pedlar who had called to drink at the house about a
2227 month before, and had actually stated that he carried a tinder-box
2228 about with him to light his pipe. Here, surely, was a clue to be
2229 followed out. And as memory, when duly impregnated with ascertained
2230 facts, is sometimes surprisingly fertile, Mr. Snell gradually recovered
2231 a vivid impression of the effect produced on him by the pedlar's
2232 countenance and conversation. He had a "look with his eye" which fell
2233 unpleasantly on Mr. Snell's sensitive organism. To be sure, he didn't
2234 say anything particular--no, except that about the tinder-box--but it
2235 isn't what a man says, it's the way he says it. Moreover, he had a
2236 swarthy foreignness of complexion which boded little honesty.
2237
2238 "Did he wear ear-rings?" Mr. Crackenthorp wished to know, having some
2239 acquaintance with foreign customs.
2240
2241 "Well--stay--let me see," said Mr. Snell, like a docile clairvoyante,
2242 who would really not make a mistake if she could help it. After
2243 stretching the corners of his mouth and contracting his eyes, as if he
2244 were trying to see the ear-rings, he appeared to give up the effort,
2245 and said, "Well, he'd got ear-rings in his box to sell, so it's nat'ral
2246 to suppose he might wear 'em. But he called at every house, a'most, in
2247 the village; there's somebody else, mayhap, saw 'em in his ears, though
2248 I can't take upon me rightly to say."
2249
2250 Mr. Snell was correct in his surmise, that somebody else would remember
2251 the pedlar's ear-rings. For on the spread of inquiry among the
2252 villagers it was stated with gathering emphasis, that the parson had
2253 wanted to know whether the pedlar wore ear-rings in his ears, and an
2254 impression was created that a great deal depended on the eliciting of
2255 this fact. Of course, every one who heard the question, not having any
2256 distinct image of the pedlar as _without_ ear-rings, immediately had an
2257 image of him _with_ ear-rings, larger or smaller, as the case might be;
2258 and the image was presently taken for a vivid recollection, so that the
2259 glazier's wife, a well-intentioned woman, not given to lying, and whose
2260 house was among the cleanest in the village, was ready to declare, as
2261 sure as ever she meant to take the sacrament the very next Christmas
2262 that was ever coming, that she had seen big ear-rings, in the shape of
2263 the young moon, in the pedlar's two ears; while Jinny Oates, the
2264 cobbler's daughter, being a more imaginative person, stated not only
2265 that she had seen them too, but that they had made her blood creep, as
2266 it did at that very moment while there she stood.
2267
2268 Also, by way of throwing further light on this clue of the tinder-box,
2269 a collection was made of all the articles purchased from the pedlar at
2270 various houses, and carried to the Rainbow to be exhibited there. In
2271 fact, there was a general feeling in the village, that for the
2272 clearing-up of this robbery there must be a great deal done at the
2273 Rainbow, and that no man need offer his wife an excuse for going there
2274 while it was the scene of severe public duties.
2275
2276 Some disappointment was felt, and perhaps a little indignation also,
2277 when it became known that Silas Marner, on being questioned by the
2278 Squire and the parson, had retained no other recollection of the pedlar
2279 than that he had called at his door, but had not entered his house,
2280 having turned away at once when Silas, holding the door ajar, had said
2281 that he wanted nothing. This had been Silas's testimony, though he
2282 clutched strongly at the idea of the pedlar's being the culprit, if
2283 only because it gave him a definite image of a whereabout for his gold
2284 after it had been taken away from its hiding-place: he could see it now
2285 in the pedlar's box. But it was observed with some irritation in the
2286 village, that anybody but a "blind creatur" like Marner would have seen
2287 the man prowling about, for how came he to leave his tinder-box in the
2288 ditch close by, if he hadn't been lingering there? Doubtless, he had
2289 made his observations when he saw Marner at the door. Anybody might
2290 know--and only look at him--that the weaver was a half-crazy miser. It
2291 was a wonder the pedlar hadn't murdered him; men of that sort, with
2292 rings in their ears, had been known for murderers often and often;
2293 there had been one tried at the 'sizes, not so long ago but what there
2294 were people living who remembered it.
2295
2296 Godfrey Cass, indeed, entering the Rainbow during one of Mr. Snell's
2297 frequently repeated recitals of his testimony, had treated it lightly,
2298 stating that he himself had bought a pen-knife of the pedlar, and
2299 thought him a merry grinning fellow enough; it was all nonsense, he
2300 said, about the man's evil looks. But this was spoken of in the
2301 village as the random talk of youth, "as if it was only Mr. Snell who
2302 had seen something odd about the pedlar!" On the contrary, there were
2303 at least half-a-dozen who were ready to go before Justice Malam, and
2304 give in much more striking testimony than any the landlord could
2305 furnish. It was to be hoped Mr. Godfrey would not go to Tarley and
2306 throw cold water on what Mr. Snell said there, and so prevent the
2307 justice from drawing up a warrant. He was suspected of intending this,
2308 when, after mid-day, he was seen setting off on horseback in the
2309 direction of Tarley.
2310
2311 But by this time Godfrey's interest in the robbery had faded before his
2312 growing anxiety about Dunstan and Wildfire, and he was going, not to
2313 Tarley, but to Batherley, unable to rest in uncertainty about them any
2314 longer. The possibility that Dunstan had played him the ugly trick of
2315 riding away with Wildfire, to return at the end of a month, when he had
2316 gambled away or otherwise squandered the price of the horse, was a fear
2317 that urged itself upon him more, even, than the thought of an
2318 accidental injury; and now that the dance at Mrs. Osgood's was past, he
2319 was irritated with himself that he had trusted his horse to Dunstan.
2320 Instead of trying to still his fears, he encouraged them, with that
2321 superstitious impression which clings to us all, that if we expect evil
2322 very strongly it is the less likely to come; and when he heard a horse
2323 approaching at a trot, and saw a hat rising above a hedge beyond an
2324 angle of the lane, he felt as if his conjuration had succeeded. But no
2325 sooner did the horse come within sight, than his heart sank again. It
2326 was not Wildfire; and in a few moments more he discerned that the rider
2327 was not Dunstan, but Bryce, who pulled up to speak, with a face that
2328 implied something disagreeable.
2329
2330 "Well, Mr. Godfrey, that's a lucky brother of yours, that Master
2331 Dunsey, isn't he?"
2332
2333 "What do you mean?" said Godfrey, hastily.
2334
2335 "Why, hasn't he been home yet?" said Bryce.
2336
2337 "Home? no. What has happened? Be quick. What has he done with my
2338 horse?"
2339
2340 "Ah, I thought it was yours, though he pretended you had parted with it
2341 to him."
2342
2343 "Has he thrown him down and broken his knees?" said Godfrey, flushed
2344 with exasperation.
2345
2346 "Worse than that," said Bryce. "You see, I'd made a bargain with him
2347 to buy the horse for a hundred and twenty--a swinging price, but I
2348 always liked the horse. And what does he do but go and stake him--fly
2349 at a hedge with stakes in it, atop of a bank with a ditch before it.
2350 The horse had been dead a pretty good while when he was found. So he
2351 hasn't been home since, has he?"
2352
2353 "Home? no," said Godfrey, "and he'd better keep away. Confound me for
2354 a fool! I might have known this would be the end of it."
2355
2356 "Well, to tell you the truth," said Bryce, "after I'd bargained for the
2357 horse, it did come into my head that he might be riding and selling the
2358 horse without your knowledge, for I didn't believe it was his own. I
2359 knew Master Dunsey was up to his tricks sometimes. But where can he be
2360 gone? He's never been seen at Batherley. He couldn't have been hurt,
2361 for he must have walked off."
2362
2363 "Hurt?" said Godfrey, bitterly. "He'll never be hurt--he's made to
2364 hurt other people."
2365
2366 "And so you _did_ give him leave to sell the horse, eh?" said Bryce.
2367
2368 "Yes; I wanted to part with the horse--he was always a little too hard
2369 in the mouth for me," said Godfrey; his pride making him wince under
2370 the idea that Bryce guessed the sale to be a matter of necessity. "I
2371 was going to see after him--I thought some mischief had happened. I'll
2372 go back now," he added, turning the horse's head, and wishing he could
2373 get rid of Bryce; for he felt that the long-dreaded crisis in his life
2374 was close upon him. "You're coming on to Raveloe, aren't you?"
2375
2376 "Well, no, not now," said Bryce. "I _was_ coming round there, for I
2377 had to go to Flitton, and I thought I might as well take you in my way,
2378 and just let you know all I knew myself about the horse. I suppose
2379 Master Dunsey didn't like to show himself till the ill news had blown
2380 over a bit. He's perhaps gone to pay a visit at the Three Crowns, by
2381 Whitbridge--I know he's fond of the house."
2382
2383 "Perhaps he is," said Godfrey, rather absently. Then rousing himself,
2384 he said, with an effort at carelessness, "We shall hear of him soon
2385 enough, I'll be bound."
2386
2387 "Well, here's my turning," said Bryce, not surprised to perceive that
2388 Godfrey was rather "down"; "so I'll bid you good-day, and wish I may
2389 bring you better news another time."
2390
2391 Godfrey rode along slowly, representing to himself the scene of
2392 confession to his father from which he felt that there was now no
2393 longer any escape. The revelation about the money must be made the
2394 very next morning; and if he withheld the rest, Dunstan would be sure
2395 to come back shortly, and, finding that he must bear the brunt of his
2396 father's anger, would tell the whole story out of spite, even though he
2397 had nothing to gain by it. There was one step, perhaps, by which he
2398 might still win Dunstan's silence and put off the evil day: he might
2399 tell his father that he had himself spent the money paid to him by
2400 Fowler; and as he had never been guilty of such an offence before, the
2401 affair would blow over after a little storming. But Godfrey could not
2402 bend himself to this. He felt that in letting Dunstan have the money,
2403 he had already been guilty of a breach of trust hardly less culpable
2404 than that of spending the money directly for his own behoof; and yet
2405 there was a distinction between the two acts which made him feel that
2406 the one was so much more blackening than the other as to be intolerable
2407 to him.
2408
2409 "I don't pretend to be a good fellow," he said to himself; "but I'm not
2410 a scoundrel--at least, I'll stop short somewhere. I'll bear the
2411 consequences of what I _have_ done sooner than make believe I've done
2412 what I never would have done. I'd never have spent the money for my
2413 own pleasure--I was tortured into it."
2414
2415 Through the remainder of this day Godfrey, with only occasional
2416 fluctuations, kept his will bent in the direction of a complete avowal
2417 to his father, and he withheld the story of Wildfire's loss till the
2418 next morning, that it might serve him as an introduction to heavier
2419 matter. The old Squire was accustomed to his son's frequent absence
2420 from home, and thought neither Dunstan's nor Wildfire's non-appearance
2421 a matter calling for remark. Godfrey said to himself again and again,
2422 that if he let slip this one opportunity of confession, he might never
2423 have another; the revelation might be made even in a more odious way
2424 than by Dunstan's malignity: _she_ might come as she had threatened to
2425 do. And then he tried to make the scene easier to himself by
2426 rehearsal: he made up his mind how he would pass from the admission of
2427 his weakness in letting Dunstan have the money to the fact that Dunstan
2428 had a hold on him which he had been unable to shake off, and how he
2429 would work up his father to expect something very bad before he told
2430 him the fact. The old Squire was an implacable man: he made
2431 resolutions in violent anger, and he was not to be moved from them
2432 after his anger had subsided--as fiery volcanic matters cool and harden
2433 into rock. Like many violent and implacable men, he allowed evils to
2434 grow under favour of his own heedlessness, till they pressed upon him
2435 with exasperating force, and then he turned round with fierce severity
2436 and became unrelentingly hard. This was his system with his tenants:
2437 he allowed them to get into arrears, neglect their fences, reduce their
2438 stock, sell their straw, and otherwise go the wrong way,--and then,
2439 when he became short of money in consequence of this indulgence, he
2440 took the hardest measures and would listen to no appeal. Godfrey knew
2441 all this, and felt it with the greater force because he had constantly
2442 suffered annoyance from witnessing his father's sudden fits of
2443 unrelentingness, for which his own habitual irresolution deprived him
2444 of all sympathy. (He was not critical on the faulty indulgence which
2445 preceded these fits; _that_ seemed to him natural enough.) Still there
2446 was just the chance, Godfrey thought, that his father's pride might see
2447 this marriage in a light that would induce him to hush it up, rather
2448 than turn his son out and make the family the talk of the country for
2449 ten miles round.
2450
2451 This was the view of the case that Godfrey managed to keep before him
2452 pretty closely till midnight, and he went to sleep thinking that he had
2453 done with inward debating. But when he awoke in the still morning
2454 darkness he found it impossible to reawaken his evening thoughts; it
2455 was as if they had been tired out and were not to be roused to further
2456 work. Instead of arguments for confession, he could now feel the
2457 presence of nothing but its evil consequences: the old dread of
2458 disgrace came back--the old shrinking from the thought of raising a
2459 hopeless barrier between himself and Nancy--the old disposition to rely
2460 on chances which might be favourable to him, and save him from
2461 betrayal. Why, after all, should he cut off the hope of them by his
2462 own act? He had seen the matter in a wrong light yesterday. He had
2463 been in a rage with Dunstan, and had thought of nothing but a thorough
2464 break-up of their mutual understanding; but what it would be really
2465 wisest for him to do, was to try and soften his father's anger against
2466 Dunsey, and keep things as nearly as possible in their old condition.
2467 If Dunsey did not come back for a few days (and Godfrey did not know
2468 but that the rascal had enough money in his pocket to enable him to
2469 keep away still longer), everything might blow over.
2470
2471
2472
2473 CHAPTER IX
2474
2475 Godfrey rose and took his own breakfast earlier than usual, but
2476 lingered in the wainscoted parlour till his younger brothers had
2477 finished their meal and gone out; awaiting his father, who always took
2478 a walk with his managing-man before breakfast. Every one breakfasted
2479 at a different hour in the Red House, and the Squire was always the
2480 latest, giving a long chance to a rather feeble morning appetite before
2481 he tried it. The table had been spread with substantial eatables
2482 nearly two hours before he presented himself--a tall, stout man of
2483 sixty, with a face in which the knit brow and rather hard glance seemed
2484 contradicted by the slack and feeble mouth. His person showed marks of
2485 habitual neglect, his dress was slovenly; and yet there was something
2486 in the presence of the old Squire distinguishable from that of the
2487 ordinary farmers in the parish, who were perhaps every whit as refined
2488 as he, but, having slouched their way through life with a consciousness
2489 of being in the vicinity of their "betters", wanted that
2490 self-possession and authoritativeness of voice and carriage which
2491 belonged to a man who thought of superiors as remote existences with
2492 whom he had personally little more to do than with America or the
2493 stars. The Squire had been used to parish homage all his life, used to
2494 the presupposition that his family, his tankards, and everything that
2495 was his, were the oldest and best; and as he never associated with any
2496 gentry higher than himself, his opinion was not disturbed by comparison.
2497
2498 He glanced at his son as he entered the room, and said, "What, sir!
2499 haven't _you_ had your breakfast yet?" but there was no pleasant
2500 morning greeting between them; not because of any unfriendliness, but
2501 because the sweet flower of courtesy is not a growth of such homes as
2502 the Red House.
2503
2504 "Yes, sir," said Godfrey, "I've had my breakfast, but I was waiting to
2505 speak to you."
2506
2507 "Ah! well," said the Squire, throwing himself indifferently into his
2508 chair, and speaking in a ponderous coughing fashion, which was felt in
2509 Raveloe to be a sort of privilege of his rank, while he cut a piece of
2510 beef, and held it up before the deer-hound that had come in with him.
2511 "Ring the bell for my ale, will you? You youngsters' business is your
2512 own pleasure, mostly. There's no hurry about it for anybody but
2513 yourselves."
2514
2515 The Squire's life was quite as idle as his sons', but it was a fiction
2516 kept up by himself and his contemporaries in Raveloe that youth was
2517 exclusively the period of folly, and that their aged wisdom was
2518 constantly in a state of endurance mitigated by sarcasm. Godfrey
2519 waited, before he spoke again, until the ale had been brought and the
2520 door closed--an interval during which Fleet, the deer-hound, had
2521 consumed enough bits of beef to make a poor man's holiday dinner.
2522
2523 "There's been a cursed piece of ill-luck with Wildfire," he began;
2524 "happened the day before yesterday."
2525
2526 "What! broke his knees?" said the Squire, after taking a draught of
2527 ale. "I thought you knew how to ride better than that, sir. I never
2528 threw a horse down in my life. If I had, I might ha' whistled for
2529 another, for _my_ father wasn't quite so ready to unstring as some
2530 other fathers I know of. But they must turn over a new leaf--_they_
2531 must. What with mortgages and arrears, I'm as short o' cash as a
2532 roadside pauper. And that fool Kimble says the newspaper's talking
2533 about peace. Why, the country wouldn't have a leg to stand on. Prices
2534 'ud run down like a jack, and I should never get my arrears, not if I
2535 sold all the fellows up. And there's that damned Fowler, I won't put
2536 up with him any longer; I've told Winthrop to go to Cox this very day.
2537 The lying scoundrel told me he'd be sure to pay me a hundred last
2538 month. He takes advantage because he's on that outlying farm, and
2539 thinks I shall forget him."
2540
2541 The Squire had delivered this speech in a coughing and interrupted
2542 manner, but with no pause long enough for Godfrey to make it a pretext
2543 for taking up the word again. He felt that his father meant to ward
2544 off any request for money on the ground of the misfortune with
2545 Wildfire, and that the emphasis he had thus been led to lay on his
2546 shortness of cash and his arrears was likely to produce an attitude of
2547 mind the utmost unfavourable for his own disclosure. But he must go on,
2548 now he had begun.
2549
2550 "It's worse than breaking the horse's knees--he's been staked and
2551 killed," he said, as soon as his father was silent, and had begun to
2552 cut his meat. "But I wasn't thinking of asking you to buy me another
2553 horse; I was only thinking I'd lost the means of paying you with the
2554 price of Wildfire, as I'd meant to do. Dunsey took him to the hunt to
2555 sell him for me the other day, and after he'd made a bargain for a
2556 hundred and twenty with Bryce, he went after the hounds, and took some
2557 fool's leap or other that did for the horse at once. If it hadn't been
2558 for that, I should have paid you a hundred pounds this morning."
2559
2560 The Squire had laid down his knife and fork, and was staring at his son
2561 in amazement, not being sufficiently quick of brain to form a probable
2562 guess as to what could have caused so strange an inversion of the
2563 paternal and filial relations as this proposition of his son to pay him
2564 a hundred pounds.
2565
2566 "The truth is, sir--I'm very sorry--I was quite to blame," said
2567 Godfrey. "Fowler did pay that hundred pounds. He paid it to me, when
2568 I was over there one day last month. And Dunsey bothered me for the
2569 money, and I let him have it, because I hoped I should be able to pay
2570 it you before this."
2571
2572 The Squire was purple with anger before his son had done speaking, and
2573 found utterance difficult. "You let Dunsey have it, sir? And how long
2574 have you been so thick with Dunsey that you must _collogue_ with him to
2575 embezzle my money? Are you turning out a scamp? I tell you I won't
2576 have it. I'll turn the whole pack of you out of the house together,
2577 and marry again. I'd have you to remember, sir, my property's got no
2578 entail on it;--since my grandfather's time the Casses can do as they
2579 like with their land. Remember that, sir. Let Dunsey have the money!
2580 Why should you let Dunsey have the money? There's some lie at the
2581 bottom of it."
2582
2583 "There's no lie, sir," said Godfrey. "I wouldn't have spent the money
2584 myself, but Dunsey bothered me, and I was a fool, and let him have it.
2585 But I meant to pay it, whether he did or not. That's the whole story.
2586 I never meant to embezzle money, and I'm not the man to do it. You
2587 never knew me do a dishonest trick, sir."
2588
2589 "Where's Dunsey, then? What do you stand talking there for? Go and
2590 fetch Dunsey, as I tell you, and let him give account of what he wanted
2591 the money for, and what he's done with it. He shall repent it. I'll
2592 turn him out. I said I would, and I'll do it. He shan't brave me. Go
2593 and fetch him."
2594
2595 "Dunsey isn't come back, sir."
2596
2597 "What! did he break his own neck, then?" said the Squire, with some
2598 disgust at the idea that, in that case, he could not fulfil his threat.
2599
2600 "No, he wasn't hurt, I believe, for the horse was found dead, and
2601 Dunsey must have walked off. I daresay we shall see him again
2602 by-and-by. I don't know where he is."
2603
2604 "And what must you be letting him have my money for? Answer me that,"
2605 said the Squire, attacking Godfrey again, since Dunsey was not within
2606 reach.
2607
2608 "Well, sir, I don't know," said Godfrey, hesitatingly. That was a
2609 feeble evasion, but Godfrey was not fond of lying, and, not being
2610 sufficiently aware that no sort of duplicity can long flourish without
2611 the help of vocal falsehoods, he was quite unprepared with invented
2612 motives.
2613
2614 "You don't know? I tell you what it is, sir. You've been up to some
2615 trick, and you've been bribing him not to tell," said the Squire, with
2616 a sudden acuteness which startled Godfrey, who felt his heart beat
2617 violently at the nearness of his father's guess. The sudden alarm
2618 pushed him on to take the next step--a very slight impulse suffices for
2619 that on a downward road.
2620
2621 "Why, sir," he said, trying to speak with careless ease, "it was a
2622 little affair between me and Dunsey; it's no matter to anybody else.
2623 It's hardly worth while to pry into young men's fooleries: it wouldn't
2624 have made any difference to you, sir, if I'd not had the bad luck to
2625 lose Wildfire. I should have paid you the money."
2626
2627 "Fooleries! Pshaw! it's time you'd done with fooleries. And I'd have
2628 you know, sir, you _must_ ha' done with 'em," said the Squire, frowning
2629 and casting an angry glance at his son. "Your goings-on are not what I
2630 shall find money for any longer. There's my grandfather had his
2631 stables full o' horses, and kept a good house, too, and in worse times,
2632 by what I can make out; and so might I, if I hadn't four
2633 good-for-nothing fellows to hang on me like horse-leeches. I've been
2634 too good a father to you all--that's what it is. But I shall pull up,
2635 sir."
2636
2637 Godfrey was silent. He was not likely to be very penetrating in his
2638 judgments, but he had always had a sense that his father's indulgence
2639 had not been kindness, and had had a vague longing for some discipline
2640 that would have checked his own errant weakness and helped his better
2641 will. The Squire ate his bread and meat hastily, took a deep draught
2642 of ale, then turned his chair from the table, and began to speak again.
2643
2644 "It'll be all the worse for you, you know--you'd need try and help me
2645 keep things together."
2646
2647 "Well, sir, I've often offered to take the management of things, but
2648 you know you've taken it ill always, and seemed to think I wanted to
2649 push you out of your place."
2650
2651 "I know nothing o' your offering or o' my taking it ill," said the
2652 Squire, whose memory consisted in certain strong impressions unmodified
2653 by detail; "but I know, one while you seemed to be thinking o'
2654 marrying, and I didn't offer to put any obstacles in your way, as some
2655 fathers would. I'd as lieve you married Lammeter's daughter as
2656 anybody. I suppose, if I'd said you nay, you'd ha' kept on with it;
2657 but, for want o' contradiction, you've changed your mind. You're a
2658 shilly-shally fellow: you take after your poor mother. She never had a
2659 will of her own; a woman has no call for one, if she's got a proper man
2660 for her husband. But _your_ wife had need have one, for you hardly
2661 know your own mind enough to make both your legs walk one way. The
2662 lass hasn't said downright she won't have you, has she?"
2663
2664 "No," said Godfrey, feeling very hot and uncomfortable; "but I don't
2665 think she will."
2666
2667 "Think! why haven't you the courage to ask her? Do you stick to it,
2668 you want to have _her_--that's the thing?"
2669
2670 "There's no other woman I want to marry," said Godfrey, evasively.
2671
2672 "Well, then, let me make the offer for you, that's all, if you haven't
2673 the pluck to do it yourself. Lammeter isn't likely to be loath for his
2674 daughter to marry into _my_ family, I should think. And as for the
2675 pretty lass, she wouldn't have her cousin--and there's nobody else, as
2676 I see, could ha' stood in your way."
2677
2678 "I'd rather let it be, please sir, at present," said Godfrey, in alarm.
2679 "I think she's a little offended with me just now, and I should like to
2680 speak for myself. A man must manage these things for himself."
2681
2682 "Well, speak, then, and manage it, and see if you can't turn over a new
2683 leaf. That's what a man must do when he thinks o' marrying."
2684
2685 "I don't see how I can think of it at present, sir. You wouldn't like
2686 to settle me on one of the farms, I suppose, and I don't think she'd
2687 come to live in this house with all my brothers. It's a different sort
2688 of life to what she's been used to."
2689
2690 "Not come to live in this house? Don't tell me. You ask her, that's
2691 all," said the Squire, with a short, scornful laugh.
2692
2693 "I'd rather let the thing be, at present, sir," said Godfrey. "I hope
2694 you won't try to hurry it on by saying anything."
2695
2696 "I shall do what I choose," said the Squire, "and I shall let you know
2697 I'm master; else you may turn out and find an estate to drop into
2698 somewhere else. Go out and tell Winthrop not to go to Cox's, but wait
2699 for me. And tell 'em to get my horse saddled. And stop: look out and
2700 get that hack o' Dunsey's sold, and hand me the money, will you? He'll
2701 keep no more hacks at my expense. And if you know where he's
2702 sneaking--I daresay you do--you may tell him to spare himself the
2703 journey o' coming back home. Let him turn ostler, and keep himself.
2704 He shan't hang on me any more."
2705
2706 "I don't know where he is, sir; and if I did, it isn't my place to tell
2707 him to keep away," said Godfrey, moving towards the door.
2708
2709 "Confound it, sir, don't stay arguing, but go and order my horse," said
2710 the Squire, taking up a pipe.
2711
2712 Godfrey left the room, hardly knowing whether he were more relieved by
2713 the sense that the interview was ended without having made any change
2714 in his position, or more uneasy that he had entangled himself still
2715 further in prevarication and deceit. What had passed about his
2716 proposing to Nancy had raised a new alarm, lest by some after-dinner
2717 words of his father's to Mr. Lammeter he should be thrown into the
2718 embarrassment of being obliged absolutely to decline her when she
2719 seemed to be within his reach. He fled to his usual refuge, that of
2720 hoping for some unforeseen turn of fortune, some favourable chance
2721 which would save him from unpleasant consequences--perhaps even justify
2722 his insincerity by manifesting its prudence. And in this point of
2723 trusting to some throw of fortune's dice, Godfrey can hardly be called
2724 specially old-fashioned. Favourable Chance, I fancy, is the god of all
2725 men who follow their own devices instead of obeying a law they believe
2726 in. Let even a polished man of these days get into a position he is
2727 ashamed to avow, and his mind will be bent on all the possible issues
2728 that may deliver him from the calculable results of that position. Let
2729 him live outside his income, or shirk the resolute honest work that
2730 brings wages, and he will presently find himself dreaming of a possible
2731 benefactor, a possible simpleton who may be cajoled into using his
2732 interest, a possible state of mind in some possible person not yet
2733 forthcoming. Let him neglect the responsibilities of his office, and he
2734 will inevitably anchor himself on the chance that the thing left undone
2735 may turn out not to be of the supposed importance. Let him betray his
2736 friend's confidence, and he will adore that same cunning complexity
2737 called Chance, which gives him the hope that his friend will never
2738 know. Let him forsake a decent craft that he may pursue the
2739 gentilities of a profession to which nature never called him, and his
2740 religion will infallibly be the worship of blessed Chance, which he
2741 will believe in as the mighty creator of success. The evil principle
2742 deprecated in that religion is the orderly sequence by which the seed
2743 brings forth a crop after its kind.
2744
2745
2746
2747 CHAPTER X
2748
2749 Justice Malam was naturally regarded in Tarley and Raveloe as a man of
2750 capacious mind, seeing that he could draw much wider conclusions
2751 without evidence than could be expected of his neighbours who were not
2752 on the Commission of the Peace. Such a man was not likely to neglect
2753 the clue of the tinder-box, and an inquiry was set on foot concerning a
2754 pedlar, name unknown, with curly black hair and a foreign complexion,
2755 carrying a box of cutlery and jewellery, and wearing large rings in his
2756 ears. But either because inquiry was too slow-footed to overtake him,
2757 or because the description applied to so many pedlars that inquiry did
2758 not know how to choose among them, weeks passed away, and there was no
2759 other result concerning the robbery than a gradual cessation of the
2760 excitement it had caused in Raveloe. Dunstan Cass's absence was hardly
2761 a subject of remark: he had once before had a quarrel with his father,
2762 and had gone off, nobody knew whither, to return at the end of six
2763 weeks, take up his old quarters unforbidden, and swagger as usual. His
2764 own family, who equally expected this issue, with the sole difference
2765 that the Squire was determined this time to forbid him the old
2766 quarters, never mentioned his absence; and when his uncle Kimble or Mr.
2767 Osgood noticed it, the story of his having killed Wildfire, and
2768 committed some offence against his father, was enough to prevent
2769 surprise. To connect the fact of Dunsey's disappearance with that of
2770 the robbery occurring on the same day, lay quite away from the track of
2771 every one's thought--even Godfrey's, who had better reason than any one
2772 else to know what his brother was capable of. He remembered no mention
2773 of the weaver between them since the time, twelve years ago, when it
2774 was their boyish sport to deride him; and, besides, his imagination
2775 constantly created an _alibi_ for Dunstan: he saw him continually in
2776 some congenial haunt, to which he had walked off on leaving
2777 Wildfire--saw him sponging on chance acquaintances, and meditating a
2778 return home to the old amusement of tormenting his elder brother. Even
2779 if any brain in Raveloe had put the said two facts together, I doubt
2780 whether a combination so injurious to the prescriptive respectability
2781 of a family with a mural monument and venerable tankards, would not
2782 have been suppressed as of unsound tendency. But Christmas puddings,
2783 brawn, and abundance of spirituous liquors, throwing the mental
2784 originality into the channel of nightmare, are great preservatives
2785 against a dangerous spontaneity of waking thought.
2786
2787 When the robbery was talked of at the Rainbow and elsewhere, in good
2788 company, the balance continued to waver between the rational
2789 explanation founded on the tinder-box, and the theory of an
2790 impenetrable mystery that mocked investigation. The advocates of the
2791 tinder-box-and-pedlar view considered the other side a muddle-headed
2792 and credulous set, who, because they themselves were wall-eyed,
2793 supposed everybody else to have the same blank outlook; and the
2794 adherents of the inexplicable more than hinted that their antagonists
2795 were animals inclined to crow before they had found any corn--mere
2796 skimming-dishes in point of depth--whose clear-sightedness consisted in
2797 supposing there was nothing behind a barn-door because they couldn't
2798 see through it; so that, though their controversy did not serve to
2799 elicit the fact concerning the robbery, it elicited some true opinions
2800 of collateral importance.
2801
2802 But while poor Silas's loss served thus to brush the slow current of
2803 Raveloe conversation, Silas himself was feeling the withering
2804 desolation of that bereavement about which his neighbours were arguing
2805 at their ease. To any one who had observed him before he lost his
2806 gold, it might have seemed that so withered and shrunken a life as his
2807 could hardly be susceptible of a bruise, could hardly endure any
2808 subtraction but such as would put an end to it altogether. But in
2809 reality it had been an eager life, filled with immediate purpose which
2810 fenced him in from the wide, cheerless unknown. It had been a clinging
2811 life; and though the object round which its fibres had clung was a dead
2812 disrupted thing, it satisfied the need for clinging. But now the fence
2813 was broken down--the support was snatched away. Marner's thoughts
2814 could no longer move in their old round, and were baffled by a blank
2815 like that which meets a plodding ant when the earth has broken away on
2816 its homeward path. The loom was there, and the weaving, and the
2817 growing pattern in the cloth; but the bright treasure in the hole under
2818 his feet was gone; the prospect of handling and counting it was gone:
2819 the evening had no phantasm of delight to still the poor soul's
2820 craving. The thought of the money he would get by his actual work
2821 could bring no joy, for its meagre image was only a fresh reminder of
2822 his loss; and hope was too heavily crushed by the sudden blow for his
2823 imagination to dwell on the growth of a new hoard from that small
2824 beginning.
2825
2826 He filled up the blank with grief. As he sat weaving, he every now and
2827 then moaned low, like one in pain: it was the sign that his thoughts
2828 had come round again to the sudden chasm--to the empty evening-time.
2829 And all the evening, as he sat in his loneliness by his dull fire, he
2830 leaned his elbows on his knees, and clasped his head with his hands,
2831 and moaned very low--not as one who seeks to be heard.
2832
2833 And yet he was not utterly forsaken in his trouble. The repulsion
2834 Marner had always created in his neighbours was partly dissipated by
2835 the new light in which this misfortune had shown him. Instead of a man
2836 who had more cunning than honest folks could come by, and, what was
2837 worse, had not the inclination to use that cunning in a neighbourly
2838 way, it was now apparent that Silas had not cunning enough to keep his
2839 own. He was generally spoken of as a "poor mushed creatur"; and that
2840 avoidance of his neighbours, which had before been referred to his
2841 ill-will and to a probable addiction to worse company, was now
2842 considered mere craziness.
2843
2844 This change to a kindlier feeling was shown in various ways. The odour
2845 of Christmas cooking being on the wind, it was the season when
2846 superfluous pork and black puddings are suggestive of charity in
2847 well-to-do families; and Silas's misfortune had brought him uppermost
2848 in the memory of housekeepers like Mrs. Osgood. Mr. Crackenthorp, too,
2849 while he admonished Silas that his money had probably been taken from
2850 him because he thought too much of it and never came to church,
2851 enforced the doctrine by a present of pigs' pettitoes, well calculated
2852 to dissipate unfounded prejudices against the clerical character.
2853 Neighbours who had nothing but verbal consolation to give showed a
2854 disposition not only to greet Silas and discuss his misfortune at some
2855 length when they encountered him in the village, but also to take the
2856 trouble of calling at his cottage and getting him to repeat all the
2857 details on the very spot; and then they would try to cheer him by
2858 saying, "Well, Master Marner, you're no worse off nor other poor folks,
2859 after all; and if you was to be crippled, the parish 'ud give you a
2860 'lowance."
2861
2862 I suppose one reason why we are seldom able to comfort our neighbours
2863 with our words is that our goodwill gets adulterated, in spite of
2864 ourselves, before it can pass our lips. We can send black puddings and
2865 pettitoes without giving them a flavour of our own egoism; but language
2866 is a stream that is almost sure to smack of a mingled soil. There was
2867 a fair proportion of kindness in Raveloe; but it was often of a beery
2868 and bungling sort, and took the shape least allied to the complimentary
2869 and hypocritical.
2870
2871 Mr. Macey, for example, coming one evening expressly to let Silas know
2872 that recent events had given him the advantage of standing more
2873 favourably in the opinion of a man whose judgment was not formed
2874 lightly, opened the conversation by saying, as soon as he had seated
2875 himself and adjusted his thumbs--
2876
2877 "Come, Master Marner, why, you've no call to sit a-moaning. You're a
2878 deal better off to ha' lost your money, nor to ha' kep it by foul
2879 means. I used to think, when you first come into these parts, as you
2880 were no better nor you should be; you were younger a deal than what you
2881 are now; but you were allays a staring, white-faced creatur, partly
2882 like a bald-faced calf, as I may say. But there's no knowing: it isn't
2883 every queer-looksed thing as Old Harry's had the making of--I mean,
2884 speaking o' toads and such; for they're often harmless, like, and
2885 useful against varmin. And it's pretty much the same wi' you, as fur
2886 as I can see. Though as to the yarbs and stuff to cure the breathing,
2887 if you brought that sort o' knowledge from distant parts, you might ha'
2888 been a bit freer of it. And if the knowledge wasn't well come by, why,
2889 you might ha' made up for it by coming to church reg'lar; for, as for
2890 the children as the Wise Woman charmed, I've been at the christening of
2891 'em again and again, and they took the water just as well. And that's
2892 reasonable; for if Old Harry's a mind to do a bit o' kindness for a
2893 holiday, like, who's got anything against it? That's my thinking; and
2894 I've been clerk o' this parish forty year, and I know, when the parson
2895 and me does the cussing of a Ash Wednesday, there's no cussing o' folks
2896 as have a mind to be cured without a doctor, let Kimble say what he
2897 will. And so, Master Marner, as I was saying--for there's windings i'
2898 things as they may carry you to the fur end o' the prayer-book afore
2899 you get back to 'em--my advice is, as you keep up your sperrits; for as
2900 for thinking you're a deep un, and ha' got more inside you nor 'ull
2901 bear daylight, I'm not o' that opinion at all, and so I tell the
2902 neighbours. For, says I, you talk o' Master Marner making out a
2903 tale--why, it's nonsense, that is: it 'ud take a 'cute man to make a
2904 tale like that; and, says I, he looked as scared as a rabbit."
2905
2906 During this discursive address Silas had continued motionless in his
2907 previous attitude, leaning his elbows on his knees, and pressing his
2908 hands against his head. Mr. Macey, not doubting that he had been
2909 listened to, paused, in the expectation of some appreciatory reply, but
2910 Marner remained silent. He had a sense that the old man meant to be
2911 good-natured and neighbourly; but the kindness fell on him as sunshine
2912 falls on the wretched--he had no heart to taste it, and felt that it
2913 was very far off him.
2914
2915 "Come, Master Marner, have you got nothing to say to that?" said Mr.
2916 Macey at last, with a slight accent of impatience.
2917
2918 "Oh," said Marner, slowly, shaking his head between his hands, "I thank
2919 you--thank you--kindly."
2920
2921 "Aye, aye, to be sure: I thought you would," said Mr. Macey; "and my
2922 advice is--have you got a Sunday suit?"
2923
2924 "No," said Marner.
2925
2926 "I doubted it was so," said Mr. Macey. "Now, let me advise you to get
2927 a Sunday suit: there's Tookey, he's a poor creatur, but he's got my
2928 tailoring business, and some o' my money in it, and he shall make a
2929 suit at a low price, and give you trust, and then you can come to
2930 church, and be a bit neighbourly. Why, you've never heared me say
2931 "Amen" since you come into these parts, and I recommend you to lose no
2932 time, for it'll be poor work when Tookey has it all to himself, for I
2933 mayn't be equil to stand i' the desk at all, come another winter."
2934 Here Mr. Macey paused, perhaps expecting some sign of emotion in his
2935 hearer; but not observing any, he went on. "And as for the money for
2936 the suit o' clothes, why, you get a matter of a pound a-week at your
2937 weaving, Master Marner, and you're a young man, eh, for all you look so
2938 mushed. Why, you couldn't ha' been five-and-twenty when you come into
2939 these parts, eh?"
2940
2941 Silas started a little at the change to a questioning tone, and
2942 answered mildly, "I don't know; I can't rightly say--it's a long while
2943 since."
2944
2945 After receiving such an answer as this, it is not surprising that Mr.
2946 Macey observed, later on in the evening at the Rainbow, that Marner's
2947 head was "all of a muddle", and that it was to be doubted if he ever
2948 knew when Sunday came round, which showed him a worse heathen than many
2949 a dog.
2950
2951 Another of Silas's comforters, besides Mr. Macey, came to him with a
2952 mind highly charged on the same topic. This was Mrs. Winthrop, the
2953 wheelwright's wife. The inhabitants of Raveloe were not severely
2954 regular in their church-going, and perhaps there was hardly a person in
2955 the parish who would not have held that to go to church every Sunday in
2956 the calendar would have shown a greedy desire to stand well with
2957 Heaven, and get an undue advantage over their neighbours--a wish to be
2958 better than the "common run", that would have implied a reflection on
2959 those who had had godfathers and godmothers as well as themselves, and
2960 had an equal right to the burying-service. At the same time, it was
2961 understood to be requisite for all who were not household servants, or
2962 young men, to take the sacrament at one of the great festivals: Squire
2963 Cass himself took it on Christmas-day; while those who were held to be
2964 "good livers" went to church with greater, though still with moderate,
2965 frequency.
2966
2967 Mrs. Winthrop was one of these: she was in all respects a woman of
2968 scrupulous conscience, so eager for duties that life seemed to offer
2969 them too scantily unless she rose at half-past four, though this threw
2970 a scarcity of work over the more advanced hours of the morning, which
2971 it was a constant problem with her to remove. Yet she had not the
2972 vixenish temper which is sometimes supposed to be a necessary condition
2973 of such habits: she was a very mild, patient woman, whose nature it was
2974 to seek out all the sadder and more serious elements of life, and
2975 pasture her mind upon them. She was the person always first thought of
2976 in Raveloe when there was illness or death in a family, when leeches
2977 were to be applied, or there was a sudden disappointment in a monthly
2978 nurse. She was a "comfortable woman"--good-looking,
2979 fresh-complexioned, having her lips always slightly screwed, as if she
2980 felt herself in a sick-room with the doctor or the clergyman present.
2981 But she was never whimpering; no one had seen her shed tears; she was
2982 simply grave and inclined to shake her head and sigh, almost
2983 imperceptibly, like a funereal mourner who is not a relation. It
2984 seemed surprising that Ben Winthrop, who loved his quart-pot and his
2985 joke, got along so well with Dolly; but she took her husband's jokes
2986 and joviality as patiently as everything else, considering that "men
2987 _would_ be so", and viewing the stronger sex in the light of animals
2988 whom it had pleased Heaven to make naturally troublesome, like bulls
2989 and turkey-cocks.
2990
2991 This good wholesome woman could hardly fail to have her mind drawn
2992 strongly towards Silas Marner, now that he appeared in the light of a
2993 sufferer; and one Sunday afternoon she took her little boy Aaron with
2994 her, and went to call on Silas, carrying in her hand some small
2995 lard-cakes, flat paste-like articles much esteemed in Raveloe. Aaron,
2996 an apple-cheeked youngster of seven, with a clean starched frill which
2997 looked like a plate for the apples, needed all his adventurous
2998 curiosity to embolden him against the possibility that the big-eyed
2999 weaver might do him some bodily injury; and his dubiety was much
3000 increased when, on arriving at the Stone-pits, they heard the
3001 mysterious sound of the loom.
3002
3003 "Ah, it is as I thought," said Mrs. Winthrop, sadly.
3004
3005 They had to knock loudly before Silas heard them; but when he did come
3006 to the door he showed no impatience, as he would once have done, at a
3007 visit that had been unasked for and unexpected. Formerly, his heart had
3008 been as a locked casket with its treasure inside; but now the casket
3009 was empty, and the lock was broken. Left groping in darkness, with his
3010 prop utterly gone, Silas had inevitably a sense, though a dull and
3011 half-despairing one, that if any help came to him it must come from
3012 without; and there was a slight stirring of expectation at the sight of
3013 his fellow-men, a faint consciousness of dependence on their goodwill.
3014 He opened the door wide to admit Dolly, but without otherwise returning
3015 her greeting than by moving the armchair a few inches as a sign that
3016 she was to sit down in it. Dolly, as soon as she was seated, removed
3017 the white cloth that covered her lard-cakes, and said in her gravest
3018 way--
3019
3020 "I'd a baking yisterday, Master Marner, and the lard-cakes turned out
3021 better nor common, and I'd ha' asked you to accept some, if you'd
3022 thought well. I don't eat such things myself, for a bit o' bread's
3023 what I like from one year's end to the other; but men's stomichs are
3024 made so comical, they want a change--they do, I know, God help 'em."
3025
3026 Dolly sighed gently as she held out the cakes to Silas, who thanked her
3027 kindly and looked very close at them, absently, being accustomed to
3028 look so at everything he took into his hand--eyed all the while by the
3029 wondering bright orbs of the small Aaron, who had made an outwork of
3030 his mother's chair, and was peeping round from behind it.
3031
3032 "There's letters pricked on 'em," said Dolly. "I can't read 'em
3033 myself, and there's nobody, not Mr. Macey himself, rightly knows what
3034 they mean; but they've a good meaning, for they're the same as is on
3035 the pulpit-cloth at church. What are they, Aaron, my dear?"
3036
3037 Aaron retreated completely behind his outwork.
3038
3039 "Oh, go, that's naughty," said his mother, mildly. "Well, whativer the
3040 letters are, they've a good meaning; and it's a stamp as has been in
3041 our house, Ben says, ever since he was a little un, and his mother used
3042 to put it on the cakes, and I've allays put it on too; for if there's
3043 any good, we've need of it i' this world."
3044
3045 "It's I. H. S.," said Silas, at which proof of learning Aaron peeped
3046 round the chair again.
3047
3048 "Well, to be sure, you can read 'em off," said Dolly. "Ben's read 'em
3049 to me many and many a time, but they slip out o' my mind again; the
3050 more's the pity, for they're good letters, else they wouldn't be in the
3051 church; and so I prick 'em on all the loaves and all the cakes, though
3052 sometimes they won't hold, because o' the rising--for, as I said, if
3053 there's any good to be got we've need of it i' this world--that we
3054 have; and I hope they'll bring good to you, Master Marner, for it's wi'
3055 that will I brought you the cakes; and you see the letters have held
3056 better nor common."
3057
3058 Silas was as unable to interpret the letters as Dolly, but there was no
3059 possibility of misunderstanding the desire to give comfort that made
3060 itself heard in her quiet tones. He said, with more feeling than
3061 before--"Thank you--thank you kindly." But he laid down the cakes and
3062 seated himself absently--drearily unconscious of any distinct benefit
3063 towards which the cakes and the letters, or even Dolly's kindness,
3064 could tend for him.
3065
3066 "Ah, if there's good anywhere, we've need of it," repeated Dolly, who
3067 did not lightly forsake a serviceable phrase. She looked at Silas
3068 pityingly as she went on. "But you didn't hear the church-bells this
3069 morning, Master Marner? I doubt you didn't know it was Sunday. Living
3070 so lone here, you lose your count, I daresay; and then, when your loom
3071 makes a noise, you can't hear the bells, more partic'lar now the frost
3072 kills the sound."
3073
3074 "Yes, I did; I heard 'em," said Silas, to whom Sunday bells were a mere
3075 accident of the day, and not part of its sacredness. There had been no
3076 bells in Lantern Yard.
3077
3078 "Dear heart!" said Dolly, pausing before she spoke again. "But what a
3079 pity it is you should work of a Sunday, and not clean yourself--if you
3080 _didn't_ go to church; for if you'd a roasting bit, it might be as you
3081 couldn't leave it, being a lone man. But there's the bakehus, if you
3082 could make up your mind to spend a twopence on the oven now and
3083 then,--not every week, in course--I shouldn't like to do that
3084 myself,--you might carry your bit o' dinner there, for it's nothing but
3085 right to have a bit o' summat hot of a Sunday, and not to make it as
3086 you can't know your dinner from Saturday. But now, upo' Christmas-day,
3087 this blessed Christmas as is ever coming, if you was to take your
3088 dinner to the bakehus, and go to church, and see the holly and the yew,
3089 and hear the anthim, and then take the sacramen', you'd be a deal the
3090 better, and you'd know which end you stood on, and you could put your
3091 trust i' Them as knows better nor we do, seein' you'd ha' done what it
3092 lies on us all to do."
3093
3094 Dolly's exhortation, which was an unusually long effort of speech for
3095 her, was uttered in the soothing persuasive tone with which she would
3096 have tried to prevail on a sick man to take his medicine, or a basin of
3097 gruel for which he had no appetite. Silas had never before been
3098 closely urged on the point of his absence from church, which had only
3099 been thought of as a part of his general queerness; and he was too
3100 direct and simple to evade Dolly's appeal.
3101
3102 "Nay, nay," he said, "I know nothing o' church. I've never been to
3103 church."
3104
3105 "No!" said Dolly, in a low tone of wonderment. Then bethinking
3106 herself of Silas's advent from an unknown country, she said, "Could it
3107 ha' been as they'd no church where you was born?"
3108
3109 "Oh, yes," said Silas, meditatively, sitting in his usual posture of
3110 leaning on his knees, and supporting his head. "There was churches--a
3111 many--it was a big town. But I knew nothing of 'em--I went to chapel."
3112
3113 Dolly was much puzzled at this new word, but she was rather afraid of
3114 inquiring further, lest "chapel" might mean some haunt of wickedness.
3115 After a little thought, she said--
3116
3117 "Well, Master Marner, it's niver too late to turn over a new leaf, and
3118 if you've niver had no church, there's no telling the good it'll do
3119 you. For I feel so set up and comfortable as niver was, when I've been
3120 and heard the prayers, and the singing to the praise and glory o' God,
3121 as Mr. Macey gives out--and Mr. Crackenthorp saying good words, and
3122 more partic'lar on Sacramen' Day; and if a bit o' trouble comes, I feel
3123 as I can put up wi' it, for I've looked for help i' the right quarter,
3124 and gev myself up to Them as we must all give ourselves up to at the
3125 last; and if we'n done our part, it isn't to be believed as Them as are
3126 above us 'ull be worse nor we are, and come short o' Their'n."
3127
3128 Poor Dolly's exposition of her simple Raveloe theology fell rather
3129 unmeaningly on Silas's ears, for there was no word in it that could
3130 rouse a memory of what he had known as religion, and his comprehension
3131 was quite baffled by the plural pronoun, which was no heresy of
3132 Dolly's, but only her way of avoiding a presumptuous familiarity. He
3133 remained silent, not feeling inclined to assent to the part of Dolly's
3134 speech which he fully understood--her recommendation that he should go
3135 to church. Indeed, Silas was so unaccustomed to talk beyond the brief
3136 questions and answers necessary for the transaction of his simple
3137 business, that words did not easily come to him without the urgency of
3138 a distinct purpose.
3139
3140 But now, little Aaron, having become used to the weaver's awful
3141 presence, had advanced to his mother's side, and Silas, seeming to
3142 notice him for the first time, tried to return Dolly's signs of
3143 good-will by offering the lad a bit of lard-cake. Aaron shrank back a
3144 little, and rubbed his head against his mother's shoulder, but still
3145 thought the piece of cake worth the risk of putting his hand out for it.
3146
3147 "Oh, for shame, Aaron," said his mother, taking him on her lap,
3148 however; "why, you don't want cake again yet awhile. He's wonderful
3149 hearty," she went on, with a little sigh--"that he is, God knows. He's
3150 my youngest, and we spoil him sadly, for either me or the father must
3151 allays hev him in our sight--that we must."
3152
3153 She stroked Aaron's brown head, and thought it must do Master Marner
3154 good to see such a "pictur of a child". But Marner, on the other side
3155 of the hearth, saw the neat-featured rosy face as a mere dim round,
3156 with two dark spots in it.
3157
3158 "And he's got a voice like a bird--you wouldn't think," Dolly went on;
3159 "he can sing a Christmas carril as his father's taught him; and I take
3160 it for a token as he'll come to good, as he can learn the good tunes so
3161 quick. Come, Aaron, stan' up and sing the carril to Master Marner,
3162 come."
3163
3164 Aaron replied by rubbing his forehead against his mother's shoulder.
3165
3166 "Oh, that's naughty," said Dolly, gently. "Stan' up, when mother tells
3167 you, and let me hold the cake till you've done."
3168
3169 Aaron was not indisposed to display his talents, even to an ogre, under
3170 protecting circumstances; and after a few more signs of coyness,
3171 consisting chiefly in rubbing the backs of his hands over his eyes, and
3172 then peeping between them at Master Marner, to see if he looked anxious
3173 for the "carril", he at length allowed his head to be duly adjusted,
3174 and standing behind the table, which let him appear above it only as
3175 far as his broad frill, so that he looked like a cherubic head
3176 untroubled with a body, he began with a clear chirp, and in a melody
3177 that had the rhythm of an industrious hammer
3178
3179 "God rest you, merry gentlemen,
3180 Let nothing you dismay,
3181 For Jesus Christ our Savior
3182 Was born on Christmas-day."
3183
3184
3185 Dolly listened with a devout look, glancing at Marner in some
3186 confidence that this strain would help to allure him to church.
3187
3188 "That's Christmas music," she said, when Aaron had ended, and had
3189 secured his piece of cake again. "There's no other music equil to the
3190 Christmas music--"Hark the erol angils sing." And you may judge what
3191 it is at church, Master Marner, with the bassoon and the voices, as you
3192 can't help thinking you've got to a better place a'ready--for I
3193 wouldn't speak ill o' this world, seeing as Them put us in it as knows
3194 best--but what wi' the drink, and the quarrelling, and the bad
3195 illnesses, and the hard dying, as I've seen times and times, one's
3196 thankful to hear of a better. The boy sings pretty, don't he, Master
3197 Marner?"
3198
3199 "Yes," said Silas, absently, "very pretty."
3200
3201 The Christmas carol, with its hammer-like rhythm, had fallen on his
3202 ears as strange music, quite unlike a hymn, and could have none of the
3203 effect Dolly contemplated. But he wanted to show her that he was
3204 grateful, and the only mode that occurred to him was to offer Aaron a
3205 bit more cake.
3206
3207 "Oh, no, thank you, Master Marner," said Dolly, holding down Aaron's
3208 willing hands. "We must be going home now. And so I wish you
3209 good-bye, Master Marner; and if you ever feel anyways bad in your
3210 inside, as you can't fend for yourself, I'll come and clean up for you,
3211 and get you a bit o' victual, and willing. But I beg and pray of you
3212 to leave off weaving of a Sunday, for it's bad for soul and body--and
3213 the money as comes i' that way 'ull be a bad bed to lie down on at the
3214 last, if it doesn't fly away, nobody knows where, like the white frost.
3215 And you'll excuse me being that free with you, Master Marner, for I
3216 wish you well--I do. Make your bow, Aaron."
3217
3218 Silas said "Good-bye, and thank you kindly," as he opened the door for
3219 Dolly, but he couldn't help feeling relieved when she was
3220 gone--relieved that he might weave again and moan at his ease. Her
3221 simple view of life and its comforts, by which she had tried to cheer
3222 him, was only like a report of unknown objects, which his imagination
3223 could not fashion. The fountains of human love and of faith in a
3224 divine love had not yet been unlocked, and his soul was still the
3225 shrunken rivulet, with only this difference, that its little groove of
3226 sand was blocked up, and it wandered confusedly against dark
3227 obstruction.
3228
3229 And so, notwithstanding the honest persuasions of Mr. Macey and Dolly
3230 Winthrop, Silas spent his Christmas-day in loneliness, eating his meat
3231 in sadness of heart, though the meat had come to him as a neighbourly
3232 present. In the morning he looked out on the black frost that seemed
3233 to press cruelly on every blade of grass, while the half-icy red pool
3234 shivered under the bitter wind; but towards evening the snow began to
3235 fall, and curtained from him even that dreary outlook, shutting him
3236 close up with his narrow grief. And he sat in his robbed home through
3237 the livelong evening, not caring to close his shutters or lock his
3238 door, pressing his head between his hands and moaning, till the cold
3239 grasped him and told him that his fire was grey.
3240
3241 Nobody in this world but himself knew that he was the same Silas Marner
3242 who had once loved his fellow with tender love, and trusted in an
3243 unseen goodness. Even to himself that past experience had become dim.
3244
3245 But in Raveloe village the bells rang merrily, and the church was
3246 fuller than all through the rest of the year, with red faces among the
3247 abundant dark-green boughs--faces prepared for a longer service than
3248 usual by an odorous breakfast of toast and ale. Those green boughs,
3249 the hymn and anthem never heard but at Christmas--even the Athanasian
3250 Creed, which was discriminated from the others only as being longer and
3251 of exceptional virtue, since it was only read on rare
3252 occasions--brought a vague exulting sense, for which the grown men
3253 could as little have found words as the children, that something great
3254 and mysterious had been done for them in heaven above and in earth
3255 below, which they were appropriating by their presence. And then the
3256 red faces made their way through the black biting frost to their own
3257 homes, feeling themselves free for the rest of the day to eat, drink,
3258 and be merry, and using that Christian freedom without diffidence.
3259
3260 At Squire Cass's family party that day nobody mentioned Dunstan--nobody
3261 was sorry for his absence, or feared it would be too long. The doctor
3262 and his wife, uncle and aunt Kimble, were there, and the annual
3263 Christmas talk was carried through without any omissions, rising to the
3264 climax of Mr. Kimble's experience when he walked the London hospitals
3265 thirty years back, together with striking professional anecdotes then
3266 gathered. Whereupon cards followed, with aunt Kimble's annual failure
3267 to follow suit, and uncle Kimble's irascibility concerning the odd
3268 trick which was rarely explicable to him, when it was not on his side,
3269 without a general visitation of tricks to see that they were formed on
3270 sound principles: the whole being accompanied by a strong steaming
3271 odour of spirits-and-water.
3272
3273 But the party on Christmas-day, being a strictly family party, was not
3274 the pre-eminently brilliant celebration of the season at the Red House.
3275 It was the great dance on New Year's Eve that made the glory of Squire
3276 Cass's hospitality, as of his forefathers', time out of mind. This was
3277 the occasion when all the society of Raveloe and Tarley, whether old
3278 acquaintances separated by long rutty distances, or cooled
3279 acquaintances separated by misunderstandings concerning runaway calves,
3280 or acquaintances founded on intermittent condescension, counted on
3281 meeting and on comporting themselves with mutual appropriateness. This
3282 was the occasion on which fair dames who came on pillions sent their
3283 bandboxes before them, supplied with more than their evening costume;
3284 for the feast was not to end with a single evening, like a paltry town
3285 entertainment, where the whole supply of eatables is put on the table
3286 at once, and bedding is scanty. The Red House was provisioned as if
3287 for a siege; and as for the spare feather-beds ready to be laid on
3288 floors, they were as plentiful as might naturally be expected in a
3289 family that had killed its own geese for many generations.
3290
3291 Godfrey Cass was looking forward to this New Year's Eve with a foolish
3292 reckless longing, that made him half deaf to his importunate companion,
3293 Anxiety.
3294
3295 "Dunsey will be coming home soon: there will be a great blow-up, and
3296 how will you bribe his spite to silence?" said Anxiety.
3297
3298 "Oh, he won't come home before New Year's Eve, perhaps," said Godfrey;
3299 "and I shall sit by Nancy then, and dance with her, and get a kind look
3300 from her in spite of herself."
3301
3302 "But money is wanted in another quarter," said Anxiety, in a louder
3303 voice, "and how will you get it without selling your mother's diamond
3304 pin? And if you don't get it...?"
3305
3306 "Well, but something may happen to make things easier. At any rate,
3307 there's one pleasure for me close at hand: Nancy is coming."
3308
3309 "Yes, and suppose your father should bring matters to a pass that will
3310 oblige you to decline marrying her--and to give your reasons?"
3311
3312 "Hold your tongue, and don't worry me. I can see Nancy's eyes, just as
3313 they will look at me, and feel her hand in mine already."
3314
3315 But Anxiety went on, though in noisy Christmas company; refusing to be
3316 utterly quieted even by much drinking.
3317
3318
3319
3320 CHAPTER XI
3321
3322 Some women, I grant, would not appear to advantage seated on a pillion,
3323 and attired in a drab joseph and a drab beaver-bonnet, with a crown
3324 resembling a small stew-pan; for a garment suggesting a coachman's
3325 greatcoat, cut out under an exiguity of cloth that would only allow of
3326 miniature capes, is not well adapted to conceal deficiencies of
3327 contour, nor is drab a colour that will throw sallow cheeks into lively
3328 contrast. It was all the greater triumph to Miss Nancy Lammeter's
3329 beauty that she looked thoroughly bewitching in that costume, as,
3330 seated on the pillion behind her tall, erect father, she held one arm
3331 round him, and looked down, with open-eyed anxiety, at the treacherous
3332 snow-covered pools and puddles, which sent up formidable splashings of
3333 mud under the stamp of Dobbin's foot. A painter would, perhaps, have
3334 preferred her in those moments when she was free from
3335 self-consciousness; but certainly the bloom on her cheeks was at its
3336 highest point of contrast with the surrounding drab when she arrived at
3337 the door of the Red House, and saw Mr. Godfrey Cass ready to lift her
3338 from the pillion. She wished her sister Priscilla had come up at the
3339 same time behind the servant, for then she would have contrived that
3340 Mr. Godfrey should have lifted off Priscilla first, and, in the
3341 meantime, she would have persuaded her father to go round to the
3342 horse-block instead of alighting at the door-steps. It was very
3343 painful, when you had made it quite clear to a young man that you were
3344 determined not to marry him, however much he might wish it, that he
3345 would still continue to pay you marked attentions; besides, why didn't
3346 he always show the same attentions, if he meant them sincerely, instead
3347 of being so strange as Mr. Godfrey Cass was, sometimes behaving as if
3348 he didn't want to speak to her, and taking no notice of her for weeks
3349 and weeks, and then, all on a sudden, almost making love again?
3350 Moreover, it was quite plain he had no real love for her, else he would
3351 not let people have _that_ to say of him which they did say. Did he
3352 suppose that Miss Nancy Lammeter was to be won by any man, squire or no
3353 squire, who led a bad life? That was not what she had been used to see
3354 in her own father, who was the soberest and best man in that
3355 country-side, only a little hot and hasty now and then, if things were
3356 not done to the minute.
3357
3358 All these thoughts rushed through Miss Nancy's mind, in their habitual
3359 succession, in the moments between her first sight of Mr. Godfrey Cass
3360 standing at the door and her own arrival there. Happily, the Squire
3361 came out too and gave a loud greeting to her father, so that, somehow,
3362 under cover of this noise she seemed to find concealment for her
3363 confusion and neglect of any suitably formal behaviour, while she was
3364 being lifted from the pillion by strong arms which seemed to find her
3365 ridiculously small and light. And there was the best reason for
3366 hastening into the house at once, since the snow was beginning to fall
3367 again, threatening an unpleasant journey for such guests as were still
3368 on the road. These were a small minority; for already the afternoon
3369 was beginning to decline, and there would not be too much time for the
3370 ladies who came from a distance to attire themselves in readiness for
3371 the early tea which was to inspirit them for the dance.
3372
3373 There was a buzz of voices through the house, as Miss Nancy entered,
3374 mingled with the scrape of a fiddle preluding in the kitchen; but the
3375 Lammeters were guests whose arrival had evidently been thought of so
3376 much that it had been watched for from the windows, for Mrs. Kimble,
3377 who did the honours at the Red House on these great occasions, came
3378 forward to meet Miss Nancy in the hall, and conduct her up-stairs.
3379 Mrs. Kimble was the Squire's sister, as well as the doctor's wife--a
3380 double dignity, with which her diameter was in direct proportion; so
3381 that, a journey up-stairs being rather fatiguing to her, she did not
3382 oppose Miss Nancy's request to be allowed to find her way alone to the
3383 Blue Room, where the Miss Lammeters' bandboxes had been deposited on
3384 their arrival in the morning.
3385
3386 There was hardly a bedroom in the house where feminine compliments were
3387 not passing and feminine toilettes going forward, in various stages, in
3388 space made scanty by extra beds spread upon the floor; and Miss Nancy,
3389 as she entered the Blue Room, had to make her little formal curtsy to a
3390 group of six. On the one hand, there were ladies no less important
3391 than the two Miss Gunns, the wine merchant's daughters from Lytherly,
3392 dressed in the height of fashion, with the tightest skirts and the
3393 shortest waists, and gazed at by Miss Ladbrook (of the Old Pastures)
3394 with a shyness not unsustained by inward criticism. Partly, Miss
3395 Ladbrook felt that her own skirt must be regarded as unduly lax by the
3396 Miss Gunns, and partly, that it was a pity the Miss Gunns did not show
3397 that judgment which she herself would show if she were in their place,
3398 by stopping a little on this side of the fashion. On the other hand,
3399 Mrs. Ladbrook was standing in skull-cap and front, with her turban in
3400 her hand, curtsying and smiling blandly and saying, "After you, ma'am,"
3401 to another lady in similar circumstances, who had politely offered the
3402 precedence at the looking-glass.
3403
3404 But Miss Nancy had no sooner made her curtsy than an elderly lady came
3405 forward, whose full white muslin kerchief, and mob-cap round her curls
3406 of smooth grey hair, were in daring contrast with the puffed yellow
3407 satins and top-knotted caps of her neighbours. She approached Miss
3408 Nancy with much primness, and said, with a slow, treble suavity--
3409
3410 "Niece, I hope I see you well in health." Miss Nancy kissed her aunt's
3411 cheek dutifully, and answered, with the same sort of amiable primness,
3412 "Quite well, I thank you, aunt; and I hope I see you the same."
3413
3414 "Thank you, niece; I keep my health for the present. And how is my
3415 brother-in-law?"
3416
3417 These dutiful questions and answers were continued until it was
3418 ascertained in detail that the Lammeters were all as well as usual, and
3419 the Osgoods likewise, also that niece Priscilla must certainly arrive
3420 shortly, and that travelling on pillions in snowy weather was
3421 unpleasant, though a joseph was a great protection. Then Nancy was
3422 formally introduced to her aunt's visitors, the Miss Gunns, as being
3423 the daughters of a mother known to _their_ mother, though now for the
3424 first time induced to make a journey into these parts; and these ladies
3425 were so taken by surprise at finding such a lovely face and figure in
3426 an out-of-the-way country place, that they began to feel some curiosity
3427 about the dress she would put on when she took off her joseph. Miss
3428 Nancy, whose thoughts were always conducted with the propriety and
3429 moderation conspicuous in her manners, remarked to herself that the
3430 Miss Gunns were rather hard-featured than otherwise, and that such very
3431 low dresses as they wore might have been attributed to vanity if their
3432 shoulders had been pretty, but that, being as they were, it was not
3433 reasonable to suppose that they showed their necks from a love of
3434 display, but rather from some obligation not inconsistent with sense
3435 and modesty. She felt convinced, as she opened her box, that this must
3436 be her aunt Osgood's opinion, for Miss Nancy's mind resembled her
3437 aunt's to a degree that everybody said was surprising, considering the
3438 kinship was on Mr. Osgood's side; and though you might not have
3439 supposed it from the formality of their greeting, there was a devoted
3440 attachment and mutual admiration between aunt and niece. Even Miss
3441 Nancy's refusal of her cousin Gilbert Osgood (on the ground solely that
3442 he was her cousin), though it had grieved her aunt greatly, had not in
3443 the least cooled the preference which had determined her to leave Nancy
3444 several of her hereditary ornaments, let Gilbert's future wife be whom
3445 she might.
3446
3447 Three of the ladies quickly retired, but the Miss Gunns were quite
3448 content that Mrs. Osgood's inclination to remain with her niece gave
3449 them also a reason for staying to see the rustic beauty's toilette. And
3450 it was really a pleasure--from the first opening of the bandbox, where
3451 everything smelt of lavender and rose-leaves, to the clasping of the
3452 small coral necklace that fitted closely round her little white neck.
3453 Everything belonging to Miss Nancy was of delicate purity and
3454 nattiness: not a crease was where it had no business to be, not a bit
3455 of her linen professed whiteness without fulfilling its profession; the
3456 very pins on her pincushion were stuck in after a pattern from which
3457 she was careful to allow no aberration; and as for her own person, it
3458 gave the same idea of perfect unvarying neatness as the body of a
3459 little bird. It is true that her light-brown hair was cropped behind
3460 like a boy's, and was dressed in front in a number of flat rings, that
3461 lay quite away from her face; but there was no sort of coiffure that
3462 could make Miss Nancy's cheek and neck look otherwise than pretty; and
3463 when at last she stood complete in her silvery twilled silk, her lace
3464 tucker, her coral necklace, and coral ear-drops, the Miss Gunns could
3465 see nothing to criticise except her hands, which bore the traces of
3466 butter-making, cheese-crushing, and even still coarser work. But Miss
3467 Nancy was not ashamed of that, for even while she was dressing she
3468 narrated to her aunt how she and Priscilla had packed their boxes
3469 yesterday, because this morning was baking morning, and since they were
3470 leaving home, it was desirable to make a good supply of meat-pies for
3471 the kitchen; and as she concluded this judicious remark, she turned to
3472 the Miss Gunns that she might not commit the rudeness of not including
3473 them in the conversation. The Miss Gunns smiled stiffly, and thought
3474 what a pity it was that these rich country people, who could afford to
3475 buy such good clothes (really Miss Nancy's lace and silk were very
3476 costly), should be brought up in utter ignorance and vulgarity. She
3477 actually said "mate" for "meat", "'appen" for "perhaps", and "oss" for
3478 "horse", which, to young ladies living in good Lytherly society, who
3479 habitually said 'orse, even in domestic privacy, and only said 'appen
3480 on the right occasions, was necessarily shocking. Miss Nancy, indeed,
3481 had never been to any school higher than Dame Tedman's: her
3482 acquaintance with profane literature hardly went beyond the rhymes she
3483 had worked in her large sampler under the lamb and the shepherdess; and
3484 in order to balance an account, she was obliged to effect her
3485 subtraction by removing visible metallic shillings and sixpences from a
3486 visible metallic total. There is hardly a servant-maid in these days
3487 who is not better informed than Miss Nancy; yet she had the essential
3488 attributes of a lady--high veracity, delicate honour in her dealings,
3489 deference to others, and refined personal habits,--and lest these
3490 should not suffice to convince grammatical fair ones that her feelings
3491 can at all resemble theirs, I will add that she was slightly proud and
3492 exacting, and as constant in her affection towards a baseless opinion
3493 as towards an erring lover.
3494
3495 The anxiety about sister Priscilla, which had grown rather active by
3496 the time the coral necklace was clasped, was happily ended by the
3497 entrance of that cheerful-looking lady herself, with a face made blowsy
3498 by cold and damp. After the first questions and greetings, she turned
3499 to Nancy, and surveyed her from head to foot--then wheeled her round,
3500 to ascertain that the back view was equally faultless.
3501
3502 "What do you think o' _these_ gowns, aunt Osgood?" said Priscilla,
3503 while Nancy helped her to unrobe.
3504
3505 "Very handsome indeed, niece," said Mrs. Osgood, with a slight increase
3506 of formality. She always thought niece Priscilla too rough.
3507
3508 "I'm obliged to have the same as Nancy, you know, for all I'm five
3509 years older, and it makes me look yallow; for she never _will_ have
3510 anything without I have mine just like it, because she wants us to look
3511 like sisters. And I tell her, folks 'ull think it's my weakness makes
3512 me fancy as I shall look pretty in what she looks pretty in. For I
3513 _am_ ugly--there's no denying that: I feature my father's family. But,
3514 law! I don't mind, do you?" Priscilla here turned to the Miss Gunns,
3515 rattling on in too much preoccupation with the delight of talking, to
3516 notice that her candour was not appreciated. "The pretty uns do for
3517 fly-catchers--they keep the men off us. I've no opinion o' the men,
3518 Miss Gunn--I don't know what _you_ have. And as for fretting and
3519 stewing about what _they_'ll think of you from morning till night, and
3520 making your life uneasy about what they're doing when they're out o'
3521 your sight--as I tell Nancy, it's a folly no woman need be guilty of,
3522 if she's got a good father and a good home: let her leave it to them as
3523 have got no fortin, and can't help themselves. As I say, Mr.
3524 Have-your-own-way is the best husband, and the only one I'd ever
3525 promise to obey. I know it isn't pleasant, when you've been used to
3526 living in a big way, and managing hogsheads and all that, to go and put
3527 your nose in by somebody else's fireside, or to sit down by yourself to
3528 a scrag or a knuckle; but, thank God! my father's a sober man and
3529 likely to live; and if you've got a man by the chimney-corner, it
3530 doesn't matter if he's childish--the business needn't be broke up."
3531
3532 The delicate process of getting her narrow gown over her head without
3533 injury to her smooth curls, obliged Miss Priscilla to pause in this
3534 rapid survey of life, and Mrs. Osgood seized the opportunity of rising
3535 and saying--
3536
3537 "Well, niece, you'll follow us. The Miss Gunns will like to go down."
3538
3539 "Sister," said Nancy, when they were alone, "you've offended the Miss
3540 Gunns, I'm sure."
3541
3542 "What have I done, child?" said Priscilla, in some alarm.
3543
3544 "Why, you asked them if they minded about being ugly--you're so very
3545 blunt."
3546
3547 "Law, did I? Well, it popped out: it's a mercy I said no more, for I'm
3548 a bad un to live with folks when they don't like the truth. But as for
3549 being ugly, look at me, child, in this silver-coloured silk--I told you
3550 how it 'ud be--I look as yallow as a daffadil. Anybody 'ud say you
3551 wanted to make a mawkin of me."
3552
3553 "No, Priscy, don't say so. I begged and prayed of you not to let us
3554 have this silk if you'd like another better. I was willing to have
3555 _your_ choice, you know I was," said Nancy, in anxious self-vindication.
3556
3557 "Nonsense, child! you know you'd set your heart on this; and reason
3558 good, for you're the colour o' cream. It 'ud be fine doings for you to
3559 dress yourself to suit _my_ skin. What I find fault with, is that
3560 notion o' yours as I must dress myself just like you. But you do as you
3561 like with me--you always did, from when first you begun to walk. If
3562 you wanted to go the field's length, the field's length you'd go; and
3563 there was no whipping you, for you looked as prim and innicent as a
3564 daisy all the while."
3565
3566 "Priscy," said Nancy, gently, as she fastened a coral necklace, exactly
3567 like her own, round Priscilla's neck, which was very far from being
3568 like her own, "I'm sure I'm willing to give way as far as is right, but
3569 who shouldn't dress alike if it isn't sisters? Would you have us go
3570 about looking as if we were no kin to one another--us that have got no
3571 mother and not another sister in the world? I'd do what was right, if
3572 I dressed in a gown dyed with cheese-colouring; and I'd rather you'd
3573 choose, and let me wear what pleases you."
3574
3575 "There you go again! You'd come round to the same thing if one talked
3576 to you from Saturday night till Saturday morning. It'll be fine fun to
3577 see how you'll master your husband and never raise your voice above the
3578 singing o' the kettle all the while. I like to see the men mastered!"
3579
3580 "Don't talk _so_, Priscy," said Nancy, blushing. "You know I don't
3581 mean ever to be married."
3582
3583 "Oh, you never mean a fiddlestick's end!" said Priscilla, as she
3584 arranged her discarded dress, and closed her bandbox. "Who shall _I_
3585 have to work for when father's gone, if you are to go and take notions
3586 in your head and be an old maid, because some folks are no better than
3587 they should be? I haven't a bit o' patience with you--sitting on an
3588 addled egg for ever, as if there was never a fresh un in the world.
3589 One old maid's enough out o' two sisters; and I shall do credit to a
3590 single life, for God A'mighty meant me for it. Come, we can go down
3591 now. I'm as ready as a mawkin _can_ be--there's nothing awanting to
3592 frighten the crows, now I've got my ear-droppers in."
3593
3594 As the two Miss Lammeters walked into the large parlour together, any
3595 one who did not know the character of both might certainly have
3596 supposed that the reason why the square-shouldered, clumsy,
3597 high-featured Priscilla wore a dress the facsimile of her pretty
3598 sister's, was either the mistaken vanity of the one, or the malicious
3599 contrivance of the other in order to set off her own rare beauty. But
3600 the good-natured self-forgetful cheeriness and common-sense of
3601 Priscilla would soon have dissipated the one suspicion; and the modest
3602 calm of Nancy's speech and manners told clearly of a mind free from all
3603 disavowed devices.
3604
3605 Places of honour had been kept for the Miss Lammeters near the head of
3606 the principal tea-table in the wainscoted parlour, now looking fresh
3607 and pleasant with handsome branches of holly, yew, and laurel, from the
3608 abundant growths of the old garden; and Nancy felt an inward flutter,
3609 that no firmness of purpose could prevent, when she saw Mr. Godfrey
3610 Cass advancing to lead her to a seat between himself and Mr.
3611 Crackenthorp, while Priscilla was called to the opposite side between
3612 her father and the Squire. It certainly did make some difference to
3613 Nancy that the lover she had given up was the young man of quite the
3614 highest consequence in the parish--at home in a venerable and unique
3615 parlour, which was the extremity of grandeur in her experience, a
3616 parlour where _she_ might one day have been mistress, with the
3617 consciousness that she was spoken of as "Madam Cass", the Squire's
3618 wife. These circumstances exalted her inward drama in her own eyes,
3619 and deepened the emphasis with which she declared to herself that not
3620 the most dazzling rank should induce her to marry a man whose conduct
3621 showed him careless of his character, but that, "love once, love
3622 always", was the motto of a true and pure woman, and no man should ever
3623 have any right over her which would be a call on her to destroy the
3624 dried flowers that she treasured, and always would treasure, for
3625 Godfrey Cass's sake. And Nancy was capable of keeping her word to
3626 herself under very trying conditions. Nothing but a becoming blush
3627 betrayed the moving thoughts that urged themselves upon her as she
3628 accepted the seat next to Mr. Crackenthorp; for she was so
3629 instinctively neat and adroit in all her actions, and her pretty lips
3630 met each other with such quiet firmness, that it would have been
3631 difficult for her to appear agitated.
3632
3633 It was not the rector's practice to let a charming blush pass without
3634 an appropriate compliment. He was not in the least lofty or
3635 aristocratic, but simply a merry-eyed, small-featured, grey-haired man,
3636 with his chin propped by an ample, many-creased white neckcloth which
3637 seemed to predominate over every other point in his person, and somehow
3638 to impress its peculiar character on his remarks; so that to have
3639 considered his amenities apart from his cravat would have been a
3640 severe, and perhaps a dangerous, effort of abstraction.
3641
3642 "Ha, Miss Nancy," he said, turning his head within his cravat and
3643 smiling down pleasantly upon her, "when anybody pretends this has been
3644 a severe winter, I shall tell them I saw the roses blooming on New
3645 Year's Eve--eh, Godfrey, what do _you_ say?"
3646
3647 Godfrey made no reply, and avoided looking at Nancy very markedly; for
3648 though these complimentary personalities were held to be in excellent
3649 taste in old-fashioned Raveloe society, reverent love has a politeness
3650 of its own which it teaches to men otherwise of small schooling. But
3651 the Squire was rather impatient at Godfrey's showing himself a dull
3652 spark in this way. By this advanced hour of the day, the Squire was
3653 always in higher spirits than we have seen him in at the
3654 breakfast-table, and felt it quite pleasant to fulfil the hereditary
3655 duty of being noisily jovial and patronizing: the large silver
3656 snuff-box was in active service and was offered without fail to all
3657 neighbours from time to time, however often they might have declined
3658 the favour. At present, the Squire had only given an express welcome
3659 to the heads of families as they appeared; but always as the evening
3660 deepened, his hospitality rayed out more widely, till he had tapped the
3661 youngest guests on the back and shown a peculiar fondness for their
3662 presence, in the full belief that they must feel their lives made happy
3663 by their belonging to a parish where there was such a hearty man as
3664 Squire Cass to invite them and wish them well. Even in this early
3665 stage of the jovial mood, it was natural that he should wish to supply
3666 his son's deficiencies by looking and speaking for him.
3667
3668 "Aye, aye," he began, offering his snuff-box to Mr. Lammeter, who for
3669 the second time bowed his head and waved his hand in stiff rejection of
3670 the offer, "us old fellows may wish ourselves young to-night, when we
3671 see the mistletoe-bough in the White Parlour. It's true, most things
3672 are gone back'ard in these last thirty years--the country's going down
3673 since the old king fell ill. But when I look at Miss Nancy here, I
3674 begin to think the lasses keep up their quality;--ding me if I remember
3675 a sample to match her, not when I was a fine young fellow, and thought
3676 a deal about my pigtail. No offence to you, madam," he added, bending
3677 to Mrs. Crackenthorp, who sat by him, "I didn't know _you_ when you
3678 were as young as Miss Nancy here."
3679
3680 Mrs. Crackenthorp--a small blinking woman, who fidgeted incessantly
3681 with her lace, ribbons, and gold chain, turning her head about and
3682 making subdued noises, very much like a guinea-pig that twitches its
3683 nose and soliloquizes in all company indiscriminately--now blinked and
3684 fidgeted towards the Squire, and said, "Oh, no--no offence."
3685
3686 This emphatic compliment of the Squire's to Nancy was felt by others
3687 besides Godfrey to have a diplomatic significance; and her father gave
3688 a slight additional erectness to his back, as he looked across the
3689 table at her with complacent gravity. That grave and orderly senior
3690 was not going to bate a jot of his dignity by seeming elated at the
3691 notion of a match between his family and the Squire's: he was gratified
3692 by any honour paid to his daughter; but he must see an alteration in
3693 several ways before his consent would be vouchsafed. His spare but
3694 healthy person, and high-featured firm face, that looked as if it had
3695 never been flushed by excess, was in strong contrast, not only with the
3696 Squire's, but with the appearance of the Raveloe farmers generally--in
3697 accordance with a favourite saying of his own, that "breed was stronger
3698 than pasture".
3699
3700 "Miss Nancy's wonderful like what her mother was, though; isn't she,
3701 Kimble?" said the stout lady of that name, looking round for her
3702 husband.
3703
3704 But Doctor Kimble (country apothecaries in old days enjoyed that title
3705 without authority of diploma), being a thin and agile man, was flitting
3706 about the room with his hands in his pockets, making himself agreeable
3707 to his feminine patients, with medical impartiality, and being welcomed
3708 everywhere as a doctor by hereditary right--not one of those miserable
3709 apothecaries who canvass for practice in strange neighbourhoods, and
3710 spend all their income in starving their one horse, but a man of
3711 substance, able to keep an extravagant table like the best of his
3712 patients. Time out of mind the Raveloe doctor had been a Kimble;
3713 Kimble was inherently a doctor's name; and it was difficult to
3714 contemplate firmly the melancholy fact that the actual Kimble had no
3715 son, so that his practice might one day be handed over to a successor
3716 with the incongruous name of Taylor or Johnson. But in that case the
3717 wiser people in Raveloe would employ Dr. Blick of Flitton--as less
3718 unnatural.
3719
3720 "Did you speak to me, my dear?" said the authentic doctor, coming
3721 quickly to his wife's side; but, as if foreseeing that she would be too
3722 much out of breath to repeat her remark, he went on immediately--"Ha,
3723 Miss Priscilla, the sight of you revives the taste of that
3724 super-excellent pork-pie. I hope the batch isn't near an end."
3725
3726 "Yes, indeed, it is, doctor," said Priscilla; "but I'll answer for it
3727 the next shall be as good. My pork-pies don't turn out well by chance."
3728
3729 "Not as your doctoring does, eh, Kimble?--because folks forget to take
3730 your physic, eh?" said the Squire, who regarded physic and doctors as
3731 many loyal churchmen regard the church and the clergy--tasting a joke
3732 against them when he was in health, but impatiently eager for their aid
3733 when anything was the matter with him. He tapped his box, and looked
3734 round with a triumphant laugh.
3735
3736 "Ah, she has a quick wit, my friend Priscilla has," said the doctor,
3737 choosing to attribute the epigram to a lady rather than allow a
3738 brother-in-law that advantage over him. "She saves a little pepper to
3739 sprinkle over her talk--that's the reason why she never puts too much
3740 into her pies. There's my wife now, she never has an answer at her
3741 tongue's end; but if I offend her, she's sure to scarify my throat with
3742 black pepper the next day, or else give me the colic with watery
3743 greens. That's an awful tit-for-tat." Here the vivacious doctor made
3744 a pathetic grimace.
3745
3746 "Did you ever hear the like?" said Mrs. Kimble, laughing above her
3747 double chin with much good-humour, aside to Mrs. Crackenthorp, who
3748 blinked and nodded, and seemed to intend a smile, which, by the
3749 correlation of forces, went off in small twitchings and noises.
3750
3751 "I suppose that's the sort of tit-for-tat adopted in your profession,
3752 Kimble, if you've a grudge against a patient," said the rector.
3753
3754 "Never do have a grudge against our patients," said Mr. Kimble, "except
3755 when they leave us: and then, you see, we haven't the chance of
3756 prescribing for 'em. Ha, Miss Nancy," he continued, suddenly skipping
3757 to Nancy's side, "you won't forget your promise? You're to save a dance
3758 for me, you know."
3759
3760 "Come, come, Kimble, don't you be too for'ard," said the Squire. "Give
3761 the young uns fair-play. There's my son Godfrey'll be wanting to have
3762 a round with you if you run off with Miss Nancy. He's bespoke her for
3763 the first dance, I'll be bound. Eh, sir! what do you say?" he
3764 continued, throwing himself backward, and looking at Godfrey. "Haven't
3765 you asked Miss Nancy to open the dance with you?"
3766
3767 Godfrey, sorely uncomfortable under this significant insistence about
3768 Nancy, and afraid to think where it would end by the time his father
3769 had set his usual hospitable example of drinking before and after
3770 supper, saw no course open but to turn to Nancy and say, with as little
3771 awkwardness as possible--
3772
3773 "No; I've not asked her yet, but I hope she'll consent--if somebody
3774 else hasn't been before me."
3775
3776 "No, I've not engaged myself," said Nancy, quietly, though blushingly.
3777 (If Mr. Godfrey founded any hopes on her consenting to dance with him,
3778 he would soon be undeceived; but there was no need for her to be
3779 uncivil.)
3780
3781 "Then I hope you've no objections to dancing with me," said Godfrey,
3782 beginning to lose the sense that there was anything uncomfortable in
3783 this arrangement.
3784
3785 "No, no objections," said Nancy, in a cold tone.
3786
3787 "Ah, well, you're a lucky fellow, Godfrey," said uncle Kimble; "but
3788 you're my godson, so I won't stand in your way. Else I'm not so very
3789 old, eh, my dear?" he went on, skipping to his wife's side again.
3790 "You wouldn't mind my having a second after you were gone--not if I
3791 cried a good deal first?"
3792
3793 "Come, come, take a cup o' tea and stop your tongue, do," said
3794 good-humoured Mrs. Kimble, feeling some pride in a husband who must be
3795 regarded as so clever and amusing by the company generally. If he had
3796 only not been irritable at cards!
3797
3798 While safe, well-tested personalities were enlivening the tea in this
3799 way, the sound of the fiddle approaching within a distance at which it
3800 could be heard distinctly, made the young people look at each other
3801 with sympathetic impatience for the end of the meal.
3802
3803 "Why, there's Solomon in the hall," said the Squire, "and playing my
3804 fav'rite tune, _I_ believe--"The flaxen-headed ploughboy"--he's for
3805 giving us a hint as we aren't enough in a hurry to hear him play.
3806 Bob," he called out to his third long-legged son, who was at the other
3807 end of the room, "open the door, and tell Solomon to come in. He shall
3808 give us a tune here."
3809
3810 Bob obeyed, and Solomon walked in, fiddling as he walked, for he would
3811 on no account break off in the middle of a tune.
3812
3813 "Here, Solomon," said the Squire, with loud patronage. "Round here, my
3814 man. Ah, I knew it was "The flaxen-headed ploughboy": there's no finer
3815 tune."
3816
3817 Solomon Macey, a small hale old man with an abundant crop of long white
3818 hair reaching nearly to his shoulders, advanced to the indicated spot,
3819 bowing reverently while he fiddled, as much as to say that he respected
3820 the company, though he respected the key-note more. As soon as he had
3821 repeated the tune and lowered his fiddle, he bowed again to the Squire
3822 and the rector, and said, "I hope I see your honour and your reverence
3823 well, and wishing you health and long life and a happy New Year. And
3824 wishing the same to you, Mr. Lammeter, sir; and to the other gentlemen,
3825 and the madams, and the young lasses."
3826
3827 As Solomon uttered the last words, he bowed in all directions
3828 solicitously, lest he should be wanting in due respect. But thereupon
3829 he immediately began to prelude, and fell into the tune which he knew
3830 would be taken as a special compliment by Mr. Lammeter.
3831
3832 "Thank ye, Solomon, thank ye," said Mr. Lammeter when the fiddle paused
3833 again. "That's "Over the hills and far away", that is. My father used
3834 to say to me, whenever we heard that tune, "Ah, lad, _I_ come from over
3835 the hills and far away." There's a many tunes I don't make head or
3836 tail of; but that speaks to me like the blackbird's whistle. I suppose
3837 it's the name: there's a deal in the name of a tune."
3838
3839 But Solomon was already impatient to prelude again, and presently broke
3840 with much spirit into "Sir Roger de Coverley", at which there was a
3841 sound of chairs pushed back, and laughing voices.
3842
3843 "Aye, aye, Solomon, we know what that means," said the Squire, rising.
3844 "It's time to begin the dance, eh? Lead the way, then, and we'll all
3845 follow you."
3846
3847 So Solomon, holding his white head on one side, and playing vigorously,
3848 marched forward at the head of the gay procession into the White
3849 Parlour, where the mistletoe-bough was hung, and multitudinous tallow
3850 candles made rather a brilliant effect, gleaming from among the berried
3851 holly-boughs, and reflected in the old-fashioned oval mirrors fastened
3852 in the panels of the white wainscot. A quaint procession! Old
3853 Solomon, in his seedy clothes and long white locks, seemed to be luring
3854 that decent company by the magic scream of his fiddle--luring discreet
3855 matrons in turban-shaped caps, nay, Mrs. Crackenthorp herself, the
3856 summit of whose perpendicular feather was on a level with the Squire's
3857 shoulder--luring fair lasses complacently conscious of very short
3858 waists and skirts blameless of front-folds--luring burly fathers in
3859 large variegated waistcoats, and ruddy sons, for the most part shy and
3860 sheepish, in short nether garments and very long coat-tails.
3861
3862 Already Mr. Macey and a few other privileged villagers, who were
3863 allowed to be spectators on these great occasions, were seated on
3864 benches placed for them near the door; and great was the admiration and
3865 satisfaction in that quarter when the couples had formed themselves for
3866 the dance, and the Squire led off with Mrs. Crackenthorp, joining hands
3867 with the rector and Mrs. Osgood. That was as it should be--that was
3868 what everybody had been used to--and the charter of Raveloe seemed to
3869 be renewed by the ceremony. It was not thought of as an unbecoming
3870 levity for the old and middle-aged people to dance a little before
3871 sitting down to cards, but rather as part of their social duties. For
3872 what were these if not to be merry at appropriate times, interchanging
3873 visits and poultry with due frequency, paying each other
3874 old-established compliments in sound traditional phrases, passing
3875 well-tried personal jokes, urging your guests to eat and drink too much
3876 out of hospitality, and eating and drinking too much in your
3877 neighbour's house to show that you liked your cheer? And the parson
3878 naturally set an example in these social duties. For it would not have
3879 been possible for the Raveloe mind, without a peculiar revelation, to
3880 know that a clergyman should be a pale-faced memento of solemnities,
3881 instead of a reasonably faulty man whose exclusive authority to read
3882 prayers and preach, to christen, marry, and bury you, necessarily
3883 coexisted with the right to sell you the ground to be buried in and to
3884 take tithe in kind; on which last point, of course, there was a little
3885 grumbling, but not to the extent of irreligion--not of deeper
3886 significance than the grumbling at the rain, which was by no means
3887 accompanied with a spirit of impious defiance, but with a desire that
3888 the prayer for fine weather might be read forthwith.
3889
3890 There was no reason, then, why the rector's dancing should not be
3891 received as part of the fitness of things quite as much as the
3892 Squire's, or why, on the other hand, Mr. Macey's official respect
3893 should restrain him from subjecting the parson's performance to that
3894 criticism with which minds of extraordinary acuteness must necessarily
3895 contemplate the doings of their fallible fellow-men.
3896
3897 "The Squire's pretty springe, considering his weight," said Mr. Macey,
3898 "and he stamps uncommon well. But Mr. Lammeter beats 'em all for
3899 shapes: you see he holds his head like a sodger, and he isn't so
3900 cushiony as most o' the oldish gentlefolks--they run fat in general;
3901 and he's got a fine leg. The parson's nimble enough, but he hasn't got
3902 much of a leg: it's a bit too thick down'ard, and his knees might be a
3903 bit nearer wi'out damage; but he might do worse, he might do worse.
3904 Though he hasn't that grand way o' waving his hand as the Squire has."
3905
3906 "Talk o' nimbleness, look at Mrs. Osgood," said Ben Winthrop, who was
3907 holding his son Aaron between his knees. "She trips along with her
3908 little steps, so as nobody can see how she goes--it's like as if she
3909 had little wheels to her feet. She doesn't look a day older nor last
3910 year: she's the finest-made woman as is, let the next be where she
3911 will."
3912
3913 "I don't heed how the women are made," said Mr. Macey, with some
3914 contempt. "They wear nayther coat nor breeches: you can't make much
3915 out o' their shapes."
3916
3917 "Fayder," said Aaron, whose feet were busy beating out the tune, "how
3918 does that big cock's-feather stick in Mrs. Crackenthorp's yead? Is
3919 there a little hole for it, like in my shuttle-cock?"
3920
3921 "Hush, lad, hush; that's the way the ladies dress theirselves, that
3922 is," said the father, adding, however, in an undertone to Mr. Macey,
3923 "It does make her look funny, though--partly like a short-necked bottle
3924 wi' a long quill in it. Hey, by jingo, there's the young Squire
3925 leading off now, wi' Miss Nancy for partners! There's a lass for
3926 you!--like a pink-and-white posy--there's nobody 'ud think as anybody
3927 could be so pritty. I shouldn't wonder if she's Madam Cass some day,
3928 arter all--and nobody more rightfuller, for they'd make a fine match.
3929 You can find nothing against Master Godfrey's shapes, Macey, _I_'ll bet
3930 a penny."
3931
3932 Mr. Macey screwed up his mouth, leaned his head further on one side,
3933 and twirled his thumbs with a presto movement as his eyes followed
3934 Godfrey up the dance. At last he summed up his opinion.
3935
3936 "Pretty well down'ard, but a bit too round i' the shoulder-blades. And
3937 as for them coats as he gets from the Flitton tailor, they're a poor
3938 cut to pay double money for."
3939
3940 "Ah, Mr. Macey, you and me are two folks," said Ben, slightly indignant
3941 at this carping. "When I've got a pot o' good ale, I like to swaller
3942 it, and do my inside good, i'stead o' smelling and staring at it to see
3943 if I can't find faut wi' the brewing. I should like you to pick me out
3944 a finer-limbed young fellow nor Master Godfrey--one as 'ud knock you
3945 down easier, or 's more pleasanter-looksed when he's piert and merry."
3946
3947 "Tchuh!" said Mr. Macey, provoked to increased severity, "he isn't
3948 come to his right colour yet: he's partly like a slack-baked pie. And
3949 I doubt he's got a soft place in his head, else why should he be turned
3950 round the finger by that offal Dunsey as nobody's seen o' late, and let
3951 him kill that fine hunting hoss as was the talk o' the country? And
3952 one while he was allays after Miss Nancy, and then it all went off
3953 again, like a smell o' hot porridge, as I may say. That wasn't my way
3954 when _I_ went a-coorting."
3955
3956 "Ah, but mayhap Miss Nancy hung off, like, and your lass didn't," said
3957 Ben.
3958
3959 "I should say she didn't," said Mr. Macey, significantly. "Before I
3960 said "sniff", I took care to know as she'd say "snaff", and pretty
3961 quick too. I wasn't a-going to open _my_ mouth, like a dog at a fly,
3962 and snap it to again, wi' nothing to swaller."
3963
3964 "Well, I think Miss Nancy's a-coming round again," said Ben, "for
3965 Master Godfrey doesn't look so down-hearted to-night. And I see he's
3966 for taking her away to sit down, now they're at the end o' the dance:
3967 that looks like sweethearting, that does."
3968
3969 The reason why Godfrey and Nancy had left the dance was not so tender
3970 as Ben imagined. In the close press of couples a slight accident had
3971 happened to Nancy's dress, which, while it was short enough to show her
3972 neat ankle in front, was long enough behind to be caught under the
3973 stately stamp of the Squire's foot, so as to rend certain stitches at
3974 the waist, and cause much sisterly agitation in Priscilla's mind, as
3975 well as serious concern in Nancy's. One's thoughts may be much
3976 occupied with love-struggles, but hardly so as to be insensible to a
3977 disorder in the general framework of things. Nancy had no sooner
3978 completed her duty in the figure they were dancing than she said to
3979 Godfrey, with a deep blush, that she must go and sit down till
3980 Priscilla could come to her; for the sisters had already exchanged a
3981 short whisper and an open-eyed glance full of meaning. No reason less
3982 urgent than this could have prevailed on Nancy to give Godfrey this
3983 opportunity of sitting apart with her. As for Godfrey, he was feeling
3984 so happy and oblivious under the long charm of the country-dance with
3985 Nancy, that he got rather bold on the strength of her confusion, and
3986 was capable of leading her straight away, without leave asked, into the
3987 adjoining small parlour, where the card-tables were set.
3988
3989 "Oh no, thank you," said Nancy, coldly, as soon as she perceived where
3990 he was going, "not in there. I'll wait here till Priscilla's ready to
3991 come to me. I'm sorry to bring you out of the dance and make myself
3992 troublesome."
3993
3994 "Why, you'll be more comfortable here by yourself," said the artful
3995 Godfrey: "I'll leave you here till your sister can come." He spoke in
3996 an indifferent tone.
3997
3998 That was an agreeable proposition, and just what Nancy desired; why,
3999 then, was she a little hurt that Mr. Godfrey should make it? They
4000 entered, and she seated herself on a chair against one of the
4001 card-tables, as the stiffest and most unapproachable position she could
4002 choose.
4003
4004 "Thank you, sir," she said immediately. "I needn't give you any more
4005 trouble. I'm sorry you've had such an unlucky partner."
4006
4007 "That's very ill-natured of you," said Godfrey, standing by her without
4008 any sign of intended departure, "to be sorry you've danced with me."
4009
4010 "Oh, no, sir, I don't mean to say what's ill-natured at all," said
4011 Nancy, looking distractingly prim and pretty. "When gentlemen have so
4012 many pleasures, one dance can matter but very little."
4013
4014 "You know that isn't true. You know one dance with you matters more to
4015 me than all the other pleasures in the world."
4016
4017 It was a long, long while since Godfrey had said anything so direct as
4018 that, and Nancy was startled. But her instinctive dignity and
4019 repugnance to any show of emotion made her sit perfectly still, and
4020 only throw a little more decision into her voice, as she said--
4021
4022 "No, indeed, Mr. Godfrey, that's not known to me, and I have very good
4023 reasons for thinking different. But if it's true, I don't wish to hear
4024 it."
4025
4026 "Would you never forgive me, then, Nancy--never think well of me, let
4027 what would happen--would you never think the present made amends for
4028 the past? Not if I turned a good fellow, and gave up everything you
4029 didn't like?"
4030
4031 Godfrey was half conscious that this sudden opportunity of speaking to
4032 Nancy alone had driven him beside himself; but blind feeling had got
4033 the mastery of his tongue. Nancy really felt much agitated by the
4034 possibility Godfrey's words suggested, but this very pressure of
4035 emotion that she was in danger of finding too strong for her roused all
4036 her power of self-command.
4037
4038 "I should be glad to see a good change in anybody, Mr. Godfrey," she
4039 answered, with the slightest discernible difference of tone, "but it
4040 'ud be better if no change was wanted."
4041
4042 "You're very hard-hearted, Nancy," said Godfrey, pettishly. "You might
4043 encourage me to be a better fellow. I'm very miserable--but you've no
4044 feeling."
4045
4046 "I think those have the least feeling that act wrong to begin with,"
4047 said Nancy, sending out a flash in spite of herself. Godfrey was
4048 delighted with that little flash, and would have liked to go on and
4049 make her quarrel with him; Nancy was so exasperatingly quiet and firm.
4050 But she was not indifferent to him _yet_, though--
4051
4052 The entrance of Priscilla, bustling forward and saying, "Dear heart
4053 alive, child, let us look at this gown," cut off Godfrey's hopes of a
4054 quarrel.
4055
4056 "I suppose I must go now," he said to Priscilla.
4057
4058 "It's no matter to me whether you go or stay," said that frank lady,
4059 searching for something in her pocket, with a preoccupied brow.
4060
4061 "Do _you_ want me to go?" said Godfrey, looking at Nancy, who was now
4062 standing up by Priscilla's order.
4063
4064 "As you like," said Nancy, trying to recover all her former coldness,
4065 and looking down carefully at the hem of her gown.
4066
4067 "Then I like to stay," said Godfrey, with a reckless determination to
4068 get as much of this joy as he could to-night, and think nothing of the
4069 morrow.
4070
4071
4072
4073 CHAPTER XII
4074
4075 While Godfrey Cass was taking draughts of forgetfulness from the sweet
4076 presence of Nancy, willingly losing all sense of that hidden bond which
4077 at other moments galled and fretted him so as to mingle irritation with
4078 the very sunshine, Godfrey's wife was walking with slow uncertain steps
4079 through the snow-covered Raveloe lanes, carrying her child in her arms.
4080
4081 This journey on New Year's Eve was a premeditated act of vengeance
4082 which she had kept in her heart ever since Godfrey, in a fit of
4083 passion, had told her he would sooner die than acknowledge her as his
4084 wife. There would be a great party at the Red House on New Year's Eve,
4085 she knew: her husband would be smiling and smiled upon, hiding _her_
4086 existence in the darkest corner of his heart. But she would mar his
4087 pleasure: she would go in her dingy rags, with her faded face, once as
4088 handsome as the best, with her little child that had its father's hair
4089 and eyes, and disclose herself to the Squire as his eldest son's wife.
4090 It is seldom that the miserable can help regarding their misery as a
4091 wrong inflicted by those who are less miserable. Molly knew that the
4092 cause of her dingy rags was not her husband's neglect, but the demon
4093 Opium to whom she was enslaved, body and soul, except in the lingering
4094 mother's tenderness that refused to give him her hungry child. She
4095 knew this well; and yet, in the moments of wretched unbenumbed
4096 consciousness, the sense of her want and degradation transformed itself
4097 continually into bitterness towards Godfrey. _He_ was well off; and if
4098 she had her rights she would be well off too. The belief that he
4099 repented his marriage, and suffered from it, only aggravated her
4100 vindictiveness. Just and self-reproving thoughts do not come to us too
4101 thickly, even in the purest air, and with the best lessons of heaven
4102 and earth; how should those white-winged delicate messengers make their
4103 way to Molly's poisoned chamber, inhabited by no higher memories than
4104 those of a barmaid's paradise of pink ribbons and gentlemen's jokes?
4105
4106 She had set out at an early hour, but had lingered on the road,
4107 inclined by her indolence to believe that if she waited under a warm
4108 shed the snow would cease to fall. She had waited longer than she
4109 knew, and now that she found herself belated in the snow-hidden
4110 ruggedness of the long lanes, even the animation of a vindictive
4111 purpose could not keep her spirit from failing. It was seven o'clock,
4112 and by this time she was not very far from Raveloe, but she was not
4113 familiar enough with those monotonous lanes to know how near she was to
4114 her journey's end. She needed comfort, and she knew but one
4115 comforter--the familiar demon in her bosom; but she hesitated a moment,
4116 after drawing out the black remnant, before she raised it to her lips.
4117 In that moment the mother's love pleaded for painful consciousness
4118 rather than oblivion--pleaded to be left in aching weariness, rather
4119 than to have the encircling arms benumbed so that they could not feel
4120 the dear burden. In another moment Molly had flung something away, but
4121 it was not the black remnant--it was an empty phial. And she walked on
4122 again under the breaking cloud, from which there came now and then the
4123 light of a quickly veiled star, for a freezing wind had sprung up since
4124 the snowing had ceased. But she walked always more and more drowsily,
4125 and clutched more and more automatically the sleeping child at her
4126 bosom.
4127
4128 Slowly the demon was working his will, and cold and weariness were his
4129 helpers. Soon she felt nothing but a supreme immediate longing that
4130 curtained off all futurity--the longing to lie down and sleep. She had
4131 arrived at a spot where her footsteps were no longer checked by a
4132 hedgerow, and she had wandered vaguely, unable to distinguish any
4133 objects, notwithstanding the wide whiteness around her, and the growing
4134 starlight. She sank down against a straggling furze bush, an easy
4135 pillow enough; and the bed of snow, too, was soft. She did not feel
4136 that the bed was cold, and did not heed whether the child would wake
4137 and cry for her. But her arms had not yet relaxed their instinctive
4138 clutch; and the little one slumbered on as gently as if it had been
4139 rocked in a lace-trimmed cradle.
4140
4141 But the complete torpor came at last: the fingers lost their tension,
4142 the arms unbent; then the little head fell away from the bosom, and the
4143 blue eyes opened wide on the cold starlight. At first there was a
4144 little peevish cry of "mammy", and an effort to regain the pillowing
4145 arm and bosom; but mammy's ear was deaf, and the pillow seemed to be
4146 slipping away backward. Suddenly, as the child rolled downward on its
4147 mother's knees, all wet with snow, its eyes were caught by a bright
4148 glancing light on the white ground, and, with the ready transition of
4149 infancy, it was immediately absorbed in watching the bright living
4150 thing running towards it, yet never arriving. That bright living thing
4151 must be caught; and in an instant the child had slipped on all-fours,
4152 and held out one little hand to catch the gleam. But the gleam would
4153 not be caught in that way, and now the head was held up to see where
4154 the cunning gleam came from. It came from a very bright place; and the
4155 little one, rising on its legs, toddled through the snow, the old grimy
4156 shawl in which it was wrapped trailing behind it, and the queer little
4157 bonnet dangling at its back--toddled on to the open door of Silas
4158 Marner's cottage, and right up to the warm hearth, where there was a
4159 bright fire of logs and sticks, which had thoroughly warmed the old
4160 sack (Silas's greatcoat) spread out on the bricks to dry. The little
4161 one, accustomed to be left to itself for long hours without notice from
4162 its mother, squatted down on the sack, and spread its tiny hands
4163 towards the blaze, in perfect contentment, gurgling and making many
4164 inarticulate communications to the cheerful fire, like a new-hatched
4165 gosling beginning to find itself comfortable. But presently the warmth
4166 had a lulling effect, and the little golden head sank down on the old
4167 sack, and the blue eyes were veiled by their delicate half-transparent
4168 lids.
4169
4170 But where was Silas Marner while this strange visitor had come to his
4171 hearth? He was in the cottage, but he did not see the child. During
4172 the last few weeks, since he had lost his money, he had contracted the
4173 habit of opening his door and looking out from time to time, as if he
4174 thought that his money might be somehow coming back to him, or that
4175 some trace, some news of it, might be mysteriously on the road, and be
4176 caught by the listening ear or the straining eye. It was chiefly at
4177 night, when he was not occupied in his loom, that he fell into this
4178 repetition of an act for which he could have assigned no definite
4179 purpose, and which can hardly be understood except by those who have
4180 undergone a bewildering separation from a supremely loved object. In
4181 the evening twilight, and later whenever the night was not dark, Silas
4182 looked out on that narrow prospect round the Stone-pits, listening and
4183 gazing, not with hope, but with mere yearning and unrest.
4184
4185 This morning he had been told by some of his neighbours that it was New
4186 Year's Eve, and that he must sit up and hear the old year rung out and
4187 the new rung in, because that was good luck, and might bring his money
4188 back again. This was only a friendly Raveloe-way of jesting with the
4189 half-crazy oddities of a miser, but it had perhaps helped to throw
4190 Silas into a more than usually excited state. Since the on-coming of
4191 twilight he had opened his door again and again, though only to shut it
4192 immediately at seeing all distance veiled by the falling snow. But the
4193 last time he opened it the snow had ceased, and the clouds were parting
4194 here and there. He stood and listened, and gazed for a long
4195 while--there was really something on the road coming towards him then,
4196 but he caught no sign of it; and the stillness and the wide trackless
4197 snow seemed to narrow his solitude, and touched his yearning with the
4198 chill of despair. He went in again, and put his right hand on the
4199 latch of the door to close it--but he did not close it: he was
4200 arrested, as he had been already since his loss, by the invisible wand
4201 of catalepsy, and stood like a graven image, with wide but sightless
4202 eyes, holding open his door, powerless to resist either the good or the
4203 evil that might enter there.
4204
4205 When Marner's sensibility returned, he continued the action which had
4206 been arrested, and closed his door, unaware of the chasm in his
4207 consciousness, unaware of any intermediate change, except that the
4208 light had grown dim, and that he was chilled and faint. He thought he
4209 had been too long standing at the door and looking out. Turning
4210 towards the hearth, where the two logs had fallen apart, and sent forth
4211 only a red uncertain glimmer, he seated himself on his fireside chair,
4212 and was stooping to push his logs together, when, to his blurred
4213 vision, it seemed as if there were gold on the floor in front of the
4214 hearth. Gold!--his own gold--brought back to him as mysteriously as it
4215 had been taken away! He felt his heart begin to beat violently, and
4216 for a few moments he was unable to stretch out his hand and grasp the
4217 restored treasure. The heap of gold seemed to glow and get larger
4218 beneath his agitated gaze. He leaned forward at last, and stretched
4219 forth his hand; but instead of the hard coin with the familiar
4220 resisting outline, his fingers encountered soft warm curls. In utter
4221 amazement, Silas fell on his knees and bent his head low to examine the
4222 marvel: it was a sleeping child--a round, fair thing, with soft yellow
4223 rings all over its head. Could this be his little sister come back to
4224 him in a dream--his little sister whom he had carried about in his arms
4225 for a year before she died, when he was a small boy without shoes or
4226 stockings? That was the first thought that darted across Silas's blank
4227 wonderment. _Was_ it a dream? He rose to his feet again, pushed his
4228 logs together, and, throwing on some dried leaves and sticks, raised a
4229 flame; but the flame did not disperse the vision--it only lit up more
4230 distinctly the little round form of the child, and its shabby clothing.
4231 It was very much like his little sister. Silas sank into his chair
4232 powerless, under the double presence of an inexplicable surprise and a
4233 hurrying influx of memories. How and when had the child come in
4234 without his knowledge? He had never been beyond the door. But along
4235 with that question, and almost thrusting it away, there was a vision of
4236 the old home and the old streets leading to Lantern Yard--and within
4237 that vision another, of the thoughts which had been present with him in
4238 those far-off scenes. The thoughts were strange to him now, like old
4239 friendships impossible to revive; and yet he had a dreamy feeling that
4240 this child was somehow a message come to him from that far-off life: it
4241 stirred fibres that had never been moved in Raveloe--old quiverings of
4242 tenderness--old impressions of awe at the presentiment of some Power
4243 presiding over his life; for his imagination had not yet extricated
4244 itself from the sense of mystery in the child's sudden presence, and
4245 had formed no conjectures of ordinary natural means by which the event
4246 could have been brought about.
4247
4248 But there was a cry on the hearth: the child had awaked, and Marner
4249 stooped to lift it on his knee. It clung round his neck, and burst
4250 louder and louder into that mingling of inarticulate cries with "mammy"
4251 by which little children express the bewilderment of waking. Silas
4252 pressed it to him, and almost unconsciously uttered sounds of hushing
4253 tenderness, while he bethought himself that some of his porridge, which
4254 had got cool by the dying fire, would do to feed the child with if it
4255 were only warmed up a little.
4256
4257 He had plenty to do through the next hour. The porridge, sweetened
4258 with some dry brown sugar from an old store which he had refrained from
4259 using for himself, stopped the cries of the little one, and made her
4260 lift her blue eyes with a wide quiet gaze at Silas, as he put the spoon
4261 into her mouth. Presently she slipped from his knee and began to
4262 toddle about, but with a pretty stagger that made Silas jump up and
4263 follow her lest she should fall against anything that would hurt her.
4264 But she only fell in a sitting posture on the ground, and began to pull
4265 at her boots, looking up at him with a crying face as if the boots hurt
4266 her. He took her on his knee again, but it was some time before it
4267 occurred to Silas's dull bachelor mind that the wet boots were the
4268 grievance, pressing on her warm ankles. He got them off with
4269 difficulty, and baby was at once happily occupied with the primary
4270 mystery of her own toes, inviting Silas, with much chuckling, to
4271 consider the mystery too. But the wet boots had at last suggested to
4272 Silas that the child had been walking on the snow, and this roused him
4273 from his entire oblivion of any ordinary means by which it could have
4274 entered or been brought into his house. Under the prompting of this
4275 new idea, and without waiting to form conjectures, he raised the child
4276 in his arms, and went to the door. As soon as he had opened it, there
4277 was the cry of "mammy" again, which Silas had not heard since the
4278 child's first hungry waking. Bending forward, he could just discern
4279 the marks made by the little feet on the virgin snow, and he followed
4280 their track to the furze bushes. "Mammy!" the little one cried again
4281 and again, stretching itself forward so as almost to escape from
4282 Silas's arms, before he himself was aware that there was something more
4283 than the bush before him--that there was a human body, with the head
4284 sunk low in the furze, and half-covered with the shaken snow.
4285
4286
4287
4288 CHAPTER XIII
4289
4290 It was after the early supper-time at the Red House, and the
4291 entertainment was in that stage when bashfulness itself had passed into
4292 easy jollity, when gentlemen, conscious of unusual accomplishments,
4293 could at length be prevailed on to dance a hornpipe, and when the
4294 Squire preferred talking loudly, scattering snuff, and patting his
4295 visitors' backs, to sitting longer at the whist-table--a choice
4296 exasperating to uncle Kimble, who, being always volatile in sober
4297 business hours, became intense and bitter over cards and brandy,
4298 shuffled before his adversary's deal with a glare of suspicion, and
4299 turned up a mean trump-card with an air of inexpressible disgust, as if
4300 in a world where such things could happen one might as well enter on a
4301 course of reckless profligacy. When the evening had advanced to this
4302 pitch of freedom and enjoyment, it was usual for the servants, the
4303 heavy duties of supper being well over, to get their share of amusement
4304 by coming to look on at the dancing; so that the back regions of the
4305 house were left in solitude.
4306
4307 There were two doors by which the White Parlour was entered from the
4308 hall, and they were both standing open for the sake of air; but the
4309 lower one was crowded with the servants and villagers, and only the
4310 upper doorway was left free. Bob Cass was figuring in a hornpipe, and
4311 his father, very proud of this lithe son, whom he repeatedly declared
4312 to be just like himself in his young days in a tone that implied this
4313 to be the very highest stamp of juvenile merit, was the centre of a
4314 group who had placed themselves opposite the performer, not far from
4315 the upper door. Godfrey was standing a little way off, not to admire
4316 his brother's dancing, but to keep sight of Nancy, who was seated in
4317 the group, near her father. He stood aloof, because he wished to avoid
4318 suggesting himself as a subject for the Squire's fatherly jokes in
4319 connection with matrimony and Miss Nancy Lammeter's beauty, which were
4320 likely to become more and more explicit. But he had the prospect of
4321 dancing with her again when the hornpipe was concluded, and in the
4322 meanwhile it was very pleasant to get long glances at her quite
4323 unobserved.
4324
4325 But when Godfrey was lifting his eyes from one of those long glances,
4326 they encountered an object as startling to him at that moment as if it
4327 had been an apparition from the dead. It _was_ an apparition from that
4328 hidden life which lies, like a dark by-street, behind the goodly
4329 ornamented facade that meets the sunlight and the gaze of respectable
4330 admirers. It was his own child, carried in Silas Marner's arms. That
4331 was his instantaneous impression, unaccompanied by doubt, though he had
4332 not seen the child for months past; and when the hope was rising that
4333 he might possibly be mistaken, Mr. Crackenthorp and Mr. Lammeter had
4334 already advanced to Silas, in astonishment at this strange advent.
4335 Godfrey joined them immediately, unable to rest without hearing every
4336 word--trying to control himself, but conscious that if any one noticed
4337 him, they must see that he was white-lipped and trembling.
4338
4339 But now all eyes at that end of the room were bent on Silas Marner; the
4340 Squire himself had risen, and asked angrily, "How's this?--what's
4341 this?--what do you do coming in here in this way?"
4342
4343 "I'm come for the doctor--I want the doctor," Silas had said, in the
4344 first moment, to Mr. Crackenthorp.
4345
4346 "Why, what's the matter, Marner?" said the rector. "The doctor's
4347 here; but say quietly what you want him for."
4348
4349 "It's a woman," said Silas, speaking low, and half-breathlessly, just
4350 as Godfrey came up. "She's dead, I think--dead in the snow at the
4351 Stone-pits--not far from my door."
4352
4353 Godfrey felt a great throb: there was one terror in his mind at that
4354 moment: it was, that the woman might _not_ be dead. That was an evil
4355 terror--an ugly inmate to have found a nestling-place in Godfrey's
4356 kindly disposition; but no disposition is a security from evil wishes
4357 to a man whose happiness hangs on duplicity.
4358
4359 "Hush, hush!" said Mr. Crackenthorp. "Go out into the hall there.
4360 I'll fetch the doctor to you. Found a woman in the snow--and thinks
4361 she's dead," he added, speaking low to the Squire. "Better say as
4362 little about it as possible: it will shock the ladies. Just tell them
4363 a poor woman is ill from cold and hunger. I'll go and fetch Kimble."
4364
4365 By this time, however, the ladies had pressed forward, curious to know
4366 what could have brought the solitary linen-weaver there under such
4367 strange circumstances, and interested in the pretty child, who, half
4368 alarmed and half attracted by the brightness and the numerous company,
4369 now frowned and hid her face, now lifted up her head again and looked
4370 round placably, until a touch or a coaxing word brought back the frown,
4371 and made her bury her face with new determination.
4372
4373 "What child is it?" said several ladies at once, and, among the rest,
4374 Nancy Lammeter, addressing Godfrey.
4375
4376 "I don't know--some poor woman's who has been found in the snow, I
4377 believe," was the answer Godfrey wrung from himself with a terrible
4378 effort. ("After all, _am_ I certain?" he hastened to add, silently,
4379 in anticipation of his own conscience.)
4380
4381 "Why, you'd better leave the child here, then, Master Marner," said
4382 good-natured Mrs. Kimble, hesitating, however, to take those dingy
4383 clothes into contact with her own ornamented satin bodice. "I'll tell
4384 one o' the girls to fetch it."
4385
4386 "No--no--I can't part with it, I can't let it go," said Silas,
4387 abruptly. "It's come to me--I've a right to keep it."
4388
4389 The proposition to take the child from him had come to Silas quite
4390 unexpectedly, and his speech, uttered under a strong sudden impulse,
4391 was almost like a revelation to himself: a minute before, he had no
4392 distinct intention about the child.
4393
4394 "Did you ever hear the like?" said Mrs. Kimble, in mild surprise, to
4395 her neighbour.
4396
4397 "Now, ladies, I must trouble you to stand aside," said Mr. Kimble,
4398 coming from the card-room, in some bitterness at the interruption, but
4399 drilled by the long habit of his profession into obedience to
4400 unpleasant calls, even when he was hardly sober.
4401
4402 "It's a nasty business turning out now, eh, Kimble?" said the Squire.
4403 "He might ha' gone for your young fellow--the 'prentice, there--what's
4404 his name?"
4405
4406 "Might? aye--what's the use of talking about might?" growled uncle
4407 Kimble, hastening out with Marner, and followed by Mr. Crackenthorp and
4408 Godfrey. "Get me a pair of thick boots, Godfrey, will you? And stay,
4409 let somebody run to Winthrop's and fetch Dolly--she's the best woman to
4410 get. Ben was here himself before supper; is he gone?"
4411
4412 "Yes, sir, I met him," said Marner; "but I couldn't stop to tell him
4413 anything, only I said I was going for the doctor, and he said the
4414 doctor was at the Squire's. And I made haste and ran, and there was
4415 nobody to be seen at the back o' the house, and so I went in to where
4416 the company was."
4417
4418 The child, no longer distracted by the bright light and the smiling
4419 women's faces, began to cry and call for "mammy", though always
4420 clinging to Marner, who had apparently won her thorough confidence.
4421 Godfrey had come back with the boots, and felt the cry as if some fibre
4422 were drawn tight within him.
4423
4424 "I'll go," he said, hastily, eager for some movement; "I'll go and
4425 fetch the woman--Mrs. Winthrop."
4426
4427 "Oh, pooh--send somebody else," said uncle Kimble, hurrying away with
4428 Marner.
4429
4430 "You'll let me know if I can be of any use, Kimble," said Mr.
4431 Crackenthorp. But the doctor was out of hearing.
4432
4433 Godfrey, too, had disappeared: he was gone to snatch his hat and coat,
4434 having just reflection enough to remember that he must not look like a
4435 madman; but he rushed out of the house into the snow without heeding
4436 his thin shoes.
4437
4438 In a few minutes he was on his rapid way to the Stone-pits by the side
4439 of Dolly, who, though feeling that she was entirely in her place in
4440 encountering cold and snow on an errand of mercy, was much concerned at
4441 a young gentleman's getting his feet wet under a like impulse.
4442
4443 "You'd a deal better go back, sir," said Dolly, with respectful
4444 compassion. "You've no call to catch cold; and I'd ask you if you'd be
4445 so good as tell my husband to come, on your way back--he's at the
4446 Rainbow, I doubt--if you found him anyway sober enough to be o' use.
4447 Or else, there's Mrs. Snell 'ud happen send the boy up to fetch and
4448 carry, for there may be things wanted from the doctor's."
4449
4450 "No, I'll stay, now I'm once out--I'll stay outside here," said
4451 Godfrey, when they came opposite Marner's cottage. "You can come and
4452 tell me if I can do anything."
4453
4454 "Well, sir, you're very good: you've a tender heart," said Dolly, going
4455 to the door.
4456
4457 Godfrey was too painfully preoccupied to feel a twinge of self-reproach
4458 at this undeserved praise. He walked up and down, unconscious that he
4459 was plunging ankle-deep in snow, unconscious of everything but
4460 trembling suspense about what was going on in the cottage, and the
4461 effect of each alternative on his future lot. No, not quite
4462 unconscious of everything else. Deeper down, and half-smothered by
4463 passionate desire and dread, there was the sense that he ought not to
4464 be waiting on these alternatives; that he ought to accept the
4465 consequences of his deeds, own the miserable wife, and fulfil the
4466 claims of the helpless child. But he had not moral courage enough to
4467 contemplate that active renunciation of Nancy as possible for him: he
4468 had only conscience and heart enough to make him for ever uneasy under
4469 the weakness that forbade the renunciation. And at this moment his
4470 mind leaped away from all restraint toward the sudden prospect of
4471 deliverance from his long bondage.
4472
4473 "Is she dead?" said the voice that predominated over every other
4474 within him. "If she is, I may marry Nancy; and then I shall be a good
4475 fellow in future, and have no secrets, and the child--shall be taken
4476 care of somehow." But across that vision came the other
4477 possibility--"She may live, and then it's all up with me."
4478
4479 Godfrey never knew how long it was before the door of the cottage
4480 opened and Mr. Kimble came out. He went forward to meet his uncle,
4481 prepared to suppress the agitation he must feel, whatever news he was
4482 to hear.
4483
4484 "I waited for you, as I'd come so far," he said, speaking first.
4485
4486 "Pooh, it was nonsense for you to come out: why didn't you send one of
4487 the men? There's nothing to be done. She's dead--has been dead for
4488 hours, I should say."
4489
4490 "What sort of woman is she?" said Godfrey, feeling the blood rush to
4491 his face.
4492
4493 "A young woman, but emaciated, with long black hair. Some
4494 vagrant--quite in rags. She's got a wedding-ring on, however. They
4495 must fetch her away to the workhouse to-morrow. Come, come along."
4496
4497 "I want to look at her," said Godfrey. "I think I saw such a woman
4498 yesterday. I'll overtake you in a minute or two."
4499
4500 Mr. Kimble went on, and Godfrey turned back to the cottage. He cast
4501 only one glance at the dead face on the pillow, which Dolly had
4502 smoothed with decent care; but he remembered that last look at his
4503 unhappy hated wife so well, that at the end of sixteen years every line
4504 in the worn face was present to him when he told the full story of this
4505 night.
4506
4507 He turned immediately towards the hearth, where Silas Marner sat
4508 lulling the child. She was perfectly quiet now, but not asleep--only
4509 soothed by sweet porridge and warmth into that wide-gazing calm which
4510 makes us older human beings, with our inward turmoil, feel a certain
4511 awe in the presence of a little child, such as we feel before some
4512 quiet majesty or beauty in the earth or sky--before a steady glowing
4513 planet, or a full-flowered eglantine, or the bending trees over a
4514 silent pathway. The wide-open blue eyes looked up at Godfrey's without
4515 any uneasiness or sign of recognition: the child could make no visible
4516 audible claim on its father; and the father felt a strange mixture of
4517 feelings, a conflict of regret and joy, that the pulse of that little
4518 heart had no response for the half-jealous yearning in his own, when
4519 the blue eyes turned away from him slowly, and fixed themselves on the
4520 weaver's queer face, which was bent low down to look at them, while the
4521 small hand began to pull Marner's withered cheek with loving
4522 disfiguration.
4523
4524 "You'll take the child to the parish to-morrow?" asked Godfrey,
4525 speaking as indifferently as he could.
4526
4527 "Who says so?" said Marner, sharply. "Will they make me take her?"
4528
4529 "Why, you wouldn't like to keep her, should you--an old bachelor like
4530 you?"
4531
4532 "Till anybody shows they've a right to take her away from me," said
4533 Marner. "The mother's dead, and I reckon it's got no father: it's a
4534 lone thing--and I'm a lone thing. My money's gone, I don't know
4535 where--and this is come from I don't know where. I know nothing--I'm
4536 partly mazed."
4537
4538 "Poor little thing!" said Godfrey. "Let me give something towards
4539 finding it clothes."
4540
4541 He had put his hand in his pocket and found half-a-guinea, and,
4542 thrusting it into Silas's hand, he hurried out of the cottage to
4543 overtake Mr. Kimble.
4544
4545 "Ah, I see it's not the same woman I saw," he said, as he came up.
4546 "It's a pretty little child: the old fellow seems to want to keep it;
4547 that's strange for a miser like him. But I gave him a trifle to help
4548 him out: the parish isn't likely to quarrel with him for the right to
4549 keep the child."
4550
4551 "No; but I've seen the time when I might have quarrelled with him for
4552 it myself. It's too late now, though. If the child ran into the fire,
4553 your aunt's too fat to overtake it: she could only sit and grunt like
4554 an alarmed sow. But what a fool you are, Godfrey, to come out in your
4555 dancing shoes and stockings in this way--and you one of the beaux of
4556 the evening, and at your own house! What do you mean by such freaks,
4557 young fellow? Has Miss Nancy been cruel, and do you want to spite her
4558 by spoiling your pumps?"
4559
4560 "Oh, everything has been disagreeable to-night. I was tired to death
4561 of jigging and gallanting, and that bother about the hornpipes. And
4562 I'd got to dance with the other Miss Gunn," said Godfrey, glad of the
4563 subterfuge his uncle had suggested to him.
4564
4565 The prevarication and white lies which a mind that keeps itself
4566 ambitiously pure is as uneasy under as a great artist under the false
4567 touches that no eye detects but his own, are worn as lightly as mere
4568 trimmings when once the actions have become a lie.
4569
4570 Godfrey reappeared in the White Parlour with dry feet, and, since the
4571 truth must be told, with a sense of relief and gladness that was too
4572 strong for painful thoughts to struggle with. For could he not venture
4573 now, whenever opportunity offered, to say the tenderest things to Nancy
4574 Lammeter--to promise her and himself that he would always be just what
4575 she would desire to see him? There was no danger that his dead wife
4576 would be recognized: those were not days of active inquiry and wide
4577 report; and as for the registry of their marriage, that was a long way
4578 off, buried in unturned pages, away from every one's interest but his
4579 own. Dunsey might betray him if he came back; but Dunsey might be won
4580 to silence.
4581
4582 And when events turn out so much better for a man than he has had
4583 reason to dread, is it not a proof that his conduct has been less
4584 foolish and blameworthy than it might otherwise have appeared? When we
4585 are treated well, we naturally begin to think that we are not
4586 altogether unmeritorious, and that it is only just we should treat
4587 ourselves well, and not mar our own good fortune. Where, after all,
4588 would be the use of his confessing the past to Nancy Lammeter, and
4589 throwing away his happiness?--nay, hers? for he felt some confidence
4590 that she loved him. As for the child, he would see that it was cared
4591 for: he would never forsake it; he would do everything but own it.
4592 Perhaps it would be just as happy in life without being owned by its
4593 father, seeing that nobody could tell how things would turn out, and
4594 that--is there any other reason wanted?--well, then, that the father
4595 would be much happier without owning the child.
4596
4597
4598
4599 CHAPTER XIV
4600
4601 There was a pauper's burial that week in Raveloe, and up Kench Yard at
4602 Batherley it was known that the dark-haired woman with the fair child,
4603 who had lately come to lodge there, was gone away again. That was all
4604 the express note taken that Molly had disappeared from the eyes of men.
4605 But the unwept death which, to the general lot, seemed as trivial as
4606 the summer-shed leaf, was charged with the force of destiny to certain
4607 human lives that we know of, shaping their joys and sorrows even to the
4608 end.
4609
4610 Silas Marner's determination to keep the "tramp's child" was matter of
4611 hardly less surprise and iterated talk in the village than the robbery
4612 of his money. That softening of feeling towards him which dated from
4613 his misfortune, that merging of suspicion and dislike in a rather
4614 contemptuous pity for him as lone and crazy, was now accompanied with a
4615 more active sympathy, especially amongst the women. Notable mothers,
4616 who knew what it was to keep children "whole and sweet"; lazy mothers,
4617 who knew what it was to be interrupted in folding their arms and
4618 scratching their elbows by the mischievous propensities of children
4619 just firm on their legs, were equally interested in conjecturing how a
4620 lone man would manage with a two-year-old child on his hands, and were
4621 equally ready with their suggestions: the notable chiefly telling him
4622 what he had better do, and the lazy ones being emphatic in telling him
4623 what he would never be able to do.
4624
4625 Among the notable mothers, Dolly Winthrop was the one whose neighbourly
4626 offices were the most acceptable to Marner, for they were rendered
4627 without any show of bustling instruction. Silas had shown her the
4628 half-guinea given to him by Godfrey, and had asked her what he should
4629 do about getting some clothes for the child.
4630
4631 "Eh, Master Marner," said Dolly, "there's no call to buy, no more nor a
4632 pair o' shoes; for I've got the little petticoats as Aaron wore five
4633 years ago, and it's ill spending the money on them baby-clothes, for
4634 the child 'ull grow like grass i' May, bless it--that it will."
4635
4636 And the same day Dolly brought her bundle, and displayed to Marner, one
4637 by one, the tiny garments in their due order of succession, most of
4638 them patched and darned, but clean and neat as fresh-sprung herbs.
4639 This was the introduction to a great ceremony with soap and water, from
4640 which Baby came out in new beauty, and sat on Dolly's knee, handling
4641 her toes and chuckling and patting her palms together with an air of
4642 having made several discoveries about herself, which she communicated
4643 by alternate sounds of "gug-gug-gug", and "mammy". The "mammy" was not
4644 a cry of need or uneasiness: Baby had been used to utter it without
4645 expecting either tender sound or touch to follow.
4646
4647 "Anybody 'ud think the angils in heaven couldn't be prettier," said
4648 Dolly, rubbing the golden curls and kissing them. "And to think of its
4649 being covered wi' them dirty rags--and the poor mother--froze to death;
4650 but there's Them as took care of it, and brought it to your door,
4651 Master Marner. The door was open, and it walked in over the snow, like
4652 as if it had been a little starved robin. Didn't you say the door was
4653 open?"
4654
4655 "Yes," said Silas, meditatively. "Yes--the door was open. The money's
4656 gone I don't know where, and this is come from I don't know where."
4657
4658 He had not mentioned to any one his unconsciousness of the child's
4659 entrance, shrinking from questions which might lead to the fact he
4660 himself suspected--namely, that he had been in one of his trances.
4661
4662 "Ah," said Dolly, with soothing gravity, "it's like the night and the
4663 morning, and the sleeping and the waking, and the rain and the
4664 harvest--one goes and the other comes, and we know nothing how nor
4665 where. We may strive and scrat and fend, but it's little we can do
4666 arter all--the big things come and go wi' no striving o' our'n--they
4667 do, that they do; and I think you're in the right on it to keep the
4668 little un, Master Marner, seeing as it's been sent to you, though
4669 there's folks as thinks different. You'll happen be a bit moithered
4670 with it while it's so little; but I'll come, and welcome, and see to it
4671 for you: I've a bit o' time to spare most days, for when one gets up
4672 betimes i' the morning, the clock seems to stan' still tow'rt ten,
4673 afore it's time to go about the victual. So, as I say, I'll come and
4674 see to the child for you, and welcome."
4675
4676 "Thank you... kindly," said Silas, hesitating a little. "I'll be glad
4677 if you'll tell me things. But," he added, uneasily, leaning forward to
4678 look at Baby with some jealousy, as she was resting her head backward
4679 against Dolly's arm, and eyeing him contentedly from a distance--"But I
4680 want to do things for it myself, else it may get fond o' somebody else,
4681 and not fond o' me. I've been used to fending for myself in the
4682 house--I can learn, I can learn."
4683
4684 "Eh, to be sure," said Dolly, gently. "I've seen men as are wonderful
4685 handy wi' children. The men are awk'ard and contrairy mostly, God help
4686 'em--but when the drink's out of 'em, they aren't unsensible, though
4687 they're bad for leeching and bandaging--so fiery and unpatient. You
4688 see this goes first, next the skin," proceeded Dolly, taking up the
4689 little shirt, and putting it on.
4690
4691 "Yes," said Marner, docilely, bringing his eyes very close, that they
4692 might be initiated in the mysteries; whereupon Baby seized his head
4693 with both her small arms, and put her lips against his face with
4694 purring noises.
4695
4696 "See there," said Dolly, with a woman's tender tact, "she's fondest o'
4697 you. She wants to go o' your lap, I'll be bound. Go, then: take her,
4698 Master Marner; you can put the things on, and then you can say as
4699 you've done for her from the first of her coming to you."
4700
4701 Marner took her on his lap, trembling with an emotion mysterious to
4702 himself, at something unknown dawning on his life. Thought and feeling
4703 were so confused within him, that if he had tried to give them
4704 utterance, he could only have said that the child was come instead of
4705 the gold--that the gold had turned into the child. He took the
4706 garments from Dolly, and put them on under her teaching; interrupted,
4707 of course, by Baby's gymnastics.
4708
4709 "There, then! why, you take to it quite easy, Master Marner," said
4710 Dolly; "but what shall you do when you're forced to sit in your loom?
4711 For she'll get busier and mischievouser every day--she will, bless her.
4712 It's lucky as you've got that high hearth i'stead of a grate, for that
4713 keeps the fire more out of her reach: but if you've got anything as can
4714 be spilt or broke, or as is fit to cut her fingers off, she'll be at
4715 it--and it is but right you should know."
4716
4717 Silas meditated a little while in some perplexity. "I'll tie her to
4718 the leg o' the loom," he said at last--"tie her with a good long strip
4719 o' something."
4720
4721 "Well, mayhap that'll do, as it's a little gell, for they're easier
4722 persuaded to sit i' one place nor the lads. I know what the lads are;
4723 for I've had four--four I've had, God knows--and if you was to take and
4724 tie 'em up, they'd make a fighting and a crying as if you was ringing
4725 the pigs. But I'll bring you my little chair, and some bits o' red rag
4726 and things for her to play wi'; an' she'll sit and chatter to 'em as if
4727 they was alive. Eh, if it wasn't a sin to the lads to wish 'em made
4728 different, bless 'em, I should ha' been glad for one of 'em to be a
4729 little gell; and to think as I could ha' taught her to scour, and mend,
4730 and the knitting, and everything. But I can teach 'em this little un,
4731 Master Marner, when she gets old enough."
4732
4733 "But she'll be _my_ little un," said Marner, rather hastily. "She'll be
4734 nobody else's."
4735
4736 "No, to be sure; you'll have a right to her, if you're a father to her,
4737 and bring her up according. But," added Dolly, coming to a point which
4738 she had determined beforehand to touch upon, "you must bring her up
4739 like christened folks's children, and take her to church, and let her
4740 learn her catechise, as my little Aaron can say off--the "I believe",
4741 and everything, and "hurt nobody by word or deed",--as well as if he
4742 was the clerk. That's what you must do, Master Marner, if you'd do the
4743 right thing by the orphin child."
4744
4745 Marner's pale face flushed suddenly under a new anxiety. His mind was
4746 too busy trying to give some definite bearing to Dolly's words for him
4747 to think of answering her.
4748
4749 "And it's my belief," she went on, "as the poor little creatur has
4750 never been christened, and it's nothing but right as the parson should
4751 be spoke to; and if you was noways unwilling, I'd talk to Mr. Macey
4752 about it this very day. For if the child ever went anyways wrong, and
4753 you hadn't done your part by it, Master Marner--'noculation, and
4754 everything to save it from harm--it 'ud be a thorn i' your bed for ever
4755 o' this side the grave; and I can't think as it 'ud be easy lying down
4756 for anybody when they'd got to another world, if they hadn't done their
4757 part by the helpless children as come wi'out their own asking."
4758
4759 Dolly herself was disposed to be silent for some time now, for she had
4760 spoken from the depths of her own simple belief, and was much concerned
4761 to know whether her words would produce the desired effect on Silas.
4762 He was puzzled and anxious, for Dolly's word "christened" conveyed no
4763 distinct meaning to him. He had only heard of baptism, and had only
4764 seen the baptism of grown-up men and women.
4765
4766 "What is it as you mean by "christened"?" he said at last, timidly.
4767 "Won't folks be good to her without it?"
4768
4769 "Dear, dear! Master Marner," said Dolly, with gentle distress and
4770 compassion. "Had you never no father nor mother as taught you to say
4771 your prayers, and as there's good words and good things to keep us from
4772 harm?"
4773
4774 "Yes," said Silas, in a low voice; "I know a deal about that--used to,
4775 used to. But your ways are different: my country was a good way off."
4776 He paused a few moments, and then added, more decidedly, "But I want to
4777 do everything as can be done for the child. And whatever's right for
4778 it i' this country, and you think 'ull do it good, I'll act according,
4779 if you'll tell me."
4780
4781 "Well, then, Master Marner," said Dolly, inwardly rejoiced, "I'll ask
4782 Mr. Macey to speak to the parson about it; and you must fix on a name
4783 for it, because it must have a name giv' it when it's christened."
4784
4785 "My mother's name was Hephzibah," said Silas, "and my little sister was
4786 named after her."
4787
4788 "Eh, that's a hard name," said Dolly. "I partly think it isn't a
4789 christened name."
4790
4791 "It's a Bible name," said Silas, old ideas recurring.
4792
4793 "Then I've no call to speak again' it," said Dolly, rather startled by
4794 Silas's knowledge on this head; "but you see I'm no scholard, and I'm
4795 slow at catching the words. My husband says I'm allays like as if I
4796 was putting the haft for the handle--that's what he says--for he's very
4797 sharp, God help him. But it was awk'ard calling your little sister by
4798 such a hard name, when you'd got nothing big to say, like--wasn't it,
4799 Master Marner?"
4800
4801 "We called her Eppie," said Silas.
4802
4803 "Well, if it was noways wrong to shorten the name, it 'ud be a deal
4804 handier. And so I'll go now, Master Marner, and I'll speak about the
4805 christening afore dark; and I wish you the best o' luck, and it's my
4806 belief as it'll come to you, if you do what's right by the orphin
4807 child;--and there's the 'noculation to be seen to; and as to washing
4808 its bits o' things, you need look to nobody but me, for I can do 'em
4809 wi' one hand when I've got my suds about. Eh, the blessed angil!
4810 You'll let me bring my Aaron one o' these days, and he'll show her his
4811 little cart as his father's made for him, and the black-and-white pup
4812 as he's got a-rearing."
4813
4814 Baby _was_ christened, the rector deciding that a double baptism was
4815 the lesser risk to incur; and on this occasion Silas, making himself as
4816 clean and tidy as he could, appeared for the first time within the
4817 church, and shared in the observances held sacred by his neighbours.
4818 He was quite unable, by means of anything he heard or saw, to identify
4819 the Raveloe religion with his old faith; if he could at any time in his
4820 previous life have done so, it must have been by the aid of a strong
4821 feeling ready to vibrate with sympathy, rather than by a comparison of
4822 phrases and ideas: and now for long years that feeling had been
4823 dormant. He had no distinct idea about the baptism and the
4824 church-going, except that Dolly had said it was for the good of the
4825 child; and in this way, as the weeks grew to months, the child created
4826 fresh and fresh links between his life and the lives from which he had
4827 hitherto shrunk continually into narrower isolation. Unlike the gold
4828 which needed nothing, and must be worshipped in close-locked
4829 solitude--which was hidden away from the daylight, was deaf to the song
4830 of birds, and started to no human tones--Eppie was a creature of
4831 endless claims and ever-growing desires, seeking and loving sunshine,
4832 and living sounds, and living movements; making trial of everything,
4833 with trust in new joy, and stirring the human kindness in all eyes that
4834 looked on her. The gold had kept his thoughts in an ever-repeated
4835 circle, leading to nothing beyond itself; but Eppie was an object
4836 compacted of changes and hopes that forced his thoughts onward, and
4837 carried them far away from their old eager pacing towards the same
4838 blank limit--carried them away to the new things that would come with
4839 the coming years, when Eppie would have learned to understand how her
4840 father Silas cared for her; and made him look for images of that time
4841 in the ties and charities that bound together the families of his
4842 neighbours. The gold had asked that he should sit weaving longer and
4843 longer, deafened and blinded more and more to all things except the
4844 monotony of his loom and the repetition of his web; but Eppie called
4845 him away from his weaving, and made him think all its pauses a holiday,
4846 reawakening his senses with her fresh life, even to the old
4847 winter-flies that came crawling forth in the early spring sunshine, and
4848 warming him into joy because _she_ had joy.
4849
4850 And when the sunshine grew strong and lasting, so that the buttercups
4851 were thick in the meadows, Silas might be seen in the sunny midday, or
4852 in the late afternoon when the shadows were lengthening under the
4853 hedgerows, strolling out with uncovered head to carry Eppie beyond the
4854 Stone-pits to where the flowers grew, till they reached some favourite
4855 bank where he could sit down, while Eppie toddled to pluck the flowers,
4856 and make remarks to the winged things that murmured happily above the
4857 bright petals, calling "Dad-dad's" attention continually by bringing
4858 him the flowers. Then she would turn her ear to some sudden bird-note,
4859 and Silas learned to please her by making signs of hushed stillness,
4860 that they might listen for the note to come again: so that when it
4861 came, she set up her small back and laughed with gurgling triumph.
4862 Sitting on the banks in this way, Silas began to look for the once
4863 familiar herbs again; and as the leaves, with their unchanged outline
4864 and markings, lay on his palm, there was a sense of crowding
4865 remembrances from which he turned away timidly, taking refuge in
4866 Eppie's little world, that lay lightly on his enfeebled spirit.
4867
4868 As the child's mind was growing into knowledge, his mind was growing
4869 into memory: as her life unfolded, his soul, long stupefied in a cold
4870 narrow prison, was unfolding too, and trembling gradually into full
4871 consciousness.
4872
4873 It was an influence which must gather force with every new year: the
4874 tones that stirred Silas's heart grew articulate, and called for more
4875 distinct answers; shapes and sounds grew clearer for Eppie's eyes and
4876 ears, and there was more that "Dad-dad" was imperatively required to
4877 notice and account for. Also, by the time Eppie was three years old,
4878 she developed a fine capacity for mischief, and for devising ingenious
4879 ways of being troublesome, which found much exercise, not only for
4880 Silas's patience, but for his watchfulness and penetration. Sorely was
4881 poor Silas puzzled on such occasions by the incompatible demands of
4882 love. Dolly Winthrop told him that punishment was good for Eppie, and
4883 that, as for rearing a child without making it tingle a little in soft
4884 and safe places now and then, it was not to be done.
4885
4886 "To be sure, there's another thing you might do, Master Marner," added
4887 Dolly, meditatively: "you might shut her up once i' the coal-hole.
4888 That was what I did wi' Aaron; for I was that silly wi' the youngest
4889 lad, as I could never bear to smack him. Not as I could find i' my
4890 heart to let him stay i' the coal-hole more nor a minute, but it was
4891 enough to colly him all over, so as he must be new washed and dressed,
4892 and it was as good as a rod to him--that was. But I put it upo' your
4893 conscience, Master Marner, as there's one of 'em you must
4894 choose--ayther smacking or the coal-hole--else she'll get so masterful,
4895 there'll be no holding her."
4896
4897 Silas was impressed with the melancholy truth of this last remark; but
4898 his force of mind failed before the only two penal methods open to him,
4899 not only because it was painful to him to hurt Eppie, but because he
4900 trembled at a moment's contention with her, lest she should love him
4901 the less for it. Let even an affectionate Goliath get himself tied to
4902 a small tender thing, dreading to hurt it by pulling, and dreading
4903 still more to snap the cord, and which of the two, pray, will be
4904 master? It was clear that Eppie, with her short toddling steps, must
4905 lead father Silas a pretty dance on any fine morning when circumstances
4906 favoured mischief.
4907
4908 For example. He had wisely chosen a broad strip of linen as a means of
4909 fastening her to his loom when he was busy: it made a broad belt round
4910 her waist, and was long enough to allow of her reaching the truckle-bed
4911 and sitting down on it, but not long enough for her to attempt any
4912 dangerous climbing. One bright summer's morning Silas had been more
4913 engrossed than usual in "setting up" a new piece of work, an occasion
4914 on which his scissors were in requisition. These scissors, owing to an
4915 especial warning of Dolly's, had been kept carefully out of Eppie's
4916 reach; but the click of them had had a peculiar attraction for her ear,
4917 and watching the results of that click, she had derived the philosophic
4918 lesson that the same cause would produce the same effect. Silas had
4919 seated himself in his loom, and the noise of weaving had begun; but he
4920 had left his scissors on a ledge which Eppie's arm was long enough to
4921 reach; and now, like a small mouse, watching her opportunity, she stole
4922 quietly from her corner, secured the scissors, and toddled to the bed
4923 again, setting up her back as a mode of concealing the fact. She had a
4924 distinct intention as to the use of the scissors; and having cut the
4925 linen strip in a jagged but effectual manner, in two moments she had
4926 run out at the open door where the sunshine was inviting her, while
4927 poor Silas believed her to be a better child than usual. It was not
4928 until he happened to need his scissors that the terrible fact burst
4929 upon him: Eppie had run out by herself--had perhaps fallen into the
4930 Stone-pit. Silas, shaken by the worst fear that could have befallen
4931 him, rushed out, calling "Eppie!" and ran eagerly about the unenclosed
4932 space, exploring the dry cavities into which she might have fallen, and
4933 then gazing with questioning dread at the smooth red surface of the
4934 water. The cold drops stood on his brow. How long had she been out?
4935 There was one hope--that she had crept through the stile and got into
4936 the fields, where he habitually took her to stroll. But the grass was
4937 high in the meadow, and there was no descrying her, if she were there,
4938 except by a close search that would be a trespass on Mr. Osgood's crop.
4939 Still, that misdemeanour must be committed; and poor Silas, after
4940 peering all round the hedgerows, traversed the grass, beginning with
4941 perturbed vision to see Eppie behind every group of red sorrel, and to
4942 see her moving always farther off as he approached. The meadow was
4943 searched in vain; and he got over the stile into the next field,
4944 looking with dying hope towards a small pond which was now reduced to
4945 its summer shallowness, so as to leave a wide margin of good adhesive
4946 mud. Here, however, sat Eppie, discoursing cheerfully to her own small
4947 boot, which she was using as a bucket to convey the water into a deep
4948 hoof-mark, while her little naked foot was planted comfortably on a
4949 cushion of olive-green mud. A red-headed calf was observing her with
4950 alarmed doubt through the opposite hedge.
4951
4952 Here was clearly a case of aberration in a christened child which
4953 demanded severe treatment; but Silas, overcome with convulsive joy at
4954 finding his treasure again, could do nothing but snatch her up, and
4955 cover her with half-sobbing kisses. It was not until he had carried
4956 her home, and had begun to think of the necessary washing, that he
4957 recollected the need that he should punish Eppie, and "make her
4958 remember". The idea that she might run away again and come to harm,
4959 gave him unusual resolution, and for the first time he determined to
4960 try the coal-hole--a small closet near the hearth.
4961
4962 "Naughty, naughty Eppie," he suddenly began, holding her on his knee,
4963 and pointing to her muddy feet and clothes--"naughty to cut with the
4964 scissors and run away. Eppie must go into the coal-hole for being
4965 naughty. Daddy must put her in the coal-hole."
4966
4967 He half-expected that this would be shock enough, and that Eppie would
4968 begin to cry. But instead of that, she began to shake herself on his
4969 knee, as if the proposition opened a pleasing novelty. Seeing that he
4970 must proceed to extremities, he put her into the coal-hole, and held
4971 the door closed, with a trembling sense that he was using a strong
4972 measure. For a moment there was silence, but then came a little cry,
4973 "Opy, opy!" and Silas let her out again, saying, "Now Eppie 'ull never
4974 be naughty again, else she must go in the coal-hole--a black naughty
4975 place."
4976
4977 The weaving must stand still a long while this morning, for now Eppie
4978 must be washed, and have clean clothes on; but it was to be hoped that
4979 this punishment would have a lasting effect, and save time in
4980 future--though, perhaps, it would have been better if Eppie had cried
4981 more.
4982
4983 In half an hour she was clean again, and Silas having turned his back
4984 to see what he could do with the linen band, threw it down again, with
4985 the reflection that Eppie would be good without fastening for the rest
4986 of the morning. He turned round again, and was going to place her in
4987 her little chair near the loom, when she peeped out at him with black
4988 face and hands again, and said, "Eppie in de toal-hole!"
4989
4990 This total failure of the coal-hole discipline shook Silas's belief in
4991 the efficacy of punishment. "She'd take it all for fun," he observed
4992 to Dolly, "if I didn't hurt her, and that I can't do, Mrs. Winthrop.
4993 If she makes me a bit o' trouble, I can bear it. And she's got no
4994 tricks but what she'll grow out of."
4995
4996 "Well, that's partly true, Master Marner," said Dolly, sympathetically;
4997 "and if you can't bring your mind to frighten her off touching things,
4998 you must do what you can to keep 'em out of her way. That's what I do
4999 wi' the pups as the lads are allays a-rearing. They _will_ worry and
5000 gnaw--worry and gnaw they will, if it was one's Sunday cap as hung
5001 anywhere so as they could drag it. They know no difference, God help
5002 'em: it's the pushing o' the teeth as sets 'em on, that's what it is."
5003
5004 So Eppie was reared without punishment, the burden of her misdeeds
5005 being borne vicariously by father Silas. The stone hut was made a soft
5006 nest for her, lined with downy patience: and also in the world that lay
5007 beyond the stone hut she knew nothing of frowns and denials.
5008
5009 Notwithstanding the difficulty of carrying her and his yarn or linen at
5010 the same time, Silas took her with him in most of his journeys to the
5011 farmhouses, unwilling to leave her behind at Dolly Winthrop's, who was
5012 always ready to take care of her; and little curly-headed Eppie, the
5013 weaver's child, became an object of interest at several outlying
5014 homesteads, as well as in the village. Hitherto he had been treated
5015 very much as if he had been a useful gnome or brownie--a queer and
5016 unaccountable creature, who must necessarily be looked at with
5017 wondering curiosity and repulsion, and with whom one would be glad to
5018 make all greetings and bargains as brief as possible, but who must be
5019 dealt with in a propitiatory way, and occasionally have a present of
5020 pork or garden stuff to carry home with him, seeing that without him
5021 there was no getting the yarn woven. But now Silas met with open
5022 smiling faces and cheerful questioning, as a person whose satisfactions
5023 and difficulties could be understood. Everywhere he must sit a little
5024 and talk about the child, and words of interest were always ready for
5025 him: "Ah, Master Marner, you'll be lucky if she takes the measles soon
5026 and easy!"--or, "Why, there isn't many lone men 'ud ha' been wishing to
5027 take up with a little un like that: but I reckon the weaving makes you
5028 handier than men as do out-door work--you're partly as handy as a
5029 woman, for weaving comes next to spinning." Elderly masters and
5030 mistresses, seated observantly in large kitchen arm-chairs, shook their
5031 heads over the difficulties attendant on rearing children, felt Eppie's
5032 round arms and legs, and pronounced them remarkably firm, and told
5033 Silas that, if she turned out well (which, however, there was no
5034 telling), it would be a fine thing for him to have a steady lass to do
5035 for him when he got helpless. Servant maidens were fond of carrying
5036 her out to look at the hens and chickens, or to see if any cherries
5037 could be shaken down in the orchard; and the small boys and girls
5038 approached her slowly, with cautious movement and steady gaze, like
5039 little dogs face to face with one of their own kind, till attraction
5040 had reached the point at which the soft lips were put out for a kiss.
5041 No child was afraid of approaching Silas when Eppie was near him: there
5042 was no repulsion around him now, either for young or old; for the
5043 little child had come to link him once more with the whole world.
5044 There was love between him and the child that blent them into one, and
5045 there was love between the child and the world--from men and women with
5046 parental looks and tones, to the red lady-birds and the round pebbles.
5047
5048 Silas began now to think of Raveloe life entirely in relation to Eppie:
5049 she must have everything that was a good in Raveloe; and he listened
5050 docilely, that he might come to understand better what this life was,
5051 from which, for fifteen years, he had stood aloof as from a strange
5052 thing, with which he could have no communion: as some man who has a
5053 precious plant to which he would give a nurturing home in a new soil,
5054 thinks of the rain, and the sunshine, and all influences, in relation
5055 to his nursling, and asks industriously for all knowledge that will
5056 help him to satisfy the wants of the searching roots, or to guard leaf
5057 and bud from invading harm. The disposition to hoard had been utterly
5058 crushed at the very first by the loss of his long-stored gold: the
5059 coins he earned afterwards seemed as irrelevant as stones brought to
5060 complete a house suddenly buried by an earthquake; the sense of
5061 bereavement was too heavy upon him for the old thrill of satisfaction
5062 to arise again at the touch of the newly-earned coin. And now
5063 something had come to replace his hoard which gave a growing purpose to
5064 the earnings, drawing his hope and joy continually onward beyond the
5065 money.
5066
5067 In old days there were angels who came and took men by the hand and led
5068 them away from the city of destruction. We see no white-winged angels
5069 now. But yet men are led away from threatening destruction: a hand is
5070 put into theirs, which leads them forth gently towards a calm and
5071 bright land, so that they look no more backward; and the hand may be a
5072 little child's.
5073
5074
5075
5076 CHAPTER XV
5077
5078 There was one person, as you will believe, who watched with keener
5079 though more hidden interest than any other, the prosperous growth of
5080 Eppie under the weaver's care. He dared not do anything that would
5081 imply a stronger interest in a poor man's adopted child than could be
5082 expected from the kindliness of the young Squire, when a chance meeting
5083 suggested a little present to a simple old fellow whom others noticed
5084 with goodwill; but he told himself that the time would come when he
5085 might do something towards furthering the welfare of his daughter
5086 without incurring suspicion. Was he very uneasy in the meantime at his
5087 inability to give his daughter her birthright? I cannot say that he
5088 was. The child was being taken care of, and would very likely be
5089 happy, as people in humble stations often were--happier, perhaps, than
5090 those brought up in luxury.
5091
5092 That famous ring that pricked its owner when he forgot duty and
5093 followed desire--I wonder if it pricked very hard when he set out on
5094 the chase, or whether it pricked but lightly then, and only pierced to
5095 the quick when the chase had long been ended, and hope, folding her
5096 wings, looked backward and became regret?
5097
5098 Godfrey Cass's cheek and eye were brighter than ever now. He was so
5099 undivided in his aims, that he seemed like a man of firmness. No
5100 Dunsey had come back: people had made up their minds that he was gone
5101 for a soldier, or gone "out of the country", and no one cared to be
5102 specific in their inquiries on a subject delicate to a respectable
5103 family. Godfrey had ceased to see the shadow of Dunsey across his
5104 path; and the path now lay straight forward to the accomplishment of
5105 his best, longest-cherished wishes. Everybody said Mr. Godfrey had
5106 taken the right turn; and it was pretty clear what would be the end of
5107 things, for there were not many days in the week that he was not seen
5108 riding to the Warrens. Godfrey himself, when he was asked jocosely if
5109 the day had been fixed, smiled with the pleasant consciousness of a
5110 lover who could say "yes", if he liked. He felt a reformed man,
5111 delivered from temptation; and the vision of his future life seemed to
5112 him as a promised land for which he had no cause to fight. He saw
5113 himself with all his happiness centred on his own hearth, while Nancy
5114 would smile on him as he played with the children.
5115
5116 And that other child--not on the hearth--he would not forget it; he
5117 would see that it was well provided for. That was a father's duty.
5118
5119
5120
5121
5122 PART TWO
5123
5124
5125
5126 CHAPTER XVI
5127
5128 It was a bright autumn Sunday, sixteen years after Silas Marner had
5129 found his new treasure on the hearth. The bells of the old Raveloe
5130 church were ringing the cheerful peal which told that the morning
5131 service was ended; and out of the arched doorway in the tower came
5132 slowly, retarded by friendly greetings and questions, the richer
5133 parishioners who had chosen this bright Sunday morning as eligible for
5134 church-going. It was the rural fashion of that time for the more
5135 important members of the congregation to depart first, while their
5136 humbler neighbours waited and looked on, stroking their bent heads or
5137 dropping their curtsies to any large ratepayer who turned to notice
5138 them.
5139
5140 Foremost among these advancing groups of well-clad people, there are
5141 some whom we shall recognize, in spite of Time, who has laid his hand
5142 on them all. The tall blond man of forty is not much changed in
5143 feature from the Godfrey Cass of six-and-twenty: he is only fuller in
5144 flesh, and has only lost the indefinable look of youth--a loss which is
5145 marked even when the eye is undulled and the wrinkles are not yet come.
5146 Perhaps the pretty woman, not much younger than he, who is leaning on
5147 his arm, is more changed than her husband: the lovely bloom that used
5148 to be always on her cheek now comes but fitfully, with the fresh
5149 morning air or with some strong surprise; yet to all who love human
5150 faces best for what they tell of human experience, Nancy's beauty has a
5151 heightened interest. Often the soul is ripened into fuller goodness
5152 while age has spread an ugly film, so that mere glances can never
5153 divine the preciousness of the fruit. But the years have not been so
5154 cruel to Nancy. The firm yet placid mouth, the clear veracious glance
5155 of the brown eyes, speak now of a nature that has been tested and has
5156 kept its highest qualities; and even the costume, with its dainty
5157 neatness and purity, has more significance now the coquetries of youth
5158 can have nothing to do with it.
5159
5160 Mr. and Mrs. Godfrey Cass (any higher title has died away from Raveloe
5161 lips since the old Squire was gathered to his fathers and his
5162 inheritance was divided) have turned round to look for the tall aged
5163 man and the plainly dressed woman who are a little behind--Nancy having
5164 observed that they must wait for "father and Priscilla"--and now they
5165 all turn into a narrower path leading across the churchyard to a small
5166 gate opposite the Red House. We will not follow them now; for may
5167 there not be some others in this departing congregation whom we should
5168 like to see again--some of those who are not likely to be handsomely
5169 clad, and whom we may not recognize so easily as the master and
5170 mistress of the Red House?
5171
5172 But it is impossible to mistake Silas Marner. His large brown eyes
5173 seem to have gathered a longer vision, as is the way with eyes that
5174 have been short-sighted in early life, and they have a less vague, a
5175 more answering gaze; but in everything else one sees signs of a frame
5176 much enfeebled by the lapse of the sixteen years. The weaver's bent
5177 shoulders and white hair give him almost the look of advanced age,
5178 though he is not more than five-and-fifty; but there is the freshest
5179 blossom of youth close by his side--a blonde dimpled girl of eighteen,
5180 who has vainly tried to chastise her curly auburn hair into smoothness
5181 under her brown bonnet: the hair ripples as obstinately as a brooklet
5182 under the March breeze, and the little ringlets burst away from the
5183 restraining comb behind and show themselves below the bonnet-crown.
5184 Eppie cannot help being rather vexed about her hair, for there is no
5185 other girl in Raveloe who has hair at all like it, and she thinks hair
5186 ought to be smooth. She does not like to be blameworthy even in small
5187 things: you see how neatly her prayer-book is folded in her spotted
5188 handkerchief.
5189
5190 That good-looking young fellow, in a new fustian suit, who walks behind
5191 her, is not quite sure upon the question of hair in the abstract, when
5192 Eppie puts it to him, and thinks that perhaps straight hair is the best
5193 in general, but he doesn't want Eppie's hair to be different. She
5194 surely divines that there is some one behind her who is thinking about
5195 her very particularly, and mustering courage to come to her side as
5196 soon as they are out in the lane, else why should she look rather shy,
5197 and take care not to turn away her head from her father Silas, to whom
5198 she keeps murmuring little sentences as to who was at church and who
5199 was not at church, and how pretty the red mountain-ash is over the
5200 Rectory wall?
5201
5202 "I wish _we_ had a little garden, father, with double daisies in, like
5203 Mrs. Winthrop's," said Eppie, when they were out in the lane; "only
5204 they say it 'ud take a deal of digging and bringing fresh soil--and you
5205 couldn't do that, could you, father? Anyhow, I shouldn't like you to
5206 do it, for it 'ud be too hard work for you."
5207
5208 "Yes, I could do it, child, if you want a bit o' garden: these long
5209 evenings, I could work at taking in a little bit o' the waste, just
5210 enough for a root or two o' flowers for you; and again, i' the morning,
5211 I could have a turn wi' the spade before I sat down to the loom. Why
5212 didn't you tell me before as you wanted a bit o' garden?"
5213
5214 "_I_ can dig it for you, Master Marner," said the young man in fustian,
5215 who was now by Eppie's side, entering into the conversation without the
5216 trouble of formalities. "It'll be play to me after I've done my day's
5217 work, or any odd bits o' time when the work's slack. And I'll bring
5218 you some soil from Mr. Cass's garden--he'll let me, and willing."
5219
5220 "Eh, Aaron, my lad, are you there?" said Silas; "I wasn't aware of
5221 you; for when Eppie's talking o' things, I see nothing but what she's
5222 a-saying. Well, if you could help me with the digging, we might get
5223 her a bit o' garden all the sooner."
5224
5225 "Then, if you think well and good," said Aaron, "I'll come to the
5226 Stone-pits this afternoon, and we'll settle what land's to be taken in,
5227 and I'll get up an hour earlier i' the morning, and begin on it."
5228
5229 "But not if you don't promise me not to work at the hard digging,
5230 father," said Eppie. "For I shouldn't ha' said anything about it," she
5231 added, half-bashfully, half-roguishly, "only Mrs. Winthrop said as
5232 Aaron 'ud be so good, and--"
5233
5234 "And you might ha' known it without mother telling you," said Aaron.
5235 "And Master Marner knows too, I hope, as I'm able and willing to do a
5236 turn o' work for him, and he won't do me the unkindness to anyways take
5237 it out o' my hands."
5238
5239 "There, now, father, you won't work in it till it's all easy," said
5240 Eppie, "and you and me can mark out the beds, and make holes and plant
5241 the roots. It'll be a deal livelier at the Stone-pits when we've got
5242 some flowers, for I always think the flowers can see us and know what
5243 we're talking about. And I'll have a bit o' rosemary, and bergamot,
5244 and thyme, because they're so sweet-smelling; but there's no lavender
5245 only in the gentlefolks' gardens, I think."
5246
5247 "That's no reason why you shouldn't have some," said Aaron, "for I can
5248 bring you slips of anything; I'm forced to cut no end of 'em when I'm
5249 gardening, and throw 'em away mostly. There's a big bed o' lavender at
5250 the Red House: the missis is very fond of it."
5251
5252 "Well," said Silas, gravely, "so as you don't make free for us, or ask
5253 for anything as is worth much at the Red House: for Mr. Cass's been so
5254 good to us, and built us up the new end o' the cottage, and given us
5255 beds and things, as I couldn't abide to be imposin' for garden-stuff or
5256 anything else."
5257
5258 "No, no, there's no imposin'," said Aaron; "there's never a garden in
5259 all the parish but what there's endless waste in it for want o'
5260 somebody as could use everything up. It's what I think to myself
5261 sometimes, as there need nobody run short o' victuals if the land was
5262 made the most on, and there was never a morsel but what could find its
5263 way to a mouth. It sets one thinking o' that--gardening does. But I
5264 must go back now, else mother 'ull be in trouble as I aren't there."
5265
5266 "Bring her with you this afternoon, Aaron," said Eppie; "I shouldn't
5267 like to fix about the garden, and her not know everything from the
5268 first--should _you_, father?"
5269
5270 "Aye, bring her if you can, Aaron," said Silas; "she's sure to have a
5271 word to say as'll help us to set things on their right end."
5272
5273 Aaron turned back up the village, while Silas and Eppie went on up the
5274 lonely sheltered lane.
5275
5276 "O daddy!" she began, when they were in privacy, clasping and
5277 squeezing Silas's arm, and skipping round to give him an energetic
5278 kiss. "My little old daddy! I'm so glad. I don't think I shall want
5279 anything else when we've got a little garden; and I knew Aaron would
5280 dig it for us," she went on with roguish triumph--"I knew that very
5281 well."
5282
5283 "You're a deep little puss, you are," said Silas, with the mild passive
5284 happiness of love-crowned age in his face; "but you'll make yourself
5285 fine and beholden to Aaron."
5286
5287 "Oh, no, I shan't," said Eppie, laughing and frisking; "he likes it."
5288
5289 "Come, come, let me carry your prayer-book, else you'll be dropping it,
5290 jumping i' that way."
5291
5292 Eppie was now aware that her behaviour was under observation, but it
5293 was only the observation of a friendly donkey, browsing with a log
5294 fastened to his foot--a meek donkey, not scornfully critical of human
5295 trivialities, but thankful to share in them, if possible, by getting
5296 his nose scratched; and Eppie did not fail to gratify him with her
5297 usual notice, though it was attended with the inconvenience of his
5298 following them, painfully, up to the very door of their home.
5299
5300 But the sound of a sharp bark inside, as Eppie put the key in the door,
5301 modified the donkey's views, and he limped away again without bidding.
5302 The sharp bark was the sign of an excited welcome that was awaiting
5303 them from a knowing brown terrier, who, after dancing at their legs in
5304 a hysterical manner, rushed with a worrying noise at a tortoise-shell
5305 kitten under the loom, and then rushed back with a sharp bark again, as
5306 much as to say, "I have done my duty by this feeble creature, you
5307 perceive"; while the lady-mother of the kitten sat sunning her white
5308 bosom in the window, and looked round with a sleepy air of expecting
5309 caresses, though she was not going to take any trouble for them.
5310
5311 The presence of this happy animal life was not the only change which
5312 had come over the interior of the stone cottage. There was no bed now
5313 in the living-room, and the small space was well filled with decent
5314 furniture, all bright and clean enough to satisfy Dolly Winthrop's eye.
5315 The oaken table and three-cornered oaken chair were hardly what was
5316 likely to be seen in so poor a cottage: they had come, with the beds
5317 and other things, from the Red House; for Mr. Godfrey Cass, as every
5318 one said in the village, did very kindly by the weaver; and it was
5319 nothing but right a man should be looked on and helped by those who
5320 could afford it, when he had brought up an orphan child, and been
5321 father and mother to her--and had lost his money too, so as he had
5322 nothing but what he worked for week by week, and when the weaving was
5323 going down too--for there was less and less flax spun--and Master
5324 Marner was none so young. Nobody was jealous of the weaver, for he was
5325 regarded as an exceptional person, whose claims on neighbourly help
5326 were not to be matched in Raveloe. Any superstition that remained
5327 concerning him had taken an entirely new colour; and Mr. Macey, now a
5328 very feeble old man of fourscore and six, never seen except in his
5329 chimney-corner or sitting in the sunshine at his door-sill, was of
5330 opinion that when a man had done what Silas had done by an orphan
5331 child, it was a sign that his money would come to light again, or
5332 leastwise that the robber would be made to answer for it--for, as Mr.
5333 Macey observed of himself, his faculties were as strong as ever.
5334
5335 Silas sat down now and watched Eppie with a satisfied gaze as she
5336 spread the clean cloth, and set on it the potato-pie, warmed up slowly
5337 in a safe Sunday fashion, by being put into a dry pot over a
5338 slowly-dying fire, as the best substitute for an oven. For Silas would
5339 not consent to have a grate and oven added to his conveniences: he
5340 loved the old brick hearth as he had loved his brown pot--and was it
5341 not there when he had found Eppie? The gods of the hearth exist for us
5342 still; and let all new faith be tolerant of that fetishism, lest it
5343 bruise its own roots.
5344
5345 Silas ate his dinner more silently than usual, soon laying down his
5346 knife and fork, and watching half-abstractedly Eppie's play with Snap
5347 and the cat, by which her own dining was made rather a lengthy
5348 business. Yet it was a sight that might well arrest wandering
5349 thoughts: Eppie, with the rippling radiance of her hair and the
5350 whiteness of her rounded chin and throat set off by the dark-blue
5351 cotton gown, laughing merrily as the kitten held on with her four claws
5352 to one shoulder, like a design for a jug-handle, while Snap on the
5353 right hand and Puss on the other put up their paws towards a morsel
5354 which she held out of the reach of both--Snap occasionally desisting in
5355 order to remonstrate with the cat by a cogent worrying growl on the
5356 greediness and futility of her conduct; till Eppie relented, caressed
5357 them both, and divided the morsel between them.
5358
5359 But at last Eppie, glancing at the clock, checked the play, and said,
5360 "O daddy, you're wanting to go into the sunshine to smoke your pipe.
5361 But I must clear away first, so as the house may be tidy when godmother
5362 comes. I'll make haste--I won't be long."
5363
5364 Silas had taken to smoking a pipe daily during the last two years,
5365 having been strongly urged to it by the sages of Raveloe, as a practice
5366 "good for the fits"; and this advice was sanctioned by Dr. Kimble, on
5367 the ground that it was as well to try what could do no harm--a
5368 principle which was made to answer for a great deal of work in that
5369 gentleman's medical practice. Silas did not highly enjoy smoking, and
5370 often wondered how his neighbours could be so fond of it; but a humble
5371 sort of acquiescence in what was held to be good, had become a strong
5372 habit of that new self which had been developed in him since he had
5373 found Eppie on his hearth: it had been the only clew his bewildered
5374 mind could hold by in cherishing this young life that had been sent to
5375 him out of the darkness into which his gold had departed. By seeking
5376 what was needful for Eppie, by sharing the effect that everything
5377 produced on her, he had himself come to appropriate the forms of custom
5378 and belief which were the mould of Raveloe life; and as, with
5379 reawakening sensibilities, memory also reawakened, he had begun to
5380 ponder over the elements of his old faith, and blend them with his new
5381 impressions, till he recovered a consciousness of unity between his
5382 past and present. The sense of presiding goodness and the human trust
5383 which come with all pure peace and joy, had given him a dim impression
5384 that there had been some error, some mistake, which had thrown that
5385 dark shadow over the days of his best years; and as it grew more and
5386 more easy to him to open his mind to Dolly Winthrop, he gradually
5387 communicated to her all he could describe of his early life. The
5388 communication was necessarily a slow and difficult process, for Silas's
5389 meagre power of explanation was not aided by any readiness of
5390 interpretation in Dolly, whose narrow outward experience gave her no
5391 key to strange customs, and made every novelty a source of wonder that
5392 arrested them at every step of the narrative. It was only by
5393 fragments, and at intervals which left Dolly time to revolve what she
5394 had heard till it acquired some familiarity for her, that Silas at last
5395 arrived at the climax of the sad story--the drawing of lots, and its
5396 false testimony concerning him; and this had to be repeated in several
5397 interviews, under new questions on her part as to the nature of this
5398 plan for detecting the guilty and clearing the innocent.
5399
5400 "And yourn's the same Bible, you're sure o' that, Master Marner--the
5401 Bible as you brought wi' you from that country--it's the same as what
5402 they've got at church, and what Eppie's a-learning to read in?"
5403
5404 "Yes," said Silas, "every bit the same; and there's drawing o' lots in
5405 the Bible, mind you," he added in a lower tone.
5406
5407 "Oh, dear, dear," said Dolly in a grieved voice, as if she were hearing
5408 an unfavourable report of a sick man's case. She was silent for some
5409 minutes; at last she said--
5410
5411 "There's wise folks, happen, as know how it all is; the parson knows,
5412 I'll be bound; but it takes big words to tell them things, and such as
5413 poor folks can't make much out on. I can never rightly know the
5414 meaning o' what I hear at church, only a bit here and there, but I know
5415 it's good words--I do. But what lies upo' your mind--it's this, Master
5416 Marner: as, if Them above had done the right thing by you, They'd never
5417 ha' let you be turned out for a wicked thief when you was innicent."
5418
5419 "Ah!" said Silas, who had now come to understand Dolly's phraseology,
5420 "that was what fell on me like as if it had been red-hot iron; because,
5421 you see, there was nobody as cared for me or clave to me above nor
5422 below. And him as I'd gone out and in wi' for ten year and more, since
5423 when we was lads and went halves--mine own familiar friend in whom I
5424 trusted, had lifted up his heel again' me, and worked to ruin me."
5425
5426 "Eh, but he was a bad un--I can't think as there's another such," said
5427 Dolly. "But I'm o'ercome, Master Marner; I'm like as if I'd waked and
5428 didn't know whether it was night or morning. I feel somehow as sure as
5429 I do when I've laid something up though I can't justly put my hand on
5430 it, as there was a rights in what happened to you, if one could but
5431 make it out; and you'd no call to lose heart as you did. But we'll
5432 talk on it again; for sometimes things come into my head when I'm
5433 leeching or poulticing, or such, as I could never think on when I was
5434 sitting still."
5435
5436 Dolly was too useful a woman not to have many opportunities of
5437 illumination of the kind she alluded to, and she was not long before
5438 she recurred to the subject.
5439
5440 "Master Marner," she said, one day that she came to bring home Eppie's
5441 washing, "I've been sore puzzled for a good bit wi' that trouble o'
5442 yourn and the drawing o' lots; and it got twisted back'ards and
5443 for'ards, as I didn't know which end to lay hold on. But it come to me
5444 all clear like, that night when I was sitting up wi' poor Bessy Fawkes,
5445 as is dead and left her children behind, God help 'em--it come to me as
5446 clear as daylight; but whether I've got hold on it now, or can anyways
5447 bring it to my tongue's end, that I don't know. For I've often a deal
5448 inside me as'll never come out; and for what you talk o' your folks in
5449 your old country niver saying prayers by heart nor saying 'em out of a
5450 book, they must be wonderful cliver; for if I didn't know "Our Father",
5451 and little bits o' good words as I can carry out o' church wi' me, I
5452 might down o' my knees every night, but nothing could I say."
5453
5454 "But you can mostly say something as I can make sense on, Mrs.
5455 Winthrop," said Silas.
5456
5457 "Well, then, Master Marner, it come to me summat like this: I can make
5458 nothing o' the drawing o' lots and the answer coming wrong; it 'ud
5459 mayhap take the parson to tell that, and he could only tell us i' big
5460 words. But what come to me as clear as the daylight, it was when I was
5461 troubling over poor Bessy Fawkes, and it allays comes into my head when
5462 I'm sorry for folks, and feel as I can't do a power to help 'em, not if
5463 I was to get up i' the middle o' the night--it comes into my head as
5464 Them above has got a deal tenderer heart nor what I've got--for I can't
5465 be anyways better nor Them as made me; and if anything looks hard to
5466 me, it's because there's things I don't know on; and for the matter o'
5467 that, there may be plenty o' things I don't know on, for it's little as
5468 I know--that it is. And so, while I was thinking o' that, you come into
5469 my mind, Master Marner, and it all come pouring in:--if _I_ felt i' my
5470 inside what was the right and just thing by you, and them as prayed and
5471 drawed the lots, all but that wicked un, if _they_'d ha' done the right
5472 thing by you if they could, isn't there Them as was at the making on
5473 us, and knows better and has a better will? And that's all as ever I
5474 can be sure on, and everything else is a big puzzle to me when I think
5475 on it. For there was the fever come and took off them as were
5476 full-growed, and left the helpless children; and there's the breaking
5477 o' limbs; and them as 'ud do right and be sober have to suffer by them
5478 as are contrairy--eh, there's trouble i' this world, and there's things
5479 as we can niver make out the rights on. And all as we've got to do is
5480 to trusten, Master Marner--to do the right thing as fur as we know, and
5481 to trusten. For if us as knows so little can see a bit o' good and
5482 rights, we may be sure as there's a good and a rights bigger nor what
5483 we can know--I feel it i' my own inside as it must be so. And if you
5484 could but ha' gone on trustening, Master Marner, you wouldn't ha' run
5485 away from your fellow-creaturs and been so lone."
5486
5487 "Ah, but that 'ud ha' been hard," said Silas, in an under-tone; "it 'ud
5488 ha' been hard to trusten then."
5489
5490 "And so it would," said Dolly, almost with compunction; "them things
5491 are easier said nor done; and I'm partly ashamed o' talking."
5492
5493 "Nay, nay," said Silas, "you're i' the right, Mrs. Winthrop--you're i'
5494 the right. There's good i' this world--I've a feeling o' that now; and
5495 it makes a man feel as there's a good more nor he can see, i' spite o'
5496 the trouble and the wickedness. That drawing o' the lots is dark; but
5497 the child was sent to me: there's dealings with us--there's dealings."
5498
5499 This dialogue took place in Eppie's earlier years, when Silas had to
5500 part with her for two hours every day, that she might learn to read at
5501 the dame school, after he had vainly tried himself to guide her in that
5502 first step to learning. Now that she was grown up, Silas had often
5503 been led, in those moments of quiet outpouring which come to people who
5504 live together in perfect love, to talk with _her_ too of the past, and
5505 how and why he had lived a lonely man until she had been sent to him.
5506 For it would have been impossible for him to hide from Eppie that she
5507 was not his own child: even if the most delicate reticence on the point
5508 could have been expected from Raveloe gossips in her presence, her own
5509 questions about her mother could not have been parried, as she grew up,
5510 without that complete shrouding of the past which would have made a
5511 painful barrier between their minds. So Eppie had long known how her
5512 mother had died on the snowy ground, and how she herself had been found
5513 on the hearth by father Silas, who had taken her golden curls for his
5514 lost guineas brought back to him. The tender and peculiar love with
5515 which Silas had reared her in almost inseparable companionship with
5516 himself, aided by the seclusion of their dwelling, had preserved her
5517 from the lowering influences of the village talk and habits, and had
5518 kept her mind in that freshness which is sometimes falsely supposed to
5519 be an invariable attribute of rusticity. Perfect love has a breath of
5520 poetry which can exalt the relations of the least-instructed human
5521 beings; and this breath of poetry had surrounded Eppie from the time
5522 when she had followed the bright gleam that beckoned her to Silas's
5523 hearth; so that it is not surprising if, in other things besides her
5524 delicate prettiness, she was not quite a common village maiden, but had
5525 a touch of refinement and fervour which came from no other teaching
5526 than that of tenderly-nurtured unvitiated feeling. She was too
5527 childish and simple for her imagination to rove into questions about
5528 her unknown father; for a long while it did not even occur to her that
5529 she must have had a father; and the first time that the idea of her
5530 mother having had a husband presented itself to her, was when Silas
5531 showed her the wedding-ring which had been taken from the wasted
5532 finger, and had been carefully preserved by him in a little lackered
5533 box shaped like a shoe. He delivered this box into Eppie's charge when
5534 she had grown up, and she often opened it to look at the ring: but
5535 still she thought hardly at all about the father of whom it was the
5536 symbol. Had she not a father very close to her, who loved her better
5537 than any real fathers in the village seemed to love their daughters?
5538 On the contrary, who her mother was, and how she came to die in that
5539 forlornness, were questions that often pressed on Eppie's mind. Her
5540 knowledge of Mrs. Winthrop, who was her nearest friend next to Silas,
5541 made her feel that a mother must be very precious; and she had again
5542 and again asked Silas to tell her how her mother looked, whom she was
5543 like, and how he had found her against the furze bush, led towards it
5544 by the little footsteps and the outstretched arms. The furze bush was
5545 there still; and this afternoon, when Eppie came out with Silas into
5546 the sunshine, it was the first object that arrested her eyes and
5547 thoughts.
5548
5549 "Father," she said, in a tone of gentle gravity, which sometimes came
5550 like a sadder, slower cadence across her playfulness, "we shall take
5551 the furze bush into the garden; it'll come into the corner, and just
5552 against it I'll put snowdrops and crocuses, 'cause Aaron says they
5553 won't die out, but'll always get more and more."
5554
5555 "Ah, child," said Silas, always ready to talk when he had his pipe in
5556 his hand, apparently enjoying the pauses more than the puffs, "it
5557 wouldn't do to leave out the furze bush; and there's nothing prettier,
5558 to my thinking, when it's yallow with flowers. But it's just come into
5559 my head what we're to do for a fence--mayhap Aaron can help us to a
5560 thought; but a fence we must have, else the donkeys and things 'ull
5561 come and trample everything down. And fencing's hard to be got at, by
5562 what I can make out."
5563
5564 "Oh, I'll tell you, daddy," said Eppie, clasping her hands suddenly,
5565 after a minute's thought. "There's lots o' loose stones about, some of
5566 'em not big, and we might lay 'em atop of one another, and make a wall.
5567 You and me could carry the smallest, and Aaron 'ud carry the rest--I
5568 know he would."
5569
5570 "Eh, my precious un," said Silas, "there isn't enough stones to go all
5571 round; and as for you carrying, why, wi' your little arms you couldn't
5572 carry a stone no bigger than a turnip. You're dillicate made, my
5573 dear," he added, with a tender intonation--"that's what Mrs. Winthrop
5574 says."
5575
5576 "Oh, I'm stronger than you think, daddy," said Eppie; "and if there
5577 wasn't stones enough to go all round, why they'll go part o' the way,
5578 and then it'll be easier to get sticks and things for the rest. See
5579 here, round the big pit, what a many stones!"
5580
5581 She skipped forward to the pit, meaning to lift one of the stones and
5582 exhibit her strength, but she started back in surprise.
5583
5584 "Oh, father, just come and look here," she exclaimed--"come and see how
5585 the water's gone down since yesterday. Why, yesterday the pit was ever
5586 so full!"
5587
5588 "Well, to be sure," said Silas, coming to her side. "Why, that's the
5589 draining they've begun on, since harvest, i' Mr. Osgood's fields, I
5590 reckon. The foreman said to me the other day, when I passed by 'em,
5591 "Master Marner," he said, "I shouldn't wonder if we lay your bit o'
5592 waste as dry as a bone." It was Mr. Godfrey Cass, he said, had gone
5593 into the draining: he'd been taking these fields o' Mr. Osgood."
5594
5595 "How odd it'll seem to have the old pit dried up!" said Eppie, turning
5596 away, and stooping to lift rather a large stone. "See, daddy, I can
5597 carry this quite well," she said, going along with much energy for a
5598 few steps, but presently letting it fall.
5599
5600 "Ah, you're fine and strong, aren't you?" said Silas, while Eppie
5601 shook her aching arms and laughed. "Come, come, let us go and sit down
5602 on the bank against the stile there, and have no more lifting. You
5603 might hurt yourself, child. You'd need have somebody to work for
5604 you--and my arm isn't over strong."
5605
5606 Silas uttered the last sentence slowly, as if it implied more than met
5607 the ear; and Eppie, when they sat down on the bank, nestled close to
5608 his side, and, taking hold caressingly of the arm that was not over
5609 strong, held it on her lap, while Silas puffed again dutifully at the
5610 pipe, which occupied his other arm. An ash in the hedgerow behind made
5611 a fretted screen from the sun, and threw happy playful shadows all
5612 about them.
5613
5614 "Father," said Eppie, very gently, after they had been sitting in
5615 silence a little while, "if I was to be married, ought I to be married
5616 with my mother's ring?"
5617
5618 Silas gave an almost imperceptible start, though the question fell in
5619 with the under-current of thought in his own mind, and then said, in a
5620 subdued tone, "Why, Eppie, have you been a-thinking on it?"
5621
5622 "Only this last week, father," said Eppie, ingenuously, "since Aaron
5623 talked to me about it."
5624
5625 "And what did he say?" said Silas, still in the same subdued way, as
5626 if he were anxious lest he should fall into the slightest tone that was
5627 not for Eppie's good.
5628
5629 "He said he should like to be married, because he was a-going in
5630 four-and-twenty, and had got a deal of gardening work, now Mr. Mott's
5631 given up; and he goes twice a-week regular to Mr. Cass's, and once to
5632 Mr. Osgood's, and they're going to take him on at the Rectory."
5633
5634 "And who is it as he's wanting to marry?" said Silas, with rather a
5635 sad smile.
5636
5637 "Why, me, to be sure, daddy," said Eppie, with dimpling laughter,
5638 kissing her father's cheek; "as if he'd want to marry anybody else!"
5639
5640 "And you mean to have him, do you?" said Silas.
5641
5642 "Yes, some time," said Eppie, "I don't know when. Everybody's married
5643 some time, Aaron says. But I told him that wasn't true: for, I said,
5644 look at father--he's never been married."
5645
5646 "No, child," said Silas, "your father was a lone man till you was sent
5647 to him."
5648
5649 "But you'll never be lone again, father," said Eppie, tenderly. "That
5650 was what Aaron said--"I could never think o' taking you away from
5651 Master Marner, Eppie." And I said, "It 'ud be no use if you did,
5652 Aaron." And he wants us all to live together, so as you needn't work a
5653 bit, father, only what's for your own pleasure; and he'd be as good as
5654 a son to you--that was what he said."
5655
5656 "And should you like that, Eppie?" said Silas, looking at her.
5657
5658 "I shouldn't mind it, father," said Eppie, quite simply. "And I should
5659 like things to be so as you needn't work much. But if it wasn't for
5660 that, I'd sooner things didn't change. I'm very happy: I like Aaron to
5661 be fond of me, and come and see us often, and behave pretty to you--he
5662 always _does_ behave pretty to you, doesn't he, father?"
5663
5664 "Yes, child, nobody could behave better," said Silas, emphatically.
5665 "He's his mother's lad."
5666
5667 "But I don't want any change," said Eppie. "I should like to go on a
5668 long, long while, just as we are. Only Aaron does want a change; and
5669 he made me cry a bit--only a bit--because he said I didn't care for
5670 him, for if I cared for him I should want us to be married, as he did."
5671
5672 "Eh, my blessed child," said Silas, laying down his pipe as if it were
5673 useless to pretend to smoke any longer, "you're o'er young to be
5674 married. We'll ask Mrs. Winthrop--we'll ask Aaron's mother what _she_
5675 thinks: if there's a right thing to do, she'll come at it. But there's
5676 this to be thought on, Eppie: things _will_ change, whether we like it
5677 or no; things won't go on for a long while just as they are and no
5678 difference. I shall get older and helplesser, and be a burden on you,
5679 belike, if I don't go away from you altogether. Not as I mean you'd
5680 think me a burden--I know you wouldn't--but it 'ud be hard upon you;
5681 and when I look for'ard to that, I like to think as you'd have somebody
5682 else besides me--somebody young and strong, as'll outlast your own
5683 life, and take care on you to the end." Silas paused, and, resting his
5684 wrists on his knees, lifted his hands up and down meditatively as he
5685 looked on the ground.
5686
5687 "Then, would you like me to be married, father?" said Eppie, with a
5688 little trembling in her voice.
5689
5690 "I'll not be the man to say no, Eppie," said Silas, emphatically; "but
5691 we'll ask your godmother. She'll wish the right thing by you and her
5692 son too."
5693
5694 "There they come, then," said Eppie. "Let us go and meet 'em. Oh, the
5695 pipe! won't you have it lit again, father?" said Eppie, lifting that
5696 medicinal appliance from the ground.
5697
5698 "Nay, child," said Silas, "I've done enough for to-day. I think,
5699 mayhap, a little of it does me more good than so much at once."
5700
5701
5702
5703 CHAPTER XVII
5704
5705 While Silas and Eppie were seated on the bank discoursing in the
5706 fleckered shade of the ash tree, Miss Priscilla Lammeter was resisting
5707 her sister's arguments, that it would be better to take tea at the Red
5708 House, and let her father have a long nap, than drive home to the
5709 Warrens so soon after dinner. The family party (of four only) were
5710 seated round the table in the dark wainscoted parlour, with the Sunday
5711 dessert before them, of fresh filberts, apples, and pears, duly
5712 ornamented with leaves by Nancy's own hand before the bells had rung
5713 for church.
5714
5715 A great change has come over the dark wainscoted parlour since we saw
5716 it in Godfrey's bachelor days, and under the wifeless reign of the old
5717 Squire. Now all is polish, on which no yesterday's dust is ever
5718 allowed to rest, from the yard's width of oaken boards round the
5719 carpet, to the old Squire's gun and whips and walking-sticks, ranged on
5720 the stag's antlers above the mantelpiece. All other signs of sporting
5721 and outdoor occupation Nancy has removed to another room; but she has
5722 brought into the Red House the habit of filial reverence, and preserves
5723 sacredly in a place of honour these relics of her husband's departed
5724 father. The tankards are on the side-table still, but the bossed
5725 silver is undimmed by handling, and there are no dregs to send forth
5726 unpleasant suggestions: the only prevailing scent is of the lavender
5727 and rose-leaves that fill the vases of Derbyshire spar. All is purity
5728 and order in this once dreary room, for, fifteen years ago, it was
5729 entered by a new presiding spirit.
5730
5731 "Now, father," said Nancy, "_is_ there any call for you to go home to
5732 tea? Mayn't you just as well stay with us?--such a beautiful evening
5733 as it's likely to be."
5734
5735 The old gentleman had been talking with Godfrey about the increasing
5736 poor-rate and the ruinous times, and had not heard the dialogue between
5737 his daughters.
5738
5739 "My dear, you must ask Priscilla," he said, in the once firm voice, now
5740 become rather broken. "She manages me and the farm too."
5741
5742 "And reason good as I should manage you, father," said Priscilla, "else
5743 you'd be giving yourself your death with rheumatism. And as for the
5744 farm, if anything turns out wrong, as it can't but do in these times,
5745 there's nothing kills a man so soon as having nobody to find fault with
5746 but himself. It's a deal the best way o' being master, to let somebody
5747 else do the ordering, and keep the blaming in your own hands. It 'ud
5748 save many a man a stroke, _I_ believe."
5749
5750 "Well, well, my dear," said her father, with a quiet laugh, "I didn't
5751 say you don't manage for everybody's good."
5752
5753 "Then manage so as you may stay tea, Priscilla," said Nancy, putting
5754 her hand on her sister's arm affectionately. "Come now; and we'll go
5755 round the garden while father has his nap."
5756
5757 "My dear child, he'll have a beautiful nap in the gig, for I shall
5758 drive. And as for staying tea, I can't hear of it; for there's this
5759 dairymaid, now she knows she's to be married, turned Michaelmas, she'd
5760 as lief pour the new milk into the pig-trough as into the pans. That's
5761 the way with 'em all: it's as if they thought the world 'ud be new-made
5762 because they're to be married. So come and let me put my bonnet on,
5763 and there'll be time for us to walk round the garden while the horse is
5764 being put in."
5765
5766 When the sisters were treading the neatly-swept garden-walks, between
5767 the bright turf that contrasted pleasantly with the dark cones and
5768 arches and wall-like hedges of yew, Priscilla said--
5769
5770 "I'm as glad as anything at your husband's making that exchange o' land
5771 with cousin Osgood, and beginning the dairying. It's a thousand pities
5772 you didn't do it before; for it'll give you something to fill your
5773 mind. There's nothing like a dairy if folks want a bit o' worrit to
5774 make the days pass. For as for rubbing furniture, when you can once
5775 see your face in a table there's nothing else to look for; but there's
5776 always something fresh with the dairy; for even in the depths o' winter
5777 there's some pleasure in conquering the butter, and making it come
5778 whether or no. My dear," added Priscilla, pressing her sister's hand
5779 affectionately as they walked side by side, "you'll never be low when
5780 you've got a dairy."
5781
5782 "Ah, Priscilla," said Nancy, returning the pressure with a grateful
5783 glance of her clear eyes, "but it won't make up to Godfrey: a dairy's
5784 not so much to a man. And it's only what he cares for that ever makes
5785 me low. I'm contented with the blessings we have, if he could be
5786 contented."
5787
5788 "It drives me past patience," said Priscilla, impetuously, "that way o'
5789 the men--always wanting and wanting, and never easy with what they've
5790 got: they can't sit comfortable in their chairs when they've neither
5791 ache nor pain, but either they must stick a pipe in their mouths, to
5792 make 'em better than well, or else they must be swallowing something
5793 strong, though they're forced to make haste before the next meal comes
5794 in. But joyful be it spoken, our father was never that sort o' man.
5795 And if it had pleased God to make you ugly, like me, so as the men
5796 wouldn't ha' run after you, we might have kept to our own family, and
5797 had nothing to do with folks as have got uneasy blood in their veins."
5798
5799 "Oh, don't say so, Priscilla," said Nancy, repenting that she had
5800 called forth this outburst; "nobody has any occasion to find fault with
5801 Godfrey. It's natural he should be disappointed at not having any
5802 children: every man likes to have somebody to work for and lay by for,
5803 and he always counted so on making a fuss with 'em when they were
5804 little. There's many another man 'ud hanker more than he does. He's
5805 the best of husbands."
5806
5807 "Oh, I know," said Priscilla, smiling sarcastically, "I know the way o'
5808 wives; they set one on to abuse their husbands, and then they turn
5809 round on one and praise 'em as if they wanted to sell 'em. But
5810 father'll be waiting for me; we must turn now."
5811
5812 The large gig with the steady old grey was at the front door, and Mr.
5813 Lammeter was already on the stone steps, passing the time in recalling
5814 to Godfrey what very fine points Speckle had when his master used to
5815 ride him.
5816
5817 "I always _would_ have a good horse, you know," said the old gentleman,
5818 not liking that spirited time to be quite effaced from the memory of
5819 his juniors.
5820
5821 "Mind you bring Nancy to the Warrens before the week's out, Mr. Cass,"
5822 was Priscilla's parting injunction, as she took the reins, and shook
5823 them gently, by way of friendly incitement to Speckle.
5824
5825 "I shall just take a turn to the fields against the Stone-pits, Nancy,
5826 and look at the draining," said Godfrey.
5827
5828 "You'll be in again by tea-time, dear?"
5829
5830 "Oh, yes, I shall be back in an hour."
5831
5832 It was Godfrey's custom on a Sunday afternoon to do a little
5833 contemplative farming in a leisurely walk. Nancy seldom accompanied
5834 him; for the women of her generation--unless, like Priscilla, they took
5835 to outdoor management--were not given to much walking beyond their own
5836 house and garden, finding sufficient exercise in domestic duties. So,
5837 when Priscilla was not with her, she usually sat with Mant's Bible
5838 before her, and after following the text with her eyes for a little
5839 while, she would gradually permit them to wander as her thoughts had
5840 already insisted on wandering.
5841
5842 But Nancy's Sunday thoughts were rarely quite out of keeping with the
5843 devout and reverential intention implied by the book spread open before
5844 her. She was not theologically instructed enough to discern very
5845 clearly the relation between the sacred documents of the past which she
5846 opened without method, and her own obscure, simple life; but the spirit
5847 of rectitude, and the sense of responsibility for the effect of her
5848 conduct on others, which were strong elements in Nancy's character, had
5849 made it a habit with her to scrutinize her past feelings and actions
5850 with self-questioning solicitude. Her mind not being courted by a
5851 great variety of subjects, she filled the vacant moments by living
5852 inwardly, again and again, through all her remembered experience,
5853 especially through the fifteen years of her married time, in which her
5854 life and its significance had been doubled. She recalled the small
5855 details, the words, tones, and looks, in the critical scenes which had
5856 opened a new epoch for her by giving her a deeper insight into the
5857 relations and trials of life, or which had called on her for some
5858 little effort of forbearance, or of painful adherence to an imagined or
5859 real duty--asking herself continually whether she had been in any
5860 respect blamable. This excessive rumination and self-questioning is
5861 perhaps a morbid habit inevitable to a mind of much moral sensibility
5862 when shut out from its due share of outward activity and of practical
5863 claims on its affections--inevitable to a noble-hearted, childless
5864 woman, when her lot is narrow. "I can do so little--have I done it all
5865 well?" is the perpetually recurring thought; and there are no voices
5866 calling her away from that soliloquy, no peremptory demands to divert
5867 energy from vain regret or superfluous scruple.
5868
5869 There was one main thread of painful experience in Nancy's married
5870 life, and on it hung certain deeply-felt scenes, which were the
5871 oftenest revived in retrospect. The short dialogue with Priscilla in
5872 the garden had determined the current of retrospect in that frequent
5873 direction this particular Sunday afternoon. The first wandering of her
5874 thought from the text, which she still attempted dutifully to follow
5875 with her eyes and silent lips, was into an imaginary enlargement of the
5876 defence she had set up for her husband against Priscilla's implied
5877 blame. The vindication of the loved object is the best balm affection
5878 can find for its wounds:--"A man must have so much on his mind," is the
5879 belief by which a wife often supports a cheerful face under rough
5880 answers and unfeeling words. And Nancy's deepest wounds had all come
5881 from the perception that the absence of children from their hearth was
5882 dwelt on in her husband's mind as a privation to which he could not
5883 reconcile himself.
5884
5885 Yet sweet Nancy might have been expected to feel still more keenly the
5886 denial of a blessing to which she had looked forward with all the
5887 varied expectations and preparations, solemn and prettily trivial,
5888 which fill the mind of a loving woman when she expects to become a
5889 mother. Was there not a drawer filled with the neat work of her hands,
5890 all unworn and untouched, just as she had arranged it there fourteen
5891 years ago--just, but for one little dress, which had been made the
5892 burial-dress? But under this immediate personal trial Nancy was so
5893 firmly unmurmuring, that years ago she had suddenly renounced the habit
5894 of visiting this drawer, lest she should in this way be cherishing a
5895 longing for what was not given.
5896
5897 Perhaps it was this very severity towards any indulgence of what she
5898 held to be sinful regret in herself, that made her shrink from applying
5899 her own standard to her husband. "It is very different--it is much
5900 worse for a man to be disappointed in that way: a woman can always be
5901 satisfied with devoting herself to her husband, but a man wants
5902 something that will make him look forward more--and sitting by the fire
5903 is so much duller to him than to a woman." And always, when Nancy
5904 reached this point in her meditations--trying, with predetermined
5905 sympathy, to see everything as Godfrey saw it--there came a renewal of
5906 self-questioning. _Had_ she done everything in her power to lighten
5907 Godfrey's privation? Had she really been right in the resistance which
5908 had cost her so much pain six years ago, and again four years ago--the
5909 resistance to her husband's wish that they should adopt a child?
5910 Adoption was more remote from the ideas and habits of that time than of
5911 our own; still Nancy had her opinion on it. It was as necessary to her
5912 mind to have an opinion on all topics, not exclusively masculine, that
5913 had come under her notice, as for her to have a precisely marked place
5914 for every article of her personal property: and her opinions were
5915 always principles to be unwaveringly acted on. They were firm, not
5916 because of their basis, but because she held them with a tenacity
5917 inseparable from her mental action. On all the duties and proprieties
5918 of life, from filial behaviour to the arrangements of the evening
5919 toilette, pretty Nancy Lammeter, by the time she was three-and-twenty,
5920 had her unalterable little code, and had formed every one of her habits
5921 in strict accordance with that code. She carried these decided
5922 judgments within her in the most unobtrusive way: they rooted
5923 themselves in her mind, and grew there as quietly as grass. Years ago,
5924 we know, she insisted on dressing like Priscilla, because "it was right
5925 for sisters to dress alike", and because "she would do what was right
5926 if she wore a gown dyed with cheese-colouring". That was a trivial but
5927 typical instance of the mode in which Nancy's life was regulated.
5928
5929 It was one of those rigid principles, and no petty egoistic feeling,
5930 which had been the ground of Nancy's difficult resistance to her
5931 husband's wish. To adopt a child, because children of your own had
5932 been denied you, was to try and choose your lot in spite of Providence:
5933 the adopted child, she was convinced, would never turn out well, and
5934 would be a curse to those who had wilfully and rebelliously sought what
5935 it was clear that, for some high reason, they were better without.
5936 When you saw a thing was not meant to be, said Nancy, it was a bounden
5937 duty to leave off so much as wishing for it. And so far, perhaps, the
5938 wisest of men could scarcely make more than a verbal improvement in her
5939 principle. But the conditions under which she held it apparent that a
5940 thing was not meant to be, depended on a more peculiar mode of
5941 thinking. She would have given up making a purchase at a particular
5942 place if, on three successive times, rain, or some other cause of
5943 Heaven's sending, had formed an obstacle; and she would have
5944 anticipated a broken limb or other heavy misfortune to any one who
5945 persisted in spite of such indications.
5946
5947 "But why should you think the child would turn out ill?" said Godfrey,
5948 in his remonstrances. "She has thriven as well as child can do with
5949 the weaver; and _he_ adopted her. There isn't such a pretty little
5950 girl anywhere else in the parish, or one fitter for the station we
5951 could give her. Where can be the likelihood of her being a curse to
5952 anybody?"
5953
5954 "Yes, my dear Godfrey," said Nancy, who was sitting with her hands
5955 tightly clasped together, and with yearning, regretful affection in her
5956 eyes. "The child may not turn out ill with the weaver. But, then, he
5957 didn't go to seek her, as we should be doing. It will be wrong: I feel
5958 sure it will. Don't you remember what that lady we met at the Royston
5959 Baths told us about the child her sister adopted? That was the only
5960 adopting I ever heard of: and the child was transported when it was
5961 twenty-three. Dear Godfrey, don't ask me to do what I know is wrong: I
5962 should never be happy again. I know it's very hard for _you_--it's
5963 easier for me--but it's the will of Providence."
5964
5965 It might seem singular that Nancy--with her religious theory pieced
5966 together out of narrow social traditions, fragments of church doctrine
5967 imperfectly understood, and girlish reasonings on her small
5968 experience--should have arrived by herself at a way of thinking so
5969 nearly akin to that of many devout people, whose beliefs are held in
5970 the shape of a system quite remote from her knowledge--singular, if we
5971 did not know that human beliefs, like all other natural growths, elude
5972 the barriers of system.
5973
5974 Godfrey had from the first specified Eppie, then about twelve years
5975 old, as a child suitable for them to adopt. It had never occurred to
5976 him that Silas would rather part with his life than with Eppie. Surely
5977 the weaver would wish the best to the child he had taken so much
5978 trouble with, and would be glad that such good fortune should happen to
5979 her: she would always be very grateful to him, and he would be well
5980 provided for to the end of his life--provided for as the excellent part
5981 he had done by the child deserved. Was it not an appropriate thing for
5982 people in a higher station to take a charge off the hands of a man in a
5983 lower? It seemed an eminently appropriate thing to Godfrey, for
5984 reasons that were known only to himself; and by a common fallacy, he
5985 imagined the measure would be easy because he had private motives for
5986 desiring it. This was rather a coarse mode of estimating Silas's
5987 relation to Eppie; but we must remember that many of the impressions
5988 which Godfrey was likely to gather concerning the labouring people
5989 around him would favour the idea that deep affections can hardly go
5990 along with callous palms and scant means; and he had not had the
5991 opportunity, even if he had had the power, of entering intimately into
5992 all that was exceptional in the weaver's experience. It was only the
5993 want of adequate knowledge that could have made it possible for Godfrey
5994 deliberately to entertain an unfeeling project: his natural kindness
5995 had outlived that blighting time of cruel wishes, and Nancy's praise of
5996 him as a husband was not founded entirely on a wilful illusion.
5997
5998 "I was right," she said to herself, when she had recalled all their
5999 scenes of discussion--"I feel I was right to say him nay, though it
6000 hurt me more than anything; but how good Godfrey has been about it!
6001 Many men would have been very angry with me for standing out against
6002 their wishes; and they might have thrown out that they'd had ill-luck
6003 in marrying me; but Godfrey has never been the man to say me an unkind
6004 word. It's only what he can't hide: everything seems so blank to him,
6005 I know; and the land--what a difference it 'ud make to him, when he
6006 goes to see after things, if he'd children growing up that he was doing
6007 it all for! But I won't murmur; and perhaps if he'd married a woman
6008 who'd have had children, she'd have vexed him in other ways."
6009
6010 This possibility was Nancy's chief comfort; and to give it greater
6011 strength, she laboured to make it impossible that any other wife should
6012 have had more perfect tenderness. She had been _forced_ to vex him by
6013 that one denial. Godfrey was not insensible to her loving effort, and
6014 did Nancy no injustice as to the motives of her obstinacy. It was
6015 impossible to have lived with her fifteen years and not be aware that
6016 an unselfish clinging to the right, and a sincerity clear as the
6017 flower-born dew, were her main characteristics; indeed, Godfrey felt
6018 this so strongly, that his own more wavering nature, too averse to
6019 facing difficulty to be unvaryingly simple and truthful, was kept in a
6020 certain awe of this gentle wife who watched his looks with a yearning
6021 to obey them. It seemed to him impossible that he should ever confess
6022 to her the truth about Eppie: she would never recover from the
6023 repulsion the story of his earlier marriage would create, told to her
6024 now, after that long concealment. And the child, too, he thought, must
6025 become an object of repulsion: the very sight of her would be painful.
6026 The shock to Nancy's mingled pride and ignorance of the world's evil
6027 might even be too much for her delicate frame. Since he had married
6028 her with that secret on his heart, he must keep it there to the last.
6029 Whatever else he did, he could not make an irreparable breach between
6030 himself and this long-loved wife.
6031
6032 Meanwhile, why could he not make up his mind to the absence of children
6033 from a hearth brightened by such a wife? Why did his mind fly uneasily
6034 to that void, as if it were the sole reason why life was not thoroughly
6035 joyous to him? I suppose it is the way with all men and women who
6036 reach middle age without the clear perception that life never _can_ be
6037 thoroughly joyous: under the vague dullness of the grey hours,
6038 dissatisfaction seeks a definite object, and finds it in the privation
6039 of an untried good. Dissatisfaction seated musingly on a childless
6040 hearth, thinks with envy of the father whose return is greeted by young
6041 voices--seated at the meal where the little heads rise one above
6042 another like nursery plants, it sees a black care hovering behind every
6043 one of them, and thinks the impulses by which men abandon freedom, and
6044 seek for ties, are surely nothing but a brief madness. In Godfrey's
6045 case there were further reasons why his thoughts should be continually
6046 solicited by this one point in his lot: his conscience, never
6047 thoroughly easy about Eppie, now gave his childless home the aspect of
6048 a retribution; and as the time passed on, under Nancy's refusal to
6049 adopt her, any retrieval of his error became more and more difficult.
6050
6051 On this Sunday afternoon it was already four years since there had been
6052 any allusion to the subject between them, and Nancy supposed that it
6053 was for ever buried.
6054
6055 "I wonder if he'll mind it less or more as he gets older," she thought;
6056 "I'm afraid more. Aged people feel the miss of children: what would
6057 father do without Priscilla? And if I die, Godfrey will be very
6058 lonely--not holding together with his brothers much. But I won't be
6059 over-anxious, and trying to make things out beforehand: I must do my
6060 best for the present."
6061
6062 With that last thought Nancy roused herself from her reverie, and
6063 turned her eyes again towards the forsaken page. It had been forsaken
6064 longer than she imagined, for she was presently surprised by the
6065 appearance of the servant with the tea-things. It was, in fact, a
6066 little before the usual time for tea; but Jane had her reasons.
6067
6068 "Is your master come into the yard, Jane?"
6069
6070 "No 'm, he isn't," said Jane, with a slight emphasis, of which,
6071 however, her mistress took no notice.
6072
6073 "I don't know whether you've seen 'em, 'm," continued Jane, after a
6074 pause, "but there's folks making haste all one way, afore the front
6075 window. I doubt something's happened. There's niver a man to be seen
6076 i' the yard, else I'd send and see. I've been up into the top attic,
6077 but there's no seeing anything for trees. I hope nobody's hurt, that's
6078 all."
6079
6080 "Oh, no, I daresay there's nothing much the matter," said Nancy. "It's
6081 perhaps Mr. Snell's bull got out again, as he did before."
6082
6083 "I wish he mayn't gore anybody then, that's all," said Jane, not
6084 altogether despising a hypothesis which covered a few imaginary
6085 calamities.
6086
6087 "That girl is always terrifying me," thought Nancy; "I wish Godfrey
6088 would come in."
6089
6090 She went to the front window and looked as far as she could see along
6091 the road, with an uneasiness which she felt to be childish, for there
6092 were now no such signs of excitement as Jane had spoken of, and Godfrey
6093 would not be likely to return by the village road, but by the fields.
6094 She continued to stand, however, looking at the placid churchyard with
6095 the long shadows of the gravestones across the bright green hillocks,
6096 and at the glowing autumn colours of the Rectory trees beyond. Before
6097 such calm external beauty the presence of a vague fear is more
6098 distinctly felt--like a raven flapping its slow wing across the sunny
6099 air. Nancy wished more and more that Godfrey would come in.
6100
6101
6102
6103 CHAPTER XVIII
6104
6105 Some one opened the door at the other end of the room, and Nancy felt
6106 that it was her husband. She turned from the window with gladness in
6107 her eyes, for the wife's chief dread was stilled.
6108
6109 "Dear, I'm so thankful you're come," she said, going towards him. "I
6110 began to get--"
6111
6112 She paused abruptly, for Godfrey was laying down his hat with trembling
6113 hands, and turned towards her with a pale face and a strange
6114 unanswering glance, as if he saw her indeed, but saw her as part of a
6115 scene invisible to herself. She laid her hand on his arm, not daring
6116 to speak again; but he left the touch unnoticed, and threw himself into
6117 his chair.
6118
6119 Jane was already at the door with the hissing urn. "Tell her to keep
6120 away, will you?" said Godfrey; and when the door was closed again he
6121 exerted himself to speak more distinctly.
6122
6123 "Sit down, Nancy--there," he said, pointing to a chair opposite him.
6124 "I came back as soon as I could, to hinder anybody's telling you but
6125 me. I've had a great shock--but I care most about the shock it'll be
6126 to you."
6127
6128 "It isn't father and Priscilla?" said Nancy, with quivering lips,
6129 clasping her hands together tightly on her lap.
6130
6131 "No, it's nobody living," said Godfrey, unequal to the considerate
6132 skill with which he would have wished to make his revelation. "It's
6133 Dunstan--my brother Dunstan, that we lost sight of sixteen years ago.
6134 We've found him--found his body--his skeleton."
6135
6136 The deep dread Godfrey's look had created in Nancy made her feel these
6137 words a relief. She sat in comparative calmness to hear what else he
6138 had to tell. He went on:
6139
6140 "The Stone-pit has gone dry suddenly--from the draining, I suppose; and
6141 there he lies--has lain for sixteen years, wedged between two great
6142 stones. There's his watch and seals, and there's my gold-handled
6143 hunting-whip, with my name on: he took it away, without my knowing, the
6144 day he went hunting on Wildfire, the last time he was seen."
6145
6146 Godfrey paused: it was not so easy to say what came next. "Do you
6147 think he drowned himself?" said Nancy, almost wondering that her
6148 husband should be so deeply shaken by what had happened all those years
6149 ago to an unloved brother, of whom worse things had been augured.
6150
6151 "No, he fell in," said Godfrey, in a low but distinct voice, as if he
6152 felt some deep meaning in the fact. Presently he added: "Dunstan was
6153 the man that robbed Silas Marner."
6154
6155 The blood rushed to Nancy's face and neck at this surprise and shame,
6156 for she had been bred up to regard even a distant kinship with crime as
6157 a dishonour.
6158
6159 "O Godfrey!" she said, with compassion in her tone, for she had
6160 immediately reflected that the dishonour must be felt still more keenly
6161 by her husband.
6162
6163 "There was the money in the pit," he continued--"all the weaver's
6164 money. Everything's been gathered up, and they're taking the skeleton
6165 to the Rainbow. But I came back to tell you: there was no hindering
6166 it; you must know."
6167
6168 He was silent, looking on the ground for two long minutes. Nancy would
6169 have said some words of comfort under this disgrace, but she refrained,
6170 from an instinctive sense that there was something behind--that Godfrey
6171 had something else to tell her. Presently he lifted his eyes to her
6172 face, and kept them fixed on her, as he said--
6173
6174 "Everything comes to light, Nancy, sooner or later. When God Almighty
6175 wills it, our secrets are found out. I've lived with a secret on my
6176 mind, but I'll keep it from you no longer. I wouldn't have you know it
6177 by somebody else, and not by me--I wouldn't have you find it out after
6178 I'm dead. I'll tell you now. It's been "I will" and "I won't" with me
6179 all my life--I'll make sure of myself now."
6180
6181 Nancy's utmost dread had returned. The eyes of the husband and wife
6182 met with awe in them, as at a crisis which suspended affection.
6183
6184 "Nancy," said Godfrey, slowly, "when I married you, I hid something
6185 from you--something I ought to have told you. That woman Marner found
6186 dead in the snow--Eppie's mother--that wretched woman--was my wife:
6187 Eppie is my child."
6188
6189 He paused, dreading the effect of his confession. But Nancy sat quite
6190 still, only that her eyes dropped and ceased to meet his. She was pale
6191 and quiet as a meditative statue, clasping her hands on her lap.
6192
6193 "You'll never think the same of me again," said Godfrey, after a little
6194 while, with some tremor in his voice.
6195
6196 She was silent.
6197
6198 "I oughtn't to have left the child unowned: I oughtn't to have kept it
6199 from you. But I couldn't bear to give you up, Nancy. I was led away
6200 into marrying her--I suffered for it."
6201
6202 Still Nancy was silent, looking down; and he almost expected that she
6203 would presently get up and say she would go to her father's. How could
6204 she have any mercy for faults that must seem so black to her, with her
6205 simple, severe notions?
6206
6207 But at last she lifted up her eyes to his again and spoke. There was
6208 no indignation in her voice--only deep regret.
6209
6210 "Godfrey, if you had but told me this six years ago, we could have done
6211 some of our duty by the child. Do you think I'd have refused to take
6212 her in, if I'd known she was yours?"
6213
6214 At that moment Godfrey felt all the bitterness of an error that was not
6215 simply futile, but had defeated its own end. He had not measured this
6216 wife with whom he had lived so long. But she spoke again, with more
6217 agitation.
6218
6219 "And--Oh, Godfrey--if we'd had her from the first, if you'd taken to
6220 her as you ought, she'd have loved me for her mother--and you'd have
6221 been happier with me: I could better have bore my little baby dying,
6222 and our life might have been more like what we used to think it 'ud be."
6223
6224 The tears fell, and Nancy ceased to speak.
6225
6226 "But you wouldn't have married me then, Nancy, if I'd told you," said
6227 Godfrey, urged, in the bitterness of his self-reproach, to prove to
6228 himself that his conduct had not been utter folly. "You may think you
6229 would now, but you wouldn't then. With your pride and your father's,
6230 you'd have hated having anything to do with me after the talk there'd
6231 have been."
6232
6233 "I can't say what I should have done about that, Godfrey. I should
6234 never have married anybody else. But I wasn't worth doing wrong
6235 for--nothing is in this world. Nothing is so good as it seems
6236 beforehand--not even our marrying wasn't, you see." There was a faint
6237 sad smile on Nancy's face as she said the last words.
6238
6239 "I'm a worse man than you thought I was, Nancy," said Godfrey, rather
6240 tremulously. "Can you forgive me ever?"
6241
6242 "The wrong to me is but little, Godfrey: you've made it up to
6243 me--you've been good to me for fifteen years. It's another you did the
6244 wrong to; and I doubt it can never be all made up for."
6245
6246 "But we can take Eppie now," said Godfrey. "I won't mind the world
6247 knowing at last. I'll be plain and open for the rest o' my life."
6248
6249 "It'll be different coming to us, now she's grown up," said Nancy,
6250 shaking her head sadly. "But it's your duty to acknowledge her and
6251 provide for her; and I'll do my part by her, and pray to God Almighty
6252 to make her love me."
6253
6254 "Then we'll go together to Silas Marner's this very night, as soon as
6255 everything's quiet at the Stone-pits."
6256
6257
6258
6259 CHAPTER XIX
6260
6261 Between eight and nine o'clock that evening, Eppie and Silas were
6262 seated alone in the cottage. After the great excitement the weaver had
6263 undergone from the events of the afternoon, he had felt a longing for
6264 this quietude, and had even begged Mrs. Winthrop and Aaron, who had
6265 naturally lingered behind every one else, to leave him alone with his
6266 child. The excitement had not passed away: it had only reached that
6267 stage when the keenness of the susceptibility makes external stimulus
6268 intolerable--when there is no sense of weariness, but rather an
6269 intensity of inward life, under which sleep is an impossibility. Any
6270 one who has watched such moments in other men remembers the brightness
6271 of the eyes and the strange definiteness that comes over coarse
6272 features from that transient influence. It is as if a new fineness of
6273 ear for all spiritual voices had sent wonder-working vibrations through
6274 the heavy mortal frame--as if "beauty born of murmuring sound" had
6275 passed into the face of the listener.
6276
6277 Silas's face showed that sort of transfiguration, as he sat in his
6278 arm-chair and looked at Eppie. She had drawn her own chair towards his
6279 knees, and leaned forward, holding both his hands, while she looked up
6280 at him. On the table near them, lit by a candle, lay the recovered
6281 gold--the old long-loved gold, ranged in orderly heaps, as Silas used
6282 to range it in the days when it was his only joy. He had been telling
6283 her how he used to count it every night, and how his soul was utterly
6284 desolate till she was sent to him.
6285
6286 "At first, I'd a sort o' feeling come across me now and then," he was
6287 saying in a subdued tone, "as if you might be changed into the gold
6288 again; for sometimes, turn my head which way I would, I seemed to see
6289 the gold; and I thought I should be glad if I could feel it, and find
6290 it was come back. But that didn't last long. After a bit, I should
6291 have thought it was a curse come again, if it had drove you from me,
6292 for I'd got to feel the need o' your looks and your voice and the touch
6293 o' your little fingers. You didn't know then, Eppie, when you were
6294 such a little un--you didn't know what your old father Silas felt for
6295 you."
6296
6297 "But I know now, father," said Eppie. "If it hadn't been for you,
6298 they'd have taken me to the workhouse, and there'd have been nobody to
6299 love me."
6300
6301 "Eh, my precious child, the blessing was mine. If you hadn't been sent
6302 to save me, I should ha' gone to the grave in my misery. The money was
6303 taken away from me in time; and you see it's been kept--kept till it
6304 was wanted for you. It's wonderful--our life is wonderful."
6305
6306 Silas sat in silence a few minutes, looking at the money. "It takes no
6307 hold of me now," he said, ponderingly--"the money doesn't. I wonder if
6308 it ever could again--I doubt it might, if I lost you, Eppie. I might
6309 come to think I was forsaken again, and lose the feeling that God was
6310 good to me."
6311
6312 At that moment there was a knocking at the door; and Eppie was obliged
6313 to rise without answering Silas. Beautiful she looked, with the
6314 tenderness of gathering tears in her eyes and a slight flush on her
6315 cheeks, as she stepped to open the door. The flush deepened when she
6316 saw Mr. and Mrs. Godfrey Cass. She made her little rustic curtsy, and
6317 held the door wide for them to enter.
6318
6319 "We're disturbing you very late, my dear," said Mrs. Cass, taking
6320 Eppie's hand, and looking in her face with an expression of anxious
6321 interest and admiration. Nancy herself was pale and tremulous.
6322
6323 Eppie, after placing chairs for Mr. and Mrs. Cass, went to stand
6324 against Silas, opposite to them.
6325
6326 "Well, Marner," said Godfrey, trying to speak with perfect firmness,
6327 "it's a great comfort to me to see you with your money again, that
6328 you've been deprived of so many years. It was one of my family did you
6329 the wrong--the more grief to me--and I feel bound to make up to you for
6330 it in every way. Whatever I can do for you will be nothing but paying
6331 a debt, even if I looked no further than the robbery. But there are
6332 other things I'm beholden--shall be beholden to you for, Marner."
6333
6334 Godfrey checked himself. It had been agreed between him and his wife
6335 that the subject of his fatherhood should be approached very carefully,
6336 and that, if possible, the disclosure should be reserved for the
6337 future, so that it might be made to Eppie gradually. Nancy had urged
6338 this, because she felt strongly the painful light in which Eppie must
6339 inevitably see the relation between her father and mother.
6340
6341 Silas, always ill at ease when he was being spoken to by "betters",
6342 such as Mr. Cass--tall, powerful, florid men, seen chiefly on
6343 horseback--answered with some constraint--
6344
6345 "Sir, I've a deal to thank you for a'ready. As for the robbery, I
6346 count it no loss to me. And if I did, you couldn't help it: you aren't
6347 answerable for it."
6348
6349 "You may look at it in that way, Marner, but I never can; and I hope
6350 you'll let me act according to my own feeling of what's just. I know
6351 you're easily contented: you've been a hard-working man all your life."
6352
6353 "Yes, sir, yes," said Marner, meditatively. "I should ha' been bad off
6354 without my work: it was what I held by when everything else was gone
6355 from me."
6356
6357 "Ah," said Godfrey, applying Marner's words simply to his bodily wants,
6358 "it was a good trade for you in this country, because there's been a
6359 great deal of linen-weaving to be done. But you're getting rather past
6360 such close work, Marner: it's time you laid by and had some rest. You
6361 look a good deal pulled down, though you're not an old man, _are_ you?"
6362
6363 "Fifty-five, as near as I can say, sir," said Silas.
6364
6365 "Oh, why, you may live thirty years longer--look at old Macey! And that
6366 money on the table, after all, is but little. It won't go far either
6367 way--whether it's put out to interest, or you were to live on it as
6368 long as it would last: it wouldn't go far if you'd nobody to keep but
6369 yourself, and you've had two to keep for a good many years now."
6370
6371 "Eh, sir," said Silas, unaffected by anything Godfrey was saying, "I'm
6372 in no fear o' want. We shall do very well--Eppie and me 'ull do well
6373 enough. There's few working-folks have got so much laid by as that. I
6374 don't know what it is to gentlefolks, but I look upon it as a
6375 deal--almost too much. And as for us, it's little we want."
6376
6377 "Only the garden, father," said Eppie, blushing up to the ears the
6378 moment after.
6379
6380 "You love a garden, do you, my dear?" said Nancy, thinking that this
6381 turn in the point of view might help her husband. "We should agree in
6382 that: I give a deal of time to the garden."
6383
6384 "Ah, there's plenty of gardening at the Red House," said Godfrey,
6385 surprised at the difficulty he found in approaching a proposition which
6386 had seemed so easy to him in the distance. "You've done a good part by
6387 Eppie, Marner, for sixteen years. It 'ud be a great comfort to you to
6388 see her well provided for, wouldn't it? She looks blooming and
6389 healthy, but not fit for any hardships: she doesn't look like a
6390 strapping girl come of working parents. You'd like to see her taken
6391 care of by those who can leave her well off, and make a lady of her;
6392 she's more fit for it than for a rough life, such as she might come to
6393 have in a few years' time."
6394
6395 A slight flush came over Marner's face, and disappeared, like a passing
6396 gleam. Eppie was simply wondering Mr. Cass should talk so about things
6397 that seemed to have nothing to do with reality; but Silas was hurt and
6398 uneasy.
6399
6400 "I don't take your meaning, sir," he answered, not having words at
6401 command to express the mingled feelings with which he had heard Mr.
6402 Cass's words.
6403
6404 "Well, my meaning is this, Marner," said Godfrey, determined to come to
6405 the point. "Mrs. Cass and I, you know, have no children--nobody to
6406 benefit by our good home and everything else we have--more than enough
6407 for ourselves. And we should like to have somebody in the place of a
6408 daughter to us--we should like to have Eppie, and treat her in every
6409 way as our own child. It 'ud be a great comfort to you in your old
6410 age, I hope, to see her fortune made in that way, after you've been at
6411 the trouble of bringing her up so well. And it's right you should have
6412 every reward for that. And Eppie, I'm sure, will always love you and
6413 be grateful to you: she'd come and see you very often, and we should
6414 all be on the look-out to do everything we could towards making you
6415 comfortable."
6416
6417 A plain man like Godfrey Cass, speaking under some embarrassment,
6418 necessarily blunders on words that are coarser than his intentions, and
6419 that are likely to fall gratingly on susceptible feelings. While he had
6420 been speaking, Eppie had quietly passed her arm behind Silas's head,
6421 and let her hand rest against it caressingly: she felt him trembling
6422 violently. He was silent for some moments when Mr. Cass had
6423 ended--powerless under the conflict of emotions, all alike painful.
6424 Eppie's heart was swelling at the sense that her father was in
6425 distress; and she was just going to lean down and speak to him, when
6426 one struggling dread at last gained the mastery over every other in
6427 Silas, and he said, faintly--
6428
6429 "Eppie, my child, speak. I won't stand in your way. Thank Mr. and
6430 Mrs. Cass."
6431
6432 Eppie took her hand from her father's head, and came forward a step.
6433 Her cheeks were flushed, but not with shyness this time: the sense that
6434 her father was in doubt and suffering banished that sort of
6435 self-consciousness. She dropped a low curtsy, first to Mrs. Cass and
6436 then to Mr. Cass, and said--
6437
6438 "Thank you, ma'am--thank you, sir. But I can't leave my father, nor
6439 own anybody nearer than him. And I don't want to be a lady--thank you
6440 all the same" (here Eppie dropped another curtsy). "I couldn't give up
6441 the folks I've been used to."
6442
6443 Eppie's lips began to tremble a little at the last words. She
6444 retreated to her father's chair again, and held him round the neck:
6445 while Silas, with a subdued sob, put up his hand to grasp hers.
6446
6447 The tears were in Nancy's eyes, but her sympathy with Eppie was,
6448 naturally, divided with distress on her husband's account. She dared
6449 not speak, wondering what was going on in her husband's mind.
6450
6451 Godfrey felt an irritation inevitable to almost all of us when we
6452 encounter an unexpected obstacle. He had been full of his own
6453 penitence and resolution to retrieve his error as far as the time was
6454 left to him; he was possessed with all-important feelings, that were to
6455 lead to a predetermined course of action which he had fixed on as the
6456 right, and he was not prepared to enter with lively appreciation into
6457 other people's feelings counteracting his virtuous resolves. The
6458 agitation with which he spoke again was not quite unmixed with anger.
6459
6460 "But I've a claim on you, Eppie--the strongest of all claims. It's my
6461 duty, Marner, to own Eppie as my child, and provide for her. She is my
6462 own child--her mother was my wife. I've a natural claim on her that
6463 must stand before every other."
6464
6465 Eppie had given a violent start, and turned quite pale. Silas, on the
6466 contrary, who had been relieved, by Eppie's answer, from the dread lest
6467 his mind should be in opposition to hers, felt the spirit of resistance
6468 in him set free, not without a touch of parental fierceness. "Then,
6469 sir," he answered, with an accent of bitterness that had been silent in
6470 him since the memorable day when his youthful hope had perished--"then,
6471 sir, why didn't you say so sixteen year ago, and claim her before I'd
6472 come to love her, i'stead o' coming to take her from me now, when you
6473 might as well take the heart out o' my body? God gave her to me
6474 because you turned your back upon her, and He looks upon her as mine:
6475 you've no right to her! When a man turns a blessing from his door, it
6476 falls to them as take it in."
6477
6478 "I know that, Marner. I was wrong. I've repented of my conduct in
6479 that matter," said Godfrey, who could not help feeling the edge of
6480 Silas's words.
6481
6482 "I'm glad to hear it, sir," said Marner, with gathering excitement;
6483 "but repentance doesn't alter what's been going on for sixteen year.
6484 Your coming now and saying "I'm her father" doesn't alter the feelings
6485 inside us. It's me she's been calling her father ever since she could
6486 say the word."
6487
6488 "But I think you might look at the thing more reasonably, Marner," said
6489 Godfrey, unexpectedly awed by the weaver's direct truth-speaking. "It
6490 isn't as if she was to be taken quite away from you, so that you'd
6491 never see her again. She'll be very near you, and come to see you very
6492 often. She'll feel just the same towards you."
6493
6494 "Just the same?" said Marner, more bitterly than ever. "How'll she
6495 feel just the same for me as she does now, when we eat o' the same bit,
6496 and drink o' the same cup, and think o' the same things from one day's
6497 end to another? Just the same? that's idle talk. You'd cut us i' two."
6498
6499 Godfrey, unqualified by experience to discern the pregnancy of Marner's
6500 simple words, felt rather angry again. It seemed to him that the
6501 weaver was very selfish (a judgment readily passed by those who have
6502 never tested their own power of sacrifice) to oppose what was
6503 undoubtedly for Eppie's welfare; and he felt himself called upon, for
6504 her sake, to assert his authority.
6505
6506 "I should have thought, Marner," he said, severely--"I should have
6507 thought your affection for Eppie would make you rejoice in what was for
6508 her good, even if it did call upon you to give up something. You ought
6509 to remember your own life's uncertain, and she's at an age now when her
6510 lot may soon be fixed in a way very different from what it would be in
6511 her father's home: she may marry some low working-man, and then,
6512 whatever I might do for her, I couldn't make her well-off. You're
6513 putting yourself in the way of her welfare; and though I'm sorry to
6514 hurt you after what you've done, and what I've left undone, I feel now
6515 it's my duty to insist on taking care of my own daughter. I want to do
6516 my duty."
6517
6518 It would be difficult to say whether it were Silas or Eppie that was
6519 more deeply stirred by this last speech of Godfrey's. Thought had been
6520 very busy in Eppie as she listened to the contest between her old
6521 long-loved father and this new unfamiliar father who had suddenly come
6522 to fill the place of that black featureless shadow which had held the
6523 ring and placed it on her mother's finger. Her imagination had darted
6524 backward in conjectures, and forward in previsions, of what this
6525 revealed fatherhood implied; and there were words in Godfrey's last
6526 speech which helped to make the previsions especially definite. Not
6527 that these thoughts, either of past or future, determined her
6528 resolution--_that_ was determined by the feelings which vibrated to
6529 every word Silas had uttered; but they raised, even apart from these
6530 feelings, a repulsion towards the offered lot and the newly-revealed
6531 father.
6532
6533 Silas, on the other hand, was again stricken in conscience, and alarmed
6534 lest Godfrey's accusation should be true--lest he should be raising his
6535 own will as an obstacle to Eppie's good. For many moments he was mute,
6536 struggling for the self-conquest necessary to the uttering of the
6537 difficult words. They came out tremulously.
6538
6539 "I'll say no more. Let it be as you will. Speak to the child. I'll
6540 hinder nothing."
6541
6542 Even Nancy, with all the acute sensibility of her own affections,
6543 shared her husband's view, that Marner was not justifiable in his wish
6544 to retain Eppie, after her real father had avowed himself. She felt
6545 that it was a very hard trial for the poor weaver, but her code allowed
6546 no question that a father by blood must have a claim above that of any
6547 foster-father. Besides, Nancy, used all her life to plenteous
6548 circumstances and the privileges of "respectability", could not enter
6549 into the pleasures which early nurture and habit connect with all the
6550 little aims and efforts of the poor who are born poor: to her mind,
6551 Eppie, in being restored to her birthright, was entering on a too long
6552 withheld but unquestionable good. Hence she heard Silas's last words
6553 with relief, and thought, as Godfrey did, that their wish was achieved.
6554
6555 "Eppie, my dear," said Godfrey, looking at his daughter, not without
6556 some embarrassment, under the sense that she was old enough to judge
6557 him, "it'll always be our wish that you should show your love and
6558 gratitude to one who's been a father to you so many years, and we shall
6559 want to help you to make him comfortable in every way. But we hope
6560 you'll come to love us as well; and though I haven't been what a father
6561 should ha' been to you all these years, I wish to do the utmost in my
6562 power for you for the rest of my life, and provide for you as my only
6563 child. And you'll have the best of mothers in my wife--that'll be a
6564 blessing you haven't known since you were old enough to know it."
6565
6566 "My dear, you'll be a treasure to me," said Nancy, in her gentle voice.
6567 "We shall want for nothing when we have our daughter."
6568
6569 Eppie did not come forward and curtsy, as she had done before. She
6570 held Silas's hand in hers, and grasped it firmly--it was a weaver's
6571 hand, with a palm and finger-tips that were sensitive to such
6572 pressure--while she spoke with colder decision than before.
6573
6574 "Thank you, ma'am--thank you, sir, for your offers--they're very great,
6575 and far above my wish. For I should have no delight i' life any more
6576 if I was forced to go away from my father, and knew he was sitting at
6577 home, a-thinking of me and feeling lone. We've been used to be happy
6578 together every day, and I can't think o' no happiness without him. And
6579 he says he'd nobody i' the world till I was sent to him, and he'd have
6580 nothing when I was gone. And he's took care of me and loved me from
6581 the first, and I'll cleave to him as long as he lives, and nobody shall
6582 ever come between him and me."
6583
6584 "But you must make sure, Eppie," said Silas, in a low voice--"you must
6585 make sure as you won't ever be sorry, because you've made your choice
6586 to stay among poor folks, and with poor clothes and things, when you
6587 might ha' had everything o' the best."
6588
6589 His sensitiveness on this point had increased as he listened to Eppie's
6590 words of faithful affection.
6591
6592 "I can never be sorry, father," said Eppie. "I shouldn't know what to
6593 think on or to wish for with fine things about me, as I haven't been
6594 used to. And it 'ud be poor work for me to put on things, and ride in
6595 a gig, and sit in a place at church, as 'ud make them as I'm fond of
6596 think me unfitting company for 'em. What could _I_ care for then?"
6597
6598 Nancy looked at Godfrey with a pained questioning glance. But his eyes
6599 were fixed on the floor, where he was moving the end of his stick, as
6600 if he were pondering on something absently. She thought there was a
6601 word which might perhaps come better from her lips than from his.
6602
6603 "What you say is natural, my dear child--it's natural you should cling
6604 to those who've brought you up," she said, mildly; "but there's a duty
6605 you owe to your lawful father. There's perhaps something to be given
6606 up on more sides than one. When your father opens his home to you, I
6607 think it's right you shouldn't turn your back on it."
6608
6609 "I can't feel as I've got any father but one," said Eppie, impetuously,
6610 while the tears gathered. "I've always thought of a little home where
6611 he'd sit i' the corner, and I should fend and do everything for him: I
6612 can't think o' no other home. I wasn't brought up to be a lady, and I
6613 can't turn my mind to it. I like the working-folks, and their
6614 victuals, and their ways. And," she ended passionately, while the
6615 tears fell, "I'm promised to marry a working-man, as'll live with
6616 father, and help me to take care of him."
6617
6618 Godfrey looked up at Nancy with a flushed face and smarting dilated
6619 eyes. This frustration of a purpose towards which he had set out under
6620 the exalted consciousness that he was about to compensate in some
6621 degree for the greatest demerit of his life, made him feel the air of
6622 the room stifling.
6623
6624 "Let us go," he said, in an under-tone.
6625
6626 "We won't talk of this any longer now," said Nancy, rising. "We're your
6627 well-wishers, my dear--and yours too, Marner. We shall come and see
6628 you again. It's getting late now."
6629
6630 In this way she covered her husband's abrupt departure, for Godfrey had
6631 gone straight to the door, unable to say more.
6632
6633
6634
6635 CHAPTER XX
6636
6637 Nancy and Godfrey walked home under the starlight in silence. When
6638 they entered the oaken parlour, Godfrey threw himself into his chair,
6639 while Nancy laid down her bonnet and shawl, and stood on the hearth
6640 near her husband, unwilling to leave him even for a few minutes, and
6641 yet fearing to utter any word lest it might jar on his feeling. At
6642 last Godfrey turned his head towards her, and their eyes met, dwelling
6643 in that meeting without any movement on either side. That quiet mutual
6644 gaze of a trusting husband and wife is like the first moment of rest or
6645 refuge from a great weariness or a great danger--not to be interfered
6646 with by speech or action which would distract the sensations from the
6647 fresh enjoyment of repose.
6648
6649 But presently he put out his hand, and as Nancy placed hers within it,
6650 he drew her towards him, and said--
6651
6652 "That's ended!"
6653
6654 She bent to kiss him, and then said, as she stood by his side, "Yes,
6655 I'm afraid we must give up the hope of having her for a daughter. It
6656 wouldn't be right to want to force her to come to us against her will.
6657 We can't alter her bringing up and what's come of it."
6658
6659 "No," said Godfrey, with a keen decisiveness of tone, in contrast with
6660 his usually careless and unemphatic speech--"there's debts we can't pay
6661 like money debts, by paying extra for the years that have slipped by.
6662 While I've been putting off and putting off, the trees have been
6663 growing--it's too late now. Marner was in the right in what he said
6664 about a man's turning away a blessing from his door: it falls to
6665 somebody else. I wanted to pass for childless once, Nancy--I shall
6666 pass for childless now against my wish."
6667
6668 Nancy did not speak immediately, but after a little while she
6669 asked--"You won't make it known, then, about Eppie's being your
6670 daughter?"
6671
6672 "No: where would be the good to anybody?--only harm. I must do what I
6673 can for her in the state of life she chooses. I must see who it is
6674 she's thinking of marrying."
6675
6676 "If it won't do any good to make the thing known," said Nancy, who
6677 thought she might now allow herself the relief of entertaining a
6678 feeling which she had tried to silence before, "I should be very
6679 thankful for father and Priscilla never to be troubled with knowing
6680 what was done in the past, more than about Dunsey: it can't be helped,
6681 their knowing that."
6682
6683 "I shall put it in my will--I think I shall put it in my will. I
6684 shouldn't like to leave anything to be found out, like this of Dunsey,"
6685 said Godfrey, meditatively. "But I can't see anything but difficulties
6686 that 'ud come from telling it now. I must do what I can to make her
6687 happy in her own way. I've a notion," he added, after a moment's
6688 pause, "it's Aaron Winthrop she meant she was engaged to. I remember
6689 seeing him with her and Marner going away from church."
6690
6691 "Well, he's very sober and industrious," said Nancy, trying to view the
6692 matter as cheerfully as possible.
6693
6694 Godfrey fell into thoughtfulness again. Presently he looked up at
6695 Nancy sorrowfully, and said--
6696
6697 "She's a very pretty, nice girl, isn't she, Nancy?"
6698
6699 "Yes, dear; and with just your hair and eyes: I wondered it had never
6700 struck me before."
6701
6702 "I think she took a dislike to me at the thought of my being her
6703 father: I could see a change in her manner after that."
6704
6705 "She couldn't bear to think of not looking on Marner as her father,"
6706 said Nancy, not wishing to confirm her husband's painful impression.
6707
6708 "She thinks I did wrong by her mother as well as by her. She thinks me
6709 worse than I am. But she _must_ think it: she can never know all.
6710 It's part of my punishment, Nancy, for my daughter to dislike me. I
6711 should never have got into that trouble if I'd been true to you--if I
6712 hadn't been a fool. I'd no right to expect anything but evil could
6713 come of that marriage--and when I shirked doing a father's part too."
6714
6715 Nancy was silent: her spirit of rectitude would not let her try to
6716 soften the edge of what she felt to be a just compunction. He spoke
6717 again after a little while, but the tone was rather changed: there was
6718 tenderness mingled with the previous self-reproach.
6719
6720 "And I got _you_, Nancy, in spite of all; and yet I've been grumbling
6721 and uneasy because I hadn't something else--as if I deserved it."
6722
6723 "You've never been wanting to me, Godfrey," said Nancy, with quiet
6724 sincerity. "My only trouble would be gone if you resigned yourself to
6725 the lot that's been given us."
6726
6727 "Well, perhaps it isn't too late to mend a bit there. Though it _is_
6728 too late to mend some things, say what they will."
6729
6730
6731
6732 CHAPTER XXI
6733
6734 The next morning, when Silas and Eppie were seated at their breakfast,
6735 he said to her--
6736
6737 "Eppie, there's a thing I've had on my mind to do this two year, and
6738 now the money's been brought back to us, we can do it. I've been
6739 turning it over and over in the night, and I think we'll set out
6740 to-morrow, while the fine days last. We'll leave the house and
6741 everything for your godmother to take care on, and we'll make a little
6742 bundle o' things and set out."
6743
6744 "Where to go, daddy?" said Eppie, in much surprise.
6745
6746 "To my old country--to the town where I was born--up Lantern Yard. I
6747 want to see Mr. Paston, the minister: something may ha' come out to
6748 make 'em know I was innicent o' the robbery. And Mr. Paston was a man
6749 with a deal o' light--I want to speak to him about the drawing o' the
6750 lots. And I should like to talk to him about the religion o' this
6751 country-side, for I partly think he doesn't know on it."
6752
6753 Eppie was very joyful, for there was the prospect not only of wonder
6754 and delight at seeing a strange country, but also of coming back to
6755 tell Aaron all about it. Aaron was so much wiser than she was about
6756 most things--it would be rather pleasant to have this little advantage
6757 over him. Mrs. Winthrop, though possessed with a dim fear of dangers
6758 attendant on so long a journey, and requiring many assurances that it
6759 would not take them out of the region of carriers' carts and slow
6760 waggons, was nevertheless well pleased that Silas should revisit his
6761 own country, and find out if he had been cleared from that false
6762 accusation.
6763
6764 "You'd be easier in your mind for the rest o' your life, Master
6765 Marner," said Dolly--"that you would. And if there's any light to be
6766 got up the yard as you talk on, we've need of it i' this world, and I'd
6767 be glad on it myself, if you could bring it back."
6768
6769 So on the fourth day from that time, Silas and Eppie, in their Sunday
6770 clothes, with a small bundle tied in a blue linen handkerchief, were
6771 making their way through the streets of a great manufacturing town.
6772 Silas, bewildered by the changes thirty years had brought over his
6773 native place, had stopped several persons in succession to ask them the
6774 name of this town, that he might be sure he was not under a mistake
6775 about it.
6776
6777 "Ask for Lantern Yard, father--ask this gentleman with the tassels on
6778 his shoulders a-standing at the shop door; he isn't in a hurry like the
6779 rest," said Eppie, in some distress at her father's bewilderment, and
6780 ill at ease, besides, amidst the noise, the movement, and the multitude
6781 of strange indifferent faces.
6782
6783 "Eh, my child, he won't know anything about it," said Silas;
6784 "gentlefolks didn't ever go up the Yard. But happen somebody can tell
6785 me which is the way to Prison Street, where the jail is. I know the way
6786 out o' that as if I'd seen it yesterday."
6787
6788 With some difficulty, after many turnings and new inquiries, they
6789 reached Prison Street; and the grim walls of the jail, the first object
6790 that answered to any image in Silas's memory, cheered him with the
6791 certitude, which no assurance of the town's name had hitherto given
6792 him, that he was in his native place.
6793
6794 "Ah," he said, drawing a long breath, "there's the jail, Eppie; that's
6795 just the same: I aren't afraid now. It's the third turning on the left
6796 hand from the jail doors--that's the way we must go."
6797
6798 "Oh, what a dark ugly place!" said Eppie. "How it hides the sky!
6799 It's worse than the Workhouse. I'm glad you don't live in this town
6800 now, father. Is Lantern Yard like this street?"
6801
6802 "My precious child," said Silas, smiling, "it isn't a big street like
6803 this. I never was easy i' this street myself, but I was fond o'
6804 Lantern Yard. The shops here are all altered, I think--I can't make
6805 'em out; but I shall know the turning, because it's the third."
6806
6807 "Here it is," he said, in a tone of satisfaction, as they came to a
6808 narrow alley. "And then we must go to the left again, and then
6809 straight for'ard for a bit, up Shoe Lane: and then we shall be at the
6810 entry next to the o'erhanging window, where there's the nick in the
6811 road for the water to run. Eh, I can see it all."
6812
6813 "O father, I'm like as if I was stifled," said Eppie. "I couldn't ha'
6814 thought as any folks lived i' this way, so close together. How pretty
6815 the Stone-pits 'ull look when we get back!"
6816
6817 "It looks comical to _me_, child, now--and smells bad. I can't think
6818 as it usened to smell so."
6819
6820 Here and there a sallow, begrimed face looked out from a gloomy doorway
6821 at the strangers, and increased Eppie's uneasiness, so that it was a
6822 longed-for relief when they issued from the alleys into Shoe Lane,
6823 where there was a broader strip of sky.
6824
6825 "Dear heart!" said Silas, "why, there's people coming out o' the Yard
6826 as if they'd been to chapel at this time o' day--a weekday noon!"
6827
6828 Suddenly he started and stood still with a look of distressed
6829 amazement, that alarmed Eppie. They were before an opening in front of
6830 a large factory, from which men and women were streaming for their
6831 midday meal.
6832
6833 "Father," said Eppie, clasping his arm, "what's the matter?"
6834
6835 But she had to speak again and again before Silas could answer her.
6836
6837 "It's gone, child," he said, at last, in strong agitation--"Lantern
6838 Yard's gone. It must ha' been here, because here's the house with the
6839 o'erhanging window--I know that--it's just the same; but they've made
6840 this new opening; and see that big factory! It's all gone--chapel and
6841 all."
6842
6843 "Come into that little brush-shop and sit down, father--they'll let you
6844 sit down," said Eppie, always on the watch lest one of her father's
6845 strange attacks should come on. "Perhaps the people can tell you all
6846 about it."
6847
6848 But neither from the brush-maker, who had come to Shoe Lane only ten
6849 years ago, when the factory was already built, nor from any other
6850 source within his reach, could Silas learn anything of the old Lantern
6851 Yard friends, or of Mr. Paston the minister.
6852
6853 "The old place is all swep' away," Silas said to Dolly Winthrop on the
6854 night of his return--"the little graveyard and everything. The old
6855 home's gone; I've no home but this now. I shall never know whether
6856 they got at the truth o' the robbery, nor whether Mr. Paston could ha'
6857 given me any light about the drawing o' the lots. It's dark to me,
6858 Mrs. Winthrop, that is; I doubt it'll be dark to the last."
6859
6860 "Well, yes, Master Marner," said Dolly, who sat with a placid listening
6861 face, now bordered by grey hairs; "I doubt it may. It's the will o'
6862 Them above as a many things should be dark to us; but there's some
6863 things as I've never felt i' the dark about, and they're mostly what
6864 comes i' the day's work. You were hard done by that once, Master
6865 Marner, and it seems as you'll never know the rights of it; but that
6866 doesn't hinder there _being_ a rights, Master Marner, for all it's dark
6867 to you and me."
6868
6869 "No," said Silas, "no; that doesn't hinder. Since the time the child
6870 was sent to me and I've come to love her as myself, I've had light
6871 enough to trusten by; and now she says she'll never leave me, I think I
6872 shall trusten till I die."
6873
6874
6875
6876 CONCLUSION.
6877
6878 There was one time of the year which was held in Raveloe to be
6879 especially suitable for a wedding. It was when the great lilacs and
6880 laburnums in the old-fashioned gardens showed their golden and purple
6881 wealth above the lichen-tinted walls, and when there were calves still
6882 young enough to want bucketfuls of fragrant milk. People were not so
6883 busy then as they must become when the full cheese-making and the
6884 mowing had set in; and besides, it was a time when a light bridal dress
6885 could be worn with comfort and seen to advantage.
6886
6887 Happily the sunshine fell more warmly than usual on the lilac tufts the
6888 morning that Eppie was married, for her dress was a very light one.
6889 She had often thought, though with a feeling of renunciation, that the
6890 perfection of a wedding-dress would be a white cotton, with the tiniest
6891 pink sprig at wide intervals; so that when Mrs. Godfrey Cass begged to
6892 provide one, and asked Eppie to choose what it should be, previous
6893 meditation had enabled her to give a decided answer at once.
6894
6895 Seen at a little distance as she walked across the churchyard and down
6896 the village, she seemed to be attired in pure white, and her hair
6897 looked like the dash of gold on a lily. One hand was on her husband's
6898 arm, and with the other she clasped the hand of her father Silas.
6899
6900 "You won't be giving me away, father," she had said before they went to
6901 church; "you'll only be taking Aaron to be a son to you."
6902
6903 Dolly Winthrop walked behind with her husband; and there ended the
6904 little bridal procession.
6905
6906 There were many eyes to look at it, and Miss Priscilla Lammeter was
6907 glad that she and her father had happened to drive up to the door of
6908 the Red House just in time to see this pretty sight. They had come to
6909 keep Nancy company to-day, because Mr. Cass had had to go away to
6910 Lytherley, for special reasons. That seemed to be a pity, for
6911 otherwise he might have gone, as Mr. Crackenthorp and Mr. Osgood
6912 certainly would, to look on at the wedding-feast which he had ordered
6913 at the Rainbow, naturally feeling a great interest in the weaver who
6914 had been wronged by one of his own family.
6915
6916 "I could ha' wished Nancy had had the luck to find a child like that
6917 and bring her up," said Priscilla to her father, as they sat in the
6918 gig; "I should ha' had something young to think of then, besides the
6919 lambs and the calves."
6920
6921 "Yes, my dear, yes," said Mr. Lammeter; "one feels that as one gets
6922 older. Things look dim to old folks: they'd need have some young eyes
6923 about 'em, to let 'em know the world's the same as it used to be."
6924
6925 Nancy came out now to welcome her father and sister; and the wedding
6926 group had passed on beyond the Red House to the humbler part of the
6927 village.
6928
6929 Dolly Winthrop was the first to divine that old Mr. Macey, who had been
6930 set in his arm-chair outside his own door, would expect some special
6931 notice as they passed, since he was too old to be at the wedding-feast.
6932
6933 "Mr. Macey's looking for a word from us," said Dolly; "he'll be hurt if
6934 we pass him and say nothing--and him so racked with rheumatiz."
6935
6936 So they turned aside to shake hands with the old man. He had looked
6937 forward to the occasion, and had his premeditated speech.
6938
6939 "Well, Master Marner," he said, in a voice that quavered a good deal,
6940 "I've lived to see my words come true. I was the first to say there
6941 was no harm in you, though your looks might be again' you; and I was
6942 the first to say you'd get your money back. And it's nothing but
6943 rightful as you should. And I'd ha' said the "Amens", and willing, at
6944 the holy matrimony; but Tookey's done it a good while now, and I hope
6945 you'll have none the worse luck."
6946
6947 In the open yard before the Rainbow the party of guests were already
6948 assembled, though it was still nearly an hour before the appointed
6949 feast time. But by this means they could not only enjoy the slow
6950 advent of their pleasure; they had also ample leisure to talk of Silas
6951 Marner's strange history, and arrive by due degrees at the conclusion
6952 that he had brought a blessing on himself by acting like a father to a
6953 lone motherless child. Even the farrier did not negative this
6954 sentiment: on the contrary, he took it up as peculiarly his own, and
6955 invited any hardy person present to contradict him. But he met with no
6956 contradiction; and all differences among the company were merged in a
6957 general agreement with Mr. Snell's sentiment, that when a man had
6958 deserved his good luck, it was the part of his neighbours to wish him
6959 joy.
6960
6961 As the bridal group approached, a hearty cheer was raised in the
6962 Rainbow yard; and Ben Winthrop, whose jokes had retained their
6963 acceptable flavour, found it agreeable to turn in there and receive
6964 congratulations; not requiring the proposed interval of quiet at the
6965 Stone-pits before joining the company.
6966
6967 Eppie had a larger garden than she had ever expected there now; and in
6968 other ways there had been alterations at the expense of Mr. Cass, the
6969 landlord, to suit Silas's larger family. For he and Eppie had declared
6970 that they would rather stay at the Stone-pits than go to any new home.
6971 The garden was fenced with stones on two sides, but in front there was
6972 an open fence, through which the flowers shone with answering gladness,
6973 as the four united people came within sight of them.
6974
6975 "O father," said Eppie, "what a pretty home ours is! I think nobody
6976 could be happier than we are."